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tomcatyowls · 1 month

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@ MINOR & ADULT Systems Still Living with Your Abusers / in an Abusive Environment — PLEASE READ IN FULL

Finding out about the inner workings of Your OSDDID when you still live with Your Abusers; is an excellent exercise in creating an inaccurate, or skewed view of yourself.

Attempting to document/detail system structures, triggers & trauma, indepth alter counts — without the help of supports like; medical professional(s) / your own place / cutting off abuser contact(s) / IRL found-family — is going to be incredibly difficult because your system is still being abused & triggered.

The combination of Your Brain & Body undergoing rapid growth changes; your system still being in a highly incognito state, and The Fact You Are Still Being Abused = You require a greater level of constant dissociative compartmentalization, and trauma responses, to survive your day-to-day.

Which makes it Damn Near Impossible to accurately assess whats going on inside; if your reaction was an fragment or an alter, if it was a cPTSD flashback, or any other Disordered Behaviours that are not indicative of OSDDID. (Psychosis, BPD states, Autism/ADHD behaviours, NPD states, etc)

Additionally; when living with your abusers, your mind is absolutely in survival mode. You are not going to accurately 100% understand when you are a different identity state VS when your having a temporary reaction to your environment. (ie; Fawn, Freeze, Flight, Fight, etc.)

Your understanding of yourself & your state of mind Will Change After Escaping your abusers/environment. EVEN IF you were able to be accurate- that is not going remain accurate.

Simply because; once you escape your Abusive Environment, your brain Will Just Start reordering its whole perception of Life & Your System, to adjust for how different life is when you are not reliant on your abusers.

Which Just to Clarify!! Ignoring this advice & and doing this the hard way; resulting in being wrong about your system- will not kill you. But like it IS a massive pain in the ass to have to choose between;

Ignoring your previous hard work & rediscover your system from scratch again

Wade up your big kid pants and start working through a swamp of teenage idiocy to find out if anything is remotely accurate to present day

Some insane mixture of the above.

The point of this is, Your DID/OSDD isn’t going to leave just because You start prioritizing Yourself.

To any Minor or Adult Systems stuck with Your Abusers, you are allowed to survive first and ask questions later. Your System means nothing if you aren’t safe enough to live as yourself- Please Prioritize Your Survival Over Understanding.

#yowling #osddid #actually dissociative #actually did #system #cdid system #did osdd #actually traumagenic #traumagenic only #sysblr #dissociative system #hc did #cdid #pdid #osdd

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pigeon-system-boys · 24 days

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I LOVE YOU SYSTEMS

YES YOU TOO

Even if you were told that you are gross

Even with alters with PrObLeMaTiC Source (don't care, you aren't your fucking source!!!)

Even if your persecutors and protectors act like pieces of shit (they are trying and are fucking up. A lot of times. But they're trying!!)

Even if your littles are sexual protectors (VALID) (YOU DON'T CHOOSE ALTER ROLES)

Even if you can't heal right now

Even if you are happy that you are system

Even if you ARE NOT happy about being system

Even if you have NO CLUE what tf was your trauma

Even if you have your trauma 360° full HD scarred into your brain

If you want to know your trauma and if you don't

If your system is full of abuse (don't say you are bad person, you aren't, your brain tries to COPE)

Even if your trauma was "not enoth", even if it was "too much"

Even if you don't love yourself

Especially if you don't love yourself

I am here for you

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borderlinedolly · 9 months

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A Small Reminder For OSDDID Systems

There is no such thing as the "perfect system." Your brain developed this disorder in the best way it saw fit to help you survive. As such, your system structure and the way it functions is specific to you, the trauma you underwent, and the way you reacted to it.

You might have more nonhuman alters than other systems, or you might form introjects easier. You might have hundreds of fragments, or you might have none. You might have 2 alters, you might have 10, or you might have hundreds.

Your system is catered towards your specific needs. While we all share symptoms and aspects in common, our systems are unique to us. What that means differs from person to person. Some might have hundreds of introjects, and some might have none. Both system were needed for their body's survival.

Your system is valid as it is, even if others try to tell you otherwise. What your system "should" be like is exactly how it already is because it's your system, and it was made to help you survive.

#complex dissociative identity disorder #did system #dissociative identity disorder #other specified dissociative disorder #alters #complex did #did community #hc did #highly complex did #highly complex dissociative identity disorder #osdd 1a #osdd 1 #osdd 1b #did osdd #osddid #osdd system #osdd #did alter #actually did

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eclipse15 · 7 months

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“Does it hurt when you-“ It hurts when I wake up in the morning and when I walk and when I sit and when I lie down and when I go to bed and when I eat and when I drink and when I breathe and when I blink and

#🧩#did alter #endos dni #venting #vent post #personal vent #chronic pain #undiagnosed disability #actually mentally ill #hc did #osddid #did osdd #polyfragmented #polyfrag #polyfrag system

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lefluoritesys · 6 days

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gatitties · 2 months

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Can I get a one punch man saitama genos and garou accidentally saving a female reader from a villains or monster attack and the reader becomes madly in love with them and like stars following them and clingy to their art etc

─Saitama, Genos & Garou x reader

─Summary: You think that the person who saved you needs all the love in the world even if it was an accident.

─Warnings: none

─ In this world of heroes and villains you consider that you have a superpower, the superpower of being in the wrong place at the wrong time.

─ Somehow you find yourself involved in battles that do not concern you, being just another civilian who is rescued, it has happened to you several times, but you usually go unnoticed and flee from danger before someone decides to use you as a hostage.

─ It didn't happen like that when Saitama saved you, although he didn't even see you, he destroyed that huge stone that was going to crush you when defeating a villain, your eyes could only look fascinated at the shine of his bald head and his bored expression.

─ You thanked him in different languages and he just gave you a thumbs up without knowing how to respond when he didn't even notice you in the first place.

─ He was certainly happy thinking that he had gotten a fan, but you went a little too far.

─ You went crazy looking for information about your now favorite hero and love, you sighed every time you saw him knock down enemies with a single blow.

─ Saitama met you more times a day than he did with Genos, and he lived with the cyborg.

─ You always tried to start a conversation with him, no matter how brief, you love the simple interaction.

─ Saitama will run away from you, seriously, he appreciates your letters and gifts but you are reaching an extreme, the man wants to lead a fairly peaceful life and you are a whirlwind of emotions.

─ Genos got a taste of his own medicine when he prevented a pile of rubble from falling on you, he hadn't noticed that you were the only person there, he just diverted the pieces of building for a battle strategy.

─ You didn't need anything else, once he realized that there were civilians, he apologized and helped you get to the nearest hospital to check if you had any injuries.

─ You were creating imaginary scenarios with the cyborg throughout the medical checkup and immediately sought to have more interactions with him.

─ It's difficult for Genos to reject some of your offers once you manage to establish some kind of friendly relationship, although he feels that you are being a little suffocating with your affection.

─ Appreciate your enthusiasm and affection, but seriously, relax a little, his brain will short-circuit from the amount of love you show him.

─ This boy has zero experience in romantic relationships so he is a little lost when it comes to reciprocating at first.

─ You will take care of that as long as he ends up accepting you as a partner, since he is still confused by your sudden appearance in his life, especially when he has such clear life goals, he doesn't know if you could distract him from his occupations.

─ He doesn't want to make you feel bad so he won't ignore your signs of affection like Saitama, ironically he has more heart than his bald friend.

─ In general he is a good boy and he will accept your love bombing, but he also has clear goals for himself, and he lets you know if you really want to be part of his life.

─ This idiot surely saw you and he was even the one who planned to use you as a hostage, but someone beat him to it and put a knife against your throat before he could do anything.

─ Fuck everything, the cheap villain was his priority now and he forgot about you, no one would take away a target even if it was a hostage, speaking of capricious boys…

─ Of course the whim of fighting your captor indirectly saved you, although he didn't look at you when you fell to the ground or help you after he broke the other guy's face, but your heart experienced an instant crush.

─ Garou had the feeling that someone was after him after that day, he thought that some rival was after him only to find... you with a love letter in your hands?

─ You looked at each other in an uncomfortable silence and he decided to leave without saying anything, but your spirits did not falter, you tried by all possible means to spend as much time as possible with him to establish a relationship.

─ The man simply got used to having you by his side, ranting about anything or receiving compliments for any little thing he did.

─ He was so embarrassed, not only because the sight of him as a villain would be destroyed, but because he was not used to receiving so much praise and affection.

─ You may have a rather negative reaction towards your love, he doesn't feel confident enough to start something and you also came out of nowhere, but now that he knows you a little more he won't kick you out of his life either, at least for now…

─ Don't expect any signs of affection from him, he's a tough guy and has to look tough.

─ He constantly reminds you that he's not a good person and what his goals are right now, but he gives up when he sees that the look in your eyes clouded by love, won't scare you away so easily, although he might like that.

#opm #one punch man #request #one punch man x reader #saitama x reader #sfw #genos x reader #garou x reader #hcs #hc did #opm hcs #reader insert #opm x reader

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pink-devolve · 2 months

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RadQueer Blocklist

This is a long list of every radqueer account I could find under the basic RQ tags. If there’s an account that’s not on this list, please message me with the account name and I will add it.

Not every account on here is inherently extremely harmful. If a person called themself radqueer, I added them to the list. Some of this is based on opinion, like if a person says they’re anti-contact but is doing things the show otherwise, I tagged them as pro contact. And if a person doesn’t identify as trans-race/trans-disabled but is being a bigot, I tagged them as such.

Don’t harass anyone on this list. And for legal reasons, if I’m labeling someone as predatory, that is just an accusation.

List under cut

‼️- Predatory

🛑- Pro-C

⚠️- Trans-abuser

🔱- Trans-abused

☢️- Trans-disabled

🚫- Trans-race

❎- Rq, other

- Kangalpuppy, pro-c for everything, says minors, animals and d3ad ppl can consent ‼️🛑

- Radmutt, pro-c for everything, says minors, animals, and d3ad ppl can consent ‼️🛑

- Mommytransid, 25/yo dating a minor ‼️🛑⚠️

- Sootdazai, claims to abuse and “program” its partners. Claims to have r4p3d one of his partners ‼️🛑⚠️🔱🚫

- Here-4-vibez, pro-r4p3, pro-c, transCSA, claims to have “plural obsessive disorder” ‼️🛑⚠️🔱

- Arsynnotarson, pro-c zoo, makes posts about dating animals, transabused ‼️🛑🔱

- Hobiesbrokenguitar, pro-c zoo, trans-race ‼️🛑🚫

- Office-vampire, trans-abuser, talks about jacking off to trauma narratives, adult and asked young teenagers to send their trauma narratives ‼️🛑⚠️

- Shotamania, pro-c MAP, trans-abuser/harmful, says “they’re pro everything” ‼️🛑⚠️

- 88-arachnids-grip-88, threatened to send SH pics to someone in order to try and manipulate them, told someone how to kts, threatened to kill animals, “trans-groomer” ‼️🛑⚠️

- Lobotomizuki, dating Ciel, claims to be trans-abuser, trans-disabled, trans-r4p1st 🛑🔱☢️

- Paraluvs, transabused, posts self harm art on their page, pro-c, minor in kink 🛑🔱

- Predqueer, pro-c, complains about not knowing what programming is while talking about transramcoa. Coins terms🛑🔱

- Val-loves-rqs, trans-ramcoa/abused, pro-c 🛑🔱

- Radicalclues, trans-disabled, trans-race, trans-abused, adult para account that interacts with young teen para accounts, “”mirrored-contact”” 🛑🚫🔱☣️

- Deer-mageikan, pro-c 🛑

- Cakechaser, pro-contact, says all furries are zoos, compares being transgender to being transrace, trans-abused(asks people to abuse them) 🛑🔱🚫

- Transillusionisms, trans-abused/er, trans-ramcoa, pro-romantic contact zoo 🛑⚠️🔱

- Foliage-446, transdisabled, minor owned para acc, xeno-satanist🛑☢️

- Deucey-deuce, pro-c, trans-abused/er 🛑⚠️🔱

- Transhcdid, trans-abused/er, pro-c, claims transramcoa terms. Makes extremely offensive flags for said terms(like graphics depicting abuse) Transdisabled 🛑⚠️🔱☢️

- Jamesbuchananbarness, transn@z1, doesn’t state contact stance⚠️🚫☢️

- Ziziscampsite, trans-n@z1, has n@z1-fan art as their pfp, says they were a n@z1 in a past life ⚠️☢️🚫

- Bloodydelusional, trans-disabled, transabused/er, says they will coin anything and have no DNI ☢️⚠️🔱

- h0lyl0l1, transtbmc /other abuse, transdisabled, transrace, transabuser ⚠️🔱☢️🚫

- Toxicpilled, transabuser, transabused, trans-slave ⚠️🔱🚫

- Radumbrella, minor owned para acc, trans-race, trans-drugaddict, trans-cannibal, transabused ⚠️🔞🔱🚫☢️

Transramcoa, identifies as trans-ramcoa and creates terms centered around ramcoa. Usually the flags are extremely offensive, trans-race, trans-disabled ⚠️🚫🔱☢️

- Wwwjunocom, trans-disabled, trans-abusive, trans-sch001-sh00t3r ☢️⚠️

- Leyleypsychotic, “”fult””(faux cult) leader, trans-abused, trans-disabled ⚠️🔱☢️

- Transdhampir, trans-disabled, trans-abuser, trans-abused, coins RQ terms ⚠️☢️🔱

- Doctors-littlehelper, trans-harmed, trans-harmful ⚠️🔱

- Wocatana2, trans-abuser ⚠️

- Narcissistic-gremlin, co-owner of RQ server, trans-abuser ⚠️

- Toxic-debris, coins trans-abuse/r terms 🔱⚠️

- Alastor-my-love, trans-abuser ⚠️

- Luci-st4r, trans-abused, trans-abuser ⚠️🔱

- Abuserprince, says they’re complex-contact, trans-abuser ⚠️

- Rqplushie, “”fult”” leader, minor ran para acc, trans-race ⚠️🚫

- Dreamingchu2, trans-abused, trans-abuser, trans-plural, trans-race, trans-disabled (it goes on but I got lazy)⚠️🔱🚫☢️

- Trulycupid, racist, created a term called “winter-punk”, not trans-race afaik but they get the emoji 🚫

- Radiumqueer, claims gender=sex and therefore trans-race is just as valid as transgender 🚫

- Thatparablog, transrace 🚫

- Wadeystabs, trans-race, RQ 🚫

- Astrolective, RQ, trans-race 🚫

- Uwameshi, says being trans-race ””phobic”” is the same thing as being transphobic 🚫

- Mistymeow69, RQ, trans-race 🚫

- Anothertransidblog, trans-race 🚫

- Transrace, “trans-race activism blog” 🚫

- Tr4nsr4c14lj4p4n3s3g1rl, trans-race 🚫

- Transidveronica, trans-race 🚫

- 4ndr0m3da, trans-disabled, trans-race ☢️🚫

- Forgedesires, trans-disabled, trans-race ☢️🚫

- The-catwithin, trans-native, trans-disabled ☢️🚫

- Plushie-ina-big-sweater, trans-race, trans-disabled ☢️🚫

- Sqrmsh, trans-race and transdisabled ☢️🚫

- Brainlessspuppy, trans-disabled, coins terms ☢️

- Lucifer-radqueer, trans-disabled ☢️

- Loatheticbeast, transplural ☢️

- Hearts4romeii, transplural, talks graphically about how she wants to khs ☢️

- Littlemelonberry, trans-addict, supportive of abusive identities ☢️

- Iotaisradqueer, trans-disabled ☢️

- Radicalnpdisms, RQ, trans-disabled ☢️

- Thecodakkeeffectt, coins medically-unrecognized-disorders ☢️

- Radqueer-fanboy, transplural ☢️

- Emopack, trans-autistic ☢️

- Radqueerstars, trans-disabled ☢️

- Toxic-exes, trans-disabled ☢️

- Haventhing, trans-severesh, uses flags that have drawings of SH and blades ☢️

- Needygirlonline, trans-disabled, trans-plural ☢️

- Transx-mogai-cafe, coins terms, trans-disabled ☢️

- Lolinawinii, trans-disabled ☢️

- Transabled-archive, archives all “trans-abled” terms ☢️

- Snowlovesyourq, trans-autistic ☢️

- Transagestuffuwu, trans-disabled, cross-tags ☢️

- Gay-we1rdo, trans-disabled ☢️

- Transpluralunite, trans-plural, trans-disabled ☢️

- Toransuneko, trans-disabled ☢️

- Arctic-fox-queer, trans-disabled ��️

- Maned-wolfe, trans-disabled ☢️

- Transshells, trans-disabled, term coiner ☢️

- Dyspunktional-raven, gets mad when people say autistic instead of cis-autistic(etc) ☢️

- E4t-fl3sh, trans-disabled, trans-autistic ☢️

- Wuskie-woof-meom, trans-disabled ☢️

- Cloudytransx, trans-didfaker(?), trans-disabled 🔱☢️

- Francislikeseverybeing, trans-disabled, trans-abused, trans-ramcoa 🔱☢️

- Adxmmu88xy, trans-autistic, trans-plural, trans-ch1lds3xw0rk3r 🔱☢️

- Radicallysoup, trans-ramcoa, trans-disabled, interacts with and reblogs posts made by predatory/abusive people, trans-plural🔱☢️

- Ur-local-goldfish, transabused, transdisabled, alt account of gorgeous-rq-girlies🔱☢️

- Transharmed, trans abused, term coiner, trans-disabled 🔱☢️

- Transharmedbutsillier, transharmed alt acc, posts nsfw trans-harmed stuff 🔱☢️

- Dwlliennwurse, uses a typing quirk without translations, coins terms, trans-abused, trans-autistic 🔱☢️

- Npdblythe, trans-hcdid 🔱☢️

- Rq-selfship-fun, trans-abused 🔱

- Radqueerdogboy, trans-abused 🔱

- Fish-of-fanqia, trans-abused, claims to be in a “”fult””(faux-cult) 🔱

- Rqcrimeboyz, trans-abused, RQ 🔱

- A-system-in-a-system, trans-abused, trans-ramcoa 🔱

- Radicalbunny, trans-abused, uses several transid labels for extreme abuse, uses stutter quirk without translations 🔱

- R4dqu33r-g1nny-w34sl3y, trans-abused, trans-programmed 🔱

- Maxrqstuff, trans-hcdid 🔱

- Voidformed, coins trans-harmed terms 🔱

- Catsang, transramcoa 🔱

Selfsanguinamory, catsangs alt acc 🔱

- Vivziequeer, talks about wanting to be used by people, RQ 🔱

- Wortha-prettypenny, coins radqueer labels ❎

- Colorsof-therainbow, wortha-prettypenny’s other acc ❎

- Xxbl00d-st4rxx, RQ, has requested that people send them trauma-dumps for fetish reasons ❎

- Radqueer-takes, just posts pro rad-queer discourse ❎

- Berrytasticdeer, RQ ❎

- Pricklymuffinzzzzz, RQ ❎

- Randobitchyasscoiningshite, RQ ❎

- Digitallyadored, RQ ❎

- Gorgeous-rq-girlies, RQ coining blog ❎

- Cr1ng3yl0z3r, RQ ❎

- Gnarpcotics, RQ ❎

- Waitercore, RQ ❎

- Radqueer-empire, blog for a radqueer discord server ❎

- Blissfuloverdose7, RQ ❎

- Varii-corvid, coins terms ❎

- Minecraftenthusiast2882, coins terms ❎

- Rotnik-tmblr, RQ ❎

- Incestoophilia, wrote an article on incest called “keeping it in the family” 31 y/o that consistently interacts with young teenagers ❎

- Rq-boxes, RQ ❎

- Radqueerfluff, RQ ❎

- Wayofthefunkmaster, RQ ❎

- Weirdness-is-good, wayofthefunkmasters alt acc ❎

- Thedigitalwave, compares antis to transphobes, RQ ❎

- Radqueerpfps, makes flag pfps ❎

- Rq-term-search, RQ ❎

- Gluestrawbz, coins terms ❎

- Animal-creature, RQ ❎

- Sleepyeepyvoidcat, uses paid ads to promote their account(I got one on my dashboard), RQ ❎

- Dexxxma, RQ, partner of radicalclues ❎

- Sincerestkisses, RQ ❎

- Little—beetle, RQ ❎

- Qu33rjude, RQ ❎

- Russetfur1128, RQ ❎

- Rinlencoins, coining account ❎

- Jesterrq, RQ ❎

- Honeydew-wecantwo, RQ ❎

- Hunter-fox, coins RQ terms ❎

- Gamezee420, RQ ❎

- Cherishyne, RQ ❎

- R0tsm4z3, RQ ❎

- Morachivist, coins trans-race terms, refuses to say their contact stance ❎

- Hellelaplace, RQ ❎

- Luckas-rockz, RQ ❎

- Rqheadcanons, headcanons characters as harmful labels ❎

- Curiouscattohours, RQ ❎

- Rainbowfam, RQ ❎

- Acidic-nebula-raincloud, RQ ❎

- Satanlovesradqueers, term coiner ❎

- Peppermint-bloodshed92, coins terms ❎

- Spookrq, RQ ❎

- Radqueer-headspace, makes RQ content and coins terms, “”complex-contact”” ❎

- Gearbox-dollhouse, calls themself a yandere, RQ ❎

- Gearbox-dolls, alt account for gearbox-dollhouse ❎

- Bloodydollies, nsfw RQ alt account for gearbox-dollhouse ❎

- Anyolovez, RQ ❎

- Pastel-golden, RQ ❎

- Transthehorrors, coins terms, RQ ❎

- Lostbhappy, owner of RQ discord server ❎

- Rqmoodboards, RQ ❎

- Alexidentitiescoiningblog, coins terms ❎

- Radicaalkirby, RQ ❎

- Rosiesdelights, coins terms, RQ ❎

- Userboxmachine, makes RQ userboxes ❎

- Yourlocaledgysnake, RQ ❎

- Ur-transx-favs, creates RQ headcanons ❎

- Radqueerstim, makes RQ stim boards ❎

- Freaksboards, RQ stimboard acc ❎

- Internalcondom, RQ ❎

- Antirq-blocklist, RQ ❎

- Yourfaveis-transid-coded, transid head canons ❎

- Transstimland, makes RQ stimboards ❎

- Princesse-du-rose, RQ ❎

- Fungus-ID, RQ, term coiner ❎

- Theradroom, RQ confessionals ❎

- Adamssafeheaven, RQ ❎

If you notice a mistake, dm me and I’ll fix it. And again if there is someone not on here that needs to be added, please dm me. Better yet, write a brief description of them and add the emojis.

Ik they’re probably going to throw a fit about this and out themselves. So I’ll update the list in a few days.

#anti 🍓🌈#anti rq #anti radqueer #actually did #did system #did #did osdd #ramcoa #hc did #did community #dissociative identity disorder #osddid #did alter #anti radshit

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