It might seem silly, to care about socks so much. But they mean the world to me. If I shape them right, they form the body part I was meant to have all along. I can place the socks in my pants and finally feel at peace with myself.

I haven't been packing for very long, but it's already begun to feel like an extension of my own body. Like this fabric is just as much a part of me as my arms and my legs. Sometimes, when I'm not packing, I can still feel its ghost. These socks helped me regain a part of myself I've been missing my whole life, and I feel a sharp emptiness when I lose it again.

Every time I'm reminded of the presence of my packer, when I forget and then re-realize I have a penis (albeit one made of socks), it's like being hit by a wave of euphoria. There's a rush of joy, of excitement that my body doesn't just feel okay, it feels great. And there's also a quieter sense of relief, like taking a breath of fresh air after a long time suffocating under the weight of a body that never belonged to me.

I've had this discomfort for years, a gnawing pain at the knowledge that I should be different. I've had this discomfort before I even knew the words for it. I didn't know why the thought of my genitals made me want to shrivel up and disappear. I didn't know why I sometimes lay in my bed and wished I could wake up the next morning with a penis. I don't think I even knew the word dysphoria, back then. I just knew I wanted to change.

And although I haven't yet had the opportunity to make the permanent changes I want, I'm noticeably happier than before I began packing. I never before knew how it felt to feel at home in your own body, or even just to not feel like your body is your enemy.

I wish I was born in a different body, but there's nothing I can do about that now. I can, however, shape the body I want out of socks, and I am so grateful for this opportunity to feel comfortable with myself.

What do you think trans women, post op, sometimes prefer anal sex still? I know the operation isn't always the best, so do some still prefer to have anal sex, even after they have surgery?

I mean, vaginal isn't inherently better. People can still have preferences, you know?

Like, the overwhelming majority of trans women I know who have gotten genital reconstruction surgery, or who have plans to get it, are doing so to alleviate dysphoria and feel more at home in their bodies. The prospect of having a specific method of sexual activity isn't often incredibly high on the priority list.

Most trans women I know who have had that surgery do tend to primarily involve those genitals in the sex they've told me about, and I imagine it's probably the norm, but anal is still very nice. Surgery doesn't eliminate what made it an appealing option beforehand, so it would make sense that some would still prefer it, and it's sometimes seen as lower maintenance/more accessible (especially in the first while after surgery if you're worried about causing any complications, or you're shy about using lube up front for whatever reason, or you're a little gun-shy about a certain level of roughness, anal can be the safer feeling method, and the clit is still accessible during anal anyways).

when the doctor regenerates, their first instinct is almost always to comment on their new body and it’s unique features (i know these teeth, don’t like the color of my kidneys, etc etc). however when they regenerate into thirteen they make no comment on the sudden disappearance of certain… body parts. this can lead me to only 3 possible explanations:

1) the doctor does not have genitals, in any regeneration. I find this to be stupid and boring

2) the doctor has always had a dick and continues to have a dick even when they are in a more “female” presenting body. trans coded doctor ftw here but I think there’s a better explanation…

3) the doctor has had a vagina before (either always like in scenario #2 or just in certain regenerations) and therefore feels no need to comment on this bodily change.

I am a firm scenario #3 believer and it allows me to come to the obvious conclusion that the tenth doctor was rocking with a pussy. I am he/him lesbian truthing for the tenth doctor at all times

You are not in the wrong for asking to be referred to with certain pronouns, names, or gendered terms. But this is merely the more common experience for trans people.

Sometimes, we also ask that people refer to our bodies or clothes in a certain way according to our level of comfort. It's not unreasonable to ask "Hey, could you please not refer to my underwear as 'panties'? That makes me uncomfortable." The same goes for other articles of clothing or accessories.

We often ask that our bodies are talked about in neutral terms. "Don't call them breasts. Please just call it my chest." or "Please don't call my genitals X or Y. Just use neutral terms."

And all of this is totally okay! We all have different levels of comfort when it comes to our bodies, our language, or our clothing. It's okay to want to feel comfortable and safe. Keep setting boundaries unapologetically.

- Your Bigender Big Brother 💙💚

so that's why kids are "pups"? Because as a pup they're neither boy or girl or both, they're just pups? Wow, that's a very interesting kind of manner on this topic of the genitals in the A/B/O world...

Yes! Pups who generally are born male or female. After that, the secondary designation isn’t known until the eventual presentation heat/rut.

I’m not going to lie, I kind of ended up here because of some choices I made while writing a coral room, but I’m not upset with the idea. I think it’s fascinating to truly not know how you’ll present until the actual day it happens.

And in order for it to actually be a surprise, you don’t have external genitalia — other than a urethra — that would indicate what was going to happen. I think it’s actually super fascinating also because that’s how humans in the womb are — we start out with nothing, then the beginnings of AFAB genitalia, and then if you’re AMAB, things keep changing even further.

headcannon that when Logan gets really angry, like, will actually murder the next person he sees in the the most brutal way imaginable angry, he just kind of loops back around to looking stoic and emotionless, the only difference being he's eyes look like they are on fire.

description of incredible violence below the cut

of course, if someone got close enough to notice that, they would be kicked in the nuts so hard they fall off a skyscraper into the center of the earth while their body is slowly and painfully being ripped apart before they could process it.

just wanted to send in a positive message, ive been on t for a lil over a month now and i was kinda worried about bottom growth at first. ive always found my genitals gross, but i also find dicks gross, so i figured it was just a Thing id have to live with. i figured bottom growth from T would either cause no change in my feelings or make them worse, but it was a risk i was willing to take.

Oh dude. i LOVE bottom growth. i can look at those parts of myself without immediately becoming grossed out and having to look away. its SO COOL. i dont have any other changes yet so this is my favorite thing rn lmao but ohh its so cool!! ive never felt this..comfortable? in my body. Its so cool. I feel so cool.

i'm so freaking happy for you! that's literally the best thing in the world ^ _ ^

i felt the same way, it started happening very quickly and noticeably for me due to being intersex and i was just like WOW !!!! the whole time! you're right, i just. felt more comfortable in my body, i was like yeah!!! that's more right!

i'm glad you feel cool, you are cool. i'm glad you're happy with the changes you're seeing so far, that's really awesome! i'm glad you're having moments like these! ^ _ ^ very happy for you! hope to hear from you again! take care, hope ur transition is safe & good for you!

you know what *opens portal* Have Rasputians DICK Dave

a conclusion to the raspenis odyssey

Enlargen balls feels like it has so much wasted potential. Like, it's widely known that the size of an orb is directly proportional to its scrying potency, right? You could increase the potency of your everyday scrying orb, or carry a marble or shrunken full sized orb in your pocket before enlargening and using it.

It could also theoretically be casted on water droplets to have an alternative renewable source of water - potentially this could be useful to wizards more studied in transmutation than summoning.

It just. idk. Feels like it can do so much more than "haha funny testicle explosion spell", y'know?

TW: Genital Mutilation

Sometimes I think about the Vtuber who stapled her pussy shut.

For cis people, on writing trans characters, part 2

Hello there! So, my "for cis people, on writing trans characters" post got... more popular than I thought it would, and I was asked for a part 2, so here it is! Some more terrible ways of representing the transgender experience that I saw on my beloved Goodreads.

Being trans isn't a plot twist. I've yet to see a good story in which a major plot point is "PLOT TWIST: they're trans!" However, I have seen several mildly-to-severely transphobic stories that do this. It just isn't a good idea: it further links transness with deception, and it treats transgender identities as a shocking and scary thing. To be clear, I'm not talking about stories in which a character comes out as trans later on in the story, I'm talking about shit that uses a character's transness for shock value. Any book in which revealing that a character is trans would be considered a spoiler, or which has a conflict at any point that can best be described as "Surprise! My love interest/sibling/parent/murder suspect is TRANSGENDER!" falls under this category.

Being trans isn't a costume. No joke, I saw one story in which a trans girl's love interest only used her chosen name or called her "she" if she was wearing a dress. I don't like that at all. Transgender identities are not costumes. They're not drag personas or alter egos. If a character is transgender, they are transgender regardless of what they're wearing or how they're acting, and their proper pronouns, terms, and names should be used and respected at all times. (It's possible that a trans author could write a good story featuring a trans character who thinks of their pre-transition self/the version of them that they associate with their AGAB as a different person or different iteration of them, but I really would not recommend that cis people do this).

Being trans is not just about your body. Please don't reduce your trans woman to "a woman with a penis" or your trans man to "a man with breasts". The worst example of this one I saw would probably be The Art Of Being Normal by Lisa Williamson, in which a stealth trans boy comes out to his trans girl love interest by showing her his body, as if his body were the only relevant marker of his trans identity. There is so much more to transgender identities than what your body does and does not look like, and this reeks of the transphobic, borderline fetishistic focus that certain cis people have on trans people's genitals and other body parts. Remember that being transgender is first and foremost about your identity, not what body parts you happen to have. (Also, fuck The Art of Being Normal. That book, I shit you not, contained every transphobic red flag on this list, and was my inspiration for posting it in the first place. If any trans people who see this felt safer and less alone because of that book, that's absolutely wonderful, but... every single item on the list...)

So that's all, I think. If anyone's confused as to what any of the items on this list or Part 1 mean, I am more than happy to explain or provide examples-- I understand I can be a little unclear when expressing my thoughts. (And Goodreads, please don't disappoint me again. I don't think I have a part three in me.)

-Lenni

speaking on the bottom surgery thing..I too wish I was born male and am sad that science isnt in a place where I feel aesthetically comfortable with surgery but something Ive enjoyed while being on hrt (and am looking forward for the future) is bottom growth and I plan to get piercings that "mimic" what cis men have. Theres a lot that can be done..dont give up hope in finding whats right for your body!

I feel that so much x_x and same, I'm actually excited and looking forward to bottom growth too once I actually start T 💪✨ I'm hoping for the best for you as well! 🏳️‍⚧️⚧️ (I've been thinking about getting a packer or something too)

have you given any thought to how binary assigned gender works in the coralverse? (like, how would/would somebody be assigned m/f gender at birth) love your fic a lot!!!

I have! Since, going off previous asks I've done here, pre-presentation external genitalia is largely identical in pups, you'd have to go off other indications to assign gender.

Things like a blood test came to mind. Hormonal tests too, maybe. These could also both be done prior to birth hypothetically. Post birth, you could determine gender but likely not dynamic (until closer to the actual presentation).

Differences in gender would be present in similar ways like irl pre-teens, i.e., boys tend to be slightly larger, etc, and these differences would increase post-presentation. For example, a male pup who would later present alpha would look very similar to a male pup who would later present omega. A female pup who would later present alpha might be a little smaller than both of them? But these aren't hard and fast rules.

It's an interesting discussion of gender versus dynamic. Assigned gender as a pup matters far less in the a/b/o universe than dynamic post-presentation does. I wonder if that's largely because the only extreme differences between people are their dynamics.

Also, since being male or female in this universe doesn't impact whether one can reproduce, you have less of an emphasis on gender and more of an emphasis on dynamic. I'm still playing around with the idea of beta presentation and what that entails. I'm desperately trying not to write myself into a corner, as you can probably tell 😅

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Hey og anon here. If memory isn't so fucked up I think the link was to a post were OP was openly celebrating and rejoicing at the murder of Brianna Ghey, a transfem child victim of a clear hate crime, saying how ""he"" deserved it for being a disgusting moid and straight scum and a agp pedophile in the making pleasing the patriarcy and blah blah terf shit. And a some point in the thread she started going of about how not only all men are horrible and deserve to die, but also saying the same for "OSA" Women (Aka any women that isn't a pure untainted Gold Star™ Vagina x Vagina Adult Human Female™™ Lesbian™™™), So unlike most radfem, who at the barest minimun kept shut up about the case or just said that this has definitively nothing to do with their movement and that they actually support and don't wish harm on "GNC gay boys", well dear OP here's not even going to pretent she has an ounce of human enpathy for a violently murdered queer child 🙃

Btw doing a 10sec search and her current handle is literally just @biphobia-central2 so you all can gawk and take a peak at how pure bigotry from a place of someone clearly hurting and extremely bitterful looks like and also do what you consider best

Fair warning and correction though, I said in my original ask that this was a terf, but that isn't true, she's not even a radfem. This person leaves very clear that unlike most radfems and terfs, whose main fundament it's the goal of "Protecting and Uplifting all Adult Human Females no matter what" she hates with everything other and any woman that doesn't suit her stardards, to the point that not only she doesn't care about them as living beings, but openly wishes them the worst, therefore she hates the radfem movement and doesn't include herself in it. So yeah, objectively this isn't neither a terf nor a radfem, just a "Lescel" Sexist, Homophobic and Transphobic fascist.

Which- I mean, thanks for the honesty at least I guess 🗿🗿

Honestly I appreciate that more than the way that radfems pretend in a saccharine way to love all women but will attack any of them that won’t step in line with them, at least this person is honest. But also massive yikes 😬

As its pride month, heres something I wrote about how I feel as a she/they

My gender is grandmother, meaning: yea its feminine and yea it usually means i have a vagina and boobs and im okay with it, but also im so old and tired of everything including gender so its like a shrug in pink.

My gender is the mushrooms you find and everyone says theyre beautiful and pretty and cute and yes theyre those things but theres also so much more than just pretty.

My gender is when people call a ship "she" when yea you can see it as a she, but its not a woman.

My gender is a pink dress, genderless fabric dyed in a color to hold a shape of a womans body but at the end of the day its fucking fabric, it doesnt have a gender.

My gender is like a bird with eyeliner and a pink beak, it may be feminine and beautiful and youll always say she but the bird doesnt know gender, all it knows is to be.

My gender is the color pink, a beautiful shade created of red and white and possibly blue, simply one piece of the light spectrum that we can see that creates the image of everything we deem as feminine, motherly, kind, and of women, however it is not a woman itself. It is one piece of a huge spectrum of light and to see it as feminine is only a small part of what it actually is.

A rose doesnt grow that way to be a girlie object, it simply grows that way and lets the people around it be happy giving it meaning. Only the rose knows its true meaning and what it is.