hc-did culture is realizing your trauma, then looking back at old oc’s and going “oh”

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i hope all polyfrag system who are RAMCOA survivors and all polyfrag systems who aren't RAMCOA survivors and polyfrag systems who aren't sure wether or not they're RAMCOA survivors have a good day and know they're all equally as valid

npd programmer culture is wanting to die because your code isn't working and feeling the biggest fraud to ever touch a keyboard and...until it works. Then you feel like you're the 2nd alan turing, and like you've made the biggest technology related contribution since the internet.

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plural culture is… dear lord stop putting syscourse in ramcoa tags i dont care we dont care this is not relevant to us

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transramcoa culture is going through the ramcoa tag on the daily to make yourself dissociate to make it feel more real

Transramcoa culture is...

cw cultural appropriation? descriptions of trauma (including CSEM, stalking, psychosis/mental health)

Not sure if it counts for this blog but three of our main protectors are siblings all of which are a creature from local native mythos, we're bodily white (well, we're technically metis (mixed white+indigenous) but we're just at the cutoff so just white ig) and we always get flack when we talk about any of those alters' source.

the reason they all split was because of a traumatic event where our mother was psychotic and we went through "shared psychosis" (never diagnosed, but we were psychotic while she was, had similar delusions, etc) about the creature(s) stalking us and our mother, about one posessing us (which was very likely just one of our alter's attempting to talk to us, she attempted to tell our mother to take us somewhere safer and get help) and about basically being chased out of the area. The event was traumatic in many other ways (specifically our mother selling nudes of us (at the time 14) for gas money) and anyways it all culminated in them all three splitting.

the issue arises when we tell people their origin without any context, they say we're culturally appropriating, but none of the alters want to "change their source" specifically because the trauma endured litwrally made them trauma holders in a specific way that only makes sense to our brain if they stay the same. we try to use language that's respectful (hence us not naming the thing in question, and frequently just saying they're shapeshifters rather than the whole truth) and its so fucking annoying that its one of our top reasons for wishing we weren't a system

that sucks.. we are white ourself so we cant talk for POC people but i feel like.. we really need to remember alters cant control their source, and they cant control why they were made.

yknow youd think the plural/ramcoa community would have a better grip on cults and organized abuse but a lot of these fucks are about as dense as anyone else when it comes to poc being subjected to cults or ritual abuse. somehow its okay when we're subjected to it because somehow its our culture (just another way to say "in our blood".)

protector in a ramcoa system culture is feeling’s horrible because you couldn’t protect the system

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programmed system culture is consistently hyperfixating on ramcoa and programming despite the fact that intensely researching it triggers so many programs

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polyfrag culture is maintaining a scientific dissertation voice when talking about anything relating RAMCOA so you don't break down <- still breaks down but in the form of rapid switching and panic attacks instead

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npd + ramcoa did sys culture is playing trauma olympics but only in regards to yourself because if you weren’t seen as “important enough” in the abuse / nothing “unique” or “special” happened to you (and only you) then you aren’t “important at all” and that makes you irrationally upset and think that nobody should care about you because your story is just the exact same as someone else’s so why does it matter -🪐🫀

(and for some reason you expressing this denial in a fucking vent channel(!!!) makes people upset which is stupid because it’s not about *them* it’s about **me**.)

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Plural culture is panicking about the possibility of RAMCOA because you suspect you have a programmed alter due to the absolute inability to research our DID. Anytime we try, we get hit with a brick wall of dissociation and panic that doesn't abate until we stop trying to read what we were.

But having zero memory or even serious suspicion about RAMCOA.

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transslashprogrammed culture is reading through the programs list and it feeling familiar. (to the tune of the beginning of Verse 1 of never gonna give you up) Somethings wrong i can feel it

Transslashprogrammed culture is...

Ramcoa Paranoid culture is a well known ish account on here vagueing about a vent we posted and then we couldn't sleep until 2 am

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Tw for sh

When the NPD does the do, and you suddenly feel so sexy for having tons of super bad old self harm scars and you want more now.

Like, please please please, may I have more. They make me feel pretty.

TW: cult?, religious trauma, programming mention, talk of “rebirthing”, talk of rituals?,

I think I just figured out who the hell my group was the one that’s done all of this to me. I have had intense therapy sessions regarding this subject and I feel sick just fucking typing this but it was my childhood church I went too. I always thought something was up there I mean for fucks sake we had to devote all our money, time and love to that damn church and worship the damn leader there and always give thanks to the family. The kids there including me were used sexually! And physically abused! I feel disgusted I might actually throw up im shaking just writing this im so scared i don’t know how to handle this revelation of my past! What the fuck! Im pale my skin is legit turning pale that’s how scared I am I fear I might have just set a program off since I am 70-80% sure that they programmed me and the other kids there. I remember we had to go to this all-day summer thingy where we’d spend the night there and we’d read the Bible all day and do other religious activities. Sorry if I’m rambling I feel sick and it’s like I’m losing my memory as we speak. I also remember being made to be metaphorically rebirthed by god and I was wrapped in mats and told to fight my way out while being held by my arms and legs by 1 woman and 1 man and once I fought my way out I had been birthed again by the lord and reborn in a sense. I probably sound crazy!?!!!