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dozing-marshmallow · 7 months

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Heyo! Just asking

Would you mind writing Yandere Noah Vs Yandere Mike from total drama? Thankssss! :>

Hellooo! Thank you so much for this fun request, so happy I was finally able to get this out! Also, I loooove your Radlynn theme, I loved playing the Papa Louie games so much growing up ^v^ enjoy !

YANDERE! NOAH VS YANDERE! MIKE HEADCANONS

Two guys fighting over you? My! How would that turn out?

Well, Noah would try to impress you with his intellect, Mike tried wooing you with his natural sweet personality.

Of course, you never thought these gestures had a bigger meaning than what met the eye.

Typical (Y/N).

A few months after the...season of All Stars aired, Chris wanted to throw a celebration reunion party for both casts before the brand new cast of Pahkitew Island was publicly introduced.

Noah and Mike were two of the many that didn’t want to go, but having the fact they were obliged to attend by their contract megaphoned, they soon put together that if this whole thing was mandatory for everyone, you would definitely be there.

Even if it wasn’t, you were a sweetheart, so you would’ve attended anyway.

Everyone was there alright, around their respective friend groups, and there Mike was, suspiciously having an exorbitant smile on his face for someone who wasn’t accompanied by anyone.

Noah knew the cause all too well, and takes it to confront him.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about!”

Still a coward, huh?,“Ohh wow, that obvious lie came with that gap in your teeth? Take this as a warning, Mike. Unless you wanna make that gap bigger, back up trying to test your mediocre pick up lines on (Y/N) and you won’t have any more problems than what you already have to deal with.” his finger spiked into the taller male’s chest,“You have no chance with a girl that’s out of your generation, let alone out of your league.”

"Oh, but that's where you're wrong, Noah!" said guy’s attempt at intimidation massively backfiring with Mike putting a hand to his own burning chest,"See, even though I'm Mike first and personalities second, the...feeling (Y/N) gives me is so intense, it's actually taking a better effect on me than the medication my psychiatrist prescribes me!"

How lame.

The high IQ rolls his eyes at Mike’s pathetic attempt at love,"You know your identity disorder soooo well. You of all people should know that's illogical, but I was right. (Y/N) really does have a moron lusting after her."

"Wow! Can't believe you finally got around to realising how dumb you are!"

Noah’s glare deepens in his face as Mike’s smile grew. These conversations were getting boring,"Why don't you go back to nosebleed hair? I'm sure she's missing you terribly bro." Surely that would kick some alarm into him. That desperate friendless girl had to be looking for him.

Strangely, he was still all happy,"Oh! I called things off with Zoey!” Oh. No wonder why he’s not slighted.

Damn your humanity, Zoey. You couldn’t entertain this idiot for another season?

He takes out his hideous handmade accessory,“I took my necklace back, so I can cherish it to (Y/N) instead!" Poor girl.

No way you could love someone that lacked the decency to reserve his affection- I mean, Noah loved you from day one,"Gee even I'm offended you think a second hand thing is the best you can give to my (Y/N). You are so totally rich. Medication funds put you in debt much?"

"Actually, they were free, but you are right about one thing! Not fair to give something someone else had. I'll make her another! Bigger and better! Like my love for her." he kept getting more and more ideas.

Can he afford to keep up?,"Don't go over budget."

"Hah! Seems like you suffer from a memory disorder. Thanks to my win, I never have to worry about budget again!... How many seasons did you win again?" Mike asks, his smirk still the same, but his words this time around were coiled by a pleather of travesty that had forced Noah to face a stinging truth he hated to admit, hissing a response in avoidance.

“Cram it, blockhead.”

Mike was about to blow a comeback, when suddenly your goddess figure graced both of them with your presence, switching their rivalry selves to civil friends.

"Enjoying yourself over here, boys?"

"Oh, totally." Noah waved, that totally being true for once.

"Never been better (Y/N)!" Mike threw you a thumbs up.

“Aw! Great!” you gushed in delight at the two,“It’s so heartwarming to see you guys getting along so well especially since we come from different casts!” You’re...happy.

You’re happy at them... Them...getting along? Yes... Yes, we do get along! Mike wants to be the one to amplify your joy by encompassing Noah’s neck around his arm, a perfect time to suffocate him, yet so far,“Oh, yeah!” he could feel the malice blaze in Noah’s eyes, but he wouldn’t dare try breaking out his grasp if it meant keeping you happy. It was just as despicable for him,“It’s real nice speaking to the competitors from earlier seasons! You can learn so much.”

The hidden venom irked the trapped male, making it ten times harder to hold back his sly tongue. But you were there... (Y/N), too pure to taste any hate, had rewritten the entire muscle of his jaw.

“Yeah, what...” for (Y/N), for (Y/N), for (Y/N),“He said. Guy’s more lovable than Owen.” Big fat lie. But you were pleased.

“Aww! Well, I’ll leave you two be. See you later!” even when you had rolled the distance, your words were still as sweet as blood itself.

How caring you are.

Mike makes the immediate move to aggressively shove Noah away from him.

An awkward silence sits in as the ugly nature of their opposition unravels in the air, Noah being the first to emerge,“You’re still here?”

Mike’s smile finally drops in a confused line,“Why wouldn’t I?”

“Dunno. Thought after seeing for yourself that (Y/N) has zero interest in you, like none whatsoever, you’d get going.” His blood vessels bloated in hatred under his skin.

How come? I’m the one that made our “friendship” more believable to her,“How could I after she gave me that smile?” saying that revived his one.

“Mhmm, that smile was totally for you. Get realistic!” No amount of verity could crush that delusion Mike had, which increasingly agitated Noah,“(Y/N) will never love you. Never.”

“There’s no never in that smile, Noah! The way you cope with denial is really cute!” See? This freak was enjoying it.

Noah sighed. Guess it’s what you have to do when you lose a game of love. Really unfortunate for him, this was very rewarding.

The man with sarcasm for a name turned his back to take one of the knives available from the cutlery table. He slid his finger up and down its shiny blade, remembering all about why he stayed in this meaningless party for this long. His chagrin is cut short.

At the same time, Mike discreetly checks his blazer pocket to ensure he still had his one occupying within. A similar sick with the strings of heart quivers its way onto his reddening lips.

(Y/N)...(Y/N)...

Things were about to get interesting.

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missmaywemeetagain · 2 years

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Oh, y’all, I was hoping to get Part 2 of Pink Scarf out today, but instead I’m all up in my feels and wrote a stupidly long post about EP to mark this 45th year of his passing…I’m sharing it here because it seems the best place to do so.

45 years ago today, the world lost an icon. Elvis Presley’s early death, at just 42, shocked millions. Elvis was more than just an entertainer; he is a facet of American culture and history, changing the landscape of both and paving the way for many artists after him.

I’m so grateful that I’ve been able to reconnect with and rekindle my love for Elvis this summer. For a lot of reasons, this season of my life has been very challenging and uncertain, and in June, I was at the height of emotions related to all of it. It feels serendipitous that it was also the moment I discovered there was an Elvis movie coming out, and thus began my deep dive into the trove of information related to him and the movie. This has been a welcome distraction and fuel for my other passions of music and writing. It may seem silly to some, but I find him endlessly fascinating—a one of a kind charismatic, talented, beautiful, tragic, and tremendously flawed human.

My dad loved Elvis, and I will forever cherish being able to share that love with him and my mom. I have so many fun memories of watching his concerts with them and listening to Elvis CDs blasting at full volume in the middle of the night when my dad would go on an Elvis kick. That kind of joy and fun is contagious! It bonds you.

This week is one of strong emotions. I find it strangely fitting that Dad died almost 35 years to the day after Elvis and exactly 54 years after EP’s mother, Gladys. Honestly, I hope they are all out there somewhere in the ether having a good time together! Regardless, while I feel deep sadness this week, there is also the celebration and homage of lives that made a profound impact on others (albeit on a different scale!).

I know that EP struggled a lot in those last years with his purpose, thinking that no one would remember him or wondering if he’d done anything of any value in his life. To me (and millions of fans with more fervor than mine), I ultimately think that Elvis brings people together through music and his beautiful and tragic life story. He makes us feel. That was, and continues to be, his superpower, and why, 45 years after his death, his otherworldly magnetism is still drawing in new generations of fans.

I will always be tremendously frustrated with the sensationalist way his death was treated and how it affected his legacy. Finally, after 45 years, some light has been shed on the subject—Elvis did not die of a drug overdose or even simply from complications from prescription drug use. He was very, very ill, and his heart gave out. It is likely that he would’ve died early with or without the drugs.

I highly recommend reading Elvis: Destined to Die Young by Sally Hoedel. According to her extensive research, Elvis had several conditions (many of which he suffered from since childhood/were genetic) that detrimentally affected nine out of his 11 body systems, including (but not limited to):

- severe glaucoma & iritis,

- Chronic insomnia,

- Hirschsprung’s disease (bowel paralysis due to missing nerve cells in the colon that would’ve caused excruciating pain) resulting in megacolon,

- an immune system disorder called hypogammaglobulinemia (an under active immune system) resulting in frequent infections and left untreated, can lead to heart, lung, and digestive damage, Crohn’s, and cancer. (We know that Elvis suffered chronic infections throughout his life, especially tonsillitis, ear infections, sore throats, fevers, intestinal infections, and flus)

- Presence of the genetic disorder Alpha 1 Antitrypsin Deficiency (a condition affecting the liver, lungs, and heart which is now believed to be what killed his mother at such an early age)

- Congenital heart disease & hypertension

- Cushing’s disease

- adrenal insufficiency

- Anemia

- Rheumatoid arthritis and Reactive arthritis

- Enlarged spleen

- Enlarged liver/non alcoholic hepatitis

- Diabetes

- COPD (Based on the combination of many of these, Elvis may very well have suffered from Common Variable Immunodeficiency Disease or CVID.)

- And finally, his prescription drug addiction. Having so many conditions had him relying on, and eventually abusing, many prescription drugs just to function, especially as his touring and performing schedule demands increased.

I am amazed that Elvis could even function at all with even a fraction of these conditions, much less perform physically demanding shows twice a day and tour.

I truly hope Elvis is at peace and that he knows what a tremendous impact he’s made and continues to make on the world. I hope he can see what a wonderful job Austin and Baz did portraying him. I’m so happy that new generations are discovering him and his legacy. I hope we can continue it in for generations to come!

In memory of Elvis Aaron Presley

January 8th, 1935-August 16th, 1977

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periru3 · 6 months

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I feel the strong need to whine about my mental health.

A week and a half ago I had 100% on every assignment in my math class. I was obsessed with my math class. Everything in it was either easy to me or interesting enough to me that I would hyper-fixate on it for hours figuring it out. I lost sleep because I was having so much fun doing math. I did so much extra reading and mathing and writing. I was going fully off the rails obsessing about number theory.

And then a week and a half ago my seasonal affective disorder kicked in and now I can’t think or focus on this class or any of my assignments. I haven’t completed any of the last weeks assignments on time and I didn’t even finish two of them. Why can’t my brain work. I am so sad. I was going to do so well in this class. My teacher must be so confused as to why I suddenly stopped trying at something I clearly was loving for the whole semester up until now. I logically know that I can still get a 98% in this class if I get my act together for the next week or so. But still. The assignment I’m trying to do right now isn’t even hard. I understand the math. But instead of getting super excited and writing way too much about it and drawing up fun visuals to share with my class I’m just staring at my screen thinking “great. I understand it. Why do I need to think about it or write about it at all. I’m good. What if I curled up and never moved again.”

I guess it’s just really disheartening to see something like this happen so fast. I know my depression makes it hard to focus and think and enjoy things I used to enjoy. I understand how this works. I’ve lived with it my whole life and I know every October I suddenly lose the will to live. It’s just I was doing so well in this one thing. Maybe to an unhealthy degree. I should have been sleeping. But. I was enjoying enjoying something. And then it just went away overnight. And I’m so sad about it. I don’t know what to say to my teacher.

Why can’t I just get to keep things I enjoy ever? Why does it always have to be so hard?

#depression

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breelandwalker · 2 years

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Secular Celebrations - Spring Equinox

Next on the calendar is the Vernal Equinox, which marks the beginning of spring and the start of the growing season. In the northern hemisphere, this usually happens right around March 20th to March 22nd, depending on the year, while in the Southern Hemisphere, this occurs around September 20th - 23rd.

This is the time to start shaking off the winter and those cold weather blues. And as someone who is firmly on that Seasonal Affective Disorder train, believe me when I tell you that this is IMPORTANT. So when you think about what you’re going to do for the spring equinox, make sure you include self-care and a continuation of that cleaning kick you hopefully started back around Imbolc. Actually, every holiday observance should include a little bit of both of these things. Not just because they’re important, but because holidays are easy to remember, and even if you don’t always have time to fit these things into your schedule, it might be more feasible to work them into your holiday observances.

If the weather allows it, try cracking a window, even for a few minutes, and get some light and fresh air into your home. Even if it’s still chilly outside, sometimes it helps alleviate that dry, stuffy feeling we all get from being stuck inside with the heat on for months at a time. Open up those shades, let some sun in, turn on a sun lamp or one of those little antidepressant desk lights if you have one. Like the musical says, “Let the sunshine in.”

Or, if you can, get outside for a little while. Hopefully there will be a nice clear day that allows this. Look for signs of spring in your neighborhood - birds, flowers, buds on the trees, maybe some snowmelt if you live in a place that still has snow in late winter. If you have children, this might be a fun spring bingo type activity. The birds will be coming back, so scatter some seeds for them while you’re out and about. And speaking of snowmelt, melted snow and icicles can be used as a base for moonwater. Just make sure you select...er...CLEAN material to work with, and strain the meltwater through some paper towels before you store it for magical use.

You can also note the progress of seasonal changes in your journal or your planner, if you have one. This doesn’t always have a magical application, but it’s important to mental health to be able to track the passage of time through changes in your environment. If you have trouble with Seasonal Affective Disorder, or if you just hate winter, noting when the weather starts warming and the sun comes out and the early bulbs start to come up can be very encouraging.

Getting back to the subject of children’s activities, this is a great time for spring-related crafts, fingerpainting (you are NEVER too old for fingerpainting), and a discussion about why the seasons change and what it means in your household as far as traditions go. Your kids may be seeing their peers going on Easter egg hunts and getting baskets of candy, so if you’d like to do something similar but secular, maybe have a “signs of spring” scavenger hunt. If you want to decorate some eggs, go right ahead! Make some special witchy equinox eggs, why not.

If you want to make a special meal to celebrate the change in seasons, I suggest a breakfast. It’s the beginning of the yearly planting cycle, so why not mark it with the first meal of the day? Appropriate foods include bread, eggs, cheese, cured meats, preserves, sprouts, sweets, and pastries. So bust out that french toast casserole recipe, the good jams, and your best quiche lorraine and go to town!

Once you’ve recovered from the food coma, get cracking on that spring cleaning you started back on Imbolc. There’s always more to do! If you’ve finished decluttering one area, start on another. If you’ve finished one project, pick another one. Keep yourself motivated and moving as much as you can. If you’ve been meaning to start a new self care routine or exercise program, go for it. The world is waking up and coming back to life after a long winter’s nap; you can do the same.

Freshen up your household wards and protections while you’re tidying. This can be as simple as “cleaning with intent,” whereby you banish negativity or bad luck or sickness along with the dirt and grime, or as complex as a full casting to patch whatever needs patching, or anything in between. Get rid of any lingering stale energy from the winter. You’ll know best what needs to be done. It never hurts to have a freshly-cleansed home.

If you’re planning to plant a garden, the Vernal Equinox is a great time to start. Whether you’re buying seeds, filling starter trays, or just sketching out what you want to plant when the ground thaws, get a jump start on your green witchery. Housewares stores should begin stocking seeds around this time, or you can order free catalogs from places like Burpee, Seed Savers, or a local biodiversity co-op to help you plan.

Of course, not all of us have green thumbs. If you’d like a garden but can’t seem to keep your sprouts going, try putting together a succulent patch. These hardy little plants are easy to care for and harder to kill than the mutant offspring of a rabid zombie and the T-1000. (I can personally speak to this - I have two sprouts of aloe that are actively growing in trays that have no dirt or water in them. It’s a little bit freaky.)

For those who are more inclined to crafty activities, you can create a fairy garden with a couple of flowerpots, some moss or lichen, and whimsical miniature decorations like fairy gardens.

You can also bring fresh flowers into your home. Give yourself a bouquet or a potted plant for a splash of color and scent. Swap that wintry pine bunting for early blooms like forsythia, dogwood, pussy willow, and cherry blossoms. Some traditions call for a bonfire in March or April, on which the old bunting will be burned, but obviously, please only do this if you’re using actual pine boughs, not plastic and silk.

And silk flowers ARE valid seasonal decorations for the witchy home, by the by. If you don’t have access to fresh foliage or can’t keep houseplants for whatever reason, go with silk ones. They can stay up for months on your walls or on your altar with just a little dusting, and provide ambience and magical symbolism with comparatively little effort. Plus, you can save them from year to year to be reused. I have a set of seasonal garlands that I hang over my altar that is entirely composed of silk flowers and leaves, and they provide a really nice aesthetic without too much worry about dead flowers or crumbling leaves catching on fire from the candles.

We experienced the promise of spring on Imbolc, and now we see that promise fulfilled at the vernal equinox. Sketch out your goals for the upcoming season. Think about the positive changes you wish to make and how you intend to grow. Meditate on the importance of keeping promises, both to yourself and to others, and on making only those promises you know you can keep.

And remember - you’ll reap what you sow later in the year, so sow ever so carefully.

-from Hex Positive, Ep. 011 - Secular Celebrations (Nov 01, 2020)

Other Posts In This Series:

Imbolc

Spring Equinox

Beltane

Midsummer

Lughnasadh

Autumn Equinox

Samhain

Yule

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waddlenut · 3 years

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Masterlist of the masterlist - Harry Styles

I HAVE WRITTEN NONE OF THESE FANFICS, CREDITS TO THE WRITERS!

This is a masterlist of my reblogs :)

ONE DIRECTION

Fluff -

He doesn’t want to take advantage of you while you’re drunk (5/5)

You fall asleep on hijm in front of the boys (5/5)

Angst -

You get mobbed by paparazzi (Harry and Louis preference)

The one where your house is on fire and you are asleep (Niall preference)

You pass out (Niall)

Tiger (Niall finds his girlfriend looking in the mirror, judging her appearance)

HARRY STYLES

Fluff -

Choosing her (y/n overhears Harry sticking up for her)

The one where you have a huge fight and you are sick

Not your fault (fav. y/n has epilepsy and Harry feels helpless. TW - minor graphic description of an epilepsy attack)

Y/N is in a wheelchair and she is grocery shopping with Harry

Just talk (fav. y/n has a minor speech impediment and one of Harry’s friend makes fun of her for it. She doesn’t know how to react, Harry does.)

Tea mugs and tear stains (y/n gets overwhelmed and Harry helps)

Harry jokes about your moaning

A white t-shirt (Harry find out about y/n’s scars. TW - mentions selfharm/scars)

Y/N vomits down Harry’s gucci suit and Harry couldn’t give a shit (TW - throwing up)

Y/N falling in the shower and boyfriend!Harry getting ultra worried

You’re deaf and Harry is besotted with you

Cus y’laugh is pretty (in which Harry gets his wiskom teeth removed)

Y/N is stressed and Harry makes everything just a little bit better

Coming out to Harry as bisexual (good ending, no worries)

Sweater (y/n cold and steals Harry’s sweater)

Periods, pads and pain (Y/N is on her period)

Holding him (just pure love and affection)

He’s just jealous (fav. a small kids thinks Y/N is pretty and wants to sit with her)

My muse (TW - camille)

My hero (Harry being protective)

You’re poor and he doesn’t know

The best doctor (Y/N has chronic migraines)

First class (the one when Y/N and Harry meet during a long flight, and Harry makes a new little friend too) part 2

Your best friend negatively talks about you and Harry’s relationship and he overhears

Your english is so good yet, and someone makes fun of it. Harry does not appericiate that

The best gift (fav. Y/N can’t afford Harry’s life style. angst w/ fluff)

Right place, right time (fav. When someone starts following the reader, Harry is the prince on a white horse)

Harry points you out at his concert part 2 part 3

Y/N has an asthma attack at Harry’s place

Y/N gets drunk and uses Harry’s dick as a microphone

Y/N is breastfeeding in public and a man started saying rude remarkt to her, Harry knows how te react (fav)

Families meet (one where Harry’s family and Y/N Mexican family meet)

Her good baby (fav. Y/N has been really busy with a family program and kinda forgets about Harry. That’s until he breaks)

Spill your guts or fill your guts (based on spill you guts or fill your guts with Harry and Kendall but instead of Kendall it’s you)

Harry think Y/N and the kids forgot his birthday (fav)

CEO!Harry bring this baby angel to work, all fun until she gets lost

Y/N accidentally eating Harry’s edibles

Harry just cannot believe how much he loves

Harry and Y/N’s first thanksgiving in their home and a little announcement

Candy Wrappers (Harry loves candy, that results in a house full of candy wrappers)

Harry dating a curvy girl

Y/N and Harry’s home birth doesn’t go as planned

Under the canyon moon (dad!harry blowing raspberries into bubs tummy but they get a rash)

Y/N is in London while he is LA during quarantine (fav)

Quarantining with dad!Harry and your bub

Harry feels neglected when Y/N spends lots of time with Anne

Pregnant (where you’re pregnant during the corona outbreak and Harry is super protective)

Sunflower vol.6: the fic (fav. Y/N has tourette syndrome and Harry falls in love)

Bad days and good days (Y/N has depression and Harry takes care of her. TW - mentions of depression)

Mornings with the Styles family

Y/N following Harry around the house because she got scared watching a movie

Better than melatonin (Harry’s songs help you sleep)

Harry doing baby bubs hair in the bathroom while she’s facetiming Mitch (fav)

Harry helps you through childbirth

Anasthesia and letting go (reader has gotten their wisdome teeth removed and Harry takes care of them)

Getting naked in front of Harry for the first time

Harry reads Y/N a story to help her drift off to sleep

Want a chicken nugget (you’re taking a shower and Harry, knowing your love for chicken nuggets, comes and gives you one)

Rainbow cardigan (Harry loses his favorite cardigan. You learn how to knit)

My shy little boy (Y/N’s son is too shy to play with other kids at Anne’s house)

Golden dancing (fav. Harry is on stage singing golden and little Artemis comes running on stage and starts dancing)

Daddy (Artemis calls Harry daddy for the first time)

The first meeting (Y/N and Artemis met a handsome (to Y/N) and intimidating (to Artemis) man)

Watermelon suger (behind the scenes) (Shots of long-term girlfriend Y/N in watermelon suger. TW - some strong language)

Roses and vanilla (in which Y/N and Harry aren’t really close until Y/N falls in the shower, and Harry falls in love)

Babbles (bubby crying during a show just to get Harry’s attention so they can go on stage and babble into the mic)

No kids (H and his partner deciding not to have children)

Toxic family (fav. The reader doesn’t have the best family, lucky for them, the Styles are basically their family)

Harry’s son runs on stage

Listen to me (fav. Autistic!reader has a difficult moment)

Angst -

You pass out backstage

You have paranoia disorder

Can you leave? (fav. ceo!harry)

Complains (In which Y/N heard Harry complainging about her)

Taken (your abusive ex tries to contact you when Harry’s away on your. (TW - name calling and slight violence)

Autistic!reader has an interview with Harry (fav)

You get into a car accident when Harry’s in the middel of a concert part 2

Too busy for a baby (TW - harry’s an asshole + mentions of pregnancy)

Y/N gets anxiety at one of Harry’s concerts. (TW - anxiety and guns are mentioned)

He kicks you out of the car. (fav) part 2

Long way down (the one where she tinks he’s being unfaithful, and he questions the trust in their relationship. TW - mentions of creating and pregnancy complications) part 2

The one where you have a huge fight and you are sick

There’s a rumor being spread about you

Remember me (Harry forgets your birthday)

Harry calls Y/N clingy and she leaves

Harm done (fav. Y/N makes Harry food but he doesn’t even like it)

Harry coming home to find Y/N locked herself up in the washroom

Don’t touch her (you’re in the crowd and somebody touches you while Harry’s performing. TW - sexual harassment and mild assault)

Why would you keep something like this from me? (In which she’s been feeling umcomfortable and doesn’t tell Harry. TW - mentions of assault)

Y/N and Harry get in a bad argument and Y/N gets a panic attack (TW - panic attack)

And I can’t give that to you (fav. In which Harry suffers from seasonal depression ands he doesn’t know how to help)

So tired (you join Harry on tour but he seems to have other prirorites. Angst w/ fluff on the way) part 2

You have self-esteem issues (TW - talking about low self-esteem)

Y/N has an anxiety attack at a concert and calls Harry (TW - anxiety attack)

Even if it was momentary (in which Harry is forced to watch his worst nightmare)

Little white lie (a television talk show host feels you up backstage and you don’t tell Harry. TW - sexual harassment) part 2

He hides the fact that he’s sick on tour form you and insults you when you try to take care of him

There’s an intruder in her house (Harry comes home to find his girlfriend is being threatenend by an intruder. TW - some curse words, mentions of sex & just in general subject of break ins and panic)

Narcissistic behaviour (Harry loves to talka bout himself, but it’s suppose to be Y/N’s special day)

Miss you (where Y/N loses Harry’s rose ring and he gives them the silent treatment)

Dizzy (Y/N gets hurt on Harry’s watch. TW - fainting/passing out)

Happy birthday (in which Y/N throws Harry a suprise birthday party, but Harry ends up making her cry)

Harry comparing you to Camille

Exhaustedly in love (Y/N passes out as soon as Harry comes home from tour because she has been studying day and night)

Go home (in which Harry is jet lagged and you’re completely humiliated) part 2

Get out (Y/N is done with Harry being busy with work all the time) part 2

Anesthesia and apologies (fav)

Y/N has a condition that makes her have seizures (TW - mentions of seizures)

Harry loses his baby angel while shopping

Harry complains to the boys about Y/N and his sex life part 2

You’re in love with Harry but your self-doubt won’t believe he’s in love with you

Don’t shout (Harry doesn’t know what to do after he lied to Y/N)

Make it up to you (Harry loses his temper and almost hits you. TW - almost being hit by a lover and swearing)

I’ll get there (Y/N has been struggling with her body image ever since she was a teenager, but now that she was becoming a big time model, it had only gotten worse. TW - mentions of eating disorders and symptoms similair to those of a panic attack)

Smut -

Harry comes home to Y/N being in subspace but he doesn’t realize

Needy baby (the one where Harry’s bakc from tour and his girl really just needs to feel him)

Shower head

Harry gets emotional because he loves you so much

Taste my lips, feel my touch (Y/N’s stuck in subspace and Harry helps her out of it)

Where Harry is an asshole CEO but Y/N is his little love

Happy anniversary

Y/N goes into sub space when she is overwhelmed, but now it happend in public

Then again sometimes I get really sweet (TW - belly humping)

This cutest thing ever

Crossing the finish line

Right choice (Harry has a moustache now and you want get it sticky. TW - swearings, sexual intercourse and a sticky moustache)

Timing (Harry cumming early and he is upset and disappointed)

Cause I’m high, chewing on your taste (TW - Sub!Harry, H in fishnets and pegging)

Out in the heartland (It’s Harry’s birthday and you have a very special gift for him. TW - daddy kink, pegging, anal fingering and rimming)

#one direction masterlist #harry styles masterlist

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jade-marie · 3 years

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I didn't watch episode 4 but I saw gifs of Beth yelling at Jane and it got me thinking, what's your view on the Boland kids not being parented?

Lmao you love getting me in trouble🤣

Sorry. It got long but I could rant about this for weeks.

Pre canon and S1

Obviously, we don’t see anything pre canon when it comes to the Boland kids, but you can put together an idea of what their situation was like from the first few episodes. Beth was a SAHM - she made them fancy packed lunches for school, had them enrolled in extra curricular activities, dropped them off/picked them up from school, put them to bed, got them ready etc. She was the main caregiver and Dean was at work. When he came home, he got to be the fun dad.

It seems like they had a decent amount of structure, as far as schedules go, but they’ve never been given any responsibility and didn’t appear to be well disciplined. We had Kenny telling Beth she sucked at math in s1 - something I certainly wouldn’t have gotten away with. Anyway, they had a decent amount of structure and stability, they were used to things being a certain way and that was all disrupted when Dean was kicked out of the house. Then suddenly, Dean was back, but he was sharing a bedroom with Kenny. It doesn’t seem like any of this was really explained to the kids properly or that they were helped through the process, which can have some knock-on effects.

Throughout Season 2

First episode of S2, Dean was shot. The kids were told that he was mugged and were, understandably, shaken up by the whole thing. Once again, nobody truly comforted or helped them through this process and we started to see the fallout of that. Kenny essentially developed an eating disorder and started bingeing, Jane “ran away from home”. But again, nothing is done about it. Beth says they need to be more present, no phones at dinner, they look into a child therapist, but we don’t ever hear about the kids actually getting therapy even though they desperately need it.

Throughout the season, the structure that they still had in S1 rapidly disappears. It goes from Beth being the main caregiver to her handing the reigns over to Dean in 2.05 and he doesn’t do a good job of it. The house becomes a mess, the kids run wild. This would be a perfect opportunity to start giving the older children some chores, helping to re-introduce structure, but it doesn’t happen. From the kids perspectives, they would notice their mother becoming more and more absent from their lives, missing dance recitals, coming home late, missing dinner, missing bedtime and so Dean is becoming the consistent parent (important for later).

Dean decides to weaponise the children, taking them away from Beth and going to stay with his mother for a while, before going back home. Beth and Dean tell the kids that they’re going to be getting a divorce, obviously that doesn’t happen, again creating quite an unstable environment for them. Effectively, they have a roof over their heads and they’re being fed/clothed, but nobody is actually parenting them.

Throughout Season 3

At the beginning of S3, with the dealership gone and Beth no longer working for Rio, they have significantly less money. It’s not clear how much of a knock-on effect this had on their extra curricular activities because Jane still has her piano lessons and Kenny has hockey. Beth’s taking them to the park a lot, it’s also not clear whether this is simply because she’s stalking Rhea and Marcus or genuinely because the park is a free activity for them. Regardless, they’ve been going to the park enough that it’s no longer fun. The kids really don’t seem to have any structure anymore and, once again, it doesn’t seem like they’ve been receiving any emotional support during what would be a challenging time for any child.

Dean has gone back to work, Beth is now also working, so Judith steps in to help take care of the kids. She takes things a little bit far, which pisses off Beth, so Judith is quickly removed from the equation. Again - instability. Then we have the fallout between Rhea and Beth, which means Jane can no longer play with her best friend Marcus for (at least from her perspective) absolutely no reason. Again – instability. Fast forward a few weeks, the entire house is emptied so the kids have to go and stay with Judith for an unspecified amount of time. Again – instability. We can play the blame game to decide who is the cause of this instability, but it’s pretty irrelevant. The fact is, the kids lives are being shaken up and nobody is helping them through it.

Beth buys new furniture, the kids come home, it all seems great, and then Dean gets arrested. So now their dad ,who has been the more consistent parent in their lives for the last year, is out of the picture. Once again, nobody is really offering them support during this time. We see Jane asking for her dad, we see the kids talking about how Dean lets them eat by the TV, because they’re missing things which have been consistent for them, and then we finally get to Janes little stand-off with Beth over the remote control.

That is quite clearly the result of her emotional needs going unmet for God knows how long, so she’s acting like a brat. Instead of taking care of and supporting her child, Beth lashes out. I find the editing choice to mute the yelling and playing music over the scene annoying, because it lightens it quite a bit. It’s pretty obvious that Beth was wildly over reacting to the situation, because she was lashing out at a child over things that had nothing to do with Jane. She was stressed about Dean, she was stressed about Fitzpatrick‘s upcoming murder and taking that out on a kid. Yeah, she felt bad and gave her a hug after, but you’ve still got 3/4 kids (is Kenny coming back??) who’ve been emotionally neglected for at least a year.

Beth’s kids compared to Annie/Ben

We don’t really see a lot of Ben‘s relationship with Greg, it doesn’t seem like he’s a particularly bad parent in any way, Nancy is probably a bit neurotic, but nothing major. Annie, is pretty emotionally stunted and immature, she puts way too much responsibility on Ben, so it’s the complete opposite of Beth. Ben is effectively the grown-up in their relationship, he leaves reminders for his mother to make sure shit gets dealt with and any structure Ben has is structure he’s created for himself.

But at the same time, he trusts his mother and when something is bothering him he actually talks to her. We saw him come out to Annie before Greg and Nancy, he told Annie when he was being bullied. As he gets older, you can see him growing tired of parenting his mother, but I think she’s learning from her mistakes by recognising the way they’ve impacted her son. I think it’s also important to remember that Ben has been largely unaffected by Annies criminal activities, this is predominantly because she has a shitload of baggage to deal with.

Beth’s kids compared to Ruby and her kids

As a whole, Ruby‘s kids have been relatively unaffected by her criminal activities. It doesn’t look like they ever had a rigourous schedule of extracurricular activities, but they’ve always had a stable home life. Not financially well off, but happy. We’ve always seen them be respectful, they have boundaries with their parents, they don’t particularly misbehave etc. They just appear to be good kids with good parents. They witnessed Stan being arrested and Sara especially took that quite hard, but she was supported through it. It’s also quite clear that she’s had a good emotional support system throughout her illness and kidney transplant. When she found out that Ruby was up to something shady in S3 and their relationship became strained as a result, she spoke to her mother in a way which was disrespectful, eventually that behaviour was checked. Because Ruby and Stan parent their children.

Beth’s kids compared to Rio/Marcus

From the very first time we were introduced to Marcus, we’ve seen that he’s very polite, very well-balanced and has a good relationship with his dad. We’ve seen Rio patiently instil important lessons in his son, such as cleaning up his messes, being patient and waiting his turn - things which Beth’s kids still don’t understand.

For the most part, Marcus seems to be pretty well shielded from Rio’s criminal activities, which is why I think Marcus was so heavily affected by his dads absence in S3. But, unlike the Boland children, he was emotionally supported through the process by his mother. He went to her for comfort and he received it. When Rio isn’t around, Rhea appears to pick up the slack and ensure Marcus still has some stability.

I think they’ve deliberately contrasted Beth’s kids with the other children on the show. Her children are the only ones who seem to be truly feeling the effects of choices she’s made during the course of the series. She claims to be doing all of this for her kids, but is completely ignorant to the fact that her choices are hurting them. This isn’t me bashing her character or saying she’s a shitty mom because I don’t like her, this is just stating what’s happening on the screen and right now, whether or not it’s deliberate, she’s being a shitty parent. Dean has always been a shitty parent. So now those kids don’t have anyone😕

#tl;dr #boland kids have shitty parents and it’s showing #good girls nbc #rio good girls #beth boland #ruby hill #annie marks

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flyingupward · 3 years

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critical role - vox machina chapter 4 - attack of the conclave

all sentences taken from episodes 39-56 of the first campaign of critical role. feel free to change pronouns, phrasing etc. to fit your needs!

“All this time, you’ve been trying to kick my teeth in and your true enemy was right over there.”

“That’s good. Moving is not my forte.”

“We’re in a hentai. Make it go away.”

“Not all short people look alike.”

“God, I wish I was not made of farts.”

“We live in a cold, cold world. No one deserves anything.”

“You chose so poorly. It is truly impressive how poorly you chose.”

“Stay away from all men. Forever.”

“I’m glad I came in handy for that field trip.”

“I hate your friends!”

“Little do they know I shop for everything at Home Goods so joke’s on them.”

“It’s just radioactive material in the basement. It’s fine.”

“Somehow the coffee has not been poured on your head. That’s the greatest magic trick I’ve seen all morning.”

“Everything else was dragons. Why wouldn’t it be dragons?”

“Sorry, I was so caught up in the fact that I’m literally going up against death incarnate.”

“You’re a magnificent handsome bastard. Don’t die.”

“Do not go far from me.”

“He’s just a sociopath, that’s all.”

“There are dragons outside and we’re playing rugby with a fucking skull!”

“A simple mind is looking for a simple solution to a complex problem.”

“I’m a firm believer that there’s always a way to victory if we’re smart about it and we’re quick about it.”

“We either stand now or we might as well be dead.”

“We try, we mostly fail, but occasionally we get it right.”

“It was such a bad deal I said no. Can you imagine how bad of a deal it must have been?”

“No offense darling, but you look like shit.”

“If we’re going to be roaming about the streets, I’d like you to not fall open like a can of baked beans if you don’t mind.”

“Let’s not get overexcited about the sudden realization that some of us can be a bit iffy.”

“Thank you for that smattering of applause.”

“I have one of those terrible ideas I get on occasion.”

“This is politics. You’re not supposed to like them.”

“You can talk my fucking ear off in a moment. Shut up for a second.”

“If the parasite hasn’t a host to feed on, the parasite dies.”

“I never forget that when I rule, I rule these people as well.”

“One day, you’re going to stop being afraid of me and I hope that day comes soon.”

“There’s no swinging by, that’s a caper.”

“It will be built back better than before. That’s what we do.”

“We have a lot of Pop Tarts, but not very many gold pieces.”

“This is where I live. What are you doing here?”

“I’m cold and I still haven’t been paid.”

“We’re not trying to score points. We are trying to do right.”

“This is fucking happy fun bunch over here. They bring death with them everywhere they go.”

“And to think I might have briefly missed you.”

“You have to find the no name guy who’s going to help you find the stuff that’s hidden that nobody knows where it is or what it is.”

“What do you want to do? Do you want to stay here while the world burns?”

“World’s always ending, baby.”

“It would be wondrous, after we complete this transaction, that we never meet again.”

“Oh my God, I just buy healing to save my life, what a waste.”

“I’m going to stand over here and fail to stay in character, okay?”

“Let’s all have a toast to the inevitability of the universe.”

“My God, I love other people’s problems.”

“Are we sober yet?”

“I think her foolish impulses are exactly what we’re looking for.”

“Better to die a fool for something than live in regret for doing nothing.”

“I think we want her to do her stupidest.”

“You’re… brooding.”

“I tend to glaze over when he’s talking.”

“Lead the way, shitkicker.”

“A lot of your friends are very weird.”

“I would just like to point out that I’m mostly sober.”

“That’s okay because remember, I’m me.”

“I’d like to stand up, please.”

“I’m scared to death which is why the math is so bad.”

“I’ve met few as unremarkable as you in my travels.”

“Well then, we’re in trouble. I have an attitude about everything.”

“Yeah, there’s like 37 things we have to do before tomorrow so… ”

“She’s not really gonna care about court so much as ripping the bones from your back.”

“I thought you were gonna tell me a dirty joke or something. When you say, ‘Come here,’ that’s usually what that means.”

“It doesn’t matter if it’s going to be daylight if we’re underground.”

“I’m really hoping that it’s the worst decision we make because then everything’s uphill.”

“I like who we are together and I think that that’s important.”

“Dying in slow motion over here.”

“Oh good, more darkness.”

“Oh my God, you’re going into a special section of your book. That’s never good.”

“I’m very aware that my greed killed me.”

“Oh, I must have missed it because I was dead. That’s right.”

“Do you have feelings and did that hurt them?”

“I’m pretty tired after dying.”

“I think I love you too. I’m just terrified to allow myself to.”

“We are a city of seasonal affective disorder.”

“So I heard a rumor that you sort of saved my life in a really creepy sort of way.”

“By the power vested in me, I now pronounce you my Pokemon.”

“Your secret is safe with my indifference.”

“I always fucking hear you in my mind. It’s very quiet in there these days.”

“If it becomes a problem, just raise your hand and scream.”

“Our lives are so bizarre now.”

“Why is my brain tingling? Is someone noodling around up there?”

“You know what? It’s just fire. I will be on fire.”

“Did someone lose an orb?”

“Are we really about to pretend to do CrossFit?”

“Not enough spit takes in the world for this moment in time.”

“Beyond it being an engineering issue, it might be a greed issue first.”

"She's an adult. Deep levels of arrested development, but an adult nonetheless."

“Retroactively, you’ve never been seen in your entire lives.”

“You take everything good away from all of us.”

“It’s not one problem, it’s a very large problem and a massive problem.”

“Those that give a fuck, speak up.”

“We’ve lived half our life in the shadows. You’ve made them your home.”

“I love my reckless brother as much as he hurts my heart.”

“Duck hunt’s a bitch.”

“This is so dumb. Why am I doing this?”

“Congratulations, you’re creepy as fuck.”

“Give me this you fucking hoarder. What’s the matter with you?”

“I will smite you.”

“I was born to shove things in holes.”

“Knowledge is power, for reals!”

“Are we time bandits now? Is that what’s happening?”

“I hate time travel. I hate time travel so much.”

“No worries. I didn’t need to live anyway.”

“Perhaps it’s time to be a better badass.”

“It’s been a traumatic five minutes.”

“Like any good plan, everything will go wrong.”

“Oh well, I’m fucked then.”

“Oh, tiny dancer, you are fucked.”

“He died as he lived: Deeply unimpressed.”

“Don’t you dare die happy.”

“I like that we managed to make solving problems with violence into an ABC afternoon special.”

“I don’t think I’ve ever heard anyone say, ‘At dawn, we plan.’”

“I genuinely don’t understand the place you come from.”

“That is the weirdest coping mechanism I’ve ever heard of.”

“Maybe we should just sleep together and see what happens.”

“Thank you for telling me the truth after you sort of lied to me.”

“Yeah keep twitching, twitchy.”

“We totally planned at dawn!”

“Everything is terrible. Our lives are terrible. They are way worse than they were six months ago.”

“You are a fucking madman, but I’m glad you’re here.”

“I’m fucked. I understand I’m fucked. It’s fine.”

“This was all part of the plan, the hastily smushed together plan.”

“He’s a liar and a bringer of death and he’s smiling at you while he does it.”

“Bravery means nothing. Survival and victory mean everything.”

“Oh shut up, you flying suitcase.”

“You don’t need inspiration, you’re fine!”

“If I move, he’ll kill me. So I won’t.”

“Cursed Lizard! We’re going to give all your gold to the poor!”

“Don’t be so glum you old fool! This is a day of glory!”

“We will all die. It just depends on cost.”

“Oh, wow. You just said a lot of things in a very short amount of time.”

“You are the worst of us.”

“If there’s a dare involved, that’s completely different.”

“I don’t like wanting things.”

“Is it the people or is it the fact that you have finally realized how pointless it all is?”

“I feel like I’ve been lied to my entire goddam life and it’s all crashing down upon me right now.”

“The thing is you’re not wrong and you’re not crazy, but it’s not hopeless either.”

“Even surrounded by friends, I often feel so alone.”

“Thank you for being a friend even though we just met.”

“The terrible woman may have a point.”

“Woo! Good leadership!”

“The awkward woman makes a fine point.”

“It is not about idolizing ourselves, it is about a very long story which we are a very small part of.”

“I’m doing something very stupid now with my friends. We’re going to try to save the world.”

“I admire everyone in our band of misfit toys, but you most of all.”

“You are all kinds of fucked up all the time and that’s why we love you.”

“We’re all all kinds of fucked up and that’s why we all are together.”

“That’s all we can be is ish.”

#MEME | incoming #long post #i know i still have some other memes to answer but i finished this one so #send me these and i'll answer them all tonight/tomorrow

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eintsein · 5 years

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Stay Energized in the Winter!

I live in Ithaca now, and at this time of year, the sun’s up for like 8-9 hours a day, and it’s cold and dark, and you often find yourself not wanting to do anything. However, I still need to keep up with my studies, and I’m sure some of you are faced with a similar problem. So, I’ve gathered some of the things I do to help me stay energized throughout a winter day.

Understand your energy levels and work with them

I don’t think it’s reasonable to expect yourself to be able to do as much work or be as energized in the colder months as you do in warmer months.

For example, maybe in the summer/fall, you could survive with 5 hours of sleep and more intense work sessions, but in the winter, you might need more breaks and more sleep, and trying to resist that might result in the further deterioration of your energy levels. If you don’t already, try taking a midday break.

You shouldn’t feel guilty for having to recharge. You’ll be more productive afterwards.

Get enough sunlight

Exposure to sunlight boosts your mood by increasing your body’s serotonin levels - one of the happy hormones. It makes you more alert, energized, and prevents you from getting Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD).

My advice is to spend as much daylight time doing things so you can do them the most productively. Even if you’re more inclined to do things later in the day, at least push forward some of the things on your daily routine, or rearrange them in such a way that you get as much sunlight possible.

This semester - unfittingly called the ‘spring’ semester - I tried to schedule my classes as early as possible, even though I generally get sluggish in the afternoon and then work better in the evening. This is because I want to have time to do my work - or at least be out - while the sun’s still up.

Exercise where you can

It’s so hard to exercise outdoors in this weather, but I still see people going for jogs around campus, or hitting the gym. Personally, I just do some stretching and light exercise in my room.

Alternatively, if you take the bus, get off a stop early then walk the rest of the way (unless there’s terrible weather like a snowstorm or something where being outside is harmful). The key thing is that you get yourself moving, especially in the morning - you’ll be more productive and happier throughout the day.

Shower

I know the winter’s cold and you don’t feel like you have to take a shower, especially since it can make your skin dry. However, it’s a great energy booster, especially in the morning. Showering in the morning improves your blood flow and alertness, and reduces your stress levels throughout the day. If you don’t have time in the morning, shower in the evening, so you’ll have more energy after the sun goes down..

Make plans or have something to look forward to

Nothing is more draining than knowing that you have nothing to do, nothing to look forward to. You’ll probably just end up in your bed watching Netflix all day, which, let’s face it, might be fun at first but turns out to be a hell of an energy drainer. Go out to eat, study with someone, or at least watch something together.

Indulge yourself

Curl up with a good book. Watch your favorite show. Play some tunes while you sketch your favorite characters or OCs. It’s the winter, you deserve a little break to recover. If you don’t relax every now and then, you won’t be able to work as intensely and focus as hard as you want or need to.

Also, although it’s great to eat healthy, but a cup of hot cocoa or a muffin once in a while is fine and makes you happier in that moment.

Work on an indoor hobby

You’re going to spend a lot of time indoors, might as well use that time usefully (aside from schoolwork or other obligations). I like doing creative things like digital art, journaling, or bullet journaling while listening to a podcast, or reading - these types of activities are the most energizing for me.

You don’t need to do the things I listed - the point is, you should use your time indoors wisely, since during other parts of the year, you’ll probably be out a lot more.

Listen to the right music

I don’t know what y’all listen to but music is an awesome energy booster if you can align it with how you’re feeling. You know how sometimes you listen to a certain type of music and your mind just feels like it’s hovering there, like it’s slightly repelled by the music but you also don’t really hate it, and you just end up feeling unfulfilled afterwards? (That was a trash explanation but I hope you understand what I mean.) Yeah don’t do that.

During the day, listen to music that keeps you awake and energized - it could be hard hitting rock or dance-y pop or maybe even something mellow. Whatever it is, don’t try to counter it. I like to listen to roaring guitars in the morning, and slow jazz in the evening, and that works for me.

Get enough sleep (‘enough’ might be more than you usually get)

During the winter, you can take advantage of the cold and cozy weather to get more sleep. I know it’s tempting to keep working until you finish all your tasks, but if it means sacrificing your sleep, you’ll only end up depriving yourself of your already low levels of energy. Also, make sure you get good quality sleep so that you’ll be as energized as possible the next morning.

However, don’t get too much sleep. This morning, I came into math class, and my friend was like ‘you look really tired today, is something wrong?’ and no, there was nothing wrong. It’s just that this morning, I chose to sleep in until 8 when I usually wake up at 7, meaning I slept more than I should have. Too much sleep just makes you feel groggy once you wake up.

During the day, take a power nap if you have to, but don’t extend it for too long that your sleep inertia kicks in and you can’t get up anymore.

Focus on your food

I think the food we eat - and how we eat it - is a huge factor in maintaining our energy levels during these cold, dark months. So here’s an entire section about food-related strategies to combat the winter blues.

1. Eat well

Winter might tempt you to eat bulky food and sweets, but they’re not that beneficial to your productivity and energy levels. Sugary foods actually cause you to be sleepy during the day and reduce the quality of your sleep at night. Instead, opt to eat foods that contain

Vitamin C - like in fruits and vegetables - to boost your energy levels; and

Vitamin B12 - like fish, milk, and eggs - to reduce fatigue

2. Have good eating habits (don’t skip breakfast!)

In college especially, a lot of people skip breakfast - and sometimes even lunch - only to overeat during dinnertime. However, having a good breakfast - especially one with protein, fiber, and whole grains - will increase your ability to focus and boost your productivity throughout the day. Maybe you’re the type of person who tends to skip breakfast - the winter’s a great time to pick up the habit of having a morning meal. Recently, I’ve been having peanut butter and acai overnight oats - nutritious and convenient.

3. Have caffeine at the right time (if you consume any)

Studies show that the most effective time to have caffeine is between 9:30 to 11:30 am. Even if you have breakfast before that, I recommend waiting a little while before you sip your cup of coffee or whatever source of caffeine you take. You can always bring a cup to class or wherever you’re headed to at that time.

In the evening, I recommend having a cup of tea. Some teas contain enough caffeine to keep you alert but not prevent you from sleeping at night. My favorite is green tea, but other teas like oolong or black tea work just as well.

4. Snack (a little)

But not too much. A single square of chocolate or a couple crackers are great mood boosters, and it even improves cognitive functioning. You could even have a cup of tea along with your snack, which is doubly energizing.

That’s all I have for you now. Feel free to drop an ask or message me if you have any questions, and I hope the rest of the winter goes great for you!

p.s. wml bc I heard the winters here last till April

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sacks-of-kittans · 5 years

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How do you feel about the main trio in attack on titan?

They’ll all get their separate explainations

Spoilers ahead

Armin Alert

I haven’t even finished season 3, but I gotta admit I didn’t care about him in the beginning, but now I’ll say he’s become something more.

His whole family was fed propaganda their whole lives, didn’t join the scouts (until forced to) to see the outside world, and got killed off but still tried to escape. I’m pretty sure somewhere confirmed that the couple who made a hot air ballon was Armin’s parents and they were killed. That’s a shit ton interesting and I see parallels with Erwin with that considering his dad knew he truth and wasn’t entirely sure of it. I could be wrong about that but bear with me.

Even after everything the guy has gone through he can still see through the dust.

I’m glad Armin hasn’t been killed off (yet) because I really wanted him to go to the sea. I feel awful that he’s a titan now because I’m sure he hasn’t even killed one, but has killed a person or two. The poor guy had to throw away his morals to continue going further. Everyone was calling him a weaklin with brains, but holy hell hes far from it. Throws always his morals to save Jean, sacrifices him self, becomes a titan against his will, stood up to bullies as a kid, and always came up with a good enough plan. I’m glad he does catch a break and gets to see the ocean.

Why I didn’t like him the beginning was because to me he was best friend role to flesh out Eren’s character more. Eren saves Armin from bullies, Eren sacrifices his life to save Armin, Armin makes a plan so Eren can save the day. But once we got to see Armin save Eren a couple times, and actually be separated from Eren, he got development and was actually a likeable character.

More spoilers, I’m glad he’s not the character to flesh eren out more too because he stands up for Mikasa when Eren says he’s always hated her. I’m glad Armin isn’t loyal to one person only.

Mikasa Ackerman

The should have been protagonist...I’m kidding. To me Mikasa is a million times more interesting than Eren. She’s number one of her class, one reason she joined the military was to protect eren and Armin two people she’s loves, and I can believe she has flaws too, she’s not the “I’m perfect I just don’t have emotions” thing I thought she was gonna have

How she’s not perfect? How she has emotions? She does have an immature side like any teen should have, getting flustered when people are teasing her for loving Eren. She even makes a joke about Sasha farting. She tells Historia to punch Levi when she becomes queen. Mikasa is pretty cool for those little things. She grieves when she thinks Eren died. She even calls herself a whole army when everyone is ready to give up, and even had the best lines. “Tough shit”. Her confession to Eren even gets cut off because he keeps either missing the point or just doesn’t want their relationship to change. I know Eren doesn’t have romantic feelings for her so if he had to reject her I bet things would just feel hella awkward.

That’s not even all of Mikasa. Both of her parents are from clans that aren’t affect by royal blood. That worried me at first cause I was scared they would do the same thing to her as to Historia, but then we learned most the world isn’t affect by he king anyway. That’s still cool backstory I wish we could get more on.

Like we all thought Mikasa was just gonna be “I love eren and must protect him” and that was just gonna be it for her character. Her character was used to flesh Eren some more to say he’s average, but if the main focus was on Mikasa it would be about a strong girl who keeps getting rejected but is hella strong and doesn’t let that get her down.

Eren....not my favorite

Eren first of all had that basic anima portag design of dark hair and green eyes, but I’ll let that off the hook now just it works for the setting of the anime. I just remember when I first started watching AOT that design was used for the more colorful animes while the main protagonist looked like that.

Eren starts out of this kid who has a dream wanting to go outside the walls, and has a inferior complex towards Mikasa and loves his buddy Armin. Then his mom gets eaten and wants to declare all titans expiration dates.

Eren was chose to be the main character because he was average and did struggle to the middle best spot when joining the military (shocker) but I gotta say every character in the top ten except Marco is probably more interesting than eren

Mikasa and Armin are already explained

Historia long lost heir (we all thought she was weak but turns out she’s the real suicidal maniac who finds her purpose to moving forwards after losing her lover)

Ymir was a cult goddess who accidentally got the power of the titans and started living her life raw and real and ready to steal, her stone heart softens when she’s with those she cares about (not just Historia, but she also tried helping Connie and Sasha separately)

Annie- a foil of Mikasa, another person to flesh Eren out more to show him he even sucks as a titan shifter, but still had father issues. Not only that but I want to know if she’s gonna come back, I wanted to know if she was ready to live as an MP forever? What made her stay the MP and Bertholdt and Reiner become scots? How was their way of communicating?

Reiner- the warrior that wasn’t even suppose to be one. Has a dad that hates him and a mom that I think loves him and is glad her son can be used to ride her ranks up in life. He suffers from split personality disorder, watched someone die for him, and even adopt those traits from dead Marcel. He even goes for a kidnap plan that’s half asses and still manage to live. Now he’s a veteran with ptsd

Bertholt-literally the rock to Reiner. Became a warrior to help out his dad. Wanted to be forgotten but becomes the god of destruction.

Jean- also has a inferior complex towards Eren, but is used as comic relief, his crush on Mikasa starts out as that too but becomes unconditional and not creepy which actually makes me happy. I forgot where he’s from but I’m pretty sure it was Trost or some district meaning he had a similar childhood of erens and his trio but he was actually nice to his mom. Jean struggles with killing people and wants to be better too, but everyone reminds him that it’s okay. His character starts out as a douche but ends up being a decent leader type.

Sasha- didn’t find her interest until learning about her past. She lived in the woods and started out as someone who hated outsiders, but learned compassion while in the military. It would have been interesting to see the change of letting the forest change to towns. Her backstory added a new element of people of the forest and how the five years changed that. Sasha also had weird girl vibes and special talents of hunting and instincts.

Connie-similar to why Sasha is interesting, but also his town turned into titans and he lived to see the change. He also was actually funny and kinda the little bro of the group.

Back to eren.

Eren grows up talking shit that he later can’t take (I’m gonna kill all the titans but if it wasn’t for my titan power I didn’t know about I would have been dead) then later actually barely survives. He managed to work with a broken belt to stay in the military, Yeah for small victories.

His dad turns him into a titan. Which is the only reason he’s alive. I feel like if Eren didn’t have his titan ability it would be hard to make him the protagonist because not literally nothing would make him special. If the show was just about becoming a scout, eren would be dead.

During the Trost event he was okay, I just didn’t like how they kept showing how much he didn’t like Mikasa. He wanted to protect Armin but can’t handle Mikasa wanting to protect him, the #1 in the class. When he found out he hurt Mikasa he got some points back for showing remorse.

Their expedition arc fighting on pure rage sure whatever

Annie vs Eren arc

So it’s fine that he refused to believe Annie was the titan because it’s shocking to find out one of your classmates is doing “evil” things. I also thought he might have had feelings for her since Annie is a foil to Mikasa, but maybe not really, maybe it was just “why would Annie wanna help me in our training days if she knew one day she had to take us down?”

They changed the fight in the anime from Manga to make eren look stronger which actually made me like it more because I wanted to see a desperate Annie after everyone she’s killed, and I wanted to see if Eren has grown more.

After all the season one stuff the thing I didn’t like the most was people shipping Levi and Eren together as hard as they did. Levi is in his 30s and eren is 15/18 (idk still young) and id have to read people defend it to the death. Those two characters are good separately and I saw their interactions as brotherly at best. Levi does care for Eren, no doubt, and Eren thinks the world of Levi, but I don’t want romance. I see it as “my big brother is so cool” and Levi is like “I’ll kick your ass if you walk by my room, but you need to learn how to clean up your shit”

Season 2

Wow we’re learning about the other character who gasp are more interesting?? So cool. It kinda made me forget eren and when he got his first kill I was like “leave! Go back to Ymir”

Ymir was even used to flesh out Erens character more to say wow eren really does suck at using his titan power. She even almost died and that’s when we got to see him focus on her

When he was informed about Bertholt and Reiner, he shouldn’t have fought as hard as he did for them especially since he just fought Annie. They even said Annie was from Reiner and Bert’s town how is he surprised?? Cause Reiner is nice?? Boy we’ve learned that there are people living inside the walls who wanna do mean things!!!

The kidnapping fight eh

After the fight while they’re in the trees was a little annoying on Eren’s part because he should have made fun of their kidnapping proposal at least once but instead it was fake trying to be nice for 3 seconds cause he can’t hold it together, and screaming. The voice actor is good, I just found eren annoying. He could only think what’s in front of him.

Rescued I don’t really have much to say abkjt his character

Season 3

Glad he showed some concern for Mikasa. Saw that he’s adopting Levi’s values. But still kinda hard to like him.

Gets kidnapped again with Historia

I didn’t really like all the self pity he had because he should value himself just enough to know he’s got 1 special thing about him and treating himself like shit isn’t gonna make things better. Historia can see through her dads shit, again Eren can’t. Eren does not have a bs detector

Rod Reiss fight

Cool he can use his titan form better, and we can see the seeds he might like Historia, which I don’t like. This girl loses her girlfriend, kills her father, and now he likes her? For the struggles she accomplished? When all he found out was he’s wrong about her? I know that’s not canon yet, but I don’t like that he’s now closer with Historia after everything as we never saw them together season1 and now there’s a theory he’s the real father of her child and she just looks hella depressed.he also wants to make sure she’s not in danger which is good, but I hate how they’re getting pushed together. I just want Historia to find a little happiness.

Fight with the beast titan aka where so many people die

Devasting and I wish it wasn’t all cliche during his fight with Bert. Saving Armin last second, having that fight with Levi who gets to live. The talk with him and Zeke really didn’t make me feel anything. If it was Annie in Eren’s shoes, Armin wouldn’t have crisp up as much as he did. My source is her arc

I just really didn’t like his character and found everyone else more interesting except Marco because he didn’t really get much development. Eren wallowed in self pity yet refused help from capable Mikasa and continued to treat her badly because he felt inferior to her.

#attack on titan #eren yaegar #mikasa ackerman #armin alert #ask #anon

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Like, wtf is happening right now?

Anyone else just been in a weird funk lately?

Last weekend I think I may have felt every single emotion under the sun. Literally. Over the course of 48 hours I’m sure, at some points, I had my husband wondering if he should get help. I don’t know about you, but if and when I get into a funk of such major proportions, my imagination really comes into its own. A squabble with the man becomes therapy which of course leads to divorce; seeing a new spot in the mirror means I am condemned to a life of ugliness and looking down when strangers approach. And someone asking if I’m okay is rewarded with a deluge of Reasons I Am Not Okay. Any other day, when I might be feeling a little bit down, antsy etc, I can logically accept those feelings, indulge myself if necessary for an hour or two, and then easily move along.

But last weekend’s feelings weren’t about to budge, no matter what mantras or inspiring quotes I read, or how lovely and sensitively my husband treated me. The fact that I felt so bad was only made worse because I was examining how mad I was about feeling so bad. Still with me?

Somehow, I got through the weekend, thanks to duvets on the couch and bingeing on Succession and just trying to be at peace. On Monday I went to the gym - my go-to whenever I’m feeling rusty, rough or moody. As the endorphins kicked in, I started to enjoy my workout, and as the sun appeared on my walk home back from the gym, again, I started to feel better. When I got home I enjoyed the feeling of a hot, steamy shower, complete with my favourite Rituals foaming shower gel. I welcomed the feeling of soft, freshly washed clothes on my body and felt ready for that morning’s podcast recording. After the podcast I felt even better, it was such a fun chat with The Hair Historian, until I realised I was Back On The Other Side again.

Of course, that meant that it was finally time for me to analyse what exactly had happened to me; below are a few suggestions.

#1 It’s SAD Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD) is something that many of us suffer with, often without putting a name to it. I have several friends who have dealt with it their whole lives, the effects often ebbing and flowing dependant on what else might be happening in their world. Simply put, once Autumn comes around you might feel like you’re seriously lacking in energy, and your mood is often low.

#2 Hormones are a bitch Yep, while this tempest was making its way through my body, I was also on my period, which brings with it its own intricacies, such as tears for no reason, epic spots along the jawline and wanting to eat pasta and chocolate all day long - oh and no sex. Also, at this time, I don’t often feel like going to the gym, which definitely affects levels of serotonin and other feel-good stuff within my system.

#3 Stress is a killer I’m currently working for a couple of online magazines, have my own content creation clients, have my own podcast and am working on my photo exhibition FaceTime, happening in December. Duh, I’ve got a lot on, and that’s gonna affect my mood! Why didn't I think of this before?

#4 Full Moon ish I am sorely lacking in education when it comes to planets, horoscopes and shit, but, two of my friends, and also my fave online astrologer @Jessica_lanyadoo, brought up the fact that October 13th was a Full Moon in Aries. Apparently that meant that it was time for some crazy toxic shit to be unearthed. Says Jessica on her Instagram post for that day:

Look at your attachments, and be honest with yourself about whether they’re serving you or holding you back. During the Full Moon, Pluto will form a really tight square to both the Sun and Moon, creating a compulsive and driving feeling. This can be the push you need for creatively transforming your approach to things, or it can find you in the throws [sic] of a major destructive meltdown.

Interesting, right? Who knows if it was all of the above or if I’m completely talking nonsense, but it feels good to be able to look back and think, ‘what the f*** happened?’

A final thought, from the wonderful mind of author Alex Elle: “Peace is not always easy to grasp or keep close. In the process of attaining and protecting it, you may find yourself tired, weary, and uncertain on how to keep your peace safe. While being uncertain is normal, continue to commit yourself to peacefulness. You are worthy of every drop of sweetness and ease that you encounter. Being tested is a part of the journey. Giving up, and letting go, is not.”

How do you cope with moments of feeling out of depth, or do you suffer with SAD on the regular? If so, how do you deal with it?

#wellbeing #sadness #Seasonal Affective Disorder #autumn #changing seasons #depression #workload #balance #health #full moon

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Weight Training 101: A Guide For the Beginning Bodybuilder

Weight Training 101 For the Starting Bodybuilder

Weight Training

One of the most typical types of training that has grabbed health and fitness routines around the world is weightlifting. Weight training could take your training routine to an entire other degree. If weight training isn't really already a part of your everyday exercise, I will certainly cover why you ought to reconsider in your decision to omit it. This section will cover what weightlifting has to do with, the advantages it can cause, and also some usual weightlifting guidelines.

Weight training is a kind of workout that uses the muscle system to adjust in terms of toughness, size, and endurance. You could have seen your pals or household start to exercise at the neighborhood fitness center in effort to build muscular tissue or lose fat. Both will go hand in hand with weightlifting which could be a significant benefit distinct to weight training. This is because when you build muscular tissue, you will raise your metabolic process and also melt even more calories which create weight loss.

Throughout the history of weight training, it has predominately been a 'male' task. I wish to see this transformed since it is essential for every person to have toughness. One of the major worries I below from women regarding weight training is the quantity of muscle it can include to their bodies. I find this often humorous and I will certainly explain why. It takes numerous, several weight training sessions to build muscle, and also stamina is what they will attain short term. For some factor several ladies do not mind adding stamina to their bodies, only muscle troubles them. The only final thought I can happen that culture has placed this insane photo into all their minds that women with muscular tissue is unsightly. This could not be farther from the reality and as an example all the stunning women celebrities are ensured to make use of some type weight lifting into their fitness routine. Although this product is essential I will attempt to stick to the range of the current subject. To summarize, both males and females ought to absolutely include weight training right into their lives to acquire their goals.

Weight training is occasionally described as stamina training. Strength training indicates an emphasis on getting toughness while weight training could be to boost after numerous goals as stated earlier. What many will not realize is the order in which your body adapts to any type of kind of weight training activity. This could disappoint several of you around but it is totally neuromuscular strength that you will acquire much before actual muscular tissue mass. This is due to the fact that our bodies adapt really swiftly to stress positioned on it. This stress comes from the mini tearing of muscles during training and your body understands toughness should come before muscular tissue to handle this new stress and anxiety source.

This tearing is what causes you to really feel sore a day or 2 (or 5) after training as well as is an all-natural part of building toughness and muscular tissue. Essentially when you weight lift you are tearing your muscle fibers down just to be rebuilt even stronger. This is just what triggers stamina gain and you wish to trigger this breakdown of muscle or else you are doing nothing and also losing time in the gym.

So this stress creates our bodies to swiftly produce brand-new links from our muscle mass to our mind. These links are called 'motor devices'. This is an additional fun term that everyone lifting must referred to as it discusses why we get more powerful. An electric motor system is an electric motor neuron AND all the muscle fibers it innervates. When you first raise a weight you will make use of less motor units compared to the next time you determine to pick that very same weight up. I'll utilize a basic instance to explain electric motor units and exactly how strength boosts:

' Jon selects up a 10lb pinhead to do bicep swirls throughout his very first weightlifting session at his neighborhood fitness center. He feels aching the next pair of days as well as goes back to exercise concerning a week later on. He does the very same bicep curls with the 10lb dumbbell and also discovers that it is a lot easier this moment. So just what offers? Why has Jon boosted his stamina?'

The initial visit to the gym Jon had actually utilized his biceps muscular tissue which hired a certain quantity of electric motor units. For simplicities benefit I will say 100 motor devices were active affecting 1000 muscle mass fibers. So this indicates every 1 electric motor neuron (communication cord from brain to muscle) supervised of having 10 muscle mass fibers. Remember that the meaning of the motor system is the motor nerve cell as well as ALL the muscle mass fibers it connects to.

So he tired all those electric motor devices and the body decided that it could not proceed this exercise ought to Jon raise again soon. This is your bodies' protective system which triggers other motor systems currently not turned on in the local location. Basically, your body activates more of these electric motor systems so following time you get that weight you don't obtain your butt kicked (or at the very least much less kicked).

Wait a 2nd, doesn't that mean that we have lots of these motor systems that remain in our bodies that we never make use of? The answer is yes and also I will tell you why. You have many non-active motor systems in your body just waiting to be triggered must it come to be necessary. The majority of the lifting that goes on in the gym could or will never ever be applied to the real world circumstances. Consider it, will you ever before actually crinkle anything hefty? Possibly, yet the probability is that you will certainly not. So your body doesn't SHOULD have a great deal of electric motor units energetic for curling. This whole procedure of hiring motor systems, and consequently strength, is called 'neural adjustment'. It is the basis of every weight or stamina training protocol.

It will pertain to a point where all the electric motor devices have been turned on as well as therefore stamina will certainly should increase from another thing. Your muscle fibers will actually begin to 'hypertrophy' or grow bigger. Currently you will have a bunch of electric motor devices energetic accompanied by larger muscle fibers to adjust to your training. This is when you will begin to see the muscle mass growth as well as could occur as quickly as 4-6 weeks right into your training program.

The advantages of Weight Training:

Many have actually brought weight training right into their lives for really good reasons, it brings results! Toughness, muscle mass, endurance, power, as well as agility can all be improved under this umbrella term called, 'weightlifting'. As stated earlier, developing muscular tissue equates to burning fat so you kill two birds with one stone.

One benefit to weight lifting is not simply making your muscles more powerful, however whatever else too. Your bones, ligaments, as well as ligaments will all profit from weight training to adjust to the stress you position on it. Muscle will certainly be built the quickest, adhered to by ligaments, as well as bone. These structures take time to develop and also are typically lengthy procedures to perform. This is why it is not suggested to educate as well strongly or raise the weight too fast. This can cause the muscles to grow in-proportionate to your various other cells which's when injury takes place. All of an abrupt the ligaments cannot hold bones with each other because of solid muscular tissues placing pressure on them. The morale of the tale: do not boost weight too heavy, too fast.

Train suitably and also you can in fact help avoid injuries to your body. This great benefit will at some point take place due to boosts in bone as well as ligament strength. Following time you accidentally drop your ligaments could hold your hip in a place a little bit better, boosting your chances of leaving injury free should a crash occur.

Increasing your confidence and also self-confidence are two extremely vital gain from weight training. Whether it be to slim down as well as fit into that swimsuit for the summer season or mass up and reveal off your muscles, weightlifting can help. Various other advantages that stem off will be an increase in those 'feel excellent' hormonal agents specifically while working out.

How about maintaining your body healthy so you can meet your true possibility? Seems like an excellent offer to me. Simply 30 mins of workout a day could lead to significant reductions of occurrence alike illness as well as disorders. Some such diseases and also problems consist of CHD, CVD, diabetes mellitus, stroke, etc.

Having high levels of strength is a crucial attribute to have. Although the bulk of us might barely utilize it in today's society with our workdesk works, it could unlock to chance. Claim you have actually constantly intended to start up a sporting activity or high degree activity such as snowboarding. In order to do so, adjust quicker, as well as become effective in that location you might need the strength.

It can additionally conserve you cash in numerous means. One instance can be that you are intending on transferring to a brand-new home and need all the furniture be loaded into a truck and lugged up stairways. If you are not literally able to do so, cash will certainly be needed to employ furniture movers.

Common Weight training guidelines:

There are numerous goals that could accomplish via this one kind of training and also for that reason the degree of variant in training strategies raises drastically. No one plan ought to be utilized for two different people. Everyone is various in dimension, form, goals, genetics, toughness, as well as the list takes place. Considering this important intricacy variable, every attempt at weightlifting requires to be meticulously intended to take full advantage of outcomes. This area could actually be written on for days however, for your benefit I will certainly make this as uncomplicated as feasible. I will give a few terms you could be not familiar with and why they are necessary for weight training.

"Repetitions and Sets"

Undoubtedly you have listened to the term 'reps' or 'collections' in your neighborhood gym. These describe the overall 'volume' of exercise. I'll provide a basic instance to highlight:

' Susie begins to do a bench press exercise and presses bench up 6 times. She cannot do anymore and also sets the bar on the shelf. She after that selects is up once more as well as does an additional 6 presses, tiredness, as well as racks the bar'.

In this instance, Susie did a total amount of 6 representatives since this was the overall quantity of times she experienced the exercise movement, from beginning to complete. For the bench press this is decreasing bench and pushing it back up. That's 1 rep.

She did these 6 representatives two times so she did 2 collections of 6 reps. The term 'established' merely describes the amount of 'teams' of associates you intend on completing.

"Exercise volume"

A simple math, representatives x collections = volume. In this instance Susie's volume will be the product of 6 x 2 or 12.

Become knowledgeable about the 'Overload Concept'. This concept simply states that to construct toughness and also muscle mass you should overload your muscles with weight in which they are unfamiliar to. If you do not you will reach a training plateau as well as more improvement will not be seen. So maintain this tip in mind, lift only a weight that you understand you will have problem with the last representative on in order to produce muscle mass overload.

"Progression"

Another preferred term in the weight lifting world associating with continual renovation. When you begin to observe your toughness or size has actually not boosted, you have actually hit a plateau and also require progression. This could be tweaking your fitness routine such as transforming associates, collections, volume, workout order, etc. Anything that will toss your body off-guard will be reliable as your body will certainly have to remain to adjust to the altering exercise stimulation. Exercise tip: Change your workout plan (even a little) every 2-4 weeks to see progression.

"Specificity"

This refers to a particular way of training that you must do to most boost your individual goal. Commonly this could be done by transforming your rep count for every collection. If you wish to build strength as your key objective, lift for reduced associates each set (3-8 associates). If you desire to construct muscle mass as your primary objective, lift for a moderate quantity of representatives (8-12 associates). If you want muscular endurance, train for even higher associates (> 12 reps). You can manipulate this nonetheless you want. Do you desire stamina and also muscle gains to be relatively equal with each other, go somewhere between the recommended (ex-spouse. 6-10 representatives).

Exercise idea: Adhere to these guidelines to suit your goal. Tweak it if you observe much better gains experimenting with greater or lower reps.

"Rest or Off Day(s)"

Rest is a term that every person can relate to and is most likely the most essential item of suggestions below! Obtain the appropriate quantity of remainder after your weightlifting session. Your body needs it and also will actually break itself down if you proceed to 'over train' or weight lift even more compared to your body could recoup. Just how can you anticipate to expand if you are constantly tearing (mini rips) your muscles apart without permitting them to grow back more powerful (or whatsoever). This is the top error most individuals make and also could even have an effect on your health and wellness if you constantly over train.

Exercise idea: Permit at least 4-5 days between sessions for novices, 2-3 for specialists. Note that everybody will be different and also recover at various rates. Know your speed!

Well that about does it for this standard weight training guide. If you wish to enter into the enjoyable information and also specifics, examine out the other weight training posts. There is a riches of details that workout newbies as well as experts alike can gain from on this site. Take every training session eventually at a time as well as do not obtain overwhelmed with details! Make use of the old saying, if it doesn't really feel good- do not do it.

#body building #exercise #fitness #fitness center #fitness routine #gym #health #health and fitness #health and wellness #weight #wellness #workout

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7 Ways to Care for Your Mental Health During the Holidays

It’s that point of the year again. Festive season. Something you liked as a child , but now it’s just an enormous old challenge for your psychological state . Why is it so hard to celebrate and truly enjoy something that’s alleged to be fun? What are the techniques you'll use to cope? Why holidays are tough for psychological state

There is a reason why the vacation season is extremely tough. Everything is meant to be happy and excellent . most are alleged to be happy for the day off work or school. However, this will instead trigger what we call Seasonal major affective disorder (SAD). the reality of the matter is that such a lot festivity and happiness is predicted folks , but sometimes we just cannot. The holidays are imperfect. they're crammed with stress and triggers. Here are literally a couple of explanations why holidays take a toll on psychological state . Financial concerns

We are alleged to be buying everyone presents and searching presentable during festivities. However, sometimes we just don’t have that sort of cash . This results in financial stress. A season of festivity makes us anxious and crammed with tension. Things aren’t looking great for you, but you’re still putting up a front. Complicated family dynamics

Does this even need any explanation? Siblings and fogeys can get on our nerves. Narcissists get you walking on eggshells. Toxic and manipulative members promise to form things worse. a number of us are becoming back home from school and need we could go straight back. this stuff exacerbates the psychological state . Stress

The pressure to form everything perfect can cause huge levels of stress, tension, and anxiety. Some people have large tasks of preparing all the festivities. A level of perfectionism kicks in. eager to make everything go alright but instead betraying yourself can happen. we fail to voice we must make people happy.

Feeling depressed and generally , a way of dread in terms of psychological state is normal. However, there are some tips you'll use to fight depression and anxiety during the vacations . they will assist you to affect whatever triggers you would possibly face. Let’s get into the 7 ways to worry about your psychological state during the vacations . 7 ways to worry for your psychological state during the vacations

I’m glad knowledge of the psychological state is getting dispersed throughout the planet . It’s good to enhance and maintain your psychological state . Here are 7 ways to worry about your psychological state during the vacations . 1 | Be prepared for the vacations

#1 for 7 ways to worry for your psychological state during the holidays: Plan ahead.

Planning and getting your coping mechanisms in situ before the festivities may be a good idea. This might include scheduling some sessions together with your therapist to organize you for the vacations . undergo scenarios that would occur and provides yourself some tried and tested coping tips. Set your intentions for handling difficult people. 2 | attempt to celebrate

Depression and other psychological state issues worsen when you’re isolating yourself. Reach bent your friends and family and permit yourself to enjoys the festive feels. attempt to get excited like before. return home to celebrate the vacations . Get into the spirit. you'll treat yourself to feel better. Get some cozy socks or a mug. this will assist you to worry about your psychological state during the vacations . 3 | Allow yourself to require breaks

How are you able to look after your psychological state during the holidays?

Taking breaks works as an excellent tip to fight depression and anxiety during vacations . There’s a reason why it works so well. Sometimes things can get a touch overwhelming, and that we got to escape for a short time . Getting asked what’s next in life can onset anxiety. Take a second to maneuver faraway from the chaos and take deep breaths. attempt to ground yourself and repeat your intentions and affirmations for the vacations . 4 | Avoid toxic people

We need to limit the access that toxic people have to our lives. This includes family members! Try to not get riled up by provoking statements. I’ll be a master at that. Don’t react or answer jibes and find your peaceful inner place. I attempt to remind myself that only I even have the facility to permit others to rile me up. it helps to ask if I want to feel horrible. Usually, the solution is not any . this is often only one thanks to looking after your psychological state during the vacations . 5 | Meditate

Meditating is additionally differently to worry about your psychological state during the vacations . most are wishy-washy about meditation. People always inquire from me how I’m so chill. It’s meditation. Meditation may be a workout for the mind. Take this point to line your intentions for the vacations . run through some anxiety thought while meditating. ask yourself, and counteract negative thoughts with positive ones. It’s perfect for the vacation season. 6 | Voice your needs

Number 6 on the way to care for your psychological state during the holidays: Voice your needs.

Voicing needs is usually a touch hard for a few folks . We just want others to be happy. We don’t want to ruin their perfect moments. we are saying we’re okay once we aren’t. we skip out on things we enjoy because we don’t want to bother others. We silence ourselves to stay agreeable and not cause fights. Voicing needs can include voicing intimacy must your spouse . 7 | Set reasonable goals

Sometimes we discover ourselves setting our targets a touch too high. persist with what you'll do. Whether it’s preparing meals, or how long you’d wish to a sleepover . Things are often a touch tough. I do know we've expectations from ourselves et al. about how the vacations should be like. This doesn’t mean we should always throw it all away just to form others happy or make everything seem perfect. the real world isn't so perfect. The Takeaway

These were recommendations on the way to look after your psychological state during the vacations . Remember that psychological state features a way of being a touch but perfect during holidays. Having depression, anxiety and other mental disorders flare up during the festive season is normal. It’s something tons folks undergo . attempt to enjoy yourself and specialize in the great parts. Keep your intentions well greased and prepared to tug you through the vacations .

Finally, to everyone out there, have a tremendous holiday with the right coping mechanisms!

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Stay Energized in the Winter!

Understand your energy levels and work with them

I don’t think it’s reasonable to expect yourself to be able to do as much work or be as energized in the colder months as you do in warmer months.

You shouldn’t feel guilty for having to recharge. You’ll be more productive afterwards.

Get enough sunlight

Exercise where you can

It’s so hard to exercise outdoors in this weather, but I still see people going for jogs around campus, or hitting the gym. Personally, I just do some stretching and light exercise in my room.

Shower

Make plans or have something to look forward to

Indulge yourself

Also, although it’s great to eat healthy, but a cup of hot cocoa or a muffin once in a while is fine and makes you happier in that moment.

Work on an indoor hobby

You don’t need to do the things I listed - the point is, you should use your time indoors wisely, since during other parts of the year, you’ll probably be out a lot more.

Listen to the right music

Get enough sleep (‘enough’ might be more than you usually get)

During the day, take a power nap if you have to, but don’t extend it for too long that your sleep inertia kicks in and you can’t get up anymore.

Focus on your food

1. Eat well

Vitamin C - like in fruits and vegetables - to boost your energy levels; and

Vitamin B12 - like fish, milk, and eggs - to reduce fatigue

2. Have good eating habits (don’t skip breakfast!)

3. Have caffeine at the right time (if you consume any)

4. Snack (a little)

That’s all I have for you now. Feel free to drop an ask or message me if you have any questions, and I hope the rest of the winter goes great for you!

p.s. wml bc I heard the winters here last till April

#IFTTT #for the dreams i want to catch

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categorizing the bipolar disorders is weird

WHO WANTS THE L O N G E S T INFODUMP, 1,500+ WORDS GO

I... didn’t actually incorporate citations into this (hindsight: 20/20), but if anything stands out, feel free to ask and we’ll point you to sources.

The Formal Criteria

As it stands, the bipolar spectrum is diagnosed primarily based on the idea of a linear “mood spectrum” and how close you get to either extreme, with some extra requirements around how long episodes last (chronicity). So, canonically, the spectrum goes:

Bipolar I: Mania, depression

Bipolar II: Hypomania, depression

Cyclothymia (sometimes called bipolar III when people are making a point of the spectrum): Hypomania, chronic mild depression (dysthymia)

So first off, chronicity: Technically, there are requirements for how long a state has to be in order to count as an “episode”. One week (or until hospitalization :V) for the manias, two weeks for depression, and for dysthymia, technically two years.

These cutoffs are fundamentally arbitrary. It’s why there are quite a few ways people get around it. One major group of bipolar NOS is just episodes that aren’t long enough; the DSM-5 proposed a condition for further study of depression with not-quite-long-enough hypomanias (maybe “technically” what we have ;P). I think originally the idea with chronicity was to exclude the rapid mood shifts that might be better captured as emotion dysregulation a la borderline, but that’s morphed a bit. “Rapid cycling” officially means more than four distinct episodes in a year. Now, we have “ultra-rapid cycling” for multiple in month, and “ultradian” which completely removes any chronicity requirement and refers to multiple episodes in a day.

I think some of the difficulty with chronicity is a problem with what exactly a mood even looks like. There’s a reason we’ve heard some folks actually prefer the language of “manic-depression” over “bipolar”, because two separate poles? lmao. Mixed episodes are common – I’ve heard that in bipolar type II in particular, time spent in a mixed episode tends to outnumber the time in straightforward hypomania (*waves*). Plus, mixed states are often the most problematic – suicidality goes way up compared to depression alone.

Mixed states are kinda by definition hard to categorize. People have tried. The most sensible categories I’ve seen are actually the ones that hide the mixed-ness. That sounds strange, but categories like “dysphoric mania” and “agitated depression” can definitely be seen as fundamentally mixed – the hate and emptiness of depression while manic, the energy and irritability of mania while depressed. It’s why we say both “mixed” and “agitated” for our brand of “lots of the energy and irritability but also misanthropy and anhedonia” – whaaat’s the difference. But even those only work for some people some of the time – often times, the person themself just has to figure out their own “categories” for their episodes. Mostly mixed episodes just tend to be a jumbled, manic-depressive mess.

At least personally, we can see why mixed-ness would cause confusion with chronicity. We’ll get irritable at something in the environment and stay that way for a while before falling back to the “baseline” depression. That’s not “cycling” to us; it’s that the irritability and resulting energy need a target, plus the mood reactivity of atypical depression (I’ll address that in a few more goddamn pages).

Funnily, though, the definition of a mood spectrum doesn’t quite stop there. Something that always strikes us is the mania-hypomania distinction – the formal distinction between types i and ii. The way folks lay out the disorders, you’d think it’d be a quantitative, scalar difference – that is, maybe 3 symptoms from the list is hypomania, but 5 makes it mania. That’s how minor and major depression work! But actually, the difference is based on two things: Is it impairing (in particular, are you getting hospitalized or arrested)? and are you psychotic? Say yes, mania. No, hypomania. Technically, you could have two people, one who checks off more of the formal criteria but neither of those key questions, and another who just barely passes the cutoff but got arrested for something like kleptomania, and they’d be hypomanic and manic respectively. That said, it’s not just meaningless arbitrariness: some other not-readily-apparent things actually fall out of that distinction:

As I said, mixed states practically typify type II in particular.

Type IIs tend to spend way more time depressed – a number we’ve seen suggested is upwards of 40:1 depressed:hypomanic (bipolar I, more like 3:1). Therefore, it’s super hard to actually catch (“Wait, was that hypomania or just my annual week of feeling better?”) This gets particularly relevant when talking about soft bipolar.

I’ve also heard it suggested that type IIs tend to spend more time in any non-baseline state longer a higher percentage of the time than type I. There really does seem to be an inverse relationship between how “extreme” a mood is and how long it lasts -- cyclothymia being the other end of that, with basically no time at baseline, but no major depression.

Type II tends to come with more suicidality (see: mixed episodes), so smack that in people’s faces if they call type II “not as bad” as type I.

“Soft Bipolar”

So, with that, you know how I said there were three categories of bipolar? SURPRISE, THERE’S MORE. There are a few different schema, but I like Fieve & Dunner’s -- they’re the ones who first laid out bipolar I, II, and III, after all. It’s just that the other three don’t get as much specific attention:

Bipolar IV: Hypomania or mania caused specifically by anti-depressants

Bipolar V: Seemingly unipolar depression in people with bipolar relatives

Bipolar VI: Mania without depression -- unipolar mania, basically. A weird category that might not actually exist. Funnily, all a bipolar I diagnosis requires is a manic episode -- it just happens that people diagnosed as such almost always experience depression as well. I don’t really know much else about it.

Every so often you’ll see other categories. For example, I’ve heard folks suggest that seasonal affective disorders that only present with depression might actually be a bit bipolar-y.

Bipolar V is the fun one, for me, and is what most often gets called “soft bipolar.” An important first note is that bipolar V has a habit of becoming bipolar IV so, yknow, there’s something there. Another is that sometimes you’ll see “soft bipolar” used to refer to bipolar type II -- here, the idea is that anyone who “seems” unipolar depressive but “actually” belongs on the bipolar spectrum somewhere must have type II, because type II in particular can be so hard to catch -- it’s just thought that maybe the patient just hasn’t noticed their hypomania.

Why would someone with a unipolar presentation belong on the bipolar spectrum, anyway? Other than just the desire to group together the possible genetic causes, there are actual effects: Bipolar depression looks different than non-bipolar depression. This is actually the trend for all bipolar depressions, but only becomes particularly relevant when depression is all that is being experienced in the first place. Specifically bipolar depression tends to be:

Atypical, not melancholic. (Atypical doesn’t actually mean uncommon here. Those terms refer to specific historical things -- melancholic was described first, so atypical was the “other”.) But what makes a depression atypical is, specifically:

Mood reactivity -- the ability to sometimes feel good because something good happened, even if that feeling goes away really quickly.

The opposite of certain melanchonic symptoms -- weight gain instead of loss, and hypersomnia instead of insomnia.

A weird personality thing: being super sensitive to rejection, even outside of any mood episode. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

A really physical feeling of fatigue called “leaden paralysis”

Resistant to SSRIs and other meds that are specifically anti-depressants, but helped by mood stabilizers and other bipolar-focused meds (sorta obvious in someone who actually fits a canonical bipolar presentation, but a bit unexpected if it’s “only depression.”)

Or, even if an SSRI helps, it will randomly stop working much more often with bipolar.

Or an SSRI might just kick off mania.

Irritable -- of course, here you get into the difficultity with “is irritable/agitated depression actually mixed”, but irritability alone isn’t traditionally marked as not-just-depression.

Psychotic. You can technically have unipolar major depressive disorder with psychotic features, but some folks think that that makes it a bit more soft bipolar (the association between bipolarity and psychosis would be aNOTHER DAMN ESSAY, but the short version: their immense conceptual separateness is very much a matter of “some dude in the past said they’re different”. They’re clearly at least genetically related.)

Starting earlier in life, and steadily worsening. Some (lucky) folks experience just one or two episodes of major depression and that’s it. Bipolar doesn’t do that, and repeated mood episodes have a habit of getting slightly more extreme each time they happen.

The above, sans psychosis, is how we self-diagnosed as bipolar, even before we started delineating mood episodes. ;P It’s a bit weird to ask a psychiatrist that no we don’t experience hypomania but please put us on lamictal instead of trying yet another anti-depressant -- she was kinda hesitant at first, and apparently noted us as probably bipolar type II while simultaneously explaining that lamictal is often used off-label for depression (cough, probably actually folks with soft bipolar).

So, you have a cluster of diagnoses where you have just a few formal criteria (what counts as a mania, hypomania, minor depression, and major depression) but actually a lot of shared features that aren’t necessarily suggested by the criteria (atypical depression, type II suicidality vs. type I, etc.) -- which leads to some suggested alternative criteria that would center things like the atypical features or mixed episodes and thereby potentially incorporate “unipolar” presentations, almost in contradiction with those formal criteria at the outset.

- Ace

#actuallybipolar #actuallyautistic #time to work on my actual grad student work goodbye

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2 november 2018

05:30: Oh Christ almighty I’m awake but I want to be able to fall back sleep for a bit, I don’t have to leave for another hour, but now that I’m conscious, and I’m conscious of needing to take this GRE, my adrenaline is going haywire, and I’m sort of just flopping around in bed like a beached dolphin. Went to bed way too late to be responsible, and I’m totally not hungover or anything, so not hungover, there’s no sarcasm here, you must look: elsewhere, for the SARCASM. Okay okay do I get up?

06:02: Still in bed. Trying to “allocate system resources” so that I can leave bed. Feeling extreme sense of dread regarding my personal future, trying to remind myself, “it’s just the cortisol, it’ll even out, don’t worry, it’s just the cortisol.” Repeating that in my head. It’s working, a little, maybe? This has been happening most mornings for weeks now, just a really “pervasive sense of dread,” just worrying both over things I have no control over, and over things that I have control over but just haven’t done. Shouldn’t be dwelling on this, should just be focused on making incremental, concrete changes in how I’m living life, not. Not just, like, feeling sorry and afraid over myself.

06:10: Feeling slow resurgence of self confidence. Or, no, that’s not the right word, that’s the wrong terminology, it’s not like, I mean, I’m pretty self confident, never had “self confidence issues,” more like, just “overly anxious over things I shouldn’t be overly anxious over.” Debating, in my head, whether or not I should take public transit to the test centre… It’s all the way west on the island, and it’ll take like an hour and a half via subway and bus… I mean, no, here’s what I’ll do, I’ll splurge, I’ll take an Uber there, because the last thing I want right now is to just enter a terrible headspace by immediately heading to a subway station while it’s raining outside (DID I FORGET TO TELL YOU? yeah it’s REALLY RAINING outside, like HEAVILY) and then sitting on a train all wet and then switching to a bus and then riding a bus through the black of Montreal winter mornings and then sitting in a windowless room staring at a screen for four hours taking an exam.

Yeah, okay, deciding, definitively, to take Uber there. Will be relaxing, one of my favourite activities, barring when I’m feel nauseous, is just sitting in the backseat of a car, not shotgun, and listening to music and staring out the window. It’s really relaxing and puts me in a nice and contemplative mood. Same goes for subways, just, not, like, when it’s six in the morning, on little sleep, you know?

06:14: Brushed teeth, put on bunny sweater for “comfort and protection,” put on corduroy pants, put on boots, put on “puffy white jacket.” Going to walk across the street to the grocery to buy something caffeinated, and “test day snacks,” probably some granola bars, or something. Sensing myself growing increasingly determined, in a way I always get when I’m about to do something I know I’m not exactly ready for, feels like a dramatic scene in a movie right before the big climax before denouement. Putting on a “Let’s Get Down to Business” vibe.

06:20: Got Monster “lo-carb” energy drink, box of granola bars. Calling Uber with phone now, standing under the roof thing of my apartment building. It’s so black out it could be any time between 18h and 19h, I forgot just how little sunlight there is during the winter. Always thought I had, like, reverse seasonal affective disorder. Have I talked about this before on here? Well, if I have, get ready to hear about it again, you maniacs. Like, usually, during the summer, I’m feeling pretty down all the time, and during the winter my mood improves dramatically, but this could be circumstantial? Usually during the summer I’m away from people I want to be around, and feeling like I’m wasting a lot of time? Maybe that’s it, and it has absolutely nothing to do with the seasons? In any case, feel like the sun doesn’t really have much an effect on my emotional state, even though I do like using those therapy lights. Those are cool. Very fun. Heheh.

06:23: Chugged can of Monster and ate one bar. Somehow already got an Uber within three minutes of requesting a ride, seems egregious at this hour and at my location? Sitting in backseat. Quite comfy, it’s a Volkswagen of some sort, I forget the model, pretty sure it’s a Golf just from how it looks. Driver has the radio tuned to 96.9, French language “contemporary hits” radio station, is not engaging in conversation, thank god. I’m putting on album Lifa by band Heilung, one of my favourite albums ever, this Nordic experimental folk band, and, like, closing my eyes, and am doing, like, “meditation-related” things, like breathing in slowly and breathing out even slower. Feeling extremely comfy, really comfy, and sort of wishing this ride last longer than the estimated forty-five minutes, it’s really peaceful, just staring out of the window at everything passing, city lights, other cars, etc. etc., and the rain that’s dampening everything. Reminds me of Burial’s music, as always.

06:50: Nearing the test centre. I’m there early, only need to be there by 7h30, but I guess the earlier the safer?? Finding myself appreciating this car ride, feeling like I’m “sinking into the seat” and just “taking the world in,” appreciating all that I have in my life right now and the people in my life. Caffeine from Monster seems to have done minimal, really not feeling much of a “kick,” but I guess that makes sense? Hard to counteract that little sleep, combined with hangover. Thinking over the minimal preparations I’ve done for this exam, and, like, not kicking myself, because “what’s done is done,” but still feeling confident? Always have had a “knack” for standardized testing, it’s sort of fun, like, feels like a game, maneuvering around answers you can tell the test makers put in to “trip you up”?? Or, when you get “in the zone” and you get hyper focused on the questions, and you start “tearing them up,” just “ripping through them.” Getting to that point is fun, yeah, yeah.

07:06: Arrived. Test centre is in an office building in part of a strip mall, in an area that seems like it’s all a bunch of strip malls interconnected by roads and parking lots in a complex-esque thing. I’m doing a terrible job of describing it, and I didn’t take a photo, but I’m sure you know what I mean, just an area of a bunch of retail shops and fast food eateries and chain restaurants?? Feeling memories of taking SAT and ACT exams, noticing differences between going to a “testing centre” and going to a high school, like for the SAT/ACT.

07:15: Waiting on the floor of the testing centre. There’s one other guy here too, briefly spoke to him casually while taking a granola bar “to the face.” He seems really nervous, is sighing a lot and just generally looks uncomfortable. Feeling pretty excited and unanxious myself, reading from Disaster Artist while waiting for test centre to open. This office building is particularly depressing, like, almost cliche in its “office-ness”... I guess most office buildings are like this, it’s hard to inspire creativity or foster it when you have to build up office buildings everywhere, seems like they’d all have to, for practicality’s sake, follow more or less the exact same layout. Jesus now this is depressing me even more. Going to stop thinking about this.

07:30: Inside test room. I guess because it’s a computer exam, there is no set start time for everyone to begin simultaneously?? Wow I’m an idiot, that’s what I assumed by the registration saying the test would start at 08:30. No, the receptionist is like, “as soon as you fill out these forms you can get started.” Okay, okay, signing my name and putting my bag in a locker. Feels almost like I’m about to go through airport security, on the form it’s like “you have to empty all your pockets and lift your pants above your ankles and we’re gonna scan you for metal with a wand and you have to take off your glasses so we can inspect there’s no recording devices on them.” Sure sure sure, yeah, whatever you like is fine, I’m about to crush this test, let’s get this over with, yada yada yada

11:44: Jesus Christ it’s over, it’s all over, we did it, people, we did it!! WE DID IT!!! IT’S OVER!!!! Hey you want to hear the good news first, or the BETTER NEWS FIRST???? Here’s what I’m going to do, first I’m going to hit you with the GOOD news: your boy here scored well!! NO I’m not gonna share it publicly you silly goose but let me tell ya to your FACE--NICE. It was NICE. I’m proud of what I got, especially given the circumstances. You know the BETTER news??? BOUT TO RIDE THE BUS AND METRO HOME AND NAP THE HECK OUT OF A FEW HOURS. Gotta make up some of this SLEEP DEBT, gotta sleep really HARD.

It stopped raining too, I’m bout to hop on this shuttle bus, I’ll see you later. Jk, that’s a quotation from a standup bit by Hannibal Buress. Lookie here, guys, it’s a forty minute bus ride, and another forty minute metro ride, and then a ten minute walk, and then I strip my disgusting clothes off and I slam my head into the pillow and I close my eyes real good. Close em real nice, real nice closing of the eyes.

Really grateful I somehow did well, if I did poorly it would’ve been such a shot to both my overall mental state right now, and my confidence in my own abilities as like a thinking, reasoning being. I know the idiocy of standardized testing, but it feels good knowing that, despite unideal circumstances, I was still able to perform well on mathematical and verbal reasoning tasks.

Going to switch from Heilung to something more upbeat, maybe some Ghost, maybe some Clarence Clarity, for this ride back. Glad I can also “celebrate” via hanging out w/ A, if I did poorly on this exam I also would feel guilty or just generally be in a less-than-gregarious mood, glad that I’ll be able to “enjoy this fully.”

Feel like doing something crazy with the keyboard, here goes nothing, eal;kjfiweoiriskljfdkldfkdfdklfvc. jkdfgjklfgdkjlgkjgkjgkjgfkjgfkweiroqiqwwpeowqen qqmmciieieiieroeioqwqpoqoiwqpoiwqpwe

hahahahah

13:21: Back in “home sweet home,” thinking, “home, home sweet home, sweetie pie home.” It smells better than I remember?? Who did this, who came in here and sprayed stuff, what have you done? I do not, I don’t deserve this, these “good scents,” in my place of rest…

Going to take pants off and crawl right the heck under my sheets, maybe watch a YouTube video or two to “unwind” and then drift off to sandman village. Setting alarm for 16h30, that should give me enough time to still be productive before hangout?? Have been, throughout my life, a chronically bad napper, but this time feels different. Got all the checkmarks, did well on the exam, barely got any sleep, still hungover, caffeine wearing off even if I didn’t feel it in the first place. Seems like everything “in place” for a real good “sleep session.”

16:14: “Ouuauughhgh” is what it sounds like my head is going right now, or, like, “oouuauuUUUGAUAAUUUGHHHHH,” yeah, YEAH, that’s more like it. Man I slept SO GOOD, can’t remember ANY of my dreams, even though usually when I nap I have really, really vivid nightmares that I’m able to remember for a LONG TIME afterwards. Mouth has a funny taste in it, the way it often does after napping. Why does this only happen after napping, and not after sleeping a longer period of time?? Does keeping your mouth open longer do something to the quality of your breath?? I’m confused, but at least it’s not as bad as, like, when you drink milk right before napping, that’s, that’s the worst. Always hate having morning breath, I don’t mind when other people have it, but if I have it I can’t focus on anything until I brush it out, then I can, like, do something like return to sleep more, but once I’m up, if I realize that I have bad morning breath that day, nOPE, gotta take care of that crap.

Going to head to the practice rooms now and see how much I can get done before 20h. Unsure if I’m going to be updating past this point, seems “dubious.”

Renewed sense of self worth after taking that exam, I think. I know it’s so arbitrary, and probably dangerous to feel such a renewed sense of self after something as ridiculous as a standardized test, but, like, I don’t know… Felt such severe self doubt of late that it’s good to at least be reaffirmed that I can, like, answer objective questions correctly. That’s a start, right? Maybe it will carry over to the practice rooms??

#liveblog #blog #writing

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