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thedeviljudges · 3 years

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yohan + physical tough + trauma response

disclaimer: this is based off of eps 1-7, and preview of ep 8; i wholeheartedly recognize that this post may become the worst meta ever depending on how the rest of the show goes. however, i do think there are still some interesting things to note about yohan. a lot of this is also me just talking shit out as i was sifting through all the eps again. i’m more than willing to change my mind or hear other thoughts.

also i kinda, sorta, unnecessarily included all of the moments of yohan and any physicality. a lot of them are not super important, but i do think they help draw a distinction in how he reactions when surprised, alone and around other people.

so, here’s a long ass post that is literally 99% me bullshitting, lmao.

so i wanted to delve more into yohan’s response to physical touch by way of trauma. while i know a lot of us have pieced it together, i think it’s pretty cool to lay it all out visually because i think there’s much more justification for his reactions; not to say it makes it right, but it does really flesh out a fundamental part of his characterization that i think is highly, highly important to understand.

yohan lives on the cusp for reckless behavior, almost as if he doesn’t care whether he lives or dies. the car chase, running through industrial buildings where safety isn’t a concern, etc.

episode one

the first time we see an instance of his disinterest in physical touch is when he first meets gaon. he actually offers him his hand, but the way he goes about it isn’t a handshake. he almost looks hesitant, and then he squeezes and does not shake. it’s truly a split second gesture out of formalities. granted, he’s just met someone he thinks looks like isaac, and might be in a little bit of… not shock, but certainly distracted.

later in the episode, yohan is in an abandoned building with homeless people. he’s checking people’s wrist, but he’s quick about leaving them alone. until, a homeless man comes up behind him and grabs him. in response, yohan swings his arm to knock him off. then, he punches him, steps on him and decides whether he’s worth the effort. again, granted, no one likes to be surprised in a creepy situation like this, so his response? kinda understandable at this point.

next is the scene where yohan catches gaon in his office, where he pushes him against the bookshelf and kinda, more or less, comes off as a bit luring. we know yohan knows gaon’s lying, but a couple of things here. yohan initiated the physical contact, and he did it because of the suspicious nature of gaon. yohan also knows how to use his power and charms to catch people off guard, and i think really, he was messing with gaon when he brushed his shirt and asked him if he lived alone. gay as fuck, lmao, but i also see it as an intimidation tactic, in a way.

i could also pose a couple of theories aside from intimidation if we wanted to squint:

yohan is still in a state of awe of gaon’s resemblance to isaac. he’s not heard his voice or been around the other man for at least 10 years, and now there’s tangibility at his fingertips.

if we want to look at it from the gay perspective, gaon is clearly intriguing to yohan, and as i’ll note further down in this post about yohan in relation to physical touch, i’m sure it could be assumed that this is one of the first people in a long time that yohan has an interest in making a connection with. however, because of his upbringing, it’s clear he does’t necessarily know how to connect with people (ie. ep 7 trying to connect with elijah, eps 1-6 with him trying to non-verbally tell gaon that he has bigger plans than what’s in front of his face. his admission in ep 5 about being monster). more or less, he knows his charms can be used, but when it comes to actually flirting and/or liking someone? it’s left to be addressed, but could be assumed he’s just as awkward about it as when we see him at home.

we also see a small instance of him letting someone dress him. there’s still touch involved, but it’s very clear what the intention is. he has control over the situation, and it’s not a surprise.

the next time he engages in physical touche, again, he initiates it because he’s in control, and it’s meant to be comforting, to an extent.

and then to round everything off, we actually see him reaching for isaac, who is actually gaon in the court scene, but you know storytelling and all that. he reaches for him both in the courtroom and within a flashback.

him reaching out for isaac seems to be a motif within the show as it happens later on, of which i’ll point out.

episode two

we see him initiate a handshake again. at first, to gaon, and then with jinjoo. controlled situation.

later on in the episode is when we see our first glimpses of batshit crazy yohan, an absolute delight and fav, lmao. he actually reaches out to the spoiled kid, and it’s clearly to legitimize intimidation and a position of power.

okay look, i’m not even gonna front, this was a cute scene. when jinjoo gets out of the car, he checks to make sure she’s okay, and they have this moment before they go onto the red carpet where they smile at each other. yohan is confirming she’s okay, and she agrees. again, controlled, and i don’t know for certain if yohan is more comfortable around women, or it’s just mere fact that he doesn’t always have a problem with touch when the situation is safe. he actually lets her take his arm further on in the scene, and yes, it is a public display of niceties, and he knows that.

so in the midst of this happening, we get the ‘devil child’ story. and i want to make note of the bird scene because i do think it’s important to note that people yohan cares for, he’s willing to go to the ends of the earth to protect them. yes, they’re children in school, but the girl next to him is the only one who showed him an ounce of kindness, and yohan is proven to remain loyal to those he loves or trusts in some capacity.

of course, he ends up pitting the rich and the poor kids against one another for their betrayal and making him an outcast. in yohan’s mind, what he did wasn’t necessarily wrong because his sense of justice is based on protection and when people wrong him or those he loves, it’s seeking justice on their behalf or making the situation better - not in the technically right way, but right to him. yohan comes across as a fixer and problem solver.

yohan has a very, very strong sense of trust and loyalty, and we can assume that stems from isaac, who clearly tried to protect yohan from his father, who went out of his way to do so as best as he could as a young kid. yohan values loyalty not because he necessarily wants lap dogs and people to do his bidding. it comes from a place of love and security he’s never really had.

anyway, back to the gala with jinjoo, he does shake the minister’s hand. again, controlled. there are cameras. he also puts his arm around her, and that’s mainly because it’s a battle of the wills, and she’s trying to reprimand him, lol, as if she could. he hugs her a little hard and a little enthusiastically, and you can clearly tell it’s for show.

and then he dances with both jinjoo and sunah. and there is a stark difference between these two scenes. yohan actually teaches jinjoo the proper placement for where she should rest her hands and how to move. he’s actually having a good time with her, and again, it’s actually really cute.

with sunah, he’s reluctant and definitely on guard. he can tell from her demeanor that her intent is with purpose trying to get close to him. at this point in the story, he probably sees it as sunah coming onto him and not because she’s actually the maid from when they were children. when sunah reaches up to whisper in his ear, you can really tell he doesn’t like her being that close to him at all especially because her words may not be overly threatening, but there is purpose behind them, which means yohan’s guards are up. he physically removes her hand and than blatantly turns her down: she tells him that enjoying things alone isn’t fun, and he counters it by saying he’s having a lot of fun.

so at this point to reduce on some screen caps, he meets the minister’s family, has handshakes with her husband and the kid he went after to essentially beat up his car with a mallet, lmao. the handshake is quite funny because they both know what happened. yohan is in control, and that kid is shaking in his boots.

then the explosion happens, and of course, it makes sense that yohan helps gaon after he’s hurt. gaon has never been a threat to yohan, and it’s clear yohan’s not heartless whatsoever, but it’s also poignant to note that gaon helped saved yohan’s life, thus starting yohan’s journey of loyalty to gaon. i think he’s always had his sight set on gaon to begin with, possibly long before he even became an associate judge, but if this was a test, gaon passed it with flying colors because if gaon can rescue a little girl, and he can help an old man who fell off his bike, would he really go the lengths to save yohan who has shown him time and time again his sense of justice is different?

episode three

yohan reacts negatively to soohyun and within good reason when she questions where gaon is. he turns away because for him, the conversation is over, but for her, it’s not. to get his attention, she grabs him when he’s not paying attention, and of course he has a very adverse reaction. at this point, it can be chalked up to disrespect given the fact that he’s a head judge and she’s just a mere cop, but hindsight is 20/20. he does throw her arm off by flicking out his arm. but instead of berating her, he just tells her to catch the culprits who harmed gaon and leaves it at that.

and then of course, everyone’s favorite scene and rightfully so. yohan caring for gaon? very sexy of him. gaon is injured, poses no threat, and as i said above about yohan finding some amount of loyalty in gaon means his physical boundaries aren’t jeopardized. and for that, we get these wonderful scenes of yohan helping gaon as he heals.

and then scenes of him messing around with gaon by hitting him. truth be told, i wonder if this was something him and isaac did as young kids. anyone with siblings know how that goes. fake picking on each other? fake bickering? yeah.

and then it slowly, but surely, it’s revealed that yohan didn’t have the same upbringing as isaac did. our first instance that something at home wasn’t right wasn’t just the conversation with ms. ji and gaon. it’s the flashback with yohan reading in his room when the door opens. he hastily pretends he’s asleep, and you can see he’s visibly shaking and breathing roughly until he realizes it’s isaac who’s there to give him books.

and that’s also when we get our first glance of what kind of abuse yohan suffered from at the hands of his father. it’s clear this isn’t the only incident, and there’s been many times that isaac wasn’t around to help defend him.

it’s also very clear in how yohan acts when he’s terrified and that his abuse has gone on long enough to be a routine pattern in the house. any time he hears heavy footsteps or thinks his father is around, he visibly shakes and gets panicky.

episode four

i include this scene because it’s been noted that a lot of books yohan reads are about humans, human nature, animals, animalistic tendencies, and he says random shit like this that directly points to what he thinks about humanity and humans themselves. we notice this most prominently at the dinner with gaon and jinjoo earlier on when he describes that he likes the feel of the chew and that he cannot taste. he always mentions hunting and prey, and i think this is one of those very clear instances where he actually reveals to gaon what he truly, truly thinks; no gimmicks. this also comes into play later on in ep 6 when elijah is worried about him being out all night. yohan clearly doesn’t trust people at all. he understands their intentions, their motives and how much pain they can cause other people for their own profit and their own gain. it makes sense that he wouldn’t leave his house, especially if he has a strong sense of loyalty to isaac (even after all these years) and caring for elijah.

this is also one of the very direct moments that yohan doesn’t understand family dynamics. when it comes to people, it’s a giant chess game. not only that, later on in the episode when they’re in the car and yohan talks about how people, no matter what, are always the same in front of greed, yohan is cynical, and he expects the bad every single time.

what he reads and the way he words things (here and the discussion of him being a monster, for example) is clearly an indication that he doesn’t trust; that he cannot trust, nor does he want to at this point. yohan doesn’t understand the concept of kindness being given freely (ep 7 when he berates elijah for being used by gaon, telling her she falls for kindness every time). and yet, later on in eps, it’s clear when he’s around the right people and the right mindset (uh, gaon?? lol), he’s constantly putting up a front.

after all in ep 7 when he tells gaon that confidence is key, it literally gives him away not just in the courtroom but in his personal life. there’s a reason he looks softer at home than when he’s not there (the hairstyle changes and clothing).

basically what i’m getting at is this behavior can be seen as a defense mechanism because of his abuse.

then it’s another gala event with gaon and yohan this time. another lovely favorite where yohan helps him get dressed and then proceeds to drag him around and safe him from the lion’s den.

tbh i dont even need to include these, but i’m doing it for the indulgence.

yohan does sorta physically throw gaon as well during the rich people party, but that’s mainly to get him to shut up because he’s trying to show gaon the truth at hand and how all of it’s pretty much a farce.

later on in the episode is when we first have gaon truly attacking yohan verbally, and that’s when yohan snaps. it’s clear that isaac is a trigger for yohan, especially from someone who speaks out of line on something they know nothing about. gaon, truth be told, had a stupid moment confronting yohan the way he did. i don’t know who waltzes up to a proposed murderer and just asks them, lmao.

but here’s the thing, thus far, gaon has not entirely posed a threat to yohan. whether that’s from yohan planting gaon and guiding him exactly where he wants him or gaon just not being as thorough as yohan would like, and he’s trying to tap into that talent, is anyone’s guess. but as i said above, the one thing yohan protects is the things he does care about the most, and he tries to talk himself out of his own feelings. he constantly compares himself to an animal (again, dinner scene with gaon and jinjoo) to justify his actions, and to possibly not feel anything; because that’s easier, isn’t it? not feeling. so on top of gaon calling him a monster and a killer, confronted with the possibility about being a villain in his own brother’s story, obviously sets him off. he beats down his emotions until he’s confronted with it - and this is what gaon also meant in ep 6 about how it’s ridiculous that yohan calls himself a monster over a victim because yohan can’t even see himself in that light. not because he truly believes victims are weak necessarily, but i wonder how much he realizes that what happened to him wasn’t his fault.

to me, and as i just said, yohan convinces himself he’s a monster to make it easier for himself to belief his actions (ep 5 telling gaon some humans are born monsters in relation to himself). it’s not that he inherently thinks he’s wrong, but i think his guidance for what’s right and wrong was misconstrued without a parent figure in his life, especially if he’d read crime and law books as the focus. yohan’s actions, at least quite a bit of them are, are based on a gut feeling of right and wrong. when you think about it and your own sense of justice, how would that differ without the checks and balances in place? what punishment do you think fits the crime if we weren’t bound by written law? yohan thinks any action to protect those he loves is, more or less, justifiable because it’s a means to an end. it’s making a worng right again.

i don’t think yohan is a monster. i think his feelings, and what he knows is love, is misconstrued in terms of how to express it. we see this in episode 7 with his and elijah’s conversation where she’s just trying to be a teen, but his version of love is protecting her without, once again, understanding family dynamics and the pain points of growing up, the learning she has to do on her own. yohan might technically be right; similar to being book-smart but not necessarily street smart. his theory of telling Elijah that she’s soft for kindness and being used was true, but his delivery and the idea that that’s how humans develop doesn’t work. he’s telling her text-book rules, but people don’t live through books. they live through real life. yohan reads to get a sense of fulfillment and to learn. he’s learned his way into adulthood, but that’s not normal.

so uh anyway, back to this familiar scene:

because we don’t know the actual story of isaac’s death, it’s hard to say what role yohan played in his death, but i don’t know that i believe he was the one who did it. the entirety of the devil judge is relying on unreliable narration, so it’s difficult to gauge (for now since we’re on ep 7) how this will turn out and what happened, but to me, it really comes across as yohan upset over the insinuation that he could be the one to cause the death of the one person he loved the most. plus, i think it says a lot that he cares/loves elijah, and she was part of isaac. gaon crossed a thine line. yohan essentially welcomed him in, and this is gaon toeing it. we can also look at this is not gaon being an outsider to their family, but now has become part of the family, and so it’s easier for yohan to be ‘abusive,’ if you will, rather than the perspective of gaon still on the sidelines and pushing too far. by this i mean, the accusations made by gaon threatens their formulating family dynamics.

and once again, the only person he ever actually reaches out for is isaac.

and then we have the aftermath of yohan’s nightmare, where he’s still caught in the dream as gaon comes in, and refuses to be touched after, even if gaon’s intention is to see if he’s okay. yohan makes it very clear to gaon not to touch him, and that’s when elijah comes in with a very accusatory ‘what are you two doing?’ in this moment, yohan is not just vulnerable, but he’s emotionally sensitive. i’ve no doubt he’s still dealing with a form of sensory overload from his dream.

and then, i don’t know that this was necessary? was it necessary?

the following set of scenes are the ones where gaon tells him he’s a victim and he hasn’t confronted his own emotions about his abuse. i think yohan realizes gaon is right to some degree, but it is convoluted, and it’s not so simple to face your own traumas. however, he does for a moment after gaon leaves, remember another instance of abuse he couldn’t stop but wishes he could, wishing a parental figure of sorts would’ve come in to save him like his older self is trying to save the kid version if only he could turn back time, if only he had the power to do what he wish someone else had done for him.

and then the kidnapping scene is just. fucked up in and of itself. it actually makes my skin crawl. not because sunah is scary necessarily, but the lack of autonomy yohan has - especially when we find out later more of sunah’s story. to do something like this after what she’s suffered through makes this scene even more disturbing.

you can see the moment yohan hears heels when sunah (not knowing it’s her yet) comes in. literally the minute he knows someone’s headed his way, he checks the fuck out. his whole face goes slack, especially when sunah reveals herself. and when she’s kissing him? blank as fuck, too. it’s the most dead-eyed stare i think we’ve seen from him.

episode six

so, we get this gem from elijah that i’d like to touch on later. it’s more speculation and just me running through ideas more than it is canon fact. but what it does let us know is that yohan doesn’t seek people out. he prefers to be at home and staying there.

after we get the maid story, and we do get yohan touching sunah’s cheek, and in some fucked up twisted way, this is his way of protecting one of the things isaac cherishes the most. the point of the gesture isn’t just intimidation but serves as an act of intent, of protection in the only way yohan knows how. he’s safeguarding isaac. you can tell he doesn’t actually like sunah at all as a kid, but uses that to his advantage. imagine yohan learning violence for ‘good’ things when his father used violence for ‘bad’ things. what a twisted way of looking at it? and the irony at hand.

additionally, the main reason i’ve included so many varying scenes of yohan touching people isn’t to establish that he’s okay with being touched given how many scenes there are of him randomly shaking people’s hand or touching them. it’s all about context and what the intent is for. most often than not, really way more often than not, yohan only reaches out for people when it’s socially acceptable to do so and because it’s manners. and yet, even in some of those cases, there is still intent behind the gesture.

the moments he acts out the most are when he’s not in front of an audience, when he’s more likely to be alone with his thoughts and is exceptionally more vulnerable to his own triggers.

and i think the scene after he’s back at his house from the kidnapping is noteworthy because it doesn’t just feel like he’s shaking off the effects of the drugs he was given. he seems to visibly trying to compose himself of the mental and physical play he just had to deal with.

the next scene is yohan angry with gaon for taking elijah out. which really, he does have every right to be angry, and one thing i didn’t note above during the ‘you killed your brother’ choke out scene before is that when yohan is backed into any kind of corner, he reacts like a caged animal.

because we’ve already established the scenes with his abuse, his father took his anger physically out on yohan. so how else was yohan supposed have developed the tools to express it? it’s easy to hurt the things you love the most; it’s easy to abuse the ones you know, and between gaon and himself, they both have an unhealthy dynamic because gaon is old enough, strong enough to take whatever yohan gives him. gaon is not family and so there’s still that clear divide and a distinction as to why he lays a hand on gaon but not elijah, for example. gaon can still pose a threat. elijah is family. then again, it can also be said that maybe yohan considers gaon family, and gaon betrayed elijah and therefore yohan, and you don’t do that. not with yohan’s understanding of family dynamics.

but with that said, it begs the question why yohan keeps gaon around, and i think some of that has to do with the fact that gaon surprises yohan. he might’ve set his sights on him long before he became an associate judge or maybe he took interest after gaon was chosen for the role (this is still up in the air), but deep down, yohan sees something in gaon despite his snooping, despite his righteousness. it could be the potential; it could be the fact that gaon could be better than yohan if he just allowed himself to loosen the ropes he’s tied himself with when it comes to the court of law and the justice system.

but here’s the thing that idk a lot of people have really picked up on. gaon is one side of the same coin underneath it all. he’s also provoked yohan with physicality when yohan brought up details about soohyun.

to be fair, we can say that yohan evokes a different type of anger in gaon, one that he hasn’t tapped into for years that allows him to open up to that more physical side of himself he learned to put behind him. gaon doesn’t really come across as the physically threatening type, but yohan does push his buttons and vice versa.

but then, of course, we have the big fight scene where gaon goes in on the attack, and that’s when yohan makes his threat not to attack him ever again. it’d be easy to say he says it based on the merit of him not actually attacking soohyun, but seriously speaking, the intent feels much more than that. more along the lines of asking gaon not to provoke him without warning again because next time might be bad. most of their other fights, especially the one above,have been in the midst of conversation. this time, it’s from a place of complete surprise, and you can tell yohan goes on the defensive when his first instinct is to not just throw gaon back but raise his fist to strike.

episode seven

the only physical contact yohan has with anyone is the president, and that’s when he turns on the live video of the two of them, and it’s clearly intended to be a lowkey threat. he keeps pulling the president back into his side to be on the live camera after the dude tried to come after yohan. i do think it’s hilarious that yohan manipulated the situation with a live component just as the president and the rest of the rich people thought they could turn a live court show into manipulating the public.

and then, of course, the jail scene. the part where he makes gaon stay. he also touches gaon’s shoulder later just before they leave.

episode eight

the most prominent scene in this ep is certainly the scene where sunah comes onto yohan, and you can tell she did it to get under his skin in some way. of course, he’s smart and knows she’s up to something, but i think it’s so interesting how he wraps his fists around hers, almost as if to tame her and prevent her from trying to further put her hands on him.

we also know yohan has no issue with using physical force regardless of who it is (obviously, his dialogue in this scene, too) when he feels caged or trapped. his intention is also to retrieve isaac’s necklace, and i like how he uses literally anything to his advantage. meaning, he’ll use physical touch, his mentality, etc to get what he wants or needs, even if it is marginally uncomfortable to some degree.

and i think that also says alot about him is that he’s able to displace what makes him uncomfortable in moments like this to achieve an end goal.

additional thoughts

i know this isn’t really common with a lot of the characters in general, and could be chalked up to a cultural component, but yohan’s definitely not a hugger.

the other thing i wanted to note is yohan’s seemingly adherence to touch unless it’s for good reason in relation to sex. the main reason i bring it up is because i’ve seen it discussed a bit, especially in regard to elijah’s comment about him not staying out overnight since the fire. there are a few plausible scenarios, maybe more, but for the sake of this, we’ll go for these.

yohan has had past relationships/experience or will in future episodes

day flings

he’s never had an interest in anyone before given his upbringing and abuse and therefore never sought out sex

inexperience could be from lack of interest in other people and sex itself

he’s never found anyone to really connect with and trust in such a way and has avoided it for that reason

and i bring this up mainly because i think it could be something to explore in fanon, but also because i’m kind of annoyed with how people have been talking about yohan being a virgin. i’m not quite sure what the joke is, but lack of sexual experience does not mean naive or that he doesn’t have a sense of humor when that’s clearly far from the truth:

i don’t know that people find it unbelievable because of his age, because of characterization of yohan being more dominant, but none of these things negate this being an option. i think it’s perfectly plausible of a situation (from what we know right now), and truthfully, it would make a whole lot of sense. i just don’t get the jokes about it that i’ve been seeing online (twitter) when there isn’t a mutual exclusiveness to any of it whatsoever.

yohan already has a hard time connecting with people, and i can imagine that level of physicality could be difficult. clearly he knows how to use a version of it to get what he wants. i’ve no doubt he’s used his charms in situations where he’s needed to. yohan knows he has that going for him, at the very least. but sexual appeal and jokes doesn’t mean having a body count any more than it could indicate there being one.

lastly, i also want to pull these paragraphs from @b612sunsets‘s post because i think they do a much better job than i ever could of explaining, short and sweet, a fundamental part of yohan’s characterization, and mainly what i was trying to get at with this long ass post.

“There's two things we already know about Yohan from the last 6 episodes: he hates being touched when he doesn't see it coming and doesn't have control over it because of the abuse he suffered (I assume). To name a few: Soohyun grabbing his elbow to stop him from leaving and get answers about Gaon, the beggar that touched him while he searched for the fireman, Gaon after punching him and Yohan clearly telling him to NEVER do it again. The impression it gave to us is that if there's a next time he might not be able to stop his instinctive reaction of defending himself and using violence back (something worse than choking or pushing Gaon and he doesn't want to do that with him).

“Unless it's a friendly/small/slow touch like in the breakfast scene when Gaon touches his arm when he gets up to offer them some fruits. When he had the nightmare with Isaac, his walls were up high so even if he could see Gaon's touch coming and it was friendly, he decided to stop it because he was too defensive and sensible to accept the gesture (it would be the first time Gaon started physical contact with him too, he wouldn't be ready for that in such a state).

“The second thing is that Yohan hates when people take what is his or mess with what is important to him. Again, to name a few: Sunah with the necklace when she was a maid, the fireman with Isaac's watch (Yohan made them fall from high places, not caring if they died or not), the guy that fabricated the small bombs that hurt Gaon (Yohan would have burnt his face if "K" hadn't stopped him) and Gaon taking Elijah out of the house to Soohyun without previous notice (a cop and someone he doesn't trust).”

yohan has a very, very large sense of self-preservation for himself and for those he cares about. it’s in his intention, actions, facial expressions, movements, the way he interacts with people. i find it fascinating how calculating he can be, but at home, he’s at his most vulnerable and almost socially unaware and awkward.

yohan is a bit of an irony. he understands people from an action-oriented, instinctual level, but he doesn’t necessarily understand their thoughts and emotions in the waves of nuances that people live through on the daily. like, he gets it to an extent and on a practical level, but he himself is a square trying to fit into a circle - he doesn’t always understand it for himself and has to actively work on social cues so as not to come across as the devil child he was once painted to be.

and let it not be unsaid, yohan really will go to the ends of the earth for family, even if it means stepping out of his comfort zone.

and so anyway, i doubt this offered any real insight, but i think this is my way of breaking all of this down for myself. so, tada!!! lmao

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the-cheese-writes · 3 years

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Top or bottom? ~ Prinxiety + Logicality

TW: Sexual implications

Word count: 863

A/N:

This is just a fun little concept that I thought of and wanted to write it down into a fic. I might make a second part to it where it gets a little spicy~ (but not to the point of smut lol)

Enjoy.

~Bre

Logan was reading a book whilst Roman and Virgil were cuddled on the other side of the sofa, flirting with each other as they normally did. He wouldn’t say that he found it uncomfortable to see them constantly all over each other because, at heart, he did secretly find it adorable, but he usually got quite annoyed that they always flirted, especially when they were around him.

Somehow, the two soon got into a debate about who was top and who was bottom.

“It’s definitely me though,” Roman boasted, placing a hand to chest, gesturing to himself.

“You wish Princey. Have you suddenly forgotten all the times where you’ve become so ridiculously flustered by just being in my presence? Most of the time I don’t even have to do anything. You just melt,” Virgil countered, leaning in closer to prove the effect he claimed to have on his prince.

Roman’s jaw dropped and he gasped dramatically as he tried to find a stronger argument to fight back with. Unfortunately he couldn’t find one in time and Logan chimed in at the last second before he could say anything.

“He does have a point Roman,” Logan said without looking up from his book. Roman and Virgil both looked to him simultaneously; truth be told, they had actually forgotten that he was there. “Almost every time you are around Virgil you become extremely nervous and red.”

Virgil turned to his blushing mess of a boyfriend and smirked triumphantly, making Roman pout in response.

“I-I don’t get nervous anymore!” he tried to defend himself, but Virgil and Logan just exchanged an exhausted look; Roman wasn’t fooling anyone.

“You literally stuttered just now,” Logan pointed out. The creative side tried to find something to fight back with, but ultimately couldn’t and sighed, leaning back against the sofa.

“Exactly,” Virgil cheekily whispered into his ear and Roman playfully pushed his head away and looked to the side. He tried to appear annoyed, but his facade quickly faded away when he heard Virgil giggle and he couldn’t help but grin at his adorable boyfriend.

“What about you Logan?” Roman asked, attempting to steer them away from the previous conversation. Logan’s eyes widened at this; he knew full well what Roman was implying but he promptly disguised his reaction and pretended to act like he had no clue whatsoever what he was talking about.

“I’m sorry?” the logical side asked calmly as he looked up from his book, playing it cool.

“Who between you and Patton is more… spicy?”

“I’m sure I don’t know what you mean,” Logan replied, readjusting his glasses and returning to his book, trying to act as naturally as possible when inside, he was screaming like mad.

“Oh sure you do. You just don’t want to say because-”

“Hey guys!” As if his timing couldn’t be more perfect, Patton appeared on the staircase, smiling cheerfully.

“Speak of the devil,” Virgil said quietly, with a raised eyebrow and a mischievous smirk.

“Whatchu talkin’ about?” Patton asked innocently as he sat down and snuggled next to Logan.

“N-nothing,” Logan said quickly, avoiding eye contact with him and silently begged Roman across the couch to not put him through this. The prince, however, being the gracious friend that he was, was having too much fun torturing the logical side and continued their discussion.

“Oh, we were just talking about-” Roman began but Logan cut him off by dashing over and pressing a hand to his mouth.

“NOTHING! We were talking about nothing,” Logan gritted through his teeth, glaring at Roman who was trying to pry him off his lips.

Virgil watched amusingly at all the commotion and he seized this opportunity to spill the beans since Logan was ‘occupied’.

“We were basically discussing who between you and Logan tops-”

“NO!” Logan tried to intervene, but he was too late.

“W-what do you mean by that Virge?” Patton asked with a naive expression. He glanced at Logan for a second, who was bright red and smiled awkwardly, trying to show him that he was lost in what was going on.

“It means-”

“NO! It doesn’t mean anything,” Logan butted in again. Roman, now tired of not having a say in the conversation, licked Logan’s hand, causing him to retract immediately and look at him in pure disgust.

He didn’t say anything, but looked at Logan as if he were silently saying “Why??” and Roman simply shrugged.

“You wouldn’t move.”

Logan briskly walked over to the kitchen and washed his hand, but as he did so, he forgot to pay attention to the conversation happening between Roman, Virgil and Patton and when he did remember, he feared he was too late… again.

“Okay,” he said, loudly, making them all look up at him. “Whilst you two carry on mollycoddling, we will leave the room. Good night gentlemen.” Logan firmly grabbed Patton’s hand and led him back to their rooms, saving him from any further cursed information that may contaminate his brain.

As they walked away, Virgil and Roman looked at each other, confused. Still looking in the direction Logan and Patton had gone, Virgil smirked.

“Do you think they’re gonna-”

“Yep.”

#sanders sides #fanfic #sanders sides fanfic #roman sanders #virgil sanders #logan sanders #patton sanders #prinxiety #logicality #brewrites

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dorkus-mcdingus · 3 years

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Terms of Endearment

AN: I know this isn't the typical story format and it's written like a 14 year-old's cringy rp that was copy and pasted but for Valentine's Day, enjoy some very self-indulgent fluff between Lucifer and my MC. Also I hope I didn't make Lucifer too ooc but a hc I have is that the man can get super fluffy and an utter cheeseball romantic when behind closed doors.

I was also inspired to write this after watching Pride and Prejudice. Lucifer's the demonic Mr. Darcy and you can't change my mind lol

ENJOY MY SELF-INDULGENT CRINGE Y'ALL AND HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! 💖

*The evening proved to be quite a shockingly quiet one for the House of Lamentation. The chill of the autumn air coursed throughout the Devildom. Warming up by the fireplace in his room, Lucifer and Evangeline sat together indulging themselves with a warm cup of tea. The Avatar of Pride gently holding her dainty hand in his, caressing her knuckles*

Evangeline: *giggles with a blush*

Lucifer: You seem happy.

Evangeline: How can I not? Even though we may not have time to talk much, I always enjoy your company.

Lucifer: *smiles gently* I'm glad to hear. *he looks over at the wall*

Evangeline: Hm? What's up?

Lucifer: I think there might be something on the wall there.

Evangeline: Oh really, where?

Lucifer: Right by the skeleton. *the moment Eva turns her head, he steals a quick kiss on the cheek and laughs when he sees her blushing face*

Evangeline: You know, I never would've guessed that the avatar of pride would be such a flirt.

Lucifer: My dear Evangeline, take responsibility.

Evangeline: Why?

Lucifer: You make it fun for me to tease you.

Evangeline: *giggles sheepishly* By the way… um…

Lucifer: What is it?

Evangeline: I-it's nothing. It's kind of a dumb question anyway.

Lucifer: *smirks with a bit of a laugh* My dear, you know I have ways of getting what I want out of you. If you want my opinion, it would be best to come clean.

Evangeline: Okay, okay… um… how do you feel about terms of endearment?

*Lucifer raises a brow. Still keeping that smug grin on his face*

Evangeline: I-I mean... I've always assumed that you'd be the type to either steer clear from them or go with very traditional ones.

Lucifer: *chuckles* Not often with others. But I'll be happy to make an exception in your case. If I may ask, what would you prefer for me to call you?

Evangeline: Hmm… Eva or Evangeline for everyday. My darling, maybe light of my life on special occasions or for when you're feeling sappy.

Lucifer: *chuckles* If I may my darling, may I add a few?

Evangeline: Go ahead.

Lucifer: *walks behind her, pulls her close, and says gently in her ear* Little dove, for you sing so beautifully like one. My sunlight, for you warm my heart every time I see your lovely face. Lastly, little bunny, since you tease like one.

Evangeline: *snuggles into his warm embrace with her cheeks turning a tickled pink* Well, what about for when you're perfectly and indescribably happy?

Lucifer: My evening star. For your beauty rivals that of the night sky. If I may be so bold, how about me?

Evangeline: Luci, the love of my life, my pretty peacock, my darling, and my handsome devil.

Lucifer: How about for when you're so overcome with joy my dove?

Evangeline: My morning star. I know that name may seem a little iffy but, every time I see you, I smile like the sun is out. Not to mention, you're so beautiful like the sun rising back home. I feel so warm when you're around.

*Moving her hands, she gently brought him closer to her. Their eyes met with a loving yet longing gaze as if they each begged for time to just stop. Like a magnet, they found themselves locked in a sweet and tender kiss. A peaceful night where the stars over the Devildom granted them a wish to be in their own little world, just the two of them and the moon acted as the spotlight. What a night to be young and in love.*

#obey me #obey me shall we date #obeymeshallwedate #obey me swd #i'm fandom trash #obey me lucifer x mc #obey me fanfic #shut up dorkus #this was written for purely self-indulgent reasons #yes i know its bad #obeymemc #obey me lucifer #obey me female mc

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valkyrieofsmut · 4 years

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Captive Love 4

UF!Sans x Reader (or Frisk if you wanna)

Summary: It's a tense first night...

A/N: Oh boy, another chapter! It took a lot of restraint to keep myself from just publishing everything I've written so far, but, even though I really would love some feedback, I want to keep the release schedule at least a little consistent! Lol.

Masterlist Series Masterlist

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Cute when you're nervous.

(Y/n) stood in Sans' room, holding a pair of black basketball shorts and a black tank top. She was pretty sure that he only had oversized basketball shorts to wear after seeing into his drawer, but at least he'd been able to find a pair from when he was smaller, probably younger.

"here ya go, sweetheart," he told her with a grin as he set a pair of yellow socks on top of the pile. "knew i had a clean pair 'round here somewhere." He looked away, his cheeks glowing red, just a bit. "i'da, i'd getcha some understuff, too, but, uh… i feel like we don't 'xactly wear th' same kind."

(Y/n) bit her lip to stop from smiling. He really is super cute when he’s all flustered.

She bumped him to make him look at her and rose a brow as if asking, you sure?

Sans chuckled. "i sure 's fuck don't wear-" he paused, his demeanor shifting. "i don't wear anything i'd imagine on you, dollface."

Aaand the flirting was back.

(Y/n) actually didn't mind it so much when it was harmless and not as in her face. He was actually a little funny in a dorky kind of way.

"'k, imma- go brush my teeth or somethin' so ya can get dressed. 'sides, my bro wouldn't let me hear th' end a it if i didn't."

(Y/n) changed, quickly making everything as well fit as possible so it didn't fall off or shift to show things she didn't want seen if she stood or moved, and climbed under the covers on the bed.

Sans came back and immediately walked toward the bed as though nothing about the situation was strange.

(Y/n)'s eyes widened with a bit of panic and she patted the bed frantically until he looked at her, and asked in the best gestures she had if he was sharing the bed with her.

"it ain't been a problem s'far, doll," he told her.

She shook her head nervously.

"sweetheart, listen-” he started calmly, “i might be a lotta things, an' an asshole might be one a 'em," he grinned to her as he admitted it, "but willin' ta share ain't. an' i'm sleepin' in my bed," he told her as he climbed in, pulling the blankets up to his waist. "don't need ta be s'worried 'bout it doll. ya been here three days an' ain't nothin' happened ta ya yet."

That was true… From what she could tell.

"an' we both know that if i had planned on doin' anythin' to ya when ya were unconscious- wouldn't've been a fuckin' thing ya coulda done about it."

(Y/n)'s eyes shot to him, but he seemed to just be mentioning it conversationally, as he looked relaxed, fluffing his pillow a little as he laid back on it.

"'sides, paps an' i shared a bed when we were growin' up. ‘s only weird if ya make it weird."

She rolled over to lay on her side, residual panic sparking before leaving her system.

He wasn't wrong. She couldn't have stopped anything from happening to her, even if it was as benign as a dog sniffing her.

She wondered over their situation and just how out of the norm it probably was.

She had passed out, that much she knew, and a monster had taken her, a human , back to his place, taken care of her when she couldn't do anything for herself, and was keeping her safe.

A monster keeping a human safe in the middle of monster territory? It was probably unheard of.

It definitely wasn't the best part of town she lived in, or was walking through when she fainted. Who knew what would have happened to her on the sidewalk if he'd just left her there?

He was… actually being a pretty decent guy, despite the quirks in his behavior that made her a little wary of him.

Sans laid on his back, head turned to face (Y/n)'s back, wanting to roll closer and hold her close like he had for the last two nights.

Was it possible to become addicted to something after only two times?

She felt so good in his arms; soft, calming, safe… but also like it gave him a purpose to take care of her. It was something he hadn't felt in a long time.

He saw her arm shift, her hand landing on the mattress between them, in the narrow space it was hard for him to keep. It shifted closer, feeling around like it was looking for something.

Sans moved his hand closer so hers would run across it, even if that's not what she'd been looking for.

She took his hand, wrapping her fingers around it and gave it a squeeze. Then another. Saying thanks it seemed like.

Trepidation stirred in his chest and he hesitated, but then squeezed her hand back and told her, "no problem, sweetheart."

It must have been the right response, because she took her hand back and shifted to get comfortable to sleep, Sans still watching her.

Fuck. He was gonna have a bad time tonight.

(Y/n) woke, not wanting to get up, like always.

Mornings were of the devil… even if they were so pretty… actually that’s probably why they were so pretty.

She tried to roll over and start waking up for work, but there was a force keeping her where she was. She opened her eyes and looked around, remembering that she wasn’t at home, and was, in fact, basically trapped in monster territory with a loud, scary guy and a stranger who was in the same bed as her, and probably had his arm wrapped around her.

She shifted uncomfortably and felt him shift behind her.

His arm was over her, around her lower stomach, his other under and around her ribs, face buried in her hair, hips cradling hers as his legs stretched down. And… oh yeah, he had an erection.

Not that it was making her nervous, no…

No, it was making her very alarmed, though.

She never would have thought that he could be this strong- he was a skeleton , he had no muscles! But there she was, trapped in his arms, unable to get away.

That was scary enough in and of itself, but there was also the added thing of the erection pressing into her back.

He was a stranger.

Holding her against him.

His dick heavy and showing what he’d like to do about now...

And she couldn’t escape.

If she had her voice, her whimper would have been audible. She was glad it wasn’t. One thing she’d learned; don’t show weakness. Any weakness and a predator would attack.

And Sans?

He was most definitely a predator.

“mmmmmm, sweetheart,” he mumbled in his deeper morning voice. His hips bumped against her ass and his hand stroked over her lower belly, just above her panty line.

(Y/n) felt how stiffly her body had frozen, as though she were afraid to even breathe, but her brain was yelling at her as loudly as it could.

You idiot! Don’t lay here and take it! Don’t let him think he can do whatever he wants to you! Push him off- smack him- punch him in the miraculously existing dick! Do NOT make up excuses like ‘he’s asleep, he probably doesn’t know what he’s doing’ the more excuses you make the easier you make it for him to take advantage of you!

“mmmm, sweetheart… ya feel s'soft… smell s'good…” His hips bumped her again.

Punch him in the dick! Her brain screamed.

However, her body had its own ideas, and instantly flooded with desire as his hand slid up over her hip, giving it a squeeze.

“you makin’ my shorts wet, sweetheart?” He asked suggestively, but softly. A sinfully tempting rumble in her ear.

(Y/n) gave a squeak of a yelp at the proof that he was one hundred percent awake.

The arm around her ribs tightened a little, pulling her tighter against him. “sorry, doll, i do tend ta get a lil touchy when 'm asleep." His hand ran down her thigh and back up to her hip. "an' y're really pleasant ta touch." He took one last deep breath from her hair and pulled away, climbing from the bed as she continued to lay there in near shock.

Her tense muscled motionlessness lasted for a few minutes of uncertainty before she felt her muscles starting to relax.

They immediately tensed again when the door opened and Sans spoke, though.

"doll, i hate ta leave ya here on yer own, but my bro isn't gonna let me skip my rounds t'day. he's, uh, actually a little pissed i been skippin' out th' last couple a days ta take care a ya."

(Y/n) turned and sat up, looking at him. A garbled noise came out of her throat and she made a frustrated sound at it, then motioned to ask if she could use his phone.

"sure, doll, lemme know if ya need help talkin'," he chuckled.

(Y/n) bit her lip and looked up to him, wincing at how she thought she'd be able to communicate with her boss over the phone when she couldn't even get all of her thoughts across to the skeleton in the room with her with full body language and sight cues around. She nodded at him and he sat at the edge of the bed, patting the spot next to him for her to sit there.

With a silent resigned sigh she sat next to him and dialed the number, pressing the speaker button.

After a few rings, her boss's voice came over the speaker giving the store introduction.

Sans looked at her, only to see her gesturing for him to speak.

"uhhh, you uh, you got a employee there named (y/n)?" He asked.

Why did hearing him say my name make that shiver run through my belly? She wondered, feeling a bit of worry for her mental state.

Stalkholm syndrome was a thing...

"I'm sorry, I'm not at liberty to give out personal information about any of the employees working here," her boss answered.

"oh, weeell ," attitude started building in his voice, "i wuz callin' ta let ya know why she ain't been there, but if ya don't even know if she works there-"

"I'm sorry, you have information for me about her?" Her boss asked.

"ya should be. an' yeah. she uh," he glanced at her again as though asking what he should say, but she just made encouraging gestures again. "she wasn't feelin' too good an' passed out in an alley. luckily, a good samaritan took 'er home ta recover."

Her boss made an indistinct noise on the other end of the line in the pause between Sans' sentences.

"uh, only problem now, is that she's kinda stuck… in monster territory."

"She was kidnapped and taken to monster territory?!" Her boss asked in surprise.

"wh- nah, she's not kidnapped- s-she was unconscious- " Sans told him near frantically, trying to defend himself, worried what (Y/n) would do if she thought he'd kidnapped her. Probably run, and that wouldn't help their situation at all . "w-was tryna help 'er-"

"Well, if she's in monster territory, she's as good as dead," her boss sighed regretfully.

"nah, she's safe, she jus' can't get ta work-"

"Thanks for letting me know," her boss said, cutting him off before the beep of the phone disconnecting sounded.

Sans stared in disbelief at the phone in his hand for a moment before saying, “whatta fuckin’ moron. couldn’t even listen ta a whole sentence. he always like that?” He asked, looking up to her.

(Y/n) shrugged and nodded morosely.

“eeeeeeeeh,” Sans shrugged and stood. “if brains were explosive, some people wouldn’t have enough ta blow their noses!” He crowed and started laughing. He turned back to see (Y/n) silently laughing as well and felt a shot of warmth in his soul, and then a heat wash over his cheekbones. He looked away a little flustered and rubbed the back of his skull. “ah, so doll… i-imma go do my rounds so paps don’t bitch at me, i sh-should be back b-by dinner, um- help yerself t-ta anythin' in th’ fridge, while ‘m gone, though.” Stars, he hated how he stuttered when he got flustered...

(Y/n) grabbed the sleeve of his coat and tugged until he looked at her. She gestured to herself, him, the door and then back to herself followed by the bed.

Can I come with you and you can take me home?

He was pretty sure that’s what she was asking.

“sorry, doll, it’s still too dangerous. i’m gonna check around ta see how much attention is on ya, but i gotta go do rounds for that,” he told her.

She sat with an unreadable expression for a moment, then nodded, seeming to accept his answer. As he was about to turn to go, she tugged on his sleeve again and gestured at him then lifted her hand taller at the side of him.

“my brotha? he’s goin’ out, too, so ya don’t have ta worry ‘bout ‘im. but…” Sans seemed hesitant about something. He guided her to stand by her arms and rested his hands on her shoulders. “promise me ya won’t leave th’ house. ’s dangerous out there, a-an’ i already spent all this energy savin’ ya- i-it’d be a shame ta have it go ta waste-” His cheekbones were starting to get warm again, and he could see the tiny smile she was trying to hide by nibbling the inside of her lip. “promise me.”

(Y/n) nodded, holding back the amused smile from his cute blush.

“good…” He sounded a little relieved, but shifted it to something he felt more comfortable with. “howa ‘bout a g’bye kiss, then?” He asked suggestively with a grin as he leaned in a little closer.

(Y/n) blanched, leaning back a fraction of an inch before putting her hands against his shoulders and pushing him back. He went easily, though the grin didn’t disappear, and she leaned forward and gave him a small peck on the jaw as a sort of reward for not pushing it.

She was rewarded with the instant flushing of his cheeks.

holy fuck, i didn’t think she’d actually do it, he thought. His blush darkened and his face shifted a bit angrily in his flustered state and he saw her tongue poking out at him.

He lifted a brow ridge and leaned in closer so that her nose almost brushed his nasal ridge, then opened his mouth and carefully took her tongue between his teeth, turning his head to tug it back and forth.

The look of surprise that had appeared on her face was reward enough, but the flush that flowed over her oh so soft skin and the way her breath sped up just a little made him even more invested in teasing her.

His hands went to her waist and drifted down to her hips, pulling her body within an inch of his before he let her tongue go and ducked his head to let his breath brush over her throat, feeling particularly accomplished when he noticed her nipples pressing stiffly against her shirt. “much fun as this is, sweetheart, 'm gonna have ta go, b’fore ya convince me ta jus’ stay here an’ play wit ya all day,” he told her.

(Y/n) felt her cheeks heating more and she nodded, giving a small wave as he stepped back.

“i’ll see ya fer dinner, sweetheart. stay inside,” he told her before going out through the door.

“fuck,” he muttered to himself when it’d closed. “my cock’s never gonna get a break from bein’ stiff… hang in there, buddy,” he encouraged as he looked down at it.

#uf!sans x reader #uf!sans #UnderFell #underfell sans #underfluff #uf!sans x you

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zayray030 · 4 years

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You're an amazing person, Iris!

Summary: Alex and Kara have to visit Barry for help on something but end up finding Iris crying. They comfort her as best as possible and reassure her that she's an amazing person!

Iris sat in the Cortex all alone. Everyone had decided to go out and hang out with Nora. They had wanted to show her all the things that the Flash museum hadn't covered and Iris had declined the visit upon seeing Nora’s face when Barry had invited her to go and told the others that she needed to finish off a very important article for her blog.

Nora had just rolled her eyes and scoffed at her all while muttering about “not being able to make time for her daughter in any timeline” under her breath, low enough for no one else to hear but loud enough for Iris to hear, before turning over to the rest of the team and squealing happily, declaring it ‘Mata day’ for them and quickly dragging them out of the building.

Barry had shot her a small frown adn mouthed if she was okay over Nora’s shoulder. She had nodded, grateful for the fact that the water works haven't started yet, and mouthed back “Enjoy time with your daughter.” before the elevator doors slid closed and then did she collapse in her chair, crying heavily.

She didn't know how long she had sat in the Cortex, crying and lamenting over the fact that she fucked her relationship with her daughter, before a breach was open and Iris had to hastily wipe her tears. She drew out a gun from underneath her desk and pointed it at the breach,expecting to see someone from another earth or to see an evil meta who had breaching powers. Instead there stood Kara and Alex in all their glory.

“Wait, we come in peace!” yelled Kara, holding her hand up in defence before she put them down again and looked at Iris carefully. “Hey Iris, are you okay?” she asked worriedly when she saw the prominent tear tracks on her face.

Iris nodded and wiped her face quickly before smiling widely at Kara. Too wide to be real. “Hey Kara! Alex! What did you need?” she asked, her excitement sounding too fake, even to her.

“Well we were going to ask if Barry was here and if we could talk to him. But now? We're going to find out why you're so upset!” declared Kara, flying over to the petite woman.

“Kara! We need Barry right now!” snapped Alex.

“He's out with Nora and the rest.” said Iris, feeling hurt spread through her body and she quickly looked down to make sure her tears weren't seen.

“Who's Nora and why aren't you with them?” asked Kara, raising an eyebrow. The situation didn't seem right to her. Barry gushed about Iris every second he got and there was no way he would have gone without her.

“Umm, Nora’s mine and Barry's daughter from the future.” said Iris, preferring to ignore the second question. Alex looked at her for a second before rolling her shoulder and raising an eyebrow.

“Okay, princess. What's up? You're normally happy and excitable and would normally be talking our ear off about something or the other.” asked Alex, hands on her hips.

“Apparently people don't stay happy and excitable in the future!” Iris snapped, turning to glare at the taller woman and Kara gasped softly when she saw the tears running down Iris's cheeks.

“Iris! What happened!?”

“I was a bad mother is what happened!” Iris answered, curling up into herself, disappointed to find out that she couldn't shrink down on herself.

“How could you bad mother Iris? You're amazing in every way possible! Even Oliver likes you!” she added in an effort to make the small woman laugh but instead it made it worse and she let out choked little sobs.

“I dampened my own daughter's powers! I stopped her from using her powers for most of her life! I lied to her about everything!” Iris yelled, standing up while more tears fell down her cheeks. “I was barely there for her when she as abusky and when I was, I was way too overbearing and-and-” but Iris lost the battle with her tears and quickly collapsed onto the floor, sobbing her heart out.

Kara quickly pulled the girl into a hug, trying to soothe her. She even tried to sing a song her mother would sing to her when she was feeling upset but that wasn't working. If anything it made it worse. She quickly shit Alex a look and the girl understood what it meant.

‘Get chocolate, Alcohol, ice cream and candy galore for this woman along with a horde of blankets.’

Alex quickly reopened a breach and quickly started looking around Kara's apartment for stuff and quickly grabbed some mint chip ice cream, candy canes, twizzlers and more and quickly grabbed a few blankets before making her way back.

When she breached back and showed the items to Kara she nodded as if to say ‘Good choice.’ before she started to lol around with her X-ray at the walls of the lab and quickly found a room she could use.

She gathered Iris up in her arm, still sobbing, and quickly flew over to the lounge/canteen area and placed the girl gently on the sofa before flying back and picking her sister up.

Kara and Alex did quick work on the situation and wrapped Iris in the blankets and layed out the food in front of her. They cuddled her, yes even Alex, and soothingly spoke to her.

“Hey, it's okay. It'll be okay.” murmured Alex softly stroking the black woman's hair.

“Yeah! We love you Iris!” agreed Kara excitedly and Iris couldn't keep her wet giggle to herself. Kara's excitement was so endearing, it reminded her of Barry.

“Thanks guys.” she finally said, sitting up slightly, wiping away her tears with her hand feeling slightly embarrassed at crying in front of them.

“Hey, a friend in need is a friend in need.” said Kara waving away her gratitude.

“Now, cause it's kinda obvious that you don't want to talk about what happened, and because what we wanted earlier can wait we're going to be watching a few movies. .” declared Alex. “And yes, we can watch the Wizard of Oz.” she added when she saw Kara's face.

“Yay! We're so watching that first!” she said excitedly and they quickly started the movie on the TV. Half way through the movie Iris began speaking.

“When she first came it was so unexpected. But I was so happy. I thought this was the universe's way of saying, ‘Here, sorry for fucking with your life way too many times to be considered fair. Here, have your daughter and raise her for a small period of time.’ pfft. What a joke. She barely even gave me the time of day apart from the occasional cold glance and hidden words.”

Kara nodded and rubbed the girl's shoulder. She knew that you had to let it all out before letting someone interrupt. Alex did the same and slowly pulled Iris I to her chest a bit.

“But ten when I was trying to stop her from flirting with a woman who was almost responsible for the death of hundreds of people, she revealed that in the future I decided to dampen her powers. I dampen her powers. I take away something that I should not have taken away. And Barry stuck between being a good husband to making sure Nora doesn't run off and the others say they aren't taking sides but I can tell that they're all leaning towards Nora’s side and I-. I don't know what to do.” she finally let out. She grabbed the tequila bottle from the table and took a long hulo if it.

“We know that you wouldn't have done it without reason. We know you wouldn't have done it without purpose. We know that you love that little girl to be bits. We know that you're an amazing mother.” said Alex firmly.

“And we also know that you've had enough alcohol to make even Barry drunk.” Kara added and Iris let out a little giggle.

“I know. But Barry's cute when he fusses. He gives me this look as if I'm the only thing in the world worth looking at.” she said happy drunk. Kara and Alex looked over at each other both conveying completely different looks. Kara sap and happiness while Alex showed concern.

“Speak on the angel and he shall arrive.” said Kara, picking up the noise of Barry's heartbeat.

“I thought it was the devil?”

“Please, Barry's the farthest thing from a devil.”

“IRIS!” Barry yelled and Kara could hear the desperateness in his voice.

Barry quickly sped over to the canteen, breathing a sigh of relief when he saw Iris between Alex and Kara before immediately narrowing when he saw the alcohol.

Soon the others joined Barry and Nora looked worriedly at her mother's drunk form.

“Barry!” her mother giggled before anyone else could ask what happened. She tried to walk over to him but she tripped and would have fell if Barry didn't catch her and pick her up, bridal style.

“Iris!”

“I love you so much!” she giggled into his neck where her face was placed. Everyone smiled at the scene in front of them before hearing their hearts break at the next few words. “Do you love me?”

“Of course I do Iris! Why wouldn't I?” he asked, baffled and confused.

“I'm not a good mom. Duh. Nora says I'm absolutely awful! Like Francine! But I don't want to be like Francine! I want to be better! I am better, aren't I?” she pouted at the brunette.

“You're the best!”

“Yay! Do you think I can convince Nora that I'm a good mother? Do you think she'll let me talk to her at all? Ooh, what do you think her favourite flowers are…?” and as her mother continued to ramble, Nora’s guilt continued to grow.

“It's going to take a long time to get her forgiveness. Sure, she might act like she's fine, but honestly she'll constantly feel hurt.” whispered a voice in her ear before she jumped at the sound and saw Kara on her side.

“I know.” she said simply.

“We aren't going to kay it out on you right now because Iris is way too drunk and Barry seems happy.” muttered Lex on her other side. Bira just bowed her head down in shame and nodded.

“If you want her forgiveness try and get to know her. Really know her.” Kara softly whispered into her ear. Nora nodded slightly before speeding over to her mom and giving her a kiss in the cheek.

“Come on old man! Mom needs her sleep and you need your beauty sleep.” she added playfully before turning to her now unconscious mother and Nora couldn't help but admire the smoothness of the skin without worry lines blemishing the skin.

“Yeah lets. And we need to make sure we stop at every available store for mint chip chocolate and ice cream when she wakes up.” he added before the West-Allen family disappeared out of sight.

“Shit! We forgot to ask Barry for help on the CSI case!” exclaimed Alex.

“Forget that! Who's going to clean up this mess!” snapped Caitlin.

“We're visitors, so yeah! Adiós!” Kara said before opening up a breach grabbing Alex, and flying off.

“At least madame West-Allen got a happy ending.” said Sherloque.

“And since you care about that so much you can clean up!” snapped Caitlin, already matching out with Ralph and Cisco following behind her.

“Of course. At least I get a few more hours to go through Nora’s journal.” Sherloque whispered to himself, already beginning to clean up.

#iris west #iris west allen #barry allen #westallen #dctv #alex danvers #nora west allen #caitlin snow #sherloque wells #kara danvers #kara zor el #Iris West friendship #iris west deserves better #iris west defense sqaud #Protective Kara Danvers #Protective Alex Danvers

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thirstyforbishiesimagines · 5 years

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I say Lawrence don't get enough love! So, could I request a tiny switch from a normal DF fanfiction? Instead of something common happening like Lawrence getting jealous of the other guys with the reader, could the READER be jealous? Maybe he's spending too much time working and is accidentally neglecting the MC? (Jealous cuz he's spending more time with work lol) Or maybe Scarlet trying to flirt with him just to piss the reader off cause she knows she likes him? Sorry if this is too much '^^

Orrr, how bout both?! 😉 Hahaha @ancientnile, Sorry this took so long to release! Hope this scenario is still in your interests! Enjoyyy~

Broken Promises - Lawrence x Reader

* image from LucyDreams, Dangerous Fellows

Word Count: 2,654

General / Fluff

Warning: Minor Profanity

Stretching your arms out above you, you relieve your body from the aches paining your stiff shoulders as you wait patiently upon a desk.

Finally… Lawrence should be done with his patrol now.

It had been a while since the last time you spoke with Lawrence and you had been waiting eagerly for the next available moment you’d be able to spend with him. Hopping down excitedly, you make your way towards the Principal’s office with an undeniable spring in your step. As you reach out towards the handle, the door suddenly swings open; causing you to jolt in response.

Standing before you is the tall, chestnut haired male staring down at your flustered expression. His smile was as charming as always, but underneath you could tell that he was quite amused at your reaction to his presence. You feel your blood rising to the surface of your cheeks as your met with your crush’s unwavering attention.

“Evening (Y/N), I was just about to head out.”

“Oh! Am I late?”

I’m sure I didn’t get the time wrong…

Lawrence raises an eyebrow in confusion and an awkward silence lingers before he finally recalled his prior arrangements with you.

“Ah right… I’m sorry (Y/N), something came up. Another time?”

Again?

“Oh…” Was all you were able to manage as your excitement dissipates; unable to hide the clear disappointment of being turned down once more.

Noticing your change in demeanour, Lawrence reaches out toward you. Your (e/c) eyes flutter to a close, anticipating the gentle warmth of his thumb caressing your cool skin as he cups your cheek – a habit of his you came to notice, occurring only when he was struck with guilt. Unfortunately, before you were able to indulge in his touch, a high-pitched voice sings out through the hallway.

“Laaawreeence~”

Your eyes snap open to witness Scarlett sauntering over towards the both of you as Lawrence regretfully withdraws his hand back.

“Looks like I must leave now.” Closing the door behind him, he steps past you while simultaneously sliding his jacket on.

Your heart drops.

“But… you promised you’d definitely be free by 6pm today…”

You had been looking forward to this day since he first suggested that you required basic training in first aid. He offered to personally teach you and obviously, you agreed. Although, you were mainly ecstatic about simply having the chance to spend some quality time with the man you had fallen in love with.

A laugh rings out from your side, “Yeah, free for me,” Scarlett scoffs proudly. “Shall we head off now, Lawrence?”

He nods toward the smug blonde before turning back to you, “Sorry, we’ll talk soon okay?”

Without a chance to respond, he strides off; patting your head apologetically on his way out and leaving you by the doorway. Alone, and feeling somewhat… betrayed.

You promised…

‘Soon’, wasn’t soon enough.

Day after day, there never seemed to be a chance to speak with Lawrence alone as he was often engaging in deep conversations with the others or rushing off to his next task. You knew that having the role of a leader was a strenuous and demanding responsibility, but at this point, it all seemed ridiculous.

Just how busy could he be, that I can’t even get ONE minute alone with him?!

As if right on cue, your attention is then caught by a tall, dark silhouette passing the window of your classroom door; the fur hood of his jacket giving away his identity.

Speak of the devil.

Rushing to slide the door open, you chase him down.

“Lawrence!” You call out; panting as you struggle to keep up with his fast strides.

Seemingly aware of your presence, he doesn’t turn back; instead, continuing to walk but noticeably slowing his pace for you.

“Sorry (Y/N), not right now. I need to meet with Scarlett.”

Your steps come to a halt for a moment before continuing after him. Hearing her name in the gorgeous tones of his voice began to make your blood boil. The one person who caused you constant stress and grief… Out of all people, why her?

How was she able to easily have him to herself at any given moment, yet I literally have to chase after him for a few seconds of his time?

It was all starting to seem oddly suspicious and unfair, leading you to come up with only one possible conclusion as to why everyone else was able to spend time with him… except you.

Reaching out to grab the end of his sleeve, he turns around in curiosity; finally stopping in his tracks.

“Are you… avoiding me?”

Your voice was weak, and your fingers trembled as it grips his jacket, not wanting to let him go. You didn’t know how or for what reason as to why he’d feel the need to, but his constant rejection began to make you feel self-conscious and vulnerable – unwanted.

Did I do something? Did he find me annoying?

I thought… I thought there might have been some kind of ‘spark’ between us…

Was I mistaken? Have I been reading him wrong all this time?

A tender squeeze envelops your quivering hand, “Trust me, (Y/N). Things really have been very busy as of late.”

You eye him questionably, not wanting to fall prey to his excuses yet again. He chuckles lightly at your hesitation, reaching out to grab the ends of your hair and twirling them around his fingers nonchalantly before letting go and smiling warmly – a subtle hint of playfulness dancing within his irises.

“I promise, this time I truly will make some time for you.”

“You said that last time…” You grumble under your breath, the growing amount of broken promises leaving him with a bad track record.

Finding amusement in your sulking manner, his mouth curls up into a sly smirk before bringing your hand up towards his lips and kissing your knuckles delicately.

“This time for sure, cross my heart.”

Face flushing crimson, your eyebrows furrow as you fight against giving in to his charms. His hand then raises toward your face, cupping your cheek as he caresses your skin; the gesture, all too familiar to you.

…He feels guilty.

Expression softening, you sigh in defeat; deciding to place your trust in him once more.

Argh! I’m going to regret this…

“Fine.”

Pleased with your reply, his gaze remains on you a little while longer; his caresses now slow and full of love. It was moments like these that made you question his true feelings for you.

When you do things like this… what exactly am I meant to think, Lawrence?

…What am I to you?

He then leans in and your breath hitches as you realise the closeness of his lips to yours. He pauses for a moment before moving to the side of your face. His breath hot against your skin as he whispers enticingly into your ear, “Until then…”

Paralysed with shock from his sudden forwardness; you simply watch as he heads off, leaving you behind as a complete and utter mess.

Time no longer seemed to consume you as you await the moment you would finally be able to spend with Lawrence, the tone in his parting words keeping your heart aflutter.

Burying your reddened face within your palms, you hide your giddy grin from the others scattered around you – all waiting for Lawrence to arrive for tonight’s meeting. Your little moment of glee ends as soon as it began and a sickeningly sweet scent of perfume wafts toward you, overwhelming your sense of smell. Lamenting internally, you slowly lift your head up and unsurprisingly see Scarlett sitting before you. Smoothing down and fiddling with the ends of her perfectly waved hair, she sighs dramatically.

“(Y/N), what should I do? Do you think that Lawrence has a thing for me?!” She smiles deviously, obviously trying to get a rise out of you.

“Why are you asking me? Go and ask him yourself.” Not wanting to waste your time on her petty games, you stand; hoping to escape and sit elsewhere.

Grabbing both your shoulders, she pushes you back down onto your seat forcefully; overlooking your irritated glare. “Well… you guys are pretty close you know, as friends. So, I thought that maybe he would’ve said something, since like… friends usually talk about things like this to each other.”

I swear… If she emphasises “friend” one more time!

“Oh wait! That’s right, what am I thinking? You haven’t had much time to talk lately, since he was choosing to spend that time alone with me.” She taunts arrogantly.

You know that she was trying to rile you up, to make you crumble. You know that, but… she wasn’t exactly lying either. He had been incessantly turning you down, while also making time for Scarlett instead. Staying silent, you simply try to ignore her; hoping she was now satisfied enough to leave you be.

She wasn’t.

“I mean… I’m honoured but, he knows I’m loyal to-”

“No one caaaares.” The aggravated voice of a certain crimson-haired male interrupts her.

Scarlett turns toward him, thrilled to have caught his attention. “No need to be jealous Zion, I’d never betray you.”

Zion groans in annoyance, clearly exhausted from her unshakeable clingy nature.

Turning back to face you, she leans in close; eyes narrowing into slits of malice. “Anyways, you shouldn’t get your sad little hopes up, since he mentioned that you guys were only friends.”

That’s it.

You rose from your seat, anger seething through your veins. You weren’t sure what you were going to do exactly, but all you knew was that you needed to wipe that conniving grin off her pretty little face.

“What’s going on here?”

Lawrence’s voice interjects, halting you. You stare down at Scarlett; praying that she’d drop the subject and stay quiet.

“Oh Lawrence! Perfect timing! Didn’t you tell me yesterday that (Y/N) was just a friend to you?” Scarlett beams, feeling triumphant.

Turning to face him, you observe Lawrence standing by the doorway, his body language evident with hesitation. His prolonged silence only seemed to confirm Scarlett’s words. Overcome with disappointment, you rush out of the room; disregarding Lawrence’s calls for you to wait.

Sighing heavily, Lawrence tries to go after you; however, a firm hold clings onto his arm.

“Forget about her Lawrence, you can do so much better than that dumb whore. Maybe now, she’ll finally leave the school for good.”

Lawrence’s face darkens, eyes burning with an intense hatred as he glares down dangerously at the blonde.

“Don’t flatter yourself.”

Scarlett’s grasp loosens immediately before staggering back in fear; never having witnessed such a murderous aura emanating from the supposed gentle leader.

Without another word, Lawrence hurries out the door – finally catching up to you at the end of the hallway.

“Wait!”

The scene gives you a sense of déjà vu as Lawrence chases after you. You then quicken your pace, “I’m tired of waiting Lawrence…”

Looks like the tables have turned. Doesn’t feel too great does it, Lawrence?

“Just… Hear me out first.”

“Why?! So you can make up some more excuses as to why you keep blowing me off… for her?!”

Seeing that you had no intentions of stopping, Lawrence grabs hold of your hand and pulls you toward him; wrapping his arms around your waist and securely pinning your body against his.

“It’s not like that. Seeing her was just another part of my job. It was all work, trust me.”

“Right, ‘work’ that required you guys to be alone together constantly. Okay, sure.” You roll your eyes sarcastically, trying your hardest to free yourself from his firm embrace.

“We weren’t alone. Ethan had been assisting me with teaching her combat.”

“But she said-”

“You really trust her words, over mine?”

“I don’t know who to trust anymore Lawrence, you haven’t exactly lived up to your promises.”

He exhales deeply as his eyebrows furrow; clearly hurt from allowing your beliefs in him to deteriorate this far.

“Look, in all honesty, she’s completely useless… I thought maybe teaching her basic combat would at least add some worth to her. That’s it.”

Okay, ouch. Never thought there’d come a day when I’d feel even a tiny bit of pity for Scarlett.

Staring directly into his eyes, you searched for any indication of dishonesty; finding nothing but the warmth and affection that he displayed through his honey-coloured irises. It was the look you had so much faith in, the look that made you feel as if you had a chance in the first place.

But there was still one other thing that bothered you.

“Then what was all that nonsense about back there? You told her we were just ‘friends’?”

Completely expressionless, he slowly raises an eyebrow, “But… aren’t we?”

Not knowing how else to respond, your head drops; shaking it slowly in regret.

Why did I even bother? I’m such an idiot… Of course we were.

It’s just, hearing him say it so indifferently was… heartbreaking.

Unwilling to inflict yourself with any more disappointment and heartache; you attempt to leave once more, but his locked arms keep you in place.

Confused and frustrated, you look back up at him. “Why exactly did you come after me Lawrence?”

“To explain myself, and… to put an end to this friendship of ours.” His tone was downright serious, causing your heart to sink into the pit of your stomach.

Not expecting such cruel intentions behind his pursuit, you begin to stutter from shock. “W-what?”

Releasing his firm hold on you; his hand reaches up to lovingly tuck away the loose strands of hair that had fallen toward your face, the other staying intimately wrapped around your waist.

“Whatever this is, I want to end it…” He pauses for a little while before breaking his façade with a mischievous smirk, “and start a relationship that’s a little more… interesting.”

Blushing profusely, you stand frozen in silence. Your mind, scrambling to comprehend Lawrence’s low, seductive voice as he confesses his desires.

“I’m sorry for keeping you waiting, and for causing you to feel jealous.”

“I wasn’t jealous!” You retaliate peevishly.

He says nothing. His knowing smile being enough proof for you to abandon your pride and admit that his words had struck a nerve in you.

“Okay fine… Maybe I was a little jealous.” You pout grumpily in defeat.

He laughs softly at your adorable form before lightly guiding your chin upwards. “I’m glad… Because now I know, that I can finally do this.”

Leaning forward, he places a gentle kiss upon you. The sweet moment was everything you had hoped for and more. Melting into his touch, you begin to feel lightheaded and weak to your knees. However, not wanting to let him off so easy, you pull away reluctantly – deciding to set a promise he’d be foolish to even consider breaking.

“From now on, whenever you’re too busy with work, you owe me at least two kisses for keeping me waiting!”

Eyes wide with disbelief, he chuckles at your surprisingly innocent bargain. “That doesn’t seem like much of a punishment…”

“It wasn’t meant to be.” You giggle light-heartedly.

“Well then… as a reward for being so patient…” Lawrence presses you against the wall vehemently, allowing you to feel the contours of his lean, yet toned body.

“Just know, that this is what will be waiting for you when I’m done.”

He then crashes his lips onto yours passionately, full of longing and desire. Deepening the kiss, you wrap your arms around his neck hurriedly. His hands come up to tangle within your silky (h/c) tresses; the skilful movements of his tongue intoxicating your senses as you sigh into him with content.

The idea of waiting didn’t seem all too bad for you anymore. In fact, you might even prefer it.

For good things come, to those who wait.

x mod luna

#dangerous fellows #dangerous fellows lawrence #general #fluff #dfel #dfel lawrence #dangerous fellows fanfic #dangerous fellows otome #dangerous fellows game #fanfic #character x reader #lawrence x reader #lawrence #reader fanfiction #reader x #otome #request

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clouds-of-wings · 5 years

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Rating of all Bioware romances I’ve played

(Note: for a lot of people anything under 7/10 seems to basically mean it’s crap, for me everything under 3/10 means crap, 5/10 means it’s okay - because it’s in the middle - and 7/10 is already pretty good. Also if anyone else wants to make a post like this too, that would be cool, I’d like to read it.)

Baldur’s Gate 2

Jaheira - 7/10 lots of long, intelligent conversations I don’t recall at all, it seems weird to romance your mom figure tbh but nice to not have constant drama Aerie - 5/10 here you double as therapist and cause some serious character development. It’s not really interesting though and then she has a kid at the worst possible moment. I’m still torn on whether the whole “if you sleep with her when she first offers, the romance is over” was a good idea. Viconia - 8/10 starter of countless puberties the world over, you can’t just agree with everything she says or she’ll see you as weak and pathetic, which puts this romance head and shoulders over most of the rest already. Crap ending though, and a shame that they didn’t make her bi like they planned. Although, given Drow gender roles, that would have meant having to write 2 completely different romances probably. Anomen - 1/10 uncontroversially terrible, only gets a single point because you can make him betray everything he stands for, then break up with him, strip him of all equipment and leave him wounded in the wilderness, which I have done on at least 2 playthroughs Edwin (fanmade) - 6/10 the romance a million fangirls were waiting for. Starts out great, becomes unrealistic later due to too fast progression and the player’s response choices being too good. No one really talks like that. Haer’dalis (fanmade) - 10/10 the best, the amazing, everything that’s good and pure in the world, I eventually started responding as myself instead of as my character because it felt like he was actually listening to me, peering at me through the screen, and I wanted to know what he would say. The author is a professional writer if I remember correctly, which might expl- ahh no wait I just remembered that the canon romances are written by professional writers too haha oops Yoshimo (fanmade) - ?/10 too buggy to finish but great alt portrait!

Neverwinter Nights

Aribeth - 9/10 a complicated, sensitive and ambitious woman gets a boyfriend who can’t help her. Here you - spoiler alert - help your mentor cope with her husband being sentenced to death by her king for political reasons, fall in love, then she starts a war and you kill her, meet her again in hell and fight the devil together! Best storyline of all romances for sure! Aarin - 3/10 all I remember is that he tells you endless BORING stories of his life, then gives you gifts for enduring them... but my sister likes him Valen - 5/10 very attractive but also kinda boring. I don’t really like the brooding hero type. my sister REALLY liked him though, one bonus point for horns, one for “yes, my love?” Nathyrra - 3/10 I remember absolutely nothing of her romance, actually had to check while writing this whether she even was a romance option. But I didn’t hate it either, apparently.

Neverwinter Nights 2

All main campaign romances - 3/10 they were utterly forgettable, sorry I could not even bring myself to finish either of them - I don’t even remember who the male romance option was. I wanted to romance Sand and/or Shandra, but nooo we had to... I think there was a paladin and that brown-haired druid, right? And some flirts with this manic pixie dream tiefling? Who gets jealous when you romance druid lady but you can’t actually romance her instead? Bishop - 1000/10 I hated the fucker but it’s funny how realistic his “romance” is: the developers cut the plans for his romance but couldn’t be arsed to remove the writing for it that was already in the game (lol this game is such a mess I can’t believe the balls it took to even release it), so you have a guy who keeps insulting you and being a general fedora DOUCHE... and then betrays you and joins your enemies because “my love meant nothing to you”. Unintentionally great writing! Safiya - 3/10 she’s one of my favourite video game characters ever but the romance made me very uncomfortable. Safiya seems like the kind of woman who’d only be attracted to a very specific kind of person and the game doesn’t give you the option of playing as that kind of personality. I ended up breaking up with her because it felt like the game was holding a gun to her head and forcing her to say she loved me. In a way it’s a point in the game’s favour that both joinable female NPCs are complicated, strong-willed women who would realistically probably not be taken in by the rather generic responses the game allows you to give them (out of necessity of course - a game can’t give you 100 dialogue options and let all of them lead to different outcomes, that would take 293482 years to program). Gann - 9/10 honestly my favourite canon romance. Male Viconia, moody, sardonic, tired of being objectified, pretends to be arrogant as a coping mechanism (lol), it’s actually difficult to make him fall in love with you, which is great - I gained influence with him once by calling him ugly, then lost it again for saying I was sorry he lost his parents. Would romance again anytime.

Dragon Age: Origins

Alistair - 8/10 lots and lots of fun. Saw him and my warden more as bros but played the romance just because he’s so much fun to talk to Zevran - 2/10 wanted to romance him until I actually met him. Very much Not My Type. Still had sex with him in the middle of the camp minutes after Alistair confessed his love to me ahahaha Leliana - 3/10 very boring, didn’t get beyond second romance talk Morrigan - ?? have only played the game once & with a woman but would like to try her romance one day.

#bioware #baldur's gate #neverwinter nights #dragon age origins #bioware romances #others should do this too would like to read it :3

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Paper and Fire readthrough - more Chapter 5

We left off six months ago (lol wtf Maz) just as Jess and Dario were about to do something really really stupid (Dario’s arranged to receive a smuggled book).

For those of you who’ve not seen my readthroughs before, these are self-indulgent and focus a lot on Khalila and Dario.

(this gets a bit Jess-heavy, oops)

Dario saying he doesn’t like either Jess or Glain. That may be true, to a degree. I will have more to say in another entry about how Dario and Jess are the two to most quickly and utterly adopt the “group” mentality.

There appears to be a missing time skip marker here, from cafe to tomb:

“That’s why we both need a drink.”

“You can’t be serious,” Jess said, and looked up at the tomb of Alexander the Great.

Jess is so unimpressed by the tomb: “gaudy glory ... overdone tribute to an oversized legend.”

Alexander is called the Boy King

Jess ripping Dario for flirting with “a pretty dark-eyed girl” lol could you both stop noticing Khalila expys please. First usage of peacock here? As a verb, though.

Dario explains what he’s done. Jess is incredibly unhappy. Also, Dario mentions that the mysterious book has cost him “a ruinous amount of his savings”. Mention of savings interests me, coming off the later reveal that Dario’s family won’t pay for him anymore.

Dario interrupting Jess’ frustrated ‘I cannot beliiiiieve you’re doing this’ rant by saying “There wasn’t time,” is kind of heartbreaking too. He just wants to do something, immediately. There’s an earlier bit I didn’t cover in the last readthrough where Jess thinks that Dario and Glain are alike in their tendency to decide very quickly and then deal with the consequences afterwards. I think that might be underestimating both of them, quite frankly, as Jess, at this point, not being very good at understand/trusting other people’s ways of planning.

Jess thinks that Dario takes automata as basically part of the landscape. That might well be true at this point in the series.

“I can’t call it off and I didn’t pick the spot.”

Dario I’m not even Jess and I think this is a red flag.

THEN HE WAVES. DARIO I LOVE YOU BUT NO.

“Why are they chasing us?” Dario demanded, gasping for breath. Jess hadn’t even felt the run. Dario needed to get out from behind his desk more.

Ok so a) I’m fucking cackling at the pettiness. b) Jess, dear, you are a trained runner and a trained soldier, you should be impressed Dario’s keeping pace at ALL, c) given that we know Dario has put some muscle on, I reckon that Dario’s essentially bodybuilding for Maximum Attractiveness rather than training himself. Which seems obvious, doesn't it?

Dario’s eyes go “wild” when he hears someone scream (and probably die), to the point where later we get “some awareness returned to his expression”. That’s a pretty intense reaction.

“What did you think you were playing at, Dario? Were you trying to impress me?”

Dario swallowed hard, opened his mouth, then closed it. “Maybe I was.”

Jess is furious here. Dario tries to respond, and then it looks like he realises his first response is no good so switches to the truth. Interesting that Jess hits on this instantly. Maybe he was just saying it to try and rile Dario, but it’s a fun bit of accidental insight. @blessedharlot some more Dario and Brendan parallels for you??

“the Library that had conquered the rest of the world in [Alexander’s] name.” Idk what to say about this but I like it as an acknowledgement of the Library’s basically imperial power.

Jess telling Dario, ‘Oh, just climb down this massive wall,” and only remembering that’s not a normal activity AFTER Dario shoots him a WTF look is gold

“Go with God,” Dario said. “And also to the devil, scrubber, for making me do this.”

= I am about to die fuck you Jess

Dario PUTS HIS HAND OUT for Jess to SHAKE would you boys just fuck hug already jfc.

Jess escapes, and goes to find Dario. He isn’t in Prakesh’s office, so Jess goes to find Khaliila. She’s in her office. Because of course she is.

I do feel sorry for Khalila at this point, Jess all but falls into a chair. She immediately notices that he's bleeding and tries to take a look. Gets brushed off then, but then gives him his orders lol and refuses to take no for an answer:

“I’ll take you. And you can tell me what put you in this state along the way.”

“Allah must love a fool” lollll well said Khalila.

Ok if I could be bothered to cross-reference this would give us the floor number of Dario’s residence, it’s 4 floors below her office.

Dario is so relieved to see that Jess isn’t dead that he even says it out loud.

Khalila helps him limp to his bed <3

actually do you know what there is so much in this last page:

Dario reflexively showing off for Khalila

... only to be immediately shot down by Jess’ response.

He’s really worried about Jess, and I also love his immediate self-deprecation, but

“You just always have to win, don’t you?” God, this must run deep in Dario. This is one of the few times he’s seen Jess in SIX MONTHS, during which time he’s been a Scholar and Jess definitely has not, he’s ‘got’ Khalila and Jess doesn’t, and he’s still framing everything as which of them is winning and it’s always Jess.

Jess, assigned Dario’s rival from their very first fight

Have I started noting the many uses of ‘mask’ for Dario? I really should.

“I got a man killed for nothing.” Unfortunately, Dario love, you’re about to do even worse than that and get someone who you care about killed for nothing. But it is good to know that that guilt has immediately sunk in.

I pondered keeping count of everyone’s accidental death tolls, but given that that eventually includes an entire city I’m not sure it’s necessary. Lots of guilt, for everyone.

#paper and fire readthrough #at fucking last i am past this chapter #maybe i might do more of this now

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guacameowle · 5 years

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V’s After End - Notes / Opinion

Below the cut will be my reactions, opinions, & spoilers for V’s After Ending episodes & endings. There’s a sprinkling of ~thirst~ & a lot of confusion/screaming throughout. I am afraid I haven’t gone back to proofread the episode reactions, so they’re likely a little messy & misspelled.

Episode reactions are at the top, separated by episode & endings. Long-winded opinion/discussion about the route itself is at the bottom.

Journey below at your own risk! xx

Episode 1

80 hourglasses for EPISODE ONE? Oh this man is EXPENSIIIIVE. How many episodes is this going to be? 8 TOTAL?! Goodness.

JUDGE OR FORGIVE?! Who am I judging & forgiving? Jihyun? Rika? Cauuuuuse... uhhhh.... that might change my answers a bit (a lot)

So this means there is going to be multiple endings, yeah?!

Probably hasn’t even kissed you yet & is already packing up, leaving, & asking you to wait for him. I WAIT FOR NO MAN (Jk I waited for this man for over a year. Fuck.)

Oh shiiiit. He’s leaving me his house?! Ok, I’ll wait. Have fun storming the castle! *waves*

Excuse me but does the news screen on Jumin’s tv in his room show a picture of Rika & a caption underneath that says “More Catfood”???

The bottom of the news reel also says “Does Jumin Han is Gay?” Please, release us. Let it die.

JUUUMIIIIN. DO NOT BLAME YOURSELF. Let us comfort each other in these trying times. *waggles eyebrows*

JAEHEE COMING THROUGH WITH SOME GODDAMN SENSE & LOGIC. MY GIRL!

SOMEONE GET THIS MAN HIS WINE! Ohhh, nevermind he’s been drinking too much. Let’s have some water now, Juju.

This man is mourning & distraught. I am so sad for him. & now they’re making him dependent on alcohol to relieve his stress? Uh, I don’t like where this is going.

If anything happens to Jumin in this ending I swear...

WE HAVE CHATS TOO?! Damn what a complex update!

Wait, Zen WANTS to see MC & Jihyun being lovey dovey? Zen’s an imposter. He’s been replaced. That’s the real secret of this After End.

Oh wait, he said he was lying. Whew.

It is weird giving replies in chats & not seeing little colorful hearts flying everywhere…

Zen coming in HOT with the “Do you think you can forgive Rika?” question. Woooow.

You bet your ass I asked if anyone has heard anything from Ray. I’m going to cry.

NEW SEVEN CG! SO CUTE! VANDERWOOD IN THE RAFT! SO CUUUUUTE!

“He’s an adorable shy man.” Instantly chose this option. Vanderwood is cuuuute. Yes, Seven, please tell Vandy that I called him adorable & shy. Then tell me his reply. Then give him my number.

Yoosung’s got a package. I’M SURE HE DOES. ::eyes emoji::

OH SHIT, JUMIN DROPPING THE DNA BOMB. Wait, riddle me why the fuck Jumin had access to Seven’s DNA in the first place...

Poor Seven, I thought he had already sort of knew/assumed the hacker was his twin. But I guess he didn’t really know until now?

Looks like I’m on the “FORGIVE” path. Unlocked a Jumin’s VA free chat. Alriiiight.

Episode 2

Ray? Omg my eyes teared up. IS HE ALIVE?! WHAT KINDA SHORT TEASE OF A VOICE IS THAT?! OMFGGGGG. D:

Episode 2 & I’m already fucking crying. Great. Awesome. Lovely.

Honestly, I’m glad they’re having this discussion about V keeping all this information to himself about Saeran’s existence & use within Magenta because that’s always had me side-eyeing V HARD. I’m still of the opinion that he should have told at least Seven & Jumin about everything sooner. I get that he wanted to save Rika, but he was responsible for Saeran. I’m still heated.

SAEYOUNG HAS GONE ROGUE!

Mailman route when?! Kidding. His voice is nice though.

“Burn the letter” JESUS, MC. CALM IT DOWN.

RIKA WENT MISSING. OMFGGGG. THIS AFTER END! I JUST WANTED TO KISS JIHYUN. WHAT THE FRICK FRACK IS GOING ON?!

“We found remnants of DNA that matched with those of Luciel scattered about in the remains of Magenta. Since the explosion was of no ordinary size….” My heart hurts. My head hurts. My soul hurts.

This super sad music is just making me feel worse. I hate this. I’m crying again. I’m getting emotional whiplash.

Ray deserved better. Full stop.

Rika & Saeyoung left alone & Ray’s theme starts playing. How fucking dare this game fuck with me. I’m literally lying on the floor in a ball, playing this game & crying. What the hell.

For a second I saw Saeyoung making that fist in the CG & thought he was about to punch Rika.

Wow can y’all believe Jihyun basically Noped the Fuck Out of his own After End?

Hey Siri, turn off Rika’s voice.

Seven is dropping a lot of truth. ::quietly sips my tea::

God, Saeyoung’s prayer to Saeran is heartbreaking. Props to this VA though, damn he’s good.

Still on the “FORGIVE” path. I’m going to have fun going back & taking the judgement path.

Episode 3

Jumin “THERE WILL BE NO MORE SECRETS” Han fucking coming through! My boy! God, I love him so much.

First sun reference we’ve had. I thought there would be more by now.

Jihyun is out there falling in love with an MC in his head that he’s hardly spoken with since he left. That… can’t be healthy, my dude.

Jumin showing up in the goddamn woods in his suit is hot.

Jumin Han is so so good, y’all. This conversation between him & Saeyoung is absolutely amazing. He’s doing his best to comfort & protect at the same time. He asked about Saeran. He’s encouraging Saeyoung to live, helping him understand he’ll come out of this pain & find new reasons to live. He’s struggling too, but he’s doing so much to reach out & help Saeyoung.

The line about creating a new family, one without blood ties, broke me.

Uhhhh…. who was that? “We found him but that woman is with him.” Saeyoung & Rika?

THE STRESS GAVE ZEN A PIMPLE. Can relate.

Hell yeah I flirted with Zen. He is still prettier than starlight.

“Why don’t you come over? :)” MC. GIRL. …. I like the way you think.

Yoosung: “WELL I’M NOT GANDHI.” I fucking lost my shit.

“Should I drive V’s car?” Uhhhhh YES.

“But you’re gonna have to drive thru the night for hours. I’m kind of worried.” Bitch, I’m from Texas. I got this. 8 hours is a SHORT TRIP.

The disrespect. They aren’t going to let me drive. I don’t need a man to drive me.

DID VANDERWOOD JUST? OMG DID HE? DID HE JUST SHOOT SAEYOUNG?! BITCH, I LOVED YOU????? & YOU DID THIS????

Omg my heart. Why do they play with my emotions like this. Whew. WHEWWW.

VANDERWOOD CG!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

Saeyoung is getting a lot of love tonight from his two new dads- Jumin & Vanderwood. Soft love & tough love. Shouting love at you with a gun in your face is new though.

YES! LET’S LOOK FOR A BODY! I STILL HAVE A SHRED OF HOPE RAY IS ALIVE. C’MON CHERITZ, PLEASE.

“Would you mind giving me some spotlight now?” Please let this be foreshadowing. I would eat UP a Vanderwood route.

Is another agency trying to kidnap Saeyoung? I am confusion? His dad?

Still on the “FORGIVE” path. Yoosung’s VA has a cute voice. I liiiiike.

Episode 4

My Yoosung is so sad. This boy has a lot of hate built up in him. First for V, now for Rika &&& V. Goodness.

She? Who the hell is Rika talking about? She who?!

Seems like everyone is concerned that MC will pity or listen to Rika too much. Hmm. Hmm hmmm…

Jumin is getting shit DONE.

2 years flashback. ????

Mika?! Who the fuck? Is this the “she” Rika was talking about earlier?

What he hell kinda narrative? Who is this woman? Supposedly some other girl from the orphanage Rika was a part of. She’s introduced & being used as the device that implanted this idea into Rika’s brain that she had “a devil” inside of her? She’s the reason Rika broke it off with V? Why? This feel like it cheapens everything. & why the hell is she calling Rika “Mina”? Is that Rika’s real name & I just forgot?!

IS RIKA LYING? WHY DID SHE WAIT THIS LONG TO TELL SAEYOUNG ABOUT THIS “STURDY ROOM”? COULD SAERAN REALLY BE ALIVE? Or is she trying to trick Saeyoung into leaving the cabin?!

Ok so the twins’ father has to be in on this somehow. He’s probably the one trying to get Saeyoung, I get that much. Omg... what if the reason they didn’t find proof of Saeran being dead is because his dad snatched up the remains?! Or kidnapped him alive? Or or or

Still on the “FORGIVE” path. This is hard. I want to be mean. 😈

Episode 5

I don’t know why I go into this game thinking I will just get to kiss the pretty boy. Or any boy.

Ok so more hints dropped their dad is probably involved.

“I am waiting for a letter.” GIRL, FUCK V’S LETTER. HE IS NOT HERE. SHIT IS GOING DOWN. LIVE IN THE MOMENT. IF HE WANTS TO BE OFF SMELLING FLOWERS, LET HIM. I AM TIRED.

I hope hope hope they find Saeran. Please please PLEASE.

I FORGOT. IF RAY IS ALIVE HE IS GOING THROUGH DETOX ALONE BURIED UNDER RUBBLE & ASH. I AM LIVID! WHAAAAT! SAVE. HIM.

Zen’s “WOOOOW” made me laugh.

These new CGs are a delight. I like seeing the mix of characters in them, too. Zen’s hand is huge. ::eyes emoji::

Maaan, Yoosung really flipped emotional spectrums so fast about Rika. The boy is certainly driven by his emotions.

These philosophical type chats always blow me away. This game really does get you thinking about social constructs. Fun & educating. Huh.

Getting these dirty boys to wash their hands before eating.

SAERAN MADE IT OUT?!

THAT IS SAERAN’S COUGH. OMG. HE IS ALIVE?!?! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 SAERAN!!!!

Still on “FORGIVE” path.

Episode 6

Jumin, this is a very roundabout way to tell Saeyoung you care about him & just want to look after him. You long-winded, man. I adore you.

SAEYOUNG HAS MORE VALUE THAN JUST WHAT HIS HACKING ABILITIES CAN BRING TO THE TABLE! LEAN ON YOUR FRIENDS/FAMILY, SAEYOUNG. THEY CARE FOR YOU!

10 years?! I don’t know if that is a blessing or a curse. Lol. That’s a lengthy commitment for Saeyoung though.

“Why must we give up one thing once we get something else?” Yeah, Cheritz. Why must we give up one boy once we save the other boy?!?! Hmmmm???? Lmaoooo

Saeyoung in a suit & tie!!!!!!! Niiiiiiice.

How in the hell are they gonna wrap up this story?! It’s gonna be a cliffhanger isn’t it?! Omg...

Did these idiots just straight up leave Zen, Yoosung, & MC in a random cabin in the woods FOR DAYS & go back to civilization on their own? How long does it take to return Rika back to proper authorizes?! Goodness.

WHAT?!

WHAAAAT THE FUCK?!?!

V TOOK SAERAN?! WHEN? HOW? WHAT?

MY JAW JUST POPPED IT DROPPED SO HARD. WHAT THE SHIIIIIT?!?!

Uhhhh lmao uhm why are they dressed like Jedi? Jihyun is giving Obi Wan vibes right now. I’m cackling, when I shouldn’t be. This is supposed to be a serious moment, goddamnit.

I know Jihyun probably thinks he’s doing right by taking care of Saeran but AGAIN WITH THIS DOING IT ON HIS OWN BUSINESS?! Saeyoung is devastated his brother & all the while Jihyun had actually swooped him away for some self-medicated detox tour? Just more & more secrets. I’m tired.

“Let’s wait until detox is done & you don’t wanna murder your brother. So I booked a flight for next week.” A WEEK? HA! YEAH RIGHT! BEST CANCEL THAT.

Oh, he just keeps booking & cancelling flights. Lmao. Ok. I am less judgmental now.

If Saeyoung & Saeran don’t get a reunion.... I will die inside.

Unlocked the “FORGIVE” ending.

Shit that costs 80hg too? I have nearly depleted what I had saved up!

BUT HOLY SHIT Y’ALL. SAERAN IS ALIVE! 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗

“FORGIVE” Ending

This song is hauntingly beautiful.

Who is this speaking?

Is Rika high right now wtf?!

God is a woman.

I am so over all this sun talk. Let. It. Go.

Weren’t security guards left with them at the cabin?! Did Rika just WALK out?!

Of course she’s going to run away & get away with everything. Mhmm ok.

NOW THEY ARE COMING FOR JUMIN’S COMPANY?! I THOUGHT THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE THE GOOD END WTF. I’LL FIGHT. DON’T COME FOR C&R. I’LL THROW DOWN. JUMIN BETTER NOT LOSE EVERYTHING.

So Rika is gone & for no reason Zen & Yoosung & MC are going to stay in the cabin alone? (& not have a threesome?!?!?!)

Jumin is literally putting his own company on the line to protect Saeyoung. This man is amazing. “We’ll rebuild.” My nipples are hard. Jumin has fully aroused me. I would have taken him right on a conference table.

Welcome to Rika’s Ted Talk

Well.... I am pleased she stepped up & laid the truth all out there. Took us years to get here, lads, but we did it!

Twin cribs. Hmmm.

2 YEARS LATER?! SO THIS CONNECTS TO THE GOOD END OF JIHYUN’S ROUTE?!

2 years, huh... I would have shacked up with Jumin looooong before now. That man is a whole snack. Selfless, sweet, handsome, has a cat. I’m thirsty.

Jumin’s become an alcoholic?! Great. /s I guess this is meant to show just how drastic things are? That Jumin, our token rational & logical man, is resorting to a dangerous lifestyle as a means of coping? I’m heartbroken.

“Have I kept you waiting for too long.” Yes.

His gift better be bringing Saeran on stage because if he unveils a white puzzle I will lose my fucking mind. It is nearly 4am. I haven’t slept. I just want a smooch.

Omg I think it’s happening.

It’s gonna happen.

OMGGGGG

Please let there be a CG of this

IT HAPPENED!!!!! THEY REUNITED!!!! OMG!!!!!

LONGEST HELL YEAH BOOOOY OF MY LIFE

Pink suit pink suit pink suit PINK SUIT!!!! 💗

Ohhhh... Saeran has burns all over his face & his hand. Is his whole left side burned? My poor boy.

5 years later?!? (Mmmm think about mid30s Jumin Han though 👌🏻👌🏻👌🏻👌🏻)

*gasp* A BABY!

Holy shit, not a baby. A full child.

Awwww Saeyoung & Saeran live together!!

YEEESSSS. GET THIS LITTLE GIRL INTO STEM!!!!

“When is Uncle Jumin gonna marry.” I marry him every few weeks, little girl. 👌🏻👌🏻👌🏻 when I reread his endings.

“Daddy thinks he will never get married.” I am now sad. I want to marry Jumin.

Jaehee got a promotion. Good for her. It’s what she deserves.

Aw Lucy is cute. Surprised they didn’t give her Jihyun’s hair color.

Their house has a lot of windows. 👀👀👀 Floor to ceiling windows. 👀👀👀 Good for fucking against. 👀👀👀👀

THIS CHILD IS ALREADY LEARNING TO KEEP SECRETS. NOOOOO. BREAK THIS CHAIN!

“Daddy is good with secrets, too.” TRUST ME, LITTLE GIRL. WE KNOW. WE KNOOOW. Y’all the noise I made when I read this line. Scoff wheezing?! Full exasperation.

“But you tell everything to Mommy!” About fucking time, honestly. How long did it take for him to break his secrets habit?

Ohhhhh she’s adopted! That’s why she doesn’t have his hair color. Curious why they didn’t go with the biological child path? I certainly don’t mind adoption. It definitely feels like a sort of tribute to Rika.

Girl already has a crush on Zen. Ha! Giiiirl, same. Jihyun’s reaction was funny.

I wanna ride Zen’s motorcycle & his diiiiiiiii

7 years later & Yoosung is still addicted to LOLOL. Keep it up, Yoosung. Live your best gaming life.

Now she’s plotting murder against her own dad. Goodness. & Yoosung just TOLD her this entire dark plot of the game. Lmaooooo

What happened to Vanderwood? Did he accept working at C&R? How is he? Is he eating? Did he take a vacation away from Saeyoung? I need to know.

Jihyun’s speech to his wife is sweet. Now kiss!

Omg I can’t believe I didn’t get to smooch him at all. What.

What.

100 HOURGLASSES TO RESET?!?! HIGHWAY ROBBERY! I need to save up all over again for when (if) they drop a Saeran After End

“JUDGE” Ending

No, going back to the place you hate most isn’t a sufficient form of punishment for the crimes you’ve committed. You can’t just punish yourself & call it justice. Thank u, next.

Why the fuck is Rika called Serena now?! How many names does she have?!

Is Rika really free & just doing her own apology tour?! No trial or hospital involved? I’m????

Yoosung’s dialogue makes it seem like he still wants Rika around. Flip flop.

I do enjoy that Yoosung is a very emotional character, even if sometimes in the stories I don’t agree with him. He’s always very open & honest with how he feels, even if taken to extremes.

Jaehee’s discussion with Rika was very rational. As expected.

Damn Zen gave her the boot double quick.

Jumin: “You are a minus given a breathing body.” Ohhhhhhh my god. 😮😮😮 & he told her he wants her sent to a lab to have data collected from her. Jumin is ANGRY.

So this discussion with Saeran is meant to be in her own head, yeah?

Ok her discussion with Saeyoung felt real -ish again but then her discussion with Jihyun sounded bizarre & far-fetched again. So has she just been inside her own head this entire time?

What the fuck... is going on.

Wow, let’s toss in some sexual assault via clergymen to spice things up. Alright. /s What the hell is this?

This ending is fucking bonkers

Omg Zen’s robotic reply made me lose my shit. First time I’ve laughed because of this ending.

Poor Vanderwood. He sounded excited to have a line.

Sooo... the ending has just been a mock of how a Rika route would have gone if she had one?

Wait this was all just MC’s dream?! Rika’s dream?

& now Rika is in a coma?!? What? What???!! I’m... tired.

You know what, at least Saeyoung & Saeran are back together. Silver lining. The only silver lining to this madness.

Yoosung got a whole new look again. I’ll admit, for a hot second I thought he had become a cult leader & I was worried.

Sooo... the RFA became some sort of support group for Rika’s victims?????

Jumin doesn’t want to be a part of the meetings because he doesn’t particularly subscribe to their efficiency. Zen just doesn’t want to be involved because he doesn’t want the reminder. Jihyun basically just didn’t show up. So is this to mean the RFA has fallen apart entirely? Rename the group, change your ideals, be more open with each other, & formulate new ways to create charity events/fundraisers. Find a new purpose together! PULL. YOURSELVES. TOGETHER.

Ugh. Ugggghhhhhhh.

So, I’ve sat on this for a little under 24 hours. I let it sink in, in hopes that I could make better sense of it. But honestly, I don’t feel like I have. I feel perhaps this after end should have been listed in a separate section like the secret endings. These episodes certainly read more like a secret ending.

Rather than call this “V’s After End” I think it would make more sense to have called this “V’s Route After End” (or even “Rika’s After End”). This ending felt more like a means of giving closure to the route itself, rather than an acknowledgement of Jihyun’s relationship with MC. We were shown Saeran was alive, we were given Saeyoung & Saeran reunited with one another finally, we got answers as to what happened with Rika & how she ended up in Alaska, we found out why Jihyun was really away for two years, we had Saeyoung & Saeran stepping out from the hunting shadow of their father. Questions were answered, resolutions of sorts were given.

When I think of “after end” I’ll admit, I assumed we would be given a short snippet of story revolving primarily around Jihyun & MC post-good end, like we had for the other characters; not this dramatic saga between the end of the route & before Jihyun returns two years later.

Jihyun’s route revolved around him understanding his relationship with Rika & then distancing himself from that & trying to find himself. His route felt like it had more Jihyun x Rika content than it did Jihyun x MC content. This After End there was hardly any Jihyun x MC content as he was gone essentially the entire time. He really Noped Out of his own After End; I’m still a bit shocked I paid so many hourglasses for V content.... only to not be given V content. I admit, I feel foolish & cheated, somehow. I went in hoping for more content about a character I was interested in, only to be given this dramatic story revolving around a character I don’t particularly care for.

I’m disappointed that there is a Forgive or Judge aspect to this ending.

In the Forgive path/end, the blame of Rika’s crimes & actions is pinned on Rika’s mental illness, choice individuals swaying her into taking particular actions ( “embrace your devil” ), and various circumstances she’s had to endure & live through. By introducing this new character (Mika?), are we meant to blame her instead of Rika? Is she a scapegoat since the idea was originally hers & not Rika’s, even though Rika was the one that enacted everything? On top of this, Yoosung is shown to be reading a psychology book & also comes to the conclusion that what Rika has done isn’t really her fault, but the fault of her circumstances. All of this feels like we were being ushered into forgiving Rika and feeling guilty if we don’t. Provided you do choose to forgive Rika, she finds her own inner happiness, becomes “her own sun”, and goes off to live her life in Alaska; no consequences aside from distance (physical & emotionally) from her once friends/family & developing a negative public appeal. This forgive path directly ties in with Jihyun’s good end, implying it’s the better (intended?) ending. That doesn’t sit well with me. MC shouldn’t have to forgive their captor & tormentor in order to achieve their own “good” end.

In the Judge path/end, the other characters often show hesitancy when MC expresses she will never be able to forgive Rika. There are philosophical chats about what is actually good vs bad, what is just, & who is to decide these sort of standards. We are led to question if holding on to a grudge hurts ourselves or the other party more. And in the end, when we choose to judge Rika, the RFA falls apart; everyone is miserable. Again, the reader is left feeling as if their judgement was too harsh, too cruel, or uncalled for as the consequences of it have seeped out & negatively touched other people. Rika falls into a coma – doesn’t go off to live her life in Alaska, doesn’t find her own inner peace – & this is all because she was blamed or shunned for her actions, as opposed to being forgiven. Why does everyone’s happiness depend on MC forgiving her captor? It all left a sour taste in my mouth.

I understand the discussion of what is truly good vs bad or what is meant to be just & unjust can go fairly deep, but I feel that discussion applies only to circumstances that are in a grey area. What Rika did (attempted murder, abuse, emotional & physical manipulation, drugging/brainwashing) is clear cut wrong. There is no question that these are bad decisions. It should not be up for debate whether these sorts of actions are “good or bad.” While I do not deny that Rika’s past (whatever it fully may be as I have not read her backstory DLC) has attributed to her behaviors, it does not excuse them. I believe that mental illness does not excuse someone’s actions.

These are two very extreme endings - either Rika gets off free from her actions or she becomes comatose & succumbs to a darkness. Why have these drastic differences when you can merge the two; have Rika go through treatment to help her, serve a punishment that is fitting of her crimes, help her grow & understand, then have forgiveness come later? There were several options within gameplay along the lines of “I hope one day I can forgive her” & “I hope she finds her peace.” I see nothing wrong with not having MC forgive Rika but still wish for progress to be made.

Everyone was happier in the end where you forgave Rika, though. And isn’t that what everyone wanted in the end?

Overall, I didn’t mind Yoosung & Zen portraying the voices that provide the philosophical discussions in the routes and this After End. In fact, I enjoyed the chats with them as I tend to find philosophical discussions thought provoking, even if I do not always agree with what these characters were expressing. While MM is marketed as a visual novel romance, it has never shied away from delving into deeper topics & oftentimes tries to provide a lesson. Perhaps this time, the lesson they hoped to get across, didn’t hit the mark with me.

Yoosung’s emotions were very extreme in this After End. I have come to expect Yoosung being very up front, unapologetic, & pushy with his feelings. In a game where so many characters are often keeping secrets, it’s almost refreshing to have a character that is so viscerally open. Personally, I found it interesting that Yoosung’s feeling towards Rika had flipped so drastically. It was almost as if he was now trying to overcompensate for his previous idolization of her.

I’m still of the opinion that the world does not deserve Jumin Han. Through his own pain & suffering, through dealing with the disappearance of his dearest friend, through having to come to terms with the fact that a woman he once considered a close friend turned out to be someone so villainous, he has stepped up & even at one point risked his own company, reputation, & livelihood to protect someone he now considered family. He used his time & resources to help as much as he could. He sat & genuinely listened to Saeyoung & calmly gave input despite Saeyoung verbally lashing out at him. I’ll admit I hated that Jumin seemingly became an alcoholic, or at least heavily dependent on wine, during the stretch of time these After Ends covered. He was suffering, but because he needed to keep his shit together, he used liquor as his means of turning off his brain so he wouldn’t think too heavily about what was happening, otherwise he’d spiral. You can bet your ass that every time there was an option to choose “How is Jumin doing?” I took it, because this man needs someone to look out for him while he’s busy looking after everyone else. I love him. He remains my favorite.

I am thrilled Saeran is alive. I am ecstatic Saeyoung & Saeran got the reunion I had been hoping for (& in both endings!). The doctor part of me really wishes his treatment & recovery occurred in a hospital, instead of some nature tour with Jihyun while wearing Jedi robes, but beggars can’t be choosers in fiction, I suppose. I am glad Saeran is safe, recovering, had the time to heal his relationship with Jihyun, & is living with Saeyoung now. It’s what I wanted for him.

On one hand, I can see why Jihyun kept Saeran being alive a secret (Saeran wasn’t ready to see Saeyoung yet, he was detoxing, he needed more recovery time, he needed the peace away from everything, if Saeyoung knew he would have gone after them immediately rather than wait for some time to pass) but on the other hand, I had had enough of the secrets. I am glad though that the story allowed for Saeyoung to have some hope that Saeran was alive. If the narrative had left no suggestion of hope & Saeyoung had fallen into a depression of sorts, then I feel when Saeran was finally revealed he [Saeyoung] may have not handled it as well. But Saeyoung was given a chance to hope, to grow, to finally relax/settle where he was, & was allowed time himself to recover from everything that happened, which I think helped in how he received Saeran’s reappearance.

Definitive proof that Vanderwood has grown to care about Saeyoung as a person?! Sign me the fuck up. That was amazing. I greatly enjoy Vanderwood.

With Saeyoung, I did enjoy seeing his range of emotion & reactions to this entire ordeal. He was desvasted, broken, distraught, angry. My heart went out to him & I felt his pain. His monologues were great. His reactions felt real. It was a bit jarring to see how readily he was contemplating suicide & how quickly he cast that aside as soon as some other bit of info to cling to came along. I understand, though, that this story took place in a short amount of time & the creators were trying to portray his progression in the time they had. I am tickled that he was offered a 10 year contract with C&R & that he readily accepted. I have enjoyed seeing him begin to accept that he can plant roots somewhere, open up to those around him, & not fear that he’ll one day have to leave.

I was originally miffed that Jihyun went off for two years on his own, seemingly to get over Rika, making MC wait around, before he could commit himself to MC. Knowing now that those two years were actually spent helping to rehabilitate Saeran in seclusion, I am assuaged. A bit.

I am, however, left feeling as though maybe MC isn’t meant to be with Jihyun. I’ve certainly felt as if there is more push to have Jihyun x Rika remain together as Cheritz still doesn’t give, what I would consider, adequate bonding & development between Jihyun x MC (not that 11 days of story in any of the routes could be described as adequate bonding time, lolol). Majority of Jihyun’s scenes (in his route) are about him reminiscing about his past with Rika, rather than discussions that may cultivation a budding relationship with MC. I like Jihyun, but it feels likes it’s been made intentionally hard to romance him. Maybe it was naive of me to hope we would get cute scenes of Jihyun & MC getting to know one another more, or be shown ways Jihyun made it up to MC for being gone for so long, or even a mini date story, or actually seeing the proposal happen, or even a kiss? But I did hope for all of that, so I can’t pretend I’m not sad we didn’t getting to see it. The romance between Jihyun & MC feels brushed aside, like an afterthought, & I was hoping that this After End would finally put it at the forefront of the story told.

While I don’t like how the situation with Rika was handled in either route, & while this After End was not at all what I was expecting (I just wanted to kiss Jihyun, omg), it wasn’t a total loss for me since the twins are reunited & happy, which I think may have been my biggest wish. The voice acting as phenomenal & I can tell how much time & effort Cheritz put into creating this mammoth, complex & thought-provoking story. I’ll be honest & admit that I am upset I spent so many hourglasses for content that seemed packaged as Jihyun content but turned out to be more about Rika, but nothing can be done about that now.

If I had to pick an ending I preferred, it would definitely be the Forgive End, as there is more happiness for everyone I care about when it concludes. It was nice seeing Jihyun & MC have their little family, even if it was a very brief interaction. Their adoption of a little girl feels like a nod to Rika, of sorts. Perhaps that isn’t what Cheritz intended, & maybe there is no hidden meaning to why they adopted at all, but I am happy to see Jihyun & MC having brought a child into their home to create a family with.

The CGs are beautiful. Is there even a way to unlock the title page Jihyun proposal CG? I didn’t get it in my play-through at all.

I didn’t hate this After End, but I definitely didn’t love it either. I guess it kind of falls in a strange floaty grey middle area for me, somewhat flat. Hopefully many of y’all enjoyed it! I look forward to seeing what they may give us for Saeran’s After End. I have a feeling that may be a wild story too.

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Aries: 9/10 // fiery, blunt, driven. easily bored, doesn’t take shit, self-critical but also most of them can’t take criticism. will kill you. will turn into literal satan when angry, watch out lol. walks away v easily but usually comes back if they regret their decision. I get along with most of them since i’m one too lol oops biased

Taurus: 6/10 // loyal, quiet, unpredictable. stubborn & hard headed, will strangle anyone who hurts people they care about, otherwise passive. either an angel or a devil, no in between. can be very inconsiderate. I don’t get along with most of them, not very agreeable, but one of my best friends is one so idk lol

Gemini: 7.5/10 // charismatic, friendly, moody. shady asf, indecisive, definitely fun. will want your man, but can’t steal em lol. big with words, not so much with actions. v romantic. will kill you and cry at your funeral. definitely go out with them for a good time, nice conversations. I get along with most of them + dating one currently.

Cancer: 4/10 // sensitive, strong, soft. will cry 5 times a day then go back to the shit that makes em cry lol. puts up with a lot of unnecessary bullshit, rude asf in some cases. will fight you. isolates themselves then complains about being alone lmao, v creative and thoughtful, full of ideas they rarely see through. I don’t get along with most of them but some of em are nice

Leo: 4.5/10 // confident, sassy, passionate. chins up, acts wild on social media but they’re shy asf irl lmao, calls people peasants & thinks they’re royalty. will talk so much shit but can’t fight. supposed to be loyal but so many cheat??? what happened leo? egotistical, lovesss the attention. they make good friends and have big hearts, v creative. I get along with some of them.

Virgo: 8/10 // responsible, polished, radiant. honestly so mesmerizing? such a sexy aura and alluring to the max. definition of a boss, will not let shit get in their way. honest, can be mean as fuck, will look you up and down condescendingly while you watch & talk shit to your face. could run a country. I get along with most of them, I love their attitudes and the energy they radiate.

Libra: 3/10 // fair, friendly, agreeable. i n d e c i s i v e. can’t stand being disliked or hated. will cut you off and ghost you without saying anything lmao. most likely gonna cheat. very talkative, makes friends very easily. seems angelic but mmm. loves being around people, probably can’t go an hour being alone. I don’t get along with 95% of them lol

Scorpio: 8/10 // mysterious, secretive, understanding. sexy in a dark way, your goth gf and your vampire bf lmao. will change your life for better or for worse, ~usually~ for the worse. will ruin your life if you don’t like them back lol. sexy! most of em can’t lie for shit but some of them are scary with that. probably my favorite sign even though I don’t get along with half of em. v idealistic view on them

Sagittarius: 9/10 // adventurous, dreamers, kind. will say they miss you and disappear for a month lmao. v spiritual and fun, wise. easily bored, pretty restless. there’s a breed of sagittarius that is so annoying?? where’d they come from? the rest of them are all so chill. will talk shit to your face and behind your back, don’t try them. just wants to be happy tbh. i get along with pretty much all of them, definitely the sign I vibe with the most.

Capricorn: 2/10 // creative, funny, impressionable. honestly annoying lol. talks shit about their exes, very condescending. they’ll make you laugh though, and they’re usually thoughtful. will leave you then keep flirting with you lmao. they don’t have a set ideal tbh, they continue to change within themselves as they surround themselves with different people. I’ve probably gotten along with one capricorn in my life so that says a bit.

Aquarius: 7.5/10 // talented, original, popular. i’ve never met an aquarius that didn’t have an impeccable talent in art and/or music. will text you about aliens at 2am. they have so many friends! will talk shit about their partner’s exes and then act nice to their face lol. they’ll probably hang out with you after you hit em up randomly after years of not talking. I get along with most of them

Pisces: 1/10 // gentle, (overly)trusting, artistic. loves playing the victim lol. will be your friend only to have someone to complain to. loves to have fun, too forgiving. loves talking shit but will probably die if they try to fight someone lol. a lot of em can sing~ i don’t think i’ve ever gotten along with any pisces i’ve met tbh, it might happen one day.

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lattaescript · 7 years

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Hidden Hearts, Double Doubts (HS arc pt. 1)

Pairing: Jungkook x Reader x Jimin

Genres: Angst, later Fluff

Word Count: 3.5k

Highschool to College au, fake dating au, Playboy!Jungkook, Childhood friend!Jungkook, BestFriend!Jimin, SonOfCEO!Jungkook,

To show that you are perfectly fine with the fact that your best friend who you had an immense crush on has a girlfriend (which you aren’t), you ask the school’s number one rich playboy (who also happens to be your childhood friend) to be your pretend boyfriend. What could go wrong? (Hint: everything).

If you needed to pull off an impromptu one-act quicker than Shakespeare would have done it just to conceal your feelings for your best friend, then so be it.

“I wonder...between me and you, which one of us is the real liar.”

*There are two “arcs” to this: a high school arc, and a uni arc. In both arcs there will be flashbacks to the reader and Jungkook’s past. Lots of lying to oneself and lots of “unreliable narrating” ahead lol

Pt. 1 Pt. 2

As a child, despite the young age you were, and despite the gazes of pity to you and scorn to your parents, you were able to do everything around the house alone. You were able to master the art of clean laundry when you were just 9 years old, and you were able to cook kimchi stew by the age of 10. Despite the young age you were, you were able to read between the lines that your parents were not able to provide for you a lot of things your fellow kid peers had. Your parents often lamented the fact that you acted a lot more grown-up than your actual age, and there were more times than you can count where your mother held you close and sobbed a profuse amount of apologies.

But you yourself didn’t particularly mind. Well, sometimes, it was just a bit too hard to handle. Like the times where you burned your finger on the stove because the stool you stood on to increase your height fell over. Or the times you became toppled by huge piles of laundry. Or the times where your parents screamed at each other in the middle of the night. But you weren’t lonely. Because you always had a friend by your side. A little boy, who came to comfort you whenever you cried. Because you only ever cried in front of him, and not ever your parents. “Don’t cry,” he would say. “I’ll always be with you. Right by your side. I promise.” And he took your little pinky and he hooked it with yours. “Promise.”

That boy was your literal sunshine, the sunshine you liked to chase after. But the more you chased him, the farther he got away.

You just wanted to enjoy a marathon of Riverdale. That’s all you wanted (at least for now). But you had another guest in your house, and that guest was Jimin. There were many problems with that.

“Hey. Pass me those chips,” Jimin pleads with a voice half an octave higher than his usual tone, pointing towards the chip.

“Um. Well, Jimin, sir. They are kinda closer to you than they are closer to me.”

“But I’m more lazier than you. Please?”

And you felt your eyes roll to the back of your head at the fact you were going to give him the said chips.

You hated when he gave you that goddamn face: the eye smile that elevated his cheeks to his puppy-like eyes but you don’t know how he made it so...seductive.

And you hated when he inadvertently flirted like this.

You reached for the bag that was on his side of the sofa, meaning you had to shift your body over Jimin’s.

And the number one thing that scared you was if he could hear your drumming heartbeat or not.

You and Jimin were the best of friends since freshman year of high school. And during those years of high school, you’ve come to harbor more feelings for him than you intended. But well, you didn’t really wish to carry these said feelings.

After all, you knew he didn’t feel the same.

It kills you that you had to hide your feelings while keeping the same proximity-which happens to be really close- and it didn’t quite help that Jimin knew no limit to his clingy show of affection.

You were in your senior year of high school, and you would be soon celebrating 4 years of friendship with Jimin. But you were hoping that you and Jimin would grow apart after this fourth year, from differences in future plans, different colleges, and all the forthcoming adulting. You thought distance would alleviate your problem. You loved Jimin, but it felt like you couldn’t breathe anymore. So Plan A was to apply to different colleges, possibly somewhere far far away so he can’t hunt you down to get him a massage or Friday movie nights anymore, but close enough to call him every month or so.

Well. Plan A didn’t really work out. Not quite.

Turns out Jimin was quite adamant about attending the same college as you. So no matter how many times you switched decisions on what universities you’d attend, the devil named Jimin would follow through. His major just happened to be offered at every college you chose, and the colleges you chose happened to be decent colleges for both you and him. You gave up after a while, because he would have soon grown suspicious as to why you would be going through such great lengths to attend a different college as he did. The way he would be clingy would unconsciously give you hope. But you wouldn’t let your heart weaken. Because you would be the one (reluctant) consultant to Jimin’s love life. And his interest wasn’t you.

Plan B? You spent hours, days, and months trying to devise a Plan B: How to either rid of the butterflies invading your stomach or rid of Jimin. Forget about him, your mind says. Don’t let him go, your heart says. And you were just as lost in a labyrinth working on a solution to a problem called you caught unrequited feelings for your best friend.

You spent your night marathoning Riverdale with Jimin. Even though the day after was a school night, he successfully convinced you to sacrifice your hours of sleep for watching it for him, since both of your parent work until the late hours of the night. And you swore in your heart it was because the show was so interesting that you gave in in the end.

The next morning, you were walking to school as if you were a zombie. Your mouth widens longer than you expected as your eyes cloud with tears.

“Damn girl, that was a big yawn,” your other close friend, Hana, comments as she side-eyes you.

“I was forced to watch Riverdale with Jimin until late last night,” you sleepily say as you wipe your tears in the corner of your eye.

Hana rolls her eyes in response.

“Mmhmm. Forced. Yes. I would believe you more if you weren’t so whipped for that boy.”

You cringe.

“Hanaaaa.”

“Girl, you gotta be stronger. I know you might not like it but you have to put some effort on your part. Like, learn to say no. Or else just when are you going to drop this unhealthy push-and-pull of your feelings, like you oh so promised to yourself?”

“You know it’s hard. He’s my best friend. He’s been there for me through thick and thin. And to try and cut him off from my life like that means losing someone important to me.”

Because the truth is, you were actually relieved deep down in your heart that your Plan A didn't work.

Hana looks at you blankly before speaking.

“Y’know, are you sure-”

“Hana.”

“No, I honestly may not be an expert on relationships, but the way I see it, he has feelings for you too.”

You sigh. There it is. Only if she knew.

“No. He doesn’t have feelings for me.”

You suddenly hear a low whistle.

“Ooooh. Is my sweetheart heartbroken?”

You turn around faster than the speed of light at that familiar but unwanted voice. What better person to be there than Jeon Jungkook. The ever-so-flashy brown-haired boy walks towards you two with an aura of flare. Hana turns around and widens her eyes.

“What? Jeon Jungkook? Y/N, why is that Jeon Jungkook talking to you?”

Jungkook feigns a hurt facade but smirks soon after. He answered for you considering you were too speechless to respond back in time.

“Hmm? Me and Y/N go way back. It hurts to see she hasn’t told anyone. That we’re friends.”

Hana looks at you incredulously.

You guiltily look away from her shocked gaze and you don’t blame her for her reaction.

After all, it was Jeon Jungkook, the school’s number one playboy, as well as the richest student at that since he was the son of the CEO whose company’s name was pretty much ubiquitous: the Hwayang group.

You finally regain composure and shoot him a glare.

“Jungkook. First of all, I told you time and time again- don’t call me sweetheart. And second of all- we aren’t friends.”

Jungkook’s face did not falter one bit; he maintained his confident composure.

“I guess we aren’t. Unless we are more than that. I mean, if that blonde boy doesn’t want you, I’m always free.”

“Wha-”

When you were about to ask him, How the hell did he know, the timing couldn’t be any worse and the bell for the first class rang.

“Well, sweetheart. Catch you later. My offer still stands, any time,” he winked. And just like that, he breezed past through.

And you see Hana mouth the words: Tell me later. Everything.

The time soon reached lunch, and up until then you have devised numerous ways to tell Hana “everything” like she asked for. You and Hana sat in a discreet table in the corner of the large and bustling school cafeteria. As soon as you set down the food, you glance up quietly at Hana, hoping that she isn’t mad.

And when Hana looks at you with eyes saying that she won’t speak until you speak first, you let out a sigh and gave in.

Hana chokes on and splurts out her juice.

“What?! Childhood friends?! With the Jeon Jungkook?!”

“Shhhhh!!!! Not. So. Loud!”

Your eyes dilate, and you swiftly look left and right of the school cafeteria to see if anyone heard.

After checking that no one did, you sighed a sigh of both relief and exhaustion. Hana’s shock was well-warranted. You were childhood friends with a rich as fuck boy who captured and destroyed girls’ hearts left and right.

“Yeah. So, correction: we were friends.”

“Oh...oh my god Y/N, so you were childhood friends with the one and only Jeon Jungkook, the son of the Hwayang group. Why the hell didn’t you tell me?”

You looked down at your food.

“Because. It’s a fact I’d like to erase from my history,” you solemnly state.

It was true. You and Jungkook were the best of friends, starting from the wee ages of kindergarten. The friendship the two of you shared were perhaps bigger than the friendship you and Jimin had-that was saying a lot. Until a certain incident in middle school, as well as other life-changing events revolving around your family, made you wish you were never friends with him in the first place. At least that was what you told yourself for the past 5 years. You were really good at lying to yourself, after all.

“He...he changed. He was never...um. That person.”

You glance over where Jungkook sat. As usual, he was surrounded by the type of people you personally never wished to be involved with. You swear one was a daughter of a politician. You shudder at the way one girl’s arms cross around his neck.

Before there would be chance of eye contact, you quickly turn away.

The Jungkook you knew and loved as a child was that charming shy boy, the kind of quiet boy that was always polite to adults and children alike, and was known as the “Golden Child” for being virtually good at everything he did. But he was so humble which earned him no jealousy but instead support and popularity from everyone around him, including you. As close friends you were, your parents often praised him-praised him more than they should have praised you- but you were never envious of the attention he got. You were proud. He was your first love.

“But, a lot of things happened. And ultimately, Jungkook was never the same. So after that I decided not to associate myself with him. And besides, someone as high-profile as him shouldn’t be involved with me,” you finish off, clearly still confused.

You thought you knew him. You thought he changed. But it turns out you knew not much about him-back then, and even now. Maybe he was always like the person you see now.Maybe you just didn’t see the person pass the “Golden Child” he was. But even now, you firmly believe that the friendship you had was real. The truth is, you have always wanted to know. What was he hiding under God knows how many masks he uses for the sake of functioning in society? Hana looks at you for a good moment. She knew there were various other things that you weren’t telling her, but she just nodded.

“I see. Well, I guess that’s just how life works, isn’t it.”

“Yeah.”

So why now?

Since the beginning of the week, Jungkook has started approaching you on multiple occasions. All of a sudden.

Before, as in just a couple days ago, Jungkook had only approached you whenever you were with your parents, and even those times amount to no more than twice a year. Your parents, for some odd reason, doted on him so much. But for an even more odd reason, they were able to accept your blatant and sudden distaste for him so quickly. You just didn’t quite understand it.

“Hey, Y/N, Hana! Sorry I’m late.” Jimin arrived late to the show, and he had someone else with him. Your eyes widen to see the person beside Jimin.

“Guys, I want to introduce you guys to someone.”

Jimin grins a smile of a river as he blushes at the person he brought, and holds their hands up to show off the fact that they were intertwined.

“Meet Sohyun. She’s my girlfriend.”

As if the day couldn’t get any worse.

You felt sick to the stomach.

Girlfriend.

Sohyun, Jimin’s girlfriend.

Those three words combined together made a statement that repeated itself like a broken record player in your mind, and with each time you felt the need to throw up.

Sohyun was Jimin’s long time crush, and the subject of his constant love consultings he received from you. You knew that he was chasing after her, but listening to Jimin complain and pine all the time made it seem like she was never going to return his feelings. That part made you hope. Even though you seemingly convinced yourself not to- how could you not have hoped?

You don’t remember much of what happened after. You remember Hana trying to talk to you a couple of times, but you were completely shut off.

You normally would have gone home with Jimin or Hana, but as soon as school ended with the last bell of the day, you ran off. You wanted to avoid Jimin at all costs, because your feelings were in absolute disarray right now and if you weren't careful, you just might spill all of your feelings you kept bottled up inside for years.

You kept running, and you haven’t gone pretty far off campus until you felt a sudden grasp to your hand.

“Hey.”

Jungkook effortlessly caught up to your speed of running without so much as losing his breath. Damn, the kid had always been athletic, hadn’t he?

Why is it that bad things come together all at once?

“Jungkook, please leave me alone. I’m really not-”

“I know. That’s why I can’t leave you alone.”

“You...you know?”

He slowly nodded, his face an expression of something akin to concern.

You slowly grab your head and clench at your hair.

“You...God, you know...”

And at that moment, everything inside you burst. You were a ticking time bomb and Jungkook seemed to be the catalyst that would detonate just about everything you were holding in. You vehemently shook his grip off of you.

“So- so you knew! You knew about Jimin-you knew about my feelings for him. You knew that Jimin had a girlfriend, and that’s why you approached me for the past few days! So what, so you can enjoy seeing me suffer like you did during middle school? Is that it!?” you yelled, your face hot with red and your eyes brimming with tears.

“What? No, I-”

“Then why else? Why else would you suddenly pop up in my life again, and why else would you approach me right now? You said you knew didn’t you? What, did you do a background check on me and him?”

You admit that reason was outside your mind right now. But still, in this moment, you believed you had gathered enough reasons to be pointing daggers at Jungkook right now. It was quite plausible that Jungkook could have done a background check on you or Jimin-he of course had the means to.And you were prepared for every single dagger you’d expect Jungkook to throw back. But instead, he remained silent for a while. The whole playboy attitude he always upheld was nowhere to be seen.

“No. I knew because I have always watched you. Watched you look at him, at least,” he muttered under his breath.

“...H-huh?”

What did he say?

He stared at you. His expression may have seemed blank to most people, but somehow, to you, it inscribed a certain emotion you cannot quite pinpoint. You were confused and the curiosity of this emotion’s name overtook you and your anger for a split second.

Who the hell was Jeon Jungkook again?

And then, his previous all-seriousness was dropped, and Jungkook gave you the smirk. The all-too-familiar smirk.

“Here, Y/N. If you need me, just give me a call. You know what? How’s this: we can start off pretending to be dating. So you can show that blonde boy he’s missing out. The offer still stands sweetheart,” he says, as he sticks a blue post-it note on the back of your palm. And with that, he walks away.

The post-it had his number and a message that said, “Netflix and Chill, Sweetheart”, in a surprisingly neat handwriting.

Shit. What a dick. He knows I can’t throw it away.

Because somewhere in your heart, you knew that there was something more to your- his past than you knew. Because somewhere in your heart, you knew that you were kept hidden in the dark about some things that went on in his life.

Because somewhere. Somewhere deep in your heartbroken-not-too-long-ago and also heartbroken-a-long-time-ago heart, you were absolutely fucking thrilled he was back in your life.

“God, don’t call me sweetheart,” you muttered to thin air.

When you returned home, Jimin was waiting on the sofa. Ah, well, but of course. It seemed that your little escapade from before lost its initial purpose. You cursed the fact that he was able to come and go about your house like his own home, at least in that moment.

“Hey Y/N, I’m really sorry I suddenly sprung the thing between me and Sohyun. I’ve been meaning to tell you-”

“No, Jimin. It’s fine.”

You give him your utmost smile, but even you knew that it was shaped with forcefulness.

It wasn’t fine.

But you were going through a turmoil of emotions right now, both from the reunion with Jungkook and the heartbreak from Jimin.

You were just so tired.

“...Are you sure it’s fine?” Jimin whispered.

“...What?”

And it hits you.

The way Jimin was looking at you.

Pity.

Ah, so he knew. Of course. If Jungkook knew the way you were looking at him, it would be weirder if Jimin didn’t. But you weren’t having it. Honestly, you were just so mentally exhausted you partly felt relieved for getting rid of that constant anxiety that he'll find out your feelings. But at the same time, your pride wasn’t letting you be relieved completely. So was your adamant and foolish hope to retain the friendship that the two of you had.

Just the cherry on top to one of the worst days of my life, huh?

“Yes. I’m fine. I know you always liked her. Congratulations. Jimin, I know you’re happy, but I had a long day. So please, for today, just go home.”

Jimin couldn’t speak. And without saying anything more, he turned around and left.

I’m sorry, Jimin. I’m sorry for liking you.

You ran to your room and slammed the door behind you.

You weren’t about to lose everything. You were going to turn this around.

You were not about to lose your best friend.

And most importantly, maybe you just needed an excuse to see him.

If you needed to pull off an impromptu one-act quicker than Shakespeare would have done it just to conceal your feelings for your best friend, then so be it.

You took out your phone and entered in the number that was on the post-it he gave you. Actually, you already knew his number by heart (hell, it hadn’t changed since middle school), but to somehow convince yourself of whatever action you were about to do, you pretended not to know.

After around 2 rings, Jungkook picked up.

You didn’t waste any time.

“Hey. Is that offer still on?”

And you could hear the smirk on the other end, which made you cringe, but you endured it.

“I knew you’d ask, sweetheart.”

-soo. I’m not too happy with this but I thought I would put it out anyways. I tried to make it the way I wanted it but it turned too messy...lmao

-Pt. 1 is more of the prologue I guess. From pt 2 and on, there should be plot twists and stuff :)

-The reader? Jungkook? Jimin? All of them are lying in their own way, or acting hella suspicious- there’s that. It’s obvious what the reader is lying about, but of Jimin and Jungkook, who are you guys most curious about?? lol

#bangtan #bangtan scenarios #bangtan imagines #bts imagines #jungkook scenarios #jungkook imagines #jungkook angst #jimin angst #jungkook fluff #jimin fluff #jimin scenarios #hhdd

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cristixntm · 4 years

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𝐦𝐞𝐞𝐭 𝐜𝐫𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐚𝐧.

[ XAVIER SERRANO / POLYTROPOS / CAERUS / MUSE 36 ] / [ CRISTIANO MONTERO ] is a [ TWENTY-ONE ] year old [ BUSINESS ADMINISTRATION ] major. [ HE ] is known for being [ CHARMING & CLEVER ] but [ INSOUCIANT & INSENSITIVE ]. when i think of them, i imagine [ A CHEEKY WINK FROM ACROSS THE BAR, LATE NIGHT ‘U UP?’ TEXTS, THE CLENCH OF A JAW BEHIND A COCKY SMIRK, RICH BOYS DON’T HAVE HEARTS ]. and even though they’re a proud HU student now, we all have our roots. theirs run back to them being a [ MHP ( AQUA ) ] graduate. i asked around and it turns out they [ AREN’T ] an AOP student. in their interview, they managed to woo the admissions team by [ PRESENTING A FIVE-FIGURE INVESTMENT PORTFOLIO THAT WAS STARTED FROM $10 ]. i guess that’s all there is to know! unless…

howdy hey frands! i’m jocey ( 24, she/her, est ) & this is my trash son, cristian. not me reusing an old intro and still getting this up late……. mmYEP luv that for me! if you would like to plot, hit that like button & i’ll come your way or feel free to hmu on discord ( jocey#9154 ).

full name : cristiano javier montero de barra nickname : mostly goes by cristian age : twenty-one sexuality : heterosexual hometown : madrid, spain / los angeles, california high school : marble hill prep ( aqua house ) HU house : polytropos major : business administration extracurriculars : eleusinian circle ( legacy ), soccer ( centre forward )

cristian is the second and youngest born to javier montero and alisa de barra. his dad is the CEO of montero properties, the developer behind many big name casinos and resorts around the world, while his mom is an actress who starred in several spanish telenovelas and hollywood films.

originating from spain, the montero family had always been a familiar face in the media, with both cristian and his older sister having large followings on social media. the montero’s had a reputation for living extravagantly and lavishly, and often flaunted their 1% status.

out of the whole family, arguably the one with the most controversial reputation was cristian — one of the heirs to the montero fortune, fuckboy extraordinaire with an impressively long list of ex lovers, and all around entitled trust fund brat ( whEW hate that!! ). taking full advantage of his family name, he was always seen at the exclusive events and partying, even hooking up, with some well-known names.

but with the family name also came the expectation to be the picture perfect son and the responsibility to carry on the family legacy. unfortunately, parents never quite get exactly what they hoped for from their children, do they?

if there’s one thing you should know about cristian is that he will never do anything if he felt forced into it. his parents learned early on that hiring a good PR team and shipping their son off to a boarding school ( marble hill prep ) was easier than forcing him to behave. the fact that cristian’s dad was a MHP and HU alum and the montero’s family were big donors might have helped to keep him from getting expelled on one or two occasions.

still, to some extent, cristian did the bare minimum just to keep his parents off his back and his bank account essentially bottomless. he got good grades ( whether it was completely based on his own merits was a different story ), showed up to important events ( granted he was always drunk and late ), and charmed the pants off of interviewers and his admirers ( sometimes quite literally ).

attending hatchett unversity was just another thing that he did to keep his trust fund ( or so he says ). and who was he to turn down the good ol’ college experience? it was also the perfect way to keep his side business ( read: drug ring ) going.

running a boarding school turned college drug ring was never exactly something he’d planned on doing. like with most things in cristian’s life, the opportunity sort of just fell into his lap and he decided to run with it. call it a bored rich kid thing, but there was just something about earning his own cash in such a risky way that made it that much sweeter.

while those who know cristian may be aware of his connection to this drug ring, most assume that he’s just dealing and/or using his rich boi connections to bring in customers. only a select few know that he’s actually the brains behind the surprisingly well thought-out operation, and he prefers to keep it that way.

cavalier fuckboy with a heart of gold… ( underneath a shit ton of asshole layers, that is ) basically summed up cristian. he always puts out this very lazy, devil-may-care image of himself, and acts like someone who could not give two shits about anyone other than himself. call him a selfish asshole and he’d probably agree with you. but when it comes to his closest friends, the ones he considered to be his real family, there’s nothing he wouldn’t do for them.

most write cristian off as this spoiled, reckless and directionless loose cannon, who maybe had one braincell on a good day. but underneath it all, he’s a lot smarter and more calculating than many people give him credit for and believe it or not, actually does think things through. but he believed that expectations just led to disappointment, so it was better to not have anyone expect anything of you. hence the perfected facade he’s kept up for as long as he could remember.

he is, however, not so smart when it comes to his love life and is notoriously bad at juggling his booty calls. as in, getting all their names mixed up, and running into a booty call number three, who he’d ghosted, when he was with booty call number five. but then again… could it all just be an act to get out of any and all potential relationships? who knows?

WANTED CONNECTIONS. most connections are open to multiple people filling it, unless it’s crossed out. and ofc i’m always open to any ideas not listed here!

RICH BOI SQUAD ━ they’re those guys. the popular, rowdy bros who are always seen together, they throw the best parties and cause a bunch of mayhem together. honestly just a bunch of obnoxious alpha dudes who think they’re hot shit. taken by kennedy king

#1 SINCE DAY 1 ━ cristian’s best bro since the beginning of time ( or close enough ), who’s been there through all of his constant shenanigans and wild times. taken by felix könig

BEST GAL PAL ━ probably one of the few girls cristian’s managed to not try to hook-up with, or constantly flirt with. someone who helps him remember the names of all the girls he’s hooked up with plz lol. it’s rare that he’s protective over someone, but he’d absolutely throw hands for her if needed. taken by caroline fitzgerald

CONFIDANT ━ someone who actually knows cristian very well and sees through his lazy rich boy act. one of the very few people who he’s completely opened up to and genuinely cares about not fucking up their friendship. taken by florence trask

MOM FRIEND ━ basically a mama bear who looks out for cristian and may be one of the few people he actually listens to. doubles as his moral conscience/good influence when he wants to do dumb rich boy things. taken by giada vitale

PSEUDO SIBLING ━ they have a sibling-like relationship, where he’ll annoy them sometimes and they mom friend him. but they’re always looking out for each other. taken by odette könig

CHILDHOOD FRIEND ━ someone he grew up with. they could still be friends to this day, maybe they grew apart, or maybe they never really clicked.

UNLIKELY FRIEND ━ the last person you’d expect to be friends with cristian. possibly met during a school project or something, and they realized that he’s… actually… not that bad?? despite what everyone says about him and his reputation, y/m sees that he’s not really as big of an asshole as he comes off and is actually kind of tolerable one on one. kind of. taken by dorian garcia

FAVOURITE ANNOYANCE ━ they got on cristian’s nerves at first, but eventually, they grew on them. whether he admits it or not, they do have some kind of friendship and deep down, he does enjoy their company. taken by astrid mae

DEALERS ━ basically dealers who work for cristian, who is the supplier. he may seem like a clueless hot mess, but rest assured, he takes care of his own. as long as that loyalty is returned. taken by felix könig

ON & OFF ━ cristian has had a lot of flings and hook-ups, but this person has been the one constant in his life. their “relationship” ( if you can call it that ) is kinda messy because he ( and maybe she as well? ) won’t commit, but is also surprisingly chill.

HOOK-UPS / FWBS ━ whether you like cristian or not, people can’t really deny that he’s good-looking rip. he’s known to have a bit of a roster of girls that he hits with those late night booty-calls/texts. taken by diana radcliffe

PAST HOOK-UPS / FWBS / ONE NIGHT STANDS ━ homeboy has been around the block and back more times than he can count on two hands, so he’s definitely got a long list of ex-luvas. especially ones who hate him cuz he’s the worst™. taken by isadora banks, daphne moon

ENEMIES ━ cristian’s the kind of guy who easily has a lot of people who don’t like him. he practically has no filter, so his big mouth and careless words are bound to rub some people the wrong way. or maybe he screwed y/m over to save his own ass. taken by belinda torres, camille jung

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