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livingforthewhump · 2 years

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Could you write a prompt with a whumpee with a leg injury (maybe a stabbing or something) who has to completely act like nothing’s wrong because they’re walking back home with their friend who is already suspicious and they can’t let them know (for some reason)? Sorry that this is uber-specific.

No 4. Dead on Your Feet

Hidden Injury | Waking Up Disoriented | Can’t Pass Out

The night air hit Whumpee’s face in a rush. Their eyes flickered close, soaking in the warmth for a single moment before they had to keep moving. Whumpee followed Caretaker into the street, sprinting to a nearby alley that they could only barely see through the tears blurring their vision.

Their leg was a cacophony of pain. Blood had seeped down a good half of their pant leg, blessedly invisible against the black fabric in the dark night. Each step felt like it sent shards of glass into their bone, as though the knife was still embedded there. It wasn’t, which created more problems, as now they were bleeding out a lot faster.

“Whumpee, hurry up,” Caretaker hissed. Whumpee winced at how strained their voice was, even in a whisper. Maybe now that they’d finally gotten the job done, Caretaker would get some rest.

“Sorry,” they breathed back, fighting against a limp as they reached their friend.

Caretaker glanced back at Whumper’s base where it loomed behind them, jaw twitching in the dim light the street lamps provided. “If no alarm has been raised by now, we probably have until that guard you knocked out wakes back up. Are you okay walking back home?”

Whumpee furrowed their eyebrows. “Yes? Why wouldn’t I be?” They took another step and briefly found themselves unable to breathe. Lovely.

“Just making sure,” Caretaker said slowly, eyes just a little too perceptive. Whumpee stayed on the inside as they moved into the street, hugging the buildings and the shadows that clung to them. Their ragged breaths seemed to give life to the walls towering on either side, making them tilt and sway, the ground swelling.

Their shoulder hit the brick wall hard.

Caretaker turned towards them, face shadowed in the hazy streetlight. “Whumpee?”

Whumpee screwed their eyes shut, using the wall to push themself back upright. “Yeah. I’m good. Just tired, I guess.”

They didn’t get a response from that, only Caretaker watching them, a silhouette in the dark that Whumpee would give up everything for. Their leg was a dead weight beneath them now, heavy like lead and filled with glass that bit deep into their skin, their muscle, their bones, with each hesitant movement. Whumpee locked their knee when putting weight on it (wouldn’t want to be caught limping, would they?).

The world was still spinning. Whumpee leaned their head back and looked at the sky for a moment to try and disguise it, to hide the tears building in their eyes as sure as the headache embedded in their skull. “The sky is beautiful tonight,” they whispered. Not that they could see it.

Caretaker let out a small breath. “Yes, it is.” Their tone was softer now, and something gentle stirred in Whumpee’s chest.

“We should get home before Whumper wakes up,” Whumpee continued in that same soft tone. “You need sleep.”

“Is that honestly what you’re worried about right now?” Caretaker snorted, but there was no malice behind it. “You look exhausted yourself. But we deserve to celebrate tonight.”

Whumpee’s tears receded and they dropped their head back down. Their throat burned with the effort when they spoke. “Yeah. You’re right.”

Caretaker deserved to have a night of celebration more than anyone else. Whumpee wouldn’t take that away from them for the world. They walked on in silence, Whumpee’s hands burrowed deep in their pockets. Their fists were clenched against the pain, but beyond that, their extremities were getting very, very cold. They were almost surprised there wasn’t ice crusting along their fingertips, despite the warm night. Best to just keep moving.

Their vision was shifting in and out of focus, flashes of black coming in when they were certain they hadn’t blinked. They were shaking from the effort of keeping their leg moving, now. Their muscles were growing stiff around the weeping wound. Still, they kept their back straight. They kept their knees locked. Their breaths grew more and more labored, burning their lungs, but their breaths were there.

Then their leg buckled underneath them, and none of it mattered.

The world swung back into place slowly above them, circling and circling like water going down the drain, long after Whumpee had gone still. A muffled ringing filled their head. A noise was lingering beneath that, thick and soft like whoever it was was yelling through a mattress.

Why did it all hurt so much?

A face appeared right above them, blocking out the golden streetlights. Whumpee stared blankly. They were terrible at reading lips, and for some reason Caretaker was just mouthing words. Or—no, they were speaking. Whumpee just couldn’t hear them.

After a moment, Caretaker seemed to realize this. Their face was creased deeply in worry, and Whumpee felt a spear of guilt thrust into them at the realization that that was their fault.

“‘m sorry,” they forced out. Caretaker froze. Their expression changed, tightening. When they spoke again, it was very deliberate, so that Whumpee could make out what they were saying.

“Can you hear me?” The lips said. Whumpee shook their head, closing their eyes as the world dipped around them. Caretaker waited until they were looking again. “Where are you hurt?”

Whumpee hesitated, tears rising to their eyes again. They didn’t want Caretaker to have to deal with it.

Something like anger swelled in Caretaker’s eyes. They grabbed onto Whumpee’s chin, forcing their gazes to meet. The intensity of Caretaker’s expression cowed them, and one of their shaking hands reached down towards their leg, then slumped down in defeat.

Instantly Caretaker was down beside it, ripping away the soaked pant leg. Whumpee was pretty sure they screamed as it came away from the wound. They didn’t have time to think about it, though, because they promptly passed out.

When Whumpee woke up, their hands were warm, and their clothes were dry. It took them a moment to process anything else.

Slowly, they opened their eyes, rubbing the sleep from them. They didn’t remember going to bed.

“You’re awake,” a strained voice said. Whumpee sat up, wincing at a pain in their leg. Caretaker was sitting at their bedside, face like stone and eyes red and bloodshot.

Another sleepless night on their part. Whumpee could have drowned in their guilt. Their hands felt out the lump in the covers where their bandages were.

“I passed out,” they remembered. Their voice was weak.

Caretaker took a deep breath. “Yes.”

“I don’t—” they started, then deflated under Caretaker’s hard eyes. “I thought I could make it.”

“Clearly.”

“I’m sorry.”

“…I don’t understand.” Caretaker crossed their arms over their chest. They hadn’t accepted Whumpee’s apology. Whumpee waited for them to continue. “Why didn’t you tell me?”

Whumpee’s eyes dropped. “I. I didn’t want you to worry.”

“I’m worried now, Whumpee.” Their voice was sharp as a dagger. Something dark flared across Caretaker’s face, receding just as quickly. Whumpee knew it was still there. They just nodded, morose.

A thin silence stretched between them. Whumpee’s head started pounding, and they leaned back against their pillows.

“I went for a walk this morning,” Caretaker said suddenly. “When you were still asleep. I was tired of sitting here.” They swallowed, brows lowering over their eyes. “You left a trail of blood last night, did you know that? I could follow your footprints all the way back to Whumper’s. And last night I didn’t even notice.” Their voice broke off suddenly, and for the first time Whumpee noticed tears in their eyes. “Why didn’t I notice?”

Whumpee hugged themself. “It’s not your fault.”

“No, it’s not my fault that you decided to just ignore your stab wound. It is my fault that I noticed something was wrong and I didn’t do anything until you were bleeding out on the ground.” Caretaker’s voice was raised now, and they cut themself off with a grimace. Their voice was soft the next time they spoke, but still shimmering with anger. “Were you going to tell me?”

“Caretaker…”

“No. Answer the question, Whumpee.”

“…no.”

All the air seemed to leave Caretaker at once. They slumped over, elbows resting on their knees and face in their hands. Whumpee had never seen them brought so low.

“Why?” they asked again, and it sounded almost begging.

Whumpee didn’t have an answer. They just sat there battling back their tears, because Caretaker deserved to feel upset without Whumpee stealing the moment again.

When Caretaker lifted their head up, their eyes were wet. “Okay. Here’s what we’re going to do. I am going to go get you some food and medicine. When I get back, I am going to be calm, and you are going to have some damn good answers for me.”

They stood up while Whumpee cringed and nodded. As they got to the door, Caretaker looked back.

“And Whumpee?”

“Mm.”

“Never let this happen again.”

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ssa-atlas-alvez · 2 years

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Whumptober Day 4: Dead on your feet

No. 4 DEAD ON YOUR FEET

Hidden Injury | Waking Up Disoriented | Can’t Pass Out

Warnings: stab/slash wound, knife, knives, blood, blood loss, makeshift bandages, self done first aid, medical inaccuracies

Word count: 1947

In your defence, you didn’t realise you had been stabbed until the paramedics were gone and you were processing the crime scene. And sure, you probably should have told someone and said ‘hey, you know, I think the unsub has slashed me a bit and by that I mean hey look here’s a massive slash wound from his knife’, but you didn’t. You simply had an internal panic before covering the problem with your FBI windbreaker - which were waterproof, so theoretically also blood proof? Your plan also wasn’t the best (wait until you get to the police station and patch yourself up, last the jet journey and drive yourself to the closest hospital when your shift ended) but it was the most coherent plan you’d be able to come up with.

“You alright, (Y/N)?” Morgan grinned, “You’re quieter than usual,”

“Just thinking about how hard it must be for you to be second best around me,” You teased trying your best not to show your panic to the rest of the team, Derek gave a laugh, clapping you on the back, missing your wince.

You rode with Hotch, Rossi, and JJ, hoping that Hotch’s driving would make you feel less like you were going to throw up than Morgan’s driving. That wasn’t the case (nothing against Hotch, it was simply the odds were not in his favour). It wasn’t long until you were at the police station and you all piled out of the car and into the station.

You didn’t get a chance to stop at the police station and properly try and patch yourself up, as it turns out. Spencer had decided to stay behind and pack up during the arrest and normally you would appreciate that but you could have throttled the younger agent tonight. You didn’t say anything though, just gave him a smile and a nod as you slowly started to pack your things. You knew Hotch and Rossi had noticed something was wrong, but they hadn’t confronted you about it, so you were taking it as a win. It wasn’t hurting as much, not yet anyway. But you knew it was going to soon. Part of you thought the anticipation of the pain might actually be the worse part. Although, you doubted that you’d think that once the pain started kicking in full. You felt it, sure, but it was more a light dull ache than anything else.

“The caffeine addiction kicking in there?” Derek joked, nodding at your shaking hands.

You forced a laugh and a nod, “Always,” There was a small pause, “No, all that adrenaline’s after effects, apparently it decided to hit me hard today,”

“Huh,” Derek said, both of you continuing to make sure your things were packed.

“The funny thing about adrenaline is that not only does it increase blood levels to the brain and muscles, but can also decrease blood flow to some organs too,” Spencer chimed.

You nodded, “I think I remember my psychology teacher telling me that once,”

Hotch straightened up, turning to the whole team, “Are we all ready to go?”

Everyone, but you nodded, “I need to pee,” You said, Hotch fought back a smile but nodded. It had become almost a ritual, you would go to the toilet before getting on the jet everytime without a doubt.

This time, however, it wasn’t so much needing to pee as it was ‘figure out a way to stop the hole - well, gaping wound - in my stomach from bleeding so damn much'. You walk at your usual pace, despite wanting to run and crawl at the same time.

You looked around the men's bathroom when you got there, checking for officers as well as supplies. There wasn't much to work with, in fact, there was no first aid kit, nothing. All you had to go on was toilet paper and disposable hand towels. You decide on the hand towels, grabbing a handful, placing against your wound (having lifted your shirt) You couldn’t see anything to hold it in place and you very much doubted wrapping toilet paper around your stomach would secure the make-shift gauze. With a sigh, you settled with your belt, quickly undoing the buckle, you placed it over the wound and ‘gauze’ with a hiss, you did the buckle back up before dropping your shirt to cover everything - thankful that your shirt was rather baggy today. You place your windbreaker back on. If anyone asks, you can say that you’re cold. You were starting to feel a bit on the colder side, actually.

This did not look good. You had a six hour flight. You should probably tell Hotch. The thought of that was immediately knocked out of your head when you imagined his disapproving glare. Nope. You did not need that on top of a stab-slash wound. With a sigh (and then a wince) you headed out of the bathroom.

“There he is!” Morgan teased.

“We thought you might have fallen down the toilet,” Emily laughed. You gave a laugh, doing your best to hide your pain.

“You okay? You’re looking a bit pale,” You give JJ a smile.

“Yeah, I think I’m just getting a migraine,” The lie slips off your tongue easily and you feel bad, until you see the worry leave her eyes.

“I’ve got pain killers?”

“That would be great, thank you,” You smiled, it was really starting to hurt now.

After you downed two painkillers and had a glass of water, you swung by the hotel to grab your go bags (already packed). You groaned, turning to Morgan, "Morgan, be a dear and grab my bag for me? Please?" Morgan looked at you, observing the way you covered your eyes with your hand, your pale complexion, and the way you were hunched in on yourself.

He nodded, "Yeah, of course," Must have been a bad migraine.

Hotch was always the last one to board the jet. Often, the rest of the team would get on whilst he was saying goodbye to the local police before he boarded - letting them know that they would help whenever and wherever they could with any upcoming cases. This didn’t change.

Hotch walked next to you as you all made your way to the jet, “Are you alright?” You nodded, giving him a strained smile. This was all a massive mistake, but you were too stubborn to say anything now. You made your grave.

“I’m fine,” The rest of the team were now boarded. You gave a quiet huff, shifting the strap of your go-bag before beginning your slow ascent up the stairs (not wanting to push your body). You nearly made it. You were so close to the top of the stairs when the dizziness hit. Hotch right behind you, he furrowed his eyebrows.

“(Y/N)? Are you okay?” You gave a sluggish nod. You were quite cold, now that you thought about it. The dizziness hadn’t let up and you felt incredibly nauseous. But still you said nothing, determined to push on. You went up two more steps before the world blurred into a variety of colours and Hotch was the only thing holding you up.

“I need some help here!” Hotch yelled, shifting his position to prevent you both from falling down the stairs. The team poked their heads out of the door, seeing you limp in Hotch’s arms caused them all to kick into action. “Morgan, help me get him on the jet, Emily call 911, Reid get the first aid kit, we need to figure out what’s wrong.” Everyone nodded and scrambled to follow Hotch’s orders. They placed you on the sofa, Reid kneeling beside you with the first aid kit next to him. He scanned your frame, deciphering where the injury could be when a flash of blood caught his eye. There was a long and thin hole in your shirt. He lifted your shirt up gently, eyes widening when they landed on the large laceration that ran across your side, from hip to ribs - as much tissue as possible held in place by a belt.

Reid heard Hotch sigh behind him and JJ and Emily gasp and turn away. Reid got to work, apparently the paramedics were going to be ten minutes so he needed to stem the bleeding as much as possible. He could try and stitch it up but that would increase the chance of infection - plus ten minutes wasn’t too bad. Reid nodded his thanks to Morgan when he handed him a wad of gauze to apply to the wound. Rummaging through the first aid kit, Spencer grabs the saline solution, pouring it onto the wound to keep it clean whilst they were waiting for the paramedics before Spencer placed the bandages on top and put pressure on the wound.

All eyes snapped to you when you gave a groan as Spencer put more pressure on the wound. “Spence?” You asked, voice thick with sleep. “What you doing? What happened?”

“You passed out from blood loss on the stairs,” Hotch said, “We’ll be talking about that when you’re feeling better. The paramedics should be here soon.”

“I passed out?” You asked, look made eye contact with Morgan - who in this situation managed a teasing smirk. “Oh god, I’m never going to live this down.”

“Mum and Dad are so going to ground you,” Morgan said, motioning to Rossi and then Hotch, who both rolled their eyes.

“In all seriousness,” Hotch said, cutting Derek off as he went to add another comment, “I will be grounding you."

You gave a chuckle, grimacing at the pain that flooded through your side. "Sorry," Hotch said, you shook your head.

"My fault," You admitted, Hotch rolled his eyes.

"Paramedics are three minutes out,"

"That's fine," You said, waving your hand dismissively.

"I'm not sure the blood flow is reducing," Spencer chimed, eyes flicking up to Hotch.

"You sure?" You asked, "Nah, it'll be alright. The writers can't kill off the best looking character. Derek would get too confident,"

Morgan gave a snort, rolling his eyes, "What are you on about?"

"I don't even know," You said with a wince.

Morgan turned to Reid, "Is delusional a symptom of blood loss?" Spencer gently shook his head.

Hotch gave Morgan a look and opened his mouth ready to lecture you both, when the paramedics jogged up the stairs to the jet.

You gave them a small wave, "Oh, hey," Morgan face palmed.

"Can we take a look?" The paramedic asked.

"At least take me to dinner first," You muttered, before giving them a nod. "Yeah, sure,"

"We're going to need to you take to hospital, we'll give you some painkillers to help with the pain, and you'll be taken to surgery,"

"How long is that gonna take?" If Hotch’s glare was anything to go by, that was not the right thing to say. "I mean, thank you."

JJ quickly told the paramedics you had taken some painkillers, they nodded, noting it down. Before they began their work. Soon enough you were in the back of an ambulance with Hotch, high on morphine.

"Morgan’s right," You said, turning to Hotch, patting his arm, "You really are the dad of the team."

"Rossi’s going to be so happy to find out that he's the mum of the team,"

"He does tend to mother hen," You acknowledged, Hotch huffed a laugh.

When the paramedics edged the gurney out of the ambulance, Rossi stood anxiously at the entrance. "Are you okay?" He turned to the paramedics, "Is he okay?"

You and Hotch glanced at each other, you giggling and Hotch trying his best to hold back a laugh.

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whump-side · 2 years

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WHUMPTOBER2022 No. 4 DEAD ON YOUR FEET

Hidden Injury | Waking Up Disoriented | Can’t Pass Out

He could have sworn he was sleeping on a bed, but it felt fluffy..? Like sleeping on a big dog..? And when did he loot a first aid kit and fixed himself?

#whumptober2022 #no.4 #waking up disoriented #oc #whump art #blood #injury #bandages #i loved how some of you suggested the big dog is a werewolf caretaker #so yes im going with that scenario 👌#whump #fever

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geminihurt · 2 years

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Whumptober 2022 | Day 04

Dead on your feet | Waking up disoriented

"If we're painting the whole picture, you look like shit"

The Defenders 07 | Matt Murdock - Charlie Cox

#whumptober2022 #no.04 #waking up disoriented #the defenders #gifs #1x07 #matt murdock #charlie cox #waking up #angst #grief #whump #whumpedit #dead on your feet

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haro-whumps · 1 year

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@zehecatl

MK tried to blink the dust from his eyes, which worked, more or less. Harder was blinking the blurriness out of them. No matter how hard he tried he just couldn't seem to focus. Everything ached. Places he didn't even know he had ached. Where was he? In rubble of some form. Oh no, had he done this? He really needed to quit wrecking the city every time a demon came looking for a fight

"Hey, looking a little worse for wear there."

MK couldn't (and didn't want to) stop the full body sag of relief that voice spurred. Wukong was here. Sun Wukong was here and whatever fight had gotten MK down like this was as good as settled with the Monkie King around.

A strong hand gripped MK by the jacket and pulled. "Woah, you've really seen better days," he chimed with an undercurrent of laughter, but it wasn't unkind. Wukong was gentle getting MK settled in his arms, letting him hide his face from the too-bright sun and formless blurry shapes around them.

"Easy kid, I've got you," he promised, warm and soft and so full of love MK often wondered how his mortal body could withstand it. He let himself relax, succumb briefly to his injuries. He knew he was safe now.

#peachynoodles #lmk #lego monkie kid #writing #mine #whump #disorientation #waking up disoriented #post battle #sun wukong #monkie kid #mk

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lurkinglurkerwholurks · 2 years

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Cass didn’t understand the concept of fair most of the time. It was the emptiest of words, which meant a lot considering Cass found most words empty, like fragile porcelain cups tipped on their sides and cracked useless. The others used it—never Bruce, or Alfred, but the younger ones, and even Dick sometimes, in a voice that went deliberately flat as if to fight against a rise—and people on the street and in shows, people she overheard, but she was never convinced she understood the concept. Things were as they were. Fair was a different thing from right or just, which were also words that were just as slippery, but that struck a voiceless resonance deep inside her in a way that fair did not.

Now, though, Cass thought she might be approaching an understanding. Cats were not fair in a way that specifically aggrieved her, which she thought might be a vital component to fairness.

It did not seem fair, for instance, that kittens were so lovely. She had never much paid attention to cats in her old life, as they were not survival, and survival was what she needed. When she had noticed them, she had liked them. What was not to like about a creature that kept its own counsel but was readable in a way that humans were readable—that is to say, perfectly plainly, if you knew how to look, though few seemed to try.

Cass looked, and she found them sensible. Of course a fast, frontal approach by a stranger would be seen as aggressive. Of course crowding one’s space without permission was a cause for offense. Sitting near but not next, in total silence and apparent disinterest was a valid form of bonding. Turning one’s back was an act of trust. Staring unblinkingly was off-putting and offensive. Slow, languid blinks were markers of affection.

Cass understood all this easily. It was one of the reasons she had so quickly trusted Bruce. He was very like a cat. She didn’t think that was why that woman liked him so much, but Cass also didn’t think that his cat-ness hurt. It certainly hadn’t hurt with Cass.

Cats were also very soft, and Cass liked soft things. She liked nearly everything about cats—their sleek or fluffy fur, their triangled noses, their expressive tails. She liked the kitten that lived in her home now, at least in theory. It had arrived in her absence, a pleasant surprise, when most surprises weren’t. It was very small and very frightened. It made itself bigger any time anyone looked at it, and the effort made it seem that much smaller. It had black fur with white paws, a white tuft on its chest, and a white cap to its tail, like a little suit. In a family of both suits and suits, Cass found the kitten entirely appropriate.

Also appropriate, but less appealing, was its ability to perform inexplicable disappearances from the one place it was allowed to be (Damian’s room) and reappearances in others where it was not (everywhere else.) This usually did not cause too much trouble. Damian was very responsible with his pet and spent a good deal of time with it, so he was quick to notice when it went missing. Wary as it was of others, the kitten took care not to cross paths with the humans of the house when it went on its adventures.

The kitten was not allowed in Cass’s room. This was not her rule, not exactly. It was Bruce’s rule, and Alfred’s, because the first time Cass met the kitten, it was clear they couldn’t be in the same space without Cass’s face melting. That’s what it had felt like, anyways, the sudden slide of her eyes and nose and mouth into liquid form like an ice cream zapped in a microwave. Cass, for all her self-preservation, wouldn’t have connected the attack to the hissing ball of fur in Damian’s arms, but Bruce had explained the concept of allergies as best he could.

This was all top of mind for Cassandra at present because as she lay sprawled on her bed, she sneezed three times in a row, which meant the kitten was somewhere in her room.

From her jumbled puddle of limbs on the bed, Cass briefly considered ignoring her intruder and trying to fall asleep. Patrol had been long, wet, and cold, a miserable combination. Though changed, Cass had been looking forward to being completely still and unconscious for the next six hours or so. She didn’t want to move. She didn’t want to get up. She didn’t want to hunt for one tiny kitten in the various nooks of her room.

She sneezed again, so hard it made the back of her throat hurt. Cass took a small, measured breath, then rolled onto her side, off the bed, and onto her feet. She didn’t groan, but she thought about it, which meant a lot from Cass. She spent most of her waking hours free of the influence of David Cain, but not all, and she had never shaken the unwillingness to make noise except when absolutely necessary. Voicing irritation was not necessary.

Wary of where the kitten might be and how close she might have to come to make her face melt, Cass sucked in a breath and held it as she scanned the room. It wasn’t a very large space, by design. Though Bruce had first placed Cass in a standard Manor bedroom the size of a—well, she wasn’t sure what it had been the size of, other than very large—after several weeks of Cass squirreling herself away as quickly and neatly as the kitten, a compromise had been reached. One of the windowed walk-in closets down the hall had been walled off from its corresponding bedroom but retained its connection to the bathroom. The result had been a cozy little nook with level after level of empty shelves, a single window, and just enough room for a full bed. Cass had been thrilled.

Unfortunately, Cass had had enough time at this point to truly nest, which meant dozens of little nooks, crannies, piles, and mounds that a small but determined cat could hide in, under, behind, or on top of. Cass had to draw in four more breaths as she searched, and her eyes were already stinging, tears blurring her vision faster than she could blink them away.

It didn’t occur to her to ask for help. Cass didn’t ask for help, not from anyone, not even Bruce. Besides, it was a very small kitten, and perhaps she could give it a little pet before she returned it to Damian’s room. That might be worth the trouble.

She hoped it was worth the trouble. By the time she noticed the green glint of reflective lenses at the very back corner of the shadows under her bed, Cass’s head felt full and prickly like it had been stuffed with the hay Scarecrow sometimes carefully sewing to the cuffs of his shirts. (Tim called it pretentious. Cass wasn’t sure what that meant, but the word felt as silly as the act of sewing dried grass to one’s sleeves looked, so she conditionally agreed.) The kitten stared at her, unblinking, which was good because all she could see were the eyes and a faint outline of a hunched back and rump.

Cass wiped her face on her shirt and considered what to do next.

“Hello?” she began slowly. “It’s okay. You are okay. It is safe. I am here to help.”

Bruce had taught her some of these, for use on patrol. She understood tone, trusted it more than words, but sometimes people needed to hear specific phrases to feel okay, like a set of passcodes she was only beginning to understand. She wasn’t sure if cats were the same way.

The little smudge hissed.

Please, she wanted to say, I am very tired and do not like my face wet and my nose full. The sneezing hurts. I am sorry, but please go away.

Unfortunately, the sneezing made it hard to remember the right words, and she was fairly certain that cats did not understand hand signs. And Cass was a very patient person until she wasn’t.

With a huff, Cass pushed forward with her toes and slithered under the bed, snatching at the kitten with both hands. Despite her near blindness and rapid-fire sneezing, Cass expected an efficient scoop and rescue. Instead, she found her hands full of a tiny, snarling, spitting whirlwind of teeth and claws. She managed to pull it from under the bed, working backwards on her thighs and elbows until she could kneel upright, but bobbled the kitten when it let out a throaty howl. She caught it again, but the change in position let the creature twist and sink its claws into her forearm.

Cass hurried to the door. The pain wasn’t enough to merit her attention, but she was worried about accidentally hurting the little creature by trying to keep it in her arms. Better to let it free rather than risk further damage through fright or a fall. She bent in a low, scooping motion and shoved the kitten into the hall, shutting the door behind it with a whispered “Sorry.”

This was better anyways, she decided as she sagged against the wall and scrubbed her face with the hem of her sweatshirt. Bad things might have happened if she had been caught with the kitten. Damian would have been angry, surely, and accused her of stealing his pet. Or Bruce or Alfred would have been disappointed in her for holding the kitten when she wasn’t supposed to, or angry at Damian for it getting loose. She especially didn’t want the latter to happen. The Manor was at peace, at long last, but the truce felt like the thin film of new ice, too easily cracked by the slightest pressure.

There was cat hair on her hoodie. Cass sighed to herself and stripped, dropping the now inside-out bundle of cloth on the floor as she shuffled to the bathroom to rinse her eyes. There was also a line of blood trickling down her arm from the kitten’s claws, matched by pinpricks of teeth closer to her wrist. She gave them a cursory rinse as well, having more than once been on the receiving end of Alfred’s disappointed frown in regards to stained linens.

The cold water felt good on her eyes, and after snagging another hoodie from a different floor pile, Cass crawled into bed, under her covers, and was asleep within minutes.

———

It was strange, being back in the Manor. Cass had thought she would never be here again, that the home its walls represented had crumbled and burned along with Bruce. But Bruce was back. And she was back. So why did feel like she had come back to the wrong house?

“Why don’t you ask Damian to spar with you,” Bruce suggested, his eyes never leaving the screen. It wasn’t a question. His voice stayed flat and blunt, like a broom pole against her spine, nudging her to do as he said.

Cass wished it were a broom pole, so she could snatch it from him and break it in half over her knee. She knew what he was doing. He had been upset that she had left after his “death” and wanted her to connect with the others. To be friends. Like they weren’t still scared of her. Like she had any interest in being friends with them.

I want to spar with you, Cass signed, but Bruce still wasn’t looking. Her fingertips twitched, fighting the impulse to reach out and pinch the side of his neck, to make him look.

She waited. And waited. And waited. Irritation and pent-up energy itched down her legs like ants, but she didn’t move. Bruce finally turned his head, his attention still half-caught by his work like a sticky-hand toy clinging to the wall.

“Sweetheart,” Bruce said with a flat sort of patience that made Cassandra frown when the name usually made her smile, “I need to focus on this case, and you need to spar more with other members of the team.”

He said more, but the words buzzed like gnats around her head, and Cass batted them away. She wanted to spar with Bruce. She wanted to knock this itchy-jumpy-scratchy feeling out of her body. She wanted to feel the familiar collision of his strength, his might, the way they fought together that felt like a living puzzle. Sometimes it felt like if she weren’t touching Bruce that he wasn’t there at all, that she would blink and wake up behind some trash heap on the other side of the world, the last few months nothing more than a pleasant dream.

Cass turned away, Bruce still speaking buzzing words that quieted as she left the platform and stalked to the exercise equipment. Damian and Dick were sparring, so she wasn’t being disobedient, just polite by not interrupting. She didn’t even stomp her feet the way she wanted to.

Cass huffed to herself as she kicked the bag, wishing the sting of her foot connecting with the vinyl did anything at all. She was aware of Dick and Damian’s attention, both focused on their playfight but with glances cast her way that they thought she wouldn’t notice. They were always aware of where she was, or thought they were. Damian especially marked her every move when they were in the same space. He still saw her as a threat, both physically and to his place in the family. She didn’t begrudge him that. He was right about the former and thought the latter about everyone, not just her. He prickled like a little bushpig every time he saw her with Bruce. Dick, for his part, was also wary, maybe still remembering when she had threatened him in the past, but he hid any unease under a warm smile.

Her kicks were becoming more aggressive, the smack of body against bag louder and sharper in the echoing Cave. Bruce didn’t seem to notice, but the other two were signaling agitation with their tense limbs and pointed not-looks. She kept going, until the friction of attention rubbed its way under her skin.

Fine. That was a lying word, an opposite word, and Cass had to admit that it felt good to envision the way her teeth would have to scrape hard against her bottom lip to spit it out. She didn’t. It was an unnecessary noise.

Cass abandoned the bag, moving to the pullup bar instead. The rapid up-down motion helped some, but the exercise was too easy, so she paused to add weights to her ankles and tried again. The additional difficulty helped a little, and the strain aggravated the healing cuts on her arm, and that sting helped, too, mild though it was.

Finally, she gave up. Dick had begun to shift his stance, as if mulling options. One of those options was going to be ending his training with Damian to invite Cass to spar, which would make Damian angry and wouldn’t relieve the itch in her limbs. She was angry. Worse, she was angry that she was angry, because she knew the open case on the computer was important and that she couldn’t have Bruce’s attention just because she wanted it. But she did want it. And she didn’t want to cause problems with the other two, particularly when she was too agitated to deflect Damian’s prickles peaceably.

With a sharp huff, Cass dropped from the bar, unshackled her ankles, and stalked off to the locker room before Dick could make up his mind to call out to her. She would seek some other way to center herself before patrol.

That was the plan, anyways. Abovestairs, Cass was en route to the ballroom when Alfred caught her and redirected her back to the second floor. Her room needed tidying, he said. Something about laundry, something about food. Cass had to fight not to fidget, not to make a face. Her room was fine. It was her room. She didn’t want to clean, she wanted to blast music in the ballroom and dance, cocooned in sound and privacy while the other three stayed downstairs.

Alfred was watching her expectantly, his flow of words finally at its end. Cass nodded, not sure what she was agreeing to and not really caring. His lips twitched beneath the mustache. Irritation? Amusement? She couldn’t tell. Some mix of the two maybe, or a third emotion she had been too distracted to read. She had the uncomfortable feeling he knew she hadn’t been listening, and that sent slimy shivers down her back. Bad things happened when she was caught not listening. Fists and gunshots and pain.

Cass knew better than to flinch back, but she nodded more emphatically and hurried down the hall, eyes heavy on her until she disappeared around the corner. No ballroom, then, because they would hear the music. But not her room because her room was small and her room was safe, but now it was too small, like a trap, like a cage, and too many knew to find her there.

She had no answer. Cass spent the long hours until patrol stalking the Manor halls, unable to settle, unable to sit still. The air lay heavy on her like a heated blanket, and she couldn’t decide if she was… She couldn’t decide. She didn’t know.

Patrol should have helped. Pulling the mask down over her face stripped away the noise, the confusion, the feelings. In the muffled dark of the mask, she was not Cassandra, not Girl, not anyone except Black Bat. Black Bat did not feel anger or fear or sadness. Black Bat did not worry about anyone with the last name Wayne. Black Bat was flight. Black Bat was shadow. Black Bat was dance and fist and wing.

Cass didn’t understand why no one else seemed to have the same clarity. Only a partial team was out tonight, with Red Robin away with the Titans and Red Hood in his own orbit. But it was Dick and Damian bickering on comms, not Nightwing and Robin. It was Bruce’s speculative gaze that followed her from rooftop to rooftop. They clung to their dual identities, dragging messiness into the field despite warnings about code names and chatter on comms. Even Batman, who most cleanly separated himself into Wayne and Bat, was letting himself leak.

Nightwing’s indecision from earlier had reformed into a desire to “connect,” but there was nothing connective for Cass about words, and Nightwing loved his words. It wasn’t that she didn’t understand why he tried. She had watched him shower a stoic and unresponsive Batman with his chatter, water softening rock into something smooth and calm. But she was not Batman, she was Black Bat, and every time he approached to speak, she would flit away to another rooftop, a different shadow. And every time she did, Batman’s frown deepened.

She was a good team member. She was. She was Black Bat. She didn’t need to be like them to be what Gotham needed. She didn’t need to talk about the weather to be good.

She would prove it.

Black Bat made sure she ran the fastest, swung the highest, landed the quietest, spotted trouble first, punched first, ended trouble first. Nightwing had given up on trying to “connect,” and the others allowed her to pull herself further and further away from the flock. Only Batman kept pace, but she didn’t want to talk to him either. He would ask questions and expect answers, and she didn’t have answers, at least none that she was unashamed to give, and certainly none that she could explain with clumsy, empty words.

She could sense Batman’s growing irritation, and it raised the hair along her arms, up the back of her neck. Her anger rose with it, matching his frustration with her own inner gnashing of teeth, like a dog baying at the very end of a fraying lead. The night felt stifling, and anger and bitter sickness mixed in the hollow of her throat with an acidic chill. Black Bat suddenly, desperately wanted to sit for a moment. She wanted to find somewhere high, where she could sit with her bare face in the wind, above the exhaust of the streets and the eyes peering out of the dark, and rest with her shoulder pressed against Bruce’s.

But he had no plans to sit. She could read the intent in the angle of his spine, the set of his hands. He meant to circle, to corner her, to scold or interrogate. Black Bat felt less bat, more mouse, scampering from bolthole to bolthole.

They were in a warehouse near the docks when it all went bad. She told herself that she had made the decision herself to plunge from the rafters where the bats had settled to dive into the middle of the smugglers and scatter them like roaches. She would have told herself, if she had been thinking at all, if the hot, jangling sick in her chest hadn’t yanked her down like hands around her wrists.

Hitting smugglers felt better than kicking a bag. Black Bat was vengeance, she was the night, she was justice delivered from on high to those who would hurt, would steal, would deceive. Even the explosion of guns, the narrow heat of bullets flying by, they felt right. She felt no fear at all, until the smugglers all lay groaning on the ground and Batman was rounding on her, scowl as dark as his cape.

“Black Bat,” he growled, and she didn’t flinch, but only just. Anger crackled off him like static.

She half-turned to face him, her surly what in her stance rather than her hands.

“You are supposed to wait for my signal.” His hands moved with his mouth, echoing the reminder that stung like a rebuke. “You were reckless.”

She shook her head shortly. Their targets were all down, their goods seized. She had done most of the work herself, dropping men before the others could even touch their feet to the ground.

“Robin was almost shot,” Batman barked, jabbing one finger behind her.

She whirled, looking for the little one. He stood with an arm extended, Nightwing kneeling to study the fleshy part beneath his shoulder where the costume had peeled away from bleeding skin.

“I am well,” Robin insisted, voice raised for the others to hear. His voice and stance were both annoyed, but his bottom lip puckered slightly.

He’s fine, you’ve had worse, her eyes said.

Because of you, her brain insisted.

“You jeopardized the mission,” Batman was saying, his voice still hard, big words like sharp outcroppings in an unyielding cliff face.

I did my job, Cass snapped back, fingers as sharp as his words. Problem solved. You are welcome.

“You didn’t work with the team.”

I don’t NEED the team.

“You put everyone in danger.” Finally, finally, his voice boomed, echoing through the cavernous warehouse like another gunshot. Bad, his fingers smacked down.

Bad? No. No, she wasn’t bad, she was good, she was stopping bad people from doing bad things. How DARE he—

“Home,” Batman ordered, hands and mouth in sync once more. “Now.”

Cassandra stared at him, mouth empty of anything to say and hands too full of things she didn’t dare. Then she crushed her fingers into fists and stomped in the direction of the Manor. Three pairs of eyes watched. No one called her back.

She was four blocks away when Agent A clicked into her earpiece. Cassandra reached into her hood and pulled it out before she could hear more than her own name. She didn’t want to hear it. If she heard one more word, she was going to scream, truly scream, right there on the rooftop, but she was afraid of what else might happen if she opened her mouth.

Cass went home, not away into the night like she wanted to, but she ignored Alfred’s greeting and shook with anger as she stalked upstairs. If she was bad for the team, then she didn’t need to wait for them to return. She wouldn’t wait up to make sure they made it home safe, she wouldn’t wait for whatever flow of words Bruce had prepared, and she wouldn’t leave her door open. If he tried to wish her goodnight or rest a palm on her head, she would bite his hand. She clenched the sheets in the dark, in shaking, white-knuckled fists, and waited.

She was still shaking when she woke again, disoriented and tangled in the dark. She didn’t know where she was, who she was, what was happening.

Sick was the alarm her body was ringing. Danger. GO.

This was one language she understood inherently, viscerally, and never ignored its warnings.

She went. Clumsy and wobble-legged, crawling across soft obstacles to paw at the latch hidden behind the bed frame. Instinct knew the way, even if her mind was still asleep.

Sick was bad. Sick was weak. Weakness meant pain. She needed to hide. Find a spot no one would look, then find a way to heal from there.

She wasn’t sure what was wrong. Hot, too hot, burning in halls chilly against her skin. Head hurt—she stumbled, added dizzy to the list. More than her head hurt, couldn’t pinpoint it as she ran on fumbling but still silent feet. Thirsty, so thirsty, mouth hot and cottony. Ran like she was being attacked, though there was no one, no sound, no movement.

Ran until she could run no more. Instinct kept her inside, within the walls that meant safe, that meant home, protected from the worse that prowled outside. She knew the difference, between without and within, even if she was too muddled to remember within what.

Fingertips found the lid, lifted, pulled herself inside. It was small, knees pulled up to her chest and clasped tight, breath bouncing back into her face, too dark to see. Safe. She let consciousness slip from her hands.

When she woke again, it was to an attack. Light like knives to the face and hands grabbing at her arms. Instinct was first again, driving her hands to scratch and her feet to kick, and then she flinched, throwing up her arms in defense, expecting a slap or worse.

There was a voice, rough like gravel scraping against itself, repeating sounds that slowly turned into a word.

“Cassandra. Cassandra.”

The hands weren’t lifting her anymore. One pushed her bangs off her sticky forehead. The other cupped her cheek.

Not hurting. Gentle hands. Familiar, with callouses that scratched against her skin in a way she knew. Good hands.

A good voice.

Her name.

He was saying her name.

Bruce.

Cassandra let out a squeak of a sob and squinted up through blurry eyes.

From somewhere above her, a slow breath out through the nose.

He spoke again, in a voice so low she wasn’t sure she was meant to hear, in words she would only decipher later as, “You scared me to death, sweetheart.”

Louder, but still in a low rumble, “You’re burning up. We need to get you to the infirmary.”

Yes, Bruce would take care of her. He would make her feel better. He—no! She couldn’t leave the small space. It wasn’t safe to be sick, to be known as sick, as weak.

She croaked in protest, stiffening against the wooden walls to keep herself inside. She was terrified of leaving her safe little box. Even with Bruce. Bruce couldn’t protect her from everything. He died and she ran. He wasn’t here. He had left her and she had been alone and he didn’t understand what happened—

Maybe she had babbled aloud, or maybe he was beginning to read her as well as she could read him. He could have pried her free, if he really wanted, but instead he settled back to stroking her head.

“Cassandra. I’m not going to lift you out yet, but I need to see what’s wrong.”

She was bad. That’s what was wrong. She was bad. She was wrong and bad and she didn’t fit. She wanted so badly to fit, to help, but she was angry and she was prickly and she had no words or her words were wrong or her room was wrong and she didn’t know how to be what they needed her to be and she just wanted—she wanted—she wanted—

Cass wept, collapsing in on herself. As soon as she went limp, Bruce lifted her out of the box, but only to enclose her again in walls of soft fabric and strong arms that blocked out the light, the world.

He didn’t shush her. He never shushed her. But his words ran over each other like water over rocks as his hand cradled her head against his thumping heart.

It’s okay. You are okay. You’re safe. I’m here. I’m here to help. It’s okay, it will be okay. You are loved. You are safe.

Not safe. Her fingers stuttered and stumbled over the movement, but she repeated it over and over until he noticed.

“Not safe?” he echoed, letting go to use his own hands in her lap where she could see. “Tell me. What isn’t?”

Me. Here. Sick. Bad. Not safe.

He was silent, still except for the steady rise and fall of breath.

Then, “What makes you feel not safe?”

Sick. Weak. She hurt. Her skin was on fire. She needed him to understand, to not carry her to where the others waited, but she didn’t know how to explain.

No. Her hand found her side, where old wounds puckered. NO.

Another breath, different, sucked in like he was the one hurt. When he let it out, she could feel the air against her scalp.

He never rushed. He could be fast, so fast it startled her, the speed misaligned with his size, but he never rushed himself or her. There were several long heartbeats of silence before he offered, with a tentativeness to his voice, “Your room or mine?”

Not the infirmary downstairs, open and cavernous and indefensible. He understood that, at least. Cass thought briefly of Bruce’s room, territory he knew best and could defend from all invaders, but shuddered at the idea of the unending space.

Cass tapped her own chest

Bruce carried her. She wasn’t sure even after if he deliberately chose paths that kept them out of the sight of others, or if he managed to wave them off. Either way, she was aware of no one, though she listened with all her strength for the whisper of breath or the soft shush of footfall.

Navigating her room was tricky. Bruce had to step carefully to keep his footing and not to twist his back too much as he crossed the narrow space from the door to the bed.

Bad, her brain whispered. She was putting him at risk. She almost asked to be put down, but then she was down, nestled back in the familiar blankets of her bed.

“Light,” Bruce warned, then flicked on the bedside lamp. Cass winced and turned her face away.

She must have drifted some, because she startled at the soft knock at the door.

“No—” she began, throat tight with fear.

Bruce’s hand on her shoulder stilled her. He lowered his face so she could see it clearly, every line lit by the pink and gold glow of her ladybug lamp. “They would have to get through me first, and I won’t let them.”

This was a Batman promise and a Bruce promise both, the core of him where they were one and the same. Whoever was at the door, whatever they wanted, they would not be able to cross the threshold unless he was dead, truly dead. And even then he might find a way to stop them.

“No one comes in,” Bruce promised again, and there were no lies that she could see. With a gentle squeeze to her shoulder, he moved to the door, keeping his body between her and whoever was on the other side.

No one else came into her room, and Bruce didn’t leave. Every time she woke, he was there, checking the bandages on her arm, readjusting her pillow, lifting a glass of water or spoonful of Alfred’s soup to her lips. Once she woke and he was curled up at the very edge of her bed, a bear trying to take up the space of cat, her Mothman pillow bunched under his head. A moment under the weight of her attention was all it took, and then he was sitting up, reaching for the thermometer, her water, the light.

“Explain to me,” he said, voice flat like an order but soft enough she knew it was a request, “how this happened.”

He was sitting on the edge of her bed, between her and the window, one flat-tipped finger tapping against the edge of the bandage on her arm. There were lines in his face, tired valleys of shadow, and his hair was a spiky, tousled mess of gray and black. The light from the window softened all his edges. He looked like love.

It was enough, the physical evidence of him and her fever-wracked days, to pull from her the answer she didn’t want to give.

“Cat,” Cass whispered past the lump in her throat. She was scared even still, scared that he would blame that soft, frightened kitten for defending itself, or Damian for letting it escape, or her for catching it herself rather than calling for help.

She knew who he was. She knew who he was not. But fear was not fair.

“Cat,” Bruce repeated.

Cat. Under my bed. It was scared. Not its fault. Not its fault.

Bruce breathed, in and out, and she made herself breathe as well.

“You didn’t clean the wound,” Bruce said. He took her arm then, cradling the bandaged lower half like it was fragile. “Why?”

Cass shrugged with her other shoulder. It hadn’t seemed important. It had only been a few scratches, just a little bit of blood.

Bruce shook his head slowly. “You know better.” There was no blame there, just heaviness. He shifted his hands, freeing one to push a lock of hair, freshly cleaned for the first time in days, behind her ear. “You weren’t showering. You were angry with me.”

Cass could feel heat in her face, like the fever returned, but with the bite of shame.

“Mad,” she admitted, but her voice cracked halfway through. “Sad.”

She could see it, her sadness reflecting in his face. Too many were too stupid to see, thinking because he held still and silent that he didn’t feel, when he felt everything, hers and his and everyone he loved. It hurt, to love this much. She didn’t know how he carried it.

“Tell me why,” he murmured, hand still cupping her cheek and her wrist.

She didn’t know. Not didn’t know how to say, but didn’t know.

“Punishing yourself?” he prompted, the question held lightly, to be thrown away if it was wrong. “Why?”

Punishing herself? Had she been doing that?

Cass’s brow creased, thinking of the long, hard patrols, wet and cold and miserable, and crashing into bed without a shower or her favorite sweatshirt. Of food half-eaten in her room, left to mold. Of untended wounds. Of short tempers and impulsive fistfights.

Oh.

But the question remained. Why?

She shook her head slowly, unsure, still reexamining what she had felt, what she had done. This was new still, new as words, new as hugs. What she felt hadn’t mattered before.

Oh.

“Bad,” Cass whispered, tears finally escaping her eyes to wet her cheeks.

It was the tiniest movement, but as loud to her as a gunshot. Bruce flinched.

“I…”

She was already shaking her head. Not that. Not the warehouse, though he had been right. She was a bad teammate.

“Left.” She abandoned words, tried to explain with her hands. You left. But I left. Left Gotham. Left the team.

He left and it hadn’t been his fault, and when he came back, he tried. He tried so hard, hard enough that they could all see it, to make things better. She didn’t. She didn’t know how.

“Time,” was the only answer he could give. Her face shifted, and his cracked into a wry smile in response. “I know. Time. And trying.”

Trying. “They don’t trust me.”

He couldn’t deny that, not when he knew what she saw. To her surprise, he didn’t try to deny it, just rolled one large shoulder as if brushing away an old ache. “Time,” he said again.

She sniffled. “What if never?”

“Never never.”

The dry playfulness of it was enough to startle a weak chuckle out of her. She closed her eyes as calloused thumbs swiped tears from her face, then nuzzled her cheek against his hand.

“Who are you?” he asked, Batman and Bruce both.

“Black Bat,” she answered without hesitation, but frowned when he shook his head.

“No.” He tapped a finger against her chest, against the soft warmth of her favorite hoodie. “Who are you?”

“Cass,” Cass said. “Cassandra.”

“Cassandra Wayne,” he agreed, weight leaning on the last name.

He had changed it within weeks of bringing her home. So much mess, so much to fix, and he had still brought her the papers and explained every line, what they meant for her now, what they would mean for her in the future. She had cried then, too, feeling the Cain erased.

“You are a part of this team, this family, always. Forever. No matter what names you wear or what rests here.” He tapped her chest again. “A good part. Necessary part.”

Bruce bent and pressed a kiss to her forehead, then ducked his head to rest his own forehead against the part he kissed and to make her look into his eyes, so she could see only truth. “Loved part. Understand?”

She gave a small nod, throat too tight to speak.

“No more hiding. No more running.”

No more leaving.

“Trust,” he murmured. “Trust me, until you learn to trust them. Trust them, and they will trust you.”

She didn’t believe it. But she believed him.

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Whumptober day 4 — Waking up disoriented, can’t pass out

Wind and Time have a bad... time. Ha ha. ahem. Poor Wind really isn’t used to icy temperatures huh.

Warnings: drowning, questionably accurate descriptions of hypothermia, a little bit of sort-of vomiting

Ao3 link

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“Sailor!” Time shouted, squinting around at the blinding snow. “Sailor can you hear me?”

Nothing but the sound of the wind slicing at his exposed skin.

Time frowned, then looked around at his surroundings, trying to decide which way to go. Those accursed portals had it out for them, he was sure of it now. He and Wind had merely been out getting some firewood when the ground had abruptly dropped out beneath them, dark magic sucking them in before either of them could even shout.

Time had been plunged headfirst into a drift of snow, but hadn’t seen any sign of the sailor yet, despite several long minutes of looking. If only he had Twilight with him. The rancher would be able to pick up Wind’s scent in no time—

An abruptly cut-off cry echoed through the valley.

Time snapped his head in the direction of the sound, then bolted, boots kicking up small explosions of thin, powdery snow. It had sounded like it’d come from one of the hills close by, and he prayed he wasn’t running the wrong direction as he sprinted through the field.

He crested the closest rise and was treated to the sight of a frozen pond below him, ice in a solid sheet covering it. All except for one spot in the middle where the ice had cracked and broken, dark water visible underneath.

Wind’s sword lay in the snow beside it.

Time felt his heart jump, and he bolted for the mostly frozen water, grabbing in his pouch for the particular item he’d need. Practically throwing his armor and shirt off, Time pulled his old blue tunic on and shoved the hat on his head before diving straight into the freezing water.

The effects of the temperature were lessened by the tunic’s magic, but it was still a shock to his system, and Time froze for a second while he acclimated to it.

Then he squinted through the murk, searching desperately for any sign of Wind.

It took him several agonizingly long moments before his eyes caught on a familiar flash of blue several feet down. Time stroked rapidly towards it, and felt a burst of relief as Wind shortly came into sight. He was only barely struggling in the water below, bubbles escaping his lips, and Time quickly snagged his arm before he began to drag him upwards.

But Wind somehow gained back a measure of strength when he was grabbed, and struck out at him, eyes blurred and panicked. Time ignored his weak thrashing and pulled him close anyways, swimming with quick strokes back up to the surface.

At some point while he swam Wind fell limp, and Time‘s heart lurched into his throat.

He surfaced with a frantic breath, and heaved Wind onto solid ground, scrambling out of the water after him. Time looked down at the boy lying in the snow in front of him, face pale and looking horribly horribly small, and gently shook him.

“Sailor, Sailor come on, wake up,” he urged, leaning down and pressing an ear to his chest.

Time’s own heart was beating loudly in his ears as he desperately tried to find a heartbeat, but between that and the wind, he couldn’t make anything out.

He began to thud on Wind’s chest, hoping desperately it would help get the water up. He had essentially no clue what to do with someone who’d nearly drowned, it had never been a problem for him on any of his adventures, and he didn’t come across large bodies of water terribly often in his day-to-day life.

All he could do was hope it would be enough.

Wind suddenly shuddered, and as Time froze, the sailor began to choke, water dribbling out of his mouth.

Time quickly turned him onto his side, relief weakening his knees as the sailor coughed up what seemed like an endless amount of water. Wind began to shake as he gagged, and Time rubbed his back, brushing his hair out of his face.

“Link, hey sailor, just breathe,” Time soothed as Wind vomited more water out onto the snow, shivering violently.

While he continued to cough, Time peeled off his damp Zora tunic and quickly shoved his dry clothes back on, peeling off Wind’s soaked tunic as well. He then bundled Wind into his relatively warm arms as he fished in his pack for a cloak he knew he had stashed inside. Now that the sailor was definitely breathing, the most pressing issue was getting him warm, and hopefully dry as well.

“T-T-Time?” Wind chattered out in a croaking voice interspersed with ragged coughs, “w-w-wh...at...”

“It’s okay sailor, you’re okay,” Time said, voice thick with relief. He finally located the cloak and bundled it around the boy in his arms, shielding him from the wind as best as he could. “Breathe. What do you remember?”

Wind took a moment to reply, still coughing a bit.

“P-p... portal...” he mumbled. “Threw m-m-me, onto th’ ice. C-c-couldn’t get, get off, ‘fore i-i-it broke...”

Time nodded, and picked up the armor he’d shed, placing it inside his pack as Wind finally finished coughing up water.

“C’n w-w-walk, myself,” Wind chattered out when Time started to pick him up, and the old man shook his head.

“You most certainly can not,” he rebuffed, “you nearly drowned and are much too cold. Stumbling about in the wind won’t help with that a bit.”

Wind let out a croaky sigh, and merely nodded.

He continued to shiver as Time hoisted him up, his head coming to rest on his shoulder as the older man tucked him more securely into his arms. He pressed his face into Time’s shirt, and his eyes began to slide closed despite his continued shivers.

“Hey, stay awake now,” Time chided, giving the sailor a small shake.

“T-Tired,” he murmured, and Time held him closer.

“I know sailor, but you have to stay awake, you’re too cold to sleep right now,” he said sternly, and Wind groaned.

“‘M sleepy.”

“You can sleep all you’d like once we get to some shelter and warm you up,” Time murmured, and Wind fell silent.

He shifted Wind to his back so he could make faster progress, as well as wield his sword if necessary, and set off through the whirling snow. There was a promising-looking line of cliffs off in the near distance, and Time set off towards them, Wind still weakly shivering.

He pulled the cloak a bit tighter over the freezing sailor, and squinted desperately through the wind for somewhere to hole up.

The gusts were biting at every bit of his exposed skin, flakes getting in his eyes and making it hard to see. The magic of the Zora tunic hadn’t left him very wet, but he was a little damp, and the wind was quickly leeching what warmth he had out of him. But as cold as he was, he knew Wind was much, much colder. Keeping him warm, and alive was the most pressing matter at the moment.

And suddenly he realized it had been several long minutes since Wind had said anything.

“Sailor.”

Wind didn’t reply.

Time felt his heart jump and he turned to look where Wind’s head rested on his shoulder.

His eyes were closed and he wasn’t moving.

“Sailor, wake up,” Time said, panic coloring his voice. Wind didn’t react, and Time stopped walking, quickly pulling him off his back and into his arms.

His face was pale and Time lightly smacked him on the cheek, but Wind still didn’t react, not even with a shiver.

He grabbed at his wrist, feeling desperately for a pulse, but Wind’s skin was too cold for him to make anything out. A crushing terror suddenly hit him, and Time gave Wind a panicked shake.

“LINK WAKE UP!”

Wind’s eyelids fluttered.

Time watched him, hands shaking from more than just the cold as Wind’s eyes barely opened, then slipped closed.

“Link, open your eyes right now,” Time said in a sharp voice, and Wind’s lids fluttered again.

He let out a tiny whimper, and Time quickly bundled him into his arms again, striding even faster through the snow.

“Stay awake Link, whatever you do stay awake,” Time said firmly, ignoring the way his voice cracked just a bit. They’d finally reached the cliffs, and with a burst of relief he saw what looked like the opening of a cave off in the distance.

“Can’t,” Wind whispered into his shoulder, and Time tucked his head under his chin.

“Yes you can sailor, I know you can. Stay awake, please,” Time said into his hair, and Wind shivered just a bit. “Nayru above, I am not losing you to this. You can do it Link. Just listen to my voice, we’re almost there.”

Wind replied with a small mumble, and Time continued to talk, regularly prompting the sailor to reply. He didn’t have to wake Wind up again, which he was immensely grateful for, but by the time he’d reached the cave, Wind’s replies were nothing more than barely-there whispers.

Time dropped to a knee once they were safely inside and away from the snow and wind, and immediately got to work building a fire. By some insane luck some of the firewood he’d collected before he’d fallen through the portal had ended up in his bag, and with a bit of Din’s Fire, they soon had warm flames to sit around.

Time took out all of the damp clothes and laid them on the floor to dry, then sat as close as he physically could to the fire, Wind tucked in his lap.

The sailor was still awake, but only barely, and Time began to rub his fingers, making sure warmth was spreading to all the digits. He was fairly confident Wind hadn’t received any frostbite, but he still needed to warm up more.

“Old man?” Wind eventually murmured from his lap, and Time immediately looked down at him.

“I’m here sailor. How’re you feeling?”

Wind’s eyebrows wrinkled. “Like I got p-punched, by... Legend’s ice r-rod.”

Time huffed in amusement and relief. Wind being aware enough to make jokes was a good sign.

“C’n I sleep now?” Wind pleaded in a raspy croak.

Time sighed, and tucked the cloak he had around them a bit further. “Not yet sailor, I’m sorry. Soon enough, you’re still too cold right now.”

Wind let out a small frustrated noise, and Time began to card a hand through his hair, his fingers wet from the ice melting in the sailor’s bangs. They were silent for several minutes, in which Time checked religiously that Wind wasn’t falling asleep. Time was actually starting to feel warm again himself when the sailor spoke.

“Thank you Time,” Wind whispered.

The older man felt the smallest of smiles pull at his stinging cheeks. “Don’t thank me yet. We still need to find the others and figure out where and when we are.“

Wind frowned a little. “‘Meant for saving m-m-me. In the water.”

Time’s smile fell, and he looked over at the fire. He staunchly ignored the reminder of his terror at dragging out Wind’s limp body from the icy pond, and the continued terrifying moments afterwards.

The sailor’s voice dropped to an uncertain whisper. “I r-r-really thought that was it.”

Wind shivered, then nuzzled into Time’s shoulder.

“So thank you. For t-th-that.”

Time closed his eye and nodded, swallowing as he rested his head on Wind’s.

“You’re welcome sailor.”

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