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cluescorner · 3 months

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Randomized Robins AU - Ages + Worst Trait Exercise:

Steph (25):

Says her worst trait is her murderous rages (she is exaggerating for dramatic/comedic effect, she’s killed 3 people tops and for very good reason)

Thinks her worst trait is her spitefulness (one of the few traits she definitely got from her father + one that prevents her from fixing her relationships and living her best possible life. She’ll refuse to interact with someone she dearly loves after an argument (happens significantly less after Tim’s death) or will say things she knows are hurtful just for the sake of having the last word. This trait will worsen in some ways as the list of people who have wronged her and those she loves grows, but will also ease up as she matures and realizes the harm it’s doing to her relationships with those she loves most.)

Her worst trait really is her spitefulness

Cass (26)

Says her worst trait is her self-righteousness (she believes that her goals are righteous and, as a result, she is righteous. Cass becomes very defensive whenever someone questions the mission and often does not second-guess herself. This is a trait she only develops later in life as she grows closer to Bruce/learns to understand herself more/starts to love herself more. But she knows she isn’t perfect and when somebody she trusts criticizes something she is doing she is willing to listen. She just usually isn’t the one to START the introspection.)

Thinks her worst trait is her self-righteousness.

Her worst trait actually is her obsessiveness (she gets it from Bruce and, while not as bad as him, she will easily become preoccupied with her night-life and the mission if someone isn’t there to pull her back. She will do this to the point of self-destruction and it hurts her relationships with the people she loves, especially Steph.)

Tim (24)

Says his worst trait is his spitefulness (he actively rejects the idea of mending his relationships with the older members of the family and this causes him to also lack good relationships with the younger ones)

Thinks his worst trait is his obsessiveness (similar to Cass, if he gets fixated on a task or idea he will neglect everything else in his life in order to dedicate more time to it. Unlike Cass, he will almost never be dragged away from it unless Pierrot snatches control of the body and forces them to take care of themself.)

His worst trait actually is how manipulative he is (the KING of guilt-tripping and using people’s emotions against them. He’ll do whatever he needs to do to get what he wants, he’s not above crocodile tears. And he will do it to whoever he needs (or wants) to with little care for how his actions impact others.)

Pierrot (Insists: “Age doesn’t apply to me! And even if it did, I'd probably be the oldest. Or the youngest! I’d never be a middle child, though.” Mental assessments by the Bats have put him around 21, with a margin of error of 3 years. Pierrot has called this “blatant character assassination by my eternal rival!”)

Says his worst trait is that he is an irredeemable psychopath without any regard for the wellbeing of others (this is a lie and everyone who's important to him understands this).

Thinks his worst trait is his parasitic nature (he literally would not exist had Tim not suffered the way he did. Plus he is a living reminder of one of the worst things that happened to many of his loved ones. He is a parasite injected into a functional person's body and contributes to his continued suffering. This is also a largely incorrect judgement of himself, caused by his actual worst trait.)

His worst trait actually is his limited sense of self (he doesn’t really know who he is outside of ‘inheritor to the legacy of the Joker (a man he despises yet also views as a father)’ and ‘chip in Tim’s brain that became sentient’. He slowly develops an identity over the course of his life and relationships with other people, but he lacks the foundations of identity that most people have. Pierrot will often almost become a caricature of himself and what others perceive him to be because it's the only person he knows how to be. This causes wild swings in how he behaves and relates to others, sometimes to the detriment of himself and others.)

Dick (17)

Says his worst trait is his clinginess (he is a very extraverted person who likes to be around others, which mixed with his fear of abandonment after his parents died means that if he goes a few days without seeing/talking to a friend he will get very anxious.)

Thinks his worst trait is his anger issues (he gets ticked off very easily and will explode on people. He’s kind at his core and is usually very nice, but he has a temper that can escalate significantly. Spoiler (and later Twist) help him channel this anger into something positive.)

His worst trait actually is his anger issues.

Barbara (18)

Says her worst trait is her disability (internalized ableism, she thinks of herself as less valuable than the other Bats because she cannot be out there in the capes like they can. She will grow out of this as she matures and as she learns how invaluable her support for the team is.)

Thinks her worst trait is her disability

Her worst trait actually is her overly-independent nature (In an attempt to overcompensate for everything she can no longer do, she has resolved to do literally everything that she possibly can without any help from others. This results in many instances where she either takes on too much and winds up not being able to fully realize any of her tasks or where she makes her life and the lives of others significantly harder by refusing help when offered/not asking for it when she needs it.)

Damian (16)

Says his worst trait is his perfectionism (he is overly critical of both himself and others, taking any flaw or problem and amplifying it to an absurd degree. This is due in part to his life with the LoA (where even a brief misstep could lead to death), in part to how others treated him initially as Spoiler (any flaw was fixated on and used as a reason to either mistrust him or portray him as unworthy of the mantle), and in part due to the fact that he is Bruce’s son (the only person with worse perfectionism problems than Damian). Gradually, Damian has improved in this regard but it’s still a massive barrier to both his own happiness and his relationships with others.)

Thinks his worst trait is his perfectionism

His worst trait actually is his perfectionism

Duke (16)

Says his worst trait is his definitely-real secret evil side (says this as a ‘my dad is a villain so who knows??’ joke)

Thinks his worst trait is his impulsivity in his words (Sometimes he will crack a joke or say a remark without thinking it through, leading to a LOT of hurt feelings and drama. He’ll say something without thinking it through and wind up seeming insensitive. This isn’t done because of malice, rather because Duke is someone who’s quick to act and speak. But while the mantle of Insight and his awakening powers have helped him with his actions, they do not always help with his loose tongue. As such, Duke gains an unfair reputation in the media as an instigator and will accidentally cause family drama through what he says.)

His worst trait actually is his impulsivity in his words

Jason (14)

Says his worst trait is his bad manners (he grew up on the streets and has no idea how rich-people society works, which he’s pretty insecure about considering he’s now the youngest kid of Bruce freaking Wayne).

Thinks his worst trait is his reactiveness (Jason never got the privilege of planning ahead for various events in his life, so he instead needed to rely on being swift and harsh in how he could react to situations. It’s saved his life on multiple occasions and helps significantly in his role as Spoiler, but it can also lead to extreme overreactions (accidentally causing kidnapping scare after Jason ran away following a fight with Dick) and a struggle to plan things out ahead of time. As he grows more secure in his place in the family and in life, this trait will lessen but never fully dissipate.)

His worst trait actually is his reactiveness

#stephanie brown #cassandra cain #tim drake #dick grayson #barbara gordon #damian wayne #duke thomas #jason todd #batfamily #randomizedrobinsau #I'm debating whether I should tag this with the Joker Junior tag and those related to it for Pierrot #because like...it's not quite that. but it's also very close to that and is the direct result of that.#but Pierrot would fucking HATE to be tagged as that and sees it as an insult to his identity...which he already has problems with #so I don't think I'm gonna #anyways lmao I am totally projecting my younger self onto Barbara. How could I not? She's literally the reason I view my disability #the way that I do and she actively improved my mental health just by existing and saying some of the shit she did when I was in the #stages of accepting my own disability. So yeah I am projecting a lot onto her because I love her and see myself in her.#I'm mostly basing these characterizations on my favorite versions of them (ie Red Robin 2009 Tim and Birds of Prey Barbara).#so I'm taking the traits I like/think fit in this AU and discarding what I think either is bad or doesn't fit or if I just don't like it.#Damian's 'murder gremlin who is a meanie on purpose because he is a meanie' is entirely unappealing to me and also does not fit this AU #I prefer him when he's portrayed as a sympathetic kid (who is still an asshole) and not a demon child. So that's what I'm using.#same with Talia's 'abusive mother who is totally on-board with all of her father's bullshit and will kill someone for no reason' version #I have read enough comics to know what I like/what is most important and what I don't like/what is #BLATANT CHARACTER ASSASSINATION GRANT MORRISON YOU FUCK YOU SET TALIA BACK SO FUCKING FAR #I also decided to outline their WORST traits because I already know what I like about these characters/their best traits.#most people do. But what was a greater challenge was finding what would make their lives and those of others worse.#what would I hate about this person if I knew them IRL? What would I first suggest they get therapy for? What hurts them and why?#I found these questions really interesting in the context of this AU where some people are forced into completely different roles #the says/thinks/is was inspired by trying to answer that question for myself. I say my worst trait is my impulsiveness but when #I asked others in my life they answered 'oh so you said your weird thing where you don't ask for help right?'

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transfemswagbracket · 1 year

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are people really mad about team rocket winning because its "just going oh gender!" because that is not true. vivian is canon trans but meowth was for nearly a decade voiced by a trans woman (maddie blaustein) that credited the experience to part of why she was able to come out! a significant amount of the votes towards team rocket will be a result of this (and the common man in a dress jokes around james, something that while intended as just a repeated punchline is commonly reclaimed by trans fans.)

YEAH no absolutely, couldn't have said it better myself

#i think every single 'fanon' transfem on this bracket deserves their spot and most have significant transfem readings #my friend's whole essay about the transfem coding in tavroses story #anne's 'I think the reason I don't want a new look is because I'm finally happy with who I see in the mirror right now'#hunter's story about being controlled for so long and eventually being able to escape that and reclaim their own identity #marco being genuinely intended to be a trans girl before disney said no #june's complicated feelings about having to grow up into her father's ideal of a Man and hating it for reasons she doesn't understand #mob apparently really envying a canon female character and wanting to be like her (taken from my spreadsheet ive never seen mp100 LOL)#hornet being the only gendered vessel and being called 'the gendered child'#jenny picking her name and wanting to be seen as a girl and hating her body and her old name #miku's general existence as an icon for all trans people #team rocket's constant crossdressing and meowth's voice actor #even the sillier ones or the ones that i don't understand cuz i'm not familiar with the source are like... who cares! this is just for fun!#transfemswagbracket #qna

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timbourinedrake · 2 years

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Reading Batman: Son of the demon and crying over what we could've had,,,,,,they were so happy together,,,,,

And then getting absolutely devastated by these panels

I will never emotionally recover

#I hate Morrison. I will never forgive them for retconning Damians conception from this #Yeah Talia was wrong for telling Bruce she miscarried but she's clearly devastated by having to do it #and just the tragedy of them both wanting a happy life together and it not working #because batman was formed to stop children from having to lose their parents #but the tragic part is that by being batman bruce is putting his own child at risk of the exact thing he's trying to stop #Bruce knows that and is willing to give it up for his child and Talia knows it #and she's willing to give up her own happiness and chance at a family just to keep Batman existing #i'm not crying your crying #this comic always gets me sobbing i only went back to reread so i could collect these panels to reference for my animatic #also this is basically all the important brutalia moments from the comic so i hope this is helpful to people who haven't read it before #batman #batman son of the demon #talia al ghul #bruce wayne #ra's al ghul #dc comics #dc #tw miscarriage

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azol-otl · 2 years

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Random Jason Hijinks I either wish would happen someday or find amusing to think about.

Rose and Jason break Eddie out of hell and steal his soul back from Neron. Jaime is dragged along by Rose because he and Eddie were “friends a few reboots ago”. Jason asked Roy who sent him Connor who is suffering™.

Pre-Red Hood Jason and Pre-Green Arrow Connor first meet up back when Jason was part of the All-Caste hunting a demon. It’s a one-shot adventure and the things you have to know are:

a) this is before Jason’s growth spurt so he’s over a head shorter than Connor.

b) Connor isn’t a cape so excuse him for not understanding demons and fucking up hilariously a few times.

c) When Jason tries to kill the demon who is possessing the human, he and Connor fight about it. The fight ends when the demon explodes out of the person like the Pus of Man from Dark Souls 3.

d) Talia is the one who finds and picks up Jason from the adventure (Connor thinks she’s his mom and Jason just didn’t inherit the melanin) and is also the one who gives Connor contact information for Jason because she wants him to have some sort of friend.

e) They never actually learned the other’s name so anytime they’d hear about Red Hood or Green Arrow they literally don’t know it’s that guy they met as teenagers.

Jason decides to actually dust off his mystic training when Dick walks in and Jason gets hit with so many bad vibes he’s genuinely worried something is wrong with Dick.

Jason: “Did they not fix the Brother Blood mind control thing fully? Did Raven miss something? Isn’t Dick friends with a million people? How have they all missed this????”

It ends with bringing Danny Chase back to life and the only person remotely happy about it is Jason and even that’s a stretch.

Rose, why are you part of the Wild Hunt?!!!

What do you mean Biz got taken by the fae?!

Roy, why is this werewolf saying he’s your husband?!

Eddie, why didn’t you tell me you were a prince of hell? What do you mean that one of Trigon’s sons is buried in Gotham?!!! No wait, you still haven’t told me how you’re a prince of hell!

Jason and Talia's road trip where Jason comes to the uncomfortable realization that he views Talia as a mother/aunt figure.

Bonus Artemis suffering Jason’s Mom Has it Going On.

Jason gets a new dog named Ellie and he loves her and Dog very much. What do you mean she’s a Blue Lantern!?

Ellie is short for Elpis and she’s absolutely Hope Corgi.

Roy finds out that he has a whole-ass checking account under one of his aliases that he never knew about. Turns out Jason created it for him years ago and Roy’s actually under W.E. employed as an independent contractor and he’s been making 6 figures for years because Jason never bothered telling anyone that he still owns Wayne R&D.

Jason slowly but surely claims Park Row and the surrounding areas as his territory. It has the unforeseen consequence of magical folk moving into the neighborhood because Gotham is a nightmare to live in normally, Magic Gotham is even worse and the only people who can survive are big hitters like Blood, Zatanna, and Ivy or small fries like the kitchen witch near Leslie’s. Welcome to the big leagues, Jason.

Jason keeps getting mistaken for Jason Blood and it is annoying. One day some demon hunters threw something at Jason and did anyone know Jason used to be in heaven because he sure didn’t and these angel wings are a fucking nightmare.

Rose busts a gut laughing because she somehow became friends with the least demon-y demon Eddie and Jason as an angel.

Jason, Ivy, Sideways, and Impulse (Impulse voice: “Why am I even here?”) vs the Madness Wavelength in Arkham.

Jason kills Joker and finds out that he cannot. Not as in “He doesn’t die” or “There will be a new one” but a secret third option, “The universe literally resets the day every time he’s killed.” Instead of being a tragedy, it becomes a comedy as killing Joker slowly becomes Jason’s go-to when shit goes wrong/killing him is good stress relief. Stephanie discovers what happens because she’s had to write the same essay nine times once. Instead of being horrified they (and then Helena, Tim, Duke, etc.) make killing Joker a gag. The only ones not allowed to kill the Joker are Dick and Bruce because then the universe decides it’s the bad timeline instead of just resetting again.

Tim: *drops his latte on a hot guy and then embarrasses himself in public trying to apologize and becomes a meme.*

Tim: I guess I have to kill Joker now.

Jason and Kory remeeting and wow it’s really awkward that we only got close because of a universe meddler and then you dipped and never contacted me again even though I was a hundred percent serious that you were one of my first friends and are very important to me.

Oh no. Not the talking. Not communication! Kory take mercy on me and just drop me like a bad memory don’t have us open a dialogue where we reconcile all of the bullshit that happened to us and the fact that we did genuinely get close at very low points in our lives and be willing to try and be friends again!

Give! Kory! All! The! Friends! She doesn’t care if you think it’s a bad idea, it's her life!

Gotham Vigilante Tabletop Club (GVTC) featuring Jason, Tim, Stephanie, Duke, Helena, and Harper. They each get a turn as dm and every one of them brings in a different game.

Why is Damian’s friend (Colin) asking me for love advice? I’m a gay disaster ask anyone else please. ??? I guess I can try to help??? Who’s your crush?

It’s Lian and Jason regrets agreeing to help because Roy is going to murder him.

Countdown 2 Electric Boogaloo. Except for this time they were all shoved into the dimension separately and by separate events and there is no danger. It is just a multiversal road trip with the people who vexed you greatly but are slightly grown up now.

Bonus scene includes Jason’s gleeful face when he realizes he understands what all of those words Donna keeps muttering under her breath mean because Artemis was a bro and taught him Themysciran Greek.

#I didn't mean for all of them to sound like comedies but sometimes that just happens #People may hate on the all-caste for not being Jason enough or whatever #But have we ever stopped to think that Damian is related to an immortal cult and Duke is the son of an eldritch being #And Dick is related to an unrelated cult and just all the weird shit that happens in Gotham anyways?#Why can all these exist and Jason not also have mystic monk training he never uses #Listen I don't know much about Gotham's magic population but I'm pretty sure the place is awful to live in with the nine different curses #So having a dude that's basically a mage-killer claim a territory can only be a good thing for their safety #Plus I'm positive that magic folk would keep property values low because who would go looking for magic users in Park Row #Everyone was written terribly for rhato but Jason and Kory had the potential to be a really interesting relationship #Just this lack of judgement and ability to not have to shave down all of your sharp edges for one another #also I do really like the idea of them trying romance or sex and then deciding that they need friends more and then staying friends #Gotham Vigilante Tabletop Club my beloved #Look Duke and Tim canonically play tabletop games and if dc would finally acknowledge that Stephanie and Jason are nerds they would too #I miss Colin and the idea of him and Jason being disaster siblings or disaster guardian-child is important to me #I don't know if it's canon but considering linguistic drift Themyscira should either have its own language or dialect #and Donna should use it to say mean things under her breath #Jason Todd #I am not tagging anyone else their tags deserve to be Bat-Free #oh boy do I love how I can't make indents in even in html. Sorry for the eyesore whoever reads this mess

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laniidae-passerine · 6 months

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Honestly I think Dean Highbottom has some shit to answer to as well. The mockery, the derision, the outright admittance that he was hoping Coriolanus would fail and the Snow family would continue to suffer. How someone who loathed the Games still treated a young man with cruelty because of the past, because of social divides that would be so easy to tear down. In the end, it wasn’t just Gaul who shaped Snow into the man he became. So bitter and hateful. So incapable of compassion and forgiveness. Just like his father. Just like his Dean.

#like yeah there were a lot of things questionable about Snow even before he was chosen as a mentor in the games #but like. damn. you didn’t even consider the idea he could be better than his father did you?#the way kindness could have unravelled some of the hate in Snow’s heart #listen to me tell you the horrible things your father did. listen to me tell you that you can be different. you are not the past.#the divides between us do not truly exist. look at the weapon in your hand. it is real. and it can do real damage #but if you never hate someone - if they never fool you into letting violence into your heart - they can never make you use it #it breaks my heart. how could you hate a ghost so much that you’d kill a child. I don’t know. but the Dean does. and so does Snow.#the cycles run and run until somebody stops. and burns some bread. and shares berries. and takes an arrow. and says no more. I love you #it is difficult. it could hurt me. it could be the very last thing I do. it may not even serve me well. but I love you. I love. always.#how pathetic hate makes you. how strong love makes you. like staring at the Dean and staring at characters like Haymitch #like two substance abusing men who know the system inside out. who are complicit. who are victims. both embittered and angry.#but one saw a child and decided to punish him for the past #and the other saw a child and decided - okay. it’s been 23 years. my heart hurts. I want to give in. I want to hate you. I want to not care.#I’m going to care anyway. I’m in so much pain. It’s killing me. I’m going to care anyway. about you both. it won’t be perfect. but I care.#and I’ll be here through hell. and I will fuck up. so fucking badly. because I’m still addicted and angry and god knows I have suffered.#god knows these hands are bloody and they always will be. but I will keep coming back. I will keep trying. I will still love.#and in the end I will write names in a book that belongs to you and I will find a little bit of peace in a house where the sun shines #and the geese make ridiculous noises in the yard. and love will have seen me through.#HAYMITCH YOU WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS I LOVE YOU MY IMPERFECT DARLING #dean highbottom #coriolanus snow #the hunger games #a ballad of songbirds and snakes #haymitch abernathy #thg #abosas #suzanne collins #SHE WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS

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lesbianlenas · 10 months

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the thing is that i HATE orientation stuff so much like i hate having to do little activities i hate having to talk to random ppl around me i hate having to pretend like i care abt the school as some sort of identity like i do not care i am just here bc i want an education……& like fr and honestly i hate heterosexual ppl so much like i really do and i’m always surrounded by heterosexuals at these types of things and they never want to talk to me & i never want to talk to them so i just feel incredibly uncomfortable the whole time. like this happened to me in both high school & college and it will inevitably happen again. i am not made for this world on god……….

#michelle speaks #if i have to do a single ice breaker i will start ripping ppl apart w my teeth perhaps 🤪#s2g my whole life it’s like i have had dyke written on my forehead & everyone is like oh it’s dyke girl let’s pretend she doesn’t exist #like i’m talking all the way back to when i was in prek where none of the other kids would talk to me 😭#like bc of my rsd ive always had a VERY hard time initiating convos even back when i was very little #but it’s like that’s not normal for little kids to not approach another kid. like when i say NO ONE would talk to me in prek i mean fr #the only ones who talked to me were two boys who would make fun of me for sitting alone when we were in the play room #bc no one ever invited me to play w them & i was too anxious abt approaching anyone to ask to play #even tho i really wanted to…..like ppl literally just ignore me it’s BIZARRE!!!!!#it doesn’t bother me anymore really like idc actually i like have friends so idc if i make more or not #but there HAS to be smth abt me since i was a child that makes ppl like i’m mot going to talk to her. & i think it’s the lesbianism…….#ANYWAY. i hate orientation i don’t want to talk to anyone i don’t want to hear abt anything. bye.

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shalvis · 29 days

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Xenoblade 1 is the best game like ever fucking made and it has two of the most dogshit sequels ever fucking made

#meows #remembering just how insulted I felt in 2017 when I preordered the sequel and really really tried to like it #I hadn’t experienced Game I Don’t Like before 2 and it took me like 40 hours to realize I hated it #and that shit at the end is such an INSULT. such an insult #you’re telling me that [redacted] was actually only half of himself the whole time and that 1 and 2 are taking place at the same time???#and that oh actually [expunged] is one of three computers when the first game made no mention of any of that #y’all really went back to say your complete first game actually is only HaLf of the story? that someone like [expunged] is only a third of #the force that ended our planet #y’all went back and hollowed out your existing characters to make room for worse versions of the same characters #AND you play as a dork nerd child who ends the game with three gfs bc this is story #and the gfs do nothing but sacrifice themselves for you like three times and look pretty #but they don’t look pretty to like. normal well adjusted people #they look pretty to the I like questionable art of 17 year olds crowd #and the GALL. the GALL. of changing [expunged]s design in the switch port to try to stitch his afterthought purpose into the old game #while also making him just whiter and whiter until by 3 he’s like fucking light grey #and having him have a canon genderbend that’s just anime waif #who is also fucking white #and giving Klaus’ counterpart a name that has nothing to do with Gnosticism #even though so much other stuff in the first game comes from Gnosticism.#who the FUCK is Galea!!!! her name is fucking Sophia #killing biting maiming #and the gacha system? with bad odds for no reason in a game you’ve already paid for #it’s so fucking messy #it lacks a unified art direction #it’s soulless and even a game like 3 where only HALF of it is 2 flavored can’t beat the original because of the portion of 2 in it #and like what. is it like the two universes reunited after [redacted] died🙃#why did any of this need to exist! why did any of this have to be retconned #x is fine I don’t hate x and I don’t count it as a sequel to Xenoblade 1 bc there’s no #half assed tie back to 1 in x #2 and 3 would have been better as like. tales of games

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factorialsotherfandoms · 7 months

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(Happy Ending AU, character epilogue for Quackity. Warnings generally for his memory and mental health are both kinda fucked and fluctuate from day to day. Scene two is a bad day. Also he married Wilbur because I mean why not. He just doesn't always remember that they married... Tilin and Bobby are also back and has multiple pronouns because fuck it happy ending au give everyone their kids back)

(Three days in the life of Quackity)

Quackity wakes up, and it is a good day. He knows who he is and where he is, even if he is alone. It's harder to remember his husband - Wilbur is on tour, he knows that he knows that - but he does and, as agreed, finds his wedding ring and puts it on. Wilbur wears his always. Quackity only wears his when he remembers their marriage, a signifier to let people know what to say.

He remembers Tilin, too, and where his son is - Roier is watching her, because wilbur is away and more often than not Quackity forgets simple things like feeding her, or that they exist. Everyone says it isn't his fault, that the Federation broke his brain.

Still feels like it, though.

He wants to see him, though, so he turns to the closet. The drawers are labelled with childish drawings of their contents, and Quackity pays it no heed as he finds what he needs. His favourite jacket is hardest to find, having been slung over a chair not put away, but he gets it eventually.

So he heads downstairs, finds the front door, and-

There's a checklist on the back of the door. He squints at it - a picture of clothes (he did that), a toothbrush (he doesn't want to, so he'll ignore it), and a sandwich.

Oh, breakfast. Right.

He turns back around, and finds the door to the kitchen. Inside he looks at the cupboards, each labelled with a photograph of its contents; he finds a bowl, and a spoon, and cereal. The fridge is a little overwhelming so he eats it dry, then doubles back to the door.

This time the only thing he cannot mentally tick off - either completed or knowingly ignored - is his keys. He grabs them from beside the door, and heads out.

Baghera is out in her garden. He waves and she waves back. Remembering which house is Roier's is a little harder, but there are not too many to try.

The first door he tries nobody answers. At the second is Roier, Bobby on his hip and the sound of Cellbit chasing Tilin and Richarlyson in the background.

"Hola," he yawns.

"Hola," Quackity replies. "Is Tilin here...?"

His kid must have heard him, because no sooner has he said the words than his little girl comes skidding around the corneer. He reaches out to him, and the child jumps right into his arms. Quackity holds them tight and swings him around, and wishes he could still learn things - like sign language to tall to his son, or at least how to read the books provided. People were always willing to read them for him, but it was never quite the same.

"Kids have the day off today," Cellbit appears with a freshly wrangled Richarlyson. "Did you want to come to the park with us?"

"Park?" He asks Tilin.

She nods, and so he nods too. He's a little thankful for it - he can't quite remember who else reads Spanish and would be willing to stay with the both of them.

Bobby waves around his sword, and Richarlyson pulls out a football. Tilin just hugs Quackity, and he grins.

"We should race!" He calls, already running off. "Come along!"

It's sunny, and they're laughing, and Quackity can almost forget that bad days exisf like this.

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Quackity wakes up, and it is a bad day. His hands shake and his vision blurrs, and he does not know where he is. The walls are papered and his bed is comfortable and he knows without knowing that this place is not his.

Did they take him again? There's nothing white here, but that doesn't mean anything any more either. He scrambles off the bed, and darts about. Where to hude, where to hide, where to hide...

He hears footsteps on the staircase, and dives under the bed.

There's a knock on the door, then a pause, and then "Quackity? Are you up to seeing Tilin today? She wanted to show you her artwork."

"Who?" Quackity cough, and clears his throat. "Who are you?"

"It's Bad; Roier didn't want to leave the children alone, and Dapper is wih Ramon today."

"I..." the man says it like it means something. Quackity's head pulses, and he grips his hair tight. Little bloody pearls find their way to his nails, and still he cannot work it out. "I... What are you?!"

"... I see," Bad still does not come in. "I'll make you some breakfast! You can come and go as you like, just take a sword if you leave town."

None of the words make much sense; Quackity presses himself harder against the wall, and can do little more then hiss.

Stil, somehow, it scares the person away. He hears footsteps leave - and come back ten minutes later - and then leave again.

It's hours later when Quackoty dares test the door. It is, to his surprise, open. There's a plate of food, a glass of juice, and a jug of water infront of it. Nothing about it makes sense but... Quackity checks the coridoor - four doors, including this room, neatly carpetted and walls a nice dark green. Stairs leading down, nothing there.

Its confusing and Quackity hates it. Still he grabs everything and brings it back into his room.

He wants to escape, but the space is too big, too confusing; he eats instead, gathering strength for later.

Other people come by that day, never remembered and forgotten as soon as they are gone. Some try to talk - Quackity will not, fear in his throat - others just deliver more food.

He's confused, and he's stressed, and he's scared, and he doesn't understand anything. This isn't his home - he doesn't think he has a home, the only thing he remembers is drowning in a deep, dark abyss...

So he takes the offerings, but stays under the bed, waiting for the torture to start once again.

He falls asleep still waiting for the pain to come.

---

Quackity wakes up, and decides it must be a good day. There's a man in his bed - Wilbur, his lover - hogging the blankets and snoring. Quackity isn't quite sure where he is, but it's warm, and it's comfortable, so it must be okay.

And Wilbur is here! He cannot quiite remember why that is such good news, but he snuggles against his boyfriend anyway.

Wilbur groans, not really awake, but loops an arm over him. Quackity wriggles about too, getting comfortable and clinging to wilbur's shirt.

He might not be entirely sure what is going on, how he got here, or even who he is. But the room is warm and Wilbur is sleeping peacefully in his bed; it's a good day, and everything must have turned out okay in the end.

#qsmp fanfic #qsmp quackity #qsmp shipping #qsmp tilin #qsmp Roier #qsmp wilbur #Various others but I think those count as the most significant ones #Happy End AU #Quackity still has memory problems and can't read thanks to literal brain damage from the drowning #With time and therapy and an actual doctor he now has good days! But he also still has bad ones where he remembers nothing and nobody #His brain just also is not up to the sort of work learning sign or are learning reading would take hes unfortunately learnt #He can't even manage to learn which cupboard has cereal in just for good days new languages are a bit beyond him #But he's doing and trying everything he can #When Wilbur is on tour Tilin stays with Roier because is a child and needs an adult who remembers they exist reliably #It's not perfect but they make it work #And I'd hate myself if I took Quackitys memory problems entirely in an au which diverged after he gains them

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