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rogueddie Ā· 5 months
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Eddie hates how quiet the trailer is. Always has. At night, with the low yellow lights, it's almost worse. Something so eerie, unsettling. And tonight is worse. The silence is almost suffocating, like a living thing scratching at his skin. He can't stand it.
"I hope you don't mind music," Eddie says loudly as he heads to his room.
He doesn't look back at Chrissy, doesn't want to make her anymore nervous than she already is. He simply flicks on the radio, turning it to a more mainstream station that plays the usual pop shit. He doesn't recognize the song playing but it has a lot of synths. It sounds horrible but it's the exact type of song that someone like Chrissy would like, plus it fills the silence. It'll have to do.
It takes him longer to find the special K than he'd like. He really should clean his room. The song that plays next is a Queen song though, so he doesn't have as much to complain about.
He skips back to the living room, grinning.
"Found it! Peaceful bliss, just moments away."
Chrissy is justā€¦ stood there. Her eyes are rolled up, making him think for a moment that she might have passed out. Probably from the anxiety. But she's still standing.
"Chrissy?" There's no response, she doesn't even twitch. Maybe she's pulling a prank? "Chrissy? Hello?" If it is a prank then maybe making her jump will make her stop; he jumps a step forward, slightly raising his voice; "Chrissy!"
Nothing. It's then that he notices, it's then that he's close enough to see- her eyes aren't just looking up, they're rolled as far back as they can go, twitching around. They're pale blue, giving her an almost ghostly look.
She isn't pranking him. Whatever is happening is something serious.
"Hey, Chrissy, wake up. Hey, hello?" He snaps his fingers, hoping the noise and proximity might help. Nothing, again. "Chrissy? Hello? Hey Chrissy-!"
The lights flicker. Not just a normal flicker, it's almost violent. He can hear the electricity spike. It's just flickering lights but something about it is terrifying. Something is very, very wrong.
"Time to wake up. Ok, hello?" He grabs her shoulders, hoping to shake her out of whatever is going on with her. "Can you hear me? Wake up, Chrissy. Chrissy, wake up! I don't like this, Chrissy! Wake up!"
The lights are still flickering, the sense that something very wrong overwhelming. Not even the chanting bridge of Radio Gaga eases any of the tension, only makes it more eerie. And nothing he's doing is working. She can't seem to hear him, or see him and even slapping her shoulders doesn't get a response.
"Chrissy? Chrissy, Chrissy, Chrissy!" He keeps repeating, gently slapping her cheeks, so overwhelmingly desperate that his chest almost aches. "Chrissy, wake up now! Chrissy! Chrissy!"
She- she floats. She starts lifting off the ground.
He backs off. Whatever is happening is so far out of his scope, so far out of his control. He can only stare, knowing he can't do anything. Whatever is happening to her is not natural. Not human.
She just stays there, hovering in his living room, eyes rolled back.
Should he pull her back down? Should he leave her floating? What happens if he does try to touch her? Is she cursed? Is something lifting her? If he tries to save her, will it kill her? Is it already killing her and it wouldn't matter anyway? Oh, shit, is he going to have to watch her die?
He has so many questions, so much uncertainty. He stands there; frozen, shaking, eyes wide.
Just when he decides that he should do something, steps forward to grab her ankle and pull her down-
Chrissy gasps. It's as though strings have been cut and she falls, hard. She yelps at the sharp impact, collapsing onto her knees. Eddie is quick to dash forward, falling to his knees too, grabbing at her shoulders again.
"Are you ok? Chrissy, shit, are you ok?!"
She whimpers, throwing her arms around his waist, clinging to him painfully tight. He wraps his arms around her too, holding on just as tight. Her sobbing is horrible, sounding so pained, but it's sound- proof that she's alive, even if she is shaken. Eddie hates how much relief it brings him.
It takes a while for her to calm down. Eddie still feels freaked out.
"Sorry," she tries to pull back.
Eddie holds onto her biceps though. "No, no, no, you don't apologize, just- what the fuck was that?"
She stares at him, conflicted. She looks down, ashamed, when he raises his eyebrows. "I've been having hallucinations. Hearing things."
"That's not what that was," Eddie quickly points out. "You were in the air. You were floating. What the fuck was that?"
"N-no, thatā€¦ that wasn't real, that-"
"That was real. That was very real."
"Oh god," Chrissy whispers, beginning to tremble again. "It's just hallucinations though, it can't be real. M-maybe you were seeing things too?"
"I am stone cold sober, Chris. I wish I wasn't, I wish this was some mad hallucination, but that was real. That- fucking hell, Chrissy, I thought you were going to die! Please, please, tell me what the fuck is going on. Are you cursed?"
"Maybe. I don't know. Do youā€¦ know about curses?"
Eddie barks out a laugh, high pitched and hysterical. "In games? Sure. Whatever this thing isā€¦ it's beyond me."
"You knew put on music," Chrissy tries for a smile. "That really helped."
"Music?"
"Yeah. It was likeā€¦ I could hear which way was the way out? Does that make sense?"
"Sort of. But music was the only thing that helped? Specifically music?"
"Yeah." Chrissy shifts, watching Eddie beginning to pace. "If it's a curseā€¦ is nowhere safe?"
"Or do they need to know where you are first," Eddies eyes widen. Chrissy feels her stomach drop when she comes to the same conclusion. "You need to get out of here. Shit. Come on, I'll drive you home. We can figure something out."
Chrissy takes the hand offered, hurrying to keep up with Eddies sprint. "Ok but- Eddie, home isn't safe either."
Eddie frowns, hovering at the passenger door he's holding open. "What? You think it would know you'd go there?"
"Maybe butā€¦ it's justā€¦ it's not safe."
Eddie doesn't ask. He recognizes the look on her face- he's seen it enough times in the mirror to be more than familiar. He flicks through the radio until it's on the pop station again and drives to Ricks. He goes faster than he should be and a lot less safe, if Chrissys little reactions are anything to go by, but he gets them there quickly. He knows the best place to hide his van too.
"We should stay in the boathouse," Eddie explains when he has to pull her off-course. "He keeps his radio out here, with headphones. Extra batteries too."
He digs around until he finds the radio, the headphones and the multiple packs of batteries. Chrissy is awkward and tense, but he doesn't let that distract him. He would've shoved the headphones on her if he had to.
"I'm gonna grab some blankets from inside. Stay here. No one thinks to look in here and, if this is something looking for you, it might not think to look here too. I'll be quick, promise."
"Ok."
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vote2 Ā· 1 year
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I hope miley cyrus gets hit by a car
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ssuckitlosers Ā· 2 years
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I am incredibly attached to fantasy/magic/supernatural AUā€™s tbh. Itā€™s been so long since Iā€™ve read a good supernatural-y fic and I miss it.
Vampire England is a classic choice and I love it tbh, it fits him so wellll. Though I also love him having magic (and unless itā€™s a world where magic is apart of a vampire powers, then I donā€™t really think they should have itā€¦ lol I think about this too much- I like the idea of him being a mage or something before he got turned and heā€™s still upset about it.)
Prussiaā€™s such a mixed bag though. Iā€™ve read fics were heā€™s a vampire, werewolf, zombie ect, and honestly they all work for him lowkey. (I kinda fuck with him being some kind of monster hunter though, or he was one before he was turned into something else. And I like the idea of him being a very bloodthirsty hunter but finding baby werewolf Germany and doing a 180. I also thjnk that heā€™d especially hate being a vampire though, I donā€™t think heā€™d fuck with being unable to go outside because the sun is out- the sun canā€™t tell him what to do.)
And America is a werewolf. I donā€™t make the rules, itā€™s great for him. Though I genuinely would not turn down any portrayal tbh. (I remember reading one multichapter fic where he was a vampire which I think was interesting? Though I also remember the more I read it, the more insane the plot got lmao. I canā€™t remember how much I enjoyed it by the end, but I remember it so šŸ¤·ā€ā™€ļø Iā€™ve read a fair chunk of vampire America usuk fics to be honest. Idk if I can remember any specific werewolf ones, I remember a one shot but I think thatā€™s itā€¦ werewolf fics tend to just be smut if Iā€™m remembering right- but itā€™s been a while man idk. I also like him having magic lowkey, but less in the controlled, knows magic theories type way and more in the heā€™s got a natural talent for it. Man that fic where Alfred became Arthurā€™s apprentice was on to something- I feel like there was more than one but I might be lying.)
Idk what Iā€™m even talking about lmao, I miss just talking about random hetalia-related thoughts lol
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sluttyten Ā· 2 years
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like my inspiration is gone now.... everytime I look at it, back at the end of the last part I had saved iā€™m just annoyed and donā€™t want to write any more
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laurmaus Ā· 2 months
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my rant (analysis????thing about that one scene in Our Fears Mcd thats been hidden in my notes app for like 2 years sorry itā€™s a little long
ok so itā€™s been a few days and i completely forgot most of what i was gonna say about the whole dante aphmau illusion bht the whole thing was so ?????????? liek the way garroth and ESPECIALLY laurenceā€™s reactions to their ā€œworst fearā€ and their worst fear itself is SOOO FUCKING WEIRD and out of character becayse thatā€™s NOT what their worst fear woulld be ????)))))) starting with garroth because his whole personality as a guard is that he wants nothing but happiness and safety for aphmau and like we donā€™t know a lot about his personal life and struggles besides like zane and the whole dispwnment thing ok maybe we do but what iā€™m trying to say is that aphmau holding hands and Kissing a guy is Not his worst fucking fearā€¦ā€¦ā€¦. the whole scene couldā€™be been so much better if the illusion was aphmau Dead or like extremely hurt or fake dante threatening the two to hurt aphmau right in front of them or something like the whole shipping bait was so unnecessary I KNOW ITS NOT THAT DEEP BUT šŸ˜‘šŸ˜‘šŸ˜‘ ok now for layrence he was done SOOOOO DIRTY like Extremely dirty from the way he reacted to the fact that his worst fear was aphmau just kissing dante tooā€¦ā€¦.. starting with how he reacted it was INSANELY out of character for the time that it was written there was no build up to his personality suddenly switching to anger ridden like heā€™s never been seen like this before ?????? skimming through the moments hes had since heā€™s still generally New to the series he has NEVER lashed out like that??????? even when zane was insulting aphmau and he had to lie to make it seem like they were together he is Cool Calm and Collected itā€™s so weird so see him get so mad so quick like he was YELLINNGGGG thad was some unnecessarily. Possessive reaaction personally it makes more sense when i add the fact that my theeory is rhag he believed aphmau was under hypnosis or a spell or something but this is COMPLETELY a theory like itā€™s the only explanation to him acting out like that PLUS THE FACT THAT HE TRIED TO ATTACK DANTE ????????? he CONSIOUSLY WENT TO ATTACK HIM JUSF BC HE WAS GONNA KISS APHMAU I GET THAT HE THIUGHT SHE WAS IN DANGER UNDER THE PREMISE OF A SUPPOSED SPELL BUT OTHERWISE THAT MAKES NO FUCKING SENSEā€¦. i KNOW for a fact aphmau ddint think that far through and just wanted a ooooh my guards are Jelousā˜ŗļøā˜ŗļømoment and its aggrivating bevauuse i KNOW that he should have been asking if she was ok instead of just arguing at a ghost i get that hees protective butšŸ˜ž you can HEAR HIM SLASH HIM REPEADLY TOO LIKE I KNOW HE STABBED THAT SWOORD STRAIGHT THROUGH HIS BACK OR WRM OR SMEHTING UOOU HEAR IT GO IN EEUEUUEGH the cheap sound effect is SošŸ˜¦(samsung version) THIS PLUS HIS GENERAL AREGIVATED DEMEANOR ENCOURAGES THE IDEA THAT LAURENCE CARES MORE ABOUT GOING AFTER WAHTEVER IS THREATENING HIM INSTEAD OF FOCUSING ON GETTING WPHMAU AWAY (which is the OPPOSITE of what happened in the nether when saving the chicken sha man+ MAKING SURE SHES OK ANF FURTHER SUPPORTS GARROTHS SUSPICIONS i could say that the remnants from him being a shadow night like made him be way more violently impulsive but from the videos canonicity itself i know aphmau wasnā€™t thinking of that when writing this sceneā€¦ personally i gues i see how this could be in character i just cannt sincerely undedstand how laurenceā€™s morals and beliefs coincide with attempting to harm a possibly innocent man itā€™s so ARURRGGGGGDDD (sound effect sounds better in my head trust meā˜¹ļø
ok now to the fear itself layrence is not even officially apart of the guard he hasnā€™t known aphmau for too long INCLUDING the Months(?) that he was trapped in the nether for and i KNOW theyā€™re really close now and he apparently has a crush on her (WHICH WAS SUPER SUDDEN TOO AND ALSO OVERWRITES PREVIOUS LORE ABOUT HIM NOT LIKING SASHA AND THAT SHE WAS THE ONLY ONR THAT HE COULD BE ā€œnormal withā€ ((SUPER COOL IDEA BTW I REALLY LIKED THAT!!!!!!! THEN HE SUDDENLY ANNOUNCED THAT HE SNOULDNT HAVE LET SASHA GO ???????? i guess it could just be chslked up to him lying but what need was there for thatā€¦.. the switch up is so random and like sheā€™s suppose to be dead when he said that why not just admit you loved her i guess it couldā€™ve been laurence still not accepting the fact that he actually loved her but i donā€™t think aph meant for his words to be so deep seeing how she writes mcdšŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­ if they geniuenly wanted to develop the idea that laurence has a crush on aphmau then wouldnā€™t it make more sense for him to say he had a crush on her and after she died it was difficult blah blah blah BONDING!!!!! and then at the end he couldve been like ohā€¦. speaking to you right now reminds me of how we use to t- nevermind. IDK ITS CONRY BUT IT MAKES SO MICH MORE SENSE STORY WISE/// THE WHOLE THING SO FUCKING WEIRD AND ALL TO BUILD UP TO HIM HETTING A SPONANOUS CRUSH ON APHMAU FOR NO FUCKUNG REASON. HIS ENTIRE PERSONALOTY IS BASED ON A MAN THATS A CASANOVA BUT DOESNT ACTUALLY FEEL ANY ROMANTIC ATTRACTION TOWARDS THE WOMEN HE CHASES!!!!!!!!! laurence canonically struggles with expressing himself sincerely and ended up coping by making hismelf out to be a douchebaggy man who feels the need to flirt with everyone in order to feel validated by people that (in his mind) wouldnā€™t like him otherwise!!!! this chatavyer concept opened a HUGE DOOR for development which we actually started ti see when he opened up about his persona and started to interact with aphmau as less of a fake love interest but a friend!!!!!!!!!! but knowing that he DID indeed love sasha AND loves aphmau makes their development into closer friends void because it was a supposedly a crush the whole time i really donā€™t think itā€™s that serious i juus feel like SO MUCH WAS THROWN AWAY FOR A FORCED CRUSH THAT COULD HAVE BEEN BUILT UP MUCH BETTER THAN IT WAS!!!!!!!!!! iā€™m like skimming through old episodes right now and have rewatched that one section in Our Fears like Twenty times so far to analyze but watching laurence and aphmau banter is really silly andā˜¹ļøā˜¹ļøā˜¹ļøit sucks how they cant just be funny friends with and loving eachother geniuennly with the /r jokes here annd there not because laurence has a not so secret crush on pahmau but because theyā€™re wacky friends!!!!!!! bffs where one (Phmau helps the other (L heal and overcome his struggles !!!!!! their dynamic is so fun and lively annf laurenceā€™s character development up to this point had been really satisfying minus the crushšŸ˜žšŸ˜ž everuhtingg is so susaauuauaaaaaaaihh jusf BE FRIENDS!!!!!!!!!! BE FRIENDS PLEASE but anyways heā€™s not even apart of liekt he pheonix drop guard i guess ????? at this time which makes his worst fear beign aphmau being kissed by another man so Pathetic he has cadenza and the nether people and him being a shadow guard and just so much more to worry about than aphmau same with garroth!!!!!!! i feel like thereā€™s so much mroe that couldā€™ve been explored if they had just considered making the illusion more Personal ?????? i was also thinking that making them both see a completely different illusion I DONG KNOW HIW TO EXPLAIN IT LIKE oooh smoke Sparkles Boom theyā€™re in a different place and see the fear like it was done for aphmaus fear and danteā€™s fear!!!!!!!
going back to garroth too a few episodes ago he was talking about how he was afraid that something might happen with laurence now thatā€™s he can see so maybe the illusion could have been laurence attacking aphmmau right in front of him and like his armor and weapons are gone when he goes to fight and hes like šŸ˜¦šŸ˜¦ or replace laurence with zane or whatevver or heā€™s like married to his fiancĆ© and aphmau is Gone what iā€™m saying is there was SO MUCH POTIENTIAL OOOH O AND LIKE LAURENNCES PERSONAL ILLUSIOKN COULD HAVE BEEN HIM HRUTING ALHMAU OR CADENZA AGAINNDT HIS WILL AS LIKR A SHADOW NIGHT!!!!!!!! OR IDK IMAGINNE ā€œwe should split up and look around forā€¦ā€¦ā€ BOOM garroth looks to the left and lauurence is GONEā€¦.. itā€™s all like ?$)&!???!?? until he looks fowaard at the steeps and šŸ’„šŸ’„šŸ˜ØšŸ˜ØšŸ˜Ø LAURENCE is STANDUNG there with APHMAU HURT ON THE SCENE!!!!!!!!!!! n heā€™s like laurennczā€¦.??????? thannk irene you found hLAURNECE!!!!??!;???;??šŸ¤ÆšŸ¤ÆšŸ¤Æ actually BETTER IDEA THIS IS THE BEBEST ONE ITS ONE ILLUSION NOT TWO SEPERATE ONES!!!!! RIGHT SO GARROTH IS JUST THHERE AND SEED LAURENCE AND HE LIKE SUDDENLY GAINS CONSIOUSNNES AND LIKE LOOKS DOWN BOOM SHADOW KNIGHT ARMMOR HES GOT A SWORD IN HIS HAND AND ITS COVVERE IN BLOOD!!!!!!!!!!! loook doen Aphmau There sheā€™s Gone in that one pose you know the one iā€™m talking about and then he turnns around 2 c the garroth thags just in taht one standing emoji pose and he like seees the blood on his dacve and OOOH IT WOUKDVE BEEN SO COOLā€¦ i understand the limitations that come with making a roleplay series with npcs ghat have like limited movement obvsiosuly it wouldnā€™t be as elaborate as this but i see it in my Mindā€¦ā€¦ ONE LAST THING BEFORE I FORGET it not sure if this is a typo or intentional or just a little fact that wasnnt meant to be taken all that serious but when malachi was explaining his backstory he mentioned how he could show peoples ā€œfearsā€ not exclusively their ā€œgreatest fearā€ WHICH might excuse this entire scene (minus the inaccurate character portrayls ) and make most of what i said void but i still stand by all of it!!!!!!!!! iā€™m not taking this excuse from someone who mistyped one of their MOST IMPORTANT characterā€™s name MULTIPLE TIMES to the point where a misspelling became their canon namešŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­ but overall i jsur feel ike this entire episode and concept of a ā€œgreatest fearā€ being watered down to throwing some wood into a Shipping Arguement Fire for the two most important characters right after aphmau could have been so much more!!!!!!! like i get that aphmau getting with someone else might just be one of garroth and laurenceā€™s shared fear but that doesnā€™t excuse how laurence acted and ESPECIALLY how uncharacteristically their dialogue was after the whole debacle OH MY GOD I DIDNNNT EVEN MENTION JOW THEY ACTDD ATTERWORDS ok iā€™m getting tired of this Long ass essay but basically afterwords they kept questioning aphmau and dante on whether or not they kissed or whatevver and i feel so dumb right nowow this is unrelated but iā€™m just laying here on mymt bed Wirting this at 11:32 am instead of drawing or beingpeoduxtive or skemtjjngnevevrmind i joined a. Friend CallšŸ˜ŠšŸ˜ŠšŸ˜ŠšŸ˜Š
ojay i left nothing interesting was happening but getting back on topic the fact that only laurence seemed to be concerned about aphmaus well beign when the whole illusion was over seems so weird especially since i wouldā€™ve expected garroth to say something about her aswell ?????? this is definitely nitpicky i just feel like i should mention the emphasis on dante and aphmau kissing instead of aphmaus wellbeing like they Shouldvve been douignā€¦ā€¦ like maybe ask about the next course of action or who dante is and what theyvve gone through or if theyre hurt wspecially laurenc before this episod he was more a less soft spoken i LOVVVE his Sassy Man persona just not before his actual character beliefs IDK HWO TO FEEL ABOUT THIS ANYMOORE yes i get theuure in shock i just feel like therees something off about this whole thing and i CANR EXPLAIN IT IN WOORDS I XANNT!!!!! i need teb notes all to be plugged into my mindndohmtmtgoodoss cddbdsdxxxcccccc cbc but yeah laurence is funny while heā€™s questioning them though so itā€™s ok and then afterwards when garroth is lik ā€œespecially the vision we saw nowā€¦ that was, hard to take.ā€ seems so out of place and weird wny doesnā€™t he question what happened or how they even found the child of wahetever the more the series goes on everythign seems to shift to focus more on the shipping aspects of things instead of going towards what the characters would realistically be worried about yeah yeah itā€™s her show i just wish that a little more was out into the dialogue during this bit to flesh them out more maybe iā€™m completely misinterpeting their characterrs because iā€™m Wacky but woudlnbg aph b like telling him everurjjng i DONNT JNWO!!!!!!!!!!!! overall i dont think the entire confrontation scene should have happened i thjnk they would have talked to aphmau eprsonally about what happenend instead of just Lamboding idk the word but thatā€™s what i said in my head on dante and him kissing apjmau as guards that should not be their priority and i praay this is a one time thing otherwise scene was fine by itself i loveā¤ļø Aph Mau team garmau forevver though (as of now(
no but srs i know this all sounds really corny and imm sure i look crazy right nowwhile you read this all out but this is liek directly from my brain to the paeer these are my Thoughts live not includdinng the ones i coudknnt add bc i was somehehrre else and then jsut Forgot about it!!!!!!!!!!! itā€™s crazy too becwysue this scene has always had such a special place in my heart (Gross) ever since i watched it when it first came out i ate this shit up!!!!!! annd now to look back and realize everything that was wrong with this part of the video and i know that thereā€™s a BUNCH of more off moments like these but this one is just SO imporrynant to me i Sont know why and i canā€™t remmeber anymore because my okd notion of the video has been replacced eith me watchingn it from a few days ago but to seee myswlf continue to be interested by this straange but charming continuity annd story itā€™s just so important to me and was a HUGE part of my childhoood i would watch new videos from aphmau when they came out n eveerutnjng i remmeber hetting on the couch at like 9am to watch her new fnaf series videos i explicitly remember the one with the puppet jumpscare i was so fuckign scaredšŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­ and i remmebr watching this one early in the morning too i thjnk idk jf this is me misremmebrjng and my brain being jumbled up bevauus that Happens sketimems and mixing up which videos i watched but i KNOW i would wake up early in the mirnirng to go to the livingn room and watch Aphmau i feel the need to critique it for what it is now and juust be Hinest with msuellf since i just saw so kuch wrong id dinnt know where i was going with this but i care for thier characters so much i just wnnat them to b real and Happyā˜¹ļøā˜¹ļø love u guuys
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55szn Ā· 14 days
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reckless - ln4
lando norris x verstappen!singer!reader smau
summary a sliiiight misunderstanding caused by yn made max go mad and almost commit murder warnings cursing fc sabrina carpenter taglist @jaydaaasworld notes requested!šŸŒ· iā€™ve been dying to get to this request but iā€™ve had no time and no inspiration šŸ˜­ hope you like it!
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ynverstappen abt last week ! btw ā€œrecklessā€ is officially out <3
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user no lando pic, no lando like, promoting reckless, not denying the allegations. iā€™m afraid itā€™s truly over
user iā€™m a child of divorce
user the pic with max thošŸ˜­
user heā€™s such an older brotheršŸ™šŸ»
user iā€™m legit so sad over this
maxverstappen1 šŸ˜Š
user šŸ˜Š = ā€œthe body is buriedā€
user lando i love you but iā€™m choosing mumā€™s side on the divorce
lilymhe my beautiful girlšŸ˜
ynverstappen love u lils see u on sunday šŸ’˜
user HUH??????
user TF YOU MEAN SEE YOU ON SUNDAY
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landonorris when you spend a few days away without a phone and your lovely girlfriend lets everyone believe youā€™re an asshole and suddenly youā€™re the internetā€™s most hated person and you have death threats in your messages šŸ™ƒ
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user HELLOOOOO???????
ynverstappen1 Iā€™M SORRY BABY IT WAS JUST SO FUN TO SEE MAX FREAKING TF OUT
maxverstappen1 not funny. didnā€™t laugh
landonorris i second that
maxverstappen1 donā€™t second me iā€™m still mad at you
landonorris I. DIDNā€™T. DO. ANYTHING.
ynverstappen i love you please forgive mešŸ„ŗ
landonorris no
landonorris okay just because youā€™re like really hot
ynverstappen well that was easy
ynverstappen posting that last pic is evil tho i showed you that in confidence.
landonorris is what you deserve
maxverstappen1 what was with you and those glasses
ynverstappen it was a phase max move onšŸ™„
carlossainz55 you almost needed bodyguards to walk around the paddockšŸ˜‚šŸ˜‚
maxverstappen1 at least he knows not to mess around now
landonorris i didnā€™t intend to who do you think i am mate cmon
user MOM AND DAD ARE STILL TOGETHER?!???? SUICIDE PLANS ARE OFF
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ynverstappen yes we are still together no max didnā€™t murder him
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maxverstappen1 i tried to
landonorris dudešŸ˜ž
landonorris i love but you almost got me killed love
ynverstappen the price you gotta payā¤ļø
user i donā€™t understand what happened here šŸ˜­
user right like what does ā€œrecklessā€ even mean
ynverstappen itā€™s a song i wrote years ago about someone very shitty, found it a few weeks ago and decided to retake it and release it :D
user girl why didnā€™t you clarify it wasnā€™t about lando since the beginning šŸ˜­
ynverstappen chaos is my fuel
user you are evil.
landonorris she is.
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onlyswan Ā· 6 months
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summary: in which jungkook loves to see you smile and you are the god of mischief.
idol!jungkook x reader, est. relationship / fluff / word count: 2.6k
content/warnings: mention of childhood insecurity, mention of biting during s*x, jk is very touchy, they watch a movie and the guard thinks theyā€™re doing sumn nasty bc theyā€™re both a menace honestly šŸ˜­, jk accidentally bites his lower lip and bleeds
> in which masterlist!
note: hi !! this is a repost of a drabble i wrote two (?) years ago but accidentally deleted lololol so if youā€™ve read it before thatā€™s why! but this is now an edited version with a new title <3
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ā€œbaby,ā€
jungkook calls your attention out of nowhere, pausing the movie playing on the tablet youā€™re holding. the frown painted on his face is difficult to miss.
ā€œi have a question.ā€
ā€œso randomly?ā€ you raise an eyebrow. ā€œask me then.ā€
ā€œwhy do you cover your face when youā€™re happy?ā€
the wide-eyed look of genuine curiosity on his face is identical to yesterdayā€™s, when he asked you what the word ineffable meant after hearing it in a song.
the question prompts you to take a glance at the screen, where a sophisticated woman has a hand over her mouth as she giggles with her elite acquaintances about an old but classic rich husband joke.
ā€œitā€™s not that it bothers me, i just- iā€™ve noticed it lately and i-i wish to see you smiling and laughing more freely, you know?ā€ he tries his best to choose his words carefully, offering you a kind smile as he lovingly caresses your head. ā€œit makes me happy when i see you happy.ā€
ā€œoh,ā€ you blink at him, mind going blank as you attempt to form an answer in your head. his touch isnā€™t exactly helping you eitherā€” you just want to melt into him and not think of anything at all, float on cloud-nine and stay there forever.
however, seeing as he asked you the question out of the blue, he mustā€™ve been thinking about it a lot. youā€™ve only been dating for a few months, so itā€™s understandable for him to eagerly seek the answers to his curiosities and observations. if anything, it feels nice to learn he gives this much attention to youā€” possibly notices things you donā€™t even know about yourself. for a split second the thought crosses your mind, that beyond a consciousness, you are tangible and real.
ā€œitā€™s a habit i guess? when my teeth were falling out for the first time as a kid, i became insecure, so i decided that iā€™d just smile without showing my teeth from then on. like this.ā€
you demonstrate by lifting up the corners of your lips.
ā€œand yeah-ā€
as if heā€™s helplessly pulled by the magnet of attraction, he leans down to kiss you and interrupt your sentence.
ā€œiā€™d cover my face when i couldnā€™t contain my smile or laugh. and even when they grew back, it felt weird. like my smile didnā€™t belong to my face? if that even makes sense.ā€
ā€œyah, thatā€™s not true! youā€™re very pretty whether youā€™re smiling, or crying and-ā€ his warm hand cups your cheek, and he stupidly grins as heā€™s about to say something cheesy. ā€œeven when youā€™re just breathing.ā€
the corners of your lips rise again. this time, itā€™s genuine.
ā€œoh? how romantic.ā€ you scrunch your nose cutely, and his heart flutters.
you hold onto his wrist, revelling in the way his thumb softly traces shapes on your skin.
ā€œiā€™m over that, though. it was so long ago. i donā€™t think about it obsessively anymore at least. itā€™s really just a habit i havenā€™t gotten rid of.ā€ you reassure him, meaning every word that you say.
we all have our secrets and fears that we keep only to ourselves, that much is understood between the two of you. there are circumstances in which withholding information is necessary. however, the one big promise you made to each other is to never lie. honesty and trust. ease and consolation. every word, every syllable hanging from your lips an addition to the naked history of your love. passed down stories. confessions. blurry memories. shutter sounds. curses. laughter. song dedications. that much is true.
ā€œwhy are you looking at me like that?ā€ you bite the inside of your cheek to conceal a smile, beguiled by his love drunk eyes seemingly stunned by your mere presence beside him.
ā€œlike what, baby?ā€
you shy away from his gaze. ā€œlike youā€™re either thinking that i hang the stars on the sky every nightā€¦ or that you want to eat me alive.ā€
to confirm your words true, he takes your hand and sinks his teeth on the flesh of your palm where your thumb is connected. his wide doe eyes peer at you innocently, sparkling like of a little kid eating the fluffy pancakes heā€™s been craving since last night.
the latter might sound like a joke to others, but jungkook does eat you alive. almost. basically. youā€™re not even shocked at the act anymore. soon enough, youā€™ll memorize the mark of his teeth carving their mark on your skin, both in sexual and non-sexual setting.
ā€œbabe,ā€ you send him a bewildered stare. ā€œi really donā€™t think i taste as good as you make me out to be.ā€
he parts away with his eyebrows knitted in disagreement. ā€œnot true. youā€™re yummy.ā€
ā€œoh, shut up!ā€ you burst into a fit of giggles. your hands automatically attempts to fly to your face, but he has your wrists bound with his secure grip. you donā€™t resist. you only laugh harder when your sight lands on your hands tangled together.
ā€œthereā€™s ____ā€™s beautiful smile.ā€ he coos, proceeding to pepper your face with appreciative kisses.
and you fold. your back lands on the soft mattress, and your belly starts aching from laughter when he purposely blows on the spot on your neck where youā€™re most ticklish. hot tears gather at the corner of your eyes, and jungkook watches them fall down your temples as his lips graze your skin and your body shakes underneath him.
tears of joy and pleasure are the only tears youā€™re going to shed, he promises himself. youā€™re going to smile and make flowers bloom everyday, he promises you and the earth.
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your teeth chattering from the cold is a shy away from your awkward smile, he notices the endearing resemblance as you shiver beside him.
ā€œhmm, what did i tell you about cinema one?ā€ he teasingly asks as he draws back the armrest that serves as a divider between the two of you.
ā€œthat itā€™s fucking cold in there-ā€ you surrender, tone sounding annoyed. ā€œhere. whatever!ā€
ā€œand who still decided to wear their smallest pieces of clothing?ā€ he continues to taunt you while he pulls you into his bodyā€™s natural warmth.
you sigh, whether itā€™s in relief or annoyance, youā€™re not quite sure.
ā€œi just wanted to wear my new cute clothes.ā€ you whisper-shout.
the giant screen is still playing trailers of the upcoming movies this year, and youā€™re already mentally updating your calendar to accommodate them despite your hectic schedule. a two-hour vacation, you would always describe films.
he chuckles, and more shivers run down your spine at the deep and raspy sound being so close to your ear. ā€œyou do look cute today, baby.ā€
he catches the cloth of your skirt between his fingers, and somehow, he ends up squeezing the soft flesh of your thigh. you swallow thickly, unconsciously closing your thighs together and trapping his hand in between them.
ā€œthank you, handsome.ā€ you grip his wrist to move it away. you tut. ā€œno silly business, though. i really want to watch this movie.ā€
his shoulders drop dramatically in disappointment. ā€œokayā€¦ want to sit on my lap so i can keep you warm then?ā€
you look behind you to see that thereā€™s no people sitting on your side, so no oneā€™s view would get blocked if you were to agree to his proposition. the room is practically empty, with a few scattered people sitting on the sides.
you spend the first fifteen minutes of the movie in comfort and bliss, with your boyfriendā€™s arms wrapped around you. he took off his jacket earlier, and he splayed it over your lap as to not neglect the goosebumps rising all over your freezing legs.
ā€œso stubborn,ā€ jungkook muttered under his breath while he was taking off the jacket, an amused smile etched on his lips. you wouldā€™ve felt bad, but you knew he likes doing these things for you, so you only playfully stuck your tongue out at him.
look, to be fair, it is your first time in this cinema. youā€™ve been on many dates at this theater with jungkook, but for some reason, youā€™ve never watched a movie in cinema one until tonight. itā€™s cold in the other three cinemas as well, the kind of cold youā€™ve gotten comfortable with, so when jungkook booked the tickets last night and told you ā€˜itā€™s really cold in there, wear something warmer,ā€™ you thought he was just being ridiculous.
hah, how cold could it possibly be? right?
fine, jungkook is right. you are stubborn.
and you prove it once more when a flashlight shines over your face. the security guard holding it approaches your seat- wait, no, jungkookā€™s seat. jungkook is your seat. what?!
ā€œiā€™m sorry, but only one person can sit on the chair. please comply.ā€
you trace the direction of her eyes to find jungkookā€™s hands tucked underneath the jacket on your lap, resting on your inner thighs to steal their warmth. you send him a sharp glare, but it doesnā€™t affect him one bit. he only shrugs, obviously hiding a smirk as he pretends to be the most innocent person in the room.
you pull up the armrest next to you with a pout, slipping back into your original seat against your wishes.
ā€œhe was just warming up his hands. i promise!ā€ you whisper not so subtly to the guard.
she only clears her throat and awkwardly nods in response, walking up the stairs to observe the rest of the movie watchers.
you bury your face in your hands as your body vibrates with mirth mixed with humiliation, and jungkookā€™s jaw nearly falls on the floor.
ā€œsometimes i canā€™t believe youā€™re real. how do you never get shy?ā€
ā€œi was just clearing things up!ā€ you whine, hitting his arm using the side of a closed fist, which he massages with a squeaked ā€˜ouch.ā€™ ā€œyouā€™re the one who put me in a compromising situation!ā€
ā€œwell, nobody told me taking care of my girlfriend was a crime!ā€
you carry on with watching the movie after that embarrassing scene, and youā€™ve forgotten that youā€™re cold until youā€™re uncontrollably shivering again. you begin rubbing your arms in a pathetic attempt to get rid of the goosebumps, but you eventually abandon all hope.
you sadly look over at your boyfriend to plead for help once more, but he has gotten too engrossed with the film to feel a pair of shaking pupils beseech him intensely. he finally opened the box of popcorn heā€™s been saving for the climax.
and he was the one who wanted to do something other than watch the movie.
you grimace.
you are no stranger to his confusing attention span.
after carefully studying the room to ensure the guard is no longer in sight, you unceremoniously climb on jungkookā€™s lap again. your actions cause some pieces of popcorn to fall from the box, and he scrambles to stuff them all in his mouth before the powder stains any of your clothes. yours are new, after all.
his face displays a puzzled expression, screaming i thought this was supposed to be a compromising situation?! and his soft rosy cheeks on the other hand-
ā€œyou look like a chipmunk who got caught in the headlights stealing food with its mouth full.ā€
the screen flashes a frame of the clear, blue sky in the aftermath of a ferocious storm. it sends the fleeting sunlight to shine on your faceā€” just long enough for him to capture the image of how pretty you are when you giggle, and most of all, how your hand moves to cover your face, but drops on his arm before it could reach its intended destination.
he recognizes it as a conscious effort, and he feels a tug in his heart. his sweet, precious lover. you will never do anything wrong in his eyes, he thinks to himself as he hugs you closer for a kiss. the feeling of your smile against his lips might just be one of his most favorite things in the world.
he pulls away with a toothy grin to match yours, offering you the box of popcorn. the beautiful smile you claimed to not belong on your face lingers as you turn it down and sip on the lemonade instead. and then it simmers down to your usual mellow smile, to a deep frown, until your lips quiver as the resolution of the film reduces you into a puddle of tears.
jungkook likes to keep mental notes about you.
an excerpt from today:
1. how to make ____ smile? act cute.!! :)
2. how to make ____ cry? watch a son and mother reunite after eighteen long years.
p.s. i think i cried harder, but quieter ????
3. how to make ____ angry mad furious? kill off the said mother unnecessarily at the end of the movie for the sake of shu shock value.
the lights turn on all at the same time as the credits start rolling down on the plain black screen. your body slumps back on your boyfriend, drained by the series of overwhelming events that transpired in the past two hours. he waves his hand infront of your face, but your eyes remain unfocused and unblinking.
ā€œthis is the worst movie i have ever seen in my life. four out of five stars.ā€
he snorts at your unseriousness. ā€œthat is the most stars youā€™ve given this month. and itā€™s the 29th.ā€
ā€œsee? itā€™s the worst! iā€™m going to have nightmares!ā€ you cry out with an exaggerated shudder, grabbing his forearms to envelope yourself in his embrace.
ā€œhonestly, pushing her off the cliff was a bit too mu-ā€ his sentence gets rudely cut off when your shoulder accidentally hits his chin. you scrambled to go back to your seat, and this escalated to him accidentally biting the inside of his lower lip. the unusual mix of the bitter and salty taste of metal permeates his tongue as an unexplainable expression spreads across his face.
on the other hand, youā€™re too preoccupied with mischievously smiling at the guard standing down on the floor. she measures you up with a displeased look worse than earlierā€™s, but much to your relief, she proceeds to walk out after scanning the room one last time.
ā€œbaby!ā€ jungkook yells in pain to grab your attention, jutting out his bottom lip to show you the wound that you inflicted.
ā€œoh my god- shit, shit, shit-ā€ you curse, digging your hand in your bag in search of your handkerchief. ā€œiā€™m so sorry!ā€
you press the cloth on the bleeding, profusely apologizing to him with a wince. ā€œi panicked! iā€™m sorry, iā€™m sorry!ā€
he pushes your wrist away for a moment, doe eyes squinting at you accusingly. ā€œyou just wanted to play around with her, didnā€™t you?ā€
you chew on your bottom lip, the sight of blood that has stained the handkerchief sends a pang of guilt across your chest. ā€œsorryā€¦ her face- she was just so funny.ā€
ā€œfuck, why are you like this?!ā€ he throws his head back with a bright laugher that echoes throughout the theater. ā€œah, youā€™re so adorable!ā€
ā€œcome back here!ā€ you scold him, holding his face in your hands to crane it back down.
he juts out his bottom lip again, but his body continues to vibrate with lighthearted chortles.
ā€œdoes it hurt?ā€
ā€œit hurtsā€¦! i think i might seriously cry!ā€ he answers despite his high tolerance for pain, distorting the truth so that he could drown himself in the gratifying feeling of being doted on by you.
he writes another mental note as you inspect his wound, repetitive bloopers playing in the background of the love bubble the two of you share.
4. ____ likes playing games with strangers. must protect with my life.
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If Only | L.M.
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summary: You and Lucifer were bond through the soulmate system, but how could you be soulmates when he had Lilith?
pairing: Lucifer Morningstar x fallen seraphim!reader
includes: kinda soulmate au? fluff, angst, mentions of death, lucifer feeling like a bad parent (thatā€™s pretty much it, let me know if i missed any!)
a/n: i wrote this at night the other day. toward the very end i was very proud of what i wrote šŸ˜­šŸ™ time for my requests iā€™ve gotten !!!
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Ever since Lilith left Lucifer seven years ago, he never expected to meet another who made his heart soar. He fell into a deep state of depression and only started to get out more when Charlie invited him to stay at the hotel after the latest extermination. He got his own royal suite and joined in on Charlieā€™s lessons, but it still wasnā€™t enough to keep up with his daughterā€™s upbeat attitude every day.
It wasnā€™t enough to help pull him out of his depression until you came along to the hotel.
The moment you stepped into the hotel and greeted Charlie with the same enthusiasm made him smile. It was just another plus that you were a fallen angel, more so a fallen seraphim. And he swore that when you first met his gaze for that split second your eyes glowed pink as he felt his eyes do the same. He thought that would never happen again, but here he stood with an adoring face while you spoke to his daughter like youā€™ve known her since she was a child.
Soon enough, you and Lucifer were introduced to one another properly, the pink glow in both your eyes returning.
ā€œItā€™s nice to meet the head man himself.ā€ You grin as he kisses the back of your hand. ā€œAnd such a gentleman as well.ā€
ā€œWhat can I say? Iā€™m quite the ladies' man.ā€ He winked as he saw you burn bright.
As months passed since your first official interaction, you and Lucifer grew closer, bonding on your similar and different experiences. Whether you bonded over one of Charlieā€™s redemption activities or relaxed in his suite, you both found contentment in each other, letting each other enjoy the company.
ā€œYou know, Iā€™m not going to relax when you keep tugging my book away.ā€ You grab his wrist as he reaches for the book for the nth time in thirty minutes. ā€œIā€™m going to leave your room.ā€
ā€œPlease donā€™t.ā€ He tugged you closer to his side, head resting on your shoulder. ā€œI donā€™t want to move from this spot again.ā€
You tilt your head toward him, eyes glowing a faint pink. ā€œThen let me read.ā€ You let a small smile slip through when he grumbled an incoherent sentence.
Luciferā€™s eyes softened when you returned to read your book, watching your eyes scan the words in front of you. His mind and heart racing a million miles per hour whenever you were around. He couldnā€™t decide what was right. Was his heart telling him to move on? Or was it just aching to be affectionate with another?
The signs were pointing in different ways, but surely the answer was right in front of him. He just had to understand what it was before the magic between you two would fully disappear.
ā€œStaring is highly distracting, Luce.ā€ Your eyes flit up to meet him again. ā€œI canā€™t focus.ā€
ā€œYou must really like me then.ā€ He gave you a cocky grin
You roll your eyes, shutting the book. ā€œYouā€™ve ruined the book for me. Iā€™m never going to finish that book now.ā€
ā€œThat book wasnā€™t good anyways.ā€ He brought the comforter up and over the both of you. He locked his arms around your waist, pulling your back to his front. You felt yourself loosen up by his touch, letting out a small breath of exhaustion. ā€œIā€™m spent after all the bonding activities today, beautiful. I think we can skip our kitchen run tonight and just go to bed.ā€
ā€œWere you really waiting for me to finish reading so we could sleep?ā€ You murmur as you feel him nod. You let out a small laugh, ā€œWow, I would have never stooped so low.ā€
Lucifer shushed you, ā€œIā€™m sleeping, good night.ā€
A soft smile takes over your burning face, turning in his arms to face him. ā€œGood night, Luce.ā€
He didnā€™t say anything else but quietly played with your hair, listening to your steady breathing as sleep consumed you. Lucifer always made sure you fell asleep first, wanting you to get a good night's sleep before he did. Yet, he didnā€™t exactly know when you both went from friends to whatever this was, but he wasnā€™t complaining if he got to see you sleep in his arms every once in a while.
And it wasnā€™t like Lucifer was the only one to notice your unusual relationship with one another. You noticed it as well. From the soft touches to the sleepovers at his suite, you knew it was more than just a simple friendship. But what could you do when he still wore his wedding ring?
ā€œWhatā€™s happening?ā€ You lay your legs across Luciferā€™s lap, taking a glance at the news channel cast upon his suiteā€™s television.
Lucifer rubbed your calf, golden ring a cold contrast to his warm fingers. ā€œTheyā€™re interviewing Charlie for her hotel. They know how the extermination happened this year, so Iā€™m hoping the questions are more targeted toward how her hotel will work than how it was fighting angels.ā€
You frown at the feel of his ring, even more so when he mentions the death of angels. ā€œWhat happened the last time they interviewed her?ā€
He scoffed, ā€œThey were so rude to her. I mean, I understand weā€™re in Hell, but sheā€™s their fucking princess. They only brought down her ideas, not asking enough about how she intends to accomplish redemption. I wish I could have done something back then, you know? Show them why Iā€™m the King of Hell.ā€
You reach across to link a hand with his, giving him a small smile when he meets your glowing pink eyes that match his pair. ā€œLuce, youā€™re a wonderful parent. I know you want to protect your daughter, but itā€™s in the past. She knows you love her and look at you two now! Youā€™re supporting her dreams and whatever lies in store for them.ā€
ā€œThank youā€¦ā€ He felt the golden ring become heavy on his finger, an uncomfortable weight that was never there appearing. ā€œYouā€™re not half bad of a parent yourself.ā€
ā€œWhat?ā€ You let out a confused laugh, thumbing his hand. ā€œIā€™m not anyoneā€™s parent.ā€
ā€œYeah, butā€”ā€œ He gestured toward the television where they switched the camera toward Charlie before switching to a quick commercial break. ā€œā€”You've been more of a mother to Charlie than her biological mother in one year. The second you stepped into this hotel, she lit up around you.ā€ His downturned smile grew bigger when you tilted your head. ā€œCharlie may be a very trusting person, but she knows when someone is going to support her with anything she accomplishes. You were one of those people.ā€
You feel yourself warm at the small confrontation, ā€œIā€™m sure she thinks of me as any other resident at the hotel, Luce. Donā€™t boost my ego, you have enough for the both of us.ā€
ā€œHey now.ā€ He squeezed your leg. ā€œIā€™m being nice, and youā€™re just hurling insults at my face.ā€
ā€œMe? Never.ā€
He continued to rub a small pattern, thoughts running back and forth before turning back to you. ā€œIā€™m serious though. She really loves youā€¦ Almost as much as I do.ā€
Your eyes widened, meeting his eyes that were now glowing a much brighter pink than usual. ā€œYouā€¦ Iā€™m sorry, what did you say?ā€
ā€œI admire you a lot, beautiful.ā€ He confessed, confidence boosting his voice. ā€œEver since I laid my eyes on you, and not just because of your looks. You handled Charlie better than I did in the last seven years, and I couldnā€™t ask for a better person to let her be herself when Iā€™m not around.ā€
Your eyes glowed brighter at his words, squeezing his hand. ā€œLucifer, I admire you as much as you love Charlie, but itā€™s a matter of soulmates versus those of the past.ā€ You gesture toward his ring, pursing your lips at the sight. ā€œAre you sure youā€™re truly ready to move on? From the entire time Iā€™ve known you, youā€™ve never taken that ring off.ā€
ā€œIā€™m sure.ā€ He let his hand holding yours drift up to cradle your cheek, snapping his finger to get rid of the ring and away in his back drawer. ā€œSheā€™s left me for almost a whole decade, I think I have the permission to move on.ā€
You melt into his hand, pressing a soft kiss to his palm. ā€œIf itā€™s what you really want, Luce.ā€
ā€œIt is.ā€ He left a small kiss at your temple. ā€œBecause I know youā€™ll still be with me when all of Hell falls apart and all my magic is gone.ā€
ā€œYouā€™re so cheesy.ā€ You lean back on the couch, letting your head rest on his shoulder. ā€œWill you officially be mine, Lucifer Morningstar?ā€
ā€œAlways, beautiful.ā€ He kept your hands linked as he pressed a promise kiss to your ring finger. ā€œAlways.ā€
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Itā€™s Captain Now | Quinn Hughes
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summary: when you take Quinn out for drinks to celebrate his captains announcement you push his buttons landing you up on his bed.
request: yes/no
warnings: mature themes, p in v, oral (fem and m receiving!), minimal degradation used (slut once), swearing.
word count: 2.59k
authors note: okay so I definitely got carried away with how I wrote Quinn in this but itā€™s for his captaincy so I canā€™t get bashed for going big. Ending is a bit rushed because I want to go to sleep but I wanted this out today. Sort of felt like a full circle moment for those of you that remember the first smut I did on here with Jack and Quinnā€™s best friend so I figured it was only fair to do a Quinn and Jack best friend one šŸ˜­
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Quinnā€™s brain was playing against him tonight.
You looked good in your little blue dress that barely covered your ass as you leaned over the bar counter to get your drinks.
The hockey player had to say that your strict instructions making him stay sat because this was your treat was something that Quinn enjoyed when you sent him a cheeky grin.
He knew it was wrong thinking about you like this, but Quinn knew that there was no other way for him to see you. Not after the summer.
The sound of your laugh erupted through the house as Jack threw you over his shoulder ā€œlet me go Jacky!ā€ You groaned banging your fists on his back.
Quinn looked up from his phone as he heard the noise ā€œcan you not kill her before the rest of the boys get here?ā€ He asked smiling as you were thrown onto the couch next to him.
Your breasts bounced in your bikini making it a sight for sore eyes ā€œyouā€™re no fun now that she lives with you.ā€ Jack pointed out as he sent his brother an irritated look.
However those negative feelings were short lived as the knock at the door pulled the younger Hughes boys attention away from the way you smiled at Quinn ā€œIā€™ll be back.ā€ Jack announced making his way to the door.
The Canucks player had to say that he was surprised when you stayed on the couch with him ā€œdonā€™t you want to see your friends?ā€ Quinn asked cocking his head.
You were quick to shake your head ā€œlike sitting with you,ā€ you reached over to tap his nose letting out a giggle at how he scrunched his face ā€œroomie,ā€ you added using his new nickname.
After you graduated you couldnā€™t find an apartment in Vancouver so Quinn offered you his second bedroom. Not a single thought of hesitation went through your mind when he offered it to you because over your time in Vancouver you grew to love Quinn, in ways you shouldnā€™t love your best friends brother ā€œyou better not be avoiding me y/n!ā€ Trevor called out making you both laugh from the couch.
You got up ā€œwouldnā€™t dream of it ass hat!ā€ You smiled running over to the boys as you left Quinn to watch you get pulled into a hug by the New York native.
As the eldest Hughes boy felt his heart grow green with jealous he knew it only meant one thing, that Quinn Hughes was in love with you.
You snapped your fingers in front of Quinnā€™s face ā€œyou good?ā€ You asked cocking your head as Quinn seemed to come back to you.
His cheeks were red as the image of you in that stupidly small bikini was still in the front of his mind ā€œy-yeahā€¦sorry,ā€ Quinn was quick to apologise as he chugged back some of his beer.
Despite the fact that you knew something was off you decided to not dig into it ā€œhow are you feeling about the news captain?ā€ You smiled innocently as you turned to face him fully.
Quinn felt his jeans tighten as you used his new title ā€œoh my god.ā€ You slapped your hand over your mouth watching him puff out his cheeks.
That was his tell tale sign that he was horny and you had picked up on that years ago ā€œwhat?ā€ Quinn asked when you threw your head back with laughter.
Part of you wondered if you should really let him know ā€œhave you got something you want to tell me captain?ā€ You teased placing your hand on his knee as he repeated his original reaction.
Now Quinn figured out what you were playing at ā€œstop it!ā€ He groaned growing embarrassed.
The teasing didnā€™t stop during the night, in fact it actually got worse. It continued all the way until you two got home ā€œthanks for keeping me company cap,ā€ you wrapped your hand around his arm as you used him for support as you took your heels off.
Just as you were about to walk away Quinn grabbed your hand pulling you back to him. Your body hit his chest before you looked up to him ā€œyou gotta stop saying that to me y/n.ā€ He sighed cupping your cheek as he let the rough pad of his finger rub against the warmth of your skin.
You started to feel bad as you thought it was irritating him ā€œnot when you arenā€™t going do anything about the problem youā€™re causing.ā€ Quinn added letting his voice float to your ear as his bulge rubbed against your thigh.
A groan left your throat as thoughts came through your head ā€œdidnā€™t mean to do that Quinn,ā€ you apologised as your lips formed a pout.
He couldnā€™t stay mad at you for long when your hand trailed up his shorts ā€œā€˜m sorry,ā€ you mumbled palming his cock as the boy stayed silent.
The Canucks player almost drifted off into this state of peace as his eyes went hooded ā€œshould show me just how sorry you are princess.ā€ Quinn gasped forcing the words out of his mouth.
A smile formed on your face ā€œwanna make you feel so good cap,ā€ you cooed bringing your lips to his. The kiss was soft as his hand locked in the back of your hair ā€œstop teasing me then baby, fuck!ā€ Quinn groaned feeling your hand just cup his balls.
You giggled as you dropped to your knees ā€œdo I make you horny Quinn?ā€ You asked hooking your fingers in the waist band of his shorts pulling them down with his pants as you smiled.
His head fell back as your cold fingers wrapped around his cock ā€œso much babyā€ he groaned feeling you kitten lick his tip ā€œdonā€™t deserve to be teased like this.ā€ Quinn added as you looked up at him through your eyelashes.
It felt like pure torture as you drunkenly giggled before you wrapped your lips around his cock ā€œfuck me,ā€ he gasped hearing the sounds of your gags along with your own moans that sent vibrations through his body.
Quinn wrapped his hand around your hair as he forced your throat to take his cock deeper ā€œso good baby.ā€ His praise made you clench your pussy around nothing.
Your hot mouth felt like heaven around his cock ā€œugh Quinn,ā€ your words came out muffled as his cock seemed to swallow them hitting the back of your throat.
All of the tension that had built up in his pants over night were now falling apart as your tongue swirled around him trying to get Quinn to that high as quickly as his whole body tensed ā€œkeep doing so good baby.ā€ The hockey player encouraged you as you continued to gurgle around his cock.
His orgasm hit him like a truck as he almost fell over ā€œso fucking good princess.ā€ It seemed like the boy couldnā€™t settle on a nickname for you as he pulled his cock out from your mouth.
You titled your head up letting your mouth hang open before you swallow his release ā€œgod y/n,ā€ Quinn swore he was on cloud nine as he watched you stick your tongue out now empty.
He held his hand out to help you back up ā€œyou gonna fuck me like a real captain?ā€ You asked grinning from ear to ear.
If Quinn knew that that you were going to be such a brat in the sheets he would have fucked you weeks if not months ago ā€œI gotta taste you first.ā€ Quinn blurted out cupping your cheeks again as he kissed you.
His tongue slid into your mouth letting him taste his release on your tongue as he pushed you all the way back until your knees hit the pillow of the couch sending you both back onto it ā€œyou knew you were gonna get fucked didnā€™t you?ā€ The hockey player asked seeing your blue thong as your dress pushed up around your waist.
Quinn let his fingers run down your stomach stopping at the fabric of your panties picking a side up so it could snap back against your skin ā€œasked you a question princess.ā€ He muttered pulling the underwear down your legs painfully slowly ā€œhoped you would fuck me Quinn,ā€ you confessed arching your back into the couch.
You should have been embarrassed with how wet you were as Quinn stared down down at your soaked pussy ā€œyou know thatā€™s not my name tonight baby.ā€ Quinn mumbled laying his tongue down flat as he lick a stripe up your folds.
Your hands went to his hair ā€œsorry cap,ā€ you were quick to apologise as he smirked to himself ā€œwonā€™t make that mistake again,ā€ you added puffing your cheeks out as Quinn took his two fingers and ran them over your clit a few times before he thrusted them inside of you.
The hockey player locked his eyes with yours ā€œknow you wonā€™t because youā€™re my good girl right?ā€ Quinn asked before he latched his lips around your clit.
It was quick to make you jump forward with pleasure as you gasped ā€œfucking hell cap,ā€ you groaned running your fingers over your chest.
The matching blue bra was seen thrown across the room as you let your fingers trace over the stiff peaks that your nipples had formed ā€œplease let me come,ā€ you begged knowing that you werenā€™t going to last long with how turned on you were when you sucked Quinn off.
He groaned sending shivers up your spine ā€œI promise Iā€™ll be your good girl.ā€ You nodded to yourself as you pulled at his hair trying to get him closer to your core than he already was.
It seemed that Quinnā€™s brain was telling his tongue to treat you like you were meant to be his last meal ā€œdonā€™t stop,ā€ you groaned grinding your hips against his face as your thighs began to grow shaky.
Knowing that he was the one causing you to let out those moans and it wasnā€™t that little black vibrator that you hide in your makeup drawer was a total boost to Quinnā€™s ego ā€œgotta ask for it like a good girl.ā€ He mumbled somehow having you hear his words perfectly as he went back to sucking your clit whilst his fingers get your pussy occupied.
You were surprised you could even get the words out ā€œplease let me come captain.ā€ You begged digging your hips into the couch ā€œI promise Iā€™ll be your good girl as you fuck me.ā€ Those words caused him to grunt and that set off your orgasm.
Now Quinn wasnā€™t a cruel man, he wasnā€™t going to stop you because he said no. Instead he was going to fuck you through it and make you pay afterwards ā€œshit Quinn!ā€ You cried leaving that as the real cherry on top of the cake as he retracted his fingers from your pussy.
You were in trouble now ā€œget up,ā€ Quinnā€™s tone was serious making you listen to him quickly ā€œwhy?ā€ You asked following his request.
Quinn glared as he reached behind you to grab a handful of your ass ā€œyou didnā€™t listen to me baby so now I have to punish you,ā€ he sighed softly slapping the your skin.
It was hard to concentrate as you rubbed your thighs together trying to alleviate some of the pleasure you felt ā€œso go get naked and wait for me on the bed.ā€ With that Quinn sent you off to his bed room leaving you oozing with anticipation as you got rid of your your dress laying down on his bed just like he wanted you.
But of course the moment Quinn saw you he had other ideas ā€œface down baby, ass up.ā€ He barked causing you to roll over onto your stomach as you heard him get rid of his T-shirt as it fell to the ground.
Quinn had to admit that you being so responsive to him was earning you some brownie points ā€œnow you know how to be a good girl for me huh?ā€ He asked cocking his head as he joined you on his bed quickly reaching into the drawer for a condom.
All you could do was nod as you tried to hold back a squeal of excitement ā€œplease fuck me captain.ā€ You begged feeling his hands wrap around your hips as his fingers dug into your sides.
There was no doubt about it that your were ready and Quinn was done waiting. So he took his covered cock as he ran it over your clit a few times before he thrusted inside of your pussy. The angle was perfect for him as it like his cock get wrapped up by your tight little cunt ā€œbaby ready to by my dumb little cock slut?ā€ He asked thrusting his cock at a painfully slow pace as the hockey player continued to bottom you out.
Your whimpers practically lit Quinnā€™s skin of fire ā€œyes cap, Iā€™ll whatever you want.ā€ You pleaded just wanting him to move faster.
Thankfully for you it didnā€™t take him long as those words seemed to trigger a switch in his head causing him to listen to you ā€œso fucking good.ā€ Quinn groaned letting his lower half do most of the work as he let his one hand reach down to rub your clit ā€œif you behave for now on you might even be allowed to come without permission.ā€ The hockey player proposed enjoying how your ass looked bouncing against his lower torso as your pussy swallowed his cock.
It felt like he was on cloud nine ā€œwanna be your best girl,ā€ you cried out feeling your eyes flutter as the boy continued to bottom you out.
He managed to hit spots that no dildo could dream of ā€œyou are my only girl baby,ā€ Quinn cooed squeezing his face like he had eaten something sour as your pussy hadnā€™t stopped clenching around his cock.
The sound of skin slapping only added another layer of pleasure for both of you as the room went silent with you both trying to focus on only one thing ā€œcā€™mon cap please,ā€ you begged feeling like your legs were going to give out from under you.
Quinn smiled as he used his other hand to reach down and tease your breast as he remembered you doing it early ā€œoh shit,ā€ you swore feeling it.
The hockey player pressed warm kisses up your neck stopping by your ear ā€œbe my good girl and come for me.ā€ Quinn mumbled letting his hot breath fan against your ear.
That was all it took for you to come as your body dropped to the mattress as you shuddered letting your hands grab at the comforter beneath you ā€œso fucking good baby,ā€ he cooed helping you through your orgasm as his own was caused by that.
Quinn pulled out of you with heavy breathing as he lay down next to you, with the little energy you had left you turned to look up at him ā€œyou okay?ā€ The hockey player asked brushing your hair out of your face.
You nodded as you let out a yawn ā€œletā€™s run you a bath,ā€ he mumbled scooping up your body like you were a child.
Your hand went to his jaw as you squeezed it forcing him to look at you ā€œfor us,ā€ you corrected Quinn as you smiled watching him shut the bathroom door behind you two.
Now this is how you spend your first official day as captain of an NHL team.
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Survivors
Evan Buckley x reader
summary You're taking care of Christopher when Buck comes home, looking absolutely drained and in shock and goes straight to Christophers room. You overhear the news and make sure to care for both Chris and Buck.
word count 1639
tags pretty much episode 14 season 4, Eddie gets shot but it's not described, Buck is sad :(, Chris being the precious kid he is
a/n the way I sat there in silence when Eddie got shot is crazy. Like first they hurt us with Athena and Bobby's fight and then one second passes and Eddie (my bb) gets shot I'm so confused šŸ˜­ anyway I couldn't take it when I saw bucks reaction so I wrote a fix it for me. Also I screen recorded off of an illegal site to make gifs LMAO
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You're washing the dishes when the front door opens and closes, footsteps echoing through the hallway and living room - right past the kitchen.
ā€œEddie?ā€ You call and the steps stop. Instead of the man you'd expected there's your husband, Buck. He looks distraught, eyes bloodshot and lips bitten raw. What the hell happened? He doesn't even really look at you, it's like he's looking through you. ā€œBuck? You okay?ā€
He licks his lips and blinks a few times but he doesn't reply. He walks straight to Christopher's bedroom, you following after him in confusion and worry. Why was he alone and why did he look like he'd seen a ghost or worse?
He stops before entering Chrisā€™ room, but not to wait for permission to come in but more like hesitancy. He balls his hand into a fist and takes a deep breath before walking in. You take his spot in the doorway and watch with a worried frown as Buck squats down in front of Chris who's sitting on his bed, playing a video game.
ā€œWhere's Dad?ā€ Buck looks down and you see him swallow again before he looks into the kids eyes. ā€œHe's.. not coming home tonight, Chris.ā€
Chris seems almost unbothered by it but considering that Eddie had to stay in the hospital overnight almost regularly due to his job, it was a reasonable reaction. But Buck doesn't seem to think the same and shakes his head minimally.
ā€œDid he get hurt? In a fire?ā€ Chris inquires and Buck turns his head to the side and slowly shakes it in negation. Before explaining it he sits down next to Chris and pinches the bridge of his nose, frowning. ā€œNo, not- not in a fire.ā€ He takes another deep breath before continuing, ā€œThe truth is someone hurt your Dad.ā€
It's been a while since you've heard his voice so sullen and raspy from crying - probably since the last visit from his parents and that was weeks ago now. You slowly and quietly come into the room as well, standing at the foot of the bed and next to Buck with his back turned to you.
He regards you with a short glance before focusing back on Christopher, confirming his question, ā€œYeah, a bad guy.ā€
You see him reach up and wipe under his eyes, frowning in empathy as you put your hand between his shoulder blades and slowly move it up and down in hopes to calm him down a bit.
ā€œIs he gonna be okay?ā€ Chris asks and you're glad he did because you want to know too. Buck looks at him again and nods. ā€œYour Dad is tough. He's a fighter.ā€
ā€œHe's with the doctors now? The ones that fixed you?ā€ Chris inquires and Buck nods. You see the conflict on his face before the ten year old nods, ā€œThen he's gonna be fine.ā€ You hum and Buck glances your way before focusing back on Chris. Just as he's about to say something his phone pings twice and he looks down at it.
Over his shoulder you see the message as well, stemming from Bobby.
Out of surgery. Doctors say it went well.
Your heart basically drops in relief and Bucks seems to as well when his phone drops from his hand and he pretty much caves in, dropping his chin to his chest as he sniffles and exhales deeply.
You thread your hand in his hair and he automatically leans into you, resting against your stomach as he starts to cry. His hands grasp at your hips before his arms wrap around you and he sobs.
ā€œShh, it's okay, baby. Eddie's gonna be fine. Right, Chris? Your dad's strong.ā€
The young boy nods and you smile assuringly as he reaches out and wraps his arm around Bucks shoulders to pat his back. You melt at the sight and ruffle his hair which he usually doesn't like - only his dad is allowed to - but now he just looks at you with worry and confusion.
ā€œHow about you go and get ready for bed, hm?ā€ It's not a question and it is a reasonable time for him to head to bed anyway, so he complies and slowly walks to the bathroom.
When he's out of earshot you sit next to Buck and let him fully wrap his arms around you and put his head on your chest as he cries. ā€œH-He got shot right in front of me,ā€ he starts with hitching breaths. ā€œHe just dropped and his blood was all over me-ā€ he sobs deeply and you kiss his head while trying to process this yourself. He got shot?
ā€œYou couldn't have prevented it, love. He's gonna be fine. Eddie survived a lot, he's going to pull through this time, too.ā€ Buck shakes his head and pulls back enough to look at you, blue eyes glossy and chin quivering as he gasps between another sob.
ā€œIt shouldn't have been him!ā€ This devastates you and you cup his face in your hands, your worried expression replaced by a stern one. ā€œIt shouldn't have been anyone. Not him and not you, either. You hear me?ā€
He whimpers and you sigh, wiping your thumbs under his eyes and placing a long, soft kiss on his birthmark. ā€œAs soon as we can, we'll go visit him. But now you have to be strong, for Christopher. He looks up to you, if he sees you sad he'll be sad, too. Let's get him to bed, and I'll take care of you after.ā€
You take his hand and put it over your heart, exaggerating your breaths so he could match his and calm down. Right when he does he opens his eyes again and his frown fades enough to only be barely visible. ā€œā€˜m sorry.ā€
The shake of your head is immediate, shutting up any further apologies. ā€œNo. It's good to let it out. I'm here so you can do exactly that if you need to. I love you, Evan. Nothing's gonna change that.ā€
He pulls his hand from your chest and tangles it with yours instead, gently kissing your knuckles and then your inner wrist.
He used to hate his name after it reminded him of his parents- of how they treated him. It reminds him of a life where he had to endure pain to receive love and attention.
But when you say it, it makes his heart beat faster in a good way. It makes him want to move on from his trauma or at least learn to deal with it.
And moreover it makes him feel validated. With you, he's not just Buck. He's also vulnerable, emotional and a bit cheesy. He's Evan. Evan, who's had more jobs in more cities than he can count on one hand because he was trying to find his place in the world. Evan, who likes the ocean but has been uneasy around it ever since the tsunami.
You smile lovingly and peck his forehead just as Chris comes back inside. He's wearing some dino pajamas and you ā€˜ohhā€™ at him which makes him giggle and turn as if to show off his outfit.
You move up from the bed - Buck going with you and standing at the foot of it - and untuck the bedsheets. ā€œGet in there.ā€ Chris grins and lays down, letting you tuck him in.
ā€œDon't be sad, kid.ā€ He says to Buck, who tries and fails to hide a new round of tears building up in his eyes. You had no clue where and why Chris sometimes calls Buck or even Eddie ā€˜kidā€™ but both of them seemed to love it.
ā€œI'm just a bit worried for your Dad. But he'll be fine,ā€ he adds the last part when you glance at him warningly, not wanting Chris to worry, and smiles. ā€œGoodnight, bud.ā€
You leave his nightlight on and the door open as you leave.
Buck settles on the couch and watches as you approach and stand in front of him.
He leans back into the couch and looks at you with those puppy dog eyes that make you melt every single time he looks at you. Damn him and his beautiful eyes.
ā€œI'm really scared. I don't know what I would do without himā€¦ when he laid there and looked at me, I-ā€ he inhales sharply and looks at his hands, picking at his nails and reopening an old abrasion in the process.
You take his hand into each of yours to stop him and sigh, ā€œI think you're gonna have to move from monthly sessions to biweekly, babe.ā€ You know his therapy has been helping him a lot and you're glad he's working on coping with his trauma, but this addition is going to complicate not just his home life but also work - especially when Eddie comes back.
He groans and pulls you down until you're sitting on his lap, knees on either side of his thighs and his hands on your hips. ā€œI appreciate your help, lovie, but just let me try and rest a little right now, please?ā€
You smile and card a hand through hair, moving to get off his lap so he could get comfortable on the couch. ā€œWhere do you think you're going?ā€ He huffs and you're pushed onto your back before he's leaning over you, laying between your legs.
ā€œYou're gonna use me as your pillow?ā€ You prompt and he nods, laying his head on your shoulder and nuzzling his nose into your neck and against your pulse point. You're familiar with his constant search for proof that you're alive and well; you supposed it comes from not just the job but his abandonment issues, too.
It didn't matter to you though, as long as you got to hold him at the end of the day you'd let him maneuver you into whatever way made him happy.
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if you lie down with me || e.w.
summary: there's one thing you and ellie don't have in common: immunity.
warnings: not beta read, swearing, blood, canon typical violence, death by suicide, ellie has concerning ideations, smut, oral, scissoring, multiple orgasms, angst!, crying during sex, arguing, probably more
word count: 6k
a/n: i know, i'm sorry for using this photo šŸ˜­ actually i'm sorry i wrote this entire thing
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The end never feels like the end, does it? When you wake in the morning, the air is as fresh as the day before and the sun streams through the window at the same angle. You smile fondly at the incessant banging on your door, and at her urging tone when she tells you to get out of bed. ā€œWe have patrol,ā€ she says, like she's said a thousand times before. What makes today any different?Ā 
The gravel road feels the same as it crunches under your boots as she leads you to the gate. Her auburn hair shines the same in the light, the same way you've admired since you were fourteen and she had just settled in Jackson.Ā 
You were helping out in the library, arms full of books stacked above your head. You struggled trying to keep them up with one hand and shelve them with the other. She noticed you from the corner, where she sat with a pile of beaten comics and a Walkman. ā€œNeed some help?ā€ she asked, standing up from her spot on the ground. She took half the books from your pile and put them wherever you told her. After, when you asked her about the comics she was reading, her face lit up and she knew that you'd be a part of her life until death. Finally, someone was interested in knowing her.Ā 
The friendly faces of the watchmen at the gate were the same as they were yesterday, a week ago, a month ago, a year. They waved at you and wished you good luck as you mounted your horse and rode alongside Ellie onto the trail. The way she shoved her pistol in her back pocket and slung her bow over her shoulders was always the same. The way your horse galloped evenly alongside Shimmer did not deviate from the norm.Ā 
When she spoke up, her words were usual.Ā 
ā€œLook, babe. A hummingbird,ā€ she said with glee, pointing to the frosty trees.
You smiled at her excitement. ā€œPoor thing, it's so cold out.ā€
ā€œDon't you remember?ā€
ā€œOf course I remember, El,ā€ you laughed. ā€œHow could I forget?ā€
How could you forget? It was a humid summer afternoon, shortly after Ellie had turned sixteen. You had snuck out of Jackson to explore a creek you had found the day prior on group patrol. You so badly wanted to show Ellie, to share every part of you with her. You didn't know what to call it, but you assumed it was just because you were really good friends.Ā 
The soft rush of the water and the gentle breeze across your skin contrasted to the beating sun plastering your hair to your skin. You and Ellie sat with your backs against a wide oak, watching minnows skip through the water.Ā 
ā€œDo you think animals have feelings? Like us?ā€ Ellie thought out loud.Ā 
You hummed, ā€œI do, but not as complicated as ours.ā€Ā 
She nodded in agreement before her eyes drifted to the source of a new sound, a gentle humming. She saw the gentle bird sucking nectar from a flower, tapping your shoulder gently and pointing.Ā 
ā€œLook, a hummingbird,ā€ she whispered.
ā€œWoah!ā€ You beamed, ā€œIā€™ve only seen them in those nature books in the library. That's so cool. Did you know the sound actually comes from its wings?ā€Ā 
As you watched the hummingbird, she watched you. ā€œItā€™s really pretty.ā€
You agreed. She said your name, but looked away from you.Ā 
ā€œYeah?ā€
ā€œI think I like girls.ā€
You let the words settle in the air.Ā 
ā€œI think I do too.ā€
It was the first indication that something else could happen between you and her, something less platonic than you would've thought. After that, neither of you said anything about it, confident in the fact that something more could exist in the spaces between.Ā 
It was the same confidence you had today as you followed her through the Wyoming woods, putting your trust in her. You took the same path almost every time you went out on patrol, knowing your way around, knowing the landmarks of the area. You knew you were getting close to the danger zone when you saw your favourite tree, the one you and Ellie would lean against by the creek, telling each other secrets into the night, crossing your heart to never tell another soul. Each of you knew that the otherā€™s soul was the only one that mattered, anyways.Ā 
It was just over a year ago that youā€™d both carved your initials into that tree, reminders of that early morning on patrol bringing a smile to your face.Ā 
You had stopped for a moment to take a short break against the tree, letting your horses get some rest. Ellie leaned up against the tree as you pet Shimmer. The sun shone despite the snow and the brisk weather, illuminating your features gently. She admired the curve of your lips and the shape of your eyes, imagining her fingers tracing your skin under lamplight late at night. You looked up at her when your name tumbled from her lips.Ā 
ā€œYeah?ā€ You said, continuing to pet Shimmer.
ā€œI like you.ā€
The air stilled and your hand faltered, breath hitching. But what if she didnā€™t mean it like that?Ā 
You forced a laugh. ā€œWell, Iā€™d hope so. Weā€™ve been friends for how long?ā€
ā€œNo, Iā€¦ā€ she struggled for the right words. ā€œI want to be more than friends. I like you. Likeā€¦romantically. And stuff.ā€
She played with her fingers, shuffling her feet back and forth in the snow, not meeting your gaze.Ā 
ā€œEllie, look at me. Please,ā€ you whispered. She raised her eyes to yours, but still kept her head low, not bringing it up until your hand cupped her jaw. She moved her hand on top of yours, trapping it there, wondering if it was just a dream.Ā 
She closed her eyes tight when she saw you leaning in, praying that you weren't messing with her. When she finally felt your lips ghosting across hers, she leaned into you. Your touch was fire on her skin, leaving a red blush in its wake. She pressed your mouth to hers hungrily, never wanting this to end.Ā 
ā€œI like you too,ā€ you mumbled against her lips.Ā 
When you finally broke for air, chests heaving, you were both beaming. Ellie nervously reached into her pocket for her pocket knife, flicking it open. She held the blade against the bark of the tree, grabbing our hand and putting it on the hilt, sliding hers over top of it.Ā 
She guided your hand as you carved your initials into the tree, trapping them inside of a heart. It was cliche, but it meant everything to you.Ā 
It was the same tree that, a year later, you and Ellie passed on almost every patrol. The same tree that symbolized your everlasting love for each other. The same tree that stood since the dawn of your and Ellieā€™s time.Ā 
You rode casually in comfortable silence until you got to the watchtower, negative memories plaguing both you and Ellie. The floorboards still held the echoes of your voices yelling, still soaked in your tears.Ā 
Four months ago, when the rabbits were still brown and the path was clear of snow, you'd come through this watchtower to find two clickers. It caught you both off guard, as Jesse and Dina had just cleared it as safe the day before.Ā 
Ellie, always being the hero, snuck up behind one, taking it out easily, and lunged at the other. The second one, however, pinned her to the ground, and she held it by the neck, its arms clawing hers.Ā 
The sound of your pistol rang out as the body slumped on top of Ellie. She rolled it off and got up from the ground, chest heaving.Ā 
ā€œWell,ā€ she said, brushing dirt from her jeans, ā€œthat was pretty close. Thanks.ā€
When you didn't respond, she turned to see you standing with your pistol still in both hands, brows furrowed as you watched the dead body of the clicker intently. She called your name.Ā 
ā€œWhat is it?ā€
You shook your head.Ā 
ā€œCome on, tell me-ā€
ā€œEvery fucking time, Ellie,ā€ you said, shoving your pistol back in your pocket and turning away from her. ā€œWhy do you have to run head-first into danger like that every time?ā€
She didn't say anything, gaze on your back as she watched you turn back around.Ā 
ā€œWhat would I have done if you had gotten bit?ā€ You said, voice a little watery. ā€œSay something.ā€
She stumbled over her words, not knowing what to say. ā€œI don't try to, you know, itā€™s justā€¦ā€ she sighed.
ā€œYou know, Ellie, sometimes I think that I value your life more than you do.ā€
The words hung in the air between you two, both of you knowing that you were right. Knowing that she could've been more, done so much more, saved so many people. But she was stripped of that. So what kind of meaning could she give to her life? What did she really have to live for? Before Joel, she never really had someone she knew would care if she died. Now she had you, and she didn't know how her recklessness would affect you. Now she did.Ā 
ā€œOkay, you're right. Iā€™m too reckless. Iā€™m sorry. I promise Iā€™ll start thinking before I react,ā€ she said, voice softening.Ā 
You huffed, ā€œI just worry about you, El. I don't know what Iā€™d do without you.ā€
She hugged you tight, letting you nuzzle into her chest. She knew how you felt. Before you, she was hopeless. She didn't see a point in doing anything if her life couldn't be used by someone. What was it all for? Everything she'd struggled through? All she'd suffered?Ā 
Now she knew that she was forced to experience it all so that she could end up with you. And sheā€™d do it a million times over.Ā 
She breathed your name. ā€œI need to tell you something.ā€
You pulled away from her, ā€œWell that's one way to start a conversation.ā€
She laughed nervously. ā€œNo, it's nothing bad. It's justā€¦it might be hard to swallow.ā€
She gestured at an old, ratty chair. You sat and watched her intently.Ā 
She took a deep breath, drawing it into her lungs and releasing it. ā€œDo you remember why I got my tattoo?ā€
ā€œYeah, to cover up that chemical burn.ā€
ā€œI lied,ā€ she said. ā€œThat's not why I got the tattoo.ā€
You furrowed your brows in confusion, silently begging her to go on.Ā 
ā€œWhen I was fourteen, I was bitten. On my arm.ā€
You sat back in your chair.Ā 
ā€œI waited and waited for my mind to go, for my body to go, for anything to happen, but it never did. Soā€¦Iā€™m immune, or whatever,ā€ she said, searching for a reaction.Ā 
Seconds of silence passed. It was shattered with a laugh.
ā€œThat's a good one, Ellie. Real funny.ā€
ā€œItā€™s true! Ask Joel. Tommy. Maria. They're the only ones who knowā€¦ā€
ā€œAnd you expect me to believe this?ā€
ā€œJust trust me. Please. It's all I ask, is for you to trust my word. Why would I lie to you about this?ā€ She pleaded.Ā 
ā€œWhy didn't you tell me before?ā€
ā€œBecause Joel thinks it's dangerous for people to know. That's how we met, you know. He was hired to get me to the firefliesā€¦they were going to make a cure,ā€ she said, voice trailing off towards the end.Ā 
ā€œIt didn't work, I take it?ā€
She shook her head. ā€œJoel says they didn't need me.ā€ Joel says.Ā 
ā€œOkay,ā€ you said, making her look up at you. ā€œI believe you. But that doesn't mean Iā€™m fine with you running head-first into infected like that again. Just because you'reā€¦immune, doesn't mean you can't be torn apart. Got it?ā€
ā€œGot it,ā€ she said, crouching in front of you and putting her hands on your thighs. ā€œGod, I love you.ā€
You cleared out the watchtower and made your way back to the path. This part was one of your favourites, winding through the mountains. Your horses trotted casually beside each other.Ā 
ā€œOkay, okay, here's one: What do you say when a chef dies?ā€Ā 
ā€œOh god, I don't know?ā€
ā€œHe pasta-way!ā€ She said, giggling before she could even say the answer.Ā 
Her laughter was contagious, sending it bubbling through your chest. ā€œThat's so bad that it's good.ā€
ā€œCome on, just admit that Iā€™m a top-notch comedian. If the world wouldn't have ended, Iā€™dā€™ve been up there with Dave Chapelle.ā€
ā€œWhoā€™s Dave Chapelle?ā€
ā€œI don't actually know. Some old ass comedian Joel told me about.ā€
You both laughed, smiles painted across your faces. However, the giggles subsided as you felt your horse start to shake slightly.Ā 
ā€œWoah, Shimmer, you okay girl?ā€ Ellie said, patting her side.Ā 
ā€œBeauā€™s shaking too.ā€
ā€œMaybe theyā€™ve gotā€¦I don't know, a cold or something? Can horses even get colds?ā€ You shrugged. ā€œMaybe we should let them rest for a bit.ā€
You agreed, dismounting your horse and planting your feet on the ground. The shaking underneath you didnā€™t stop. You looked at Ellie, who looked at the mountain behind you. She yelled your name as you looked behind you.
A loud, grating noise sounded as you watched the earth of the mountain loosen from its side, rocks and boulders tumbling from it, falling in your direction.Ā 
You hurriedly mounted your horses again, kicking their ribs to get them to go. You rode as fast as you could, attempting to beat the oncoming landslide. You'd never seen one before, only heard stories and read of them in books. You were about three quarters of the way through the mountain range when the land detached from the mountain and began to slide.Ā 
ā€œGo, go, go!ā€ You yelled, Ellie a few feet ahead of you as her horse was younger than Beau. She glanced behind her every few seconds to make sure you were still there.Ā 
The rocks falling created a settlement of dust around you, making it increasingly harder to breathe. You finally saw the green clearing outside of the mountain range. Almost there.Ā 
The grating noise died, and you peered behind you to see the path completely covered in rubble. A few boulders still tumbled from the mountain, or whatever was left of it.Ā 
ā€œWatch out!ā€ Ellie yelled. You looked to your right, seeing a massive boulder rolling down the mountain, coming right for you.Ā 
You acted before you could think, much like Ellie, and propelled yourself forward off your horse as the boulder hit Beau and rolled atop of his body. You landed on the ground near Ellie, propping yourself up on your elbows to gawk at the sight.Ā 
ā€œOh my god,ā€ you whispered, running to Beau. His body was mangled, bones sticking out of the skin and blood painting the grass. You felt like vomiting.Ā 
Ellie dismounted her horse, still shaking from the adrenaline, and put her hands on your shoulders, attempting to get you standing.Ā 
ā€œWait,ā€ you said, leaning back down, planting a teary kiss on Beau's muzzle.Ā 
You stood, holding her tight. ā€œLet's never come through here again.ā€
ā€œDon't think we can, sweetheart,ā€ she said, looking back at the obstruction. ā€œCome on, we've gotta find a new way back home.ā€
She was about to help you mount Shimmer when you both froze in your tracks. A low, husky groan rung out through the air, scaring Shimmer. She ran into the clearing out of fright.Ā 
ā€œShit,ā€ Ellie breathed.Ā 
ā€œWeā€™ll find her later. Come on, we have to go. It's either a bloater or a shambler, and I don't really want to stick around to find out.ā€Ā 
You turned to leave when the ground shook again. You turned around, looking back at the mountain. It wasn't the mountain shaking this time. Spewing through the hole the landslide left like spiders were hundredsā€”if not thousandsā€”of infected. Clickers, runners, stalkers, bloaters, shamblers. Everything.Ā 
There was no way you were making it out of this unless you legged it now.Ā 
In unison, you and Ellie started sprinting to your last checkpointā€” the old cabin. You ran faster than you ever had before, the sounds of hungry infected hot on your heels. You couldn't feel your legs, the burning in your flesh too intense. When the cabin finally came into view, you couldn't even allow yourself a breath of relief. You and Ellie had your guns out, shooting behind you as you ran, picking off as many infected as you could. When you were close enough to the cabin, the idea hit you. You knew that the creaky boards of the cabin wouldn't hold that many infected off. You knew what you had to do.Ā 
ā€œEllie, cover me!ā€ You yelled as you slung your backpack off your shoulder and grabbed what you'd need. You grabbed an old bottle of whiskey you and Ellie had found at the watchtower and a rag. Stuffing the rag in the bottle, you lit it with your lighter.Ā 
In the ten seconds it took you to do this, the infected crept closer and closer to you. Ellie tried picking off as many as she could, keeping them away from you. Until her magazine ran out.Ā 
You threw the molotov in front of the hoard of infected. It exploded, creating a wall of fire between you and your death.Ā 
Until a single clicker went at you from the side. The light of the fire flickered in your irises and cast an orange glow across your face, and you didn't even hear it creeping up amidst the roar of the flames. You didn't even hear Ellie yell your name.Ā 
It tackled you to the ground before you could even turn your head all the way, talons scratching your arms and legs, sinking into your stomach. Its jaw was inches away from your neck, begging to gnaw on your jugular. In the struggle for your life, you couldn't even tell where you were and weren't hurt, what was bleeding and what wasn't.Ā 
Blood gushed into your hair and eyes as you watched Ellie slice its head clean off with her pocketknife. The same one you'd carved your initials into that old oak with.Ā 
Something inside of you rattled knowing that something could be used so innocently and yet so dangerously.Ā 
Ellie picked you up from the ground and helped you limp into the cabin, reeds of grass tickling your wounds. When you entered, you stood in the centre of the room as she barricaded the entrances.Ā 
ā€œThere,ā€ she said, returning to you. You were both coming off adrenaline, suddenly feeling the ache in your bones to an indescribable extent.Ā 
You put your hands on your knees and leaned on them, heaving a little. ā€œEllie. We were so close.ā€
She just nodded in understanding. Her eyes survey you from top to bottom. You had a scratch across your cheek, a few minor lacerations across your arms and chest, and a few on your legs. She couldn't see any bites.Ā 
You brought your right arm up to run it shakily through your hair. That's when she saw it, brutal and bloody, painted into your skin like a brand. One that would decide your fate. Except that it had already been decided.Ā 
The sight of the bite on your forearm turned her stomach. She blinked over and over again, hoping that she was seeing wrong. Maybe she was still coming off of adrenaline. ā€œYour armā€¦ā€ she breathed.Ā 
ā€œWhat?ā€ You asked, confused. You looked over your left, then your right, andā€¦oh. ā€œOh.ā€
The silence was deafening. It wasn't like you'd been badly injured, still with a sliver of possibility for recovery. No, this bite sealed your fate.Ā 
In the next day, you were going to become something Ellie had to detest. Something she had to kill.Ā 
You felt the bile rise in your throat just in time to grab a decayed flower pot. You choked out everything in your stomach and more.
Ellie grabbed her stomach as she felt her body start to shake, that feeling creeping up her spine again. Her breath felt like it was being siphoned out of her. She needed air, but her lungs would not take any in. She hyperventilated as she threw herself back against the wall, legs giving out.Ā 
A sweat broke out across her body, knowing that she's losing you tonight.Ā 
Her mind shoved memories into her vision that she swore to never bring up again.Ā 
ā€œThere're a million ways we should've died before today. And a million ways we can die before tomorrow. But we fightā€¦for every second we get to spend with each other. Whether it's two minutesā€¦or two days. We don't give that up.ā€
She remembers the small, impossible slice of hope in Rileyā€™s eyes, one that she knew was futile. Riley was her first love. She thought they were both going to die. She feltā€¦horrible. You would be her last love, though she knew only you were fated to die. She knew she would die too.Ā 
Your voice calling her name broke her out of her fit. One look at you wiping your face and shaking was enough to make her want to break something, anything.Ā 
ā€œEllie,ā€ you called. She stood and began pacing, running her hands over her face. ā€œEllie, stop it.ā€
ā€œThere's gotta beā€¦there has toā€¦we needā€¦ā€ she babbled, still pacing. An idea clicked, ā€œgive me your arm.ā€
You held out your shaking arm to your lover, expecting her to inspect the area. Instead, she took out her pocket knife and pressed the blade into her hand without any hesitation.Ā 
ā€œEllie! What the fuck?!ā€ You said, trying to stop her hand from bleeding.Ā 
ā€œGive me your arm,ā€ she said firmly, a major contrast from before. When you hesitated, her hard gaze met yours. Her eyes softened when she saw the fear in your eyes. ā€œPlease,ā€ she whispered.Ā 
You gave her your arm and let her rub her blood into the bite.Ā 
She took your arm and rubbed the blood into the bite knowing it wouldnā€™t work.Ā 
It wouldn't work on you.Ā 
She knew that.Ā 
She tried anyway.
As she massaged the blood as deep into the wound as she could get, all she could think about was that she would've been able to save you if they made the cure. Her life would've had meaning, so much meaning. She would've been able to cure you from this. But she was helpless, cursed to watch you suffer.Ā 
ā€œEllie,ā€ you said, putting your hand atop hers to get her to stop and look at you. She could see in your eyes that you just needed to be close to her in that moment. She needed it too, needed to be impossibly closer as to grip into you forever.Ā 
She buried her head into your neck and you did the same, holding your breath. For if you breathed, time would pass. If time passed, you'd be gone.Ā 
You don't know how long you held each other like that, but it was long enough that your legs nearly collapsed with exhaustion. You were the first to speak.Ā 
ā€œI need you to promise me something,ā€ you whispered.Ā 
Ellie knew what you were going to say before the words left your mouth.Ā 
ā€œNo-ā€ she began pulling away from you, but you squeezed her tighter.Ā 
ā€œWhen it starts to happenā€¦when I can feel it, Iā€™m going to take my gun-ā€
ā€œStop it-ā€
ā€œ-and Iā€™m going to go outside. Youā€™ll know it's over-ā€
ā€œ-Stop-ā€
ā€œ-when you hear it. Just promise me you won't look.ā€
ā€œStop, please,ā€ she begs, tears brimming in her eyes again. She takes a step back from you and turns around.Ā 
ā€œPromise me.ā€
The words get caught in her throat. Her lip trembles. ā€œOkay.ā€
Outside, rain starts to fall softly, tapping against the rotting wood of the cabin.Ā 
She breaks the new silence. ā€œI should've been there. I should've taken my rifle out, anything-ā€
ā€œEl, it's not your fault. Look at me,ā€ you say. She looks at you over her shoulder. You nearly crumble at her red eyes and wet cheeks. ā€œNever blame yourself. You hear me?ā€
She just squeezes her eyes shut, willing for this to all go away.Ā 
You walk to her, putting your hands on her shoulders and leaning your forehead against her back. You tried not to look at the bite.Ā 
ā€œEllie.ā€
ā€œYeah.ā€
ā€œWill you give me one last good night?ā€
The soft pattering of the rain against the wood, trickling off the roof and into the ground.Ā 
ā€œPlease?ā€
She says nothing, instead turning around and gently capturing your lips in a kiss. Your bloodied hands find her wet cheeks, noting that the tears haven't stopped.Ā 
Ellie wanted to give you everything you wanted and more, and she had sworn she would from the moment she met you. If this was the last thing you ever asked from her, she would give it to you.Ā 
But it was so unbelievably hard knowing that this time would be your last.Ā 
She pushed you back against the wall, nearly devouring you. The salty mix of your tears and hers slipped into the kiss, but you didn't care. She moved her hand down to cup you where you wanted her.
You bucked your hips into the friction, already needing her. You began to undo your belt, but Ellieā€™s hand on your wrist stopped you.Ā 
ā€œAre you sure this is what you want?ā€ She said, voice gravelly.Ā 
ā€œYes, El,ā€ you said. ā€œI don't know where Iā€™ll be tomorrow, orā€¦what Iā€™ll be,ā€ she let out a shaky breath, ā€œbut I know I want to be with you right now.ā€
She sniffled and nodded, getting on her knees to take your belt off. She threw it to the side, unbuttoning your jeans, sliding them down along with your panties. You opened your legs wider for her.
She ran two fingers through your slit before sinking one into your hole, tongue giving kitten licks to your folds.Ā 
You could tell that she wasn't going to be as vocal as usual.Ā 
You couldn't really blame her.Ā 
You whimpered as she added another finger, pumping them in and out of you, filling the air with obscene sounds. She lapped at your cunt, trying her hardest to give you what you want.Ā 
ā€œEllie, don't stop,ā€ you moaned, whimpering when she used her other arm to hold your hips down against the wall. ā€œAlmost there.ā€
You could feel the coil tightening inside if you quickly, your climax coming in record time. You thought for a moment that it was because of how sensitive you were in this moment.Ā 
You moaned wantonly and grabbed her hair as you came, her tongue working on your clit and her fingers scissoring you open.Ā 
You expected her to stop, but she kept going. In fact, she added a third finger.Ā 
You heard her moan into your pussy, looking down to find her grinding into the floor, a wet spot forming on her jeans. She was so messy, your juices coating her face, red-rimmed eyes and messy hair, rutting into nothing and moaning into your cunt.Ā 
When the fabric of her jeans caught her clit just right, she took her mouth of your pussy, replacing it with her thumb instead, and leaned her forehead against your stomach. You came with her from the sensitivity, both of your moans filling the air, pleading for more.Ā 
When she laid you down on a thin blanket from her backpack and undressed both of you, you noted the scared look in her eyes. The way she looked at you, drinking you in, knowing this would be your last time together. Some part of you wished that neither of you knew about the bite, that you didn't have to treat this so differently. That you could enjoy it. Enjoy your last moments together.
She threw her leg over yours, kissing you messily, yet softly, as she ground into you, folds slotting against each other. You both moaned each time your clits touched.Ā 
As she grew closer to her climax, she buried her face into your neck. You tried to ignore the feeling of her tears trickling down and pooling at your nape.Ā 
You came together. You moaned, but she cried out, more guttural than you'd ever heard from her.Ā 
ā€œI love you, I love you, I love youā€”!ā€ she cried into your neck as she came.Ā 
When you slowed down, she held you like that without words.Ā 
ā€œI love you too, Ellie,ā€ you whispered, just loud enough for her to hear over the rain.Ā 
You held each other as the sun set, through the night, and through the rain.Ā 
The golden rays of the sun shone through the cracks in the walls and shudders, dancing across her bare body pressed into your side. Hours ago, her body had stopped shaking and her tears stopped spilling onto your chest, your hands running patterns across her skin lulling her into an exhausted sleep.Ā 
Your eyes had never closed, however. You knew you wanted to be awake to feel it happening, to know when you were losing control over your body. For Ellieā€™s sake.Ā 
The rain had stopped and the clouds were cleared. Birds sang outside and all the animals went about their day. You thought it strange that the world would continue on without you, that people will age and new ones will be born, that people will die and people will forget about you in time. Your impermanence had never struck you as hard as it did now.Ā 
You felt the twitching in your feet first, unnoticeable at first, but is it crawled up your limbs, you knew it was happening. It happened over three or four hours, and once you felt your neck jerk the first time, you knew.Ā 
Your blood didn't feel like your own anymore, like someone exsanguinated it and replaced it with jelly, slowing you down. Your vision wasn't gone, but you couldn't focus it on anything. It constantly sounded like you were underwater, drowning, gasping for air to no avail.Ā 
Your eyes hardly left the woman in your arms, clinging to you even in sleep. You know she'd curse herself for falling asleep, but you were thankful for it. You were thankful that you could press a tearful kiss to her forehead before gently escaping her grasp, muffling your sobs behind your hand. You threw your shirt and jeans on quietly, dizzy, slipping your shoes on. Your world spun, your lungs burned, your head throbbed.Ā 
You picked up your pistol, watching Ellie stir slightly in her sleep, creamy skin illuminated in the sun, her freckled face creased slightly with worry, even in sleep. You put the gun in your pocket.Ā 
You tried, as silently as you could, to move the barricade from the door. You were thankful that she was a heavy sleeper.Ā 
You were thankful that you didn't have to see the despair in her eyes when you said a forceful goodbye, thankful that you didn't have to convince her to let you go, thankful that your last memory of her was this, thankful that her last memory of you was bliss.Ā 
Through your sobs, you squeezed through the door and shut it behind you, leaning your head against it, willing for this all to be a nightmare. It wasn't, because you started to feel something else take over your will.Ā 
Before you could lose it completely, you forced yourself into a dense brush of greenery, somewhere you hoped she wouldn't look.Ā 
You panted, sweating, trembling, as you took the pistol out of your pocket. It shook with your hand as you held it to your temple, bright eyes taking in all of the world that you could before it was gone.Ā 
You squeezed them tightly, willing yourself to stop shaking. You conjured the image of your lover in your mind, her auburn hair, milky skin, pretty green eyes, and those familiar freckles. How could you ever forget her?
You took a breath in, and breathed out: ā€œI love you.ā€
Ellie sat up in terror when she heard the sound of a single gunshot ring through the air, seeping in through the cracks of the window and underneath the door. It took her a moment to process what it was, reaching for her pistol next to her discarded clothes. When her fingertips brushed the gun, it settled in. She craned her head to look beside her, half expecting you to still be asleep.Ā 
When she remembered what the sound of the gunshot meant, what you had made her promise, her lungs collapsed and she couldn't take any air in. Tears spilled from her eyes as she heaved, clawing at her chest for any relief. It didn't come.Ā 
She knew it never would.
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When Joel got word that you and Ellie still hadn't returned from patrol, he worried that you'd gotten stuck in the landslide. He pleaded with Tommy and Jesse to go out with him to search, knowing he wouldn't be at peace without knowing what happened.Ā 
When the two agreed, they set off on horses to clear all of the checkpoints. It took an extra day to get around the mountain range that was blocked off by rubble.Ā 
When they only had one more checkpoint to clear, Joel got increasingly worried. If you weren't here, where were you?
When the three men got to the cabin, they held their breath as they dismounted their horses. Joel tried pushing the door open, but the barricade stopped him. It took the three of them to open the door, pushing the barricade out of the way.Ā 
The open door shed light on the figure against the back wall covered in a thin blanket, trembling. Joel let out the breath he was holding in when he saw Ellie. She was clutching your backpack to her chest, trying to keep any remaining part of you alive, hers.Ā 
She had hardly noticed Joel pick her up and carry her to his horse, wrapping the blanket tighter around her. She squeezed her eyes shut, not ready to see the world without you in it.Ā 
ā€œEllie,ā€ Joelā€™s gruff voice intruded her thoughts, ā€œwhere is she?ā€
Ellieā€™s words failed her. All she could do was point to her forearm, to the bite that only Joel and Tommy knew hid underneath the tattoo.Ā 
She doesn't remember what happened after that.Ā 
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It was warmer now, the flowers blossoming and the green coming back to Jacksonā€™s landscape. Ellie sat facing your headstone, wishing you could've seen it. Wishing she could've shown it to you.Ā 
ā€œItā€™s summer now,ā€ she began. ā€œWe started planting these new flowers in your gardenā€¦Joel thinks you would've liked them. I think so too. They're really colourfulā€¦you know.ā€
She hesitated.
ā€œSometimes I wonder if you can hear me. Or if Iā€™m just talking to myself like a crazy person. Joel says it's good for me. I don't know if I believe him.ā€
She played with her hands, tracing her tattoo.Ā 
ā€œI wish you were still here,ā€ she whispered. Her eyes drifted over all the flowers left by your grave from all the people who loved you.Ā 
Her eyes filled with tears as she watched a pretty red hummingbird land on your grave, searching for pollen in the flowers.
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moonstruckme Ā· 8 months
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Ayyy I'm back with another request
No hurry on this, though, because you wrote me an amazing one not long ago and I want you to have some well-earned rest.
Anyway, can I please request a poly!marauders where the r has glasses and they see her without her glasses for the first time. I wear glasses and am mildly insecure about wearing them and taking them off. It's a vicious cyclešŸ˜­ I'd adore having some lovey-dovey boys fawning over me regardless of my eyewear
Thanks a million
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Here you go my love! Thanks for requesting <3
modern au
poly!marauders x fem!reader ā™” 925 words
You touch your middle finger to the bridge of your nose, pushing up frames that arenā€™t there. You feel immediately silly. How long will it take to kick that habit?
You have to admit, itā€™s nice to not have to worry about your lenses fogging as you stir the boiling water, or your glasses slipping off when you peer into the pot to check on the pasta. Still, this new freedom feels oddly like itā€™s come at a cost. It seems a bit ridiculous to miss your glasses, but itā€™s been years since youā€™ve been without them, and you feel sort of naked. Your face looks different in the reflection of the microwave, nothing obscuring the area around your eyes. Itā€™s odd to see yourself so clearly without anything in the way.Ā 
The door opens, Siriusā€™ voice booming. ā€œYouā€™ll never believe what happened on the way home.ā€
ā€œWhat?ā€ you call, and you can hear him kick off his shoes in just any direction, the thump thump thump of them bouncing on the floor. Later, Remus will straighten them with a patient sigh. Siriusā€™ footsteps head for the kitchen.
ā€œThis guy stopped me to ask for the time, and I told him, and he saidā€”whoa. Hey baby, whatā€™s new?ā€
You smile down at the pasta. ā€œHe called you baby?ā€
ā€œIā€¦what? No, youā€™re baby.ā€ Sirius shakes his head before you look up and he realizes youā€™re messing with him. Never one to lose the upper hand, he fixes you with one of his suaver looks, eyes narrowing until theyā€™re mostly gray and a smirk twisting his lips. ā€œDonā€™t play coy with me, pretty thing. You think you can distract me from all this?ā€ Triumph sparks in his eyes as you feel your face warm, and he presses on. ā€œWho are you and what have you done with my girlfriend?ā€
You roll your eyes, opening a cabinet door between you to grab the olive oil. ā€œItā€™s my Clark Kent plan. Youā€™re not supposed to recognize me, so I guess itā€™s not working.ā€Ā 
ā€œTakes more than glasses to fool me, sweetheart.ā€ His voice is silky smooth, but when you close the cabinet, heā€™s studying you. ā€œItā€™s a good look. I like you both ways, obviously, but variety is the spice of life or whatever. Maybe we should get James to switch it up every now and then.ā€Ā 
Remus emerges from down the hall, drawn out by your voices.
ā€œMoons, have you seen this?ā€ Sirius asks. ā€œSomeoneā€™s replaced our girl with one who has working eyes.ā€Ā 
ā€œNot working eyes,ā€ you correct him, self-conscious as Remus comes over, his eyebrows lifting slightly, ā€œan old glasses prescription. Iā€™m switching to contacts until I can get a new pair.ā€Ā 
ā€œYou look nice,ā€ Remus says, that mild, effortless kindness in his tone. ā€œDoes it feel different?ā€
ā€œWeird,ā€ you agree, taking the pot off the stove. Remus anticipates you, bringing the colander to the sink, and you give him a smile of thanks. ā€œI feel like Velma from Scooby Doo, you know? Like my eyes look like tiny little dots without them.ā€Ā 
Sirius scoffs, and Remus' voice is lightly chiding when he says, ā€œTheyā€™re not. You look just as lovely now as you did with them on.ā€Ā 
You barely have time to blush before Sirius is upon you, stepping into your space. ā€œAnd,ā€ he says, ā€œletā€™s try this.ā€ He kisses you, and you canā€™t claim you werenā€™t expecting it but youā€™re far from ready, grateful for the support of his hand at your waist as you feel your knees go a bit wobbly. Sirius presses his mouth into yours heavily, nose pushing at the skin of your cheek. When he pulls back, you feel like youā€™re reeling. ā€œSee? Much easier without those wide frames in the way.ā€
ā€œYouā€™re the worst,ā€ you say, and Remus chuckles as James steps into the kitchen. You hadnā€™t even heard the door open.Ā 
ā€œWhat, without me?ā€ he asks, taking in you and Siriusā€™ proximity and the wetness of your lips. Then hardly a beat later, ā€œYouā€™re not wearing your glasses.ā€Ā 
ā€œShe needs a new prescription,ā€ Sirius says, stepping away from you to pour the strained pasta back into the pot like nothingā€™s happened. ā€œSheā€™s wearing contacts for now.ā€Ā 
ā€œWhoa.ā€ James moves closer, looking at your face like he hasnā€™t had the chance to really inspect it until now. ā€œSo when you get your new glasses, can we help you pick?ā€
Sirius whips around in his excitement, and Remus moves him aside before the pasta can start to stick, adding olive oil and the herbs youā€™d cut up to the pot. ā€œI hadnā€™t even thought of that,ā€ Sirius gawps at you. ā€œWe have to, itā€™ll be so fun.ā€Ā 
You try to imagine it, your boyfriends focussing intently on your face as they assess which frames suit you best. Itā€™d be the peak of flattery and awkwardness. ā€œOkay,ā€ you say, busying yourself with getting water for everyone. ā€œI could use the extra input.ā€Ā 
ā€œIā€™m sure whatever you pick will look great,ā€ James promises, taking a couple of cups from you with a kiss to your cheek. ā€œIf you want, you should pick up some more contacts while weā€™re there, too.ā€
ā€œMaybe,ā€ you muse. ā€œBut which do you like betterā€”with, or without glasses?ā€
ā€œEither way, dove,ā€ Remus hums, dishing out his helping of pasta. ā€œThe differences are tiny, and itā€™s still you.ā€Ā 
ā€œYeah, I canā€™t pick,ā€ Sirius agrees, getting in line behind Remus. ā€œYou can do your Clark Kent bit all you want, but youā€™re gonna look like our gorgeous girl both ways.ā€Ā 
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battydora Ā· 8 months
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Hashiras when they want to have sex with you but you are on your period (minus Muichiro & Iguro). ā€”ā™”
masterlist | pinned post | rules
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characters: tomioka giyuu , kocho shinobu , tengen uzui (+ wives) , rengoku kyojuro , mitsuri kanroji , shinazugawa sanemi , himejima gyomei
content: nsfw , gn. reader (afab) , adult reader!! , minors dni!! , period comfort , period sex , vaginal sex , unprotected sex , fingering , cunnilingus , implied size kink (gyomei) , brief references to the manga (giyuu)
note: iguro stans, i had the hardest time trying to write for him and i swear i couldn't i'm so sorry šŸ˜­. also shinobu's is so short damn, sorry i wrote that a year ago
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ā€”Giyuu
being extremely honest, i think giyuu would be clueless about menstruation, he knew about it by briefly recalling the times her sister would complain superficially about it but he would need a whole explanation to understand, so you explain it to him to reassure him that you're okay and that you might need some things from him every now and then. when it comes to sex, he wouldn't be so sure to keep going if you're on your period but after he slides into you for the first time while you're menstruating, he'd find himself feeling more comfortable fucking you than any usual day, the blood and slickness of your cunt feels so unbelievably good he lets out a loud moan when he fits it all in. beyond the mess you may make, you two will have a lot of fun, giyuu moaning sweet nothings into your ear, telling you how good and comfortable you feel around his cock. he may get carried away just a little but expect great aftercare.
ā€”Shinobu
she wouldn't mind at all! she takes things as usual and wouldn't mind not even a little bit fingering you while you're having your period, she knows how sensitive you become when this time of the month arrives so she'll have you begging for more. you will no more feel ashamed of having your period thanks to shinobu.
ā€”Tengen (+ wives)
the man has three wives, i would be so disappointed if he doesn't know at least SOMETHING about menstruation. he treats you with care and softness all through the act, he comes out to be one of the most romantic among all hashiras. "i know babe, i know" he whispers as he slides in you, your whole body tenses when he fits it all in, moaning softly. hinatsuru let's your head rest on her lap as makio and suma sit beside you, holding your hands and casually caressing your skin. "you're doing so well, sweetheart" hina mumbles softly, sliding her hands up and down from your neck to your chest. an odd satisfaction washes over tengen at the view of his cock being painted red as he thrusts into you back and forth, holding your legs up and wide open, moving ever so kind and careful of your sensitive body "god, i wish i could rail the hell out of you, but i'll be kind, angel." you're in heaven.
ā€”Kyojuro
"shh, it's okay my love i got you, keep going". kyojuro is the sweetest, he's so needy when he's horny but will be so so gentle and sweet with you when you're on your period. he sits you on his naked thigh and makes you straddle it, he wants you to come to friction alone, he helps you stay on place by holding your hips firmly. however the view of his leg getting soaked red and the slick and wet sounds from your moves make him hornier than he thought, also having you almost bouncing on top of him didn't help much and by the end of the session you're laying on your back, legs spread open and kyojuro rubbing his hard cock against your blood stained folds without really penetrating you, soaking his dick with your juices and rubbing it's length against your clit, enjoying the noises you and your pretty cunt make. "s-sorry, love... you look so good like this... fuck i'm so turned on..."
ā€”Kanroji
"kanroji..." you moaned, breathless, as you threw your head back in the chair you're sitting. you refused to look down the table you had infront of you, you were trying so hard to keep your composure as your skirt was up/your pants were down and kanroji had her face buried between your legs, giving you the day of your life. mitsuri did not even hesitate to kneel down beneath you the moment you told her you were horny for her. you tried to stop her by telling her you were on your period and that it was okay if she didn't want to do it like that. she looked at you with a shocked expression but then smiled warmly yet seductively at you "then i'm going to make a mess down here~" a dangerous combination of cute and hot were settled in her words, you weren't ready for the wonders her mouth was capable of.
ā€”Sanemi
"ngh, stop moving, you're making a mess" he growls, the two fingers curling inside your cunt are making you quiver and jolt. sanemi is... a bitch. he knows how sensitive you become on your period so he really doesn't miss the chance to tease and overstimulate you. but of course, his words may be mean most of the time but contradictory to his actions, you will find sanemi being one of the most careful among the hashiras, he always checks your facial expressions, your body language, 100% self-aware while finger fucking you in case he notices you're getting so many intense cramps you might need to stop. "does it feel good, babe? yeah? good because we ain't stopping. no, i don't want to hear your excuses. i'm gonna get this through."
ā€”Gyomei
himejima is far from being disgusted by this, he is a man entirely determined to please you no matter the circumstances. when you tell him you're on the mood but warn him about being on your period, he remains silent for a bit, before leaning to you in bed, cornering you against the bed with his enormous figure, resting his big hand gently on your hip, sliding to caress the soft skin of your belly reassuringly. "love of mine, i am unbothered, if there is anything i can do to take you to your pleasure, just tell me, i will get you there, no matter the circumstances." his words are warm enough to make you melt, a rush of love and excitement runs through your body and you grab the wrist of the hand touching you. he allows you to lead his hand wherever you desired, sliding it only a few centimeters until it landed between your legs, he understands immediately but waits until you speak again, his hand only presses ever so slightly on your clothed sex and your only reaction is let out a soft whimper, you can't control it your body is so sensitive it responds to his touch immediately. gyomei blushes in delight and so do you, in embarassment "touch me, please... use your hands to make me cum, i need it so bad..." he doesn't need any more words before start working on your pussy over your underwear, staining his hand and any other part of him you wished just to please you.
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thanks for reading!
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euphoricfilter Ā· 10 months
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For the drabble game could you write fluff with youtuber bf jk ? I am not creative so I couldnā€™t think of a sentence sorryšŸ˜­ but maybe he does one of those 24hr streams, I love your writing!
youtuber boyfriend! kook headcanons:
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tags/ warnings: none. just a lot of fluff and feelings <3
notes: when i got sent this idea ages ago i got so excited. and i wrote three fics for it but hated them all and then made sure they were to never see the light of day. so my solution is to write some cute boyfriend headcanons instead to make up for it!! simply because i absolutely love this idea and i need to write anything for it to sate the need within me.
notes 2: this got slightly longer than iā€™d intended LMAO sorry šŸ•ŗ
š“‡» i feel like jungkookā€™s channel has a plethora of videos, though he specializes in gaming.
š“‡» its probably one of his biggest passions. though i do see him dabbling in commentary, or even review type videos. maybe heā€™s a bit of a collector as well and goes on hour long rants about rare items or hauls of what he purchased over the years.
š“‡» i see the both of you probably meeting at one of those second-hand game and film stores.
š“‡» maybe youā€™re just milling around. more content to browse the movies than the games because you only own an old console (something cute like a nintendo DS) but they donā€™t really sell the game cards commercially anymore
š“‡» and jungkook loses track of why he was even there in the first place when he spots you. slowly scooting towards the corner youā€™re in.
š“‡» jungkook might not exactly believe in love at first sight, finds it a little hard to imagine loving someone so soon. but he definitely believes in destiny, even fate. and some small part of his mind had convinced him that surely this was just that.
š“‡» heā€™d be a bit shy about trying to approach you, mouth opening only for nothing to come out because what was he supposed to say? and maybe he accidentally startles you, offering to pay for the few dvds you had hugged to your chest as a lame sort of compensation
š“‡» heā€™d be the one to ask for your number, heā€™d be the first to text. youā€™d tell him later on itā€™s because you didnā€™t want to come off too head-strong. worried youā€™d scare him off messaging only hours after meeting. and then heā€™d tell you he had worried about the same thing
š“‡» jungkook wouldnā€™t straight out tell his audience heā€™d gotten into a relationship. itā€™s not that he was embarrassed about you, quite the opposite; heā€™d love to flaunt you to the world. itā€™s just heā€™d worry about the reaction from fans.
š“‡» heā€™d have a pretty hefty audience, a well established one even. and he wasnā€™t blind to the mean comments that would occasionally show up beneath videos or social media posts. he, himself, never found much issue in dealing with them, on occasion heā€™d get a little down but he knew that really he put himself up for this. he chose to show his face online, and with that would come some backlash. however, that didnā€™t mean he wasnā€™t worried about you or how shitty comments would effect your well being.
š“‡» definitely the ā€œin a relationship but itā€™s privateā€ sort of photos would slowly creep their way onto his IG posts. maybe of little date nightsā€” candles on the table with a dinner youā€™d cooked together (2 glasses, 2 plates and 2 sets of cutlery), or your favorite cake heā€™d tried to bake himself with the lego flowers heā€™d spent the previous evening trying to make (because at least you could look at the lego ones forever and they wouldnā€™t die). or maybe even your hand snuck in a photo or simply your silhouette beneath a sunset.
š“‡» maybe a few of your own collectible items had made their way onto the shelf in his studio. an obvious beanbag in the corner (youā€™d often sit there and read as he went through emails or scripted videos). valentines cards that heā€™d never thought to take down, or posters of yours that never exactly fit in the bedroom
š“‡» it would become apparent that he was in a long-term relationship when heā€™d film a moving video. so much of your stuff mingled with his own, split seconds of the shared rooms heā€™d add to the video before showing his audience his new office space. the extra shoes and cute little additions to his home; soft cushions on the couch, ceramics youā€™d begged him to buy. your hoard of plushies that took up half the bed or the stupid amount of skin care products stacked up in the bathroom. all a sure way of telling his fans that he was serious about you, even if they had no idea of your name or face
š“‡» maybe with enough comments heā€™d make a little announcement at the end of a video.
š“‡» ā€œi know youā€™ve all probably guessed by now, but i am in fact, in a relationshipā€
š“‡» and then proceeded to talk about you for 7 minutes because really he wanted everyone to know how much he loved you. and truthfully he never knew when to shut up when it came to you, not when you were whatā€™s on his mind most of the time. heā€™d tell them how youā€™d met, and how he had been absolutely enamored by you almost instantly. heā€™d show everyone the matching bracelets youā€™d made. grinning as he showed off the receipt heā€™d kept in his wallet from your first date together at a small cafe in town, mentioning how he kept a baby photo of you in the back of his phone too.
š“‡» the first time youā€™d show up in a video, heā€™d plan for the both of you to do some crafts together one afternoon. a hobby youā€™d been trying over the last couple of weeks, and jungkook liked to indulge you. loved to watch you sprawled across the floor of an evening with glue coating your fingers and way too much glitter imbedded in the carpet.
š“‡» heā€™d have been worried at first. asking you over and over if it was truly okay for you to be on camera, and after your reassured him with a kiss, heā€™d settle down slightly. though his anxiety had still clung to him, eyes flitting your way throughout the afternoon
š“‡» he could tell how shy youā€™d been, and had reassured you that really you didnā€™t even need to address the audience. heā€™d do all the silly little things you giggled at him for. and all you had to do was sit there and be pretty for him. youā€™d been a lot quieter than usual; itching to give him a kiss each time he was just so awfully jungkook. eyes like those of galaxies when he got something right, or the happiest smile on his face when you asked him for help
š“‡» the day he did a 24 hour charity stream would be when his audience sees you the most. milling around the house, making sure your boyfriend was fed and watered. maybe even sitting down and reading the chat when he wanted to shower. or answering questions while perched on his lap. heā€™d want to smother you with even more love when youā€™d catch his eyeā€” a silent question if you were doing okay, that you answered all the questions correct. and heā€™d squeeze your thigh in reassurance, head resting over your shoulder as he listened to your voice, humming to let you know he was still listening
š“‡» youā€™d startle him at 4am, a little pouty that youā€™d had to fall asleep alone. dragging a chair from the kitchen to sit on as you watch him play a game youā€™d never seen before.
š“‡» ā€œgo back to bed, babyā€ heā€™d coo, ā€œyouā€™ll fall asleep sitting up and get a bad backā€
š“‡» and maybe after that heā€™s a lot more open to showing you on camera. filming you on beaches, eating cakes and ice creams from a million different restaurants or dancing around hotel rooms or sitting on the balcony with the sun warming your skin when he takes you on holiday. short films dedicated to you with your favorite songs playing in the background
š“‡» maybe he even makes a playlist on his youtube channel, titled ā€œmy loveā€ for every video that he includes you in
š“‡» idk just very much in love boyfriend kook who wants the world to love you almost as much as he does (because in all honesty, no one would ever love you more than he does)
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steddieas-shegoes Ā· 11 months
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Hello my love! ā¤ļø
Another for you, if youā€™re still taking them, though of course feel free to ignore this for any reason (or even no reason) at all!
I would love to see what you can do with Steddie and James Arthurā€™s ā€œCarā€™s Outsideā€. I feel like this is one Eddie would write for Steve, maybe after an argument..? šŸ‘€
I had to look this one up because Iā€™d never heard it before and this is some emotional stuff I wasnā€™t prepared for but shouldā€™ve been when you said maybe after an argument šŸ˜­
Touring the country had been his dream for so long that when it became a reality, he forgot what was most important.
It happened to a lot of rockstars.
His reality check came like lightning, fast and sharp.
ā€œIā€™m just trying to understand, Stevie. You wanted me to do this. You told me to go on the tours and record the albums. You supported me. What changed?ā€
ā€œYou did.ā€
That was the last thing Steve said to him over a week ago.
All he knew now was that Steve was back in Hawkins staying with Wayne and hadnā€™t told him much other than he wouldnā€™t take up too much room for long.
Wayne didnā€™t tell him anything except that Steve was alive and safe, but didnā€™t seem to be taking care of himself well.
The first two days, all Eddie felt was anger. He was full of contempt for Steve suddenly changing his mind about Eddieā€™s life and dreams.
But the third day was when it hit him that Steve left.
Heā€™d avoided everyone after that, only answered the phone in case it was him calling and hanging up if it wasnā€™t him.
He barely got out of bed, barely ate, didnā€™t even go into the bedroom converted into a music room to play his guitar.
The next tour was set to start in two weeks and he didnā€™t think he could go, not like this, not without Steve here waiting for him.
- - - - -
Wayne called the night before he was leaving for the tour, said he needed to come to Hawkins, but wouldnā€™t say why.
ā€œAre you sick or hurt?ā€
ā€œNo, Ed.ā€
ā€œā€¦is Steve?ā€
ā€œJust get here.ā€
So Eddie did.
He called the guys and told them he would meet them at their first stop in New York in three days, that he had a family emergency and couldnā€™t travel on the bus with them.
When he got to Hawkins, he felt like turning right around and leaving.
He hadnā€™t been back in years; Wayne always came to see them for holidays and visits.
Nothing has changed, not even the trailer Wayne insisted on still living in, even when Eddie offered to buy him something nicer.
Steveā€™s car sat in the driveway next to Wayneā€™s truck, just like it did before theyā€™d moved to Chicago to try to make Eddieā€™s dream happen.
Eddie parked next to him, the rental from the airport much cleaner and nicer than anything else around here, but not in a good way.
It clicked suddenly, that Eddie wasnā€™t the same. That the guy who used to drive a beat up van and live in this trailer and loved Steve so much it felt like a physical ache when he wasnā€™t around wasnā€™t here.
He walked up to the door, knocking like this wasnā€™t his home just five years ago.
Wayne answered, sullen face making his chest tight with worry.
ā€œWhere is he?ā€
ā€œHeā€™s asleep finally. Come on in, son. Have a seat.ā€
ā€œWhat happened?ā€
Wayne sighed.
ā€œHeā€™s been overworking himself and not sleeping or eating, and it finally caught up to him. Heā€™s had a migraine for three days now, longest Iā€™ve seen. Can barely sit up to sip water but begged me not take him to the hospital.ā€
Eddieā€™s fists clenched.
ā€œWhy wouldnā€™t he go?ā€
Wayne blinked at him.
ā€œSon, youā€™re not an idiot despite the way youā€™ve been actinā€™ for a while. Think about it.ā€
Wayne walked to the kitchen and started packing his lunchbox.
ā€œWhere are you going?ā€
ā€œI got a shift to get to. Steve shouldnā€™t be alone.ā€
Eddie stayed on the couch for the next two hours, his brain shifting through thoughts that quickly turned into song lyrics.
He wrote them down, but barely focused on what he was writing. Now wasnā€™t really a great time to be producing something new.
He heard a groan from his old bedroom and shot up from the couch, making his way to the end of the hall and entering the room without a second thought.
Steve was sitting on the edge of the bed, body hunched and eyes closed, pain a physical presence through every inch of him.
ā€œStevie,ā€ Eddie choked out.
Steveā€™s head shot up. He winced in pain, but the tears in his eyes didnā€™t seem to have much to do with that as Eddie got closer.
ā€œWhat are you doing here?ā€
ā€œWayne called.ā€
ā€œAnd?ā€
ā€œIf you need me, Iā€™m gonna be here.ā€
Steve looked away, his eyes closing as he turned his head.
ā€œThatā€™s not how things have been.ā€
It hurt, but he was right. It hadnā€™t been how things have been. Not for a while.
ā€œI know. Iā€¦I donā€™t think sorry is enough for any of it, but I am. Iā€™m sorry. So sorry, Stevie.ā€
Steve looked at him, the haze of the migraine keeping a lot of emotion off his face.
ā€œYeah. Okay.ā€
It wasnā€™t forgiveness, and forgiveness wasnā€™t deserved yet, but it was a start. And when Steve let Eddie get him water and medicine, and play with his hair, it felt like a start.
- - - - -
Eddie had to go.
If he didnā€™t go, heā€™d miss the first show of the tour.
Heā€™d be in deep shit, and the guys would hate him, and he would never make music again.
His manager called him every four hours at Wayneā€™s asking when his flight would be and he always said ā€œwhen things are right with Steve.ā€
It started to feel like that might not happen.
But something about the way Steve was slowly letting him in, allowing him to care for him more every day, gave him hope that he could get him back, get them back.
Wayne didnā€™t say much to him, didnā€™t have to. The way he watched was enough to know how Wayne felt about him, this situation.
But he didnā€™t go.
Steveā€™s migraine was gone, but he still needed Eddie, still needed to see that he was the priority.
Eddie needed to show him that he mattered more than his band, because he did. He always had and always would.
He missed the last flight that wouldā€™ve gotten him there on time.
He called the guys to let them know, to apologize, to tell them that he had to do what was best for him.
They understood, but told him their manager was livid and probably would try to replace him instead of postpone the tour.
He didnā€™t care at this point.
Heā€™d gotten his taste of fame and it was bittersweet.
Steve stood in the doorway when Eddie hung up the phone, watching him with his arms crossed as Eddie covered his face in his hands.
ā€œYouā€™re not going?ā€
ā€œNo.ā€
ā€œWhy not?ā€
Eddie dropped his hands and sighed.
ā€œIf I have to pick, then I pick you. Iā€™ll always pick you.ā€
Steveā€™s brows furrowed.
ā€œYou think I want you to pick between me and your career?ā€
ā€œYes. Thatā€™s why you left, isnā€™t it?ā€
Steve shook his head.
ā€œI left because you forgot that I was a choice at all,ā€ Steveā€™s voice sounded choked. ā€œI left because I didnā€™t even think youā€™d care if I did. You didnā€™t seem to care much about leaving me anymore.ā€
Eddieā€™s heart couldnā€™t possibly break more.
ā€œSweetheart, of course I care. Iā€™m here because I canā€™t lose you. If itā€™s you or the band, then itā€™s you. Always.ā€
Steve let out a sob.
ā€œI didnā€™t want you to choose me instead of your career. I wanted you to recognize that choosing your career didnā€™t have to mean not choosing me.ā€
ā€œOh, my love.ā€
Eddie pulled Steve against him, holding the back of his head against his chest, other hand running up and down his back slowly.
ā€œYouā€™re always my first choice. Iā€™m sorry I forgot to show you that. Iā€™m sorry you ever had to feel like you werenā€™t even an option. Youā€™re the most important choice Iā€™ve ever made and Iā€™m going to keep choosing you every day. Even if it means giving up the band. None of that means shit to me if I donā€™t have you.ā€
Steve nodded against his chest.
They stayed like that for so long, Wayne came home, nodded and smiled from the doorway of the kitchen.
- - - - -
Steve came with him.
He called his manager the next day, said it was non-negotiable that Steve be with them for this tour.
The band was on his side, of course. They loved Steve and they loved Eddie and the last thing they wanted was to see either of them hurting.
The first time he performed the song he wrote while he was in limbo with Steve, he let the crowd know what was most important in his life.
ā€œGonna slow it down a bit for this next one. Sometimes this life has some downsides, hard to believe, right? Itā€™s hard to maintain who you are when youā€™re being pulled in so many directions. But Iā€™m lucky to have someone who keeps me grounded. Leaving them for tour wasnā€™t an option this time around, and Iā€™m glad theyā€™re here with me. I wrote this a couple weeks ago when we were having a hard time. I wasnā€™t being the partner they needed, and I wasnā€™t showing them that theyā€™re the partner I want. Iā€™m not loving you from afar anymore, sweetheart.ā€
Steve watched from his spot backstage, like he did every night.
He didnā€™t feel like an option anymore, he felt like the choice.
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flamingo-writes Ā· 11 months
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What would you think if Hobie asks reader to cut the ends of his hair that bother him because of the mask and while she was doing it, she sang a nice song to him, meanwhile some little flowers began to bloom around them.
Really like the last post and this came to my mind immediately.
Listen, Iā€™ve been daydreaming of this the entire day. I think this idea was very cute!
Also, little disclaimer: I was born and raised in Mexico, so, Iā€™m very unfamiliar with how black peopleā€™s hair works. I know culturally it has a lot of importance, but other than that I knew very little of the different types of hair and ofc the insane variety of treatments and proper care as well as the different ways to give maintenance to different kinds of dreads. Also, as someone who has had very short hair for 2/3 of my life, as well as shaving my own head for the better part of the last 4 (5?) years, in general hair care and routines are something Iā€™m wildly unfamiliar with, the longest I had my hair in the latest years was a 6 inch or so Mohawk I grew two years ago. Hobie has been a very good opportunity for me to educate myself a lot in hair (especially black peopleā€™s hair) and I spent a good portion of my evening watching videos/TikTokā€™s and reading on dreadlocks and their maintenance. If I wrote something inaccurate or wrong, please let me know, help me see my mistake, and I will fix it as soon as I can.
This came from this other request, Iā€™m thinking of turning into a series.
Flower Bed ā€” Hobie x Reader
Also, you said little flowers, but my brain decided to go for a full flower bed šŸ˜­ I hope you like this!
Warnings: none.
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ā€œOĆ­, luvā€¦ā€ Hobie said walking out of the bedroom, looking around you.
ā€œBathroom!ā€ You shouted as he followed your voice, noticing the bathroom door opened and you kneeling by the shower.
Plants cramped in the shower as you watered them.
ā€œOh, never mind, youā€™re busyā€ He said.
ā€œIā€™m almost done. I just need to water the ones in the kitchen sink and the monsterasā€¦ā€ You said as youā€™d todo up and stretched your back. ā€œIā€™ll be done in ten minutes, whatā€™s up?ā€
ā€œI wanted to ask you if you could help me trim my hair, itā€™s starting to get long and gets stuck in the mask and, you knowā€¦ā€ He asked softly. ā€œBut I canā€™t see the back of my head,ā€
ā€œSure, Iā€™ll help you,ā€ You said giving Hobie a kind smile.
He smiled back, walking up to you and kissing your forehead.
ā€œNeed help with the plants?ā€
ā€œAs you wish,ā€ You replied happily. ā€œYou were asleep earlier and didnā€™t want to wake you, so I started watering them on my ownā€¦ā€
ā€œIā€™m awake now,ā€ He said. ā€œIā€™ll water the monsteras,ā€
ā€œThank you, babe,ā€ You purred.
By the time you were done with the plants, you went ahead and started helping Hobie out. You sat on the edge of your bed, as he sat on the floor. Since Hobie was tall, this was the most comfortable arrangement. It wasnā€™t also the first time you trimmed his wicks. He asked you to help him every few months.
As you put some soft music in the background, you got started, trimming dread by dread. Taking care to cut the hair while keeping the end of the dread rounded. Cutting just across each wick was already hard as they were thick, but you also wanted to keep them looking nice and rounded. Which was also a reason why Hobie asked you for help. You did a much better job at it than him.
Even when he didnā€™t admit it, or didnā€™t look like it, every single detail in his appearance was planned. Especially his hair. He liked taking care of it, and over all treated his hair like this very intimate thing, he hated having other people touching his hair. Except you. He actually loved it when you touched his hair, ran your hands through it, your fingers disappearing between the dreads. And the particular care and dedication which which you seemed to tend to every wick.
Deep in your concentration, watching over the little details, you were unconsciously singing. Something you also did quite a lot. When you were deeply focused on something, youā€™d start humming and eventually singing. Which only added to the relaxing time Hobie was having.
Between your gentle hands running through his hair, and now the soft sound of your voice singing in a low voice, going along with the music. Hobie lived for these little peaceful moments, making him feel absolutely contempt with his life. These little moments were everything to him.
As he had his eyes closed, focusing on every brought of your touch against him, he didnā€™t notice at first the plants growing around you.
It wasnā€™t plain on obvious. In fact, Hobie didnā€™t notice until he felt something tickling his elbows. He opened his eyes and saw flowers growing out of the floor, tiny plants growing buds and flowering. All in a matter of several seconds. And you continue to sing, concentrated. He blinked several times, wondering if you were aware of what you were doing, as he kept staring at the flowers growing and multiplying, coming out of the wooden floor tiles.
ā€œUh, luv?ā€ Hobie asked in a low deep voice.
ā€œHm?ā€ You hummed, answering Hobieā€™s question, sounding way too focused in your job as you were rounding one of the last wicks.
ā€œAre you aware of the fact that you pretty much brought spring into our bedroom?ā€
ā€œHuh?ā€ You asked confused, breaking your hyper focus and looked around, noticing the flowers covering almost the entirety of your floor. White, red, lilac, and pink flowers, extending across your small bedroom. ā€œFuck,ā€
Hobie laughed softly.
ā€œYou didnā€™t notice?ā€
ā€œN-noā€¦ā€ You whispered softly.
ā€œThatā€™s amazingā€¦ā€ Hobie sighed. ā€œItā€™s beautiful, by the wayā€¦ā€
ā€œThe thing is I donā€™t know how toā€¦un-grow themā€¦And theyā€™re a lotā€¦ā€ You said softly, the concern building in your voice, making Hobie chuckle. ā€œWhat are we going to do with all of them?ā€
ā€œWe can always collect them and sell them or whatever, you know?ā€ Hobie chuckled.
ā€œYeah, I guess youā€™re rightā€¦ā€
ā€œIn the meantime, we can always enjoy this beautiful scene, what do you say?ā€
ā€œYouā€™re way too calm for someone who has his bedroom full of flowersā€¦ā€
ā€œYou made them. Theyā€™re beautiful. I donā€™t see the issue, basically a work of art,ā€ He said looking at you over his shoulder, as you rolled your eyes playfully at him.
ā€œHobie, pollen give you allergies,ā€
ā€œSleeping on a flower bed one night isnā€™t going to kill me,ā€ He pointed out. ā€œBesides, ever since the spider thing, I get less allergies from flowers,ā€ He said lifting a finger up, making you chuckle.
ā€œFine! You win this argument!ā€ You chuckled.
ā€œYou know I love you, right?ā€
ā€œYeah, I love you tooā€
ā€œThatā€™s why I donā€™t mind the flowers. Because you made them,ā€
You leaned forward and pressed a kiss on Hobieā€™s cheek before you continued tending to the last two wicks.
ā€œThank you,ā€ You said.
ā€œFor what?ā€
ā€œBeing you,ā€ You sighed. ā€œIā€™m not precisely fascinated with all the flowers in the bedroom, but the fact that you are, makes me feel betterā€
ā€œWhy, youā€™re welcome, sweetā€™eart. Thank you for helping me with my hair,ā€ He said looking at you and giving you a cheeky smirk.
ā€œAnytime,ā€
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