Little by little we get there, there's very little time in my day for it, but a five minutes lesson here and another there and I'm better at both than I was a few months ago.
Day 2 : Doing as much physics problems as I can. There are still gaps I need to fill in, but I suppose you only flawlessly understand physics if you do tons of questions, so it be. Wasn't expecting to keep up with daily streak but here we are.
Imagine, from 8 May, I can get up after the sun rises, maybe I can wish him hi instead of waiting for him to rise. I can sing songs on the top of my voice and not be admonished for it. (Well maybe if they're bad I might be)
Tomorrow is NEET and I have done a lot I could have and should have.
I have written so many mocks that I know how I will feel during the exam.
I have been through a journey, I have changed for the better and the worse and now after 7 May, it shall be the time to slowly fix myself and be happy.
Maybe by becoming a doctor, I can help others achieve this milestone faster than I have, with less suffering than I have had to undergo.
Wishing all the other aspirants a best of luck and I hope tomorrow is kind to you ✨
Guys. GUYS. You know those posts where everyone assumes Jason's white streak is because of the pit an then he goes "guys wtf I have vitiligo"
There's a VERY good chance that's exactly what it is. Well not exactly. It's probably not vitiligo (the pattern of loss of melanin is usually different in that but can be similar to this). BUT. I was reading my dermat textbook and there's a condition called Piebaldism which causes a characteristic white streak in your hair v similar to the one Jason has.
These are a couple of pictures I found online.
It usually presents at birth because of a specific gene mutation. But I'm guessing the Lazarus pit which literally heals all wounds probably HAS to be working at a molecular/genetic level. So a dip in the green pond could possibly trigger that specific mutation in an already susceptible individual.
Just your local girl who has dark sultry almond eyes and riotous curls who is effortlessly cool and mysterious and smart and loves science and books and has the glossiest fullest lips and sooty long lashes and whom no one knows anything about
ok my thoughts are barely coherent rn my brain is just a puddle of sludge and i have pulled out this thought, but like picture this, a fic where after troy leaves on the boat, abed gets visited by evil abed and evil abed tells him that his timeline (the darkest timeline) was the one where troy leaves to get the pizza and like now that troys gone from the prime timeline whats preventing everything from going to shit and abed from going crazy (only accentuated by the fact that this is happening in his mind and im pretty sure abed is aware of this) and um idk does this make any sense i need help
Instead of recapping what I did today, I want to list out some important things I want to do tomorrow:
Revise Polymers one last time
Inorganic NCERT revise
Physical Chemistry 12th formulae revise
Bio NCERT go through (this will take a lot of time, like 5 hours or so. But I shall get it done)
Physics formulae revise
Paste photos on admit card
Mentally prepare myself for the process that leads me to the exam and then mentally consolidate myself for the exam itself
I have worked hard these past 9 months. I had fun with all I was given sometimes. I am smart and I have learnt more than what the textbooks had in them printed. Aaaand I'm turning into SRK in chak de india.
In light of my #NoZeroDays promise I didn't want to let this day go "unproductive". I have been struggling with untying my self-worth with my productivity level. And hence by extension to my PhD progress. I feel so guilty that I didn't work on my PhD at all. But I just couldn't get myself to work - It's something I've been struggling for the past few weeks. So I decided to be productive in a different way: art.
Productivity is not just academic work. Productivity shouldn't mean working full 8 hours on your PhD. You don't have to be 'productive' when you are sick. Taking rest is not unproductive. Indulging in a hobby is not unproductive. Moving slowly is not unproductive.
-- this is something I told myself today. I don't know if I fully believe when I say this, but I want to ❤️
About today
Still sick. I was so tired and demotivated today. Couldn't sleep early last night and so the day began at noon today
Lunch and dinner with friends
Completed a painting that I was postponing since september. It's called A sunset at the sunflowers' 🌻
Started a new painting, which is at 80% completion. (it's in the picture)
I hope tomorrow will be better and I want to be able to stick to my plan🤞🏼