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ivqnx · 14 days

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Guitarist Adler

I hope this post will blow up somehow cus I need money to afford a new phone lol (replacing my overheated issue ip 6)

y'all can purchase them here (art prints)

dw print-on-demand is available, dw worry bout the cost

Lately i've been thinking bout this fine ass Russell as a goddamn guitarist, cus he's just AHHHHHHHH 🙇‍♀️🙇‍♀️🙇‍♀️🙇‍♀️🙇‍♀️🫶

he might sing this

or maybeeeee as a Malay this 😍

(yeah i love lagu jiwang lolllll)

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timeladix · 2 months

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Friends with benefits but the benefit is giving each other societally unacceptable long hugs and generally being more touchy while literally being friends and not actually a couple

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fanficmaniatic · 2 years

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Guess who caved in and and drew the regular teenager ninja humans!

This concept was EATING ME alive and literally did not let me sleep, so take this, is 4 am for me and I should be sleeping.

Won’t bother posting this in my art account cuz I am not sure this is going to be their final versions in my head. I might change Leo’s clothes, I am not sure. Trying to make them all look mixed was harder than expected, but in case u r wondering, I did my best so they all look/are blasian. Have a nice day.

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malencholic-nyx · 11 months

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Ladies and gentlemen, hold on to your seats because today's emotional rollercoaster is about to take off!!! The heart's weather report is just in, and it seems we're in for a wild ride.

Dark clouds of anxiety are doing their menacing dance in the sky, getting ready to unleash their attack.

And oh boy, here comes the star of the show—panic attacks! They're making their grand entrance, wreaking havoc and leaving me in a state of absolute confusion.

But wait, there's more!!!! The heart seems to have developed its own unique language, a mysterious mix of weird sensations and unexplainable pain. It's like a secret code only the heart knows, and it's playing tricks on me lol..

So, folks, buckle up and stay tuned as we unravel the bizarre world of my anxious adventures. Will I survive this mysterious ordeal or become a wandering spirit? The answer is just around the corner, Stay tuned!!!

—Nyx

#emotional breakdown #trending news #hal-e-dil #desiblr #news reporter #i feel like shit #i hate being an overthinker #just wanna end this fuckin bulshit

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narzissenkreuz-ordo · 2 months

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genshin didnt help

#i think im having an anxiety attack i cant breathe right but i feel like a loser being upset over fandom bulshit

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miasanmuller · 5 months

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I loooove to come into Tumblr dot com and see people dragging teachers around and condemning every single thing a teacher has ever done inside a classroom and pretending that students are silly little pure things who are never to blame in any situation ever

#sigh... it's end of the school year here and i'm just. done.#people who diss teachers and judge what we do or don't should be legally required to spend at least 3 months teaching teenagers full time #just to feel what it's like #like... try teaching 10 classes of 30 16-18 year olds who most definitely do NOT want to be taught anything #and then you can open your mouth about this job #i'm just sooooooo tired and frustrated and i still have to deal with my students bulshit #like by beloved i do not give a single flying fuck you still need a whole 1.0 to pass this year #you had plenty of opportunities to turn in that fucking assignment i send you two months ago that would have saved your grades #and you want me to give you extra grades to save your ass???????????? my beloved......... choke #personal #teacher complaining

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raindropsandseahorses · 2 years

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#harry owes sarah an apology #frankly howard stern owes sarah and mitch an apology but they'd never ever get one #it's frustrating to know that we'll literally never ever hear anything about this from h or anyone else #i don't know if it's that he's afraid to be controversial like that or for people to not like him #but i think he needs to stand up for his band members #especially when they're on the clock working for him and it would be awkward/inappropriate for them to stand up for themselves #honestly i guess they knew it was coming when they booked his show and that's a whole other issue #bc they shouldn't have booked it at all but whatever #but if they're gonna force pauli and sarah to be subjected to stern's violent bulshit #they at least have the responsibility to protect them #it's hard being a fan on days like today #this feels like a tpwk moment because that was not kindness #and it's not kindness to just float by and pretend like things like that didn't happen #that's not a good look for anyone

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skeletonin666 · 5 months

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i wish i could make everybody feel better

#i know i sound like a bitch when i say shit like this but i wish people realized that i care and that im fucking trying #im trying to make everybody feel better when i have the Feels Bad disorder and dont know how to people #i go out of my way to try and make others happy and nobody seems to appreciate it!!!#like i take time out of MY DAY when i should be working so i dont fail school to help others and nobody seems to care!#i know its selfish to think of it that way #but idfk #i know that im in the wrong here and that im being selfish #why wont people realize that im trying to do whats fucking good for them #i dont care about their self loathing bullshit i know what will help them but nobody listens #i know im a bitch #but ffs why dont people understand that im here!!! im fucking right here and fucking care!!!#IVE BEEN TO HELL AND BACK AND IM JUST TRYING TO HELP PEOPLE NOT BE LIKE ME FFS #IVE BEEN THROUGH AWFUL SHIT AND IM JUST TRYING TO PROTECT OTHERS GODDAMNIT #im just trying to protect everybody but nooooo theyre too stuck up in their bulshit self hatred to fucking let me help #ive been to hell and back...#just trust me ffs

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multifandom-garbage-compactor · 1 year

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I don’t know how I’m going to get to June without maiming someone (and with all my eyelashes 😁).

#In addition to sleeping like three hours I began my day with shouting and covering my ears #first she has photographic memory so she knows you’re bulshitting her the next she doesn’t have a photographic memory so why would she have #said what you claimed she said *forced confused expression*#first she has Vulcan hearing and nothing gets past her uwu now she’s half deaf when I’m already shouting through the door #and feeling/looking like hot garbage #I’m always going to be what people say I am #who’s going to say otherwise? not me. that’s a large part of why things are so bad.#multi rambles #digital diary

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thattouceyboy · 2 years

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I hate you feelings I hate you romantic desires I hate you being touch starved I hate you the electric draw of another person's lips I hate you emotions I hate you politeness I hate you openness I hate you vulnerability I hate you I hate you I hate you but most of all I hate being a moron who knows better and decides to try anyway when I'm always the only one who fucking gets hurt!!!!!!!!!

#cant be with them without you #rage spit hate die kill maim burn bute kick scream tear #i am so fucling livid right now i had NO RIGHT to feel the emotions i did and i just got my fucking heart ripped out and spat on #BULSHIT FUCKING BULLSHIT YOU LIAR #i will end the next person who tries to tell me they like ne #i will never ever ever ever ever trust another fucking person #none of you like me none of you know me no one gets to have feelings for me i am CHOOSING TO BE A SAD LONELY LIL FREAK #I HATE PEOPLE I HATE LOVE I HATE EMOTIONS I WANT A FUCKING LOBOTOMY

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hazashiovo · 2 months

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G’day! Could I bother you for some Zuko hcs of him falling for a girl next door kind of girl during his time in ba sing se? If you still write for atla. Or with bolin if u don’t! (Can’t remember the name of his fav place rip)? Thank you so much!

I do write for everything that's on my list, especially Zuko ;)

Zuko x fem reader

When zuko first settled in Ba Sing Se with his uncle,he didn't expect an oddly friendly girl to take initiative in talking to him.

His cold demeanor didn't push you away from him,it really got him wondering, especially since he has a pretty bad image of himself.

Once he started leaving his guard down around you,that's when his feelings started to accumulate.

You would come to his uncle's tea shop almost daily, leaving a small present for Zuko. Maybe some rice cakes, or some cute little drawings. Just a way to show your affection for the boy.

You never asked about his scar,you didn't want to make him uncomfortable by bringing back unfortunate memories.

And he really appreciated that, he doesn't really like nosey people.

His uncle ships you two. Iroh also gives Zuko dating advice about how to talk to you,how to act and Zuko pretends he hates it,but secretly absorbs single thing Iroh says.

Each time you went out with Zuko was an amazing experience, learning new things about him.

Now let's say one day you didn't visit Zuko at all,which got him worried.

The next day same,wich is unusual,if you'd be busy the day before,you would visit and tell him,it's just something you do.

So he gets suspicious,and comes to your house to see if you're okay,only for your mother to tell him you've been attacked while making a delivery, everything you had was stolen.

Your parents would welcome Zuko inside to come see you.

He enters your room to see you lay in bed,hurt,but nothing very serious,just some cuts and bruises over your arms and so. He's bad at comforting,but he makes sure to tell you it's not your fault.3

And he is FERAL. After talking to you,Zuko asks your parents who did it,in which they say some raiders who have been bothering your family for a long time.

Safe to say,you never had problems with those people again.

He was close to you while you were recovering, bringing you your favorite tea,and claiming his uncle made him do it.(Which is bulshit).

Soon enough you got back to your usual routine,even spending more time with Zuko.

After you got better,he asked you out. Deciding that it's useless to waste more time on dwelling,and that he has to speak his heart.

After he confessed,you jumped on him, kissing him like there's no tomorrow.

And like that,he started dating you. He felt like never before,you gave him this warm feeling in his chest,and when you were not around he would be gloomy.

Iroh was so happy Zuko found himself a nice lady. And since then, it was unusual for you to be seen without Zuko,or him without you.

At one point in your relationship,Zuko spoke about the burn mark on his face,and what his father did you him.

Yes, he told you he's the prince of the fire nation,but he also told you he left that in the past. You trusted him with your life,and you made sure to let him know it.

He was so happy that you didn't judge him for what he did,and that made him trust you a lot.

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My first Zuko request!

#zuko #prince zuko #x reader #zuko x reader #reader #fem reader #atla #atla x reader #aang the last airbender #aang the last Airbender x reader #fire nation #ba sing se #uncle iroh #iroh

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itsjustmylifeconfessions · 1 year

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I loved episode 6 for so many reasons (Pedro your Emmy nomination is secured!) but two things really caught my attention while watching the episode and seeing people reacting to it (on YouTube, twitter, here...)

The amount of male reactors that didn't know what a menstrual cup was, and even thought it was some sort of birth control, shouldn't have been surprising to me but damn y'all really don't know anything do you?

One video I watched they were saying Maria was trying to control Ellie, by giving her birth control and cutting her hair against her will. They did not think Maria was being genuinely helpful at all.

Now let me tell you, as a woman, I would have helped another woman with everything she needs immediately. We have a shower, let me get you a nice soap. Need period products? I got you. I have scissors do you need a haircut? Let me get you clean underwear, do you need a bra? Here have a hair tie.

When Ellie found the tampons in ep 4 that made me so happy, then this happens and this display of not only women's solidarity towards each other but this awareness of our daily issues actually warms my heart.

I've always wondered what it would be like to be a woman in an apocalyptic world. We need these things. We don't just want them, we need them. I have cramps that are so bad sometimes I think I'm gonna pass out, even if I take meds, but I have never, not even once, watched a scene with a woman even acknowleding her period. unless if for some bulshit pregnancy arc but don't get me started

The second thing was that a lot of people (not just men in this case) thought that Joel was having a heart attack, when it was so clear he was experiencing something like a panic attack/anxiety/PTSD episode.

The lack of awareness on mental health is so clear. Maybe it's because I deal with anxiety and know what it feels like, but I understood immediately what was happening in those scenes.

We are so used to not talking about it. It should be so obvious to everyone but it wasn't. Because we don't even discuss this in real life.

I love that the show doesn't shy away from such important things that somehow for us are taboo. Mental health, women's health, these are things we don't really see in shows like this and I love that they are not hiding from it.

Ellie is a girl, she has periods. She also has a lot of trauma to unpack. Joel is not a robot, he's been through so much of course there's trauma there, of course he'll have PTSD and anxiety and have panic attacks on the possibility of caring for someone so much again and failing to protect them.

Anyway, I'd love to talk about everything I've been loving about this show but this post is too long already. I'm loving how they are adapting this story, they are doing a fantastic job, and the things they are changing/adding are only making the story better, and I can't wait for what's coming next.

#im surprised every time i see periods being acknowledged at all tbh #AND PEDRO THE EMMY IS YOURS BABY #the last of us #tlou #hbo #episode 6 #ep 6 #1x06 #pedro pascal #joel miller #bella ramsey #ellie

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magnusbae · 4 months

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I mean, I can't NOT prompt "Emotions are a luxury I don't have time for." with Dreamling 👀

🤘 five-and-dimes

OKAY ADMITTEDLY it does fit Dreamling very well doesn't it—? I was going to give half an hour per piece and accidently digressed way too much with this one..... whoops...? Thank you for the prompt dear 🥰💖

Dreamling || 1,174w || lowkey hurt/comfort but with ~hope

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“Don’t you feel anythi— fuck.” Hob stops, forcing the words back down with a thick swallow. He cannot afford himself to speak in anger, no matter how badly it burns in his veins, no matter how scourged by Dream’s aloofness he is. It doesn’t matter that he should have the right for anger. Dream is simply not a being you could, or should, be angry with if you hope to keep him in your life.

Angry or not, justified or not. Hob wants him in his life, very much.

“Dream, listen.” Hob starts, running a hand over his own face, nails scratching uncomfortably over the side of his cheek. “I get it, okay.” He really doesn’t but this is not the point “but seriously, you do have feelings, I know that you have…” his voice wavers and he gestures at the space between them, unable to voice it lest Dream would flee again. “Please.” his voice strains with the burden of it all. Wanting so much, needing so much—being forbidden from even voicing it, let alone having it.

"Emotions are a luxury I don't have time for.” Dream’s voice is deep, booming, as aloof as it could possibly get. He sounds like he’s reading a ready-made script, like he’s following the lines long since prepared.

Hob recoils, physically takes a step back, wants a distance between himself and Dream’s rejection. He should have expected it, in fact, he assumed he might get worse and yet— “Bulshit.” The short silence that follows is pregnant with tension, both momentarily silenced by Hob’s boldness. Hob is as surprised by it as Dream, apparently is.

Dream comes around first, eyebrows knotting, storms cracking in the depths of his eyes. His lips thin, the corners tug down and then he opens his mouth to deliver what Hob is sure would be either a really bad reprimand or his final words to him.

He cannot have it. If only for the simple fact that he doesn’t only want Dream in his life, but factually needs him. He doesn’t know what’s life would be worth without knowing that in the end of every story there will be Dream to share it with, a confidant, a keeper of his journey.

“I think that you’re afraid—” the words rush out without a thought, he steps forward, hurrying to finish before this would blow out of proportion “—because I know that I am petrified.” The words burn true on his tongue, there’s a dull ache in his chest, his lungs feel too full and empty of air. “I am horrified that you might leave, I am terrified that you might not lo— accept this, I am…” he swallows, his throat is closing with the emotion of it all. He cannot stop, not now that he had finally started. “I get it Dream, I know that you are, that we are… different but…. “ His hand falls by his side, no amount of gesturing would express what he feels.

He runs out of words. He was so certain he had them all when this conversation started, now he can hardly even remember what brought it about. He didn’t prepare for it as well as he thought, he doesn’t know how to word it, how to phrase it in a way that would convince Dream to give this, them, a chance. Damn.

His chin drops and he stares at the ground, burning disappointment makes his hand tremor. He closes his fist.

He is no poet, no storyteller, no writer. He is no Dream to pick and choose the right words. He’s only a man. Only a man who loves a being beyond his comprehension, very, very much.

Fuck, fuck it all. Fuck. He is about to lose him, isn’t he?

The pain in his gut is a twisting thing, like a knife slicing through the guts. Shitty death, he’d know. He dares to glance up when Dream doesn’t speak, half expecting to see him gone. Instead, there’s something softer in Dream’s eyes when he meets them. For the first time, Hob’s attention is drawn to the unnatural void in those eyes, the glint of distant stats. This is…

“Am I…” his mind struggles through the spell of dizziness, his consciousness readjusting its grasp of the surroundings. The shadows are longer, the shapes are bent a little too far, the colors are not quite right.

“I am dreaming.” He understands when he finally sees the landscape for what it is, Dream, for who he is. “Oh shit.” His cheeks color red, he is aware of the incredibly uncomfortable material of the shirt he used to wear some few hundreds years ago.

“I yanked you into my dream, haven’t I.” This is, even more than before, not how he had hoped to confess. Not even close.

“Hob,” Dream’s voice bleeds to every fiber of the dream-scape, infusing it with power, making it feel tangible, more clear, in focus. “You dream very loudly.” There’s an odd note to his voice, if Hob was to attempt and pinpoint it, he’d have to admit it sounds like astonishment.

“Sorry,” he answers, abashed. “I, uh, suppose you can’t just…” he gestures at his own head with a motion that resembles wiping chalk off of a board. “Maybe…?” he adds, hopefully.

He doesn’t regrets his feelings. He would, though, like to at least be awake when Dream rejects him, It feels only proper.

The idea of simply not raising it up at all is one that had crossed his mind frequently, and yet he knows that sooner or later he’d slip again, that he wouldn’t be able to to continue pretending like this isn’t an integral part of who he is, like this isn’t something that he feels.

Sooner or later, he’d tell Dream of The Endless that he is helplessly, hopelessly, truly and deeply— in lov…

A finger again his lips distracts him from his thoughts. “Very loudly.” Dream scolds quietly, wistfully. He sighs then, the weight of it almost buckles Hob’s knees. Dream seems to ready himself, like he is expecting a great deal of suffering and is braving himself for it. He looks exhausted. Worn down. Won over.

Hob immediately dislikes that look, it speaks too much of Dream’s past. Too much of what had made Dream as closed off as he is. Too much of what hurt him so badly. Hob wants him to be…

“Very well, Hob Gadling.” Dream’s words distract Hob from his thoughts again “We shall speak of it further in the waking world, according to your wishes.” Dream looks away into the distance, his finger lingering on Hob’s lower lip, it’s cool. “I must go now, so long.”

He does not sat farewell. Hob’s mind centers around it. Between one eye blink and another, Dream is gone, golden sand scattering behind.

“What…?” Hob’s mind is already fuzzing into an incoherent haze of shapes and shadows, only distantly concerned with what just transpired.

Only vaguely he wonders if he should feel loss, or…not?

#Listen I had no idea what I was going for as I started and didn't for the entire time. BUT STILL.#My only rule for tonight's write-in is to go along with anything regardless of my personal feelings about the matter XD #So here we are~ I hope you like it!! 💖💖💖#Dreamling #Dreamling fic #The sandman #dream of the endless #hob gadling #dream #hob #buns.w #buns.all #msg #I absolutely should stick to 200-300 words and no rewrites moving on though esgterhbrtdthrt #five-and-dimes

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paintedstories · 11 months

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Thinking abt perv! Innie randomly hugging u from behind whenever ur infront of him and ribbing his crotch on ur ass while he’s at it, staring down ur blouse whenever he see’s ur tit’s bounce a little too much, and whenever u bend over he suddenly needs to open up his camera to “fix his hair” but jst secertly takes photos of you, He does these things so often that even Chan started calling him out but Jeongin didn’t care, as long as no one got hurt by it right? You were innocent and oblivious to his antics so what’s the harm? He thinks as he scrolls through his many photos of ur body

oh my god omg omg omg omg!!!!! I love THIS!1!!!

can I marry you?? omg, can you see that I love your ask?

anyway, let's start!

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first of all Chris is still surprised how you don't realize what your sweet innocent Jeonjinnie does to you.

"manipulating" you into wearing short skirts and tight shirts that show your breasts every move, and those skirts that show your butt checks underline.

he especially LOVES to make you exited/happy because your sweet innocent self jumps up and down excited while showing your beautiful breasts bouncing, pleading to be watched by your sweet boyfriend.

drops things un(intentionally) and begs you sweetly to get them for him because his hands are full, poor boy, can't get it, you have to get it for him.

but don't forget!

when you have to grab the dropped things, you have to let your back stay straight, don't arch it, it's not healthy.

surely it's not for him to see your cute pink panties

and surely he's not taking photos of you.

no no no~ he's just fixing his hair with the phone camera

When you cook he comes behind you and hugs you, aw, what a sweet boyfriend you have.

and when he un(consciously) grinds his hard crotch against your soft ass

you just let it slide.

he doesn't realize it

you shouldn't think like this.

what is Chris saying?

Your innocent boyfriend being a pervert and starring ta your boobs?

no no no

no way

he could never.....

what? Chris just told you that Jeongin took a photo of your butt?

well, that's weird but it doesn't matter, he's your lover, he can do that.

as he says.

"Only I can do it, no one else, if any other guy does it tell me ok, dove?"

the nicknames

love, sweet cheeks(he's 100% talking about your face...mhm), dove, sugar, sweetie, little one.

when you two go somewhere he put his hand on your back pocket, to warm his hand of course, and when he squeezes your butt cheek?

no it's just his reflex

he just relaxed his hand

it's just the reflex of him always dancing

biggest bulshit.

when you sleep he always wants to hug you and lay his hand on your chest, of course only to hear your heartbeat.

or when he spoons you, he puts his hand between your tights only to make his hand warm.

at the end of the day, he's just your touchy and loving boyfriend.

hi!! hope you liked it, this was my first headcanon.

if you wanted a drabble or a one-shot, feel free to teel me and I will gladly do it!!

love you my painting kit 🖌

and of course, here is the master list for TXT, SKZ, Tokio Hotel

By the way, please request more!!! I love when you request!

Anything!! Love you all!!!

#skz au #kpop fyp #skz #skz smut #jeongin #jeongin x reader smut #yang jeongin #jeongin hard thoughts #stray kids i.n #mimis work

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unbizzarre · 11 months

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BARRAYARAN COSTUME DESIGN

The process for costume design:

Had fun looking through a whole bunch of reference images to try to create a costume set that reflected the strong sense of tradition with midieval-esque holdovers from hand textiles that would have had to be the norm during barreyars period of isolation, while also accounting for the wealth of the current barreyaran aristocracy and their access to modern galactic trends and clothing. I also didn’t want the midieval influences to be generic-fantasy-vaguely-european-bulshit, so I also tried to find reference images with styles, patterns, and silhouettes that where somewhat reminiscent of the French, Russian, and Greek cultural heritage barnyard first settlers may have brought with them. That being said, it wouldn’t make sense for any of these traditional garments to have been preserved with 1-for-1 accuracy from there earth origins over the many centuries (cuz like, irl traditional dress in these countries is less and less common) so I didnt want to just copy exactly historical garments.

OH! And then I also had to make sure the men’s clothing also reflected the pseudo-military affectations which Bujold has mentioned in multiple books as being popular in menswear amongst the vor cast. (Ex: the formal riding boots, and the two swords carried at formal events, or less formally vor “town clowns” also wearing casual clothing reminiscent of a military cut.) but! In order to do this, I had to think of both what would have been military uniforms both in isolation-barrayar and modern barrayar, and which aspects of each set of military uniforms would be incorporated into modern men’s fashion. Would any women’s clothing also reflect this warrior trend?

Finally, since all of this costume design was brainstorming for the dinner party scene, I wanted to make sure that the clothes matched the personalities of the people wearing them. Like aunt Alice and Professors Vorthis are both middle aged Vor-caste women, but will have vastly contrasting style. Alice being alice, her clothing will likely be both perfect for the occasion while also a sleek and elegant combination of the leading barreyaran fashions, while also giving a nod to traditional barreyaran costume at times as she is a representative of both the state and her old-vor house. The professora on the other hand, will probably opt for something comfortable and cozy, while not especially showy, as she is more concerned with her studies and gardens and is not super involved in the Vorbarra-sultana social scene.

Some of the reference images I used:

And many many sooooo many more. So much borrowed creativity from all over the internet I feel bad I can’t more accurately site all my sources 😞

Also some random cool aesthetic modern shit that I thought had fun sci fi vibes as well as some *sigh* generic-euro fantasy clothing cuz sometimes you need to be a little basic.

Also a lot of cool art by artists I love that is just dope costume design and totally all their work. Idk the names of a lot of them cuz I’m not really active on social media and only really see the images amidst thousands of others in my Pinterest hoard but I always recognize the artsyles and creativity and wind up saving them to reference art boards 🙈

Some that I do remember and love a lot are cy-lindric, Juliette, and Celia Lowenthall

#barrayar #barrayaran clothing #lois mcmaster bujold #fanart #vorkosigan #vorkosigan fanart #scifiart #costume design #character design #concept art #vorkosigan saga #barrayaran fashion #barreyaran clothes

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gallusrostromegalus · 1 year

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I love everything you are doing with Orihime, if it's not too much troble, I wanted to hear more of what she does when she get kidnapped. Also did Rukia try anything when she got sentenced to death for bulshit crimes? It's been forever since I read the manga, so I don't remember what rukia was feeling exactly during this time, if she accepted the whole thing bc she has spent way too much time in the soul society that she just didn't see it how much bulshit it was or something else, or if it was just your standard damsel in distress thing

Rukia behaves in the calm, rational but firm way you'd expect out of a seated officer, especially a lieutenant that earned her position through hard work and demonstration after demonstration that she could be trusted with such a position.

...Byakuya, on the other hand, was appointed to his position by birthright as the latest scion of a long but narrow line of people who retained their power by violence as social standing. So when Byakuya experiences the psychotic crisis of "the people you respect the most want the person you love the most dead", the coinflip of his emotions lands on tails in AEIWAM.

*****

"...To Death?" She asked, staring at Renji.

"Yeah." He winced, shifting uncomfortably.

"...For a Misdemeanor Infraction that, per code 3.15.27846 sub-section 42-4, carries a MAXIMUM penalty of a month's suspension without pay while a performance review is conducted, and, pending the review, possible termination of my job, not my whole person?" She continued.

"...Um. Yeah, yeah that's the official rules per the Shingami Legal Manual." Said Renji. "It's real fuc- it's very peculiar and I'm honestly not sure what to make of it. Also, when did you learn to quote the manual like-"

"I'm a Goddamn Lieutenant, I know the law, and this stinks on ice." She glared. "I know I'm not allowed to question the orders or ask who issued them, but did you double-check that this is, in fact, what they meant to send, and didn't give you the memo for someone else or send out the wrong butterfly?"

"Um." Renji winced, pointedly studying the wall to his left. "Kuchiki-Taicho went to do that as soon as he saw the order."

Rukia blanched. "Renji. When did he leave?"

"He left for the central 46's liaison office directly from the 6th division's office when we got the order about an hour ago. I wanted to go with him, but he insisted that he could handle it and that you should get the news from me rather than a stranger."

"Abarai Renji." She spoke, voice low and dangerous. "Do you remember what happened the first day I came home from the 13th division boot camp with that shiner?'

"Yeah, Kuchiki-taicho broke into Ukitake-taicho's house with Senbonsakura at 2AM because he thought someone had hit yo-" Renji laughed then stopped. "-Oh."

"You let my brother, the absolute last person you can expect to behave in a rational and restrained manner to any perceived threats to my person, go off to visit someone who just issued an order for my extermination? UNSUPERVISED?" She growled.

Renji stood, paralyzed in wide-eyed horror. "I. uh. I gotta go prevent some treason." he sputtered, before bolting from the room.

***** "I fucked up, I fucked up, I fucked uuuuuup-" Gin hissed under his breath as he ran through the maze of buildings that made up the central government's compound. "Sure Gin! Keep feeding him spiritual power Gin! It'll fix everything Gin! No way he's going to cause a massive inter-dimensional destabilization event Gin!"

He turned the corner to the central 46's liaison office, just to the side of the sealed gate, and sprinted for the small office at the base of the tower all Hell butterflies issued from, where the Gate's security guard and the Liaison worked.

"Hey guys sorry to burst in here but it's kind of an Emergen... cy." Gin shouted and then sputtered as something warm splashed underfoot. He looked down to find that the previously-beige carpet of the Liaison's office was now a deep and unpleasantly wet crimson. Behind him, there was a faint creak as the unsealed and unguarded gate swayed lightly in the breeze.

"Oh." Gin realized, wilting. "I'm in deep shit."

#AEIWAM #Byakuya is still a deranged bastard that acts first and asks questions he should have asked first later #but a completely different flavor of the above than canon #Because I realized Zaraki 'asks if anyone's gonna adopt that unattended child and does not wait for an answer' Kenpachi #would have know Byakuya since he was an annoying adolescent #Gin also had an excavator taken to his backstory and I'm quite pleased with it #Gin is still a dick #just kind of literally now #An Elephant Is Warm And Mushy #Bleach fanfic #Ichimaru Gin #byakuya kuchiki #renji abarai #rukia kuchiki

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