sitting here thinking of you

wishing you were here with me

i know you are not coming back

but i still wish you were

have so many things i want to tell you

feeling alone and sinking in my misery

screaming my heart out

hoping you can hear me

- N.R.K.

i don't like the way

life looks without you:

too soft, too rounded

too empty-handed.

i miss the corners and curiosities

and sharp-hooded eyes

i miss misunderstandings,

the yearning goodbyes

"It's doom without you, so says the ocean to the moon.."

It's doom without you lover, there couldn't be any other - eUë

You were my world

I still love you everyday

I am returning to a place that has become home. And the person I want to see the most won’t be there.

"Nie mehr die Magersüchtige, stumme Mitte der Masse (Nein!)" - Casper / Unvergesslich

It’s the little things that are killing me the most, like how I have nobody to send funny things to and nobody to say goodnight to anymore.

S //

A story of everyone in 21st century

Zindagi ke is safar mein

Hum sabhi tanha hi toh h

In raaston ki tarah ,

Har mod pe mudne ka intazar kr rhe h

Thokar kha ke sambhal jaana ,ab zindagi ka rutba sa h .

Har nukad aur chauhare ki tarah pareshaniyon ka mela hi toh h

Par jaise raaste kbhi nhi rukte

Zindagi ki salwate bhi Kahan rukti h ..

Pr zindagi ko jeena h kuch mithi yaadon ke sahare ,kuch khate iradon ke sahare kuch kadwi sikh ke sahare........

Today I made the tough decision to delete all your pictures

I think I have hung on to them far too long

Causing me pain every time I looked at them

Memories I wish I could erase

But with no pictures to look back to

At least it will ease of some of the aches in my heart

I know my heart will never be whole again

But I can try to salvage some of the broken pieces

To move on without you and live my life

- N.R.K.

Wen KeXing&Zhou ZiShu's Journey | A life without you [SPOILERS]

One of my biggest nitpicks in fiction concerns the feeding of babies. Mothers dying during/shortly after childbirth or the baby being separated form the mother shortly after birth is pretty common in fiction. It is/was also common enough in real life, which is why I think a lot of writers/readers don't think too hard about this. however. Historically, the only reason the vast majority of babies survived being separated from their mother was because there was at least one other woman around to breastfeed them. Before modern formula, yes, people did use other substitutes, but they were rarely, if ever, nutritionally sufficient.

Newborns can't eat adult food. They can't really survive on animal milk. If your story takes place in a world before/without formula, a baby separated from its mother is going to either be nursed by someone else, or starve.

It doesn't have to be a huge plot point, but idk at least don't explicitly describe the situation as excluding the possibility of a wetnurse. "The father or the great grandmother or the neighbor man or the older sibling took and raised the baby completely alone in a cave for a year." Nope. That baby is dead I'm sorry. "The baby was kidnapped shortly after birth by a wizard and hidden away in a secret tower" um quick question was the wizard lactating? "The mother refused to see or touch her child after birth so the baby was left to the care of the ailing grandfather" the grandfather who made the necessary arrangements with women in the neighborhood, right? right? OR THAT GREAT OFFENDER "A newborn baby was left on the doorstep and they brought it in and took care of it no issues" What Are You Going to Feed That Baby. Hello?

Like. It's not impossible, but arrangements are going to have to be made. There are some logistics.

"Does it rain honey in your veins?? Cause you are so sweet to me that it must, trust that I love you just cause without fuss and lots of simple bliss.. I couldn't go through this life without your lips to kiss."

Raining honey is sweet like a meteor shower of kisses - eUë

so my younger cousin is flying in to visit from brazil on sunday, and will be staying here for like, the entirety of july. which, don't get me wrong, is super cool! i love the kid! but it felt like a super weird move, considering his parents are the SUPER strict and borderline helicopter parents. even the smallest prank/roughousing with him/his little sister would lead to a strict talking to from his parents, he couldn't ever do anything without their clear permission, that sort of stuff. so letting him fly at alone at 16 to a whole different country and stay there for a whole month seemed WILDLY out of character. additionally, it just felt like a super last-minute trip. it's not like we have any plans to do when he gets here, and the flight itself and stuff only got booked like, midway through june.

and i was talking to my mom about it, kind of trying to nudge some answers out of her, and after a while she went, "yeah, i think they're sending him over here to get away for his boyfriend. see if the distance breaks them off." which, first of all, surprised me because last i checked, they didn't KNOW he had a boyfriend. literally everyone in the family did EXCEPT for them because while that entire side of the family being semi-conservative, his parents (mostly his dad) are EXTREMELY old-fashioned. so clearly something already went wrong. and considering the only reason the rest of the family knew is because one person found out and it spread like wildfire, i have a sneaking suspicion he wasn't the one to tell them, either.

and second of all. they're sending him HERE. to try to make him forget his homosexuality. i couldn't do anything but just wordlessly gesture to the multiple pride flags scattered around my room, then to myself, because really? he has like two other cousins in the us and they're sending him to me? honey i am about to introduce this kid to queer scenes you have never even heard of. he'll be returning home with labels only shrimp can perceive