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mqsi · 1 year

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hii first of all i love ur writing it’s literally so good . second i wanted to request an angst/mentions of smut where pedri is with y/n but in a friends with benefits type of way and she finally confesses she loves him but she soon finds out he doesn’t feel the same. tysm <3333

thank you so much, it means a lot!🫶🏻I honestly surprised myself with this one, made it pretty depressing and definietly not how I imagine Pedri to be but of well it’s all fiction anyways. Hope you enjoy it.

warning: pedri being an asshole

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Wednesday,5pm

When are you free this week?

You looked at your phone while finishing some work stuff. It was Pedri, which made you smile.

Friday,my house or yours?

I’ll come over at 9

You didn’t reply but smiled at the thought of Pedri’s lips on your body.

Friday 9:15pm

You heard the doorbell ring and practically jumped to open it. It was raining outside so you let Pedri in quickly, closing the door behind you. He stepped closer to you, pulling a strand of hair behind your ear. You looked him in the eyes,eyes you fell in love with. You were hoping tonight he tells you he fell in love with yours.

“I missed you” he said

I missed your body

“I missed you too” you replied

I missed talking to you

You put your arms around his neck, pulling him in for a kiss. He grabbed your waist, leading you back to your bedroom. Pedri pushed you down, hovering over you. His hands were quick to remove your shirt, leaving you exposed to him.

“Pedri” you said softly, tugging on his shirt as well. He took it off, positioning his body lower and taking your shorts off in the process. Pushing your panties aside he was met with your wetness and his mouth curved into a smile, knowing he bearly touched you.

He began circling your clit with his fingers, leaning in to kiss you. Your breathing accelarated, you were soon on the verge of an orgasm, the cursed words leaving your mouth.

“Fuck I love you”

His hand pulled away in seconds making you open your eyes to look at him.

“Why did you-“

“What did you just say?” he asked, his gaze piercing trough you.

“I didn’t mean to sat that Pedri but-“

“Is it true tho?” He cut you off again “Have you fallen in love with me?”

Your silence was enough of an answer for him. He got up, pulling his shirt on,looking at you, almost like he was sorry.

“I have to leave,forget about everything. It can’t work like this” he said before disappearing out of the room. The front door slammed shut.

Friday 10:23pm

You were left there in silence, almost fully naked, hugging the white sheets on your bed. Rain was thumping against the window but the only thing you could hear were Pedri’s words echoing in your head.

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a/n: I was listening to kissland by the weeknd (slowed) while writing this

#pedri #pedri gonzalez #pedri x reader #pedri angst #pedri x you #pedri blurb #pedri x y/n #pedri fanfic #pedri one shot #pedri imagine #pedri smut #pedri barça #footballer imagine #x reader #angst #fuck this is depressing #i actually really like how this came out

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thesamplemotion · 6 months

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introduction to ".world"

so basically, uh, what if 1984 but in the future. thank you for reading.

no, but seriously, i'm sorta trying to work on this world/story/concept album thing called ".world" at the moment, and i think it's pretty cool.

the basic premise is that, after the chaos and pandemonium caused by the fallout of climate change in the late 20th century, the party for visionary progress, or just the visionaries, take over first london, then all of the uk, progressing on to take the whole world, including lunar and martian colonies, disavowing freedom of choice as the negative force that caused all this destruction, and emphasising that society can only return to greatness and remain great if people "value hard work".

citizens of "visionary republics" have mandated bedtimes. they are monitored at each turn. the poking fingers of the regime, the stewards, stalk their every move in public, ready to pounce at the first sign of noncompliance, and send these "selfish, inharmonious elements" to something called "the wicked nothing". you can be blacklisted for so much as lingering, or looking up at the sky.

imagination and humanity collapse. people become their own worst enemies, tearing themselves to shreds in order to avoid the wicked nothing, the singularity of this tactic of self-destruction.

there are no heroes. there is no time. there is only progress. and compliance. and efficiency. and stress. and strain.

and the visionite calamity.

and the end times thereafter.

so, uh, yeah, very fun and cheery this one. more concepts to come later on, when i have actually finalised them.

thanks for reading all this! :D

#why am i so pretentious #fuck this is depressing #worldbuilding #.world concepts #help me what the fuck am i doing on this platform

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marielle-heller · 3 months

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it really is crazyyyyy how much January they managed to fit into this January

#make it fucking stop i'm depressed

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edains · 3 months

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Rick Riordan constantly trashing the movies for not sticking to his books then releasing a show in which he rewrites everything and loses the spirit of the books entirely

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#pjo #pjo show crit #rr crit #im throwing down for the films ok #they were a horrible adaptation but they were entertaining #watching the kid actors in the show with garbage writing & directing is depressing #rebekah rambles #*actors doing fucking amazing btw

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moonlightmagical · 3 months

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the “pressure is kind of my thing” quote from riz being a reply to his mother as he tries to keep a smile on his face as his mom explains their bleak financial situation and how a perfect gpa still probably won’t be enough to get into higher education in the face of a world in which knowledge is paywalled is another type of heartbreaking

#this season is making me so fucking sad and it’s only the second episode #i’m getting episode 2ed but in the most depressing way possible #fantasy high #dimension 20 #fantasy high junior year #fh #fhjy #d20 #riz gukgak

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injuredsoullessfrog · 5 months

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#vent post #vent blog #ventcore #vent #mentally fucked #self h@te #s3lf hate #mentally drained #kinda depressing #tw depressing stuff #s3lf harn #self h@rm #tw depressing thoughts #tw selfhate #tw self destructive behavior #feeling sad #self destruction

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vannahrt · 2 months

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Had a cursed ass valentines day so take some angst

#its not a Vannah comic unless it gets depressing as fuck #save her.#vannahrt #hazbin hotel #guitarspear #lute hazbin hotel #adam hazbin hotel #luteadam #adamlute #lute x adam #adam x lute

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morgansrecoveringig · 6 months

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My problem is me. I can’t socialize for shit. All i do is self sabotage. There is something wrong with me that no one can fix.

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rainywhispersblog · 4 months

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givemewallywestorgivemedeath · 4 months

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The funny thing about the PJO cabin system is that everyone's always all 'oh the twelve' this and 'the twelve' that but that's absolutely not even remotely accurate. To start, right off the bat it's thirteen, not twelve, because they don't count Hades. But not really because before Percy, there were no big three kids, so we're down to ten active cabins already but it's actually eight because Artemis and Hera don't make demigods.

And of those eight, Mr. D is stuck at camp (thus not really making new demigods all that often) and his only two kids don't even sleep in a cabin, they sleep in the Big House with him.

So, pre-Percy, there are seven active cabins at Camp Half-Blood:

Glee club, the Jocks, the Nerds, the Geeks, the Farmers, the 'Sketchy Kids' and the Popular Kids.

Or, in other words, the Apollo, Ares, Athena, Hephaestus, Demeter, Hermes (and the unclaimed kids) and Aphrodite cabins.

What's cool is that you can already see the cabin dynamics in the show. For example, the Athena cabin allies with the Hermes cabin for the numbers. The Hermes kids plus all the unclaimed kids? It's the biggest cabin in the camp by far. It's a battle strategy. Luke and Annabeth's close relationship is just the cherry on top for Annabeth. It'll be really cool to see how the show develops the differences in the cabins during the series.

#pjo tv show #pjo series #if i remember correctly it's the Hermes cabin then Ares and Apollo in terms of numbers. Aphrodite would probably be next.#but the Athena Hephaestus and Demeter cabins were always under twelve kids.#they state exact numbers in one book... and if you don't want spoilers turn back now #but after the war theres only three Hephaestus kids left so like.... the numbers go real fucking low #the entire camp population plummeta #iactually really fucking depressing watching this camp filled with small tiny children knowing that only a very small fraction of themlive

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vixensofdeath · 7 months

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the urge to die and become nothing becomes stronger every day

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inkskinned · 8 months

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they want to talk about mental illness and acceptance and how everyone is a little ocd it's cute and quirky and their "intrusive thoughts" are about cutting their hair off and you say yours are about taking a razorblade to your eye and they say ew can you not and everyone is a little adhd sometimes! except if you're late it's a personality flaw and it's because you are careless and cruel (and someone else with adhd mentions they can be on time, so why can't you?) and it's not an eating disorder if it's girl dinner! it's not mania if it's girl math! what do you mean you blew all of your savings on nonrefundable plane tickets for a plane you didn't even end up taking. what do you mean that you are afraid of eating. get over it. they roll their little lips up into a sneer. can you not, like, trauma dump?

they love it on them they like to wear pieces of your suffering like jewels so that it hangs off their tongue in rapiers. they are allowed to arm-chair diagnose and cherrypick their poisons but you can't ever miss too many showers because that's, like, "fuckken gross?" so anyone mean is a narcissist. so anyone with visual tics is clearly faking it and is so cringe. but they get to scream and hit customer service employees because well, i got overwhelmed.

you keep seeing these posts about how people pleasers are "inherently manipulative" and how it's totally unfair behavior. but you are a people pleaser, you have an ingrained fawn response. in the comments, you have typed and deleted the words just because it is technically true does not make it an empathetic or kind reading of the reaction about one million times. it is technically accurate, after all. you think of catholic guilt, how sometimes you feel bad when doing a good deed because the sense of pride you get from acting kind - that pride is a sin. the word "manipulation" is not without bias or stigma attached to it. many people with the fawn response are direct victims of someone who was malignantly manipulative. calling the victims manipulative too is an unfair and unkind reading of the situation. it would be better and more empathetic to say it is safety-seeking or connection-seeking behavior. yes, it can be toxic. no, in general it is not intended to be toxic. there is no reason to make mentally ill people feel worse for what we undergo.

you type why is everyone so quick to turn on someone showing clear signs of trauma but you already know the fucking answer, so what's the point of bothering. you kind of hate those this is what anxiety looks like! infographics because at this point you're so good at white-knuckling through a severe panic attack that people just think you're stoic. even people who know the situation sometimes comment you just don't seem depressed. and you're not a 9 year old white kid so there's no way you're on the spectrum, you're not obsessed with trains and you were never a good mathematician. okay then.

mental illness is trending. in 2012 tumblr said don't romanticize our symptoms but to be fair tiktok didn't exist yet. there's these series of videos where someone pretends to be "the most boring person on earth" and is just being a normal fucking person, which makes your skin crawl, because that probably means you are boring. your friend reads aloud a profile from tinder - no depressed bitches i fucking hate that mental illness crap. your father says that medication never actually works.

you still haven't told your grandmother that you're in therapy. despite everything (and the fact it's helping): you just don't want her to see you differently.

#writeblr #warm up #to be clear let me state again: i think you should id however you fucking want if it helps you seek peace #but there is a HUGE difference between being like '.... im undiagnosed but i think i might be X'#and a person who is like ''omg my intrusive thoughts made me buy a birkin!!!''#babe mine made me throw up bc they disgusted me so much <3 #mine made me hurt myself evenly. even when i wanted to stop. i have had to put my hand on the stove MULTIPLE TIMES #and again i'd rather have 10000 people get help for something they don't need help for #than have 1 kid NOT get help #but there has GOTTTTT to be a middle ground here #bc at this point it isn't ''raising awareness''#it's . fucking misinformation. and ''what this picture says about you!!!!!''#& yes! im mostly talkin about ppl who are actually disgusted and offended by signs of mental illness #but use it to defend THEIR actions #like babe you hate when kids start yelling in the walmart? but you YOuRSELF can yell?#you are depressed so it's fine you were cruel to your spouse?#but if your spouse spends too much time in bed she's a lazy fuck?#your partner needs to do everything for you bc of your history in trauma? but when SHE has needs she's being clingy and gross?#HUGE difference here between whom i think most of my followers are btw. like #all it takes is fucking anyyyy empathy or kindness . like.#anyway it's hard to explain im hoping we all know the person im talking about lol

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be-queer-do-arson · 9 months

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I love that scene in tkm where Wymack tells Neil he's going to make him vice captain the next year and Neil tries to politely decline (on the grounds that he'll be dead by then) and Wymack is literally like too bad bitch. This isn't a democracy and i say you're the next captain so figure it out

#neil didnt tell wymack why he's reluctant to accept of course #but his internal monologue was somehow simultaneously depressing and funny as fuck #neil: you should pick up an extra striker for next year #wymack: why 🤨#neil: *sweating* no reason #aftg #neil josten #all for the game #the kings men #coach wymack #wymack

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ilovethebittertaste · 2 months

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Behind every mentally ill person

Is a secret tumbler account they vent on to strangers

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im-nothing-and-n0body · 7 months

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I’m fucking miserable and I have no fucking idea how to fix it cause everything feels impossible

#mentally fucked #tw depressing stuff #mental illness #sorry for being depressing #i’m so tired

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k-i-l-l-e-r-b-e-e-6-9 · 11 months

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#me #desire #loved #misanthropy #depression #alone #yin yang #anxiety #sad #jeepers creepers #text #me as fuck

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