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zaynesevol · 4 months

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Hiii !!

I really love your writings and i was wondering if i could request something :3? Zayne is sick and he's hiding it because he doesn't want to anyone to know and since he's a doctor, he thinks he can treat himself. But of course mc sees whats happening and they're taking care of zayne! Take your time if you accept this one :33 but its okay if you dont !

𝐂𝐇𝐄𝐂𝐊-𝐔𝐏!

𝐒𝐘𝐍𝐎𝐏𝐒𝐈𝐒: you taking care of a sick zayne !

𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐒: fluff, zayne’s embarrassed about being sick, reader feels like they did something wrong, you end up taking care of zayne

𝐀/𝐍: this was such a cute request omg

lately, you’ve noticed that zayne has becoming a little distant. it makes you wonder, did i do something wrong?

i mean, who can blame you? whenever he doesn’t go to work he stays cooped up in his bedroom. for when he does, he’s instantly rushing to get out of your sight. it’s almost like he’s hiding something from you, but you don’t know what.

today, you’re determined to figure out what’s going on. you’re not letting him sneak away so easily this time.

you sit down on the couch awaiting his arrival. as soon as he comes home, you’re sure he’s just going to mutter a quick hi and dash to the bedroom.

over the past few days you’ve been a bit stressed about what’s going on. so, you tried a few searches but nothing seems to give you an answer.

why is my boyfriend ignoring me?

how to tell if your boyfriend is mad at you

reasons your boyfriend may be ignoring you

groaning as you shut your phone off, you hear the sound of his keys inserting into the lock and twisting. you shoot up from the couch, prepared to start interrogating the man.

when he enters the house, his immediately starts taking off his glasses, hanging his coat on the rack. he doesn’t even seem to notice the intense stare you’re giving him.

when he turns around, he jumps slightly. he wasn’t expecting you to be so close to him. now he sees you are, he grows a bit panicked. and you can tell he is.

“what’s going on with you?” you question, eyebrows furrowing with your crossed arms waiting for a response.

he chuckles, shaking his head. “there is nothing wrong, y/n. now, i really need to get to the room. there’s things i have to do.”

there it is. he’s trying to escape from you, again. you know damn well he doesn’t have to do anything, he’s just trying to get away from you!

“no you don’t! tell me now, why have you been avoiding me? is there something wrong? did i do something to upset you?” you’re throwing millions of questions at him at a time, and he only has the mental capacity to answer one.

“no, you didn’t do anything wrong. i just really need to go.” he replies, trying to head off before you grab his arm.

“please, if i did something just tell me. i’ve been worried sick about what’s going on, and you won’t let me know.”

he sighs, seeing your clear upset expression. he doesn’t want you feeling this way, but, he also wants to avoid any embarrassment from what he’s about to admit.

“fine. i’m…sick.” he admits, closing his eyes nervously so he can avoid seeing whatever type of reaction you have.

you can only gasp. there’s no way he was trying to hide the fact he was sick, you can only think, why?

“seriously? why didn’t you tell me? is that why you’ve been avoiding me?”

“i didn’t want to take the risk of getting you ill. the reason why i’ve been going to work less is because i’m actually going to appointments. i’m a doctor myself, so i was a bit humiliated to tell you about what i was feeling.” he admits, swallowing the lump in his throat.

“and for the reason you refuse to come out of your room?” you ask, demanding an answer.

“to be honest, i thought i’d be able to take care of myself.”

you instantly throw your arms around his neck, burying your face into his chest as you look up at him. “don’t ever do that again. okay? i’ll take care of you. no matter what happens.” you state, dragging him to your bedroom.

“that won’t be necessary. believe me, i don’t want you to waste any time trying to tend to someone who was too careless on avoiding getting sick.”

“and believe me, i won’t be leaving you alone like this anytime soon.” you retort, laying him down on the bed.

you bring out your phone, searching up, how do i take care of my sick boyfriend?

seeing the results, you immediately snatch the pillows from under his head and start fluffing them. he watches you with amusement, not understanding what you’re trying to accomplish, but he appreciates it.

“do you feel hot or cold?” you ask, needing this information to take on your next steps of helping him feel comfortable.

“cold.” hearing his answer, you immediately rush downstairs, preparing him some water and heating up something warm to place below his feet in order to warm him up.

after what seems to be around fifteen minutes, he hears your feet rushing upstairs to the room. he chuckles, wondering what type of mischief you caused while being downstairs.

when you open the door, he sees you cooked him his favorite meal along with numerous warm items to help him stay toasty.

“y/n, you didn’t have to do all of this.” he softly mutters, watching you prepare everything to help him recover.

“yes i did! it says this may help you recover fast!” he can only smile at your determination, feeling incredibly lucky on how he was able to fall in love with you before anyone else.

after a few minutes, he’s sighing in content.

“everything feels great. unfortunately, there’s only one thing i don’t have that would certainly help me get better way faster.” you perk up, wondering what crucial thing zayne needs in order to make him feel better.

“what is it?”

“you next to me.” hearing his answer, you giggle, sliding into the bed right next to him, laying your head on his chest as he sticks an arm around you.

“you do realize you have a high chance of catching what i have, right?”

“yeah, but it’ll be worth it. as long as you’re here with me.”

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wonder2realities · 2 months

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having trouble with manifesting physical results?

when it comes to manifestation, i feel like everyone acts like theres a limit and usually that limit revolves around physical changes. "you cant lose weight unless you work out AND listen to subliminals, you have to put in the work!!!" — what if i were to tell you that you can manifest literally any physical change without even moving? you probably wouldnt believe me because of the idea that you need to "work" to earn something...and yet with all of the physical changes i've manifested, i havent "worked" for anything. how? here's a little list of the rules i stick by !

1. SHAMELESSNESS IS KEY!

i'm someone who gets embarrassed very easily, over the smallest things but when it comes to manifesting anything...you gotta be shameless. yes i am waking up with a BBL and a 2-inch waist, what about it. you can pull up to my house, with scientific evidence of how thats not possible but idc cuz its happening. infact, it ALREADY happened "but you look the same" idc it still happened. like literally, no matter what its happening and its happened and it will happen ; whether it be past future or present point is ITS THERE.

2. YOU ARE ENERGY, NOT YOUR BODY

this ones a bit hard to word out but essentially, your physical body doesnt make up what you are. meaning, you can view yourself as this ball of energy that can be stretched and pulled out and morphed into everything and anything.

so lets say you want a symmetrical face :

1. dont go overanalysing your face, just sit down & take it easy

2. think of how your symmetrical face that youve always had. i mean you could honestly be a model, your facial structure is amazing. and just allow yourself to sink into those thoughts, whether its through you repeating affirmations or through subliminals — let it all sink in that your face is symmetrical. having doubtful thoughts? let them fly past, dont cling onto them. just allow yourself to sink deeper into the fact that your face is perfectly symmetrical.

3. acknowledge it and live with it. dont go eyeing your mirror and reflection every 2 seconds, dont go panicking and repeating affirmations nonstop and stressing...just acknowledge it and go on with your day.

^ its that easy. you dont need to even see your physical body morphing into it, the point is that you are able to morph and change into whatever you wish because you are not limited to your physical body.

3. NO OVERCOMPLICATIONS

you dont need to do a 40 minute workout to make sure you get results, you dont need to drink 3L of water, you dont need to write down 500 affirmations, you dont need to do a 20step skincare routine if you want to make sure you get clear skin...if you want to do these things, do them as much as you wish to. do you have to? no.

when i was younger, i got a bad injury and because of that one of my cheekbones were larger than the other — through manifestation they look identical now. like as in, if i were to tell you the injury i got into and said "my cheekbone was larger and there was a huge line under it" youd think i was making it up (sidenote : i had to show someone my passport photo from when i was like 8 to prove that i had that injury 😭 CUZ THEY DIDNT BELIEVE ME.) and mind you, i didnt even have a routine - my routine was literally just playing cute subliminals , vibing to the music and then going to sleep. i promise you, you dont need to do any form of "work" to get what you desire.

4. GO WITH YOUR GUT

probably the most important thing i stick by, i always go with my gut. meaning, if i feel like i can listen to a 5 second subliminal and i got it - i leave it there. i dont force anything, i dont push myself into anything and i dont do anything that someone else does if it doesnt vibe well with me. (this also means if youre reading this and going "this doesnt really work with me" - thatll be better than you forcing yourself to follow these rules just because these have worked for me). you need to always remember that when it comes to manifesting things, your preference comes first. so, if you wanna run 5 miles and that helps you believe that you have gotten your desires - do it.

5. DONT LET OTHERS GET TO YOU

if youre minding your business and youre talking abt your desires and someone goes "erm...🤓👆🏽 thats...not possible" - instead of secondguessing yourself literally ignore them. the concept of whats possible and whats real all boils down to what you BELIEVE is possible/real. the only reason something could not be possible or not be real is you believe it isnt, or you letting someone else who doesnt believe in it take over your beliefs (obviously this specifically applies to manifestation and not things that are tied to disorders or any form of unhealthy thinking. dont take my words out of this context.)

and thats all ! obviously i have other parts of my mindset that arent mentioned here that help me manifest faster and easier but it would take too long for me to get into everything </3 but consider these my 5 golden rules that will hopefully help anyone whos struggling with physical results.

rmbr that you are forever limitless & changing ★

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ms-demeanor · 3 months

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hello! sorry to bother w this but im sort of desperate at this point. given your post about school abuse: so like. i had a similar experience and i thought that i had sorted my brain out. BUT. big but. now im trans and every time i have to correct people w/ misgender or come out to people that i dont already know their opinion on the issue, i get an anxiety attack that makes me unable to do it. ive told many therapists and no one so far has understood why im terrified of making stuff that other people can perceive as me being difficult to work with. would you have *any* advice? thanks!

Okay so first of all it is totally valid to feel that way; that isn't an irrational response, that is your body and brain going "!!!! I have learned this lesson before!" But just because it's a sensible response doesn't mean it's functional in the long term, which is why it needs to be addressed (which I'm sure you already know, I'm just explaining for people in the back).

So now here is some meandering advice:

Spend time with people you already know you can trust. It's okay to take a break from new people and situations (as much as is possible) when you are processing traumatic events and learning to care for yourself. Spending time with people who you don't have to come out to, who don't misgender you, can help you normalize being out and correctly gendered to yourself.

Recognize that you don't have to be out to everyone and some assholes aren't worth it. This is going to depend some on the context, but you don't owe everybody an explanation for yourself and if people repeatedly misgender you after being corrected you may just be better off not spending time around those people.

Loop in trusted people in low-stakes ways. If you get the sense that someone who you think is pretty safe has misgendered you on accident, it might still feel too intimidating to correct them in person but it might be a good idea to follow up with text or a call or a message to say "hey, just FYI, I think I heard you use a/b pronouns for me earlier, I just wanted to let you know that I use c/d pronouns. Did you want to meet up again next week?" the breakdown on why I think this is effective is - Distance means you're safe - nonthreatening "FYI" means you aren't saying "I'm offended" and assumes good faith from the other person - feels less accusatory (not that you need to tone police yourself, but if you're trying to lower the stress level overall then assuming it was a mistake and letting them know you don't think it was on purpose should reduce the overall tension) - request to meet up again or topic switch to something lighter once again says "I'm not mad, that was just regular information, we can now return to our scheduled programming"

I think that, generally speaking, this is also a decent way to come out to people if you're nervous; physically remote and emotionally casual can be a good place to work from (even if you're actually panicking in your head but you can pull off casual in a written message)

Find (or create) a space where people are 100% going to support you. If you need to create a discord server, if you need to schedule a regular coffee date with trusted friends or family members, whatever it is, give yourself a space where you are unconditionally supported and can have people to bounce ideas and concerns off of. Even if it's just you and one other person, it's good to know you have *someone* who you can say "I think I want to tell this other person to use my pronouns but it's scary" to and know that you're not at risk in any way. I'd say try to make sure that you're still interacting with people outside of that space, but have a space to retreat to where you can just drop the worry.

Recognize that somebody else's problem is not a reflection of you. If you have, for instance, a coworker who is being a piece of shit and refusing to recognize your gender, that is not a reflection of your gender that is a reflection of them being a piece of shit. If there is a classmate or a sibling who uses the wrong pronouns after being corrected that doesn't mean you're not entitled to your pronouns that means they are being a piece of shit. Some people are just not going to accept you and that's on them. Try to minimize your time spent with them and if you have to spend time with them at work take steps to ensure your safety, but don't fight losing battles with assholes.

It really is legitimately scary. You have good reasons to be scared and you are doing a very frightening thing (and not to do the meme thing but you are legitimately being so brave about it; the fact that you are reaching out and asking anyone for help, including randos on the internet, means that you are taking steps to doing the scary thing and that is SO GOOD and I'm really proud of you for making the effort in spite of the fear).

Here is some less meandering advice:

Practice. Talk to yourself in the mirror, practice with friends, practice with your therapist. Practice coming out to yourself in a casual way. Practice correcting your pronouns. Practice an introduction for yourself that explains the information you want to give to new people you might meet. Get it down to a quick little patter, get it to be something that's easy to say to yourself in the mirror first, then try it with friends for practice, then try it around the safer people you might want to give the information to. It'll get easier as you go.

Look for a local support group (or an online support group). If there's a local LGBTQ+ center you should see if they've got events going on or a support group you can join or workshops or any manner of social thing where you can go interact with people who have been through similar stuff.

Journal. Each time you find yourself frightened of talking to someone about your gender, do what you need to to get through the day and then sit down and think about that interaction. Write down what happened, write down what you were thinking. Was there something in particular that made you anxious? Is it something you can practice addressing? Was there something you noticed about the person that made you uncomfortable? Is that a common thread in the times you have trouble talking about this? If you're able to narrow down specifically what is making it hard to speak to some people that might make it easier to explain to therapists but will also make it more actionable for you.

Here's some very optimistic advice:

If at all possible find a friend who will be rabid and unflinching in their support for you and hang out with them around new people. Get yourself an attack dog copilot who will cheerfully step up and make corrections for you. I know not everyone can do this and I know that if you can find someone like this they can't be around all the time, but it can be wonderfully reassuring to find that one person who you know is going to be ride or die about making sure that everyone in the room respects you. (Being that person for someone else can also teach you how to be that person for you)

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bedoballoons · 4 months

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hii !! i was wondering if you could do a request for me. so xiao's really stressed and reader character: xiao scenario: calls him multiple times but he doesnt come, so when he actually comes, he complains and makes the reader cry and leave him. genre: angst (if you can, can you add fluff in the end where xiao apologizes? its fine if you dont !!) i was craving for some angst and at the end some fluff because i need more fluff i swear im going insane because of angst its fine if you dont do this, but if you do, i would really appreciate it !!

Of course I can write a request for you!! I won't lie though...I thought this was a smut request at first 😭 forgive my dirty mind. Anyway, thank you for your request and I hope you enjoy!

─⊰⁠⊹ฺ❄️𝔾𝕖𝕟𝕤𝕙𝕚𝕟 ℍ𝕖𝕒𝕕𝕔𝕒𝕟𝕠𝕟𝕤⊰⁠⊹ฺ❄️

Xiao X Reader

{༻~You didn't show up...~༺}

CW: GN! Reader! Angst to fluff, some yelling and a worried reader, apologies at the end!

𑁍༄Xiao:

You sighed anxiously, looking at the clock...you'd already called three times and Xiao was still no where to be seen. You knew he was probably busy, but he'd always said he'd answer your call...just say his name and he'd appear...so why wasn't he? You tried not to think the worst...but considering he was the last remaining Yaksha, the rest all dying in such horrible ways...it wasn't hard to start worrying about him.

What if his karmic debt had caught up to him? What if he'd met a foe even he couldn't beat? What if he'd been injured badly...and couldn't make it to you?

You bit your lip, feeling your heart start to race with fear, what would you even do? Go to Zhongli? The other adeptus?? Panick began to set in, his name slipping from your lips over and over, "Xiaooo! Xiao!" He had to answer, if he didn't you'd have to go find someone and ask for help...that was the plan, "Xia-"

You paused mid sentence as he suddenly appeared in front of you, the soft teal glow of his powers fading away to reveal that he was okay and in truth, it was like seeing a angel, relief washing over you in waves. "Oh my gosh, there you are I was so worried, I thought youd-"

"Enough. Stop calling me, you aren't in danger, there's no one attacking you and I'm tired of hearing your insistent voice in my head. I'm trying to protect Liyue as I'm supposed to, accomplish what I must everyday and I don't need you bothering me while I do so." He shot you a glare...and watched as the emotions painted on your features went dark, your relieved smile wiped away. He knew it was harsh, he knew what he said was wrong...he loved your voice, he loved knowing he had someone at home...hoping he was okay...worrying about him. Hed, just gotten a little too stressed.

"I-im sorry...I was worried something had happened to you...I'm sorry." You felt your chest getting tighter as you tried to hold back your tears, but they fell anyway...rolling down your cheeks as Xiao watched you...guilt already bubbling in his stomach. "Wait...I didn't mean to-"

You stepped away from him, wishing you hadn't been such a nuisance...and before you knew it, you were running, out the door...across the fields. Running until you felt tired...and alone enough to cry in peace, or so you thought. Somehow you'd forgotten he could simply appear next to you, you could run as far as you'd like and he'd be there in seconds...even when you didn't want him to.

"Xiao, I'm sor-"

"Don't apologize when you have nothing to apologize for. You were just worried and I overreacted...I should never have raised my voice at you, talked to you the way that I did. I'm sorry. It will never happen again."

ଘ(੭*ˊᵕˋ)੭* ੈ♡‧₊˚~Have a nice day!~*⁠.⁠✧

#genshin impact #genshin headcanons #genshin #genshin fanfic #genshin x reader #genshin x you #xiao angst #xiao x reader #xiao fanfic #xiao headcanons #xiao hcs

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chyeyuj · 7 months

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i think this is the right account 💀

can i request:college perv! reader who’s obsessed with watching really hard core p0rn day and night always fingering her self blah blah and can’t decide wither teacher or roommate bada who hasn’t see her in like a week. goes to find her passed out in bed n goes through her computer and decide to like punish/help her out? idk in my head it’s hot out loud not so much 💀

- dance instructor!bada lee x perv!fem!reader

- smut

side note : i am also not sure if ur requesting to the right person😭 but here you go anyways<3

it was the end of your dance class and you happily got out but your dance instructor, bada lee, stopped you. "yn, dont forget that you have another class later." she reminded while smiling warmly at you. "ah, alright. i wont." you replied back.

when she nodded and left, you went back to your dorm.

once there, you noticed that your roommate wasn't anywhere in the dorm, which wasn't surprising to you because she's always out with her friends or has to stay back in class.

you sat on your bed with a sigh as you fished out your phone from your pocket, staring at it blankly before you suddenly thought of bada.

she was so fine today and you didn't like how she would constantly touch you while trying to teach you. it was making you aroused.

you quickly opened your phone, going on one of the porn websites that you searched and pressed on a video that you liked. pulling your pants and panties down then rubbing your finger on your folds, moaning a little. sliding a finger in as you watched the video, imagining that it was bada that was fingering you.

watching porn was something you do for fun or for when you're feeling stressed out. it was a habit of yours.

feeling that youre about to come, you thrusted your fingers in a more faster pace. your legs trembled and you moaned out bada's name, feeling the warm liquid sliding down your pussy and dripping on the bed sheets.

you pulled your finger out, looking at the mess you made. this wasn't enough for you, you still needed to do more.

you began searching for other videos. after finding one, you tapped on it and stick your finger in your wet pussy. you were kind of sensitive, still but you didnt give a fuck. you just wanted this to be over with.

after you were done, you laid back on back, a satisfying sigh coming out of your lips as you no longer felt horny. all this work was tiring for you so you decided to take a little rest.

you set your phone aside, putting it on your bedside table then making yourself comfortable in bed before slowly falling asleep.

hours later, bada was outside of the dsnce class, waiting for you to arrive. she looks back at her watch and groans. this was the fourth time you had forgotten about your extra dance class.

bada had enough of waiting so she decided to walk to your dorm and searched for you, her steps were quick as she got impatient.

when she got there, she knocked on your door. after receiving no answer, she knocked again. yet again, no answer from you, she had no choice but to just barge in the room.

and when she did, she saw your sleeping figure on the bed. your pants and panty were on the floor, your bed slightly a mess.

she shakes her head, going up to you and shaking you to wake you up. "yn, wake up." she called out for you and you finally woke up.

taking a moment to process things, then realizing that you were half naked and bada was in the same room as you.

you quickly sat up, looking at her and panicking. "bada! what are you doing here?.." you asked, nevrously while she just glared at you. "you forgot about the dance class again." she replied. she then looks back at your body. "why are your pants on the floor? what did you do? masturbate?" she asked, the answer was pretty obvious..

you looked away, your face flushed red as you tried to reply to her question. but seeing your attempts, she sighs and stops you. "you know what, thats okay. maybe you should get punished for coming late to class again, huh?" your eyes widened when she grabs your thigh, propping it on her shoulders. now your crotch was close to her face. you tried moving her away but her grip on you was tight.

without saying a word, she dives right in your pussy, slowly licking your slit and earning moans from you. both of your hands were tangled around her hair, pushing her deeper as your moans started getting even louder.

your back arched and yout legs were shaking, signalling that you're about to cum but bada immediately stopped, pulling away from your pussy and staring down at you. "dont cum unless i say so." hearing her say this made you whine, but you couldn't disobey bada or else it will be much worse, so you just hold it in.

seeing that you're not disagreeing, she got back to eating you out. once again your hands were on her head. her tongue felt so good, you could feel your orgasm coming but knew that you had to hold it in.

after minutes of holding in, she finally spoke. "you can come, baby." she said, while having her tongue in you. and so you came, letting out a loud moan afterwards. she lets go of your thighs, then sat next to you. "we should do this again next time. and dont even think of coming late again or else it will be much worse." she gave you a kiss on your foreheas before heading to the door of your dorm. "rest well, sweetheart." her final words before she left you alone to rest.

you kept staring at the door, still panting heavily. you thought of what she had said and you cant help but think if she would keep her word.

#gxg smut #kpop #kpop gg #street woman fighter 2 #street woman fighter x reader #bada x reader #bada lee #bada lee x reader

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psychwxrdd · 3 months

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Hey! I’ve been wanting someone to do this idea for the longest time but could you please do Rafe and reader and trapped in singh’s hotel and they have to escape together? Like they hate each other but they’re forced to work together to escape!!

can you believe i was thinking about something like this these days? i loved it babe, not sure if that was what you wanted but i thought it would be cute like this

YOU?

summary: you have to work with rafe to escape singh's hotel, and it turned out you both have a lot in common.

warnings: none (possibly enemies to lovers someday?)

(gif is not mine)

"You're gonna act like a bitch the whole night? Seriously?" Rafe asked annoyed. As if you had any other choice.

"I'm not acting like a bitch, i just dislike you! And i'm being forced to stay here with you, so what did you expected?"

"As if i liked you!"

"None said that!"

"You think you're that much better than me? J- just chill out and don't bitch about it, i hate you just as much and i'm not complaining"

You sighed. That would be a long, long night.

And it was indeed, but not for Rafe. He slept like a baby, and you couldn't even close your eyes, thinking about how you would get out of this whole situation. You thought about breaking the window, it was so stupid, but you felt desperated. There weren't many options, any options to be honest.

You got ready for run against the window, when a hand grabbed your feet.

"What the hell are you DOING?" Rafe shouted.

"Watching The Goodfellas. What does it seem like i'm doing, dumb bitch" You tried to get rid of his hand, but he was an hell of a strong man.

"I'm serious right now Y/n, this is not a fucking play, he can kill you!" He said annoyed, pushing your arm to the bed.

"Don't touch me!"

"Look..." he got on his knees, raising his palms, trying to make you stay calm "I know you hate me, and i know you dont trust me and you're stressed, but so do i. And it would be much better if we could quit it just for tonight"

"Rafe, you're a murderer, you can't just expect me to sit here and look pretty while we're stuck, you think i'll wait on you for have a plan?"

"I'm not a murderer!" He said, panicking. Oh shit. "See it...you have done some questionable things to that i'm not throwing on your face!"

"I don't i ever-"

"God, shut up!" He shouted. You realized it was worthless to keep fighting, you both had the habit of running mouth around. Both stubborn. Both have a smart mouth.

"I'm sorry for yelling." He breathed. "But i really need you to listen to me."

For the first time, you did as Rafe told you to.

"See...I'm the only one you have now. And you're the only one i have. So we either trust each other and work on this or we're fucked"

You closed your eyes, running your hands through your face.

"Please..." he tried to put his hands on your knees, but you shifted and he stopped. "Just for tonight, or untill we leave this place. Lets forget about all outside, it's just us now"

You hated to say this, and you never imagined you would, but you had to agree with Rafe.

You stood up, sitting next to the door. Rafe stared at you in silence, and after a minute, he decided to sit by your side. Avoiding even looking at his direction.

His breath was heavy, you could tell he was anxious. You were anxious too. Who wouldn't be?

"I like your shirt" he said all of sudden. You laughed.

"Thank you?"

He nodded his head. You were wearing a Red Hot Chilli Peppers shirt.

"So you like Red Hot Chilli Peppers?"

You asked, your tone was almost cold, but you tried your best to be nice.

"Yeah, they're dope"

"Yeah"

You both stared at your own hands, awkwardly. But you couldn't hold your laugh for much more. And surprisingly, so did Rafe. You felt shocked by hearing his genuine laugh.

"You don't seem like the type to listen to them"

"Is there a type?" You raised an eyebrow.

"I mean, i thought you liked Taylor Swift or something."

You giggled.

"I do like her, too."

"What else?"

"Anything, i listen to quite literally anything."

Rafe nodded. Another brief silence.

"I like Kid Cudi"

"Yeah you look like you do"

He stared at you with a frown and you couldn't help but giggle.

"Whats that supposed to mean?"

"It means that you look like someone who listens to Kid Cudi."

"Right, is that good or bad?"

"Nothing wrong with that."

He smiled.

"I mostly started getting into the Chilli Peppers because i wanted to connect with my dad, you know" You admitted. He didn't asked, surely, it was out of pocket, but you just felt like saying. It was starting to feel slightly comfortable to talk to him.

"I get it"

You both stared at each other.

"Most of the things i do are for my dad's validation, so... Yeah i know where you're coming from" He sighed.

"I'm sorry about it."

Rafe bited his nails. You never noticed how handsome he was, but now staring, he was really cute. You wouldn't say handsome...He was still Rafe. Maybe he just looked beautiful at that moment, being the first time you actually had a conversation and he wasn't talking about how much he hated pogues or high and acting like a jerk. He was acting like a normal guy.

"Thanks. I'm sorry for you, too" He looked at you. He always thought you were the loveliest thing, but you were always such a brat. He always tried to talk to you and all you ever did was curse at him. If it wasn't for that, maybe you two could have more conversations. He would like that.

"You have any idea in mind?" You asked, softly.

"What?"

"You have any idea in mind already? About how we're gonna escape?"

"Uh..." He caressed his buzzcut.

"You know, if we just...break the window-"

"No"

"Okay" you raised your hands.

Rafe stared at them. And then at you. His eyes were running all your face, and you blushed a bit, feeling uncomfortable.

"Stop staring, weirdo"

"I get lost when i'm thinking. Sorry"

He stared at his own hands, again.

"We could call him and beat him up, so we can escape" you suggested. Rafe chuckled.

"Thats your plan?"

"We don't have any other do we?"

He sighed, agreeing. It was stupid. But he was strong, he could deal with that man.

"And what after that?"

"I don't know, didn't thought that much far"

"We can run to my boat. I'll take you home."

You stared at him and nodded slightly.

"But only you, not those pogue friends of yours"

"There he goes" you rolled your eyes.

#rafe cameron #outer banks #drew starkey #rafe x y/n #rafe x you #rafe x reader #obx imagine

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sun-stricken · 8 months

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Headcannons about sick!gray? Mine is that ice mages get sick really easily but he’s just great at hiding it until Lyon mentions it or something and suddenly the guild freaks out at a sniffle

Also don’t know if it’s any interest to you, but sometimes when I’m making fiction in my head I imagine gray is actually sick. Like when he does wear clothes they’re always tight around the middle, right? So what if being under all the rubble did something to his lungs/chest and so he needs the support sometimes

edit from like two hours after i responded, you asked me for my personal headcanons, but all i did was play on yours, so sorry 🙁

omg tysm for the ask, i love this

i agree that ice mages get sick easier than other mages, but also any mage whos magic effects their temperature fluctuation, (i might make a full post abt that later)

also i am dramatic and love to ramble, sorry if its too long!!

Gray is good at handling things himself, hes been taking care of himself for over a decade, itd be weird if he wasn’t

He takes care of others, looks after his guild-mates, maybe to pay off some sort of debt, or maybe because they dont take care of themselves (what a hypocrite)

he takes care of them, he doesn’t expect them to take on roles for him, didn’t expect them to take care of him; he did perfectly fine on his own, thank you very much

-Fairy Tail disagrees-

The moment Lyon started telling them horror stories about how often and how intense Gray got sick while learning magic, all hell broke loose, specifically, his team broke loose

Erza started grilling Lyon, how did he get sick, how often on average, why is it so easy, how did they help him as a kid, what do you mean he couldnt breathe? HISBODYCOULDNTWHAT???

(it felt all too familiar to a criminal interrogation)

Lucy fretted over Gray, eyes panicking trying to search for an illness that wasnt yet there, asking if he felt ill now, does he need water? should he sit down? why is he so red?

(why does she look so scared?)

Happy all but launched himself into Grays chest, crying about why he didnt tell them and other nonsensicals he could fully make out

Wendy popping in to say that while she cant heal illnesses she can help him any way she can, and maybe she cried just a little abt how she couldn’t help him fully

(a kid shouldnt be so stressed about not being able to help fix a problem that they didn’t make)

Natsu, now Natsu was pissed. Hes no stranger to being reckless and he knows it, but this wasn’t him, this was Gray; Gray who had always helped him through sicknesses and injuries, some of which the guild didnt even know of. why didnt he trust them to help him? why didnt he ever tell them anything? why didnt he figure it out?

it hurt. it really did.

(why isnt he trying to fight him? why isnt he yelling?

Gray stood there, red in the face and truly embarrassed, he didnt think it was that big of a deal and here they were, here was his guild, his family. vowing to take care of him from here on out.

He doesnt think hes ever felt so embarrassed, and guilty, and so loved all at once

also a foreboding, hes not sure why though

as it turns out, he was right to be cautious

days later he had a cold, a measly cold, he sniffled maybe once or twice, and he might’ve stumbled just a little, and all of a suddenly he was next to the guild fireplace, covered in too many blankets, a thermos in hand, and people constantly insisting on getting him things

he knew he shouldn’t have come today

although, they had every right to be worried, as it very quickly turned into pneumonia. lucky him

He was taken to the guild infirmary, his team right there with him

even through the chills, the too short and too fast breathing, the obnoxious heat in his whole body, and the ever so slight delirium creeping into his thoughts

he felt the hand atop his, felt the heavy weight of sharp eyes that miss nothing on him;

he felt the purring mini oven tucked into his side;

he felt a hand usually covered in armor carding through his hair, wiping the sweat from his forehead with a cool cloth;

he felt the way a trembling hand gripped his no longer free hand, felt the telltale sign of whisperers against his fingers;

he felt the minuscule vibrations of scrambling around him, heard the clinking of glass bottles no doubt full of remedies

…

he felt, loved.

THID IS SO LONG IM SORRY BUT IM SO OVERDRAMATIC AND LOVE TO RAMBLE

NOW FOR THE SECOND PART THAT I LOVE SO MUCH!

being under that collapsed building fucking with his lungs and ribs isnt something i ever thought of!

thats genius, i love it

im just imagining permanent damage to his lungs, not being able to use them to their full capacity, and maybe chronic pain in his ribcage area and sharp pains when he tries to draw in deep breaths

i think Makarov obvs knew this (maybe he makes everyone has full check ups yearly or every couple years, but also everytime someone joins the guild)

he warned Gray against overexerting himself because it could be especially dangerous for him

he was prescribed an inhaler and medication for his breathing and pain

but this was and is a boy full of too much pride and guilt, maybe he thinks he deserves it, maybe just doesnt care what happens to him, maybe he simply doesnt know his limits; but for whatever reason he doesnt listen, doesnt use his support unless it is absolutely unbearable

of course it gets better over the years, but that didnt start willingly, the guild found out, maybe Gray let it slip, maybe Jii-Chan did, or maybe they heard him scolding Gray for overdoing it again

but they found out and would check up on him, give him advice from some of their experience with their own disabilities

Ive hced for a while that Gildarts was particularly fatherly (or like, a protective uncle…ly?) with the kids of Fairy Tail, so i think he wouldve been the one to get him this pressure support thing for his ribs

it worked, and so does heating pads/packs, which lead to the next development

and after Gray joined up with his team and got closer, he would make Natsu be his own personal heat pack bc that is such a sweet and silly image to me

Natsu surprisingly complained minimally

i wonder why? :)

more little sick things

Gray doesnt get hungover, probably the only illness he gets lucky on

he gets really talkative and delirious when hes sick, and clingy

he’ll ramble abt random things he has to do, not realizing he cant for obvious reasons

he’ll talk about life before Ur, about his siblings who never had the chance to live; about ppl who left Isvan before Deloria came, wondering if theyre alive and actually living, if they remember him

whoever’s with him does him the courtesy of not bringing it up when hes better

Lucy gets really scared when people are sick, it makes her think of watching her mom deteriorate, she refuses to go through that again

She spoke to Natsu and Erza about this while Gray was sick once, broke down and said she wad terrified of losing someone she loves to a stupid sickness again

Gray will cling to the person closest to him when he’s ill, holding their hand, leaning on them, just not letting them leave; he finally is letting himself be taken care of and it feels good, he’ll be damned if he lets that go again

Natsu was so angry when Lyon told them, he was so angry and so scared that even with his heightened senses he didnt know anything at all

If hes with Gray when hes sick, he rarely takes his eyes off the uneven rise and fall of his best friends chest, as to reassure himself that Gray was still breathing, that he was still here and didn’t disappear

Gray will get up and try to get things done when hes sick, he is not the type to sit down and rest and recover

he had to be physically hauled back to bed on multiple occasions

Erza is lost when people are sick, ever the leader though, she tried to take the lead, giving people jobs and trying to make sure everything is order

it ends up quite the opposite though, halfway through she reluctantly hands the reins to someone else

she tries though

Gray has a box full of ‘get well soon!’ gifts and cards, he likes to look through then and read all the messages over and over again

i lied. he has three boxes, his friends are overachievers

fin.

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twicesserafim · 10 months

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"Back the fuck up."

Warnings: Swearing, smoking, alcohol, blood, smut and mentions murder.

(The japanese school system: Ages 15-16 (Hs1) Ages 16-17 (Hs2) Ages 17-18 (Hs3) So i'll use those terms)

...

You weren't.. new. But you definitely weren't one of the originals here, there's a group of 3's you've never seen around, but you've definitely heard about them. You've always been told they're the most attractive yet dangerous people in the school.

The group are most protective about their girls, so not only can no one join their group, everyone who has asked out or talked to one of the girls in that group was found dead the next morning.

You got to school later then usual, and it was the first time you saw them, there was no other way, you had to walk pass them. You hesitated but a girl looked over and raised an eyebrow. They were in the parking lot.

So they ride motorbikes, huh? "go ahead, darling. We dont bite, just don't look for too long, then maybe we will" Her voice was so.. you didn't have time to think, only rushing past them. "what was that?!" Another voice yelled as the girl from early.

She only puffed out a cloud of smoke and shrugged. "Come on, she's a 1. And i've seen her around, she's.. sweet." She's seen you around? You though. You've never seen her though.. Who was that?

You caught a glimpse of her license plate, or at least the motorbike she was leaning against.

"M. Kkura."

Kkura? was that her name? probably not, you thought for a bit as you sat down in class, her name was probably something like sakura. You've heard that was one of the names of the girls in their group.

But for some reason, you couldn't get her out of your head. So you asked one of your friends during break. "hey.. one of the 3's name is sakura, right?" They immediately panicked, placing a hand on your lips.

"no one other then her friends are aloud to call her that. You call her miyawaki and that's it." "is that her last name?" "no bitch it's her fucking- school id!" Your friend said back sarcastically as you rolled your eyes.

"how bad could they be?" "if you ever run into her, she always has a gun. They all do. That's how bad they are" "i had to walk pass them today, it was fine." "huh?" "yeah they-" "they let you walk pass?" you nodded.

"who let you?" "miyawaki..?" "she let you pass?!" "yes?" "she's never.. that's so weird?" "she said i was sweet.." "she what!?" "what! you keep whisper yelling and you're stressing me out!" "what did you say to her?!" "nothing!" "but she- try talking to her." "are you crazy? do you want me dead in a ditch tomorrow?"

"take your chances!" "ahem.." You heard a voice call out from behind you. Your friend immediately dropped everything she was holding and ran from dear life, as a hand made contact with your shoulder. "talking about me, darling?"

You didn't say anything as she raised an eyebrow. "you can talk, baby. i promise." she whispered, it was soft. Different, almost. "please? the rumours aren't all true i-" "kkura!" A yell was heard from outside the room.

Sakura immediately frowned and removed her hand, "i'll talk to you later, stay safe, okay?" You only nodded as she ran out, seemingly looking for her friends.

What the fuck is happening..

...

"ah! there she is." You were confused, it was people from the friend group you were talking about. The 3's. "you talked to sakura today, right?" you shook your head. "i didn't say anything" you mumbled.

"She touched you.. what did you do to her?" "i didn't do anything?" Someone grabbed your jaw and it wasn't a light grip, wincing at the pain. "you do know we have a rule, right? no one, talks to our girls, let alone touch them." "i didn't touch her" you managed to get out.

But quickly, you felt a sharp pain hit your stomach, okay woah, they weren't kidding, these people are strong. You heard a gun click before hurried footsteps. "stop it! what are you doing!?" You only whimpered.

She quickly removed the dude hand from your face. "what the fuck do you think you're doing!?" another voice entreated as sakura scoffed. "she didn't break any of the rules, didn't even open her mouth once. let her off." "what?"

"you got lucky." Another voice scoffed, hearing them walk away as you let out a cough. "breath, darling. are you okay?" you nodded, sakura pouted once more, rubbing your back, "i'm sorry i wasn't here sooner"

"i- can talk to you right?" She smiled, "you have a pretty voice, yes, you can." "are you 18?" "mhm" "ah.. i'm 16" "cute" "hm?" "your smile" Your eyes widened slightly, you've gotten that compliment a few times but it felt different coming from her.

"you know.. i've heard a few things about you, here and there. You can fight cant you? why didn't you try and fight your way out of that situation?" "uh.. they had guns, many of them." "oh right.. should i let you go? school was over like 30 minutes ago?"

"i mean i don't really have anything important so it doesn't matter?" Sakura nodded, pulling out a cigarette, placing it in her mouth and lighting it, you let out a small cough and scrunched up your nose in disgust. "sorry, sorry" she laughed.

"i don't mind it, it was just random and out of nowhere" "oh? you don't mind it?" "no? i don't really care, as long as you're not forcing it onto me, i don't mind." She looked at you for a few seconds. Rubbing the end of the cigarette on the floor before putting it back in the box.

"i can tell you don't like it, you don't mind but you also don't love it, do you?" you nodded. She hummed, putting the pack away and grabbing a vape instead. "wanna try?" you shook your head as she chuckled.

"you really aren't into what i'm into.. it's interesting.. yet refreshing. I like it" "what about-" "all the girls in this school have vaped, smoke and drunk at least once, and yes. Even your friends" "is it because you do this to them too?"

"no, of course not." "then why are you doing it to me?" Sakura sighed and just shrugged. "do you have a ride home?" "i was just gonna walk-" "hop on then, i'll take you home." "are you sure? i can just-" "please?"

You just complied, but before you got on, sakura stopped you, putting the jacket on you as well as her helmet. "now, if anything happens, the jacket will stop you from getting scratched, and the helmet obviously saves you" "what about you?" "im okay, trust me."

Did she really just give you her helmet and jacket?

...

You took the helmet off, placing it on her head, making sakura smile. "thanks, baby.. keep the jacket, you look cute in it" "but you-" "i have a lot more, don't worry about it" "what if you-" "it wouldn't be the first time i get scratched, plus i'm pretty good at driving this, don't worry."

You hesitated but she nodded, you were surprised, sakura waited for you to fully get into your house safely before leaving.

Why was she doing this so suddenly? And why couldn't you get her out of your head? why did you not want to leave her? Why do you keep smiling when you think of her, sighing. You put your hands in the pocket of the jacket.

Pulling out a piece of paper, thinking it was garbage but you paused and read it. "looking through my stuff, darling? kidding.. here's my number, text me, i probably miss you"

You just decided to take a shower before texting her.

...

y/n 🫶: hello?

Kkura: hii

y/n 🫶: you wanted me to text you?

Kkura: mhm, i miss you

y/n 🫶: you saw me like an hour ago

Kkura: are you doing anything right now?

y/n 🫶: nope

Kkura: can i pick you up? let's go to my place!

y/n 🫶: you live in a dorm, no?

Kkura: on weekdays, yes.

y/n 🫶: it's a wednesday

Kkura: i know?

y/n 🫶: your friends are gonna kill me :c

Kkura: fine, fine.. we can just go out?

y/n 🫶: you're not one to go out are you?

Kkura: when it's drinking, i'm down.

y/n 🫶: why don't you come over?

Kkura: what would your parents think?

y/n 🫶: you're pretty, take advantage of it.

Kkura: fine, fine.. i'll just wear sweats, no makeup.. act like i'm a good girl.

y/n 🫶: pft.. good girl and bad girl.. you still use those terms?

Kkura: shut up, y/nnn

y/n 🫶: you know my name?

Kkura: i said i heard about you a few times, no?

y/n 🫶: creep..

Kkura: baby, i can get you killed in seconds, watch it.

y/n 🫶: hey! >:c

Kkura: sorry! sorry, sorry.

y/n 🫶: meanie

Kkura: you're really cute

y/n 🫶: gonna cry in a corner now.

Kkura: no! i was joking, i'm sorryyyy. You don't get killed, no one's gonna touch you, ever. You're okay, trust me.

y/n 🫶: bleh :c

Kkura: im on my way, darling.

y/n 🫶: >:(

Kkura: im sorryyy :((

...

"y/n?" "yes?" "your friend is here!" you peeked outside your room, almost mesmerized by sakura. She wasn't lying, no makeup, sweats, and a smile on her face. You gulped and opened your door as she stepped in, immediately laying down on your bed.

"do you have cigarettes with you?" "no, i already made it look like i'm a good person, i'm not gonna mess it all up with cigarettes. I bought a vape with me, though." "of course you did" you laughed, locking the door.

"so.." "what do you wanna do?" "do you have games?" "you game?" you asked confused as sakura chuckled, "of course, darling" "then i have a few.. we can play"

...

"ah! hey! this is unfair" you huffed as she laughed, "let me win.." you whined as sakura smiled, "work for it, darling." "i've been trying! also.. can i call you something other then miyawaki?" She raised an eyebrow and nodded.

"call me anything you want" "well.. i guess i should say the same to you then" "and what if i wanna call you mine?" "what?" "there's a reason i'm nice to you, you know" "woah, wait. can you.. go at a slower pace? we just started talking today and i-"

She shushed you and nodded, "i knew you would say that, so it's okay-" "saku-chan, it's like 10, it's dark outside now" "can i stay here? please?" "overnight?" "yeah" "i.. fine.. but what clothes are you gonna wear tomorrow?"

"i always have jeans in my motorbike like the compartment area, i'll just take one of your t-shirts and you have a leather jacket right?" "i do but isn't like the biker style one" "yeah, it's just a straight jacket kinda, right?" you nodded.

"i'll wear that, i want you to keep my jacket." "okay"

...

You were watching a movie, sakura looked over at the time, it was nearing two in the morning, she suddenly felt a weight on the side of her body, you fell asleep. She held back a smile, pulling you closer, feeling the warmth of her body, you cuddle in close to her.

She rubbed your back comfortingly, drifting off the sleep after you. But before she did.. she didn't forget to take a picture of this moment.

...

You whined at the alarm as sakura groaned. "i fucking hate school" she mumbled as you chuckled. "can i go to the washroom first?" she asked as you nodded, you grabbed a spare toothbrush as she smiled. "thanks, doll."

Once she came out of the washroom, you went in, quickly changing, brushing your teeth, doing your hair, and washing your face.

You walked out to sakura already changed, doing her makeup. "how are you that awake to do your makeup" you muttered making sakura giggle. "i'm not sure, i guess i'm just used to it" "i just concealer, mascara and call it a day" "i've seen you with makeup before though, like fully."

"have you?" "yeah, i ran into you at a store once" "oh?" "anyways.. want me to do your makeup too?" you shook your head. "i'm good" "okay, suit yourself.. wear my jacket" sakura muttered. You grabbed her jacket, putting it on, zipping it half way up and putting a few chains as well as rings on.

You placed a hat on top of your head and airpods in, you put your bag on too as sakura smiled, getting up and grabbing your jacket, putting it on as the two of you walked out of your room. "should i walk to school? your bike-"

Sakura immediately shook her head, "no, get on" "but-" "get on, y/n" she whined as you held back a smile and got on, "hold me" she whispered, you complied wrapping your arms around her waist, she started the bike and immediately started riding it to the school.

A few people noticed but didn't realize who you were, once the bike was parked, sakura made sure you got off properly before getting off. She took her helmet off and took the one of your head off too.

"go to class, you're gonna be late" she muttered, you nodded, going to your classes without hesitation. "baby, don't be scared. okay?" sakura whispered to you softly as you hummed. "you have my number, if you feel threatened, text me."

"okay" "good, now go"

...

"why are you wearing a racer jacket?" "uh.. fashion?" "pink, white and black.. pink? i've never seen you wear pink before." "it's a change" "mhm..?" you friends hummed unconvinced as you sighed.

"plus it looks really familiar like-" her voice was cut off by a voice from behind you. "hey" you jumped slightly and stopped your friends from running away. "you really need to stop scaring me" you whispered, leaning your head back against sakuras stomach.

She shrugged, putting her hands on both sides of your face and lightly scratching your neck with her nails, you eyes closed shut as you mumbled. "that feels good" "does it?" she whispered back as you nodded. She only kissed the top of your head.

"then i'll do it more later, did you buy food yet?" you shook your head. "are you hungry? let me get you something" sakura said, your friend and the whole cafeteria watched in shock at how soft sakura was for you.

"i'm okay" "are you sure?" "mhm" Sakura finally looked up, glaring at everyone, making them turn their head back to their food. "start talking again and mind your own fucking business." "be nice." "sorry, baby" she pouted.

"i have to go, i'll text you after lunch, okay? can i take you home again?" you nodded. "good, see you!" "bye, saku-chan" "bye, darling."

"since when the fuck.." "that's where the jacket came from!" "you're dating miyawaki?!" "we aren't dating" "she isn't that soft with anyone." "so?" "oh my fucking god, y/n.."

...

You were just at the basketball court with your friends, only sitting on the bleachers and laughing. Until you were pulled down, a guy started trying to convince you to go out with him. Your friends were gonna step in, just realizing he not only had a knife, but also a gun.

They couldn't. You gulped and pressed a few things on your phone, since you had your airpods in. You just had to pray you were dialling the right person. "baby? i'm busy right now can i-" She stopped talking and listened to the man talk to you.

"hum if he's armed with a gun" you let out a small hum as sakura groaned. "shit. where are you?" "basketball.." "our school?" you hummed again. Sakura sighed, "i'm on my way, but if something happens, please be ready to fight."

You gulped as the line went dead, the guy was getting closer and closer, until another guy showed up, both of them cornering you before you heard the voice you were hoping to hear this whole time. "back the fuck up."

They were 2's, they knew that voice. Not even hesitating, the dropped their weapons and ran. Sakura pulled you into her arms, your friends watched in shock. "are you okay? they didn't hurt you right?" "what took you so long.."

"i'm sorry, baby. i'm sorry.. i was.. doing something" You looked down and your eyes widened. "your hands.." Sakura gulped. "why are the covered in blood?" "you know what i do, why are you asking?" "why?"

"they.. it was revenge" You let out a shaky breath as she pouted. "are you mad at me?" you shook your head, "no, i know what you do and i don't know why i wasn't expecting this day to come this early.." "i'm sorry, i wasn't expecting it either.."

"can we go home?" Her heart skipped a beat. 'we'? 'home'? whose home? "of course, baby." she whispered, pulling you to her motorbike. You turned to the group that was laughing and talking about you and sakura on the bleachers, you rolled your eyes and smiled.

"i'll talk to you tomorrow" "yeah, yeah, just focus on your girlfriend for now" "not my girlfriend!" "yet" sakura mumbled, placing the helmet on you, as you got on.

...

it's been a few months since then and sakura's friends have finally come around. And you're now officially dating The whole school knows about it and no one dares to mess with you either, but everyone has also realized how sakura had gotten nicer.

So i guess it was a positive change. "baby" sakura whined as you turned around. She kissed your cheek and muttered, "i missed you" "i was only gone for a week, it was a one week field trip" "so? i missed you." she mumbled, connecting your lips.

You laughed against her lips making sakura smile. "can you come over?" "and get killed?" you joked as she giggled. "sure. i'll eat you alive" you raised an eyebrow as she smirked. "looking forward to it.. now go to your last class" She muttered.

"horny" you mumbled back, making sakura shrug and roll her eyes, "only for you" "good"

...

You broke one of sakuras gaming controllers while she was out but you had already bought her a new one, the latest one that just dropped. But before you could tell her you got her the new one, you knew she would be mad.

Sakura spotted the controlled broken into pieces as she gasped. "why is my controller on the ground?" she asked, picking up the piece and walking out to the living room, where you were doing the school work.

You were doing it for both you and sakura, so she wouldn’t fail, although she's a 3 and you're a 1, so it was pretty hard for you but you tried and she always appreciated you for that, because she would never do her work.

"the cat did it, she yelped and then i heard your pink controller fall off" "how can it be? i didn't even say which one it was, how do you know?" "because i saw- no, i heard it just now" "the cabinet is so high! how did the cat get up there?!"

Sakura's voice changed as your eyes widened slightly, "don't be so angry, i didn't do it" which is partially, true. The cat did knock it off, so it already broke, but you hit it while walking, breaking it further.

"if you did it just tell me, for christ sake, y/n! you broke my controller! i got this like- 4 months ago! it's my newest one!" "it wasn't me" "you know i hate people that lie right? liars are the worst." "i didn't lie, mimi (the cat) broke it, not me"

"this was high up and it's pretty heavy, how did mimi move it? did she grow wings and fly up!?" she raised her voice a little more then she didn't earlier, keeping her voice at a pretty loud volume. "even if you didn't do it, you should still pick it up when you see it! why won't you look me in the eyes dammit!"

"you're mad! i don't wanna look at your eyes when you're angry." "i know it wasn't the cat, so why are you lying to me? just tell me the fucking truth, you idiot" "it wasn't me!" "wether you broke it or not you should at least pick it up! just put it on the ground like this? jeez."

She walked out of the room where the controller was broken and looked at you, realizing you were teary eyed, "what? what's wrong?" but her voice was concerned, it was still scolding. "i'm sorry"

"no, i'm not like- it's not-" she sighed before rubbing her hands over her face. "i'm angry because i think you're lying, and it's my newest one, i don't make much and it cost a lot, you know?" she mumbled.

Sitting down next to you, her voice was slightly quieter but it was still quite stern. she used the back of her hand to wipe your tears, "listen i'm not mad- i just- you're making this hard for me." Sakura said before pulling you into her arms.

You cried into her neck as she sighed, rubbing your back a bit, "i don't blame you anymore, okay?" You pulled away and reached down to the side, grabbing the new controlled you had bought, you passed it to her.

"i bought you a new one after i broke it, i didn't wanna make you angry i just-" her jaw dropped at the controller. A huge guilt hitting her as she frowned. Putting the controller beside her and pulling you back in her arms.

"shit, i'm sorry. it's my fault, okay? it's my fault, don't cry, i won't raise my voice at you again, i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i won't yell at you ever again, don't cry, baby please. i won't scold you again, i won't be angry with you anymore, okay?"

You nodded as she pulled away, kissing the top of your head and caressing your cheek, "i'm not mad, okay? i'm sorry for yelling at you" you nodded and mumbled, "i'm sorry for breaking your controller" "did the cat really do it?"

"yeah, she hit it off the desk" "im sorry for not trusting you" she muttered, "don't yell at me again" "i promise, you have my word." you nodded again as she looked at the controller, "this released like 2 days ago, you got it for me?"

"yeah" she sighed again before holding you tightly, kissing the top of your head once more, "i really don't deserve you. i love you more then anything" sakura whispered, before leaving a kiss on your lips, "and i'm very sorry for yelling at you, it won't happen again"

You hummed against her lips as she continued to kiss you. "i love you" "i love you too"

...

You were just scrolling on social media and showed sakura a photo, "baby, let me do this to you" "no way" "yes way, red or pink?" "red, whatever" you chuckled as put on a red lipgloss, leaving small kisses all over her face and neck.

Sakura ended up just holding onto your waist and letting out a shaky breath, moaning when you kissed her soft spot on her neck. "yes.." You pulled away and chuckled, wiping the rest of the lipgloss off of your lips and looking at the kiss marks all over her.

"cute" you mumbled as sakura shrugged, "whatever makes you happy" you chuckled and pointed at one of the shirts in her closet, sakura nodded, "it would look good, so sure."

You did the same thing with the shirt, leaving kisses here and there, one of the collar, a few on the front, one or two on the sleeves, and some on the back. "good?" you asked as she nodded. "yeah, now i can wear your kiss whenever" "ew, never say that again"

Sakura laughed and nodded, "yes ma'am" "love you" "love you more, baby."

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parasytte · 2 years

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yoyo! i love your page so far :D, and i saw that you take requests (prior from one of your posts about one of your oc's LMAO), so i had a thought: (any oc that would fit this situation btw) what would he do if their partner (us) successfully escaped the grasp? where would the partner go, and would they find us? if they would find us, how fast or how slow?

omgg what did i do to deserve such sweet anons ?? thank you !!! and yes, my requests r open rn :-)) (as stated in my bio !) i decided to do all 3 cuz why not ? hope you enjoy !!!

<3-<3-<3-<3-<3-<3-<3-<3-<3

<3 august wells first reaction is complete panic.

<3 he tries to calm himself, looking all over the house, every nook and cranny while calling out your name, but he can't find you.

<3 once the realization that you've escaped sets in along with the panic, he sheds some tears, but august once again calms down (as much as he can, anyway). panicking won't help him find you.

<3 august knows everything about you. he knows how you work, how you think. dare i say he knows you better then yourself! so, it doesn't matter where you go. he knows the places you'd think to go. and he will find you.

<3 does burst into tears when he finds you LMAO

<3 he's the fastest to find you out of the three.

<3 when morgan hickks comes home to find you not in your usual spot, he doesn't panic.

<3 he calls out your name .. no answer. are you playing a game?

<3 he looks all over the house, but he just can't find you anywhere. so, you're not just playing a game with him ...

<3 are you two having another lover's quarrel? he starts to think about what he might've done to make you angry at him, but then he realizes that oh shit, you're not home. you're outside. alone.

<3 this is where he panics, starting to worry about if you're safe or not, and starts searching for you.

<3 morgan will find you. he doesn't stop until he does, but he is the slowest to find you. he knows a lot about you, and he'll figure out where you would go, but morgan's not as good at thinking straight in high-stress situations.

<3 jude myers knew it was going to happen. he knew you were going to want to leave. why did he think someone as amazing as you would want to stay with someone like him?

<3 he breaks down sobbing with shaking legs as he looks for you, calling out your name, but you're gone.

<3 jude has stalked you for a hell of a long time. he knows you better than anyone, he knows the special places you go to that you think nobody knows about.

<3 he doesn't stop shaking and crying the whole time he's looking for you. when he finds you he's run out of tears to cry and he's shaking, barely able to breathe with dried tears on his face as he takes you back home.

<3 is the second fastest to find you out of the three.

<3-<3-<3-<3-<3-<3-<3-<3-<3

this was fun to write !! also, if you want to send in an ask and you 1. don't know if its something i write for you can look at my pinned post where i briefly explain what i write for, and you can always just ask me ! or 2. dont know if my asks are open its stated in my bio !

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lesbiandanhowell · 6 months

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Sam (begrudgingly) reacts to: Dan and Phil play Poppy Playtime CHAPTER 2!

I fucking hate horror games and I am have a high anxiety day so this is like awful timing BUT HERE GOES NOTHING.

- Not a fan of the runtime because I don't enjoy horror so the longer the worse for me personally so fuck this actually oops

- Babes I am literally shaking and almost crying 4 minutes in this will not be fun lmao (but also I know my anxiety won't go away without dan and phil content so might as well hope they will be funny and cute enough to make me calm down).

- I hate this I want to cry UPDATE: I literally started crying right after this, about 8 minutes into the game, but it got better afterwards.

- The touch when saying 'we have to be brave' was very personal to me. (Someone give me someone to watch this with and hold me please because I am scared)

- The buttplug jokes being the only thing to make me laugh, thank you Phil. Dan what do you MEAN "tails in" in reference to buttplugs, did you see the unhinged shit we said on tumblr, because oh god please no.

- "What are we going to do now?" "Cry" Phil gets me actually thank you I feel seen.

- The color game is actually calming my anxiety SO much it's hilarious, like it's just logic and following patterns and those things are so calming even when Dan is screaming.

- "For our lesbian audience that has mommy issues this is gonna be a weird episode" YOU DONT SAY DAN YOU DONT SAY

- new lore alert: Phil going to a wrestling party

- Phil lore: he was afraid of the KFC man as a kid

- PINOF MENTION AND CLIP AHAHA, they love doing these references since they uploaded the first react video.

- Dan hiding in his hoodie is adorable, like he just fully went "nope!" and hid haha.

- I think you can see Phil's hand shaking in the whack a mole, like the camera was SO shakey which was either his inability to use a mouse or he was shaking, place your bets.

- Dan playing the mini game after all, Phil is never beating the younger brother stereotype truly.

- When did they film all of these that their heating is still broken?! Makes me think they really did pre-film most of these to have a less stressful time now during december, which good job guys!

- Mommy's voice reminds me of someone else in a tv show but I can't figure out what? Anyone know?

- Their delighted faces at seeing jacksepticeye are adorable, like you could tell they were so happy truly and I love these little easter eggs!

- "Sean you down there?" HOWLING

- They edited so many clips and memes into this (which makes me think they edited it rather than an editor) haha

- Phil just, maybe unconsciously, moving impossibly closer to Dan is a big mood (only I am alone rip).

- Weirdly enough the mini games are the most calming part for me, like there is a clear focus and clear objective of what to do and it's like: here is a problem, solve it and I think that does wonders for me.

- Unsure if I am shaking from anxiety or being cold (also great I have more uni work to do after watching this)

- Yes please sanitize my boobs. What

- I agree Phil, we have gotten a lot of lore (about you)!

- Phil's panicked "geese!" gets me every time because it's so cute.

- "I feel kinda bad" aw ofc you do Phil and ofc you don't Dan, so very in character for both of them honestly.

- "Sometime in 2023, so not much longer" Phil, honey, there are like 20 days left what do you mean?!

This actually wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it would be, after I had my little cry at the beginning. I was actually quite calm by the end and I think my anxiety actually is less, which I didn't think would happen. The magic of Dan and Phil, see you tomorrow!

#dan and phil #amazingphil #daniel howell #phan #gaymingmas #sam reacts #Dan and Phil play Poppy Playtime CHAPTER 2!

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taliskermortem · 11 months

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okay, rewatch/full watch thoughts - episode 8

under the cut because its long and i dont want to bore you all

don’t talk to me about junseong beelining it straight for seongho’s room as soon as he wakes up and then... holding his hand? on the way out? what was that

seonwoo saying he feels like he has to ‘repay’ yoonghee for always calling him with a date is one of the main reasons i don’t like him tbh, this isn’t about owing people its about finding a connection and if that’s how you’re viewing it then it’s never going to work and you’re just leading people on for no good reason

junseong panicking about his appearance just to ask seongho for a date is adorable... and yoonghee helping him is so cute

hyeongjoonie is so shy and awakward bless him, waiting for seongho to leave and double checking the mission card

not minseong stress smoking trying to figure out what the hell to do, i wonder at what point he realised it wasn’t actually first come first serve like hyeongjin implied it was

hyeongjoon is a bigger person than i could ever be

minseong has some serious guts tbh not sure i could sit down and eat a meal with someone i'm rejecting but he must have seriously made up his mind because there’s not really a way back from this for these two i think but who knows maybe the voicemail he left hyeongjin will soften the blow

but wow is hyeongjin perceptive, like he knew straight away something wasn’t right before minseong even said anything but he was very gracious about it

ugh I feel so bad for jeongwook, no one even considered asking him and he was just bounced around between people without anyone really telling him what was going on – i think he was looking forward to spending some time with hyeongjoon because they do seem to get along really well

junseong and seongho leaving with absolutely zero fuss? living for it

JUNSEONGHO DATE:

HOT PACK BOY I'M DYING

starting the date by insulting his hoodie? totally valid

not both of them trying to match the other with their outfits

seongho calling him out for being obvious

seongho straight up talking with his mouth full like they are so comfortable with each other i cannot handle this

seongho: “when the cat comes, i push it away… then my cat comes to be again” junseong: “so poor, it’s similar to me” i'm dead

both of them being neverous that outside of the house it would be uncomfortable between them and then realising its exactly the same as if they were just lying on the bed and chatting again

junseong saying he wants to leave quickly so he can have seongho’s phone number has me dying

junseong remembering from the first date that seongho likes desert boy has been gone from the very start

(on a side note koreans and cheese makes me nervous okay they do things with cheese that scare me)

exCUSE ME that bossy conversation, let’s talk about it romorrow? whaaaat

god the fact that they are able to talk to each other about how they feel, that seongho isn’t afraid to talk about seonwoo and junseong respects his feelings, that’s wild to me

WAIT FOR THE VOICE MESSAGES SEONGHO YOU WANT HIM DEAD

junseong already being worrying about not being able to give seongho all his attention when they leave the house i cannot believe how gone this boy is

JUNSEONG WHAT ARE THOSE SHOES THOSE ARE THE UGLIEST THINGS I'VE EVER SEEN

did these two do anything other than walk by the sea and eat food? (kind of hoping they did and we get some behind the scenes like we did when jeongwook and hyeongjoon when to the arcade)

walking. with. his arm. around. him.

yeah that image of them silhouetted against sunset? not processing that today

YOONGHEE AND SEONWOO DATE:

okay seonwoo has annoyed me before they even got in the car with his whole ‘wooooo’ thing. just stop.

yoongheeeeeee you deserve so much better im sorry

honestly, at this point i would rather seonwoo was outwardly possessive of seongho, like show some depth to those feelings you claim to have, at least that would come across as genuine this people pleasing act is getting exhausting

not sure how i feel about them going to personal places tbh, i know hyeongjin and jeongwook go to his house later too but yeah, not sure what i think about it

for a second there i thought yoonghee was going to say he had a nut allergy

wow seonwoo way to bring down the mood

god this is awkward, i wasn’t expecting it to be this awkward

god i feel sorry for yoonghee

yeah yoonghee you’re the ace

seonwoo is just incredible insecure isn’t he and like i get it but bro

also how is yoonghee more mature than a guy 12 years his senior

wow just say yes or no… seonwoo proceeds to give no answer at all… and now yoonghee wont give up again this poor kid just let him go i beg

guy just keeps asking why yoonghee is into him, please stop looking for compliments i'm begging you its embarrassing now

“will you really answer it” okay thank god yoonghee can see through his bullshit even just a little

“i want to rely on him” fuck you seonwoo

MINSEONG AND HYEONGJOON DATE:

THE CUDDLING ON THE SOFA HELP

#his man 2 #i gave seonwoo the benefit of the doubt but this episode killed him off for me im done #but junseong and seongho date was incredible and i cant wait for minseong and hyeongjoon

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Hi! I missed the chance of being able to get the if you could see the sun preorder bonus so, if you’re able to, would there be any way you could be able to summarise it?? The book was so good and I literally can’t stop thinking about it!!

Hi! Sure! It’s no problem, I’d be happy to :)

FIRST PART

‘BEFORE’

It’s in Henry’s pov of one of him and Alice’s classes, they have this history quiz for extra credit and they have to choose teams and people are like fighting over who gets Henry and Alice, they end up in separate teams and the extra credit quiz becomes just them trying to beat each other (bc obviously) but the thing is, the whole time Henry’s thinking about how he loves this, the way Alice glares at him gives him butterflies and if winning against her was the only way she would focus on him and only him then so be it. Their competitions, no matter how little or big it is, means a lot to him. This part also shows how much respect he has for Alice, and also let me show this part “She strides over to him first, her shoulders thrown back, determined not to bend beneath the weight of her defeat. He does not think anything in the world will ever be powerful enough to knock her down.” MY HEART

SECOND PART

DURING

This mentions how Henry has a photographic memory, and that he uses his brain like he does any computer, filtering and filing away the ones that dont matter to him and saving the ones that do, and he mentions that its mostly of alice. like her simple gestures, her scowl, her laughter. it also mentions like the first part of the book where invisible alice visits him in his dorm for the first time, he thought he was hallucinating because he was thinking of her too much! whsbwbseib then skips to that making of the app, how he spent countless sleepless nights perfecting it bc it would make them business partners, therefore getting close to her. he imagines her secret smiles, that she might compliment him and tell him he did a good job, and that is more than enough motivation for him.

then time-skip to another part of the book, the part where Alice is so stressed bc of the countless requests on beijing ghost and her academic responsibilities that when she was about to present something for english she excuses herself to calm down first, henry follows her shortly after and sees her panicking. henry obvi wanted to comfort her but resorted to looking like he was teasing her, which did kind of work bc she ended up angry rather than anxious. here henry admits that theres a part of him that just wants to hold her close and comfort her. then henry tells alice when she’s presenting she should look at him. then she’s like “why would i do that?” and he’s like “because for one my face is nice to look at” then she’s like sarcastic “sure” and he steps forward and is like “are you saying it isnt?” he says like he’s not the one who’s heart is beating rlly fast then like some more teasing then like they agree to it and she delivers the presentation looking at him and he thinks that she’s perfect. (im telling u all henry is the biggest simp)

LAST PART

AFTER (after the events of the book! yay!)

Henry has a nightmare. That last part of the book but instead it was Alice trying to be taken away and like he’s panicking and trying to save her then like they have this exchange of words and you can just feel how panicky he is. then dream alice says nobody can see her and henry says its not true because he sees her then dream alice starts to disappear and he starts calling out to her, shouting her name over and over then he wakes up. He was in his private library, before falling asleep he was there with alice and they were just reading with alice threading her fingers through his hair and him pretending to read and he got sleepy bc of it. which is odd for him because he never takes naps, especially if its accidental, but alice makes him feel relaxed 🥹❤️. so yeah he searches for alice and finds her just beside him she asks if he’s okay bc she heard that he was saying her name in his sleep, his response was to hug her and ask her to not disappear again. and then alice makes a confession about how she too gets nightmares about that night, then she says when she wakes up she’s okay because she knows he’s there, so everythings going to be okay <3

This is the part where it switches to alice’s pov again and like theyre on a study date, well alice assumed it was a study date, henry wanted a date date lmao, alice tries to make it up to him and says they should do some romantic stuff and like this funny part where she points out a store with a bunch of hearts and she says that that place looks romantic and henry says that its a lingerie shop, he of course laughs at her (tho he tries to hide it) henry then suggests they should just have dinner. then like on the way to the restaurant, theyre already abt to go in when they bump into alice’s aunt and her friends and like one of her aunt’s friends saw henry, confirmed he was rich, and tried to set him up with her daughter, which he henry thought was funny (this is in alice’s pov but like she just knows) alice speaks up and says henry is her boyfriend, lin ayi (aunt’s friend) said like an offensive ‘you?’ then henry says that he fell for alice first slightly colder than before (henry mad but calm) then they were abt to go in when lin ayi heard they were going to eat in the vip section and subtly suggests (if you could even call it subtle) if they (the 3 aunties) could join, henry gives the choice to alice and alice agrees. henry and alice walk in holding hands and henry starts pulling a chair for alice to sit down on, and henry whispers “how have i been?” like how has his ‘performance’ been because he knows alice wants to show him off, like a subtle counterattack to that lin ayi, he says he’s happy to oblige and wants to know if he’s performing up to standard (his words not mine), alice says (a lil annoyed but not tone) “you’ve been very good. happy?”

this is his legit response i had to share the whole paragraph.

henry confirmed golden retriever type in private black cat in public.

and because he’s happy alice praised him he even says he’ll treat the aunties. lin ayi pretends to be ashamed (is still the first one to order very plenty and expensive food) (god, lin ayi annoyed me sm) okay and theres the dinner and stuff then she asks if henry can drink, he’s legal so yeah he can, she even tries to pressure alice into drinking, henry says he’ll drink for her. then theres this drinking competition of henry and the aunties. of course henry would not back out. so yeah this happens and lin ayi (now obviously drunk) brings up her daughter again (she just never gives up) and asks if he’s sure he’s in a committed relationship and that theyre still young and they (alice & henry) can break up, when that happens and stuff her daughter is available (like alice isnt sitting right there). then henry completely shuts her down by saying he’s certain that she’s in a committed relationship, he’s never been certain of anything more in his life, and that if they were to ever be separated he would not be of sound heart or mind to even look at anybody else. then someone calls on lin ayi’s phone and she leaves and theyre finally alone (2 aunties r elsewhere a while ago). so yeah henry wins the drinking game, once all aunties were gone he finally lets go of his act and slumps and YES DRUNK HENRY

He says like “I won” with a smile. shes like “uh sorry what r u trying to achieve here?” and hes like “you havent told me yet” shes like “told you what” and alice is like confused lmao, and henry pouts POUTS then like more cute stuff im sorry im not going into too much detail im missing a bunch of stuff out then like henry begins to say his recent achievements to her like how he’s one of the reasons his dads company like rising revenue, how he was one of the ppl invited to talk at this big event and he’s the youngest one there, and he says “you’re not impressed?” and alice finally realizes what he wants to hear her say, then alice like chuckles and says “henry, come on. i’m always impressed by you.”

then she takes him to the car and helps him in he asks, looking more sleepy than drunk, “you’re coming, aren’t you? you won’t leave?” (he’s so cute ejdjen) then some exchanging of words then he starts getting a little clingy and says “alice i miss you, i miss you now.” “but i’m here.” “i know. that’s when it’s worse, almost. your presence… it’s overwhelming. i cannot imagine the absence of it. i don’t want to. does that make sense?” then alice strokes his hair and says “it does. but i won’t give you the chance to miss me that much. i’ll always be with you. you know that, don’t you?” then henry says with a small soft smile “i know everything.”

AND THATS A WRAP PEOPLE i obviously didnt include absolutely everything since this is already too long but like i didnt include some cute parts so i am sorry auwbswbsb like the mention of henry’s 18th bday (like literal mentioned in the after part in the drinking scene) like how alice made henry’s bday memorable. MY HEART. okay yeah thats it i hope this is okay hehe

#if you could see the sun #alicehenry

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fairy-pd · 2 years

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Gabriel May finally finds a healthy coping mechanism - agere hcs

Hurt/comfort, gremlin man gets the love he deserves, GN reader, regressor!reader, sfw, mentions of trauma

MY BEAUTIFUL BABY MAN BABY. I LOVE HIM YOUR HONOR. HE STINKS SO BAD G O D

general hcs:

I cannot stress this enough: in this household we support Gabriel's rights and Gabriel's wrongs

In my opinion he was just a really misunderstood and abused kid, who coped with ppl villainizing him constantly by becoming the monster everyone accused him of being

He internalized his traumatic experiences and now believes he's basically the antichrist and that he's incapable of changing

Also he could've not, yknow, killed a bunch of ppl and terrorized his sister for years, he is totally responsible for being a shitty person dont get me wrong

But at the same time, he was a kid. I feel bad for the fact that becoming this vengeful ghost of a person was the best option in his young mind. No child should ever have to make that choice, no kid should even consider that as a choice

He still is, in some ways, mentally a child. He didn't get to experience the milestones for an adult that Emily did, and from day one he was treated like a thing. His inner child is constantly *screaming* at him, begging for attention, but he got pretty good at pushing his feelings down and ignoring his own needs while in pursuit of his goals

He is very very immature because of all this. Think tantrums, having a terrible sense of object permanence, deeply rooted abandonment issues, etc

Even tho Emily managed to lock in that mind??? prison ??? thing??? he still gets out from time to time and that's how he met you: fucking around town while he could

Im not gonna dwelve in too deep as to how you guys started a relationship (romantic or platonic) but now you're the only person he trusts

He is capable of feeling empathy, just not a lot and not for everyone. With you he feels incredibly sensitive and caring, which is totally foreign to him and kinda makes him feel like he's gone "soft" - so don't make fun of him (or a big a deal out of the whole thing) when he expresses concern, or he will shut you down like he did with his sister

I kinda hc him as using sarcasm/humor to cope, so he'd be cracking some witty jokes here and there whenever he's nervous about doing something

his regression/caregiving style:

He is a flip through and through, though it would take a long time for him to accept his "little" side

He hates being vulnerable, hates not having the upper hand and control over things, so he would downright beat himself up for being "weak" and still having these childlike needs and thoughts

But remember he feels like he's doomed, like he can't help being a "monster"? Being a caregiver would help him immensely with these thoughts because even though he's a piece of shit gremlin, he would never intentionally hurt a child

So by letting yourself regress around him he would learn he can choose his fate. He is not doomed, because he is capable of seeing you in your most vulnerable state and not even consider the idea of taking advantage of that

And that blows his mind off lmao

And for some ~mysterious reason~ he starts to feel a little better, and to do a little better

Needless to say Emily is beyond grateful you're in their lives. Gabriel totally refuses to go to therapy (doctorphobic lol), and their relationship is as bad as it gets, but since you showed up Gabriel hasn't been a prick to her. He is very moody still, but they're not fighting over control of their brain and body anymore. Because of you, they started to be able to tolerate each other's presence and now they try their best to both not fight in front of you and to share their body as best as they can

He lowkey doesn't know how to act around you at first lmao, its kinda of endearing. He wont show but he's gonna be panicking inside and will wonder if the slightest touch or thing he says would hurt you

He cares. A lot, all the time, and since its just the two of you and he feels so strangely safe around you, he'll allow himself to be 100% invested in taking care of you

He's a craftsman, which could maybe make you think he'd spoil you rotten with gifts (which he will) but I feel he also wouldn't want to shut up about how absolutely adorable you look

Wouldn't go too crazy with the nicknames tho, at most would call you kitten/puppy/bunny

I figured moving probably feels pretty painful to him, so he'll deal a lot better with calm/sleepy regressors

But don't get too excited thinking he'd let you do whatever you want: he can and he will put you on one of those kid leashes with the backpack if he has to

I think that, with time, he'd go from a sort of lenient cg to a more strict one- it would help him to give someone rules to follow cus he'd have to take care of himself better to be able to take care of you

The most therapeutic thing to him about all this is to be able to give someone the childhood he didn't get to have: you'll never feel alone, he'll never belittle you or make you feel like there's something inherently wrong with you

On the contrary: he'd make a point on teaching your regressed self to love and accept yourself as best as you can

BIG fan of gentle parenting, got a tiktok account solely to watch those vids and to make mental notes on how to better care for you

Would get pretty jealous and protective over you and your relationship, specially around Emily

If you guys ever go out together and you happen to regress in public he will not let you feel bad about it. You better not take that paci out of your mouth honey, cus there's nothing to be ashamed of here

He isnt super big on parental nicknames, thinks dada/papa is fine but absolutely prefers bubba over those

Isnt super excited about touch at first either. At the begging of your relationship he would outright refuse it, but since discovering his cg headspace he has allowed himself to admit he's absolutely somewhat touch starved

Expect lots of little touches here and there, like brushing hair out of your face/tucking it behind your ear, adjusting your clothes, fixing your eyebrows, etc

Melts when you hug or compliment him. Will never ever let himself admit it tho, but will thank you for doing it

He keeps every drawing/little gifts you give him somewhere Emily wont find it, so he can 1) keep small you all to himself 2) protect his reputation as a stone cold and uncaring guy and 3) gush to himself over how lucky he is to have found you

Remember he's a craftsman? He loves making you big gifts out of literally anything he can get his hands on i.e. has turned one of Emily's old wooden pieces into a bunch of Montessori-inspired toys and plans on doing it again, cus fuck you Emily

Despite being good with big pieces, his fine motor skills are a disaster (thanks for having to use Emily's arms backwards). If you ever let him do your hair he will mess it up (and will get a good laugh out of both of you)

He is a great storyteller and loves playing pretend: will make up bed time stories on the spot

He's got a lot to learn, but if you give him enough love and try to be patient he'll outmatch your energy and will dedicate himself, body and soul, to you

Super caring cg once he finds a safe place to live and thrive in

i love him thats all. hope it wasnt too bad!! im kinda sleepy so apologies if something isn't consistent, I'll proofread this later. see ya, pt. 3 of tommy hewitt as a cg coming soon after this one❤

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libbee · 1 year

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Who takes decision in your life?

🌸 for anyone who resonates

I was met with one question "Who is in control of your life?" People replied "Me"; i thought to myself what was my answer? I never felt like i chose my choices. Sometimes they were wishful thinking that happened to come true. But most of the daydreams did not come true. Hint: No I didnt fall in passionate thrilling romance with a bad boy who only has soft place for me. Not to say that fantasies are useless. Fantasies are psychic processes that tell you a lot about yourself. They are not waste of time either. Fantasies tell you have a creative bone that is urging to express outside. Most of the times fantasies are when we are really bored stressed unsatisfied lonely insecure in life. Fantasies can be a way to quickly satiate unfulfilled desires.

But somewhere fantasies create unrealistic expectations that are almost impossible for the life we currently actually have. And that is a pretty shitty way to live. To be always living in glamour of fantasies, anticipating it and hightened expectations. Not to forget that for every 1 successful person there are 100s of those who do not succeed. "Just try harder", "Good luck next time", "You probably didnt work the right strategy" but the real answer is "I dont know why you did not succeed". I personally dont believe in law of attraction because it did not work for me. So I instead chose to go with the flow of the tao and let fate bring whatever result it wants.

Jeff Bezos once said "When a company comes up with an idea, it's a messy process--There's no 'aha' moment." What it means is that rather than panicking for the final result, try to solve the mess that the process is. As an 8th houser, my life + my parents' life (both 8th housers) have been very unpredictable; just when we thought things were stable something would create ripples and disturb the calm waters. From one extreme to the other, we were all affected by each other's fate and ups downs. Being a child, I would get neurotic thinking "why is my life not carefree like others", "why cant i be stable for one day", "does everyone have such rollercoaster life"? Then I would think "perhaps if we get through this life would calm down", "perhaps this is the last challenge", "just this time then i will enjoy life". Little did I know that 8th house is highly karmic and fated. Same for Saturn/Saturn in 8th house/Pluto placements. When life feels fated, you have no choice but to surrender to the forces. Because the more you consciously push the more life resists your movement. Problems of 8th house are not going to mild, we just learned to be calm in emergency, control our panic, calmly take logical decision and manage our life as much as possible. The lesson for these people was "to choose their emotional reaction".

"However simple an impulse appears to be, every nuance of its particular character, its strength and direction, its course, its timing, its aim, all depend on special psychic conditions, in other words on an attitude. And the attitude consists of a constellation of contents so numerous that they cannot be counted" - Carl Jung. My current life attitude is somewhere between cynicism, hopeful pessimism, taoism and stoicism. A mix of all these work for me. What it means is that instead of obsessing over things not under my conscious control (like result of an exam, behaviour of other people, fate of a relationship), I only focus on things under my control that is effort, reason and mind.

It is not passivity or defeatism. It is a life lesson for people who have faced many misfortunes to be prepared for the future and to make peace with the past.

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ineedjesusverymuch · 1 year

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Diabolik lovers headcanons bc im bored

Hi, I'm new here and I'm gonna make some headcanons. I'm gonna start with kanato because I have the most hc of him (I don't even know why). And just a short warning: I ship him with azusa for some of those.

Don't like it don't read it I guess

So there will be a few hc with azusa and him

A trigger warning here. I'm gonna talk about some topics that may upset some people. (Anxiety, trauma, maybe some other stuff, probably depression too)

If you are sensitive to any of these topics, PLEASE dont read this post.

A short NSFW will come too at the end. I'm gonna mark it like this.

Kanato uses a lot of skincare products. He just does. Sometimes he is a lil bit overexcessive simply bc he wants to hold up his image of a perfect doll-like body

dis boy has so much trauma, and he needs somebody to talk. Definitely traumadumps sometimes, does not have really control over this

Maniputative but all the fake crying leaves a strain on his mental health, and so does the screaming. So scared that somebody is gonna leave him, even though he currently has nobody. Its a lingering feeling and it drives him crazy

Had defenitely a big crush on Azusa

But was never able to tell him BC of crippling anxiety and his inability to confess his real feelings (especially to somebody who was just so much like...him)

Still sad about it (and still hopes that Azusa maybe feels the same)

Scared to really love somebody (when they leave what will he do then? He doesn't know and doesn't want to find out either)

Pansexual and leans into demi sexual a little bit. (Those are my own hc)

A demi boy. Likes to dress androgynous with a lot of feminine hints. But definitely pulls of more masculine clothing too

Reaaaaalllly loves to cuddle. He is probably just as much of a cuddlebug as Azusa but he doesnt like to show that side of him. Kanato thinks it makes him weak

Scared of crowds, has social anxiety

Has attachmend issues that startet when his brothers and he startet to fight about the affection from their mother

Loves butterflys and pretty horses (and can ride too, he loves especially Frisians)

Speaks a lot of languages.

Like Italian (he spoke it in one of the games for a spell he made)

He loves romantic languages like italian, french and spain

Is able to speak English, has a really strong British accent

Can speak a bit of Russian (The triplets wanted to learn it when they were younger)

A pro when it comes to makeup

Like he can make you look beautiful in 10 minutes

Looooves lolita style (especially dark clothes paired with cute accessories)

A sucker for themed candy (bad punch I know)

stuffed animals.

Has a big obsession with his nails. They have to be clean and long, and they all need to be the same length !

hates candy corn. Deeply resents it

But loves all other candy

Tried to grow by drinking a lot milk. Didn't work. He was upset for a week

Cuddles with Shu. Its the only time he makes something with his oldest brother

Shu enjoys the quiet, calm moments with Kanato

When he realizes that his anxiety is getting worse he will usually go to Reiji or to Subaru (when he goes to anybody really) (Usually he just stays in his room and hopes that it will stop fast)

They will do their best to calm him down and distract him from the dark thoughts (of his past Or just other dark stuff. We all know how f*cked up his mind is)

Has a lot of nightmares and gets panic attacks a lot

They usually occur when Kanato is stressed or he gets triggered by a certain scent or sound

Its really hard to calm Kanato down once he has startet to get panicked and/or nervous

Has a comfort blanket

Is really sensitive with fabrics and how they feel

Loves Satin and Velvet

Hates scratchy fabrics

Loves clothes with embroidery

Kanato likes head massages almost as much as back massages

He is so tense, once Yuma gave him a massage and now he practically begs Yuma for another one anytime the Mukamis are at the Sakamaki Mansion

Likes to get dressed up

Really enjoys scrapbooking (even though his pages are very chaotic)

Sewed a teddy for Azusa once

Loves 3/4 pants. Just loves them

Short NSFW

a switch. Sorry not sorry

Pls his top has to be nice to him or he will cry

But likes to top too

Likes tounge kisses

Really good at flirting like he will make you fall for him in 10 minutes

Out of the triplets, he has the highest body count (nobody knows how and Laito and Ayato are very irritated by that)

Is down for almost everything

Really loves PDA

BDSM? Probably, depends on his mood

Pro at eating out. Nobody can change my mind. He just is

Aftercare pro. A lot of cuddles and he WILL make sure you feel good.

NSFW over now

sry just wanted to write that. It was in my head for a really long time.

Those are only my personal opinions of Kanato. If you disagree, thats alright.

This is NOT my character, but my headcanons.

If y'all wanna read more just write in the comments. I will continue this probably, depends on if anybody reads it or not.

(Even if not Im gonna continue this, when I'm being honest. It helps me to write this all out.)

Next hc will be Azusa i guess

If sb wants to read Kanato x Azusa hc, I'm gonna write that too.

See y'all and thank you for reading my confusing thoughts.

#Kanato #Azusa #Kanato Sakamki #Diabolik Lovers #DL #dl #headcanons Kanato #LGBTq #lgbtqplus #that is from my tired brain #sakamaki #sakamaki family #headcanons

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