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batstorm93672 · 2 years

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Damian is great at hiding, due to his small figure he had an advantage. So when Damian was benched and Bruce shouted so loud his ears rang, Damian hid. Dick said that Damian would never be physically punished, as of now, Damian threw that out the window and hid away. In a vent duct from the bathroom, he hid in the depths of the vent. Maybe his father would soon be calm and decide to not punish him any longer? That was dumb, of course he would. Damian disobeyed him, if his grandfather whipped him for wrongdoings, what's stopping his father from doing so.

"Hey demon spawn. Heard you got scolded, you feeling any good?"

Akhi... no he can't leave no matter how tempting, Jason was meant to be bait surely for father to deal with his punishment or worse, Jason himself would go about doing so. That thought made his stomach churn, Damian kept quiet as Jason called out.

"Damian? Where are ya?"

Don't fall for it

"Habibi, answer me"

He was desperate to get Damian... a trick, playing with emotions to be his downfall. The voices in his head grew louder, unbearable as Damian had to hold back a whimper of the pain that followed through. Whenever the voices got too loud, he'd have a pounding headache that would last for a few hours, his medicine for such headaches was on his drawer. He has to deal with it on his own.

"Damian?" Jason's footsteps got closer and Damian covered his mouth. The voices wouldn't fucking stop!

SHUT UP

HE'S GOING TO FIND US

"STOP TALKING!" He accidentally said that part outloud and didn't even notice.

Noises came closer and Jason peeked at the vent and spotted Damian. "Dami? What are you doing here kid? Why were you shouting?"

Damian shuffled back more, wincing as the voices grew louder as they scolded him or berated him.

"Damian, tell me what's wrong so I can help"

Damian looked at Jason and looked to the left signaling for him to move, Jason did exactly as such and Damian got out quickly, getting a glass cup by his desk and filling it with water. Damian basically ran to the medicine, taking two pills and downing it with water. "Dami?" Shit, for a moment he forgot Akhi was here. "Don't... please don't talk I-I need a moment" Damian plopped down on his bed and Jason sat at the foot of the bed.

A few minutes passed and Damian sighed "Forgive me, I've stalled long enough, I shouldn't have done so"

"It's okay"

Damian shook his head and checked under his bed, grabbing out a box. Taking off his shirt and opening the box and taking out what was needed to be dealt with, he handed it to Jason.

Jason looked to see the whip in his baby brother's hands. "What..." Whatever Jason had to say, he lost his words and it trailed off and Damian answered "My punishment, father was displeased with my performance today, I've failed" Damian kneeled down before Jason, looking down as he held the whip to him like a present.

Jason was still, Damian was beginning to regret this, the voices stormed inside his head and they calmed when Jason grabbed the whip from his hands. Jason's knuckles were turning white from the grip and he looked at Damian stunned.

Looking closer, the scars of whipping were present alongside so many other things. It shook Jason to the core as he managed to exhale calmly. "Damian, I'm not going to hurt you" Damian looked up in confusion "I- I'm sorry. I shouldn't have assumed, I should have awaited what you deem my punishment to be instead" "There is no punishment like that, all you is possibly benched for a little. Not ever will you get hurt from family" "Grayson had said the same thing... but father was upset and he shouted so loud, I thought he was going to..." Damian shuffled on his feet "Is that why you were hiding in the vent there?" Damian nodded and he put his shirt back on as Jason placed the whip on the desk. "What was the medicine for, if you don't mind me asking?"

"Loud..."

"I'm sorry, was I too loud?"

"Not you... Ra Al Ghul, mother and sometimes others I can't decipher"

"How long has it happened?"

"Ever since I joined father later on. It isn't so bad, it used to be worse"

"Does Bruce know of your auditory hallucination?"

Damian nodded "Thompson had spoken to me and father"

"I see, well I'm happy you have medicine to at least help, I'm assuming headaches?"

"Yes. Have you experienced it as well?"

"During my Lazarus rage, I did and sometimes I still do. It's gotten better though, with everyone to help it gets better"

Damian put his head against Jason's chest and sighed. "There there Habibi"

#damian wayne #damian wayne has feelings and he wont admit it #jason todd #mentioned bruce wayne #mentioned dick grayson #tw auditory hallucinations #i believe that damian has auditory hallucinations cause theres no way from such abuse he doesnt have repercussions from it

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normalsproutanon · 1 year

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Just closed my eyes and hallucinated a really loud kazoo playing. What the fuck

#tw hallucinations #tw hallucination #tw auditory hallucinations

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lovelesslittleloser · 1 year

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A novel or manga where the MC has a familiar or something that can talk, but they don’t speak unless it’s around only the MC or the antagonist/That One Guy Everyone Hates. And instead of the secret being revealed or anything, the MC just gaslights them into thinking they’re hallucinating it or something

#tw hallucination mention #tw auditory hallucinations #writing idea #story ideas #plot ideas #shitpost #kinda #it would be funny #I just want an mc who gaslights gatekeeps and also girlbosses. is that too much to ask

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the-great-donatello · 1 year

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//good luck

//I am sweating and it's either because I'm gripping my switch like it owes me money or because my hands aren't used to being at a normal temperature

#//I am so fucking tense rn #//also I took my new meds yesterday for the first time and hallucinated three times in one hour #//one of which being beetlejuice singing hamilton #//thats not relevant to me being bad at hollowknight I'm just giving you all some silly stories #ooc #tw hallucinations #tw auditory hallucinations

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arwenkenobi48 · 1 year

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Life Update: The Good, The Bad and The Cautiously Optimistic

I just want to start off by saying that my graduation day was wonderful. That day was one of the most beautiful and happiest I’ve had all year. A day worth staying alive for. I reunited with old friends, made new ones and went on a thrift store shopping spree. Then there was the beautiful Christmas market in the centre of town, where I got a new dragon plushie and had the most delicious vegan bratwurst ever.

However, despite my initial euphoria, I unfortunately made an error in judgement and have ended up in financial difficulties again. But rather than succumbing to a mental health crisis as I had previously, I sat down with myself and said “Ezra, you don’t have to keep living like this. Let’s try and find you a job.” So that’s just what I did. I’ve applied for a well-paying job for a very noble cause and I’ll be hearing back from them in January. I’m legitimately hoping and praying that I get it. It’s been a while since I wanted something so bad. I not only want it, but I need it too.

I’m also in touch with a specialist psychotherapy unit who can get me onto a waiting list to receive treatment for my trauma. It might be EMDR, but I don’t know for certain. I’ve also come to terms with the fact that a lot of my triggers are audio-based and as a result, my flashbacks take the form of auditory hallucinations. They’re not voices, just eerie discordant music.

They’re unsettling as all hell, but I have plenty of grounding techniques and self care methods to ensure that they don’t last very long. It somehow only just dawned on me that that’s what it was, because it was so normal to me. I just never realised that it’s not something everyone experiences. But I’m not ashamed of it. It is what it is and I’m taking care of it to the best of my ability.

I got a bit sick on Thursday but brushed it off as a seasonal cold. After getting a bad cough, however, I’ve decided to self isolate in case it turns out to be covid. I don’t think it is, but I’m not willing to take any chances. I’ve stockpiled enough groceries to see me through the month so I’ll be ok in that regard.

Next year is looking very promising indeed. I’m moving house once again (and will have more housemates too!). Hopefully I’ll be employed by then. Depending on what the outcome of my application is, as well as my next meeting with my housing officer, I might be able to get a pet when I move into my new house. I’m thinking of adopting a black manx cat and a ferret. But I’ll cross that bridge when I come to it.

It all depends on January, really. The results of my job application could have an incredible impact on my future. It’s been a rough one this year, it really has. But things are starting to look up despite how hellish things have been. This month particularly has been much better than I could have ever hoped for. I pray that the new year brings brighter times, not just for me, but for everyone. ❤️

#arwen speaks #life update #employment #mental health #graduation #self care #tw auditory hallucinations #therapy #self love #progress #healing journey

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bobateaboo · 1 year

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a little oneshot, because i've been on an Earth high for the past few days. this also has an ao3 version, but first off a list of tw's for; PTSD, panic attack, references to an abusive environment, references to a cult, auditory hallucinations, paranoia, fear

Pluto is by andizoidart, everyone else in here is by me

Earth had only had their new name for one day so far.

The boy in gold had taken them somewhere warm, safe. The people here smiled. A shorter kid, nonbinary, like them, had introduced themself as Pluto, taing them around to meet everyone. They acted kind.

But the school had been kind to newcomers as well.

It had taken some time to realize that the ther kids were afraid, too. The giant girl, Saturn, had jumped when Pluto got her attention. Her brother was a full head taller than her and taller than most adults Earth had ever seen, but he hid behind her. Either of them could have picked up Earth with one hand, but they were jumpy. Cautious.

Pluto explained that everyone else there had been in situations like Earth had. Unsafe ones. That they were adjusting to being safe, too.

That made Earth feel,, better, in a way. Somehow it felt safer to know that the others had been scared too.

Solar had given them their own room, not anything like the rows of beds the school had had. The blankets were soft and plush, the top one in orange and yellow quilting. He had said that they were free to put anything in it that they wanted, and that the others would take them “shopping” once Earth felt safe enough. Apparently it was a ritual to help the new kids feel wanted when they got here.

And now they were laying on the bed, staring at the ceiling. They had never slept in a room alone before, not unless they were on isolation punishment. It was odd, not having a bunk over them, and more to the left and right. Would someone come to yell at them if they stayed up too late here?

They tossed and turned under the covers. It was the safest room they had been in in their entire life and they were terrified. What if the adults were right? That the gods punished bad people, and that running away made you bad?

There’s whispering from the window.

Earth jerked up from their bed, rushing over to frantically close the curtains. They can’t find them here, can they?

There’s scraping at the door, someone’s trying to get in.

They locked the door faster than should be possible. They can’t find them, they can’t. The principal would eat them, he’d do that awful thing where he unhinges his jaw and swallows someone whole, like they’d seen him do during the redemption gatherings-

The sound at the door is moving up to a dull thud, rattling it in its frame. They’re going to get in, they’re going to take them again. The voices in the window are deafening, but they can’t hear what they’re saying

The legs of the bedside table scraped uncomfortably against the floor as Earth dragged it in front of the door frame, pressing their weight against it to keep it pressed to the door. They can’t feel the rattling of the wood they’re hearing on their skin, if they were thinking clearer they would have realized that by now.

It was too loud, too loud, too loud- it was deafening them, why couldn’t the others hear it? Would the adults come for them, too? Would they drag them away with Earth back to the school?

They hooked blankets over the curtain rod, trying to muffle the voices that game from behind the glass, the door pounding behind them. It’s all they can hear, they can’t think, it’s too loud.

Taking the quilted blanket with them, Earth dove under the bed, pulling the fabric around them like it would protect them from claws and teeth and whatever horrors the gods saw fit for punishment.

The star patterns on the carpet filled Earth’s vision as they brought the blanket over their head, only slivers of light from the already dim room making it through the fabric.

There was the splintering of wood, crashing through the door frame as they broke in, the voices from the window raising to an impossibly loud level as they broke through the glass, tearing away at the layers Earth had put up in attempts to keep them out. The creatures swarmed around the room, ripping into everything in sight with hungry growls. The adults always hid their true forms under long gray robes, would they even bother looking human now…?

“Did anyone else hear that?”

“Help me get the door open, I think I can still hear them crying in there.”

“I got it unlocked but it won’t budge, I dunno what else you want me to do”

“Stand back, I can portal us in.”

Gold light cast into the dark room as Solar’s magic opened up, the others stepping in. It was a mess, blankets hurriedly pulled off the bed and slung over the window, the bedside table pushed in front of the door. Jupiter was the first to realize where the whimpering was coming from, dropping to his chest to see under the bed.

“Oh, little friend- it’s okay, are you hurt??” He stopped trying to reach them when the bundle of blankets shyed away from his hand, retreating farther away.

“Pst, Tune, help me move the table back in place,” Euro hissed.

“Like hell, I’m getting them water or something.”

“Well how are you gonna do that if you can’t get through the goddamn door, fish-”

Pluto kicked him in the shins before the arguing could get out of hand, gesturing to Saturn to go help. They padded over to Solar, tugging on his sleeve. The skeleton had been staring blankly at the bed, watching Jupiter’s form as he spoke softly to the lump under the covers.

“They’re gonna be okay,” Pluto reminded him. “The first night is always tough.”

Solar took a deep breath, nodding, taking a moment to collect himself. “We’re taking them to meet a therapist tomorrow. As soon as possible.”

“Okay, boss.”

“And we’re figuring out their favorite food. Like, er, cookies or something. And getting them a stuffed animal to hug when they need it.”

“Okay, boss.”

“And-”

“Solar, go to bed.”

Solar hesitated, glancing down at them. “I don’t think I should go yet.”

“I can’t tell you what to do, but they’re not gonna be alone. Look”

Jupiter had coaxed Earth out of their hidey hole, still wrapped up in blankets, and was hugging them close as they cried. Euro and Saturn sat on either side, groggy but attentive, and Neptune had just returned with a glass of water and a box of crackers.

Solar sighed, taking Pluto’s hand as they went to join the cluster of people, all of them scooting together and leaning against each other as their eyes drooped. It was an important first lesson of the system house, a new spark every time someone learned it. You may be afraid, but you are never, ever alone

#boba writes #earth #solar's system #Pluto #Neptune #Euro #Saturn #Jupiter #Solar #some of the planets arent here yet #tw PTSD #tw panic attack #tw abusive environment mention #tw cult mention #tw auditory hallucinations #tw paranoia #tw fear

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creamybeemovie69 · 2 years

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On today's episode of auditory hallucinations, the fucking puppet music box

#tw hallucinations #tw auditory hallucinations #scratching on the walls? fine #hearing my sister in another room when shes out the house #np #but THIS SHIT #random thoughts #fnaf #five nights at freddy's #fnaf 2 #fnaf marionette

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robynshaikucorner · 2 years

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Distrust

A scream from somewhere.

But is that reality?

Or is it nowhere?

#tw auditory hallucinations #original haiku #original content #haiku poetry #original poem #original poetry #haikuoftheday #haiku poem #haiku on tumblr

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carli-meows · 1 year

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honestly i need background sounds

humming generators, cars passing, birds tweeting, ac running, pc fans going, chiptunes beeping

it helps keep me sane and in a happy state

now the second it goes completely silent, im talking you can hear yourself breathing, every movement you make is now amplified

i can hear too well

shit in the walls, rain outside when it's not raining, a distant holler

and worst of all

the perfectly clear sound of someone talking to you through doors, in closets or in the same room

i dont need that tbh

#rant #tw auditory hallucinations #cw auditory hallucinations #auditory hallucinations #ramblings

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batstorm93672 · 2 years

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Failure and Punishment

Everyone was here, watching the arguement between Batman and Robin. Robin disobeyed orders from Batman, enough said.

"I SAID THAT'S ENOUGH DAMIAN!"

Robin stood still and stared Bruce in the eyes as he barely moved a muscle.

"Forgive me father, I have disrespected your word and failed" Robin kept standing there, until Bruce sighed "Just... go, I'll figure out what to do with you soon" Robin's eyes widened for a second before he left, not regarding anyone else.

Dick, Jason, Tim, Stephanie, Cassandra and Duke kept quiet as Damian's footsteps receded farther away.

It was an accident.

There was a child.

One who was unaccounted for.

The entire building was rigged to go off, Batman had told Robin to stay back and keep an eye on any suspicious activity of who may have started it to detonate the building manually. Robin did as told, until he saw a little boy shaking. On one of the top floors, Batman was on the lowest caring for other people to leave. The boy was alone and could hurt himself if he made the wrong move.

So Robin made a move, he approached carefully, the wiring and triggers were accounted for so he had to not trigger anything. The boy perked up "Robin!" "Don't move, I need you to stay still" The boy had orange hair and brown eyes, might be six years old. Damian isn't good with children, but Robin is different. He doesn't have to interact with them to be among them, he simply has to help them in need. "What's your name?" "Ben" "Alright Ben, I need you to be brave for me and stay still. I'm coming to save you and then you'll be okay"

"I'm scared"

"I know, but you are not alone. I'm here to save you Ben"

Robin made it to him, holding his arms out and the kid held on. Then Robin heard a beep, the bombs... someone must have activated it manually! Robin sprinted, keeping his hold on Ben as the bombs went off. Quickly able to protect Ben and jump out the building in time, rolling out on the rooftop and holding Ben's head with one hand as to soften any blows. Ben was crying and Robin jumped down the rooftop to the streets, where numerous police people were already around. "Go to them, they'll take care of you" Ben nodded and left, one last glance to Robin.

Robin sighed, the next part won't be fun to explain, or in his case trying to explain.

Figure out

What to do with you

That's enough

I'll figure out what to do with you

Soon

I'll figure out what to do with you soon

Every step he takes, the thoughts echo louder and louder. He disobeyed his father, he was mad, no pissed at Damian. Would he go against the non-physical punishment for him explicitly?

People are in the hospital

People are crying

People are shouting

People are injured

People are possibly dead

People are hurt because Robin wasn't doing as told

People were suffering because Robin wanted to help

One unaccounted for child scared out of his mind

One that Robin decided he needed to help

One that Robin had almost killed because he wasn't doing as told

The kid would have been safer had Robin not shown up

I'll figure out what to do with you

You disobeyed my orders

You weren't watching

I'll figure out what to do with you soon

Robin took off his uniform. Damian a kid himself thought he could be a hero... Shaking his head Damian turned on the water and stepped in.

Damian put on dark green pajama pants and a black shirt. Sitting in his bed as his hair was still a bit wet. Running his hair through his towel and after deeming it worthy he got up.

I'll figure out what to do with you soon

I'll figure out w-

What if he sends me back

Damian stopped moving and felt the fear rising in his chest. Moving to the bathroom quickly and doing what he's done numerous times, getting into the vent and hiding. It was easier to be somewhere closed, that way enemies can't attack when so vulnerable. Of course that doesn't mean that Damian can just feel safe, enemies are crafty and sometimes smart meaning they'll show up if they find out.

If he sends me back... I'll have truly failed both of my lineages

What would mother think?

They would most likely kill me for my failure-

Would... would mother kill me herself...

That thought made Damian's stomach churn he closed his eyes.

Mother would kill me herself for failing

For being so incompetent

She loves me though

She wouldn't kill me

She already had

The Heretic is proof of that

By her hands... she would end my life

I would have failed

Mother will kill me!

Mother would kill me herself

FAILURE

SHE'LL FIND OUT AND KILL ME

I'M NO HERO I'VE FAILED AND DISOBEYED MY FATHER!

SHE'S GOING TO KILL ME!

NO!

PLEASE DON'T KILL ME!

I JUST WANTED TO HELP

THE KID WAS ALONE I JUST WANTED TO HELP

Did I... save the kid because he was in danger... or because it's how I feel being alone..?

Being alone... that any movement can cause some type of danger... like an explosion. Any sudden movements and he would die.

Did I... do it for myself or for him?

"Hey can you hear me?"

What?

"You don't have to speak, can you give us any sign?"

Who's there?

"Can you come out from there?"

Someone found him...

"I found him and he's barely moving and responding"

Is it Ben? Is the kid okay? Did... did he die? Is it because Robin- no. Is it because a child decided to play hero and failed as Robin or Damian?

"Damian? Can you look at me? It's Dick, it's just your brothers and sisters here for you"

"He's going to punish me... she's going to kill me"

"What? Who?"

"He's going to punish me... she's going to kill me"

What is he saying? Why can't he stop talking?

"He's going to punish me..! She's going to kill me!"

"Hey hey, calm down we don't want you to relapse"

"He's going to punish me! She's going to kill me!"

"D-"

"HE'S GOING TO PUNISH ME! SHE'S GOING TO KILL ME!"

"Damian, I need you to focus on my pulse"

Damian opened his eyes, looking at Dick who looked highly concerned yet he smiled when he saw Damian's eyes open. "Hey, there you are"

"...he's going to punish me, she's going to kill me!"

"No one is going to punish you, we saw the mask footage. Bruce isn't upset at all, he was stressed and messed up. He wants to apologize you know him, emotionally constipated and all that. He needs to find the right words and when he does you'll see that your safe"

"He's going to punish me... she's going to kill me"

"Okay, I know it feels bad now. But you'll be okay, why don't you get out from there and come to your bed?"

Damian nodded a little and reached out, palms opening and closing as Dick grabbed him and took him out of his hiding spot. Damian cuddled into Dick's embrace as he was moved to his bed.

"He's going to punish me... she's going to kill me"

Damian whispered it over and over again, it felt loud in such a silent room full of many people.

"He's going to punish me... she's going to kill me"

Dick sat next to Damian, everyone joining around not getting as close as to not bother.

"Who is going to do all of this?"

"Father... h-he's going to punish me... Mother is going to kill me"

Dick rubbed his hand in circles on Damian's back "Bruce won't do that. He loves you"

Damian shook his head and teared up "He's going to punish me, she's going to kill me" Damian got up and moved to his closet, in a small compartment and grabbing a box. Everyone felt their heart come to a halt, when Damian started to take out numerous weapons... a whip, knife and so many other things. "H-He's going to punish me, if he sees these options... I can take it, I've done it before. I'll be fine! I-I'll be fine... yeah I'll be fine. I've done wrong, punishment is what I deserve. Mother will be displeased, she might kill me... then I'd be brought back and the voices will... i-it will..." Damian crawled backwards away from the box. Cassandra grabbed it and hid it from view as Dick and Jason surrounded Damian. Tim, Stephanie and Duke left to get supplies.

"Hahaha I-I'm going to die again! Hahahahaha! I'm going to fucking die and have to live with it all over again! They're going to get louder! So loud, so so loud... my punishment and death will arrive, it will be louder and stronger. I'll lose, hehehe I'm going to die" Damian was smiling... how fucked up is this scene. Unable to hear anyone talk he was trapped in his own spiral. "I'm going to die... I'm going to die... heh father is displeased, he'll punish me for my wrongdoings and mother is not herself... she'll kill me then bring me back" Damian shook as he held himself "Haha I'm gonna die... they'll be too loud. Everything is so loud..." Damian closed his eyes and his body went limp. He exhausted himself... in a few moments he looked back up, he was back to that state of mind.

Jason was close to a panic attack at this point, crying and covering his mouth. Cassandra consoled him as Dick kept holding Damian, he had completely ignored them. Tim, Duke, Stephanie, Alfred and Bruce rushed in and stopped upon the scene. Titus walked over and put his snout against Damian's hand. Not a single movement to his own dog, Titus whined a bit. Bruce looked so hurt "What happened to him?" Dick looked back to Bruce

"He was hiding in the bathroom, we found him and he wasn't responding to us. I got to him enough for him to get on his bed. He kept repeating 'He's going to punish me, she's going to kill me' he thought you would punish him and then Talia would kill him. He freaked out, took out a whole box full of weapons, saying how giving you options would help him cause he's dealt with it. Then he would be sent back and die from Talia, she would kill him and bring him back with the Lazarus Pit. Then the voices would grow louder he kept saying... then he tired himself out"

Jason tensed up and curled in on himself, Cass hugged Jason alongside Tim joining in. Stephanie held a weighted blanket as Duke held boxes of tea and plates of snacks.

Bruce looked horribly in pain "I- I didn't mean to shout" Jason looked annoyed as he glared at Bruce "Now... is not the time to make yourself feel bad. Damian needs help, he's in pain. He needs to know we are here, not blaming ourselves for it all and making him feel like it's pity" Bruce nodded and Damian looked at Bruce "...May I lie down?" A question... that Damian felt compelled to ask in this state. He's a weapon here, a perfect vessel to carry out whatever he is told. Anything he wanted he would ask or else it would be a sign of disrespect.

"Yes. You can lie down for however long you need"

Damian stood up, he was trembling and it was obvious, yet he kept moving and walked to his bed.

#damian wayne #damian wayne has feelings and he wont admit it #robin #bruce wayne #batman #tim drake #dick grayson #jason todd #stephanie brown #cassandra cain #duke thomas #tw panic attack #tw abuse #tw death #tw auditory hallucinations #this is how i cope and i will die on this hill #my tramua coping hill *pat* *pat* wanna join?

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