YALL DONT GET IT.

Newt died for the better. He died thinking Teresa was better than him for Thomas. He died thinking Minho was a better friend for Thomas.

He died thinking he wasnt anything to the person that meant everything to him.

He died because he wanted to be better.

"Love is dead"

Acrylic painting on canvas

Size 80x75 cm

2021

YOURE TELLING ME

THAT IMPULSE BLEW UP BDUBS

GRIAN STABBED SCAR IN THE BACK

AND THAT SCOTT SLICED PEARL

THEY PERMAKILLED THEIR EX SOULMATES

I AM SHAKING

Love is dead but im thousands of worms that will feed on its corpse

have you ever felt mad at your heart for being too naive and trusting every soul you come across, but at the same time been so mad with your brain for being riddled with trust issues and overthinking every word that's said? so like all in all, you just don't know what to believe and are in constant conflict?

— because i have, i do, and lord, do i hate it all

The Bones of What You Believe (2013) 

Every Open Eye (2015)

Love Is Dead (2018)

Screen Violence (2021)

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DAY 28 OF DRAWING PONK UNTIL SHES ADDED TO THE QSMP

day 4 of ponktober: Love (is dead)

love is the strongest drug

I was always warned about the drugs traded on the street but never the addiction walking towards me with blue eyes and a heartbeat.

~worst feeling~

when you wake up

remembering

what you went to bed

to forget about

~~~

so give them your body, give them your word, give them anything—anything to make them stay—to make them love you, at least for a day. because the words, albeit hollow and insincere, are better than nothing at all, right?

˜”*°•.˜”*°• “ is this real? “ •°*”˜.•°*”˜

DID SNOW AND LUCY GRAY LOVE EACH OTHER?

I think his famous quote explains it all really ‘It’s the things we love that destroys us the most’ Notice how he uses the word ‘THINGS’ instead of ‘PEOPLE’ I think this is how Snow’s mentality has been since he was younger. Being born in the Dark Ages wasn’t easy for anyone: especially a small child in a dysfunctional family (refer to Tigris talking about Coryo’s father and Coryo stating how his mother died) He was raised in a hostile environment and was taught emotion is weakness. Having any attachment to people was weak (assuming the quote was said after the events between him and Lucy Gray) That ‘thing’ was that he couldn’t control her and more so, she held more power over him then he did her and it destroyed him.

They may have loved each other but this by no means was a healthy form of love (mostly contributed to the way they were raised/the circumstances of how they met) He loved the fact he could own her, control and claim her as his. The matter of the fact is pretty simple if you ask me: As we saw throughout the book, his thrust for power was small but evident at the beginning and grew as the story unfolded. Snow became obsessed with it and even spiralled out of control in the end. The simple answer is he prioritised it over everyone, even the woman he loved and it destroyed him.

I think the difference between the book and movie is due to the inner monologues in the book and if you only watched the movie (eliminating the extra context provided by the book) their love seemed healthier (as healthily as you can get for this series) But with the extra context of the book, showing what kind of person snow is: you see him for who he really is. The comparison reminds me of a celebrity’s self-directed documentary versing the exposé written about them (really bad metaphor but bear with me) Many of his inner thoughts are down right inhumane, helping Suzanne Collins further reflect the purpose of the book; Snow is never a good person but the world around him truly makes him the monster he becomes later in life. He developed this obsession with her due to this mentality and as her actions reflect, I don’t think she had that same connection. At best, she had more of a crush that was later shattered due to their unhealthy dynamic and Snow’s actions. At worst, Snow was simply a rebound for Billy and due to their circumstances when they meet; it was disguised as love, causing Snow’s paranoia to kick in and destroy what he thought they had.

I feel like he also saw her as somebody below him (her being Covey/district and him being Capital/son of the former president) He would always disconnect the idea of Lucy being District due to the Capital’s long time prejudice and he wouldn’t be doing that if he didn’t have those strong feelings for her. He always looked at people as how he can benefit from them (even his own family) and he saw many benefits from her but once she was no longer of use; and even seen as a threat, he saw her as a loose end. If they haven’t had so much emotional baggage that affected Snow’s mentality (obsession with power mostly among other things) they could have been happy for at least longer than they were (even if they weren’t endgame)

People who think Coryo and Lucy Gray didn’t love each other need to realise that love doesn’t have to be healthy to experience it. Love can be toxic and messy and can fuck you up real good. That’s just the part of to have love and lost. What he basically says in his quote, love can destroy you. His love for her wasn’t innocent and perfect but it was there. In the end he just loved himself more. You don’t spend 60+ years being haunted by someone you didn’t genuinely love. You also don’t marry someone you hate so that love can never make you feel weakness again. You don’t try to remove every reminder of them, you don’t and make the world forget them if you weren’t affected by them. And that’s the beauty of it all, the book shows love can come in different forms (no matter how dark and bad it may be at times) it’s shows everyone has their own story (the shift of perspectives between the Capital and the Rebels throughout books) The only people who can’t see or accept this are either too stupid or have no done their research.

JESUS CHRIST I TYPED A LOT sorry it’s like almost 1am and I have nothing better to do than ramble about these two cutie patooties. I need sleep but I need this movie on Netflix more. My brain isn’t braining properly so apologies for any mistakes. I am open to debates but I will admit, I never stop arguing so if u wanna debate lmk. If you want more 2am rants about this series, I can rant for years non-stop. Will I edit to add more babbles when I think of them? Yes but who cares

Anyways logging off I need sleep

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