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shiningmystic · 1 year

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What I learned from my therapist is that there are 2 steps to fully letting go of emotions:

expression and action.

Expression can be like speaking or journaling your true thoughts and not letting any judgment cloud what you should and shouldn’t write; just do it even if it’s shameful and not you (also take note of your reactions to those thoughts you want to write bad or good). You are only expressing what doesn’t deserve to be trapped within! This is the time to also show compassion to yourself even if what your feeling is “wrong” that does not matter because those feelings are still VALID.

Then action is the second step to letting your body let go of these intense/traumatic emotions, physical activity is letting your body know you are moving out of the stress or intense emotion and releasing chemicals that will help you feel better if not just give you an activity to focus on. For me I exercise (mainly running) and think of the things that have left me feeling like crap (edit: if you don’t want to think of the pain as you take action that’s ok the expression part already acknowledges it) and just go for it!

Other ways of expression are: any vent art form like painting, writing, speaking/talking to a friend; you can incorporate action within expression such as dance, singing edit: writing/ playing music.

Other ways of taking action: running, hiking, get outside in nature, breaking inanimate objects (please make sure you are safe and do not hurt yourself or others while doing this, I ripped apart a mattress with friends and it was awesome!) again you can incorporate expression into action like the examples above: singing, dancing, edit: instrument strumming, playing your favorite music on your instrument or creating music.

Letting go is one of the things I don’t see many spiritualists explain how to do and this is not a one and done deal if you need multiple sessions for yourself to express please go for it!! Healing is an up and down journey and I want to keep sharing what I have learned so you may transform into the butterflies I know you all are 😊

(I’m not claiming this will work right away or for everyone, it does take time and patience for self, it also depends on how deep the pain is and how long your body may have held onto the stress, be gentle my friends)

-ShiningMystic 💕

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inner-space-oddity · 1 year

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What I learned from being in a mental hospital for three hours

Yesterday, I called the suicide hotline.

It’s been a long year for me, a long life, really. I’m only 19, but it’s just been a lot.

I’ve struggled with depression for over 10 years, anxiety for over 6, and C-PTSD for over 5. Over the past two years, I’ve developed chronic pain that makes it difficult for me to do the things I love like dancing and going outside.

Yesterday, I just felt so hopeless. My medical bills are adding up every day — my primary care physician recommended I see a psychiatrist (whom I can’t get in with until June), my astigmatism contacts cost over $600/year, I should be seeing a physical therapist per my prescription, and my antidepressants are being exchanged for a different type that will require an EKG (heart monitoring check-up) if I am to start them.

I feel like I haven’t been able to live up the the standards I’ve been given, or even the ones I want to achieve myself. I’ve been in a depressive episode for two weeks now.

So I called the hotline.

Here’s what I learned from the experience.

1) When the responder said he would send someone to come talk to me, three police and three paramedics showed up.

They were all wearing disposable gloves, and they didn’t sit down when I asked them to. They were all standing around me, and I felt cornered.

2) When they came to get me, they sent an ambulance.

It wasn’t scary — I’ve been in an ambulance before, and the medic was nice and she talked to me on the way. They took my blood pressure and pulse continuously on the ride and put seatbelts over my body.

3) Because I didn’t struggle or fight at all (I called willingly and I went willingly), they let me walk into the ER instead of being rolled in on the gurney. I appreciated that because it gave me a sense of control.

4) The mental health rooms in the ER actually looked like those in a horror movie.

This was the most surprising part.

The walls were beige and peeling, there was a blue cot in the middle of the room, and there was a security camera and a mirror in two of the corners. There was no handle on the door, only a lock, which I could use to open it, but I didn’t know I was able to until I left at the end.

They told me to put on scrubs and honestly, when I saw the grippy socks, I broke down sobbing (again). They weren’t even real socks lol, they didn’t have a heel, just grips on either side of the sock. They weren’t comfortable either.

After I got dressed in the scrubs, they opened the door again, but it took a while, and I was scared. I didn’t want to be alone, and they left me in there for at least ten minutes.

I don’t think anyone was actively watching the security cameras, since it took a while for them to come in after I was dressed. (I didn’t take off my underclothes, and I have no qualms with my own nudity, so it didn’t bother me too much.) They could have just been busy — it looked like a high-traffic night. But that doesn’t make it much better.

5) You aren’t allowed to have any personal items at all. At all.

I came in with the bare minimum because I didn’t know what to expect. But when they asked me to put my clothes in a bag, I asked if I could keep my sweatshirt because it’s my comfort item. They said no.

Honestly, I can’t fathom why I can’t have a sweatshirt with me to comfort me, especially since they didn’t provide anything to do after asking me a bunch of questions.

The guy who took my blood (they also collected my urine, both for drug testing purposes) told me he’d asked the administration to provide edible chalk for the residents to draw on the walls.

I have ADHD, so those three hours were THE worst. No chalk for me. I made a fortune teller out of a tissue. XD

6) The nurses misgendered me even after I corrected them.

This is a big reason why I won’t be going back to that specific hospital. I didn’t want to go somewhere that wasn’t connected with the behavioral health service I was already in contact with, but they don’t have ER care so that wasn’t an option.

The nurses also repeatedly used my legal name even though I told them my preferred name and a couple of them wrote it down on the forms.

I can safely say that this is one of The worst things you can do to a transgender person in a mental health crisis.

7) They fed me.

I…. Did not expect that at all. It was very much like a high school lunch, but it was good enough, and it helped improve my mood. They gave me Sprite instead of water, which was probably good for my blood sugar, but considering that I had been crying for the past three hours, it wasn’t exactly the choice I would have made if I were them.

8) As an adult, the hospital didn’t call anyone.

However, since I called the hotline number associated with the service that already had my information and emergency contact, that service did call my emergency contact.

9) Even through everything, my parents still made the 2 1/2 hour drive down to come support me.

I remember the first time I told my mom that I wanted to die, she spanked me. She had said that she raised me better than that, that she raised me to value my life. So when the nurse handed me the phone, I was terrified.

After all the medical bills, the stress, the trouble that I had caused my parents…. I don’t know what I expected, but there wasn’t a hint of anger in my mom’s voice.

And my dad, who always gets cagey when I try to talk to him about my mental and physical health, made the drive as well. He wanted to stay with me while I was hospitalized.

In the end, I was only there for three hours, so my dad went home instead of driving the last hour to see me, but I will see him tomorrow when the family comes to see my concert.

10) Despite everything, I am loved, and you are too.

I’ve been contacted by three different mental health services today. I called my mom this morning because I said I would. My roommate came to pick me up from the hospital even though I hadn’t been a good friend to her in my depression. One of my close friends contacted me this morning to ask to see me.

Hospitalization sucks. It costs money, it costs time and energy, and it feels like it isn’t worth it. But after last night, I think I finally realize how much effort has been put into helping me keep living.

Despite feeling like I’m a burden, like I’ve never done anything good for anyone, like I’m not worth the worry… everyone still came to help me.

I’m not alone. And you’re not either. Even if you think you have no friends or family there for you, there will always be someone in your corner.

You are worth it. You are loved. Seeking help is the strongest and most powerful thing you can do.

You are not weak. You are resourceful and resilient. You will get through this. You will.

#vent #mental health recovery #self harm recovery #suicidal ideation #crisis hotline #mental health #mental health awareness #you are loved #mental hospital #mental institution #mental illness #what i learned #you are not alone #you are worth it #you are strong #you will get through this

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always-and-evermore · 4 months

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#and this year is going to be #just like you never knew me #happy new year #what i learned #you are worthy #let go #letting go #moving on #getting over #breakup #breaking up #grief #heartache #spilled emotions #spilled thoughts #spilled words #spilled heart #i miss you #alwaysandevermore.creates

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wednesdaym-12th · 5 months

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Reflecting:

Paper Towns had many philosophies, but there was one thing that really stuck with me. By the end of the story Q had gained so many new perspectives on life and relationships, romantic and platonic, that he was okay with parting with Margo. He understood he just wanted her to be okay, but that life may have different paths for the two.

This book gets 5/5 from me, through the whole entire story you feel as though you are there with Q looking for Margo. You feel all the intense emotions the friend group does, and the immense amount of detail really keeps you involved.

#paper towns #romance #friendship #story rating #what i learned

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thewritingcoconut · 1 year

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What I Learned: A Thousand Ships

What I Learned from A Thousand Ships by Natalie Haynes Women’s thoughts and roles in history and myth are way too often overlooked. War is a hell that doesn’t just harm those who are active combatants in it. A person can be both a victim and a perpetrator. Sometimes they’re both at once other times they take the role at different points in their life. Heroism isn’t just determined by those…

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#a thousand ships #book #fantasy #iliad #literature #mythology #natalie haynes #odyssey #trojan war #What I Learned #women

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catchdacraze · 1 year

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STUDIO VLOG | Dallas Fan Festival Artist Alley 2022 !! How I prepped, $$...

#youtube #artist alley #tips #advice #what I learned #how much did I make #was it worth it #comic con #comiccon #fan festival #expo #artist #art #youtuber #behind the scenes #watch #subscribe

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calraisin · 2 years

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What I Learned From Kevin #137

Don't learn history from Kevin

-I make some bad content

#what i learned #what i learned from kevin #callmekevin #call me kevin

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burnerthoughtz · 1 year

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Solo Travelz;

#burnerthoughtz #journal #poetry #poem #thoughts #lovepoem #solo travels #what I learned #travel #strength #peace #nature #love #dance #dancing #cooking #luv #writers on tumblr #readpastthetypo

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into-theunknown · 1 year

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In few years you will be living a very different life than what you are living right now.

Not necessarily worser or better but different for sure. A lot would have changed, a lot would be new. The people, the places, the experience, the emotions everything would be different. And when you look back nothing would matter because it’s already in the past. So try to treasure the moment you have now. Be happy for whoever you are. In the end, the only person you need to satisfy is you. As only you will walk the path of life with you.

#life #random #random words #random advice #life nowadays #nothing matters #have courage and be kind #what i learned #random thoughts #thoughts

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blackcat402 · 2 years

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June 27th, 2022, 21:00

I just finished 'The Midnight Library'.

I bought it in hopes of finding a reason to live.

Did I find it?

No.

Did it make a change?

Definitely.

I didn't entirely understand how Nora got her life motivation back, but as Mrs. Elm said, life isn't about understanding, but living.

And Nora thought me how life was so full of possibilities.

How I am full of potential.

So, I may still not have a reason to live, but I've learnt that one doesn't need a reason to be alive.

And I want to live.

I want to experience this life.

I want to make my own choices.

I may have some regrets, everyone may.

But I don't want those regrets to destroy my life.

Because I have potential.

And no amount of mistakes can take that away from me.

#the midnight library #what i learned #i want to live

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hocusbogus · 1 year

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What I learned from 2022

Trust the process, this was something that required me to rewire my thoughts and belief system. It’s really hard to go through it while you are going through it. Kinda like hiking, in which you know there is a peak but the hike ain’t gonna be easy, so all you had to do is trust the process.

Momentary lapses are forgivable, lapses, in general, are forgivable (unless it’s harmful like drugs or any form of addiction). Building habits be it to do more of something positive or to do less of something negative, is a journey and you will lapse from time to time, it’s important to be compassionate to yourself and not to punish and undo your progress due to these lapses.

Any progress is great progress. This could be one of the hardest things for me to get through my thick skull because as a “perfectionist” (born through trauma), I always think of things in black and white, you either do it 100% or not at all, and it took a lot of things to happen in my life for me to appreciate the “greys” the in-betweens. I apply this to relationships external or internal or even to my lifestyle. Some things are worth doing half-ass, as long as you do it.

Energy matching, more than ever when I turned 30 I do not have time to be doing things that are draining my energy. There will be situations or persons in your life that drain your energy and no matter how much you love it/them (due to the past or ‘what we are used to’), does not mean you have to ‘sacrifice’ your physical and mental energy to maintain it. It’s okay for you to admit that to yourself, and control the amount of energy you are willing to spend toward a situation or a person.

You are more in control than you think you are. A lot of things spiraled for me at the beginning of 2022, which was a result of my decision in quarter four of 2021, it wasn’t regretful but it felt like I lost grip of my life. It felt that way because I wasn’t taking care of myself mentally and spiritually and it allows leeches to take over. You are always in control, more than you think you do, you have the power to decide and incite, and act on things that are involving YOUR life.

Acknowledging trauma. I’ve been doing this for a while but not as much as I did in 2022, people call Millennials the strawberry generation because we “bruise” easily, without them even acknowledging that we suffered from the generational trauma that was passed on from them. This was only apparent when I sit with myself and started asking myself why I react a certain way to certain things and why I am easily triggered or annoyed over certain behaviors/words, usually, you can always trace it back to your childhood, and it doesn’t always have to be coming from your parents it could be your peers, teachers or society in general. Heal.

Having a Purpose. This was something that I never thought of in my adult life, when I was younger yes maybe, but as an adult, I was a nihilist. When I realized my purpose in 2022, it was so freeing, and it was not something grand like ‘change the world’ or ‘cure cancer’ or ‘end world hunger’, it wasn’t something like that and it doesn’t have to be. It could be as small as I am meant to ensure my parents never had to work, or I am meant to bring a kid into the world and teach them amazing values, or I am meant to light a candle for my grandma every night until the end of her life, or I am meant to share my stories. Having a purpose drives you as a human being.

Don’t take it personally. Really. I think I’ve learned this in previous years as well but as you reach 30, it’s a different era with different sets of people with different reactions. I am also a different person compared to all those years ago when I started this series. It is a lesson that I sometimes need to remind myself of. A lot of people’s reactions are based on their viewpoint, their upbringing, and their trauma, rarely does it ever has to do with you and your character. When people disagree with you, you do not have to spend energy to convince them to see it from your point of view if they refused to, they could be right and you could be wrong vice versa. You are living life through your lenses and nothing is ever really about the other person, that’s just how we’re wired as humans.

Life is short and long at the same time. I feel like I did a lot of meaningful experiences in 2022, YOLO with friends, and traveling locally and outside of the country. Saying, hey we have 24 hours in a day, I’ll manage my time let’s just do this! I don’t condone constantly doing something to feel ‘alive’, you just need to do what makes you happiest. As an extrovert, mine is to spend time with people I love that energize me, do things I’ve never done before, and experience new places. If it’s just sitting on a balcony and reading a book is your happy place, then do that. Our lives should be filled with things we wanna do and find people that wanna do the same thing as us, to enjoy it together. It feels like you always don’t have enough time but too much time as well. So just do it, take that leap of faith, money is an energy it will always come back, time is relative, and it’s short and long at the same time.

Your path is the best path for you. We do this a lot, where we compare our journey or our lives to those of our peers, younger or older. We let it consume us of what we view as ‘success’ or ‘failures’ or even someone who has it ‘better’. It takes a lot of focus out of your own life and I haven’t been doing this for a while, I’ve left this habit years ago, but at the same time I feel like this is something that we need to be reminded of now and then. Especially when you turn a certain significant age or a milestone, for example, turning 30, I’m sure others will start thinking and start comparing so I am here just to remind you that whatever path you are at right now, it’s exactly for you. It’s not better or worse than anyone else’s because you are not anyone, you are you and this is YOUR life. Put your energy into getting to know yourself, your wants and needs free from societal pressure and expectations and free from other people’s influence. You are exactly where you are supposed to be.

#personal #2022 #what i learned

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raspberrybrain · 2 years

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Colorization Attempt

I'd been trying the technique of making a greyscale painting, then paint over it with color. My goal was to get a full ranage of values. I'd been noticing that my curves editing on finished works was getting really intense, and I felt that needed fixing.

As I've been trying that though…It was real hard to keep that value richness that was the whole point! I know pros do this all the time but it just felt impossible.

I'm proud of some details like getting so many blues into the shirt and texture Roy's face. But Ed doesn't make it out so well. His hair should be one of the brightest points in this, but it looks dull. And no matter how many undertones I put in, his skin looked flat.

I am extremely happy with the sepia version I ended up with. And using greyscale was a great exercise. But this method of coloring is probably not for me!