GAME SESSION 3 RECAP
i took 2 days off bc day 1 i was super ultra mega tired, and yesterday i was in a lot of pain. BUT WE’RE BACK AT IT TODAY
i watched some of the retro replay playthrough w troy and nolan ft. various guests and getting an insight on this game makes it even more meaningful than it already is.
of course, spoilers for both the games and the hbo series below!!
hours played: around 8 hours? less breaks this time
ALRIGHT SO
kickin’ it off in the financial district!
these hunter trucks fucking SUCK
HENRY AND SAM!!!! YYEEEESSSSS
joel was beatin the shit out of him dude goddamn
this must be nice for ellie to finally have someone around her own age to interact with other than grumpy man joel
i also like how joel is taking up the rear now. the adults are on the outside while to kids are on the inside. cool lil details man
SHIV DOOR!! and it’s a whole apartment?? fuck yea
i’ve been meaning to mention this but i like that you can hear joel breathing. it’s a great way to add to the immersion and a little look in on what joel’s feeling. awesome awesome details
UGH sam just wants to be a kid dude :( i feel bad i wanna take the toy to give to him later. but henry’s right about only taking what you have to
OH MY GOD THERE’S AN UNCHARTED BOARD GAME IN HERE!! AND JAK AND DAXTER!!
omg there’s one that’s called the turning and it looks like ellie is on the front of it w another girl. i totally forget what her name is but i think it’s alluding to the left behind dlc?
STOP ELLIE WAKING JOEL UP🥺
OH MY GOD THEY’RE LEAVING??
STOP ELLIE “we stick together” AAHHHH🥺🥺🥺
“did you just see me?” “don’t let it go to your head. let it get to theirs” KAHSKSHAKSV
the way that she trusts him to keep her afloat!! they’ve come so far already!!
“hey you” 🥺
“he saved me too” after ELLIE says that, then he eases up. HOLY FUUUCK DUDE 🥲
only after she says that THEN he reconsiders what he was about to do. fuckin hell man the writing and the acting is AMAZING
i’m glad to be outside of a city again. they stress me tf out.
ISH!! i’ve been waiting to find his stuff!
omg ellie whistling “sounds like a spaceship! i don’t even know what a spaceship sounds like” i LOVE HER
ish was hella smart tho choosing to live out on a boat for a while. then living in the sewers lmao. “i’m gonna be a sewer mole-man”
alright took a dinner break before pressing forward :)
i don’t like the sound of these clickers behind the door. knowing my luck i’ll have to deal with them
this area made by, i’m assuming, ish is so cute!! ellie and sam being kids for a little moment! so sweet!
the world is so rich with story dude. the notes i keep finding down here, specifically kyle’s note? goddamn. and what’s under the tarp? heartbreaking dude. “jesus” is right joel. fuck
uh oh spaghetti-o’s!! we got seperated! the way that joel TOWERS over sam is kinda funny to me tho
listen i was horrible w a bow but now i kinda love it not gonna lie
THE WARNING ON THE OTHER SIDE💀
these quiet moments between are really nice. the dialogue is always super interesting
DOGS!!
this house was DEFINITELY a bachelor pad bro. the neon cocktail sign above the kitchen? the dartboard? the decor? definitely a bachelor pad
also sam and ellie playing darts was super cute
YUHHH BRINGIN SAM AND HENRY W US TO TOMMY’S WOOO
wyoming??? and we’re only in PA???? goddamn we got a WAYS to go
skip ohio tho it’s cursed
JOKE BOOK TIME!!!
bro they don’t get the pizza joke?? they’ve never had pizza?? THESE POOR KIDS
oh shit sam’s got jokes too!! fuck yea!!
kids bein kids man this is what they need.
god this is so pretty
that sniper scared the fucking shit outta me
ellie telling joel to be careful🥺
oh my god the horde coming in was INTENSE
it’s nice to see joel lettin loose a bit sharing stories w henry and ellie :)
i have ellie to thank for that mefinks
“i’m scared of ending up alone” UUUGGHHH ELLIE I WANNA HUG YOU
i do remember what happens here, which hits different when sam talks about how the people might be trapped inside of the virus, conscious but not able to control themselves. saying he’s scared that it’ll happen to him
kids shouldn’t have to have philosophical conversations like this dude it’s really sad to see
I FUCKIN KNEW ELLIE PICKED THAT TOY UP WHEN I DIDN’T SEE IT ON THE FLOOR
i was gonna say that i wish they put some kind of music in the back when we’re shown sam’s bite, but the silence makes it more impactful
uh oh. it’s too domestic in here something bad is gonna happen like i dunno maybe SAM MIGHT BE DEAD OR ALMOST TURNED??
oh fuck no i didn’t wanna be right why he doin that no no no
oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck
BOTH OF THEM?? UUUUUUGH FUCKIN A DUDE
henry actually seemed happy last night :(
and the way joel looked afterward? god fucking damnit dude.
and the music?? i- 🫠😥
this game is basically teaching me to never get attached to characters ever
FALL??
that’s quite the fuckin jump dude
JACKSON?? yuh yuh yuh
i didn’t know that they introduced jackson in the first game!
the environment here is really pretty. the trees and the mountains in the back? very peaceful
new clothes for the duo very niiice
“i don’t know what i’m feelin” i could not imagine bro joel and tommy might be completely different fucking people than when they last saw each other
“i believe his last words to me were i don’t ever wanna see your god damned face again” your honor, they are brothers
and the way joel is kinda gettin in digs at tommy when he’s explaining what happened to ellie saying that he’s a quitter lmao
i also noticed that ellie is closer behind joel and that she’s progressively gotten closer to him as the story has progressed. THE LITTLE DETAILS MAN UGH
this shit is gonna look GORGEOUS when the remake comes out
i wish i had a ps5 dude ugh
“i know. step on the fucking palette” i love that even she’s annoyed lmao
“be careful crossing that thing” “i will” such father daughter stuff right here
SHUT THE HELL UP THE HIGH FIVE??? 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
“that’s too small of a grave” :(
i know joel is trying to teach ellie to not get attached and to not ruminate on things for so long, but i feel like she needs to be able to talk about it even just a little bit dude. she said she wants to talk about it but joel immediately shot it down and just wants to move on. UGH joel stop being so dad rn
them talking about finding something to eat ugh so father daughter bro 🥲
TOMMY!!!!!
STOP I’M GONNA CRYYYYYY
HORSES!! YESSSSSS I CAN PAT THE HORSE!!
it’s like i’m playin red dead now LMAO
ellie doesn’t want joel to leave her🥺
TOMMY GOT THE PICTURE OF JOEL AND SARAH😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
“i’m good” WHAT??? the way that i gasped SO LOUD
the way that i’m literally crying over a picture of a fictional father and daughter and the father of said daughter is like “i’m good” JOEL WHAT?
AND DOGS??? BUCKLEY??
buckley we are bffs. i have declared so as i have pat you on your cute lil head
i really am playin red dead now lmao
i don’t like that there’s cover boxes and bottles laying about
joel’s makin it sound like just tommy is gonna take her out west. if ellie doesn’t like going to eat with maria without joel, i have a feeling that she’s simply not going to go out west without him.
bro joel sounds like he wants to get rid of ellie. i do not like this
🚨FAMILY FEUD🚨
oh shit there’s actual alarms now
the camera angle during the scene after the bandit raid where ellie is explaining everything at turbo speeds while joel is trying to check on her is SO GOOD
it’s like tommy and maria are watching them and noticing their relationship and that they care about each other.
AGAIN THE MUSIC??? KAHAKSHOABDOSH
“what’s that all about?” oh ellie… ellie ellie ellie
maria’s right though. and she has every right to be angry. tommy has way more on the line than joel does
“here we go” LMAOO
“it’s best this way” is it bc joel knows he won’t be able to let her go? he can’t deal with the pain so he wants to cut it off before it goes any deeper? UGH idk dude i’m just so emotional rn
ellie knew something was gonna happen bro. SHE wanted to leave before anyone could leave her. UUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGHHHHH
now i’m REALLY playing red dead lmao it feels weird not tapping X at all
“i don’t know what’s goin on” JOEL YOU KNOW EXACTLY WHAT’S UP
THE MUSIIIIICCCCCCCCUUUHHHHH
i just used like all my fucking ammo… FUCK
i think the song that’s playing is called “the choice”???
uh ooohhhhh here comes the scene about ellie not being joel’s daughter 🫠
THE URGENCY IN HIS VOICE
THE WORRY
WHEN HE’S CALLING FOR ELLIE STOP
i found a comic upstairs and he said “another comic of her’s” I AM SCREAMIINNNGGGG
the hesitancy when she told him to admit that he wanted to get rid of her
and then he just changes the subject
is joel worried that he’s not enough to protect her?? is that what’s happening here?? “i trust him more than i trust myself” joel you’ve broght this girl from boston to wyoming what do you MEAN bro
the way he shifts everytime sarah is mentioned 🥺
i’m gonna start fucking crying again
JOEL.
J O E L.
“i sure as hell ain’t your dad. we are going our seperate ways” JOOOEEEELLLLLL
and ellie staring at the floor leaning up against the dresser :(
god the look on their faces during the ride back to jackson. joel looks guilty and ellie looks so fucking sad
“eh. you know me my mind’s all made up” i’m genuinely fucking crying right now why like i-
now i’m thinking about the bts of pedro and bella on the horse at the university!! YUUH
“you good?” “i’m good” BC THEY’RE GONNA STAY TOGETHER YYEEESSSS SLAYYY
i get why the choice was playing lmao
THE HOUR!! YEESSS! i really like this one :)
AWE joel explaining football to ellie 🥺
JACKETED JOEL YESSSSSS
i’m like super emotional rn i don’t understand
callus hahaha
this just feels comfy. fall. layers. the colors. the horse. the apocalypse. KIDDING. but yea everything else feels cozy
FLAMETHROWER!
ellie holding on to joel is so fuckin cute
“watch yourself” “you too” i’m so proud of how far they’ve come
alright i stopped before dropping into spores bc i am tired and in pain lmao i don’t feel like dealing w more infected rn
all in all, HOLY FUCKING SHIT. lots of emotions this time. lots of tears. lots of sweat. very very emotional.
idk it feels like a privilege to play this game to me? maybe that’s why i waited 9 years to play it? which i’m glad that i did bc my love for storytelling and my eye for certain things has grown a lot over the past year, and i feel like i can enjoy the experience of the game more.
i also feel like i’m more mature enough to play it now? it always scared me to play, which it still does, but i feel like i’m more equipped to handle the subject matters and the material.
i know that i still have a lot of emotional turmoil to get through, so i will save it for tomorrow!
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The worst part of it all, if you don't take into account the hollowing feeling that threatens to eat you alive from the insides, the fear, paralyzing as anything, of not being able to function properly ever again, the idea of you doing the basics every day, powered by muscle memory alone because you have to eat and you have to breathe in a world that doesn't give a shit about anything and keeps going, it's when you don't even have a body to bury. And how can anyone mourn an angel, anyway?
When Cas died, he took everything that was beautiful and worth living for with him leaving behind only memories of touches, and comfort an protection and the painful realization that sometimes home can, also, be a person. All the things that Dean, damn coward he is, always took for granted.
He finds the house by the lake he (still) dreams of sometimes, one day he's aimlessly driving, alone, always alone those days, when Sam is far away living the life he always wanted for both of them. The construction is sturdy and well-kept despite the obvious state of abandonment. It looks like a nice place to start over again, whatever that means now.
Next to a big tree that still smells of rain Dean buries his jacket, the one with Cas's handprint on it, because he doesn't have anything else and thinks Cas might have liked it. Dean doesn't know how it feelt to be in The Garden of Eden before everything happened, but he wants to thinks it looked a lot like this, to be able to rest under a sky full of stars.
He doesn't notice the tiny flower that appears over Cas's grave at first, because after only a month there there's still a lot to do but once he does he can't simply stop staring at it. It's small and blue and a species he doesn't recognize. Not that he knows a lot about flowers but he's learning. Maybe it doesn't means anything, probably it doesn't means anything, but he prefers to think that Cas's memory, the physical imprint of an angel existence on Earth, has helped to grow a new life. So he starts taking a bit of his time to talk to the tiny flower everyday. Most of the time is nothing of importance, short trips to the nearest town to buy supplies he needs, a new idea he want to implements in the upper floor of the cabin, but some things are small and life-changing on their own, because in the folks in the town have started calling him by his first name, and he has an 'usual' when he appears at the local coffee shop and the old woman that owns the bakery uses him as her guinea pig when she bakes a new pie.
Time goes and the flower grows and the pressure around his chest is less constricting even if it doesn't disappear completely and probably never will but Dean's fine with it. It's a proof that he's still alive and kicking and that Cas, in his own way, changed him too.
One day the flower is gone and there's a familiar silhouette standing in front of the lake. Fifty-years old-knees from a life hunting can hurt like hell when Dean sprints toward a man that can be real or can be just his imagination playing tricks on him but the blue in his eyes when he turns over and call Dean's name in that soft voice of his, looks like the blue of the flower that Dean nurtured with patience and love for months. It looks a lot like happiness. It looks a lot like hope. 🌿
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