6/26/21 - 8:08 pm || listening to summer thunderstorms

pics from earlier this week feat. a star chart i only bothered with for half a day! two months into my summer break, two months left to go. it’s been a weird time. other than the three times a local friend picked me up for a few hours, and one visit to my grandparents’ house, i haven’t exchanged more than a few words with another human being in person since the end of the semester. i’ve taken to staying up all night and sleeping through the day to stay cool. haven’t been taking my meds... or doing laundry... or much of anything else.

feels like i’m caught in stasis. there’s nowhere i can go from here :-)

2020.08.12 // Day 38

TOPIK 3를 통과할 수 있을까?... Is it going to be worth it in the end?

26.09.2021

September was just a month of mental illness that was silently building up untreated and unforeseen physical health issues. I had 2 psychiatrist appointments and 5 appointments with other doctors and a second covid test done with thankfully turned out to be negative. What I thought to be some real severe PMS turned out to be mild depression that I was trying to dismiss for months. Now I'm hanging on by a thread waiting for my therapy sessions feeling like I'm losing all sense of my original self whatever that was.

Pictured: golden hour light from back when life was good in 2018 ☀️

hello! i was gone for a while because i couldn't balance my life again but yeah here i am fixing it through this quarantine period. above are my notes that i took in the past few months •◡•

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by the way, how are you guys doing? i would love to know!!

le premier bonheur du jour

c'est un ruban de soleil

11th of January, 2021

I wrote this! And now I’m gonna edit it to hand it in ... 90 pages, one new chapter. Wish me success!

So I had a math test through one of those math programs where if you don't type it in exactly how it wants it, it marks it wrong.

The issue is it marked almost all of my answers wrong when they weren't, so now I don't know how to tell my teacher without seeming like a know it all, but at the same time she put the grade it gave me in even though I know I deserve much, much higher.

Advice is heavily appreciated, I'm on the verge of a panic attack.

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09.07.2019 8:20 PM | Finished up my first week of classes and now I'm delving into what is already an impressive pile of homework. No filters, no edits, just the light from my desk lamp and several fatigue-inducing linguistic trees.

~ 9/100 Days of Productivity ~

♫ Weki Meki - Picky Picky

Mood: 2/5

After classes today, I had two hours of dance practice at our gym. I feel like my joints have aged 10 years >.< but I keep adding songs to learn to my list because they look fun and why not?

I had a major headache when I got back to my room though so I fell asleep for three hours, missed dinner, and then did some microbio work. Oh college life...remember to take care of yourselves everyone! Don’t be like me lmao.

2 papers due tomorrow, a quiz, a voice mock jury, a piano lesson. We boutta post up lads.

7:58 pm - 12/17/22 || still relying on against me! for emotional support

as the perpetual plus one to all of my theater kid friends, i have spent almost every waking hour of this finals period holed up in the theater major lounge. somehow managed to crank out a six page psych paper in under twelve hours. still have four pages of spanish essay to write by tomorrow and two zines to make by the next day. and i haven’t even started packing for break.

2020.07.19 // Day 14

I wrote 1270 words today... I hope this will get accepted

studygram: studying.engineering

18.04.2021

Recently been thinking about how it is always drilled into us that we need to be successful, ambitious whether its in terms of academics or career and we are always trying to do more and achieve more. There's nothing wrong with that, if that's what you truly want to be doing.

I wish it was also okay to just enjoy the simple things in life, do an okay job and do more of the things that make you happy, even if it doesn't necessarily make you more 'successful'.

Doing things simply because it brings you joy, not even because you're good at it! Making a bad painting, writing an okay poem, baking a cake or whatever else, simply because you enjoy the process. You get the idea. ☀️

PS. Text in my spreads are taken from tumblr posts that resonate with me 💫

shizuka and her studying adventures

a very calm day

sometimes it's okay to take a break from everything, including yourself.