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perpetuallyanhedonic · 6 months

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MONSTER

and as my childish sobs shivered right through me

the most terrifying realization seeped deep into my bones like a chill

that as i sit here alone in the dark

shaking with silenced sobs

pain clawing at my chest and skull with no one to console me

just as the dark,

dark days of my childhood

that i have never been anything

but an option

a last resort

a tool for mass destruction

no one’s favorite friend

not my parents’ favorite child

cast aside by the one i loved for another

so i stare back numbed as i am now back at

unlovable monster they made i am

in the mirror

raise a brow to chastise for this few minutes of weakness and

begin anew.

for i know the truth.

i was never anything but.

so monster i was.

monster i am.

monster i will be.

monster i shall die.

monster they shall bury.

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mbrainspaz · 1 year

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my plans to lurk in the attic and write during christmas vacation foiled by gran once again

#antisocial #writer problems #goblin men is me #christmas 2022 #lakehouse shenanigans #personal problems #text messages

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girlblogging9 · 7 months

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#feelings #thoughts #words #writers on tumblr #actuallytraumatized #antisocial #mentally fucked #doomer girl #girlblogging #female urge #female rage #female hysteria

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fearofahumanplanet · 2 years

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Your Favorite Villain

My book!

Warning: I am borderline, narcissistic, and antisocial. If you have a problem with people bearing those personality disorders (or histrionics!!) fuck off and work on yourself. Gods know you need it.

Anathema Morgan is an Irish-American trickster deity moonlighting as a writer of fiction when it isn't too busy saving the world from itself. It goes by the pronouns it/its and presents feminine. It is a mouthy sufferer of a mix of Cluster B personality disorders as a result of its DID, as well as chronic fatigue/pain, severe agoraphobia, complex PTSD and some other lovely conditions that have endlessly enriched its life. Having spent 23 years walking the world alone and 8 of those years writing, it seeks to make sure no one ever has to feel the way it did again without a supportive voice and its trademark brand of realistic optimism for the future.

While Ana Morgan gets bored easily and never tends to write anything remotely similar once a project is done, it can assure you that pretty much all of its work will bear some sort of psychological & body horror element, unforgettable characters & diverse cultures, an emotional cocktail that hits harder than moonshine, enough radical anarchist politics to make a dozen bigots combust with every copy of its work sold, and tales so realistic that most would deem them not safe for life.

When it's not busy terrorizing the tyrants of our world and standing with scapegoats with its weaponized words, Ana Morgan has a number of unhealthy special interests, ranging from horror movies, metal & punk music, first-person shooters & roguelikes, history & mythology, culture, graffiti art, motorcycles & skateboarding. Feel free to ask it anything - it only bites a little.

Work email for business inquiries: [email protected]

This blog contains NSFW (18+) content - I don't really impose any limits on my writing, and it is and has always been an outlet for my trauma! You have been warned.

THIS BLOG IS AND ALWAYS WILL BE A SAFE PLACE FOR ALL LGBT+ & QUEER PEOPLE, ALL CLUSTER B DISORDERS (INCLUDING NPD & ASPD), ALL DISABLED PEOPLE (PHYSICALLY OR MENTALLY), ANYONE OF ANY RACE & ETHNICITY, ETC. IF YOU'RE A BIGOT IN ANY REGARD, FUCK RIGHT OFF.

#intro #writing #writeblr #writers on tumblr #creative writing #writing community #bpd #actually bpd #actually borderline #bpd safe #npd #actually npd #actually narcissistic #npd safe #aspd #actually antisocial #actually aspd #aspd safe #hpd safe

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mermaid886 · 1 year

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When you’re a critically-thinking, antisocial introvert who’s over 30 and don’t care who you offend if you are forced to shut down an anti when they come for your favorite fandoms, actors, characters, pairings, or even your way of life.

#fandom #tumblrpost #critical thinking #ao3 writer #introverts #antisocial #harry potter #addams family #pro snape #i stand with johnny depp #i stand with percy

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aspd-culture · 1 year

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ASPD writer culture is finding out that pro-socials actually feel guilty sometimes when writing angst. That they mean the "I'm sorry for this" etc. they put in tags.

And I just. Since when are we supposed to feel hurt when writing/reading angst??? You mean to tell me you're not enjoying hurting your characters, that you don't find it amazing to see them miserable? What do you mean that hurting the characters hurts you too?

Also, ASPD writer culture is being incredible at writing angst since you were a child.

:O what...

#I was a writer for so long and posted my fics publicly #oh jeez #aspd-culture-is #aspd culture is #aspd culture #actually aspd #aspd #aspd awareness #actually antisocial #antisocial personality disorder #aspd traits #anons welcome

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taciturnghoul · 7 months

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❝Have no idea on what to write, but I am on wattpad so you should definitely check me out on there.❞

#wattpad #writer #fanficwriter #antisocial #taciturnghoul

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kastlequill · 11 months

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i love being a writer because it allows for me to ask questions like “hey, how can i kill someone inconspicuously in a hospital if they’re hooked up to an iv?” and my medical whump expert friend to respond with “oh, air would work for sure”

i was afraid to use google but who needs google when you have writer friends… love them

#writing fic has been such a lovely hobby these days #i cant believe i wrote 3.9k of a miguel fic in (checks notes) 3 days #and i was content with it??? thats crazy usually i take forever to feel Okay to post #now i need to finish the draft for chapter 2 of my ghost fic #and im starting the second part of the black cat reader series #its just so much fun #but i wish i had more writer friends or close knit writing discords #too bad im antisocial for real #rambles

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lesbiancarat · 2 years

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i finished watching mr. bad (c-drama) the other day, and it made me really excited for exclusive fairytale to come out 🥺 tbh I'm not a huge fan of modern dramas/realistic fiction in general so i was mostly looking forward to it bc of jun, but watching mr. bad is making me look forward to the story itself if that makes sense ;-;

#its not like ive never enjoyed modern dramas before its just been a hot minute since i watched one i liked #also i highly recommend mr. bad btw!!#premise is that the MC accidentally summons the villain in the novel she wrote and romance ensues #but also the ML isnt actually that villainous hes a bit of an asshole for a few eps and then goes full simp mode #also the side pairing is girlboss ceo who likes extreme sports and her antisocial writer boyfriend who is autistic #they dont say hes autistic but as an autisitc person... he is 100% autistic and i love him #and also NONE of them know how to date but they keep asking each other for dating advice #theyre all dorks and i love them so much #its on viki the first like 5 eps are free and the rest are subscription only 😔#yes i did cave and pay for viki subscription again bc of this drama #i need to remember to cancel it lmao #ANYWAY #melia.txt

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asteryxabyss · 1 year

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Hey fellow tumblr peeps!

this is where I'll just post random things,quotes and things about my life here right now!

I'm a girl (she/her), I'm an artist (traditional) and I'm a 97% weirdo!

I am in multiple fandoms (don't ask..😀😀) and will mostly rant about life snd you can send requests on my profile to request (again girl..) anything about any topics!

•Socials•

Roblox; g14mourr Wattpad;g14mourr Tumblr (you're here right now!!)

Very nice to see you and I'll see your aura in the next generation......👹👹👹

#writeblr intro #introducing myself #Writer #Ranting about God knows what😭😭😭😭💀💀💀💀💀#Love #Self care #Weirdo writer check!#Antisocial

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introvertedantisocialpessimist · 2 years

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In the absence of time

You were my peace keeper

My unrelenting and restless sea

My home and lover

And my endless thoughts

- Catalyst ( Me )

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k--havok · 1 year

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Ok but fr how are y’all getting your work out there / getting ppl to be interested in your WIP introductions / etc

Bc I’m totally lost

#shutuplanx #writeblr #writers on tumblr #writing #writeblr community #maybe it’s bc I’m an antisocial vampire but like seriously #I try my darndest to interact w others and it’s like. idk. i def feel ppl don’t like me v much #or maybe it’s bc I’m very insecure and have a hard time making friends due to Trauma TM idk

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indianascones · 2 years

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I wonder when I’ll feel settled in life. I wonder if I’ve ever felt settled in any life.

I feel like a shard of glass among puzzle pieces. Misplaced trash. I don’t seem to fit anywhere.

I wonder if other people feel like I stick in their side when they try to get close. I wonder if I shred and pierce everything that gets close.

I thought I would feel more at ease if I was around familiarity but I‘m not sure if I ever felt that way. It’s difficult being around people that care about you more than you do. It’s guilt inducing.

I wonder why am I like this? Why can’t I be normal? Why are basic things so hard? And why is it so easy to sink into myself? It starts off avoiding one store run, then another, then canceling appointments, until eventually you decline so many social invitations you become a living ghost.

A figure that exists without experiencing. And a big part of me is ok with that. It should scare me, but it doesn’t. It should worry me that humans are classified as social creatures while I’m anything but. I should worry why I’m no longer interested in the world or in foraging relationships.

But I don’t.

None of it worries me.

Instead, I think about past lives and wonder what animal I could’ve been. Perhaps it’s easier imagining these traits are nothing more than shadows from the beast I once was.

#original post #freewrite #free thought #self isolating #antisocial #spilled thoughts #writer thoughts #source: my brain

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max-writes-randoms · 9 days

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Mini story #2

Summary: a (very) short story featuring two of my OCs who live in an urban fantasy universe. It involves awkward conversations and fanfic-level crushes

Theme: "my crush just kinda asked me out"

Word count: 826 (short)

Content warnings: incredibly brief mention of death, awkward conversations, and fanfic-level convenience

Notes: my only experience writing romance is writing fanfiction, so prepare for that kind of dialogue

Tall, tanned, long curly blond hair, beautiful eyes, nice muscles, handsome face, so friendly, a heart of gold-

“You should ask him out.”

Ashe inhales so sharply he almost chokes when Morrigan speaks right into his ear.

He coughs and looks at her.

She’s joined him under his favourite tree, and is now opening a book that seems to be about elemental magic. He does not miss the smirk on her face though, or the spark in her eye.

“Ask- Ask who out?” he stutters.

Morrigan shoves him playfully.

“Jasper! Who else do you have a crush on? Actually, I’d like to know that if you do like someone else. Then I can help matchmake!”

Ashe groans and leans his head back. But he can’t help quickly looking up when he hears Jasper laugh.

Damn.

This crush is… Starting to consume him.

Mentally, at least.

He’d rather die again than admit it though.

He watches as Jasper starts a basketball match with the other Luna Pack wolves.

He moves so quickly, with such purpose, and while smiling the entire time…

“Ashe, seriously, you just need to talk to him. Staring creepily will only get you so far.”

He glares at Morrigan.

“And that’s not what you did with Sabrina?”

“That’s exactly what I did with Sabrina! So I can tell you from experience, staring is a no-go, talking is a yes-sir! Just say hi or something, he’ll probably take it from there, he’s super friendly.”

“...How do you know that?”

Morrigan grins.

“I said hi the other day. Figured since you’re head over heels, I should see if he’d be a good fit for you.”

“Oh for the love of…” Ashe mutters and puts his face in his hands.

“Please tell me you didn’t tell him I like him.”

“Of course I didn’t! I was gathering info, that’s all.”

“How am I even gonna start a conversation?! We only share art classes, and don’t even sit near each other! He’s into sports, I would rather sit in a corner by myself…”

Morrigan pats Ashe on the shoulder.

“Hey, relax. I have an idea.”

Ashe looks at her.

And immediately knows that this idea is not a good one.

He barely opens his mouth before-

“HEY JASPER!” Morrigan yells over to him, then starts waving.

Ashe has never before wanted to sink into the ground so strongly.

Jasper looks over, and waves back with a smile.

The basketball game was just finishing.

And apparently Jasper is happy to let his friends finish it without him, as he grabs his water bottle, and starts walking over to Ashe and Morrigan.

Morrigan whispers, “See? Told you he’s super friendly”

Ashe whispers back, “I will never forgive you for this”

“yes you will.”

“Hi Morrigan. And Ashe, right?” Jasper smiles as he greets them and sits down on the grass in front of them.

Ashe is surprised he knows who he is.

Morrigan grins.

“Hey Jasper. Ashe wanted to say hi.”

Ashe immediately shoots her a look that could kill.

Jasper is still smiling though.

“Cool! I don’t think we’ve ever talked properly before.”

He then holds out his hand.

“I’m Jasper. We share Miss Anitty’s art class; I sit in the back, not sure if you’ve noticed me.”

Ashe gives a small smile and nervously shakes his hand.

“Uh, yeah. I’ve seen you in class, you always make really good paintings. I’m-I’m Ashe.”

Jasper is still smiling.

Ashe’s main thoughts are ‘his eyes are gorgeous’.

And then when Jasper speaks again, his thoughts are ‘oh my god, really?!’

“Hey, Ashe. Me and a couple friends are going to WonderGrimm Diner later. Do you, uh, wanna come with? They serve vampire friendly stuff there.”

Ashe blinks.

“Me? You… Want me to come too?”

Jasper looks a little nervous for a second before his smile is back.

“Yeah! I mean, I’ve wanted to talk with you for a while, y’know? Your drawings in class are awesome, and your style’s super cool. You’ve just always seemed like you like being left alone.”

Ashe smiles at that. A genuine smile.

“Sure, I’d like to come along. Never been to WonderGrimm.”

Jasper looks overjoyed at that.

“Awesome! Meet you here at 6?”

“Sure. Thanks Jasper.”

“You’re welcome. Maybe you can bring a sketchbook with you. My friends have been dying to see your drawings since I talked about them. Anyway, I’ll see you later!”

Jasper gets up and waves before heading back to his friends, who have finished their basketball game.

Ashe lets out a breath he hadn’t realised he’d been holding, and Morrigan claps her hands together excitedly.

“You have a date! You have a date! He’s definitely into you too.”

Ashe speaks with his eyes closed. He needs a minute of darkness to relax from that.

“Morrigan. Both screw you for that, and I absolutely love you for that. Thanks.”

She laughs.

“You’re welcome. Now come on, we gotta get you ready!”

#short story #mini story #story drabble #drabble #original work #original story #original characters #writeblr #bookblr #writing #writers on tumblr #writerscommunity #creative writing #max-writes-randoms #oc-morrigan-pink-paws #oc-ashe-the-antisocial-vampire #oc-jasper-the-golden-wolf #au-a-vampire-and-pink-cat

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poeticmusingsblog · 29 days

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As long as those I love reciprocate my feelings, I don’t mind being disliked by the rest of the world. I don’t like everyone I know, either. Honestly, I don’t like 99% of the people I know.

#spilled ink #writing #lit #original quote #funny quotes #original thoughts #random realization #quotes #antisocial #female writers

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errrrrror4zero4 · 2 months

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Writing my first BL novel with my Original characters. which will eventually be turned into a webtoon once I regain my confidence in art 😭

<a href="https://archiveofourown.org/works/54214570">The Heart's Obsessions</a> (2864 words) by <a href="https://archiveofourown.org/users/4zero4">4zero4</a> Chapters: 1/? Fandom: <a href="https://archiveofourown.org/tags/Original%20Work">Original Work</a> Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Original Character(s) & Original Character(s), Original Male Character/Original Male Character Characters: Original Male Character(s), Original Characters Additional Tags: Boys In Love, LGBTQ Character, Canon LGBTQ Character, Korean Characters, Tragedy, Angst and Tragedy, Tragic Romance, Angst and Romance, Romance, Drama & Romance, Emotional/Psychological Abuse, Psychological Trauma, Psychological Drama, Teen Romance, Teen Angst, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Trauma, Childhood Trauma, Borderline Personality Disorder, Psychopathology & Sociopathy, Avoidant Personality Disorder, Dysfunctional Family, Codependency, Star-crossed, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Abuse, Physical Abuse, Sexual Abuse, Substance Abuse, Past Sexual Abuse, Mental Anguish, Mental Instability, Emotional Manipulation, Manipulation, Manipulative Relationship, Possessive Behavior, Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-con, Attempted Rape/Non-Con, Past Domestic Violence, Domestic Violence, Implied/Referenced Domestic Violence, Non-Sexual Submission, Submissive Character, Non-Sexual Intimacy, Non-Sexual Bondage, Non-Consensual Oral Sex, Oral Sex, Anal Sex, Anal Play, Sadism, Masochism, Kissing, Rough Kissing, Neck Kissing, Non-Consensual Kissing, Author Is Sleep Deprived, I Wrote This Instead of Sleeping, Sleep Sex, Tags May Change, Tags Are Hard, Tags Contain Spoilers, Gay Male Character, Gay, Daddy Issues, Mommy Issues, High School, Meant To Be, Suicidal Thoughts, Implied/Referenced Suicide, Suicide Attempt Summary: Genre: BL, Romance, Psychological, tragedyAge Rating: 18+character(s) are… Dong-Hyun and Ji-WookDong means "east" in Korean, and Hyun can mean "graceful" or "elegant" in addition to its definition of "bright and splendid". He has messy black hair, with the green eyes giving a glimpse of grace and elegance beneath his depressed demeanor and glasses.Ji roughly means "God" or "Heaven" in Korean, and is meant to show the prideful personality that he has. Which hints towards his own identity. Wook simply means "bright and beautiful", which suits his lovely pink hair and vivid red eyes.Setting: High school and maybe up to collegeThemes explored: Power, obsession, trauma bonding, codependency, moon coded/sun coded characters.Conflict: Can they prevail their issues and seek refuge in each other without further destroying themselves and each other

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