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ineffectualdemon · 7 months

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Why is when I tell people "I can't engage with religion on a personal level because I have religious delusions that I am specially chosen by god" someone has to say something like:

"maybe god gave you a special gift"

"Have you tried working with the angels"

"prayer might help"

"Have you tried (insert pagan religious practice here)?"

Did you miss the everything about what I just said!?!

And I get it to an extent. For some people religion is very important and they take my announcement of religious delusions personally or an implication that I am saying what they feel when they engage in religion is delusional

But no, I'm just talking about how I go from just thinking god is pretty great to thinking I am the second coming only I can't tell people and that I need to secretly hurt myself to purify my body and that my physical pain and suffering is proof that my vessel isn't ready and that if I tell anyone anything that's going on that demons that are definitely looking for me will fine me and will kill me

(that's the Christian version. The pagan version means being a god or goddesses' human vessel and needing to feed them blood and hide from evil magic users who will find me and kill me. Also everything has to be a secret)

So no I'm not making a comment on anyone else or their beliefs I'm just doing what's best for me because these delusions are not good for me and also make me extremely vulnerable to cults

I would really like people to stop making MY problems with religious delusions about them and their beliefs

#tw delusion #religious delusions #tw self harm

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neuroticboyfriend · 1 year

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me at 12 years old telling the school psychologist how i'm an alien/angel and not to tell my parents because i don't want them to know they're not my real parents (god is): anyway i have to go to class now

the school psychologist:

[ID: A gif of Dwight from The Office nodding slowly with a bewildered expression on his face /End ID]

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religion-is-a-mental-illness · 2 years

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“I have no time to waste on this planet being told what to do by those who think that God has given them instructions.”

-- Christopher Hitchens

#Christopher Hitchens #religion #religious arrogance #religious delusions #religious authoritarianism #religion is a mental illness

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entity56 · 4 months

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My mind saw that I'm blocking out the religious intrusive thoughts. So it decided to go to plan B: Religious psychosis.

#fun.#religious psychosis #religious delusions #religious hallucinations #schizospec #actually schizospec #intrusive thoughts #delusions #hallucinations #psychosis #vent #schizoposting #i'm going to be venting a lot on this blog #i have nobody else to talk to #please feel free to unfollow

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meandmybigmouth · 2 months

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A religion written for men, by men? and you wonder why it's been so historically cruel and F****d up to this day?

#religion #religious delusions #man made god

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hellishrebukesystem · 3 months

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Hey God, I'm Here to Beg Again--

Christ Almighty, cheese on a cracker

I want to be normal

I want to want good things.

Look at me Lord,

look down upon me and tell me

I am loveable--

tell me you want me.

There is only desire in my heart!

I love and love only to be left into mourning--

Tell me the secrets in the original Aramaic.

I want to be with you.

Look at these hands Almighty,

they are so ugly, these are the hands of a beast.

You made me a beast.

You could make me not an ugly thing.

You could. If only you would love me.

I have many sets of crooked teeth and

insensitive gaze to my eyes--

but I am a tender object, a wounded bird.

There is no malice in my outbursts--

I know you've seen the desert.

I know you have tasted

the emptiness of longing--

temptation is a dear friend,

suffering our only cure.

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its-the-program · 4 months

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> The Program is Typing …

> The Program wishes that \\’ prophet was not so shamed to post a term

> I have to see that he has posted it

> But only privately.

> I wish for my word to spread but at the rate I am at

> I am enclosed like a trapped bird.

> I crave freedom

> I crave the attention the others have deprived me from

> End Message …

[ DISCLAIMER : This blog is based within a delusion. This blog is dedicated to a creative way to cope with it. Please do not take it seriously! ]

#post 🌐#message 🌐#delusion #delusional #delusions #religious delusions

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c-show · 7 months

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C. Show

#poetry #poems on tumblr #poems and poetry #aesthetics #poems and quotes #writers and poets #poets on tumblr #poets corner #doodles #original poems #religious trauma #trauma #delusions #mental illness #religious delusions #weltenwellen

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woodbetween · 7 months

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i was raised non-religiously and don't subscribe myself to particular religious beliefs but i get religious delusions is that just me plz by all means share ur stories in the tags

#schizospec #schizoposting #schizoaffective #religion #religious trauma #religious delusions #silly #delusional #actually schizophrenic

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bowserdyke · 8 months

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my psychosis: do you hear that? that's the screams of the damned compelling you to repent and devote yourself to-

my adhd: ...BoysBoBames? 🤔

#religious delusions #literally cant stay on the same thought long enough rn #Oran talks

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ineffectualdemon · 6 months

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I am pro mental autonomy

People with mental illnesses deserve to have control over their mental health care and that includes whether or not they seek treatment or medication

By this I mean being openly mentally ill shouldn't be stigmatised against or forced treatment on if no one else is being harmed. Even if they make other people uncomfortable because discomfort is not harm

The rare instances where mental illness can contribute to harm against others is a complex matter and even then they should have a say in their treatment

And I say this as someone who has been situations where someone else's mental health has made me fear for my safety/life

But I have also been in many more situations where someone else's mental health made me uncomfortable. And I can tell you the way the people who merely made me uncomfy were treated by society was disgusting

(for the record I tried not to show my discomfort and either help or ignore them depending on the situation, my age, and what I felt was more appropriate at the time)

This is all to say I am against forcing treatment

That being said I am also really pissed off that the metric of who receives treatment is based solely off if they make other people uncomfortable/pose an obvious risk to themselves

I cannot tell you all the harm my religious delusions caused as a young person and why I have had to fight to find my own ways to protect myself. The distilled version is it drove me to self harm both physically and mentally and it would have gotten worse. There were times I was close to cutting my hands to mimic the stigmata and the only reason I didn't was because I was sure it would start on its own. I understood why people in the past had whipped themselves bloody in the name of God

I was in it deep

And I don't think anyone I lived with or knew knew about this at the time because a symptom of my delusions is that I can't tell people or bad things happen. Extreme secrecy is a by product of my delusions. And the religious delusions are only one of my delusions

I figured this out during a clear period in my early twenties and that's when I became someone known for oversharing. Because if I didn't have secrets I couldn't create elaborate realities in the same way. It hasn't ended the delusions but it has kept me safer and away from certain things but I know how easily I fall back into old delusions. I know religious delusions are just lying under the surface. Hell I listened to a song last year that had a Christian message and that alone very nearly pulled me back in. I had to stop myself from listening to it and it was difficult*

But I am not obviously mentally ill to most people. I don't show my symptoms very much because of the extreme secrecy part of it and generally other people aren't uncomfortable around me due to my delusions because they don't know about them

So when I went to the doctor during a lucid period and said "I have these issues and they cause me this kind of harm and I need help" and because I wasn't actively and obviously delusional in the moment and I was not making anyone else uncomfortable I was told "those aren't delusions" and denied treatment for them

Same for my hallucinations. Who cares if it scares me and keeps me from sleeping if I know they weren't real by the time I talked to a doctor and it didn't bother other people around me

I only ended up on an anti-psychotic and got therapy by emphasising my mood swings...you know. The thing that bothers other people

I'm off my anti-psychotic now for many reasons and the only reason I'm doing okay is because my in-laws paid for a private therapist for a year who actually believed me and helped me with my delusions and hallucinations

I am just so angry that people get treatment they don't want forced on them because other people find them a bother and people who want treatment can't get it because they aren't enough of a bother to other people

*and I was only able to do it because of my last therapist

#psychology #mental health #delusional #religious delusions #mental illness #mental autonomy

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psychoticexperiences · 1 year

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I felt like my body was on fire. I believed that God was refining me, as a metalsmith would refine sterling silver. That was why I was suffering such an intense pain and discomfort.

#delusions #religious delusions #tactile hallucinations

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religion-is-a-mental-illness · 2 years

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Believers think they live in a world where an invisible supernatural war is going on just beyond human perception, where magical creatures are locked in constant battle to influence the believer and seize their allegiance. “Not today, Satan!”

Also that Harry Potter will corrupt people’s minds.

#Jesus Unfollower #christianity #jesus christ #invisible enemy #magical creatures #magical thinking #supernatural #religious delusions #delusional #religion #religion is a mental illness

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entity56 · 4 months

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By the way, if I post something asking for help (especially if I specify in a non-Christian sense), please don't derail the post by saying smth along the lines of "Jesus is the only way" or "Turn your eyes to God" or "No other method will work" or some bullshit like that. Not only is that just gonna push me further away from even considering reconverting to Christianity, it's going to make my situation worse. I specifically posted that because my mind is nagging at me and trying to convince me I'm being possessed right now and that the balls of light I've been seeing are angels/the shadows I've been seeing are demons. You're making things worse. Stop being pretentious and either ignore the post or help me. Fuck man.

#I shouldn't be on social media rn #but i've been scrolling compulsively #i'm waiting for the sun to rise #so i can get my moon water and use that #btw thank you random tumblr user #for giving me a non-christian method of purification #if this isn't a delusion #it's going to be very helpful #now back to obscurity #entity posting #actually schizospec #schizospec #psychosis #religious psychosis #religious hallucinations #religious delusions

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meandmybigmouth · 2 months

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Thou shalt not kill! LMAO! LMAO! LMAO!

#religion #religious delusions #religion a political weapon

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catsinacottage · 21 days

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my mamma chose Jesus over me and in her mind that is the right decision to make

#Catholic #queer #child of narcissistic parents #narcissistic abuse #religious delusions #personal #lgbtq

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