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writers-potion · 2 months

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Don't Fear Criticism

Creating homosexual characters can feel like planting an active grenade in the middle of your story. You start to fear bad reception of your work - even before you start!

But really, there is no need to worry. The fact that you're concerned only proves that you care.

You probably won't get it the first time.

You probably will get some criticism.

Only remember that it's perfectly normal to make mistakes. After you punch out your draft, have beta readers who are part of the community and incorporate their feedback.

No Diversity Shopping

Yes, diversity is important, but it's no checklist where you need to list all possible sexual orientations and have at least one character for each.

First of all, it would be quite impossible.

Second, that is likely to make all of them underdeveloped and stereotypical.

Check if you really need the character in your plot.

If they turn out to be homosexual, let them run their own course and shape their path. If your story's theme is related to the character's sexuality, think about the message you want to convey.

Quality over quantity, always.

Go Beyond Sexuality

Your characters exist, and they happen to be homosexual, not the other way around. This doesn't mean that it won't be an important, or that you should downplay their sexuality.

Strike a balance by showing readers their hobbies, interests, likes and dislikes, relationships with their family and friends, etc. The more holistic they are, readers are going to be convinced that you have an actual character, not a scarecrow holding up the #diversity tag.

How do their sexuality play into their broader narrative?

Develop a Backstory

Every homosexual character must have thought about their orientation and identity, with a process of how they came to recognize their sexuality.

Whether you're character is a confused teenage girl, or a middle-aged gentleman with a stable relationship, think about what brought them here.

Backstories don't have to be tragic. They can have supportive parents and find escapism in online communities who accept them for who they are.

There isn't just one "gay life". Get creative.

Normalization is Important

Sometimes, your story world will not accept homosexual people as normal. That's okay!

However, there is a difference between other character treating them unfairly and you as an author normalizing homophobia in your narrative.

Word choice and tone would play a key role.

When a likeable character is homophobic, avoid normalizing it by making it a flaw. Show that your conservative medieval village is narrow-minded when they treat them as outcasts.

Homophobes may not necessarily be the evil guys.

It's enough to state (clearly) that it's wrong.

Make Use of Tropes

Stereotypes aren't just an issue with gay characters, but when used successfully, have created wonderful retellings and spinoffs that are refreshing.

You can purposefully overplay stereotypes to show how silly they are. Deconstructing stereotypes can add humor to your narrative.

You can also use them to explore the expectations that readers have for those kinds of characters. The Gay Best Friend might be a trope, but you can get them to go deeper than the typical sidekick to realize their true potential as a cast member.

Religion and Homosexuality

In the real world, religion and homosexuality are often presented on far opposites of politics, and that makes me sad. Homosexual characters are free to be religious, find peace, support and mindfulness through any religion of their choice.

Vise versa, deeply religious characters can have wonderful relationships with homosexual characters.

It all comes down to how your characters interpret religion and homosexuality in light of those religious values. Though I'm an atheist, I believe all religions have the ability to embrace diversity at their core.

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norris-lando · 8 months

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it's time to go / social media au

max verstappen x singer!reader

summary: in which rumors spread about max cheating on you but thankfully, there's a knight in a shining red armor waiting for you

faceclaim: sabrina carpenter

author's note: this is my first time doing a social media au, so please go easy on me 😭 nevertheless, i hope you guys enjoy! also, i'm going to doing more parts to this :)

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f1updates: Max Verstappen and singer-songwriter Y/N Y/L/N have called it quits after almost 2 years of dating. Sources close to the couple have commented the breakup saying, 'apparently there was some sort of infidelity involved.' The couple have yet to confirm these rumours, but what do you guys think? Check the link in our bio for more information regarding the situation.

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user1: noooo mom and dad 😭

user2: i'm denial, ain't no way one of them cheated wtf

user3: say sike right now ☺️

user4: it's okay guys mom and dad are just being silly 🥰🥰🥰 it's fine 🥰🥰

user5: i mean if the cheating thing is true, i'm sure we all know who cheated on who

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y/n.insta: how long will it be cute, all this crying in my room 🎼

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user1: mother noooo 😭

user2: it's okay max ☺️ i just wanna talk ☺️🔪

user3: i didn't wanna believe it but looks like the streets were right this time 😪

user4: i'm so lost, what happened??

user3: apparently m*x cheated on y/n

user4: wtf nooo they were my endgame 😭

user5: charles what are you doing here

user3: lmaoo chill they're friends

user6: it's okay bby i can go vroom vroom in circles too and i promise i won't cheat

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y/n.insta: they say write about what you know so i wrote about heartbreak. it's time to go out now on all streaming platforms!

btw, had a BLAST in LA this last weekend. thank you so much for all the support, i love you guys 💖 next stop ➡️ miami

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user1: can't wait to see you in miami!! ♥️

user3: 15 years 😭 15 million tears 😭 begging till my knees bled 😭 i gave it my all 😭 he gave me nothing 😭 at 😭 all 😭 tHEN WONDERED WHY I LEFT 😭

user2: @/maxverstappen1 been awfully quiet since the queen dropped it's time to go 🤔

user1: not the tag lmaoooo 🤣

user6: okay can we pls talk about the fact that cHARLES is back in y/n's likes???

user5: i admire to be this delulu

user8: still feels so weird not the see max in the likes and comments

user11: i know right?? we get it, it was a good joke hahaha i'm laughing now pls can we stop this

user9: i think you dropped this 👑

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maxverstappen1: Simply... Lovely. What a great weekend again 🏆 Miami, thank you!

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user19: it's time to go to apologize to y/n now ☺️🔪

user5: so proud of you, great job again!!

user17: imagine being in miami at the same time as the girl you CHEATED ON

user2: facts, i feel so bad for y/n cause i remember seeing a video of her saying she scheduled a show in miami at the same as the gp so her and max could spend some time together

user3: lmao at least Charles had a fun night at y/n's concert last night

user17: what?? how do you know that???

user3: he posted on instagram last night that he was there!!

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charles_leclerc: Good day yesterday, on and off track. Thank you, Miami! And special thank you to @/yn.insta for having me at the show ♥️ It was phenomenal and can't wait to see you again soon.

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yn.insta: Thank you so much for coming! I'm glad you had a good time ♥️ Can't wait to see you soon!

user6: the red hearts!!! and y'all called me delulu

user8: okay but the hearts don't necessarily mean anything?? i mean y/n just got out of a relationship

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#formula 1 imagine #formula 1 x reader #max verstappen x reader #charles leclerc x reader #writingmv33 #writingcl16 #writingsmau #writing itstimetogo #max verstappen #charles leclerc #f1 social media au #charles leclerc social media au #max verstappen social media au

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caligvlasaqvarivm · 2 months

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i never noticed the hints towards pale Solfef! in light of that, i think it's interesting that Eridan pursued Feferi in the pale quadrant while desperately wanting her to end up in his flushed one, meanwhile Feferi pursues Sollux in the flushed quadrant, despite them seemingly destined to be pale lol guess seadwellers are used to swimming up current lmao

that said, what are your thoughts on Erifef? do you think Eridan actually wants her flushed? or is that another subconscious tactic of his to keep her(someone he deeply cares about) by his side?

personally, i'm of the opinion that though they do care about eachother, they could never work out flushed. i think Eridan -though very enthusiastic about her and thinks they share the same troubles that comes with being so high on the hemospectrum, as well as isolated via physical location and the requirements to meet seadweller expectations- doesn't actually want redrom with her, but he knows pale isn't 'good enough' plus prefers to go to Karkat for all the traditional pale stuff. dude doesn't realize they can just be friends and she won't abandon him(cue Feferi abandoning him the monent she leaves quadrants with him, further exacerbating that fear lol)

meanwhile, on Feferi's end, it's too much to go into here but i think she has struggles with being present with others. so though i think she also deeply cares about Eridan and was absolutely miffed he was going to Karkat for things that she(being his moirail at the time) should have been talked to about, i think she has a lot of character development to go through before she can really pursue quadrants as something she needs and wants and not something she thinks she should do. i think flipping pale with Sollux could have been that catalyst but alas :' ] it seems Hussie changed his mind

So, personally, I do actually think Eridan's flushed feelings for Feferi are real... kind of. The fact that he has 0 self-awareness really makes talking about his feelings difficult because everything needs to be qualified with "this would change if he were capable of taking a step back."

The "kind of" here is because I don't think it's necessarily Feferi, the PERSON, that Eridan's in love with, but rather, the Feferi that exists in his head. To Eridan, Feferi is a bubbly, adorable, cheerful girl who's nice to everybody and doesn't have a mean bone in her body. He literally says that he thinks she might be too nice to have a pitch relationship with somebody, which is definitely not true, as Feferi can be plenty mean, and there's plenty to find flawed about her.

The first reason for this mistaken belief is that that's definitely the way that Feferi believes herself to be, so it's how she presents herself, and Eridan believes people when they tell him stuff. The second is because, in Eridan's shitty, friendless life, Feferi has been his one constant - the person who's always been there for him, the only person who's consistently nice to him (until he meets Karkat, and even then, Karkat is master of the mixed signals, and Eridan implies that death threats and insults are regular banter between them), and oftentimes the one person who cheers him up when he's at his lowest.

I think a lot of people in the fandom are too hard on Feferi - she's genuinely well-meaning, and most of her bad points come from ignorance and privilege, not manipulativeness or spite. She doesn't consciously realize it when she's treating Eridan poorly, and she makes real efforts to be a good moirail to him, even though he doesn't usually reciprocate those efforts. I think she suffers from the Umbridge Effect, where Eridan's problems - being on such the extreme end of trauma and anxiety - almost feel alien and unreal, while everyone knows a Feferi, so Feferi draws in some undue vitriol.

She has a few outbursts at him when he's egregiously rude for no reason, but given she's been dealing with his severe mental illness for so long, and takes his threats and casteism at least semi-seriously, I don't blame her for being exhausted and snapping from time to time. She's genuinely just not equipped to help him with his problems - lest we forget, she's also 13. Otherwise, everything else she does to harm him is something she just genuinely doesn't consciously realize is a problem, because she's got a hard time seeing past her privilege.

For example, using Eridan for feeding Gl'bgolyb without gratitude - the thing is, societally, it's his job, and HAS always been a violet's job. Not only that, but given his... everything, if she asked him if he's okay with doing it, he'd definitely insist that he is, and in fact, that it's HIS duty and HIS privilege. He also started INCREDIBLY young, so it's genuinely just been like this for their entire lives. It's a bit shitheaded for Feferi to not realize how much she benefitted from this arrangement, but, again, it's a crime of ignorance, not malice.

In a similar vein, I think she stayed in her moirallegiance for as long as she did partially because she got an ego boost out of it. She commiscerates with Kanaya over how burdensome he is, and she gets to say things like "we are not better than anybody," which she absolutely doesn't actually feel, given how she won't shut up about being a royal when talking to Jade. She's elated to break up with him, her narration celebrating with a big "you're FREE!!!" and it's not a coincidence that said break-up happens after Eridan's no longer useful to her - she outright states that he can't threaten their species anymore now that they're in the game and everyone else is dead.

BUT, I think she ALSO means it when she says that she stayed in that moirallegiance because she was genuinely worried for him. Both this statement and the above paragraph can be simultaneously true. There's nothing about Eridan that's actually that offensive to Feferi, and I really do think she means it when she says she wants to stay friends. His constant emotional crises have just left her burnt out in terms of sympathy, and she never really knew how to handle him in the first place, but in their first conversation together, she's still genuinely making an effort to get him to open up about his feelings and to cheer him up about his failed kismesistude.

After the breakup and his failed confession, the thing is, he does accept that rejection! ... Kind of. (Again with the kind ofs.)

He outright tells her he accepts that she doesn't like him like that... BUUUT, is trying to get her to go ashen with him and Sollux, instead. THIS is the "trying to keep her with him" angle you're talking about, IMO; I think his flushed feelings are genuine, even if they're aimed at this idealized version of Feferi moreso than the real deal. Without Feferi in the picture, I think Eridan and Sollux would have a completely lukewarm mutual dislike. The sheer lukewarmness is probably why Erisolsprite is so stable - they're completely mid for each other.

The realness of his flushed feelings for Feferi is, incidentally, part of why I think him and Roxy would work so well together - if this idealized version of Feferi (bubbly, adorabloodthirsty, pink, cute, cheerful, and kind) is his Type... well.

I also think he and Feferi would work pretty well as just normal friends; they might have fallen into that dynamic on their own if they'd met later on in life. In a hypothetical golden ending, I think they do fall into it once EriKar happens, since moirallegiances are stated to have a stabilizing effect on a troll's other relationships.

#homestuck #eridan ampora #feferi peixes #erifef

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miracledarling · 1 year

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all about affirming

[ based on my opinion only ]

notes: this is just a post i was planning to write for while to clarify a lot of confusions surrounding affirming. you absolutely do not need to affirm if that's not something you want. this is just to explain my point of view. i'll debunk a bunch of myths surrounding affirming from MY point of view so people who want to affirm can help clear their confusion.

⛲table of contents . . .

① you don't have to affirm ② affirming vs thinking ③ vain affirming ④ you don't need to reprogram your mind ⑤ affirming + persisting and states ⑥ wording affirmations ⑦ FAQ ⑧ summary

you do NOT have to affirm

i know there used to be this widespread belief that you must affirm or saturate your mind. but i ofc i do NOT ever want to push affirming onto people who don't prefer to. you can do whatever you want and whatever works for you. you DON'T have to anything really. affirming works for many people like me but if it's not something you like to do, there's no need. please do what you feel best doing <3

affirming vs thinking

some people say that you are always thinking, so you are always affirming. while others say affirming has nothing to do with thoughts and are simple a method.

here's my take on this: affirming is thinking IF you naturally think in affirmations. however, some people say they may not think in affirmations. and rather, they think in visuals, for example. if that's the case, then affirming is NOT neccesarliy "thinking" for you in that sense. so you are not affirming every second of the day if you don't think in affirmations. it's like a square is a rectangle, but a rectangle is not neccesarily a square. so in short, affirming "is" thinking, but thinking is NOT necessarily affirming.

what is vain affirming

when people come accross the idea of affirming robotically or mindlessly repeating affirmations, they may ask

"but does that even work? isn't that just vain affirming?"

this is where it gets tricky and i've started to figure out how it works from MY perspective. as you know, i am someone who always robotically affirms because that's what always worked for me.

vain affiming: affirming with ZERO belief. now don't get this confused. by belief, i do not neccesarily mean believing in the affirmations. i mean believing if it works or not

remember that this is law of assumption, so if you assume it works, it works.

mindless affirming can usually work in one of multiple ways. i don't want to overcomplicate this but here's my breakdown.

both of these work:

1: affirm to saturate your mind so you can BELIEVE in affirmations.

2: affirming but DON'T NEED to believe in your affirmations. instead, just assume that repeating affirmations will work/being you your affirmation(ex. some people believe affirming rewires their brain, some people believe affirming magically gives them their desire, etc)

if you want to keep affirming until you believe what you stated/implied in the affirmation is a FACT, then go with option one. HOWEVER, if you don't want to believe in your affirmations, and just want to believe that affirming repeatedly works, choose option 2. i usually go with option 2 because it can be tiring to keep affirming just to force a belief. but do which one you want.

now some people will think option 2 is vain affirming. but that isn't what vain affirming is because vain affirming is saying affirmations without ANY faith.

vain affirming: if you assume affirming does not work, and you don't believe in your affirmations whatsoever. having zero faith and only "hoping" it would work(but your dominant assumption is that it doesn't work. you still telling yourself "it probably won't work anyways")

"but doesn't that contradict this post?"

i made a post a couple weeks ago about taylor tookes manifesting with ZERO belief. and i know in the past i've always said that you do not need any belief. which is partially true but my views have changed slightly. the reason it worked for taylor tookes is because she already installed the assumption in her head that affirming always work regardless what you are "believing." taylor tookes always preached affirming and persisting, sammy's teachings, affirming is thoughts, etc. which usually follows the rule that "you are always affirming because affirming is thinking. so manifesting is just affirming until you get yout manifestation." so EVEN THOUGH she claims to have been in disbelief upon learning LOA, she already had some amount of faith in affirming because she thinks she is always affirming and creating reality through that, even though she DOUBTED.

in short: it does not contradict because it likely worked for taylor as a result of her faith and already having the assumption that affirming is what manifests desires. yes she may not have FULLY believed that it would work because she probably doubted a lot(which is why she said she "didn't" believe), but it just shows how a small bit of faith goes a long way

don't worry too much about this. if you want to affirm, but feel confused, just choose one of the two options i listed above. and remember if you just have a small bit of faith, it will work it all depends on your assumption. your faith will increase over time. if's okay to doubt or not believe 100%. a small amount can go a long way. if all this is feeling complicated, don't worry about it.

there's no need to reprogram your mind

there's a "science side" of a+p loa community that preaches neural pathways and such. however, i want to reassure you that you do not need to "impress" the subconscious or impress anything for that matter. you absolutely do not need to repeat 10k affirmations to amnifest. that's just a random rough estimate. you don't even need to worry about neural pathways. it doesn't matter at all. people only pring up the "science" to help cultivate faith and help back up their assumption that affirming works(option 2 of what i listed above). they use this as a way to assume that affirming works.

affirming and persisting does not contradict states

this might be controversial but i've seen people say you cannot affirm and persist and still be doing states at the same time.

well first off, states isn't really something you can do. yes, you can switch states and return to states. you're always doing that. well you're always being something, so you're basically always in a state. you always have a brain, you always have a mindset, you always embodying a mindset, you're always embodying something, you're always being something. therefore, you're basically always in a state. it's not like a method where you consciously choose to do. states you can switch but you can't "not do." that's why you're technically always in a state.

but if affirming and persisting contradicts states, why do people succeed by affirming and persisting, right? see, affirming and persisting wouldn't work if it's "contradicting states" and you "couldn't" be both in a state, and affirming and persisting.

secondly, affirming maintains a state. your intention puts you into another state, and affirming helps you maintain it.

one reason i think people say "a+p contradicts states" is because they have the wrong idea of what persisting means.

persisting is NOT repetition. when i talk about affirming, you don't necessarily need to affirm 10k times on loop to manifest. that's not how it works. it works if you assume so, but you can get away with affirming once IF you assume that works.

persisting is just what decision you are sticking to, despite the circumstances/doubts/3d, etc. when you intend, you are making the conscious decision that your desire is yours. creation is finished when you say so. affirming is telling yourself statements implying that your desire is true. persisting is sticking to the new assumption/story, despite everything happening. no matter what is happening. you're consciously sticking to that decision no matter what.

affirming to maintain your state, and persisting in the state that your desire is already done works because it will change your dwelling state.

wording affirmations

i've recieved some asks of people being confused as to whether they should or shouldn't affirm in future tense. and my answer will always be: it's compelely up to you. affirming in future tense definitely works if you assume so.

some may think affirming in future tense puts them in a state of lack. but that's not completely true. it sounds a bit limiting to people. because if you affirm in future tense knowing that your desire absolutely will come, it will. or if you affirm knowing that no matter what tense or how you word your affirmations, it still works, then it does.

one big myth about affirming is that you must affirm and word your affirmations a certain way. which is FALSE. it does not matter how you word it. this isn't law of attraction ya'll. you can literally affirm "money" and assume it gives money to you, then it will. whatever you assume is true is true.

also, you can use HOWEVER MANY affirmations you want. i don't care if you have a list of 100 affirmations. if you assume that no matter how many affirmations you say, it works, then it works. you can simply affirm one affirmation and it works. the reason why i use only one is only because i find it easier to repeat one affirmation to myself than 100 different affirmations. it's easier for me to concentrate on one, but you don't have to. if you think saying a list of 100 affirmations works, it will work.

you can choose to mindlessly affirm, OR affirm naturally(vaunting/rampaging). it literally doesn't matter. whatever YOU PREFER.

FAQ

do i HAVE to affirm? ☆ no, do what you prefer. if you dont like affirming, don't do it.

how many times do i have to affirm? ☆ however many times you assume you have to affirm, how many times it will FULFILL you

do i have to believe in affirmations? ☆ no, if you assume that simply repeating affirmations without believing the affirmation will still work, it will work.

do i have to repeat 10k affirmations to create a new neural pathway? ☆ not at all, only if you assume that

do i have to saturate my mind/repeat affirmations on loop?☆ no, if you don't want to then don't

is affirming the same as thinking? ☆ if you actually naturally think in affirmations, then yes. otherwise, it's not really considered thinking in that case.

can i just robotically affirm? ☆ yes.

will affirming in future tense put me in a state of lack? ☆ no, unless you assume that. you can literally affirm with whatever wording you want.

how many affirmations should i use? ☆ however many you want

In summary

there's no rules when it comes to affirming, manifesting, or anything. do whatever you like, however you like. after all, this is law of assumption. reality exists because of your consciousness, everything is within you, everything is you, what you're aware of. so affirm if you want. if you don't want to, then do what works for you. your assumptions dictate reality. it's your world honey 🤍

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In your opinion, what would be the worst House of The Dragon yanderes to have and why?

Given that the majority of them are so possessive, and that the answer really depends on whether the darling is defiant or obedient, this is a difficult question to answer. So I will simply have them on a scale; from best to worst.

Daeron and Laena are the ideal yanderes to have. The two are aware of their tendencies as well as the difficulties that would arise if their darling were to discover them. The two can put on a show, more likely to succeed in winning the darling over rather than forcing their hand. They will show the darling such tenderness and love that the others will enviously watch. Yes, there are times when they unintentionally act out some of their tendencies when they believe their darling's life is in danger, but over time, the daring will find excuses for their behavior.

Rhaenys is the next in that she is very conscious of her tendencies and how they might frighten her darling. She will also put on an act to try to win the darling over, even though she occasionally allows her tendencies to show. Rhaenys will never harm you and will always treat you with utmost care. Rhaenys is skilled at persuading you that everything she does is done for the better, for your own good. She occasionally experiences a pang of guilt over having to manipulate you.

Helaena and Corlys are right after, but unlike the latter above; they are unaware of their tendencies and mistakenly believe that their behavior is the result of their intense "love" for you. They completely dedicate themselves to you and exert every effort to win your favor. They think the world of you and become enraged whenever someone criticizes even the slightest aspect of you. However, the drawback is how adamant they are about making you rely on them.

They all fall into the same category: Criston, Harwin, and Laenor. They're not the worst yanderes, but they don't handle rejection well. They are more likely to have a perception of you that may not even be accurate in your true nature. The three are completely devoted to you and will do anything you ask of them, even if it jeopardizes their reputation or honor. Even so, they are incredibly jealous and will fight anyone they think has your interest, which almost always results in fatalities.

Rhaenyra can be overprotective and domineering. She stands out because she mostly puts on a show, trying to charm you with praise and gestures. Rhaenyra slowly reveals her true nature once she is certain she has you. Despite being aware of how terrible her actions are, she endorses them. Rhaenyra can also be suffocating because she insists on having you with her at all times. The concept of personal space is absent from Rhaenyra. She constantly pushes the notion that "we are against the world" onto her darling.

Some might be surprised to learn that Alicent is immediately after Rhaenyra, as they would assume Rhaenyra is more intense. However, Alicent differs from Rhaenyra in that she is much more paranoid. She wants you to think that she is the only person on your side, that everyone else is out to get you. In order to keep her dependent on her, Alicent rarely allows you to make your own decisions. Getting dressed or taking a bath are even simple tasks she insists on helping you with. Whatever the case may be, Alicent will claim she is acting out of love and in your best interests.

Otto is someone who is aware of his own tendencies, but he doesn't necessarily defend them; instead, he accepts them for what they are. He isolates you away from everyone. Otto makes it clear that you must belong to him from this point forward, and he won't put in the effort to maintain a façade. He forbids you from having any degree of independence, even insisting that you dress in a manner that he finds appropriate. His ongoing gaslighting and undermining makes him one of the worst.

Given how similar Aemond and Daemon are, it shouldn't come as much of a surprise to see them in the same category. However, how they handle their darling largely depends on whether the darling is obedient or defiant. The two men are fiercely competitive and will gladly kill any rivals. They have no problem forcing the darling to be with them. The darling will just have to accept their situation. The extreme measures the two will go to knows no bounds. God forbid anyone who’d attempt to hurt/take their darling.

Aegon is his own category. While the others attempt to put on a show or acknowledge that their darling is a person of their own, but choose to ignore it; Aegon does none of that. He's more likely to be physically aggressive to his darling. He practically locks his darling at all times because he doesn't trust anyone, not even his family. Aegon makes no attempt to defend himself; instead, he simply assumes that he can treat his darling however he pleases. It almost seems as though he only views the darling as property and not as a living being. The darling can, however, gradually alter events if they play their cards correctly.

Surprise, surprise, Larys is the worst kind of yandere to have. Although I was tempted to put Aegon in the lead, the lengths Larys would go to win the darling are not something that would even enter Aegon's mind. One can only imagine what he will do to those who are close to the darling given that the man had no care for his family and had them murdered without remorse. To reduce their attempts to flee, Larys might even go so far as to seriously hurt his darling that they are forced to stay in bed.

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dostoyevsky-official · 4 months

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You know Mandarin??

sometime in the spring of this year i kept encountering the idea on other social media that chinese is impossible to learn for europeans, that it's too difficult, that no westerner can learn or truly understand it, and in combination with a mainland friend visiting and telling me the ancient chinese etymology of some basic characters (and the 白人饭 Lunch of Suffering meme) i got fed up/enchanted and did the extremely mentally healthy thing of teaching myself basic mandarin, through about ~april to july. at some points in may i remember coming home from work, scribbling characters in my mandarin notebook over and over, doing chores, going to sleep, and repeating the cycle. a taiwanese friend on here helped out with a lot (it's much, much easier if you have chinese friends to help you, however, i am really not about traditional, although i admit it's more beautiful) and baptized me with a chinese name.

i don't know mandarin, and at this point a lot of the characters i'd learned have faded from memory, but i insist that it's not actually difficult to learn chinese (up to a point— maybe HSK 3 or 4 is where it gets really difficult). in fact, learning chinese is really, really fun.

the difficulty lies in the fact that you have to do it every single day for at least an hour, probably for more (i spent pretty much all my free time on it, but there was something not normal going on with me then). you'd think, isn't that the case for every language? yet i don't remember doing daily french like that, and i consider some aspects of french conjugation/russian grammar much more difficult than what chinese throws at you at similar difficulty levels (good luck with motion verbs, non-slavic speakers). i found learning characters to be very, very easy. they're all distinct. if you learn them together with their etymology, looking at ancient chinese and how they developed along with associated idioms, it's endlessly rewarding. at least in the early levels, there's a bit of a system to how characters and words come together and increase in complexity—sometimes it's funny, sometimes it's cute. it's a breath of fresh air to start reading even basic sentences and idioms in a language so entirely different from anything you've experienced before. many people say speaking chinese is easier than reading/writing: in my experience, that's false. i barely started getting a grasp on the tonal system (my goal was to get to HSK 1 solely through written chinese); i remember listening to the same 2 minute audio clip of two people exchanging phone numbers for half an hour or something once before getting everything right. people say "chinese doesn't have grammar" but that's not true, because otherwise it won't be a language at all, though you don't have to learn any conjugations, declensions, etc. at HSK 1-2 you just throw a modifier/particle into a sentence and you're good to go.

the other main difficulty besides tones is that imo chinese culture is borderline impenetrable if you want to have a genuine stab at it (but for this you don't, necessarily, need to learn mandarin). you can learn HSK 1-2 in a few months or a semester, but it will take you years to genuinely understand the cultural context—there truly is no context clue or familiar idea you can latch on to, as opposed to when learning a european language/history, or even turkish, arabic, persian; there is nothing in common here, and if you guess, you'll probably wind up wrong. it all makes me think of how many journalists/experts get russia wrong: i now firmly do not believe a word of what people write about asia unless i find the author knows the language

anyway

#keep in mind of course i did not go past HSK1 #i prefer simplified but seeing what they did to 門 makes one a rabid antimaoist #you get to understand the pò èr shǒu chē reel of the little chinese girl pointing at a porsche that goes around on instagram.#i truly wish china was somehow connected to what i study bc i cannot justify spending that much time on mandarin #unfortunately the harbin russians didn't bother with chinese #smth else about this blog is that india is likewise impenetrable to me. the sheer historical and geographic scale is unbearably intimidatin #where does one even start?#ed* ^ i know the basic 101 historical outlines but i don't think that's “knowing” a place

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theinfernalsanctuary · 27 days

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Let's talk about religious psychosis for a minute.

For those of you who don't know, religious psychosis is a mental condition that causes somebody to believe that their hallucinations (both audio and visual) and their ideas that are coming out of this manic state are actually the word of a God or some sort of Deity. This can be really dangerous in any religion, and it's incredibly common in both christianity and satanism because it's so hard to tell the difference between somebody who is experiencing religious psychosis and somebody who is actually had a religious experience.

This is why it's so important that people pay attention to what they are looking at online and who they are talking to online, you never know if the person behind the screen that is telling you all of this information is experiencing some form of religious psychosis. Many people who are experiencing some sort of religious psychosis also have delusions of grandeur. These people tend to place themselves into a higher seat of power, calling themselves a high priestess or a high priest, calling themselves a profit calling themselves the messiah, ect. They aren't doing it on purpose, it just so happens that this is what their hallucinations are telling them, it's not outright malicious. That's not to say that it cannot cause people to do some horrendous things. I mean, we've all heard the cliche of "God told me to" or the "devil told me to." This is where that comes from.

Unfortunately, someone who is actually suffering from religious psychosis will not be willing to seek help, nor will they respond well to being pushed into seeking help because they don't believe that what's happening is bad, they think that this is their god trying to reach out to them. It's really important not to push these people too far but also to not feed into these delusions.

I say it's hard to tell the difference between somebody who is experiencing religious psychosis and somebody who isn't, but there is one tell all, they tend to be much more grandiose about literally everything. Think the crazy mega churches in the southern United States, but then change it so that they DON'T know that everything that they're telling their congregation is bogus, imagine if they actually wanted to help and believe everything they say but still churned out more extremists the way they already do. This is one of the many ways that cults can start because not everything that they say is something super out there and obvious, and if the wrong person sees the right post and thinks that this person knows what they're talking about, there's a high potential that they'll start to overlook red flags. This won't necessarily cause others to experience religious psychosis, though it can happen, more often the people who are following the original person with religious psychosis are not experiencing any hallucinations themselves, but are brainwashed into the hope that if they follow what they're told that they will either be given special treatment in the afterlife or that they may start to experience what we know to be hallucinations themselves.

Please be very careful if you believe that you are dealing with someone who is experiencing religious psychosis, they are not trying to cause problems or harm, they are sick. I bring this up now because the solar eclipse is coming up and there are a bunch of people online right now talking about how it's going to be the rapture or how you'll be able to see the faces of angels/demons if you look up at the eclipse while you're in the path of totality (the strip of land that the sun passes over where the eclipse is the most complete.) None of that is true, please be safe when viewing the eclipse and when interacting with others on the internet.

Ave Satanas!

#hail satan #theistic satanism #satanism #satan #satanic #theistic luciferianism #ave satanas #the infernal gospel #the infernal circle #the satanic philosopher #religious psychosis

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ashraintarot · 1 year

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Pick a photo tarot reading

How to heal in regards to love and your next soulmate if you do the work you're meant to do

Photo 1:

The people who picked this photo have been let down in the past as soon as they showed their true selves. You're someone who is constantly told their "too much" or ask for too much. I'm here to tell you that's simply not true. It's a scary thing to be vulnerable only to be met with negativity. But the good news is, if someone doesn't react well to you being yourself, that's a sign letting you know it's not a connection you want to be in. Instead of looking at your past relationships as a loss, or thinking you missed out on something, see it for what it is. They were someone who just wasn't secure enough with themselves to be with someone who shines so brightly. That's not to say you were totally innocent. I see a lot of crazy energy here that has only recently been tapered down into a healthy level of spontaneity and excitement. You might have been someone who made rash decisions at a detriment to yourself. The biggest advice here is that it's okay to take things slow. It's okay to let things have space to breathe and to blossom. Focus on rewiring those thought patterns that taught you you're too much. You are perfect exactly as you are. That's not to say stop working on yourself, but who you are in your soul, the person you are meant to grow into is perfect. Believe that you are enough, and that no other person can complete you. Some of you may have been looking for answers that you simply aren't supposed to know. I see you doing and getting a lot of tarot readings trying to figure out what's coming next but I'm hearing, "don't ruin the surprise".

Your next soulmate:

I see you guys finding this person right at the moment you least expect it. It will be a total surprise. I see a more masculine energy that's highly intellectual. Someone likely still in school who's always trying to learn more about the world or their passions. In fact they're someone who is deeply in touch with their passions and reason for being here. I don't see this relationship taking off and getting serious right away. It might take some time due to distance or just obstacles of life. You guys may even date other people and always just slightly miss each other. But one day, if you make the right choices and they do too to align your lives, you'll come together. You might even date for a little while at first or have some short type of fling with them, but they won't be able to get you out of their head even if you two are apart. I see a lot of mutual friends here as well. There might be a third party that's keeping someone back from making a move. Not necessarily anything romantic involved in this third person, it might be but it might be that they're afraid of their reaction to hearing about the two of you as an item. Possibly one of you are still working through the loss of a past relationship. Your north node may be in the same sign as their sun.

Photo 2:

You might be someone that gets lost in the world you create in your mind. Which leaves you feeling disappointed with reality because it never quite matches up. It's important to let things play out how they're meant to and to actually be present in the moment. I'm getting that a lot of you feel like you have a shitty memory when really you just aren't actually there in the moment. I think you're someone that has struggled with communication in the past. Being honest about how you feel might just hard for you, possibly because you were told early on by people in your life that your emotions were overreactions or were gaslit into thinking you were wrong for feeling the way you did. It could also be that people misunderstand you even when you are being open and honeste. It may seem like no matter what your intentions are people seem to get upset and not get the point of what you're saying. It's important to know not everyone will speak the same language as you. Instead of mulling over all the connections where you weren't truly heard, focus on the ones where you are. There are many people coming into your life to teach you how to be loved. You're having a hard time cutting out those thought patterns that keep you stuck in the old version of your life where people walked all over you and took you for granted. But the work you've been doing to set boundaries is working. Now the universe is testing you. In relationships it's really important for you to find a good balance between time shared and time spent alone. You need alone time to recharge but also to spend on your passions and the things you want to do for fun. Some of the people you think are going to be romantic connections aren't really what you think they are. Something much deeper is coming for you. I see you waiting for The Ex to come back and to get some closure but I don't foresee that happening any any time soon, although they do keep tabs on you online so keep that in mind.

Your next soulmate:

A very nurturing, patient person, possibly an earth sign who's willing to do the work and grow with you. Someone rather andro presenting, with a really balanced blend of both masculine and feminine energy. The thing that pulls you in the most about them is their voice. It has a hypnotic sense to it that you can't stop listening to, seeing a lot of voice memos through text. I see them just being super cute and corny with you which is different from how they are with other people and you really like that. Possibly a fixed sign venus (leo, scorpio, aquarius, taurus). Shoulder length dark hair or at least at some point they had that length of hair for a while. Wears loose, flowing types of clothes, really values comfort but still is stylish about it. They have a simple, effortless beauty about them. I see this possibly being someone you met through the internet and haven't met in person yet but I do feel like you're in contact already or you knew OF them but will soon get to know them on a more personal basis.

Photo 3:

I think you put a lot of work into past relationships only to be met with very little energy. It almost feels like "what the point"? You guys might be the group that's content with being single for now or even have sworn off dating entirely. You would just give and give with nothing in return. Now, you're being called to learn how to fill your own cup before giving to others. This group is sort of like the bleeding heart, the ones who would do anything for anyone but themselves. This period of alone time was crafted so you can learn exactly how to do that. Try to show up for yourself in the everyday choices you make. I think you're rebuilding trust with yourself. It's possible you even handled some things poorly in past relationships just due to how angry the energy discrepancy made you feel. You were acting out of hurt, not that it's an excuse but it's an explanation. You weren't crazy, you were triggered. I think you're learning a lot of the people who abandoned you in your life we're just really struggling to learn their lessons and therefore were unable to be there for you. That doesn't make the pain go away, but by removing some of the blame you can let go of some of the resentment you've been harboring. Give yourself the time to rest and recoup and heal that you need. But don't close your heart to love. Love comes in so many different forms and there are ways to feel fulfilled without romantic love. In fact I see a heavy focus on friends for you guys. You're building a community right now build on love and respect.

Your next soulmate:

Short-medium very light hair possibly with slight stubble/beard. More of a soft build but they're relatively pretty athletic they're just not like "chiseled" and I think that's probably your favorite body type. They have a soft calming energy that you just immediately feel comfortable around. You feel like you can tell them anything and everything, free of judgement. They're someone who's trying to pursue their passion as their career, and I think you have mutual interests as far as that goes. Maybe not the exact same thing but it's in the same vein. I think this is someone you've felt was destined to be with you at some point, or if you've been manifesting what you would like in an ideal partner, they're the answer. Sort of an ambivert, but very funny always making you laugh. I see a sort of friendly energy here, a bit of a will they wont they. Whatever vision you have of your ideal life and ideal partner, keep it in mind and keep the vision strong. I see this coming in and deepening in the next six months

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When it's all laid out like that I don't see how this kind of life is preferable to just...being out. Obviously being out would come with it's own set of challenges but I would imagine it would be more worth it than whatever the fuck this is. What saddens me is that it's pretty clear that Harry and Louis have been conditioned to believe certain things and have become somewhat brainwashed by the industry and the powerful people within it. During the 1d days I had faith that they didn't necessarily believe everything they were being told. I truly think the Harry and Louis from that time period would be in a lot of ways amazed at their lives and all their success but also deeply disappointed with certain things and maybe even themselves.

I get how and why you feel that way, I've been openly and loudly queer since I was fourteen during the early 00s. I have a lot of complex thoughts on the closet BUT I'll bring you back to one of the very first points I made yesterday and that's that I understand and respect queer people closeting themselves, and that includes even when it's not the choice I would make.

Louis has who and what knows going on in his life. He has parts of it that we in fandom will never and should never know about. His decision to stay closeted is his and while we can say "hey it would just be easier to be out" that's not our call to make. That's not our decision and frankly I don't think he should take us into consideration at all.

I also want to make something very clear, I don't believe Louis is closeted in his personal life. I think we have a lot of evidence to show that Louis' team, band, friends, and family all know about him being gay. Taking it one step further, I think we have a lot of evidence to show they know about him and Harry being together as well. I think the same is true for Harry too, before people come for me. I think when they are out living their personal lives away from fame they are able to "live their truth" and be "out". I think ultimately Louis (and Harry) have chosen to not come out publicly for whatever reason they might have, and it's a very, very good chance they are both making moves right now so that way their private lives are completely separate from their public personas.

I believe it was Ian McKellen who once talked about how when you're famous and gay you never stop coming out. You have to come out every single time you meet someone new. And that can be exhausting. I know even in my much smaller life - again I'm someone who has been loudly and proudly queer for twenty years at this point - I'm always coming out. But there's also a flip side to being out and being famous that I don't think a lot of queer people consider and that's... strangers know you're gay before they even meet you. I obviously can't speak for every queer person ever but if I really start to think about that reality... this idea that someone I don't know knows I'm gay, and can approach me and just say "hey I know you, you're gay" that's absolutely TERRIFYING. Why? Because the world is still INCREDIBLY homophobic and I don't know who has what motives.

You say "Obviously being out would come with it's own set of challenges but I would imagine it would be more worth it than whatever the fuck this is." but have we as a fandom ever talked about what being openly gay and famous at the level we're talking about truly means? And I don't mean purely monetary and all the brand deals or movie options Harry might miss. I'm talking about what it means to live as someone of Harry or Louis' level of fame and be openly gay.

There are some countries they just won't really be allowed to visit anymore because the countries have laws against gay people, or they might not bother to travel to anymore because it's just not safe for them. There are countries that might ban their music. Inherently anything they put out will be politicized, regardless of what it is. Anything they do will be politicized as well, probably to a level of disgusting people in fandom who aren't deep into queer history are prepared for. I'm not trying to be US or western centric here with my thoughts even though they are western artists, I'm trying to think globally, because they both enjoy being global artists.

I get it, I do. BG is shitty and has sucked the joy out of fandom for a lot of people. Homophobia is the worst. But it's unfortunately very real and still very alive and so queer people have to play by those rules sometimes and if they choose not to fight that battle publicly I don't necessarily blame them. At the end of the day you don't have to come out to anyone you don't feel safe with even if you're "out" to your friends and family and living your best gay life. In the case of Harry and Louis or other closeted celebs they don't feel safe telling the world they're gay. Can't really blame someone there.

#this is long #whoops #I AM NOW GONNA GO WATCH GLASS ONION

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ghxstlly · 1 month

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Feanger when things get rough

As we all well know, relationships are not always sunshine and rainbows. Couples won't always get along, and can go through periods of awkwardness or anger that can make a romantic courtship really rocky at times. Fear and Anger are not exempt from this.

In my opinion, fostering a ship can be a surprisingly rewarding creative endeavor when you delve into the more negative aspects of a pairing— things they argue and fight about and have to make up over. Don't get me wrong, their happiness and chemistry is the #1 thing that makes a ship so fun to play with. But thinking what makes it tick is an undervalued way to really flesh your ship out in the theatre of your mind.

That said, what do I think makes Feanger tick?

Ramblings under the cut

Anger is a person who has a lot of judgemental thoughts and opinions about others— that's just the way he is. It's one of the pillars of his character, and causes him to be blunt/short with others. It isn't that he's necessarily trying to be malicious or hurtful, it's moreso that what he thinks is right and what he thinks others ought to do or be is often at the forefront of his mind when interacting with his colleagues.

And while a lot of that stuff is not expressed, his temper can cause some of these opinions to burst out in a way that is usually tactless and/or hurtful.

Anger is also not a person who apologizes. Seldom does he feel he's in the wrong after doing or saying something, it's part of his bluntness and sometimes harsh ways of going about things.

Combine these two negative traits, and you can end up with arguments or fights where potentially hurtful things are said but not apologized for, because although Anger wouldn't normally say them out loud, oftentimes he still believes them to be true. Again, it isn't a matter of him being abusive or intentionally malicious, he's just overly opinionated/judgemental.

Fear is not necessarily a person who can easily handle that kind of scrutiny. Although words of that sort sting him about just as much as they'd sting anyone, no more no less, it's the self doubt and stress that manifests as a result that gets to him. Insults and jabs he can handle fine, in fact he's just as capable of saying things in the heat of the moment that have the potential to be hurtful, but afterwards, while they "cool down," anxious thoughts form that maybe Anger doesn't like him as much as he thought he did, and a wide gap forms between them where he and Anger seldom speak or interact.

It's an uncomfortable, mutual "shunning" that occurs, wherein Fear grapples with the anxiety that they may never be close again while Anger gradually becomes remorseful but is either too hesitant or too proud to act on it.

The longest I would imagine this going on for is a full week and a half, the shortest, maybe four days. During that time, starting out in a mutually upset state, they "cool down" over time and slowly come back together until some semblace of an apology occurs. While this is usually implicit, that is to say, the apology is made without ever actually saying the words, Fear will sometimes find something to explicitly apologize for, mostly for his own reassurance as arguments/fights with Anger tend to take a toll on his self-image and perception of his role in their relationship.

Now, I know all that sounds rough, but something I'd like to make sure is said is that while Anger almost always means the hurtful things he says during moments of high stress (even if the wording is a little skewed from the actual opinion), he is equally honest with his reassurances and praise (even if he sometimes has a difficult time expressing them), which is a fact Fear is aware of and trusts.

Ultimately the relationship between Fear and Anger stands on the pillars of mutual respect and trust. They are aware of one another's weakness and where their own strengths compliment the other's, which helps them understand one another and strengthen their bond.

And although they have moments where their big personalities clash in less-than-pretty explosions of nasty emotions, they always manage to get through it. :) 💜❤

#they speak #inside out #inside out fear #inside out anger #feanger #inside out feanger

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louislovesdilfs · 5 months

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Homesick (part 3)

I'm sorry if this is shorter than the others or at least I think it's shorter I really have no idea. it's worth it tho, I think. From the next I will go episode by episode maybe skip a few to add something like this but I will mostly follow the show. I loved the 60th special, Donna will always be my favourite;)

source: r/gallifrey (on reddit) it's a debate started by @/AnticitizenPrime, It's a great theory but I suggest you to check it out if you want after reading this.

◇ I don't necessarily believe the theories I use to write this fic are canon, they just inspired me to work on this. Do NOT take them as canon. treat theories ans headcanons as such.

♤ sorry for the mistakes, english is not my first language.

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"Y/n didn't want to leave, he was watching a Christmas romcom with my mother" Rose jokes getting in the TARDIS, Y/n is behinds her and enters closing the door,

"I was waiting for them to kiss!" he says but realise it only makes his situation worse,

Rose chuckles pinching Y/n's cheek "ohh an hopeless romantic!" she teases him, Y/n can't respond to that, it is true, so he just moves on getting near the console, he feels like he understands the commands and how to guide the TARDIS, he does want to try but is almost afraid of doing so,

"can we stop by my house?" he asks looking at the hoodie he's been wearing for...well from the begging, not gonna lie it is a nice 'NASA' hoodie but it won't be as nice when it starts to stink.

"sure do, just not for too long" The Doctor answers turning to him with tiny grin, Rose tho realises something, she turns to Y/n clearly wanting to ask him something,

"when did The Doctor take you?" she asks, Y/n was there before her, she figured not too long before since the two men didn't knew eachother that well, she sees Y/n is not from her time, he doesn't fit in at all.

"uh 2023, november 21st, I believe" he says not totally sure about the date,

"2023? is that a good year?" she asks slightly curious

"uh, well..." he mumbles hesitating, it's not bad like 2020 still there are wars... but that's a detail he decided to keep for himself.

The TARDIS lands in the same alley it first appears, Y/n gets out feeling sick. Ugh this place, he just wants to pack some clothes and go off again but the other two have other plans that he doesn't know about yet.

He walks not really waiting for The Doctor and Rose who try to keep up with him, he frantically searches for the keys to his house, as soon as they turn the corner a fancy mansion is waiting for them, The Doctor and Rose look at Y/n surprised as he opens the big black gates which reveal the wide path with a green garden on the sides, it looks so expensive but well tooken care of.

"well you didn't mention you were rich" Rose walks fast reaching Y/n who shakes his head

"I'm not, my parents were. This is a family mansion, my great-great grandfather bought it, then my great grandfather passed it to my grandad and he passed it to my dad, when my dad died I inherited all; My sister life assurance, my mother life assurance, and last my dad's. This money come from loss and grief. How could I ever define myself rich?" it is a rhetorical question, he doesn't want an answer and Rose will surely not give him one, she looks at The Doctor who has not look away from the young man for one second, he is clearly thinking about what Y/n just said and maybe he's wondering something else too, too many coincidence happened after the regeneration, The Doctor doesn't want to address them yet and neither does Y/n but sooner or later they will have to, willingly or not, Rose will make sure of that.

They enter the mansion greeted by giant stairs not too far from the big front door, the inside aren't as old as the house looks from the outside, they actually look both aged and modern, it's a style that suits the place but not really Y/n's appearance.

"not bad, not bad at all" The Doctor speaks his mind looking at the place.

"not at all" Rose agrees scanning every angle of the entrance with her eyes.

"my house is your house...I guess.." Y/n shrugs telling them to do whatever they want. He sighs going upstairs with his hands in his pockets, for how much he hates this place is good to be at home.

Y/n sits on his bed, looking at his room, it's been the same since he was 14, same posters, stickers on the windows...Even the 'I want to believe' poster on the wall near his bed, he always loved space, all the drawings and pictures in his rooms make it clear, it's funny how now he is travelling in time and space like it's a short day trip, it almost makes him chuckle.

A knock on the door makes him quickly turn his head to see The Doctor leaning against the door frame, his eyes lightened as he looked at The Doctor.

"can I come in?" he asks putting his hands in his brown suit pockets, he took off his coat and left it somewhere in the house probably, The Doctor enters as Y/n nods him to come in, he looks around the space themed room amused by it.

"X-files, great show." The Doctor comments looking at the poster on the wall, and Y/n chuckles

"shame you're not a little green man," Y/n chuckles tilting his head and The Doctor almost smirks at the young man's little gesture, The Doctor always seems to appreciate the little tilt Y/n does but still scoffs at his comment

"last time I checked you were monkeys" he shors back and Y/n squints his eyes at him

"oh shut it you face changer" he says and The Doctor smirk sitting on Y/n's bed next to him.

"big place you have here" he says changing the subject, Y/n's face darkens a little

"empty tho" he points out looking up at the ceiling, there are little stars that glow in the dark attached to it, The Doctor notices them too before Y/n speaks breaking the silence

"you have a big place too" he points out, he then falls with his back on the bed, his hands resting on his chest for a split of a second before he quickly rests them on the sides of his body.

"not that empty anymore" The Doctor follows him with a smirk slowly reaching for the young man's hand, a little touch before fully holding it. Y/n chuckles turning his face to the man next to him, he gently rubs his knuckles, is a cute little moment between them, Y/n feels something in his stomach he never really felt before, or maybe he's just hungry.

"you know what happened to me before you regenerate" Y/n suddenly says, he didn't want to but he knew it was something to be said sooner or later.

"yep" The Doctor says popping the p, his mood dropped slightly but his hand is still holding Y/n's a little tighter,

"I lead 10 people to death, I didn't save them, I saved myself" he admits, his voice slightly broken

"that's what you were supposed to do, I couldn't bare the thought of loosing you Y/n." The Doctor reveals looking directly in the young man's eyes, he knows that comment is selfish, but it's the truth, he wants to know more about Y/n, about who he is or what he become.

"I fell in a time vortex" he realises ignoring The Doctor's comment, "I felt my body wither and die or age back to when I was born, my body shredded with the time winds I-" he stops biting his tongue before continuing "I touched every point in history, I'm there as I'm speaking, my head, it is filled with information I shouldn't have, it hurts." he lets out not noticing the tears running down his cheeks

"I can take it away" The Doctor says reaching the man's cheek with his free hand, he brushes his cheek wiping away a tear.

"don't you dare" Y/n says firmly, he can stand the pain, he wants that knowledge.

"what am I? am I like you now? will I regenerate? can I die at all? It's like a tango in my chest!" Y/n asks many questions as his mind runs in the thousands of possibilities.

"there was a legend in my planet, about the Timelords origin, someone says we are nothing but evolved humans, it's not proved, but you Y/n, you might have evolved in something closer." The Doctor brushes Y/n's hair away from his face, the room go darker and the stars on the ceiling started to glow, Y/n smiles and a light shaped as a star appeared on his face, this sight made The Doctor's hearts almost melt as well as Y/n's. They look at eachother and right there The Doctor thinks he found someone who will stay. They share a kiss, not stolen, not meaningless, not rushed; it's sweet, waited, slow, they both take their time, they then part they're silent for a second before Y/n breaks it.

"I want to drive the TARDIS with you" Y/n says not really asking more like demanding it. The Doctor laughs

"that's a lovely idea" he says trying to hide his excitement but failing miserably.

They both go down stairs after Y/n showered and packed most of his clothes. Rose is stealing Y/n's cereals wondering around the house eating loudly before stopping in the study.

"Is that your dad's study?" She asks taking a bite

"umh yea, he actually died in there, couldn't bare the loss of mom shortly after my sister. Couldn't keep the family going, what a pathetic little man." Y/n says not really interested in what's he's saying, he doesn't like his father, he was never at home, and when he was he was locked in his study till night time.

Rose closes the door feeling chills as she looks at the chair where he died. They then go in the living room and Y/n lights up a cigarette opening one of the windows.

"you know, all the men in my family died here, my great-great grandfather passed away in his sleep, my great grandfather died after a bee attacked him in the garden, my grandad was found dead in the library and my father in his study, both died of heart attack." he admits breathing the smoke in and out, it's been a while since the last cigarette, he needs it.

"let's hope you won't carry on that tradition." Rose mumbles a bit unsettled by this information

"let's go shall we?" The Doctor says looking at both of his companions.

They leave the masion getting in the TARDIS leaving the bags with his clothes in his room, it's smaller than the one in the mansion but still pretty, he got the stars on the ceiling of his own room to attach them in this one, and the 'I Want To Believe' poster of course.

As he goes back in the main room The Doctor is patiently waiting for him near the console with a wide grin on his face. Y/n smiles at the man rushing to the console while Rose is on the phone with her mother, Y/n doesn't know what they're talking about but it's clearly something Rose doesn't care about.

The Doctor carefully explains how the comands work and what they are for, Y/n already knows something, watching The Doctor driving helped him even if he never really watched the control as much as he watched The Doctor.

The man looks at Y/n starting to drive the TARDIS "watch closely if you want to learn" Y/n smirks tilting his head slightly which makes The Doctor quickly look away.

"I'm watching" he says in a casually flirty tone to which The Doctor responds with a glance

#10th doctor #doctor who #doctor who fanfiction #doctor who x male reader #doctor who x y/n #tenth doctor x male reader #x reader #tenth doctor x reader #tenth doctor x you #tenth doctor #10th doctor x reader #10th doctor x you

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rice-enjoyer · 2 years

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An invisible cage ; unintentionally of your own making.

I'm loving the sagau stuff a lot, believe me! But since I'm so picky with media, I find it... lacking. Give me a sagau reader who's... not nice. Kindness isn't natural, it's forced. A morally grey god, who hides their true colors. A god, who appears to be benevolent and loving, only to be forcing a smile on their stiff face.

Give me a sagau reader who'd love to connect with the goodie-too-shoes characters, like Amber and Thoma, only to realize that they'd suffocate in the same room as them. Only to realize, that they could only talk to Kaeya and Ayato without judgment. (Bonus points if those lawfully good characters think it's their fault somehow, oh how I'd relish in some self-esteem issues, that is not from the reader towards themselves) Your intentions of hiding all of this is kindness itself. Quite funny. You tell them you could never hate them, but, you can't just tell Klee or Qiqi why you'd prefer to spend time with Albedo or Baizhu more.

Give me a sagau reader who reassurances the gods. Always listening to them, and being around them. Their actions are understandable, archons don't have to apologize for doing their utmost best in impossible circumstances. They are understood, for once in their life.

Oh, but give me a sagau reader who is great friends with them. Reader, who refers to their strange, scheming, and sometimes scary friends by name, not by title. It was hard and it took a lot of time, but they refer to you as... [y/n], not "Your Highness" or "Your grace." You feel at ease around people others usually tense up at - not necessarily the wrong crowd, no. Just a bit... misguided or misunderstood.

Give me a sagau reader who constantly visits Snezhnaya, and goes to the palace frequently. Their loyal, sweet and horribly naive acolytes think that their grace must keep the evil fatui and their scary archon in check. Instead, those evil fatui and their scary archon are trusted with the god's biggest secret, and a select few from other nations, be it the gods themselves, or vision bearers. It's all a big theatre act, of course, you are exhausted! That seemingly sweet smile drops the second you are alone with your most trusted acolytes. "Your cold and stoic gaze fits you more" you'd hear from them.

Reader finding comfort in goals that went sideways. In failed paths to stay strictly good. Getting to be in a place of power comes at a price, and it seems not many understand that. A loss of naivety and innocence, mostly. Because they got corrupted along the way too, it's only natural to be this way. Right..?

-- a/n: no cws because i don't think there's anything in here that deserves a cw???? i hope! tell me if it does asap! first written post, hi!!! i'm going to take a nap so that i won't have brain cells to think about how cringe this is and put it back into my drafts like a LOSER

#genshin #genshin impact #genshin impact sagau #self aware genshin #genshin self aware #sagau #rice is writing #unsympathetic creator sagau

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moe-broey · 5 months

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MEANWHILE. In another realm. I've revisited Alear's FB's

I FEEL LIKE. Alfonse's problem isn't so much that he's emotionally guarded, despite, you know, being extremely emotionally guarded. It's that He Isn't. Like. At the same time.

Consistently, without fail, Alfonse puts himself in situations where he's amicable and helpful. Their C support consists of Alfonse helping Alear see to her own odds and ends, having been brought to Askr with nothing but the clothes on her back. A common situation! He gets her a ring case to put all her rings in. So here, he's helping. And when Alear shows him the rings, and tells him the lore/significance of the rings, he takes an interest -- because of course he would! That sort of thing is right up his alley. And so he's not only amicable enough to be approachable, he's also showing interest in the things she's interested in, and having a spirited conversation about it.

Their B support consists of more of the same, just getting into the details of how Emblems work. HE DOESN'T REALIZE IT YET. But he's bonding with Alear. This goofy ass motherfucker doesn't realize this is literally how friendships are formed. Like I'm convinced he's thinking they're just talking lore and stuff and it's a casual conversation between casual allies and surely nothing emotionally charged will come out of this. He's just being friendly (without NECESSARILY becoming Friends) and there's nothing more to it, there Will be nothing more to it.

A support.

She voices A Problem. TWO things about Alfonse. 1) He was built in a lab to be a fixer (juries still out on his methods/solutions) and 2) He takes things SO personally when he relates to it. PVP enabled he's going to fucking get your ass about it. He is sooooooooo emotionally distant Up Until you fucking provoke him (AND THIS. ISN'T EVEN ENTIRELY TRUE. BC WHAT HE DOESN'T REALIZE IS GENUINELY BONDING OVER SHARED INTERESTS COUNTS TOWARDS BECOMING INVESTED IN THAT PERSON which is HOW he ended up in The Situation in the FIRST PLACE).

Which leads to him "helping" (POORLY.) (Because in all of this he IS still wired to help people)

Which just pisses him off even MORE, believing he has the Correct and Inevitable perspective and desperately wants to get Alear to see it the same way, doubling down.

(Bro I am going to hit image limit again before even making my point..... AUGH)

Alear's next lines, "That's true, but won't keeping my distance mean I appreciate them less while I have them?" / "Is that how you see your relationships with Heroes? With me?" / "No matter how much time we spend together, you'll always keep me at arm's length for when I have to go?"

Here, I think Alear is expressing to him she already sees him as her friend. I don't think Alfonse picks up on it though, trying again to get her to see his side of the issue -- as if, in his mind, they're just debating and not having an emotional conversation.

Alfonse's next lines: "Consider it from my perspective. If I am too attached to you, and you leave, I could lose my will to fight." (ALFONSE. ALFONSE. COME ON MAN.) (LIKE. Idk man if you're saying shit like that I think it's too late. It's so over for you.)

THIS ONE THOUGH. I THINK. PLEASE staywith me but it is the root of it all

Euden's (named Milo here lmfao Milo jumpscare) next line: "Do you not feel the same way about us?"

Alfonse's lines: "My apologies, but no. The forming of friendships is a thing I don't take lightly." / "It's true that I rely on the assistance of Heroes summoned from different worlds when fighting, but that is wholly different."

Alfonse lines (continued): "I have a duty, and can't afford such hurt. So if I grow close to someone, I do so accepting the potential consequences."

AAAAUGHHHH WHAT IS MY THESIS. WHAT THE FUCK AM I TALKING ABOUT. I HAVE MORE CONNECTIONS TO MAKE. AND FOR WHAT‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

SOMEHOW. His Book 1 (p sure they're from Book 1) lines to Kiran that go, "I suppose we don't know much about your world. And how rude of us to not ask until now!" / "What? Your world has buildings that scrape the sky? And what do you mean by 'cars'?" / "Like wagons... that run without horses... and are made out of metal? Fascinating." <- THESE LINES. Combined with his smiling sprite. TO ME are a direct parallel to his C and B Alear conversations, HOW, he's taking an interest in Kiran and without realizing he's growing a fondness for them.

Something SOMETHING about his cognitive dissonance about how he can be friendly without "being friends", how he's afraid of caring too much when it's clear he already cares at least a little ESPECIALLY SHOWN. In how, Alfonse doesn't realize he could have hurt Alear's feelings until she directly states it: "I understand. Still... it makes me sad."

ONLY THEN he gets his panicked(?) sprite, replying, "I apologize for upsetting you." It's here I think he finally realizes, OH. THIS IS. An emotional conversation and not like a debate of ideals and I feel bad for hurting you. BECAUSE!!!!!!!! HE'S COME TO CARE ABOUT ALEAR!!!!!!!!! IN ALL OF THIS!!!!!!!!! Whether he's fully aware of it or not, whether he LIKES it or not, he cares about her feelings and wants to make it right. Into, expressing (again that PVP "Well I took that personally" reaction he has): "I suppose it's just that, when you talk about the Emblems, how you worry, I feel as if I'm hearing my own voice."

Which S support, sets up for a resolution and mutual understanding peace and love all is well with the world 👍

ALSO the parallel to Euden, since this is the very start of what would be analogous to support conversations (side story content unlocked by powering up the character), Euden takes Alfonse's response to him in stride -- since, there's no real emotional stakes. Aside from, Euden wishing they could be friends (since he's just built like that), but ultimately giving Alfonse space and respecting his feelings about it. The Point: While they've been working together, Alfonse hasn't Quite developed that fondness yet I don't think (esp from what I remember from the main plot of the crossover event, which is next to nothing LMFAO). It develops later!!!!!!

If I hadn't hit image limit I would insert the What the FUCK are you two talking about meme here like. What the fuck AM I talking about. Can someone else make this post actually I don't think I'm qualified 😭😭😭😭😭😭

MAIN POINT.

I look at Alfonse and I go I think I hauve covid.

#fire emblem #feh #i'm half tempted to pick through dimitri's fbs again and identify where alfonse is in too deep for him too #absolute trainwreck of a post. great job everyoen (me) let's hit the showers.#i also think i can pick apart his level 40 convo but pleadse. i've already suffered so mcuh.#i have scrambled egg brain EVEN WHEN I HAVE AHDHD MEDS #fe alfonse #alear #euden #DRAGALIA LOST JUMPSCARE‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

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drdemonprince · 10 months

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How do write without knowing everything on a topic? Extensive research and amplifying marginalized voices is important, of course. But no matter how far I get, I never feel like it’s enough. Doubt, new ideas, and gaps in knowledge keep me from writing basic school assignments to research projects I spent years on. There’s perfectionism, executive dysfunction, and interfering life events in my case. I have my shit. But I never feel like I know enough about the topic, or even writing or methodology.

I think one does have to build a tolerance for being wrong / getting critical feedback. That will happen no matter how thoroughly you perfect your work. You will always have readers telling you that you've offended them, you've missed something, you didn't write exactly what they wanted you to write, or that you have something wrong.

Some of the critical feedback that you receive will be wrong or pointless. And some of it will be a rehashing of the most negative monologues already in your brain. There is no preventing it from happening -- there is only putting your work out into the world, controlling your exposure to critique so that it is a manageable amount for you to consume and reflect upon, and then discerning for yourself which feedback is worthy of taking in and what isn't. This too is a skill that can only be developed with practice.

The goal is not to produce something that no person has a complaint about -- good work necessarily will invite critique. If you are lucky enough to be read by a good number of people, which most writers do want to have happen, then you will hear negative feedback of a variety of kinds. Often from people you disagree with or whose perspective you don't respect anyway, right alongside meaningful feedback that will enrich your work. But you will only get that feedback by subjecting your work to it in the first place.

And the goal is not to know every single thing about a topic that has ever been written, either -- this results in far too unweildy and complicated of a draft anyway, believe me, and knowledge is constantly being revised. Try tackling a very specific sub-topic or keeping a piece relatively simple at first. That way you won't be verging into overly technical waters *or* trying to sum up the entirety of a massive topic in a single written work, which is impossible. Find a small corner that you know you can feel confident in, and don't be afraid to not know it all as you continue to work on new pieces covering new corners.

If you are a perfectionist, it is possible to trick the perfectionistic side of your brain into believing that the only way it will get better is by completing a ton of work, getting that work out into the world, and sharpening its blade against the whetstone of others' critiques. All of this is also actually true. No one gets better at a task by never completing it. If you want to really punish yourself in an effective way, set a specific goal for how many pieces you want to complete, or how many placements of articles you want to have done -- and judge yourself against that, rather than some vague notion of perfection for any particular draft.

If you're like most writers, you will have to get the mediocre pieces out of yourself before the good ones will come. Took about 15 years of them for me. It was mostly worth it, and I did have some fun along the way. Good luck!

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sorry i really really really want to ramble because my GOD Raphael has me in a chokehold. my christian grandma would probably get an aneurysm if she ever learns the amount of affection i have for a fictional nasty devil man

Raphael always striked me as... i def don't have the needed english vocab for this, but, yk, nudging? hinting? suggesting rather than forthcoming? a cat seeing the rodent go into its hiding place and simply waiting near it rather than pushing its paw inside. a cat staring at it's human when they cook rather than trying to steal the food bits by itself. yk????

he nudges us in the right direction, he knows one way or another we'll do what he wants us to do and so he waits and plays around rather than straight up DEMANDING we do something. he only goes yeah yeah so and so its YOUUUR choice yes YOUR CHOICE..... its like that thing he said with Mol, what was it? "to choose the only option she has left"

and i think in a romance it would be very much the same, in situations. i imagine if he goes in for a kiss, he... well, he won't *go in* for it necessarily. he'll move in just enough for OUR mind to think of it, then patiently wait for US to make the first move, and goddamn it I'm pouncing onto him alright!!! it reminds me of a post i saw a longass time ago about how flirting is basically saying horny/affectionate stuff but also having enough deniability to say "oh,no, thats not what i meant at all". and he's literally the personalization of that.

"did... you flirt with me?" "take it as you will, little mouse, all i wanted to say is [explains in still a vaguely flirty manner lmfao]"

and that opens up, like... how would he be when he's not patient enough??? if his patience is JUST running thin he'll probably pull us closer yeah but make it not too obvious and more almost like how you pull in a dance partner. he can't let us know he NEEDS to kiss us, hmmm? and when his patience is gone for sure i can definitely imagine him just straight up grabbing us tbh. you didn't give the cat enough attention so get ready to be clawed at until you give it a VERY MUCH DESERVED treat you ungrateful human

(cat-coded raphael believers unite)

so so so sorry to drop all this text on you i--- 💀

🏃🏼🏃🏼🏃🏼🏃🏼🏃🏼

Anon, you stay right where you are! Don’t you dare and run away! [Guards, close the gates!] I'm being silly omg, don't mind me. But never apologize for coming at me with Raphael thoughts, I love this so, so much! 💕 Also I wholeheartedly agree! Raphael definitely is an observer who likes to tempt action and then see it unfold, curious for the direction it will go. The comparison to a waiting cat really fits! After all, isn’t it that much more satisfying if the food is brought to you instead of taking it yourself? 😌 "To choose the only option she has left", that’s quite classical devil behavior if you ask me. - Making the deal with him appear like the last resort. Maybe moving a few things into place here and there, but ultimately just offering a solution in desperate times of need. Omg, I wondered about this so much, anon! Because yes! True! Raphael has time and I even think it will take him a while to come to terms with his own feelings (those feelings he shouldn’t have as a devil). The “tempt then wait and see” behavior plays into this perfectly and gives him the chance to declare it a mere game he enjoys. I imagined a scene where Tav or Durge teases him and he can’t resist anymore, loses his patience, and kisses them with demanding passion. But oh, I really, really like your idea too. Maybe even more, since you are right, that’s such a him thing to do. Offering, preparing “the deal” but it’s Tav/Durge who needs to sign it by claiming those tempting lips for a kiss. Or well, why not combine it: Tav/Durge teasing him, Raphael losing his patience (we all know he struggles with self-control when confronted in well-aimed manners), but stopping himself from the last step, his fierce need so very obvious and still holding himself back, because as you write: He can’t let them know he is internally shaking with desire and yearning for them. And the way I imagine him to flirt is quite similar to this, indeed. Sometimes just teasing or some flattery, sometimes lewd like the liquor in bellybutton line, but he has this suave demeanor that always creates a bit of distance and allows his prey to take a step backward if they are not willing to go there (yet). Tav/Durge needs to be quite courageous to get that next step from him. Of course, Catphael Raphael has to make it hard for them, probably because he enjoys it but maybe also because he’s not quite sure how to deal with it all himself. His usual duality of hidden insecurities and egomaniacal pride we love him for.

#cat-coded raphael believers unite #well spoken anon #well spoken #raphael #raphael bg3 #bg3 raphael #dmagedanswers #bg3 spoilers

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