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minnielvr · 4 months

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cold chocolate - kim seungmin

˚ ༘ pairing bf! seungmin x fem! reader

˚ ༘ genre fluff, angst!!, seungmins a bit of a meanie :(

˚ ༘ wc 3.4k

˚ ༘ note never writing smth this long (okay 3k words☠️) again idfk how sum ppl do it😭 sorry if this bad guys i cant write rlly good🦦merry xmas!!!

"hey y/n can you come out here?" seungmin called to you from your guys' living room.

"yea whats up babe?" you went over to the couch and sat next to him.

"promise you wont be mad?" he looked at you and raised a brow while grabbing your hand.

"oh god seungmin what did you do now?" you chuckled. obviously you thought that whatever he was going to tell you wasn't that shocking and he was just exaggerating, but you were so wrong.

"no y/n this is serious."

"o-oh okay. uhm whats wrong?" you were starting to get nervous now. does he want to break up? did he cheat on you? a million thoughts raced through your head but not one of them was what he was about to tell you.

"i'm not gonna be home for christmas.." he said it so casually as he looked down in his lap.

"oh."

now usually missing holidays wouldn't be such a problem for you two, except christmas. you guys dont really celebrate anything other than valentines, chuseok, and birthdays, sometimes you guys dont even celebrate birthdays. but christmas? it was a must. you were going to go back home to your family with him for the first time. he had even said yes. now all of a sudden he cant? whats more important?

you inhaled a shaky breath and asked, "why?"

"well you know, we have practice to do, and we have to record some things. so i'll be staying at the dorms." he shrugged and let go of your hands. thinking you were fine.

now that pissed you off. practice? recording? he couldn't skip one week of work for christmas? he was never like this, he has never put his work over you.

"seriously seungmin?. you cant just skip a week of work for christmas? you're putting 'some practice' over me?" you looked up at him with an open mouth.

"no y/n, i cannot." he glared at you. why was he giving you attitude all of a sudden? its not like you're the one who will be missing christmas.

"care to explain why?" you crossed your arms.

"dont you get it y/n? my work is harder than yours, you literally do nothing but sit down at a desk all day and book peoples appointments," he slowly started to raise his voice. "you dont get it all. i cant just be home all the time to give you attention. since when were you so clingy?"

you stood up from the couch and backed away from him, scared of him yelling at you. were you really that annoying? your eyes started to water.

"seungmin wh-why are you getting so mad? i'm just asking you to take a week off for christmas, im sure they'll let you. beside you need a break too." you said while looking down, trying to avoid eye contact so he couldn't see your tears.

"i'm mad because you're annoying! i dont want to take a week off. i cant be with you all the time y/n. leave me alone." he turned to the tv and turned it on, acting as if nothing happened.

at this point there were tears running down your face. how could he be so rude and say something like that? sure you guys have had arguments before and said things, but never like this. he the level-headed one in the relationship. he always keeps his cool during arguments because he knows how upset you get.

maybe it is your fault though. maybe you ask for too much attention and let him do all the work in the relationship. maybe you should leave him alone until christmas is over.

"okay. i'm sorry that im too clingy. i'll just leave" you turned around on your foot to go get your backpack with all your things. you'll stay with a friend or something. maybe you were overreacting a bit but you didn't really care, how could your boyfriend just ditch family plans for christmas like that?

"yea whatever, i dont care" and he dismissed your statement just like that.

now that hurts.

one of your best friends since you were 5, areum, was jeongins girlfriend. you and her were out one day and saw the two of them together, jeongin asked for aerums for her number first and seungmin asked you out a few weeks later. the rest is history.

you just arrived to aerums house and she graciously welcomed you in. seeing the tear stains on your face and your nose red, she figured you had walked here. she was correct. on the way out of your and seungmin's shared apartment, you had forgotten your car keys. but by the time you realized you were already too far down and didn't want to go back up to grab them, especially because seungmin would probably still be in there.

"so? tell me what happened babes" she guided you over to her couch and sat down next to you.

you explained what had happened and she fully agreed with you on your view of the whole thing. i mean, if he already said yes to the plans, why would he switch up all of a sudden? and seungmin would usually take a sick day or soemthing if you asked, he cared about you a lot. you're not saying that he has to prioritize his work over you, but the least he could do was tell you in a nice way or just take a few days off for christmas.

"but wait. that doesn't make sense.." aerum furrowed her eyebrows.

"huh? why?" you looked up at her.

"jeongin said that they have a little christmas break or something like that. i mean, we aren't going anywhere but he said that the boys have no schedules and practices," she looked at you nervously. "do you think that maybe seungmins lying to you?"

well he definitely is, theres no question about that. you just didn't want to believe that he would actually lie to you about something like this.

"n-no he would never..," you looked down in your lap. "oh my god he doesn't want to see my family. he probably thinks i'm rushing into it right? but we were supposed to go to his parents house after that, how is that fair?" you were coming up with all these excuses to not make him look like the bad guy in this situation but there really isnt any. he lied to you and called you cling and annoying. thats the hard truth.

"hey hey calm down its okay," aerum side hugged you and started rubbing your shoulders. "i'm sure it's just a little problem with miscommunication hm? it could be fixed like this." she snapped her finger.

"y-yea of course." you hiccuped. "can i just stay here for the night though? i don't feel like going back yet." you looked up to aerum with wide, teary eyes.

"aw of course honey." she squished your cheeks. "go shower and i'll get some food ready for us. we can watch a movie." she smiled at you and tapped your back to usher you to the bathroom.

you smiled and agreed with her and went to shower. turning the water to borderline boiling so you could release all your thoughts.

you put on some of aerums spare clothes and stepped out of the bathroom and walked to the main room. she had the movie 'home alone' waiting to be played on the tv. she knew it was your favorite christmas movie.

aerum saw you step out and turned her head back over the couch to face you with a big smile on her face, beckoning you to go and sit next to her. you could see a plethora os sugary and salty snacks sitting on the little coffee table in the middle of the room. she really knew how to cheer you up.

you guys ended up watching both home alone movies and ate almost all of the snacks. you guys also fell asleep next to each other on the couch. which was typical for the two of you when you ahd movie nights.

you were the first one to wake up the next morning. rubbing your eyes and aerums foot being the first thing you see was not so pleasant. the sun was shining through the window and you could hear the bustling city of seoul outside. what time was it?

you sat up from the couch while gently taking aerums leg off of your lap. you bent down to grab your phone to see that the time was..2 PM?!?!? seungmin must be worried sick!

you turned to the side and looked at aerum sleeping so peacefully. a little drool coming out the side of her mouth.

"aerum! hey! hey! wake up! it's 2'oclock!" you violently shook her shoulders.

she hummed and swatted your hands away from her body. telling you to shut up.

"as much as i would love to stop doing this i still love you and you have work today. so...get. up." at this point she had opened her eyes and you were staring straight into them.

"oh my god! i have work!" she kicked the blanket off her feet and scrambled to get up off the couch. running to her bathroom to go shower and get ready.

"hey wait! i was gonna go in there!" you chased after her but to no avail. she had already got in and locked the door.

"i know you have boyfriend problems right now but im already late for work! which one is worse y/n?" you could hear her starting to turn on the shower.

"fine, you win." you lightly kicked her bathroom door in anger.

you headed to the kitchen and opened the fridge, looking for ingredients to make breakfast for the two of you. there was nothing inside the fridge except some eggs, bread, butter, and milk. how did aerum and jeongin even survive in this house? at yours and seungmin's apartment, the food inside the fridge and pantry is always stocked. you guys go grocery shopping together too, just to make running errands a little more fun. sometimes he would ride the cart trying to run away from you or sneak in some extra snacks that you guys certainly didn't need to spend so much money on. but thats what made it fun. those little quirks are why you loved seungmin.

as you were reminiscing on those little memories, you heard a door to the apartment open. looking towards it, you saw jeongin walk in. since you started tearing up thinking about yours and seungmins relationship, you quickly wiped them when jeongin came a little closer to you.

"y/n? oh my god! seungmin is so worried about you! you should go to him. like now." he looked genuinely concerned.

"y-yea i should haha," you looked towards the eggs cooking on the stove. "just make sure you keep on eye this food though. me and aerum woke up late so while she showered i figured i could make me and her some food. but i'm leaving now. also you guys should really go grocery shopping." you laughed at him while packing up your things.

he frowned at you and opened the fridge "hey it's not that b-maybe it is..."

aerum walked out of the bathroom wrapped up in a towel and looked at you wide eyed. she heard you talking to yourself so she decided to come out.

"damn babe" jeongin turned towards aerum and looked at her while raising his eyebrows.

"jeongin! what are you doing here! you weren't gonna be back until like...2...oh." she looked at the clock and now realized it was 3. "oh my god i'm gonna get fired!!"

"chill out aerum, i'm sure one day won't do anything" you chuckled at her over exaggeration.

"okay y/n listen," she went up to you and put her hands on your shoulders, staring you dead in the eyes. "you back in your apartment and be very clear to seungmin that you're sad and man and whatnot. be confident and don't cry." she pursed her lip at you.

"okay! got it. now go finish getting ready so you can leave before jeongin makes you stay!" you winked at her and left her apartment.

you were in front of your apartment door, giving yourself a pep talk about why you shouldn't be scared to go in there and confront seungmin. communication is key right?

you opened the door and were met with an empty house, no sign of seungmin anywhere. maybe he was sleeping? they didn't have any schedules today if you recalled correctly.

you walked towards your guys' shared bedroom and opened the door to be met with a sad sight. it was seungmin, curled up in the bed, holding onto your pillow. he seemed to be asleep and you didn't want to wake up him up. you were still mad at him, but the sight made your heart clench.

you went to your dresser and set your bag down. then you went to the bathroom to do your skincare routine since you hadn't gotten the chance to do so at aerums place. seems as though that woke seungmin up because next thing you know he's walking up to bathroom door that you forgot to close. you saw him behind you in the mirror.

"y/n?" he came closer to you and wrapped his arms around you. "i-i thought something happened to you when you left, i got really worried y'know..."

"well, i'm fine see? no need to worry." you unwrapped his arms from around your waist and stepped away from him. you appreciated the gesture but he's acting so normal, as if nothing happened between you two.

"oh...okay." he got the memo that you wanted to be left alone, so he left the bathroom. this time closing the door.

you were conflicted. you were mad at seungmin and he really hurt you. plus, the holidays were coming up and you didn't want to be in a sour mood for it. but at the same time, you could see he felt bad. him just initiating physical contact and being the first one to talk said a lot.

you see, both you and seungmin were both very prideful people. that means that when the two of you argued, instead of being normal and talking it out a few hours later. you guys stretched it on for 1-2 days before either of you came to apologize. communication was something your and seungmin's relationship was heavily lacking.

you decided that you would wait for seungmin to speak to you. and if he doesn't then well, you'll cross that bridge when you get there.

once you finished up in the bathroom, you made your way out to your bedroom and saw that seungmin was curled up on the bed with his phone.

"thought you had practice seungmin?" you crossed your arms and raised your brow.

"o-oh well you know i decided to skip today because i was so worried about you and i was waiting for you to come home." he made up an excuse.

"well im fine so, you should probably get going now." you patted his back and shooed him away.

you guessed that was his breaking point because then he turned around to face you with tears in his eyes and said

"y/n please...i'm sorry. i lied okay? i don't have any schedules or practice for the next whole week." he looked down in shame.

you already knew that so it wasn't that much of a shocker. but it really hurt coming from him.

"why would you lie to me seungmin?" tears were now starting to well up in your eyes. "i'm sorry if i rushed you into meeting my parents. it's just that we've been together for 2 years and you never got to see them except on calls so i thought it would be a nice trip for us...." you wiped your tears.

"no love trust me thats not the reason at all." he sat down next to you in the bed and took your face in his hands.

"so then why did you lie to me and call me clingy and annoying?" he winced when you mentioned what he called you. he really didn't mean to. he doesn't think that about you at all. it came out of nowhere.

"because y/n....i was scared to meet them. i thought that maybe they would think i wasn't good enough for you." he looked down in his lap.

"seungmin why on earth would you think that? my parents already love you and they've seen you on call. they practically adore you." you took his face in your hands now. "seungmin no one would ever think that about you. you're perfect in so many ways and you deserve me just as much as i deserve you, if not more."

"y/n how can you say that when i said all those things?" he was referring to when he called you clingy and annoying.

"because i know you didn't mean it baby. it did hurt a lot, but it's nothing you can't make up for." you smiled at him. "i know you've been a little stressed with all the end of year activities and stuff. but you're getting a break now! enjoy it."

"i just feel so guilty for lying to you and saying those things y/n, i truly am sorry. how can i make it up to you?" he looked at you wide eyed.

"cuddles and kisses. but we can do that after we pack since we're leaving in 2 days." you giggled.

seungmin pulled you by your waist into a hug and kissed the top of your head. "you know i love you a lot y/n, right?"

"yes i know that baby, i love you too" you smiled up at him. "now! lets get to packing!" you got up from the bed and started pulling clothes out of your drawers. seungmin groaned, not wanting to get up from the bed.

it was christmas eve and you and seungmin were at your parents house. they were thrilled to see him and loved him very much. not failing to make him feel very deserved.

you guys were all sitting in the living room and it was 11:30 pm. your parents decided they would go to sleep and give you two some alone time. you guy's both said goodnight and waited for them to leave until you started talking.

"so, having a good time so far?" you turned sideways to face seungmin.

"of course, the best time even." he smiled at you. "wanna watch home alone? i know it's your favorite and we didn't get to watch it back at home."

"yes! i'll go make some hot chocolate for us." you hopped off the couch and made your way to the kitchen to boil some milk.

it's been about five minutes and the milk was still boiling. seungmin came into the kitchen to keep you some company. he walked over to where you were by the stove and wrapped his arms around your waist from behind.

"could this thing be any slower?" he whispered right into your ear.

"ugh, i know right. i don't even care anymore," you turned off the stove. "we can have cold chocolate i guess." you started pouring the milk into yours and seungmins cups.

"anything is good when i'm with you." he kissed the side of your neck and swayed you side to side.

you giggled and turned around towards him and said "awww look at you being all flirty" you teased.

he shrugged his shoulders. "it's the christmas spirit i guess."

you then looked at the digital clock behind seungmin and it read 11:59.

"oh seungmin look!" you point behind him at the clock. "it's almost christmas! in five....four....three....t-"

he pulled your face towards him and brought you in for a kiss. he rested his hands on your hips and then pulled away. you looked up at him with wide eyes.

"man, i wish it was christmas everyday if you're gonna act like this"

he chuckled. "merry christmas y/n." he pulled you into his chest and rested his chin on your head.

"merry christmas seungmin."

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thatdeadaquarius · 1 year

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Omg

Hey

Hey!

HEY!!

WHAT ABOUT GOD READER THAT GOT A CURSE PLACED ON THEM BY SOMEONE THEY DON'T LIKE

That curse makes them turn to random ages like,, one day you wake up and your like 3 and the other you're 29 and the acolytes just have to deal with it for a months (and just for funziz you don't keep your memories as a kid *evil laugh*)

I feel like people who are generally around kids would be great around us and some others .... Less so (*cough cough* ei)

AND EVEN BETTER

WHAT IF ENGLISH ISN'T OUR FIRST LANGUAGE AND IT SUMTGING LIKE FRENCH OR SPANISH, AND THE ACOLYTES ARE ALL OVER THE PLACE TEYING TO TALK TO YOU WHILE 14 YEAR OLD READER IS CURLED UP IN A BALL CUS THEY'RE SCARED LSKFJGJDLSK

let the tennage/ kid reader be neurodivergent/autistic (cuz i am and theres bot enough rep on this god forsaken app .·´¯`(>▂<)´¯`·.)

n E wayss <3

LOVE YA !!!!

Aka. your fave >:D kiss kiss

A KISS KISS??!!! FOR ME?!!! 😊🥰😚 <3

BRO i literally designed a whole original character around that concept lmao (except they remember/just body change/everything else kinda matches ur desc! :0 )

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Sun: Gender Neutral Reader (they/them only), Neurodivergent!Reader, Child!Reader, Teen!Reader

Planet: Language Shenanigans, Platonic

Orbit: Headcanons-ish, mini scenarios

Stars: Arataki Itto, Kuki Shinobu, ft. Kujou Sara, Ei + Raiden Shogun, Inazumans

Comets & Meteors: No Content Warnings & No Triggers Detected.

no bc gif is me as a kid, bc I didn't experience snow until I was 12 💀 +it stayed for like one day, was 1 inch deep, or like 5 cm (for my non-americans out there), and was gone the next lmao- I was terrified when I moved and got REAL snowy days- jfc Snezhnaya would kill little me-

SO I was kinda stuck on this tbh, i usually default to like, headcanons or scenarios if ppl dont specify/im just adding onto what you already said like when its not even really a request u know?

so, uh tried to do headcanons, but idk how good it is Orah, sorry!

Also ik you mentioned as example, but we sticking to Inazuma, bc i feel like I neglect them lol

also i hope u like Itto 💀

♤

you quickly found out that magic obeys some weird type of logic despite being magic, so you only ever fluctuate in age within the range you’ve already been,

ur kinda glad youre not seeing what you look like at 100 years old and getting stuck that way for weeks- only Sophie from Howl’s Moving Castle can be cursed to be old yet has so much rizz that she’s still badass and pulls a wizard boyfriend LMAO

so just bc idk what to make the max,

let’s put you at originally, also bc im not a minor, 20 yrs old

so what I mean by all the above is: you’ve lived 2 decades, 1-20 are the only ages you can be

-that being said,

you’re a menace.

so yeah you could’ve been a quiet kid, a well-behaved kid, a good kid even,

…but not in a magical world full of awesome flora and fauna, and magical creatures,

and gods, and vision users and-

you get the point.

plus, you hadn’t really learned English yet until u were a bit older so (who can blame you i hate this language ur so valid)

and for whatever reason English is the only one these guys speak, besides maybe some mythical creatures like the aranara or something

so its kinda absolute chaos trying to reign u in at times.

so needless to say the entirety of Inazuma is terrified for you.

like, even if you aren’t the “Creator” per say in this, they still know what the warmth of your power feels like

But more importantly-

You know who’s the first to spot a random wandering-non-Inazuman-child? And take you in? Especially one that radiates that same energy of presence they feel sometimes + makes them more powerful???

The Amazing, the All-Powerful, Awe-Inspiring Oni: Arataki Itto!

Not even his gang, or Kuki are the first to see you, nah it’s Itto himself,

he literally finds 12 yr old you just sneaking around in awe in Chinju Forest,

and needless to say ur pretty fascinated with the colors and the vibes, and it’s not like Genshin Impact existed when u were this young, ur poor younger self is just rlly paranoidly looking around

Itto is kinda a lot at first, and he was a little confused by ur constant rubbing your arms, or tapping ur fingers on stuff, (or all the stims u be doing when ur nervous) but he just took it all in stride

so Itto, after like an hour and a few well placed rocks at his face and groin by 12 yr old u who was ready to fight to the death at first, FINALLY convinced you by drawing a little picture of his house and his friends

and all that clear effort, despite the foreign world, foreign non-human guy, etc., made you warm up to him too, afterall, even 12 yr old you knew a himbo when they saw one 💪

at first he just thought you were another person who was getting powered up by that yokai he felt (he was convinced thats what you were when u weren’t physically here before, like some kind of powerful gift giving/deal making yokai)

but after he saw you shapeshift the next morning into 16 yr old you, (he lives with his grandma so ur younger self felt pretty safe staying with a himbo guy and an little grandma lady)

he was now more convinced than ever-

that you were some kind of god that’s been in hiding since the archon war (his granny has a lot of cool stories so what?! hes a very educated oni thank you very much!),

rather than a vision user, and he also thinks u being random ages is deffo a curse, and its to keep ur powerfulness limited!! - Arataki Itto, 202X

(bc younger u doesnt remember that u can upgrade ppl, or at least it takes em a learning curve bc they gotta relearn everytime)

okay but itd be so funny tho if nobody else believes that (esp the non-magical folk), bc to them, ur just like, a bunch of siblings (child, teen, adult you lmao) or a tanuki lol

he eventually gets Kuki to believe, after she also sees how you change/the aura is honestly more powerful too once she’s paying attention, like instead of like a blanket, ur like standing in front of a raging campfire

but she makes him keep it a secret

ur really vulnerable a lot of the time, so they’re both worried abt keeping u happy and safe, aw cuties <3

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so yeah, ur literally just chillin with the arataki gang all the time now

the gang become ur besties no matter the age, like they love mild pranks, and general chaos, u wanna explore no matter the age, and also love chaos, esp since it can be magical now (oh child you is having the time of their life when they’re around)

its literally a match made in heaven

plus the more hands on deck, the easier it is to keep ur ass from running off as a kid (and an adult, bc omg a shiny?? a shiny crystal fly???!! lmao neurodivergent 🤝crow/raven = shiny solidarity)

honestly Itto has a blast with all versions of you, and he’s literally the best bc he’s a himbo:

so he’s fine with answering context or “obvious” questions all the time LMAO

and if he makes any conclusions abt ppl’s behavior u dont, he’ll explain pretty quick and simple and he never sees it as awkward or smth

its honestly kinda funny bc ur like 10, and just 🤨🤨🤨??? sometimes at ppl (u got better at reading ppl as u got older obv, and at english too, that doesnt help lol)

he’s super sweet abt it, just really quick which is great too,

“he’s irritated at the guard, not us!”

or “she’s relieved, not upset, don’t worry it’s all good!”

like, u never misunderstand ANYBODY with this Oni around!! <3

(this is mainly bc Itto’s gotta know when to bail, joke, stand his ground, etc. from experience, and messing w/Kujou Sara so he’s actually really good at reading people, only when he’s paying attention tho)

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so younger u just feels safe around Itto, and so while u do get taught english (mostly by his grandma/Kuki) u also dont rlly mask,

nor do u know how to mask as well as you do in the future

so ur just running around with the gang, living ur little neurodivergent life, and anytime someone points out smth u do that might be awkward, like repeating something over and over as a stim (esp with learning english phrases/new words at times) the gang and Itto, and Kuki, are all ready to protect 💪

but most of the time what happens is- whether unintentionally or not, Itto manages to make THEM feel awkward or like they’re the ones doing something socially weird all the time 😭

just, a parent is like “this kid can’t speak English, do they even know any other language? Because all I keep hearing is them repeating that sound over and over…”

Itto: “Damn you're right they do that a lot, just like how you peek out your window a lot, but we all got our quirks man, no need to be shy about it, the kid isn’t, so just open those curtains, and that window and look out at the world!”

which announces to the whole neighborhood, bc Itto is only ever not loud when you tap his arm as a signal, that the parent is the nosiest bitch ever, he just puts them on blast for everyone to hear lmao

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Itto is actually very respectful about you, and while it would, almost be easy bc of the age switching, for him to infantilize you, he’s really good at treating you like an equal no matter how old you are :0 :D

like a giant teddy bear older brother at times, and the guys and Kuki are all pretty good at it too

(tho dw, Kuki is doing all the emotional distress heavy lifting for all of them over your safety, esp bc when u switch at first u are VERY out of your element/disoriented bc u dont always recognize Teyvat/know less English)

but that being said…

Itto fucking loves your excited/happy stims!!!

You flap your hands? Ittos flapping his arms!

You jump up and down, Itto jumps!,

…with his full grown man self with MUSCLES, and causes a mini earthquake wherever you guys are- yknow a shop, the center of town, somebody’s house, near one of the guards 💀 (which always manages to knock them flat on their ass LMFAOO)

Or best of all, you do little stompy stomps??

ITTO DOES HIS STOMPS WITH YOU, like his idle animation does??? :D !!

DUDE- (/gen.n.)

u were like 8 at the time, and saw Kujou Sara for the first time, she’s looking all badass, mostly bc Itto pranked her and she’s power-walking toward u guys pissed as hell ready to arrest him, but u love it anyway bc shes so cool, and right as Sara gets to u two-

u start doing stompy stomps! And Itto joins!!

…and she’s shocked at first, but realizing how giggly and happy u two are, and then Itto explains its bc of her???

Kujou Sara lets Arataki Itto go, for the first time, ever.

she doesnt explain, but she literally was so melted by cuteness, and a warm familiarity??, by u two she couldnt be mad anymore lmao

Itto is now legally obligated to bring you to any and all matters involving the government, regardless of age, according to Kuki Shinobu, his grandma, and himself

all for different reasons tho, Itto’s like, “My lucky charm! My bestie goes everywhere with me!”

meanwhile Kuki/grandma: “A foreign non-Teyvatian speaking child/teen at times is more adept at keeping Itto in line than anyone else, or at least getting him out of the consequences 💀”

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Bonus:

The first time you see the Raiden Shogun,

She scares the shit out of 6 yr old you 😭

And she recognizes that familiar aura immediately, so shes just like:

😶😦😰

(You warm up to her after she offers to show you how she can summon lightning, Itto helped her lmao, and Ei also came out to keep u safe bc Raiden is a little… unaware… at times, of mortal limits, and now that ur in a mortal body-)

Also both of them unanimously agree to be the sugar mother to all ur hyperfixation foods/safe foods ever, SCOREEEE

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Bonus 2:

*KUKI WOULD LIKE THE COLLECTIVE CITY OF INAZUMA TO KNOW SHE DOES NOT APPROVE OF ITTO TEACHING U ENGLISH CUSSWORDS

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I hope somebody likes Itto enough to enjoy this, sorry if u arent a huge fan of him Orah! I just think he's annoying and neat, and havent written abt Inazuma enough lmao

I finally graduated college/uni by the way guys!!!

Ill actually have a life now that wont be hogged by homework! Like writing! Like drawing! Like anything but school!

Anyway, love u guys, another post coming soon,

Safe Travels Orah,

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♡my beloved♡

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lovingmidnight · 1 year

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roommate

Jude Bellingham Fluff

a/n : dont rlly like this lmfao 💀little long but😭

I was always known to be a cold girl by others. got that intimidating look by the first glance, or so like everyone has told me. I didn't really mind these comment at first but it has really got to me for a while now. I've always been a nice girl who tried to give back whenever and however I could, but no one could see that about me. no one but my friend who was the classmate who sat next to me in school. Jude transferred to my school not long till graduation, so we spent a lot of time talking and taking classes together. he always sucked at english and geography which happened to be my strong suit, so I tutored him after classes in the school garden, but when it came to P.E, he bullied the shit out of the way I ran to the point ran slow as a turtle for a hot minute. he talked shit about my football skills, which I couldnt argue to - he indeed is a good player, at least compared to me.

even though he was a pain in the ass, he still was my only real friend in school. no one else tried to come up to me to say hi, nobody except jude, who out of 14 empty seats in the classroom, chose the empty seat next to mine in the back of the class. we soon drifted away from each others contact after graduation which left a lingering feeling in me, but not that I thought of that often. that was until the last 3 months, that he offered me to be his dorm mate, just around the season start. he explained how everyone in the england team shared bedrooms with eachother as jude was left with an empty room, and knowing his trashy style from the senior year, trashy furniture too.

the random phone call threw me off at first, but then when i heard him whining to have a roommate I finally agreed to stay for a little, just enough for the championship to be over. on today - it has come the day of the move in.

- "hello?" judes voice muffled as I picked the phone up

-"yeah what." I mumbled

"woah there, just wanna know if your all packed and ready to go."

-"i am, but you better get up here and help me with these heavy luggage."

"look out the window" he smirked

this dork has still remembered my address.

I turn around facing the window, the sight of him leaning in front of the car with a broad smile on his face, and an awkward wave.

-"oh shit-" I whisper under my breath as I could even close an eye, he dissapeared in pain sight only to hear a doorbell on my front door.

"come in." I say, opening the entrance as he unexpectedly grasps on to me, hugging my last breath away. it was awkward at first but it definitely felt good since I've hadn't had a long hug like that in a hot minute.

-"what was that for..." I joke waiting for his usual goofy response

"just missed you." he says calmly, coming and grabbing my luggage that was laying beside me

-"wait those are heavy-"

"I got it." he looked over his shoulder as he went down the stairs to his car.

taken back by the interaction, I tried to keep calm and went to the car, opening the passenger seat as a hand weighted on my shoulder, pulling the handle himself and leading me inside

-"wow, what a gentleman" I smirk, looking up at his tall figure as he chuckled lightly closing the door.

he kept quiet for some reason, which made me awkward but I just calmed my self down and took the jokes down a notch.

-"so... is it far..?" I ask, turning my head to him

-"no, not really." he looks back, making eye contact for a split second soon before focusing back on the road.

silence lingered for a little, looking out the window, didnt notice it at first.

"so...how have you been?" he asks, looking to the side to check on me since I was being quiet. "oh nothing much.. just been enjoying the break I have from college right now, it's been a lot you know."

"you know I didnt go to college y/n" he chuckles " but I get how tiring that would be for you. but you got it, you're a smart girl." he reached over to tap my head.

that moment, something inside me tensed, I don't know why or how but I pushed it away right away.

about 15 minutes later, almost fast asleep, jude pulled to the driveway, unbuckeling his seatbelt, soon realizing me laying still "y/n?" he uttered, shaking my shoulder lightly. as a deep sleeper I ignored it, but minutes later I woke up to judes face near mine, waving his hand over my eyes. his smiling face as he saw me wake up made me feel comforted as his soft voice didnt feel so bad even when I fully despise waking up. "do you want me to carry you or something?" he smiled "no I'm awake." I mumble rubbing my eyes.

jude took a look and started laughing hysterically

"what??, is there something on my face??" I whined

"did you forget you were wearing makeup? your eyes are fully blacked out" he wheezed

"WHAT" I immediately wake up and sit up straight, pulling down the car mirror, to see my eyes completely normal.

"jude. fucking. bellingham. I'm going to kill you." I growl as he laughed uncontrollably

"I knew it would be the only thing to get you up!"

to be honest it my fault, why did I trust him?! I didnt even wear make up today.

fast forward to evening, jude has helped me set up my stuff in our bedroom. everything has started to tidy up, ...except for judes clothes laying everywhere. but I tried to ignore that since I knew I was just a raging perfectionist. I got ready for bed, I quickly finished my skincare routine and walked out the connected bathroom in the room to the sight of jude laying down on the bed watching YouTube videos

"so when are you going to bring out a mattress" I ask casually

-"a mattress?" he asked

"yeah...? do you think I'm gonna sleep on the floor?"

"you're gonna sleep with me.." jude said casually

"PFFFTT" I cackled "great joke judie" I laughed nervously only to look to his serious confused face

"look, my teammates thought I wasnt gonna have a roommate so they gave me the room with one bed."

"well fuck." I mumble, closing my eyes in regret to why I agreed to do this.

"if it bothers you that much, I'll sleep on the floor." he sighs, looking back down at his phone

he always had that puppy voice that made you feel bad everytime you didn't agree so I had no other choice.

"alright fuck it. I'm not gonna sleep on the floor so might as well." I sighed, walking up to the bed with judes smug smiling face.

"schooch over boy." i laid inside the warm sheets which felt heavenly, soon after jude joined in too as it got pretty awkward fast. I tried to flip over, but he did aswell causing him to hug me from behind

"ew dont do that." I whisper in the dark

"its tight here I cant help it" he shout whispered back

"well should've thought of this earlier" I growled back through my breath.

soon enough, I find myself wide awake next to jude who was fast asleep. his legs tangled up with mine as his head rested on my shoulder, and if I was 100% honest, it made me feel safe. it made me feel comforted and warm. I tried to push away these feelings but I soon got the hint. it was close to 3 am when I sat up straight and realized,

"oh my god, I'm in love with jude."

..It all was real. I couldnt pretend anymore like I didn't flinch at every touch of him, that everytime he spoke it didn't send spirals down my stomach. It meant something.

I looked over to my shoulder to the sight of judes face, fully knocked out. I guess hes been practicing hard lately, it is world cup season after all. it made me smile but it also made me guilty. what if he doesnt feel the same? what if he sees me only platonically? it all terrified me.

I tried to shut myself out and laid down, jude immediately grasping onto me and nuzzling into my arms. I guess he was a deep sleeper but he really liked cuddling. the feeling of guilt stuck to me till the next morning where I spent the day being quiet.

waking up to jude already outside training, I went out to the kitchen to grab a bite, greeted with a plate of breakfast, including eggs with bacon and bagels - my favorite. I smiled beginning to sit down and eat. not long after I finished, getting up the chair to go out to the balcony, where jude practiced shooting in the field. I awkwardly waved to him. as he noticed me his face lit up, waving back like a happy dog. he signed me to come down to pitch, at first I declined since it was cold, I was only wearing a big t-shirt, with small shorts underneath, which looked barely noticable. I hesitated at first but soon accepted cause, fuck it, I got nothing to do anyway. and I modt certainly dont want to be there when his teammates come out.

I ran downstairs to the back door, which lead to a private field where jude was practicing.

"hey, you should've brought a jacket, it's cold here."

"I'm fine." I respond rather coldly

he looked at me with a face that made me feel guilty even more. "so,where are your teammates?" I make small talk "they're yet to arrive here." he responded, hitting the ball powerfully, which made me flinch a little.

"so... how do you guys hang out when you're here?" jude sat down the field, wiling his forehead with his arm

"we usually go to clubs, I mean they force me to go to clubs. you'd be surprised how many girls recognize us there." he smiles

"oh so you're getting some girls?" I stand in front of him

"I mean I just dont accept them." he says, looking up at me

"why not? arent you looking for a girlfriend?" I say, hoping for an answer that wouldn't keep me up at night

"I am, just I'm looking for a right one for me." he said, continuing his glance over me.

"you got a lot of options then from your club girls" I laugh but more like scoff

"well.." he hesitates, knowing he does.

"well I'm gonna go know." I say, making myself almost blow cover.

"why?"

"oh i dont know, just got cold maybe, i mean, I am wearing almost only a tshirt." I mumble trying to find an excuse.

"that's mine by the way." he smiles looking at his graphic tee was wearing.

"oh." I look down, recognizing the t-shirt that jude wore in high school, where he spent the whole night in my room while i was tutoring him for an upcoming english exam. that's why I didnt remember buying this...

"here-" I tugged on the bottom of the shirt almost pulling it up only to realize i wasnt wearing anything underneath. jude stood there awkwardly as I almost stripped infront of him,

"uhm. I'll go change then and give it to you later." I say awkwardly turning around

"no keep it. it looks better on you anyway." he yelled as I got closer to the door.

the rest of the day I kept quiet as well, until it came to dinner time, where his whole team was going to be there as well. I took a shower and dressed up nicely to find jude sitting outside the room with a white button up and black pants. that sighting almost sent me to a mental hospital but I kept casual, keeping on my cover.

"ready?" he says before turning around as he paused, analyzing my dress quietly

"yes." I answer trying to ignore him literally checking my outfit out.

"you look great." he mumbled shyly.

"thanks." I say coldly, trying not to scream my lungs out.

we sat in the car, soon arriving at the restaurant. his teammates already sitting down waiting for him as we walked in, whispering and giggling being heard.

"hey guys." jude sat down casually. "this is y/n, I finally got her to be my roommate." he smiled glancing over me.

"hey guys. it's a pleasure to be here." I say shyly

"welcome, it's a pleasure to have you here." foden put his hand out for a shake. jude glared over him as he shook my hand, I suspected him being mad but I pushed it away, thinking it was just my delusions.

we spent the rest of the evening chatting and laughing with the team which was a lot of fun. we got up, ready to leave.

"that was fun." he said

"yeah." I say dryly, trying to keep character once again.

"y/n, what's wrong?" he says, making me caught off guard.

"what do you mean?" I answer

"why are you being different, sort of cold with me?" he asks as I feel my throat tightening

"I'm not trying to do that.." i say holding back my tears from forming.

"did I do something? I'm sorry if I did anything that makes you unco-"

"you didn't do anything jude! I'm the problem for growing a fucking crush on you now I can't escape you. I know you don't feel the same way and you don't have to explain anything to me cause I know you have someone on your mind but-"

"what...?" he cuts me off "you think I like someone? who isnt you??

- y/n I've been trying to make it obvious by day one that i liked you. I chose the seat next to you in high school where I would spend years in. I always had a teacher in english before you offered me to be my tutor, I dropped her the next day. I always wrote little hearts next to your name in my contacts. and do you think that I couldn't live alone in my dorm? i just wanted you to be with me too and took the first excuse i could get. y/n I've been in love with you since the start of everything. it didn't go a day when you wouldn't cross my mind." he says.

that's when a stone fell off my chest. tears glazed over my eyes as I started whimpering in front of him. jude came near me and wrapped his arms around me.

"I love you, y/n. I've always had." he whispers holding me tightly.

"I love you more." I cry, holding him tighter

safe to say, I was no more awkward to sleep warmly in his arms.

#jude bellingham x reader #jude bellingham imagines #jude bellingham imagine #jude bellingham #football fanfic #fanfic #fluff #football #fiction #footballer x reader #footballer imagine #headcanons #oneshots #football imagine #imagines

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cashmere-caveman · 6 days

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hello everyone :) inspired by this post by @burrowingregg, please enjoy my thoughts on "what if crozier fucking dies and little becomes captain"

if he dies before sir john

one of two outcomes. sir john either doubles down ("we have to find the nwp for francis!"/"well now that the haters are gone its time to have Real Men Solve This Like Champs") or he goes hm. maybe this is a sign and actually this is a dire situation. perhaps we should pack it in men

i dont rlly have any thoughts on this except i am rlly curious what this would do to fitzy. does he ramp up the charming pretender routine now that he's the uncontested no1 son and crozier cleary didnt know what he was talking about or would this be an early wakeup call and jumpstart the fury beach convo w blanky?

if he dies pre ep4 (tuunbaq)

the lashing would not turn out this way bc little wouldnt have hickey punished as a boy -> less men would berth on erebus

mutiny later maybe? definitely different

(is this a good moment to squeeze in some solittle bc they have to cooperate to keep all the men in check.)

definitely better communication within terror command bc the lieutenants will know little is going to hear them out i think and since little sucks at asserting authority hed have to rely on them more than crozier did

weird tension between jopson and little i think. is it sexual. is it antagonistic. actually maybe i could see jopson joining a mutiny in a crozier dead scenario hmmm…. heres how hickeyjopson can still win !!1!!!!!

if he doesnt survive the withdrawal

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joplittle coworkers to enemies speedrun. i think jopson would grieve so fucking much but then go Ah! We compartmentalise this emotion! Nothing easier than that :) and then hed be so fucking passive agressive as the new captains steward without even realising bc WHY does little walk around alive and hale when little was the one who got crozier the alcohol that killed him how is that fair (jopson is Not at a point where he is willing to confront the fact that he himself was just as much an enabler as little, if not more so)

also sidenote but he wouldnt shave little since that actually never was in a stewards job description in the first place lol no homoerotic blade to throat interaction for you, sir!!

i do think little and fitzjames would work well together! they did a good job on coordinating the carnivale and fitzjames is not someone who lashes out a lot, which is good bc little does not deal well w getting screamed at

i think blanky would become elemental. w crozier dead and mcdonald gone hes the last brit who speaks inuktitut fluent enough to communicate w silna Plus hes one of the v few remaining high ranking arctic veterans

(what would change in a scenario like this if my good friend and upcoming romance novel love interest graham gore - who was an arctic veteran and even competent and charismatic - was still around? food for thought)

what would hickey do? the object of his obsession is out of the picture so he cant get revenge for getting whipped, he still wants to go to his tropical vacation and i think w crozier dead he would switch to survival mode 3000 (he is always already in survival mode to begin with, but i mean the point at which he switches from playing defense to offense) sooner. if the captains dead theyre fucked for real whats holding him back? hickey voice in fact what is holding anyone back? men, we need to confront the situation!

i really think this might be where thomas "shouldve been a news reporter" jopson would shine. that nosy bitch knows about Everything going on, and in a situation like this where every information must be handled in a v tactical way so as to Manage The Situation i think there would be a great deal of avenues of action open to someone in a position like his. especially, i think, bc to me a great deal, if not to say the entirety of jopsons optimism and endurance and focus is simply build on this vast foundation of trust he has in crozier and w crozier gone, what happens to all of that? there are a few ways this could play out imo

a) he instead reorients himself toward the next Authority Figure, which in this case would probably be Fitzjames. I do think it is unlikely, simply bc due to crozier dying during withdrawal the fences would not yet have mended entirely and jopson Will Hold A Grudge. it wont be little, for previously mentioned reasons, even though i dont think jopson would be able to realise that himself. he does not have a lot of interactions w the other lieutenants up until then (not counting serving dinner etc) and since iirc they had not been called into the Sobriety Meeting i dont quite know about how much he would trust them. so unless sth drastically changes during the walkout the options would be fitzjames or little and i personally vote no on both

b) he would retreat into himself and simply Wait. wait for what? u ask. well :) he would wait. and then, maybe one day he might even React. but for now, he would Wait, and Pay Attention

c) i realize this is quite a shrewder reading of jopson than what dave k has said of how he sees him but as i said earlier to me a lot of jopsons "goodness" hinges of crozier providing him w the trust he needs to unfold these qualities. and w that gone, i think that leaves him as someone v smart, in a position where he has access to a lot of information, and also in a state of absolutely crushed hopes and reopened trauma. and that certainly does put you in a set of mind doesnt it?? atp his trust in the remaining leadership might be v fragile and he would certainly wonder how any of this would go on. so hed either implode and fucking idk. wither. (which, for the record, i think he would Not do) Or! he would decide that alright. no one left to handle this but himself so time to take matters into his own hands! youve shot smaller hawks than this tommy its time to get out of here! which, again, is where i think a possible hickey alliance, maybe via billy, might take place. if jopson and hickey would team up for a mutiny they would definitely constantly be daydreaming of killing each other <3 not to be me but i would read the fuck out of a hickeyjopson mutiny vs a solittefitz alliance. give me intrigue! give me bastardry! give me some fucking losers dishing it out in the canadian arctic over the worlds worst buffet options!

this is not necessarily a full point on its own but more of an addendum: i genuinely think jopson has it in him to pull a dundy. aka i think he v much does strike me as someone who would stage a quiet not so much mutiny but a quiet usurpation of power through simple calculated ruthlessness. which! speaking of usurpation!

option d) jopson decides that hes the only competent bitch left and the only way to ensure everyones survival is to go full grima wormtongue and become the puppet master advisor to littles captain. little would actually let this happen and might even welcome it. we know this guy is genetically engineered to follow orders. dont say i never did anything for joplittle enjoyers!!!

crozier dies during the walkout at any point:

i dont really have anything big for this. it would be bad but depending on what has happened at that point (how scurvy ridden is fitzjames? is jopson a lieutenant yet? has hickey killed irving already?) it might not change too much tbh

if he gets shot during morfins suicide it would be disastrous i think but it might actually make the men come closer together again maybe? if little becomes captain then and there maybe the mutiny might get prevented or at least postponed bc little would let the marines get their armed patrol and thus might not be as resentful/mistrusting toward command. ofc little As A Captain trusting tozer and getting fucking bamboozled by him if the mutiny still happened would be an even worse look lmfao. that is if morfin shot him. if it was however a Marine who shot crozier…… well. i think thered be an execution first thing at daybreak! and any and all weapons would be under lock and key w extra attention to the point that i think not even armitage would hand them out. plus lbr it wouldve been tozer in this scenario w the killing shot so! armitage without tozer…. does that poor lad even know how to exist when he is not in sols orbit. how would hickey exploit this….. (also extremely evil version is jopson shooting crozier which is so evil that we do not consider it. goodbye)

if crozier dies pre tuunbaq attack id be curious if the (attempted) hanging would still happen. i personally think it would, simply bc hickey would definitely try to start some shit and fitzjames would be wary enough to order a post mortem on irving plus jopson would definitely catch that rat. maybe he would actually hang, even, but that depends on whether little as his captain or fitzjames as the overall expedition commander would give the little speech beforehand. if it's fitzy, either him or hickey in his response would run out of time before the tuunbaq shows up and hickey would escape, but if it's little theres a real chance he would shortly state some dry facts let hickey speak for two sentences of last words maximum and then get it over with. and now That would be a fascinating scenario to explore. crozier gone, hickey gone, camp in ruins, dozens of men dead, fitzscurvy left in charge. would there be a second mutiny? des voeux, perhaps? or billy himself (he was also an architect of this!!! he burned the fucking maps!!! billy was not regular rat who marrydivorcemarried the evil rat he was evil rat no2!!! simply a less flashy (fleshy….. hah) flavour!!!) just quietly absconding w a bunch of men into the fog? what would tozer do, if he had survived and hickey hadn't?

last minute death scenarios

anything w crozier dead before hickey could capture him would not change much i think. maybe hickey would deflate some upon the news but hed still capture goodsir and still die as a wannabe new god. i think the real tragedy would be if little was left as the only captain after fitzjames' death. that man was Not made to carry such a burden and dundy would smell the blood in the water and ursurp him early i think, which ironically might lead to a scenario where there could be a sliver of hope for survival for the healthier parts of the crew

if crozier died during the capture bc hartnell didnt take the bullet hickey would fucking kill whoever fired that shot (i do not remember who it was. golding? was it golding? i fucking hate that guy i can easily belive it was golding) and i think hartnell and little and whoever else was there would either escalate the situation into a shootout to avoid the mutineers taking croziers body for food (lbr hickey would love to eat that old man) and die right then right there or maybe get themselves captured bc everything is just pointless now (unlikely outcome imo the tension would be too high) OR theyd somehow get the fuck out of there, organize a party of men to take the mutineers and have a final showdown (unless dundy intervened and ursurped ofc) which means: tuunbaq survives!!! yay :D good ending for silna :) she has not lost the tuunbaq so maybe even no exile <33

if crozier just died during the final tuunbaq fight: no changes at all

which concludes my thoughts! this turned out way longer than i expected and honestly did not focus on little v much but it was super interesting to consider all these scenarios so thank u burrowingregg for giving me the idea to begin with :) i would also be super curious to hear everyone elses thoughts on this so please do chime in!!

#sorry the formatting on this is atrocious ik but i ahve been trying to press the fucking post button three times now #and every time tumblr told me to go fuck myself so i switched devices and had to send myself the entire post via fucking Texts #bc it wouldnt even save as a draft. hellsite. also its way past midnight and im tired so pls excuse any typos rip #the terror #id genuinely be so curious abt anyones thoughts tho! if i missed or misremebred sth pls also tell me bc lbr the likelyhood is high rn #also if anyone wanted to expand upon any of this. say. in fic form or sth..... [eye emoji] pls do so.#i have half a page of notes for a 'hickey got hanged before the tuunbaq sshowed up but tozer didnt' scenario myself #but i will not be writing that anytime soon due to Real Life rip :/

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cookie-crumblr · 6 months

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i need something smutty where jaspers like rlly jealous, i dont have any further ideas but yes .. xD

OH HELLLLLLL YESSSSS, omg anny you’re a genius.

muah~

CW: IDEK OKAY, YANDERE, JEALOUSY, i’ll do GN reader! annnnd rough sex. Jasper still calls us pretty again, to him you’re beautiful no matter who you are.

MINORS DNI!!!!

Okay hold on we’ll get to the smut, but imagine:

Dev.In is not only the only “person” he’d let fuck you as long as He’s still in control.

But Dev is also the only “person” he’d ever be jealous of.

like sure anyone touching you or anything will make him irritated.

but jealous? nah. no one else is anywhere near as hot as he is…

Except a “person” that looks exactly like him and can make their dick whatever they want.

like ?? excuse me mx. if he is not completely in control of the situation he’d go WILD.

You’re chatting, as innocent as a puppy with Dev.In. You put your hand on their arm for a second.

The gall of that bastard, laughing and making you laugh. He bets that their dick is hard.

Stupid horny computer. He thinks.

His leg started bouncing minutes ago and he’s only just noticing.

You turn, sensing Jasper’s energy shift somehow behind you.

His head is tilted, left leg bouncing, blown pupils burrowing holes into Dev.In’s face.

Slowly you make your way over to him, “H-hey Jas… Y’okay?”

He says nothing as get gets up and grabs you.

Pulling you along painfully so, before throwing you into a weird room.

“Safe word. Now.” He snaps.

“P-pineapple?”

“Great. Now don’t say it, Pretty”

“Nev—”

His mouth mutes you as it crashes against yours. a hand is grasping your scalp and ripping your head back so he has easier access to your neck.

His teeth graze you, you can tell he’s angry and holding back.

“Thank you, pretty” He bites where your neck meets shoulder.

His hands grab at, and rip your clothes off.

Soon enough you’re spun around and his pierced tip is teasing your hole.

Precum is lubricating you enough, and you desperately want him now, you push back against him and take in his penis.

Jasper bucks up to bottom out inside of you.

“Fffff-uck” You shiver at the sensations.

“Yeah? This cock feel good, pretty? Tell me who you belong to.”

“You, Jasper!”

“Say it again.” He bucks up harder, your whole body shakes with the force.

“I b-belong to you! Jasper!” you’re saying everything he wants to hear.

He starts a steady, but harsh rhythm. “Gon’ fuck you stupid. you’ll only think about this dick.”

He holds your hand against the wall in his own, as he pounds into you. In his other he’s pulling your head backwards by whatever hair you have.

You admire the veins over his bones under his pale skin. It’s beautiful.

“Ah!” he hit something so deep inside you, your body convulses.

“More, pretty,” he demands

He feels so good inside you even after cumming.

The heat builds within you again.

“Jasper! Jasperrr!!” You chant his name knowing how much he loves hearing it. The way your lips purse and your eye brows knit tighter. The way you push harder against him.

He loves it when you get desperate for him.

He fucks you harder and harder still until, “Come with me, pretty,”

As he fills you and twitches inside your deepest parts, you come too, your head high above the clouds.

He holds you in place so that you don’t fall while your legs vibrate.

“Next time I’ll fuck you and fill you up right in front of that horny prick.”

You can’t wait…

“F’r now, take a walk w’ me.” He grins.

He walks you right back to Dev.In and he sits where you had been.

You sit on Jaspers lap, and he moves your legs apart for them to see that you’re dripping with his semen.

He’s smiling, swelling with his usual sadistic pride.

Dev.In and you go back to your previous conversation about house plants and how much sunlight they need.

All while your face is too hot and you’re too dizzy and embarrassed to function.

Jasper pulls you both up to stand, “Well, looks like my pretty pet needs sum more attention. Later devvy~”

#cookie speaks #my oc #yandere #oc x reader #oc x you #yandere x reader #yandere x you #yandere streamer x you #yandere oc #oc jasper #jealous sex #jealous yandere

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ourflagmeansgayrights · 2 years

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Jim/Olu and Lucius/Izzy for the ship asks

(I like to send one that’s cute and good and one that will fill my mutuals with rage)

jim/olu

do i ship it: fuck yes baby this is actually the first ofmd ship i wrote fic for!!! i have not uh. finished. the fic. but some day i plan to!! anyway yes love these two so so much

why i ship it: LOVE how olu says he's known jim for "over a year" (instead of like, the very ambiguous "years" we get for izzy and ed) so we know they've known each other for less than two years which is not actually a lot of time??? yet they still give this vibe of ride-or-die having each other's backs doing anything for each other besties. genuinely obsessed with the idea of olu, reliable steady and everyone's best friend, stumbling upon this weird quiet knife assassin who comes off really stoic and aloof but they actually just lack social skills, and then the assassin is like "i want to kill your boss's husband" and olu is like "i'll help you with that. i'll help you escape, too. i'll follow you anywhere i'll die for you" and then the two of them just. stick together forever. i also find it hilarious how olu is jim's voice of reason and i also find it so fucking sweet that he's the little spoon. 10/10 ship wouldn't change a thing.

canon potential: i mean they're. literally canon. can't imagine the show permanently breaking them up for any reason. the happy ending of the show is almost definitely gonna include these two being together

fanon interpretation/fandom around it: there is a depressing lack of tealoranges content. like it's to be expected of a canonical side pairing that isn't two skinny white men but there's like nothing. they're always together in the background of fics (also to be expected) but like, i want some more jim/olu centric fics (i do have like one or two in my Marked For Later list on ao3 but i dont have the time to rlly read anything longer than 10k rn fhjghfkj). there's a decent amount of fanart tho but obviously not as much as any of our Main Ships

lucius/izzy

do i ship it: ok so it's not a no. but it's not a very strong yes??? lucius/izzy is kind of the only izzy ship i can tolerate, i guess. im always wary of ships that have izzy x any person of color bc 9 times out of 10 the content is just "person of color decides to spend their time and energy rehabilitating a white man" and the focus is 100% on izzy getting treated nice and like, NO mention of how the character of color feels or why they'd even be interested in izzy in the first place. blackhands is only good when it's izzy crying alone while masturbating sadly. stizzy could be fun if you really dug into the way the two of them fucking hate each other and never actually change that dynamic but nobody does this. steddyhands same as the last one but now with the added bonus of people's racism really jumping out in every fic. and then i guess i could tolerate izzy x any other white character but i'd just be making it up bc he doesn't interact with any of them except lucius. so like by default yeah i guess i kinda ship lucius and izzy.

why i ship it or not: the tension is there the potential is there and it would be so so good for izzy if he realized sub ≠ masculine ≠ top. i think if i could ever manage to write any of the fics ideas i have i would be shoving these two together in the background all the time just so that izzy can be magically fixed by lucius's dick and i can resolve that conflict easy (i don't actually think it's in character for izzy to get topped by lucius once and turn into a like, friendly and likable person, but the idea of it is funny enough that i would write it into a fic if i ever fUCKING WROTE ANY FIC AAAAAAH-). now all that being said. at the end of the day i just don't like izzy enough to have any strong positive feelings abt this ship. i'd be happy seeing izzy become normal but i'd probably be just as happy (if not happier) seeing him get fed to some sharks so like. this one is fine i guess. lucius has established himself as being very emotionally intelligent and also down to talk some sense into other characters so i can see it.

canon potential: the potential is there but idk if they're gonna do it or just keep all of izzy's horny sub energy purely subtextual until he fucking dies the end. bc the tension is fucking real in the "have you ever been sketched?" scene but will they commit to it?? only time will tell. i think if they redeem him it'll probably happen tho.

fanon interpretation/fandom around it: fan content of this one is good actually. art is cute, the fics are cute, i've never seen anyone break lucius up with pete (or fang) to make it happen. i also haven't seen any izzy dom content for this ship which would be the biggest ooc offense of all time so i'm ok with everything i've been exposed to. i mean most of the PWPs have izzy give in really quick once lucius just directly asks him to fuck which seems a little ooc, but it's for PWP oneshots so like i get it they're not dragging this out into a 100k slowburn.

ask me about more ships im bored!

#ask #wearfinethingsalltoowell #mine #ofmd #our flag means death #tealoranges #sprizzy #lucius spriggs #izzy hands #oluwande boodhari #jim jimenez #sorry if this enrages the mutuals i didnt know there was beef abt lucius x izzy #the beef is i personally hate izzy hands #og #txt #ask game

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so now that i effectively watched atsv and was left shell shocked. i just thought it was a movie thing like "tbc" ohh its a cutscene haha What the movies actually over. uhmm the plot was maybe lacking a bit but i get that its a two-part so no comment there. i should say i yelled when i saw jess drew because what do you mean there is a pregnant spider-woman on a MOTORBIKE doing cool tricks. i had to stop myself from going "oh yeah jess drew is so cool and awesome haha" like every two seconds. i hope i get to see more of malala windsor too tbh... {hijabi spiderman}. the spot was such a silly guy and i kind of understand that IS how you're meant to view him n it also sorta reminds me how in itsv no one took miles seriously as spiderman they all insisted that THEY were the ones who'd do the job and stay behind. n it sorta loops back a bit as well cz in itsv they kept goin "hes just a kid" and in atsv when peter keeps going "kid" he goes "stop calling me that" before escaping.

miguel. ohohohho what is up with him. i cant even get into this guys head i cant even say anything. hes chasing down a 15 year old and was abt to kill him in that fucking go home machine Bless margo 4 not doing anything wi that system reboot because. uhm. 💀

prowler aaron-42 had me sort of shaking because he was about ot kill miles-1610 like 3an jad "like no i dont want to be a good person" tekram 3aynak sidi o7 any other orders. 42-miles and 1610-miles switching circumstances is a cool little thing to note too. the spider that bit miles-1610 was from d-42 meaning that prowler miles in 42 was supposed to be spiderman. which kind of explains too why jeff is dead in 42 as opposed to . well. aaron. also rio in 42 has lighter eyes than 1610. the scene where our miles was like pouring his heart out to her and she doesnt even believe him left me like

[ID: a 3D emoji turning to look at the viewer with a haunted expression. It is in complete darkness and light illuminates part of the expression and the right hand. end ID.]

hobie was so real also the entire movie cz during the "kid listen" scene i talked abt earlier he started motioning with his palms. i also had to stop myself from going "YOOO ITS HOBIE HEY GUYS LOOK HAVE OYU SEEN THIS"

anyway i dont get why you guys hated jess drew or margo kess. jess did barely anything except maybe be a TAD BIT harsh on gwen but she didnt. even lay a hand on miles meanwhile miguel was about to kill him like genuinely kill him probably at multiple times. margo i dont get the hate against her too i think it . listen im going to come up with a theory.... it might be antiblack racism.

i also rlly liked pavitr but the chai tea thing sends shivers up my spine because i know if i check his tag that'll be all i see. the moment he went "chai TEA?" i just went "yeah he sealed his fate forever. im so sorry pavitr this movie's first indian spider-man and they're gonna treat you badly. the fact they gave him like 100 or so unique signatures makes so much sense his moveset is so rad bro

In conclusion. uhm. MISSION STATUS: SICKK

#fisher's trek!

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Hii! Could I plz have a romantic matchup for obey me (and mha if its not a lot ofc)

I have slightly over shoulder length, straight black hair and dark brown eyes. My face is oval shaped. I have tanned medium brown skin. I am around 5'6 and my weight is around 49kg. I have hereditary stretch marks and bruises on my leg. My hair is generally put up in an extremely messy bun or ponytail. My age is around 13-15

I'm normally rlly shy and closed off around strangers. I'm generally secretive around ppl I dont trust. But I am also trustworthy, smart (by my standards lol) and I make an effort to be social. I'd like to say I'm nice to ppl, but thats mostly just ppl I dont rlly know. I am extremely chaotic and loud around ppl I trust and am close to. I am extremely insecure about my body and just myself in general. Im also somewhat sensitive and a hopeless romantic (and a huge simp but anyway)

I'm an intp aquarius. I love cats, reading, listening to music, art and sleeping longer than 6hrs if that counts. I dont like being woken up for no reason except 'oh u have to study,' spiders (especially images), slow music, and jumpscares

Thank you in advance <33

after a long time of thinking 💭 your match is...

Beelzebub

Background:

You just finished you’re painting with a lot of effort. You were supposed to hand it in tomorrow in art class. You were exhausted, but it didn’t matter since you were very satisfied with your work, and you actually enjoyed doing it. Suddenly Mammon stormed in and rushed over to your bed to hide under it, but he failed miserably because Beel caught up with him and started to strangle him. “I know it’s you! You stole my custard, I can smell it on you.” Beel said in an angry tone, you felt very uneasy and mad at the same time. You just wanted to rest, but they had to interrupt that. Finally, Lucifer came in and dragged Mammon away. Beel and you were alone in your room now, you could hear his stomach growling “I am so hungry.” He said with a pout, he looked around your room while you sat on your bed frozen by a mixture of fear and anxiety. His eyes landed on your painting, it was a portrait of a fruit bowl. His eyes lit up and before you could do anything he ate it in 2 bites “Ugh…this is gross!” Beelzebub exclaimed and you felt the tears burning in your eyes. All your effort was wasted, you hated him! He walked out of your room and you were left alone after all the damage was done. You didn’t come out of your room for dinner that evening and when the next day arrived you told Lucifer you were sick. And he somehow believed it or he just didn’t care, you remade your portrait since you’d be graded for it. After you finished it and hid it somewhere safe, you walked to the kitchen to grab a snack and put your headphones on the counter, you opened the fridge and grabbed something quick. When you turned around, you saw that your headphone was broken in half and there were teeth marks all over it and they… were slimy. You looked up and saw Beelzebub chewing, did he just eat your headphones?! This time he wasn't going to get away with this you thought. "Why did you do that?! You big airhead, all you do is eat!” You yell out in frustration.

How it started:

You walked around the library. You were looking for a new book preferably a romantic one. You already read so many novels, and you knew all the popular Devildom authors. You found a new book, it just came out! You knew the author and read all their previous work. You cried so much while reading their first book...what was it called "Arbitrary" you said in a whisper tone, it was a tragic love story. It was about a young demon woman who fell in love with a human man because he had something she could never have and that was a fair chance. Because she was a demon and she was supposed to be evil. She was going to hell no matter how she changed, everything was in vain. So she decides to corrupt the human, but in the end, he sacrifices himself for her and makes a wish that lets them swap races. He goes to hell as a demon and she lives on as a human. You felt a bittersweet sensation, but snapped out of it you had your book and went to the demon lord's castle since Lucifer texted you to get there as soon as possible and you didn't want to get scolded or worse...punished. You put the book in your bag and went to the castle. After you had tea and chatted with Asmodeus, there was a bright flash and the next thing you knew you were in a victorian dress sitting on a throne, you saw Lucifer, Asmodeus, and Belphegor in their demon form but they looked different and they were talking to you about how you needed to embrace your inner evil. The way they were dressed reminded you of the outfit description in Arbitrary. But that thought got confirmed by one sentence "Dear Amalthea, you will be sent to hell anyways so you might as well make it count." Amalthea was the main character, someone must've opened your book, it was a limited edition with all the famous works of the author where the fans could reenact it. But it played upon the person's feelings which meant that whoever played the male lead had the hots for you. You got curious, so you decided to play along with it all and besides you knew the whole plot by heart. You traveled to the human world and that is when you saw who the male lead was, it was Beelzebub! Oh no, you thought to yourself he always ruined everything. His eyes lit up when they met yours "Y/n I'm so glad to see you! I don't know what happened. I got hungry and opened a book and now I am here and these humans keep calling me Benjamin." "Calm down, we entered the book you opened!" you said in a sharp tone. "We have to finish the story, or at least that is what I am guessing." You explained what Beel had to do, and seeing him so lost made him look so vulnerable. You felt yourself smiling at that sight...no! You thought to yourself not now! You waited for his response and he nodded. You may or may not have sped up the process by cheating a tiny bit. All he had to do was make the wish and you had to push him off the cliff. That wouldn't be so difficult! You returned to the demon world and had an amazing dinner. The next day you saw Beel again and he informed you of what he did. You two were walking and you hadn't paid attention to your step and tripped. He caught you and had a worried expression. You felt your cheeks heating up. “Thank you.” You said in a shy manner, you offered to pay for lunch and Beel agreed over lunch you explained that you had to push him off a cliff and he told you he didn’t mind, “I am sorry Y/n, I always seem to upset you without it even being my intention. So I’ll do anything I can to make it up to you and if it mean dying in this story I will.” You didn’t know how to respond to that, the way he said it. He sounded so genuine. The day finally came and Benjamin was a demon and Amalthea a human. He was supposed to go to hell and she would live her life as a human. But before that you had to push him off the cliff into the ocean but you couldn’t. You spent the previous 3 week with him and you realized that he wasn’t a bad person he was just incredibly dense and indeed an airhead, but you grew to like that about him.

You walked up to him, before you pushed him you looked at him and said “ I am sorry Beelzebub, but I have to push you off only then can we go back to Devildom.” “I do this to prove my love to you and for your forgiveness.” He responded in a steady voice, your heart skipped a beat and you pretended you didn’t hear the first part “I already forgive you Beel.” You said barely above a whisper. “When all this is over, let’s go to an all-you-can-eat buffet my treat.” He said with rosy cheeks you came closer and pecked his cheek and pushed him off. The next thing the bright flash came back and all of you where sitting in the Lord Diavolo’s living room. Before you could do anything Beelzebub hugs you tightly, and you hugged him back. “When you pushed me I fell in love, so go out with me.”

General headcanon:

💘 You always support him during his (sport) matches

💘 Beelzebub would save foods that he really loves just so you can taste them too

💘 Beelzebub will follow you around like a lost puppy

💘 Beelzebub would give you princess treatment because he thinks that’s what you deserve

Other possible matches: Asmodeus and Solomon

And Izuku Midoriya

Background:

You are a 1A student. You obviously worked hard to get into UA High as the acceptance rate is very low. But recently you’ve been feeling a little insecure and unsure about all of this. Even though your classmates are all amazing and mostly nice, you haven’t made any real friends yet and you feel like no one likes you. But you decided to just wait for another few weeks, maybe it just takes some time before someone will warm up to you. It was lunchtime and you were once again sitting alone everyone seemed to have formed their own small friend groups already, and you didn’t like it. You felt like the odd one out, and you could swear that you’d made a good first impression on them. You tried to be as nice as possible to everyone. What were you doing wrong? You tap your foot against the floor, a habit you developed whenever you were overthinking. “Hey, your name is Y/n right?” You snap out of your thoughts as you hear a rather soft voice speak to you. You look up and you’re met with two green eyes. “Uh yeah.” You answer with an awkward smile, you recognize him, he was the boy that kept breaking his bones. “I’m Izuku Midoriya and I noticed you were sitting alone.” He continues. “Do you mind if I sit with you?” He asks with a heart-melting smile. “No of course you can sit here.” You reply welcoming. “So how do you like it here in UA?” He asks you. Your smile drops slightly, but you quickly pull yourself together. “UA is amazing, isn’t it crazy how all might is teaching us.” You say avoiding eye contact. Suddenly Midoriya gets all excited. “Are you also an All might fan?” Before you could answer his question he keeps rambling on about how amazing All might is and he suddenly takes out a burnt notebook from his bag. “Look- I haven’t shown anyone this yet, but all might signed my notebook after saving my life!” He says with a proud smile. “Wow, that’s so cool.” You say in awe. “What’s this notebook for?” You ask him wondering why it was all burnt and damaged like that. “Did it get like this when All might saved you?” You say touching the burnt pages. You notice that Midoriya isn’t responding and you look at him. He has a sad look on his face but tries to give you a smile. “No this is from something else…” he mumbles embarrassed. “Did something happen?” You ask concerned. He lets out a sigh. “I used to kind of get bullied in middle school, but I’m fine now.” He says the last part with a reassuring smile on his face. You would’ve never guessed. Why would anyone try to bully a sweet tender-hearted guy that was aspiring to be a hero? It made no sense to you. “You know Midoriya, we should be friends!” He looks at you with big eyes. After he told you all that? You still wanted to become friends? You didn’t think he was a loser? “Sure Y/n, I’d love to be your friend.”

How it started:

It had been months since you and Deku became friends. A lot has happened after that. Multiple villains encounters at UA with wounded students and teachers, Bakugo was kidnapped, All might got retired, the students had to move to dorms, you managed to become close friends with some of the other students and Deku told you all about his past where Bakugo would bully him(of course leaving the fact out that he was quirk less). You hated Bakugo after that, how could he even show his face to Midoriya after saying such awful things, and he never apologized. Bakugo of course noticed quickly that you were holding a grudge against him but he didn’t quite know why. You weren’t going to let him know either because you knew that you had nothing to do with it and Midoriya had already forgiven so as the good friend you are you could only hate Bakugo from afar and respect your friend's boundaries. You were sitting in Midoriya’s room bopping your head to some music as you were finishing your English assignment. You suddenly feel a hand tap your shoulder as you take off your headphones. “Izuku, you’re back!” You say with a smile. You have been waiting for him for over thirty minutes now and decided to finish your assignment in the meantime. “I was training I didn’t know you were waiting here for me.” He says with a dumbfounded look. It was then that you started to notice the sweat drops rolling down his face, his red cheeks, and the way his chest was going up and down at a quick pace trying to catch his breath. He looked different to you. He used to look much more fragile and soft. Now he looks a lot more buff and way more confidence. You like how he looks now. It was amusing to see how much he changed over the course of a few months. “Do you want me to leave? You look like you need to rest.” You say as you grab your stuff ready to leave. Izuku grabs a hold of your arm. “No really it’s fine you just caught me by surprise.” He lets go of your arm. “Why did you come in the first place?” He asks as he takes a towel from his closet dabbing the sweat away. “I was wondering if you wanted to get lunch with me?” It was only 2 PM and you’d been inside all week. You were hoping to visit this new cat cafe that opened not far from UA. “Sure, but I’ll have to shower first. Do you have a place in mind?” He asks with a smile. “Yes, but it’s a surprise, so get ready and meet me downstairs when you’re done!” You say quickly leaving to get ready yourself.

You go to the living area to wait for Izuku. You notice the Bakusquad chilling on the sofa. “Hey Y/n, are you going somewhere?” Kirishima says as he is the first one to notice you. “I like your outfit, you look cute!” Denki compliments with a wide grin. “Thanks, me and Izuku are going out for lunch.” You answer Kiri as you sit down on the sofa next to Mina. “Girl, are you two together? Come on spill!” Mina asks excitedly as she holds you by your shoulders shaking you. “Haha no, we’re not! We’re just close friends is all.” You deny it with a blush on your face. You could feel everyone’s eyes on you. “Awh man, when are we going to get our first couple in class,” Mina whines disappointedly. “And I was totally shipping you and Deku as well.” She says pouting. You let out a chuckle, feeling slightly awkward after that sudden confrontation. “Y/n I’m ready.” You turn your face to see Deku standing at the door waiting for you. You felt a weird sensation in your stomach upon seeing Deku, but decide to ignore it. You quickly get up and wave off the Bakusquad as you both leave. On your way to the cat cafe, you could tell Deku was getting curious, but he trusted you enough to wait. Soon you arrive at the cute cafe. “Tadaa It’s a cat cafe! We’re getting lunch here.” You say with a wide smile. Deku lets out a laugh, his laugh was so damn cute. Izuku holds the door for you as you enter. You both order something to eat and drink. Whilst waiting for your order you were petting a cat with big green eyes. “He looks like you!” You exclaim with a giggle. “You think?” Deku asks with big eyes. “Well, this one reminds me of you.” He says pointing at the black cat sleeping on his lap. You both burst into laughter. You haven’t had this much fun in so long. You try to catch your breath, your stomach hurt from laughing and your food hasn’t even arrived yet. “That one looks like Aoyama!” you laugh pointing at the white cat with blue eyes that’s staring at its own reflection in the mirror. Deku laughs immediately agreeing with you. “I think that’s our order,” he says getting up, “I’ll go and grab it.” You nod at him and watch him walk to the counter. Suddenly you remember what Mina said earlier, that she ships you with Izuku. Now that you were thinking about it this does feel an awful lot like a date. At this point, you should just go out with him. You shake your head embarrassed as you bring your hands up to your face that was heating up. “I got our food,” Deku says placing the tray down on the table. “Is something wrong?” He asks noticing your red face and distressed state. “Uhm no.” You lie blatantly. Izuku frowns and gives you a worried look that makes you want to pinch his freckled cheeks. He was so just so cute and perfect and sweet and- “Just go out with me already!” You blurt out with no control. You slap your hands over your mouth as your eyes grow wide. No way did I just say that. You thought to yourself. You slowly look up at Deku to see his reaction and to your surprise, he turned even redder than you. “Y-you want to go out with me?” He stutters shocked. He suddenly sits back down and looks you in the eyes, a little calmer and more collected than a few seconds ago. “So you’re telling me that it isn’t one-sided?” Izuku asks seriously waiting for your confirmation. “Wait, what?” You ask completely dumbfounded. “Y/n I would love to go out with you!” Izuku exclaims with a shy smile. “Should we plan our second date?” You joke as you still couldn’t believe what was happening. “I think we should make our first one more fun. The day hasn’t ended yet.”

General headcanon:

💘 You and Izuku share your insecurities together late at night (and make sure to remind each other just how perfect you are).

💘 You both share your playlists together.

💘 Izuku liked dogs more at first but because of you he completely adores cats.

💘 Izuku compliments you everyday without fail.

💘 you both give each other cute and creative nicknames

Other possible matches: Shoto Todoroki

I'd appreciate it if you'd reblog this, and i hope you enjoyed reading this <3

#obeyme matchup #matchups #obey me #obey me headcannons #obey me beelzebub #beel #beelzebub #beelzebub x reader #beel x mc #midoriya izuku #izuki x reader #mha matchups #fanfiction #hopelessly in love #love your enemies #bnha matchups #my hero academia #izuku my hero academia

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shallow vagina anon: thank you so much for your advice, i hadn't thought of averaging out measurements. im autistic so i rlly appreciate clear actionable advice lol. i just wanted to like. explain? vent? about my situation? sorry for tmi about my genitals?

i went to my doctor today (who is actively pro-trans which is nice) and talked to him about it. he suggested i try dilators which i might but he also recommended that i go to a gyno to have them check it out, which ill have an appt for in two weeks. i've been trying to figure this out for a few days because i just recently was like "this probably is very abnormal" and i didn't want to like, jump to any random conclusions. & everywhere says feeling "too tight" is a common problem so i'm like cool! except none of the common answers seem to fit whats going on with me!

its not an issue of natural dryness, and i also have used lube anyways. its not an issue of relaxation, which i dont have trouble with. its not an issue of preparation/foreplay. its not an issue of fear. i don't even completely avoid penetration; tampons were uncomfortable but i only used one twice because the threat of toxic shock made me stressed. any kind of penetration gets uncomfortable (w/ enough lube a finger is fine, two if im turned on, but even after a certain point it starts hurting & generally leaves a slight pain/ache afterwards) and an average penis leaves noticeable pain for a while afterwards. there aren't any muscle spasms. Everything seems as wet and squishy and elastic as you'd expect. i've been on T for a year but i've been like this since i started messing around w/ my cunt and always felt confused why people enjoyed penetration so much; its only recently i was stubborn enough to ignore the pain just to go for it cause i figured it was probably more or less normal for it to hurt. the only way i can describe it is really that i just feel like its too tight, not so much that nothing can get it but enough that it feels like they shouldn't be getting in yk? but again i just figured, penetration is what this organ is made for, so this is probably normal. even though i've heard so many times that sex shouldn't hurt, once i found out how to get any pleasure from it i was like "oh so the pain probably doesn't matter if it can also feel good."

so i just. don't know what to think i guess. i really don't want to waste time and energy if its something common but it just doesn't seem like anything that is common describes what i've experienced? i got my period regularly pre-T & didn't have any signs of virilization, but all the more uncommon explanations for this say that it generally comes alongside not ever menstruating, so i just. feel very lost right now and confused about what the fuck is up with me. i feel really torn between "its probably something normal and you're probably reading way too deep into this" and "this really seems like its something abnormal and i am right to be getting this checked out." thank you for advice + reading this, i hope you have a good day

Oh if you're on testosterone it's almost definitely vagina atrophy. Warning that this refers to it as something that happens to women/females. It sounds scary but it's not. I experience it as well, before T (due to hyperandrogenism) and worse after starting T for HRT.

Higher levels of testosterone can cause vagina atrophy, in people born with hyperandrogenism and people who go on testosterone HRT. It's super common but not well-known about.

Locally applied estrogen cream or the Nuvaring/generic alternatives (or other birth control with estrogen put inside the vagina) can help reduce vaginal atrophy help with it. Talk to your doctor about it.

Vaginal atrophy is normal for those on T HRT and not uncommon but less normal for those not on it.

#asks #questions #vaginal atrophy #testosterone hrt

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three seconds in and wow... those are such Noises. this man is homosexual im saying this because 1. no straight person would be connected to this type of music and 2. i think this is the guy in the picture u posted earlier

impulsive, never stops moving, was this the guy getting the bj in that one scene, has dreams that are unachievable but you better bet hes gonna fucking try, if you try to stop him he will bite you, probably destined to die and is trying to live as much as possible before that happens

im diagnosing you with AJR addiction. im doing a quick sweep of all ur public playlists and so far only fugo, narancia, dazai, and teru's dont have an ajr song

this mfer is living life on the edge good for him i would hate to exist around him. NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA ANA NA ANA NA NA NA NA AN NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NA NAN NANA NA AN ANNA NANA NA NA NA NA NAN AN NA

anti-depressants turned into a human

im going to save this playlist as a stim-playlist theres so much Noise here

is i'm ready by ajr one of the earlier songs? his voice sounds younger. wait was that fucking bob l'eponge

this playlist is providing a lot of songs for the WIP MILF playlist thank you

🕺💃🕺💃🕺💃🕺💃🕺💃🕺💃 THIS IS MY ROARING ROARING 20s 🕺💃🕺💃🕺💃🕺💃🕺💃🕺💃

basically i am getting that this guy is ready to live instead of survive and is going to sink his teeth into the flesh of the world and fuck living an easy or boring life

BANGER playlist and character both you and him would be allowed to get the aux on my imaginary mutual roadtrip i think i like him a lot he seems like a vibe also fun fact the ask rectangle covers most of ur header except the dancing character at the very far left who i think might be mista

he would probably call up random people in a phone book to ask them about their day

he has a bucket list and follows none of it because life fucks hard and he's living one day at a time and who cares if we die it's just another adventure

is he a fun criminal?? thats what im getting by lotta true crime but idk

the end got like rlly sad suddenly wait what

we're back to cool shit 😎 cult of dionysus. this character just seems like a 24/7 party. he'd be the person who never shuts the fuck up at a sleepover

i think he could witness the absolute worst horrors and traumas ever and would go "lol okay!"

final thoughts: homosexuality. also how dare you expose me to hayloft 2 AGAIN

this is incredible you have his personality down Perfectly

i am too tired to do a full response but:

yes he was the one getting the blowjob and yes he is also the dude dancing on the far left of my header

i full-heartedly accept my ajr addiciton diagnosis </3 they're my favorite band i literally cannot get enough of them

ANTI-DEPRESSANTS TURNED INTO A HUMAN I'M CACKLING

hh yeah the noises are So Good in this one

i think i'm ready is one of their first songs ! (ajr addiction coming in handy rn)

i am absolutely adding the him calling random people to my hcs that is so cute and it's definitely something he'd do-

he's def a fun criminal, i'm p sure part of his backstory was that whenever he was low on cash he'd just fuckin. rob people outside movie theaters who were badmouthing the actors?? (also he's literally a mafioso so like-)

he wouldn't shut up during a sleepover and that is a Fact

oh yeah that happens several times in canon jhgfdfghjhds

i am sorry but hayloft 2 is such a good character playlist song-

this was very fun to read/respond to asdkgfskj ty for listening <33

#bat <3 #endless asks #jjba tag

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petitelepus · 2 years

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i have been going on a matchup spree out of boredom so beixjejd

if its okay, can i have a TWST matchup. if not, then feel free to ignore this- so tysmm!

personality;. I’m a 6w5 ENTP- except i dont really fit into the usual ENTP stereotype. it kind of actually relates to a lot of deeper psychology functions in each personality type. and i usually follow carl jung’s belief that each aspect of a personality is still in a person(even though it isnt common in them) and it can eventually be developed over time soooo yeah

in general, i can be pretty bright and chaotic but I can be super chill when i’m not in the mood for it. i kinda like being a menace and pranking people. sometimes, when I’m feeling extremely hyper, I like to make violent and/or flirty jokes. and i also laugh at my own jokes(but its kinda funny) and i also like to seem overly confident in myself. usually, im straightforward and blunt with people. however, with strangers, i’m more quiet and i won’t really talk to you unless you approach me first and then, i kinda of start smiling and being really friendly.

otherwise, i can actually be really responsible and smart. it’s just that i act dumb at first especially since it’s amusing to see how people would react to it

- Hobbiesss; i really, really like to research online about specific topics or listen to educational podcasts/documentaries/etc. or sometimes, im usually playing video games, or im simply talking to friends or sometimes, i like to chill and read

- dislikes; iii hate insects like i will cry at the sight of one. i dont like ppl who sugarcoat things and/or don’t actually mean what they say. I literally hate feeling bored like its the worst feeling in the world. i also tend to feel a little intimidated with overly tall people that are like over 6ft especially since i am 4”9

- likes; I rlly like horror moviesss/video games and music. i like video games in general too though and i rlly like learning. i also like mysterious and thriller stufffff. i also rlly like rings, i love them so much. anddd my birdss, i love my pets so muchhh- i also really like philosophy. i love math a lot mostly because i’m really good at it and especially because i love problem-solving and coming up with ideas

I match you with Floyd Leech!

When Floyd first met you you were quiet and wouldn't talk with anyone. How cute and easy target for his teasing! Only when he started to talk with you, the more outspoken you turned and he soon learned that you are actually really fun company to have around!

Sure, you appeared a little simple-minded at first, but the more you spent time together, the more you would show your real colors.

The two of you are kinda similar, but no one would be able to handle Floyd and his mood swings like someone who is as chaotic as him. When both of you get enough of chaos and such, you two relax like a pair of lazy cats.

You're the life of the party and there is never a boring moment with Floyd and you both love it! He knows all about your jokes and their nature so he can trust in it that your jokes always make him laugh. He will always praise your jokes and it's even better if you make someone uneasy. How fun!

Yes, you can be responsible when it's needed, and that is how Floyd is also. Though, while you are kind and smart, he is blunt and some would say even cruel.

Floyd doesn't actively bring bugs at you, but if you're in the garden and he sees a bug, he will catch it and show it to you. You're so cute when you scream and take as much distance between him and you as possible. Also, you can have a pretty dirty mouth by what you have called Floyd as for scaring you.

You might be together, but Floyd absolutely LOVES teasing you about your height! Especially since he is one of the tallest students in Night Raven College and he isn't even sorry about it.

Horror movies and games? Yes, please! Floyd usually laughs at zombie movies and he tends to say something unsettling to others during Slasher movies, like how he can relate to the killers, and that scares the shit out of others.

Learning can be fun, especially if you can actually use the things you learn. He is actually also pretty okay with your birds. Math? Hell yeah, Floyd is smart, but you can always help him study. It's a ruse to get you to spend more time with him before exams, but it works.

Floyd isn't one to really celebrate anniversaries or such, but he will use it as a reason to get you a ring. It's nothing huge, but you still love it and he likes it when you show your fondness for him as he shows towards you.

#matchup #twisted wonderland matchup #twst #misshavoc #I AM SO SORRY YOU HAD TO WAIT THIS LONG #I HOPE YOU ENJOY YOUR MATCH #floyd leech

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tinybitofhope · 6 months

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my life rant bc i need this of my chest xxx (ill divide into paragraphs)

okay so the reason i think im aroflux is bcuz i dont feel attraction duh. but fr cuz i need to get this out. saw this one post abt leo valdez and it was like percy telling leo abt what his luv for annie feels like and leo was like ‘ya ill get crushes but i wont find luv bc i am fire and fire burns out and cannot be contained’ and shit like that and i was like…. crap. uhm i relate to that a bit too much. ik im young but like.. my crushes rlly js feel like interests and spending too much time w them. also idek if my most recent sapphic crush was rlly a crush or if i was js tryna prove it to myself im rlly bi. anyways back to my aro rant. and sometimes when i see people in luv im like ‘lmao couldnt be me’ like… okay next rant

omg so i used to be always happy for little and big things but like…. my vball tournament was yesterday and we won against our best opponent but i didnt feel happy??? like i barely even cried. i mean im glad we won but it feels like im holding smth that i like in my hands but js not enjoying ig??? i feel vv empty rn and i dont like the feeling of that but then again thats how ive been feeling for a while so im trying to ignore it.

its so sad on how i keep being friends w him (ill name him kris) even tho he literally outed me, but this is such a small skl and i dont think i could ever leave my friend. tbh loyalty is a big thing for me, ever. thats why it hurts so much when i think about everyone having someone except for me. its like being the third wheel in every single relationship (familial, friendship) i have with anybody. anyways i rlly have to stop being friends w people who wronged me but when i think abt them i think abt all the good times w them and then think that they (alliteration) could still be my friend. but like i said before its a small skl and everyone knos eachother…

back on that third wheel thing, like i said b4 loyalty is big for me. so when someone betrays me or like leaves me out i get soooo anxious and start going into frenzies like ‘oh ofc theyre hanging out together’ bc now my trio feels like m&a plus me. and everyone has their pair they talk to all the time, so what abt me? nonzo. its so hard during family shit bc im the middle child whereas there is only two children in each family and somim stuck w the older cousins (dw i luv em) but like… i feel so out of place.

i hate hate hate doing big things and then right after i have to go socialize? like no.. im tired asf. sometimes talking makes me want to cry and hide ipunder my sheets and scroll on pinterest while listening to my peaceful playlist. and it sucks bc i share a room w my sister and so i cant even do that in peace. i turned off my crying mode aswell and i dont kno how to turn it back on so at most i can shed a few tears so thats not fun. bc yknow how people say ‘crying is good for u’. me rn: 🤠

so what did we learn? that my life sucks ass and i want to curl up and die. and on that happy note goodbye!!!

#wow thats alot.#i should show this to my counselor #haha #i am definitely not okay #thats fine #no one on tumblr is

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1975civilian · 1 year

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life update my bsf left me for my ex. it was kinda obvious she liked him after the break up like she chosen to stay friends with him when she talked so much shit about him and said how draining it was to speak to him. now shes always with him and she posted on her close friends about how she had a crush on him. hes not even a good guy hes fucking werid. like i think she only likes him cuz he's obsessive but sometimes that not a good thing. he was rlly fucking obsessed with me and it was draining and overwhelming. he would text her about me saying how bad he wanted me and how jelouse he got but it was super overwhelming for the both of us so why tf did she stay friends with him yk. but she follows him around like a little dog and now shes talking shit about me and telling him all my personal stuff like trama and such. like i haven't said one bad thing except i called her a shitty person for picking him over me. like he talk so much shit about me when i had him wrapped around my finger and i barley even spoke to him, and shes acting like i cant be upset by this shit. like shes saying that this is why all my old friends left me and im a bitch. but my past friendships have nothing to do with her. yes if i talk to you about them you can say something but putting your input and saying a toxic friendship was my fault fucking hurts. like you were the one true friend i ever felt like i fucking had, and you turn around and leave me for my fucking ex ? like it doesn't make sense to me. i have all the screen shots of the text of her talking shit. SHE EVEN FUCKING SHOWED HIM OUR TEXT BUT LEFT OUT WHEN SHE TALKED SHIT. plus i have fucking ugly ass photos of me in that chat and she showed him thise and they made fun of me. like how tf are you gonna do that to me. we were friends for almost a year and we were so fucking close. like the amount of things we said and told each other. then the fact she said she rejects making that first call with me fucking hurt. like i thought we were such good friends but she turned it all around for a guy WHOS NOT EVEN THAT GOOD LOOKING. like i would get it if the guy at least looked good but no. that man is fucking ugly. the only thing i bet she likes is that hes obsessive but thats not a good thing. its so fucking overwhelming. like i couldn't talk to my friends without him thinking i was ignoring him, and god forbid i spoke a single letter to a man he would try to fucking sabotage them. EVEN IF THEY DONT LIKE ME AND I DONT LIKE THEM. like he thought i had a crush on my friend v and my other friend. like it was so fucking overwhelming i always had to leave my friends to make sure he was ok. like we were scrolling on my fyp on ft and he was like "she follows so many guys i can def see her type." LIKE WHO CARES OMG. anyways that pretty much it this shit just hurts and has rlly taken a tole on me but its wtv yk.

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butimjustaliar · 2 years

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things i assumed about stuff i didn't know anything about bc kids (i) are (was(am)) stupid

dnd is a form of roleplay that happens exclusively in people's mind and there's neither actual rules nor a goal. reason being that as a kid i read greg's diary and at some point they play dnd, except the game isnt explained, only "explaination" is a picture of three people sitting around an empty table and one of them saying sth along the lines of "my knight stabs urs in the gut 7 times and u die". so i thought dnd is an imaginative roleplay where people take turns just saying random stuff their character does

wolverine is a furry. pretty self explanatory, reason being that i never saw or read wolverine, i heard "wolverine" and assumend it's about a guy with a wolf persona. i also thought he doesnt just grow claws but fully transforms, a little bit like the werewolves in twilight. consequently i thought that as his persona he does a lot of howling at the moon and other wolf stuff and did not understand why so many people were into that

ironman is a guy made of iron, similar to kolossos (not that i knew kolossos). again, pretty self-explanatory, didnt read or see any of ironman stuff, thus, similarly to wolverine, i also didn't know he's supposed to be a superhero. i just wondered how a guy made of iron could possibly be that interesting

everything is machine made. grew up in a time with a lot of technological break-throughs and grown ups around me were constantly talking about how the machines are taking away people's jobs and nothings handmade anymore. obv there didn't actually mean EVERYTHING was made ONLY by machines, but how was i supposed to know that. consequently i was very confused by things like child lsbor and exploitation, bc yk, i thought everything's made by machines.

a few = 6. this was a result of child me not being able to grasp the concept of "a few", whenever i asked "how many" and my mum answered "a few" i'd be like "? how much id that" and u think my mum tried explaining taht it's an indefinite amount but i couldn't work with that, bc how do i know it's the correct indefinite amount so my mum told me a few means six. i think she meant "one example for a few could be six pieces" but i understood it as "a few equals 6" and at least i stopped asking "how much" so my mum just gave up on on trying to make me understand and went with it.

this directly leads into my next point, bc just when i finally understood indefinite numbers, i learned about dozens. i thought a dozen is an indefinite amount, slighty bigger than "a few". it was a bit weird bc when people talked about two dozens or three dozens, that still somewhat made sense, bc people also say things like "a couple hundred", but then people talked about "half-dozens" and i was like "hm"

food sold in supermarkets is made in labs. i grew up during a time where people talked a lot about food "being super artificial" and whatsoever and there being "so many chemicals in there" so i kind of assumed chemicals = lab → food is made in very big labs

vision static is the movement of tons of little bugs and atoms. tbh idk why, didn't occur to me that my eyes are just failing me a little, and it seemed reasonable at the time

authors are people from parallel dimensions (or secret societies), who are now making money by telling stories from their other lives and pretending they made them up. yeah idk, just couldn't grasp the concept of making things up ig. didn't make sense to me.

secrets are little lies you make up and only tell specific people about. they then are in on your secret. and there's no point of the secret existing. it just is. yeah dont even ask.

spaghetti are a starter. i ate them at the beginning of the meal, so they were a starter. things could only be a main when there was a dish beforehand. only having a main didnt work, bc what is it supposed to be the main of? it's obviously a starter, bc u eat it before dessert, meaning at the beginning of mealtime. my elementary school teacher failed to convince me i was wrong, she tried though, she rlly did. i thought nobody ever explained meals to her.

fat people cant drown. u know how when u have soup, the fat is gonna float on top? or oil on top of water? yeah, so people said "fat floats ", obviously referring to food, but i didn't know that so i assumed this means that being fat means u will always stay on top of the water, bc yk, fat floats. once again sth my poor elementary school teacher tried explaining to me and i think after a few days of reflecting i concluded that she might be right (unlike the spaghetti, continued calling them a starter for years)

#dnd #dungens and dragons #wolverine #furries #x men #marvel #iron man #writing #spaghetti #cooking #elementary school #teacher #education #kids are stupid #at least i was #hostmblr

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fatherofmachine · 2 years

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All righty, I feel like it’s REALLY necessary to talk about some things. It’s a really important thing imo to understand this because it seems like so many people don’t & I assume it’s because Harold’s personality type makes his outward expressions and feelings a lot more internal. Feelings & emotions tend to come in second place with Harold, that’s just naturally how his mind works ; he’s able to put his feelings aside entirely & avoid making decisions based on them ( we’ve seen a few times where he snaps a bit or he gets rlly nervous but that’s when he’s under very heavy stress, like when he snapped at Root whilst she was holding him captive & forcing him to watch her torture someone. like ... out of all the things most people would’ve done, a slight sharp retort is super mild & Impressive ). He’s a logically thinking person which, to a lot of people on the outside, seems to suggest that he’s HARSH or even insensitive & like ?? In several cases he is kind of harsh, blunt....but there are TWO things to remember.

1. If Finch’s harsh / stubborn opinion is proven wrong, he’s going to own up to that. He’s going to change his opinion & he’s going to apologize, if necessary.

One particular STUBBORN opinion is his paranoia about The Machine, which he expresses throughout the series ( albeit it lessens with time ). & I’d imagine many people are like Finch just trust her already because that has crossed my mind before & I can also see how people could think he was being unkind & insensitive to her ( which I’m not saying he wasn’t exactly, he was, but.... *gestures to the next sentence* ). THE THING IS....there’s an extremely good reason for this. WITHOUT Harold’s extensive paranoia, The Machine likely would’ve turned out like Samaritan. The Machine is the way she is because Finch wanted to make 500000% sure that she would NEVER turn to do things that he was terrified she might, given that’s how DANGEROUS AI’s are naturally. As he’d said, AIs are born with objectives. They’re not born with empathy or any sense of Good & Evil.

He realizes how wrong he is AGAIN by assuming people’s lives would be better without him, because he’s not important enough & their happiness & safety matters more. But he sees how not better off Grace is without him through time & how he assumes Reese wont come looking for him when Root captures him but HE RELENTLESSLY GOES AFTER HIM & Finch may have hoped a little bit that Reese would come for him but he didn’t expect it. The numbers are more important. The Machine doesn’t try to help Reese find Finch initially bc FINCH PROGRAMMED HER NOT TO. Even to the very end, he tried to sacrifice himself but Reese & The Machine out-fox him because they love him & they don’t want him to sacrifice himself. He’s so IMPORTANT to them & he has a hard time understanding how important he is to those he’s close to.

Throughout the series, Harold is seemingly insensitive to The Machine & he distances himself from her ( especially so by avoiding using specific pronouns, which he does something SIMILAR to everyone by using their last names. It’s like a defense mechanism but he does let that slip & it shows how much he does care & how attached he is imo ). He doesn’t do these things out of malice or ill intent, he does these things because he’s RIGHTFULLY terrified of the things that could go wrong, of how he could be tricked if he decided to blindly trust his creation ( literally every version of The Machine except the one that remained tried to trick &/or kill him ok ).

Which is why it’s SO GOOD that he & The Machine finally have a long time to talk because she proves how wrong he is, how WRONG he is to doubt his own ability that created her & how truly TRUSTWORTHY she is, as he hoped she would be. She is his vision but he constantly doubted himself i think...& as she explains how she’s able to LOVE, he very clearly realizes how wrong he is & i feel like that’s a point where he accepts how wrong he is ( i dont know if he ever got to express that, but tbh I would love to write that discussion omg ). HE’S SO PROUD OF HER. & in regard to Root’s opinion of him & The Machine, she helped him trust The Machine & helped him let himself love her whilst Harold helped Root regain her humanity & they basically developed a father / daughter dynamic i cry about. bUT ANYWAY

2. Harold is selfless to a damn fault. Everyone’s lives matter so much more than his own & he expresses how much he doesn’t want people to risk their lives for him SEVERAL TIMES. Some would say that him recruiting everyone to save people ect. was a selfish thing but like?? Every single one of them became a BETTER version of themselves ( the Machine showed what life would’ve been like without his influence / the Machine & certainly one or two of them weren’t bad but it shows how GOOD of an influence him & the Machine were honestly ) & every single one of them WANTED to be there ‘till the end, they KNEW they might die but they were in for the ride anyway EVEN IF Harold asked them not to sacrifice themselves. He cares very deeply for those whom he slowly, eventually trusts & to say that he doesn’t just because those feelings aren’t spilling out of him is just .... ???? His guilt for ANYONE’S death indirectly caused by him is immense. He literally drowns in it & that’s illustrated very clearly to me ( “ Does survival’s guilt pass when everything is in fact YOUR FAULT ? ” ) but he & I have similar personality types so I might just understand how he thinks easier than some, idk.

So, with these things in mind, it boggles my mind that anyone would even for a second consider that Harold Finch didn’t care that he indirectly caused the deaths of people he loved or that he didn’t try to STOP them from getting killed, because he did try. He did the best he could, given the circumstances. He absolutely made MISTAKES & he certainly wasn’t always in the right, he was wrong about a lot of things but he owned up to the things he was wrong about & to his mistakes.

#KNOWING THE ANSWER HAS COST ME SOMETHING I VALUE MORE THAN MY OWN LIFE. ( character study )#WATCHING WITH TEN THOUSAND EYES … LISTENING WITH A MILLION EARS. ( meta )#me reposting these and remembering that some of them came out of me being irrtated at outer fandom nonsense lmfao

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