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denimnan · 12 days

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when i stop talking

don’t ask me why

been hurt too many times

i am just exhausted

for always being blamed

i will just be silent now

- N.R.K.

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denimnan · 12 days

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feels like i am continuously being stabbed

yet here i am with all my wounds hidden

some wounds have left me with deep scars

but yet i keep fighting on to stay alive

mentally i have died a million times

physically i am just tired of being stabbed over and over

can it all just stop?

- N.R.K.

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denimnan · 17 days

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sitting here thinking of you

wishing you were here with me

i know you are not coming back

but i still wish you were

have so many things i want to tell you

feeling alone and sinking in my misery

screaming my heart out

hoping you can hear me

- N.R.K.

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denimnan · 27 days

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something that i wrote during my teenage years which is almost 28 years ago…

not the first and not the last

yet i ask myself why

when will it end

is it me or is it them

if it's me then i have to change

but why do i have to change

it could be them

why can't they change

i had gain much strength

where has it gone to

leaving me so soft

what has happened to me

not aware of what's happening around me

would i be able to go far

high up into the sky of hope

why can't i get the love i desire

how much i want to be loved

but why is there no one to show me

i have lost hope

can i ever hope for a miracle

all get so much attention

why can't i get that sort of attention

i only want to be loved

do i have to die to get this love

i have sacrificed so many things

yet why can't any one look at me

no one knows how much i long for happiness

but who would understand

- N.R.K.

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denimnan · 1 month

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i don't know how to continue to fight

when i have reached my limit

i don't want to give up

but i am tired of this endless battles

i keep fighting and trying to come out of it

but i am getting hurt over and over again

now i don't even feel the pain as i am so numb

the thought of giving up is always there

but i don't want to have to fight for myself

even when i am dead

- N.R.K.

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denimnan · 1 month

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being medically unwell and voicing out about it

if that is wrong then how do you expect the person to feel

instead you blame the person for having issues

but have you tried to put yourself in the position of that person

to know what the person is going through emotionally and mentally

the person does not find joy in how they feel

if you can’t sympathise with them

the least you can do is not say anything

sometimes saying nothing and just being there is enough

instead you do things to hurt the person even more

making them feel worse than the way they are already feeling

when they shut down and stop confiding in you or sharing things with you

again you blame them for having issue and for being secretive

so what are you wanting from the person at the end of the day

maybe you just feel the need to feel superior than them

or you find happiness at their pain

- N.R.K.

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denimnan · 3 months

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what was i thinking

left one hole

only to end up in another

no longer have any feelings

for the real me is lost

- N.R.K.

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denimnan · 6 months

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at the rate my life is going

i don’t even know

how long i can go on

continuously doubting myself

all the things people have said

in the past and present

are running on my mind

feeling sick to my core

- N.R.K.

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denimnan · 6 months

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people who don’t know me personally

treat with me such animosity

i really wonder why

what have i done

to deserve such unfairness

I don’t understand

why life has to be such

try not to let any of this affect me

but at times it gets too hard

at the end i am only human

i have feelings

this hurts

- N.R.K.

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denimnan · 6 months

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having deleted your pictures

thought i will be strong enough to not think of you

but memories of you just won't leave me

it's so hard to shut them out

i don't want to feel this helplessness

why can't you just leave my mind

instead of staying there all the time

leaving me paralyzed with your thoughts

- N.R.K.

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denimnan · 7 months

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Today I made the tough decision to delete all your pictures

I think I have hung on to them far too long

Causing me pain every time I looked at them

Memories I wish I could erase

But with no pictures to look back to

At least it will ease of some of the aches in my heart

I know my heart will never be whole again

But I can try to salvage some of the broken pieces

To move on without you and live my life

- N.R.K.

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denimnan · 7 months

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if i am being honest to myself

i still think of you all the time

i cherish every moment we had

i have so much to say to you

but i just don't have the words for you

for reality is that i am doing better without you

- N.R.K.

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denimnan · 7 months

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i had never thought that fate will bring us to this day

whether it was your fault or mine

whether it was my stubbornness or yours

i had given you my heart and would have given you my life

but just tell me, what did you gain by giving me these deep wounds

life has made such a twist that i never knew this will happen

now there is nothing to hide

my wounds are starting to become visible

no matter what i do i can't hide them

why did you have to leave me wounded

- N.R.K.

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denimnan · 8 months

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how do i live without you

my days and nights pass by

with me thinking of you

i don't want to live

without you anymore

- N.R.K.

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denimnan · 9 months

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though we are apart

you are still within me

you always come into my eyes as tears

as it is i am alive without you

but all i have is pain in my heart

it has become difficult for me to breath

it has become a habit for me to live like this

- N.R.K.

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denimnan · 9 months

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she has feelings too

will no one ever stop to think of that

they just say what they want

they just accuse of her things

why can't people stop to think

before they say things

that leave scars on her forever

- N.R.K.

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denimnan · 9 months

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as more time passes

she has doubts

if she is really

mentally unstable

she has been called

so many different names

so many different things

but is that who she really is

maybe no one knows

maybe no one tried

to even get to know her

just assumed the worst of her

she feels helpless

tired of fighting everyone

maybe like all say

she is the problem

- N.R.K.

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