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dreamescapeswriting · 8 months

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Stray Kids Reaction || You're Friends And Calls You By A Pet Name

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CHAN:

"Baby, can you pass me my laptop, please." As soon as the words registered in your brain you slowly turned to face your best friend who was now turning bright red in the face. Never in the six years of being friends with Chan had he ever given you a pet name like that, he'd given you nicknames but nothing that held any romantic significance to them.

"Baby?" You arched a brow at him, pulling his laptop into your chest and smirking at him and he knew by that one look he was never going to live this moment down.

"It just came out," He groans reaching his hands out to take his laptop but you tut at him and move away from his reach,

"I'm not saying I didn't like it," You admitted, making him blush even more as he watched you closely, whimpering a little when you finally handed him his laptop and smirked at him. You enjoyed seeing your friend so flustered over something as little as a nickname,

"It's okay sugar tits, you can call me whatever you want." You told him before winking and going back to what you were doing on your own laptop.

MINHO:

Minho was doing his best to ignore the constant teasing that he was receiving from each of the members but it seemed as though they were relentless. It had been over a week now since Minho had called you that stupid pet name and he was never going to hear the end of it,

"Kitten," Chan cooed in Minho's ear making you giggle a little at them, Minho was turning red in the face and you could tell it was angering him more than he wanted to admit.

"That's enough guys, It's not like you've never said anything embarrassing," You told them as you looked at Minho with a small smile, he gave you a sympathetic smile back and looked down at his phone.

"I've never called my best friend, "kitten" though," Seungmin teased, making you shoot a glare in his direction to which the young boy whimpered a little.

"Minho made a mistake, we all do...Now let's stop teasing him before he kills us in his sleep," You told them before smirking at Minho who cuddled closer to your side, leaning up so he could whisper into your ear,

"Thank you, kitten." He smirked against your skin as he felt the goosebumps on your body, ever since he'd called you that last week the two of you had been secretly dating...testing out the waters for what could be between you.

CHANGBIN:

As soon as the pet name left Changbin's lips he instantly regretted it, It was something he'd been calling you in his head but he never wanted to say it out loud.

"Baby?" You questioned, turning to look at him as he did everything to void your gaze. The last thing he wanted to do right now was screw up the friendship the two of you had created over the years, so he had a little crush on you he was sure it would disappear sooner or later.

"I don't know where it came from." He stuttered a little as you made your way over to him and sat beside him on the sofa, taking his chin in your hands and making him look at you.

"Say it again," You whispered as he scanned your face for any sign that this was something that made you uncomfortable but there was nothing, except for a look of excitement in your eyes.

"Baby..." He whispers back, your whole body shudders a little as you feel your cheeks begin to warm up.

"I like it." You admitted shyly, Changbin's heart was about to go into overdrive as he stared at you,

"You do?" He questioned, too excited for this to be seen as a nickname from a friend and you nodded at him, giggling a little.

"I do...Call me it again," You begged before he continued to call you by the nickname, bringing you closer to his body each time he called you by the pet name.

HYUNJIN:

Hyunjin had known you for what felt like forever now, the two of you were best friends always had been and always will be and there was nothing more to it than that. This was why it was so surprising to the both of you when he turned around and called you "honey bun", It led the two of you just to stare at one another in complete silence.

"I've never heard you call someone that," You laughed at him, his cheeks beginning to turn bright red.

"It's from this stupid movie I was watching," He groans, running his hands over his face just waiting for the world to swallow him whole while you continued to giggle,

"Aw, love bug it's okayyyyy," You teased by calling him a pet name back only to have a pillow launched in your direction causing you to scream out.

"Don't get aggressive with me because you want to call me a nickname love bug," You smirked before another pillow hit you square in the face.

"Oh, it's on!" You screamed before throwing it back at him resulting in a huge pillow fight in the middle of your living room.

JISUNG:

"Darling, can you hand me-" Jisung stopped mid-sentence as soon as he realised his mistake and it was like his whole world stopped still. You were staring at him with your mouth hanging open, your best friend's face turning the same colour as the tomato you were eating as he began to stutter a little.

"Jisung," You tried to plead as he continued to stutter and stumble over an apology to you, refusing to look at you and instead kept his gaze on the table below him.

"I didn't mean to, it just sort of flew out of my mouth before I had a chance to stop it and I don't want you to get weird about it but I realise by saying that I'm making it weird and I don't know how to make myself stop talking because now I'm ranting and-" He stopped when you held his face in your hands, looking him in the eyes as he finally took in a breath since he' said that whole thing in one breath,

"Jisung...Breathe, everything is fine." You told him as he looked at you with a saddened expression,

"I don't want it to make things weird." He admitted to you as you nodded,

"It's not going to...Just take some deep breaths," You told him as you did some breathing techniques with him trying to get him to calm down little by little.

FELIX:

You'd had a crush on your best friend for who knows how long but you'd done everything within your power to hide it. The last thing you needed was to fuck up a friendship that meant the world to you, you never wanted to lose Felix.

"Hey, babe, can you get me my hoddie from the bedroom?" Felix asked as you stood up to go to the bathroom. It might have been a small pet name but you were suddenly giggling and looking at him, your legs getting a little jelly-like as you tried to walk.

"S-Sure," You stuttered out, your whole body flamed at the thought of him calling you any kind of pet name and you continued to giggle as you made your way to his room in search of his hoodie.

"Someone's happy," Felix chuckled suddenly in the same room as you again, you clutched his hoodie to your chest and turned to look at him,

"You liked it when I called you babe?" He quizzes stepping closer to you, he'd had a feeling you liked him more than a friend and now he was positive thanks to your reaction. You nodded at him shyly and he smirked at you,

"Good, let's go back and finish the movie baby and we can talk about this after," He winks before kissing your cheek and taking his hoodie leaving you as a bigger giggling mess than before.

SEUNGMIN:

Once the pet name had been spoken you and Seungmin stared at one another. You were best friends, had been for almost eight years now and the two of you were close...closer than close. Sometimes you acted like a couple going out a lot, cuddling, falling asleep curled up in one another's arms so there was no wonder as to why a pet name suddenly came out of the woodwork.

"What did you say?" You questioned slowly trying to make sure you'd heard him correctly and he blushed a little, swallowing the lump that was in his throat.

"Could you pass me the remote, baby?" He looked you in the eyes as you smirked a little, leaning closer to him as your breath caught on his lips. Your eyes slowly fluttered shut as did Seungmins as he moved closer to you and closed the gap between your lips, kissing you suddenly. As soon as you touched it was like a jolt of electricity was making its way through your body as you shifted to be closer to Seungmin.

"I had bets on them secretly dating!" Jeongin screamed as he walked into the room to find the two of you making out on the sofa, causing you to groan and hide your head in Seungmin's neck.

JEONGIN:

Nicknames weren't something you and Jeongin had ever given to one another, not even silly little nicknames and yet here you both were staring at one another as all of the members stared back at you.

"Love? Have you ever heard him call anyone that before?!" Felix asked as they stared at you, your eyes were still heavily locked on Jeongin as he blushed.

"I don't think I've ever called Yn anything but their name," Chan admitted as you waved your hand at them, silently telling them to shut up about it. It was clearly making Jeongin uncomfortable as his cheeks began to flame and he looked around nervously.

"Forget it happened, it was an accident." You told Jeongin who was quick to meet you gaze and shake his head rapidly,

"No?" You quizzed, your heart racing at the thought of him finally wanting more out of your friendship than just a friend. You'd been crushing on him for months but but were too scared to ever say anything.

"No," He whined before grabbing you and kissing you deeply, your eyes widened in surprise before relaxing and shutting as you gave into the kiss your arms wrapping around the back of his neck and bringing him closer to you.

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daceydeath · 1 month

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Oblivious

Pairing: Seungmin x reader

Word Count: 2.7k

Genre: Friends to Lovers

Warnings: Swearing, Suggestive Content

For my beloved @krishastumblernow who has never stopped supporting me xx

Watching as Seungmin made his way across the park baseball cap pulled down and walking like his normal happy puppy self, you couldn't help but smile. You had been close friends for years and despite the fact that you could always spot him from his height it was his walk that always gave him away. As he reached the spot you always met at he finally looked up and saw you, a bright smile crossing his face.

"Have you been waiting long?" he flopped down on the bench beside you giving you a haphazard side hug.

"Not really maybe five minutes" you smiled back taking in his face, you knew the crush you had always harbored on him was one sided but at moments like these where he was so close to you you couldn't help but admire his beautiful features.

"Did you want to grab some coffee then? I know a cool café nearby that does those character coffees you like" he suggested nudging you with his shoulder playfully making you laugh softly before you stood up letting him guide you in the right direction.

"I'm glad you had time to hang out Seung, it's been almost a month" you sighed feeling happy with the sun on your face and him at your side.

"I know, I've missed you too" he laughed as your eyes widened ready to start bickering with him "it does suck getting stuck without any of the outside world for so long".

"Oh yeah I don't know how you guys all do it, I could never spend that much time travelling and only seeing the insides of hotel rooms, venues and planes" you nodded knowing that although his life looked glamorous it usually wasn't.

"What have you been up to, I know we text all the time but anything going on? Met anyone yet?" he teased his fingers brushing yours as you walked beside him.

"Sorry to disappoint you Seung but I haven't met anyone to take me off your hands yet" you rolled your eyes making him grin at his own joke.

"I thought you had a date last week though?" he stopped fishing his phone from his pocket to go through your chat to make sure he had read them properly.

"I did but it didn't work out" you shrugged as he frowned slightly and started walking again.

"Do you want to talk about it? He wasn't mean to you was he?" Seungmin asked, still not looking totally happy.

"It's nothing too bad he just said that he thought we would be better as friends" you explained, sighing as he started looking skeptical "I'm pretty sure there is something that makes me best friend material not girlfriend material".

"Yeah that is bullshit and you know it" he said firmly just before you stepped into the café. He guided you through the tables to one that sat at the back of the room so he was less likely to be recognized or photographed. "I'll go order and then we are going to talk about all the ways he was wrong".

You watched him approach the counter and order for the both of you pointedly ignoring the look the pretty girl behind the counter gave him, even though you could fully understand her, it was hard to not gawk at how handsome he was. He smiled politely, paid and then retreated quickly back to you with a faint blush across his cheeks that you meant one of two things, she had asked for his number or she had tried to give him her number, he was bad at both scenarios.

"Was it your number or hers?" you snickered watching him sit quickly in his flustered state.

"Hers, and stop laughing" he sulked, screwing up his nose at you.

"You really should be used to this by now Seung, you are going to be gorgeous forever you know" you giggled as he tried to not blush further.

"Yeah well you should stop going on dates with idiots who don't know how lucky they are to be sitting across a table from you" he snipped back trying to distract you from what you had just witnessed.

"What does that even mean, Seung?" you raised your eyebrows at him expectantly as the girl from the counter came to place your drinks and a large piece of cake between you making you smile.

"You always go on dates with idiots who can't see how amazing you are, it's not hard to see how smart, funny or beautiful you are so they all must be morons or too self absorbed to notice" he explained casually waiving his fork before he stuck it into the cake to take a bite.

"You think I'm beautiful?" you whispered as your heart beat harder in your chest thinking that he thought that about you.

"Well yeah you're the most beautiful girl I know" he smiled through a mouthful of cake as your eyes widened at him making him get shy and look back down at his drink. "I thought you would like the Totoro one and I got the puppy one".

"They are really cute" you agreed, swallowing the feeling of nervous happiness back down as you picked up the fork he had gotten for you to share the cake with him, a simple gesture that you were used to that now felt more intimate than it should.

"Most of the guys are out tonight. Did you want to come over to the dorm and watch a movie?" he asked, suddenly making you cough a little on your cake. Taking a sip of your coffee trying to not destroy the art on top you swallowed down the murderous offering while he silently laughed at you.

"Sure, are you going to try to kill me with food there too?" you tried glaring but your eyes were watering which only made him laugh harder and cut through the tension that had been between you.

"I can see it now Stray Kids Kim Seungmin arrested for murdering a friend with cake crumbs!" he joked, still laughing.

"Reports say friend's last words were stop laughing and help me you dick" you grumbled back as you finished your coffee.

"But really you don't have to come over if you're busy" he added softly.

"I'm never too busy to hang out with you Seung" you smiled triumphantly, stabbing the last mouthful of cake and stealing it out from under him while he pouted.

"Come on then we'll head back now and order in for dinner" he rolled his eyes at your theatrics and helped you put your coat back on before following you out of the cafe and into the street.

"Sure Seung, did you have a movie in mind?" you chuckled while he brushed his hand against yours again as you got back to the park.

"Well we could either binge a new series or I was thinking maybe the new Marvel movie" he shrugged easily as he continued to walk at your side despite the fact that you always walked slower than him.

"I don't mind either, should we decide when we get dinner?" you mused as you approached the van that had dropped him off to see you. He helped you in before shutting the door behind him and letting the staff know you were wanting to head back to the dorm.

"What's so important that you actually manage to get the dorm to yourself?" you pondered looking to him for an answer as the van started moving, pulling into traffic and driving you towards the dorm.

"Minho and Felix are doing some kind of dance practice tonight and Innie is out with Hyunjin" he shrugged casually. "Any preference for dinner? or I will just order fried chicken".

"Chicken is fine but can we also get some dessert?" you grinned, turning back to look out the window of the moving van.

"Sure" he answered and you could hear the smile in his voice making you feel warm. It had been a month since you had seen him now in one day you were going to get to spend hours with him which was more than you would ever normally dare to ask from him, he was busy with his work as an idol and you knew at some point he would also find someone that he would want to date which would probably take up the rest of his free time, so you knew each time you saw him you needed to be grateful for the time you were getting because it probably would be finite.

"You are thinking way too loudly, are you still thinking about the idiot from last week?" he questioned as he frowned his brows knitting together lightly once again.

"No just thinking I'm lucky to steal this much of your time" you blinked shyly as his face changed to surprise then pleased while yours must have been pink dusted the tips of your ears.

"I'm the lucky one" he countered, clearing his throat "not many friends are willing to wait around for weeks to just hang out". He shifted in his seat slightly as the van pulled into the underground garage that the apartment building his dorm was in. The dim light made it hard for you to see properly for a moment while the van parked and Seungmin opened the door for you to follow him out.

His apartment was chaotic as always four grown men living together had made for interesting decor. It was part bachelor pad, part family home with random plushie pillows littering the couch and game controllers on the coffee table as well as jackets handing off nearly every chair but it was spotlessly clean and comfortably lived in. Putting your shoes away in the entryway you followed Seung into the lounge area plopping down on the couch as he continued to the kitchen.

"Did you want something to drink?" he asked while he stuck his own head in the fridge to find something for himself. "We have water, juice or beer".

"Beer please" you playfully answered throwing him an exaggerated wink when he looked over the fridge door at you. Grabbing two beers he opened them and walked over to the couch to sit next to you handing you a controller before smirking.

"Play until we order dinner?" he smirked knowing you would agree but would end up getting huffy at him for losing every round you played against him. You just nodded knowing Seungmin was trying to wind you up, you enjoyed playing video games but you were far from being any good at them, at least far from being as good as he was. It would end in a playful fight while you waited for dinner to arrive that would all be forgotten by the time you started the movie and ate until you were full and sleepy cuddled up next to him. Well that's how it used to go before he got as successful as he was now, before the fame and demand had him working almost every day, tonight turned out to be no different.

"Just order dinner Seung" you whined, flopping back against the back of the couch and hugging a cat pillow to your chest as he laughed at you.

"You are still so bad at losing" he laughed harder when you pouted and looked at the floor "but I'll order".

You grabbed the remote and flicked over to Netflix hoping you could at least find something to watch that the pair of you could agree on, scrolling through the recommendations you found a drama that you were wanting to watch.

"Have you watched this one?" You asked hopefully looking over at him to find his eyes already on you.

"Not yet, did you want to start that tonight?" He smiled lopsidedly as you grinned back selecting the first episode to start playing. You knew that Seungmin, Hyunjin and Han all watched dramas not necessarily together but they recommended them between themselves so it wasn't strange for Seung to get caught up in one. As the first episode played you watched the two lead characters fumble about in their storylines making cute mistakes or embarrassing themselves as you sipped the rest of your beer. Letting the second one start you were interrupted by the food delivery, by the third episode you were onto your second beer and righting all the wrongs in the characters lives while you sat sprawled out against each other.

"Come on that was obvious" you huffed, the female character intentionally acting cute for the male character.

"He's obviously distracted" Seungmin agreed, taking another mouthful of his drink. "She on the other hand is easily the most oblivious person ever, he's been flirting with her all episode and she just doesn't get it".

"His flirting is so clumsy she is never going to take it as actual flirting she just thinks he's being sweet or teasing her" you argued laughing as Seung pouted ridiculously

"How is it teasing? Plus if she doesn't confess her feelings he will end up with someone else" Seungmin shrugged watching the screen. Six episodes in and the characters were finally getting their shit together and the guy was about to do his dramatic confession in the rain scene.

"So romantic" you gushed, wide eyes on the screen.

"So cliche" Seungmin groaned next to you making you roll your eyes "I mean what girl wants a dripping wet guy traipsing through her house dripping water everywhere?".

"It's not how he confesses it's what he says when he confesses" you laughed turning to look at Seungmin. "They could be eating dinner in their pajamas and it would still be romantic" you finished turning back to the screen, not noticing the look on Seungmin's face, to find them kissing passionately in her apartment. The scene made you squirm a little, your face heating up as you watched them slowly undress each other.

"Are you ok?" Seungmin interrupted, his eyes still on you "You have gone all red".

"I'm fine" you brushed him off your voice a little bit too high pitched to be considered normal. "It's because of the beer" you covered hoping he wouldn't press you further.

"When was the last time someone kissed you like that?" Seungmin pressed, tilting his head at you and leaning in closer his eyes looking darker suddenly.

"No one has ever kissed me like that" you swallowed, your mouth suddenly dry unable to turn away from him and back to the screen. You could hear him pause the episode but couldn't tear your eyes away from him to check.

"No one?" Seungmin repeated, softly the distance between you getting even smaller.

"No one" you breathed. He closed the gap between you a little more, his breath now fanning across your cheeks and his eyes still gazing deeply into yours. Smiling softly he lifted his hand placing a knuckle under your chin to raise it, his eyes flicked down to your lips quickly, your breath hitched as he chastely pressed his lips to yours testing what you wanted him to do. You kissed him back softly, giving him all the permission he needed to kiss you more passionately, his lips soft and plush against yours.

Pulling you into his lap you tangled your fingers in his hair to hold him as close as you could. He ran his tongue along the seam of your lips seeking entry making you gasp, which he took full advantage of sliding his tongue against yours and taking the lead as your need for him became more evident. Eventually breaking away from your mouth for air he kissed his way along your jaw and down to your neck smiling as your breathing turned sped up.

"Seungmin" you mumbled fire burning under the skin his lips touched making you feel light headed.

"What if it's actions, my love" he murmured into your skin "instead of words".

Seungmin pulled your body flush against his, his hands sliding down your sides until they reached the back of your thighs which he squeezed gently before grasping firmly and standing up which made you wrap your legs around him instinctively. He smirked seductively before pressing his lips to yours again and walking you to his room kicking the door shut behind you with his foot. The drama and leftover food now forgotten in the lounge for the rest of the night.

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solitiudeandthoughts · 3 months

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Somebody is going to love me like I loved him

This is the last message I’ll send you again.

I remember the first time I realize I was starting to like you. I assume that the joke did become part of my reality. Not only that, but I was so enthusiastic of being finally shipped to a guy that I thought it was cute, I mean everybody was doing, so I didn’t take your feeling in consideration. Months later I came to realize I really liked you, quite a lot. But unfortunately, I didn't come to realize that you didn't like me back. So when I told you how sorry I was for not caring about your feelings or your actions or your words. I suffered quite a lot. And now I’ve come to realize that I love you. But unfortunately, I never got to truthfully know you, so I know that am in love with someone that looks like you. Am in love with the idea of you.

Even writing this I still look at the time to see if I see an angel number to confirm that am doing the right thing or if am just being dramatic, and you actually like it. I tried to let you go for three years and still to this day I still think of you like that one who got away. And for that memory, I will forever love you. And if by some type of force, you get to read this, and you realize that this is you, I want you to know that I wish somebody would love me the way I love you.

This is one of the messages I was going to send him before Christmas. I didn’t send it to him because I knew nothing would change.

Hi Axel, I am going to be very honest with you: I have always liked you very much, and maybe my way of showing it was not to your liking and I understand that completely and that's why I am sorry. What I told you on the school trip was true, I was honest with you and I mean all the words I said. Every time I asked someone if you liked me they said no or that they didn't know, but I kept going because I had a lot of faith that you really liked me. And I'm sorry if I didn't listen to you or didn't measure up to you or made you feel bad. But I've always liked you. That night at Eclipse I was getting ready for you and I had the feeling that something had finally happened. I wrote to ____ asking him if you were going and he wrote me that he didn't know, that he didn't and that he did. But I knew you were coming. When we arrived I waited for you and looked for you. Someone told me that you didn't like me and that hurt me a lot. And then that happened and when it was over it hurt me a lot that you had seen me. I left early because I was so embarrassed that you had seen me. On Sunday I sent several voicemails to _____ crying and telling him the truth. That I screwed up and that there was nothing I could do about it and that I regretted it and that I couldn't change it. And unfortunately I can't change what happened and that's why I really don't feel much. At the end of all that I asked him for the last time if you liked me and he said no. Then I left him and went back to school. When we arrived I waited for you and looked for you. Someone told me that you didn't like me and that hurt me a lot. And then that happened and when it was over it hurt me a lot that you had seen me. I left early because I was so embarrassed that you had seen me. On Sunday I sent several voice mails to Omar crying and telling him the truth. That I screwed up and that there was nothing I could do about it and that I regretted it and that I couldn't change it. And unfortunately I can't change what happened and that's why I really don't feel much. At the end of all that I asked him for the last time if you liked me and he said no. Then I left him and went back to school. Then I left him and went back to school and pretended nothing happened. But I could give you the face of shame. Tuesday morning after you left our class, _____ told _____ that you wanted something with me at the party, but after he saw me with him, he took it away. And that really hurt me a lot. So basically I'm writing this to you so you know all this and know that I liked you from the beginning and I still like you. I am very sorry for all this and I hope that everything that has happened will be cleared up. I can't guess what you want, but I am writing this to finally say all this to you. You don't have to answer me now, but after this, if it ends like this I will stop trying, and it will be like nothing happened next year. But I just wanted you to know the truth from me.

This is the last time I’ll write to him or about him. And hopefully, I’ll let go of him in my mind and heart.

L.H Hepinstall

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iunctura-arch · 3 months

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"Are you... awake...?" She's sitting on her bed, knees pulled up to her chest, not looking at anything as her head is resting against her knees. Waiting for a response while trying to ease her anxiety.

"Yeah. What's up?" Even now, his voice was like a comfort. Something to ground her while her emotions flew high, a constant in her life. "Can't sleep?"

"I... had another nightmare. About Zwei Wing, and Kanade-san." Tatsuki uncurls herself to pull at the shirt of her pyjamas, staring at the scar on her chest. "The day I got this scar... when I nearly died."

Silence. It wasn't something the two of them liked remembering, the day they were impaled by fragments of whatever metal Kanade was wearing. There were fragments so close to their heart that couldn't be removed.

"...I'm scared of going back." She admits, finally getting out of bed and heading to her window. The Niwa Mansion really had a good view, didn't it? At least, in her opinion. She... never looked out the window much when she was younger. Shaking her head a little, she put a hand to said window.

"I'm scared of going back to all the bullying. All the harassment. I took all those assignments so I could be useful to my class... But now I'm being shunted off to a different class for no reason. Maybe because that class has more openings..." Or maybe because of her. "I'm scared."

"You're terrified." He corrects. "Terrified because you think they hate you. That they want you dead, just like those back home do. You still try to help, no matter the cost to yourself. All those sleepless nights, all the anxiety... You push yourself too hard."

"But if I don't..." The words remain unspoken, but they both know what she means.

If I don't, they'll find more reason to bully me. To hate me. To throw stones at my house, call me a murderer. Call me a thief.

".....I don't want to go back, but I know I can't stay here forever." She leans against the window, still staring out it. "I don't want the torment to continue. I don't want to go back to all of that..."

"You've grown since you first got here. Trying to not burden anyone and take on everything by yourself because you wanted to seem useful to someone who can ask for help, even so miniscule as to ask Daisuke if you could live with him." There's a soft laugh at that. "I was proud of you, you know? You did all of that on your own. I didn't need to push you to ask. Though you ate so much I think Emiko nearly passed out."

"I was hungry!" Tatsuki protests. "...A-and anyway, she said I could eat all I liked since I looked hungry..." There she was, looking at nothing because of how shy she felt at the moment.

"I was teasing you."

".....Do you want to go back home, Dark?" She asks after a moment. There's silence between them until he sighs.

"I've contemplated destroying the Time Lock so you didn't have to. Planned to, actually. You can thank the other me for knocking some sense into my hard head." He admits. "It's more of what you want, Tatsuki. Do you want to go back, or remain here?"

She closes her eyes. He wanted to destroy the item that brought them there, just so she didn't have to go back. A nice thought, but...

"I'm glad he did. I don't think I could've lived with myself if you went through with your idea." Tatsuki admits before closing her eyes. It doesn't take long for her to transform, Dark's appearance overtaking her own. A hand rubs at his-- her left arm.

"Tatsuki-"

"Thank you for changing your mind." She smiles, just a little. "I don't think I can sleep any more tonight. Do you... want to go make something? Valentine's day is coming up."

"That's for girls to give guys chocolate. I wouldn't mind some."

"I'm not giving out lousy chocolate this year. I'm going to make something good." She rolls up her sleeves. "Baked goods are just as good, if not better, than chocolate! That's what I'm giving this year!"

"Tatsuki, the tradition-"

"Screw tradition, we can bake!" And she leaves her room to go bake in the midddle of the night.

#lilia writes; drabbles #;niwa tatsuki #;dark mousy #today's edition of 'do i write this girl too much'

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The proposal that felt like a dream.

Disclaimer: Explicit words,anger,cheating

Timotheé Chalamet x Reader

It was 11:30pm late at night, I was sleeping with the lights dim and with my favourite lamp with Timotheé on my left reading 'The Love Hypothesis' by Ali Hazelwood.

I was sleeping and suddenly I went into a nightmare where my evil father who wants to destroy everything I have and so he met Tim and Tim recognized that was my father. So he was saying all the things I said to him about father and he was laughing a little lightly and said 'Seems like she made you believe her stupid sob story' he said. 'What do you mean?' Tim said. 'She's slept with a lot of men' Father said that with a evil smirk on his face. Timotheé was shocked and completely stunned. So he came into our shared apartment with anger and took all his stuff. I was wondering why and so I asked him. 'Oh, so now you're saying you don’t know anything?' He snapped. 'What do you mean I don’t know anything!?' I snapped too. 'Your father told me the fucking shitty truth about you and how you made up a sad story just to manipulate me?!?' He finally revealed it. 'Wait... YOU BELIEVED MY EVIL FATHER BUT NOT ME?!?' I said. 'Why shouldn’t I after I found the worst truth of my entire life?' He said it quite angrily. 'This is the last straw and you screwed it up for me. I'm gonna go and you should know we're over forever and I never want to see your stupid face ever again! Goodbye' he snapped the hardest. 'Wait...' I said while running to explain everything to him. 'DON'T TOUCH ME!!!' he snapped once again. Then I went home and I felt hopeless so, I began to cry so much that a few hours after tears, I fell asleep, just like how I was in reality.

I woke up and started crying hopelessly. 'Hey,hey, what's wrong, my princess?' he said it in a comfortably beautiful voice. 'W-w-will you ever leave me?' I questioned. 'I'll never leave you alone at all' he told me. 'Are you sure? It feels like you want to but you can't, isn’t it? I said. 'No matter what hardships and hatred we go through, I'll never ever leave you, my princess. Now, tell me what happend in that nightmare.' he said it so sweetly. I told him everything and he was stunned 'I'm so sorry you had to see that horrible nightmare of yours. And once again, I'll never try to leave you because, ever since the day you came into my life, you made my world seem a like a rainbow and I know we've known each other for 2 years but, it feels like I've known you my entire life. And now come here with me, I have something to show you.' he said and I felt comfortable. We went into our balcony and he told me to close my eyes. It was 11:58pm and he said to open my eyes. 'Wow! The balcony, it's beautiful' I said while feeling wonderstruck. 'You know what else is beautiful?' he said and he knelts to the ground, pulled out a ring and he asked 'Will you marry me?' Then I was awestruck but I asked 'Wait is this a dream?' I asked. 'No it’s not' he told me. 'If it's not, then pinch me' I told him. And he did so. 'Ouch!' I felt it. So, again he asked me 'Will you marry me, my princess?'. This time 'Yes, I will marry you, Timotheé' I said it quite happily. Then it was 12am midnight and he put the ring on my finger. I felt happiness and so did he. Then we were doing a little dance of happiness. It was like a dream but it was reality at its finest. Then I said 'Tim, I think it's getting late now and we should go to sleep'. 'Can we just spend one night of us being engaged and it's the holidays for the both of us so, please? For me?' He asked. 'Alright, because I was just kidding, of course, anything for you, my charming prince'. He got a bit red and then we spend the best night of my life ever. It was all like a dream come true.

Sorry this is so long lol and this is my first fan-fiction writing so, it is weird. Thanks for taking your time to read this type of weirdness.

#timothee chalamet #timotheé chalamet #reader imagine #timothee x reader #timothee chalamet fanfiction #timothee chalamet x you

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Class Favorites: Shows I Finished and Shows I Didn't, But I'm Ranking Them Altogether.

1) Good Trouble Season 5 Part 1?

I remember, not much, about this season but I can tell you that I thoroughly enjoyed it while it was on. I do remember though that due to the AMPTP and SAG-AFTRA stikes that took place for several months in 2023, Good Trouble went on a bit of a hiatus and we didn't know if it was coming back or not. I also remember that it was getting really good right before the strike and I was upset because of timing.

To note: I support the unions and strikes in general, I was just in my feelings cause of timing, but that lasted all of like 2 seconds cause I cared more about them getting paid fairly and not being screwed over by The Man lol. Just to be clear.

Anyway this is MY show and although it was forever ago that I watched it, I don't doubt my choice in putting it at the top. That being said the rest of season 5, otherwise known as the final season 😭 just premiered last week, so hopefully the questions I think I have will be answered and I'll leave the series feeling good. I still haven't put it on though, cause I'm not ready 😭 lol.

2) The Good Doctor Seasons 1-5 ish

This was a binge I started, but haven't finished quite yet, so I won't give my full, full opinion, but I can say that I like it. I think I just wanted something new (to me) and everything I was currently watching I had put on hold. And not to compare the two at all, but I haven't picked Grey's back up yet, and since it's been some years at this point I've probably been wanted a medical drama to fill that void. There were parts of The Good Doctor that didn't give me the full punch that I usually get from these shows, most likely because of how I was binging it but it was still solid and I do recommend. Also Freddie Highmore, enough said.

Side Note: I can't say whether it's good or acceptable Autism representation or not, so if you want that information, seek elsewhere.

3) The Best Man: The Final Chapters

This series for those who don't know is what happened after the 1999 and 2013 Best Man films, essentially following these characters to the "end." In 2022 I did Peacock's Black Friday deal just so I could watch this show. The original Best Man is a favorite of mine and I was excited to see them bring it back. Obviously not without reservations, but excited nonetheless.

I watched this one with my Father and we had a good time. It was fun and messy and the endings made sense. We laughed and maybe wanted to cry a little bit. Quentin (Terrence Howard) was the class favorite for sure. He brought the laughs and the tears. Now it getting the 3rd sport is mainly because of it's shortcomings.

The series tried way harder than it needed to, to show that it was/is progressive. I'm not saying don't join the times, but can you just be natural? In some places it wanted to rise above the fight and in others it wanted to drive the point home. Like I said, it was good, but it featured a common pitfall that hurts a lot of shows these days. They're just "making sure you know" but doing it in a way that feels a little forced. To note, I don't mean this in an "everything is woke nowadays" kind of way, just that I think there are better ways to talk about these things, to where it actually feels genuine.

I recommend the show to anyone that saw the original movies, simply because that's where the entire story comes from and the history of why the characters behave the way that they do is formed. You can still watch if you missed the movies, it just wouldn't be as good without them. That being said, if you have seen the show and want a more spoiler involved detailed review, let me know cause I'm down to talk about all of the characters and get a little deep on em.

4) Paradise City Seasons 1+2 (Sumerian Records)

Paradise City is the series follow-up the film American Satan. (I talked about the movie in my movie ranking for 2023, so look for that there.) The Relentless band has been on a break since reaching peak stardom, after their lead singer got some jail time and was going through drug addiction. Simon (Cameron Boyce) is a "kid" in a band who looks up to The Relentless and is trying make it just like they did.

If you read my review of the movie, you'd know I didn't think it was good, however although I would not give it shining stars, the show was better. I think Paradise City was actually attempting to say something where the movie just didn't or failed if they were even trying. Still a mess, but Cameron Boyce really did carry this thing, along with Mark Boone Junior. Andy Biersack did better here, but his singing voice was still dubbed and I rolled my eyes at some of his scenes, especially with Bella Thorne, but I already wasn't a big fan of the Lilly Mayflower character to begin with. PS: Good Trouble Fans, Booboo Stewart plays in this one as well and he's one of the least offensive characters, so that's a win lol.

Personally the show kept me watching and I was more invested in it than I was in the movie. I don't know that I would recommend this to the audience I'm sure it was trying to target, because of the whole franchise's problematic nature, but I'm sure they've probably already seen it, so it doesn't matter. And for those who haven't or are just curious, watch at your own discretion.

Where's Riverdale?: I was gonna talk about the few episodes of this last season of Riverdale that I did see cause I do remember them being fairly decent at the time of watching, but I didn't get very far and thought I'd either save my thoughts for a separate series ending post or 2024's ranking. So I did start this last season, the tab's probably still up in one of the 6 browsers windows I have in my doc-bar right now, but it's been months so I thought I'd be a little more fair to it, seeing that it is the last season.

#AKWARD CLASS FAVORITES #Class Favorites 2023 #TV Talking Time #Good Trouble #The Good Doctor #Paradise City #The Best Man: The Final Chapters #TV Shows #TV

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"Thanks- thanks for coming out with- with me a-again," Carter said as she smiled up at Pietro - her head tilted slightly to the side. Her eyes bright with adoration as she gripped the blanket tightly in her arms. "I- I really a-appreciate it. It's- it's a lot more- more fun being able to- to stargaze with some-someone else." Her smile widened, and she quickly joked, "And I'll- I'll try not to- to bore you too mu-much with my- my ramblings. I'll- I'll save the lec-lectures for my- my class."

She had asked him that morning if he'd be willing to go out with her that night, and... no matter how much she did her best to just act natural, she had a feeling that Pietro knew she was up to something. But... it was hard, because she was excited. Nervous, despite knowing his answer, but still far more excited. After all, she finally had all of her ducks in a row - she'd spoken to Wanda and her father, and finally found a ring she was certain Pietro would like, and... now, all she had to do was ask. Which... was so far proving trickier than she initially realized.

All day, she had to keep herself from blurting it out when she was with him. She wanted to propose privately, to save the moment for just them, and to keep her boyfriend from feeling pressure to say yes. Even though she knew it was something he wanted, if he wasn't quite ready then, or wanted to say no for whatever reason, she wanted him to be able to do so comfortably, even if the thought nagged her as a fear in the back of her mind. But, she did well not to even entertain it, and managed to keep her mouth shut - interacting with him like she would normally, and doing her best to keep her hand out of her jacket pocket to avoid further suspicion. Because she wanted this far more than she ever did with anything else, and...

Her heart pounded as they reached a more secluded spot away from the compound, and she quickly laid out the blanket. Doing her best to ignore the urge to triple-check her pocket before she sat down, and leaned back on the palms of her hands to keep herself from doing just that. "Y'know, um... I- I think we mi-might be able to see the- the Interna-national Space Station to-tonight." She glanced over at her boyfriend, and felt her heart miss a beat. The question threatened to burst from her mouth, but she managed to hold her tongue, and quickly jerked her head up to the sky. Staring up at the stars as she prayed she wasn't blushing despite the heat rising into her cheeks. As much as she wanted to try and wait it out a bit longer... she knew she would burst if she didn't, and she let out a quiet laugh.

"Screw it. There's... ah, there's some-something else I- I wanted to- to talk a-about," she admitted - struggling to keep herself from stumbling over her words so he could understand her, and slipped her hand into her pocket. A grin tugging at her lips despite her gaze still turned upward. "I- I um… I- I want you to- to know you're eas-easily the best thing that's- that's ever happ-happened to me," she began - and gripped the box tightly. "You-you've made me the ha-happiest I've- I've ever been, and... and I- I need you to- to know I'm- I'm forever grat-grateful that you're in my- in my life. You-you're incredible, Pietro, and... I- I love you, so much."

With a slow breath, Carter finally turned her body to face her boyfriend, and glanced down as she slipped the small box from her pocket - cradling it in both hands. Her grin never fading, even as she shyly bit her lip. "I... I- I wanted to ask- ask you this be-before, but there- there were a- a few things I- I had to do- do first, so, um... now that- that I've- I've gotten ev-everything figured ou-out, I- I thought..." She let out a nervous laugh, and shook her head - blushing furiously as she finally lifted her eyes to his. "Well, um... I- I thought it'd be a- be a good time to- to ask. So, um..." With another breath, she opened the box, and held it out to him. "Pietro, will- will you mar-marry me?"

@starcchild

"Of course. Like I would miss a night with you for anything in the world," Pietro said with a big smile. "You and stars? Now I'm in heaven," he added. "Well, hey, if you need a stargazing partner, I am always up for it. You know I'm up late anyway, so..." he said with a little shrug. He then chuckled, thinking of how adorable she was when she rambled on about astronomy. "I love to heard you ramble," he insisted. "Especially about something you love that much. Your eyes light up and you get all... excited. Is very cute."

Pietro couldn't help but notice what a ball of energy Carter was currently. She seemed to be just overflowing with excitement, and he doubted it was only for stargazing or being with him. Something else was up... and he was already wondering what it might be. Maybe she was just happy that he was taking an interest in something she really loved? Nah, is got to be more than just that, she's practically busting... Until he figured it out, he was just enjoying his girlfriend looking absolutely radiant. Yep, she was glowing, and he loved to see that.

He'd been surprised at the way she'd asked about his thoughts on being asked to marry someone, in a purely hypothetically way of course, but then never followed up on it. Pietro had half expected her to ask him right then and there, but that's not what she did. She'd tucked it away with a little grin and that was the last he'd heard about it. As he watched Carter smiling so much he thought she might sprain her cheek muscles, the thought occurred to Pietro... might she be thinking about asking me now? He wasn't about to say anything, lest he be wrong and upset her, or right and ruin the surprise. But now he was excited. He'd never been even partly as serious with anyone in his life as he was with Carter, so he knew she was special. He knew she was the one.

As she spread out the blanket and sat down on it, Pietro sat next to her. His arm slipped around her shoulders as he drew her close and kissed her temple. "Is a very clear night tonight..." he observed, looking upwards. When she said they might be able to see the International Space Station, he glanced at her. "Yeah? You think so?" But then she was laughing and he found himself grinning in response. "What's so funny?" he asked, almost starting to laugh himself just from how catching her positive energy was right now.

But then she started to talk and Pietro just watched her, his grin only growing as she said the most beautiful things to him. Compliments and thank yous and things he could easily have said back to her. He thought it strange the way she was telling him how wonderful he was and how happy he made her when Pietro felt like it was he who should be saying all of that to Carter. She had been the best thing that had ever happened to him, and he loved her too. So much. Whatever higher power drew them together, he'd be eternally grateful to them for having Carter come into his life.

He was quiet as she said all she wanted to say, just smiling at her and giving her his undivided attention, so deeply honored that she would even make this kind of speech to him. Traditionally, it should be him proposing to her, but very little about their meeting, their relationship, and their dynamic had been traditional, for many reasons. If this felt right to Carter to do it this way and at this time, then Pietro wanted it to happen naturally, as it should. He doubted he could have done a better job with a proposal himself, if he was being perfectly honest.

As she took out the little box, opened it, and asked him the question-of-questions, Pietro found himself a little overcome with emotion. His grin turned from excited to so soft, and his eyes welled up a little. the ring was really cool, too, definitely something he wouldn't mind wearing all the time. But that was just icing on top of the cake, and the cake... was Carter, the beautiful person she was, and this moment. He lifted his hand, the backs of his fingers dragging gently down her cheek before he laid his palm against it. He wanted to take in this moment, the look in her eyes, the flush in her cheeks... everything about it, so that he'd never forget. And then, as a tear trickled down one of his cheeks, he nodded and whispered with certainty...

"Yes."

#starcchild #pietro x carter #{ahhhhhhhh they're so adorable i can't take it!}

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Chapter Twelve

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Pairing: Gojo x Fem!Reader

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After your time at the library, you rush right back to your dorm building and knock on Nobara's door. She opens it up quickly, though the look of confusion on her face shows that she's clearly not expecting you to tell her what you just did.

"Hey, what's up?" she asks with a hint of concern in her tone.

"Can I come in, please?" you ask nervously as you practically push yourself past her.

"Woah, slow down and take a second to breathe."

Your body tenses up at her words, remember that Gojo says almost the exact same thing when you're alone with him.

"What'd you say?" you reply as your voice cracks.

"I told you to take a breath and calm. Come sit down with me and we can talk about whatever's bothering you," she expresses in a calm manner that has you actually do as she says.

It's then that you finally let it all out like word vomit, admitting to her every little detail about Fushiguro in the library. As you speak, her mouth drops to the ground in absolute shock at what you've told her. However, that's not to say she's not absolutely loving the drama that you're now involving yourself in.

"I thought you said you were gonna cut it off with him?" she asks once you're finished speaking.

"I thought so too but that's not what ended up happening," you sigh. "I really did try to talk to him but I just couldn't do it."

"So now what are you going to do?"

"I've got no idea," you groan as you put your hand to your head. "I was kinda hoping you'd have an idea."

"I don't know," she shrugs. "This is kinda your decision. Do you want to keep screwing around with our teacher or see where it goes with Fushiguro?"

"Right now there are no strings attached with either..." you mumble to yourself. "Do I sound like a horrible person if I say maybe I can keep it going with both, at least for now? It's all going well so far and I don't really know which way to go."

"Yeah, 'so far', but it won't be perfect forever. I don't think it's a good idea, Y/N," she tells you, causing you to let out a sigh of uneasiness. "How are you even going to keep it going like this without either of them finding out... Gojo does have a big mouth."

"I've got absolutely no idea," you grumble, resting your head down on your friend's shoulder, "but I've got to figure something out soon."

Fushiguro's P.O.V.

I'm walking back from the library with a bright red face. I'm still in shock, unable to believe what actually just happened. I stick my head deep within my half-torn-out book hoping not to draw attention to myself as I cross campus.

However, as I'm walking someone stops me and places their hand on the top of my book. They slowly bring it down until they're able to see the flustered expression on my face. And of course, the person on the other side of my protective wall that was my book, is Gojo. I sigh to myself when I see him, not ready for this talk.

"How'd it go at the library?" he asks as he attempts to hide the grin starting to grow along the side of his lips. "Did you get any studying done?"

As I look at him, it's quite clear to tell that he already knows everything that happened. Although I'm not quite sure how he knows, it's obvious that he does.

I take a deep breath as I prepare myself for the headache I'm about to get. "It went well. Now I'm going to get some food before heading back so I'll see you in class tomor-"

"Did you happen to run into Y/N at the library? I asked her to go and I just want to make sure she did get some studying in, too. Though she's quite excellent with using her technique, I fear she does not know what she's capable of."

I can feel my face burn at his words. What the hell am I supposed to say?

"Yes. We studied together a bit so I can say that she did get some work done," I vaguely explain.

"Good," he chuckles. "She and I did the same a few nights ago. I suppose she'll be all ready for this week's exam."

Why the hell did I mess with Y/N when it was so obvious she was doing it with Gojo? I'm such an idiot for getting involved.

Gojo wraps his arm around me and walks me towards the school. "Perhaps the three of us could study altogether, yeah? The two of you would both get a lot of good information out of that session."

I tense up under his touch which only causes him to laugh a bit harder at my uneasiness. "I mean if it's what Y/N wants then maybe we should just give it to her."

"Why the hell would I be interested in doing that with you?" I scoff, getting extremely frustrated by him.

"If you really like the girl, then prove that she needs nobody else 'cept you," he tells me as he stops walking and turns to face me. "Unless you think your skills aren't quite as good as mine," he then taunts, leaning closer to me with his stupid smirk growing wider on his face.

I'm just so damn pissed at everyone that I don't even know what to think. I'm angry at myself for getting involved and doing what I did, mad at Gojo for having the audacity to mess with his students' lives, and upset with Y/N for being reckless enough to get herself into all of this.

"Fine," I scoff as I take a step away from her, "but don't expect this to be a reoccurring thing. I expect you to at least give us some kind of hint about your stupid test, too, since this is all your idea."

"Hm, alright then, Megumi, you've got a deal."

Even though he continues to talk to me, I just walk away. Whatever else he's got to say on the matter I no longer care to hear him out. He better just keep his promise.

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There's some halfway decent news the troublemakers are in trouble a lot of trouble and I've been mumbling all sorts of things as threats and telling people to go screw and they notice for and they've been telling them to shut up and they won't so they're coming down on them today a lot and they've been saying you're doing it too and stuff like that then they said not really into the point of jeopardizing everybody and everything all the time and never asking for anything and just continuously blabbing it and they said that's why we're doing it I said yeah you won't shut up and you can't do anything like that you you have to do everything incremental are you just blowing it out the door unless you already did and they start saying you're dead you're dead you're dead like a million times and they said that if you can't do it on increments and you're threatening for stuff and you don't tell us what you're threatening for that you're going to jail and you're going to prison and you're going to be incinerated and they said we're sitting here trying to do it in steps and nobody's listening and I get this guy next door telling me off and they said shut up and he said no really is telling me off please tell me everybody's getting me because I'm sitting here bothering him and I'm sitting here bothering him and they're telling me he's telling me everyone's getting me and he starts ranting saying he's here now someone ran up and grabbed his hands so you wouldn't be if you didn't call him and you're a little loser and we can hear the argument and we need you out of there. They begin to admonishing a lot and he started crying and said no just letting me do anything and the empire was using me as an example and then a public place and he's walking around saying it it's not the grocery store no it was and he goes I'm trying to explain something since you're bringing on yourself and purpose and you're a f****** loser they got really mad cuz their son said it so he brings it on himself from me everyday almost on the hour and they started yelling this we need you out of there and then they said this we're trying and it doesn't do anything today he was insane for months because I don't like the empire and your stupid people and they start losing it there's his name is Jason I am he has the Argonauts and seeing that he says the other guy but they were academy so they know what it does cadmium and they knew about George so they went up to him and said what about it somewhere and the empire is around him with a humongous fleet and then they said thank you then he starts going I have the AI and he started threatening to destroy them all and then you were outside and it was Dan and he said he seems all right can't remember anything and then it started laughing said what is your deal you know threatening all of us and he said you'll see I've got him around the finger and he is in beds and all of a sudden he says I think and also need place and they said okay you're blinking and they pulled them in and the idiot he keeps saying it so they went from being angry at him to very curious and they're starting to grab the others to put them together and they will see the conspiracy and why they're after our son and they are finally in trouble and good gosh that took forever like everybody needed to know for that to happen and it's sort of not true but everyone's sick of the behavior and the treatment want to know why and now they do and it is much worse and these guys are going to get killed rather soon and let's try to ask him where he thinks the AI is and he said it's somewhere in the middle and the goofball says it and they said you mean you and it was probably because I have some of the code and he's talking like real fast and then said we're going to have to question you for real and they told him in and he's still being questioned for real and tell me after your son put him in The matrix

They went round and round about computer knowledge and how many computers someone could have and how they have a huge Network and probably like this thing of mirrors and how theirs is not and they said that they all have computers to then they said oh it's his design and they started freaking out and said that he knows how it all works and people are freaking out questioning him and wanted to know what he's saying I said I could increase static and change with a signal goes and there's tons of stuff like that because he built it and they started to panic and they said you're right so he told them what they do what he knew sort of you know that's how the truth and it is getting ridiculous and finally you said why don't you shove it this is terrible and they discovered something they don't know if they're people in bored or not and round and round again so people have evidence that came from the commet empire shifts Jesus. But are they still there okay so it started again. They finally started touching on it who did the computer take over how would you have the computer and also stuff so got pretty good towards the end of it and then start to figure out things and we really needed that we needed that to happen and it happened there are interviewed well and they did say what they knew sort of maybe not all of it and things are going along so they know about the machines and the empire and that's what they needed so it's going to be a fight and the whole world is involved and everybody's going to know in a few minutes

Thor Freya

The questions are if the 10 or so mega comet empire ships with huge laser light computers are closer to the center of Saturn and or the unmanned or they take over my computers or not the empire is at them have the acquired them or are they in jeopardy and that is one of the it's really the main question and did somebody get to Dave and Carol to get the programs and other site ghwp and peacock and Schwarzkopf and wife and did they find out how to run in and all that and if so what are they doing with it but really the question is about the comet empire ships because they have the power to fire up through a diamond they have a power to drill to a diamond and things like that and people don't know if they're manned but they saw men coming from the common empire ships to the huge Mac fleet and that was 5 years ago there's more

Zues

There's a couple things more these things are giant and they reported them no but people have seen them and scanned them 10,000 miles is one and one said they think 20,000 miles because it came out oblong and they're two pieces and they do go together and it's not husband and wife it is husband and wife and they're not fighting each other and this several more they think 10 or 12 at least 10,000 miles each and they're made up of most of the world's cabinium and white gold at which which unfortunately came from Florida they're finding huge veins that are empty down below there's another point too these ships were seen in combat will and Bill saw them doing things and some of the max but not many only people very technical like Shaquille O'Neal and they're in trouble and they have information about it and so does Trump and people think he is Jason and he's a witness to their goings and cummings and to the clan and a minor one is Jamie and they were witnessing it so they know something about it and they're not saying they did say it in questioning no so they're going around and around but really this could get very heinous very fast those ships and people don't know what happened they were sending probes out and back and you've seen many movies about that kind of effect one of them is an excellent example is sphere know where someone else's computer it was exposed and was left alone and they go down and they are at each other and the machine is doing things it is what it's like and then we're there for quite a while

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unsettlingcreature · 1 year

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happy thip thursday I got tagged by @miraakulous-cloud-district to share a wip of what I'm working on!! so here's a snippet of what I've been tentatively calling "errant lad" :3 I don't know who to tag in particular for this, mainly because I lose track of who is writing stuff so consider this an open tag to anyone who wants to join in!!

Glancing away, Max carried on to his destination; the desks. At first, he just searched for an empty spot he could borrow without disturbing anything. But as he looked, it became clear that it was full. Setting the homework down on a chair, he reached for some of the sketches only to be interrupted by Noah's quiet voice.

"Don't."

Maxim turned to face him. "These desks are for communal use."

"Use the library for now," Noah suggested. "We'll clear you a space for later. Just don't touch Issy's stuff."

"Seriously?" When Noah didn't budge, Maxim groaned. "Fine. Fine! Get it sorted by tomorrow. I only have until Thursday to get this done."

"If it's for Murdock's class, you'll have better luck in the library anyway. You'll have missed whatever lecture it was for that work."

"Seriously?" Max repeated the word, though this time his frustration was aimed at the teacher and not his roommate. "If even you know more about that homework than I do, I'm screwed."

Ignoring the dig, Noah just sighed. "It doesn't count towards your final grade so just skip it and use the time to catch up. You're already four and a half lessons behind."

"Yes, but it'd only be the four if it weren't for a certain someone." When he didn't receive a reply, Max just sighed and turned to leave only to be stopped once again by Noah.

"Issy thinks that he's the one responsible for earlier," he said, avoiding Maxim's eyes in favour of his textbook. "He's trying to think of how he can make things up to you and avoid doing it again. In my opinion…" He looked up again, a dismissive glance that lasted only a second. "You're not worth it. You're just snob with a rich daddy who'll throw money at any problems you make until they disappear. Whatever you did for that expulsion must have been bad if it was something that even money couldn't fix."

For a moment, Max couldn't breathe. It was the most words he'd heard from Noah all day and they were scathingly caustic. Once his lungs remembered how to work, he took a deep breath as he fought to stay calm. On the exhale, it came out as more of a hiss and he knew he had no chance at winning this.

This was worse than Jason, in a way. Jason was familiar in that Maxim had dealt with his kind before even though his words had left him reeling from the reminder that what had happened couldn't stay hidden forever. Noah's familiarity came in his eyes, hollow in a way that Max saw every time he looked in a mirror. But more than that were the words themselves. It was why he couldn't find it in him to deny the words; because they were the same as the thoughts that rattled in his head even now.

Deep down, he knew he deserved this. He had been the first to bite and Noah was simply retaliating, using the ammunition freely given and available. Maxim knew he had no right to be upset and yet he couldn't help the sting of perceived betrayal.

Homework forgotten, he turned on his heel and fled with what felt like Noah's green eyes following him all the way.

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balillee · 3 years

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tommy's character gets far too much shit.

hi tumblr. i'm gonna need a few bitches to spread this post everywhere, essentially because i want someone, or just tommy really, to see it. so if you really want, you can screenshot it and post it on twitter, reddit, link it everywhere - go absolutely buck wild. i know he reads the VODS comments a lot, but they're chock full of people just insulting him, his character, his writing and everything about his story in the dream smp simply because they don't understand it and because they refuse to acknowledge his character's perspective (mainly because they only care about the pig). reading that many critical comments on something you've created can only make you feel worse about it eventually, and in light of all the awful techno apologist takes on his character, i wanted to basically just word vomit about how wonderfully crafted c!tommy is, as well as compile some other tumblr posts about his character.

there is a massive fuckin community of people who enjoy the character of tommy, because the character is incredible. i myself have made post after post after post commenting on and analysing tommy's character because i find that there's so much to pick apart. but that enthusiasm for his character only seems to be found on tumblr. reddit and twitter seem to hate his character, the VODS seem to be filled with comments from people who only care about techno's perspective (and treat techno as a reliable narrator, which, is the furthest thing from the truth - that guy lies through his teeth all the time), and the smp wiki is a hellscape of godawful takes and mistruths, not even on just tommy's character.

c!tommy is brilliantly acted and brilliantly written, and almost everything he does is either justifiable or has been rectified or admitted as a mistake. you can clearly make connections as to where he got his conclusions from. you feel what his character experiences, as a member of the audience, vividly.

if you look in the more objective sense, c!tommy, and this is especially in the context of him being the youngest character, is a scapegoat. people claim he's awful and destructive when in reality he's a lot less destructive than most characters on the server. a moment that comes to mind is where he diverts schlatt and quackity's attention from pogtopia by breaking part of the flag in manberg, and then replacing it so as to buy tubbo some time - he literally monologues after it about how he doesn't want to destroy but instead rebuild, and how he feels as if nobody else seems to understand that.

his arc in season two was incredible. it was very character driven, and it gave a spotlight to his motivations. at the start we see him in new l'manberg, and he's enjoying his time there, he's skeptical of his friend's presidency, but his main goal is to get back the discs so that he can stop dream and eliminate that threat. he made one screw up that didn't even matter to george, and he paid for it tenfold, even after dream had spent a while with puffy griefing the server and framing it on tommy - what tommy and ranboo did was convinient. then, in exile, we see c!tommy straight up get abused. he's gaslit and conditioned into being c!dream's friend, and in his brain he teaches himself that those acts of abuse are moments of bonding, and it eventually brings him to the point of wanting to end his own life - he's been torn away from his friends and his support system, and nobody will visit him consistently anymore because they only showed him pity, and all he had left was dream, who had hurt him.

but he doesn't die there, because while he didn't understand the full gravity of it back then like he does now, he recognises that dying isn't an escape, and he can beat dream, even if he doesn't know how. so this is where he goes to techno's place, and here's where the fandom starts to misinterpret the situation wildly.

it's the problem similar to when your parents tell you that they're owed something back because you put a roof over their head, despite that being Not How It Works. techno took tommy in and severely mistreated him emotionally. sure, and i understand this, c!techno is a bad communicator who isn't really that empathetic to anyone who isn't phil or wilbur, but that doesn't excuse the blatant lying to c!tommy's face, the guilt tripping, the friendship buying and the degrading. the day before the festival, tommy finally does something violent in his interrogation of fundy, and only then does techno tell him,,,,

that tommy's not equal to him, that techno doesn't respect him all that much, and that they're not friends.

from techno's perspective, and at the time, this was viewed as a positive development in their relationship. oh, he's starting to warm up to tommy! this friendship could really blossom!

no. from a more objective standpoint, what techno has just said to tommy is : 'i respect you only a little bit more now, because while you're starting to act more like me, you're still annoying and a burden.'

and i haven't even touched on the whole 'erasing the words 'Destroy L'manberg' from techno's to-do list' thing, because that instantly refutes the point of 'techno was upfront with his intentions the whole time' - because he wasn't! he may have said it the first time, but you also know what else he did? he repeatedly told tommy that they'd 'air the details out later' whenever the discs were brought up, and from a tommy viewer's perspective at the time, it was framed as if techno was no longer going to do that.

and i also haven't dared touch the 'i would have fought them all for you', because that's major guilt tripping if ever i've seen it.

so, the day of the festival comes, and here's where c!techno and his apologists completely misread c!tommy's thought process, and why he makes the decision he does.

tommy instantly regrets valuing the discs over tubbo, and it's framed as the culmination of tommy having become all the people he said he would never want to be like. and what does he immediately do? he tells tubbo to give up the disc, and he sides with tubbo. he puts his value in his friends, and, by proxy, l'manberg. and when he betrays techno, he tells him 'i'm sorry'.

from a more objective standpoint, tommy's time with techno is him valuing the discs over almost anything else. so, in leaving techno to be with tubbo again, he is valuing people above the discs. so when, on doomsday, techno says his 'discs aren't people' line, what he doesn't realise is that he himself fueled tommy's valuing of discs above people when attempting to fuel tommy's vengeance against tubbo and l'manberg. techno doesn't realise that he was an unhealthy presence for tommy, and an even worse influence.

what techno also doesn't seem to understand is that tommy never hated tubbo or l'manberg - tommy recognises, now at least, that his exile wasn't a product of tubbo, but a product of dream's manipulation, likely in part because at the time, especially with dream lying about tommy blowing up the community house, tommy was the only one who could see it because he had experienced it firsthand. so when techno sides with dream, it's like kicking tommy in the teeth.

and i want to mention that betraying someone doesn't necessarily make the person who was betrayed good, or in the right, or even justified, because tommy was entirely justified to leave techno. you know who else was betrayed? schlatt. but i don't see many schlatt apologists around angry at quackity for joining the rebellion.

tommy stole the axe of peace? good. it was a moment of tommy defining his self-worth, instead of having it defined by others. gone is the age of c!techno belittling him and deciding how much c!tommy should be respected. NEXT!

here's a moment i wanted to talk about that will forever be funny to me.

'i am a person.'

techno's very famous line from doomsday. techno says to tommy that discs aren't people, and that tommy should value people, despite not understanding that by leaving techno, he did just that. and what does tommy say in return, which has been omitted from every c!tommy-critical analysis, and every animatic?

'yes you are, but so are we.'

an acknowledgement of techno's hurt, to which tommy has already apologised for. a statement that says 'your hurt does not excuse, nor justify, the hurt you have inflicted onto us.' an acknowledgement that tommy has already learnt the lesson techno seems to be trying to 'teach' him. but you can't teach him anything by destroying.

c!tommy has had almost everything he has ever owned or built either taken from him or destroyed. ranboo even points out that the only two things of tommy's left standing are his house and his hotel, and if i'm honest, his house is dissheveled. it's a labyrinth of terror due only to how many times it's been torn apart. l'manberg being blown up didn't teach anyone anything about anarchy, or about valuing people over possessions. logstedshire being blown up didn't teach tommy to be obedient.

i could honestly ramble for ages about how nuanced tommy's character is and how much depth and complexity there is to his character's process and his relationship with others, but more than that, c!tommy is forgiving. he invites almost everyone who hates him to the grand opening of his hotel - if that isn't an indicator that he just wants friends, and not to be treated like the embodiment of evil, then i don't know what is. he holds grudges, but he doesn't really actively hate anyone, other than c!dream. but, we'll let him. c!dream deserves nothing but to be pummeled into the floor.

tommy doesn't spoonfeed his character nuance, and he doesn't really spell it out for his audience. he'll mention things like trauma and triggers in passing, but a lot of analysis on his motivations has to be picked up from what is said in passing or from what can be seen in between the lines.

i'd be here for hours if i were to talk about everything i love about c!tommy, because honestly he's one of my favourite characters, and there are so many angles you can look at his character from in terms of his age, his relationships with others, his motivations, his personality, his character arcs etc etc. so instead of doing that, i'm going to compile some much more specific analysis posts below to skim through because they highlight so many good aspects of his character.

^^ A thread about the 'yes you are, but so are we' line.

^^ About how shit the VODS comments are.

^^ A comment on how c!Tommy is actually pretty peaceful, and is actually less destructive than most characters on the server.

^^ Possibly the best c!Tommy analysis thread I've ever seen in relation to his trauma, which gives multiple perspectives.

^^ About how c!Tommy is treated as a scapegoat, and how, from an objective standpoint, he is no more violent than any other character, it's just that the little violence that is committed is blown far out of proportion.

^^ Tumblr user flypaw being a bad bitch, as per usual.

^^ c!Tommy being incredibly intelligent, and talking about wanting to rebuild and not destroy. A very underrated monologue of his.

^^ Something short about c!Tommy and c!Wilbur's relationship in Pogtopia.

^^ Less about c!Tommy, more a meta on L'Manberg. Really interesting to think about.

^^ A take on Doomsday.

I'll add some more posts in a reblog in the notes, but if anyone's post(s) is on this and they want me to take it off, let me know and I'll do that for you! Feel free to add your own banger c!Tommy takes or ones that you've found.

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sunflowershouto · 3 years

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if they hurt your feelings - headcanon (iwaizumi, oikawa)

𝐚/𝐧: here's some headcanons! lemme know if you want a part 2 with different/more characters cause these were super fun -leo

𝐠𝐞𝐧𝐫𝐞: hurt/comfort, angst to fluff, no warnings other than the boys accidentally being buttfaces

my haikyuu masterlist

𝐈𝐖𝐀𝐈𝐙𝐔𝐌𝐈

✰ Iwa is a fairly blunt person who doesn't mince words.

✰ That's not to say that he doesn't have a filter, but if he thinks something needs to be said, then he's going to say it.

✰ You were discussing plans for what to do after highschool, and Hajime said something that implied that he thought you were being naive.

✰ "You need to be more realistic about your plans for the future. Not everything is a fairy tale like you think it is."

✰ You understood his point, but the way that he said it was undeniably hurtful, and you reacted negatively almost immediately.

✰ You've always been worried that he sees you as being immature, and this really struck a nerve. After all, Iwa has always been calm and collected when it comes to making plans, he always seems to have it together.

✰ All of those little insecurities start to bubble up, and before you know it, there's a lump in your throat and your eyes are watering.

✰ The second you start to reply, and he hears the way your voice breaks, Hajime realizes that he's screwed up.

✰ "I-I know I'm not as good at this stuff as you are, Haji, but I'm not- I'm not an idiot. I just wanted to be optimistic."

✰ Hearing you say that breaks his heart a little bit.

✰ "Hey, hey, don't cry," he mumbles, and brings up a hand to the side of your face. He feels absolutely awful—all he wants to do is help you and make sure you're prepared, and instead he's made you feel like he doesn't trust your judgement. "I didn't mean that, not the way that I said it."

✰ He's stroking your cheek and trying to stay calm, but he's sort of panicking on the inside, because he can tell that there's something deeper that he's struck on and he doesn't know how to approach it.

✰ "I know how hard you're trying, baby. I know you're taking your future seriously, and I don't think badly of you for being optimistic. I'm sorry, I just want things to go well for you."

✰ He's just as straightforward about comforting you as he is about everything else, and that really helps.

✰ When he sees that your eyes are still watering, he pulls you to his chest and holds you tight. He presses his lips to your forehead and holds you there for a moment.

✰ You're starting to feel better as he addresses some of the root of the problem, and you sink further into his hold. Iwa always gives the best hugs, and it's hard not to feel better when he's holding you so lovingly.

✰ "I'm so sorry if I've ever made you feel like I don't believe in you," he murmurs. You can tell in his voice that guilt is eating him alive.

✰ The two of you stand there like that, with Hajime holding you and whispering reassurances, and just trying to fix any damage he might have just done.

✰ In the aftermath of it happening, he'd be a little extra sweet, take you on a nice date and just try to make up for it, and give you more reminders of how amazing he thinks you are.

✰ He's extra affectionate that evening too, and holds you close as you both fall asleep, as if he's still trying to apologize in his own way.

✰ Long term though, I see him wanting to have another discussion about why you might have those insecurities, because the idea of you thinking that he sees you as anything less that brilliant kills him a little inside.

✰ He loves you so much, and going forward he's much more careful of how he says things, and you guys have a much healthier, much more communicative relationship.

𝐎𝐈𝐊𝐀𝐖𝐀

✰ As much as we all love him, it's no secret that Tooru can be a little bit of a dick sometimes, even to people he cares about, and even when he doesn't mean to.

✰ He's really good at reading people on the court, but sometimes misses things when it comes to other people's emotions, especially subtle things.

✰ It's not that he doesn't care, but Oikawa is a hard worker who gets really caught up in his own routines and goals, which means he doesn't always stop and think about someone else's perspective.

✰ It happens over something that he sees as small, but something much more meaningful to you.

✰ You'd stayed up late preparing food last night, knowing that Tooru had an interview with a professional team the next day. You put a lot of effort into preparing a meal for him, wanting to give him a little extra motivation and support, even if you couldn't be there with him in person.

✰ It was a lot of cooking, but more than that, it was something that you had poured a lot of love into, and you were really proud to give it to him the next morning.

✰ "Sweetheart, I made you a bento last night to take with you; it's got all your favorites in it!"

✰ Tooru is shuffling around the apartment, finding his coat, keys, wallet, making sure he has everything he needs with him. He's preoccupied, and doesn't really stop to process what you've said.

✰ "That's okay, babe. I'm gonna eat out today," he calls as he gets to the front door. "I'll be home for dinner, love~!"

✰ And just like that, you hear the door shut, and Tooru is gone.

✰ You try not to feel too defeated, but the longer you stare at the tupperware on the counter and replay Oikawa's careless response in your head, the more frustrated you become.

✰ You'd stayed up all night just to make a stupid meal for him, and he didn't even say 'thank you' or 'sorry' for turning it down. Hell, you'd barely even gotten a goodbye out of him.

✰ You headed to work and tried to carry on with your day, trying to tell yourself not to overreact or be selfish. After all, it was a big day for him, and you were worrying about a stupid lunchbox.

✰ Trying to get over what had happened, you send Tooru a text at around lunchtime.

✰ hi love, how's it going so far?

✰ He didn't open it right away, but you assumed he was just busy, and didn't think anything of it.

✰ You finished your shift, and when you checked your phone. . . Nothing.

✰ Tooru was busy, yes, but he normally always found time to text you back. In fact, it was usually him blowing up your phone while you were at work.

✰ You just sighed and headed back to the apartment and decided to wait for him.

✰ By the time he got back, his dinner was cold and you had already eaten, and were now sitting on the sofa, watching reruns on TV.

✰ "There's my girl!" he chirps like nothing's the matter, and stops dead in his tracks when you cast him a cold stare over your shoulder before looking back at the TV.

✰ "Oh..." He sets his things down on the table and rubs the back of his neck, unsure of what to do. "I did something, didn't I?"

✰ "You think so?" you mutter, though you can't help but feel like you're reacting a bit too harshly. But even when the anger subsides, the hurt is still leftover, simmering.

✰ He slowly sits down next to you, and pokes your cheek, knowing full well that you're not in the mood. "C'mon," he chides, his voice light and playful even though he's clearly worried. "Are you gonna keep pouting or are you gonna tell me what's the matter?"

✰ You resist for a moment, but melt as he continues to stare at you. Finally, you groan and turn to face him. "This morning, Tooru. I spent hours last night making you that lunch, and you didn't even care. You barely said goodbye, and you didn't tell me you'd be home late tonight, either."

✰ "Ah... Crap."

✰ He's quiet for a minute, and you're not sure what he's thinking, and then you realize that he looks like he's about to cry. He starts apologizing profusely, and pulls you into a hug so tight that you think your lungs might have deflated.

✰ "I promise I'll eat everything you cook for the next million billion years! And I'll say goodbye to you every morning for the rest of forever!"

✰ You can't help but smile now. "Tooru, I don't think we'll be alive that lon-"

✰ "Don't say that! The rest of forever! Goodbye kisses!"

✰ Oikawa is nothing if not theatrical, but the emotion is genuine, and you're reminded why you love him so much.

✰ The rest of the night he might as well be glued to you because he literally does not leave your side. You're loading the dishwasher and he's hanging off of you like a giant whiny koala and kissing all over your face.

✰ And you know what, you love it :,)

#oikawa tooru imagines #oikawa angst #oikawa x reader #oikawa imagine #oikawa tooru x reader #oikawa tooru imagine #hajime iwaizumi fluff #hajime iwaizumi x reader #hajime iwaizumi imagine #iwaizumi imagine #iwaizumi x reader #iwaizumi angst #oikawa fluff #iwaizumi fluff #haikyuu imagines #haikyuu x reader #haikyuu headcanons #hq x reader

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butchba1t · 3 years

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Ok so. I'm a ~complete stranger~. I've never seen your blog before, never interacted before, we probably run in completely different circles here on Tungle dot heck. I just happened to see your most recent post about the pronouns when I decided to check out the hurt/comfort tag before bed (idk why it showed up there? It just did). So honestly, feel free to completely disregard this message, especially if you just wanted to vent and don't want any advice.

But! But. The thing is, I saw your post, and like. I've Been There.

I've been in a super similar situation. I questioned my gender and my pronouns for a super heckin long time, all thru high school and beyond, and I didn't come out as non-binary to my Very Not Cis group of friends for the longest time because of all the doubts. I kept thinking, well, I can't REALLY be non-binary, because *insert many many many many MANY different doubts and justifications here*.

I just wanna share a few things that I wish I knew years ago, and I hope they help.

(Forgive me if I repeat myself or am slightly incoherent, it's late and I'm very sleepy.)

1. You are not faking. There are no "qualifications" to being non-binary. You don't need to check off a certain number of things off a checklist in order to be considered "really" non-binary. Your gender is up to you, and you alone, and if anyone tries to tell you that you don't "count" because you don't experience *insert thing*, then screw them (and not in a fun way). They don't dictate your identity or your life.

2. You Do Not Need To Have All The Answers. You don't need to have every little aspect of your identity nailed down and sequestered into a neat little box that will stay the same forever! You don't have to have a Final Answer, life isn't an essay question that has to be submitted by a certain date! You don't have to pick something and commit to it forever. You don't need to make any sort of Final Decision on what your gender is. You don't even need a definite answer to the question "what is your gender identity", you can just shrug and go "wouldn't you like to know, weather boy >:3" and leave it at that!

Half the time I describe my gender as "girl in the same way a square is a rectangle, non-binary in the way that pink is light red" (yes I stole that from a tiktok audio, why do you ask?)! And that's fine!

3. I'll let you in on a secret: you can change your gender and pronouns as many times as you want!!! You can use they/them today, she/her tomorrow. You can use they/them for 20 Heckin Years, then decide one day that you wanna use neo-pronouns! Or you wanna use she/her! Doing so does not invalidate the time you spent using they/them, and doesn't mean you were "faking".

Gender is fluid and weird and wibbly-wobbly. Sometimes it's vaguely incomprehensible. Sometimes everything clicks and makes perfect sense. Sometimes it stays the same over a life time, and sometimes it changes slowly over a lifetime, and sometimes, for some people, it changes day to day.

It's okay to be scared and uncertain. You have a whole lifetime to figure yourself out, and a whole lifetime of things to learn and experience. You don't have to nail down everything right now, and you're allowed to change pronouns as many times as you want.

You said your friend used gender neutral language for you, and it made you happy! That's great!!! Go ahead and keep using gender neutral terms! Maybe you'll change your mind later, maybe you won't, and it doesn't matter which one it ends up being!

What matters is what makes you happy, and what helps you feel most comfortable and content in day to day life.

Again, I'm sorry to pop out of nowhere like this into your inbox and leave a huge essay, but I just. Your post really hit me somewhere personal and close, and I wanted to share all the things I wish I knew 3 years ago.

I hope you find what makes you happy, and I wish you a wonderful, wonderful life. Goodnight, sweet dreams in whatever time one you're in, and best of luck on your journey through life.

Thank you so much. This was a really important message for me that you sent at the perfect time. Every now and then I come and read it again and I think it’s time for me to share this with other people who might need to read this as well and I hope it helps them too.

#thank you so much really #I’m still in the process of accepting myself and my identity #but really this was huge #they/she #genderfluid #nonbinary #enby #lgbt #gender identity #trans #nblnb

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yelenayena · 3 years

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Sweet Candy

Pairing: Yelena x Fem!reader

Genre: Romance, fluff, modern AU

A/N: This story is a little bit longer, so I suggest you bring your fav beverage, play your fav songs, and enjoy your free time this weekend by fantasizing about Yelena 💕 Suddenly I wanna make a tsundere Yelena, and I think I love every side of Yelena. I gave the title Sweet Candy bc between you and Yelena are really sweet like a candy 🥺 💕 I hope you like it, and I hope you understand my English because I’m poor at grammar hehe.

Summary: Your apartment was on fire, your best friend, Zeke, couldn't help you bc he wanted to fix his relationship with his gf. He insisted you stay in Yelena’s house for a while. After you stayed in Yelena’s house for weeks, on Valentine's Day, Yelena did something that opens up your mind and changed your life forever!

Warning: Explicit Content!

You just started your first year in university. You decided to study abroad, because your childhood friend, Zeke, had already come and being an international student, and that was inspired you as you saw his student life looked so interesting.

A couple of months ago you came to the same university as Zeke, and only a few days ago you got an unpleasant event when your apartment was on fire. So today, Zeke told you to come to his best friend’s house to stay in their home for a while.

You have just arrived at Zeke's friend's house, and you are standing in front of the door. On the third knock, the door opened. The tall-ass blonde, the one who opened the door, looked at you suspiciously.

By ignoring her expression, you smiled widely. “Hi! You must be Yelena! I’m Y/N, nice to meet ya!”

Before she responded to your words, you stepped into her house. “Wow! Your house is so lovely!”

Yelena’s eyes widened as you came into her house. “I’m sorry, but who the hell are you?” She asked with an annoyed tone.

You turned your body around to look at her, “Ah! Zeke hasn't told you yet?” You threw yourself on the couch, “I’m sorry for coming to your house so suddenly without prior notice, but in my condition, I also have no choice. So he asked me to come to your house, and he will give you further details later.”

She stared at you with a gaze full of confusion. You smiled nervously, “I’m sorry but I’m really bad at explaining.”

She held her index finger to her temple, “just hold a sec!” She brought and placed you in front of the door then she closed it.

You sighed and smiled sadly. You can understand her conduct, however, you are just a stranger to her. You sat on the step in front of her house, waiting and thinking, if she refuses you, maybe you have to find another motel or guest house nearby to campus.

In the house. Yelena grabbed her phone on the desk and called Zeke. On the third ring, Zeke picked up the call.

“ZEKE! What the hell did you do to me?!” She said indignantly.

“I meant to call you. So, she must have arrived at your house?” he asked.

Even though she knew Zeke wouldn’t see her face, she still nodded her head. “Uh-huh! And why the fuck she came to my house?! I mean, who the hell is she??

Yelena can hear Zeke sighed, “Yelena, listen. Y/N is my hometown friend, my grandmother even considered her as her own grandchild and I considered her as my lil’ sister. She studied in the same university as us. But unfortunately, her apartment was on fire the day before yesterday, it was on the news, you knew it, right?

“I immediately brought her to my place when it happened. She only had me in this city because she hasn’t had many friends in her department. She slept in my place last night, but my girlfriend was really upset when she saw Y/N in my apartment.

“You know my relationship was on the rocks, so it’s hard for my girlfriend to believe that Y/N is just my friend. So please, accept her in your house until she finds a new apartment, or until my girlfriend believes me and allows her to stay in my apartment. Okay?” he explained.

“It's so sudden,” Yelena replied.

“Please, I'm begging you. I'm so worried about her, she had no luck in her life, so you're the one I can trust to help her,” Zeke pleaded.

“Does she really have no relatives or friends here?”

“No, she only had me. You know we’re foreign students. She just started her first year in our university. I can’t let her stay in her new friends’ house, I ain’t trusting them. I really want to help her but unfortunately, I can’t help her right now because I wanna fix my relationship with my girlfriend, I’m screwed without her. You owed me so it’s time to repay the favor by allowing Y/N to stay in your house for a while. I promise she won't do such annoying things during her stay. She’s a good girl.”

Yelena sighed, “fine! I’ll allow her to stay in my house JUST for a while.”

“I know I can count on you!” Said Zeke happily.

“I told you, I can’t blame your girlfriend because you fucked every girl you met before you dated her. So take your responsibility and be a good man! I’m out!” Yelena turned off her phone.

When Yelena opened the door, she saw you walk through the yard to leave her house. “Hey! Wait!” She shouted.

You turned your head immediately when you heard her voice.

“I just called Zeke and- you can stay here for a while,” she said.

You smiled happily, “really?!” She nodded. You’re walking toward her and hugging her. “Thank you!”

Yelena looked awkward, “whoa- whoa- what is it for?”

“It’s my habit to hug someone when I’m happy,” you answered. “And- this is the reason why Zeke’s girlfriend was upset when she came to his place and she saw me hug him,” you continued, speaking more to yourself than to Yelena.

But Yelena can still hear your voice, she let out a long sigh, “the two of you really are weirdos! Come in!”

This time, Yelena lets you come to her house. And since today, you’ll stay in her house together. You told your story about the fire in your apartment and when Zeke brought you to his apartment until his girlfriend came over. You convinced her that you won’t stay long in her house until you find a new apartment. You believed Zeke so much, so when he insisted that you have to stay in Yelena’s house, you obeyed him without question. If Zeke believes Yelena, so you believe her as well.

She lets you sleep in the guest room. You asked her how much you have to pay for the room, but she refused it and told you it was just for a while so you don’t have to pay her except you paid yourself for a meal.

You stayed in Yelena’s house for almost a week. You thought she was a little bit cocky with an unfriendly attitude, but she is just a straightforward person with an expressionless face. She's nice actually, at least she still lets you stay in her house until now because you discovered difficulties to find a new apartment. People might consider her as a male because of her masculine figure, and she is a very tall woman with a height of six feet three inches. For you, she’s the perfect figure for the androgynous look, she look pretty and handsome at the same time. Her hair is blonde in a short bob with straight bangs, and it suits her well. You bet she’s pretty famous among girls or boys.

Even so, you found that her friends are just Zeke and Onyankopon, a cool and nice black guy. You found out quickly because she rarely hangs out with other friends except for Zeke and Onyankopon, but she's good at negotiating with others. You often see her talking on the phone with her business partner, and in the end, she smiled with satisfaction and told you that she reached an advantageous deal. She’s also an ambitious person.

Yeah, she’s a third-year business student just like Zeke, so she often gets the assignments for making a brand or a start-up from her lecturers. Well, maybe now you can be her new good friend, you’re a friendly and funny person, so it’s not hard for you to get along with her.

“What the hell are you doing in the kitchen for hours??” Yelena asked you on the phone. You can hear the class ambiance behind her voice.

“How did you know?” you asked.

“You didn't realize? I’ve been watching you from the CCTV in every corner of my house. Even when you did some silly movements in front of the TV to workout,” she explained.

You turned your head to the upper corner where the CCTV hangs. You looked at that with surprise. How can you not realize that there are many CCTVs in her house, and she's been watching you all the time!

“You! You're a sly peeper!”

She chuckled, “my house, my rule. So what are you up to?”

“I’m making chocolate. Valentine's Day is almost coming, so I wanna make delicious chocolate for my crush. Don't worry, I'll clean up the kitchen when I’m done.”

“Chocolate? That sucks! Why are you in such a hurry? It's still a week 'till Valentine's Day.”

You rolled your eyes, “as you know, I suck at cooking, so I need to learn to make un chocolat parfait.”

“Ah! And I still remember how horrible an omelet you made!” her tone was almost mocking.

“I know you're really good at cooking, but please don't be so mean to me.”

She laughed slightly, “okay. Do what you want. Bye.”

You thought you would be able to make perfect chocolate for your crush instantly, but it’s not that easy! Luckily, Yelena was kind enough to permit you to use her kitchen often. Although she’s good at cooking, she can't help you to give you some advice to make chocolate because she hates sweets. You practice almost every day until the V day comes, and efforts won’t betray you, you did your best to make beautiful and delicious chocolate.

“Finally-” you said while straightening your back and stretching your aching muscles, feeling incredibly relieved. Today is Valentine’s day, now you can go to college before the morning class starts, and give this beautiful chocolate you made to a Mister Perfect.

“You did it?” asked Yelena, you saw her standing on the stairway in the kitchen, still wearing her pajamas. And she stepped down to the floor.

“I did it!” you said happily. You looked at the wristwatches, “and I can go to the morning class on time. How could I've been awesome with that! Ah, I bought savory croissants you like and made hot coffee on the dining table. It's just a little reward for letting me use your kitchen, and as a valentine's gift.” You smiled and winked at her.

For the first time, she looked at you with eyes that sparkled. She smiled slightly, “thanks- So, when are you going to give that chocolate to the unlucky guy?”

You smiled at her, sometimes, she can be an innocent, sarcastic woman. “Perhaps, during lunchtime. He’s a second-year student in the Political Sciences Department, and he’s the coolest guy I’ve ever met on campus. When he puts on his football uniform, he's even cooler!” you said full of joy while imagining your crush’s face.

She rolled her eyes, “I don't give a shit. Besides, giving chocolate to the boys on Valentine’s Day is kinda old fashioned. Why don't you give him a bouquet or a concert ticket?”

“I- I don't know. Isn't that something men always do?”

She clucked her tongue, “it’s women’s emancipation.”

“You're right!” you said eagerly. “Chocolate and flowers! That's cool! I’ll buy flowers for him, too! Thank you, Yelena, you're brilliant!” and you left her to go to campus.

In the late afternoon, it’s a beautiful day at the end of winter, the warmth of the sun is still accompanying people on the outside.

It’s valentine’s day, a day full of love. But all you can feel is the cold wind in your heart, the day gets grey, and pain haunts you. You remembered all the hurtful things he said to you, you feel so rejected by him. It really hurts when you expect so much more from a person you once liked so much. You’ve liked him ever since the first day of college.

Love can sometimes be magic but magic can sometimes just be an illusion. Before you realize it, the tears stream down your face. You walked so slow in Yelena’s neighborhood.

You heard the horn behind you. “Ayo, Taffy! Walking to my house?” That’s Yelena with her car, driving very slowly to follow your steps.

You turned your head to her. She looked at you with a surprise, “Hey, you okay?”

“I- I’m okay,” you said sobbing.

Without asking you first, she scrambled out of the car, and put you in the front passenger seat of the car, and got behind the wheel.

“What happened?” she asked gently.

You cried harder when she asked that. Moments later, you told her your story when you got a raw rejection from your crush. “He even called me fat and I'm not his type. I mean, I’m okay with his ridicule, it's a fact after all. But when he mocked my chocolate, that's when I felt hurt. Anyhow, it was my hard work you even helped me make it,” and you cried again.

“I did nothing, you made it yourself with love,” she said and she turned her vehicle around.

“Where are you going?” you asked.

“I’m going to give that motherfucker a lesson.”

“You- WHAT?”

“Gimme his location!”

“Yelena- No! Turn around your car! Let's just go home.”

She gazed at you in silence for a while, “just shut the fuck up and keep your seat belt fastened!” she spoke firmly.

In the end, you just let her drive to the university yard where your crush and his friends are hanging around. Yelena insisted on giving him a lesson. Your heart raced when you saw her walk through the yard and stepped closer to the table where your crush sat.

Your crush stopped laughing when she stood in front of him, it also gave his friends in silence and looked at her in confusion. “Ayo! Rough guy!” She greeted him with a condescending tone.

“Who the hell are you, tomboy?” he asked her.

“Nobody, just a courier. I delivered a package for you,” she showed him a chocolate box and a bouquet.

“Ah, that’s from Y/N, huh? Take back, I ain't gonna need that. If I take that shit, I’m afraid that fatty would think I will accept her feelings.”

Yelena spat on the ground, “you know I was relieved I never dated a guy, and the guy I hate the most is the guy like you. You're more gay than I am, y’know? Before you mocked her, look at yourself in the mirror whether you're better than her or not! You think you're perfect, huh?”

Yelena threw the flowers and the chocolate on your crush’s face. Her hands in the fluid movement to deliver precisely aimed blows to a startled opponent.

“What the fuck!” He shouted out in shock. Getting rid of the flowers on his face and the chocolate stains off his jacket.

“Take that, you motherfucker! You should've respected her! It shows her love and hard work!” Yelena grunted, “but at least I’m relieved she wouldn't fall for an asshole like you again.” And she left him without waiting for his response.

You watched what Yelena did to him far behind, and it gives you a new perspective that you adore her so much.

“Thank you,” you said gently when you and she sat in the car.

“For what?”

“For everything. Why are you so kind to me? I mean, I am the one who often troubles you, but you still want to add a new enemy, because of me. I’ve seen everything you’ve done to him, and I really appreciate it.” You laughed strangely, “you were very rude to him, but I think he deserved it.

She grunted, “that son of a bitch deserves worse. Why do you think I'm doing this to you?” She looked at you seriously with her deep voice.

You find it difficult to answer. In silence, you looked at each other. You felt an odd feeling when you looked into her big beautiful eyes. You felt captivated by the look in her eyes, so you couldn't move your body when you realized her body moved closer to yours as she tried to kiss you.

As though conscious of what she was about to do, she stopped and sat up straight again. She cleared her throat awkwardly, “and the only one who can make fun of you is me.” She stared at the last small chocolate box on your lap. “Oh, there’s one more.”

“Yup, there is. Don’t worry, I’ll throw away this thing.”

She grabbed the small box immediately, “don’t! I’ll eat it.”

“What? Don't you hate sweets?”

“It’s okay if it's your make,” she eats a piece of chocolate you made. “Umm- not bad, ” she smiled slightly after she finished eating, then she turned the engine on.

After the incident on Valentine’s day, you can't look at her in the same way again, you felt confused about your feelings towards her. You thought she was just your friend, but now you realized you want her more than just a friend. You don't want to ruin your friendship with her, you need to find a new apartment as soon as possible no matter how to keep a distance from her and reset unnecessary feelings.

Luckily, you got a new apartment so you can leave Yelena’s house. Yelena and Zeke helped you pack the stuff and decorate your new room. After those busy days, you can finally enjoy your free time in your new apartment, all alone. And it gives you extra time to prioritize your revenge plan, once you've accepted the insult of the guy you liked. And a wise man said the best revenge is to improve yourself.

On the other hand, you wouldn't believe how much Yelena missed you. She felt empty when she stayed alone, she missed your presence in her house. She once got so annoyed by your noisy existence, but now she really wants to hear all your ridiculous babbling. When she thought of you, she smiled slightly, she didn't believe she could fall for a silly girl like you. Silly but sweet.

Since when did this feeling grow in her heart? She didn't know. Little thing she knew, you're the sweetest, most sincere girl she's ever met. Sometimes she wishes you could open your heart to a girl like her, but she doesn't want to make you feel uncomfortable if she expresses any romantic interest in you. To get rid of all her thoughts about you, she occupied herself with the project the lecturer gave her. It is funny, you two are mutually interested in each other, but you two are too afraid to express your feelings.

Time flies so fast. Spring break is over. You are ready to open a new chapter of your life in this warm spring. You were viral by the rejection video of your crush to you, it was a nightmare because everyone recognizes you with something you don't want to be. But now, everyone on campus is amazed by the change you made to yourself. And the best thing is, your crush seems regretful that he has rejected and said something cruel to you. Now, you have some respect from others.

“Wow, I heard an issue that you're now some big news and one of the hotties in this university.”

You heard a familiar voice when you walked alone in the park near your faculty building. You frowned at your face and turned around your body, your eyes widened as you saw a big-beauty blonde standing behind you.

“Long time no see and, look at you, you've changed a lot! Now you've become- a Barbie doll? Eww! You look more ugly than before when you still have those fats in your body,” she continued.

You chuckled, “we’ve lived together under the same roof for almost three weeks, and I got your own dictionary. When you say no, it means yes. So when you say I’m ugly, it means I’m pretty?”

“Jesus, no! I tell the truth, I swear, the new you is ugly.”

“I, I just wanna love myself more by changing my lifestyle to make it healthier,” you said, trying to sound nonchalant.

“Whatever. I rather like your old appearance because now you’re a little conscious. Many morons will steal glances at you.”

“What?”

She sighed heavily, “something that didn’t change in you is you still slow like a sloth! Then, I’m leaving!”

“Hey, wait!” You grabbed her long arm to hold her step, “it’s unfair you come and go like a fart!”

Just one touch from you gives her a magical sensation. She then grabbed your hands and pulled your body to get closer to hers.

“I miss you so much! I can’t even stop thinking about you once you leave my house,” she hoarsely whispered.

She bent over you and kissed you. You were shocked by her sudden act, but her kiss is pure, fresh, and thirst-quenching. You felt her stiffening in surprise when you kissed her back, then she continued to insert her tongue into your mouth and moved wildly to play with yours. You two now are kissing so passionately, feeling the burn by the lust of each other.

“So this means, we’re stepping to the next level” she asked with a broad smile on her face. She looked happy.

You smiled mischievously, “what do you think?”

I think Yelena is the type who can make a straight girl gay. Who can ignore this big-beauty-badass bae 🥵🥵

My fav quotes from Yelena in this story 💕

Yelena to your crush: “...I was relieved I never dated a guy, and the guy I hate the most is a guy like you. You're gayer than I am, y’know?”

[she acted like a gentleman 🥰]

Sweet moments with Yelena 💕

Yelena to you: “Why do you think I'm doing this to you?”

[and you two were looked at each other until she tried to kiss you but she stopped it 😔]

You to Yelena: “Yup. I’ll throw away this thing.”

Yelena to you: “Don’t! I’ll eat it.”

You to Yelena: “Don’t you hate sweets?”

Yelena to you: “It’s okay if it’s your make.”

[then she ate your chocolate even she hates sweets 🥺]

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If this is too dark, or if you aren't in the headspace to respond, please feel free to ignore this. I've been feeling a little sad lately, and I was wondering if I could get Bumblebee, Optimus, and Starscream's reaction to their human conjunx with recent self harm scars? If you don't want to answer, that is completely fine, you can absolutely delete this!! I hope you're doing well, sending you my thoughts and love!!

I did some scenarios, and it isn't too dark. Selfharm is something I struggle with as well, even though I haven't hurt myself in a while now, but the urges happen pretty often. I feel like Screamer is pretty OOC, but that’s just how I felt about him at the time of writing this so deal with it. I didn’t feel like writing Bee this time, but I have this post about him on the same topic. Also if you search “selfharm” on my blog you can find stuff on that subject with other characters too

~Starscream~

“What the scrap are these?” Starscream shrieked, which brought you out of your slumber.

“What the hell Star? Why are you yelling in the middle of the night?” you groaned in your half asleep state.

You looked up at him and saw him pointing at your wrist. Your sleeve had hiked up your arm and exposed the fairly recent cuts that were scattered all over it.

“Fuck” you sighed. “You know what they are”

“Yes, but why do they look so fresh? I thought you had stopped with this”

“Because I didn’t stop, okay? I couldn’t, I can’t, I don’t know how…”

“By Primus you infuriate me sometimes” Starscream muttered.

“Well screw you too” you said, turned your back to him and pulled your covers over your head.

Starscream could see you starting to tremble and he could hear you trying to keep your voice down so he couldn’t hear you cry, but he heard you anyway.

“I-I didn’t mean it like that” he sighed and grabbed your covers carefully with two digits, pulling them back down to your shoulders. He also turned you back to face him.

“We-Well how the hell did you mean it then?” you cried.

“I just meant that I don’t like seeing you hurt. That infuriates me, seeing you in so much pain that you end up hurting yourself. Why wouldn’t you just contact me?”

“Because what the hell am I supposed to say to you? “Love of my life, I feel like I can’t cope and hurt myself again, come get me, giant robot boyfriend whose existence is supposed to be a secret”? You can’t help me with this, no matter how much you want to” you said shakily.

“Maybe not, but for Primus’ sake you could at least let me try” he groaned.

“What if I don’t want you to? What if I just want you to live your life and be happy without me?”

“There is one major flaw in that logic”

“And what’s that?” you asked, with a tad of mockery in your voice.

“I can’t be happy without you” Starscream said.

That sentence, those words, broke the dam. You threw yourself at his hand and cried until you fell back to sleep. Starscream watched you pretty much the whole night and kept rubbing your back with two of his digits. If it was up to him, he would never let you go.

~Optimus Prime~

You were sitting on the sofa at the base and watching Optimus while he worked on the computer. Everyone else was on a mission and Ratchet was recharging for the first time in forever, so the two of you got a little bit of time to yourselves.

Your thigh was itching like crazy, but you were sure that if you gave in to the temptation of scratching it, Optimus would notice something was wrong. He was perceptive like that and he knew the signs of when you had hurt yourself.

From the corner of his optic, Optimus could see you on the couch. You seemed to be struggling with something, since you looked quite antsy.

“Are you alright my love?” he asked and turned to you, stopping whatever it was that he was doing on the computer.

“I’m good, why are you asking?” you smiled nervously.

“You seem like something is bothering you”

“It’s just… I don’t want to disappoint you”

“Just tell me what is going on, please”

“I… I hurt myself again last evening and…” your voice faded to silence at the end.

Optimus just looked at you. You knew he wouldn’t get mad at you over this, but you still felt like you had let him down somehow.

“I am aware it is a bit late to ask, but do you require medical attention?”

“No, no, the wounds are really superficial and I cleaned them afterwards, so I should be fine… I know it’s a dumb thing to do, but sometimes I don’t know what else to do when I have a bad moment”

“I’m worried about you (Name), I know you do not mean to end your life, but I worry that one day you are going to take it too fat, even if it is by accident, and just knowing you feel the need to hurt yourself because you are in such a bad place mentally, pains me” Optimus said and offered his servo to you. You stepped onto his hand and he lifted you closer to his face. “I do not mean to guilt you about the matter, but I still hope you know that” he added.

“I know you don’t mean anything bad by it, but even so, I gotta admit, it stings a bit” you said and looked down.

Optimus had always appreciated your honesty and that was not about to change now. He just didn’t really know what to say to you after that. You finally broke the silence and said: “I would like to ask you something”

“What would you like to know?”

“Why do you even put up with me? You have your duties as a Prime and I feel like I’m just adding to your burden, by… being me. I don’t understand why you would want someone like me as your conjunx”

“My love…” Optimus sighed and the look in his optics saddened.

“I’m sorry, forget I asked” you said and shook your head.

“There is nothing to “put up with” as you put it. I love you, all of you, and there is nothing you can do to change my mind about that” he smiled gently and brushed your cheek with his thumb.

You could feel the tears starting to roll down your cheeks, but for the first time in forever, they were happy tears. You knew Optimus would always be honest with you, and even though there was that little voice in the back of your head, telling you that you weren’t worthy of him, in that moment, that voice could go to hell. He loved you and you knew he always would, no matter what, because you were worth it.

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