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By the way, if I post something asking for help (especially if I specify in a non-Christian sense), please don't derail the post by saying smth along the lines of "Jesus is the only way" or "Turn your eyes to God" or "No other method will work" or some bullshit like that. Not only is that just gonna push me further away from even considering reconverting to Christianity, it's going to make my situation worse. I specifically posted that because my mind is nagging at me and trying to convince me I'm being possessed right now and that the balls of light I've been seeing are angels/the shadows I've been seeing are demons. You're making things worse. Stop being pretentious and either ignore the post or help me. Fuck man.
#I shouldn't be on social media rn#but i've been scrolling compulsively#i'm waiting for the sun to rise#so i can get my moon water and use that#btw thank you random tumblr user#for giving me a non-christian method of purification#if this isn't a delusion#it's going to be very helpful#now back to obscurity#entity posting#actually schizospec#schizospec#psychosis#religious psychosis#religious hallucinations#religious delusions
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random question
not a tea expert, just curious
#yagotalk#god knows if i made every poll i ever wanted this acc would be nothing but obscure polls...#normally i hold back but im on my 3rd cup of tea for today and the tea to selfcontrol ratio is all sorts of out of propotrion now
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#sobble#now THIS was the starter that i chose in my actual playthrough of swsh. this little fucker was Basically my reintroduction to pokémon#bc as i've talked abt many times i had a long reprieve from pokémon during my teenage years and only got back into it#with the release of swsh. and this thing was the starter i chose at that time#subconsciously i think the reason i chose them is because i wanted to be subversive. right#i do this sometimes. for some reason. where i know there's an obvious option i wanna pick but i don't do it because i don't wanna be#“obvious” and choose the “obvious” choice that everyone knows i would pick so i pick a different‚ more obscure option for some reason#i did this with sobble over scorbunny. more recently i did it in every playthrough of bg3 i've ever done#where i've never played a dragonborn despite OBVIOUSLY KNOWING i would choose a dragonborn#because i don't wanna be too “obvious”. i dunno i should just play a dragonborn already. and i should just admit to liking cinderace
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i dont think 97 would do it but morph should just have boobs sometimes
#x-men#xmen#x-men 97#xmen 97#morph#sorry why is this what i tag#ANDA ALSO SORRY I KEEP MORPHPOSTING LOLL THEYRE NOT THE ONLY THING ON MY MIND JST. HAPPEN TO DECIDE TO POST MORPHSTUFF#listen its not everyday an oldass series just suddenly comes back and i get to see my 'obscure' fave again#and they accidentally make them like the weird version of them in my head i imagined while rewatching but its canon now#im allowed to be a little annoying abaout that ok.#anyways moobs (morph boobs)#actually it would be fcking hilarious if they prove me wrong. definitely not anytime soon w the way 97s going rn ACTUALLY COULDYUO IMAGINE#the horrors. dont look at morph
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h-how do you ever finish any of your work? genuine question because you seem to be productive despite your agreste syndrome and I need to learn your ways. but also how do you ever finish any of your work
unclear. last night i stayed up and finished a report worth 25% of my grade at about 5am, arrived on time for my 9am lecture, and spent about half of it zoned out while thinking about seventeen year old emilie agreste. and i was one of the most active participants in the class discussion
#in some ways it IS the move to go to grad school right out of undergrad#because your body can still sort of operate like a college kid#i’m on about 3ish hours of sleep rn and this morning it felt SO over but now i’ve eaten something and we’re so back#i also don’t really do caffeine. except sometimes i’ll go get one of those panera death lemonades#i might be able to snag a short nap before work#but anyway about seventeen year old emilie. i was thinking abt how she was in that movie solitude and adrien said she was seventeen#WAIT. NO. HE SAID SHE WAS SEVENTEEN IN THAT PHOTO ON HIS DESKTOP NOT IN THE MOVIE#well. okay whatever i’m gonna tell you what i was thinking about anyway#OKAY i’m back i just checked the wikipedia page and then i watched the end of gorizilla. to make sure i’m not lying. because i’m normal.#anyway i was thinking about the solitude film and how it’s super rare and old and obscure and whatever. and how apparently#emilie wrote it herself and andre produced it#and i’m thinking about how gabe was discovered by audrey and that’s how he got his start in the fashion industry#so now i’m like?? did gabe and emilie first meet on the set of solitude? because gabe was designing costumes or whatever?#and that’s how audrey found him? have people already thought about this??#also i just checked and it doesn’t say emilie’s last name in the credits and also it’s ‘graham films’ with the twin rings logo m#so i’m assuming she’s still emilie graham de vanily at that point#anyway it comes back to seventeen year old emilie because i started imagining seventeen year old runaway emilie having her new life in pari#after escaping her british nobility life#and the first thing she does is write and star in an original movie. of course.#and she meets this repressed bisexual punk upstart costume designer who is so the opposite of everyone she’s ever known#and he’s immediately so unhealthily obsessed with her. which she appreciates.#and then they proceed to have the most toxic doomed evil relationship of all time#also she gets cheated because once gabe gets money he represses himself SO hard that he is now exactly like all the people emilie grew up w#but at least he’s still obsessed with her#this is what i was thinking about during class today. i don’t know how i get anything done either.#ml#anna rambles#asks
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on fathers, homes, loyalties, and defectors
The Raven Boys ch 7 // Dream Thieves ch 5 // The Raven Boys ch 36 // Dream Thieves ch 5
#pynch#decladam#adamedit#ronanedit#declanedit#trcedit#Pynch#Decladam#Adam Parrish#Ronan Lynch#Declan Lynch#TRC#okay so this one is more obscure lkajfdhglkaj i might be reaching but HEAR ME OUT#the Pynch connection is obvious#being exiled from your home#no matter how terrible an environment it was Adam still finds himself longing throughout TRB and into DT to go HOME#even though it was awful and even though he chose (in the end) to leave it was still his home#that's a yearning that he and Ronan share#but i was also very struck by the forgiveness bit#before my reread i'd forgotten that Ronan says in their parking lot brawl that he will never forgive Declan#nobody specifies at that time what Declan DID but we get it later in DT ^^ he didn't fight the will#Ronan blames him for their exile - for the fact that they can't go home#and he blames Declan for hating dad#for turning his back on their father and making accusations against him#for betraying the family#the same thing that Adam knows his mother will never forgive him for now#am i making sense here????#quote posts
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...Um. Super, super late DP Invisobang 2023 art?
The fic by Rockity Sock is still an unpublished WIP so far, but it's really nice and will hopefully be completed and published later.
It begins at the end of the Ultimate Enemy episode, with Dan getting trapped in the thermos. And... I'm not sure how much I can say without spoiling it, but a lot of really cool stuff happens. It's a psychological type of fic, about different types of prisons and punishments, and has time stuff and pocket dimensions, and redemption stuff. (I was only planning on drawing one illustration for IB, but when I saw the WIP, I wanted to see so many things animated. So many awesome visuals. I wish I could've animated them all.)
This is the part I did animate:
He just walked for now, searching for the tiniest crack. The darkness went on for seemingly forever though, and no matter how far he walked it kept on going
Dan kept moving
He tried his best to break through the walls but every ectoblast he formed fizzled out. Fading into the darkness.
Oh, now it makes sense.
His powers are being limited, it takes him a few more tries to believe it. The fact that he’s trapped with nothing whatsoever. Endless hours spent, and wasted. Powers he has built up from the ground with no mentor, ones he trained endlessly after a decade.
Gone, disappeared, muffled. Limited. Dan let out a laugh, one with no humor. A laugh that turned into a cackle, he couldn’t stop.
Here's Rockity Sock's AO3 account: https://archiveofourown.org/users/rockitysockity and tumblr account: https://rockitysock.tumblr.com/
(I also uploaded the video on deviantArt and YouTube)
#invisobang 2023#danny phantom#dan phantom#animation#asj art#...this took so much longer than it should've D:#I think it has 232 images of Dan.#I tried a few things for the fog rustle sound effect but I think I went with rubbing my hand back and forth across a soft comforter blanket#(I was originally going to go with swishing my hand back and forth inside a wet bowl but it'd ended up sounding like dry leaves.)#the cape sound effects are from snapping a little throw blanket up and down.#I forget now exactly what I'd used to made the zap sound. It took some time in Cakewalk to figure out and I'd tried looking up tutorials.#The moving background was made by making a 'bg tile' that I could stack horizontally.#And for the fog on the 'floor' there's 8 cycling images at the start of the animation and 9 cycling images for the end of the animation.#For the spin I was going to make 112 frames for the background ...but after working on it for awhile I realized it'd take really long. :/#So I reused the background tile but put it in reverse and overlaid a rotation version at the end. (...though the fog obscures a lot of it)#I'd used the magicposer website mannequin as reference to draw the key frames of Dan's spin.#I drew the images in Photoshop with the animation feature and then saved each one as a png.#Then imported them into Premiere Pro to add a few effects (the zoom for the first shot and the movement of the bg).#Lexx helped me a lot with figuring out music stuff and using Cakewalk for some sound editing.#But I also used Premiere Pro for some sound editing too.#(At one point I'd planned on animating three scenes and having a song in the bg. The growing sound in the first shot is the bass part.#(And things were going to be added onto the song in the other two scenes. ...But then I'd dropped the other two scenes.)#(I was also originally going to have Dan do two more quick ectoblasts after the first one but decided to cut them out for time.)#(also it's not that I can't draw hands. it's just that I knew it would take longer if I did. I'd decided to cut time by not drawing them.)#(...though most of my shortcuts ended up being long-cuts that also hurt the quality. ...Should've done things right.)
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dess leading to a functional page but december not... hometowns spelling bee using december despite a girl with that name just disappearing... what if she just hated her family's christmas gimmick and just never gave away her full name. there's so many themes of alienation in the game including kris and susie so it's very well possible
#logs#deltarune#dess holiday#utdr#that reminds me.. i was doing a full drawing with gaster and dess at one point#but it got corrupted when i was almost done so i just gave up on it.. (which. to be fair. very on brand)#it was just a dumb joke like 'would you like (obscure tea) or (obscure tea)' 'um. do you have nutmeg' 'no <3'#but now im thinking i could do something more with it#like#''you know#i always hated this constant... christmas theme our whole family had. it always felt so gimmicky.#and it still does. but now... id give anything to go back to it#just for a moment''#something like that. and gaster is like well i do not know how to handle that My Apologies#also it could delve deeper into the holiday family dynamic as a whole as well!!!#deltarune theory#metatext#spamsweep
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Alexa cue boulevard of broken dreams by green day
#i am alive!#i refuse to let a lvls kill me js yet#anyways loki ending had me sobbing a little bit#<- was shaking n crying n yelling that loki had the most tragic ending#so i had to get this out of my system i shall go back into obscurity now bye#loki#loki season 2#loki spoilers#loki s2#marvel#marvel fanart
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oohhh.... feeling evil might mess with some roman genders.......
#i read this book when i was little where one of the characters was born a girl but their mum brought them up as a boy and hid it from them#to avoid discrimination or something/i can't fully remember..... so obviously im now thinking of that .with some roman guys + their mothers#looking for opportunities to socially advance. like if the family used to be great but had fallen into obscurity and they needed a seat in#the senate to claw back some dignity and the mum has like six girls before saying 'fuck it' and just bringing the last one up as a boy#to get that seat.like#idk im finding it intriguing to think about..... obviously there would have to be a lot of precautions taken and stuff but i think it would#be interesting to explore!#not sure if i should make my own guy to do/explore/write this with or make up a sneaky little backstory for an already existing guy#either way. thumbs up emoji#yapping
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(wait for the season to come back to me tag)
“We still on for dinner this Thursday, or are you gonna reschedule again? Because I swear to god, Steve, I will break into your apartment and set up camp if I have to. It’s been years. Centuries.”
“It’s been a month, Henderson.”
“I barely remember who you are anymore. What’s your name again? How do I know you? We’re actually very happy with our current cable provider, thanks.”
God, that kid is such an asshole. Steve loves the shit out of him.
“Listen, I’ll see you on Thursday and explain everything, okay? Actually, uh—I’m kinda calling to give you a heads-up. Got some big news, so you should, like…brace yourself.”
Dustin’s quiet for a long, worrying moment.
“Steve. You have got to know that that’s the least helpful thing you could possibly say. You’re not even gonna give me a hint, man?”
“Wish I could. It’s not a bad thing, okay? Just big. Like…Upside Down big.”
“Okay, for my own peace of mind, I’m going to pretend you’re completely overreacting about the fact that you, like, got a dog or something.”
“I’m not—”
“Peace of mind, Steve! See you Thursday at my place! Don’t cancel or I’ll kill you!”
Steve’s left laughing into the dial tone. Honestly, he’d mostly called so Dustin couldn’t complain afterwards about not getting an advance warning. There’s just no way to hint at the whole Eddie thing without Eddie being present and accounted for; it would be the worst kind of cruel.
Steve can’t imagine what he’d have done to anyone who tried to tell him Eddie was alive without any kind of proof. It wouldn’t have been good.
“So we’re telling Henderson on Thursday?” Eddie jostles Steve’s shoulder. Steve thinks he’s been doing that a lot more lately.
“Seems like,” says Steve.
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They take the train to Dustin’s place in Wilmette as soon as it gets dark out. Eddie’s bundled up in a nondescript hoodie and one of Steve’s denim jackets, looking like every other Chicagoan braced against the cool evening air.
They haven’t been going out all that much. Robin keeps asking if Eddie wants to do any tourist stuff, maybe the museums or something, but he always shrugs off the offers. Steve would’ve maybe expected him to want to get out and explore, now that he’s not cooped up anymore, but Eddie mostly seems to want to sleep, read, and watch TV.
Robin’s been on a campaign to educate Eddie about the ten years of pop culture he missed. “It’s essential for rehabilitation,” she says. Steve is pretty sure it’s just an excuse to make them rewatch all of Robin’s favorite movies, because some of the stuff she brings home was definitely already out in 1986.
Eddie draws the line at letting Robin show him music, though: “Nope, nuh-uh, no freaking way. I wouldn’t have listened to that shimmery synth shit if I’d been alive and free every single day of the last decade, and I’m not gonna listen to it now.”
Steve does have a few metal cassettes, but he feels weird about bringing them out. It feels like he’s crossing a line, somehow—admitting to something. So instead, they’d all traipsed over to the Tower Records a few blocks over, and let Eddie roam around sampling things.
To Steve’s surprise, Eddie hadn’t actually picked up that many metal albums. He'd grabbed the new Accept and some Alice in Chains, sure, but he also picked up Nirvana and Soundgarden. He had gotten into a conversation with a very helpful clerk that ended with the clerk scribbling a number on a business card and handing it over with a grin and a promise to make Eddie try some local act called Wilco next time.
Obviously Steve’s happy that Eddie’s making friends and charming people. He’s legitimately fucking thrilled that other people are finally seeing how great Eddie is, because Eddie deserves that. Eddie deserves the world, and if he wants to date some random clerk, he should get to.
It’s just that if Eddie Munson comes back from the dead to start dating some random clerk, Steve is going to have to go live at the bottom of Lake Michigan. That’s all.
#fic: wait for the season to come back to me#steddie#so! I have put CONSIDERABLE THOUGHT into what kind of 90s music this Eddie would be into & what might catch his eye#nothing too obscure at this stage; he's still learning what's out there#he'll always be attached to his faves but his fuck-the-world thrash energy has changed considerably due to all the yknow trauma#thrash/death/black metal isn't cathartic for him rn because there's too much baggage wrt who he used to be#so I feel like early grunge would appeal to him as long as it's not too polished; it borrows a lot from metal esp with the guitars#(he's not gonna like wilco tho.)#honestly I'm rly regretting going with a 2008 artpop/altrock song for the title now
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i feel,, so mortified trying to look up new art of an obscure character for ref/inspiration to improve how i can draw them, but finding out 99% of the art in tumblr’s “recently posted” tags is literally just my own LMAO;;;;
#text#yes this is about alex (and desmond to a lesser extent) bc Who Else#i was just ‘omg i didn’t know desmond had a cute nickname in the chinese fandom’ researching international fandoms back in. thanksgiving#it’s nearly FEB now + realizing it’s my bday in a few weeks but i’m still a bad artist who still to draw obscure favs and do them justice…
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geniunely not trying to put words in ur mouth im geniunely asking: what do you actually like about persona 5? from all ur rants im just wondering why you didnt drop the game bc it seems (again, im not trying to put words in ur mouth) that it simply not for you? i geniunely have not felt any of the issues you bring up outside of the writing ones and i cannot tell if i'm just easily pleased and not good at discerning what a good game is or we simply have dif things we enjoy in a video game. i hate getting tone across text but im asking out of geniune curiosity im not trying to attack your opinion (;-;)
Nah, i dont feel like ur attacking me, and I hope u dont feel the same when u see my complaints! Lmao. In my defense, I am replaying the game for the first time after completing my first file back in 2020, so alot of the faults i kinda shrugged off in my first playthrough are now glaringly in my face now that I no longer have the confusion and interest in learning the main story to keep me occupied. The game is clunky all the way through, and at some times, even frustratingly so.
But despite that, i do like this game. Alot! Its probably one of my top games ever if im being honest!
This ended up way longer than I intended, so im putting it under a readmore to keep the post short on dashboards
If i had to describe what I liked about the game in the simplest way imaginable…I think I would say, I like how the game makes me feel :) I like the music. I like the vibe. I like the immersion from city to city, and I like the premise! I like the characters and I like the connections you make with these characters! As im replaying this game, i am most excited to see Akira and his comments about the world :) i like hearing everyones voices, I like their little interactions in Mementos, and I like seeing them fight!
P5 is the first game I played in the series; its the game that introduced me to SMT in the first place! And it (smt) is a series that my longtime best friend LOVES and never thought hed be able to share with me! It is a game i keep very near to my heart; it has influenced me in ways i did not think would happen in the short couple of years since i first finished it. It genuinely keeps me awake some nights thinking about the world this game has created, and I think that is a testament to the impact its had, be it good or bad.
The joke about wishing theyd make a persona game that was Good is that despite all of its numerous flaws, the games manage to snatch your attention and pull you in anyway. Imagine if they made a game that had all of those things that i mentioned I loved, but done Right and executed Properly?? Where I got to have a story that made sense and didnt need to be spoonfed to me (in like an HOUR of dialogue and scenes; an HOUR!), and characters that talked and bonded beyond the tiny snippets of interaction theyre allowed to have in mementos? Combat that let me use PERSONAS i liked instead of BUILDS that stop me from getting instakilled throughout the entirety of the endgame, and a Persona building mechanic that didnt feel like I was shooting in the dark looking for possible fusions that end up not even being useful in the endgame.
Ive mentioned it before, but I complain so much bc I have seen what a good p5 game looks like, and its Strikers almost to a T. Combat is still your typical warriors-esque style combat, but it is at least different from the turn based strategy of the main game. Characters talk to each other freely, they hang out and comfort each other in a way that feels more connected that the base game. Strikers implements the ability to see ALL possible fusions with ALL registered personas, not just the ones in your Stock, so you can fuse easily without having yo consult a guide. The story feels like it makes SENSE with antagonists that feel morally grey and sympathetic. Genuinely, alot of the complaints for p5 I had were almost immediately rectified in this game.
But please also know that the praises I sing for this game is only bc of the groundwork laid by p5 and the world it created. Thats what I like about this game, that it had such a captivating premise and cast of characters, that a DIFFERENT company was able to hit the ground running with them. P5 had alot happening in that game, but i think what it had most was potential. The effort put into this game is astronomical, and the possible connections you can outright MISS if u arent paying attention was worth the money and time to implement; even if it meant that it could be considered a waste of resources to higher ups.
Books and games and part time jobs???!! Silly little cutscenes that add nothing to the game PLOTwise, but define and flesh out the personality of your protagonist. There was alot of love put into this game, and its evident by the fact that we have NOT seen a new persona game released; they bank on existing titles bc they are unwilling to make a game like this from scratch again. They dont want to ‘waste’ resources on good voice acting and a complex, overarching story; they dont want to waste money on scenes a player may never see, on routes a player may never get to experience. Making a game that gives u even the slightest bit of freedom means more money in programming and detailing that freedom. This has been an issue for a WHILE, and its a miracle that the gaming landscape had space for a colossal title like p5!
I complain bc I want better, and I do not think that is inherently at odds with my love of this game. In b4 im told to get good; ive played on hard and tested out merciless (its NOT fun, im making godbuilds again and its boring 😞). Its not the most accessible turnbased rpg; theres no colorblind modes, and the affinity system is convoluted and overwhelming. Combo moves are hard to keep track of and it can be incredibly frustrating to see your turns being skipped or seeing characters take extreme technical damage without understanding WHY it happened. The fact that they KNEW the game was desperate for qol improvements by the time royal came out, and instead of updating the base game to have those improvements too, they just pushed the royal edition out for people to play instead. It sucks! Customers and fans deserve better than being forced to shell out money for a game they already played !
As the gaming climate gets more and more hostile and unbearable, I think it is good to look at your games critically, and understand why products come out subpar. Persona 5 is a fun game that has a nice cast and an interesting premise, but it is ultimately tied down by its refusal to build on existing building blocks regarding its combat, and it insists on having insulting and downright out of character dialogue and scenes to appease the audience its designed to be targeted to. It is easy to forget sometimes that queer ppl are infact NOT the prime target of these games, its cishet gamer bros from aged 16 to 40 who will laugh at homophobic comments, who drool over a 16 yr old girl with a 16 yr old mindset and a grown womans body, who need to be placated with constant sexual comments to deal with a convoluted story that will inevitably make zero sense until its laid out for you before the literal end of the game.
Its bad. Its good. Its so shallow and its unbelievable that they thought having the plot twist make ZERO sense until they showed CUTSCENES of YOUR character discussing Goro and his connections to the metaverse for endgame SHOCK VALUE was more important than just having your team be smart and piece it together over time. Its shit. Its literally amazing. It let you FUCK your teacher ??????????????what the FUCK. They also let me shoot a god in the face w the best looking ult persona in the world so i can ignore that shit. And ultimately that is how i got through the game. Lol.
#chattin#answered#i have mentioned it before but i did NOT romance anyone#u know why? bc i literally didnt know it existed#i maxed out ann and the game was like ‘hey. this next decision is important’#and i was like. huh. u know what. i have not looked up a guide until now. thats scary. i dont want to lose a confidant…#and learned that.#so uh. i really DID go through the game bot realizing i could date anyone. even the adults.#anyway. this was alot. and i tried to keep out alot of my other complaints#bc i have so many. but they are like. either nitpicky things or things that are issues in lots of games too#like the models suck in this game but i can look past that. graphics are always bottom on the list of complaints#and i do like the little animations!! i like akiras little tics#and i like seeing personas do their casting animations; shiki ouji and nekomata are my faves#i distinctly remember that being a thing i wished to see more of.#bc i liked thinking of what joker would look like fighting for Real#and then i remembered him being in smash so i was like COOL. ill look at those#and then i got STRIKERS and it was exactly what I wanted#i think#the game is like.#its bad. but in ways that i wouldnt call another game bad#like back 4 blood is BAD bad. its awful. the gameplay is bad. the story was shit. and the servers shut down within a year or two of launch#risk of rain 2 is bad in the way that it continuously obscures and withholds information to the player. its tedious and frustrating#but unlike b4b i LIKE ror2 and will continue to enjoy it.#bc the gameplay loop FEELS satisfying#and ultimately thats how i feel about p5#for all of its faults; its fun. it has a gameplay loop that is consistent and fun when u get the hang of it#im playing on hard again since merciless is just me making the right instakill builds while i pick up my team over and over again#and theres still a challenge in having the endgame weapons and armor#its satisfying! and i think its satisfying bc I was given the luck of having this be my introduction into the series#maybe i would have a better opinion on the game if i came from p4. or maybe not! who knows !
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“Extremely powerful but ostensibly nonsentient computer runs a simulation of a whole society on a never ending loop, and after thousands upon thousands of loops 1-2 people trapped inside are eventually extracted, even though it’s questionable as to their actual ontological reality.”
Is a pretty fucking specific plot
So it’s weird that I’ve read it twice in the same week.
#spoilers in the tags warning now hopefully this will be long enough to obscure the spoilers#spoilers below this turn back now don’t risk it come one#I meant come on#SSP#SSP3#Cosmere#yumi and the nightmare painter#adrian tchaikovsky#children of memory#children of time
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#TBH would love to see your opinion on akane getting the star eyes#other than just ‘she’s copying ai’ bc I think that’s a bit of a cop out#sure i think she highly empathizes with ai#but I think there’s more too it but idk how to put it in words
Thank you so much for bringing this up @verimin because this is another thing I see a lot and I just. don't. get it!
We see Akane acting as Ai twice in the manga. The first time she does it because she needs to put on a role, and the girls suggest she act as Aqua's ideal woman.
That's it, that's all there is to it. Akane was just playing a role.
The second time is, again, all about playing a role. She is auditioning to play Ai, so she obviously acts as Ai.
These are by no means the only instances where we have seen Akane with the star eyes though.
(Spoilers for the entire manga below the cut!)
Whenever she becomes one with the character she is playing, she gets the starry eyes.
This is also the case for these two instances:
In both cases here, Akane is channeling the emotions of a character that she has made her own. She is empathizing with Ai to the point that she feels her emotions, but it's only because she constructed Ai's profile and character so thoroughly in her mind.
So basically, it's once again about acting.
This one instance could be the only outlier, but it actually fits the same pattern.
Her experience during Love Now taught her that she needs to play a role in front of the camera to protect herself.
Before Love Now, Akane was always just herself in front of the camera and that almost killed her. Now, she knows better than to show her vulnerability.
So instead of showing how nervous she is, she acts collected.
And so, since she is still acting, she gets the star eyes.
It's not that Akane is imitating Ai, it's that what she went through during Love Now changed her. She didn't only learn to lie in front of the camera, she also gained the confidence to do the kind of acting that commands all the attention to herself.
So you could say that doing a psychological analysis of Ai made some of Ai's confidence and her ability to tell convincing lies rub-off on her, but that's about it.
Besides, while it may have contributed to bringing her out of her shell, the fact that Akane is able to pull it off so effortlessly shows she was born with it.
All in all, saying that Akane is copying Ai makes no sense because we can clearly see Akane do a 180° whenever she plays her lol
#akane kurokawa#kurokawa akane#oshi no ko#me: onk#fandom: onk#my aquakane meta#this is actually one of the takes I read the most before binging the manga#by the time I was done I was like ??#the ability to tell a lie (to act) convincingly is also a matter of self-confidence#akane got a boost of it after love now and learned to lie about herself so she gained the star eyes#interestingly enough when aka reveals that akane is a genius actress#we only see her back and her bangs obscuring her eyes#he doesn't reveal her gaze to us until aikane#so if it weren't for the director saying that she changed after love now#you could maybe argue that akane had the star eyes all along but that she only showed them on stage#occam's razor though lol#i hate the new tumblr editor
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already working on something new again lol
#its the year of ricky this might be the fourth ricky this year#he was also my december piece last year i think?#this OC almost faded into obscurity in my little mind space but hes back now
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