ilovethebittertaste
Rana
TW eightteennot mentally well block don’t report
146 posts
Don't wanna be here? Send us removal request.
Last Seen Blogs
hnyu96-blog-blog
魍者之语
pghpenswags
Pittsburgh Penguins Wags
Text
I wish I could stay my morning skinny all day but I take a sip of water and I immediately start bloating
(I have unknown stomach problems)
#low cal restriction#pro recovery#i wanna lose weight#i will reach my ugw#sorry for being depressing#tw self destructive behavior#i hate everything#i wanna be tiny#depressing quotes#ed not sherran#ed not ed sheeran#ed not sheeren#tw ed diet#ed behaviour tw#tw restrictive ed#ed vent#ed meals#@na trigger#@na memes#@n0r3xia#@na tips#@nor3×14#@tw edd#@na vent#@na rules#@nor3xia
14 notes
·
View notes
Text
Suicide is not an if, it is a when, it is a guaranteed way out. Death is inevitable, and for me it will be by suicide, by my own hand, when the time is right. I’m not scared of death at all anymore, I beg for it.
608 notes
·
View notes
Text
Having a wide rib cage is a humbling experience
Cause even though my stomach is flat(partially) I still look disgusting in the front
#im going to kms#im so close#i wanna lose weight#i wanna be tiny#i wanna be perfect#im just a girl#disordered eating thoughts#ed meals#low cal restriction#pro recovery#i will reach my ugw#sorry for being depressing#tw self destructive behavior#i hate everything#depressing quotes#tw disordered eating#ed bullshit#ed disorder#i want to disappear#why do i do this to myself#@na memes#@nor3×14#@tw edd#@na vent#@na trigger#@na rules#@nor3xia#@na buddy#@n0r3xia#@na tips
22 notes
·
View notes
Text
I hate when people say suicide is the easy way out, they have no idea the pain you must be in to want to end your own life
8K notes
·
View notes
Text
Thought about eating something for dinner but then a really skinny girl came on my fyp
I’m not hungry anymore
#ed meals#low cal restriction#pro recovery#i wanna lose weight#i will reach my ugw#i wanna be tiny#i hate everything#sorry for being depressing#tw self destructive behavior#depressing quotes#i want to cvt#i wanna be perfect#i want to ⭐️ve#i want to get worse#@na memes#@nor3×14#@tw edd#@na vent#@na rules#@nor3xia#@na buddy#@n0r3xia#@na trigger#@na tips#@na motivation#i want to be pretty#i hate my brain#i have a problem#mentally fucked#ed vent
30 notes
·
View notes
Text
My problem is me. I can’t socialize for shit. All i do is self sabotage. There is something wrong with me that no one can fix.
6K notes
·
View notes
Text
I used to want hugs when I was at my worst I wanted comfort when I couldn’t get out of bed
The thought of someone trying to comfort me now when I’m “fine” is disgusting I cringe away from any type of comfort given to me cause why are u doing it now when i needed it then all I needed was some help n maybe I would’ve turned out better
But I guess we’ll never know
#ed meals#low cal restriction#depressiv#tw depressing thoughts#tw self destruction#tw depressing stuff#tw depression#depressing quotes#sorry for being depressing#kinda depressing#depressing shit#self destruction#secret account#tw self sabotage#tw self destructive behavior#self h@rm#self loathing#i hate my brain
46 notes
·
View notes
Text
What if I were to kms cause of this
I can’t even think of this ill literally break
#i miss my old life#i miss my old friends#tw self destructive behavior#tw depressing thoughts#tw self destruction#tw depressing stuff#tw depression#depressing quotes#sorry for being depressing#kinda depressing#depressing shit#secret account#tw self sabotage#ed meals#low cal restriction#pro recovery#self h@rm#self loathing#i hate it here#i hate my body#i hate schoooool#i hate my brain
16 notes
·
View notes
Text
when you were bullied your entire life for your appearance, even if you know now that appearance doesn't matter, it's still hard to scratch off the internal scar of being disgusting and unwanted
464 notes
·
View notes
Text
I miss my worse self sm
#depressiv#tw depressing thoughts#tw self destruction#tw depressing stuff#tw depression#depressing quotes#sorry for being depressing#kinda depressing#depressing shit#self destruction#ed meals#low cal restriction#pro recovery#i wanna lose weight#i will reach my ugw#i wanna be tiny#i hate everything#tw self destructive behavior#secret account#tw self sabotage#@na memes#@nor3×14#@na vent#vent post#ed vent#disordered eating thoughts#tw disordered eating#self loathing#ed not sherran#ed not ed sheeran
11 notes
·
View notes
Text
Sleeping all day so you can avoid your family as much as possible is a really shitty feeling
#i hate it here#i hate my brain#im sorry#im exhausted#ed vent#@na vent#vent post#vent#i just wanna sleep#actually avoidant#avoiding#depressiv#tw depressing thoughts#tw self destruction#tw depressing stuff#tw depression#depressing quotes#sorry for being depressing#kinda depressing#depressing shit#self destruction#secret account#tw self sabotage#tw self destructive behavior#self loathing#i hate this#i hate everything
28 notes
·
View notes
Text
I feel like my mom is purposely putting my life on hold so I can stay with her
I’ve been asking for YEARS if I could get my permit n it always “let’s wait until next month “I’m 18 now n can get my drivers license but she won’t get insurance because she’s broke n I get it but I just witnessed her spend sm fucking money on things we don’t need
And then Ive been trying to get a job by her work so I can get ride cause where I live everybody speaks Spanish n I can’t speak it so I have to work somewhere near her but she keeps avoiding the whole thing
I’ve had a lot of mental issues ever since I was 13 n it’s so hard for her to set up therapy appointments for me as I was a minor I couldn’t sign myself up n she’s always taking about me getting more into therapy but she never does anything to actually start I want to get back in cause I need medicine but I have no clue how to do it n need her help
she witnessed me being severely depressed a couple weeks ago n couldn’t get out of bed n she never did anything to get me help she just avoids it like always
My whole fucking family hates me for being the favorite but everyone treats her like shit so I stand up for her n everyone hates me for it
what makes me feel worse is everyone makes her the enemy of my family for no fucking reason so I feel like I have to be with her or she’s gonna break but I really just want to move on with my life I feel like I’m trapped like we’re so dependent on each other and I hate it cause I want to go and live my life cause I’ve waisted YEARS of my life rotting I’m 18 now I just want to live n she doesn’t get it
#kinda depressing#sorry for being depressing#tw depressing thoughts#tw depressing stuff#tw depression#depressing quotes#depressing shit#depressiv#tw self destructive behavior#tw self destruction#self destruction#secret account#tw self sabotage#i want to be okay#move on#self h@rm#self loathing
12 notes
·
View notes
Text
it’s easier to f@st at night for me
a year ago i used to sleep in until 4 pm sometimes earlier and i all i would eat was something i baked the night before n dinner
and i lost a lot of weight n my body never looked better it was such a good time
but then i had to fix my schedule cause although sleeping in helps me lose weight it made my depression horrible
and now im sleeping in again
so i have to pick n choose
do i want to fix my schedule so i don’t kms or do i worsen my sleeping schedule to lose weight
it’s a tough choice ig (i’m gonna worsen my sleeping schedule)
#i want to ⭐️ve#i wanna lose weight#tw self destructive behavior#tw depressing thoughts#tw self destruction#ed vent#ed not sherran#tw ed diet#ana bllog#tw ana diary#ana trigger#4norexi4#ed meals#low cal restriction#pro recovery#ed behaviour tw#ed bullshit#ed disorder#idk what else to tag#ed not ed sheeran#ed not sheeren#tw restrictive ed#i hate everything#@nor3×14#@tw edd#@na vent#@nor3xia#@na trigger
32 notes
·
View notes
Text
i hate how i’m scared to get worse but i also want to get worse
#ed vent#ed not sherran#tw ed diet#ana bllog#tw ana diary#ana trigger#4norexi4#ed meals#low cal restriction#pro recovery#i want to ⭐️ve#tw self destructive behavior#tw depressing thoughts#tw self destruction#tw depressing stuff#depressing quotes#sorry for being depressing#kinda depressing#depressing shit#self destruction#i wanna lose weight#secret account#tw self sabotage#self h@rm#self loathing#i hate my body#i hate my brain
147 notes
·
View notes
Text
To the 494 ppl following me
We all need to get therapy asap
#we’re all doomed#but love y’all#ed vent#ed not sherran#tw ed diet#ana bllog#tw ana diary#ana trigger#4norexi4#ed meals#low cal restriction#pro recovery#i want to ⭐️ve#ed behaviour tw#ed bullshit#i wanna lose weight#i wanna be skinnier#@na memes#@nor3×14#@tw edd#tw depressing thoughts#tw depressing stuff#depressing quotes#sorry for being depressing#low cal diet#kinda depressing#depressing shit#tw self destructive behavior#tw self destruction#self destruction
133 notes
·
View notes
Text
I don’t think I’m gaining weight cause my collarbones look skinny but I’m gonna get my period soon an it’s cause me to bloat n I feel so fucking disgusting with my body
#ed vent#ed not sherran#tw ed diet#ana bllog#tw ana diary#ana trigger#4norexi4#ed meals#low cal restriction#pro recovery#periods suck#tw self destructive behavior#i want to ⭐️ve#i wanna lose weight#i wanna be skinnier#i wanna ⭐️ve#i will reach my ugw#i wanna be tiny#i want to be skinnier#i wanna be perfect#tw depressing thoughts#ed behaviour tw#@na vent#vent post#vent#ed bullshit#ed not ed sheeran
22 notes
·
View notes
Text
Can someone please give me tips on how to stop over eating
I’m not binging I just tend to snack a lot while I’m making my meal
Don’t give me me@nsp0 I hate that shit I just want some advice pls
Be kind🙏🏻🙏🏻
#help a girl out#i want to get worse#i want to be pretty#i wanna ⭐️ve#i want to ⭐️ve#i wanna lose weight#i wanna be skinnier#i will reach my ugw#ed bullshit#ed vent#ed not sherran#tw ed diet#ana bllog#tw ana diary#ana trigger#4norexi4#ed meals#low cal restriction#pro recovery#overeating#i’m disgusting#i hate my brain#i hate my body#@na vent#vent#tw vent
77 notes
·
View notes