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pls help... i--- also the spacing is weird and I don’t know how to fix it >:<

discord mod! eren x twitch streamer! fem! reader x donator! armin

warnings: dubcon, manipulation, eren is kind of an incel, parasocial relationship with armin, toxic relationship with eren, eren is kind of the readers pimp, cussing, reader is called dumb a lot, webcam sex, fingering, m!masterbation, use of drugs (alcohol), singular mention of breeding and oral, bimbo! reader, overly trusting! reader, threesome (sort of), dom! eren, sub! reader, switch(?) armin, half edited, nothing too bad i dont think, please let me know if i missed anything!

dark content warning, pls be 18+ to read

Discord Moderator! Eren who found you when you first started streaming. He reached out first, of course, becoming one of the prominent voices in your chat. He found your personal socials, reaching out to you under the guise of helping you out with your account. He knew all the ins and outs that you simply weren’t aware of. He introduced you to discord, taught you how to set up your own server so you could interact with fans. He was such a gentleman too! Didn’t make you feel dumb at all when you were confused about something! He simply just helped you.

Or rather, maybe, he used your inexperience- your innocence against you.

Who could tell? You were too kind, looking past all of his weird remarks about your body. His creepy comments were probably just jokes anyway! This was probably just how friends talked to each other! You could trust him. You thought you could at least. Convinced yourself you could.

Of course, when you started to get more popular, and everything became too overwhelming he offered to become your moderator! He could help you with everything. You trusted him enough at that point either way. You were starting to feel like he was really your friend. It made you ecstatic! You could only imagine how hard it would be to make friends online, but you had Eren to help guide you the whole way. He was such a great guy.

You listened when he told you not to respond to the other streamers that reached out to you. They were just out for you, to use you. He would never use you. He cared about you. Of course he did.

He made you believe so, anyway, and that’s all that was really needed.

He had already caught the pretty little butterfly in his web, all he needed to do now was to make sure he was the only one to get to devour you for dinner. It was all you were really good for anyway, a cute little piece ass that was for him and him alone.

No one else.

Or so he thought, at least.

But that’s when something- someone decided to show up. Someone he wasn’t sure what to do with. He always knew what to do with people- you especially. How to get what he wanted out of them, but this guy... this guy was strange. Someone he could never understand. His ideals were too far out of reach for Eren’s scope of knowledge.

He had a boring name, just a bunch of letters and numbers. They tuned into your stream every night without fail. He never said anything in the chat, but his donations… they were… insane, really. Stream after stream it was hundreds, maybe thousands of dollars. The only times he actually said anything were to ask you about your personality, things you cared about, the occasional how was your day. Like he actually wanted to get to know you.

How could anyone actually give a shit about that?

Eren, your oh so loyal moderator, had no clue. As far as Eren was concerned you were only a pretty little doll for the world to look at. No one really gave a shit about anything other than how cute you were, how hot you looked on stream, how much your tits were out. As far as he was concerned your personality didn’t matter. It didn’t to him. So why did it to one random fucking simp in your chat?

One thing was clear to him though, he was going to milk this son of a bitch for all he was worth.

It started out simple, convincing you that having a private chat in your discord with the two of them just made sense! He was practically your sugar daddy; it would be helpful to get to know him better so he might donate to you more. When you told Eren that just felt icky to you, he brushed you off. Said that he knew better and to just trust him.

He couldn’t believe you were stupid enough to listen.

But then again, you were stupid enough to trust him already.

But maybe that’s why your fans loved you so much.

You were just plain dumb.

The conversations started simple enough… but eventually Eren moved to voice chatting, then private video game streams just for your top donator. All of course for a price. One that you didn’t know about. Behind the scenes Eren orchestrated everything. Your anonymous donator would send him money directly in order to have private chats with you, all while Eren pocketed everything behind the scenes.

When Eren first messaged Armin about the idea Armin was… nervous to say the least. He had never planned to get closer to you. He didn’t even really mean to find you! He was just bored after work one day, scrolling through his laptop when he found a link to one of your streams. It was pure curiosity and boredom that drove him to click it. The monotony of his daily life had been slowly wearing him down, but when you appeared on his screen so bright eyed and bushy tailed, he couldn’t help but become enamored.

Just your presence breathed the life back into him that he thought he had lost. He understood perfectly why so many people watched you. You were amazing. Too perfect for him, too perfect for this hellish world.

It wasn’t until he got drunk one night that he sent you his first donation. He was being pessimistic in the moment, existential about everything really. Why did anything matter, why were people so scared of death. So he asked you what your biggest fear was, the alcohol fueling his confidence in the moment. He remembered your answer like you just said it yesterday. He didn’t know how but through that one interaction made you made him feel like the only man that existed. The only one that truly mattered. Any depressing thoughts washed out of him just like that.

You had him hooked.

He had the money to spare, might as well spend it on something he cared about. Something that kept him happy. Something that kept him moving forward. The chats, the private streams, the donations had all been just so he could support you in the same way you had supported him. He didn’t mind.

That’s how he ended up in this situation. A message in his inbox asking if he wanted a private show. Webcams on both ends.

He was going to agree, he had to. It made him anxious to no end, but this was practically everything he could have wanted. The chance to talk to you face to face, to thank you for everything you’ve done for him. He knew he was slightly deluded to think anything would come from it, but he knew he just wanted to see you.

He would have to buy a nicer webcam. He wanted you to think well of him, even if it was just for a few minutes.

When the day finally came, he was a complete nervous wreck. He didn’t sleep at all the night before, but he tried to look his best. He wore one of his nice button downs and a pair of slacks. He got his hair done professionally and even wore cologne. He had no clue why; it wasn’t like you would actually see that much of him anyway. But alas, he sat by his laptop waiting for the call of his lifetime.

Yet, when it finally did connect, he was astonished- didn’t know what to think.

No one would if they were in the situation he was in.

Because there you were, sitting on who he could only presume to be your moderator, Eren’s lap in nothing but a sweater, your underwear, and thigh high socks. Your legs were spread wide as Eren slowly circled around your poor little clit with his fingers, eliciting the cutest little whimpers from you.

What was this? What was going on? What were you doing?

He gasped out your name, making your head turn towards the screen. Your face was flushed; you looked like a little bitch in heat, finger in your mouth trying to stop you from moaning. His pants quickly became much to tight; much too uncomfortable. He was shocked, nervous, had no clue what to do in the situation; but his eyes refused to leave the screen. This was something that could only happen in his dreams- literally.

He wasn’t processing things correctly, how could he be? He had no clue this was what the call was going to be like! This didn’t feel right, none of it did. But then he heard you moan. Your gorgeous little moan.

Suddenly things felt a lot more right.

Eren chuckled at your little display; it was cute. Both how you and Armin reacted. At least now Eren could prove to Armin, prove to the both of you that you were his to fuck. His to have, no one else’s. You were his whole to use as he pleased, and Armin would never have it. Poor little him, at least he would get a show out of it right?

It was time to get to the main event.

Soon he pushed your cute little pair of underwear to the side. It wasn’t even covering much at that point; your little cunt had already soaked most of it through. You were so sloppy, a lot more than Eren had expected. He that was okay, just meant it would be easier to fuck some sense into you. Maybe that was for another time.

You tried to shut your legs so the blonde couldn’t see; this was too embarrassing. When Eren first mentioned it to you he made it sound so pretty. Just a private little show for Armin, help you two get closer. You two could meet up so he could be in person to calm your nerves! He could give you rewards on camera for being good! But now that you saw what kind of show he was talking about… now… now you were unsure. You looked from the screen to Eren, for reassurance, for something, but alas, he just sighed and shook his head at you.

He was surprised you had any common sense at all.

Sure hadn’t seemed like it.

He easily spread your legs open again without sending a glance to you, not like you deserved his attention anyway and began to pull your underwear down your legs. You whined at him, used your arms to push against his hands but he held you back with one of his own. You were far too weak to actually do anything. Eren knew it. Soon your legs were spread once again, your dripping cunt on full display.

“C’mon pretty girl… Don’t be bad for me… Let him see you, yeah? All of you…” He mumbled, leaving wet kisses along your neck. “you don’t want to be bad, do you? You want this just as much as he does… Look at yourself…”

And that was really all you needed for him to convince you that it was okay. You trusted him, he would never, could never lead you astray. Plus, the way he kissed you felt so nice… he could make you feel nice. And Armin did deserve it… he did so much for you… he was your biggest fan. That deserved… something right? That was what Eren always told you anyway.

Eren had always made it too hard for you to think anyway.

His fingers slowly found your clit once again, the electric shock of the direct contact ran through your entire system. Your skin felt like it was being set ablaze in the cool crimson sky from a simple touch alone.

Being with someone like this, it was better than you ever could have expected. The fact was set in stone when your eyes met Armin’s crystal blue ones. The look on his face- it drove you completely crazy. Made your head go fuzzy. His flushed cheeks, his adam’s apple bobbing up and down, the look of pure bliss in his eyes all convinced you beyond reasonable doubt that this was more then okay. Better than okay, really.

Eren stared down at you with a bored expression; you were so easy. Such a silly little bimbo. He really couldn’t believe you were so easily bent to his will this whole time. It would be so much fun when he finally turned you into his fuck hole. But patience was a virtue. He knew all the waiting would be worth it in due time.

When he finally thrusted one of his fingers into your wet little hole, he was sure of it. Your walls clamped around his finger as you threw your head back, moaning out his name. You looked prettier than you ever had before. He knew this is what you were built for.

He would prove it to you soon enough.

Armin really couldn’t handle it anymore. It would be okay. It would be okay, right? He really didn’t care. He might not have another chance like this. He needed to engrain it in his brain forever. At that point he felt absolutely no shame in pulling down his pants, letting his cock spring free. His hand wrapped around it almost immediately, trying to imagine he was the one in that room with you. That he was the one making you feel so good.

That he was the one to make your eyes roll back, your nails to dig into his thighs instead of Erens’. That you could be his for real, and not just in his head. When you looked at him, saw what he was doing and weren’t grossed out he melted inside. You were okay with this; you were okay with him.

More than okay with, honestly. The sight of his beautiful cock in his hand, pumping up and down it had you drooling. You wished he was there. You wished you could suck it and make him feel good too, but right now you couldn’t. Eren must’ve taken note that your interest had moved to the screen, rather then on him. Where it should be.

He wanted it back.

First a second finger, then a third were thrust into without concern, giving you absolutely no time to adjust to the intrusion. Your brain went blank again, getting lost in the pleasure of him. Him.

Only him.

The knot in your stomach began to coil as his fingers sped up, his thumb finding your clit once again. If Eren thought you were sloppy before, you could only imagine what he was thinking now. You couldn’t think though. Couldn’t think past wanting his dick inside of you, breeding you so full of him. Maybe he would let Armin be there too, filling your mouth up so well. You would swallow for him like a good girl. You just knew you would.

But alas, Eren wouldn’t be so kind to give you that. Not for a long time anyway. Not until you devoted yourself to him and only him.

Your daydream was cut short when Eren finally hit that gummy spot inside you, the one that made your toes curl and your blood pressure rise. You knew you wouldn’t make it for very long, that coil was so so tight, you knew it was only a matter of time before it snapped. You wanted to tell him, you really did, but your whimpers, your moans, and every little cussword between made it almost impossible to. All you could do was look up at him with tears in your eyes, begging him to just let you. Lucky for you, Eren could tell. He was almost proud of you for being able to hold on as long as you did.

“Go ahead pretty… just let it all out for me yeah? Show Armin just what he’s doing to you. He won't mind. Be my dirty little slut yeah?”

Finally, you let go. Letting that euphoric bliss wash over you in waves. Your eyes saw stars and you trembled in Eren’s tight grip. You swear that you had never felt better than you had in that moment. You never wanted it to end. Maybe if you were lucky, it wouldn’t.

As Armin watched you come undone, he swore it was the most beautiful sight in the world. Too beautiful, maybe. Beautiful enough to lead him into his own orgasmic bliss, shooting thick ropes of his cum onto his hand. He wished it was on your face, in your mouth, anywhere else really. He just wished he could be with you.

Eren sat there watching. Waiting. He saw the both of you panting, worn out from everything that just occurred. It was all going exactly according to his plan. Maybe next time Eren would let Armin watch as he took your virginity. If he paid the right price, of course.

Slowly, Armin began to recover. A lot faster than you. He wasn’t sure what to say or to do. He was still a tab bit lost in everything that just happened. He didn’t really know what to think. He searched the screen for the right answer, but only saw Eren smirking, your hand starting to palm him over his pants. Begging for more. Armin hoped he would get to see more too. He wanted to imagine it was him. Not Eren.

“I—” Armin started to say, hoping to break the ice, but was cut off with Eren directing his attention to him. Armin couldn’t comprehend how utterly small a look alone could make him feel. But he finally understood what a deer in the headlights felt like.

Eren wanted to laugh, he really did at how pathetic Armin was. But that would have been dumb. So all he did was smile. Smile and then…

Click.

You were gone.

next time... at least there was hope.

navi

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snxxiao · 2 years

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uhm so about the gods/adepti poker game 👀

would it be possible for me to request a version of this with the liyue characters? (yunnie, xingqiu, beidou, zhongli, etc?) the characters mentioned above are all optional, but I’ve been on a xingqiu/yunnie brainrot and— I just need some content there isn’t enough uhm Ik I’m ranting but please im thirsting rn AGH

anyways, love your work! looking forward to seeing what you write next haha :)

Pervert Xingqiu back n better then ever >:) nothing can stop a manipulative rich kid on their power trip >:) might be a bit darker then you wanted sorry :/ just send another ask and i can try to make a more dubcon-y one :)

xingqiu x fem! reader (w/ chongyun and others not explicitly mentioned)

warnings: noncon, more so dubcon near the end, gambling, manipulation, voyerism, gangbang, imbalance of power, gaslighting? mayhaps, vaginal penitration, handjobs, lack of proper preparation, unedited bc my laptop is being a meanie >:(, pls lmk if theres another one you can think of!

18+ dark content warning

- No no but like hear me out (mostly bullet point sorry heheh)... the elite has underground gambling circles in which they trade off their wealth, businesses, pretty much anything to try and get money. Xingqiu has his own as well, however, he got much too tired of just gambling away money. He had too much of it for it to actually mean anything. Instead, he wanted something much more valuable, people’s dignities.

- once a month he would hold a very special invite only game

- the rules were simple: everyone had to bring a partner and the one with the lowest hand had to strip

- well, the person playing didn’t, but their partner did

- and whoever lost first

- well, lets just say they were in for a rough night

- Xingqiu was a new friend of yours- you were frankly ecstatic to meet him

- Even more so when he invited you to play a game of poker with his friends!

- It’s safe to say you were swept up off your feet. A noble, a vision user was talking to you! How could you not be?

- Except… now that you were sitting there, you were a little more… well, confused to say the least

- If this was supposed to be a poker game, then how come you weren’t ever delt any cards?

- Ah, maybe he just invited you to watch! That would make much more sense. You didn’t really have a clue how to gamble anyway

- But wait… why were the other people’s partners taking their clothes off? That didn’t make sense at all.

- You tried to think the best of things, and when that failed, tried to find a way out but every exit was blocked off by guards

- w-well maybe it wouldn’t be so bad!

- it was a hope that was quickly fleeting when you start to see xingqiu loose

- he would brush it off! It was just his first time! Bad luck of the draw! It wouldn’t happen again so you shouldn’t worry!

- You should trust him; his friends were the one to come up with this! He just went along to not upset them, and you should too. Don’t worry! He wouldn’t lose again!

- In the end he somehow convinced you to play along- it wasn’t like you had much of a choice anyway

- so, you believed him

- and at first, he wasn’t lying! He didn’t loose for another few hands

- But then… the look he gave to Chongyun gave it all away to the rest of the table

- soon he started loosing hand after hand

- and you had to strip piece by piece until you were left with nothing but your underwear

- he convinced you that it would all be okay

- he manipulated you into believing that this was normal, and that nothing bad was going to happen

- he cared about you, had your best interests at heart! He promised.

- if you did fight back, he would just restrain you and do it himself anyway.

- you were hoping against all hope that he would turn around and start to win

- but as the cards were laid out on the table, the panic began to rise as the other girls got to exit the room

“X-Xingqiu I-I don’t want to do this…” but backed into a corner, you didn’t really have any choice.

“Don’t worry, it’ll all be okay… I’m so sorry this happened, I didn’t know it was going to, I swear” He lied straight through his teeth. Chongyun wanted to laugh at his friends attempts to be sympathetic. He knew it was all an act- everyone in the room knew that. It was so painfully obvious to see.

The way his hands were on your hips, slowly guiding you to the table in the center of the room. The way his hips were pressed so tightly against your own. It was even hard for Xingqiu to contain the smile he was holding back. The way we pulled off your last article of clothing with no remorse. The way he found excitement in the fact you were completely bare in a room full of fully dressed men. Legs spread by no one other then him.

Maybe your brain was going to haywire to realize what was happening, maybe it was trying to block it out. Only the gods knew, really. You could feel everything going on, but did not have the mental compacity you properly react to it. To try to run away. You were simply at a disadvantage.

He knew all of this and used it to make his move. Softly coaxing you with praise that it would all be over soon, and you had nothing to worry about. You want to believe him, but when something hard began to prod at your unprepared hole.

He wasn’t a man of teasing; he was a man of action. Lucky for you he would use oil to help out. Maybe he would even use the aphrodisiac oils his family specially prepared. Maybe he would be slow and gentle with you, as if you were a delicate flower.

“Don’t worry… you’ll be okay… after this I’ll treat you real nice, okay?” He smiled down at you, finally forcing his cock in with a heavy groan. “Clean you up, take you to a bath house and treat you like a real princess. Just hold out for me yeah? You’re so perfect… you can do this for me cant you?”

His words messed with your head. You really didn’t know anything that was happening, but the praise felt nice. Maybe he would too after a while. As your walls became more soaked you could almost convince yourself of it now. Xingqiu wouldn’t lie to you, probably.

You hoped so.

But one thing did become all the more clear as another blue haired man placed his cock in the palm of your hand, it would be a long night. And you wouldn’t be leaving until everyone had their turn with you.

Maybe it would feel good. Maybe you could handle it like he wanted. And if you could then maybe you just might get invited back next month :)

As the night continued on, you might just decide being a reoccurring member wouldn’t be so bad :)

navi

before you leave a comment: I no longer post or really have a passion for writing. I only go on tumblr every couple of months just to see what’s going on with my friends. I wasn’t chased off the platform or anything, I just got burnt out and no longer had inspiration to write. I wrote dc to help me cope with trauma in the past. The reason it is still up is to help with people who may have had similar experiences to my own to help them cope as well. If you don’t enjoy dc, please do not leave any rude/hateful comments on my or other creators posts. Just block tags that make you uncomfortable and move on. Thank you. I hope you have an amazing day :)

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snxxiao · 3 years

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♡ kinktober 2021 masterlist - updates postponed♡

navi | m.lists | rules

♡ dark content

♡ all characters are aged up !!

♡ if you wanna be put on a tag list for any specific day just lmk!! :3

♡ schedule is subject to change at any time!! While all fics are written days before they are posted, the ideas for them can change as some will be written after the schedule is posted

♡ a/n: welcome to jelli’s kinktober 2021 masterlist! Here you will find 31 days of (mostly) dark content about all of your favourite characters. Every day at 2:30 est a new fanfic will be posted following the schedule below! Please be cautious and read all of the warnings on each post before reading it fully as it can contain content triggering to some! Have a good time ~

# 1 ~ forced orgasm

BLUE LOCK

♡ pairing: hiori x f! reader

♡ wc: 0.8 k

♡ warnings: dubcon, forced orgasm, slight yandere, multiple orgasms, overstimulation, + more

+ + your boyfriend loves to play his favorite game “how many times can he make his cute kitten cum before she breaks”

# 2 ~ gun play

ATTACK ON TITAN

♡ pairing: levi x f! reader

♡ wc: 2.6 k

♡ warnings: noncon, gunplay, psychological torture, senses deprivation, use of power, + more

+ + you were just a disgusting traitor in his eyes, a traitor he might be able to have some fun with

# 3 ~ knotting + panty sniffing

GENSHIN IMPACT

♡ pairing: golden retriever hybrid! Bennett x gn! reader

♡ wc: 1.8 k

♡ warnings: dubcon, knotting, panty sniffing, mating, breeding, biting, hybrids, + more

+ + bennett always misses you so much when you’re away! he can hardly handle it!

# 4 ~ watersports

DEMON SLAYER

♡ pairing: inosuke x reader hcs

♡ wc: 0.5k

♡ warnings: watersports, dubcon for literally a second, pissing in mouth, pissing in unspecified hole, + more

+ + growing up in the woods there was only one way to claim things as your own and well- you were his

# 5 ~ breeding

GENSHIN IMPACT

♡ pairing: dragon! king! zhongli x reader

+ + zhongli was an ancient being who could have anything he wanted at the drop of a hat- a hundred wives, statues made of pure gold, but for whatever reason he wanted you

# 6 ~ incest + uncle

HAIKYUU

♡ pairing: uncle! kenma x reader

+ + what made you so uncomfortable about your uncle to begin with? you surely loved him now

# 7 ~ kidnapping

BLUE LOCK

♡ pairing: bachira x reader

+ + the monster inside of him finally found a new toy- someone to finally play with, and there was only one way to be sure you'd never reject him

# 8 ~ chikan

DEMON SLAYER

♡ pairing: enmu x reader

+ + “extra extra!! read all about it! local train creep steals another girls virginity!! both now missing!!”

alt. + + your mom always told you to never take the train at night- you only wished you had listened to her now

# 9 ~ religion

GENSHIN IMPACT

♡ pairing: xiao x reader

+ + for thousands of years their god has asked for nothing but received everything in return. this year he gets a cute little virgin without a clue of what’s going on

# 10 ~ pet play

JUJUTSU KAISEN

♡ pairing: mahito x reader

+ + you were just his cute little pet!! the best way to research a human is to keep one as his own right?

# 11 ~ aphrodisiac + massage

GENSHIN IMPACT

♡ pairing: kazuha x reader

+ + come to him with all your worries and troubles and they’ll be washed away with the sound of his beautiful voice and expert hands~

# 12 ~ stockholm syndrome

GENSHIN IMPACT

♡ pairing: dove hybrid! venti x reader

+ + when venti sees you on his morning fly he can’t stop himself from taking you home ~ you would be the perfect mate for him! he knew it!!

# 13 ~ somnophilia

MY HERO ACADEMIA

♡ pairing: best friend! tamaki x reader

+ + gross. who knew your best friend was such a creep?

# 14 ~ dacryphilia

HAIKYUU

♡ pairing: tendou x reader

+ + he had no clue why he loved making you cry so much, but he would make sure those pretty tears were for him and him only

# 15 ~ body worship

TOKYO REVENGERS

♡ pairing: chifuyu x reader

+ + chifuyu hated that you couldn’t see yourself the way he saw you, he supposed it was time to show you every little part he loved about you

# 16 ~ misogyny + arranged marriage

MY HERO ACADEMIA

♡ pairing: chisaki x reader

+ + chisaki hated you and all you stood for, but you will be his perfect wife. wether you wanted to or not.

# 17 ~ oviposition + merman

TOKYO REVENGERS

♡ pairing: inui x reader

+ + falling of your boat during your marine biology expedition was the least of your plans, but becoming a merman’s mate and being filled with eggs was farther then anything you could’ve imagined

# 18 ~ overstimulation

GENSHIN IMPACT

♡ pairing: yanfei x reader

+ + yanfei’s word was law. she was the law. so when you refused to abide by it, you have to get punished

# 19 ~ free-use

MY HERO ACADEMIA

♡ pairing: shigaraki x reader

+ + shigaraki though it would be hard to break a human down to do exactly what he wanted, but with you it was so, so easy

# 20 ~ cock warming

HAIKYUU

♡ pairing: kuroo x reader

+ + being a gang leader is so hard, especially when you have a whiney girlfriend who won’t shut up during your meetings

# 21 ~ stalking

ATTACK ON TITAN

♡ pairing: armin x reader

+ + out of all the things in the world he could have gotten obsessed with, it had to be you

# 22 ~ cervix penetration

GENSHIN IMPACT

♡ pairing: bunny hybrid! xingqiu x reader

+ + he was so close he could almost feel it- just needed to go a little further and he could breed you in the best way possible

# 23 ~ virginity

GENSHIN IMPACT

♡ pairing: childe x reader

+ + of course your best friend knew what was best, he could take care of you so so well if you just let him!!

# 24 ~ size kink + alien

JUJUTSU KAISEN

♡ pairing: choso x reader

+ + in which a human decides to move to a planet filled with giants and one particular alien sets his eyes on them

# 25 ~ knife play

TOKYO REVENGERS

♡ pairing: kazutora x reader

+ + you could never hate him no matter how many times he cut you up. how could you blame him? he just wanted the rest of the world to see you were his

# 26 ~ bondage

DEMON SLAYER

♡ pairing: rui x reader

+ + little sisters who don’t know how to acc get tied up. a very simple rule that you were very bad at following

# 27 ~ marking + fire play

MY HERO ACADEMIA

♡ pairing: dabi x reader

+ + awww, the cute little side kick really thinks they’re in control? how cute

# 28 ~ predator/ prey + a.b.o.

JUJUTSU KAISEN

♡ pairing: inumaki x reader

+ + in which the worst time of the year comes for omegas- the day where alphas get to hunt down their mate. unluckily for you, inumaki has his eyes set on you

# 29 ~ incest + brother

GENSHIN IMPACT

♡ pairing: scaramouche x reader

+ + scaramouche was a simple man who only wanted two things- control of the entire world and you- his sweet little sister. when the latter threatened, he decides it’s time to take matters into his own hands

# 30 ~ tentacles + alien

JUJUTSU KAISEN

♡ pairing: toji x reader

+ + you just wanted a little taste of freedom before you were married off to a man you didn’t love. thankfully you met toji at the perfect time

# 31 ~ kabeshiri

JUJUTSU KAISEN

♡ pairing: naoya x reader

+ + it was always so hard to punish a wife, lucky for naoya- he was creative

thank you for reading!! have a lovely day!! my ask box is always open <3

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♡ kinktober 2021 - day 2 - gun play ♡

pairing: levi x f! reader

warnings: noncon, guns, psychological torture (?), abuse of power, deprivation of senses, gun play, penetration with foreign (spoiler: it’s a gun) object, bondage?, roulette, suicidal thoughts for like a second, mentions of death, uhhh gaslighting…?, degradation, it’s pretty fucked up, probably more that I missed yay!

dark content warning - pls be 18+ to read

Why did he take you of all people? What did you have that he wanted so bad? You didn’t get it, you really didn’t. You were just an average citizen at an average military rally inside the Krolva district. Watching on as the troops tried to coerce the young children into joining them. You and him had only made eye contact for a few brief seconds at most! Afterwards you just went home like nothing had happened, preparing your families small bakery for the next day like always.

But the next day you were ripped from your bed without knowing why. The troops said you were a traitor, that you were now under the arrest on captain Levi’s orders. It made no sense, none of it did. You cried as they dragged you to the underground jails, still not having the slightest clue of what was happening. You weren’t a traitor! You had never even left the Krolva district! You had never even seen Levi before yesterday!

But there you were, sitting in a rickety wooden chair, hands tied behind your back and a blindfold covering your eyes. It was horrifying; your senses taken away from you without the slightest care in the world. Only your ears were giving you a clue to what was going on around you.

You heard someone step forward, now stranding right in front of you. You were shaking, was this when you were going to be killed? Without even knowing what you did wrong?

No, what was going to happen was far worse.

“Who are you working for.” The voice ran clear as day to be Levi’s. You quickly shook your head in response.

“I-I don’t work for a-“ Your voice was cut off with a slap echoing in the torch lit room. It stung- he was stronger than he looked.

“We both know that’s a lie.” He spoke as he gently cupped your face with one of his hands. An ounce of tenderness for a mile of pain.

His thumb shoved up to push the blindfold up, so it was now only covering one eye. He was too rough. Far rougher than anything you had ever experienced at least.

But at least now you could see- even if it came with the pressure of his hand squeezing your face. His face was as cold as ice as he stared at you. But it wasn’t he face that scared you, nor the fact no one else was down there- not at all.

It was the revolver in his other hand.

You froze. You were going to die; this was going to be the death of you. You’d never get to see your mother and father again. Never get to get married, have kids, have a family. None of it. You’d never get to take over as the owner of the bakery. Never get to feed the stray dogs again. This was it- it was over.

“Now I’ll ask again. Who do you work for.” You were too scared to respond, your whole body was already shaking. You still had no clue what he was talking about- but apparently you were going to pay for whatever it was with your life.

He only sighed, seemed disappointed in you. He pulled his hand away from your cheek and you braced once again for impact- yet nothing came.

“I was really hoping you’d co-operate. I didn’t want to get my hands dirty.” He sighed, opening the cylinder, and slotting a single bullet inside. What the hell was he doing? Why the hell was he doing it? Soon enough your questions were answered. He spun it and aimed it directly for your head.

He wanted to play a game of roulette where you were the only target.

“W-wait! Please! Don’t do this! I didn’t do anything! Please” You began to beg, tears once again beginning to form, “I-I- “

And then there was that deafening click that you swore rang through the entire prison. It didn’t kill you. You were still alive. You were thankful, so very thankful. But you didn’t know if this was a reward or not. It wouldn’t end quickly. And this apparently pleased the man.

For normally having such a cold, condescending face, a smirk resting on it was surely an oddity. If circumstances were different, maybe you would’ve found him handsome. But unfortunately they weren’t.

He stepped closer to you, squatting down to eye level, and placing the gun right under your chin. He forced your head upwards- almost painfully so. And stared at you with what you could only describe as desolate amusement.

“We both know that’s not true.” He scoffed, “C’mon, you don’t want to keep playing a game of luck, do you?” No, you didn’t. Obviously, you didn’t. But you didn’t have anything to confess to. You hadn’t done anything wrong.

“B-but I-“

“Try again.” He forced your head farther upwards.

“I-I didn’t do-“ He rolled his eyes at your stuttering and pulled the trigger once more, letting off another click that made you feel as if your heart was going to stop. You didn’t know why this was happening. What was going on. Maybe it would just be easier to confess to whatever he thought you did? Then maybe he wouldn’t draw out your suffering.

“1 in 4. Really want to take that chance?” Your form was terrified, shaking a crying but all you could do was shake your head. You couldn’t fight back. Even if you weren’t restrained you wouldn’t be able to put up any sort of fight against humanities strongest.

Your heart was pounding.

“Then I suggest you start talking.” He told you, the gun still pressed against your jaw. You decide then and there to confess to whatever he was talking about. Maybe if he was any sort of decent man you’d end up in the courts- have some sort of fair trial. Anything was better then this. Even if it meant he would kill you on the spot.

You open your mouth to speak but before you could get any sound out the barrel of the gun was shoved right in. It hit the back of your throat, making you gag around it. It felt so heavy in your mouth- the metal taste clear and apparent.

You didn’t know what to do, how to respond. You couldn’t pull away. He was really going to do this. You couldn’t breathe. It was too much. You wished your body would have just let you pass out, but it wouldn’t. It was going to make you live through this, and feel every second of his hand on the trigger.

You thought he wanted you to talk- but it was clear now that that wasn’t what he wanted at all. What the fuck did he want then?

He smiled. He actually smiled. He found amusement in your terror. Found something fun in your tremors, your tears, your mind spinning. He found all of it fun.

“Don’t wanna talk huh?” He wasn’t even hiding it anymore, “Guess you want to keep going then.” He said as he slowly pulled the trigger.

You closed your eyes tightly. You felt it. You felt all of it. Every second of his finger squeezing the trigger. Every millimeter it moved down to your certain demise. You didn’t want to die. You really didn’t. Your heart hammered into your chest, and you swore you could hear your own blood pumping in your ears. You started sobbing. Your body was so tense you didn’t know how you could’ve even been relaxed before. You waited and you felt everything. Until finally…

Click.

You were still alive. You didn’t know how but you were still alive.

But that meant this torture was going to continue.

You slowly opened your eyes to see him staring at the gun. He almost looked disappointed in it. Did he really want you dead? Probably. That was the only answer you could find in that little head of yours. He hated you for whatever reason. Probably did this to all the people who made eye contact with him. You were just unlucky.

As he pulled the gun out of your mouth your body slowly became a bit less tense. Anything was better then having that thing in your mouth. You knew that to be true.

Well. That’s what you thought.

“1 in 3.” He said to himself, before glancing back over at you with the same cold expression he had when he first walked into the cell, “this is getting boring.”

Boring. He said boring. Your terror was boring.

“I guess I’ll have to find a way to make it more fun then.” He mumbled.

The next thing you knew your chair was being kicked back, head slammed against the concrete of the floor. Your ears began to ring from the force, and you looked around to try and gage your surroundings. He had forced the chair- with you still tied down to it, onto the floor.

You were too tired to think. Your mental state in tatters after the last pull of the trigger. You just wanted to know what he was going to do now.

Lucky for you, Levi wasn't a patient man. He didn’t make you wait long to figure it out.

He pushed your night dress up to your waist. Your underwear was the next to go. Your brain could hardly keep up with it. You wanted to ask why he was doing this. You thought he wanted to kill you. But you just couldn’t find the strength to do so.

Was this what he wanted? For you to be too weak to do anything back? For your brain to be too fried to understand a single thing going on? That was the most logical conclusion, but once again your poor head had turned off.

All you knew is that something was touching you down there, something that wasn’t scary. Something that was gentle. You let out a quiet whine and Levi chuckled at your sorry state. He slowly circled his thumb around your clit, watching your cute little reactions that could have only come from a fucked-up brain.

It was almost cute.

Before you knew it, something had thrusted into you. It felt- strange, to say the least. But it felt good. The stretch burned, but you could handle it. You slowly tried to move your hips against it to gain more pleasure. Your brain completely blanking on the events that just happened to you. All you knew now is that what this man did felt good; that you needed more of it to get rid of all the bad thoughts that had run rampant through your head. Forgot all about who was doing it to you; let your other head take over for a minute.

You basked in the feeling. Let the sparks of pleasure wash over you and take care of you oh so gently. You didn't try to hide your voice as you let the feeling take over you. Your stomach started to coil in response to the pleasure.

When he pulled his thumb away from your clit you looked up at him, the realization of what was happening setting in like a train. That’s right. You were a prisoner; you were being forced to play a game of roulette. The main who was doing this to you was a captain of the scouts.

It was then that you realized what was inside of you- it was the revolver. The same one that had shot at your head 3 times.

1 in 3.

Suddenly, Levi picked up its pace, thrusting into your cute little hole even faster. You involuntarily arched your back and moaned. No, it shouldn’t feel good. This was horrifying, you shouldn’t be feeling good. This wasn’t normal. You shouldn’t be feeling anything from this.

But you couldn’t keep the sounds in. It felt good and it was terrifying. Both facts were true. He only smirked at your reaction. He could read your face like a book.

“How could you get so wet from something like this? Disgusting.” He was right. You were disgusting. You should be ashamed. The sounds eliciting from your cute little cunt was proof of that enough.

“Maybe I should just blow a hole in it. What do you think? Would be a way to go.” He remarked, lacing his finger with the trigger once again.

You froze, eyes filling up with tears again.

“N-No! Please don’t! please!”

He sighed, “It’s not like you’re much use alive anyway.” He sped up the gun, making it hit that sweet spot inside you on every thrust of it, “ill count for you this time, yeah? My bets that the bullets in the fifth chamber. Let’s see if I’m right.” You shook you head quickly, trying to get away from him. Him counting or not didn’t make a difference in whether you lived or died.

“Pl-please! I’ll do anything!” You begged. But he only continued thrusting the gun into your quivering cunt. You hated it, but it still felt good. Your slick was evidence of that enough. The coil in your stomach began to tighten and you didn’t know why. You hate this. You should’ve hated this. He had been torturing you, you should be terrified, but for some reason you just couldn't get your head straight.

“Three.” He spoke, quickening his pace. You moaned but kept trying to urge him away. Both wanted more and wanting it all to end.

“Two.” It was horrifying have him count. You didn’t know whether you preferred to know or not. But your cunt knew it didn’t want it to end. You felt like you were so close- so close to feeling euphoria. So close to falling off the edge and landing in heaven- in more ways than one.

“Please, please! Captain don’t do this!”

“One.” As he said it, your body took over. You clamped down on the revolver, toes curling, and head being thrown back as you came. The sensation washed over you like a waterfall but what drew you back to reality was the sound you had come to both love and hate.

Click.

That’s when the shame hit. You slowly looked up to see Levi smirking down at you, slowly pulling the gun out of your worn-out hole. How could you cum to the threat of him killing you? How could you cum with a gun inside of you? How could you cum because of him?

But he didn’t care about any of that. All he cared about was if he was correct in his guess.

“Let’s see if I’m right then.” He said as he aimed at the wall- the gun still covered in your slick. Without hesitating he shot at the wall and Bang.

If you thought the click was defending, a real shot was worse. Way worse. You flinched in fear, but you weren’t dead. You were alive. He almost killed you. If he was off by even one, you’d be dead. But he was right. You would have to keep living in this prison.

He nodded and placed the gun back into it's holster, “Let’s see if you want to talk tomorrow then.” He said to himself as he turned to leave the room, not even correcting your chair. Not even attempting to make you look less defiled.

You were just left there to bask in your own shame. Sit in your own thoughts and suffer.

He knew you didn’t do anything- he knew all along. But you were just so cute he couldn’t seem to pull himself away. He wanted something excited. Something to break and build back up. And you were the perfect option for him.

He was a captain- no one would ever question his orders. Just imprison the girl and he would handle the rest. No one would care about what he did to a prisoner. You would be all his. First will come the breaking down- something he was already successful in today. And next will come the rebuilding of your husk.

You will be perfect for him. His perfect traitor to keep for himself.

navi | kinktober 2021

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I think y’all can guess what type of mood I’m in tonight

what different genshin boys would be as hybrids (not head cannons, just thoughts)

these aren’t the only types of hybrids I think they could be, just the ones I see them as!!

warnings: none unless you don’t like hybrids, it’s pretty much all fluff!!

—Mondstadt

Albedo: hmmmmm this one is hard, I’m stuck between a snake and a rat but I’m leaning more towards a snake hybrid!! He loves to hold you and squeeze you tight!! Would absolutely adore soaking with you but wouldn’t really understand why you didn’t like him bringing you dead mice.

Bennet: puppy boy!! puppy boy!! puppy boy!! begs!! and I mean begs!! For your approval!! Puppy boy!! Golden retriever puppy boy!! Would constantly wag his tail for you!! Would love to play!! Very excited all the time all for you!!

Diluc: he’s another one who I feel could pull off a lot of different hybrids so it’s hard to decide. But!! In all honesty I feel like he would be a red panda!! He would have cute ears and the most puffy tail that he would try and hide from people!! He doesn’t like company but he doesn’t mind being around you!!

Kaeya: raccoon!! He is sneaky and likes to steal your clothes but he has really cute black and white streaks running through his hair (and a little black streak through one of his eye brows)!! His ears are adorable and it’s extra cute when he sniffs around to find food or your stuff!!

Razor: I... I feel like it’s self explanatory but he would be a wolf hybrid!! He would make the best den for you but he wouldn’t really know how to share or understand your human things, but that’s okay because you can teach him!! If he wasn’t a wolf I think he’d be some type of bird hybrid :3

Venti: a cute little dove hybrid with pretty white wings!! Would coo songs for you and keep you warm with his wings!! He would love flying you places and showing you off!! His favourite thing would be to have you help him preen his wings. He loves to build nests with you!!

—Liyue

Childe: gold fish 😐 jk... unless... in all seriousness I do see him as a goldfish or koi fish hybrid! He would have pretty gold scales on patches of his body and would love to swim around and blow bubbles at you!! warning though- he will splash you

Chongyun: could be a lot of different things but would either be the cutest mouse hybrid or the prettiest artic fox hybrid!! Either way he cares a lot about how he looks and loves to play!! He’s very good at digging and absolutely adores when you help him groom himself. Best!! Hybrid boy!! Another one that seeks your approval no matter how he gets it!!

Xiao: I don’t wanna be stereotypical here but I do see xiao as a cat hybrid (though he could also pull off a snake)!! He would be super territorial over you and would hate if you brought anyone home! He loves affection but his way of showing it is biting you!!

Xingqiu: bunny boy!! This man is a bunny boy with aqua ears that stick straight up!! When he’s excited he’ll just around and when he’s annoyed he’ll stamp his foot in the cutest way to get your attention

Zhongli: hmm some type of bear, not sure if it’s a panda bear or a black bear but either way he would love to show off his den to you!! Big and perfect to cuddle :) would sleep so much but it’s okay he would make it up to you

—Inazuma

Kazuha: a little foxy boy!! He would have the softest ears and tail in the world and would absolutely love to dig!! He’s sneaky and playful but it’s okay because he makes up for it by making the best den!

Scaramouche: okay, I feel like he could pull off a lot of different things but i imagine a deer hybrid scaramouche! He would try to stomp his feet to be intimidating and would have such pretty antlers!! He would be the cutest and would think he’s so amazing if you were impressed by his antlers

navi

requests are always open :3

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Head empty only

MEAN DOM XIAO MEAN DOM XIAO MEAN DOM XIAO.

MEAN DOM XIAO MEAN DOM XIAO MEAN DOM XIAO

gn! reader I think?? maybe??

tw. uh.... idk man insults? Power dynamic? cussing? the sex? Edging?

Mean dom xiao who laughs at you when you cry and babble about how he’s too big to fit. Calls you a filthy slut when you cum around him after hours of him edging you on and on. He’d bring you so close to the edge so many times before ripping it away and mocking you. You were stupid for thinking he would let you cum that easily. No matter how much you begged and pleaded for him to let you, he wouldn’t, not in a million years. Hell, eventually your babbling would even start to annoy him. So what else would there be to do other then call you a whiney brat shove his rough fingers into your mouth to shut you up. He knew it would only drive you on more, making you whine oh so much for him. But at least now he couldn’t understand the useless words coming out of your stupid little mouth.

Finally, when he would have mercy on you and finally stop the hours of torture that preceded he would make sure you came from his dick and his dick alone. He wouldn’t even think about laying a hand anywhere on you if it wasn’t to punish you. If you wanted to cum you would take what he gave you- but that was more then enough. He would mock you for how much of a cock slut you are and how doesn’t think you would know how to function without his dick stuffed inside of you. He would insult you and berate you, not to mention would have the most fun with your punishments in the world. But above all else he would make sure you and everyone else knew who the little cum slut belonged to 🥰

Mean dom xiao who has you in the palm of his hand and knows it 🥰

#xiao is definatly a brat tamer btw #you can’t convince me otherwise #jelli.loves.nonnie #jelli.lewds #jelli.writes #snx.xiao #snx.genshin #xiao smut #xiao x reader #xiao x reader smut #genshin impact smut #genshin imact #j.edging

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snxxiao · 3 years

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BCDGM for Xiao? 👀👀

Of course lovely!! ~3~ mwah kiss for you

Xiao ABC/XYZ Head Canons (gn! reader I think!! I’m trying to do more gn! reader)

Warnings: bondage, power dynamics, mentions of public sex/ someone watching y’all do the nasty, kinks?, uhh, scratching/ marking, cussing, yeah I think that’s it, lemme know if there’s anything else!

Taking requests :3

Find original post here <3

(under the cut cause it got long :3 )

B- Bondage (do they like it? Do they not? Do they prefer being tied or the one doing the tying?)

- I feel like he could swing either way with being into bondage or not

- typically, he wouldn’t be into it, but if he is he’s not going to be the type to tie pretty delicate knots around you

- no, he’s going to be rough and calloused with it, he’s not going to care if he made them too tight; you shouldn’t have been acting up in the first place

- he also doesn’t have something specific he would tie you up with, it would just be with the first thing he found, whether that be a rope, or a piece of clothing doesn’t really matter to him, just that he got the job done

- so while he does have days where he’s thrilled to keep you tied to the bed, pliant and willing to do anything he wants, there will also be days where it just seems like too much work

-why keep you tied up when he can just hold you down himself?

- however he’s definitely not the one whose being tied up

- I feel like it would freak him out too much, even if he had a more dominant significant other; it just wouldn’t be something that he’s into

C - Crying (is it a turn on? A turn off? Do they cry during sex? Have they cried during sex? What was the reason?)

- this man—- he would never cry while doing the deed, ever

- if you got him to be vulnerable with you at all it would be a feat, but I don’t think that would come out at all while he’s having sex

- now about his partner crying— I honestly don’t think it’s a turn off or a turn on

- if you’re crying he definitely wouldn’t stop, however, if he’s having one of him more mean days he could get fed up with it and start to find it annoying

- I don’t know how to describe it well, but crying doesn’t really mean much in a sexual scene to him

- I just don’t think he really cares one way or another

- so overall, while it doesn’t necessarily turn him off, it doesn’t really turn him on either

- but trust me- if you’re fucking this man you’re going to be crying

D - Dominance (do they prefer to dominate, or be dominated?)

- now, I think we all know from me constantly yelling about mean dom xiao that I personally think that he is a dom most of the time

-hoWEVER, I do sometimes think he can be more calm and vanilla and turn from a mean, hard dom, to a gentle soft dom on rare occasions

- he loves the feeling of having you completely in his control; loves that you’d be willing to do just about anything he asked at the drop of a hat

- he loves that you put all of your trust and faith into him

- But on the other hand I do think a lot of the time while he is in a dom position the only thing he’ll be thinking about is you both feeling pleasure

- now, don’t come for me but I don’t think xiao would really be into being submissive like,, at all (that could just be my sub self talking though)

- he would think it is cute if you tried to dom him though, he would let you try only to get flustered and fail so he would take over (and maybe punish you just a little for thinking you could)

- all in all, I think he prefers to be a dom and wouldn’t really like being submissive for just anyone (he might try it once though)

- at the least, he could be a soft dom but I can’t really see him going full vanilla or being super subby

G - Group Sex (would they have a three way? Four? An orgy? Do they put on a show for spectators? Do they just keep it between them and their partner?)

- okay, so as much as I like to say that xiao is rough and mean during sex, I still think that he believes sex is an intimate thing

-either that or he just gets extremely jealous over the idea of other people seeing you like that

- I do not think he would be open to the idea of cucking- you are for him and him alone

- so I don’t really think he’s into the idea of sharing you in a three way either

- the only way I can really see him having sex with a third or fourth person present is if hes essentially showing them what they can’t have

- say you were trying to make him jealous by flirting with someone else - a bad move, I know - he could fuck you infront of them just to prove a point

- he wouldn’t even care about doing it in public either

- only other scenario I see him with a third person in is if Zhongli had been asking xiao to teach him about being with a human for a ass long time

- and xiao seemed like the perfect candidate since he had you

- eventually xiao would get fed up and show him how to be with a human properly

- and Zhongli would be making dumbass comments in the background like ‘ah what a preposterous idea that something like that could make a human go’

- either way, in the end I don’t think he would really be into sharing you with anyone else unless it was someone else watching :3

M - Massochism (do they like pain? Scratching? Biting? Being bossed around? Spoken down to? Choked?)

- short answer: no

- long answer: I think he would be willing to try anything once, but I don’t think it would really be in his wheelhouse

- at most, I think he might like hair pulling or you scratching down his back when you’re feeling good- he feels proud to have those kind of marks

- however I don’t think he would really enjoy stuff like that

-he wouldn’t mind biting, but he prefers to bite you instead (he would think it’s really cute if you bit him to try and keep yourself quiet though, especially in public)

- hands down biggest turn off is getting choked though, again just like bondage I feel like it would just freak him out (plus I feel like it could make him feel like his karma is closing in around him and making him unable to breathe other then just you)

- so, I feel like he would be more of a sadist then a masochist- he wouldn’t mind minor stuff like biting and scratching but you would just get punished if you tried talking down to him or bossing him around (hc that xiao is a brat tamer and would find you trying to boss him around so cute only to put you in your place 🥰 )

navi

#jelli.loves.nonnie #jelli.lewds #jelli.writes #j.bondage #j.public sex #snx.xiao #snx.genshin #xiao smut #xiao headcanons #xiao x reader smut #xiao x reader #genshin impact smut #genshin impact

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hello so I just read the Yun fic and omg ily and your writing heuk it made me think of cockwarming yun nii-san while being overstim and full of him omg I'm going to hell 💀 will there be a part two to it? idm either way but holy crap you and your writings are absolute gold

Hello beautiful nonnie!! Thank you so much!! You have such a big brain I stg!! Chongyun-nii forcing you to sit on his lap taking his cock so well while he sits in a haunted house waiting to exercise a spirit is,,,,; a good thought :3 hopefully you will take a little drabble as an offering to the big brain gods, amen

Sorry this took me a hot minute I started reading the jjk manga and now I can’t stop

Chongyun x f! reader

Warnings: incest, cockwarming, overstimulation, vaginal sex, semi-public (?), slight manipulation if you squint (all characters are over the age of 18!!)

Dark content warning

Chongyun never thought himself the type to be cruel, no, he always himself to be the type of big brother that was kind and compassionate. To always make you feel the very best that he could. To take care of you. To make sure your lives were perfect together.

It was his job, wasn’t it? His responsibility?

But as he was sitting there, your tight walls clamping so desperately around his thick unmoving cock, your tiny form shaking and babbling filled with nothing but the thoughts of him, he couldn’t help himself from making you wait out just a bit longer. The gods were testing his kindness, they had to be.

Or maybe you deserved a bit of punishment just this once.

You did beg him to let you come to the haunted house with him even after all the times he had already told you no. You did interrupt him in the middle of his work just begging for him to touch your already soaking cunny. You should’ve known not to do those things, but you still did them anyway. He thought he had trained you better.

So maybe you deserved to be on fully display for any spirits still left in the house. Maybe you deserved being forced to sit on his cock for hours on end without a single tap to your puffy little clit. Maybe you deserved being stuffed so full you could hardly breathe without getting the slightest sign it would ever have an end. Maybe then you would listen to your nii-san like a good little sister.

Yeah, exactly, this was just a little bit of training to make you into an even better little sister. The perfect little sister he always knew you were.

“You just have to wait a little longer” he would tell you, brushing little strands of hair out of your desperate, pleading face. You nodded your head with all the strength you had left like a good girl. You would always listen to your Chongyun-nii, no matter how foggy and dizzy your brain felt.

But, Chongyun never was a nii-san known for telling the truth, was he? No, no he wasn’t.

So you sat there for hours and waited. Just like your nii-san told you to, just hoping and praying he might eventually take some sort of pitty on your sore little cunny, finally fucking you properly just like you wanted. To be filled up with him and his cum.

But alas your paradise never came, no matter how many times you sobbed or choked out a beg for him , he always just reassured you, telling you good girls waited. And you so desperately wanted to be a good girl that you listened no matter how shaky or sensitive your body became. You would do whatever you could to make him happy.

Little did you know though, he was already happy beyond belief. And it was all because of you, his perfect little sister<3

Have an amazing day!!

if this request wasn’t about chongyun this is rlly awkward

navi

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Thinking about Childe making you sit on his dick when you’re crying and sad to make you feel better :/

You’d just be crying into his shoulder and he’d be gently rubbing your back telling you it’s gonna be okay while slowing thrusting up into you. He knows it’s the best way to help you out; gently calming you down and making you feel good at the same time was the best ways to get those nasty sad thoughts out of your silly brain. It didn’t matter if you made yourself sad or some one else did. None of it mattered when he was fucking you like you like you were the only one that mattered in the world. He’d tell you how much he loved you and how amazing you were and finally when you were both finished he would tuck you into bed and take the best care of you in the world.

yeah... n e ways how’s y’all’s day

#and then yeah if it was someone else who made you sad he’d probably kill them but were not focusing on that #soft! dom Childe is a good dom Childe #it also probably wouldn’t help that he liked to see you cry while fucking you but again we’re not counting that #jelli.lewds #genshin imact #snx.childe #snx.genshin #childe smut #jelli.writes #j.cockwarming

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omg ur yunnie fics- im addicted > < imagine yun going out for a commission and having xingqiu take care of us ahh > >

Hello my beautiful amazing nonnie,,,, I have,,, many thoughts about this that I would like to share with the class thank you

(Hope you don’t mind but I did it half bullet lost half drabble also it got really long??? Idk how that happened. This is my first bullet point thing so I hope it’s not too bad!!)

(Also sorry it took me awhile to reply to this I did not see it in my inbox :< )

xingqiu x f! reader (chongyun-nii x f! reader)

warnings: dubcon, incest, pseudo-incest, harassment, mind break, manipulation, vaginal sex, coercion, predator prey dynamics, groping, xingqiu is a pervert, lack of prep, unwanted touching, praise, a little degradation, lmk if theres anything else!! (Everyone is over the age of 18!!)

dark content warning - all characters are over the age of 18

Okay, so I personally hc Xingqiu as very pervy with are hard incest kink just like the rest of us even though he doesn’t look like it (im telling yall anytime theres a guy with a noble family line I always hc them with an incest/ nii-san kink) if only he had his own little sister, then he wouldn’t have to use chongyuns :,(

-Chongyun hated leaving you home alone, he really did

-It made him so anxious :(

-Would you be safe? You wouldn’t do anything stupid right? Would you eat properly? What if someone broke in? What if a demon got you?

-He didn’t know what he would do if the latter happened. he’d probably go crazy

-He figured he just cared about you too much, that’s why it made him so nervous. But how couldn’t he care about you? You were his sweet little sister.

-That’s why when his best friend suggested he could just watch you, Chongyun was overjoyed!

-How could he have not thought of this before? He had no idea

-Instead of worrying about his baby sister, he could just leave him with Xingqiu! Then he wouldn’t have to worry about the two of you at all! You could be nice, safe, and protected. Not to mention someone would be there if you acted up

-It seemed like the perfect idea!

-However, little did Chongyun know, Xingqiu was just as interested in you as your big brother was

-Ever since Xingqiu first saw you, he was enamored

-How could he not be? Chongyun saw it too. That’s why he never let you go

-You were perfect in every single way. Your cute little laugh, your adorable habits, your innocence, your kindness. Everything was just.. beautiful

-So, while Chongyun believed he was leaving you in the good, caring, capable hands of his best friend, you had a feeling all the opposite

-You always got strange vibes from Xingqiu, yet you never knew why!

-Maybe it was how he made you to call him nii-san

-Maybe it was how he always teased you

-Maybe it was the looks he gave you across the room. Like he was the predator, you the prey

-Maybe it was that one time he lifted up your skirt and looked at your little white panties. How him and Chongyun just laughed it off as Xingqiu teasing you, trying to get an adorable reaction out of you

-You really had no clue about what made you feel so off about him :/

-Your brother always told you that Xingqiu didn’t mean anything by the things he did, and Chongyun was never wrong

-So, when he told you Xingqiu would be watching you while he was gone, your entire body tensed up

- You tried to ask Chongyun to let you stay home alone, but he didn’t allow it, he was worried something bad would happen to you! You didn’t want your big brother to worry did you? If you did that would be really bad, and you’re not a bad girl are you?

-Of course you’re not. You’re a good girl. That’s why Yunnie loves you so much.

-So, you bit back your complaints, what was the worst that could happen, right?

-When the day finally came and Chongyun left, you had high hopes. You didn’t even know what put you off of him before! Everyone deserved a chance right? Especially someone your nii-san trusted so much....

Tonight was the night. The night you had been worried about for weeks. You told yourself not to be so nervous, you told yourself it would all be fine. But how could you really be sure? You tried to push away bad thoughts. Chongyunnie wouldn’t want you worrying like that. He didn’t like when you had negative thoughts. He just wanted you to be happy and safe!

Chongyun was just worried about you, he was just trying to be a good nii-san, watching out for his darling little sister. However, something in the pit of your stomach told you to be careful. All those past encounters with Xingqiu that Chongyun just laughed off made you extremely… embarrassed..

He always made you embarrassed.

Even now, when you found yourself on the couch, awkwardly twiddling your thumbs as he sat there staring at you, a pleased smile resting on his lips. It made you nervous; caused your cheeks to flush, made you try to avoid eye contact. However, for some reason, whenever you looked away he clicked his tongue like he was disapproving of what you did. Like what you were doing was wrong.

You didn’t like looking at him, but you hated being bad more. You were good. Your brother always taught you that above all else. So, you looked back over to him once again, but just couldn’t handle looking into his eyes. So, where did your eyes just happen to migrate to? His lap, of course.

You didn’t see anything wrong with it. You weren’t even thinking any dirty thoughts! But Xingqiu had other ideas. He took one look at your flushed face staring right into his lap and took it as a sign of interest. A sign you wanted him just as bad as he wanted you.

He always knew you did, you deserved him just like you deserved Chongyun-nii~

Most of the night continued like that, Xingqiu staring at you, trying to decide when best was to make his move while you tried to relieve the awkward tension resting high in the air.

At dinner he sat much too close for your liking and rested his hand high on your thigh while you tried desperately to make conversation. When you played board games he “accidentally” splashed water on you and then decided it was his job to help you dry off.

The peak of his antics began when it was finally your bedtime.

Chongyun was still gone, he said he probably wouldn’t be back until the next morning. He gave Xingqiu a strict schedule, which so far he had followed perfectly. It was planned for him to sleep in the guest bedroom; however, plans can change in an instant when your brothers’ best friend is dead set on having you for himself.

So, there you laid nestled under your blankets; cloaked in the warmth that your nii-san despised. For one night you would actually get to be warm while you slept! How lovely. You figured Xingqui would have finally decided to stop by now, it had been an hour or so since you last heard him stirring around the house.

Oh how wrong you would soon learn you were.

Another half hour overlapped on the clock when your door cracked open, a blue haired male standing in the doorway. It was passed your bedtime; you couldn’t let him know you were awake! You shut your eyes as tight as possible and leveled your breathing, hoping he would think your sleeping soundly.

You thought he was just checking up on you, you really did. Or maybe that was what you hoped. That was until you felt a body come behind yours in the bed, pulling himself under the blankets. Pressing himself against your back.

You wanted to make a sound, to freak out, but you didn’t want to be punished. Oh how scared of being bad you were. So, you kept your mouth shut and stayed as quiet as a mouse. Maybe the cat would leave you alone soon enough.

“Ahhhh~ it must be my lucky day.” Xingqiu said, beginning to kiss along the back of your neck, trailing his lips up to your ear, “my little mouse is fast asleep.” He spoke to himself in a pleased voice.

“Hmm. Or is she.” In a second his demeanor grew dark, his tone dropping down to one more cold and condescending. You had to keep pretending. He would definitely punish you if you were awake! You would just have to endure it. Chongyun did give him permission to punish you if you acted up.

Endure. Endure. Endure.

Don’t think about the hot breath on the back of your neck, or his soft lips kissing along your spine. Or his hand resting so gently against your hip, as if he thought he was going to break you. (He knew he couldn’t. He’s heard all about what your nii-san does to you.) Don’t think about the soft chuckle he let out that sounded so pretty. Don’t think about the way hes biting your ear. It was almost like-

Wait.

He wa biting your ear?

You weren’t expecting that. You really weren’t.

You let out a squeak in surprise before quickly covering your mouth with your hands. He knew you were awake now. There was no avoiding it.

“Ah, there my cute little girl is…” He began softly rubbing circles into your hip before abruptly stopping, “Oh no.. you’re awake.. and look at the time! that’s not good is it?” He chuckled. That couldn’t be good. Could it? Maybe if you just pretended to be asleep again the punishment would just vanish! You closed your eyes and laid limp again, only to be gently pinched on your hip. When you remained motionless, it seemed only to piss the male off. It earned you a rough tug of your hair, pulling you to face him.

That’s when you saw it. The disheveled appearance, the look in his eyes. Like he had finally caught his prey after years of stalking it. Catching the perfect meal

“Don’t be a bad girl. Its rude to ignore someone. You know that, don’t you mouse?”

When you didn’t respond, he gripped your jaw, forcing your mouth into a slight pout. “I said, don’t you know that? You aren’t stupid are you?”

You quickly shook your head, tears springing forward in your doll-like eyes. You probably shouldn’t make this worse than it was already going to be.

He smiled and released your jaw, soon patting your head gently to praise you. It felt nice to be praised by him… it wasn’t something you normally received from him. Normally you only incurred his wrath.

“You know..” He changed the topic, seeming to switch back to a kinder persona, “I see the way you look at me…” he smiled to himself, “You want me just as much as I want you… want me just like you want your nii-san..” He spoke as he gently played with your hair.

You quickly shook your head, “Ah, it’s okay… you’re probably just worried right? Its okay, I can be your nii-san too. Then its all alright.” He smiled, moving his hand down to your inner thigh and beginning to rub circles into your skin once again. But you only roughly shook your head again.

“D-don’t want…” You stuttered anxiously. A light that appeared in his eyes died as his demeanor grew dark once more. This was a different side to him. A side of him you never saw before.

He was always so light and airy before tonight. What happened?

You happened of course. You had practically driven him to the brink of insanity! Didn’t you know that? You were teasing him all night! Just trying to get him to bite the hook that was dangling so close to him. It almost angered him, how you refused to admit it. Ahh, if you weren’t so cute he might’ve. But he couldn’t when your eyes were filled with tears, your face a bright shade of red. Your chest huffing up and down as you looked like a scared little bunny with its paw stuck in a wolfs trap. It was just too cute! Maybe you just didn’t understand.

He would make you understand.

He sat up in the bed, pulling the covers off both of you. He straddled your waist, pinning you down. Your arms quickly moved to shove him off, only to be pressed against the bed by one of his rough hands. With his other, he began to work on unbuttoning your night shirt.

“We both know that’s not true. I see the way you look at me. The way you let your mind wonder whenever I’m around, probably thinking of the filthiest things possible. Isn’t that right? I know It is. I hear you when I spend the night. Whimpering as your fucking yourself. You wouldn’t even try to be quiet. You wanted me to hear. You wanted me to come in and fix it, didn’t you?” He exhaled as he finally reached the last button, allowing your shirt to fall against the bed. You only whimpered.

He was wrong, he had to be wrong. You were only touching yourself to try and get Chongyunnie’s attention! Honest! None of that was true.. It couldn’t be… but.. maybe… maybe it was…

It made sense… you had to admit that it did. You didn’t have to think for yourself very much, Chongyun always told you what was right, after all. Maybe that’s why you never understood it. Maybe you were always embarrassed around him because you liked him. Maybe you wanted him to hear you begging for Chongyun to make him nervous. Maybe you liked when he teased you.

Or maybe you were just a foolish girl trying to make yourself believe something.

Either way the issue of him not being your nii-san stood in the way. Chongyun always told you that these types of things were only meant to be between a brother and a sister! How could he be wrong? He couldn’t, could he?

But Xingqiu did say he could be your nii-san too.. and that would make it okay. You didn’t know, you really didn’t. That was when you felt your panties being pushed to the side, your soaking wet cunny being exposed to the cool night air.

When you looked up at him, you noticed he had pulled his own pants down too, his pretty cock leaking at the sight of you. The tip was flushed red, ready to fill your needy hole full of nothing but him. Then your head wouldn’t have to worry about such things as if this were right or not. You could be his just like you both wanted.

“See. Look how ready you are for me…” He smiled down at you, almost like he was proud, “I’ll be a good nii-san for you. I’ll take perfect care of you.”

Maybe it was how nice it felt to be praised, maybe it was how high your little brain already felt, maybe it was how pretty his cock was, maybe it was because of how needy you were. or maybe it was actually because you liked him.

No matter what it was, it caused you to nod your head, caused you to give yourself to him.

With that little nod, he thrust into you, not giving you a moment to adjust to him. Filling you fully to the brim and finally taking care of his little mouse. Fell right into the cat’s mouse trap.

You were his now too, whether your Chongyun-nii liked it or not. Maybe if he was filling nice he’d stop before Chongyun got home. Maybe he’d keep your little relationship a secret.

If only the gods permitted such a thing, right?

Thank you for reading!! Have a lovely day!! Request whatever your little hearts desire!!

navi

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chongyun x f! reader

Warnings: incest, corruption, manipulation, vaginal sex, oral (m! receiving), lying (both the reader and chongyun are over the age of 18!!)

Warning dark content ahead!! - all characters are over the age of 18

Chongyun is the type of nii-chan to pretend to be as innocent as you, just to make corrupting you all the better. Of course, he knows this isn’t what siblings should be doing, but you don’t. And that makes you all the more perfect for him. He’s worked his whole life trying to keep spirits, and other humans (or as he calls them- demons) away from you. At some point he should reap his rewards, shouldn’t he?

Every little thing you’re worried about, he’s there to coax you through. It’s okay as your big brother says it is, right?

Of course, it is. You shouldn’t be worried; he would never hurt you would he? Of course, he’s sure this is okay. In fact, its only something you should do with your nii-chan. You two are doing this together aren’t you? He doesn’t mind teaching you how to kiss, teaching you how to move your head just right around his pretty cock. It’s okay that you’re worried! No, you don’t need any prep! Of course, it’s going to fit! You two were made for each other weren’t you? He promises with his whole heart that it won’t hurt at all~

After all it was “both” of your first times right? He knew you’d forgive him if you lied a little.

It really wasn’t your fault that you believed him, honest! You thought it was completely normal for a little sister to want only their nii-chan. He was the only one to take care of you, and that’s just what he’s doing right now too isn’t it? He’s just doing his job as your big brother; you know he would never do something that isn’t the right for you.

Plus, whatever he was doing was making you feel really good. Nothing has ever felt that good, even as he started to overheat and started slamming into your messy little cunny with everything he had, all you could think about was how amazing he felt. Your nii-chan- he was amazing, he had to be a wizard right. No matter how much it hurt, how much you were crying you never wanted to stop. You were gushing around him; your head was spinning, and it was all because of your nii-chan. How would you ever live without him now?

He knew you couldn’t. He always knew. No other man was good enough for his perfect little sister~ no one except for him!

#jelli.writes #jelli.lewds #snx.genshin #tw.dc #genshin imact #chongyun smut #j.incest.chongyun #j.incest.genshin #j.incest #j.manipulation #j.corruption #j.corruption.chongyun #j.manipulation.chongyun #j.corruption.genshin #j.manipulaition.genshin #chongyun x reader #genshin impact smut #chongyun #snx.chongyun

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♡ kinktober 2021 ♡

navi | m.lists | rules

♡ 18+

♡ dark content

♡ all characters are aged up !!

♡ a/n : hello! It’s me back again :)) I’ve decided to try my hand at kinktober this year in celebration of me coming back :3 every day for the month of October there will either a Drabble, headcannon, or fanfic that related to a specific kink and character !! I don’t have the full schedule worked out yet, only who and the specific kink relating to them. This will (mostly) be dark content and will contain fiction that is triggering to some so please be careful!! I’ll see you on October first!!

♡ Send me a number (1-31) to randomly sort out the schedule!! Thank you!! ♡

♡ will almost exclusively be afab! reader with some gn! reader mixed in :3

♡ fandoms include: aot, mha, haikyuu, blue lock, genshin impact (primarily), tokyo revengers, demon slayer, and jujutsukaisen

♡ all work will primarily be written ahead of time !! So I don’t stress myself out :)

♡ Schedule will be announced on 09/30/21 !! Look forward to seeing you then!!

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Your Fall | Tsukishima Kei (feat. Yamaguchi Tadashi)

—Pairing: Tsukishima x f! reader, Yamaguchi x f! reader (kinda, not really)

—Summary: When you were head over heals for his best friend, how was Tsukishima meant to tell you his real feelings?

—Content: angst, fluff, friends to lovers, idiots to lovers, unrequited love, pining, everyone is really bad at emotions, drinking (of age), mentions of vomit/nausea, innocent! reader, college party, heartbreak, heated make out sessions, a bit of groping, young love, clueless (read: idiot) everyone, corruption kink if you squint, slow burn (?), yams and tsuki are kind of ooc, loss of innocence? (kinda idk), walking in on two people doing the deed, cussing!!, virgin! reader, possessive! Tsukishima, tsuki is a little out of a perv?, very very loose discription of a panic attack if you squint real hard, vi I think that’s it?? Tell me if I’m missing something :)

—WC: 8.5K

—Notes: first full blown one-shot for this blog!! Woo!! It’s not even nsfw, idk how I managed to do that. I just got into an angst reading mood and decided to write this so here we are! I’m still not fully happy with it, but I never really like the things I write so it’s okay :). I’m not happy with the ending, either, so at some point. I might come back and fix it. Umm,, oh! There will be a nsfw part 2 at some point called “winter”. I was originally going to add it here, but by the time I finished the main story, I realised it was already 8k (plus I didn’t really know how to include it bc I hate when smut is just thrown into a fanfic without incorporating it to the plot) and decided just to include it in another part :) when it’s finished I’ll like it bother here and on my Masterlist :) have a nice day!! Sorry if this was bad!!

—Masterlists <3

Yamaguchi was an easy man to love. You knew that very well. How exactly couldn’t he be? With his big puppy-dog eyes and his warm heart to match, how was anyone meant to not fall for him?

He was the type to carry around hair ties or pads just in case you needed them. The type to always offer up his jacket when you were cold. Not to mention the freckles- oh my god weren’t his freckles just the cutest thing? He was the perfect man. You knew that, of course you did.

You had been nursing a crush on him since you first made it into Karasuno. You had bumped into the then second year on your very first day. You had somehow managed to get lost enough to end up in the second-year hallways, and he, being the oh-so-kind gentleman he was, helped you back to class.

Back then it was just a crush, puppy-dog love if you wanted to call it that. To be honest, you even followed him around like a lost puppy. But you couldn’t help it, you were just so enamored by his being. All logical thoughts didn’t matter, only those surrounding your senior did, and that was okay. Of course it was.

Ever since that day, you did everything you could to force your way into his tight nit friend group- even if that meant having to put up with the berates of Tsukkishima Kei. You just wanted to be around Yamaguchi in any way you could, and if that meant putting up with the mongrel that stole your food and called you an idiot, you would take it. It was all worth it for Tadashi.

He was like spring- the warmth, the happiness, the new beginnings. It was amazing.

To everyone else, your crush on him was obvious. Whenever you were around him, whenever he was giving you the slightest bit of attention, your cheeks would always become flushed. Your words would stutter. You’d give him gifts you that you didn’t seem to give anyone else. Not to mention how you would go all out for valentines day, spoiling him with homemade chocolates and any gifts you could find.

How could everyone not notice when it was so very obvious?

But, as stories like these go, it wasn’t obvious to him. He just thought you were nice. Maybe shy like him! You guys could understand each other because you were both so timid, must’ve been one of the reasons you were always around him and Tsukki, right? You must’ve been too nervous to make friends with anyone in your own grade. He didn’t mind, he liked your company. He hoped you guys would stay friends even after high school. You were a kind, calming personality to be around- a perfect comparison to Tsukki.

He was naïve, you both were.

Of course, he didn’t know about your feelings.

Tsukkishima, on the other hand, was the first person to notice. How could he not? No other girls really gave his best friend the attention that you did. None of them brightened at the slightest amount of physical affection from his friend. None of them made food or brought snacks to him. Obviously, he made fun of your antics, how could he not? You looked so stupid with your ears pink, your voice stuttering.

You were especially cute when he was teasing you, how your personality did a 180-degree flip for him. He got to see the side of you that you never let Yamaguchi see out of fear that he wouldn’t find you appealing. The side that was quick-witted and loud while still managing to maintain an air of innocence. The side that would surly make Yamaguchi turn his head up at the idea of even dating you. It was the same side that made Tsukkishima actually like to be around you. He loved your reactions; they were always so funny. How could he stop himself from teasing you? Especially when Yams was around.

Tsukkishima would never admit that he found you cute though- anytime the thought crossed his mind he’d push it away and shun it. You weren’t cute, just annoying, and stupid like everyone else. It wasn’t his fault that you gave amazing reactions. That’s all he wanted- a reaction out of you. Not for you to pay attention to him, to get your attention away from Yamaguchi for one goddamn minute of your life. Not for you to let go of that faux, overly shy persona that you had when it was his best friend around. Of course, it wasn’t that.

Thankfully, much to Tsukkishima’s delight (even if it was delight he was not yet willing to admit to), as you grew closer to the two men, you let the personality you had around Yamaguchi falter a bit more. The longer you three stayed friends, the more comfortable you must’ve felt. Yamaguchi didn’t really pick up on any difference, but Tsukkishima, whether it was consciously or not, did.

He noticed how your words would stutter less, how you slowly gained more confidence around them. How you were more willing to fight back against Tsukki, even in the presence of Yamaguchi. He liked it, it made you more fun to be around. They weren’t just your seniors anymore; they were your best friends.

You three did everything together- shopping, karaoke, meals. On special days you even brought Tsukki a bento box. He didn’t like to admit it, but he loved your cooking. The cute touches you added made him smile inside. Still, he kept convincing himself that the only reason he wanted to smile was because your childish antics were so stupid.

The only time he even came close to realizing his feelings for you was when he finally noticed how many guys confessed their feelings to you. When he picked you up at your locker (a habit he gained after learning you two attended the same cram school), more often than not there was a confession letter waiting inside. He never really noticed them, though. That was until white day, March 14th.

He saw you coming down to your lockers after your club activity, a giant stuffed dog held firmly in your arms. That was something he surly noticed. Something he couldn’t miss.

“What the hell is that?” he asked, glaring slightly at the offending object in your possession. He had no right to be jealous, he hadn’t even come to terms with the fact he liked you. But he knew you having something like that made him upset.

“Hmm? Oh! This? Some guy gave it to me,” you smiled, a pink blush dusting your cheeks, “His name is Ruffus!” He rolled his eyes at the stupid name you gave the stuffed puppy before smirking slightly. You were blushing, that meant Yamaguchi must’ve given it to you right? You did give him home made chocolates on valentine’s day. You were probably so happy because this meant he was finally reciprocating.

“Ahhh, I get it. Yams gave that to you huh? So, you two are finally a thing? Took both of you long enough.” You blushed at his comment.

“Of course, not you idiot, some guy in my class gave it to me. I didn’t even give him anything for valentine’s day.” You told him as you opened your locker. He looked inside, noticing quite a few pink cards located inside. The same type of envelopes those guys put their disgusting confession letters in. The feeling in his gut sparked back up.

You didn’t pay them any attention though, you just stuffed them into your bag so you could write them each a letter back, rejecting them as politely as you could. That’s what you normally did, anyway. The letters weren’t really anything new.

“Yams’ didn’t get me anything.” You said, forcing a smile, “I would say there’s next year, but you two are graduating, gonna leave me all alone! How will I survive!” You smiled at him and continued on your way to the train station. He actually felt bad for you. He normally doesn’t feel bad for anyone, but there you were, still pining after a guy who hadn’t shown any interest in you for over a year. He knew you had plenty of options (himself being one of them), but there you were, still going after his best friend who saw you as northing more then a cute little sister.

He wanted to tell you to get over him, but he was never very good at expressing what he wanted to say in words. Even if he did tell you, you both knew your feelings wouldn’t just go away. He could just tell you that Yams liked some other girl, but something in him told him not to. He didn’t want to see you sad.

So, instead, the next day he popped into your classroom early in the morning. Before you were even able to greet him, he walked over to you, put a stuffed frog on your head, then left the room without saying anything. He had never done something like that before, he wasn’t the type to give people gifts. You were confused, very confused over his actions. But happy.

He knew a gift from him was different then a gift from Yamaguchi, Yamaguchi was better than him after all. But, he had the urge to help in some way, so getting you a gift was the least he could do.

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When graduation rolled around for your third-year best friends, you were there to support them. You always would be. You had flowers for the two of them, as well as a big dinner planned for later that night. You were going to treat them. The thought made you smile, they really deserved it.

After the ceremony, when you arrived to their classroom, Yamaguchi looked as handsome as ever, but then again, when didn’t he? His smile looked so pretty talking to his classmates. You wished he was smiling at you. But then again, when didn’t you?

Tsukkishima finally came over to you before Yamaguchi did. He had an annoyed scowl when you gave him the flowers, but then again, he always did, didn’t he? You were so proud of your friends that today you didn’t mind the teasing or the typical rude comments. You just wanted to spend a nice, happy, last day of high school with your crush and your best friend.

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Your friends had both gotten into the same university, a university that you hoped to attened yourself the following year. You couldn’t imagine going anywhere else. You wanted to be with them again.

When the next school year started up you realized how terribly you missed the duo. Sure, you had other friends in your classes, but it wasn’t the same as the time you got to spend with the seniors you held so close to your heart. So, what else could you do other then put your head into a book and study? You worked as hard as you could to be able to make it into their university. Then you’d get to spend time with your friends once again.

As expected when their classes started up you didn’t get to see them as often, typically only getting to text them rather then actually meet in person. Yamaguchi seemed really supportive about you going to university with them, often sending you texts of encouragement on long nights of studying. Even better was when he had the time he took you out to get coffee, then to the local library to help you study. It reminded you why you started to like him in the first place; you wanted to be better for him. Better then just a silly little high school girl with a silly little crush.

Tsukishima, while you hoped would be just as supportive as Yams, didn’t really seem to care much. The occasional hangout still took place, you both still texted. However, college was stressful; it was really hard. Never mind his volleyball career and the countless hours he put into practice. The time you used to take up in his life was now consumed by school. You didn’t really expect any more or any less from him. At least you still had Yamaguchi, that was who you really needed, right?

He was your springtime, remember?

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Finally, you managed to do it! You graduated your final, painstaking year of high school! Even got into your top university, the one Tsuki and Yams went to! You were so excited. You couldn’t believe it when you got your acceptance letter.

Finally, you would be re-united with your best friends again. It would be just like high school all over again, right?

As per usual, you were wrong. It seemed like most of the time you were. While they were both happy for you (overjoyed actually), when you finally started attending the university, the dynamic was drastically different than before. You hoped you would get to spend time together once again, just like you did back in the good old days. You hoped you would all get to eat lunch together, hang out after school, study together. But none of that was really the same.

Your and Tsuki’s schedule always lined up together, however, Yamaguchi’s always ended being the opposite. Which left you and Tsukishima to hang out a lot more often, something neither of you could really argue with. He missed you, a lot more then he was willing to admit. You missed your big old oaf as well, especially your late-night talks about life. More often than not, he ended up in your room until the moon was high in the sky, just, talking to you. After his long, stressful days, you were the exact break he needed.

Your talks never got emotional, at least they didn’t on his end. But that was okay, you didn’t mind. That was always just… him. And you liked your friendship with him. Whenever your conversations ventured to Yamaguchi, he made sure to never talk about his friends love life. The crushes he had on other girls at the time, his friends ideal type, none of that. Maybe that was a mistake, he didn’t know. Maybe you would have finally taken the hint and gotten over your feelings. He just didn’t want to hurt you. The way your eyes lit up when his best friend was around, he couldn’t take that away from you. That just wasn’t right. He just wanted to see you happy. That was his excuse.

As the years continued on, your puppy-love that originally began in high school had only grown and bloomed into a full-fledged love for none other than Yamaguchi Tadashi, the innocence with it still carried over. He had nurtured that love without even knowing it himself. He was an easy man to love. In your second year of college, you knew that for sure.

There you were, laying on the floor with Tsukishima occupying the bed like most other nights. That day you had gone out with the two of them, now, you were flustered. Mad even. That day, while you were out, you noticed Tadashi staring at a pretty 4th year girl. His cheeks were completely flushed, and when she managed to bump into him on accident, he could barely utter a word. The two of you were opposites, that was pretty obvious, even if it was just based on looks alone. She was graceful and elegant, and so very mature. While you were still cute and innocent; your second year of college and you hadn’t even had your first kiss yet.

It hurt, it really, really hurt to see that. So, you now sat there, stewing in silence as Tsuki kicked your head for the umpteenth time trying to get your attention.

“Oi, you fre-“

“I think Tadashi is into experienced girls.” You said abruptly, finally breaking out of your once quiet demeanor. Tsuki shifted uncomfortably, not really knowing how to traverse around this.

“What the fuck are you on about this time?” Was the response he settled with. You turned around, finally making eye contact with him.

“Think about it! We both saw how he was around that girl today!” You pouted, standing up. You put your hands on your hips. Kei thought you looked stupid (cute) like that, with your cheeks all puffed out in obvious irritation.

“Yeah and?”

“Do you think if I was more experienced then I would have a chance with him?” He really didn’t know how to answer this one. It was one of the subjects he always avoided. He knew Tadashi’s ideal type, but he would never actually tell you it.

“(y/n)..” he signed out, rubbing his face slightly in irritation. That’s when you said words he never thought he would actually hear from you.

“Could you teach me how to kiss?” It was silly of you to think knowing how to kiss would suddenly make him fall in love with you, but people did silly things for love didn’t they? You crawled between his legs, looking up at him with a smile and a pale pink blush adorning your features.

Tsukishima sat up straighter than he had before, and looked at you with evident shock across his features. You, his innocent little best friend, was asking him for kissing lessons? You were sitting so prettily between his legs? You weren’t actually serious were you? Sure, he knew how to, he had quite a bit of experience and that kind of thing didn’t mean much to him with other girls. And sure, the idea did excite him- but no. No, he couldn’t do that. Not to his best friend who was in love with their green-haired counterpart.

“Idiot, stop talking out of your ass.” He said, turning his face away from yours, a pink settling on his cheeks as well, “You wanted to save that for someone you cared about.” He knew this, of course he did. And he wasn’t that person. For some reason, at the thought of that, something panged in his heart.

“So what? It doesn’t matter anymore does it? I don’t care about that kind of thing anymore.” Yes you did. You both knew you did. Kei was the only one who was willing to admit it though.

He signed and tried to push you away from him slightly, “Yes you do. You just need to sleep this idiocity of yours off.” He was blunt about it, he always was. But, suddenly he felt a gentle tug on the bottom of his shirt and he instinctively met your gaze once again. His eyes couldn’t help but widen.

“Pl-please Kei…? I… I really need your help… I’m too inexperienced… I trust you a lot.. and I really need your help with this…” Now you were just flat out begging him. It tugged on his heart strings; it really did. He never wanted to make you sad.

He signed, you were always able to make him give in to stupid things. Only you though.

“Fine. But don’t come to me asking for shit like this again.” He stated bluntly. And suddenly, all the sadness vanished from your face, replaced with that big stupid smile he told himself he hated.

“Thank you! Thank you so much! You’re the best person in the world!” And for once, maybe he believed it. When you spoke things so earnestly, it was hard for him not to believe them. He rolled his eyes.

“You better not regret this okay?” He spoke softly. He slowly reached out and took you chin between his forefinger and thumb, leading your face closer to his.

“I promise I won’t.”

And with that last bit of consent he needed, he kissed you.

It was gentle, so gentle. It was too easy to kiss him back. Your grip stayed firm on the bottom of his shirt, your eyes screwed shut awkwardly tight. Eventually, he pulled away only to kiss you again, this time deeper and more passionate. He felt years of weight rushing off of him all at once and he had no clue why. All he knew is that for some reason he was finally able to relax. He removed his hand from your chin, instead resting it on your waist gently.

Before he realized what he was doing, he gently licked your bottom lip, asking for entrance. You squeaked but nevertheless obliged, opening your mouth just enough so he could move his tongue inside.

He kiss itself was slow and passionate. He slowly coaxed out what he wanted from you without exchanging any words. The only time the two of you pulled away was to take a breath before he kissed you again and again, each one rougher then the last. Eventually, you began to relax into his touch, into him as he kept going. You never really thought just kissing another person could feel this good.

At some point throughout the exchange, Tsukishima had managed to take hold of your ass, pulling you onto his lap. You let out a little whine when he gripped you too hard. That whine excited him. He didn’t think he could take it anymore. He was getting hard, too hard. Your innocence, your inexperience. He loved all of it.

He wasn’t thinking anymore, why should he think when he gets so drunk off of just kissing you?

Oh right.

That’s why.

Because its you. His best friend of 5 years who was hopelessly in love with someone else. Someone that wasn’t him. It made him upset, deeply so. Why didn’t you love him the same way you loved Yamaguchi? What did Yamaguchi have that he didn’t?

Wait, was he in love with you?

Thoughts over the last 5 years finally registered with him as you began to pull your shirt off. As much as he wanted to continue, this was all too much for him to deal with him at the moment. Years of feelings and emotions that he kept supressed rushed out of him like the Niagra falls. It was too much. This was too much.

That’s when he remembered, you weren’t doing this for him. You were doing it because you wanted Yamaguchi to like you. He had to stop this.

You moaned again and pulled away from the kiss, once again attempting to remove the annoying material known as your shirt. If he didn’t know the truth maybe he really would believe it, that you actually cared about him and wanted to do this.

Abruptly, Tsukishima stood up, causing you to fall back onto the plush, stuffed animal covered bed. You looked at him confused. He must’ve just been nervous to take things farther, he probably thought you didn’t want to. It was okay! You needed to learn about that stuff too anyway if you were going to show Yamaguchi how mature and elegant you could be. Just like that other girl. The girl he really liked.

“‘S okay!” You smiled and sat up on the bed, “We can keep going, I don’t mind.” You looked at him with hopeful eyes, expecting him to move back on top of you to continue. But instead, he began to grab his things and make way for the door. You were confused. Why was he acting like this all of a sudden? Didn’t he say he would help? Didn’t he wanna do this? You quickly got up and grabbed his wrist to stop him.

“Did I do something wrong? Was I that bad?”

“No.” He bluntly stated, not looking back at you. He couldn’t deal with this. He pulled his arm away, “Just confess to him already. This is getting annoying. Shit it’s been annoying. It’s been 5 fucking years!” Suddenly, you felt insecure. You felt rejected.

“Wh-what? But I thought…”

“You thought wrong. Just tell him you like him.” And with that, he left your dorm room. He really didn’t understand why he was getting so upset, he didn’t exactly have a right to either. He had never felt this jealous before. He didn’t feel it when he fucked around with girls, didn’t feel it when guys hit on the other girls he had been interested it, but you were different. He needed to come to terms with these newly discovered feelings, yet he didn’t know if he could ever actually face you again. Not with you still head over heels for Yamaguchi.

So, the days trailed on with no sign of Tsukishima. Yamaguchi was showing up less and less, too. Presumably, he was meeting up with that girl again, Riko, as you learned her name to be. You saw them around campus a few times. But you didn’t let yourself admit the truth. You didn’t want to. It was better to just protect your heart. They were just friends, study partners. Had to be right?

The worst of it was that whenever you tried to talk to Tsuki, he always left you on read or said something so dry that you couldn’t reply to it. Seems like your spring, your happiness, your youth had finally faded.

Over the coming weeks you were alone again. Just like high school, you took to studying to drown out the feelings of loneliness. Helplessness maybe. Eventually, you stopped trying to spend time with them. It was obvious Kei had been ignoring you since that night, and Yamaguchi was clearly occupied with his summer fling.

That’s it.

This had to be the feeling of summer. Uncomfortable, alone, and warm. School was over, it wasn’t as easy to be around friends. There were still pretty flowers, they just weren’t around you. You had to seek refuge in your cool house. The cold was much more calming.

But eventually, you got tired of that too. You were tired of this. All the awkward tension, all the avoidance of each other. Maybe, just maybe, if you couldn’t save your relationship with Tsuki, you could at least save it with Yamaguchi.

You chose a day and marked it on your calendar. That was the day you would finally tell him your true feelings. Up until now, you were too scared of the rejection, too scared of loosing him, but you practically already had. Your friendship with the two men was in shambles, so if there was an all or nothing chance that could make things better, you decided you needed to take it.

If he rejects you, you decided that you could take it. You have to take it. You cant just sit there pining after him anymore. Back in your younger years you thought that you might still have a chance if you just waited it out. Maybe he would confess! But he never did. Maybe you just needed to confess your feelings to get over him. Maybe just maybe that’s what you wanted.

Or maybe you wanted him to accept you with open arms. You didn’t really know what you wanted. You just wanted to be done with the drama your crush on him has brought you so you could go back to spring.

But seasons change. The cruel clock continues to tick on and on without stopping. Once you passed spring you couldn’t get it back.

—-

Finally, when that fated day arrived, you walked up to his dorm. You tried your best to look nice and calm, but you knew you weren’t very good at that. Even when you tried your hardest you always looked slightly disheveled. You once hoped it was something Yamaguchi would like about you, but it never seemed like it was. Tsukishima loved it though, he was finally willing to admit it too.

You looked down at his door handle and noticed a sock placed on it. Looking back on that moment, you wished you knew what it meant. That might’ve saved you from seeing what you did.

You had a lot of wishes.

But alas, you never got that lesson from your female friends- hell you didn’t really had any close female friends other than the guy’s team managers in high school. So, in your naïveté, you gently took the sock off the handle, maybe it somehow ended up there when he was doing the laundry? He was clumsy like that. You shrugged it off and twisted to see if it was locked. It was.

That should have been your second red flag to turn back, he always kept his door unlocked.

But, once again, you always seemed to make the wrong choice.

You found your keys, pulling them out of your pocket. Located on the ringlet was the same key he had given to his dorm back at the beginning of the school year. Back when the 3 of you were closer. You suck it in the keyhole and turned it before opening the door, the sight inside scaring you.

Yamaguchi had his face scrunched up in pleasure, his cock buried deep inside Riko’s cunt. She was on her hands and knees with her back bent at an angle that couldn’t have been comfortable. Your eyes went wide as the sound of skin slapping against skin was all you could hear. Suddenly, you felt hot. Very hot. You couldn’t breathe either. It was like you had just run a marathon in 90-degree heat. It was awful.

You wished you had just turned around and ran before Yamaguchi saw you, you really wished you did. But you were frozen in place. It was like the summer heat had dragged you down to the fiery pits of hell.

Eventually, when he did see you, his face flushed even brighter than it had been before. He quickly pulled out of her, hurriedly dressing the two of them while you just stood in place. How long did you stand there? You had no idea.

You should have been happy for your friend; you really wish you could have been. You wished you could have just said something funny and walked away like nothing happened. If only your 5-year love for the man wasn’t in the way. Without it, this would have just been an awkward experience, not an utterly heartbreaking one. You didn’t have a right to be upset either, you knew that; you didn’t have a claim over him. But it still hurt. It hurt more than anything else. Like a sunburn after a long day at the beach.

“A-ah! (Y/n)! I didn’t know you were coming over!” Yamaguchi laughed out awkwardly, finally pulling up his pants. Of course he wasn’t hurting like you. He was in a relationship. You wanted him to be happy. Its what he deserved after making you feel so happy, so cared about for so many years.

So, what else could you do other than you force a smile onto your face. You could wallow in your own emotions another time.

“Yeah! I just needed to um.. grab something! I didn’t know you were in here.” You said, fumbling with your words a bit, “But I see you’re busy! I’ll head out!” You quickly closed the door, leaning against the wall right next to it. You needed a moment to compose yourself before your walk back to your dorm. You didn’t want to burst out into tears in the middle of the campus for everyone to see.

“Who was that?”

“Oh, she’s just my friend from high school!”

“Just a friend? Why did she have a key to your place then? I know I locked the door.”

“Ah, you don’t have to be so worried about her, she’s like my little sister. Sometimes she needs my help with things.”

You wished you just left. Wished you just ran straight home. Wished the walls weren’t as thin as they were. Wished they weren’t standing so close to the door. Anything you could have wished on in that moment you did. Just a high school friend. Just a little sister. Not even one of his best friends. The words made you feel sick. Who cares if anyone saw you crying, you just needed to get out of there. You held a hand over your mouth as you practically ran home, afraid you might actually throw up if you didn’t.

Oh, how the summer stung.

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You hadn’t left your dorm in days; you really shouldn’t have been as upset as you were. You didn’t have any right to. The most you ever did with poor Tadashi was hold his hand- even that wasn’t in any sort of romantic manor. But still, there you were. Heartbroken. It was only natural really, you knew he didn’t owe you anything, you knew you weren’t in a relationship. He could do whatever he wanted! But that didn’t stop it from hurting. You didn’t think it would ever really stop hurting.

It was on the fifth day that you decided you needed to do something. Something to forget. Go out to a party, get drunk, fuck some random guy. It didn’t matter. Maybe you just wanted to continue the destructive streak you already had going. Why not fuck around and loose your virginity? None of it mattered anyway. Not when the man you had loved since your first year in high school never even thought about loving you back.

Unrequited love was a bitch.

You decided that you needed to get over yourself, get over this pity party you were throwing. Maybe if you went out tonight you could get over him. Maybe then the summer bee sting would finally go away.

You didn’t have many clothes for going out, it wasn’t something you were really into. So, you tried your best to put together an outfit to make yourself feel appealing. Did your hair to make yourself feel pretty. Put on some makeup to feel a tad bit more confident. Even if your skills weren’t that great, it didn’t matter. You felt prettier then you had the whole week. That is what mattered. You didn’t really think guys cared how you dressed anyway, only what was underneath, so it didn’t really matter.

When you finally left the dorm and arrived at one of the various parties going on, the moon was high in the sky. The confidence you had walking to the building had all but vanished when you finally manouvered inside. The music was loud, people were sweaty, the place was a mess. But that didn’t matter right? All that mattered was getting over your spring, some other girls Yamaguchi Tadashi.

After all, one thing that stays the same is the seasons changing.

You made your way over to the kitchen to grab a drink. You never really liked the idea of drinking, the smell making you feel sick, but you needed to let loose. That’s what alcohol was for anyway, wasn’t it? That what all the teen movies you watched as you cried into your pillow told you. It was really childish of you, but you had never gone through heart break before. Maybe you were just a late bloomer. Maybe this was the moment that would make you mature. As you took your first sip, your nose scrunched up, but you kept downing it.

Eventually you made your way to the dance floor, the alcohol taking a firm hold on your system as you finally let loose. You relaxed as you swayed to the music and laughed easily. Your consciousness was still there, you were still clear enough to make decisions. A certain wall had just otherwise broken down.

A guy came up behind you and began grinding against your ass as you danced. You giggled and turned around to face him. He wasn’t unattractive, far from it. If you were going to do this now would be the time to.

“Hey.” You smiled at him. He smiled back.

Little did you know, the source of one of your problems was also there that night, also there trying to drink away his feelings. He was so stupid. Tsukishima knew very well he was. All this time and he never realized his liked you more than just his idiot best friend. And now that he did know, he knew he had no chance with you. Every emotion he didn’t understand surrounding you from all those years came rushing at him tenfold. He didn’t like the dog because he was jealous, he didn’t like the confession letters because he didn’t like the idea other men could have you.

He loved you smile, he didn’t think you looked stupid, he thought you looked adorable. The stuffed animals that he once made fun of you having were now the cutest thing. The reason your food was so good was because you made it, not just because you were a good cook. He was pretty sure you could feed him garbage and he would love it all because you were the one who gave it to him.

He knew why he didn’t like talking about Tadashi with you- it was because he wished he was Tadashi. He wanted to be the one you loved and cared about. But now he knew that that would never happen, all because you loved someone other then him.

He had been avoiding both you and Yamaguchi since all of those realizations. He tried quick fucks to make up for the feelings you left him with, but nothing helped. He was there again that night to try to do the same thing. To look for an easy pussy to stick his dick into as an attempt to get over you. It was better that he did, for all three of you.

That was when he saw you on the dance floor, with some other man’s filthy hands all over you. Hands that should be his. At first he honestly didn’t really believe it was you, he just thought it was whatever drink he was having that night making him delusional. You wouldn’t be at a party like this. You couldn’t be. But when he inched closer and closer, he realized it had to be you. You were standing there in the skimpiest skirt he thought he had ever seen and thigh-highs, with some guy biting disgusting marks into your neck.

When the man whispered something in your ear, you blushed. Tsuki’s face was red for other reasons. He saw the guy take your small hand into his own and start to lead you up the stairs. Wait, no. He couldn’t let that happen. He shouldn’t let that happen. You should be with him. He listened to the thoughts in his head and rushed over to you, pulling you against his chest. The other man stepped back in an offended manor.

“Huh? What are you doing here?” You mumbled out, a pout forming on your lips, your cheeks pushed out just the way he liked. It was so cute. He loved it so much. But right now was not the time to get caught up in his own feelings.

“It doesn’t matter. What are you doing?” He said in a stern manor, glaring down at you dangerously. You giggled and stood on your tippy toes to whisper in his ear. His aggressive deminior didn’t really mean anything.

“I’m gonna get fucked! I think this guy likes me!” You giggled; your cheeks dusted with rose. He scoffed in annoyance, could you really be that stupid?

“No, you’re not. You’re drunk.”

“Hush! I’m not drunk! Perfectly sane!” You smiled, while the other man stared at the two of you awkwardly.

“Hey uh… I’m sorry if this is your girl. I had no clue… Um… I’m gonna go… I don’t wanna be a part of your weird jealous fuck… I’ve been roped into that one too many times before, and it’s never a happy ending.” The stranger said, before awkwardly trotting away and grabbing himself another drink. You whined and pushed at Tsuki’s chest, sad your fuck to get over Tadashi had now walked away and seemingly had no interest.

“What did you do that for?!” You whined and squirmed around cutely like you were actually disappointed. He really hoped you weren’t.

“We’re leaving.” He murmured bluntly, picking you up and carrying you outside of the building. You squirmed the whole time, constantly berating him about putting you down and how he ruined your night. He didn’t listen though, only carried you back to his dorm, most likely waking up all of his neighbors in the process due to your voice.

Only after you finally made it inside did he put you down, dropping you on his bed. He turned his back to you, scavenging through his dresser.

“I cant believe you! And when I was this close-“ He interrupted you, handing you some of his clothes to change into, “What the fuck are these for?” You said, holding them up and shaking them slightly for dramatic effect.

He only sighed and sat down at his desk chair, “You don’t see me as one, but I am a man, (y/n).” You only looked at him confused, but he sighed again, opting to not explain himself further, “You’re staying the night. You should be comfortable.” He turned around in his chair, now facing away from you. Oddly, you missed his gold, piercing stare.

“Oh, so just cause you’re a guy you cant keep your dick in your pants?”

“That’s not what I meant you idiot.”

“That’s what it seems like. I was hoping to have that effect on someone else you know! Not you!”

“I know.”

“Then why the fuck did you take me away?!”

“You were going to regret it. Can you please just shut the fuck up?” He signed, rubbing his temples. It seemed like you were really itching to get in a fight that night. He kind of deserved it, he didn’t have any right to drag you away. What you wanted to do was your choice, he shouldn’t have any say in it. But he couldn’t just stand there and watch as you got taken from him- even if he decided that you would never like him in that way.

You scoffed and stood up, “I’m leaving.” You didn’t want to go.

“Don’t...” You didn’t expect him to say that. You expected him to laugh at you and say see if I care. Did he… care..? Maybe, you didn’t know. It didn’t matter though, as you listened to her stern, dominating voice, you sat back down on the bed, just as he wanted. You stained into his muscular back with confusion and annoyance.

“What do you want Tsukishima.” You asked, well, more so stated. And he really didn’t have an answer for you. He wanted you to fall for him instead of that green haired twig who couldn’t see the amazing thing right in front of him. For once he wanted to be in a dumb romcom where he was the guy the girl actually fell for instead of just the supportive best friend. He wanted you. He wasn’t going to say that though, opting to just change the subject entirely.

“Why were you going to do that?” He questioned, still not able to bring himself to turn around and face you.

“Do what?”

“Fuck him. It wasn’t to.. You weren’t just trying to make yourself more experienced for.. for him right?” He was having trouble finding the exact right words to say. However, when a sudden sharp laugh (a laugh that he loved) moved past your lips he whipped around quickly, watching you almost keel over in laughter.

“Him?” You laughed, “You mean Yamaguchi? Hell no! I was trying to get over that cabbage patch kid.” You calmed yourself down, while Tsuki just stared at you, now it was his turn to be confused.

He had no clue about the events that happened between you and Tadashi, so you explained, “I know, finally right? I walked in on him fucking that chick. I threw myself a pity party and now here I am, trying to get over him before you so rudely pulled- no sorry, carried my ass away.” He couldn’t believe what he was hearing, you were finally trying to get over him? He knew he should’ve felt bad, your heart had been broken and he wasn’t there to help, but the only thought going through his head were thanks to whatever god there was.

“Oh.”

“Yeah, yeah, here comes all the teasing and mocking, I know the drill. You can spare me from it.”

“I’m sorry that happened.”

“Haha yeah the jokes all on me- what?” You were bamboozled! You had never heard him say those words before, even when he made you cry from mocking you about your creepy pasta phase in high school.

“That sucks, I know you really liked him.”

“I… Yeah.. Yeah it does suck.” You pulled your legs up to your chest, not really knowing how to react in this situation. He had never been this emotionally open with you, never really showed you any form of empathy. You kind of wanted to cry, let your emotions out now that you finally had someone to actually listen to you. All he did was nod, trying not to pay any mind to your pink panties that had now been exposed due to your new position.

“Get changed okay?” He said gently. It was a tone you weren’t used to hearing from him just yet. You nodded your head before he turned back around in his chair. You took that as a sign to get started, pulling off your top and exchanging it for his bigger, comfier volleyball jersey he had handed to you earlier. The sweats he gave you to wear were huge as well, but they were really your only option. You didn’t want to go back to your dorm anymore, it was much too hot there. Summer emotions were strong and evident. But Tsuki’s room, it was cool like fall.

Oh, how you were soon going to love fall.

When you finished changing, you perched yourself back on his bed, nestled into the corner with all the pillows. His bed was comfortable, maybe you wouldn’t mind this sleepover.

“You can look now, I finished.” When he turned around, he should’ve known what to expect. However, he was not anticipating the effect you had on him. If he thought you looked amazing in that skirt, you looked even better in his clothes.

He wouldn’t say anything about it though, you didn’t need that right now.

You fiddled with the bottom of your shirt; things normally weren’t this awkward between you. But then again, you two hadn’t talked for the last couple of weeks, and the last time you did you were begging him to teach you how to kiss.

“So,” You decided to try to make some form of conversation at least, “Why were you out tonight?” You smiled slightly at him as he took his glasses off, “You normally just like to say home and study.”

Same reason you were. “The rest of the team went to it; I just went for them” You nodded in understanding.

“You can come over here, you know? I don’t want you to be uncomfortable. I wont bite unless threatened.” You smiled, patting the spot next to you in bed.

He hesitated for a moment before you sweetened the deal, “I’ll watch your lame volleyball games with you.” At that he stood up and slid next to you in bed. You couldn’t help but cuddle up to him, resting your head gently against his shoulder, waiting for a nudge off of him that never came. He pulled his phone out and pulled up a game for the two of you to watch. This was nice, this was peaceful. It was like autumn. Your autumn.

After awhile of listening to him talk about the game, you fell asleep nuzzled up to his neck.

—-

In the following months you and Tsuki grew closer- a lot closer, much to his delight. Those late-night talks came back and eventually morphed into sleepovers. Sleepovers where you always found yourself cuddled up to him by morning. Eventually, he even starting initiating affection in his own, albeit rough way. It was relaxing, he was so nice. Well, not literally. He still made fun of you, which resulted in you making fun of him back.

But on those nights where he would be softer and open up to you, it would make you so happy.

Eventually, after seeing you and Tsuki walk around on campus, Yamaguchi realized the friendship he had been neglecting with the two of you. He started hanging out more and more, but the shift in your trio’s dynamic was obvious. You and Tsukishima seemed a lot closer then you two had before, which Tadashi only saw as a good thing. He was happy his friends were finally closer! He smiled at the thought of you three remaining friends even after college.

He was still clueless about people’s emotions towards him, always had been, always will be.

So, your friendship with the boys was back in full bloom. You were excited about it, finally realizing how relaxing it could be to spend time with your friends without stupid emotions in the way.

That was until emotions did, in fact, start to get in the way again.

They always did.

Yamaguchi’s girlfriend broke up with him, and of course, who did he come running to other then you? You let him cry into your arms. You had to. You wanted to make your best friend feel better, but that “making him feel better” did not include him kissing you, at least on your end it didn’t. To him though, it did.

In the middle of his shaking and crying he looked up to you with his red puffy doe eyes. Before you knew it his lips were on yours. You weren’t expecting it, you didn’t know what to do. The moment you had been waiting your whole life for had just presented itself, and all you could think about was Tsukishima and how he kissed you, how he made you feel so good with nothing but his tongue.

You pulled away and stood up, apologizing quickly, and leaving your dorm. Yamaguchi sat there confused as well. Why did he kiss you? He didn’t have the slightest clue either. He was probably just so upset, maybe looking for a rebound. You shouldn’t be his rebound though. He was probably just confused. That’s what the both of you told yourselves anyway. He couldn’t have actually realized his feelings for you in that moment. Tsukishima would’ve told you he didn’t deserve to.

When you arrived at the door, you were hot again. Summer was back and you didn’t know why. But, Tsukishima could cool you down, he always managed to. When he opened the door and saw your distraught figure, he did nothing but open his arms. When you were upset you always seemed to want to be held. He didn’t get it, but making fun of you in that moment wouldn’t help.

You lunged into his arms and held him tight, burring your face in his shirt in an instant. He slowly picked you up, closed the door, and maneuvered over to his bed to sit the two of you down on it. You needed a friend right now.

“Wanna tell me what happened?” You stilled for a moment, taking a long hesitant breath before speaking. You wanted to try to remain as calm as possible.

“Y-Yams he.. his girlfriend broke up with him… He kissed me…” Tsukishima tensed up at this and started to rub circles into your back.

“Oh, he did? Dream come then?” You were gonna leave him again weren’t you?

You only shook your head, “I-I….I don’t think so…” you managed to squeak out, “I don’t know what I’m feeling… I just know I couldn’t stop thinking about you.” Tsuki looked at you confused before sighing, now wasn’t the time to have a talk about your potential feelings for him. You just needed to rest.

“Emotions are shitty aren’t they?” He sighed out, you nodded and relaxed against him. Hopefully, you wouldn’t leave him for his idiot best friend. Not this time.

“T-Tsuki… I know I’m being really selfish right now but… I want you to make the pain go away.. I-I don’t think anyone else can do it..” You looked up at him with your eyes watering. It felt wrong to kiss Yamaguchi, like you were enacting a sin that god forbit you from. It felt dirty and wrong.

“What do you want me to do?” He sighed, pushing a strand of hair out of your face. It was sad how easily he gave into you.

“I-I don’t know.. I just feel dirty.. I feel wrong..” You said, bottom lip quivering slightly. He was honestly amazed at this. How could he make you feel like this? Why did kissing Yamaguchi make you feel dirty? Why did you think he could cleanse you? He shouldn’t act. He really shouldn’t. But your lips, they were so soft and inexperienced he kissed you.. would they be the same as last time? Would you be so quick to make a sound? He wanted to know, and he wanted to make you feel better.

So, he leaned down and kissed you. You didn’t pull away, didn’t scream in disgust. Rather, it seemed to be exactly what you wanted. A soft mewl of approval you let out shot straight through him. You learned into his touch, finally starting to cool down. This is exactly what you wanted, exactly what you needed. You need Tsukishima. It finally dawned on you that that’s why you were so repulsed by Yamaguchi kissing you, it was because you didn’t want anyone other then Tsukishima to be doing that kind of thing to you.

Once the kiss finally broke, a string of saliva connected your mouths. You were panting, your head dizzy from the overwhelming emotions. Tsukishima’s eyes just stared down at you, lust clouding his vision as his breathes labored slightly. He wanted to take things further, but he refused to let himself do that just yet. He had already indulged himself too much, but you looked so happy.

“Th-thank you..” You finally breathed out, “I-I.. thank you..” you mumbled, collapsing against the blonde’s chest. The effect he had on you was unbelievable, but it filled you with such pure and utter satisfaction.

He smiled down at you, a real genuine smile, “Get some sleep.” He told you, and you listened.

The following morning wasn’t as awkward as you thought it would be. When you woke up, he just held you against his chest. After a long talk that was much too sappy for Tsukishima’s liking, you two eventually decided to give dating a shot.

It scared you a little, you had to admit. You were nervous about your inexperience, most guys your age wouldn’t like that kind of thing right? But he reassured you, adding in a line making fun of you, calling you a baby to lighten the mood. He was happy. So happy. You both were.

This was right, it felt right.

As summer melted away into autumn, you found a new love, a new hope.

Maybe a new start wasn’t spring. Maybe a new start was Autumn after all.

Your fall, your Tsukishima. <3

Thank you all for reading!! Part 2 will be up at some point!! Have a lovely day <3

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