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missnarcissistsworld · 11 months
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Is there another life? Shall I awake and find all this a dream? There must be, we cannot be created for this sort of suffering.
- John Keats
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whirlwindofstuff · 1 year
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joselandsallee · 4 months
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I’ll find you again my love. 💔
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nocturni3 · 9 months
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Miguel Ohara x male reader: canon Tragedy
CHARACTER DEATH, I can understand if y’all don’t wanna read if you don’t think this is something you can’t handle mentally DNI. Or read when I do Angst and death I don’t hide anything it’ll hit deep and twist your heart.
(TW: possibly incorrect Spanish, toxic mother, loving brother in law, reader death, canon event, blood, death, venom 2099, mourning, mental break, feral Miguel, death of child, kron stone death, venom death, Revenge, pain)
Two months passed before the two newlyweds knew it! They were officially married and now waiting for their baby girl Gabriella to be ready to bring home with them. For the two months after their wedding M/n and Miguel were working non-stop; be it with Alchemax workloads, or setting up their daughters room for her arrival.
A room the newly weds spent all their time painting, buying all the needed equipment, toys, crib, lights, play pin. Both of them never had in their childhoods; a happy healthy home; that was their plan to give their daughter everything they never had.
M/n still couldn’t believe it, as if it was out of a movie he stood in the doorway of Gabriella’s room staring at the cream pink walls hang pictures of animals, her play bin filled with stuffed animals as well nearly flooding onto the floor many of those animals being rabbits of different sizes and colors. A holo projection hung clouds floating and shifting across the ceiling.
Soft blanket folded in the crib waiting to be wrapped around their beautiful daughter. M/n smiled at the room knowing this once empty, hollow room would soon have a child in it to breathe life on its walls.
Arms wrapped themselves around his middle pulling his back against a muscular chest. The hands that wrapped around his waist displayed a ring that M/n rubbed his thumb across smiling, turning his head to look into the eyes of his husband.
Miguel O'hara, who’s eyes bore bugs under them of the countless nights of working late as the new CEO of Alchmax. Even still a smile stretched across Miguel’s lips before pressing a kiss against a M/n’s temple.
“Think we got her enough toys? Maybe we should get her-“
M/n gave a soft chuckle rubbing Miguel’s head as it leaned on top of his own shoulder.
“I think this kids gonna be spoiled if we keep buying her toy after toy before she gets here.”
Miguel’s arms tightened around M/n pulling in closer, sighing from his husband being so close to his heart.
“Oh trust me love she’s already spoiled. I think we can handle spoiling her a bit more”
“Hmm, yeah you’re right…maybe when Gabe and me are out grabbing lunch I’ll grab a few more things for our baby”
“Make sure Gabe doesn’t try to buy her dumb”
“Miggy! Gabriel O'hara trying to buy our daughter something ridiculous?! We both know your brother but I’ll try to convince him to keep the terrible jokes at a mild”
Miguel chuckled, shaking his head into your neck breathing in his scent, his cologne. Taking in all of m/n as he held his other half’s body close. Migue wished he could go with him on this lunch like they both used to do but as the CEO his time was so limited to quick snacks and breaks before being on calls for a good chunk of the day.
But he knew m/n needed to get out of the house, check on Gabe after he and his girlfriend fought. To get his mind off of the stress of their own soon to be born child. After all, Gabe had spent far too much time ensuring Discord stayed locked away in cyberspace; he needed a break away from downtown even.
M/n smiled before turning around in Miguel’s arms pressing his hands against Miguel’s chest. Smiling up to his tired husband;
“And maybe after shopping I’ll check on our little girl get some more photos before she’s born, I could video call you get you to go on a well needed break away from those other department dicks”
Leaning down Miguel captured soft lips with his own, a kiss both performed so many times, yet it was a dance that still left Miguel’s lips and fangs buzzing after you lips left his. Patting his chest M/n pulled away running his hand across Miguel’s chest as he walked past him to gather his holo watch and jacket.
Miguel fallowed him leaning against the kitchen wall staring at his gorgeous husband he stuck by him for a decade of dating. A year of supporting Miguel becoming spiderman, finding out of his identity. Livening Miguel through all the ups and downs of the months of them struggling to become parents and now they were married.
Living in their house, a peaceful house away from the stresses and anxiety of the city. Miguel stared at his husband who soon noticed looking over his shoulder, making his h/l h/c get in his face as he smiled at Miguel who watched with his own smile watching as e/c eyes shined.
“Like what you see hot stuff?”
“Oh, ya conoces el amor, there’s no point in boosting that ego of yours farther”
“Damn and here I thought I needed an ego boost, shock throw the plan away then”
Miguel shook his head, pushing off the counter before pulling M/n close to him once more taking both hands in his; as though the two were going to start to dance like they had at their wedding as shown with countless photos of the twos wedding and years of dating hung all over their home.
Leaning forward Miguel pressed his forehead against M/ns, leaving a small peck against the soft lips he loved with all his heart.
“Knowing you, you'll make another plan for that ego, be safe okay, holo call me after you and Gabe’s lunch alright, love you”
M/n smiled even more, holding the side of Miguel’s tired cheek, nudging his nose against his worried husband.
“I will handsome, if you promise you will take a well needed nap; Mr. CEO needs to sleep too you know don’t make me have LYLA shut down the servers just for you to sleep”
“Can’t have that”
“Nope, those servers are a pain to turn back on”
“Than you got yourself a deal”
“Good, Now ilove you and I’ll call you after me and Gabe are done eating and shopping”
Miguel smirked watching as M/n called up Gabriel who answered in a tired, stressed voice on the other end.
“Yo! Bro are ya done yet! That brunch place is gonna be pact by the time we get ther-“
“He’s ready Gabe, you keep him safe yeah?”
M/n jokingly elbowed Miguel smiling at him before turning to Gabriel who rolled his eyes in the holo call.
“Yes Mig I’ll keep your husband safe and sound; we both know just how dangerous a cafe can be-“
“Okay kids stop fighting, I’m coming out now Gabe!”
Gabriel nodded before hanging up the hollo call.leaving Miguel and M/n once again alone. Turning to Miguel M/n placed a quick kiss on Miguel’s lips mumbleing against them as he wished him an easy work day before pulling back to head to the door.
“Lyla! Make sure Miguel gets sleep yeah!”
Lyla smiled as she appeared in front of M/n smiling as she winked at his giving him a thumbs up.
“You got it boss”
Miguel gave a soft sigh when the door closed to their house; before turning to the kitchen counter that held his now cold coffee. Another long day of work.
~~~~~
M/n laughed at Gabes joke on members of his girlfriend's rebel groups antics. Neely spitting out his coffee at his husband's brother.
“There’s no shockeing way he did that!”
Gabe laughed, his goggles nearly falling on his eyes as his head shook.
“I wish I was lying but the guy is a moron when it comes to tech hacking and don’t get me started…”
Humming M/n looked out the window zoning out to look at the city skyline, watching the hover cars fly through the sky In between buildings and holo board’s advertising companies with the hero’s of old. M/ns mind moved to Miguel’s tired eyes the way his face saved a bit from stress of work. His clothes-
“Bro you good?”
“Huh! Oh shock sorry Gabe I was just-“
“Thinking of Miguel?”
M/ns hands held the cup of coffee taking a small sip, taking in all the emotions that flowed in his heart. Even though the cafe was a peaceful atmosphere it didn’t quell m/ns worrying heart.
“Yeah…”
“Trouble in paradise?”
M/ns eyes widened as his waved his left hand that held his wedding band, that bounced the suns rays off the red diamond.
“What oh no, no no! Nothing like that at all, we’re great, better than ever it’s just…Gabe you’ve seen Miguel he’s working so hard all the time-“
“I thought you said he stopped being spide- I mean”
“Spiderman”
“Wait you know!”
M/n laughed covering his mouth as he sat the hot cup of coffee down on the table. Seeing Gabes shocked face of horror.
“I’ve known for a while…and yeah he’s stopped or slowed down a lot more due to him taking up the CEO position at Alchemax but that’s the issue.”
“Him being CEO or quitting his other gig?”
Sighing M/n looked down at the shopping bags that sat next to his and Gabe's table inside sat another small bean stuffed bunny, an old looking toy but the novelty of it drew him in. Holding the small bunny in his hands M/n played with the soft white ears, moving the big floppy ears from its face.
“Neither, it’s him working himself to exhaustion that has me worried to death. Gabriella is coming home next month and it worries me he isn’t getting the sleep we both need now before we bring a newborn home.”
“M/n-“
And I just can’t put more stress on him-“
A hand grabbed the white rabbit from M/n anxious hands; holding the body in front of his face, speaking in a high pitch voice that heard other patrons and their kids staring; some chuckling before going back to their own conversation.
“M/n O’Hara you listen here, when you get home you make Miggy go to bed, you tell him he needs to chill out on being the big CEO of Alchedick. You hear me Mr. O’Hara”
M/n laughed his hand covering his mouth as he laughed as Gabe smiled at his brother in law seeing M/n Ohara relax.
“Thanks Gabe, I know you know this but your the best brother in law I could’ve asked for and uncle for Gabriella to have”
“I’m the only one of those two things!-“
Gabriel’s watch started ringing loudly, Gabe looked down at the caller ID instantly answering; m/n looked away giving Gabe some privacy as he stared at the bustling and busy. Slipping the rest of his own coffee before Gabe piped in his expression told M/n all he needed to know;
“Shit, hey man I gotta-“
M/n smiled holding up a hand at Gabriel.
“Gabe go on I’ll catch a taxi to the clinic; go take care of your girlfriend okay, when you can call Miguel. You may not know this but every time you call Miguel is happy to talk to his baby brother you know.”
Gabriel looked down at his coffee tapping his watch on the tipping pad. Nodding sadly before placing his goggles around the rabbits neck smiling at M/n as he pushed the bunny back in his hands.
“Give those to little Gabriella yeah? if she’s anything like Miguel and me you’ll have your hands full with fights”
Taking the rabbit in his hands M/n smiled at Gabe, before placing the small stuffed animal with the dirty goggles around its neck back in the back at his feet.
“Oh I have no doubt, take care of yourself Gabe”
“You too my favorite brother in law”
Laughing M/n lightly punched Gabes arm.
“I’m your only brother in law you moron”
Gave laughed weakly before waving bye to M/n who smiled at his now empty cup of coffee, looking back out to the skyline taking in the breathtaking view of it all.
“What a beautiful day.”
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Keeping her promise Lyla had Miguel take a well needed nap that wasn’t at the very desk he did all his work, but in his and M/n’s bed room. Even going as far as to have one of his serving drones spray M/ns cologne all over their bed just to get Miguel to fall asleep faster.
Lyla loved the couple, as close as any friend would and it broke her AI software to see Miguel work himself every hour of everyday while M/n worried in silence. Only to comfort Miguel everyday after work when the two got a rare moment of peace. Only for Miguel’s scectarly; his own mother to call him to yet another meeting.
It had gotten so bad that Lyla would answer the phone calls from his mother before his holo watch even notified Miguel and told her that Miguel was busy and to move the meetings for the next day or week. This bought Miguel some time to catch some rest like this moment.
Lyla watched as Miguel instantly passed out under the soft covers pulling some of the covers to his face to smell his husband's cologne even more as he slept. Lyla smiled, hovering her hand over Miguel’s hair before vanishing to the living room, staring at the many photographs that hung on the walls of the modern home, photos of the couples time during high school prom night, the photos of their graduation at Alchemax School for Gifted Youngsters.
Next we’re photos of them in their apartment, vacations to parts of Mexico and the world. Photos of their rings on either of their hands and last their wedding. Both wearing white suits as they kissed in front of a crowd of friends and Miguel’s family.
Lyla's smile wore away as yet another processing call from Miguel’s mother came in. Sighing dramatically, Lyla made a 21st century phone call as she answered, hearing the older woman's voice on the other end of the line.
“Miguel sweetly you have a meeting-“
“Ima stop you right there, one Miguel sweetly is
sleeping after pulling a 24 hour shift of none stop meetings, stress and isolation thanks to your constant fear migrating and project-“
“What did you say! Lyla you put Miguel on this call right now-“
“No, you listen here you are cozying up to Miguel after years of hating him for your own selfish sake just to work your way in having him fear failing his new family like that abusive bastard had. So I won’t put Miguel on the call cause unlike you! me and M/n have eyes and heart to see that Miguel needs a long needed break away from work and away from you you old washed up hag!”
“You good for nothing AI you listen here you bit-“
Lyla had the phone vanish and along with it all her anger before she made her way to the couple’s room peering inside to see Miguel hugging m/n’s pillow tightly the nanotech in the fibers emitted a light glow in the pitch black room. a smiling Lyla left once more seeing Miguel’s face relaxed, at peace as he slept.
She only hoped when M/n called Miguel would take some time away from the stresses of work and spent it gushing over little Gabriella and M/n who would probably continuously feed Miguel praises and love.
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Ring
Ring
Ring
“¿eh? Miguel Ohara hablando”
The sound of Miguel’s tired voice brought a smile and chuckle from M/n's lips as he placed his hand on top of the glass set face that protected Gabriella from the world outside.
“I sure hope so, what do I have to do to set an appointment for my husband?”
“M-m/n! Ow shock! Sorry I was-“
“Sleeping? Good, did you have a good long rest hun?”
Faintly hearing Miguel on the other line humming before a groan escaped his husbands lips M/n knew Miguel had gotten the sleep he needed most.laughing M/n turned on his holo watches camera popping a miniature view of a still sleepy miguel who still lauded in their bed. His deep brown locks were a mess of tousled bed hair, mixed with his tired smiled that showed off his fangs as he spoke:
“Best rest I’ve had cariño thanks to Lyla holding off my mother and her constant meetings and a bit of your cologne”
“My cologne?l
“Sí, it help me sleep”
Chuckling M/n turns fully to watch his old hand rubbing the glass that held their daughter; as though this simple act helped her feel safe.
“Then I guess I should start stockpiling some more huh?”
“Haha I think you’ll be fine you already got enough of that stuff to last a year”
His cheeks reddening M/n shook his head before pointing an accusing finger at Miguel. Both playing along with the others' antics and sarcasm. Acting more like children than 27 year old newlyweds.
“Hey careful there husband or you’ll find yourself-“
“On the couch?”
“Oh shush!”
Miguel’s tired voice gave way to a chest lightening laugh that was soon joined by M/n. Both men looked at the other with such love it was almost hard for either of them to describe. Moments passed with M/n and Migue talking to their daughter who was floating in the water like liquid. Both parents smiling love not at their daughter seeing just how much she looked like Miguel and both taking guesses on what she’ll be like.
“Nah I think she’ll for sure be a daddy’s girl”
“Amor were both her parents”
M/ns smile widened even in hologram form Miguel stared at his husbands smile as though it was the sun itself.
“Duh that’s to the point! No competitions for her favorite parent reward”
“I just hope I can’t catch a break from work to see her enough-“
“And you will; miggy I love you and Gabriella loves you too. The company won’t crumble to dust if your gone to be with your family.”
Miguel knew what M/n was saying was the truth; he knew he was overworking himself, wasting time that could be used to be with his husband at the clinic with m/n instead of holo calls.
Nodding Miguel got up from the comforting bed making his way to the office computer that he wasted so much time behind ensuring a company he originally hated after what his “dad” did to him. After what they did to the people of Nueva York. Glancing to the spiderman suit that still sat behind a glass case then back to the countless emails from investors, department heads, and competitors trying to buy the company.
“Lyla send out a department wide email informing them I’m going on maternity leave for a year to support my family and direct all questions and answers to the new AI secretary that will soon be replacing secretary Ohara.”
Lyla smiled, doing a quick salute before proceeding to write and send email, while ordering the highest tech of a secretary encrypting it with all of Miguel’s plans, goals and Alchemaxs new goals. While on the side writing the termination paperwork for one Conchata O'Hara.
Turning back to the holo call of a shocked M/n who’s eyes where now filling with tears of happiness at Miguel’s selfless actions.
“Y-you really did it?”
“Por ti hago lo que sea, mi amor.”
Wiping away his tears M/n smiled looking at the hologram of his husband who looked as disheveled as always when he woke up from a long needed rest.
“You better get over here so I can kiss you then-“
The door to the clinic opened, reviewing a man M/n had never seen in the clinic before. Yet the older looking man wore a lab coat, his long greasy looking white hair cascaded over his face as he spoke his crooked teeth were as apparent as the sewer smell radiating off of him.
“You’re Mr.Ohara right?”
“Mmh, that’s correct M/n Ohara; is there something wrong! My husbands right here,please tell us is there something wrong with our little Gabriella?!”
Miguel’s heart was pounding as m/n gently placed the watch down so he could fully see this doctor; Miguel had a feeling he knew this man…that he’s seen the man somewhere before?
Pushing those thoughts down to focus on his fear for what the doctor would say to the couple.what would they have to do to keep Gabriella safe. Miguel could only process a split second of the “doctors” words as he walked over to M/n and Gabriella, his hands pressing against the glass staring at the couples daughter.
“Yes but it’s best if we talk with you first m/n, shouldn’t take that long, and your husband can stay in here keep an eye on little Gabriella”
M/n shuffled uncomfortably as he looked back at Gabriella and Miguel who looked confused but far more scared for the news of Gabriella’s health.
“M/n it’s alright I’ll watch over her…make sure shes-“
M/n picked up the holo watch placeing it nearer to the glass sphere.
“I shouldn’t be long love”
“I know, amor just be careful”
M/n smiled at Miguel before following the doctor out of their daughter's observation room. Miguel’s eyes fell on his daughters small body inside the water like liquid as the motors light up her vitals which all looked all good; by all accounts she’s the picture of health?
“What is that doctor even talking about-“
Miguel’s thoughts were tossed out of the window as the room's door slammed open as M/n was thrown through the air, his body and head slamming into the thick glass of Gabriella’s container making a thin freak form.
Miguel’s instincts rushed into overdrive hearing a deep gurgling voice laugh as M/ns body could barely move as he struggled to sit up his head was bleeding socking the clothes he wore his arm had deep claw marks left his arm soaked in blood that poured down to the floor even as he tried to close the claw marks the best he could.
Miguel didn’t hesitate to run to his office door to run to the clinic if he had to; as he watched helplessly as m/n pressed his blood soaked body against Gabriella’s glass; trying to protect their daughter from the danger that wreaked havoc killing doctors, guards before turning its black tar like body towards M/n, tha skull markings mixed with the grotasted spider made of bones that wrapped in its front had M/ns throat clenched.
Only to scream to Miguel with his eyes filled with fear, tears and outright love for Miguel all while protecting their precious child even as his body screamed at him to run! M/n's heart pounded in his chest as his head started to feel light either from blood loss or adrenaline he couldn’t say as he looked at an even fearful Miguel eyes he knew were on the glass case of spiderman.
“Go on call for my bastard brother! I wanna tear his body limb from limb! Tell him to get spiderman to do his job YOU HEAR THAT OHARA CALL SPIDERMAN HELL COME DOWN HERE YOURSELF TOO! Haha watching Hope melt from your eye will be so sweet when I kill your brat and husband! ILL EVEN MAKE A DEAL! which one to kill! Haha”
The volume of the two overlapping voice made M/n and Miguel’s fear riddled minds spinning as M/n turned to Miguel, tears falling from both partners eyes as they both knew what M/n was about to say-
“No please don’t kill them I’ll do anything! What do you want, just name it! You want spiderman right I’ll give you him just don’t hurt-“
“Miguel please! Save Gab-“
M/n screamed as the monsters clawed hands grabbed him by his neck using its blood covered fingers to turn M/ns head to look at the breaking and frantic Miguel ohara; the man he loved more than life itself break down.
“Money! Do you want money! Drugs, what do you want please tell me and I’ll do it!”
“Haha he thinks we want that- no WE WANT BLOOD, WE WANT SPIDERMANS BLOOD WE KILL TO GET THE SPIDERS ATTENTION-“
“I will get him there please just don’t hurt them!”
M/n screamed as a clawed hand clawed through his skin over his checks.
“You come too brother! After all, I want to see your break the most!”
M/n's watch was smashed along with his body against the glass protecting his daughter's body. Who’s vitals were starting to hit an all time high as the stress, sounds and vibrations of each slam against the sphere began to raise them all in the red. M/n yelled out, gasping as he clawed the best he could against the tar body; only gaining laughter and burning green acid to nearly miss his body.
“P-please stop, don't hurt my daughter please!”
“We don’t care; we kill, we will kill you then that brat…and watch Spider-Man’s heart break when we eat your corpse!”
M/ns eyes widened as the monster spoke its teeth near centimeters away from biting his head off.the pain and lack of air being breathed in had M/ns head spinning as the reality of this monster knowing Spider-Man’s identity; of it KNOWING Miguel’s identity. Gasping for air as his body was thrown to the ground a black tendril wrapped around his neck lifting his body off the floor to slam him to the wall.
M/n cried out as he watched each tub was ripped out of the sphere that kept Gabriella’s vitals safe, now their child was moving around frantically as if she knew what was happening as a black clawed hand scratched the surface was if it took not strength, as it turned to M/n laughing as the hand picked the sphere up with Gabriella up;
“WERE GETTING BORED! Let’s have fun destroying families “
“No! Please! NO!”
~~~~~~
Miguel contacted the public eyes on the situation on an unknown enemy taking the CEO of Alchemaxs husband and child hostage! Many came to help weapons at the ready as they followed the web crawler to an utterly destroyed clinic; dead bodies laid sprawled across the medallic landing pad; the more Spiderman ran through the building the more fire he faced.
Migue didn’t wait for the public eye as he ran through the blood soaked halls, various glass spheres that now were broken with dead 7-9 month old children laying dead and blue. Dead parents, doctors, nurses, guards all littered the floor of the clinic. Miguel’s only focus now was to follow the mass of dead bodies that got more and more dismembered the farther he ran. The sounds of the public eye officers followed him to the room that hung wide open; the lights flickered as a scream ripped through the blood filled halls. Miguel's mind was only focused on one goal.
Save M/n and Gabriella; swinging into the large room that once was filled with small decorations m/n and Miguel had placed around the room for their Gabriella, now torn, and covered in blood. Shopping bags torn and laying amongst the desisted was sobs and screaming coming from behind tha monstrously grotesque monster who’s skin looked and moved like tar. It’s clawed hands smeared in blood.
A wet sound could Miguel’s attention as he looked down to see water…mixed with blood. His heart pounded as Miguel let out a scream to the mister his voice creaking with his scream, tears soaked his mask.
“I’m here! Fight me you fucking murder!”
The beast turned around it’s skull like pattern creased as it smiled a mouth full of ridged jagged teeth
“THE SPIDER CAME! Shame we only got one dead WELL KILL THE NEXT ONE LATER FIRST SPIDERMAN FIGHTS VENOM!!”
Miguel fought the beast focusing on the battle the best he could but no matter what he did the screaming sobs that ripped through the air as M/n held their daughters bleeding limp body to his chest distracted Miguel long enough for this Venom to take ahold of Miguel’s head holding his body up into the air, Miguels talons had no affect to venoms body as it chuckled bringing a long claw up to Miguel’s mask;
“I know who’s under there brother, WE WILL MAKE SURE TO LET YOUR BOND WATCH YOU GET DEVOURED-“
“Spiderman watch out!”
Miguels eyes fell on Venoms body as bullets ripped through venoms body as it dropped Miguel’s body into the water and blood…that got darker as Venoms laughed louder; as it jumped through the ceiling.
“YOUR BULLETS WENT THROUGH ME BUT DONT WORRY SOMETHING BEHIND ME STOPPED THEM!”
Miguel's eyes followed the pool of blood landing on…M/n who was barely breathing as his back was littered with bullet holes slumped on his side, his arms wrapped around the small lifeless body of their sweet Gabriella who was wrapped in a bloodied pink blanket….
“NOO! M/n! ¡No no!¡Esto no puede estar sucediendo, por favor, quédate conmigo!”
Miguel scrambled to his feet sliding to the gasping body of his Husband who held their dead daughter's body close.l who’s face looked at peace and beautiful as though she was just sleeping if it wasn’t for the blood on her pale brown skin that was so pale Miguel knew she was gone before she could even take her first breath.
Migues eyes frantically looked to M/n face whose face was smeared in blood and cuts. Miguel didn’t care who saw the two as Miguel's arms held the dying body of his husband. Who barely cling onto life; even still M/n gave Miguel a struggling smile as tears smeared the blood more even in pain he tried to comfort his broken husband.
“Miggy, I-it hurts so much ”
“I-I know amor I know; stay with me please love I can’t loose you too-“
Miguel held the hand in his as he pressed the cold hand to his lips and cheek. Ignoring the sounds of the shied agents shooing away the public eye to give the two privacy their concerned eyes went unnoticed by the couple as Spider-Man cried holding the two bodies.
“I don’t want to l-leave you yet! Miggy i-I’m scared it’s so cold. W-we lost Gabriella it hurts so much Miggy”
Miguel's sobs ripped through him as he pulled the injured boy of his husband close, putting pressure on the wounds on his back the best he could; to try to stop the bleeding!
“I should’ve been here with you-“
The hand on his cheek lifted the bottom half of the mask smiling at Miguel. Gasping as he held their daughter lifeless body to his chest, the pain was fading for M/n now a numbness from blood loss as well as the cold peaceful grasp of death began to pull him from Miguel’s warmth.
“You’ve always had a-s-such a handsome s-mile o-one of many r-easons I fell so hard for you. Wanna see it one one time please”
“No stop talking like that, You’re not going anywhere! I’ll save you, the doctors can save you both!”
M/n's vision began to blurt as he witnessed the once strong willed, loving man in his life break in front of him grasping at any once of hope he could…m/n knew it wasn’t possible as his body became so heavy even pulling Miguel closer was exhausting.
M/ns hand pulled Miguel down weakly, his ghosting breath against Miguel’s lips. Miguel's lips quivered his hands pulling the cold body of his husband closer as both shared one final kiss before even his lips turned cold.
“We love you so much Miguel…r-remember that hun…”
Miguel's eyes stared in shock as life left M/n's eyes, the once e/c eyes that Miguel could drown in now unfocused as they slowly closed, his husband's body going limp. Miguel desperately pulled the two love ones of his life to his chest as he screamed. Screams that ripped through the clinic, ripped the hearts of the public eyes, shield agents, and now the press that heard it.
It was a scream of pure agony as though one’s heart was ripped from their chest in seconds.
But Miguel didn’t care as he clung to the bodies of his husband and child. Both looking at peace at last… Miguel’s heart raged one as helix screams of mourning became a far cry of rage.
Out of the corner of his eyes he saw a sample of that living tar like substance. Placing his loved ones bodies down Miguel gripped a beaker scooping the disgusting monster in it.
“I’ll find you venom I’ll kill you myself”
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And suffer Miguel did as he marched into the labs the workers jumping back at their CEOs appearance. His eyes were red, bags and sunken cheeks made them wary of his mental state as he stood in front of the monster once again. Who is now a coward in the holding experimental cell.
Numbness was all Miguel felt as he wore two rings on his left hand, a small stained stuffed bunny with Gabs goggles wrapped around its neck in his other. Numbness and pain followed with a burning vengeance on his mind Miguel yelled.
“GET OUT!”
The staff didn’t hesitate to rush out of the labs. Rveryone walked on eggshells the past few days as their CEO was a grieving mess after the loss of both his husband and daughter. Everyone knew however what his goal was when spiderman threw the beast in the holding cell.
They knew Miguel was going to kill the monster.
Placing the bunny rabbit next to the frequency controls Miguel stared at the rabbit, the ring that once belonged to M/n now on his finger. As he traced over the letters;
‘You are my one and only light’
“AWWW IS CEO GETTING COLD FEE-AHHHH ahhh”
Miguels bared his teeth at the beast as his hand cranked the volume to max; tears ran down the widower’s face as he screamed over venoms suffering.
“IM GOING TO MAKE YOU FEEL THE SAME PAIN MY HUSBAND AND DAUGHTER FELT WHEN YOU KILLED THEM YOU FUCKING MONSTER!”
“OOOH HIT A NERVE-ahhhhhh”
“And when I’m done I’ll burn your corpse and throw you in concrete where you’ll be forgotten!”
“MIGUEL STOP PLEASE!”
A scream ripped from the rippling symbiote, a voice Miguel faintly remembers hearing through years of working at Alchemax, the voice of Kron Stone. His half brother was a cold blooded murder who wreaked havoc across the country killing families. Miguel snarled cranking the volume to Max screaming over the beast's scream. His voice cracking as sobs ripped over his screams, the memories of his and M/ns years of life together flashed in his mind.
Their first kiss, their first date, their first time together…their fights, concerns, love, laughter, hardships, marriage, wedding, planning for a baby. Most of all seeing M/n's face splattered with paint as they laughed while decorating Gabriella’s room. His warm arms that comforted Miguel’s during hard nights of spiderman… the blood that belonged to his husband and their daughter covering Miguel’s hands.
“YOU HAVE NO SHOCKIN RIGHT TO BEG FOR MERCY! YOU DIDN'T PROVIDE M/N OR GABRIELLA! AIM GOING TO MAKE YOU SUFFER YOU HEAR ME!”
The screams echoed from the room, the sounds of screaming from the Symbiote before silence, what followed was bone crunching punch after punch; sickening and bloodied as screams from whoever bonded to the Symbiote was beaten to death.
Miguel stood up, his hands bloodied, his knuckles split open and bruised as he stared down at the bloodied face that was barely recognizable to what Kron once looked like. Miguel landed a final kick to the murders face his breathing was erratic as he walked over the cowardly form of sludg that was the Symbiote now back as far as the hold glass cell allowed,
Miguel’s eyes blazed red as Miguel emotionless expression stared down at the alien before slamming his fist against the red botton that set the Symbiote ablazed its screams did get an once of pity from Miguel ad he turned around picking up the small stained rabbit before exiting the room. Turning to one of the public eye guards who looked terrified of his boss as he spoke,
“Throw that Trash into the incinerator; I don’t want to see it or hear about it anymore”
“Y-yes sir”
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Miguel’s return home was lonely; the house that was once held so many memories that was going to hold more now sat dark, dim, and grim as a thin layer of dust sat on the furniture that M/n used to always be at. The kitchen was empty and bare as fast food platters and bags littered the island.
Lyla, no matter what she tried couldn’t keep up with Miguel’s spiral of grief. But today seeing his hands injured and spattered with blood that wasn’t his own Lyla gently guided him towards his and M/ns room that was just as a mess as the rest of the house the two shared.
Miguel paused at the closed door with a small painted name plate;
~Gabriella~
His heart broke but Miguel stared at the stain rabbit with Gabes goggles hanging off its neck. His injured hands shook as they wrapped around the knob twisting it open to a thinly dusted room filled with toys that would never get played with, a crib that would never hold their sweet Gabriella.
Miguel took in a shaky breath as Lyla watched him, her own chest clenching as she watched Miguel place the small rabbit into the crib and pulling a pink blanket over it before walking out and closing the door.
Miguel entered his and M/ns room the thick smell of m/ns thick cologne hung heavily in the rooms air, on every blanket and clothes as Miguel’s body fell onto the bed his large body curling ever blanket he could to his face as Miguel cried his hands hurt, his heart hurt…and most of all his soul hurt as he took in the smell of the man he will never get to hold, never get to kiss or spend anymore time with anymore.
Their daughter they both wanted so badly was dead, his husband was dead all Miguel could feel was heartbreaking grief as Miguel eyes filled with tears stared at Lyla whose face looked ready to cry herself as her body took its human size her hand hovering on Miguel’s shoulder as he begged;
“Lyle tell me a story, make the hurting stop”
(I’m crying, no joke I was sobbing!)
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notsosecretmasochist · 6 months
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There's something about Lila and Tula's relationship that hits way too close to home. Tula is dying. That's the lie. When Tula says she won't be around forever, it's not in the vague sense that all parents mean when they can't promise their children forever. Tula's heart is broken, her time is limited, and she knows it. Smart intuitive Lila is picking up on it. She's keeping her mom close and doing everything to keep her happy. Because to a child, that's how you keep your mom safe.
I still remember holding onto my mom. I would grab tight and wish to never let go. As if by keeping us in that moment together, I could stop the world from separating us. I couldn't.
This seasons gonna break my heart.
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shayandas · 1 year
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Trust me, it's not what you've lost that matters, but what you're losing while lamenting over it.
Shayan Das
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greyaugustuspoetry · 8 months
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I wish I saved your number
And all of our texts
I wish I took more photos of us
So then I couldn’t forget
I wish I had called you
The night before you died
But I didn’t do any of this
So how will I survive?
-Grey Augustus
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beautiful-writings · 9 months
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I miss you so much friend
Losing a friend to suicide is an indescribable tragedy that leaves a lasting impact on all those left behind. The profound pain and sorrow that accompanies such a loss is unmatched, as it not only shatters the bond shared with the departed friend but also raises countless questions about life, mental health, and the struggles one may face without our knowledge.
When a friend decides to take their own life, it is often difficult to comprehend the reasoning behind such a desperate act. We are left grappling with our own guilt, questioning whether there was something we could have done to prevent it. We wonder about the signs we may have missed, the conversations left unsaid, and the support we could have offered. It is a heavy burden to carry, blaming ourselves for something that was beyond our control.
The grief that follows the loss of a friend to suicide is complex and multifaceted. We are overwhelmed with a range of emotions, from shock and disbelief to anger and confusion. In addition to the usual process of mourning, we also experience a unique sense of guilt, wondering if we could have done more to help, blaming ourselves for not sensing the depth of their pain. We question if our friendship was enough, if we failed to offer the support and understanding they needed during their darkest moments.
In our attempt to make sense of their actions, we may also find ourselves reflecting on the fragility of human life and the struggles each individual faces, sometimes hidden beneath a façade of normalcy. We become aware of the importance of mental health and the necessity of open conversations surrounding it. Losing a friend to suicide serves as a stark reminder of the invisible battles many people fight, and it compels us to reach out, offer our support, and break the stigma surrounding seeking help for mental health issues.
As time passes, the pain of losing a friend to suicide does not fade entirely, but it transforms. We remember the joyful moments shared, the laughter, and the experiences that brought us together. We continue to cherish their memory and honor their life by advocating for mental health awareness, and by being there for others who may be struggling.
In conclusion, losing a friend to suicide is an unimaginable loss that leaves an everlasting impact on us. The immense pain and guilt that often accompany such a tragic event can be overwhelming. However, through reflection and understanding, we can work towards commemorating our lost friend's life, raising awareness about mental health, and connecting with others who may need our support. Together, we can strive to prevent further loss and build a more compassionate and understanding society.
-SM
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laceypaigepoetry · 1 year
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grief can be so much larger than we realize 🖤
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lifethrulen · 5 months
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Things I’ve Said To The Sky Regarding My Grief
- I’ll miss you forever.
- Could I have saved you?
- Why you?
- Please pay me a visit.
- The world misses you.
- No one would’ve ever loved me more than you.
- Thank you.
- You are my favorite person.
- Are you actually gone?
- I need you.
- Will I ever heal?
- Who am I now?
- How will I see you again?
- Will this pain ever end?
- I’m sorry for everything.
- I love you the most.
- What would you do?
- Everything is grey.
- You took all of the color with you.
- I kept your shirt.
- I have a necklace with your fingerprint on it.
- I couldn’t look at you like that.
- Your side of the family doesn’t talk to me anymore.
I will find you in every lifetime.
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Every evening I sit at my porch to have tea,
I sit with the people I lost,
And we talk,
Sometimes I cry as they watch me with sad eyes,
Sometimes I laugh and they crack a smile,
Sometimes I curse them for leaving without goodbye,
I sit for tea with the ghosts,
I call it tea with grief.
-Sonali Bind
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nmolesofadrenaline · 8 months
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oceanskiees · 1 year
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“I’ll never be loved the same way again”
“You can say you were loved like that once and that’s beautiful”
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joselandsallee · 5 months
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2 years tomorrow 💔
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nanukano · 11 months
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I made a figurine of my baby boy, Cream. He has been gone for two years now, and I still miss him.
I liked how the overall figure sculpt came out, I still have a long way to go with my painting, but for my first airbrush I think it’s quite alright.
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