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maybe i WILL get to move back home
#the bin#i talked to my mom and things might go ok but idk#i just have to wait and see but i desperately hope i can move. i need to see a doctor so bad. my whole body feels horrible all the time#and my tooth has gotten so much worse. i can deal with it if thres an end date. i cant deal with it indefinitely. and i cant afford to get#it fixed without insurance. i would rather die than deal with this shit for another however long i have to i CAN NOT do that#esp bc i would need to go to work while experiencing it. idk. im shaky literally ALL the time and my insides alwyas hurt and my joints#hurt so much too. and half the time im at work my chest hurts and i cant see straight. i cant fuckin do this anymorew.#apparently my dad might be getting a new job so their landlord might be more willing to renew but idk. she said she should know on april 1st#which isnt that far away but idk. i mean. its not impossible theyll renew. who knows. i hope so.#i know at keast thst i have a way to get there if there is a place for me to live so thats good. my health cant take this anymore. and im#also not able to emotionally. idk what other option i have but. god. its hard enough as is. im having like a perpetual panic attack since i#found out i probs wont get to move. im tryna be optimistic. i dont think im physically capable of staying here any longer#it was hard enough to stay herenthis extra yearm ive been having breakdowns repeatedly over it. and my physical health keeps worsening#i miss my little sister. i wanna be able to see the people i care about. theres so few people in the world i enjoy being around and i dont#get to see them ever. instead i have to see my second least favorite person in the world in order to even just get groceries#hhhh. i want the time to pass so i can know for sure but i also desperately dont wnat it to cause im so scared itll be bad news#whatever. i will hope and believe that itll work out until i know that it wont. hhhhh. worst case scenario i guess ill just have to save up#and figure out moving there later on but like. i was really happy to NOT have to worry abt rent or working so i could focus on my health and#then i could go back that that stuff. oh well
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i can’t find any fics like this so what abt MC crying in front of the kings from stress? it could be from anything 🤷🏼♀️
Thanks for the request!Hope you enjoy!!
You broke down in front of a king the moment the war became too much for you. For stronger creatures like them a war is draining, but they have some sort of tolerance to it. To a human it's more than draining. You felt mentally, physically and emotionally weak. You wanted a break so bad so you could calm down and rest.
You felt tears stream down your face and started to sniffle quietly, but it wasn't quiet enough because the king turned around and watched you shrink on the spot. Worry was visible on his features.
Satan would be one of the best Kings to be with when you're crying. He hates seeing you cry and would do anything he can to make you calm down. He'll listen, he'll reassure you, he'll even make it possible for you to find a place where you can calm down if you need to.
"It'll be okay. Let's stay like this for a while and then we'll fix whatever is bothering you.", he'll say while he pats your head. Sitting next to you as he waits until you speak. "If this stress is too much for you remember that I would do anything to take away that stress"
Beelzebub doesn't understand why you're crying. He's the type that likes to live free so he doesn't know why you're breaking down in front of him. It didn't mean that he liked seeing you like that. He absolutely hated it.
"Let's run from this place. Maybe we'll find a spot where you can calm down.", he says as he pulls you into him.
He doesn't always know what to say in these situations, but he does know some quiet spots that could help with calming you down.
Leviathan would look at you for a second before asking: "What's wrong?"
He doesn't know why you were crying until he came to the conclusion that this was too much stress for you.
He would offer his coffin to cool down with him at your side. He would like to give you space and listen to what you have to say. He isn't necessarily the best at soothing people. He would try, but at times would just sit silently with you.
Mammon would pick you up and move you away to a quiet spot. He'd listen to what you have to say.
"Is there something master?", he asks as he watches you pant and try and calm down.
He waits patiently, even lowering to his knees to see you clearly.
He would sit you down on a chair and wait until you're ready to talk.
When you vent your problems to him he hugs you and says: "Your problems will be my problems. That's why I'm yours. Don't hold yourself back from crying ill wait until you're ready to leave."
He waits at your side after that holding you tightly to him.
#whb#what in hell is bad#what in “hell” is bad?#whb satan#whb beel#whb mammon#whb asks#whb leviathan
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Hey I hope ur doing great! Can I have a jungkook fluff or anything where they have done the deed for the last time before he enlists for military n they have some sweet yet an emotional convo n him suggesting he will marry her after he comes back n asks her to wait etc. Basically them getting teary eyed n also joking abt stuff like the adorable munchkins they are! N also its cold out there I hope u take care of urself hun n keep urself warm <3
AHHhhsfhhdsghs i went so ham on this ask bc i think i speak for all JUNGKOOKNATORS when i say my heart HURTSSSSSSSSS😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔 i've had a countdown set for his return home so ...... 537 days left ... :(( GOD i can just imagine this scenario so well like he's so emotionally aware and intelligent and so so romantic....... like defos the type for a random proposal bc he is just so in love with u in the moment nothing else matters...... TYSM FOR REQUESTING !!! i hope u enjoy <33
pairing: jungkook x reader
wc: 685
content warnings: ouchie heart pain, enlistment, jungkook AND yn cry, it's sad, fluff <3
“You’re sweaty…” you murmur into Jungkook’s chest, unwilling to let go despite how gross it feels. Jungkook pulls you closer, nuzzling his face into your hair with a chuckle. There’s a moment of silence as you trace a finger along his pec, breathing quietly into his chest while he presses gentle kisses into your hair.
“I don’t want you to leave,” it comes out quietly, and you feel Jungkook exhale deeply before acknowledging you with an equally quiet “I know.” You sigh, lifting your head up to meet his eyes as he readjusts his arm under his head to look down at you. His gaze is soft, the subtle lines of heartache taint his wrinkles and it’s impossible to look away.
“If I could stay, I would. You know that, baby,” he continues, eyes never leaving yours. You listen intently. He brings his free hand up to stroke your head gently, coaxing you to lay back on his chest while he speaks. “You’ll be good, though, I know you will.” He leans his head back; you feel him shift beneath you as his fingers stroke up and down your back. You remain silent, chewing your lip as your fingers lay still against his chest. “Baby?” He questions, hand gripping your waist.
You hadn’t even realised you were crying until a hitched breath leaves you and you bury yourself further into him. Jungkook holds you tighter, sitting up and pulling you with him until you’re halfway in his lap. Your head falls into his shoulder, sniffling. He kisses your head again.
“Baby, come on, talk to me…”
“You’re l-leaving me, f-for so long,” you choke out, sobbing into his shoulder and all Jungkook can do is hold you closer, stroke your hair and kiss your skin. Guilt clouds his thoughts, all he wants to do is stay with you and protect you, knowing that his leaving is causing you so much pain makes his heart hurt. You cry in his arms for so long, saying nothing, just holding him while he touches you sweetly.
When you finally lift your head up to look into his eyes, you see his are red with tears too. In your sadness, you had neglected his feelings and he had let you. You cup his face, leaning your forehead against his tenderly as your thumb wipes at the tears dribbling down his cheeks. There are no words that could tend to the Jungkook sized hole in your heart, nor the you sized hole in his. You connect your lips, and the worry seems to drift away when Jungkook kisses you back sweetly. There’s no tongue, just the movement of your lips and the salty combination of both your tears; it doesn’t bother you, though, you want Jungkook wholly, in every way you can, and if kissing away his tears is how you’ll get there then so be it.
“Marry me,” Jungkook groans softly against your lips, breaking the silence as he tries to pull you impossibly closer. It should catch you off guard, but instead you kiss him deeper, nodding gently.
“I’m serious, y/n, marry me,” he pleads, pulling back finally with bated breaths. “Wait for me, be patient and wait and I’ll come back with a ring and marry you, I swear it.”
“Jungkook,” your eyes soften, tears threatening to spill once again as you heed his plea, “I’d wait forever.”
The smile on his face sends you reeling, all toothy and sweet and delicate and all for you. He takes your hand, interlacing your fingers as his thumb strokes softly over your knuckles, diving back into your lips with all the fervour of a man starved.
“I love you so much, you know that?” He assures you, gripping your hand tighter in an unspoken promise, “I’ll be back so soon, my precious girl… And you’ll be right here, yeah? Waiting for me, being patient?”
“Always, I’ll always be here, never gonna leave…”
His free hand slides up your face, touching you so delicately. His thumb traces your cheek gently. Eighteen months to go.
a/n 🗒️ . . . this was so fun to write !!!! i defos want to work on more asks in the future cos making ur ideas come to life (hopefully) makes me feel so good ...... i hope u guys enjoyed this !!!! don't hesitate to send more requests :3 i love writing fluff as well !!!!!!
#koob asks#i am so sad about him leaving me srsly#the next 18 months i will be counting down the days#jungkook fluff#jungkook#jungkook x yn#jungkook x reader#jungkook soft hours
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phil and cellbit hcs?
VESPER YOUR MIND...
qPhil headcanons masterlist
When Phil needs answers on something, he goes straight to Cellbit (at least pre-Purgatory, he's switched to Bagi over the months bc they've gotten much closer).
Another reason he's so pissed abt the reset is bc the Feds took them the fuck away from The Order, which had all of Cellbit's tools for figuring out the weird new shit they encounter on QI
ANOTHER reason Phil hates the reset is bc there's not much weird shit going on over here? It's just?? Capitalism?? There's nothing to take pictures of for Cellbit. And he really misses dropping an entire goldmine of new pictures for theorizing on Cellbit and watching how excited he gets about it :(
See, Phil and Cellbit were close prior to Purgatory; look at the Order, Phil picking his domain (idr their formal names), etc. But Purgatory did.. something. I mean, it did something to all of Bolas, but something extra to these two's friendship. The leader role, the way Cellbit fell into a sort-of second in command & substitute when Phil wasn't around, Phil (was meant to be) rescuing Cellbit & Baghs. It was teamwork and brothers in arms shit to a degree they'd previously not reached. It's permanently intensified their bond and trust in each other. Which I can't wait to see unfold if Cellbit keeps getting worse. >:D
It's a 50/50 if Phil is concerned about Cellbit's (re)rising murderous tendencies and potentially "resurfacing" cannibal habits or if he's just like "Haha, friend is stabby, lookit him go. :)"
I have a hot take. Roier to Etoiles in Purgatory is Cellbit to Phil. Loyal attack dog more than happy to create bloodshed for their equally scary leader. The authority aspect has kinda gone away post-Purgatory but Cellbit will still kill a man if Phil says do it. Phil wouldn't ask that of him if he didn't have a good reason.
Phil is super awed and inspired by Cellbit's building skills. Idiot will be like "damn, wish I could build like that" as if he can't. Bitch you just refuse to!!! (I want these two to build something big and sick together so bad)
I don't know how things would've played out if Cellbit was present for EK possession things but I know it would've been fucked up and intense. And I can't explore it in AMFMN because Cellbit & Baghera are still missing in it. 😔
That said, Cellbit gets told Phil was possessed by some old piece of shit he used to know and is immediately like "Phil I will fight god for you, I don't give a FUCK"
Phil absolutely loves watching Richas take on more and more of Cellbit's unhinged traits. He's a bit worried he's gonna become a little ball of murder too, but Richas has like half the fucking island as parents, he'll be fiiiiiine.
I don't remember if qPhil knows about the Purgatory 2 murder spree stuff but I like to think he doesn't yet because boy would his reaction be spicy :) If he does know and I've forgotten, he 100% didn't entirely process just How fucked it was.
As close as they've become and as,, kinda chill? Phil has been about the whole murder thing?? He's still deeply worried about Cellbit in other ways post-Purgatory. Dude's seemed withdrawn, he can't remember the last time he saw him with Roier, and just overall things have been different to a degree Phil is sure isn't normal or a slow bounce-back period. But every time he has a free moment to check in, Cellbit's never around.
Actually, as Cellbit gets worse, I think Phil will go from chill with how things have been worsening to Oh Fuck because he's gonna see a lot of his Antarctic self in him. It's not like Phil isn't proud of that era or anything, but. Mentally and emotionally? Being cold and merciless like that takes a toll. One Cellbit shouldn't subject himself to.
Phil cannot for the life of him Not laugh whenever Pac brings up the whole. Leg eating thing. Pac is so out of pocket about it nowadays bc it happened so long ago and Phil gets whiplash from the casual jokes every time. I think if Cellbit made jokes about it Phil would keel over.
Just out of spite and for the sake of clarity: Phil is not Cellbit's fucking parental figure. Cellbit is not his son. They are grown ass men. They are friends. Colleagues. Confidants if we wanna stretch things a bit. There is nothing familial about their bond.
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How abt general headcanons of Tweek and Craig having another bf(like poly🤝) and what they would do on the daily etc etc 👍and said Bf/reader is very crafty and often makes them stuff like necklaces,Hats, and more
creek x reader; general headcanons
I actually can't express how happy I am to write this, tweek and craig my Skrunklies
gender: masculine
warnings: talk about anxiety
☆-day to day life with craig and tweek:
hang out with them is a daily routine, really
days, where you don't go to one of your houses, are very rare
both aren't very big on affection
except for physical
always holding hands, always hugging, always having an arm slung one another, physical affection is their way of showing they appreciate you
you always pair up in group works- most teachers allow you to do a group of 3, since the class isn't even anyways
on the rare occasion that you can't do a group of 3, you mourn over it, like you guys are never seeing each other again
if any of you 3 get sick, the other 2 will come and nurse them back to health
you guys always find a way to listen to music together
and awkwardly sing along to it
the whole class hates you guys for doing that
movie/series marathons every month
sleepovers are normally at craig's house
tweek's house is a taboo ( last time you were there, craig nearly attacked tweeks parents)
also they love your little handmade gifts
tweek displays them openly (not that you can see them, like I said, tweeks house is a taboo)
craig, while trying to act all cool and not completely touched by it, has a box filled with all the stuff you made him, that has hearts drawn all over it
both aren't necessarily people that try to payback with anything big
occasional dates planned by both of them (filled with tweek worrying, it's not good enough for you) or a bouquet of flowers, they split the bill for
as father nr.3 you get stripe every third week (1. craig 2. tweek 3. you)
once you built stripe the cutest guinea pig cage and your boyfriends officially gave you the title, of the person that keeps the house in order ( malewife reader? 🤨 /j)
craigs family loves you btw
I like to imagine that craig and tweek balance out perfectly, when it comes to helping you with stuff
tweek is more understanding, more emotionally connected and craig is the more logical one, that gives great advice
definitely a chaotic relationship, but both love you genuinely and are big cutie patooties
me rambling about being a silly little gay guy
#south park#south park x reader#tweek tweak#craig tucker#creek#creek south park#tweek x craig#tweek x reader#craig x reader#x reader#male reader#fanfiction#fanfic
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bruh every single time u mention about bruce and dick it has me going “man id be worried abt them if they were real cause thats so unhealthy like they fight each other but they cant stand to be separated damn but good thing this all r fiction lmao”
I burst out laughing when I read this cause it's true!
Forever Evil Issue #5
The world is literally half gone. Things are so bad that villains have banded together to fight evil and Bruce is here saying that the world can die if it means saving Dick.
Not a single care if the world is blown up or millions lose their lives if it means keeping Dick alive.
But right after this,
Nightwing (2011) Issue #30
He punches fights Dick while telling him he loves him!!
What do you do with with this man?!
"I trained you to live, and I watched you die!"
Bruce, don't you think the person who actually died has more truama than you watching them?!
But, no, of course not because this is Bruce.
Nightwing (2011) Issue #30
Spyral is an organization that even Bruce didn't know about. Something even more mysterious than the Court of Owls.
Nightwing (2011) Issue #30
He's literally beating Dick while simultaneously telling him how he's the best in the world.
But here's the kicker - Bruce is furious that Dick was taken away from him, hence the beating.
All this fighting, he's mad that Dick lost his life. How dare he lose something that's in Bruce's control.
And that's where the problem comes. Bruce wants 100% control over Dick. Over his actions, over his life, over his death. The level of control he wants over Dick - insane.
They are so emotionally attached and that's unhealthy but it's also really addicting to watch! Because Bruce just wants complete control over Dick while Dick wants to be on his own, independently but Bruce refuses to let Dick have that and they both know it which is why they devolve into arguments.
Right after Dick recovered from have his life brutally controlled by the Joker, literally right after, Bruce goes full throttle on manipulating Dick to come back into his side.
Nightwing (2016) Issue #75
All Dick wants is a small break so he can collect himself. He hasn't even changed out of his costume yet because the Joker mind controlled him with a memory crystal that rewrote his entire memory as if the Joker was the one who saved Dick after his parents died. That's insane.
But Bruce immediately does this-
Nightwing (2016) Issue #75
HE MANIPULATED DICK TO GET HIM BACK. But when that doesn't work, when Dick still wants a break from Nightwing, Bruce pulls out his final card - his ace.
Nightwing (2016) Issue #75
He guilt trips him with Alfred's death, with Dick's other father's death to tell him that his dead dad wouldn't want Dick to live this way.
And that is how Dick becomes Nightwing again.
I used to think that Bruce used to hurt Dick emotionally by pretending to abstain from loving him but the problem really is that Bruce loves Dick too much to let him go. He cripples Dick's freedom because he wants Dick to always stay with him rather than letting him go and be free. And that's equally toxic on the other extreme of the spectrum.
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i saw someone on twitter calling zoro an asshole for the way he acted in zou regarding sanji's situation and i know its very old discourse but i Have to defend my beautiful princess with trust issues so let me articulate my thoughts properly.
i think zoro acted in a very zoro way when he heard once again another crew member was trying to leave; zoro is very straight to the point and emotionally dumb, he's not luffy - whom can read other people by just looking at their face - and thats his weak point.
while watching zou i was also annoyed w him at first until luffy called him out for worrying for sanji (and pretending that he didnt), then i finally understood what was going on.
like i said, this isnt the first time someone tried to leave the crew for unknown reasons. when it was robin's turn zoro acted in a similar way, and sure u could argue that at the time he was still wary of her, but back in arlong park i also think he wouldnt bother going after nami if it wasnt to retrieve the going merry, (and the rest of the guys trying to understand why she left).
if someone wants to leave, fine, he wouldnt try to stop them, even if he was hurt by it. its just how he works, hes not the type to understand between the lines, he doesnt think too much abt that type of stuff.
nami's 'betrayal' and sanji's departure are very close parallels in zoro's perspective.
sanji and zoro DO trust each other, specially regarding the crew's safety, theyve vouched for each other multiple times before (but only when the other wasnt looking lmfao). he was 100% sure the twirly hat pirates would be safe as long as sanji was with them, only for the rest of the strawhats to arrive at zou and find out sanji LEFT? sure, the rest were okay and unharmed, but he just left? to get MARRIED?
even if by now he learned that sometimes people have secret reasons for doing such things, sanji's excuse was still that plain and simple explanation, so what else was he supposed to think?
so thats why i think zoro's tryhard nonchalance at zou comes from a place of hurt, betrayal and confusion, like it happened with nami so long ago. but he's still zoro and he won't outright say anything about it, he's just gonna raise his defence mechanisms and insult sanji until he runs out of curses, just like he did with nami and robin.
but in a much more insensitive way considering his intense relationship with sanji. basically he'd rather die than show that type of worry SPECIALLY IF its about the idiot cook.
sure, he was an asshole, but i do think his reaction was fair and expected of him.
#also i think its fair to assume he understood it was smth much more serious than just running away w a girl#considering that he overheard nami luffy and nekomamushi talking#AND considering that when they reunite in wano theres not a single mention of what happened back then#if he didnt actually run away to get married and fullfiled his promise of coming back thats all zoro needs to know#they just go right back to bickering bc thats just how they work and thats cool w them#one piece#rambling#one piece rambling#zoro#sanji#zosan#ig this could be zosan..
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"before Forever, before the island. Who was he and why is Etoiles so interested???"
oh my god ow the fucking shot through the chest this was omgggggggg not only asking about what happened from the source (phil) but who he was before- when he had an isolated identity AAAAAAAAAA THEMMMMM ETOILES THE FUCKING GOAT AS PER USUAL NOTHING LESS TO BE EXPECTED OMGGGG also the idea of him being his best friend in this au is so like emotional to me- to have phil be put through so much pain all the time at all angles, emotionally and physically to have at least Someone just One person to turn to who sees past the servers lies and rumors omg the agony this is amazing they're my roman empire too I literally brainrot abt them all the time
The song Milk by Jack Stauber is pretty much exactly what they have
The song is technically about death, thinking of a dead person you didn't know but I feel like it works so well because a part of Phil is dead. The part of him that really matters to Etoiles
Etoiles doesn't care about what Forever forced Phil to be. He cares that somewhere, there's a person who used to have friends and a family and a nice little house that he made with his own hands
What kind of life did you live through? Did you know love? Will you rest in peace? Did you have a family?
Who was Phil before Forever changed him?
That's all Etoiles cares about.
It's okay that Phil can't fight things! He used to!! He used to fight and laugh and help people, he used to explore and build and discover!! That's who he really is. Etoiles can see that, even when nobody else can
He even manages to get some of that back. Phil, finally, has a way to get back a part of himself that he lost through Etoiles. He can laugh and explore and make things again and he doesn't have to worry about what Forever will think because he's not here!! He's not here and Etoiles would risk everything for Phil because they're FRIENDS!!
Phil can't hold a weapon anymore but he can hold Pomme and tell her grand stories about the man he used to be, the empire he built, the world he created for himself, his friends and his family. He can hold Etoiles' daughter and tell her how to build things, how to properly shoot a bow and arrow or how she should always avoid ravines!
Etoiles sees this man for the first time and goes "I want to know you" and when he's told what happened through other people's perspectives he says "NO. Nonono I want to know YOU." and he ASKS and he CARES!!! He hears the rumors and says "There has to be more to Phil than Forever."
Cellbit pulls him aside to explain everything properly and Etoiles turns away and says he doesn't believe in secondary research and he's going straight to the source, thank you!! If this is not an invitation to kill Forever for what he did to Phil HE DOES NOT WANT TO KNOW!!
Etoiles knows that somewhere, in another world, where none of this happened, they're best friends. They're besties and they play fight and do dungeons together because that's what they like to do.
Etoiles will settle knowing it could have been.
#FML would be fixed if etoiles and phil got married#qsmp#qsmp philza#qsmp etoiles#qsmp codebreakers#they are everything to me#id kill and die for these boys do you hear me#forever my love au
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That part where grusha held the baby had me wondering; what if HE WAS A PARENT?? How would it go? How’s his parenting? I’ve got soooo many questions abt this 😭😭
OOOOOO I LOOOVED THIS ASK. I went a little crazy with it heh. The whole time I was imagining Grusha as a PTA parent. I know he takes that shit SO serious.
Grusha As A Dad
- As awkward as he is with other people’s kids, Grusha is much more natural with his own child. Before they come into his life, whether it's through adoption, surrogacy, or you, he takes time to prepare himself for fatherhood as much as humanly possible. There is no way to be completely prepared to raise a child. Things like that rarely go by the book, but that doesn’t mean he won’t try everything to be the best he can be. You frequently catch him asleep on the couch, a half-read parenting book in his lap.
- When the day finally comes for him to meet his little one, he can’t help how his hands tremble. Gently, as if they’re made of glass, he cradles them against his chest and breathes a small sigh of relief as they gurgle and curl further into his hold. While it may seem silly, Grusha has an irrational fear that they would be disappointed that he was their father. As if an infant would look him in the eyes and voice complaints that a failure of a snowboarder and Gym Leader has become their father.
- Grusha would prefer to be a stay-at-home father. He can be a bit of a helicopter parent, though it is nice that he’s taken such an active role in parenting. You never worried that Grusha would leave you as the sole, sleep-deprived provider. He’s not that kind of man. However, you’re sure you would be the envy of every disgruntled wife on daytime television. A part of you is a little jealous. You have a daddy’s girl/boy in the making. A bigger part of you feels your heart swell knowing your baby will grow up with enough love to power all of Paldea.
- When they finally say their first word, it’s your title instead of papa like Grusha was silently hoping for. He gets a little butthurt about it. His pouting is as cute as his disgruntled whine while you tease him about it.
- He’s a tad competitive with other parents regarding his kid’s milestones. Oh, your baby just started talking? His child was doing that weeks ago! He becomes a bit of a menace on social media. 75% of his posts are humble brags about how awesome his kid is, 20% are pictures of you, and the final 5% revolve around his Gym.
- When your kid is old enough to go to school, he spends most of the first day moping around the house. Without his little buddy around, he isn’t sure what to do with himself. He’s spent the past few years watching cartoons, playing with blocks, and engaging a very imaginative toddler in pretend games. What’s he supposed to do now? It doesn’t take him long to get back into the groove of things, especially with your support. For however much you worry about your kid at school, Grusha is somehow worrying ten times worse. As they grow older, Grusha bonds with them by teaching them how to style and take care of their hair before school. It doesn’t matter what gender your kid is, either way, they love their dad’s long hair. In their younger years, they are happy to emulate him. Their first haircut in their teens is going to shatter Grusha just a bit, though he’s tearfully supportive.
- If his kid expresses interest in snowboarding, he’s conflicted. Logically, he wants to support them however he can, and he can’t help but feel a small surge of joy at the thought. He remembers the thrill well. Emotionally, he wants to keep them far, far away from the sport. In the end, his fear wins out, and he forbids them from it. This results in their first big fight, leaving you to pick up the pieces. You tell your kid that he’s not angry at them, he’s scared. You’ll talk to him. Then, you find Grusha and tell him that he’s being an idiot. He can’t stop them. You both were that age, you know good and well if it’s something they want to do, they’re going to do it. Wouldn’t it be better to be sure they're safe about it? Grusha will argue that all the training in the world won’t save them from being unlucky. You say maybe so, but what would he do if, in an act of rebellion, they sneak up the mountain with his old board, completely untrained? He caves after that.
- Grusha can’t be their snowboarding coach. He knows himself well enough that he would end up worrying himself into an early grave. He can, however, coach them in battling if that’s something they want to do. If there ever comes a day when they take on the Gym Challenge, and they find themself at his Gym, he won’t hold back. No favoritism here. If anything, he’s going harder than he would his other opponents. When they defeat him, he couldn’t be prouder.
#pokemon x reader#pokemon imagines#pokemon headcanons#gym leader grusha x reader#reader is his spouse. obvs#both reader and his child are gender neutral!#grusha x reader#i misspelled it and didnt want to delete the other tags lol
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star beast thoughts
Deeply enjoyed it. I've been worried that I only liked original RTD because it was my first Doctor Who, and now that I'm an adult with critical thinking skills, I won't enjoy his stuff half as much. It might just be the return of Ten and Donna, but everything came rushing back.
lots of very funny moments that made me laugh out loud
Not sure how I feel about the opening credits, but I love the theme music
love shirley, p sure she's a recurring character now, very happy for that. Her dynamic with the Doctor was immediately Great.
i like the quiet acknowledgement that sylvia and wilf are fucking Traumatised and have been terrified every time aliens happen for 15 years
Shaun seems very nice! Love the reference to Nerys too, Nerys was great, I love her frenemies thing with Donna.
I gotta apologise for misgendering the Meep for years. Beep the Meep's pronouns are the/Meep, thank u rose.
the scene abt wilf landed Oddly though considering bernard cribbins Is dead now. idk reshooting it might have been difficult but it left a bad taste when they're going "lol he's not dead why would you think that dumbass"
Love Donna's family. Love the scene of Sylvia trying to be Supportive of her trans granddaughter while Struggling bc yeah she's trying but she's not perfect. Love that Sylvia in general is still abrasive but no longer straight up emotionally abusive (which I think was true of The End of Time too, but she's in this one a lot more)
Not sure why they bothered to include Fudge since he didn't do anything?? it felt like fanservice but like…. they aged him down and took out his mum, who was one of the funniest characters in the comic, so what's the point of keeping him?? Would have liked to see him interact with Rose more.
I did like that they went to an effort to make the wrarth warriors actually sympathetic in this one though, pointing out they use painless stun guns, rather than "oh well they're policemen so they're automatically Good" and also not having them plant a bomb in the doctor's stomach. That was fucked up.
The stuff leading up to Donna fully remembering was Very Good. Her mentioning giving away the money feels like something He would do and everyone just being silent because they Can't Bring It Up etc. I liked that a lot.
I liked Rose being explicitly transfemme but I feel they should have actually set up her being non binary earlier???? as it is it feels kind of like it's saying trans automatically equals non binary??? I do love that she saved the world by being trans though.
The metacrisis going into Rose worked really well too, good resolution to All That. I am less sure about "well we can just Let The Power Go, obviously you never thought of that because you're a man"
New TARDIS console is Perfect i love her sm
Also love Donna lampshading "going inside Just To Look means an adventure will accidentally happen"
Love the coffee thing also. Oh No an adventure is accidentally going to happen
doctordonna <3
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Imagine this... Movie 6, Baron Omatsuri. If you haven't watched it yet and is into physiological horror genre, body horror, angsts then I totally recommend it.
TRIGGER WARNING : ANGST, PHYSIOLOGICAL HORROR THINGS...
WARNING : SPOILERS ALSO!!!
But like... Imagine... Determination!Reader in there and witnessing how their friends, crew is drifting apart, being suspicious of each other, even hating eachother, hurt eachother one by one and then blaming everything bad happened to their captain.
Nami slapping Ussopp with genuine anger, not even standing NEAR him, Sanji not letting Zoro eat and even said "you can go hungry", and the crew was eaten by the weird soul sucking flowers and Luffy witnessing it, Luffy being stabbed with MULTIPLE AND I MEAN THOUSANDS, MILLIONS OF ARROWS AND WITH A FACE OD DESPAIR BECAUSE HIS CREW IS GONE, DEAD, HATING EACHOTHER AND STILL WALKING BUT DEPRESSION AND TRYING TO REACH HIS NAKAMA.
and then in the end, everything went normal but only Luffy and Determination!reader are the only ones that remember that traumatic shit they just went through and not telling anyone because they don't want to worry them or anything. Reader and Luffy would Def talk abt it in private and reassure and comfort eachother with a warm hug and tears from Luffy.
*cries in hot red tears*
- 🛎️ Anon :'0
I actually haven’t seen Thai films but I’ve definitely seen clips of it and it looks awesome.
I imagine in the scenario of the crew beginning to hate each other y/n would kinda shut down emotionally. Like, there are the people they’ve finally let themself call family and now their hating each other, and it’s not something y/n has really seen before so it’s hard for them to handle. Like y/n’s come back to people now hating one another but they’ve never seen it first hand. They didn’t see buggy’s and Shanks’s fight, didn’t see kindness turns to hate, they just came back to it.
Y/n remembering the experience with Luffy would be something the two hold to their graves (if y/n could die In the first place lol). It’s never openly talked about, they both just kinda have quiet moments though where they both just silently hold each others hands while looking off to the waves. Never uttering a word as either sobs, never making mention why they both dislike flowers, never casting their eyes on blood moons
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uuuugh i keep procrastinating cuz i wanna make new refs n' arts n' all for us all but art slow so fuggit placeholder pinned abt the system
better pinned with comm details, other accs, etc later :3
will reopen for commissions once arty verifies me!
as a whole we're legally deaf and disabled! we can all draw but have diff styles/preferences :3 body is 30 (eugh i don't like admitting that) so am adult BUT we don't wanna be involved in nsfw art so pls respect that⭐
We can't get a formal diagnosis due to various real life issues, so we're not going to claim any particular diagnosis, but we can't exactly ignore the symptoms and stay masked forever. We're going to stay out of syscourse as much as possible, of course. 🌙
each alter has an assigned emoji so ppl can tell us apart easier if needed, use em as our tags too (when we remember)
note- using they/them for any of us fine too!⭐
(doesn't include alters that rarely or never front)
⭐star emoji = Blue! she/her pls~ guess i'm the honorary host cuz i front most. uhhh... nothing rly too fancy i can say abt myself, i'm p affectionate and love y2k art and hanging out, i try to be as nice as i can >w<
my art's usually sketchbooky, with thin lines and soft colors/shading!
💠this blue gem/flower emoji is Azure! she/her, she's kinda new to the system. looks n' acts a lot like me but uh... more childish i guess? very silly, very 'cringe culture is dead'. loves to rp, say silly things, n' cling to people. hyperfixates on Dot Hack (RIP)
her art looks like mspaint x3
🌙 (Writing for myself since I'm available.) The name's Lune, hence moon emoji, and I use she/her pronouns as well. Formerly "Starry" but people kept confusing me with Blue due to her star symbolism. Used to be the designated mask, I'm glad I don't have to do that anymore... Sometimes I re-mask out of habit so if something sounds like me but wasn't marked as an alter, it probably is me.
I have a flat tone and chronic paranoid anxiety so uh... Let me know if I come across as rude, I usually don't mean to. I enjoy doing research and organizing information, so I'm often the one to fact-check things or find guides and how-to's for the system.
My art's very bold and colorful, and friends describe it as 'angular'. Clashes with my personality, huh?
🗝️key emoji = Sylverwynd! he uses he/him! he's super laid back and chill, i've never seen him upset or anything, but he's rly long-winded talks... kinda poet-y? he loves reading and talking abt lore and myths so he'll pop in if ur talking abt something he likes or if he has trivia 2 share! fave genres r horror n' fantasy
he's still experimenting w/ style but likes drawing rly soft
❌cross emoji= Laceburner! it/its or they/them pronouns! tbh i'm not used to it/its pronouns but Lace wanted em; it's very uh... emotionally empty i guess? aroace, agender, can't socialize or empathize v well. it usually fronts when the rest of us are tired or in pain cuz it just ignores all that. likes 2000's scenemo aesthetics though which is surprising but ye
idk how to describe its style, but it's trying to mimic emo art n' likes bright colored lines with dark bg/colors
🗡️the dagger is Kal! he/him pronouns, he gets angry and stressed abt things really easy but he gets too hostile abt it so he tries to not front too much; need to find him a way to de-stress n' chill out... when he's not mad at smth he's a good sympathetic listener imo, still swears and talks all rough tho
hasn't drawn much yet but does rly harsh lines and fast/messy sketches when he does (and gets riled up by mistakes =w=;)
❤️heart is Weiss! genderfluid, goes by any pronouns, usually uses whatever they like at the time x3 has a hard time fronting but tries to. flirty, loves dumb jokes, overly confident... (we worry they'd get us in trouble sometimes cuz the shit they want to say) loves demon and monster-related stuff!
still experimental style but uses bold colors and thick rough lines a lot, may get suggestive (forbidden from outright nsfw, don't ask >:c)
btw ur always welcome to direct asks @ someone specific >w< we just might take a while to respond
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A driver placing 12th over 14th in a single race can mean millions of dollars difference to smaller teams like Williams. I think its worth it
to be clear here i am relatively new to f1 and also still in the emotional react zone lol. ALSO ALL OF THIS IS SAID WITH LOVE! i do really like both of them so much
first off why didn’t they have a spare chassis. is that normal. that feels… dumb. i’ve never worked in logistics but that feels Really Really dumb.
SECOND OFF I JUST REMEMBERED TEAM TORQUE. OH THE VIBES ARE GONNA BE HORRENDOUS
anyways. this is gonna sound stupid of me but i kind of forgot how it works in terms of tie breakers so i wasn’t… super thinking abt non-points positions (AGAIN! thinking emotionally!!)
this is long and rambling. please don’t destroy me for not knowing what i’m talking about bc i really really don’t. also i don’t necessarily have a conclusion of “is it worth it or not” i am just . side eyeing. very unsure about whether it will be or not in the end. it kinda boils down to “i think this is complicated math bc trying to quantify some of the effects of this is literally impossible and im worried about those unquantifiable effects”
my thinking here is kind of. is 12th instead of 14th worth it if it means you’ve wildly undermined a driver’s … idk trust? confidence in the team? and i don’t mean this in a vague “think abt the emotional impact!” way i mean this as. how is this going to affect how the rest of the season goes?
i mean, even just this race lol. birthday curse aside, alex has just got a whole lot more pressure on him, on a course he’s got a not-fantastic history with, as far as i can tell. it’s his job to handle pressure, obviously, but it’s certainly an… interesting position to put someone in
in terms of the rest of the season… for me mentality was/is such a massive part of success in sports. i deeply dislike the “didn’t want it enough” narratives in other sports (whole other story) but. you do have to believe in yourself. and if thats true for a sport where you’re running around in circles, or where you’re kicking a ball around, i imagine it’s doubly so for driving around tight corners at nearly 300kph or whatever. it’s not williams’/james vowles’ job, i guess, to foster an environment where that self-belief is maintained or built, but in that case, what was the point of all that talk?
you spend all this time being like we have confidence in you and your improvement, and then bam. i would be desolate lol. like circling back to 12th vs 14th… idk a part of me is like. if we could quantify the impacts of this on logan over the season, what if that bit of confidence is the difference between 15th and 17th. but like, in every race. obviously we don’t know how this season would go without this happening so this is like wild speculation. and i am PRAYING for spite to kick in and become a massive motivator here. like i get that williams isn’t responsible for logan’s headspace but. they do want to maximize their drivers’ performance, right? i personally am unsure that this is the way to do that
tldr a) why no spare chassis. that fuckin spreadsheet bruh. b) why talk all that talk to do this. like i can follow the logic of the decision! i really and truly can (especially remembering how non-points positions matter. whoops) but i don’t respect the going from oh we have full confidence to a blatant demonstration that they… don’t. c) i am sad
#ask#like i get it on a pure short term placement level. i am just. sad and worried abt the future :(#hence why i posted ‘i know im not being normal rn’#williams moment#aus24
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i think this is my first ask ever, and it’s a little random and quite a bit ranty but anyways!
i wanna thank u for ur blog and yt channel, and just overall presence in the byler community! your rambles, art, and just content in general provide a lot of comfort to me and i am so grateful for u! u are such a vibe. i chose to give u my first ask bc ur my fave blog here <3
now abt byler in general. it will always be my otp bc i’m really emotionally invested in those two lil boys and their beautiful story.
and personally, it also appeals to me bc i have a crush my best friend (she’s a girl and so am i), and was so afraid of hurting or losing them. anyways, yesterday i finally confessed to them through a letter, and when i gave it to them i told them to only read it when they got home.
and now i’m going thru a difficult time bc it’s the weekend, and they definitely have read it and haven’t responded. it’s not like me to be brave like this, and i’m so worried abt what they’ll say (100% sure they don’t like me back in that way). i’ll see them on monday at school and then go on school camp with them and then sleep in the same tent with them for three nights??? i hope i don’t die.
so seeing your newest yt upload made my day better! helped me take my mind off it for a bit, so thank u for being u!
much love <333
okay its been 4 months since this was in my ask box, but i really hope everything worked out okay in the end!! unrequited love is absolutely terrible & im 99% sure i'm going through the same thing right now but just keep your head up & things will be okay!!
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Could you do one where matt confesses to the reader (his best friend) but the reader is scared of starting a relationship since the fans yk (react harshly). I’d love to see how you write out the confession, then fluff afterwards
Ilysm take ur timee<3
i don't think you understand how badly i've wanted to write abt this ♡
I'm scrolling through our texts, and I'm beginning to notice a pattern. You've been a bit… flirtatious with me recently, and I'm not sure if it's intentional or not. I don't mind it at all, since I do admit I have a crush on you, but I also wonder if you feel the same. We've been best friends for a while now, so a part of me thinks that this could just be the natural consequence of you becoming more comfortable with me. Either way, I think it might be best if we have a conversation about it, just so that we're on the same page.
Can you come over? I want to talk to you I text you.
Within the hour, you are at my door. I welcome you inside with a hug, as always; but this one feels different. You squeeze me just a tiny bit closer this time, and you linger on me for just a fraction of a second longer. When we come apart, I look into your eyes, and I can see something inside of you that is desperately yearning to be released.
"What is it?" I ask you quietly.
"You called me here," you answer, your lips curving upward into a soft smile.
"I know," I nod slowly. "I've been… thinking."
"About what?" you ask me, your face still mere inches away from mine.
"About our texts," I say.
"What about them?"
I take you by your hand. "Here, come sit with me," I tell you, leading you to my couch so that we can sit down together and talk. I take out my phone, and I show you the texts and snaps you've sent me that made my heart flutter. "Do you remember sending me these?"
"Mhm," you nod with a cheeky smile.
"Are you… flirting with me?" I ask you gently. I don't want to embarrass you, but I also very sincerely want to know the answer.
The faintest hint of pink rises in your cheeks. "I… I'm sorry, does it make you uncomfortable?" you ask me, a slightly worried look in your eyes.
"Not at all," I shake my head. "You can tell me anything."
"Anything?" you repeat, leaning closer to me.
"Yeah," I whisper, gazing at your lips. I would be lying if I said that I haven't often wondered what it would be like to kiss you.
You tenderly hold my hand with yours, then you lock eyes with me once more. "What if I told you that I love you?" you confess.
"I love you, too," I breathe, faster than I can process the words coming out of my mouth.
You delicately kiss my knuckles. "Will you be my girlfriend?" you ask me.
I can feel tears welling up in my eyes, and my throat is starting to swell with a sob. This is everything that I ever hoped for. But, in the back of my mind, there has always been a little voice warning me against acting upon my feelings for you. I know how your fans are, how jealous they get, and how petty and vitriolic they can be against any other girl who gains even a token of your attention. It's why I haven't been able to be seen with you in public for all this time, despite us being best friends. I don't know if I could emotionally handle keeping our relationship a secret. "I can't," I utter.
"Why not?" you plead, a profound anguish leaking through your eyes.
I sniff, wiping away my tears with my other hand. "What will your fans think?"
"Who cares what they think?" you tell me, a tinge of righteous bitterness in your voice. "I love you, and… I'm tired of acting like I only wanna be friends with you."
I cup your face in my hand, lightly stroking your beautiful cheek with my thumb. "So am I," I agree.
"Then let's be together," you say earnestly, inching your face closer to mine.
I look at you, and I see everything that I could ever want in another person. You are extremely kind, amazingly gentle, sincerely caring, wonderfully imaginative, playfully silly, and so many other things that I value in a partner. And oh, my God, I have been keeping these feelings suppressed in me for far too long. They are aching to be expressed.
Perhaps I've been worried about the wrong people. I've been worried about your fans' happiness, when I should be worrying about yours and mine.
I close my eyes, tilt my head, and press my lips against yours. Oh, how I've wanted this, needed this. Your kiss is healing to me; it mends all of the wounds in my heart, and I shall never want to kiss anyone else as long as I live.
You hold onto my hair as you kiss my lips, my cheeks, my eyelids, my nose, my forehead. You kiss me as though you've been dying to taste me for a long while.
"Yes, Matthew," I whisper against you. "I want to be with you. I love you so much." I would do anything for you. I would bear the brunt of public humiliation for you, if it meant that we could live happily together. Their words mean nothing, and your love means everything to me.
You're right: who cares what they think?
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okay some It Devours! and Carlos development thoughts and fun spitballing/ hc’s for writing inconsistencies btwn the book and show—
(spoilers for it devours! and wtnv 212)
The perception we had of Carlos’ time in the DOW was different in It Devours! vs. in the podcast. He tells Nilanjana that he hated every second of being there, and that he was so alone. On the podcast, we are given the idea that he is ‘staying there, babe not trapped’ and has made friends. He seems happy and okay when he talks to Cecil.
I WOULD LIKE to discuss this discrepancy— and how I have always viewed it !!
Three things first —
1. Carlos is notorious for not telling people when he is having problems/ is upset — to Cecil, to the people at his lab, etc.
2. The podcast is entirely through Cecil’s POV.
3. The book is entirely through Nilanjana’s POV.
With those three points in mind— I like to believe that Carlos was playing up how much he enjoyed being in DOW (down to the ‘lets not call it trapped— lets call it staying’ bit) because I think its how he dealt with being stuck there—my man was in DENIAL. Think about it, Kevin is there simultaneously egging him on to keep him there and also incredibly dismissive when Carlos actually talks to him about his work, and Doug, Alicia and the masked army don’t really understand what he’s doing and only have an interest in roaming and fighting (they even inadvertently destroy his work). By all accounts— Carlos is alone. There is no one there who he can connect with on a scientific level, and the one person there who he can connect with emotionally is so closed off/ toxic for him (Kevin). He was unhappy and not being able to come back to NV was a slap to the face even though the DOW didn’t feel like home either. He buried himself in work, lied to himself, and tried to build some semblance of a life to get him through.
There have been several moments on the show where Carlos is vague/private/dismissive of things hes dealing with because he can’t talk abt them/ doesn’t want to be a bother— and that is always because he’s speaking to Cecil. This is matter of perspective. An unreliable narrator, and perception being warped by trauma and time are key aspects of Cranor’s writing.
The moment Carlos broke down in front of Nilanjana in It Devours! (after the book made it a point to say that he is very closed off with his emotions in certain regards) is the most true depiction of Carlos’ emotional state I think we have gotten. He wasn’t hiding anything as he sobbed to her about what it was like being alone for a decade. You can feel alone even if people are around. He didn’t want Cecil to worry, to be upset or to possibly be angry.
And I think cecil coming to stay with him for that bit of time (which I hc as Cecil not having a good grasp on time to begin with btwn NV time, being immortal and having swiss cheese for brains) made Carlos realize that it didn’t feel like home and couldn’t be home because the people who mean the world to him weren’t there. (Which is like — what he says in The Review.) Which is why the moment all of his work abruptly gets lost, the chair is pulled out from under his ass and he is left with what he has been avoiding the entire time— which to me is 100% the fact that he is alone.
I think it’s fascinating to see how people outside of Cecil interact with and experience Carlos as a person. And in the reverse, how Carlos interacts with people who are not Cecil. Characters in NV are written as a mosaic of different perceptions (as are people irl especially in small towns) — think of Steve, of Silas, the Angels, Susan Willman — Carlos is not the exception to this rule. Cecil isn’t even the exception (toast, voicemail, etc).
Am I rehashing stuff I’ve already said— I mean yeah. Do I think Finknor retcon? Yes. Do I think they forget stuff? Yes. Do I think they know how to utilize different POV’s to their advantage? Oh yes. All of that can be true. I’m just having fun.
I bring all of this up because of a convo with a pal— but also because of new story development with UOWII and Carlos. I look forward to an episode titled possibly with something like “A story about a Scientist” and have it actually be about Lubelle— and her experience with Carlos. I’d love to learn nothing about Carlos directly, but only through different perceptions of him. Which would be a fun homage to their original plan for his backstory.
#its thinking about carlos hours AGAIN#@ the anon asking abt kevin ans carlos i will answer u soon i prommy#im writing it — but i gotta eat and then go to work#wtnv#welcome to night vale#it devours!#wtnv spoilers#sorry for the#long post
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