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pigeonp0st · 3 years

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Hey can you do a fic where reader is under mind control of some sort from an enemy and is forced to attack Nat and the rest of the avengers and Nat has to talk her out of it and calm her down something rlly intense and angsty pls

Natasha Romanoff x Reader #6

Words: 2,177

Warnings: Agnst

(tell me if there’s more I should add)

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I realized after I finished writing that I didn’t have Nat talk R out of it like you asked...I solved it in another way...i’m sorry!! I hope you enjoy anyways, thanks a lot for requesting (and sorry for spelling mistakes...there’s probably a lot) also sorry for this in general...I’m disappointed in it and the ending...I was sleep deprived and delirious for half of it...

———

It was supposed to be a simple mission, and a simple day. You and Nat had planned to head to the beach for the first time in a long time afterwards and everything. It was supposed to be a good day.

Good day...ha.

The sad truth is, is that things don’t always work out the way you expect them to. Sometimes things go horribly wrong.

Sometimes you get mind controlled by the ‘big bad’ and hurt the people you love most. Or maybe that stuff only happened to people like you. ‘Heroes.’

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You were conscious. That was the cruel agonizing part of it all. It’s that with every swing of your knife, every landed hit, every plea that fell from their lips, you knew what was happening.

You knew what was happening but could do nothing about it. Well...you could, technically, but it hurt. It hurt to fight. The pain was similar, you imagine, to what it feels like getting burned alive and then ran over eighteen times.

You didn’t think you could do it. Your will power wasn’t that strong. You would probably die trying to gain control—

It hurt. It hurt. You didn’t want to. You couldn’t, you—

Natasha. Natasha was saying; “fight it, Y/N, fight it,” and to you and to the pain that fighting the mind control caused, she may as well have been saying, “die, Y/N, die”

And yeah. Okay. For her, you will. For her you must.

Tears were running down your cheeks, it was the one thing the mind control didn’t have control of. It was...weird. Weird feeling such an immense amount of pain, such an immense amount of suffering, and being unable to show it. Unable to scream. You were silent, but your body felt loud, your head felt loud.

For a long minute you couldn’t hear them, you couldn’t even register the things you were seeing, all you knew was pain, everything outside of that was illegitimate.

Then, silence. For a brief, blissful moment before it was gone again. Nat’s arms were around you, and you were shaking, but completely still otherwise—finally, finally, you weren’t hurting them— “You’re okay,” Nat whispered, and how could that concept, in a few moments of agony, become something so foreign. Have you ever been okay before? Have you ever lived without this much hurt?

———-

“Nat,” you croaked, the words shaking almost as roughly as your body. “Natasha, kill me.”

Those three words, said with an immeasurable amount of desperation, were just as much not your own as your body was at this moment. They were said in a moment of pain.

Somehow, Natasha knew that. She knew that. She knows what you look like when you’re experiencing physical pain. It’s been seared into her mind countless times, but that doesn’t prevent her heart from aching as much as it does when you start begging.

“Natasha please, please baby, please. Somebody, please! Before it—”

And then you were screaming, and Natasha hates how it’s even worse than the begging.

Somehow you’ve managed to gain control of your vocals, but your body isn’t yours again, she realizes it when you start struggling against her arms…it’s a terrible thing to realize.

“Stop,” Nat yells, so obviously terrified and raw that half of the Avengers freeze where they’re circling you. “Stop fighting it, it’s okay, it’s okay.” She holds you as tightly as she can, with her eyes screwed shut. “I love you, I love you, I love you.”

And god, she hates the way it sounds like a goodbye too, but she just knows that even if you could register her voice right now, you aren’t going to listen.

You’re going to keep fighting to protect her and the others, because it’s what you’ve always done.

So Natasha takes a deep breath, in and out, and tries to think about her options. She tries to think about her options with you struggling and trying to reach for your knife, and the Avengers circled around her with nothing but ashen expressions that speak of nightmares to come, and she doesn’t know. She just doesn’t know.

There’s no safe way for her to knock you out for a long period of time, not ones that won’t cause long term problems afterwards, but she doesn’t need any because suddenly your body stops struggling, and stops moving, and you’re slumped unconscious in her arms.

It’s a great relief for everyone until Natasha lifts her hand from your pulse, and says, shockingly and terrifyingly devoid of emotion; “I think she’s going into shock.”

——

Everything is a blur to Natasha after that. She recalls yelling, lights, arriving at the hospital, a countdown of; one, two, three, and then she’s sitting in a seat next to your hospital bed wondering when everything went so wrong.

——

All Natasha hears when she closes her eyes is you screaming in agony at the top of her lungs, and all she feels is the phantom touch of your cold ashen skin against her hands.

You’re okay now, Natasha reminds herself. You’re going to be okay, but there’s something deeply traumatizing and everlasting about the moments where you’re sure everything won’t be—the moments you’re almost sure the love of your life won’t be.

Hearing someone you love beg you to kill them, seeing the person you love most in so much agony, it’s...scarring...but Natasha will be strong. She has to be, because being weak hurts too much, but more importantly; you need her to be.

As traumatizing as the experience was for her, she knows that yours was just as bad—if not worse. You were strong for her, so she’ll be for you.

Like protecting her to you seemed like your only option, even while you were hurting so much because of it, it’s Natasha’s only option too.

So she’ll keep it all together, until you’re back to normal and she doesn’t have to anymore.

——-

Natasha startles when you wake up. She physically startles, because the first thing you do is start sobbing, sobbing hard enough to make Natasha concerned that you’ll start hyperventilating.

“Are you okay?” Natasha asks, up from her seat in a flash to be by your side, “is he still mind controlling you? Are you still hurting?”

You aren’t looking at her, Natasha realizes with a large amount of grief. You won’t look at her, but you’re shaking your head no to her questions, and she supposes that perhaps you are okay—physically.

She wants more than that for you, so she sighs, heavily and sadly— because she can’t protect you from this anymore than she was able to protect you from the mind control—and wraps her arms around your distraught form.

“It’s okay,” Nat mumbles, and then winces and corrects herself because it’s so clearly not. “It will be okay.”

That she is sure of, but you aren’t.

“Natasha,” you force out (Natasha tries not to remember the way you said her name yesterday), “You’re covered in- you’re covered in bruises and cuts...baby, i’m so sorry.”

Your voice cracks on sorry, and Natasha closes her eyes to prevent her own tears from falling. “It wasn’t you,” she whispers fiercely, “i’m not mad at you. Of course i’m not.”

“You should be.”

You pull away from her then. Natasha feels the loss in her heart, she’s sure.

All she wants to do is hold you in her arms and never let go, but with the amount of unjustified shame you’re feeling she doubts you’ll let her.

“Your arm,” you stutter, “did it need stitches?”

Natasha won’t lie to you, so she says nothing—instead she tries to meet your haunted eyes. It’s a useless attempt.

She knows what you’re remembering, and she hates it. “The cut on my neck...it wasn’t that deep. It shouldn’t even scar.”

“I didn’t ask you about the cut on your neck, Natasha.”

Natasha tenses where she’s standing, caught off guard by the loathing in your voice until she realizes that it’s not directed at her, but at yourself.

Your eyes finally, finally, meet Natasha’s. They’re tear brimmed, scared, and unbelievably angry. “I’m going to kill him,” you rasp brokenly, “Natasha, i’m going to kill him.”

——-

Nat says nothing. She just continues to stare back at you.

“He had no right, Natasha, he had no right to do that to me,” your face is crumbling now, anger turning back into devastation in an instant. “Nat, why—why was it me? I—god, i’m so angry, i’m so—i’m so sorry. I’m sorry, i’m sorry. God...what did I do?”

Natasha still says nothing, why isn’t she saying anything? You want to yell at her, you want her to yell at you, you want—you want.

“Is Clint...is he okay?” You ask wobbly.

You remember vividly the moment you stabbed him, and the betrayal on his face, the betrayal on everyone’s faces until they realized you weren’t in control of your own body.

“He’s okay,” Natasha says simply. Then, “the man who did what he did to you...Wanda is handling it. She’s able to block out his mind control.”

“Okay.”

“Can I hold you?”

“What?”

Natasha shifts where she stands, looking down. She’s never looked more uncertain. “You didn’t seem to want me close before...I wasn’t sure…”

Oh.

“Nat,” you whisper, heartbroken, “I don’t trust myself. I don’t trust I’m me.”

Natasha tucks a strand of your hair behind your ear and leans down to kiss your temple. You want nothing more than for her to get away from you. You don’t want to hurt her ever again. You can’t. “Oh baby,” she laughs a sad sort of laugh, “you’ve been handcuffed.”

And that, for whatever reason, starts another wave of unreleased tears, but you're laughing now too...if only at the insanity of your situation.

You feel restricted by the handcuffs, trapped in the way you were during the mind control, but you also feel safe. Safe from doing harm, so you allow her, between breaths, to join you on the hospital bed.

She lets out a relieved breath when you do, both because she’s allowed to hold you, and because you’re laughing...yeah it might me a manic sort of laugh, but it’s something.

Something is better than nothing. It’s a start.

——

“Natasha, I can tie my own fucking shoes.”

Nat looks up at you from where she’s crouched by your feet, raising a questioning eyebrow. “Then why’d you ask me to do it?”

“W-What? No I didn’t.” Mind controlled. You were mind controlled again. Fuck—

“Yeah you did,” Natasha reminds gently, “while you were eating your disgusting jello.”

Oh. Yeah.

You release a shaky breath, laughing quietly all the while, because wow. Wow. You’re losing your mind. “I totally remembered that...they just slipped something into my jello…”

Natasha watches you carefully for a few moments before rolling her eyes and getting to her feet. “Tie your own shoes.”

“Asshole,” you mutter bitterly under your breath. Natasha pretends not to hear you and simply presses a kiss to the top of your head.

“I love you,” she confesses quietly. Natasha’s been saying as much over and over again since you first awoke.

“Now I feel like the asshole. Just go get the discharge papers.”

Finally, Natasha laughs.

——-

You’re healing still, emotionally, the Avengers and Natasha are very aware of that. They’ve been as gentle as they can possibly be with you since you left the hospital a couple of weeks ago, but now—now it’s time for an intervention.

So naturally, you press the big red emergency meeting button Steve hides in his room and force everyone to meet in the living room.

“I’m not sad anymore,” You announce to them all when Wanda asks why the fuck she was woken up for.

The grumbling immediately quiets.

“Well,” you pause, considering, “I...am. Deep down. I’m tryna work through it but it’s kinda hard now that I'm forgetting a lot of what happened.”

Natasha sits up at that, alarmed. “You’re forgetting?”

You wave your hand dismissively. “My mind is blocking it out. I’m traumatized...but pretty okay otherwise.” The others don’t look convinced, so with an annoyed groan you relent. “I’m thinking about seeing Steve’s therapist. You guys should too.”

A chorus of protest instantly comes forward, not to your surprise...but Wanda...Wanda does surprise you.

“I am, too.”

Then Natasha, “I...was actually considering it myself.”

Well then.

“I’m also considering making my own sitcom,” Wanda continues, resting her head in her hand. “What do you guys think?”

“Stick to therapy, Wanda. Stick to therapy.”

At that, everyone comes forward in agreement.

You’re sure, in that moment, that with these people you’ll be okay.

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neotrances · 2 years

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ive been offline for like.a week hiii sorry for spam liking ur parousia tag but omg its so interesting.. if you had any writing for it that youd be ok with sharing publicly id love to read whatever you have!! the idea that all the gods are aware of their reincarnation and can purposefully avoid bringing new gods into the world is rlly interesting to me like. when a lesser god is close to death/weak would they be aware that they will probably never be brought into the world again and has that ever altered their actions like if they begin to get weaker would they try to become more important or change themselves as a last chance way of being remembered/brought back + id love to know more about syr omg

its okay ur good ^_^ answers below for ur initial questions about the lesser gods, but also if you want could you send a separate ask? i could post a little excerpt about syrs childhood / how his powers manifest if you’d like ! (i’d add it here but itd be too long in addition to the god talk)

correct ! a lesser god by virtue knows that the likelihood of them existing king is very low so many of them find one place and settle down, while base gods don’t have much to worry about and can travel as they wish and die as much as they want, a lesser god has the best chance of living king by settling in one spot and aiding mortals in any way they can

gaining any kind of worship will greatly lower the chance of them dying from lesser injuries (all gods have abilities of self healing but only base gods with high amounts of worship can heal themselves almost instantaneously if they choose) so things like disease or infection would infect a lesser god less if they managed to cement themselves in a community and commit to a life of good deeds etc

so for example the lesser niche god of weaving (as in making baskets, sewing, creating clothes any activity involving weaving) would have the most support and longest life span in a city “working” as a seamstress and giving out clothing, baskets, blankets etc to the poor, and these gods don’t necessarily have to reveal themselves to be “worshipped” simply being liked by the general public (or in their minds frequently) counts as worship, having friends that go out of their way to hang out with you or bring you gifts no matter how small also counts as worship

another thing that happens with lesser gods of more negative attributes (again mentioning the god of poison) is that they’d try to have folk tales spread about them, it’s similar to how we (in the real world) believe in things like jack frost, or the boogeyman when we were younger, believing in stories like that count as an act of worship (worship doesn’t always have to be positive, just a strong belief in that thing and acknowledgement of it’s existence) so for the god of poison they may try to start rumors of them poisoning evil dooers and thieves

because of how large paxions land is, books are the primary way to spread information, everyone owns many books and most cities and towns have massive “alters” filled with free books that can be taken and left as you please, and these also double as centers for people to hang out and trade etc, books about lesser gods as “fantastical fake characters” would help them exist longer and trick mortals into worshipping them in a way

the last way these gods can make sure their existence stays constant (or as constant as it can be) is making sure their two base god (or combi + base god) parents stay in love / near each other, but this can be difficult depending on what gods you’re dealing with, and you’d basically have to be like “hey mom. check every day that i’m alive. if i’m not alive i NEED u to smash like immediately” but like i’ve said before gods only have children for serious reasons, if they don’t both think your existence matters that much / or they in deep love you’re pretty much screwed

bottom line is if you’re a very niche god you need to be doing everything in your power to either make a good impression with the people you live around, cement yourself as a character in books and folk tales, or make sure ur parents are getting busy on the daily (awkward and weird) all in all being an extra niche god would succcck if you weren’t careful and is comparable to being a mortal (which most gods already look down upon)

#parousia #✉️

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unfortunatelyilikebnha · 4 years

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If you don’t stan Midoriya what are you DOING he is so GOOD the core of his character is just. CARING about every person he comes across & trying to HELP them even though most of the people he’s encountered before yuuei had been real nasty to him like he could’ve given up! He could’ve said “you’ve never cared about me so why should I care about you” & turned his back on the world, used his talents for himself or even become a villain (like. My dude has plenty of motive I don’t even think I’d blame him) but he DIDN’T he tries SO HARD he just wants to be able to help people!

“But he‘a a crybaby :/” And?!?! First of all being in touch with your emotions enough to cry isn’t a bad thing!!! Second of all he’s been through a lot and is constantly under so much pressure god forbid he cry a little bit!!

His idol crushed his dreams! & yet he didn’t harbor any ill will toward all might and he still acted & ended up helping save bakugou (& then got SCOLDED FOR IT WTF. Like the pro heroes were all like “you could’ve died!” but they weren’t doing anything!!! Bkg would be dead if Midoriya hadn’t intervened and he got YELLED AT FOR IT. the disrespect is astronomical). He cares about people so much even when they’ve given him nothing but reasons he SHOULDN’T care about them but because he’s so good (and stubborn lmao) he cares about them anyway!! If I was bullied for 10 years I sure as hell wouldn’t care about my bully but because Midoriya’s a literal angel he still does?!?! Like wtf. He’s just so good!

& the most irritating part is that because of aforementioned 10 years of bullying and being let down by everyone (even his mother which while Inko is a great mother & loves Izuku so much she did screw up by not believing in him) he has like no self worth and doesn’t realize how amazing he is?!? He breaks his bones CONSTANTLY bc he doesn’t care about the cost to himself as long as he can save other people he literally doesn’t rlly care if he dies like when he was being killed by muscular he was scared but his thoughts were “sorry Kota, sorry all might, sorry mom” he was more worried about “letting people down” than the fact he was dying!! He only stopped breaking his bones bc he was told that if he did it again he’d permanently damage his arms which would make it rlly hard for him to be a hero like he didn’t even consider using his quirk in other ways before then even when he was constantly in pain from shattering the hell out of his bones!! He was just like “it’s working I’m saving people who cares if I’m in immense pain every time I activate my quirk that’s fine” like holy sh*t kid please care about yourself more!! In the sports festival he broke the bones in his hand TWICE OVER for someone he’d hardly ever spoken to!! Like please PLEASE get some self worth you finally have real friends they can help you! You don’t have to do everything alone PLEASE let them help you!

Also he’s so smart?! Not just book smart (even though he scored fourth in the class on midterms so he’s obviously that too) but he’s super observant and has crazy analyses on ppls quirks and beyond quirk observation he’s really good at observing people too?! He analysed that the slime villain’s weak spot was probably its eyes & threw the backpack at it startling it enough that it temporarily retreated? He observed Bkg enough that he knew exactly how he’d act in the battle trial and devised a plan to help them win (which btw was NOT SAFE FOR HIM AT ALL & HE KNEW THAT & HE DIDNT CARE AS LONG AS HE COULD HELP THEIR TEAM WIN, another point re: last paragraph) & when he found out that Uraraka didn’t have anything that she could float to combat Iida with, he improvised by punching thru the building so that Uraraka had rubble she could use against Iida & he thought of that while in the middle of fighting Bakugou like!!! He! Is! So! Smart!!! He managed to hit the nail on the head about exactly what Todoroki needed to hear during their sports festival fight & made him remember that he could be his own kind of hero & that he wasn’t his father! He figured out the fake Uraraka wasn’t Uraraka at all just bc he KNOWS her and believes in her!!! He figured out some of mirio’s strategy while he was completely wiping the floor with the rest of 1a and so figured out where he’d pop up & tho he didn’t win that fight he did last longer than the rest of his class had! He figured out that he could use Eri’s quirk to CONTINUOUSLY SHATTER & HEAL HIS OWN BONES (again he has NO self preservation and I am sad for him) so that he could fight with 100% of his power and hold on to Eri without being rewound out of existence & traumatizing her further & ALSO TOLD HER THAT HER QUIRK IS A BLESSING! I haven’t rlly gotten farther than that in the anime and I don’t read the manga but I KNOW I’m forgetting things but POINT IS he’s really freaking smart which is another thing that makes him so interesting to watch!! Like how many characters do you know that r both really smart & really kind the stereotype seems to be one of the other but bc Midoriya’s awesome like that he’s both!!

ALSO something else I rlly like about him is that he’s kind and cares about people but when someone hurts a person he cares about he gets MAD & will do whatever he needs to do. He was scared of Bkg but when he implied Midoriya gave Uraraka her plan, he snapped at him & was like “it’s her plan not mine you better respect her strength she did this not me!” He was also scared of End**v*r (I don’t blame him! The guy’s freakishly tall, literally covered in fire, and always angry!) but as soon as he insinuated Todoroki was just his pawn or smth Midoriya TOLD HIM OFF he was like “Todoroki’s not you also f*ck you I hate you” (ok the last part is a lil exaggerated but still). When muscular was threatening Kota? He went FERAL & used 1,000,000% of his power (which. How tf is that even possible but I digress good for you Midoriya ily) to beat him just so this little kid (who literally punched him in the balls earlier) wouldn’t die like he was MAD mad. And when he found out what Ov*rh**l was doing to Eri? I thought I’d seen feral before but HOLY SH*T. He literally tried to KILL HIM (good for Midoriya. Child abusers & transphobes have no f*cking rights) he tried to stab him with that sharp piece of rock & THEN he did 100% full cowling with that absolutely chilling expression like he’s so kind but there was NO trace of kindness on his face while he was fighting Ov*rh**l (good he doesn’t deserve it).

ANYWAYS ALL THIS TO SAY Midoriya is so smart and so strong and so genuinely kind & I love him & I wish he’d love himself bc he deserves it! I’m glad 1a cares abt him so much bc it’s!!! What!!! He!!! Deserves!!! Stan Midoriya ok rant over bye

Edit: ok wait rant not QUITE over I’ve got one more thing: with Uraraka’s help he took a childhood nickname that he always HATED (like he specifically says that in the story don’t y’all try to downplay how much it hurt him) & completely changed the meaning. He even made it his HERO NAME he was like “this isn’t gonna hurt me anymore I’ll make it into something I can be proud of” and like. Even tho I don’t like the nickname and refuse to refer to Midoriya with it unless I’m specifically talking about his hero persona, THE POWER THAT HAS. Once he realized that he wasn’t alone anymore he just DECIDED to take something that had hurt him in the past & turn it not something that could comfort people in the future (bc we KNOW that he’s gonna b the no 1 hero & ppl r gonna be comforted at hearing he’s on the scene). He did that. I’m so proud of him.

#this is probably similar to other midoriya stan posts so I’m sorry abt that but i just love him & wanted to express that #its been said before but ill say it again bc he deserves it!!#midoriya izuku #bnha

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tsukidotcom · 4 years

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Haikyuu HC to COVID-19 (Karasuno edition)

This is horrible 💀 im just so bored so I made whatever this mess is KFJSJDMSK enjoy

Hinata Shouyou

huh? isn’t it just the flu?

“No, hinata. People have died from it-“

AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH-

goes bananas

whenever someone sneezes or coughs, his soul leaves his body as he runs away to sanitize/wash his hands for a miserably long time.

eats an expired can of peaches thinking it’s his last resort

lowkey happy school is closed because homework sucks

but also highkey hates it because now all volleyball tournaments are closed

then gets all angry when he realizes he’d have to do online school???!!?? like wtf he got jipped.

thinks they could still do volleyball if they did online calls cus if the school can do it,, then vOLLEYBALL CAN

will probably miss half of the class calls from oversleeping/forgetting anyway.

sheepishly ask yamaguchi, yachi or tsukishima for help on assignments/notes. (he will NEVA ask kageyama. he’s always in competition with him here!)

still practices volleyball 24/7 in his backyard or room (maybe even with his baby sister??)

He’s really good at practicing all by himself from practicing all alone in middle school—

but will probably go crazy being alone all the time with his family. he just wants to play volleyball with the team again.

looks up “what to do when you’re bored” or “what to do at home while in quarantine” on youtube

Kageyama Tobio

probably says he’s immune to the corona because he’s just better than everyone else

doesn’t really think it’s real until school shut down because of it

When he sees that corona is airborne he wont know what that means so he’d probably think it’s produced by air itself?? which makes him think air is trying to kill the human race?? and will be so confused as to why it decided to pop up now???

DESPISES online school. He had enough trouble understanding it from the gecko, so now he has to learn it basically all by hiMSELF?!?

And no way is he just gona email the teacher for help. If he does it’s gonna be only once in his lifetime. Anymore than that he thinks he’s doin too much. He doesn’t want his teachers thinking he’s dumb 😭

he says literally nothing during the calls he just tries to pay attention? and fails because he’s on a computer. in his room. alone. he’s bound to daze off or stare at a pen for 5 minutes.

Obvi still practices volleyball. Very much misses it. At least Hinata had his sibling to practice with him. tobio is a lone wolf in his household.

When his mom goes out to get groceries he gives her one of those doctor masks so she doesn’t catch corona.

Few moments later through the internet he realizes that corona is smaller than air molecules so if you can breathe through something you could still get it so he struggles for an hour thinking he just killed his mother

When his mom is back he keeps his distance in case she’s carrying the plague

omg did she just cough or am i imagining things no she definitely coughed she has corona oh oh god

In reality she was just clearing her throat.

is lowkey worrying about everyone and how they are 🥺 (yes, maybe even hinata).

thinks he’s science smart by calling it covid-19 than corona.

Asahi Azumane

He just worries about everyones health

like he just imagines the worst case scenario’s and starts to get really worried if people got it. Always checks on everyone and asks if they’re feeling any symptoms of corona ❤️

He’s either not gonna get it or he gets it and dies there’s no inbetween

but he’s jesus himself so theres no way he nor anyone in his bloodline can get it

is very happy to know that dogs can’t get it.

Takes online school seriously and tries his best

And is honestly so sad school just ended??? even if it’s temporary, he could be learning, playing volleyball, and going about his day instead of staying in a cage. he’s a third year so—how would graduation even go..?

always is up to date on the news !! and notifies everyone if anything important is added/changed.

Always tells everyone to stay safe! Whether through text or before ending a call.

only buys a lot of toilet paper from the fear of there being no toilet paper in stock since evERYONE IS BUYING IT-

Starts to try new hobbies that he put off for the longest time cus quarentine is rlly getting to him.

Is all out a family guy so he doesn’t mind the extra time with his family.

Nishinoya Yu

OAOAOAOAOAOAOAOAOAOA

420 blazin’

thinks going outside means you’re instantly gonna die from corona attacking your white blood cells (????)

but also probably doesnt care as he goes outside like everyday to run around and get rid of energy (and to practice volleyball, of course).

also why is it called white blood cells when blood is red ☠️ smh

Buys 101611018320129 bags of chips because that’s his comfort food

yay more gaming time!!!

Noya🐒: Tanaka do u wana play minecraft 2getr latr?

Tanaka🍌: HELL YEAH!!

doesn’t shower for three days straight because screw personal hygiene!! No more school!!! Can do whatever he wanted!! It’s basically summer!!!

until he’s forced to do online school.

Is def the class clown. Probably somehow kicks the teacher out of the call through a little bit of hacking.

“alright guys so i’ll be you’re substitute teacher for the day-“

tbh acts the same as he would in school. maybe a little more rebellious because, i mean, what is the teacher gonna do? send him to DETENTION? call his mOMMY?

Calls/spams literally everyone in his contacts because he’s so bored and lonely. Answer him!! Y’all will be on facetime for hours!!

He’s fun to facetime.

Will call you a loser if you don’t have an apple iPhone because then he can’t facetime you and facetiming is one of his favorite things to do to pass time (besides gaming)

HE A TRUE GAMER

Okay but he lowkey still tries at school for the sake of his grades and his future ;-; maybe calls asahi or sugawara for help??

always looks up his homework on the internet to see if he can get an answer key or something (he did that anyway even before corona but)

will do one subject for 3 hours thinking he’s finally done with everythinf till he realizes he has like 4 other subjects and needs to do those too.

Sending memes all the time

Tsukishima Kei

oh, what about corona again?

honestly could give NO fucks??. like ABSOLUTELY ZERO. nonxistent.

doesn’t even remember it’s still happening half the time.

is surprisingly very knowledgeable about corona.

he’s just smart and sciency¿ so he understands the ins and outs of corona like how it works and how its spread.

so if you tRULY want any update or background info on the corona virius, ask Tsukishima.

bitch don’t touch me you have rabies.

doesn’t care that he’s obligated to stay at home because he would have stayed either way. he very much likes being alone.

might go a little crazy cooped up in his room so he’ll hang with his brother/family or go outside before he says ‘okay that’s enough’ and goes back to his room.

isolation? oh okay *puts on headphones*

he rlly gonna be rocking it out in his room cus he can listen to music all day any day

developes a really bad sleep schedule since he had no way to get rid of the energy he got rid of at school.

still a huge tease so he says everyone has the corona virius.

is never online on social media which means he’s never up to date with his frIENDS. Doesn’t have a clue what those dipshits are doing and could care less (besides yamaguchi,, they probably facetime or call thru skype or something).

I bet the whole volleyball squad has a groupchat and honestly he puts all notifs on mute cus his phone keep goin DING DING DING DI DING ID DID IDKNG DING DIG

Brother: Omg why are you getting so many text messages?

Tsukki: Shut up

if he is online on the gc and he texts it would be simple replies like “Hi” “Okay.” “No.” “Goodbye.” and then he’s gone for another week

every first year is begging on their knees for tsukishima to give the answers or help them out and he obviously says: go do the hw yourselves idiots

besides yamaguchi!!!! again!! cus theyre gay for each other

maybe practices once in awhile with his brother or alone in his backyard but he doesn’t care

Tanaka Ryuunosuke

buys 101817 pounds of toilet paper because everyone else is? but not because of the same reason as asahi. he thinks toilet paper is the cure to corona.

GO STUPID AAAAAAAAA GO CRAZY AAAAAAAAAAA-

probably has a part time job at a grocery store so he still has to go to work 😭 i dont even know how he could have a job in the first place he’s probably always late-

still gamin with noya of course

GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY ROOM IM PLAYING MINECRAFTT

also buys like all the junk food thats in stock. and since he works at the grocery store he gets a ton of coupons and deals.

texts Kiyoko everyday goodmorning ❤️❤️❤️ and goodnight 😘😘 texts just to be left on read.

“i love it when she ignores me !!!”

scrolls through tiktoks for 1000 hours to pass time

School Is For Losers!!

similar to noya, he thought it was basicaly summer until he realized they were gonna be doing online school. literally had a fit and said he didnt wanna do jack squAt

Laughs so hard when nishinoya somehow kicks the teacher out of the call he’s like laughing so loud and hard he starts crying

all of the sudden has a better view on school

gets excited when he sees nishinoya on the call

makes funny and ugly ass faces when the teacher isn’t looking. everyone laughs and the teacher’s like 🤨

probably uses the green screen effect so he can change hus background (somehow) and accidentally misclicks a file so a girl wit a bikini becomes his background for .5 seconds before changing it to a cursed meme:

doesn’t get half the shit the teacher is talking about

but it’s okay because the half he doesn’t get is the other half noya gets

and the half noya doesnt get is the orher half tanaka gets

they’re two peas in a pod 🥰

until they try explaining it to each other and suddenly get confused?? mental malfunction ¿?

yeah im SMART!!!

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Daichi Sawamura

quite calm about the whole coronavirus

like he knows it is serious and understands how it is spread but he’s still calm about it??

tells everyone to sanitize and wash hands on a regular. and social distancing!!

honestly still wakes up like he does on normal school days and does all his academics just fine.

he even does gym activities (besides volleyball) for 30 minutes to an hour!!!! he be running on that treadmil! getting stronk!

does each subject on his own for 20-40 min each day. he’s really good at self discipline

makes sure sugawara and asahi are up to date on school work and will gladly help.

sadly can’t help the first years (and probably second years) because that info is deep in his brain and basically forgot how to do it after a year or two of not using it.

VERY VERY VERY sad that volleyball nationals are cut off. this is his last year and for it to be??? gone??? just because of some flu?!?! hates it.

he wishes school to go back and still has hope that school will go back to normal in a couple of weeks (even though it’s a slim chance).

asks the teacher questions whenever he has questions. He’s also vv considerate so he’ll ask questions he knows the answer to but asks them for anyone who’s confused ab it/wants to ask but is too shy. (literally i lov daichi sm)

Eats a healthy amount of everything

asks asahi for any updates on corona even though he’s quite up to date himself. he just wanna make sure he didn’t miss anything.

also doesn’t mind being around his family. he’ll do more chores around the house to help his parents out :> he’s literally perfect wtf

def does worry about everyone in the volleyball gc and anyone else he has contact with. Will also email classmates and ask if they’re doing all right. Even away from volleyball he’s a team player ☺️✌️

Is happy for the rest of the day when asahi tells him dogs can’t get corona.

Yamaguchi Tadashi

oaoaiquqhdkoaiaagadjsiwi?

doesn’t know what to believe anymore

keeps in touch with everyone!! always online 24/7 on social media, vball gc, you name it.

Literally everyone is acting so normal why are people so calm am i the only one worrying about this and the worlds future like this year has been really bad so far for not just me but the whole nation actually the entire world honestly like war almost broke out in january and now this corona stuff is really buttering my crissont the wrong way-

Even though tsukishima literally gives No Fucks, yamaguchi is the complete opposite.

like tsukki and yamaguchi call on skype and eVERY TIME yamaguchi starts with ‘how have you been? do you feel sick at all? have you drank enough water today?’ and so on

“What are you even worrying about?”

“Well...what if you get the corona virius?... it can be deadly, you know!! Thousands of people have died from it!!! The fact school is shutting down and people are panicking is making me feel like i should be panicking-“

Tsukki will then snarkily reassure him it’s fine and people their age are the least likely to get it bad.

Yamaguchi will feel a little better afterwords

“Thank you, Tsukki!”

Tsukki will ‘tch’ it off

Even though he gets really good grades he has triuble finding motivation to do any school work?? doing school work in his own home? 😐

His home was kinda a place he can chill whereas school is a place he can be fully focused

but now his home is ALSO school??!!?

Luckily he understands the work, at least.

When he sees tsukishima on the call, too, he instantly says hello.

“Tsukki!! Hey!! 😁”

“Shut up.”

“Gomen, Tsukki.”

Yeah. Even when they aren’t at school, he’s still the same as always.

He takes extra care of his family and always stays in touch with other relatives. Especially grandpa and grandma. THE SECOND he learned elderly people are at more risk you bet your ass he’s calling them making sure they’re okay. He checks up on them everyday now.

He peobably practices volleyball a little, too. He’s more focused on schoolwork though.

Sugawara Koushi

Have you guys ate dinner yet? 🥺

obviously checking up on everyone

he would fail as a mother if he didn’t.

Actually reads in his free time?? He finally has time on his hands to read these books so.... here we are!

Wakes up at a scheduled time everyday (minus weekends. Maybe sleeps for an extra hour or so).

He dresses in pjs rather than actual clothes because he’s not going anywhere with this social distancing thing.

Always tries to lighten the mood when all the students are on the online call. Maybe crack some joke or innocently play around with the effects.

He still pays close attention in class and does quite well on his own. No help from his parents! He can do everything on his own! He a big boi!

Does homework really well, too. Probably does extra work or more work than needed just because it makes him feel good afterwords.

Honestly i can see him cooking in his free time. If he doesnt feel like reading or scrolling mindlessly through his phone, he gonna cook.

Will make the best cookies in the universe.

HAS A HECK OF A SWEET TOOTH. NOT A DAY GOES BY WITHOUT HIM GETTING HIS PRETTY HANDS ON SUM TREAT

Honestly isn’t too good with exercise so he might gain a few pounds or grow the smallest chub 🥺🥺🥺 he would be so cute omfg.

is realy involved with his family!! they play a board/card game every friday night and have the best time.

if he has a dog, cat, or literally any animal you know he’s gona be hanging with them since he has more time.

Still! Playing! Volleyball! I mean by now every boy is practicing at least a little bit. He would probably be in his backyard playing volleyball with his family. Theyy’d set up a net and everythin! They’re all rookies at it but he still cherishes the moments with them.

It’s honestly still practice. Better than nothing

He talks about how his family plays volleyball and everyone is so jealous like 😭😭 makes him more grateful hearing half the volleyball team saying they have to practice alone.

Watching youtube videos of random videos/vines making him giggling.

“Hey, Dachi, look at this video.”

IS A SWEETHEART STFU !!!

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aloevendetta · 4 years

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the senior trip

ok so this is my first stray kids fic, i didn’t rlly edit it but i hope you all enjoy! 💕 this is jock! hyunjin x fem! reader, also a friends to lovers au of sorts :) ft the 00 line

On the last week of school, your best friend Felix came up to you and begged you to go on a road trip with him and his friends

After an entire day of insisting that you were “one of his best friends” and that he would “die without you”, you caved

His best friends were a wildly varying group of seniors at the school, some of which you were friends with, some of which you barely talked to

Hyunjin was the cliche jock

He literally could play ANY sport and be amazing at it,,,

You were slightly envious of him but you wouldn’t let him know that

And then there was Jisung

He wasn’t the most book smart, but when it came to music he was a genius

Nobody really knew since he kept it quiet, and only the chorus kids and his music theory class knew about his hidden talent

Again, you were jealous

Seungmin was that kid who could manage several ap classes like a champ

Also one of your best friends

He was kind of sassy at times but sometimes you just needed good ole Minnie to let you know you were being stupid

Seungmin and Felix openly discussed this road trip all through the school year but you never thought they’d ACTUALLy do it

“Hey y/n, Wanna come on our road trip?”

“Yeah, sure ‘lix.” You’d say, brushing it off as teasing

Until THE LAST WEEK

“Y/n, you’re packed for our trip, right?”

WHAT

HOLD ON

“Did you forget?”

“I-I didn’t think you were serious? I’m not sure if I want to go, I have a lot of plans this summer and I kind of want to relax and-“

Seungmin then plopped down onto a bench at your lunch spot, clapping a hand on your back

“If anyone needs to relax, it’s me, and this trip is the perfect chance. We’re going to a resort!”

how were you supposed to get out of this now ( ಠ ಠ )

“My mom-“

Felix shot you a look

“Y/n, YOURE 18!!! You can go without your mom’s permission”

“Let me think about it.”

The rest of lunch Felix and Seungmin dropped it

After lunch was over, the avalanche of questions started

You were solid in your decision until Felix added you to a group chat

you kept telling yourself the only reason you went was the spam

But Felix and seungmin both knew it was because of your silent pining of hyunjin

Aka the super gorgeous super talented super sporty super nice super smart best friend of your best friend

it was ALL FINE UNTIL

Hyunjin: y/n, you HAVE to come with us :(( it won’t be the same :(((

CRAP

from across the English classroom Felix watched your resolve crumble as you typed

Y/N: ,,,,, when do we leave

Never did you think you’d end up here, though

Jisung’s VW bus had broken down

(EVERYONE knew it was only a matter of time)

So now you sat crammed between jisung and hyunjin in the backseat of Felix’s car

Felix’s tiny car

His little

Puny

Honda Accord

Despite insisting Jisung took up little to no space and that it was far smarter for him to sit in the middle

he insisted that his knee had been bothering him and you should instead

being the little demon jisung is

He was laying with his head against the door and his feet pushing you closer to Hyunjin

U were rlly warm but it definiTELY wasn’t the car, just u :)

U were awkwardly pushed up against the dude you had a crush on all of high school

And you knew the 3 other boys in the car had planned it

When you glanced in the rear view mirror you were met with Seungmin’s grinning at you and a snort from Felix

You didn’t really mind though because Hyunjin was super sweet and didn’t mind you being that close to him at all

Instead, when jisung KICKED you over toward ur crush

And you PROFUSELy apologized

Hyunjin just laughed and said

“It’s okay! I’ve been around him my entire life, I’m not surprised, honestly”

(∗∕ ∕•̥̥̥̥∕ω∕•̥̥̥̥∕)

At some point during the ride you fell asleep and when you woke up on hyunjins shoulder

Saying you panicked would be an understatement

“Oh my gosh I’m so sorry I can’t believe I fell asleep on you, oh my gosh Hyunjin you should’ve woken me up and told me to move I’m so sorry”

“Y/n, it’s fine, I promise I didn’t mind.”

Yeah that made you feel somewhat better until you felt the dried up drool on your chin

GREAT

Anyway, you guys had arrived at the resort you were staying at

felix and seungmin weren’t mean enough to make you room with hyunjin (tbh you’d die)

(also that’s too cliche let’s be honest)

though the moment the door shut and you threw your suitcase onto the suitcase stand, felix and seungmin were hounding you

“you slept on him, y/n”

“see we told you that you wouldn’t regret this”

“we’re the best wingmen ever”

“what would you do without us”

it took a sharp glare from you to get them to shut up but they were still snickering

after you unpacked, felix and seungmin shoved you out the door with jisung and hyunjin in tow

it was your job to buy and cook dinner apparently

when you got to the store you put jisung in charge of dessert and hyunjin was in charge of the vegetable

you had the main course

unsurprisingly, jisung came back with box of cake mix and funfetti icing

hyunjin, being the healthy he is due to his sports diet, came back with a microwave veggie bag

you were making one of your favorite dishes, maybe not the healthiest, but that was never a criteria for dinner

when u got back you put the boys to work

and surprise surprise

they protested as u told them to boil water and start making their food items

anyway, after u got them to actually start working (by promising you’d buy them the next game they wanted for felix’s switch), dinner quickly was served

u made a fancy pasta dish that was irresistible >:]

and you’re proud to say there were no leftovers

after you and the boys finished cleaning the kitchen, hyunjin approached you

“y/n, i’m gonna go on a walk to burn off some of the unhealthy stuff in that meal. i cant be looking puffy or gaining weight” he joked

“but if you,, uh, want to join me...?” he asked, smiling sheepishly

hyunjin was talking about BURNING CALORIES while you sat on the couch in pj shorts and an oversized shirt, watching tv and playing on your phone

ヽ༼ ಠ益ಠ ༽ﾉ really wanna make us feel healthy today, huh?

but it was hyunjin, so you got up, shoved your phone in your pocket and slipped into some shoes and went on a walk with him

he walked really fast, to be honest

you were jogging to keep up with him,,, and u were the one who wanted to do less exercise,,,, >:////

hyunjin would look back at you and laugh as your dragged your feet, wanting to take a break

“y/n~ we’re here”

“y-you took me somewhere? damn it, hyunjin, we could’ve taken the car (；¬д¬)”

“but that’s no fun!”

his puppy dog eyes made you sign in defeat before taking in the surroundings

hyunjin had led you to the resort pond reserve, where little ducks would swim during the day

at night, the onlt light pollution was from the city several miles away, and the stars reflected perfectly off of the calm water

“how’d you know about this?” you asked ur ‘workout’ partner

(like u could ever survive a workout with him)

“i saw it coming in and i thought you’d enjoy it. you were too busy sleeping on me but you mentioned stargazing sophomore year.”

ok 1) he thought of u

2) he remembers what you said about sophomore year

3),,, he brought jusr you?

could,,, could ur crush like you?

“i know jisung also likes stuff like this so i invited him but he didn’t want to stop the game he was in,” hyunjin added

and thus, the hope left

he just did it as a friendly thing, hyunjin was always friendly

you sighed and sat down on the grass, not really caring about the mud or grass stains

should,, you tell him?

it could ruin the rest of your trip and cause awkwardness between your friend groups and ruin your friendship with hyunjin

or he could (very unlikely) like you back

in which case,,, what do u do?

hm.... the logical choice was obvious; the first

screw logic though

“ah, hyunjin?”

he glanced over at you, shaking his bangs out of his face, but failing and spluttering to fix it, “yeah?”

“i dont want this to make anything awkward or whatever and i know this is really stupid because you’re you and i’m me and i like you but you’re all sport-y and handsome and girls love you and every one of those girls are prettier than me but i mean i couldn’t help it felix and seungmin tease me all the time and i got sick of holding it in because there was the off chance that maybe you liked me back but now all of this is coming out of my mouth and i realize how stupid i sound”

you cast your gaze down and played with. a strand of grass

“you like me?” hyunjin asked, earning a nod from you

“y/n.... i’ve liked you.... for the longest time, i thought you only saw me as a popular jock like the rest of my team or that you saw me as a brother or something...” his face went from shocked and morphed into a huge smile

you listened to him and your own smile formed before you tackled him into a hug

“oh gosh, i was so worried this would go badly. what will we tell the others? they’ll never let us out again” you laughed softly

hyunjin stood up, helping you up as well

“we don’t have to tell the others, they’re not stupid. for now, you’re here with me”

you scoffed at that. “ohmygosh, you’re so cliché-”

hyunjin cut you off with a kiss, and you didn’t really realize it before he pulled back

“was that ok? i didn’t mean to overstep any boundaries, i just, i dont know i just thought that maybe-”

you cut him off with a quick kiss on the cheek before grabbing his hand

“we gotta get back to the boys before they think we died” you smiled brightly

“i suppose youre right. what would we do without the mom friend?” he teased, letting go of your hand and wrapping his arm around you as you both walked home

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schaefferisqueen · 4 years

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Twisted Song Ranking

OK ITS FINALLY HERE I SORRYYYYYY. So this took forever cuz SCHOOL and I needed to watch Twisted again cuz I can’t buy the sound track. so. long time. ANYWAYS AJ and Kaley KILLED IT I love the soundtrack so much it so good..... but not my fave oops. so ya this show is amazing and my ranking is slightly controversial (as always) so sorry oops.

14. Orphaned at Thirty-three (Ok so I love Jeff but I don't like this song oops. it makes me uncomfy and Jeff is creepy but like that's his brand so I get it. but also rlly don't like oh well)

13. One Thousand and One Nights Reprise/Finale (ok so this is good its just way too short for me and I feel like it lasts .5 secs lmao)

12. Take Off Your Clothes (Ok so this is a good song and it doesn't make me uncomfy I just like more songs better and I don't rlly jam to this one like others)

11. Everything and More (ok I LOVE Rachel no hate I Stan her she's amazing but I think the songs in twisted were out of or at the edge of her range and she sounds kinda strained so it kinda hurts to listen sometime. but no hate I love her she's amazing and hilarious especially in twisted shut up she's amazing)

10. Happy Ending (ok I love this song its so good especially at homecoming its amazing and Jeff going crazy at the end is so relatable I cant. also.... this is end of first act,,..... there are only 5 songs in act 2???? lmao but ya amazing we Stan harmonies I love)

9. One Thousand and One Nights (ok this is great go OFF Dylan/Meredith u r too good for this world. their voices together so good and they have so many starkid characters that r a thing lmao but honestly so cute amazing vocals their love story is great we ship and Stan)

8. I Steal Everything (ok I FUCKING LOVE THIS SONGGGGG amazing intro to scumbag!Aladdin and his mentality. he also rlly fucking funny and the choreography kills meeee GO JAMES KINGGGG James Tolbert choreographed he DESERVES the recognition and Jeff is hilarious and Lauren as monkey is great too. also rip Robert lmao)

7. Sands of Time/Golden Rule (yayay so this song is great and so good and it SHOULD be the 1st act closer or smtg but its not so rip oh well. ANYWAYS we love when the ppl appreciate j’afar but go apeshit later and hate him its hilarious contrast. ALSO dancing duet Robert/Lauren PART 2 we love them sm the two dancers killing it. and Laurens a boy again lmao)

6. If I Believed (GO DYLANNNNNNNNNNN ok so I know I will prob get hate for putting this ‘so low’ cuz its normally in top 3 for most rankings but oh well. I love Dylan and this song breaks my heart BUT I LOVE OTHERS MORE IM SORRY OK anyways Dylan slays and hits THAT NOTE and kills it I cant I want the sound track purely for this song (and the top 5))

5. Power in Me (yessssss I know this song gets a lot of hate but I genuinely love it tis amazing and heartfelt and Dylan/Racheal duet is WHAT WE NEEDED the only thing better would be Dylan/jaime duet and I will advocate for that until the day I die FIGHT ME they need to sing together. ANYWAYS I love this song it so emotional and great closer for j’afar as djinn and ugh EMOTIONS so ya)

4. Golden Rule Evil Reprise (yesssssssssssss this songgggggggg GO JOE GO JOE KING OMG U KILLLLL ITTTTTT I cant this song is so good and way too short it should be so much longer but omg amazing. also. CHOREO EXCUZE ME GO OFF JAMESSSSS. sry I love this song I cant its so clever the lyrics I cant GO OFF KALEY its amazing we stannnnnn)

3. Dream a Little Harder (ok this song is hilarious and Alex and Robert GO OFFFF they kill it and fun fact Kaley/aj have said that the song would be completely diff if they weren't in the cast sooooo that just tells u how amazing they areeeeee. also the fuck you and the belle parody and Jaime as bell and Denise as the parrot is so funnyyyyyy and Jeff at that one part where everyone is saying that their mom died is amazing I loveeeeeeee we Stan this song so much and it was almost higher BUT just wait lmao)

2. No One Remembers Achmed (OK I KNOW SHUT UP IT SHOULD BE NUMBER ONE BUT ITS NOT SO DEAL I love achmed and the soldiers (especially #3) steal the show like H E F U C K E D A T I G E R is so good and Jim is amazing and Jim harmonizing w/ Lauren in the beginning is also amazing and this song just SLAPS so hard I love so muchhhhh the ensemble just goes off and so does Joe and its amazinggggg w eloveeeeeeeee)

1. Twisted (OK SO YES THIS IS FIRST IT IS MY FAVE DONT @ ME. I love twisted so much firstly cuz GO JAIME YES URSULA GO YESSSS and Nick as scar and Robert as Gaston and Lauren as maleficent and Alex as Captain Hook and DENISE HOLY SHIT DENISE UR SO FUNNY I CANT ALSO did u know that Jim was going to be hades but the costume was too complicated and too much so they couldn't im sad that would have been hilarious. AND LETS NOT FORGET DYLAN OMGGGGGG he's amazing and he kills it and again GO JAIME GO OFF QUEEEEENNNNN GO OFFFFF I LOVE UUUUUUUUUUUU also jaime has said multiple times that ursula was her fave starkid role ever and yes so accurate its so amazing and iconic like the voice the costume the body movement the SPLIT AT THE END YES SHE SPLITS WHEN SHE DROPS INFRONT OF J’AFAR GO OFFFFFFFF I LOVE HER HAND THIS SONG EEEEKKK)

OK so once again if u actually got thru all of that (especially the last one lol) u r my fave person and I love u sm u absolute queen. so ya again im sorry it took so long school sucks and so does senior yr and college essays and screw that shit. so... next is avpsy. imma have to watch other ranking vids to get the songs cuz there is no soundtrack that I can find and I DO NOT have the time nor energy to watch the whole thing so I sorry in advance. BUT I have already ranked HMB AND STARSHIP I just need to add commentary so after AVPSY it should go fasterish. oops ANYWAYS

luv u all

<3, alimay (lmao it autocorrected to alimony lol I cant that's hilarious)

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lovemesomesurveys · 5 years

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Do you feel bored with your life? I do feel that way, some days more so than others. Like some days even the few things I like to do, like Tumblr and surveys, just don’t cut it. Who’s someone you miss that you haven’t talked to in years? Ty. Do you miss anyone who was mean to you in the past? No. How do you feel right now? Tired. Do you have severe withdrawals from medications? I imagine I would if I had to stop taking my pain medication.

What’s the most weight you’ve ever gained from a medication? I’ve never had weight gain from a medication. Do you have a doctor you can trust? I just answered this in the previous survey. Wth is going with these surveys, man. So many will have the same questions, and not just the basic ones that like all surveys have, but ones that should be more random like this. What’s the stupidest decision you ever made? Oh where to start. The health related ones definitely top the cake. There were things I could have and should have done, but didn’t for some stupid reason. I should have taken better care of myself. What’s the best thing that ever happened to you? When my younger brother was born (cue the “awwwwww”). I was 9 and may not have been psyched about having a brother at first (sorry!), but he’s the best little bro ever. Turned out so much better than me. He should be the older one, honestly. I look up to him. And also of course all the doggos I’ve been fortunate to have in my life. How old were you the first time you encountered God? When I was a young kid, but I didn’t really understand it and then I got to be older and went through many years of being atheist and agnostic. I was led back to Him when Ty came back into my life in late 2015. Have you ever been filled with the Holy Spirit? I believe so. Have you ever had an encounter with the supernatural? No. How many tattoos do you have, and what are they of? I don’t have any. How do you get through hard times? * I dont rlly do anything all that different. Like, my overall routines dont rlly change, I still do mostly the same stuff on a day-to-day basis. I do try to find more comforting and distracting things to do, tho, and I try to be extra kind and patient toward myself when Im struggling or when life puts some bit of unwanted chaos in my path, ahah <<< Same for the first part about not doing anything different in regards to what I do and my overall routines staying the same, but also trying to distract myself more. I’ve been going through a really hard time for a long time, but here we are. That being said, I’m not doing anything to try and better it, and that’s where my issue is. What’s the most physically painful thing you’ve ever experienced? The pain after surgical procedures. What’s the worst level of emotional pain you’ve ever experienced? Losing loved ones and my depression, particularly these past few years. Have you ever been suicidal? Not actively. I can’t say I’ve never thought about it, but I’ve never seriously planned anything or tried anything. I’m too scared and I don’t want to hurt my loved ones. And truthfully, I don’t really want to die. I just want to start living. I want to not feel this way anymore and not have this battle with my mind and feeling as sad and miserable and crappy as I do. I want to live a live I’m passionate about and actually do something. Do you pray? If yes, to whom? Yes, to God. Do you ever feel lost and alone? “If you’re lost and alone, and sinking like a stone, carry onnnnn.” What do you miss about high school? I mean, I wouldn’t wanna go back, but there were some good parts. It had its ups and downs. What do you miss the most about college? I’ve answered this recently. Did you like high school? Like I said, it had its ups and downs. What was the name of the first dorm you lived in? I never lived in a dorm. What was the last thing that made you angry? Blah. Have you ever been the victim of a crime? Yes. I’m a victim of a drive-by shooting. Is your life worse than you could have ever have imagined it to be? I mean, I didn’t imagine my life being how its been these past few years... …or is it better, or just what you expected? No. Are you married? No. Are you hurting in any way right now? Yes. Are you currently missing someone? There’s a few people I’ll always miss. What are you wearing? Black leggings and a gray Nirvana shirt. What was the last flavor of tea you drank? Peppermint. Do you feel like youtube’s gotten boring lately? No. What would you change about your hair if you could? I just need to get it dyed and trimmed. Are you jealous of anyone? No. Do you have a secret? Maybe. If you could tell anyone a secret right now, who would it be? No one. Do you miss someone that you blew it with? Yes. I’ll always regret how things went with Ty. Is there a guy (or girl) you wish you hadn’t screwed things up with? Yeah, Ty. What was the best date you’ve ever been on? Coffee shop and bookstore dates with Ty. What’s the last great song you discovered? Hmm. Do you prefer color or black and white? I like both, just depends. Do you own a thermometer? Yeah. Has facebook gotten boring lately? Yeah it kinda is. Do you feel free to post how you feel on facebook? I don’t really post anything on there anymore, especially not anything personal or about my opinions on big topics. Which stereotype do you fit the most? Don’t know, don’t care. What is your favorite fast food restaurant? Burger King, Taco Bell, Chick-Fil-A, McDonalds, and Jack in the Box. I haven’t been into fast food; though, the past couple months, which is very odd for me. What is the most beautiful landscape you have ever seen? For my birthday we took a gondola ride up 9000ft and got the most beautiful view of the mountains, lake, and city. It was incredible. What is one place you have always wanted to visit? Hawaii. What was your favorite vacation you went on as a child? Disneyland. Who were your favorite celebrities as a child? I was the 12/13/14 year old with tons of posters all over my wall from magazines. What was the first CD you bought? I think the 1st one I bought myself was Ashlee Simpson’s CD, Autobiography. ha. How old are you? 30. What year were you born? 1989. Did you go to prom? Yes. Are you jealous of people who are ten years younger? I’m kind of envious in some ways. For one, they’re 20 years old aka babies and not old like me haha. But second of all, they’re really just starting out. I’m envious of the ones who are living their best lives and having fun and the ones who are starting college and making the best of it while also having a good social life. People at 20 still have so much time ahead to figure things out, and that I’m very envious of. If you could rewind time ten years, would you? It would be tempting. There’s so much I’d like to do differently. The thought of going through college all over again isn’t appealing, though. But man. Some changes that I’d like to change might make it worth it, though.. they would make such a big difference for me. Some of the things I’m dealing with now I don’t think I would be if I did some things differently. What do you miss the most about your past? I miss my childhood the most. Do you like getting older? Not at all. What is the last song you played on repeat? Hm. I’m not one to really play songs on repeat, so I don’t recall. Do you own a CD player? Nope. What hard thing are you going through right now, if applicable? My health and life stuff. What do you need prayer for? Good health and strength. Are you ok? “I’m not okay, I’m not o-fucking-kay.” What’s the best retreat you’ve ever been on? I haven’t been on a retreat. Do you love free falling? “Now I’m freeeeeee. Free fallin’.” Do you prefer slow songs or fast songs? I like both. Have you made any progress toward going after your dreams? No. I don’t even have any dreams to work towards right now. Who encourages you to go after your dreams? My family definitely would. They always have. Do you have regrets? Do I ever. Does anyone really know you? I don’t even really know me. I’ve changed these past few years and became someone I don’t know and certainly don’t like. I’m struggling with whether this is who I really am now, or am I like this because of my depression and health stuff? I really don’t know. Are you close to anyone right now? My mom and brother. What color is your trash can? The one in my room is white. Do you know anyone who is stuck-up? Yes. What color is your dresser? Brown. Are you more boho, hipster, sporty, goth, or girly? I’m just casual. What were your favorite clothing stores in high school? Hot Topic, Macys, JCP... I don’t really remember where else I shopped in high school. Do you drive a car? No. If not, do you wish you had a car? I don’t drive, so I have no use for a car. Do you own a computer? If yes, is it a desktop or laptop? I have a laptop. What color is your cell phone? Coral. How old were you when you first got a cell phone? 16. What is your favorite season? Fall. Do you wish you had a popsicle right now? No. I’m not a popsicle person. Or ice cream in general, really. I rarely have any. It’s been like 3 years since I’ve had any. Who was your favorite family pet when you were growing up? My dog, Scruffy. He was with us from the time I was 5 until I was 18. What’s your favorite color? Pastels, yellow, mint green, rose gold, and coral. Do you like pineapple on pizza? Nope. List five of your favorite youtubers. Nah. Who’s your best friend? My mom. If you don’t have one, who do you wish were your best friend? Is your heart hurting? Not physically, but yeah. What song are you listening to right now, if any? I’m not. At what time of day do you usually feel the most energetic? Never? What medication or drug has given you the worst withdrawals? I’m sure my pain med would.

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sweetlysilent · 6 years

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Endearment

Requested By: @tom-holla

how ABOUT the reader gets mad at peter for always talking about Liz (bc they know Liz doesn’t like him back but the reader rlly likes him) and then they get into an argument and then to get him to shut up the reader like kisses him and then yOU FINISH IT FROM THERE

Pairing: Peter Parker x Reader

Description: Peter is oblivious to the fact that Liz doesn’t like him back and that instead you have feelings for him, so during one of his moments of talking about Liz you snap.

Warnings: Swearing, Jealousy, Fluff

Word Count: 2,515

A/N: This was so fun to write, I actually really like how it turned out and even better it’s for the QUEEN @tom-holla !!!!! I hope that it’s everything you expected it to be and I hope you enjoy it :)))) ily <3

You knew Peter liked Liz, it wasn’t a secret, hell, everyone knew Peter liked Liz, anytime he was ever around the brunette haired girl Peter would get flustered and forget how to speak English.

And each time you saw them together you felt your heart die a little on the inside, you had developed feelings for Peter, but this wasn’t just your average ‘crush’ feeling, it was something stronger, deeper.

You had realized freshman year that you felt something for the boy, you started noticing that when he smiled it would be genuine, or how when he’d laugh his nose would wrinkle up and it would be the most adorable thing you’d ever seen, or the way his eyes would glimmer in just the right lighting and they’d sparkle from a mile away - or at least they did to you anyways.

It was then you knew that you were screwed, you were falling hard for your best friend, but you knew he had his heart set on Liz Allan, the girl of his dreams.

So, from that day forward you kept the secret to yourself, nobody could know about your feelings for Peter, and that’s how it stayed.

You went through each day, walking down the hallways with Peter and Ned, while Peter would casually talk about Liz and how gorgeous she was, which was silently killing you.

This happened everyday of Freshman year, and each day you felt a small part of you die, knowing he’d never feel that passionate about you, but you felt just that passionate about him.

That was also the day you realized you were in love with Peter, and it scared the hell out of you.

“Y/N are you coming? We have gym in like two minutes.” Peter would stop to turn around and look at you, a soft smile on his lips as he glanced you over, seeing how your face had paled, and that you looked.. uneasy.

“I-I yeah.. Of course. Sorry about that, zoned out.” You shrugged it off nervously, giving a fake laugh as you waved your hand in the air trying to play off what had just happened, noticing how Peter gave you a skeptical look but let it slide.

That was also the day Peter started to pay attention to your actions more.

But that also didn’t change how he felt towards Liz, and you weren’t sure anything would ever change how he felt.

Come Sophomore year you felt maybe there was a chance, a chance for you to finally confess your feelings for Peter, you had grown up since being a Freshman, you matured more, looked older, it was the perfect time.

Or so you thought.

“Damn it’s like Liz just gets more beautiful as time goes on, don’t you think so Y/N?” Peter would glance over at you, while you gave one of your fakest smiles of your life, nodding in response, trying your hardest to not roll your eyes.

“Did Liz get a new top?” Peter questioned aloud, making you internally wish you could be anywhere else but with him at the moment.

“No, she’s had that one for like.. ever.” Ned would laugh, seeing as Peter didn’t even care, he was so infatuated with her, she was perfect to him.

That was the day you decided to start slowly distancing yourself from Peter, you couldn’t take the pain anymore, it was too much.

But then the unthinkable happened, Liz approached you that day, and you two became inseparable.

“Y/N, you’re friends with Peter right?” Liz questioned randomly one day while you were helping her clean up from the Academic Decathlon practice.

“Yeah, we’ve been best friends for as long as I can remember, why?” You would answer, glancing over at her in curiosity as you gathered flash cards.

“I know he likes me, it’s pretty obvious, he’s not so subtle about hiding it.” Liz would laugh, making your heart ache slightly at her words, but you nodded slightly showing you were listening.

“Anyways, what I’m trying to say is, I don’t feel the same way for him, everyone but him apparently knows, but what I don’t think everyone knows is how you feel about him.. am I right?” She’d stop gathering papers, standing up straighter, her one eyebrow raised as she studied your movements.

Her words replayed in your head like a broken record, Liz didn’t like Peter back, therefore, you didn’t have to worry anymore. Therefore, you had a chance, therefore - wait, did you hear her correctly? How did Liz know about your feelings for Peter? Matter of fact how did she figure it out?

“I-I don’t know what you’re talking about.” You’d fake laugh, while avoiding her intense stare, continuing to clean up the flash cards as you heard her sigh loudly.

“After getting to know you for these past few weeks, I can tell when you’re lying Y/N.” Liz would smile softly, making you let out a sigh of your own, your shoulders dropping slightly as you turned to face her in defeat.

“Alright! Alright fine! I like Peter, - no , I love Peter. I love him so much that it physically hurts me when I heave to hear him talk about you all fucking day and night about how beautiful you are, or what your wearing that day, or how you did your hair and it kills me!” You would shout, your hands waving around in the air for emphasis, your chest rising and falling rapidly.

“Y/N.. I..” Liz tried to interrupt, but you weren’t finished, now you were just word vomiting, all your secrets were pouring out and there was nothing you could do about it.

“He has never, not once, noticed me, like genuinely noticed me. He has never said I looked beautiful, or commented on what I was wearing, or even said my hair looked nice, it’s like I don’t even exist, because I’m not you. I’ll never be you, I’ll never be perfect.” You’d sniffle, tears slipping down your cheeks as you finally broke, making Liz’s expression fall as she’d rush over to you.

That was the day Liz made it her personal goal to get Peter to truly notice you.

So, when Junior year came Liz had done a complete three sixty on you, she gave you a new look, a new style, a new everything.

Sure, you were nervous as hell, you’d never looked so.. so pretty before, it made you feel confident, comfortable, noticeable.

You walked through the school doors, earning a few looks from people, some wolf whistles from others, before your eyes landed on the two people you were hoping to see.

You instantly started making your way over to them, earning Ned’s gaze first before he elbowed Peter in the ribs, making him groan before turning his head to see you approaching them.

“Holy shit, is that.. is that Y/N?” Peter would whisper to Ned, who’d nod frantically, seeing your new appearance, you were breathtaking.

“Hey guys.” You’d smile, leaning against a random locker near theirs as they’d look you over before clearing their throats.

“New look?” Ned would choke out, making you smile and nod your head in response.

“New year, new me, thought it was time for a change, maybe someone will actually take interest in me this year.” You’d smile, shrugging your shoulders while glancing down the hallway, seeing Liz approaching.

Peter on the other hand would be replaying your statement in his head, what was this about someone taking interest in you? And why did it bother him so much?

“Y/N! You look gorgeous!” Liz would squeal happily, making you laugh and hide your face as she’d smile at you.

“Don’t you guys think so too?” She’d glance as Ned and Peter whose eyes would widen slightly, being caught off guard by Liz’s question.

“-Of course! Y/N is always stunning.” Ned would smile, giving a thumbs up at you, making you laugh.

“Y/N’s always been beautiful, with or without change.” Peter would speak quietly, making your heart race at his simple yet meaningful words.

“T-Thanks.” You’d smile shyly, before being dragged off by Liz, her excitement radiating off her as you both walked.

Since that day you thought maybe things had changed, that since Peter finally noticed you, that he’d start to develop some sort of feelings in return for you.

But, of course, those were just dreams.

You were currently with Ned and Peter, walking to your next class, everything was going great, until Peter saw Liz, and his eyes lit up like the sun.

“Liz looks so good with her hair up, I wish she’d wear it like that more often. Also, look at her outfit, she’s stunning.” Peter would smile, gazing at her down the hallway like she was a goddess, making your blood boil.

You were sick of this.

“Y/N isnt’ she-” Peter would turn to face you, only to see your hard glare on him already.

“Peter, I’m going to be as blunt as I can with you, Liz doesn’t like you, she’s never going to like you like that, and frankly I’m so sick and tired of hearing you talk about her like she’s the only fucking girl on the planet, so please, forgive me if I don’t want to stick around and listen to you rave about her.” You’d spit out, your words dripping with venom as you’d scowl at the boy in front of you, shock taking over his face.

“How the hell do you even know that? Actually why do you even care? I’ve liked Liz for almost three years now and now you tell me she doesn’t return the feelings? Where were you Freshman year with this information huh?” Peter would fire back, taking a small step closer to you with each comeback.

“Oh! You want to know how I know?” You’d raise your eyebrows, while letting out a sarcastic laugh, your feet moving closer to him as well.

“Yeah! I do!” He’d shout, the space between you becoming smaller each step.

“Because she told me! She told me to my face that she didn’t like you back! That she knew you liked her, but that didn’t change anything! So, do us all a favor and get over your pathetic little crush!” You’d shout, your index finger poking his chest.

“Why do you even care so much if I like her! What’s it matter to you anyways!” Peter would shout, his eyes searching yours rapidly for the answer.

You’d both be breathing heavily from shouting, your faces dangerously close to one another’s.

“Tell me, tell me why you care so much that I like Liz! You wouldn’t be this mad if-”

You’d cut him off, pressing your lips against his, your one hand cupping his cheek gently while the other was placed on the back of his neck.

Peter on the other hand would be in complete shock, unable to process what was happening until you would pull away, a look of fear washing over your face.

“I-I..” Peter would stammer, his face growing red from what had just happened.

“I’m so.. I’m so sorry.. I don’t know why I just did that..” You’d whisper, unable to look him in the eyes.

The two of you would grow silent for what felt like forever, until you felt his fingers graze your chin, gently tilting it up to look at him, before Peter himself pressed his own lips against yours.

To say you were shocked would be an understatement, you were speechless.

Peter Parker was kissing you.

Peter would instantly feel like he was making a mistake, that he read your actions wrong, so he started to pull away, but you pulled him back, kissing him back.

You’d both eventually pull away, looking at each other with adoration, something you never thought you’d experience from Peter.

“This entire time.. this entire time I’ve been chasing a girl that didn’t feel the same way, if I had only opened my eyes sooner and realized that the girl I’ve been waiting for has been beside me this whole time.” Peter would whisper, his smile growing on his face as he’d caress your cheek gently with his thumb.

“Took you long enough Parker.” You’d joke, letting out a soft laugh, making his heart swell up at the sound, his eyes lighting up slightly seeing your nose crinkle.

“Y/N, would you honor me and be my date to homecoming?” Peter would blurt out, surprising you, hell, surprising himself.

Where did he get this confidence all of a sudden? Not that he didn’t mind it though.

“I’d love to be your date, I wouldn’t want it any other way.” You’d smile, before pecking his lips quickly, earning a tiny smirk from him in return.

Weeks later, you’d both be making your way onto the dance floor at homecoming, your light purple dress matching his light purple bow tie, which was nicely done if you did say so yourself.

“May I have this dance my lady?” Peter would grin, placing his hand out as you’d laugh and accept his gesture, starting to dance with him.

You’d see Liz and Ned, smirking at the two of you from the sidelines, making you roll your eyes slightly, but give a silent 'thank you,’ if it wasn’t for them you weren’t sure you’d be where you were with Peter today.

“Did I tell you that you look absolutely gorgeous tonight?” Peter would speak into your ear, his arms wrapped around your waist gently as your arms draped around his neck.

“Actually, yes, you did, but I could always hear you say it again.” You’d tease, making him smile and shake his head.

“You look gorgeous Y/N.” Peter would smile, before leaning in and giving you a quick but passionate kiss, making you melt on the inside.

“You look pretty handsome yourself there Parker.” You’d wink, your fingers trailing through his hair slightly, making his smile grow.

That was the night you two danced for hours.

And the night you told him you loved him, and he told you he loved you too.

Thus making homecoming a success, and by far the best one you’d ever gone to, and it was all thanks to the one and only Peter Parker.

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poppymadness · 6 years

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💖 HQ, Knb, All Out, Free, BNHAand DnA I think you watched at least a little bit of it, didn't u? And since I know who some of your favorites are already u can just rant about why u love them

@naturalpeaches said:💖 can i be an ass and say twdg even tho ik the answers p much OH the last kingdom. bring it to ur blog amber. talk about it. accept it.

💖 listen those 2 weren’t enough. give me the raven cycle. give me the foxhole court. give me six of crows. giVE ME CRIMINAL MINDS HAAAAA BITCH. why not throw the 100 in there too. also talk abt ur boo in the sun is also a star. give him some lovin

💖 N A R U T O

hope it’s cool just to throw ya both in here bc i’m lazy

haikyuu: (3) kuroo tetsurou - iiiiiiiiiiii fucking love kuroo sO much, a huge tall not so dumb dumbass god. i don’t know what to say dfkhka i fuckin Love him thanks dude. i nEVER FORGET THE FUCKIN LAUGH GOD FUCK FOR FUCKS SAKE skjfd. whenever i get in Kuroo Moods they last SO long i can’t get a break. and gamer au kuroo is killer it’s too good. listen he’S A BIG FOOL and i LOVE him want the best for him bc he’s great, good, good dude. i also rlly fuckin love terushima man ooooo my god, imagine him and kuroo bein buds hORRIBLE

kuroko no basket: (1) kiyoshi teppei - mY BOY KIYOSHI AAAAA. hE’S EVEN T A L L E R mmmm 6′4″ the fuck mann. we know my love for this dumbass i love him so so muuch fuck. thought it was kuroko at first, bitch no. I LITERALLY DIDN’T KNOW I LOVED HIM TILL AFTER I FINISHED THE WHOLE SHOW. like, just, the more i saw stuff involving him the more i was like ooo no no waiT i LoVE HiM i screamed when he showed up in the second opening when we rewatched it oooommggggg. he’S SO GOOD I HOPE HIS KNEE IS HEALED I HOPE HE GETS TO PLAY BASKETBALL AS A LIL SIDE HOBBY OR SOMETHIN HOPE HE’S FUCKIN HAPPY!!!!! whY DOES HE SELF-SACRIFICE SO MUCH BOY OOO MY GOD WHEN HE REALIZED THE TEAM GOT HIS BACK TOO BITCH HE SO CUTE. mmmmm i love hiiiiim bois. also love akashi i keep finding it funny ur intimated by him cj

all out: (4) ebumi masaru - i can’t. i can’t explain why i love him oR WHY HE’S SO HIGH A FAVE GOD. this whole fandom is like Those Thighs and make ebumi all about fuckin sex like what a Tough Boy like yA HE BUYS (rents? whatever) PORN THAT’S FUCKIN SO FUNNY TO ME BUT MMMM he. more. i nevER STOP THINKIN BOUT THE EP WITH ISE THAT EMO SHIT DO U SEE HOW MUCH EBUMI CARES BOUT HIS FRIEND GOD Fuck. like yeah, just take the money. this is what was left for me but idc here take it u need it i stg season 2 better be in the works i want more of his backSTORY. oh hE FUCKIN BLEACHES HIS HAIR WHAT A PUUUUNK, HE TRAINS SO HARD HE CARES SO MUCH ABOUT RUGBY GETS P I S S E D WHEN PPL HALF-ASS IT LIKE?? FAIR ENOUGH. OH THETY ACTUALLY DREW HIS HAIR DOWN RIGHT ADJHF A OoO FUCK TAHT. i’m good it’s cool alright bye gion, raita & ise are my best friends thank

free: rin matsuoka - i. thought it was nagisa at first. i wanna cry fuckin nagisa jesus. good boy but hell no. rin?? is so sweet i’m sorry fuckin flew haru to australia & shit he’s so good i love him. i gotta do this i’m srry FUCK whoever thinks rin would be abusive with haru thx. i havE A RIN POSTER G O D

boku no hero academia: todoroki shouto - i literally didn’t have a fave in this show until one (1) specific episode in season 2 with him. thought i was gonna live forever not having a fave in this show. i had actually been growing to like him and was like No, i told myself to not like him bc he’s so popular hdkfa. and then that ep came and i was like,,,oof i Love him, love love love what a goOD BOY. he’s…so cute..comin to terms with his powers still can’t get over he interned with his dad he just…..wants to improve…is improving…..so good.

daiya no ace: ? - ok, i never developed a fave while watching it, at least not where i got to. i don’t even remember where i stopped oof that’s bad. but i had thought at that time that i rlly loved chris?? eijun is precious, i fuckin love him. miyuki is great i love him too. also really loved kuramochi?? so if i had continued i think it would’ve been one of em.

the walking dead game: kenny, luke, clem, gabe - pls don’t make me choose… kenny…tried his hardest to be good, worked his ass off till the last moment to improve himself and didn’t get the redemption he deserved. that man is good, he was just pushed to his max and couldn’t get back down. luke, luke is a sunshine boy who was too good for the world, a positive outlet could make anyone happy, did his best, didn’t deserve to die. cleM MY BADASS B A B Y HAS GROWN SO MUCH I LOOOOVE HER AND CAN’T WAIT FOR HER HAPPY ENDING TELLTALE YOU FUCKS I AM BEGGING YOU1!! gabe…annoyed me at first…stole my heart….just a boy thrown into the apocalypse tryin to be happy…he’s doing his best, he’s learning, truly not such a brat as assholes make him out to be. nick my boy i’m so sorry i would’ve included you ur so close

the last kingdom: uhtred & alfred - i love uhtred the godless and king alfred of wessex very much indeed. uhtred is just a wreck honestly, this danish bro got a lot goin on he just wants the land he deserves i just say he’s bein greedy, go be happy under alfred’s rule i still love u tho uhtred u dumbass. alfred! got the peace he wanted! i love alfred so much he wants to be a king without war unless he’s not given the choice, cares about his family so much, afraid he’ll be punished for the crown that’s not rightfully his own. alfred is so good, i love this man.

the raven cycle: (5) adam parrish - mmmmmmm what a good boy. an important boy, a very much loved boy. iiiii hate havin his pov sometimes, some relatable things in there, i love him so much. he’s not. his father. thanks. gotta say that a lot wanT HIM TO KNOOOOOOOW. he’s so good he’s improving himself he’s doin it!! go adam!! goD ASHLETY I KEEP THINKING OF THINGS YOU HAVEN’T GOTTEN TOOOOOOOO. mmmm it’s ok to still be stuck and to have bad days he doesn’t have to get over it right away!! it’s not somethin that’ll just be over!! dhfad smALL STEPS my boy i love u…. all bc, he…legally free (tryin not to spoil dfhjdaf).. don’t mean he has to be over it…take ur time adam. i’m thinkin of the emo thing in trk fuck wrong devil dkhfad. i just wanna cry he’s so good worth so much ronan & i will fight any and all fucks who wanna Go. i!! love him!! he deserVES TO FEEL LOVED AND TO FEEL HOW TO LOVE MMMM COOL i’m gonna stop i’ll just repeat myself - i just thOUGHT OF THE ‘FUCK YOU GANSEY’ WOW FIRST BOOK FUCK B YE

the foxhole court: …andrew minyard… - idk man?? it’s so lowkey?? it’s chill i literally don’t even have anything to say. nicky, neil & dan are my squad love em.

six of crows: jesper fahey - idk what fuckin bitch ass mood i had to be in when i read soc but if i wasn’t in it jesper would totally have been my fave. i wouldn’t take him away from wylan anyways (statement kiiinda counts for the two aforementioned also whoop). jesper?? deserves the world, but so does everyone else they all deserve the world even u bitch ass brekker who would not deal with my bullshit ever.

criminal minds: aaron hotchner - god ashley screw off askin me for cm. love hotch, would die for him, too good of a guy.

the 100: bellamy blake - is a fuckin whore. iiiiiii love bellamy so much. bitch ass goes from a punk i hated to a good dude to a punk ass influenced by some huge ass prick dick and then struggles with himself for the next season and will now hopefully feel a bit better at least for gods sake. all bc you’ve done bad things doesn’t mean ur bad bell… i still never get over fucking pike taking advantage of him when he was vulnerable fuck off i just want him to feel better!! take responsibility but don’t let it push you down fucking get up!! you’ll get up!! mmm he’s so good he just wants to make everything right but clarke makes everyTHING FUCKIN GO WRONG. i just…not everything is excusable but he can make up for it he will and he’s worth it,,,, people gotta forgive him at some point he’s trying his hardest to make up for everything and he keeps beating himself on it mmmmdfahdf i love him

the sun is also a star: daniel jae ho bae - idk what to say about him ashley god fuck. he’s so cute though?? what a cheesy dude. ugh literally so cute i gotta reread it

naruto: kiba inuzuka - what a prideful ass i fuckIN LOVe him thx. i mean i was fuckin doomed from that start he has best boy akamaru & fuckin has a jutsu where he turns into a wolf?? and his fuckin mom and sister have wolves?? doomed before i even fuckin knew it. he’s soooo cute, never take his fuckin hoodie off idk what’s cuter him trying to look tough in that hoodie that everyone literally thought was hair or havin the hoodie off and showin his actual hair that somehow makes him cuter,,, what’S HORRIBLE IS THE LEATHER JACKET OR WHATEVER IT IS HE WEARS IN SHIPPUDEN fuckin idiot. imagine him as hokage i can’t believe he wants to be hokage it’s so funny i’m sorry kiba i’ll support u just give me a minute to catch my breath. guys he’s just so cute, trains so hard, he’s so good i love him enthusiastic boy

#this is so long i'm srry #i didn't even rant in all of them either #also like #clarification not prob needed but numbers- where the top five r in the top five #i didn't rant enough about kuroo even tho i'm in a kuroo mood now lOL #idk what to say about him?? i just love him so deeply #and so many things are more headcanon-y #so idk

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I Want To Love You

Angsty peterick thing i came up with; basically Pete is pining over Patrick feat. Bronx and Ashlee (don’t even ask but she’s kinda chill in this?? just because I don’t really know her so i figured screw it :/ )

EDIT: this gets rlly fluffy and gay further down, idek

Pete's eyes never left his son. bronx was running all over the little playground in the park, kicking up woodchips, laughing and hollering, blond curls bouncing as he ran.

while his eyes stayed trained on his son, his mind wandered, so much so that when the tentative hand touched his shoulder he jumped.

Ashlee was standing over him, a confused but concerned look on her face. He sighed as she sat on the bench beside him, trying to straighten up and force himself to smile.

"Cut the bullshit Wentz," she said immediately, tone light ," I still know you, I can tell when something's wrong." There was a sudden panicked look on her face and she turned her head to the park. "Is something wrong with Bronx?"

Pete shook his head, huffing as he hurriedly answered her. "No, Bronx is fine. I'm just.. Personal problems, that's all."

Ashlee nodded understandingly, chewing her lip. "Do you want to talk about it?" She asked finally, her voice quiet. Pete hesitated for a moment, looking down at his hands.

Finally he swallowed the lump in his throat and looked back at the park, watching Bronx play again. "I.. It's Patrick."

Ashlee nodded, suddenly understanding. "You two fighting again?" Pete shook his head, eyes down. He nudged a pebble with the toe of his shoe.

The wind picked up for a moment, and Pete paused, letting it blow through his hair and ruffle Ashlee's black sundress. "I think I'm in love with him." he whispered.

Ashlee snorted, covering her mouth to hide her laughter. Pete's head whipped around to stare at her, shocked and angry and hurt that she would laugh at him. She shook her head, patting his arm gently.

"Oh Peter, of course you are. The whole fucking world knew, and you're only just now figuring it out? Hell, even I knew."

Pete rolled his eyes, ignoring the way his cheeks flushed with heat. Ashlee was suddenly quiet, and she let them sit in silence for a moment.

It was a warm day, at least. Sunny and cloudless, a dry heat that could only be found in California. As much as he loved Chicago, spring in LA was pretty nice too.

"So what's the problem then? You love him, but why do you seem so sad about it?"

"Because," Pete sighed, leaning back against the bench," I doubt he feels the same way, and even if he did, the media shitstorm that would follow probably isn't worth it." Ashlee nodded, understanding.

"Did you talk to Meghan?" Pete nodded. Though he and Meghan had split, at least it was quiet and mutual. They were still kind of friendly, and Meghan seemed fine with bringing Saint by often, and sometimes just letting Pete keep him for a week or so at a time if she had work.

"Well?" Ashlee pressed, slightly annoyed that Pete was pulling the 'silent-tortured-lover' look again. "She thinks I should tell him when I'm ready. That it'd be good for me.."

Ashlee nodded, leaning back beside him. "And I agree. Pete.." She sighed, looking away from him.

Pete looked over; Ashlee seemed older now, her hair pulled back in a tight pony tail, laughlines beginning to form on her face. Her eyes, still so bright, seemed calculating and distant.

Suddenly she looked over at him, a bittersweet smile pulling at her lips. "Peter, you've always loved him. Even with me, even with Meghan, with every other relationship you've ever been in, you've always loved Patrick Stump. He's different for you, isn't he?"

Pete nodded, heart constricting in his chest. "He.. I've never felt this way about anyone else in my entire life Ash. I want him to be happy always, want to stick with him even through all the fights and the bullshit and both of our fucked up self esteems. I don't wanna rush in to this, I don't just want sex from him, I.. I don't want to risk a relationship if it means not having him in my life anymore," Pete said the last line softly, tears forming in his eyes as he looked down.

"Loosing you nearly killed me," he whispered, glancing at her apologetically,"but when the hiatus happened.. When.. When Patrick and I fought.. I think I really did die then Ash. My heart shattered when me and you split but it dissolved when he left, when he hated me.." Pete swallowed the lump in his throat, wiping the tears off his face.

He stared at the ground as silence fell over them, relishing in the gentle air. The sound of the highway, of children playing nearby, and of birds above him seemed to help keep him grounded.

Ashlee finally broke the silence, carefully placing her hand on Pete's back.

"I'm sorry. About what happened with us, even though we're in a better place now," Pete nodded his agreement, sniffling," But I'm especially sorry about the hiatus.. I saw how bad you got, Pete." The bassist stiffened, sitting up and looking over at his ex-wife. She smiled apologetically.

"I spoke to some old friends.. They said you lost so much weight, that you barely left your house.. That even with Black Cards you seemed so reclusive, that you got into a bad place again.."

Pete nodded, trying hard not to remember that. The months, years, of depression and loneliness and hatred towards himself didn't sit too well.

"But Pete.. Patrick came back to you." he focused, staring at her suddenly. There was a small smile tugging at her lips, and she brushed her manicured nails over the back of his hand. "He came back Pete. He still loved you, still cared. I bet you anything in the world that he missed you just as much. And he's so happy to be back.. I can tell, even just through twitter. You're so happy together.. "

Ashlee shook her head, pulling away from Pete. "You need to tell him. Really, I think it'd be good for you. At the very least it'd be out in the open and not eating you up inside. Patrick is a nice guy, even if you told him and he didn't feel the same, he'd forgive you. He'd still be your best friend."

Pete smiled, tension slowly leaving his body. She wasn't Patrick, not by a long shot, but Ashlee did manage to calm him down. She was right.. Patrick wouldn't abandon him again. The last time really did nearly kill them both.. They'd be okay.

There was a sudden squeal of delight and a blur of blond hair as Bronx noticed his mother and ran over, hugging her tightly. Pete grinned at he watched his son chatter away excitedly to his mom. Ashlee met his eyes and smiled, nodding at him as she stood.

"Thanks for the talk Ash," Pete said, getting to his feet," I'll see you in a few weeks then?" She nodded, leaning down to press her lips to Bronx's hair. "Tell your dad goodbye, and we can go get dinner, sound good?" Bronx nodded and smiled, lunging over to wrap his arms in a vice grip around Pete's legs.

The bassist chuckled, kneeling down to hug his son tightly. His heart tugged again; Pete really did adore his children. He'd do anything in the world for his tiny humans. Bronx pulled back, giving Pete a gapped tooth grin. "Love you Daddy!," he said happily, poking his father's nose. "Tell Uncle Joe and Uncle Andy I said hi!" Pete smiled, nodding. "What about Uncle Patrick?" Bronx gave him a puzzled look, his eyebrows scrunching together.

"I don't think it's uncle Patrick.. But tell him hi too!" Pete blinked his surprise, looking up at Ashlee's giggling form. 'Told you so' she mouthed, snickering at Pete's shocked expression. Pete rolled his eyes and hugged his son once more before standing up and letting go, watching sadly as he returned to his mother's side.

"Goodluck Pete," she said kindly, taking Bronx's hand." I'll see you later." Pete nodded, waving goodbye. He stood there, hands in his pockets, until Ashlee's car drove out of sight.

When Pete opened the door to Patrick’s apartment, he was sitting on the floor, playing peek-a-boo with Declan. He paused in the kitchen, watching the two play. Patrick was sitting criss-cross in front of his son, his hair poking up from the gray beanie he had yanked over his head. He obviously woke up recently; he was still in Scooby-Doo pajama pants and a red t-shirt he had worn to bed. He glanced up at Pete suddenly, smiling.

“Hey, you’re back!” Pete nodded, sitting on the floor beside him.

“Yeah, and I got the groceries you asked for on my way back. They’re all on the table because I’m lazy,” he said, grin tugging at his lips. Patrick rolled his eyes and looked back at Declan. The toddler was playing with a toy piano Patrick had gotten him, watching the lights with wonder. Pete watched his face soften, and he smiled.

Patrick started letting Pete sleep over whenever he had one of his sons. It made it easier on both of them as single fathers; having someone to run errands and do chores while the other kept the kids preoccupied. Usually Pete was left with the kids, he had a lot more energy than Patrick and loved the stupid games they came up with. But whenever one of the kids left.. Pete felt that he wasn’t needed, so he’d go back home. His empty, quiet house, surrounded by useless junk and memories.. He was sure that he’d have to go back now.

Pete snapped back into reality when there were tiny hands pulling at his shirt. Declan was practically climbing on top of him, a determined look on his face, and his clammy fists balled up in Pete’s shirt. Patrick was watching in amusement, smiling at him when Pete looked at him in confusion.

“I think he wants you to play with him Pete. He got that new truck for Christmas remember, he loves playing trucks with you.”

Pete grinned, looking down at Declan. He really was a spitting image of Patrick, soft hair and big grins. Pete hugged the boy to him for a moment before letting go, falling back onto the floor with Declan in his arms. The little boy screamed and giggled as he was held up in the air, Pete making stupid plane noises.

He heard Patrick’s camera go off, watching him take pictures out of the corner of his eyes. It made Pete’s face heat up, knowing that Patrick wanted pictures of this, of him with Declan.. No. He just wanted pictures of his baby, it wasn’t about Pete.

“Stop frowning in the picture, dingus, I have to have a nice one to send your mom.” Pete rolled his eyes, doubt and worry leaving momentarily. Declan was still giggling, screeching whenever Pete moved him. After another moment Pete sat up, carefully holding the toddler.

Patrick was watching fondly, phone in his lap. “He loves you, you know.”

Pete shrugged, attempting to will the butterflies in his stomach to go away.

Patrick kept watching him, chewing on the inside of his cheek for a moment, before standing.

“Um.. What do you want for dinner Pete?” He asked, walking over to the kitchen.

Pete shrugged, the butterflies dying in his stomach, replaced by a weight.

“I .. I kinda figured I’d go home. You can handle D by yourself, he’s a good kid anyway..” Pete trailed off, silenced by the look of confusion on Patrick’s face.

“Peter,” his voice was soft, the kind he used when he was trying to make Pete feel better ,” you aren’t a baby sitter you know. I like having you and the boys over; I’m not just using you as entertainment for my kid.”

Pete looked down apologetically, nodding. He heard Patrick’s sign, and soft footfalls as he came back over and sat beside him. The singer stared at Pete, willing him to look up.

Patrick’s blue eyes were stern. “I’m going to order pizza, and you’re gonna stay over. Not to babysit, not because I think you need to. But because I want you here. Okay?” Pete nodded, not trusting his voice.

It always meant so much to him that Patrick wanted him around. Not because he was in love with him, although that too, but just because he was wanted. Pete never felt like he was worth that, not even now.

Patrick smiled softly, running his hand through Pete’s hair before getting up to order. Declan looked up from his toys, watching his dad leave, before looking over at Pete.

Declan stood on shaky legs, picking up a truck from the ground and plopping onto the floor in front of Pete, holding it up to him with a smile. Pete relaxed, settling onto the floor to play trucks with him.

When Patrick returned they had completely made a mess of his living room carpet. Toys were strewn everywhere, Pete and Declan both laying on their stomachs, coloring. Declan was doing a drawing of his own, the crayon clutched tightly in his tiny fist. Pete was filling in a coloring sheet, making the printed flower pop with color, naturally adding a few little doodles of his own to the image.

Patrick quietly sat on the couch and watched, smiling when Declan looked up and noticed him. He pushed himself up off the floor, grabbing his picture and walking over to his dad. Pete turned to watch, making sure he got to Patrick without falling.

Patrick smiled, pulling Declan up onto the couch to sit beside him as he explained his drawing.

Declan pointed at one stick figure, Patrick recognizing it immediately as himself thanks to the dark-blue fedora perched on its head. “Daddy!” Declan said proudly, looking up for approval. Patrick nodded, his chest warming. Declan had been learning to speak since around 18 months, and it meant everything to him when his first word was ‘Dada’.

Declan turned back to his drawing, pointing at another stick figure. This one had spikey hair, and a large smile on his face. Declan pointed, saying Pete’s name proudly. Patrick grinned over at his best friend; he could almost literally see the bassist’s heart melting as he got up and sat on the other side of Declan.

“Aw, you drew me Dec?” Declan nodded happily, looking back down. He had drawn Bronx and Penny also, getting quite creative with his color choices. Patrick kissed his son’s head before walking over to put the drawing on the fridge, taking a picture of it. It was most certainly going to be his home screen for a while.

Patrick sat back down, choosing to see on the other side of Pete this time. Confused, Pete said nothing, only glanced at Patrick for a moment before shrugging it off.

“You wanna watch a movie?” Patrick asked, eyes flicking between his son and Pete. Both of them nodded excitedly, making Patrick grin.

They were barely an hour in to Peter Pan and Declan was asleep, pizza sauce smeared on his face. Patrick grinned when he noticed, looking at his son affectionately. He was curled into Pete’s other side, his hands balled up in Pete’s t-shirt. The sight made Patrick’s entire body warm.

He glanced up, Pete’s focus still on the movie, even though he’d seen it a million times. There was a tiny bit of pizza sauce in the corner of his mouth too. Patrick licked his thumb, his hand shaking as he reached up and wiped it away. Pete froze, his eyes going wide and breath hitching in his throat as Patrick carefully wiped at the corner of his mouth, his knuckles brushing against Pete’s bottom lip.

He pulled away, face as red as the tomato sauce. Pete blinked at him, his lips parted slightly. Patrick swallowed, stuttering as he stood.

“I’ll.. I’ll go um.. I need to put Declan to bed..” he scrambled off the couch, scooping up his son. Patrick quickly took him to his room, wiping off his face with a diaper wipe before changing him into his pajamas.

Declan stirred, blinking sleepily up at his dad. “Bed?” he asked, his voice quiet. Patrick nodded, turning on his night-light. Declan nodded, hugging his dad tightly. Patrick hugged him before tucking him in, kissing his hair.

“Daddy?” Patrick raised his eyebrows, looking at his son expectantly.

“Tell Pete bed too?”

Patrick felt his chest flutter. “You want Pete to come tuck you in too?” Declan nodded, his eyes already closing. Patrick smiled, hurrying back to the living room.

“Declan wants you to come tell him goodnight,” he said quietly, awkwardly shuffling back to his son’s room. He heard Pete follow, and stood in a corner while he walked over to Declan.

Even in the dim lighting Patrick could see how big and genuine Pete’s smile was. He sat on the edge of the bed, kissing Declan’s forehead before tucking the blankets in around him. He heard the little sigh of contentment before Pete stood, smiling as he walked quietly out of the room.

Pete sat back down on the couch in the living room, tipping his head back so that it was against the couch, his eyes closed. Patrick swallowed, trying not to stare, and jumped slightly when Pete spoke.

“You can sit down y’know Trick.”

Patrick did, hovering for a moment before sitting down beside Pete, a cautious distance away. Pete opened his eyes, turning his head to look over at his best friend, hands folded across his stomach.

Patrick really was beautiful. He looked so much healthier lately, putting on a bit of weight again since their last tour, but still so much more energetic and rested than he had been before their break. Pete could never express how proud he was of Patrick; of his album, of him for getting better, for gaining confidence and some self love.

Patrick was fidgeting, confused and slightly terrified under Pete’s gaze. The brown eyes he knew and loved so well were studying his face intently, and it made him squirm. Finally he couldn’t take the silence.

“Pete?”

Saying his name seemed to snap the bassist out of his trance. He blinked, smiling sheepishly at Patrick.

“Sorry, I was thinking..”

Patrick nodded, settling into the couch more. Cautiously, he pressed Pete for more.

“Do you want to tell me about it? You seemed kind of upset when you came back from dropping Bronx off, more than usual.. Did something happen?” There was a brief flash of anger in the singer’s eyes, something that seemed protective, that made Pete’s chest flutter. “Was Ashlee rude? If she was hateful Pete..” Patrick trailed off, shaking his head.

He didn’t like being mean to people, especially not after having his son.. But he could. Patrick could be downright terrifying when he was really pissed.

Pete shook his head, smiling at his best friend. “Nah, she wasn’t rude. Kinda the opposite actually, she tried to help me figure out some stuff..” Pete trailed off, biting his lip. This was dangerous territory, and Pete wasn’t sure how to tell Patrick.

Ashlee was right, though. He did need to tell him, and the opportunity seemed to be presenting itself.

Patrick blinked, surprised. He and Ashlee had been getting along a lot more lately, mostly for Bronx’s sake. From what he could tell, Pete and Ashlee’s conversations were always short, and always about their son.

“Oh.. Well that’s..” Patrick huffed, looking down ,” That’s good I guess. Did you figure out, um.. Everything you needed to, or..?”

Pete laughed nervously, glancing over at Patrick before staring at his hands.

“Kind of. I just don’t.. I’m scared.” Pete admitted, voice going soft. He felt Patrick’s hand rest gently on top of his own, the singer studying his face.

“Scared? Of what? Pete..” Patrick bit his lip, scooting closer slightly. “Is something wrong? Can.. Do you want me to help?”

Pete smiled. One word about something being wrong with Pete and he was worried, trying to help and make him feel better without question. God, he loved this man.

Pete bit his lip, hesitating before speaking. “I think.. I think I fell in love again.”

Patrick blinked, taken aback. Of course, Pete always got nervous and upset whenever he had his eye on someone new. Patrick ignored the burning pull in his chest, pulling his hand away numbly. He managed to smile, putting on his usual face for Pete. ‘It’s good that he’s trying again,’ he tried to tell himself, but he didn’t think he could ever believe that.

Pete watched Patrick’s expression shift, from concerned to blank to his stage smile, the kind that never touched his eyes. Pete frowned, hating that smile.

“It.. It’s not bad this time though Trick.. I.. You know him already so-”

“What?”

Patrick felt as if the breath had been knocked out of him. Him. Pete said he knew him already.

He knew Pete was bi, had known for years, but every guy he’d ever seen Pete with had been a fling, something that lasted for a few days or a week, but that didn’t mean too much to the bassist. But if he was in love..

Pete watched as Patrick mentally went through all of the guys they both knew, trying to gauge his expression.

“Yeah, him.. He’s.. I’ve loved him for a while, Patrick.”

The singer tried not to wheeze, jealousy and rejection hitting him in the face. He shouldn’t have been jealous, of course, but he had Pete to himself so much more lately, and he loved the boys.. Patrick swallowed, nodding.

“That’s.. good.” he breathed, trying to keep his voice neutral. Pete nodded, his eyes still wide and seemingly afraid. “Yeah,” he agreed, unsure of where to go from there.

“I can um.. Who is it? I could.. I could help, y’know, try to be a wingman..” Pete laughed nervously, resisting the urge to hug Patrick tightly.

“That’s the thing.. I’m pretty sure he’s straight for one, and two..” Pete trailed off, frowning. “I don’t deserve him. Not in the slightest. And even if he loved me back I.. The shitstorm that would come with it, that comes with me, probably isn’t worth the effort..”

Pete trailed off, surprised at the sudden fury in Patrick’s eyes.

“Peter Wentz,” his voice was low, edging on the tone he used when he was really pissed. “The entirety of that second part is bullshit. Complete and utter bullshit.” Patrick sat up more, looking Pete directly in the eyes, commanding.

“You are not a bad person, Pete. Not even before, when you were messing up so badly, not when we’d fight, not whenever the tabloids would spout some new fake ass story about you, never. And especially not now, now that you’ve gotten better and are taking care of your kids.” Patrick huffed, staring down at his balled up hands in frustration.

“Anyone, guy or girl or anything in between, would be lucky to have you Pete.”

Breath. Pete was supposed to be breathing, not staring at Patrick in awe and admiration.

“I..” Pete let out a shaky breath, head swimming. “Can I.. Do you want to know who..”

Patrick nodded, not looking up.

Pete steeled himself, taking a deep breath, and praying to whatever god there may be that Patrick didn’t hit him, or worse, leave.

“His name is Patrick, and I think I’ve loved him since we met,” he said, almost whispering.

The silence in the room hung heavy for a moment. He watched as Patrick’s eyes grew wide, his mouth popping open in shock before he looked up at Pete.

“I.. I mean I.. We can forget about it, if you want,” Pete was stumbling over words now, tears stinging his eyes ,”I didn’t... I can’t loose you, Trick, so if you’d rather forget about this then.. I mean, it won’t kill me, I’m sure if i tried I could.. I mean..”

Patrick shook his head, a teary smile forming on his face, “Pete, shut up?”

The bassist did as he was told, anxiously watching his best friend. Patrick was studying him, his blue eyes glassy as he stared.

“Do you mean that? That you.. That you love me?” He asked, voice barely a whisper.

“I’m more sure of that than almost anything else,” Pete admitted, voice almost as quiet. “I.. I’ve been in love with you for a long time Patrick, and I’m sorry-”

Patrick was shaking his head, a huge grin on his face as he looked at Pete. Nervousness flashed across his expression as he leaned forward. Patrick tried to keep his breathing under control as he moved close to Pete, their knees touching.

He felt Pete’s breath hitch as he cupped his face, his thumb brushing over his bottom lip. Slowly, carefully, Patrick leaned forward, watching Pete for any sign that he didn’t want this. When their lips brushed, both mens’ eyes closed, gasping as they kissed. Patrick pushed forward roughly, suddenly desperate for more.

Pete was on his back, arms wrapped tightly around Patrick’s middle. The singer had both hands cupping Pete’s face, roughly pressing their lips together. Pete opened his mouth, sighing into Patrick’s, making him shiver.

Patrick curiously licked Pete’s bottom lip, making him groan quietly. Patrick’s eyes shut tightly and he kissed him roughly again, getting as close to him as possible before pulling back.

Patrick had both hands pressed into the cushions on either side of Pete’s head, breathing heavy, staring down at him in awe. Pete was trying to catch his breath as well, lips slightly redder than their normal pink. There was the faintest blush high on his cheeks, but his eyes were bright and filling with tears.

“Patrick.” he whispered, face breaking into the dazzling smile that Patrick loved. The singer smiled, closing his eyes to rest his forehead against Pete’s. He felt so warm, shaky but content. He’d waited years for this, to get to kiss his highschool crush.

Pete squeezed him close, whispering ‘I love you’s directly into Patrick’s ear. After a moment Patrick leaned back again, smiling shyly. “Do you want to go to bed?” Pete nodded eagerly, letting Patrick tug him off the couch and down the hall.

They got ready for bed quickly, Patrick’s face bright red as he threw some pajama bottoms at Pete’s face. Nestling under the blankets, they slept better than they had in a long time, pressed as close to the other as possible.

When Ashlee brought Bronx back to Pete, he handed her chocolates and flowers wordlessly.He was more rested and happy than the last time, and she noticed a little trail of hickies poking out from under his shirt. Ashlee smiled knowingly, shaking her head as she left.

Pete got a text when he arrived back at Patrick’s place, smiling goofily at his phone before going inside.

Ash: if i don’t get a wedding invitation in the mail at some point, peter wentz, i will be pissed

#peterick #patrick stump #pete wentz #ask to tag #food m #food #pda #their kids/exes/current partners are all mentioned #but theres very little negativity since i dont like that in fics #this was angsty af at the beginning but i have to have crappy fluff at some point #sorry this is bad :/#fanfics

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