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lakesbian · 5 months

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and now for our Checking In With The Dallon Sisters poasting

Panacea shook her head, “Tattletale found a way around my sister’s invincibility. Glory Girl was bitten pretty badly, which is why I didn’t come sooner. I think it hits you harder, psychologically, when you’re pretty much invincible but you get hurt anyways. But we’re okay now. She’s healed but sulking. I- I’m alright. Bump on my head, but I’m okay.”

victoria is demonstrably having a bad time with the previously noted psychological pain of being forcibly reminded that, no matter how hard she tries, she will never be the spotless, invincible, perfect hero she wants to be. the bug bites suck obviously but the "sulking" After being healed is an indicator of where it really hurt--not just physically.

(amy's power reminds me of. do you guys know that one tumblr post about the concept of exploring the horror potential inherent to D&D-esque fantasy healers? like, the horror inherent to being perfectly, magically healed from horrifying injury a hundred times over, and being expected to just get up and keep fighting afterwards, without any regards to how your mental health is doing. that's exactly how amy's power functions: you're made physically better than ever, and expected to get back up and keep being a hero, but you still have the memory of the pain and the lingering psychological aftereffects. but, like, you're fine now, so you just need to get over it and go back to throwing yourself in the line of fire, okay?)

amy is also right off the bat clearly not doing so hot--she's acting very shy and withdrawn and unsure compared to both of her prior appearances. obviously that is due to the horror of some random villain going "btw, remember that you're ontologically an invader into the family you are trying to belong in!" but i think it's probably compounded by the fact that amy is so used to being treated either 1. like she's intrinsically awful/unwanted or 2. like she's only valuable/desirable as a resource by Everyone But Victoria that walking into a room of heroes w/o victoria by her side is always liable to make her insecure and withdrawn.

oh, and the burnout. obviously the severe fucking burnout.

“No, I hated that he would have a normal life, because I’d given up mine. I was scared that I might intentionally make a mistake. That I might let myself fuck up the procedure with this kid. I could have killed him or ruined his life, but it would have eased the pressure. Lowered expectations, you know? Maybe it would have even lowered my own expectations for myself. I… I was just so tired. So exhausted. I actually considered, for the briefest moment, abandoning a child to suffer or die.” “That sounds like more than just exhaustion,” Gallant replied, quietly. “Is this how it starts? Is this the point I start becoming like my father, whoever he was?”

the "every second i rest, someone dies" conundrum would be nightmarish for her even if she had the healthiest social support net on the planet, but her circumstances make it infinitely worse. she's treated by everyone in her "family" but victoria like an invader, and even victoria has unintentionally stressed the importance of using her healing power in the way that the family wants (i.e. to cover up victoria's police brutality) in order to Be A Good Family Member. amy has internalized that being a good dallon is the same as being a good hero, and failing at being a dallon is the same as being overcome by her ontologically criminal roots. so she works herself to the bone, and when she inevitably starts to falter, she views it as an indicator of something intrinsically wrong with her rather than as a sign that her family + society's expectations for her are harmful and unfair.

and dean's advice for her only reinforces this further:

Gallant let out a slow breath, “I could say no, that you’re never going to be like your father. But I’d be lying. Any of us, all of us, we run the risk of finding our own way down that path. I can see the strain you’re experiencing, the stress. I’ve seen people snap because of less. So yeah. It’s possible.”

he suggests that she try to take a break, but only in the service of "so you can heal more people in the long run." he validates the idea that she could go "down that path," as if becoming a villain--becoming A Bad Person--is a risk all heroes have to fight against on an individual level, as opposed to criminality being a result of circumstance and not even inherently immoral. and of course dean thinks that way--he's a millionaire child soldier, his entire life is predicated on individualist thought with ignorance to the ways in which systematic factors impact people. acknowledging that amy is being horrifically mistreated would mean not only acknowledging the flaws in the PRT system, but acknowledging what might lead people to stray from it, and he simply can't do that. it goes counter to every idea that his life is built on.

he never even tells anyone that amy thought about letting a child die, or if he did, it didn't go anywhere. she was desperate for help all along, increasingly ready to explode, and everyone just ignored it. because as she says:

"My sister’s all I’ve got. The only person with no expectations, who knows me as a person. Carol never really wanted me. Mark is clinically depressed, so as nice as he is, he’s too focused on himself to really be a dad. My aunt and uncle are sweet, but they’ve got their own problems. So it’s just me and Victoria. Has been almost from the beginning."

this is also where we see another more blatant sign of her crush on victoria--it's very ambiguous as to whether dean is interpreting amy's feelings towards him as meaning "wants to date me" or "jealous of me for dating victoria" but i think it's probably the former because there's no way he would keep his mouth shut if it was the latter, lmao. really what this scene is doing is introducing all of the stressors amy is experiencing that, because they're going unaddressed, because everyone else is refusing to address them and she has internalized that's how it should be, are going to boil over horrifically later on. that burnout and fear of accidentally-on-purpose making a mistake will lead to truly being unable to heal victoria later on. that sense of obligation, that if she can't keep healing she's turning into her father, will contribute to her being unable to just walk away from victoria instead of trying to heal her. her crush on victoria--the ultimate example of how her should-be family has ostracized her--will boil over in the impulsive brain alteration & the sexual nature of the wretch's design.

and all of this would've been avoidable if not for, as mentioned in the prior post abt this interlude, the dallons' and the PRT's enforcement of wallpapering over the kid heroes' pain to Keep Up The Show.

#wormtime 2 #wormtime 2 arc 3 #wormblr #parahumans

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hitoshiyoshi · 2 years

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shiggy with a chubby partner | shigaraki tomura

synopsis ↬ headcanons of shiggy's love for his chubby significant other

warnings ↬ swearing, 18+ suggestive themes, this is seperated into different section, use of 'girl' here and there, some mention of self-esteem issues but you can skip over it if you don't want to read it

pairing ↬ chubbychaser!shiggy x chubby!fem!reader

tumblr please stop deleting this post from the tags, thank you

hi, welcome to my tedtalk. today i will be presenting why shigaraki tomura would love to have a chubby/plus-size partner. this isn't to make up lies, shiggy likes his girls chubby and that's final. once i started thinking, it all made sense...

Tomura has a thing for chubby girls who are immune to his quirk, you can't change my mind. I think he's someone who has always been cautious of touching other people because of his quirk and probably doesn't want to harm people he cares about.

So, if he learns he can't make you decay, he would go crazy over you. Feeling your skin against his fingertips becomes his drug, he'll do it all the time. I think he is someone who doesn't care about what his partner looks like because he has his own insecurities with his body. He follows the principle "don't judge a book by its cover".

Shiggy wouldn't care if you have acne, stretch marks, freckles, blemishes, or eczema — this guy does not care. He's very accepting of people regardless of their appearance. I think he would be a place of comfort if you ever had any insecurities. He knows the right words to say and make you feel better because of his own experiences.

Shiggy knows the feeling of not fitting in or having the world against him. Look at the people in the League of Villians. Although I'm not completely familiar with some of their backstories, I know that Toga had to repress part of her identity and quirk in order to appease her parents. Touya is similar to Shiggy in the sense that they both had fathers who neglected them emotionally in order to fulfill their own agendas. Jin was alone and rejected by society to the point where he turned to clones of himself in order to fill his void.

Shiggy invited them into a space where they wouldn't need to worry about the opinions of others. They were free to be whoever they wanted without worrying about judgment. There is no way that he wouldn't accept his partner or ostracize her insecurities as flaws.

He craves touch, physical communication, and being loved. Remember when All For One helped him during his origin story? Society rejected him solely based on his appearance, people ignored a helpless child. The first thing AFO offered him was a helping hand and a hug after being outcasted by everyone. This guy craves touch; he wants to touch and be touched by someone.

Let's return to my point about why he'll like chubby girls and people immune to his quirk. Shiggy does not care about your size; the more, the better. It's not even perverted, he just wants to feel your flesh between his fingers. Does he care that you're bigger than him? No, there's more for him to hold.

Being able to fully touch someone without worrying about his quirk is something that I think he would enjoy. He won't even need to wear his stupid gloves; he could get off on the feeling of his palm massaging your squishy thighs.

Shiggy is in love with your tummy and your arms. He doesn't know why you always insisted on wearing long-sleeves or baggy clothing when he was around, but he doesn't push too much. It's your body and your choice, he's okay with it as long as you are.

It wasn't until one summer day when he saw you with a dark hoodie on while you were sweating bullets. Now, he's concerned. He asks why you're wearing that when it's scorching outside and you confess to him about your insecurities. You're worried he might dislike your stretch marks and hate showing your arms too much. Shiggy's staring at you like "...have you seen my skin?"

When you two are alone, he manages to convince you to wear something lighter and show off your arms. Shiggy can't help but want to touch and caress your body, peppering kisses along your arms and shoulders until you relax. He gives you constant affirmations that your body is stunning; Shiggy will do anything to build up your confidence and teach you not to care about what others think. He'll dust anybody that says mean stuff to you, the most overprotective boyfriend.

You might be too scared to let him see your stretch marks but he's so infatuated by them, not in a bad way. He'll trace along the marks and lines before asking why you're insecure about them; Shiggy thinks they look like waves along your skin, each one is so unique.

Shiggy can't help but be the bigger spoon when you guys cuddle, he just loves having your body close to him. His arm is always safely wrapped around your tummy as he inhales your scent and drifts to sleep. Shiggy loves to knead your skin and sides whenever you cuddle, it always reminds him that you won't decay.

He always uses your chest as a pillow; in fact, you'll probably turn into his own personal pillow, he literally can't sleep without you. When he's playing games or watching TV, he loves to rest his head in your lap or chest while you braid his hair.

Shiggy loves to give and receive hugs. Whenever he hugs you, his arms will engulf you in his embrace as he plants kisses along your forehead, cheeks, and neck. Please give him lots of hugs back, his survival depends on physical affection. He loves your cheeks so much, it's his favorite place besides your lips. He'll give them so many pinches, although they sting. Nuzzles his nose in the crook of your neck whenever he's sad or just wants attention.

Shiggy is so observant of your behavior and mood, it's scary. He might not act so considerate to others, but with you, he's your servant. This man depends on your love and affection so much that he'd sulk any time you were mad at him. He loves buying you gifts, especially clothes and things that go with any hobbies you have.

At first, you're a bit skeptical when you see him come home with bags from the mall. When you try them on, they fit perfect — this guy has been memorizing your sizes, where you buy clothes, and your favorite style.

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𝐂𝐇𝐔𝐁𝐁𝐘𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐒𝐄𝐑!𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐆𝐆𝐘 is a chest man, you can't change my mind. Whether you have none or big ol' bitties, he doesn’t care. Somehow his hands always find themselves to your chest, they’re his stress relievers. He’s so heavy on nipple play; it doesn’t matter where he is, his hands always manage to slip under your shirt and graze along your hardened buds. Decays your bra and shirt because they’re always in the way — you’re immune to his quirk but not your clothes…

𝐂𝐇𝐔𝐁𝐁𝐘𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐒𝐄𝐑!𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐆𝐆𝐘 might not have experience — you were probably his first — but any position that gives him control and let’s him get a nice view of your body is best. Traditional missionary, c0wg1rl, mating press, divide and conquer.

𝐂𝐇𝐔𝐁𝐁𝐘𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐒𝐄𝐑!𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐆𝐆𝐘 doesn’t care, he just wants to feel your flesh in his palms. Just wants something to wrap his fingers around, grab. Something tells me he would love choking, to be choked and to choke. Loves to grab your chest for support as he’s pounding on top of you. He will literally get off from watching your body jiggle with each of his thrusts.

𝐂𝐇𝐔𝐁𝐁𝐘𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐒𝐄𝐑!𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐆𝐆𝐘 loves to hold down your thighs, pressing them firmly and close to your tummy while his tongue plays with your swollen clit. His hands glide upwards across your thick thighs, caressing your tummy as he moans into your heat at the taste.

𝐂𝐇𝐔𝐁𝐁𝐘𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐒𝐄𝐑!𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐆𝐆𝐘 is obsessed with you skin, simply because he can touch, feel, and grasp it — I know I’ve said this already, but I really NEED to emphasize. Shiggy is obsessed with fingering… just the feeling of your gummy tight walls clenching around his fingers drives him crazy.

thank you for reading my presentation/rant. have a wonderful day

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lbulldesigns · 18 days

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AITAH FOR GHOSTING MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS FOR THREE YEARS, FOR MY OWN MENTAL HEALTH?

Posted 7th of January, 2024

Disclaimer: mentions of self-harm, violence, and attempted suicide.

Please bear with me. This post will be long.

I (21f) have been estranged from my family for the past three years.

I want to start off by saying that my family aren't bad people. They were never abusive, and they did care for me, but they could never understand me or the full extent of my issues.

Some background. When I was around five, my sister (26f), we'll call her V, and I witnessed our parents' death at the hands of some trigger-happy Enforcers. We don't know why they decided our parents deserved to die, but they did, and we were left orphaned when the authorities couldn't find any other family to take us in.

We bounced around in the system for a while, fearing being torn from each other at any moment, before a family friend was able to foster and then officially adopt us. Our AD (adoptive dad) was a godsend, he was and still (to my knowledge) is the most patient and gentle man I know. Despite looking like a wolf LOL.

Along with gaining a new father we also gained two brothers (twin 23m) the older twin (C) takes after our dad, Kind and patient. The younger twin (M) however is a little nasty bitch, who took upon himself to make my life in particular an ongoing hell. He was never physically abusive, but he was verbally abusive. It felt like not a day would go by when he wasn't putting me down and treating my existence like it was something insignificant. He never had a problem with V, just me.

For the first six years everyone else would defend me, put him in his place, and overall hold him accountable but at some point, they stopped holding him accountable and just expected me to grow a thicker skin. I still remember the day when I went crying to my sister and rather than comfort me, just rolled her eyes and asked if I could maybe not take him seriously because she needed to finish her group project. To her credit, she apologised for that but it was hard to rely on her after that.

Long story short, M made my home life unbearable, and I had bullies at school that made it unbearable. Especially once I was in high school and my best (and only) friend started making friends of his own. I want to say that I was cool with this, but in reality, I turned into an absolute brat and refused to get along with any of them. I wish I didn't, but I just couldn't help but feel betrayed and genuinely acted on those emotions.

And this is how I was with everyone. Constantly betrayed and acting out. It was no wonder everyone I knew got sick of me.

My Dad was constantly worrying about me.

My older brother avoided me as much as possible, to avoid my outbursts.

My sister was just constantly swinging between feeling guilty, angry, and just done with my constant outbursts. Especially when these outbursts were directed at her girlfriend, who constantly talked about how she wanted to be an Enforcer to protect others (take a wild guess why I couldn't like her). V even slapped me for something I said (I can't remember what) to her GF that made her cry.

And my best friend... hates me.

It's my own fault, obviously.

What led to the title of my post is this.

I told my (former) best friend that I loved him and wanted to be with him, and he just raged at me. Apparently, he was seeing someone and thought that I was pulling something in order to break them up. He didn't believe me when I said that I didn't know he was in a relationship (I genuinely didn't know) but he wouldn't hear it and called me an AH and said he was done with me.

I felt humiliated and heartbroken, when I got home that day I was crying and M was the first person, unfortunately, who I came across. And the first thing he does is scoff and roll his eyes, and said "fucking crybaby".

I don't fully remember what happened, I blacked out, but I remember my dad pulling me off of M and his face was a bloody mess. I'm pretty sure that I broke his nose and then some, my dad was so angry. The angriest I've ever seen him; he actually shook me by the shoulders and demanded what was wrong with me. And when I couldn't answer, they told me to get out. Which I did.

I just bolted from the house, the sound of shouting behind me, and just kept running until I got to the Bridge of Progress.

I was just so empty and lost, and the water below looked so tempting. I was about to end it all when my guardian angel showed up.

Ez (21m) was walking by when he saw me about to jump and, without hesitation, climbed up next to me and asked what we were doing.

He saved me that day, without even trying. He listened to my whining and rather than offer me empty promises of "it'll be okay" instead said "girl you messed up. Wanna go on an adventure with me?"

We've been friends ever since.

I took him on his offer and went home to collect some things, when I got there the lights were off so I climbed up to my bedroom window and let myself in. I grabbed my clothes, some saved up cash, my laptop, and my documents (in case I needed them) and left a note for my family saying "bye".

And that was three years ago. I haven't been in contact with them, I don't follow them on social media, and I left my mobile behind so they were never able to get hold of me.

I completely and utterly. Ghosted them. And I don't entirely regret it.

In the last three years I have gained close friends, experienced new things, seen interesting things, and have felt well enough to actually want to seek therapy. My mental health improved greatly, although I still have issues but still am lot better than I was before.

However, I can't help but feel like an AH. My family weren't bad, just fed up. They are genuinely good people (even M) it's just that I bring the worst out in people. But recently I've been wondering if I should reach out or not.

What if doing so disrupts their lives? What if my leaving improved their lives?

I don't know.

AITAH if I reach out to my family after ghosting them for three years?

(This is a fanfic. Please read tags)

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chimerathewriter · 9 months

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Me: Remembering Hobies's mischaracterization into a rude bad boy, and remebering the only reason why they write him as such is because he is a black alt man (some people can't see us as good,innocent or genuinely nice people). Some people think that alt people are rude,melancholic,unavailable emotionally and physically,selfish, and if a black person is black and alt is even worse.

We (black people) have to already hear people say we are loud,rude for no reason.

Let's remeber Hobie is anarchist, anarchy is based on the libertarian idea of an order based on the autonomy and freedom of individuals, opposed to any form of established power, including state power.

That doesn't mean that anarchist want to hurt people or live in chaos (that is the stereotypical anarchy, or literally hate groups calling themselves anarchist but they are not) , they don't believe in how society is built in government that don't help the common person and hierarchy

Hobie is such a good written character that is getting watered-down in fanfictions because people believe in harmful stereotype of alt/black people.

He is the boy who let Gwen a stranger stay at his place, the one who told Gwen it was better to tell the truth to Miles about HQ, the one who taught Miles how to free himself. And the same one who gave Gwen the possibility to save Miles. He believes that everyone deserves to know the truth, and he believes that everyone have the right to create their own destiny. Instead of following what people who are above over of you in hierarchy says

The most ironic part of people writing him being a bad boy or he doesn't take of his hygiene is literally rooted in anti blackness that society created.

And please don't come her and say you have a problems with characterization uwu, the Internet is free

1) Open Google

2) Click search bar

3) Search what is anarchy?

4) Is it anti black to say a black person is rude for no reason (even if 2+2=4 and you should already know the answer)

I can literally go on with how this mischaracterization literally happens with BIPOC characters but I'm quite tired so I save my rant for another day.

And remeber that characters personalities are not based on one joke

Bye...

#hobie x reader #hobie brown x black reader #into the spider verse #spiderman atsv #atsv #atvs spoilers

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andreal831 · 10 days

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I feel guilty: In some ways, I feel Hayley and the Mikaelsons set up Hope to fail. Now, with canon included, I think Hope did find her way - but ironically feel like her story should have been "Klaus, Hayley, and Elijah are what the remaining family tied to Hope but with the three dead - Hope is on her own, and having to navigate a world where she loves her dad but everyone is just as entitled to hate him and come into conflict with that". (Sorry, that's a long one). Basically because of how morally dubious the TVD gang (+ Dorian) could be - it makes sense that they know to separate Klaus's actions from Hope - but what about those who did not have that luxury and only remember a monster that was Klaus? I would use Tyler's story, but in a vague gesture: Hope needs to earn someone's trust after her father (or other relatives) brutalized them and has no way to defend or justify it. Essentially getting someone's trust for her as "Only Hope" and not the surname she's connected to. Or the more common arc, Hope realizing just because she loves her family doesn't mean she can overwrite the centuries of cruel history they left behind.

I'm not saying the Mikaelsons didn't love Hope, but Hope is unique (not just as a tribrid but the only living blood relative who hasn't been alive for a millennia) and had pressure on her that shouldn't be there. Hayley loved her, but should have warned her that living in a town that still had - living - people her dad fought with and hurt should have taken precedence over keeping a torch lit for their relationship. Klaus had his chance to be someone in this world, now Hope has to live in it and make something of herself - in his name or by herself.

(Sorry if this comes off anti. While I have anti thoughts and do like Hope, I think she could have stood to have a better characterized arc.)

I'll start by prefacing this and say that I haven't seen much of Legacies, I only know a lot of the show from edits.

But I agree that the show did a pretty terrible job with really diving into the cycle of trauma and pressures that were put on Hope since before she was even born. They were so focused on making Klaus redeemable and centering Hope around Klaus that they didn't allow for her character to have the development she needed.

I really like what I know about Hope's character and I even look past the wild hoops the writers had to jump through to make her existence possible. But for a show that centered around a magical, miracle baby, they sidelined her character a lot. The writers were so focused on setting up Legacies that they forgot to give the characters the development that was necessary for it to get there.

People love to say that Klaus broke the cycle of abuse with Hope, but he didn't. It just manifested in a different way. He never physically harmed her, but he neglected, abandoned, and emotionally harmed her repeatedly. This trauma is something that Hope doesn't even get to work through.

Hope at 7 years old seems more or less well adjusted. I think Hayley did a good job protecting her from everything. She missed her family in an abstract way because she didn't truly understand what she was missing. She had Hayley and Mary. Klaus allowing himself to be captured and held prisoner was the best thing he ever did for Hope. She was able to live for seven years safe and loved. I may get hate for it, but Hope was better off living as a Marshall away from the Mikaelsons.

I don't necessarily think Hayley was wrong for letting Hope grow up believing the best in her family. At that point, Hope was very isolated. She deserved to have a childhood without it being taken away by the Mikaelsons. But I do think Hayley should have had more conversations with her as she got older, especially if she was going to a school where it was likely to come up.

As soon as she is back with the Mikaelsons, her life once again revolved around what she can do for Klaus. I'm not saying they all didn't love Hope, but she was never allowed to just exist. The fact that she used to keep points when she was "good" or "bad" shows just how much she felt it. She had to be perfect because if she wasn't, she wouldn't be worth their sacrifice or Klaus might slip back into a terrible person.

I've talked about it before, but sending Hope to the Salvatore School made no sense to me. She was safer in New Orleans. She had her mother's pack, he vampires would protect her for Josh and Marcel, Vincent wouldn't let anything happen to her, and she had her mother. Hayley sending her daughter away to boarding school for most of the year made zero sense. I watched the first few episodes of Legacies before TO and I genuinely thought they all died when she was a child because of how she acted with Alaric and the twins. She desperately wanted a family, something Hayley had done a great job providing in the past, but sending her away to school made Hope feel neglected. She was already being neglected by Klaus, she didn't need to feel abandoned by both parents.

And, as you said, she is sent to a school that is run by a man who hates her father, in a town full of people who hate her whole family. She had to listen to people talking about how awful they were, and it was all warranted, which makes it worse for her. She didn't get to attempt to process that on her own. She had to do it while constantly being compared to her family. Alaric was always using it as a way to punish her. The adults clearly were not mature enough to separate Hope from what her family did and they had no business being in charge of her.

The entire terrible legacy of the Mikaelsons was put on Hope's shoulder and the show just ignored that trauma because if they didn't, they would have to admit that Klaus wasn't redeemed, everyone just moved on. So then the people who didn't just move on look like the bad guys. Alaric had every right to hate Klaus, Tyler would have every right to hate both of Hayley and Klaus. They don't owe the Mikaelsons anything, but it is also not fair that Hope has to take the brunt of their anger because Klaus died and got away with literal murder. Hope was a child and shouldn't have had to work to prove herself. She deserved love and support and understanding, like every other child. She deserved to have the space and support to sort out her feelings toward her family, the good and the bad. She deserved to yell at Klaus for abandoning her, to be angry at Elijah for putting that pressure on her, to be angry at her aunts and uncles for abandoning her after her parents died. She deserved to figure out who she was outside of the legacy of pain and torment her family left behind, but as far as I can tell, she is never given that time. All of this would have given her character more depth. Coming to the realization that her family were terrible people but she still loved them is a hard pill to swallow, but it was something she needed to come to terms with. Glorifying Klaus and erasing Hayley, did very little for her development except to play on Klaus' popularity for views.

I love the Mikaelsons but each and every one of them were terrible at being family and terrible people. Hope suffered because of this.

Thanks for the ask! Sorry if I just went on a tangent and didn't fully answer your question.

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fanfic-lover-girl · 9 months

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Double Standards: Draco Malfoy Edition

My main issue with HP is Slytherin vs Gryffindor double standards. I like Draco Malfoy and I find Slytherins very interesting. I understand why people don't like him. But I hate when people demonize Draco for something but are perfectly ok when another character (eg. the golden trio) does the same thing. So based on the post above, I wanted to share a defense for Draco Malfoy. Most of the logic comes from the post above but a good portion of these arguments are mine.

Draco mocks Hufflepuffs

Hagrid: “everyone says Hufflepuff are a lot o’ duffers–”.

Hagrid also says everyone in Slytherin is destined to be evil. Hagrid is a grown man (well half-giant) perpetuating harmful stereotypes to Harry while Draco is a kid (11 yrs old).

Also, Harry did not lift a single finger to defend Cedric and Hufflepuff house when the lions were bashing and mocking Cedric. This is AFTER Cedric, being a good sport and overall great guy, told his housemates to back off Harry. Cedric was too good for these books. Cedric was the hero horrid Harry could only dream of being.

Draco has not mocked Hufflepuffs since his intro chapter.

Draco bullied Ron and Harry

Harry and Ron initiated this antagonism. Harry likened Draco to Dudley after a short conversation. The same Draco who engaged him in conversation despite his poor appearance. Harry never gave Draco a chance before he painted him as evil. Draco ignored Ron on the train until Ron laughed at his name.

Long before Draco did anything truly hurtful to them, the golden trio cheered his misfortune and his fear. For example, before we saw Draco & Hermione exchange dialogue, Hermione danced in joy at Draco getting detention. Harry declared him his arch-enemy and worse than Dudley (the cousin who abused him all his life) and threatened him with physical violence (threatening to shove Draco off his broom). Up until that point, the worst thing Draco did was set them up to be caught by Filch. That makes Draco worse than Dudley lol.

Draco could be doing something innocent, not Harry related, like welcoming a new house member or getting sweets from Mama Narcissa and Harry would be glaring daggers at him like he is committing a crime. These three boys bullied each other.

Draco called Hermione a mudblood

Draco never said a word to Hermione and ignored her existence until she dissed his quidditch skills. Also, Sybill and Hermione call Firenze a horse. Firenze saved Harry's life - you think Hermione could show some respect. Dean brazenly asked Firenze to his face if Hagrid breeds them like thestrals. Please note: All of these actions are somehow better than Umbridge calling centaurs half-breeds lol! According to the narrative, "half-breed" is more offensive than HORSE. Hagrid and Minerva use "muggle" as a slur. Remember that WE are the muggles.

If JKR wanted "mudblood" to be meaningful, she should have shown how mugglebornes struggled in the wizarding world. Such as strained relationships with loved ones in the muggle world (Lily & Petunia's relationship is an example) or discrimination in employment. But the wizarding world at large is on mugglebornes' side.

What impact does Draco calling Hermione a "mudblood" have? Her blood status up till that point has been irrelevant and does not disadvantage her. Compared to the bigotry centaurs and muggles face in HP! I don't give a crap about Draco calling Hermione "mudblood" when no other slurs or discriminatory behaviour seem to matter!

She is hardly bothered by it anyway so who cares? I don't. Draco is not an impressive bully when it comes to Hermione. Draco's bullying of Hermione basically boils down to him calling her "mudblood" and hardly anything else. It's hard for Draco to truly be a bully when Hermione never takes him seriously and he never has any real power over her (except when he is on the inquisitorial squad in book 5).

Draco bullied Neville

Everyone mistreats Neville. Including his own housemates and 'Queen Minerva'. That includes Harry and Ron btw. Harry and Ron laugh at Neville in his face and behind his back. In book 1, they basically tell him he should not stick up for himself when he confronts them as they sneak out. Harry thinks Neville is a loser half the time. I thought the golden trio were Neville's friends but after looking at the books I am horrified. My baby boy Neville deserves better than the rotten trio. For example, Harry compares Peter Pettigrew to Neville! Harry sees Peter as pathetic and the first person that comes to mind for Harry is Neville!!! Poor Neville :(. Draco, however, has not been seen or mentioned bullying Neville since book 1.

Draco is mean to Hagrid

Hagrid may act like a disgraceful, blubbering crybaby half the time, but he is a grown-ass man. He's what...50 or 60. Draco is a preteen/teenager. We have seen Hagrid threaten Draco several times. For example, when Draco rightfully calls out Hagrid in book 4 about the (possibly illegal) blast-ended skrewts, Hagrid uses the ferret incident (a horrific case of child abuse) to silence Draco into submission. It's so outrageous for Draco to backtalk and mock Hagrid but it's hilarious when Hagrid, the adult, abuses the child under his care. The HP fandom is insane!

Hagrid endangers children and he is a horrid teacher and should have been fired! And he would have been fired if not for the meddling rotten trio (specifically Harry freaking Potter). This dimwitted jackass knows Hagrid is a bad teacher and drops his subject in book 6 but is willing to ruin the subject for everyone else because he likes him!!! And he is willing to intimidate/bully his friends (especially Hermione) to comply with his views on Hagrid. Harry is extremely selfish and can go rot in hell with Hagrid! If I were Harry's classmate, I would be tempted to punch him myself!

Draco is punished for saying what everyone else was thinking. No one thinks Hagrid is a good teacher. Including the rotten trio! Why does the narrative and fandom coddle Hagrid and treat him like a damn child?! Why is Draco, the student, constantly bashed for Hagrid, the teacher, being incompetent!?

Edit: Hermione disrespects Trelawney in Divination (in the same chapter I believe) but she's seen as a girl boss. She has no need to be there and clearly hates the subject (what a wonderful use for a time tuner). But everyone has a problem with Draco hurting dumb Hagrid's feelings wah.

Draco does mean impressions of other people

So do Ginny (of Fleur) and Ron (of Hermione). At least Draco's impressions are entertaining! Draco is totally the class clown and/or theatre kid type. He has a captivating and dramatic personality. I think he would thrive in the arts. I can literally see him as the male version of Sharpay :)

Draco called Molly porky

Molly is objectively overweight. Draco is a 14 yr old boy throwing out insults (porky is pretty tame if you ask me). JKR, through Harry, goes into unnecessary detail every other sentence about how fat Dudley is whenever Dudley is around. Dudley is a kid. Why should Molly be excluded from the fat character treatment? Plus Harry is actually very shallow when he describes people. He always focuses on how pretty or ugly someone is. Even in serious situations, you can count on Harry describing Fleur as beautiful, Sirius & Tom as dashingly handsome and Snape as hideous. Ron is quick to label Eileen Prince as ugly when the trio discovers she is Snape's mom in book 6. She has done nothing to them but he insults her because of who her son is. Why is it ok for the trio to mock people's looks but Draco calling Molly fat is a crime worthy of physical abuse?

Draco wanted his classmates to die

So did Ron and Harry. Ron says “shame that his mother likes him” when discussing shoving Draco off a glacier. Harry has fantasised about killing and/or torturing Draco/Snape. And guess what! He almost made his fantasies a reality! He nearly murdered Draco with very short-lived remorse and then attempted to use the same spell (+ multiple crucios) against Snape! What a hero :). So full of love and pure goodness, right Dumbledore (gag).

Draco used the cruciatus curse

Attempted cruciatus. Draco said ‘cruci-‘ before Harry somehow yelled out an entire sectumsempra and almost eviscerated him to death. I think that is the only time Draco has attempted to use the crucio in a fight.

When Harry saw Draco being forced to use the curse in a vision, Draco was terrified, right? Harry on the other hand has fantasised about the cruciatus since the moment he learnt about it (he daydreamed about torturing Snape after Fake Moody's class). Harry has used the curse multiple times before and after Draco's use in book 6 and unlike Draco's attempted crucio, Harry's actually hit. Harry sure loves his dark spells :). For a while, sectumsempra and crucio became Harry's new expeliarmus. Harry is called gallant for using the cruciatus in book 7 too by 'Queen' Minerva, how lovely.

Why is Draco demonized more than Harry by the fandom for this curse? Harry used the curse 3 more times than Draco. He hit Bellatrix and the Carrow guy and attempted to crucio Snape twice in book 6 in the SAME FIGHT. Make it make sense!

Draco (& Lucius) almost got Buckbeak put down

Hagrid, as the teacher, should be held responsible - not the animal. But if the ministry is going to claim Hagrid has no fault, then Buckbeak sure as hell needs to be put down. In our world, we put down animals that attack people, especially kids. Once again, Buckbeak is a wild animal so Hagrid's bad teaching is ultimately to blame. If Hagrid won't man up, then sorry Buckbeak! I know several people hate Lucius but the man is being a decent father. Wouldn't you be outraged if your only kid, and heir, was attacked in a class like Draco was? Be real.

Also in the same book, Hermione shows gross indifference to the well-being of Scabbers - “All cats chase rats, Ron!”. Ron should have slapped this inconsiderate bitch. Ron has the patience of a saint. If my friend acted like this, our friendship is through unless sincere apologies are made. I am not even a pet person but Hermione was utterly disgusting in book 3. Ron deserves better than this girl with the emotional capacity of a teaspoon. Ron always wants to kick Norris the cat. The Weasley twins experiment on animals. Hagrid mistreats the animals under his care (eg. the dead flubberworms and poor Fluffy). Transfiguration class is 99% animal experimentation. But boo-hoo, the ministry is killing Buckbeak...why should I care again about some random wild animal when animal cruelty is a staple of HP?

Draco hates Muggleborns

Draco is supposed to be from a family of blood supremacists. Yet he willingly engaged Harry in conversation despite Harry being dressed in unkempt MUGGLE clothes and not knowing who he was. So you can't say Draco spoke to Harry because of his fame (unlike Ron Weasley who deliberately sought out Harry Potter). Harry is the one who judged him because Draco was talking about things that are normal to him, ironically proving Draco’s point — “I really don’t think they should let the other sort in, do you? They’re just not the same, they’ve never been brought up to know our ways” — true. How hilarious.

Anyway, all wizards, so-called light side included, hate/mistreat muggles. But it's ok because JKR wrote it that way. It's ok for wizards to invade muggles' privacy and threaten them. You don't see Draco attacking mugglebornes like this when you meet him. He just thinks wizards should keep to themselves. As a muggle, I approve of this message. I don't want these sadistic wizards near me.

So how did Draco go from this in book 1 to the boy in book 2 declaring "mudbloods are next"? I have no clue. Draco was almost creepy in book 2. I think Draco had a grudge against Hermione and was childishly acting out. Draco is a pampered 12 yr old, what does he know about the horrors of death? Heck, sometimes I wished I was aborted when I was an angsty preteen. Not knowing what exactly I was wishing for myself. Plus, I believe JKR was using Draco as a lazy plot device in book 2.

Plus, I think his negative interactions with the golden trio made him more radicalized as time went on. We don't see Draco calling other students "mudblood", right? I don't recall Draco harassing people like Justin. Draco seems to have a "Hermione" problem, not a "mudblood" problem.

Bonus: James Potter bullied Snape to first impress and then later blackmail Lily, a muggleborne, into dating him. And when said muggleborne girl retaliated...James threatened to hex her. James literally threatened Lily with violence for (barely) attempting to defend Snape. The girl he supposedly has a crush on! James Potter is supposed to be from a muggleborne friendly, light-side family haha. At least Draco was upfront that he despised Hermione. I have read Dramione fics with healthier foundations than canon Jily - not that I like Dramione as a ship. But sure Dramione is the only toxic ship around here!

Please add any other double standards I missed! (Book) Canon Draco fans need to call out the unfair treatment of Draco! Draco is not the evil monster people paint him to be. And you can like him too without warping him into this pathetic, bland, crybaby, gay fanon version. I used to like Fanon Draco when I just started reading HP fanfiction and did not know any better, but book Draco is so much more entertaining, colourful and even charming :)

You don't have to like Draco. But stop giving the heroes passes for the same awful actions.

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It really is weird seeing shouto Stan’s complain about him not being in the fight with Shigaraki, while bakugou Stans out here hoping he gets a storyline that’s not about Deku or revolves around Deku or has to have Deku mentioned or named. (I’m not talking about bakudeku shippers), and he finally gets to have his moment that belongs to him and him alone.

Like, I would love to have bakugou be in Shoutos position where he had his own story even if he’s not in the final fight. But it seems you would have rather Shouto revolve around Deku as long as he’s in the final fight.

It really is weird.

I think for me, it's a bit like how some Bakugou fans do not like that Bakugou's character revolves around Deku ONLY (lately at least), some Shouto-fans don't like that his character revolves around his family ONLY.

I think, for many of us, Shouto being an "Origin" character created an expectation that there will be a story-line where all Origin-characters are brought together for some kind of final conclusion and all their actions will matter to bring an end to the ultimate evil. But as things stand, Shouto's storyline thematically is not different from Uraraka's, who doesn't have Origin/Rising chapters, even if HK had opportunities to give them to her. Shouto is also tied to All Might, just like Bakugou and Deku in a lot of the framing where the three of them are shown together (while this is not the case for Ochako).

Also, in terms of character arc, while it is certainly noble of Shouto to step up for his family and choosing them every time because Endeavor fails to do so, it's also kind of ironic. If you remember, Shouto's Origin started with a declaration of emancipation: "You decide who you want to be", and the person who represents this freedom for him is All Might. Yet when Shouto is faced with the choice of helping his best friend / be a factor in the main fight or go after his brother, it's All Might himself who tells him he has to choose his family to be his best self:

The message "you are not bound by his blood" is a bit hollow - because the reality is that Shouto is bound by Endeavor's legacy still. He can't choose where he wants to be.

Yes, he can choose to act differently than his father, but he - the youngest child, who himself has been abused - is told by the narrative that his path to be a hero is to carry the burden for his father's sins. Shouto doesn't get feel-good fights to show off his skills - he has to try to stop his suicidal brother and (maybe) save him. He only can try to put out the fire while being a punching bag for everyone in the family. (So that Endeavor can go and play No 1 hero and have a flashy fight with AFO). Shouto took the most severe physical harm originating from Endeavor's sins (his scar, the cruel training, getting burnt by Touya) - much more than Endeavor ever did.

And his separation from the class that started after Dabi's Dance continues - we are told again and again that Shouto can't be part of his class, of his friends. He can't be with them at UA, he can't get an umbrella of reconciliation from the civilians, he can't join his friends because of Endeavor.

And I think it's a bit depressing for an arc that started about personal freedom and choices to end with a narrative where the abused kid has no choice but to save his abuser, to take all the punches in place of his abuser, where his talent and passion can't shine and where he can't be there for his friends or do anything meaningful for the final resolution because he's trapped running around trying to put out the fire his father created and ran away from.

And even with all the effort, it may end up that everything he's done is in vain, because Touya still hates him, and might still die anyway. Even if Shouto was saying how it was his choice to face Touya, but the question is, did he ever have a real choice or was left to pick up the pieces by Endeavor

And I am not complaining about Bakugou getting his moment. I'm glad he got his moment of saving All Might and I'm glad that he gets to fight AFO with his own power and get given a gauntlet by All Might and get given shining lights of legacy of the Symbol of Peace as the world watches on. All the feel-good moments after a lot of set-backs and suffering.

I simply want something like that for Shouto too, who has also suffered enough. So he too can have a big smile on his face and be in a fight that doesn't tear his heart to shreds and help the people who helped him, instead of helping ONLY the person who broke his family, took his mom and childhood and made his life a living hell.

Bakugou's narrative is one of redemption where he overcame his own past, righted his wrongs, went down to hell but came back stronger and better and he gets to be lifted up and honored in the story in a personal triumph.

Shouto's narrative is one of collective punishment, where he has to pay for his abuser's sins over and over, right his wrongs, getting stuck in the past, getting nerf after nerf linked to Endeavor and never getting any personal reward or triumph. (While the same time Endeavor gets to do badass things and be lifted in fandom like some ultimate poster boy of redemption - when he doesn't have to do anything for his victims and in fact the ones doing the atoning are his victims).

If the narrative is a hopeful "good deeds get their reward", then I'm still waiting for Shouto's reward. And I feel like the missing story-beat for me is for Endeavor to let him go when there is a call for back-up, and him staying with Touya, so Shouto can go and help Deku. It would also be a kind of "reward / validation" for Deku and All Might for setting Shouto on the path of saving his family if the culmination of the Todoroki family's power would come back to help them in turn.

#c1a asks #todoroki shouto #bnha meta #all might #endeavor #the abused child having to carry the sins of his abusers is not an uplifting narrative

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the magicians s1e4

filed under episodes you couldn't make today and that you shouldn't have made then. not that i don't love it because I DO but whew

watercolors!

(hamster who was turned into a human boy voice) no, my life is my life, this is--

i do think we need to grapple with how dumb tutting looks out of context

that napkin full of technicolor pills would've done numbers on 2014 tumblr at least

the physical kids is as suggestive a name for that group as they deserve

the moths are real bad !!!!!

ALICE'S BROW RAISE. i'm gonna find a screenshot of it i can't let it go

that's an episode of lost in space-- star trek-- what?-- that's an episode of star trek-- fine, that's an episode of star trek

there is so much eyebrow acting in this episode actually

in my first watch i was so pro-julia the whole time because quentin hadn't become an all-time little meow meow for me yet god this was always a terrible thing for her. the fake engagement is a particularly cruel dig like... how can i torture q the most? tell him nothing that's brought him joy and purpose in the last few years was real, tell him he's being left behind, tell him people are moving forward without him, everyone else knows how to be normal but him

ohhhhhhh julia did you want to see the fireworks? did you? rookie gaslighting mistake miss wicker

laughing at you? what kind of a friend would do that? AND THEN THE SMIRK ohhhhh she and marina could have been so good together

one thing that's real? you're always a raging dick

someone in the discord said penny is leaning into it so hard and i have to agree like... they should not have done this but at least arjun gets to have fun

[whispers] hashtag agree

in 2015 singing shake it off was one of the strangest things a man on television could do but eight years later it just seems like me watching myself in my apartment any given friday night

i understand the logistics that inhibit the pairing but alice and eliot had so much potential like at LEAST platonically

okay all of the stuff above was awful of julia but actually the most awful thing was making q think he'd harm his father (and that that harm was linked to magic use! which will come back around when magic shuts off!)

penny helping by shouting at quentin as loud and aggressively as he can :-) you racist motherfucker !!!!!!

julia and marina having a sexy raspy voice-off

high-end designer cooperative magic... said while wearing her little leather bondage outfit... hitting on kady... affectionately, you melodramatic cunt

our little q :-) he knows where he would take him on a first fucking date

do we know what marina's discipline was/would've been? ik it's not like (barf) hogwarts houses or whatever but i'm curious where brakebills placed her

jesus christ i didn't remember he was gonna get a fucking lobotomy

there's a lot of eye horror in this show which is just the worst

ughhhh bad episode for julia

god eliot is so obvious right from the start it is insane... patting q's head giving him things... fuckin loverboy

poor you and your taste of honey worse than none at all :-( marina they could NEVER make me hate you

#unauthorized magicians rewatch #the magicians #text

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rxttingsblog · 2 years

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𓆩❤︎𓆪 Pacify him 𓆩❤︎𓆪

—Yandere!Peter ballard/Henry creel, dark!002 x hurt!Reader

(no threesome shit btw)

!! READER IS 18 !!

Summary: Reader is in a abusive/toxic relationship with 002. But little does she know that Peter is actually in love with her and he does everything in his power to win her heart. Even if it comes down to killing everyone else she loves. One night, 002 hurts the reader pretty badly. Peter takes notice and confronts her. But 002 catches them and now the Reader must suffer greatly.

(( In this AU, 002 is over 20 and a patient at Hawkins lab. I know 20+ isn’t his canon age but in this story he is ))

WARNING: Forced relationship, age-gap, emotional & physical abuse, love triangle, jealousy issues, grooming, attachment issues, reader is kinda dumb, 002 is a dick, reader is innocent, mature themes, mentions of murder, explicit content, dark themes inside Hawkins lab!!

—MIND YOU! i do not support any of these actions. This was made for the hell of it. I find all these actions absolutely disgusting but i’m the type of person to write about dark themes like these! If you’re easily triggered then please don’t read! i would hate to accidentally trigger someone.

It was just the same old saying: “At first, he was the nicest guy i’ve ever met..”

That’s basically the right quote to use to summarize your ongoing secret relationship with no other than 002. Papa forbidden any sort of relationships, your rules were very strict and if someone were to ever break them they’d suffer greatly. Papa had the audacity to make his punishments extra cruel. But you and 002 were “thriving” after being boyfriend and girlfriend for almost 7 months now you still haven’t gotten caught. Which you were surprised by but also greatly disappointed.

You met 002 when you were sent to the lab at 12. Unlike then others, you were born with abilities. At first you thought all the other test subjects were born with powers too but according to Papa’s words they were not. To be frank, it really confused you. But being dumb at the time you didn’t investigate any further into it. At the beginning, 002 wasn’t actually the first one to pry into your life. It was actually a friendly orderly who went by the name of “Peter”

As time flew by and the older you got, Peter would try and stir up conversation with you at any chance that was given to him. But because of your shyness you barely opened up. In a way you appreciated him for not being rude about it though. He actually understood your personality. The orderly was always very kind to you despite your differences. You always knew you were different from the others and because of that you were bullied relentlessly.

Peter was always there for you though, but little did you know that was only the beginning of a brand new obsession of his. After all this time, you only looked upon him as a care taker or a friend. He looked at you as if you were his one and only. However, you never could comprehend his looks. Love was the last thing on your mind.

Since you only saw Peter as a friend, so you had no problem dating 002. But deep down you knew Peter was aware of this relationship. But he put no stop to it. You’d see him glaring hatefully at the both of you. His angered gaze wasn’t directed towards you, mostly towards 002. It became a concern of yours but you never brought it up. This relationship concept was brand new to you. 002 was intimidating but he was never mean to you like how he was towards his fellow test subjects. Before he asked you out he’s constantly steal the spotlight from Peter. He would force himself upon you but you never saw it as harmful at first.

When the relationship was official, 002 made you drop Peter, drop all your very few friends, and made you obsessed with him and him only.

“Remember, if i catch you talking to that creepy orderly again, you’ll suffer greatly. You’re weak and pathetic..” He would whisper into your ear during the night as you tensed up in his embrace.

It wasn’t long until you found yourself drifting away from Peter. Which Peter was deeply hurt by. He saw the way you looked at 002. If only you looked at him that way. You did not belong to any other man. In his mind, you were his. He was going to fulfill his dream and make it come true. Peter was very intelligent. Always spectating you and 002.

002, a liar, a disgusting useless human who was only a copy of him. He’d cast the man murderous glances every time he touched you. Peter knew the whole thing as the relationship unfolded. He noticed how at first 002 would protect you, made you feel loved. Now he was distant and harsh towards you. The only thing Peter didn’t notice was the beatings 002 gave you every time you disobeyed or did something he wasn’t fond of.

002 knew damn well what he was doing and what he had in store for you. When you hit 16 was when he started his twisted game of cat and mouse with you. He took advantage of your kindness, found out every aspect of you, he was beyond determined to break down your morals. Your weakness and pureness would only feed his ego. The only thing he liked about you was your power, your power he was actually envy of.

You vividly remember him pressuring you to be with him when you were 16 and he was 19. You never knew it was wrong so you accepted. Besides, he promised that this would help you. Then 002 told you to ‘keep it a secret’ in which you understood due to Papa’s uptight rules. it’s not like you could make this public.

After the perfect stage passed over, 002 began to get more and more cruel over time. That was when the alarm bells started to go off in your head. He wasn’t afraid to get physical with you. When you tried to stick up for yourself against his constant tormenting the situation would always end up with you and tears and bawling on the floor in utter pain. You’d ask yourself questions like: Is this love? Does he love me? Why am i not telling anyone about this? Why am i not screaming? Is this wrong? Is this okay? Why does he hurt me like this?

A trait 002 was infamous for was showing off. There was never a day where he wasn’t talking about how powerful he truly was. If only someone could just pacify him to get him to shut his trap for once.

You knew this relationship was toxic now, after the multiple times he hurt you and mocked you with his older friends. You’d bring up problems in y’all’s relationship, such as the age problem, and how he manipulated you when you were only a kid. But he’d brush it off and say: “That’s all in your head, Y/N.” or “Age is only a number.. babe”

Most of the time, you believed it. You wanted to leave but at the same time you couldn’t. Your heart was too attached. You felt the need to cling to him as if he was a life line. It’s not like you could talk to anyone else, he forbid it. Another reason why you and Peter never talked. But boy, it wasn’t rare for Peter to still glare with those dangerous cold eyes of his. Sometimes you wish that Peter would save you. Your heart called out for him, you took great comfort in him.

But maybe.. Peter didn’t care either. Because despite his glances, at this point, you were fully convinced that no one would save you. You felt trapped in your head, you were broken, a person that could never be fixed again.

Skipping to present time, you now lie on the ground. Slipping in and out of unconsciousness after 002 severely injured you. Cuts, scabs, and bruises were viable and engraved into your soft skin.

“Why can’t you just make me happy? Is that so hard for you?” 002 sneered quietly, while looming over your body. Fury illuminated in his dark blue orbs.

“I’m s..sorry-” You managed to croak out after a few agonizing seconds. Your body shivering as your lip trembled with rapid fear that only increased in 002’s presence.

“No. You’re. Not.” 002 firmly stated, “If you were, you wouldn’t be such a stupid bitch and keep disobeying me!” He now crouched down to your level and cupped your face with his bigger hand. He spat in your face before slamming you down into the cold tiled floor. You let out a muffled whine when your face made contact with the floor.

002 was upset because you refused to sleep with him. He secretly broke into your room that night and proceeded to initiate that the two of you have sex. First off, you declined it. You were a virgin and barley understood the actual meaning of sex. Second of all, the chances of getting caught would be at it’s peak. You didn’t want him or you to get into trouble by the sadistic guards that roamed the hallways during the night shift.

When you still refused to do it after a shit ton of convincing was when he made the first strike. One strike followed after another until your body felt paralyzed.

You couldn’t hold back your tears, they hastily cascaded down your warm cheeks, 002 only snicked in response and with that he was out of your room in the blink of an eye. You hated yourself for letting this happen, why couldn’t you just be stronger? But even after all the torture he’s put you through.. you just couldn’t bring yourself to fully hate him.

It was infuriating, because you knew no matter what he did, you’d still love him.

*THE FOLLOWING MORNING*

You slowly walked down the dark corridor of the Lab. Usually in the morning, your “siblings” would go inside the rainbow room for 30 minutes of playtime. You braced yourself before you opened the doors, unfortunately your wounds were still noticeable. Thankfully, most of them engraved into your torso or shoulder blades since it was easy to cover that up. But you had some dark bruises on your neck and cuts on your arms. A foul marking any being could notice from afar.

As soon as you pried open the two heavy metal doors. You made direct eye contact with Peter. to your dismay, no one else was in sight. Just you and him. In a way, that’s even worst. Right when he caught a glimpse of your injured figure was when his face contoured into a saddened scowl in that exact moment. That was your fight or flight mode response and unsurprisingly you chose flight. Within an instant the doors were shut and your walking pace quickened as you withdrew yourself from the empty rainbow room.

Before your walking pace was even able to increase, you came to an abrupt halt as Peter took a tight hold of your wrist. Stopping you dead in your tracks. Now you’re definitely screwed.

Your back was facing him for a couple of hot seconds before he made the choice of spinning you around so that you’d face him. His hands subconsciously were brought up to your cheeks. Flashbacks of 002 abusing you ran throughout your mind and with that you winced, shoving yourself away from his touch. Peter looked horrified for you.

“Don’t touch me.” Your voice comes out barely as a whisper but it was audible for Peter. Your eyes remained glued to the floor before Peter cupped his slender fingers under your chin, forcing you to look up at him.

When you made eye contact with him and rested under his touch. His ocean blue gaze held so much concern. It almost made you feel.. safe.

“Sweetness, who did this to you?” He asked firmly, the answer was already evident but Peter needed you to admit it. He did his best to remain calm, his familiar friendly voice activated still. It took all his strength to not let his inner beast come out.

If he could, he would kill everyone here in a heartbeat. He wanted to hurt them all. Peter had no problem causing great harm towards the filthy humans who wronged you, who put you through immense pain. To be blunt, he didn’t understand this undying desire to protect you from all the monsters who were out to conquer you.

As Peter held you, you couldn’t help but let a tear fall down your cheek. Which in response Peter was quickly to dry off before more fell. His gaze saddened even more as his dark heart shriveled up into tiny pieces for you.

“Darling? Tell me what’s going on.. can you do that for me?” Peter inquired once more his raspy voice more comforting than ever. Shifting closer to you in a protective manner. You needed to get away from him because you knew the cameras were watching.

You still didn’t respond. You only felt your body froze up when you felt the presence of danger nearby. Your eyes that were once focused on Peter now drift off towards the end of the hallway. Peter’s eyes follow your gaze and with that he twists around only to be face to face with your boyfriend. 002.

He caught you. He caught you interacting with Peter. And you knew the consequences yet you disobeyed. Guilt lied in the pit of your stomach. A feeling you hated because you did not want to feel bad about this.

But he made you feel this way.

Does anyone want a part 2? if so then lmk please!

—Willard

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suchafuckingriot · 2 months

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Wilbur Soot as an abuser

cw, physical abuse, graphic descriptions of physical abuse

this analysis seeks to break down the supposed type of abuser wilbur is for the purpose of showing people what abusers can look like and why they do it the way they do. especially in this instance, where it can feel ambiguous or exaggerative to call that person an abuser when you’re in a relationship with them. WARNING: this post will be uncomfortable and sad to read. VIEWER DISCRETION ADVISED.

first and foremost, go watch shelby’s stream. she said exactly what she wanted to say and she said it very well, and i’m not going to synthesize it. additionally, the only reason i feel comfortable writing this in the first place is because i’ve experienced the exact same thing, bites and all. because of that fact, some of this information might be biased towards my own experiences, but know that this essay is not about wilbur as much as it is about this one type of abuser. this is not drama or gossip like usual, it is meant to be educational and give awareness to a covert type of abuse that is often hard to recognize, a type of abuse that i know and understand. it is also meant to explain why it happens, as i’ve seen a LOT of questions about “why biting?”. remember, wilbur is just our poster boy in this instance. you could swap his name out with any other, he’s just who sparked the discussion this time. anyways,

How it Starts

remember my post from a while ago about wilbur and manic pixie dream girls? (if someone could send it to me i’d like to reblog it) there is a simple process to wilbur’s attraction to women:

find “special” girl -> rizz her up -> it fails -> spiral into self loathing bender -> (“update me on your life and now you’ve found the one, but i don’t like his eyes…”)

find “special” girl -> rizz her up -> it works -> oh wait she’s not special to me anymore -> she’s supposed to be special -> but she’s special i cant not like her she’s such a catch -> she loves me and i hate her -> i’m in love with the fact that she loves me -> (“you’re just so painfully punctual, i’m starting to get bored”)

and here we get to what happened with shelby.

she was his childhood crush. she is also petite, beautiful, very cutesy, giggles, is very sweet, has a distinct personal style, is SHUBBLE. to name a few things. she is a perfect dream girl for wilbur to chase.

wilbur catches her -> he loses interest -> the ego boost and additional benefits from dating shelby is so great that he values her status as his girlfriend above her as a person -> she is still a person with relationship needs -> he lashes out at her in seemingly innocent ways in attempt to satisfy both his ego and the needs of a relationship. which brings us to

Biting/“Playful” Injury

love bites are a fairly common form of affection. the important distinction to make is that they are usually gentle, and done by someone because they know it’s silly. it’s a human thing to do. a very common question i’ve seen: why did he bite her?

because when you are in a relationship with someone you resent (as shelby said) and you get the inclination to physically harm them, you know you can’t. this is obviously bad, and wilbur knows it’s bad, so he picks something that can be turned into a joke. wilbur is a known biter. this gives him a justification that shelby will take and so will everyone else that sees it happen, especially since his mom backed it up.

the bites serve to

-allow him to hurt her without feeling guilty

-affirm his ego that she’ll stay with him even if he treats her poorly

-provide a visible marker to other people that she is “his”, further affirming his ego

the bites being in her skin allowed people to see them and she’d be forced to explain that he was the one that did it, he could show them off himself if they were together, they could be passed off as a silly joke, and he got the satisfaction of hurting her under a “safe” pretense. especially because he set up a safeword, he got to justify in his head that he was not a bad guy or abusive for doing this. the bites are a mark of possession, like a brand. it’s gratifying that he’s the only person that gets to do this to her.

there is also something… attractive? romantic? about how much someone will endure for you. this type of abuser loves to stress test how much you’ll take from them before breaking. they feel validated that you’re willing to do that for them, so even if he had to stop doing it on her arms and move to her legs instead, it was still gratifying that she would take it.

one question i saw a lot: is it a sex thing? not necessarily. it could be, but in this case and in my own experience i don’t think it is. i don’t think it sexually gratifies them, just fuels their ego.

i would also like to add, biting is not the only way this can happen. here are a few more examples of covert physical abuse, from my own experiences because that’s the best way to word them:

my ex would “crack my knuckles”, meaning bend my fingers a dangerous amount until they forcefully popped, framed as an inside joke

"playfully" shove me, making sure to do it hard enough that i was knocked into a wall and would hit my head

pinch bruises into my ribs so they would hurt when i laughed

back to shelby/wilbur, her story of him pinning her down and asking her to try to push him off, then gloating when she couldn’t

i just think it’s worth noting: shelby wanting to be a bunny on origins smp, then wilbur modifying her lore saying she was a bunny until he killed her because he was lonely and wanted another ghost around. that shit was not normal

i would also like to add, often the person being hurt in this scenario does express that they are being hurt, that they do not like it, and that they don’t want it to keep happening. the abuser will dismiss it because the ways they harm you are “a joke”, or they may set up a safe word or fake apology or negotiation in attempt to placate you. or they will guilt trip you. know that almost never are any remedies they try to provide you genuine. you will not fix your relationship. they do not care about you, they care that you satisfy their ego. they want to harm you, and they will not stop.

if you suspect you may be in this situation, get out of it. nobody deserves to be hurt by their own partner or be made to feel resented by their own partner. research all of the different types of abuse, and figure out the best solution for your situation. like shelby said, she was the one that broke up with him, which is the case for a lot of these scenarios. i pulled the trigger in my own relationship. it might be scary, or not feel right, but if you can come to the conclusion that your situation isn’t right, you can leave it too.

wishing everyone happiness, health, and healing,

-riot

(p.s. in the tags)

#ps. i shared my own experiences purely for educational purposes lol pls don’t come say sorry to me in my askbox #i understand the feeling so if you’d like to express support or empathy leave a heart or a rose emoji :)#i just don’t want the focus of this to be the implications of my own experiences #i want this to be a guide of warning signs and red flags #and an explanation for those that need it #cw abuse #cw physical abuse #also GO WATCH HER STREAM. she speaks about her experiences much better than this post does #watch her stream #x3

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Mementos.

God, Ryuji fucking hates Mementos.

Dark and dreary and full of evil things that formed in the collective unconscious of everyone. It’s oppressive and cold and Ryuji has to fight his memories along with Shadows.

At least his friends come with him, at least he and Makoto fight together, at least Ann makes sure they don’t run themselves into the ground, at least Joker keeps a cool head when dealing with powerful Shadows and hostage situations.

Ryuji has been the bargaining chip in way too many hostage situations.

Things... shift when Akechi comes with them. Now he’s fighting alongside someone he would rant about, someone he used to despise.

It’s awkward, sure, but Ryuji is determined not to let that affect how they fight.

So when he (rather unceremoniously) pushes Akechi out of the way of an attack, he thinks nothing of it. It keeps the darling Detective Prince out of the way of danger- that’s all that matters.

Protect. Attack. Dodge.

It’s a steady rhythm, one he’s good at. One he can follow. One he can keep up with.

He’s good at attacking. He’s good at protecting. He’s... decent at dodging. He can duck out of the way of physical attacks, at least. That has to count for something.

When Akechi catches his balance, he gives Ryuji a dirty look that goes completely ignored. Ryuji is too busy blasting the Shadow to smithereens with Captain Kidd.

He knocks one down, gets a chance for a follow-up attack. He passes the opportunity to the guy he just shoved.

Akechi’s hand smacks against his, and Ryuji notices the way he almost winces. If he feels a pang of guilt for accidentally hurting a teammate, no one has to know.

Akechi summons Loki, finishes the job Ryuji started, smiles in satisfaction.

They move on, further and deeper into the place Ryuji fucking hates.

As the rest of the team moves towards the escalator down, Akechi turns to Ryuji.

“Don’t fucking push me like that again, Skull.”

Ryuji falters, hearing the venom and malice in Akechi’s voice. He turns around, trying to find some clue on Akechi’s face as to why he seems so pissed.

“Dude, I was just tryin’ to help. I took the blow for you, didn’t I? You coulda, I dunno, told me in a nicer way that you didn’t want me to do that. No need to get hostile,” he says, hiding his hurt.

His worth as a Phantom Thief hinges on how helpful he is to the team. If he can’t save his own teammates, how can he be expected to save people by changing their hearts?

He couldn’t save Shiho, he couldn’t stop her from jumping. He couldn’t save Mishima and the volleyball team, he couldn’t save them from being beaten black and blue. He couldn’t save his mom, couldn’t stop his dad from slamming her head against the wall and screaming at both of them-

“Skull? Oh my god, do you do this every time someone says something you don’t like?”

Ryuji looked up from the floor, head swimming. He was going to be sick. This place was bringing his worst memories to the surface, forcing him to remember all of the terrible things he had endured.

“...This place is going to make me throw up,” is all he says before turning on his heel and stumbling down the escalator.

He has barely enough time to warn the others about how he feels before he’s careening forward, world going darker than Mementos’s bottom level.

i love ryuji having a sort of "survivors guilt." he couldnt save people before so he deticates everything to saving his friends now. he probably feels like akechi is being an asshole to him trying to stop him from putting himself in harms way to save his friends but he really does care about him. he doesnt want him to get hurt because of other people but ryuji feels like he will only get worth from that.

#literally hb!nero's story #shackle-foes #nero answers #ryugoro

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shibainu2006 · 1 year

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A Caged Lion

Author's note: I was thinking about how there are never any x readers where the reader is yandere. So I wrote it. Well... it's an x MC, but you get my drift.

Warning: Emotional manipulation, gaslighting (if I do it right), trauma, gore, fear

@killersweetie

@vtoriacore @vtoriacore-rbs

@seraphni

@leonasdoll

@love-thanatopsis

Two years... All it took was two years to break him down into nothing.

Everyone wondered where the second prince had gone.

It was as if he disappeared completely, and after those two years, everyone had assumed he was dead.

He wasn't.. unfortunately for him.

Surprisingly enough, Leona wasn't as needy as one would think, when being reliant on his "mate".

He was obedient, but often, he had his moments of acting out, which were quickly rectified by his captor.

Never by physical force, though.

No.

Something far worse than physical harm...

His captor was smart.

She knew there was more than one way to skin a cat. The method used was far more efficient than others in her mind.

Breaking his mind down, until he struggled to form even the smallest opinion on anything.

For two years... He was tortured with all the worst possible methods she knew of.

Today was one of those days that he was starting to come back into himself.

Reign allowed him his outside time, but never... Ever outside her line of vision. He stayed within the boundaries of her home.

It had plenty of space. There should be no issue.

But the issue wasn't space.

His trying to escape was getting on her nerves...

Leona found himself at the gate.

Corpses lay there, rotting... Illuminated by the dim light of the pale waning moon.

To remind him of what happens when people come too close to the territory. What happens if he seeks help or associates himself with anyone who didn't belong there.

They were mutilated and torn to shreds.

She'd used her abilities to maul them to the point of being unfamiliar...

Leona remembered it like it was yesterday.

Watching a lioness rip and tear at the men whom he called to that wandered far too close for comfort.

Their cries rang in his ears.. Seeing their guts spill.. all that blood.

Seeing a feral lioness glaring, with her maw covered in gore.

It was his fault.. He was the one who asked them to let him out.

He did this...

At least.. That's what Reign told him.

It was his fault that they had lost their lives.

The memory made him shudder.

His fur bristled, and the cold night air brought him no peace..

The silence was loud in his ears.

Hesitantly, his fingers brushed against the iron gates.

Maybe he could use his magic... No.. that would only wake her.

He was stuck.. He couldn't get out.

Footsteps sounded behind him, making him freeze.

His breath caught in his throat, and the air around his lungs felt tight.

"You're out past curfew..." A woman said in a dangerously low tone. Despite how kind she sounded.... it made goosebumps crawl up his skin.

His heart rate began to pick up, and he couldn't bring himself to turn around and meet her gaze.

Those piercing golden eyes stabbed at his back like daggers. Usually, they were a gentle brown, but she wasn't pleased right now...

To look into those eyes was a death wish.. Not for himself, but for others.

A gentle hand wrapped around his throat, but it did not squeeze.

Leona felt like he might faint... He felt light-headed.

"Can't sleep?" Reign questioned, making him shudder.

"Or are you thinking of leaving again...?"

There it was... That question.. She knew exactly what was going through his mind.

"The corpses smell putrid, don't they..." She chuckled darkly, "Need I remind you, they would not have died, had you stayed away from the gate."

Leona nodded, barely being able to speak.

One wrong move meant the white room again... He hated that room.

He hated it so much. Being left alone in there for hours... Days on end.

White had become a color he came to hate.

He couldn't deal with it.

Even the food she brought in was white.

Her clothes would be white.. she'd wear a white mask and hood. Shielding him from any other color.

He couldn't deal with it.

It messed with him in ways that one could not fathom.

"But you keep coming back... This is the fifth time. I'm getting annoyed.." Her grip on him tightened slightly.

His panic became visible, hyperventilating, and trembling.

His palms were getting sweaty, and he felt weak in the knees.

Her annoyance meant punishment.

Punishment meant white... He didn't want that..

Leona wanted to apologize, but the words wouldn't come out. They were caught in his throat.

"Maybe I should put you in that room again... That should make you remember." She tapped her pointed finger on his Adam's apple.

He felt trapped... This was not the life a lion should live.

He was not to be caged.. Not like this..

But he couldn't do anything about it.

"Please don't put me back in there..." Leona pleaded in a low voice.

He was shaken up.. Cracking like a porcelain doll.

Leona knew better... She wouldn't have mercy on him, no matter how much he begged and cried.

"For the next few weeks... You'll be by yourself..." Reign released him, turning to leaved back to the house, "C'mon. Let's go."

Leona hesitantly followed, legs shaking like jelly.

If he resisted or dared, say no... She'd do worse than the white room.

She'd do so much worse.

He had no choice but to comply and follow, like the caged lion he was.

The end~

#disney twst #twisted wonderland #twst #disney twisted wonderland #twst wonderland #savanaclaw #leona kingscholar #twst mc #twisted wonderland mc #leona x mc #leona kingscholar x mc #twst x mc #Savanaclaw x mc #yandere mc #twst imagines

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Im bored and I had some angst ideas for undertale so be prepared to suffer people >:)!! JK they aren't that bad!

TW/CW -> self destructive behavior, dealing with loss, suicide attempt, eating disorders, dealing with insecurities, depression, ya know the usual

So these are my own personal head canons for these characters so yeah!! Some may be a bit ooc just so ya know!

characters in this -> ashore, toriel, papyrus, frisk, sans, alphys

without further ado LETS GET STRAIGHT INTO IT

"Oh you were my everything, I was your second best."

I feel like Sans has a few self destructive behaviors, such as doing activities that could possibly harm him mentally or physically or going out once Papyrus is sleeping and doing something risky. He makes sure he isn't harmed too badly since he still wants to be there for Papyrus but at the same time he just has to find a release and this is the only way he can, all the stress that builds on top of him, each reset he remembers it all so vividly, he remembers how everything felt, he remembers everything he saw in each and every one, he remembers it all. And with all the stress from that the only way to feel better is doing things that could harm him because it makes him feel real, it reminds him he's actually there, alive, real, he's actually going through all this.

I feel like Papyrus struggles with eating, he struggles eating properly, I feel like this started with his obsession of getting into he Royal Guard he feels like a 'proper' guard needs to focus more on training than anything and although he enjoys cooking he doesn't like eating it himself as much as he used to and he's more focused on training or improving. He'd rather someone else eat his food than him after a while, it's not to say he doesn't eat, of course he does... in very small portions that could be considered nothing. The reason he does this is because he wants to focus more on training or improving other aspects of his life and because he feels like if he eats it could possibly ruin his progress and could harm him in general, it's like he's afraid of food.

Asgore deals with a lot of issues after the loss of Chara and Azriel. The loss of his only biological child and of his adoptive child caused him to go into a huge down spiral as shown in the game. I feel like Asgore fakes many parts of his personality for everyone else in the underground to not only give hope but appear stronger than he truly is emotionally, but let's be honest, he has many breakdowns throughout the day, remembering all the moments he had with his kids before they're all slowly replaced with the memory of their deaths. I feel like he also engages in self destructive behavior but instead of physically its more mentally. Ya know by like... killing kids. It ruins his mental stability more as it reminds him of the deaths of his own children.

Toriel also deals with many emotions after the loss of her children. She gets easily attached to children or anyone who's very child-like. She acts like a very caring mother figure to them as it reminds her of how she acted in the past with her own children, it's like she pretends they're Azriel or Chara because she still can't handle the loss. Of course she knows they're gone and that they'll never be back, but she can't help but see them in every child-like monster/human she meets, she hates the fact she can't see them as themselves but instead sees them as her past kids because it makes her feel as if she's pretending they're them, which she kind of is but at the same time she treats them like they're own person. Due to the loss of her kids she also is very protective, she can't handle the thought of losing anymore children and after the loss of the other 6 human souls, the ones she got attached to as well, it caused her to remember all the feelings she had felt that day. She will never forget each loss and she will always blame herself for them, sometimes she thinks about how it might be better to be with them, how she just wants to see her kids again and those she took care of.

Alphy's is a whole angst character on her own Jesus, low self-esteem, the guilt of having to hide her experiments, social anxiety, losing her science partner its crazy. Alphy's low self esteem severely affects her experiments as well as the ones from the past. Her low self esteem caused her to not take many risks that could've actually helped her improve her experiments and the technology used in the underground, and it could've probably even helped Asgore in his journey with grief as she would've had more confidence in handling it and helping him through it, but she didn't, or well more like she couldn't. Even after getting with Undyne I feel like she has abandonment issues, she's scared of being left by her or that she'll find someone better but Undyne does try to help with her self-esteem issues, her guilt and so on.

FRISK IS A WHOLE SITUATION WOWZA! Based on what we know from the games/ what Azriel says in the pacifist route we can infer that Frisk falling down wasn't an accident but a suicide attempt. I believe this to be the case and I feel like Frisk might have many issues to deal with after all why would they jump without reason? Without wanting to be gone? I feel like they don't enjoy talking about it much but they will have to at some point as others start to realize how they truly got into the underground.

#undertale #undertale fanfic #undertale headcanons #undertale fanfiction #toby fox #undertale sans #undertale papyrus #undertale alphys #undertale toriel #undertale asgore #undertale angst

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fuck-your-proana-blog · 1 month

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Hi,

I’m really happy to come across your page and bringing awareness and learning your bio pinned up.

I came across one of your posts talking about pro-ana. I had an account on here around 2016, and I remember getting messages from a girl who was about 2 years younger than me. She asked me if I could help her starve herself to reach her goal. But I refused and told her she shouldn’t be doing this. She didn’t like the response I gave and started calling me fake and many hateful words. So after that, I decided to delete my Tumblr account because you never know who seeing these posts, especially someone super young. I’ve never in my life would want to help someone go through the same struggle I went through.

I’ve been though recovery for about 5-years now, although it’s been 5 years and going through treatments and group therapy. While I was there, I thought my ed would go away and I would forget about it. I’ve realize we can’t burn those memories and till this day I still struggle with my ed thoughts. But what I can do is not let those thoughts fuck with me again.

I'm now back on Tumblr after a long time and now posting and reposting this for the better and things I'm interested in!

Again, thank you for spreading awareness and I'm so proud that you are here now ❤️

Thank you for this kind message; when I had a pro ana blog I thought I wasn't harming anyone but myself because I didn't use tags and stuff like that; never posted body checks or calorie counts/exercise routines, "ana diets," etc, but one day a 15 year old follower of mine asked me to be her "ana buddy" because I reached such a low "goal weight" and she wanted to be as thin as me. I cried my ass off, hating that me and my blog made other people suffer because of my ignorance to the harm I was doing. I told her to get help and deleted my blog the same day(back in 2011). I then started my main blog and anti pro ana blog, which feature my struggles throughout the years in a non-promotional way while encouraging recovery to everyone. I've been in and out in recovery since 2012. You're right- the thoughts never really go away. I'm working with my psychiatrist, trauma therapist, and a full team of varied physical doctors and treatments to try and get my mind and body in a better place since 13 years of Anorexia has caused me so much harm. That's why I call out pro anas and report when I can, because even if they don't use tags or suggest starving to others it's still harmful for other to come across, especially young people because the algorithm will promote your blog to others even if you don't. There used to be a much bigger "anti pro ana community" on here, but most have left- I'm hoping because they're taking better care of themselves. Taking a break from Tumblr when you used it to fuel your ED is always a good idea on recovery, especially at first. I'm proud of you too; keep up the great work!

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where does oro live over the course of her story?

answering this at 5am like a smart person lol BUT:

When she's first born to when she's about 5-6, she and Volo don't have one besides just Hisui. He's constantly on the move and in hiding from what he did and since he was pregnant before/during/and after the battle at Spear Pillar, (even tho he was majorly in denial about what was happening) he couldn't leave the region like he planned like that and then he had her and really couldn't just hop on a boat without being seen/with a newborn. So they just constantly wandered around the region until he gave her up.

After he gave her up until she was about 17-18 she lived at the Galaxy Hall with Laventon & Cyllene. When she was "old enough" (in Kamado's terms, she was still too young) at like 11-12, she was made to join the survery group to "prove her worth" and that she wasn't like her dad (even tho nobody other than Laventon/Cyllene/ & Ingo really never accepted her. At minimum people were wary/skeptical and at most like Kamado they hated her & figured she'd betray them all and doom them like Volo.) Laventon & even Cyllene tried very hard to always go with her or give her very minor tasks when she first started, attempting to block out whatever dumb or dangerous thing Kamado wanted her to do but as she got older, this got harder to do.

After she opens the rift and gets stuck in time loop/Arceus limbo it's hard to really say because she literally goes thru 999 resets so she really can just be slapped anywhere in any region/time period/timeline/alt universe until she gets back to her own original timeline at 999 (she has returned to her original one quite a few times but never at the right time or place to find Volo EXCEPT:

One of her resets (she is physically in her 20s, her age at this point kinda goes to shit because she spends such random amounts of time in these places, she's tech immortal because of all this but always physically in her 20s) she ends up in the OG timeline during the time of the ancient celesticans and actually ends up in Hisui where they are. and she finds a 10 year old Volo. Her goal in every reset is to find the red chain and try to use it to bust out the loop OR Arceus nukes her into a different reset for fucking up. But since she ends up meeting her dad when he's a little kid, she can't bring herself to try because she never knows what happens when she gets the red chain and everything resets. She can't possibly do it this time in case it harms him. She spends some time around the celesticans to try and learn a bit about him since all she knew before was whatever horseshit Kamado/everyone else told her and how she knew him when she was a very small kid. But since she doesn't want anything to happen to him, she doesn't stay long (Which makes Volo sad because back then it was a lot easier to get close to him so he kinda thought of her as a friend, but he also never knew her name and the only thing he remembered about her in the future was her one star pupil but he doesn't fully connect the dots when she's born)

AT THE 999TH RESET: She's back in the OG timeline, Post Platinum version. She lives at the Galactic Headquarters under the name Mercury. She works beside Charon but kinda replaces Cyrus under the promise that she can find and return him to everyone. This is where she stays until she dies at Spear Pillar in Volo's arms.

After she dies it's up in the air what happens to her (waiting for SV dlc), Volo wants her back every bad. If him & Geeta are successful in their plan to get Terapagos then she'll be reborn and live in Paldea with them.

#LOL THAT GOT LONG SORRY EVERYONE SCROLLING PAST THIS.#ANYWHO: all her limbo stuff gets kinda messy but it's really more about her mental deterioration and how truly desperate she is for her goa #It's her one and only hope for having a normalish (she's far beyond that) life and good relationship with SOMEONE. It's also all to spite #Kamado as well. She KNOWS in her heart Volo loved her and he didn't just abandon her out of malice or hate or because he was a worthless no #one who just wanted to play god & have power like Kamado always told her.#When she mets him as a little kid she was so close to giving up but seeing how miserable he was & the similarities of their #childhood put a new resolve in her.#Oro #Volo #Loki's asks

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