Embracing Transformation with Jennifer Lopez's "This is Me...Now": A Journey of Healing and Growth

By: La Trecia Doyle-Thaxton Introduction: Before diving into this reflective exploration, I highly recommend watching Jennifer Lopez’s latest creative masterpiece, “This is Me…Now”. This album is not just a collection of songs; it’s a narrative of personal growth, healing from past traumas, and embracing one’s true self. It’s a fusion of the visual storytelling seen in Beyoncé’s work, the…

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No amount of pain made anybody stronger. Strength is built, not fuckin carved.

The way Dean’s queer joy and revelation at others just being outside the stereotypical control images is also ours

Honorable mention:

sorry to be the bearer of bad news but if you think aegon iii would have “healed from his trauma” with the daughter of his mother’s murderer then you’re delulu. the boy who wore black all his life? the boy that gave away jaehaera’s doll the first chance he got? the boy that was so discomforted by jaehaera’s presence that the maesters even noted how he was less discomforted by myrielle peake’s presence than jaehaera? it’s fine to have headcanons or whatever, but seriously. aegon iii would sooner ride a dragon than “heal” with the girl he was forced to marry.

Etoiles: Oh, if you kill me- ok, no. Ok, ok. I'm focused.

Tubbo: Bro, what do you mean, "if I kill you"?

Etoiles: DUDE– stop- stop thinking I'm unkillable, dude! Stop thinking this! I'm not a superhero- I'm not Thanos! I'm a fcking diabetic!

Tubbo: [Laughs] That's crazy.

Etoiles: Stop thinking I'm Thanos, please. Like, it's annoying in this server!

Bad: You can take him, Tubbo.

new clothes for the new year!

"In every way possible, lab-grown specimens are exactly the same as specimens mined in mass quantities which cause significant environmental harm and numerous human rights violations,"

"-but we are labeling them as 'fake' so you feel bad about buying them, because they are cheaper and more environmentally friendly, and we want to make as much money as we can :)"

When I was in my twenties I sat down with a journal and wrote a letter to spirit about who I wanted to love through a list of physical, vocational, and personality attributes and characteristics, similar to little Sally in Practical Magic, though I had not yet seen the movie at the time. The universe delivered exactly what I asked for with terrifying accuracy. As the years pass by, that accuracy reveals itself to me more and more.

The first mistake I made was that I did not specify that I wanted the person I would come to love..to love me back. I sometimes wonder how things would have turned out had I written that down. The second mistake I made was that I referenced a fictional character and said I hoped he’d be “like” him. Naively, I did not specify that I wanted nothing to do with the horribly cruel attributes that archetype possessed and only sought the good. The cruelty inflicted on me broke me to my core, made me suicidal, cost me tens of thousands of dollars, humiliated me, silenced me, kept me hidden, caused me to endure the loss of a child, the loss of friends, the loss of two jobs, damaged my relationship with my daughter, and extinguished my spirit. What I manifested impacted not just myself, but the lives of every person that has ever loved me, some who simply just knew me, and even some who never crossed my path.

In another dimension, my higher self and a team of spiritual elders have orchestrated all of this for my higher good. They heard (or rather read) my call. Karmic justice is always being served. I know that despite my suffering, I have always been divinely protected. I learned how to speak and interpret the language and symbolism of spirit, to become a shape-shifter, to rebuild from nothing, to transmute my pain into prosperity, the meaning and feeling of unconditionally loving someone, how to conjure multi-dimensional beings, that we all have the spirit of the phoenix laying dormant within us and the power to awaken it whenever we choose, and perhaps most importantly, to be careful what I wish for.

The Craft Sequence by Max Gladstone has the best depiction of Magitech Fantasy Grad Student I’ve ever seen, perhaps the best that will ever be written.

Angelic Numbers

111 = intuition; trust your gut & listen to your heart

222 = alignment; you are in the right place & the right time

333 = support; your spiritual guides are around you sending you love and spiritual truth

444 = protection; the universe and your spirit guides are protecting you

555 = change; something new is coming

666 = reflect; its time to wake up to your higher spiritual truth

777 = luck; wonderful things are about to happen

888 = balance; everything is falling into place as it's meant to be

999 = release; it's time to let go of what's no longer serving you

Honestly, going into your WIP pile to actually go through it and see what you actually want to finish can be really helpful, especially when you don't judge yourself and try to learn why that piece became a hibernater in your WIP pile

Some questions I ponder when I look at a WIP is:

Is this project turning out how I want? If not, what about it don't I like?

Do I or did I have fun when I was starting it?

Will I actually use it or enjoy it when I'm done?

Do I like the material now?

Do I see myself enjoying the product after it's done?

Were there, or are there, time restraints preventing me from finishing?

Is this out of my current skill set, and am I okay with that?

If I could change one thing about the WIP, what would it be?

I know plenty of people won't incorporate this into their own WIP and crafting journey, and that's okay. But I know so many people who hibernate their projects for many reasons and feel guilty about it. I hope this might give people ideas about why they hibernate projects to prevent that type of guilt from eating away at their conscious. This (creating) should be fun, and if you're spending a lot of time feeling guilty or ashamed, it can be hard to continue doing the things you like.

hes eepy

the abyss but what it looks like is based off of the hunters memories. it expands with each death in a vault, taking bits and pieces and building, creating something that should feel familiar to the hunters, something they should want to trust, something that is every so slightly Wrong

sparkly doesnt die in the abyss in the funky abyss au but he is in there fairly willingly and the abyss is able to poke around his head and go shopping for landscaping ideas. helps that he remembers the forest of the abyss fondly

I think @koddlet finally helped me overcome some debilitating perfectionism. Let’s just make art! Let’s say things and feel things and share things! This is a minizine for Zinetober. Enjoy my scratchy pen marks and imperfect folding. I had fun making this; hope you have fun viewing.

tfw you're not sure if ppl are being particularly annoying or you're just nearing that time of the month or both

Send your butterflies to my inbox🦋

+1 if you decorate it