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Hi back from the dead again because I need to talk about this Watcher situation as someone who has been following them since BU and has been supporting them on Patreon for the last 3 years.
There are a lot of people claiming this decision was made out of greed or something equally malicious and I have to disagree completely. There is a lot of talk about parasocial relationships from the fandom side but I actually think this runs both ways. I think the boys are used to a very devoted and very loyal fanbase that professes to love and care about them and wants to support their endeavors, and has demonstrated that over the four years they have been operating as Watcher. I think they saw this as a logical next move for their company that they were excited about and that the fandom would wholeheartedly support, as always (hence the countdown). They likely did not think about how this would look or feel from an audience standpoint and made a, in hindsight for them, pretty impulsive trust fall expecting us to be there for them, only to hit the ground pretty hard and unexpectedly. They are probably reeling from this which, I believe, is the cause for all this radio silence.
Also, something that I haven’t really seen anyone address yet is how this moment feels like a defining blowout argument in a relationship. We are at a point where both parties (Watcher and the fans) have done/said things that cannot be taken back. They can try and slightly walk back the streaming decision, maybe offer an additional free tier with ads on the streamer itself so they are not cutting off fans from content completely, but they cannot completely take back this decision as they’ve likely already sunk time and money into the platform, not to mention the people who have already paid for it. And from the audience side, there have been a lot of reasonable and logical comments made about the message this sends to fans who cannot afford it or why this is a hurtful and unwise business decision, but there have also been A LOT of very nasty and very rude comments, or comments that would likely be very hurtful to the boys in general. Blaming Steven for the decision and saying how he wasn’t ever liked and was only tolerated by fans, how people have never liked ghost files or mystery files as much as unsolved, how the quality has gotten worse as the production value increased, etc. The boys have likely not seen every comment but I’m sure they’ve seen enough of them and that is something that is going to fundamentally change how they view their fanbase as much as this has warped how we view them. I could not imagine facing and making new content for an audience that I thought 100% supported me then basically ended up telling me my content is subpar, I peaked years ago, and that they always disliked 1/3 of the founding members of my company.
We are at a point where we have both said and done things that have fundamentally changed our relationship to each other and only time will tell whether we can walk this back and start building trust again or call it quits for good.
#watcher#I really really hope it’s the former believe me#I don’t want to see them fail or crash and burn#I truly don’t think they deserve that#I’m also hoping they make a statement tomorrow AT LEAST to say they’ve heard us and are formulating a response#if not that London show on Tuesday is gonna be reeeeaaaal awkward
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do you think émilie agreste knew, on the day she became too weak to leave that house, that she never would again
#having a normal one. don’t worry about it#just thinking about how she never escaped even in death etc etc#do you think she knew even as she pleaded with gabriel to give up on her that he never would.#that no one truly loved her enough to heed her warnings#that adrien was going to be left alone#what must it have been like for her to grow slower and weaker and quieter until she was as still as the bed d#do you think she knew she was becoming another fixture of that house#beautiful and immovable and silent#how long did gabriel have that coffin ready in the basement. how much time did he spend building it. did nathalie help.#did emilie know where they went in those long hours she laid there dying? that they intended to keep her there -always dying and never dead?#is that why she left videos? because she knew they’d build an altar for her haunting and she had to give her ghost a voice?#i think often about gabriel saying that emilie never wanted what she deserved#i think about gabriel and nathalie not letting her die. i think about ladybug not letting chat noir die.#circles and cycles ending up right back where you started#you know. having a normal one#anna rambles#emilie agreste#thirteen
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The man truly can’t take a genuine compliment 🙄
#my art stuff#digital art#baldur's gate 3#bg3#astarion#astarion ancunin#this is part of a series I like to call “I’m never settling on a singular detailed artstyle”#I have no consistency in drawing realistic people/characters other than my shapy cartoon style#but I truly don’t get enough opportunity to properly shade anything with art in that style-!!! it always looks weird to me-!!!!!#I think some rude lil worm in my brain is wriggling around telling me it’s a futile attempt at still doing realism#cus I’m one of those “gifted” artists that grew up promising his parents he’ll end up among the big names or whatever#constantly training to become better at art but with realism oil paintings as the goal#you know how it is 😔#I wanna shade my lil funky designs but they never feel good enough to really put energy into or whatever so I compromise with stuff -#- like this where I try to draw characters more accurately while still stylizing them and shading them however I feel like it#which is great and all but I should really learn to give my more relaxed and less perfectionist art a chance#I deserve to enjoy the process and the result without working myself dead#it’s so much easier and rewarding to copy cartoon styles - stylizing realism makes me too anxious of doing it “wrong”#at least cartoon styles give me a goal to reach or a reference to strive towards#man I really should just cut myself some slack altogether#either way - this man is a flustered mess and he’s embarrassed about being called adorable in public or something#being teased in an affectionate way about his sweeter side and stuff#don’t ask why he’s shirtless - anatomy is just a lot more fun for me to draw sometimes#tasteful nudity and all that is extremely gorgeous to me#i need to practice anatomy more cus I just kinda did some shit and went with it this time with a BIT of consideration for muscle structure
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say it
Byleth makes Edelgard say swear words.
(~350 words; too stupid to post on ao3)
“‘Shit.’”
“Grotesque.”
“Give it a try.”
“… Shit.”
“Very good. ‘Ass.’”
“That one is easier. I’ve said it before.”
“Then why don’t you say it now?”
“I… er…”
“If it’s so easy, then do it.”
“… Ass.”
“Excellent.”
“Don’t mock me.”
“How about this one? ‘Cunt.’”
“Wh—I actually, um, don’t know what that means.”
“You don’t know ‘cunt’?”
“I don’t know what to tell you, Byleth, it’s simply not in my lexicon.”
“It means va—”
“All right, I understand. The gesture was absolutely unnecessary. I’m astounded at how many words there seem to be for the same thing.”
“If you think that’s bad, you won’t believe how many there are for pe—”
“Well, this has been a fun exercise and hopefully a source of great amusement to you, but I think I’m finished.”
“Wait, wait.”
“No.”
“One more, one more.”
“Mm, no. I don’t think so.”
“Please?”
“… You know it’s not fair of you to give me those eyes.”
“Is that a yes?”
“All right. All right. One more.”
“Yesssss. ‘Fuck.’”
“Byleth!”
“What?! You said one more, and that’s the one to say.”
“I’m—I am not—”
“Please?”
“You can’t pull the same maneuver twice in a minute and expect to succeed. That’s poor strategy.”
“Is it working?”
“… Regrettably, it is.”
“Then it seems like a good strategy to me. Just say it. ‘Fuck.’ It’s easy.”
“It most certainly is not!”
“Try it. Say ‘fuck.’”
“… Fuck.”
“Oh, that’s rich. That’s very good.”
“Are you quite satisfied?”
“Nearly. Now use it in a sentence.”
“Byleth.”
“I’ll give you one. It’ll be easy.”
“I did not—and do not—agree to this!”
“Just repeat after me.”
“No!”
“Say, ‘Byleth, I want you to fuck me.’”
“… Oh.”
“Go on, El. You can do it.”
“… Byleth, I…”
“Keep going.”
“Byleth, I-I want you to… f-fuck me.”
“Good girl. Wasn’t so hard, was it?”
“Less than I—ah—thought it would be.”
“Mm. Well, you’ve certainly earned a reward, haven’t you?”
“Yes, my teacher. Fuck…”
“Aren’t you a fast learner? I’m impressed.”
“If you don’t shut up and kiss me right now, I’m going to start swearing in earnest.”
“Don’t threaten me with a good time, Your Majesty.”
#fe3h#fire emblem#edeleth#edelgard von hresvelg#byleth eisner#ficlet#sterge.rtf#sick of having this knock around in my drafts so now it is loose in the wild#but it’s so dumb that i really don’t want to bother posting it on ao3#if i got an email alert for this i’d be disappointed#besides i’m trying to pretend i’m hard at work on the vickyvesties right now#it’s not crack it’s just goofy#theoretically this takes place during the honeymoon phase of chapter 5 of shared space#since edelgard knows her swears by the time of muscle memory/shared space chapter 9#edelgard’s combination teacher/praise thing is truly unfortunate but what can you do. sometimes a girl is a gotdam mess#it’s not weird unless you make it weird. but she makes it weird.#i think sometimes (like here) she drops a ‘my teacher’ accidentally and byleth politely pretends not to notice#because if she Did call attention to it edelgard would be mortified and that would be the end of whatever fun things they’re doing#frankly no one deserves to say fuck more than edelgard#but with that giant stick up her ass she’d have a hard time getting around to it without some goading#i also hc that dropping honorifics is generally a Huge Turnoff for edelgard due to power dynamic shenanigans#their relationship is Complicated Enough in canon before i fucked it up more in shared space lol#so byleth is really asking for trouble here#but i also reckon ‘my teacher’ is a vibekiller for byleth so if anything they’re just riling each other up now#godspeed girls. hope you shut up long enough to get some
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Man I try not to get involved in online trans discourse because it’s so fucking stupid. But something about watching a 16 year old nonbinary kid be beaten to death by cis girls while people debate what kind of trans person has it “the worst” is just. So tiring. We are so focused on debating the validity and morality of different genders while children are being beaten and left to die by their peers and adults who are supposed to protect them. Does anyone else feel like they are going insane.
#idk maybe it was someone threatening to stab me for being trans#or maybe it was watching the people who called me and my trans friends slurs physically attempt and succeed to harm us#get no consequences not only from adults but my peers#or maybe it was watching my friend literally be abused by their parents out of identifying as trans#or being told I was addressing transphobia too emotionally#all while supposedly living in a progressive state#but I truly and honestly do not care whether you think nonbinary people are less oppressed#than binary trans people or not. truly and honestly I do not care#because I have seen in my incredibly short life so much violence directed at any trans person#regardless of the direction they transitioned#because newsflash. transphobes don’t care if you amab or afab they think you don’t deserve to live no matter what#THIS TURNED KIND OF INTO A VENT#but guys WHAT are we doinggg. what are we doing.#vent
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Here are some of my favorite Alan moments in his Writers Journey tapes!
Here’s Alan casually eating paper! Instead of wasting paper by throwing it away, try eating paper instead!
Ever wanted to get flipped off by a tortured writer? Well here is him flipping you off!
I… yeah idk what he is doing, but you go Alan! Yeah you flap those arms like you’re a bird!
He may be having a breakdown… yeah he’s just having a breakdown, maybe he should get a hug! (Or maybe he should BE ABLE TO ESCAPE REMEDY WHY END IT OFF ON THAT CLIFFHANGER RICKY WHEN I CATCH YOU RICKY-)
Look! He’s faster than Sonic!!!!!
I think we can all agree that Alan needs a vacation. Like not the one he had in Bright Falls, I mean a genuine, enjoyable vacation where he can just relax and be actually happy instead of in a constant state of turmoil.
(This post is sponsored by the LABH™️, the Let Alan Be Happy™️ foundation)
#alan wake#alan wake 2#I honestly love these recordings#this truly shows how messed up he is and how him forgetting is keeping him somewhat (not really though) sane#I have an unhealthy obsession with Alan Wake#also technically Alan can technically write himself into any crossovers if he wishes to#though I don’t think he would enjoy himself being in Fortnite (even though he doesn’t know what Fortnite is)#also I keep thinking that if Ahti is still in Watery in 2023 then he has been on vacation for like five years#AS HE SHOULD#he deserves all those vacation days
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I keep trying to write an update and then being embarrassed about it and feeling like I’m trauma dumping on people by updating and I just..I know it’s on me to manage my crap, I know. I am trying (not very well but I’m trying) and it’s just…I don’t know. I don’t even know.
#please know i have thought about hospital but hospital would#genuinely make it worse (like I cannot even tell you how much worse)#i think I’m legitimately just…having a trauma reaction on top#of a jewish trauma spike#and dentists and having to move (I may have cleaned till I shook today also my arm#does not look great#i feel like i don’t actually verbally have the words#(i have tried not engaging i have tried engaging they both feel awful)#(hashem i don’t know would you even embrace me would you…)#(it’s not a meds thing (I take meds for mdd and I know what that looks like and this isn’t it)#(it’s hard to explain the difference between CPTSD and like a panic attack or a depression)#(except that I feel like I’m so so tainted and not in my body or if I’m in my body I’m in my body somewhere else#abuse cw#i didn’t ask for this cptsd and no tshirt was offered#this will disappear probably#UGH#(i am seeing my therapist tomorrow i just..i know i need to reach out to)#(to like my current landlords and ask if I could just pay for a cleaning service to come in)#(i know i need to be like ‘unfortunately my CPTSD is Fucking Terrible Right Now and I need)#(just a bit of grace apologies)#(i do not want my parents to know i do not want that)#(aside from the fact that I am already a burden to them anyway)#a stupid flop of a person i am crying thinking about how i had plans for kids and a wife and travel and…I’m nothing#(everyone else is something I’m not I don’t deserve grace lbr)#it keeps running through my head how many people i thought loved me want me dead#and it’s like I can fake it so well#(i don’t know I may be like sending words to people)#to run through the steps of not being alone#i’m truly sorry i am always not taking accountability and playing the victim and clinging to people#to get reassurance i don’t deserve that its a good person it isn’t it isn’t a person
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Idk
#diaspora mac n cheese deserves jail time#Halloween Ends au#don’t worry about it I’ll probably never post it#billy hargrove#harringrove#He goes on to kill Billy’s ex#it truly is beautiful but I don’t think I’ll ever be able to finish it#And Billy gets so objectified which is my fav!
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i don’t know what words best describe the feelings i get when i watch s2e2 is except for maybe “really fucking intense”
he’s screaming and begging for death and they have to stifle his pleas because they’re so desperate to keep him quiet and alive. ed knows something is up. he can fucking smell it. that’s his dog. his faithful, loyal iz. as if he wouldn’t know the visceral smell of that dog’s body and soul at its lowest, most rotten points. like he wouldn’t recognize the smell of such a “poisoned atomosphere” in the dog’s own words… really fucking intense
ed gives him what he believes is his last order, a command to kill him just like he dreamt about, only for the bloody, sweaty, infected, ever-devoted, pain-in-the-arse, willing to please, spiteful, vengeful, fucking disgusting dog to laugh in his face and tell him to fuck off… really fucking intense
he’s told him to fuck off before. he’s told him he’s done before. he’s told him he’s a shell of a man, and a namby-pamby, and poisonous. but this time is different. ed gives the order and the dog not only hesitates, but starts laughing. uncharacteristic, haunting laughter that doesn’t sound like it belongs to him. dogs like him don’t laugh like that, much less at their master. but it’s unbelievable, the command, as is the rest of ed’s behavior. it’s laughable. the idea of ed ordering the attack on himself… really fucking intense
does ed think that he’ll do it? does he think that he won’t? he doesn’t care either way. he’ll probably do it, but his lack of toes proves how inconsistent he is with following orders these days, so who knows? he might be too weak and faithful to do it to himself. he might be too strong and poorly-behaved to do it for ed. he doesn’t know. it hardly matters. they’re both dead anyways. goners. should’ve packed it in years ago… really fucking intense
fine. if he can’t follow a simple order, he might as well finish the job. make it fast. fuck off like he swore to do so long ago, for real this time. not like ed could kill him either, so maybe it’s fair. couldn’t kill anyone, much less his “friend” as it were. fine. that fucker is faithful and strong enough to at least do it to himself. “i loved you best i could” and it’s done. quick. fine. fuck off. til death do we part and all that fucking bullshit. good. fucking off. that’s a magnificent storm. perfect… really fucking intense
it’s about to be over. heading straight for it. steering the ship into the storm. not even steering it anymore. he really hasn’t been for some time, being honest. it’ll all be over soon, if he could just— shot, by the same dog he shot. the one he just pleaded for death from. who shot himself, he heard it. of course, maybe it was just a fuckery. a trick. maybe he— no. was obviously just shot, fucking gash like that, christ. hobbled himself up here on one foot on an ocean ed knows must be nauseating and— “indestructible little fucker” why the fuck can’t he just die? why the fuck can’t either of them seem to fucking die?… really really fucking intense
standing over him. finally. put him in his rightful place, on the floor at their mercy, or lack thereof. kill him. fucking do it. fucking do it. “finally :)” uhh… really really really intense
to further articulate: i think the writers of the show clearly know what it’s like to hate yourself and to have complicated feelings with the relationships that make you that way. the next ep obviously gets further into those themes but that only further proves my point and this episode is just so intense. they seem to really get what’s it like to fucking hate yourself and your life and be so unhinged that you’d be willing to bring others down with you because you just. can’t be bothered. to care. and you cry out for help but nobody is any help and they’re long tired of it and of you anyways and hell maybe driving them away is the solution tk your problems anyways since people are the cause of all your problems. yeahhh. writers really said “this one’s for all the homies who ever self-harmed” idk that’s not my only take but it is a big one floating around my head
#ofmd s2 spoilers#they really know what it’s like to hate yourself huh#they really know what it’s like to want to fucking die huh?#they really know how to uh how to to fucking uhhh channel those of us who feel like we don’t deserve anything#really truly speaking to all us self harm girlies amirite? fuck. this episode is actually killing me#like.. you ever beg for relief and hate yourself for not being able to do it yourself#not trying to get too intense at 1:45 am but i am Thinking#blackhands#edward teach#izzy hands#ofmd#tw self harm#mine
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over a year ago when i finished yakuza 0, my friend, the one who literally got me into yakuza in the first place, told me that nishiki was ok but in the grand scheme of the series he’s not a great character compared to the ones i had yet to meet
well jokes on her because i just finished yakuza 4 and nishiki is still my favorite character (besides kiryu and majima of course)
#akira nishikiyama#yakuza#i apologize for having terminal nishiki brain 😔 it’s not my fault that i have great taste in fictional characters#shoutout to saejima tho i love u <3 (ignoring that ONE scene)#ryuji and mine are also very cool villains#there’s a bunch of characters i love but i don’t have brainrot for them#i just like the pathetic fish boy what can i say#jokes aside i rly don’t think she’s giving his character the credit he deserves#like i truly think he’s an endearing and tragic character#shame he didn’t click with her
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like. Nina listens to Taylor, moderately keeps up with the front-facing aspects of her life, enjoys her quality, has her minor critiques, recognizes her place in the current culture, can set her down and do other things when she wants to, and most importantly knows who Taylor is through her art.
#you cannot engage with Taylor completely casually it doesn’t work#you won’t get to know her#you have to let her in. go on a sunset walk with your headphones in and open your heart to her and just HEAR her#and then once you know who she is you can go from there#but there absolutely is this level of refusing to get to know her#and I am truly (once again) not addressing people who have that door simply closed (my mom! my older sister!)#people whose opinions matter so much to me#but I am talking to the people who wrestle and want to love her but actually hate her and idk. I feel that it is something where—-#well it’s like people isn’t it. you have to get to know her without judgment#and without bias#you have to know her FROM her#(which does not involve Easter eggs OR celebrity headlines if you hate both of those things#and then if you don’t like her you do in fact have to leave without making that other people’s problem#especially Taylor’s!#I am thinking of this girlboss journalist who wrote a piece on Taylor the other day#that was LIVID with Taylor for sharing only positive reviews on her insta story#(as is not only Taylor’s right but literally normal behavior??????????)#and was practically foaming at the mouth about how Taylor’s level of power was getting scary#and it’s like. I’m so sorry for swearing but BITCH#a lot of the numbers are out of Taylor’s control and also NOT REAL. Taylor also DESERVES her success and is simply doing her job very well#and riding the waves of virality she knows how to create in ADDITION to that#also stop worshipping power and money!!!! the way you clearly do!!!!!!!#Taylor is not doing anything with it except her job!!!!!!!!!!!!!#she is also CLEARLY a human being who suffers#SEE HER AS SUCH#and end it THERE#INSANE#turning off reblogs for this one#because I have gotten carried away but wow
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HELLO
I didnt see that there was an update until now and i dont feel like discording and i just read the new chapter so here i am with my few main points bc i dont feel like doing a full live reaction👍👍🫶
Seeing Jeeto come into play in any capacity at all makes me feel like a proud parent watching their children grow. Its always wonderful like those are my emotional support middle aged fictional men. I watched them go from conspiracy to getting crumbs to now their "dates" and gossiping together. Youve gotta love it. Those are my children. Im so proud of them. But im also scared because you killed shen so obviously my feeligns mean nothing to you 🙄😒😒. (Im never going to get over that, im going to be 80 years old in some pst apocolypic enviroment with horrors all around me, but im going to be having nightmares about shen. Ill send you my therapy bill) (im going to get a tattoo in his memory istg)
Also its always really subtle but its funny to see your specific linguistical patterns in liab esp because i can never really explain it. Like ill read a random sentence and be like 'yeah that seems like sreeder wrote it' i just think its neat.
I also really loved zukka this chapter. But i always lovr zukka so its not a surprise. But espesially this chapter because its mostly soft zukka.
"Do you think we will stay together" NO Zukko divorce 🔫🔫. 🙅🏻🔥🔥🔥🙅🏾
The 'moving forward' ness of zukka in liab is so nicely written. Like ive been reading liab since (almost) the beginning and it has been a ride and its starting to feel more conclusive and that is SCARY but its also nice because you write it very well and i adore the way you write trauma and the healing of it and the ups and downs and the two steps forward two steps backness. Its very lovely.
I knew ara was going to have a suicide attempt (esque situation (idk if that counts)) i called it i win.
Idc what others say ara will always be amazing. I love her character SO MUCH
i feel like you can always tell the strengths of a writer in the way they write complicated characters and the way you write ara is very telling of that. Like the fragility and also harshness used for her is very realistic and i always enjoy her parts so much.
Like her deciding to move on independant of how zuko or sokka feel about it is and regardless of whether people thinks she 'deserves it' is immaculate.
And thats a good example on your specific strengths as the author of liab (being able to handle delicate situations well, and realistically and make them very thought out and not rushed, stuff like that).
But her 'i need to start getting along with other girls' is great because like,, RHATS SO TRUE. she is genuienlly one of my favorite characters of all time, i could write essays on why i love her. Exquisite.
REHO MENTION 🥳🥳💪💪💪💪
Thats my emotional support woobified early 20 something year old man. I adore him. If 30 people love reho i am one of them, if one person loves reho i am them if 0 people love reho i am dead (rip rehoes 😔) i will defend his (and aras) good names until i die.
Amazing chapter as always 10/10 *chefs kiss* im so excited for the series to finish and see what you do with everyone and the rest of the storylines and such.
Every time I think of Shen’s death I think of your utter devastation & how I wasn’t expecting you to be so distraught over it. I will say I had another commenter lately who was talking about how much they liked Shen & wanted an Iroh/Shen/Zuko dynamic and I kept thinking…. Damn it buddy, you’re going to be soooo mad at me in a few chapter haha…. oops.
ugh my linguistic patterns haunt me and I specifically ask my betas to check for them because I feel sooooo repetitive sometimes especially when there’s a lot of introspection lol. So it’s funny you mentioned that lol.
Omg I remember when I was still on RIA & someone in the server was like “dude I’m rooting for some jeeto.” & I was like oh no how do they know??? I created this fun divide between hakoda and bato just to push Bato into Jees arm!! Don’t spoil it haha, but whatever at least Dentys dead
Awwww thanks for the compliments it means a lot coming from you <3 but also yeah Ara is my delicate dumpster fire who says she going to make her existence everyone’s problem (most importantly sokka because damn girl could just LEAVE but she refuses lol) I love it. She’s fun, and any scene with her expect utter chaos haha.
every time I write Reho in a scene my mind says and the crowd goes wild,,, he’s annoying but I’m glad you like him.
thanks for this amazing ask you’re awesome
#Haha maxxxxx you’re so funny#I am forever a fan of Ara and her ability to harass sokka while constantly saying she’s not going to harass sokka#Zuko: “I just…. Never want to see you again”#Ara: got it ok so I’ll go make friends with sokkas sister and hangout with the water tribe healers and suki and -#No wonder sokka starts foaming at the mouth every time he sees her#I still don’t think zuko has nearly as big of a problem with Ara as sokka does#I truly think she’s just “that bitch from prison”#& sokkas got like 43 fake scenarios saved in his head of how things could have been different or how he would get his revenge#Anywayyyyyy I like Ara she’s fun#& Katara deserves to have some fun!#Thanks for the ask max sorry it took me so long to answer I’m a loser I have no excuses#LIAB#leaving it all behind#ITF#ask#Maaaxx
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i do think death is bullshit unfortunately
#i know it is a necessary and inevitable part of life and maybe someday i will accept that#but i also suck at accepting things that i think are unfair#and i do think death is maybe one of the most unfair things about the world.#idk how to say it other than that most death is meaningless and untimely#and often times perpetrated by carelessness or cruelty or random chance#and i just. don’t know how you make peace with the end of someone’s existence.#the thing about grief and death is that i truly refuse to think about it because it snowballs.#one minute i’m crying about my grandpa who died yesterday#and the next i’m crying about the friend i lost almost 6 years ago now#or the pets i lost before that#or the strangers whose names i will never know but deserve to be grieved too#and then i’m crying for every loss the world has ever felt.#and it’s all just so unfair.#my empathy is a lot more variable these days but. this shit brings out the hyperempathy bad bad bad.#izzy.txt
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the thing abt dickkory is that i know dick doesn’t deserve kory but i want him to better himself so he does deserve her
#dickkory#dick grayson#koriand'r#comics#dc#text#tais toi lys#i say this w all the love in the world but dick can only ever truly deserve kori when he’s literally like. old. i just think his ambition an#his inherent selfish selflessness ruins prospects of like healthy (romantic) love bc he’s so single-mindedly focused on being a Hero that it#is all he is. he needs time to learn to love in a way that can do both parties justice#honestly it’s like w bruce too bc as much as i love talia & selina bruce is just too mission-driven bc that’s just how he was created#i don’t see any of them being married (barring early marriages re: dickkory’s almost wedding brutalia’s while son of a demon arc) bc rn they#just Need to focus on their respective cities n whatnot. would i kill to get dickkory on prime earth again… absolutely but also would dc do#them right? absolutely not. and like dc keeps pushing d/ckbabs (soz i just don’t want this to show up in the tags im not like completely#against them) and it just keeps things so insular to gotham despite dick literally having bludhaven to protect and like soooo many other#connections that take him out from the gated community that Is batman comics 😭#anyway. whatever. dickkory is a tragedy with love built in (or a romance with tragedy built in) and i can’t resist.#*
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Op… you make a lot of interesting claims in this post. To get the facts straight before I go on a rant… 1) George claims that Rhaegar was a love struck prince 2) the books don’t mention anything about any marriages being annulled/anyone being set aside 3) seems like Dorne has no issue with Rhaegar and 4) Ned literally never thinks anything bad about Rhaegar… but thinks ill of Robert.
First off, a man trapped in a duty bound marriage and finding love outside that marriage is completely different from a whoremonger shouting about his love while visiting brothels whenever he could. And guess what… Ned straight up thinks that Rhaegar didn’t seem like someone who’d visit brothels. Robert and Rhaegar couldn’t be any more different.
And when did Lyanna want to be wild and free? When is it ever said that Rhaegar locked her in the tower of joy and that Lyanna was a prisoner?
Ned never even alludes to there being any truth in any of these claims. What we do know is that Lyanna greatly resembles Arya in looks and personality… and Arya wants to be a high septon and kings counselor, meaning Arya wants to have a position of power and not be reduced to a baby making machine. Going off of that… it seems like Lyanna didn’t want to be “wild and free,” she just wanted to be treated with respect. The only reason Arya is even treated like she’s wild is because she doesn’t conform to the Westerosi standards for highborn women.
And of course she’d feel miserable when she heard Aerys killed her brother and father. Aerys. Not Rhaegar. I wouldn’t even be surprised if she felt guilt about what happened, but in the end it was Aerys who brutally killed them. And then Rhaegar goes to protect his family and dies, and then Rhaegar’s family is brutally killed and then Lyanna dies. George did claim that the greatest love stories are the tragedies (i may be misremembering but i know he said something along the lines of that lmao).
Op, you claim that Rhaelyas love would’ve died after getting news of the Starks deaths, and then you try to suggest that Rhaegar may have been keeping Lyanna isolated from news in Dorne… like please pick a story to go with! And Rhaelyas love dying or Lyanna not being kept updated on what was going on outside of Dorne just doesn’t seem to be true. When reading Neds chapters, it seems like Lyanna was fully aware of what happened to Rhaegar’s children and Elia… as Lyanna pleaded with Ned like how Sansa pleaded with Ned to not kill Lady (hope i’m not misremembering here lol). And Rhaegar dying with a woman’s name on his lips (likely Lyanna’s name) and Lyanna clutching a winter rose (this may just be symbolism for baby Jon tbh) until she passed away seems to contradict your belief that their love died.
Also, where are you getting the “Rhaegar would suggest to set aside his kids and wife to marry Lyanna” from? The show? You mention how Lyanna would not be okay with this, and I agree that Lyanna would never be fine with setting Elia and Elia’s children aside. But even thinking that Rhaegar would ever even suggest setting aside Elia and his children is bonkers. Like seriously… there was so much tension between Aerys and Rhaegar that the Royal court was said to have begun looking like the situation before the Dance of the Dragons. And Dorne was Rhaegar’s greatest support! Why would it make any sense for him to annul his marriage with Elia? And please remember that during the sack Rhaenys hid under her fathers bed. The text supports him loving his kids/his child who wasn’t a baby seeking to be protected by him so why would he endanger them and their positions? (and no, disappearing with Lyanna for awhile isn’t him endangering his family. Aerys was the one who endangered his family (hot take brandon was the one who endangered the starks like wth was he thinking???). and tbh it seems like Aerys knew exactly where to find Rhaegar so did Rhaegar and Lyanna even disappear? or were they just keeping their location a secret from the rebels? the rebels who ended up killing Rhaegar’s family?)
I will say that how op first started to characterize Lyanna is something I agree with, her being principled, noble, honorable, and just with a sensitive side seems to be true, but then op goes on to continue to claim that Lyanna was wild and that she had little regard as to how other people perceived her. There’s no reason for us to believe that she didn’t care about what others thought of her or that she was wild and wanted freedom more than anything, it just seems like she dared to tread away from what was expected of Westerosi highborn women and that she didn’t want to be married to Robert. And guess what… Robert ended up being an abuser! *gasp* Lyanna dear… you clocked Robert right away.
And seriously… how does any of what op mentioned back up their claim that Lyanna would never resign herself to the position of a mistress? Is being a mistress/paramour really that bad? Does it truly seem like Lyanna would look down on those women? Her mini me Arya doesn’t look down on the courtesans of Braavos who occupy a similar position as mistresses in society. And it seems like plenty of noblewomen have been mistresses in the past and they are still as respected as a woman can be in Westerosi society. Missy Blackwood and Elaena Targaryen are right there. And Op, if Lyanna was Rhaegar’s mistress, why would you think that Lyanna couldn’t have been happy? Are we going to doubt Ellarias happiness and her love of Oberyn because they weren’t married? Should I doubt Rhaenyra and Harwins happiness because Rhaenyra was married to Laenor? Rhaegar and Elias marriage was not a love match. And if Rhaegar and Lyanna did marry… ever wonder if polygamy was introduced as a Valyrian practice by George to hint at Rhaegar taking a second wife? Should I now doubt Rhaenys and Aegons happiness and love because Rhaenys was Aegons second wife?
Now can we please stop acting like two people married due to duty have any reason to love each other? Nedcat seems to be an exception in Westeros. Lyanna and Rhaegar falling in love isn’t ruining Elia and Rhaegar’s marriage when love wasn’t there in the first place.
haha my whole post is a bit messy i just wanted to get my thoughts out :)
fuckkkk i want to tag more (my tags are a mess lmao no i’ve not gone through them and no they will not make any sense)
#robert was a brute#when did lyanna seem disgusted by roberts bastards?#seems like she was just disgusted by roberts behavior of claiming to love her while visiting brothels#say it with me folks: there’s not a single mention of rhaegar loving elia their marriage was for duty#so no rhaegar is not like robert bc rhaegar found love outside of his marriage of duty#robert treated lyanna like an object and never even saw/loved the real her#lyanna clocked that and later fell in love with a man who loved the real her#aka the knight of the laughing tree#yeah the text hasn’t truly confirmed anything yet but at least my version of events isn’t contradicted by the books#omg ppl need to stop acting like being a mistress is some morally corrupt position god damn#nedcat you will always be famous#but jon snow will always be even more famous#bc he’s rhaelyas love child#rip rhaegar lyanna and elia i’ll save you guys from tumblr bad takes#i love that george makes it clear that marriages of duty can be nasty affairs#and tumblr desides to demonize characters who dared to find love instead of criticizing the system of selling daughters off like broodmares#like bruh i would be sooo happy to learn if elia had a paramour on the side#i’m looking at you elia x ashara shippers#tho i don’t think that they had a romantic relationship i do find it hilarious that ppl who claim rhaegar is horrible and endangered his#…family turn around and applaud elia for potentially doing the same…#couldn’t be me tho i pretend that rhaelya and their children are perfectly happy and that elia found love as well#as i think rhaelya were well in their rights to go against the system that tried making them miserable and i hope elia did the same#these tags are a mess and kinda don’t make sense lmao#rhaegar targaryen you will always be famous#asoiaf fandom critical#rip boar you will be missed#robert deserved worse#ppl need to stop acting like rhaelya is homewrecking when george himself calls elia and rhaegar’s marriage complex#jon will learn that his parents were in love and he’ll learn good shit about them and he’ll think good thoughts about them#and then this fandom will go insane and jon will start being hated like dany for daring to love his parents
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hey this may be a weird question so feel free to never answer but how did you go about gaining weight? you're so happy with it and i think it may be for me too but i wouldn't know the first step towards that happiness so,,
i’m gonna be so honest it just happened naturally when i went on testosterone. i didn’t drastically change my diet or exercise, if anything i ended up getting more exercise from walking all over my campus (i started t before i started college), and i definitely need to eat more than i used to, but nothing drastic. it’s just how my body reacted to having more testosterone. i didn’t expect it at all going into it, although i’m very glad it happened, but some people lose weight on hrt and some people dont have a weight change ag all, it just depends on the person. since i did literally nothing to gain weight other than hrt, and obviously i have no idea whether hrt is something you even remotely want to do, and hrt isn’t even a guarantee your weight will change at all, i cant do much other than share my own experience 😭 but i wish you luck in whatever you end up doing, and i hope you enjoy your body!
and this might be a weird answer, but if you feel comfortable, you could always try poking around in a weight gain fetish community somewhere online. it’s not really something i’m into so i can’t say whether or not anything will come from it, but i know it exists and it’s a group of people who know how to gain weight, and i’m sure some of them post about how they do it. i won’t give out any more medical advice on tumblr, and i hesitate to ask if anyone else has any advice, but i’m sure the very best thing you could do is talk to a medical professional about it, and just make sure to take good care of your body no matter how much you weigh. weight and health will never measure your worth as a person, but you should always try and take care of your body as best you can. and eat your veggies 👍
#inbox#anon#just make sure your body is healthy and you can do whatever with it#i just let my body do what it wanted to do and i’m still perfectly healthy#but please do make sure you’re taking care of your body because it’s not fun to have any sort of chronic physical health issues no matter#what the source is#go walk around a lot it’s really good exercise and very easy to do if you’re physically able and have a space to walk in#also im not a doctor don’t listen to everything i say im just some guy. fyi#i really truly do wish we couoh completely get rid of the stigma that fat=unhealthy forever and ever#i am just as healthy if not more healthy 50+lb heavier than i was before i went on t#sorry for the ramble lol again i cant do much other than share my own experience#also i do really want to stress that unhealthy fat people will always exist and still deserve love and respect and society treats them badly#and i bring this up because i’ve seen a lot of ppl who correctly argue that fat people can be just as healthy still look upon unhealthy fat#people with scorn#and that shit makes me so mad#sorry for the tangent but i think it’s important#i love you fat people
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