people might be like "you waste like 4 hours a day scrolling tumblr and sometimes tiktok, why do you hate reels so much?"

well ya see, reels™™™ from "meta™" are a collection of completely uncultivated mindless gibberish content infested with rage bait ghouls that's constantly being thrust into my face on two platforms where I have worked for years to cultivate my experiences. On instagram I followed only artists I liked in order to see their art. On facebook I wanted to see posts from people I actually know, and nothing else. Meta hates that because I'm not CONSUMING enough CONTENT. Not clicking enough Links. Not interacting with enough brandsss.

In barges Reels with its endless stream of drivel about random bullshit like funny horse videos and celebrity drama. Do I watch videos like that on tiktok? Absolutely, and the crucial difference is that I went to tiktok and intentionally cultivated an algorithm that would give me content that I wanted to see when and where I wanted to see it. I wasn't tricked into going down a braindead video funnel by clickbait. I continuously and consciously cultivate my tiktok algorithm with a reasonable degree of success. Meanwhile Reels is over on the sidelines sobbing, begging me to click just ONE VIDEO PLEASE GODS JUST CLICK ONE! I refuse to be suckered in to watching some hour long rage bait video about ice cream in a toilet like 45 million other idiots. Like my aunt from Indiana who had to let the world know that she knows not to eat ice cream out of a toilet.

I wish I could set Reels™ on fire and feed it to wild dogs.

Here’s a quick rundown of the things in my brain that aren’t letting me sleep:

I haven’t posted a fic since 2021 and I want to write something to post this weekend but what? What fandom? What story?

I tried to crochet a baby blanket for my sister in law and it turned into a triangle and it’s still just about the nicest thing I’ve ever crocheted so I’m sending it to her anyway.

I have been suffering from eczema on my eyelids for fucking months and I sought advice from a woman in a cosmetics store (I have seen seven doctors and the eye doctor six times and consulted various pharmacists) and she took me to the skin care section and started recommending me eye creams that were all anti-aging and kept saying “I know you won’t need to care about that for years yet and your age but it’s still really good.” And first of all, it’s not good for eczema, so jot that down. It dries the skin out more. And second of all, it was my birthday a week ago and I turned 41, so… but I felt bad for bugging her so I bought some eyeshadow primer that she promised would help me. I don’t wear fucking eyeshadow but I didn’t want to hurt her feelings. But if anyone has advice on how to fix my eyes, I’d be so grateful.

I had a SURGERY on my HEAD the day before my birthday and it was so weird. And there are dissolvable stitches. Gross.

Listen, I think that’s all. Thank you for listening. Here is a birthday selfie of me and Tumbleweed, who tries his best to be the best boy.

Like to just vent real quick about how frustrating it is to have my ADHD meds out of stock with no clue when I'll get them refilled due to the shortage. And having to go cold turkey and some how function at my job that I need my meds to focus.

I hate feeling that level of exhaustion from the lack of my meds.

Put your problems on Instagram story, they will disappear after 24 hours.

currently in a life crisis because however much I love people I can’t actually start a conversation with them

i was having queer breakups with people i wasn’t actually dating before it was cool

i hate men. i fucking hate all of them.

Guys, here in Greece it has been raining non-stop for 3 consecutive days and now the city I live in is drowning! Personally I'm fine because I live in a part of the city where the river doesn't flow, but we have no water and electricity! I may be inactive for some time!

what is my problem? well, starting to revise philosophy and saying "dostoevsky" instead of "aristotle". that's my problem.

[it's because I finished to read the adolescent this morning, here's why and because I don't like philosophy at all, especially aristotle]

I did my deutsch hausaufgabe for !! 12!!! hours I almost forgot how to englisch schreiben Ich am freakin' müde I'm just schlafe on the move SEND HILFE

Heard a huge bang in the middle of the night last night. It was one of the cats stealing my bookmark out of my book and in the process pulling it off of the table I had left it on. Thankfully my book is fine, but my bookmark is nowhere to be found… (and I’ll have to figure out where I am in my book 😑)

biggest facebook marketplace pet peeve is people coming in asking me 'what's the lowest you'll go'. That's not how haggling works, you gosh darn buffoons. You can't just pop in to my dms and make me haggle with myself! Weak shit. If you don't have the raw guts to ask me to sell for 50% of my asking price you ain't gettin' it!

Look at him.

Aur batao kia scenes hain?

5 novels pdf mai rakhay hain. 2 kal mazeed bhi download kiye hain. 15 posts draft mai save hain. Aur bank account mai paisay nhi hain.(account hi nhi hai siray se) 3 assignments pending hai aur parhna shuro nhi kiya hai. Papa saibb k ilawa koi phal ghar nhi la rhy hain aur university ki canteen mn hr cheez Rs. 20/ mehengi hogyi hai. Aj shaam ki chaye mai cheeni km thi aur mama ne qeemay mai aloo dal kr khanay ko ghareebon wala kr dya hai.

Ye scenes hain.