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varyathevillain · 1 year

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no joke but what I really want for Buddy Daddies as a fandom is to make fanart and fanfic post present time ep12 where Rei wears an arm orthosis when working.

I think varied disability aids being represented would be fantastic, and personally would write Rei as someone being deeply proud of something he's done for his family, but also understanding with time that using an orthosis also helps him at work and in raising Miri. with a giant portion of mobility/motorics aids being represented by prosthetics, seeing more variety and exploring it in fiction would also help making a step in normalising disability treatments.

#that's my personal opinion and i just thought about how understanding more about physical disabilities #and how to help people with those aids in case something happens and they ask for help #has furthered my understanding and might even help me in the future if i were ever to experience that #Buddy Daddies Spoilers #Buddy Daddies #Suwa Rei #(again. i want to write Kurusu Rei SO BAD)#text post #Varya rambles #also drawing an orthosis would be real complicated for an animated work so i understand why they chose to hide the arm #but i really like the headcanon of Rei using it sparingly 🥺 not everyone uses them all the time #+ it's also not healthy if worn all the time. looking @ people who'd let their characters sleep with their prostheis on. smh #and this is also NOT a 'you HAVE to do this'! just something I think would be fantastic #...also I'm like. apparently looking @ a start of a fic where Rei uses it?? is my writer's block finally over?!#here's a hoping 🙏buddy daddies such a good anime. not perfect not extremely beautiful. but GOOD in HEART #1k

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lolliepops-rox · 4 months

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It's very interesting to me, as a newer Homestuck fan, to see all the extensions for the offical-unoffical archives that 'fix'/remove 'problems' or 'problematic' parts of Homestuck. I was on Tumblr when Homestuck was at its peak and reblogged all the cute ship art, follow the outrageous ask blogs, my best friend did read it as it was still coming out¹. But I never actually read the comic itself, just kind waves from the sidelines. But I wasn't there to experience the big controversies in real time (i.e. 'peachy'). Hussie is not above critique, but I don't think he's a bigot or even a bad person. What he is, is a troll. A classic 2006 'I said something fucked up not because I believed it, but to get a reaction.' Which, I can see to someone who missed that time of the internet, and only knows now. In which people say those fucked up things, to get a reaction and cause they believe it.

And so to see people younger than me, but have joined the fandom at the same time as me, not understand this context, it feels wrong. The things people are willing to sweep under the rug cause it conflicts with their morals vs the things they condemn and blame Hussie for.

Homestuck is a very long, very complicated, but very important piece of art. To not consider every facet of it does it a disservice.

For something made by a 2006 troll, it put a lot of queer characters worth caring about in it. The alpha kids & trolls both exist to be parodies of their beta counterparts. This is partly why Dirk is queer, and that Dirk refuses a label. But is still allowed to opening like, then date, then break up with a boy. It's a response to how the fandom wrote & treated Dave. For those who know it, compare the S19Ep6 of South Park, Tweek X Craig. Matt & Trey, who in my opinion embody the same sort of troll sense of humour Hussie has, handle fandom making their characters being gay quite differently. Tweek & Craig in this EP aren't treated as genuinely queer characters, but the kids trapped in what the town has decided are wacky hijinks of this week. It's not necessarily bad, but compared to Dirk it feels way less genuine.

There's topics I can't talk on fully like the way Hussie's racial biases appear in various characters, as I'm from a completely different country. But in my very non-american opinion, it reads more as 'someone who has never thought to question the stereotypes they were raised with', than as someone who is genuinely and actively racist. There is a difference, and as a mixed kid that's important to me.

I'm not really sure how physically disabled people feel about the way Hussie wrote their physically disabled characters (but if people have written about this I'd love to read and linked to me) but he definitely uses mental disabilities/illnesses as a substitute for the word 'quirky' without thinking much about it (i.e. Nepeta is off-handedly called autistic) it's not really great, but the bar is so low when it comes to these things that my tourettic ass cling to Mituna like a lifeline.

Maybe I had a further point here. Maybe my point was just antis in the Homestuck fandom is still weird to me when there's canon incest. Maybe I've drunk a fair bit of vodka while writing this. I have work in the morning. Good night beloved tumblrinas.

¹she gave me classpect and everything, and it's the one I use to this day, despite having a completely different theory on how classpects work. I also joined a cosplay ask blog despite never reading Homestuck (at the time) cos she asked me to (simp) and bought black lipstick to do AMom.

#homestuck #dirk strider #andrew hussie #south park #sp creek #fandom wank #talking lollie

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ive-given-up-the-bug-diet · 17 days

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Hot Take (by virtue of the fact that nobody but me cares enough about this character to have a Take about this):

(also spoilers for the Arc of a Scythe series under the cut)

Sycthe Constantine should've been permanently blinded by the acid. There are 3 main reasons for this and one explanation of how it could work within the series:

This would fix an issue that the aoas series has as a whole, that being the ableist undertones. Listen I understand that they probably aren't really indicative of Shusterman's beliefs, he wanted to make a story where the key question is "what if humanity conquered death" and it's hard to make a world like that while still justifying physical disabilities existing, I get it. But blinding Constantine would mean a disabled character and really help make the series feel less ableist.

There's a precedent for it. It is already establised by this point that death by corrosive acid is irreversible, it wouldn't be a huge leap of logic to say that, like the brain, the eyeball is too complex to truly reconstruct or that the optic nerve retained some sort of permanent damage. In my opinion it wouldn't require any explanation. If you've already established that acid can have irreversible effects then you can extend that to eyeballs all you like.

Think of the DRAMA. The TRAGEDY. Imagine being the only person in the world who is disabled. I understand that Scythe Constantine isn't a main character, no matter how much I might want him to be, so maybe this is too much for what is barely a side character, but just picture the feelings of inadequacy, and the hardship and the lack of acceptance or even basic accommodations etc. etc. And with the training that Scythes undergo he would likely still be able to keep his position as a Scythe, he has the capacity to be like that guy Caine from John Wick 4, or to make a more popular reference Daredevil.

Now the problem here is whether Goddard would let a blind Scythe into his inner circle. This is debatable but I don't think it's implausible. Constantine being blind would give him an even more iconic look. Whatever eye coverings he would go for (I like when characters have bandages over their eyes but realistically he would probably just wear sunglasses), and the presence of a cane (or ideally a seeing-eye dog but this is personal preference again, I confess) compounded with the iconography of his robe colour and material would make him one of the most recognisable Scythes in the world. This would appeal to Goddard as it is stated in the first book in the series that he wants high visibility, which is why he chooses Junior Scythes that have specific racial leanings even when that is much more rare in this world and why he and his clique all add gems onto their robes. He likes for him and his pals to have a distinct, iconic appearance when compared to everyone else. And Constantine getting blinded would mean an even more distinct and iconic appearance that wouldn't necessarily cost his skill or respectability

Overall, I've thought about this character more than anybody else alive and also I didn't mention this in the main body of the post but the reveal that he hadn't been permanently blinded was so anti-climactic I mean come on.

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wonder2realities · 11 days

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You never mentioned you were disabled in your original reply to that ask. It’s also not on your pinned post. How in the world were they supposed to know that the response came from a disabled person? And before you say you’ve mentioned it on your blog before (which I have no idea if you have or not) how do you know they would have seen it? They most likely found your response through the notes on the ask post. And just FYI, you can educate someone without calling them “icky” or degrading them in any manner. They asked if the way they thought was bad, you could have said yes and explained why instead of calling them icky and assuming they would know your disabled. At the end of the day it’s just a damn opinion on the matter. Opinion is not fact just because it came from someone in the group in question.

so much to unpack this is insane im losing my mind this is gonna be a long ass response

op was geniune, i gave my opinion saying its a bit icky - thats not degrading??? i never called them an ableist, never said they were an awful person, i said in my opinion i think its icky - i didnt even direct it towards the person. i never said "youre an awful person for doing that." - i literally said "its moreso the fact that scripting out disabilities is icky"...

please point to the degrading. point to the meanness and evilness, the harshness...point to it. unless the person who originally made the ask to that confessions acc wants to come into my dms or my inbox and say they were personally offended, i really dont see how it could be degrading. maybe its the alexithymia but i dont see it, i dont get it.

ive talked abt being disabled on this blog frequently, literally i make a blog at least once a week talking abt being autistic : even if they were unable to find that out and assumed i was not disabled then they can simply take my opinion as something else i wouldnt care as much about that however i literally MENTIONED THAT YOU CAN SEARCH UP AND ASK DISABLED PEOPLE AND LOOK INTO SIMILAR DISCOURSE because then youd be able to see it from different perspectives as the term disabled is a large umbrella term. so i not only said my opinion as a disabled person who has frequently talked abt being autistic and has literally made blogs talking abt keeping my disabilities in my drs but i also gave advice on where to find other perspectives that will go more into detail of why disabled people dont feel comfortable with the whole "heal everyone!! we're gonna heal all disabilities to save them!!" mindset.

you have no right to say whether an opinion is a "fact" or not when your opinion on the topic is automatically invalid because you arent disabled - dont try to pull that shit on me when you know for a fact that being disabled means that id have more of an understanding on the social aspect of what its like to be disabled...because i experience it and i wont let any ablebodied person or any neurotypical person try to speak over me on that. also, ive mentioned im autistic AND have physical disabilities multiple times on here - even if its not mentioned in my original post i quite literally said if youre confused you can look into discourse regarding the whole "disabled people cant be in fantasy because fantasy = utopia which = everyone being healthy" thing because there are disabled people who have talked abt this multiple times and in my eyes there are similarities to that and the idea of scripting out disabled people because they have similar reasons.

also if youre who i think you are aka the person who deactivated the second i responded : if youre able to go that far into my blog to find a post where i said i was gonna go on a social media detox - you wouldve been able to find a post on me talking abt being autistic because i literally made a post a FEW DAYS AGO talking abt being a blk autistic.

^ incase u dont believe me for whatever reason, this was literally 2 days ago.

also im not an educator never claimed to eductae the person i gave an opinion - it is not my job to educate people. you are twisting a small paragraph of me saying "scripting out disabilities is a bit icky" into me being this harsh and awful person because i...didnt write an essay educating the person when i never claimed to educate them in the first place????

and again, i never attacked op the only person i attacked (which could be u if ure that account but im too lazy to do the whole "finding out whos behind the anon ask" thing) was the person who randomly responded to me, went through my entire blog to find a post of me saying i deleted twt for a social media detox and painted it as if im this limited person who "doesnt believe shifting is limitless and has a bad mindset" (which is insane???)

so to conclude this

speaking over disabled people where someone is asking disabled people for their opinion is weird. dont come into my inbox with this weird shit, unless its an apology because this is slowly creeping into ableism territory (before u even try to argue that its not - downplaying a disabled persons opinion on a topic that revolves around being disabled and speaking over them to then try to disregard their opinion being going "just because youre apart of a group doesnt mean your opinion is a fact" is insane. that is insane. call me crazy, idc thats insane.)

#ᡣ𐭩 wonder2realities #zzz ... cici's rambles #⋆˚✿˖° cici's asks #shiftblr #desired reality #shifting consciousness #shifting blog #quantum jumping #shifting antis dni #scripting #kpop shifting #manifestation

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isnt-it-pretty · 3 months

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Hi! I’m sorry this is pretty random but I don’t really know where else to talk about this and since I’ve seen you talk about disabilities a lot I thought I could ask for your opinion as well

Now, I’m not exactly disabled in the traditional sense for many I think.

I’ve had eye problems for years, only recently did I find out that it’s actually cornea dystrophy, a genetic disease not exactly treatable except it gets bad enough to need a cornea transplant (which usually only happens in older ages) My doctor said I don’t need that

My case however is also still a bit severe, I have to take eye drops mornings and evenings and even those don’t always help and I simply have to hope that I don’t wake up to pain. In cornea dystrophy your cornea doesn’t get lubricated enough and easily rips apart. This mostly happens in the morning… oh and how it happens… it’s an absolute nightmare at least thrice a week I’m ripped out of sleep by sudden severe pain in one of my eyes (it switches it’s always one or the other) it feels like someone is nonstop pouring acid in your eye and I always scramble to take pain killers, eye drops (which burn like hell on a fresh rip) and water, all in hurry because no one wants to understand how agonising it is and my boss also won’t understand that I WILL have days where I’m partially blind on one eye (everytime after an “attack” that eye usually sees completely blurry for a day or more depending on the severity of the rip and pain) sometimes the pain spreads over the entire side of my skull and my eye is crying non stop and my nose is also running bc of the sensation in my eye.

But no one around me wants to understand because my doctor simply said “just use eye drops frequently”. I do.. I use eyedrops, eye gel and eye patches everyday and still have frequent “attacks” and everyone treats them like they’re nuisances for THEM.

I’m hesitant to call this a disability, it does affect me and takes me out of commission before I scramble to lessen the impact in the morning yet I can still function “normally”.

I honestly don’t know where I wanted to go with this anymore…. I think I just want someone to know what I’m dealing with because neither family nor work are showing any understanding

Please feel free to ignore this and if you read this far thank you… You don’t have to reply or anything I think at this point I’m just venting and I’m so sorry to bother you with this

Please don't feel bad messaging me! I'm not a doctor of course, nor am I an expert in disability, but I don't mind having these conversations. Although fair warning, my answer will probably be just as rambly as you're worried yours was.

There's a lot to beeak down here including shitty doctors but first and foremost, I would absolutely call your condition disability, and I would even say that a lot of disabled people would agree.

Disability is a term that has many definitions depending on who is using it. Doctors, sociologists, government, and different aspects of the disabled community will all define it differently, but this is the dictionary definition:

a physical, mental, cognitive, or developmental condition that impairs, interferes with, or limits a person's ability to engage in certain tasks or actions or participate in typical daily activities and interactions

I'd certainly say that your condition certainly qualifies. Inability to see through one eye, even episodically, the need to rely on medications, pain that wakes you up or results in an inability to function. All of those are disabling. To say it isn't is like saying diabetes isn't a disability because all they need to do is take insulin, nevermind all of the other issues that come along with it. That lower-limb amputee? They aren't disabled, all they need to do is strap on a prosthetic leg! But it doesn't work like that. A disability is still a disability even with treatment or accessability.

Having good days, or even being "fine" a few hours after an episode, doesn't negate its impact on your life. It's an invisble disability, which is probably where a lot of people's shitty opinions come from. Other people can't see the problem, so, therefore, it must not exist. You must just be overreacting or faking or using it as an excuse to get out of work because otherwise they would see it. Unfortunately, it's easier for people to pretend disability simply doesn't exist. People around you not trying to understand or accomodate is ableism. It's also a willful and fundimental misunderstanding of disability. Just because some days I have the energy to clean, or you can see through both eyes, or a dementia patient remembers their daughter's name, doesn't magically make the condition go away, or make it impact your life any less when it does happen.

Your doctor being unconcerned(which is probably the wrong word. Uncaring? Unsympathetic?) is another problem but that one is deeply rooted in ableism within the medical community, and the common view of disability by medical professionals. Just because you don't need a cornea transplant doesn't mean you aren't deserving of care and sympathy from those around you. Even if they can't do anything to help, you still deserve that respect, and it's shitty that you don't have that.

The entire situation just sucks. The people are you suck. I'm sure they're lovely otherwise but this is obviously a part where they're lacking, and I'm sorry they're unwilling to accept that your conditon impacts you.

Edit: also feel free to DM me if you'd ever like to chat, or send me another ask

#asks #disability

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navree · 1 year

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What do you think of house Lannister?

In general? I think they're fun, they're neat, they're a bunch of overdramatic bitches but because they don't have dragons and instead just have a shitton of money it's not as dangerous as the Targaryens. It's like them Succession kids, but in Westeros. They're very funny, it's just this family of messy bitches with good genes who decide to make their problems everyone's problems even tho they're not even royalty, they're just That Dramatic that it infects everyone else.

As for specific Lannisters in ASOIAF, my feelings go a bit deeper.

I like Cersei fine, she's fun to read about and her head's fun to be in because she thinks she's so much smarter than she is and that cognitive dissonance can be very entertaining, but I don't necessarily have the strongest or deepest feelings about her, she's pretty much just an entertaining character I enjoy.

Jaime is my son. He is my baby boy. I love him so much I just want to cuddle him up in a blanket and yell at every single person he's ever talked to until they apologize for being mean to him. Like, God his flashback chapters where he thinks on shit he had to go through in Aerys's Kingsguard literally hurts. If he gets a rocks fall death in the books like in the stupid show I'm gonna be so pissed, he is my number one boy (I think he might be a very strong contender for second favorite male ASOIAF character) and I will protect him with my life and love him fiercely. And why second favorite? Because...

Tywin is the best character in this series. He may be the best character in the entire ASOIAF/GOT/HOTD franchise. He's never done anything wrong except for all the evil stuff he did wrong but it's fiction and he ain't on trial so he's the best. I literally love everything about Tywin, I love all his scenes and all of his characterization and the hints we get of the kind of person he is since we're never in his head. I love his intelligence and his mind and I like that he does encompass what it means to be ruthless, to see the bright line in getting from point A to point B and following that line with no deviations no matter what it does for or to other people. I love smart characters, and I especially love smart politicians, so Tywin is basically if crack was an ASOIAF character for me. And I adore his interpersonal relationships. People have talked to death about Tywin's relationship with his kids and I wouldn't add anything new, but his relationship with his siblings needs to be discussed more. That tidbit about him being the only one to stand up for Genna when she was betrothed to House Frey and how angry it made him is literally just *chef's kiss*. And I could write a thesis dissertation on Tywin and Kevan and all the intricate displays of their relationship but for now I'll say this: the final published chapter of ASOIAF being Kevan's POV where when he gets shot with a crossbow his first thought is literally "no, no, this is how my brother died" is fucked up. That's a really fucked up thing to do George. And sue me I'm a sucker for the dynamic Tywin had going on with Joanna. That shit hits hard.

So, here's an unpopular opinion: I do not like Tyrion. I don't mean I don't like him as a character, I love him as a character, his story is interesting and the way he's written is good and he's understandable and I sympathize with him and I acknowledge and respect him as a key player in the series and one of the five Peak Core cast. And honestly, I appreciate his story and I do feel emotions for him and the way he's treated as a disabled man in a society like Westerosi society. But on a personal leve, I do not like Tyrion, for one very simple reason: Tyrion is so completely and unbearably misogynistic that is genuinely difficult for me to spend time in his head. Now I know what you might be thinking, "Amélie he's not the only misogynistic character" and no he's not, but out of the main male characters, he is the most overt and the most physical with it, not only just constantly thinking awful shit about women but also doing things like slapping Shae for talking and strangling her for the crime of him thinking she's someone she wasn't and even though I'm aware that it's for a furtherance of his arc, him raping the sex slave literally makes me hurl. And while I'm equally as aware that he's not the only Lannister POV character to have severely misogynistic takes (ohhhh Cersei and your internalized sexism), I'm more willing to give Cersei some grace because she is a woman and is suffering under a misogynistic society that has hurt her. For all else Tyrion is, he is a man, a highborn man to boot, and he has benefitted extremely from Westeros's misogyny as well as being a perpetrator of it that does not afford him the same leniency from me that Cersei gets as a victim.

And honestly, some of the shit he thinks about Cersei is just......ugh. I'm not a Cersei stan by any stretch, but I do have some genuine issues with some of the stuff he thinks and says re: her. Tyrion is more than allowed to hate Cersei for her horrible treatment of him, even allowed to want her dead, but him constantly going on about how he wants to rape and murder her not for anything she'd done in the past but for thinking he'd murdered Joffrey (which he knows she genuinely thinks is true, the issue is that Tywin knew it wasn't but was gonna use it to get rid of him anyway) is exhausting. It is genuinely taxing for me to read about how frequently he wants to be gruesomely sexually violent towards a woman not for any wrong she actually did him, and she's done a lot, but for her own erroneous belief that he knows is genuine on her part. Again, I get where he's coming from, I really do, I understand why it's being written and I understand how someone can get to that point, especially after all Tyrion's been through, and I'm not heartless as I said before and there are feelings I have about him, but idk, maybe it's Being A Woman and that the kind of misogyny Tyrion constantly exhibits is a kind that still very much exists today in the modern world, but it's a hurdle I can't get over when it comes to him.

(and also it's a nitpick cuz i know there's no way he could have known about it but it still rubs me the wrong way when i reread the series and he has his thing about how he liked robert when cersei hated him when i know that the reason cersei hated him was because he raped and abused her, it's just a Thing for me)

So yeah, that's the House Lannister take for the most part from me. As House, they're fun and more lighthearted in terms of shit they get up to and very funny, which Cersei tends to encapsulate for me as a character, and I have a lottttt of feelings, just very different ones, re: Tywin and Jaime, and Tyrion is...Well, it's fiction and it's not my job to like every single character, even popular ones.

#personal #answered #anonymous #yeah the tyrion thing is just......he ain't it for me #there's a scene i thiiiiink in either acok or asos where he just smacks shae out of the blue #and he's like 'you can't talk to me that way' and he gets surprised when she's upset #it's a bit of a strong word but there's a casually sexist brutality in him that is really hard to read #i KNOW he's at the dark part of his arc he's at the bottom right now i understand that #and i see the merit in it from a storytelling perspective #but sometimes there are characters i don't gel with for a variety of reasons #and this is the reason i don't gel with tyrion #i do still read his chapters tho they're some of my faves

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pikahlua · 2 years

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Diff anon but your answer on sadomasochism enlightened me. 'It doesn't have to be sexual' changed my whole view. It's because we're exposed to that term as negative/sexual hence we never give a thought beyond that. Also what's ur opinion on people calling the Mirko stuff as Torture p*rn. I disagree with it but I realised I may be missing something they are seeing.I feel this happens to many chrs.Endv,Ngnt,Sgrk,Bkg. Plus she's still going strong. Had she been in pain, I would have somewhat agreed

One need not look much farther than the centuries of religious art to get a sense of how universal sadomasochism can be as an artistic theme lol.

As for your question, I think "torture porn" is the catch-all term people are using to describe a bit more than just what the term sounds like. There are a few porn tropes and such that people seem to be spotting, but like...this is complicated. Maybe more complicated than I'm about to treat it, or maybe more complicated than those people are treating it.

On the one hand, you have the issues of exploitation and addiction and other psychological consequences of the porn industry. I don't think it's fair to hold a Japanese manga responsible for these issues (especially when it's, you know, not porn), but I can understand why people might feel uncomfortable about what they're seeing for various reasons. There are also those who will feel uncomfortable with violence or gore in general (although let's be real, MHA has plenty of that already). No one has to be comfortable with what's going on. And I'm not out here to defend the objectification portion of fetishization that harms people in real life. If someone has been harmed by that before and they see something worth speaking out about, that's fair.

On the other hand, I draw the line at white knight advocacy. There may be those who see signs of familiar fetish tropes in Mirko because of her dark skin or lost limbs, but there are two sticky issues with jumping to conclusions here:

1. Western tropes don't necessarily translate to other parts of the world. The USA especially has a tendency to ascribe its conceptions of race to other countries, and that makes for some pretty awkward criticism of Horikoshi if you don't take that into account. Dark skin exists and is perceived differently in other cultures. There are dark-skinned Japanese people. We can't just assume anything about race when we see what WE might perceive as one race in a manga. White people LOVE to ask the question "Why are there so many white people in anime?" without stopping to think "Wait, ARE they actually white, or am I just assuming that because I think the default is white?" (Hint: It's almost always the latter.)

2. Just getting mad on behalf of a marginalized group doesn't qualify you to speak out. I've seen some people who are members of the groups Horikoshi's treatment of Mirko allegedly objectifies, and while not all of them have the same takes, a non-negligible number of them seem far more exasperated with the flat discourse from the fandom condemning Mirko than with Mirko's treatment. Anyone who cares about these issues could do a lot more good by empowering the voices of people they actually think are hurt by this than spouting their own asinine takes. I for one am particularly annoyed with the retaliatory desexualization and infantilization of amputees and the physically disabled that many people are engaging in without much consideration. One behavior by others that affects me as a disabled person is how many people love to speak on my behalf because they truly believe I'm not capable of speaking for myself and that they have my best interests at heart. And to them: You know what? Fuck you. I have my own opinions and you don't speak for me. Try listening for once. And for what it's worth? I'm a sexy disabled motherfucker too.

As far as Mirko goes, she's living up to her ideals. She has regrets about not taking down Shigaraki when she had the chance, and she probably attributed some of that to her injuries and loss of limb at the time. Now she's getting a do-over regarding that, and she's fucking rocking it. Maybe there are some bits that I could stand to have handled differently, or maybe I'm overly used to weird anime bullshit, but regardless, I'm fully convinced if I look into a mirror and scream "Struggle!" three times, Mirko will jump out of it and bite open my neck, and I for one welcome that sweet, bloody, badass death.

#anon ask #ask pika #my hero academia manga spoilers #i guess the moral of the story is #be uncomfortable #like really that's okay #and speak out where it matters #but especially empower the disenfranchised above all else #also let other people enjoy things #horikoshi isn't the arbiter of society and culture #which is a fact i'm definitely okay with lol

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mrseeker · 10 months

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About me

When considering medical facilities, one may automatically think of a clinic as the most common place where patients are treated for various medical conditions. However, it is important to note that not all homes with medicine or medical practices are clinics. In fact, physical location may not necessarily be relevant in determining whether or not a medical facility can be classified as a clinic.

The true definition of a clinic lies in its function. If a facility admits patients and treats them for a variety of ailments or medical issues, then it can be considered a clinic, regardless of its location. This means that a home, office, or other non-traditional medical facility can still be classified as a clinic if it provides adequate medical treatment to patients.

For those who may be unclear on the definition of treatment, it can be defined as the care administered to a patient who is seeking medical attention. This can range from providing medication for a specific ailment, to monitoring a patient's progress during recovery from a surgery or other medical procedure. Treatment is a crucial part of the medical field, and it is what allows patients to receive the care they need to manage their health conditions and lead healthy lives.

In summary, while clinics are often thought of as traditional medical facilities located in a specific building, it is important to remember that the real definition of a clinic lies in its function. Any facility that treats patients and provides medical care can be classified as a clinic, regardless of where it is located. And, at the heart of any medical treatment is the care and attention given to patients who seek medical attention.

whom I have a responsibility - a duty to care for them. It's as though the universe is conspiring to bring people who require tender loving care into my life. I believe that this is not a coincidence but rather a calling, a purpose.

I've come across patients from all walks of life, with a range of physical and mental needs. Some are struggling with addiction while others are navigating the complexities of mental health challenges. No matter how challenging the cases may be, I am committed to providing them with the best possible care to ensure that they heal and recover as quickly as possible.

Notably, the people that come to me for help are not just patients, but they are equally caregivers themselves. Their responsibilities often go beyond their own physical and mental well-being. More often than not, they play a significant role in taking care of someone else. Whether its cooking for a sick spouse, cleaning up after a crying toddler, or simply listening to a distraught friend, they somehow morph into doctors themselves.

Though I don't have a lot of friends, the people who are close to me are family. I cherish them, and I understand the critical role that I have to play in their lives. Whenever I can, I take it upon myself to be there for them, offering any assistance they might need. Although the journey can be hard and hectic, seeing them recover and bounce back is the best feeling ever.

In conclusion, I believe that my purpose in life is to be a caregiver to those who need it most. Every person who comes into my life seems to be sent by a divine hand. They are not just patients, but caregivers themselves, taking care of others. Though I may not have many friends, I vow to care for those close to me like they are family. I am not just any man, I am a trusted companion who will always be there for you, even when your parents are not. Despite being labeled as mentally challenged due to my disability, I refuse to let others' opinions affect me. The joy and happiness I bring to my loved ones is paramount, and I cherish every one of them equally. As an artist, a poet, and most importantly, a writer, I have the freedom to chart my own course. Your words cannot bring me down, not as much as my father's actions did when I was a young boy. I felt shattered, like the whole world had crumbled around me and my connections were slowly fading away. If taking care of them, lending an ear, and using a cold compress to alleviate a fever classify as practicing medicine or treating individuals, I plead guilty.

I am known as the indigenous monster, a reference to the stereotype that portrays Native Americans as barbaric and uncivilized. To some natives, I am referred to as a pretendian, a term used to describe individuals who inaccurately claim to be of Native American descent or who fail to acknowledge their tribal affiliation. It's an insult that stings, but I understand where it comes from.

The effects of colonization have been devastating for indigenous peoples across the globe, and it's no different for us. Our cultures, customs, and traditions have been stripped away, and we have been forced to assimilate into a society that is vastly different from our own. As a result, many of us have lost touch with our tribal heritage and don't know where we come from.

It's frustrating to be labeled a fake Native American when the reality is that colonization has caused so much harm. We have been robbed of our identity, and it's hard to reconcile that with the America we live in today. But it's also important to recognize that the pain and trauma of colonization is still present, and many Native Americans continue to live with the consequences today.

We often push away conversations about these issues because they can be difficult and uncomfortable. But we need to have these conversations if we want to move towards reconciliation. We need to acknowledge the harm that has been done and work towards healing and restoration. It won't be easy, but it's a journey worth taking. I’m a person that is still reconnecting to my past even if mixed. Thank you for reading.

#my thoughts #help others #medicine #native american #indigenous #mixed race #patients #helpful #friends #introducing myself

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cy-cyborg · 8 months

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I've read a lot of stories with disabled characters, and I've enjoyed some of them more than others. I'm wondering, can non-disabled people write disabled people in stories? Is it possible to do it respectfully and accurately?

I recently read the book "Me Before You" by Jojo Moyes. I really enjoyed the story, but I'm not sure if I would have enjoyed it as much if I had been disabled myself. The main character, Will, is a quadriplegic, and the story explores his relationship with his caretaker, Louisa. I thought the book did a good job of portraying Will's physical limitations, but I'm not sure if it did a good job of portraying his emotional and psychological journey.

What do you think? Can non-disabled people write disabled people in stories?

Sorry for the late reply, I thought I posted the answer to this already, but I saved it to my queue instead 😅

This is a really hotly debated topic in disability circles, but in my opinion, there's nothing wrong with non-disabled folks telling stories featuring disability, so long as you're respectful and do your research/hire sensitivity readers. Stories where a character (even the main character) is disabled, or becomes disabled during the story, but that's not what the core of the story is about. Disability is a natural part of life, the disabled community makes up nearly 20% of the total population according to some sources (though many people think this is an under-estimate and the real numbers are much higher, since what is considered a disability isn't universally agreed on), it's unrealistic to just straight-up not include it.

But stories that are specifically about the disabled experience, about what life as a disabled person is like, about learning to live with disability and learning how to adapt to it, where any of those themes are a part of the main plot, then I think that's usually best left to disabled people to tell those stories. There are some things that, unless you've lived through it, you can never truly understand, and I do think disability is one of those things (this doesn't just apply to non-disabled people, but also to people with disabilities different from your own. I know what life for an amputee with autism is like, but that doesn't mean I also know what living with DID or paraplegia is like). If you try to tell a story where those things you haven't lived through are the centre focus, the holes become very visible to those who have. I do say usually though, I've seen some exceptions where people still do a good job, but they're usually from very well-established writers who have a team of people like sensitivity readers, consultants etc, and a lot of them who are able to pull it off.

The irony that you used Me Before You as an example though is a little funny. I try not to talk about that story specifically because I couldn't even finish the movie, let alone the book 😅 but the online disabled community has made their thoughts on both known. The general consensus as I've seen it is it is a perfect example of the author doing everything wrong, but getting it close enough that most non-disabled folks won't notice, and the movie just following in its footsteps. Take this with a grain of salt of course, but I've heard that the author didn't even talk to anyone with Will's disability directly, she only spoke to and consulted with healthcare workers/carers who worked with people like Will, which will always give you a very incomplete view of life with a disability at best and a very jaded and pessimistic view of things at worst - both in regards to the emotional side of things and the ability of the disabled person. I'm not here to say you can't enjoy it, but it does play into a lot of very harmful tropes and stereotypes. I'm not the best person to discuss it in any real detail though, sorry. There's some great video essays on YouTube though, including a few from people with the same disability as will, so I'd definitely recommend taking a look at them if you want to know more!

TLDR: I don't think there's anything wrong with non-disabled folks telling stories that contain disabled characters, but stories about our lived experience should be left to those with that lived experience.

#disability #disabled #disability representation #writeblr #writing #authors of tumblr #writing disability #creative writing #writer #on writing #writers on tumblr

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Hello Mari, how are you? I hope you are doing wonderfully well(;

Anyway, let me ask you a few questions! First of all, out of all the fanfics you've written so far, is there one that you consider your favorite? Are there fanfics that are more difficult to write and others that are relatively easier? Or are they all the same difficulty level? Ever thought about writing a physical book? (In my opinion, you have a lot of potential! I would definitely be one of the first in line at the bookstore, lol!).

And finally, how does your creativity work? Do you think about your stories very often? Or are there specific times for your creativity to kick in?

(OBS: Sorry for the list of questions! Don't feel pressured to answer, and forgive me if my English is bad! I'm still learning🙃).

A big hug for you dear, take care(:

Hello!! I am doing okay! Just normal life stress seeing as my car is now taking a turn for the less good and I might need to start looking around for another one😭

Out of all of my fics, I think baby might be my favorite one. I live the vibe of it and the way that it is going. I have so many ideas for it including different idol interactions and btsxmc interactions. I feel like the love in the bond is so pure that sometimes instincts overwrite normal thoughts or expectations.

I think there are definitely some fics that are more difficult to write than others. The most difficult one for me (because of the headspace I was in) is definitely a hand to hold. I truly think i might discontinue it. Petrichor is also a hard one to write for mainly because I have so much written for it in terms of world building. Im also trying not to take away from the mcs personality and her tenacity as she becomes an omega. I don’t want her to be a stereotypical omega in that right. I want her to have the same fire in her as when the met the boys and that’s kind of harder to maintain than I thought. Also, I find I like steering away from smut, and there is definitely going to be smut or at least mating between namjoon and mc within petrichor. I’ve been building up to it for 17 chs now and I don’t want to take away that build up from you guys.

Baby and tlblw are definitely some of the easier fics for me to write because I am more or less writing about my own experiences with my disabilities and just making them more or less something easier to understand and read about when it comes to an mc. Plus, people relate a lot to those mcs which helps a lot. They are more like self inserts than reader fics but I still write them as a reader fic.

I have actually thought about writing novels before. Last year I started world building for one, but quickly lost interest in it ngl. I think I could like rework some of my fics and publish them but mainly enchanted, dot, and petrichor. I have so many TikTok’s saved about publishing and self publishing. I wanted to be an editor/writer in a publishing house in high school but unfortunately listened to family and pursued teaching instead.

As for my creativity, I think about ideas and world building all the time. Even at work I’m constantly in my head, coming up with different stories or working on ones I’ve already thought up. I do have specific times though, where I absolutely need to write something down and my mind won’t let me do anything else until I do. I am very thankful for my notes app when this happens😂

pls don’t apologize and thank you for the big hug🥰🥰❤️❤️🥹🥹🥹

#purpleyoonn #purpleyoonn ask

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calamaorisadoraalvira · 1 year

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Greetings, I am Isadora Alvira. I WAS the host of the Calamaor system. I ask that you use the pronouns ce/cim/cir/cirs/cirself on me. Much of my identity is fluid, confusing, or untold. Please continue reading for this blogs DNI, BYF, about me, and any other information I deem necessary to share.

Not Isadora, but wanted to note this blog is currently inactive but will stay up for the time being until we hear from Isadora or learn of cir whereabouts.

DNI

DNI is an acronym that stands for "do not interact." There are the blogs I ask to not interact with my blog for my personal comfort and safety as well as to respect others opinions, wishes, and boundaries. I ask that the following do not interact:

Basic DNI criteria. This includes but is not limited to homophobia, transphobia, xenophobic, islamophobic, misogynistic, racist, sexist, ableist, pedophiles, and those who support, justify, or tolerate any of the above.

Those who do not support xenogenders, neopronouns, LIOM labels, or MOGAI labels

Those who do not support therians, otherkins, otherhearted, copinglinkers, or other forms of nonhumanity.

Those who do not support self diagnosis or feel that one isn't valid until they acquire a medical diagnosis

Syscourse, shipcourse, heavily political, or any sort of controversial debate blog

Those who feel it is ever okay to fakeclaim another individuals experience

Those who feel it is ever okay to wish/threaten harm or death upon another individual

BYF

BYF is an acronym that stands for "before you follow." I ask that you read over this list before following as to avoid accidentally breaking your own DNI as well as to understand some of my personal stances and boundaries. Before you follow keep in mind that:

I am part of a nonverbal DID system that is very traumatized and disabled. We will have episodes of delusions, episodes of paranoia, episodes of erratic behaviors, occasional tics that limit our ability to type, manic episodes, depressive episodes, episodes of disassociation, and more. To summarize, please be patient when interacting. Tone tags are very helpful and feel free to ask us how we are currently feeling to avoid negative or otherwise uncomfortable situations.

I am nonhuman and ask that you avoid calling me a human. Instead I am fine with being called an elf, angel, or just a creature.

I have many (in sys) children who may interact through this blog. My children will never front alone and will always have me present with them. If you are uncomfortable with littles interacting with your blog please let me know.

I will interact with both pro-endo and anti-endo blogs as I do not feel my personal opinion needs to be shared. I do not wish to participate in any syscourse or to discuss my thoughts on endos. This beings said, I will respects others boundaries and will remove my interaction if asked to do so.

Please do not ever reality check us. While for some, reality checking can be a helpful tool to define the line between reality and delusion, it does the complete opposite for us. When made aware of our delusions it only triggers paranoia and even more questions or delusions.

Our collective blog is @v-system. We also have an archived blog that belonged to an old host @apstynsears.

About me

Here is some vital information about me that I feel I should share on this blog. My name is Isadora Alvira. I am part of the Calamaor system. I am part of the Vuldra T1 subsystem. If you are unaware of what the Vuldra are, please check out our old hosts archived blog @apstynsears or click here for the specific post.

While I am physically Vuldrakin, I identify as Nara'or kingender. While being Nara'or, I also identify with the terms transneutral, agender, autigender, angelbeing, angelgender, angelenic, asexual, aegoromantic, queerplatonic, and lesbian.

I use the pronouns ce/cim/cir/cirs/cirself. They can be used like the following: Ce went home. Me and cim are having a great time. Cir daughter is beautiful. I believe this is cirs. Ce can tell me cirself.

I am around 3,000 years old, as Calamaor elves live to around 20,000 to 25,000 years. I am quite young compared to most of my kind. I am also much more matured than most my age as well.

I have many roles within my system, some of which include being the current host, autism symptom holder, disciplinarian, emotional funnel, and protector.

My favorite food is orange chicken and white sticky rice, my favorite animal is a dove, my favorite color is ruby red, and my favorite emoji is the wine glass emoji 🍷

I try my best to use proper sentence structure but will sometimes have mishaps. Please feel free to correct me on spelling, punctuation, or any other type of grammar mistakes. I enjoy learning very much and appreciate others assisting me in doing so.

#mogai blog #mogai community #liom blog #liom community #elfkin #calamaor #calamaor elves #pinned intro

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capableism · 2 years

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The disabled costume dilemma

The X-Men franchise seems like the only superhero team I know almost nothing about. I ate up the Marvel Cinematic Universe (MCU) movies. Even DC heroes like the Flash and Shazam are some of my favorites. I am the biggest nerd for Star Wars and Star Trek. But the only thing I know about X-Men is the two character names Professor X and Wolverine as well as the two actors who portray them. I can understand the concept of mutants possibly representing multiple minority groups, but I don't have a more specific opinion. Even though I know little about the X-Men franchise, I did consider being professor X for Halloween one year. But not because he uses a wheelchair and is physically disabled. My Halloween goal was to find a costume where I could wear a suit. I just like dressing up and didn't want to have to buy a costume that year.

When researching the Professor X costume, I started to second guess myself. I'm far from a bald white guy. As an Asian-American, I can sometimes struggle to find a character that I like that also looks like me. I gravitate toward Spider-Man because he wears a mask, and many interactions of Spider-Man are with people of color. (For example, Miles Morals) It would require more than a nice suit if I wanted to be Professor X. I'd have to use my wheelchair, which I had a strained relationship with at the time. I was still struggling to see mobility aids as a source of freedom. I thought,

"Am I being dishonest pretending I'm wheelchair-bound for Halloween?"

Halloween is, of course, the holiday to pretend. But I have also had experiences where friends have assumed something wrong if I chose my wheelchair over crutches. People know I can walk. I was overwhelmed by the feeling that I would be pretending or choosing to look "more disabled" when most people can't do that. I don't even use a power chair with a joystick like him. At the time, I associated a power chair with being "even more disabled or limited" That's not true. People with disabilities can not be ranked.

Photo by Victor Camilo from Unsplash

I just struggled to see myself in my wheelchair because it lead to feeling like I’m being forced to adapt to life even more than I already have to on crutches. Even though I have ankle braces and walk with crutches, I still "pass" pretty well as an abled body person in a crowd because I can stand and walk among them. Giving that up, even for a day, felt wrong.

How my wheelchair changes someone else’s perspective on how disabled I am doesn't matter as much to me. The trouble I would still have today would be finding a bald cap that matches my skin tone because I'm not white. At the end of the day, Halloween is a fun time to pretend and dress however you want.

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stolencrownsofplenty · 2 months

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Anonymous | Accepting

5, 13, 25, 37, 44, 56 >:3c

5. What do you hope to see at your funeral/wake/burial/cremation? What do you think you’ll actually see?

((I would hope to see at my burial, my family would recycle my dead body to used as fertilizer for a tree; either its just a baby or a thousand year old one, it would not matter to me either way. I feel in some part while my family would be saddened I'd pasted away either due to an accident or just life taking its course, but I would want them to honor me in a way my life would still be apart of theirs' in some way. I don't know if that do that sorta program anymore, but it's a nice thought to think about at least.

What would I see on the other side though? I wouldn't know. I haven't lived it yet, so you never know honestly.))

13. If you could live in a movie or movie franchise, which would it be? Why?

((Monster's Inc or Zootopia. Both would lean into on the slight fantasy but still feel familiar to me if I ever got stuck in those universes somehow. If I even got the chance to have my form as my lambsona? That'd make it even better since I wouldn't be too different from those guys anyhow.))

25. Who is someone you admire?

((My friends! Would absolutely throw a rock if I got to visit them over the world some day. ^o^))

37. When was the last time someone texted you and what about?

((From my last text message? It was from my horse trainer talking to me and my mother about having horse riding lessons later this Monday night. We try to have them weekly when we can manage it, since riding horses is my physical therapy, and they are always something I look forward to during my long weeks.))

44. Think about some strong opinions (about anything) that you have. Could be about RP, life, school, work, people. Where did that come from; what happened to make you feel or think that way?

((I do have some opinions when it comes to how Neurotypical writers who work in the film industry write really poor autism representation and don't do the proper research to portray a person with autism with human respect; and I am especially talking about older media that still has some sort of cultural impact. As much as we've gotten some decent rep in the last few years and they're far and between? I do have a strong hatred for the characters like Ra.in Ma.n, Shel.don Co.oper, and The Go.od Doc.tor. Since fictional media is what the common everyday viewer often consumes on an everyday basis to either learn about the world or what autism might be like in some cases? Those older character representation leaves a bitter taste in my mouth since they leave a super surface level rep of the autism definition, and can often give someone who isn't neurodivergent an unfair idea of what someone with autism might actually be like

Sure, it can be possible to be really into a special interest to turn into a career for themselves, but it leaves a lot to be desired when characters like that are only written to be nothing but THAT one "Smart Guy" trait. Being mentally disabled doesn't make it weird I am super smart. As someone who is more on the average side of smarts? I'm just someone who picks up random facts because of my writing, but I wouldn't be able to help you if it came to terms of math though. Plus! A lot of time for this rep, they don't even show the good sides of the autism with it comes to interacting with the world and even the relationships around them.

It even makes me sad to think, while I do love the people I've built friendships with, that some people would get inconvenienced by me wanting to be effective in either communication or just not understand autism is not what we are entirely. We're a person with our own personality. And autism is just something that came along with our physical body; and we have to interact with the world with a body that wasn't build to survive in a loud world.))

56. How important is getting to know a mun when writing with them?

((Super important actually! Not only would you want to get to know me better to learn what could be a potential no-no or yes-yes when it comes to boundaries? Getting to know me as much as I am getting to know you helps me feel me more comfortable when it comes to each of us writing our muses together. I like to learn about a person's muse when I have my muse interacting with them, but it makes the process go a bit smoother when I have an idea of what's going on in their head when I have some friend bonding going down with my mutuals. I WANT to see how our characters might become best friends, worst enemies, or even potential lovers, but it helps to bond with the writer first since building trust there lets me know what a person wants and how I can help make the best out of our writing experiences.))

#ask #anon #ooc #long post cw //

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night-wyld-system · 6 months

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hi uhm i wanted to ask do you know is there like non-traumagenic system? bc i see a lot of traumagenic and I'm just curious and you seem like smart when it comes to systems (sorry for my english it's really weird)

Hey!

This is a thing which really depends on who you ask. I myself am pro--endo meaning I support systems who are not traumagenic and do not come from DID/OSDD (and more) otherwise known as Complex Dissociative Disorders (CDDs). Plurality is a more broad concept having a lot to do with systems but it does get a lot more complex than just that.

Plurality =/= CDDs

CDDs can = Plurality

Not all people with what is considered a system when it comes to CDDs- identify as plural either. Plurality tends to be the experience of being more than one individual. There are a variety of reasons that somebody may come to that conclusion. One of the things that overlaps into it is CDDs- something that is a disability and as such it has spurred a lot of drama and vitriol. There is confusion from a lot of people thinking that endogenic (a sorta subset of non-traumagenics) systems are taking things away from or pretending to be disabled people when they are not. However this is not the case. Plural people of a variety of forms have existed for ages- and not every instance of it is caused by the same thing or is even that similar in how it came about.

I have DID- Dissociative Identity Disorder. As such I have a system of alters. Some others with DID or another form of CDD prefer to call what I call alters "parts" whether that be for the reason of "we're all parts of a whole like individual pieces of glass in a stained window" or because "I am one person these are all parts of me."

The latter reason however gets into why not all people with CDDs identify as plural. Not every single person who has a complex dissociative disorder wants to be seen as multiple people. Some want to eventually work towards final fusion, others in general just do not view themselves as multiple but rather aspects of one person, so on and so forth. These are all also very valid experiences.

I myself see me and my alters as all different people. Now if we were to drill down into my disorder being the origins of my plurality and we took the literal stance instead of allowing room for philosophical interpretations of the self- I am literally physically one human being- I only physically have one brain. As far as legal matters, employment, so on and so forth- my entire system is all one person- and that's very reasonable because we have one body and physically share a brain (also side note not to get too nerdy but science has as of yet been unable to determine where one's consciousness is found- like if it is in the brain or not we don't have solid evidence for it existing. Which is something I find incredibly interesting as I am also deeply intrigued by philosophy and the intersection of philosophy and science is wonderful. so basically- we share a brain in the sense of physicality- but consciousness is an entirely separate concept that has nothing to do with physicality as we know currently.) We are different people because in our case we experience plurality as us all having our own consciousness, our own thoughts, opinions, interests, sense of self, genders, sexualities, and so on.

I myself am supportive of others who don't have a disorder but experience themselves as being multiple people in a way similar to how I do philosophically. This isn't the same as them being a DID system or someone with my disability- but there is general overlap at the very least in terminology.

I know a lot of people get really upset over the idea that people can experience that without the disability and trauma that causes it- however I think those people just sorta... tend to not understand that either a) DID and CDDs in general are not just "alter/multiple identities/multiple personalities disorder" they include that as a small part with the major part being the dissociation and amnesia at varying levels. The disabling part is not me being multiple- the disabling part is not being able to ground and forgetting massively important things as well as comorbidities.

#pro endo #plurality #systems #plural #plural system

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codependencytendencies · 1 year

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This was supposed to be better than the capitalistic b.s. we are sold but it's still pissing me off so I'm gonna scream into the void. Fuck this assessment.

Physical self care

I eat the same thing every day i don't think about it

Who has the fucking money for prevention or medical care

Fashion is overrated bullshit made up by thin ppl who dont even make shit in my fucking size

I'm disabled. I don't do physical activity. I exist and that's enough.

Hot take, it's not my fucking responsibility to constantly try to think positively about myself in a world that tells me they want me dead. I'll be a fucking realist and not lie to myself about shit.

What is it with these pretentious fucks and massages? Noone is fucking touching me and I'm sick of it being so fucking normalized. I will NEVER get a fucking massage and you can't fucking make me.

Psychological self care

Who the fuck has money for vacations? What even is a "day trip"? Driving is exhausting.

What the fuck is "my own personal psychotherapy" even supposed to mean? If it's just a more pretensious way of saying get a therapist, fuck no. I'm not going back to therapy until therapists stop being dicks who gaslight with cbt and work with cops.

The internet is the only place I can interact with other ppl that I don't hate. Taking breaks is harmful.

Who is this written for? How much reading did the creator of this little list think the average person read for work? Bc I don't know anyone who reads for work honestly.

Do you not notice your own thoughts 24/7? How does that even work?

Engage my intelligence... this is one of those ppl who can turn off their brain to watch trash toxic stuff like reality TV isn't it?

Bold of you to assume I'm an expert in anything

This list is so fucking weird. It's like stuff that I don't even think about or stuff that is not helpful at all.

Be curious... this is why I hate so many ppl. If you have to be reminded to be curious I honestly don't understand why you are alive.

Yeah work stays at work but that's just fuck capitalism don't be taken advantage of.

Journaling is such a basic ass thing and after a while it's pointless. I haven't done that since I was like 16. Not to mention it's exhausting. I'm not writing stuff down by hand esp if I'm the only one that's gonna see it. I'll rant out loud in my apartment bc that's at least not a waste of fucking time. Like who even has a thought long enough to write it down like that?

Emotional self care

I.have.no.support.system. that means no fucking ppl to hang out with.

I HAVE NO SUPPORT SYSTEM. Fuck those toxic ppl that gave birth to me and all the fucks related to them. They can go dissolve in the toxic sludge they created.

I am autistic. Rewatching things is kind of required.

Express outrage... ironically that is what I'm doing right now. Again, fuck this assessment

Fuck affirmations. I'm not lying to myself. It's not actually healthy to tell yourself you're a good person. Bc you're not. Nobody is. That's black and white thinking bullshit. I am a person that does good and bad things depending on my capabilities and I know that bc im not a fucking lying allistic that thinks they don't suffer from black and white thinking.

I'm autistic and for me that means i have uncontrollable bouts of crying. There is no allowing myself. Privileged ass person who made this can apparently controlled their crying. How nice for them.

Now here's where the REAL anger starts

Wtf is going on with this whole "spiritual self care" bullshit? Why is it so hard for ppl to grasp that not everyone thinks like them? And they say autistics have a lack of theory of mind.

Causes aren't spiritual. They are opinions and values.

Reflection isn't spiritual, that's just using your fucking brain to analyze yourself, we already covered that, how many reminders do you boring allistic ppl need??

Non material aspects of life? Wtf does that even mean? Am I aware that there are abstract concepts? Yes, social constructs are abstracts, like Religion is a social construct and im not interested, it's boring.

Find spiritual connection or community?? This bullshit is why atheists are so lonely. Yall can't build any community outside religion.

Relationship self care

Partner. No. Fuck that amatonormativity.

Relatives? Fuck those toxic ppl.

What posting on tumblr isn't enough?

Personal correspondence? Did someone forget to upgrade to modern language? Why does this sound like some 19th century person talking about writing a letter to send along the pony express.

There are no people to do things for me. I have been asking for help and there is noone. I hate this fucking state, I have nothing in common with these ppl. There is nothing for me, I don't like any of the things that ppl do here, and they don't have any of the things I like to do.

Literally all I have is my cats, and I had to Pavlov them into loving me.

Workplace self care

Chat with coworkers??? Why the fuck would I want to do that? At best I tolerate ppl enough to do my job. Peers?? There aren't even ppl my own age here. I can go days without talking to anyone at all. support groups at work??? This is some fancy blue state shit isn't it?

Can't balance shit when you don't have shit.

Fuck self care

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wroteclassicaly · 2 years

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I realized that my message was just some scattered explanation for me.. Sometimes my words does not match to what I'm thinking so I never make sense in that way. And I'm verbose with repetitive speech so that is why what I said never make sense to people.

And I will reveal myself eventually, just not right at this moment. I'm anxious around new people.

Back to what we were discussing.

What I meant to say is that creative outlets like art, writing and any other creative hobbies are just how I express myself. I express myself for myself, not for other people. But I would not complain if people did enjoy my work too, if that are really people like that.

Hopefully that makes more sense now.

I'd enjoy stories with original and reader characters, even if it's for reading and writing. I would enjoy any stories with well written characters in every way but I already said that, same with other people too.

And I knew what you meant. I know most people do prefer reader characters over original characters for whichever reasons why have. That's fine either way.

But I also know people also likes to write characters that resemble that person in some way like how any physical or mental traits. Appearances, personality, and even disabilities for them to be more inclusive.

Like you said. People write what they know.. One of the characters you write for are plus sized because, as for yourself, you want more plus sized characters in stories. Like my most obvious physical trait is my size. Not in weight, but in height. Because I am a lot shorter than five feet. Technically, I'm a midget for a lack of a different word since I have always thought terms for dwarfs and midgets were different based on their own heights. But I might be wrong on that. So I've never seen people write for characters that's really short or tall, from what I've noticed anyway.

And I can't fault people for not writing disabilities in ways that don't know about. When it comes to a lot, and a mean a lot, of stories involving disabilities.. I'd mostly see lots of stories about anxiety, depression and maybe ptsd too. Nothing wrong with that. But I never see other disabilities, disorders or conditions. Like for myself.. I have multiple disabilities, physical and mental disabilities. And most people don't even know what disabilities I have until someone tells the person. So my conditions, my battle scars, could be "invisible" to people who never know me personally. Asperger's Syndrome is one of my many conditions that I have, definitely my most prominent disorder I have. In my opinion. Most people never know I have autism until someone tells them, obviously there's a few people who treat me differently when they have found out so I avoid telling people if I can. Autism is one of the diagnoses I actually wanted to write with a character. Depending on the year any stories that takes place for this character, she could really have a complete diagnosis or even just the mannerisms.

Maybe I'll have to reemerge myself in my fandoms again before writing again, so I can have this better understanding for what I might want to write about.

I think it just goes back to most of us not wanting to upset anyone or get anything horribly wrong by writing for something we haven’t experienced, you know? I would never want to assume I can write a disability that I don’t have. The last thing I would want is to hurt anyone! But I think if someone requests specifics or can help give insight into certain things—that would work too! But I say it’s definitely up to you, and it’s a process.

You can have a reader with your disability, but not generalize it by giving them a name or physical traits that are extremely specific, if you wanted to write for an audience that has the same disabilities. Like I said, it’s your preference. ❤️

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