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scrunkalicious · 4 months

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💋🐹🫐 for the ask gameb

WHGAT IS THAT THING??????? WHY DOES IT LOOK LIKE GTHAT????? squishmallowz be tweakin rn

anywayz there as no specification for which f/o so i do both >:3c

current me edit: took me a while to do and i talked a ton so hope that makez up for my long time taking teehee

💋 [KISS]- What love language does your F/O have? What about you? And how do y’all express it to each other?

Marly's main Love Language is physical touch!! Holding handz!! Cuddling!! Hugz!!! Kiss yeah mhm allat stuff yk?? OKOK now the silliez 👇

FOR MORDECAI: Quality time and acts of service are his main two! Just spending time w/ one another is enough for the both of them. Mordecai isn't really into all of that "fancy" date stuff, he thinks it's all ludicrous LMAO,,,, so a simple day out on the porch or whatever is enough,,, and acts of service oh my bog!!! Does the end-pin of Marly's cello look a little bent? He'll see if he can get it fixed, and will even see if there's a luthier (instrument fixing person) who can do it. The seams in her coat look a little wonky? Catch him at the right time and you'll see him patching that up. Mordecai isn't the biggest fan of physical touch, but thingz such as holding Marly's hand in a crowded area to keep her nearby are sooooo oughhhhgg

FOR VIKTOR: Words of affirmation and physical touch!!! Yeah if you can't tell I can't pick just one I am HUH????? Anywayz!!!! Words of affirmation, he likez giving them and receiving them! He def givez hella good praise, just hearing him happy is sooooooooooooooo ngbgbhggbygbbg and receiving!! Watch Marly list everything she lovez about him and hoollaayyy moollaayy blud is melting ong!!! And assuring him that he isn't a burden due to his physical shortcoming,,, and how amazing he is ough wordz are sooooo wordy yeah mhm!!! AND PHYSICAL TOUCH? BRO YOU HAVE NO IDEA??? At first like pre-dating stage, Viktor would sometimes tap Marly's foot with his cane. Whether it be in a playful manner, if he feels something is off about a certain situation, or just to get her attention when he wants it. Established relationship? DONT GET ME STARTED!!!! the two of them are sooo touch starved it is crayzee,,, while Viktor may be a bit shy with physical affection, so marly may have to be the one to start off, but oh my god they are sooooo fr w/ physical touch!! Whether it be small things like holding onto one another's hand/arm while walking, Marly kissing Viktor's beauty marks, or full on cuddling on the couch, they love it all!!!!!!!!

🐹 [HAMSTER]- Do you and your F/O have a pet? If not, what pet would you like to have with them, or why wouldn’t you want a pet at all?

FOR MORDECAI: No pets!! Was originally thinking of giving them something but then I was like "they are catz" so nevermind!! Feral animals exist in the Lackadaisy world AND there are photoz of Mordy with one of those yappy dogz (I'll get a photo lmbo). But honestly I think Mordecai would think that a pet is too unsanitary for his taste. Maybe one day they'll get like,,, a fish or smth!!!!

FOR VIKTOR: BRO,,, BRK,,,, if I look at the overall Martor lore, they've had two catz!! The first when they were both Academy Students, pre-arcane plot and also during season 1 kinda. A Siamese cat named Sage!!! Not gonna say what happenz to her tho 😈,,,, and a second one named August!! A silly guy,,, not gonna say much Abt him either,, yet mwhwhwhwh!!!!!!!! They also have this bird creature thing called 'Blird' hez hella funny I love BLIRD!!!!!! Blird is the product of what happens when you try to mix HexTech and geneticz,,, Marly and Viktor accidentally created this goofy ahh creature, they have no clue how it workz ngl but a blird is a blird we love BLIRD!!!!!!!!!!

🫐 [BLUEBERRIES]- What aesthetic do you associate with your F/O (or your general dynamic with them)? {{this quesytion was a lil silly 2 me n i didnt fully understand it BUT!!!}}

FOR MORDECAI: Ship dynamicz include the follwing teehee,,,, Childhood Friendz to Loverz, Sun x Moon, tall & short (me/marly are 5'1 im sorry,, mordy is like 5'9ish i think) erm i cant think of anythig else!! I dont rlly get the aesthetic part of this question but monochomaticz and stuff like this brah

FOR VIKTOR: woohoo!! ship dynamicz include Artist x Scientist (where is lucy we are twinning), tall x short (sigh he is 5'7), friends to lovers, one sided pinging for a teensy bit from viktor to mutual pining in predating stage, and im mixing a ttiiinnnyyy bit of friendly academic rivalz so erm!!! as for aesthetic, veyr dark acedamia kinda yea and blue/purple science styuff

bonus phtotoz of mhy husbandz:

#THESE WERE SO FUN TO DO IM NOT JOKING #TTBAK YOU FOR THE ASKZ #kindaaa started yapping a bit 😋#never let me open my mouth again #eat it up martor and marloray fanz #💜Martor💜#🎻marloray🪓#marly divata #marloray #Martor #selfship ask #marly answerz???

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otakween · 9 months

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Digimon Tamers: Battle of Adventurers

Eh...gotta be honest, I found this pretty underwhelming. It had its moments, don't get me wrong, but the plot felt pretty generic and the ending was rushed. Still had fun, but the emotional investment was lacking.

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Reddit told me to watch this after episode 18, so I got the timing a little off, but I felt like it'd be good to watch prior to the digiworld episodes. The only timeline wonkiness is that this takes place before Culumon's kidnapping, which I've already seen, but that's fine.

In another moment of ~fate~ the movie begins with Guilmon dying of heat (not literally lol) and it was "feels like 101" where I am today so...can relate.

I was a pretty sheltered kid, so IDK how I would react to my parents making me travel by myself at 10...not that I'm against that, I just know 10 year old me woulda been a big crybaby about it.

Kinda weird that they gave us 2 title screens for this, one of which was just ripped from the TV show. The whole vibe was kind of a mixed bag in this, sometimes the animation felt pretty much the same quality as the show and sometimes it felt like they were stepping it up, not super consistent.

"Battle of Adventurers" is a pretty uninspired title. I feel like they could have either put something about Okinawa or the v-pet virus in the title instead so it would stand out a bit more...

Speaking of the V-Pet, I thought it was super charming with its crappy CGI lol. I totally would have fell for it in 2001. Kinda hard to believe that literally everyone downloaded it though (doctors, pilots, etc.) Or was it more like that one U2 album that was automatically distributed to everyone?

Guilmon begging to get out of the suitcase was stressful! How did he not suffocate? D: (do digimon even need to breathe?)

They really did the movie-only character (Minami) dirty this time. She had to be re-traumatized about her dead dog so many times! Just felt cruel...

All of the Okinawa cultural stuff was fun, especially the Okinawa-inspired digimon. If Digimon Go was a thing, you know they'd be region specific.

When Ruki's mom was like "oh, it's so comfortable flying on the plane!" I was like "okay, rich." That's the only explanation because flying economy is always a bad time.

Although a lot of the character animation was kinda meh, the battle animation is where this movie really shined. It was like little pockets of hype and there was a really good variety of enemy digimon. I was especially excited to see Anomalocarimon cuz it's been a minute and there was a lot of attention to detail with his bit.

Siesamon's design was really pretty, but I don't like his resting angry face. I wish they would have made his face more emotive because it kind of diminished some emotional moments...

There was one scene where it showed some buildings blowing up (because of the virus) and one of them suspiciously looked like a power plant...hopefully I'm wrong cuz oof...

Loved Mephismon's design, but with Gulfmon they did that thing that they did with VenomVamdemon where he has a second face by his crotch area...don't like that (although he is a centaur, so not technically his crotch)

There were some legit scary moments in this! The car crash scene was pretty violent and Minami screaming as she ran from the lasers also felt pretty intense for a kid's movie. (I haven't peeked at the dub yet, wondering if anything was cut)

I thought the final battle was weak as heck. Phase 1 took like 2 seconds and then phase 2 just felt kinda arbitrary like we were going through the motions. We did get a new attack though (trinity something or other). It felt kind of weird for them to just show that without any acknowledgement, but oh well. I'm sure it'll come back at some point. I was a little disappointed tbh because I thought they were doing some sort of 3-way jogress fusion

The shot with 3D MegaloGrowmon and 2D Rapidmon and Taomon was a glorious 2000s moment

IDK why but it gave me Power Rangers vibes

Yeah so this felt pretty disposable, they tried to kind of tie things to Digimon Adventure with Omegamon and Apocalymon, but the connection was pretty vague and forced. I rather Tamers just be separate without the callbacks

While I'm a big fan of short runtimes, I do wonder if this one could have benefitted from being a little longer, just to let things breath more

#Digimon Tamers: Battle of Adventurers #digimon tamers #digimon #movie

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moongothic · 5 months

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Hey remember when this used to be a DIY blog Me neither

Blanket! Gifting this to my aunt this Crimbus. Whee

Made with some Léttlopi yarn.

My mom had this unfinished knitted sweater (...I think it was supposed to be a sweater...) in the purple maroon and between me not knowing how to finish it (there were some wonky ass cables in it and the torso was not completed) and knowing full well I don't even like this color... I chose to frog the thing to repurpose the yarn.

Like it felt a little bad to do, but if I didn't do that then I was going to throw out the project entirely, because there was nothing else I'd do with it, and I'm not gonna waste perfectly good yarn man

And hey, this was a good amount of yarn (I know I did weight how much yarn this actually was but I can't remember for the life of me anymore, sorry) (Just believe me when I say that ball was heavy as fuck)

Not enough for a whole blanket but definitely a good start. I bought like 18 more balls of yarn (white and more of the purple maroon, though more white since I already had a ton of the poiple mawoon), and eventually got to working

Not gonna lie though, working with Léttlopi kinda sucks. Like it is a good quality 100% wool yarn (and it's not superwashed with plastic, amazing, love that), it's just that the yarn is so scratchy it was kind of painful to work with. Like to the point even the blanket was kind of unpleasant to touch because of the fibers sticking out

Thankfully the yarn softened A TON when I washed and blocked the blanket, kinda wish I had tried softening the yarn before even working with it but ehhhh it be like that, and I'm sure it'll soften even more with additional washes (but that's up to my aunt to deal with lmao)

But yeah, it sure is a blanket.

I've done so many granny square blankets by this point I thought it'd be fun to do a different type of crochet blanket, especially one where I wouldn't have to sew the damn thing together at the end for once. And it was fun, would do that again

My only regret was making the stripes of the blanket a bit too thin. There's two rows of granny clusters with a row of single crochet between them (just to add a bit more bulk to the rows). But, in hindsight, I wish I had done four granny cluster rows for each stripe, IDK I think thicker stripes would have looked better. But, it is what it is, just a good reminder for myself if I ever make another blanket like this (for myself) (in different colors)

#Moon posting #Yarncraft Diary #Yarnblr #Crochetblr #Fun fact I finished this blanket months ago and I just could not be bothered to take a photo of it #I did take a photo of it at one point but the lighting was so bad I figured I should retake the photo #And I couldn't be bothered. Until today. Because I needed to wrap this Crimbus Present for Crimbus #Y'know #I am so sorry to the people who followed me for crochet content 6+ months ago the anime brainrot has been unreal

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animunerdery · 2 years

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Hi guys, thanks for liking my half-assed one piece scribbles!

While I don't reblog on this tumblr (to keep it streamlined), I do follow a TON of insane artists like all of these sick one piece blogs for your viewing pleasure:

@ahou-dori prob the best doffy blog out there. incredible drawings.

@ceceru you all know her highschool AU stuff. everything she does is so full of life

@pepegle omg I love this person’s drawings so much. beautiful, simplified, just insanely good.

@avenoirn jesus christ these are so freaking good. Dem paints, dem lighting hnngg

@fangirl-of-the-end all the trafalgar lawsss. Come quench your thirst!

@8thousand another insanely good person who also reblogs other insanely good stuff.

@toboldlymuppet so intense and so goooood, fantastic shapes and those pops of color are chef’s kissss

@sameconcarne holy shit yessss what are these insane drawsssssssss.

@thebaratie great art and great art recs with the reblogssss

@mygiorni fantastic super clean super good, super cute

@peqchesssss so cute so good so sweet T_T

@cranity hell yessss so stylish and with so much attitude lets gooooo!

@bugslap oh hell yes let’s push them ink drawsssss

@humans-are-tasty hell yesss doffadile contenttttt

@dailyrebranded omg soo cuuuute diabetes inducing goodnessss

@wellfine you know this person’s comics. Gives sanji so much more depthhhhh

@deadbutnostink yes good hot boys thirst content

@sunclown yes good more thirst content for your eyeballsss

@teazingsassy yes more good drawsss

@abdocado god i love these draws so much T_T

@i-bez-togo-toshno fantastic let’s freaking go

@waybomb love these cute draws

@l208p very good very cute, very accurate modern luffy head canon

@lorillee mostly walls of text but they occasionally also draw stuff and everything they write/draw is GOLD

@a-tsute sick draws let’s goooo. also not as much OP recently but still insanely good anyway!

@feriowind currently doing more Our Flag Means Death but holy shit LOOK AT THEM DRAWS SO GOOOOOD

@zoeychuanart plz check out my girl Zoey’s stufffff. She hasn’t updated in a while but she has the best Sanji and Nami content T_T

@kankalin really cute general stuff

I don’t know how many of these still update but they’re all great:

@doodlepiece : everything about this dude’s drawings are beautiful, charming and engaging. i love pretty much everything about this person. I love his sanji comic, i love the simplicity of his design and shape. i love the tangibility of his textures. This guy was my all time favorite one piece blog for the longest time T_T

@nobodyanybody0 : obviously amazing minimal shapes, adorable expressions, and one hell of a painter. There is so much to learn from this person! s/he is a blessing to OP fandom.

@wanssan (aka @yongi ) : they kinda abandoned the OP blog, but it’s still awesome. s/he claims that his/her drawings are wonky, but they are far from. simply delicious line quality.

@monstertrio : super cute babies! everything she draws is amazingly cute. those lines are super expressive and the color game is on point.

@luffydraws : omg… whoever the hell this is is a genius. TOTALLY NAILS IT EVERY TIME.

@asknicorobean : I love her style so much, so loose and so warm.

and more good ones:

@nupp : korean blog. mainly zosan.

@laskapsy : russian blog? mainly dofadile.

@dumatree : korean blog. mainly ASL.

@zfedraws : bunch of nice drawings all around, there’s something vaguely 90s manga about her work which is awesome.

@pitiablelaw : mainly trafalguy.

@onepancake : so many cute cartoony drawings! lots of cool western-ish redesigns.

@opdoodless : cool redesigns in a more western style!

@yaboybokuto : look for her art tags, she’s also got a warm cartoony style.

@eyerispez : i love how this person tries experimenting with different looks.

@clover-ya : the great thing about OP is the diversity of the fanbase, this one also has a super expressive western aesthetic.

@itsamemarshallbanana : completely ridiculous one piece snapchat artist. is probably a genius. Or is an idiot. Maybe both???

There are SO many amazing artists who love one piece (even if their blogs aren’t primarily OP side blogs) which I haven’t listed here but just suffice it to say they are everywhere. for example… @thisismollym MOLLY FUCKING MENDOZA LIKES ONE PIECE Y’ALL

#blogroll #one piece blogroll #nami #one piece #please check out all of these incredible artists #they are all amazing #fanart blogroll

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ruki--mukami · 2 years

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❆ HELLO JAS I HAVE A RUKI QUESTIONNNNNNN. Or ig more of an opinion?? headcanon?? MAYBE IDK WHAT THIS IS BUT!

Unless I just suck at reading—It seems that Ruki takes the same amount of time to rest as humans do?? I believe he mentioned not actually sleeping most of the time (instead just watching Yui sleep, which i found cute but also kinda funny 🏃🏃) but y’know.

But do you think he goes for prolonged periods of time without a rest/sleep period? <:O. Or was it maybe just a trait that carried over? Since at one point he did need to get consistent rest.

WHILE I HAVE YOU HERE— Do you think any other human quirks/traits/activities carried over into his Vampire days?? Y’know like making home cooked meals, still being able to tolerate and be productive during daylight hours, etc… ALSO IM SORRY IF THESE QUESTIONS ARE DUMB/DON’T MAKE SENSE— 🏃 and feel free to answer when you can since ik your asks are FULL 😩 ❆

🧩 HELLOOOO WHINNNNN! TOTALLY VALID QUESTIONS INDEED.

Yes, you'd be right! It's heavily implied the Mukami brothers need a regular night of sleep like humans would. And it seems they also sleep at odd hours compared to purebloods and vampires in general, most likely due to their human past.

Sorry, my answer might get a be spoilerific in some parts.

It's confirmed they sleep at different hours from the Sakamaki family. Just take a look at Ruki's More, Blood Brute ending. He only manages to kill all six brothers thanks to them sleeping in the morning/daylight hours, suggesting it's very likely that these are normal waking hours for Ruki and exploiting the differences in sleeping hours doesn't seem to be too big of a deal for him at all.

There are parts in More, Blood where he scolds Kou for not sleeping early, because then he would have a hard time waking up early (I assume on time for his idol duties) as well. This implies they would follow something similar to a human's circadian rhythm, however, there are also parts of his routes where Ruki isn't sleeping around the same time as his brothers, which could suggest his sleep schedule is a bit wonky at times. It's shown periodically that Ruki even forsakes his sleep altogether, mostly because he is troubled from some event in the game. In Dark Fate, he skips a few nights of sleep after Yui turns herself in to the Founders, and in Lost Eden he stays awake for days after Karlheinz's death and after learning some vital information about the truth behind his past. So yes, I think he can get away with a few restless nights and still function normally compared to humans who easily get fatigued even if they have insomniac tendencies. I assume even for half-bloods, it's nothing too detrimental to their health, but rather an issue of comfort and solace as seen in his Sleeping Vampire story from Vandead Carnival, wherein he scolds Yui for not allowing him to get his sleep, so it gets a bit confusing at times.

As for the other human traits you listed, yes, those definitely tend to be exclusive to the Mukami family. Ruki in particular. We all know he cooks the homemade meals to care for his brothers and all that because let's be real, from what I know, the other three seem to a be a bit hopeless when it comes to preparing their own meals. There are other human traditions that he tends to adhere to as well, as seen in the Bloody Bouquet drama CD/short story. It's seen in the CG for Dark Fate as well. At least to me, it seems he has fairly human values on what a wedding should look like, which makes sense given his past. Overall, however, he still opts to emphasize the difference between himself and humans, often saying that he is too vampiric to make his human s/o happy or to understand their supposed futile sentimentality behind events or qualities he wouldn't even bat an eye at or deem worthy of his concern, as seen in the infamous cat scene.

EDIT: Another difference I remembered is how some of the Sakamakis sleep in coffins, although there is also a scene in Vandead Carnival where Ruki and Subaru are talking and he just goes like “hm, I’m surprised I haven’t tried that myself, perhaps I should” so I think the whole bed vs coffin spiel is just preference more than anything.

Ahhh, my thoughts for this were really disorganized but I hope it makes sense. ALSO PLEASE FEEL FREE TO ASK ME MORE QUESTIONS LIKE THIS, I REALLY ENJOY ANSWERING THEM. 😩🧩

#diabolik lovers #ruki mukami #mukami ruki #ask #retelling-of-ragnarok #the admin speaks

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fyeahfandomtrash · 2 months

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fake it till you make it thoughts

i'm terribly late to the party, but my youtube algorithm suddenly recommended this cdrama, and i was intrigued. for context, i've tried checking out different cdramas in the past, but something about the acting, the writing, the cinematography, didn't really grab my attention (there's something more to be said that as a mandarin speaker, i'm also way more selective about what i consider "good" dialogue that i don't rely on translated subtitles to understand, and i feel it harder to suspend my disbelief when i feel like the actors aren't speaking the way real people speak).

needless to say, i was really enamoured by our leads xu ziquan and tang ying, dealing with the struggles of being a small gear in the massive machine that's corporate culture, where their around-the-clock schmoozing with clients, their co-workers, their superiors, requires them to lose themselves for the sake of their careers. it's painfully real, and the way this series is shot almost like a documentary in some sequences definitely immerses the viewer more into this world. there is something to be said that their elite jobs and fat paychecks might be hard to empathize with, but their internal troubles are incredibly universal.

so i think it's even more brave, more romantic when these two make an active attempt to connect with each other, drop their masks, and fall in love.

i love a slow-burn romance when it's done well, and fitymi is emblematic of that. understanding why our characters act the way they do, their insecurities about love, their hesistancy to be honest, is key to sympathizing with our leads when they struggle through getting to that moment of confession. it becomes even more cathartic when we get to that ending in episode 9, when tang ying basically asks xu ziquan, "what are we?" the characters are mature, but they also lack experience in being in real relationships (heartbreaking in its own way, when we feel like we're being swallowed at work, in the vast city we live in, etc.), and the way they handle those "inadequacies" is incredibly grounded. they're not playing caricatures of archetypes. none of the characters in this show are, which is soo refreshing.

at its root, the couple is also supremely convincing with its chemistry between the leads. i could wax poetic about the physical intimacy these two share. the way they casually touch each other, the way xu ziquan looks at tang ying, it makes me feel some type of way! there's an almost voyeuristic quality to these conversations between these characters. xu ziquan and tang ying are so emotionally honest and vulnerable with each other during some truly breathtaking moments that i feel like i should give these two some privacy (it hurts more when these two take a couple of steps back, but it's unnervingly realistic).

youtube

(no joke, i could write a whole essay on this scene of them feeding cats, except it's not really about them feeding cats; the subs are kinda wonky on youtube but the ~vibes~ are immaculate)

another thing that makes me love this couple is how after these two circle around each other (very exciting/enthralling to watch), their transition to a real, serious couple is realistic and not frustrating at all (their domesticity is so wholesome and still has me kicking my feet). romance isn't dead after the two get together, which is something that i feel not every drama can land. i'm convinced of why these two are drawn to each other, and why these two choose to stay together. that's a testament to phenomenal writing.

kudos to the entire team behind this gem of a show. if you're like me and could never get into a cdrama before, i highly recommend checking this out! this might finally be the one to get you on board.

p.s. if those friendships rings are product placement, that's by far the best use of product placement ever. because those rings are gorg and hold such a symbolic meaning

#fake it till you make it #han dongjun #cai wenjing #xu ziquan #tang ying #i also loved the side characters and their storylines #fully fleshed out characters are always extremely compelling to watch #though i still found myself waiting for the leads to show up on my screen lol

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benefits1986 · 5 months

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123123: Arrivals & Departures

Still so in love with Departures (Okuribito), a 2008 Japanese film.

Today marks the end of 2023 szn, and let me try to say adios to this very curious year, shall we?

Currently trying to fight the signs of aging and a probable flu as I've been exposed to my tito who came from Thailand and caught the virus. I also tried biking under bipolar weather conditions accompanied by cool winds, because, biking is a bitch; biking is life. I didn't go for the 100-km route to San Pablo because dad is shaking. LOL.

Still have too many things to do especially for work, but, here we are. I've been posting quite a lot on my feed but, this time around, it's an ode to the dear departed's loving memories, life and love lessons. I still evade the photos and videos featuring me, but, I allow some "must have" shots here, there and everywhere. DOUBLE DRAGON: MOTHER DRAGONS UNITED

This 2023, losing my last standing grandparent, my ina at 88 years old allowed me to face and manage my mom issues. I know I have been a loud and proud mother dragon's girl, but, as aligned with her in heaven and here at our tiny Manila home, it's my turn to make things happen and let things happen.

Speaking of which, I always ask mom to look after our house especially during times when I'd be gone for longer than usual. When we arrived this morning, all the lights I turned off and even the air con that I double checked with dad is on. Yes, mother dragon is not kidding when I said that she keeps our house intact. She had a "cold" welcome, her signature vibe. Dad said that it kinda reminds him of Casper, the friendly ghost. I never felt mom haunted our Manila house; however, I feel her at times especially this Q4 2023. This "paradam" is not intrusive, strictly speaking; but is generally comforting and challenging. Her Taurus trail is unapologetic, spot on and, yes, bulldozing a lot of times; but, she trained her dragon baby well. While I'm still learning and unlearning the ultra femme side of life with my Cancer-Aries twists and turns, I am certain that she's slowly clapping with her RBF on. While it's gonna be 12 years with her come June 2024, I know that this time around, kaya ko na talaga with feelings na. DOUBLE C CUPS

As I'm looking after two boomers in the family who are battling the Big C, I'm reminded of Tito Taurus' departure. I can say that roadtrips as a passenger princess being fed tabing-daan food keeps me up and has a bittersweet vibe now. I'm no longer overstimulated with the thought of dealing with lumps that are all off to palliative care. These days, I am able to talk to these two boomers with compassion as opposed to jam-packed action items, only. I'm more focused on the quality of life rather than seeing number bumps and vital stats booming all the way up. It's actually my best apology to Tito Taurus who I lambasted with very little lambing even days before he went under the knife. I know he's smirking right now and he doesn't give a damn about this apology; however, I also know that I'm fulfilling my promise to him --making better choices than he did; and just doing it with humility no matter how ugh it feels, sounds and looks. I just hope that these two boomers survive this crazy adventure and that they be surrounded with full support especially on the emotional and mental side of this battle.

Seeing them go down the drain still breaks my heart and soul; however, I'm hanging onto the studies that have shown that there's better chances of surviving this Big C bitch. Let's go. I know that the battle will end at their final destination, but may their days and nights be filled with living life to the fullest as they embrace the power of complete surrender after the fights they're facing and winning, so far.

CHOKE ME, DADDY... NO MORE

I'm also saying adios to my well-loved daddy issues, finally. Must be because dad is on takbong wonky B even when his 29er is adjusting way too much. He even said several times na matulin din naman pala my wonky B. So, I'd have to adjust with his pace also in the coming days, weeks, months and years. His holiday wish? For me to be gentler even when he's not gonna back down. LOL. "Anak, alam mo naman tatay mo, 'di ba? Init ulo talaga ako. 'Wag mo na lang akong masyadong patulan. Ikaw din naman naga-adjust 'di ba?" Hahaha. This line is actually his first official line to ask it nicely AND genuinely. May humility na siya now and syempre, his only daughter is more grounded, too. It's never gonna perfect, but, I know this is our new chapter, together and apart, too.

OH, BABY, BABY BRO

Since my brother has a new kid on the block, I'm actually stepping on the break more and more, as I try my best to be gentler with him, just like the old days. Unlike the old days, though, I come with "wisdom" as a Tita who has 7 and counting anak-anakans including him.

My brother usually calls me but I don't answer readily. LOL. The past weeks though, even when I'm not a fan of kids especially babies who just babble away, I try my best to engage with my pamangkin. I can't wait for him to grow up so we can bike with Ely. LOL. Matagal-tagal pa 'yun, but I'm patient naman sa antayan at ahunan, I guess. What bike to give these two babies kaya who'd be toddlers by then? Abangan! LOL. Shemay.

BABA, BLACK SHEEP

As my 4th anak-anakan shared, I'm not a black sheep. I guess it's her saying that I'm but postmodern. LOL. Kidding aside, as I come home to ina and ama's humble home in the sleepy town of Laguna, I'm faced with so many emotions that are being filmed and ready to be processed in the dark room where death and life come as one. It's not easy as our family is not the type who'd down tough conversations. However, I feel like as an empath, I am allowing myself to touch-base with them along with specific boundaries. Before, I'd go all out in checking on everyone. Happy to share that this is the first ever holiday that I didn't lift a finger. No stress about what to cook, bring, gift and all stuff and fluff. I'm now in my era where I share a bit of who I really am and who I am really not with them, too.

SOUL SIS SIZZLES

It's really nice to have soul sisters who are on different timezones because I get access to asynchronous responses and messages. LOL. While there are too many times I still forget to reply, I reply pa rin naman kahit mga ilang days na ang nakalipas.

And having them in countries that I like to visit one day is also an added push to do better and make more and more streams that are hopefully flowing steadily this 2024.

SCENTSATIONS Here's to revisiting the scents, the sounds, the feelings and everything in between involving past hurts, traumas and rejections. While at it, I'm totally ready to let these go. I think scents would be the trickiest because it rouses memories even those that I thought are no longer with me, those that were CTRL + ALT + DEL-ed ages ago. But, as I curate my tiny home outside Manila, I need these books to be closed, so I can open up new ones.

BATS, BATS: NO IF'S NOT BUTTS

As a sentimental scavenger which I got from mother dragon, this is easily one of the most curious tasks that is arriving officially this 2024. There are times when I ask myself the reason why I'm clearing out stuff. There'd be times when I'd think about dark thoughts, again and again. But, this time, I'd like to proceed with decluttering not only my physical space, but more importantly, my emotional, mental and spiritual space. It's time, finally. Let me be super clear that I don't aim for minimalism nor maximalism. I'm but trying to keep the old and the new in a state where they co-exist and make me feel more alive as I hopefully, breather deeper breaths. ULTIMATE DOG SHOW SZN

I need to work harder as a dog mom to my three dog kiddos. I know I'm quite decent especially when I've raised two 11-year old dogs for the first time in my life. LOL. However, I can sense their anxiety that obviously, comes from me. I think I've gone too far as a dogmom who gets unrequited love from them. While I know dogs love with no expectation, here's a version of me that's a bit gentler and kinder to them. GAH. Hassle pero sige, push na natin since they've really proven their worth through the years. Nothing fancy, just more bonding time and more treats for them at home.

ON YOUR KNEES, PLEASE

I've been more attuned with my prayer life, too. I'm still not big on the whole prod called praying in churches that much, but I guess, Uptown Chapel is a game changer. It's near work and not a lot of people go there. I hope that they keep the glass tinted because, there are times when I cry tiny tears even when I try to hold them back with all my heart and soul. LOL.

This Christmas Mass, I prayed for something that I've not prayed about since 2012. No other clue because it's actually a super passionate prayer that for me, myself and I. I don't know if it's gonna be a YES or NO or MAYBE SO, but, let's see, 2024! Gugulatin mo ba talaga ako ng tuluyan?

WHAT I DON'T TALK ABOUT WHEN I TALK ABOUT WRITING

There are still a good number of things that I'd like to keep to myself, for now. These are things that I consider in their brewing stage. I always tell people who try to reach out that I'm not an an open book, and that still holds true. However, I'd like to be more intentional and allow myself the benefit of the doubt in spite my still trusted issues.

I guess, I'd start with something that happened during my stay in ina's hometown. I actually talked about my adventures and misadventures regarding my dating history. Hahahahahaha. Shemay. Caught off guard with a series of sessions with really well-meaning titas and poof... I didn't salvage the discussions unlike before. In fairness, they enjoyed it and I must say that I had a decent time with them, too. I don't talk about my dating history in public because, I'm bleeding in scarlet sins.

They actually thought I have a non-existent dating life. LOL. Lo and behold, they are too excited for what's to come and I've got a reco/referral, already. Hahahahaha. Real quick, that one, but, as I've said: I'll keep on waiting 'til The Last One wins the real game. By game, I don't mean playing fucking games. Not anymore. Hodor.

Accio Always Era is here, there and everywhere for 2024, because, I guess, I'm ready for it. I'm still petrified, honestly, but, here's my giving things a really, really good try sa abot ng kapurit na kaya ko at kung anong ako at hindi ako. Editing my "checklist" because we've aged and gone frailer than usual, also. LOL. LABORA MAJORA

The wellness leave that has been overdue actually allowed me to look at my current work space from a healthy distance. It's different to be out of the office for quite some time, but I know I need this and want this especially as 2024 is here and now. It's not gonna be an easy year as I'd need to step up consistently and intentionally. However, I guess that I'm on my way to Ikigai era na rin because Japan is love. Also, I am giving me and V another chance to slay deadlines and beyond through my current job description and my current team, too. Losing V has been a solid push as I sink and swim in my new role that has been 6 months na pala rin. How time flies noh?

As the fireworks light up the sky this midnight, I'm doing the laundry while Vici is on my lap. LOL. I love how simple my YE and YO are. As in. In my ratty pambahay and Swiftie shirt from Linya-Linya pa. I love how I'm writing it out in mom's spot. I love how my lofi PL soothes me and keeps me up, too. I love how I don't indulge in an iced drink because I'm fighting a flu. I love how Vicks has an Xtra Strong variant. And I love how the peace is with me amidst the crazy putukan sa labas. I love the smell of fresh laundry. I love how Vidi and KD are fast asleep because they we're really tired from our uwi sa Laguna. I love how Vici, inspite being 11 is like a baby na akala mo first time mag-New Year. :p I love how I had cheese, prosciutto, rice and bottled tuyo with chili garlic bits. No alchohol, too. LOL. Baka bukas na or this coming weekend. I love how our YE lunch ni dad a while ago featured sinaing na tulingan and ginataang hipon na maliliit ala Laguna with pinya na ngayon. As a mababaw girly, this set up is best for me. :) Natawid ko rin, finally.

This is how 2023 ends, and how 2024 begins. Wala namang bago. Walang bago sa taon because it's but another social construct. However, this new year might actually be the start of the real me, only better, through it all. Still not a fan of festivities, but, ready to give each day and night a better try, maiba naman. Putukan na. Pasiklaban na. Pasavogue na.

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hangezoeenthusiast · 3 years

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You failed me

multiple x gn!reader

word count: 2,524

warnings: cursing, yelling, arguing, death, angst, blood, explosion, the egg (it deserves its own warning)

synopis: you guys failed me(us)

(the lyrics go with each person, might not get everyone, and also xd’s part is kinda wonky)

song: rät by penelope scott

I come from scientists and atheists and white men who kill God They make technology, high quality, complex physiological Experiments and sacrilege in the name of public good They taught me everything, just like a daddy should

Quackity, Karl, George, and Sapnap left you. Your mentors, your friends. The ones who taught you everything you knew. They went to build their little “Kinoko Kingdom” while you stayed in the ruins, the dust. “They’ll regret that.” you swore. You built something better, something greater.

It was called “Las Nevadas”. A place where everyone was allowed. They would remember not to fuck with you. They would soon realize that they should watch their back for the rest of their short, stupid lives.

“Watch out, you guys, I'm watching your every move.”

And you were beautiful and vulnerable and power and success God damn, I fell for you, your flamethrowers, your tunnels, and your tech I studied code because I wanted to do something great like you And the real tragеdy is half of it was true

Wilbur majorly fucked up. He was supposed to be with you to the end, your guys’ country, right? No. He left you behind. He went to find peace, find his heaven, while you stayed on earth, wallowing away until your flesh seeped off your rattling bones, rotting away by yourself, with no one to bare witness.

“Why didn’t you bring me with you Wilbur?” you asked his stupid grave on top of the once L’Manburg. “Why did you get the ecstasy, why do I get the remains?”

“I’m coming for you Wilbur, and when I do, we are going to wreck upon justice on everyone who wronged us, wronged you, they will feel our wrath.”

But we've been fuckin' mеan, we're elitist, we're as flawed as any church And this faux-rad West coast dogma has a higher fuckin' net worth I bit the apple 'cause I trusted you, it tastes like Thomas Malthus Your proposal is immodest and insane And I hope someday Selmers rides her fuckin' train

"Y/n!" Technoblade yelled. "I TRUSTED YOU, AND YOU BETRAYED ME, FOR WHAT, TO BLOW UP A STUPID COUNTRY, A COUNTRY THAT WAS DOOMED TO FAIL FROM THE START." He started to battle you, missing every single swing, blinded by fury.

“YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO BE ON MY SIDE.”

"LOOK AT ME GODDAMN IT."

You looked up at him in the eyes and boldly said, "No, Techno, don’t you see, you’re in the wrong here, you’re the one who betrayed me." You were blinded by friendship, you couldn’t see that Tommy had betrayed Techno, and that what the Butcher Army did to Techno was terrible.

"What do you mean Y/n, you know what they did, they wronged me, they used me, they tortured me, they gave me hell, so I gave it back to them, I destroyed the things they loved, the people they loved, you see Y/n, those who have treated me with kindness I will repay that kindness tenfold, and those who treat me with injustice, that use me, that hunt me down, that hurt my friends, I shall repay that injustice a thousand times over, do you understand?"

"No I don't, Techno, you can't do this.” you begged. He pushed you out of the way, "Get out of my way Y/n." “No, I won’t, I won’t let you destroy everything we worked for.”

“Well, then I have to fight you.”

And thus the battle began, Swords clashing against each other, blood spilling from open wounds, friends digging each other into a whole both of them couldn’t get out of. Techno was letting you off easy, he knew his strength, he knew that he could’ve beaten you in one swipe, but he didn’t want to kill you.

So when you had the opportunity, you swept from under his feet, and knocked him down. You placed your blade onto his neck, pressing down until a little drop of blood appeared, “Stay down Technoblade, or I’ll do something worse than try to put you on trial.”

He watched as you walked away from him, trying to save L’Manberg from a worst fate than death itself.

“One day Y/n, you’ll see, I’m on your side.”

I loved you, I loved you, I loved you, it's true I wanted to be you and do what you do I lived here, I loved here, I bought it, it's true I feel so stupid, and so used I feel so used

"Why would you do that Dream? You didn't have to do that." you interrogated. Dream had stupidly blew up the community house. You both didn't plan that, he had gone behind your back. "I had to Y/n, you wouldn't understand."

"What do you mean I don't understand, you went against my back, we were supposed to-" you cut off yourself, "Dream, don't you understand, you did something stupid, and what did you get, you got stupid jail." "The reason I did that is because I needed to isolate myself from humanity." he said, proudness lacing his words.

"What do you mean?" you questioned. "If anyone knows I can revive people, I'm screwed, so that's why I need to be by myself, yeah it sucks major ass, but at least no one else will know, well, besides you anyways." "I have a task for you Y/n/n, I need you to find a way to bring Tommy and Ghostbur in here."

"Why Dream?"

"I'm going to revive Wilbur."

I was your baby, your firstborn, the hot girl in your comp-sci class And I was Darwin's prep school dream, bred, born and raised to kick your ass I fell for circuit boards, rocket ships, pictures of the stars If you could only be what you pretend you are

"PHILZA MINECRAFT COME BACK HERE." you were chasing Phil, through the woody forest, covered by oak trees. He had information on Technoblade's whereabouts and you needed it. You chased him with your enchanted netherite armor, netherite sword and axe, and a few op potions. Your goal was to capture Philza and interrogate him on where Techno's place was. The thing was, you were his child. His own child trying to kill his own son.

He felt betrayed, his own child turned against him and their brother, their family. "The Butcher Army must've gotten to you somehow." he thought in his head. Surely, his darling Y/n didn't do it on their own will, right?

He was incorrect, you did it because you believed that Techno needed to be brought to justice, by punishment. You believed that your own sibling needed to die, because he was a "liability" to L'Manberg's growth and future. He needed to die because as long as he would live his long life with his little enderman Edward, retired, he would still cause trouble to everything you, Quackity, Tubbo, Fundy, and Ranboo had built.

He pleaded, "Stop Y/n, you don't have to do this." You argued, "I do Philza, as long as he lives, my plans for L'Manberg will forever cease to exist."

He felt like shit, you called him Philza, not Dadza, or Dad, or anything besides his normal name. "Did I screw something up?" he asked himself quietly under his breath. "Yes you did Phil, you took the traitor's side." you had heard Phil mumble.

"HE'S NOT A TRAITOR." Phil yelled at you. "Yes he is, he deserves what he is about to get, I will say it again, where is his base?"

"I'm not saying, Y/n, why are you doing this, Techno is your own sibling." "He's not my sibling anymore, that stopped when he destroyed L'Manberg, you're lucky I forgived you." you declared.

"Y/n/n, please don't do this."

"I have to Dadza, I can't let him roam free."

When I said take me to the moon, I never meant take me alone I thought if mankind toured the sky, it meant that all of us could go But I don't want to see the stars if they're just one more piece of land For us to colonize, for us to turn to sand

Bad had tried to convice you to join the Eggpire. You had no effect while being next to the egg, and he had to take you out. People who had no effect towards the egg had to be eliminated.

He was creepily following you, waiting until you stopped to get a chance to capture you. He had hope that you did have an effect, that you would join the Egg with him. He didn't want to kill you, you were his best friend, besides Skeppy of course.

"Come back here Y/n." he said. "No chance in hell Bad, get the fuck away from me." "HEY, LANGUAGE!" he exclaimed. "No language, get away from me, you're creeping me out."

He threw his trident, spinning in the air, trying to catch up to your frantic steps. You were trying to get to Church Prime, where no one could kill anyone, hopefully Bad would abide to that rule. You were just about to step on Church Prime when you bumped into a hard, armored chest.

You looked up shyly, and saw Punz, with his red eyes reflecting anger. "Where are you going Y/n?" he questioned. "Somewhere." you blankly stated. You were desperate, you didn't want to die, or anything else that Bad was going to do to you. You tried to dodge Punz, but he placed a hand on your shoulder, "Stay right here Y/n."

"No, get away from me, I don't know what's wrong with all of you, but go away, I don't want anything to do with your stupid Eggpire." He raged, and grabbed your wrist heavily, "DON'T TALK ABOUT THE EGG LIKE THAT, IT WILL TAKE CONTROL OF THE SERVER, AND YOU ALL WILL BE ITS SERVANTS." "LET ME THE FUCK GO PUNZ." you screamed. You were wiggling in his grip, trying to escape his lunatic self.

While he was holding you, you saw two other shadows behind you. It was Antfrost and Bad. "What do you guys want from me, I didn't do anything wrong."

"You are against the Egg Y/n, people who are like you and Tommy have to die."

"Well, I'm not dying today." you murmured under your breath. "What was that you said?" Antfrost asked you.

You smirked, "I'm not dying today, I'll tell you one more time, let go of me."

Bad and Antfrost walked closer to you, Punz right behind you, all of them cornering you into a tight spot. "What you going to do about it Y/n, you're cornered."

"You'll know when they get here, but for now, you better run boys."

'Cause we're so fuckin' mean, we're so elitist, we're as fucked as any church And this bullshit West coast dogma has a higher fuckin' net worth I bit the apple 'cause I loved you, and why would you lie? And then I realized that you're just as naïve as I am Oh, you're so traumatized it makes me want to cry

"Tubbo, don't do this." Schlatt had unfortunately found out that you were a spy, that you were on Pogtopia's side. He had ordered Tubbo to kill you with fireworks, to light you on fire, give you blisters all over your body. "Please Tubbs, you're my friend." you pleaded.

"I can't Y/n/n, or something worse will happen." he whispered to you. "What do you mean?" you asked. "He can-" he trailed off, looking somewhere else besides your eyes. "Tubbo, you don't have to do what that stupid bastard tells you to do, you're your own person, with your own thoughts and actions."

"I'm sorry Y/n, I hope you can forgive me."

"TUBBO N-" you was cut off by firewords hitting your skin, making blisters and burn marks all over your body. You lost your second canon life, feeling betrayed by Tubbo. He killed you for what, a stupid father who never cared about him in his entire life, a father who exiled his friends that actually treated him like a person, and not like some random piece of trash.

You respawned in your bed, feeling bruises and bumps mostly on your forearms and your back.

"I'll help you Tubbo, I’ll get rid of him.”

You dumb bitch I loved you, I loved you, I loved you, it's true I wanted to be you and do what you do I lived here, I loved here, I bought it, it's true I'm so embarrassed, I feel abused

“Come on Y/n/n, come with me.” Punz begged of you. He wanted you to visit the Egg. You didn’t want to be controlled by a stupid omelette. "I'm not Punzo, why are you so obsessed with that stupid thing."

"DON'T SPEAK OF THE EGG LIKE THAT."

You put your hands in front of you, accidentally touching Punz's chest, "Ok calm down buddy." He didn't calm down and instead yelled at you on why you had to join the Eggpire.

"If you join, you will be forever happy."

"If you join you'll get whatever you want."

You were tired of the members of the Eggpire to convince you to join them, you didn't like eggs anyway. "Punz, for the last time, I'm not joining you, stop telling me."

“Then you have to die.”

So fuck your tunnels, fuck your cars, fuck your rockets, fuck your cars again You promised you'd be Tesla, but you're just another Edison 'Cause Tesla broke a patent, all you ever broke were hearts I can't believe you tore humanity apart

“XD!” You were pissed at him, he had destroyed your house, made your friends pissed at you, just everything you liked. All because he wanted you for himself.

He wanted you to be dependent on his every word, and he was being a manipulative psychopath. And you didn’t tolerate that, it was like he was his human counterpart, Dream.

He walked to you with confidence, waiting for to get a hug from you, well, he didn’t get that. You slapped him so hard his head swung to the left.

“WHAT THE FUCK.”

“That’s what you get you stupid son of a bitch. You fucking ruined everything.” “Calm down Y/n/n, what is wrong?” He acted concerned, but you knew that he was faking. He would do anything to get someone’s approval.

“DO YOU WANNA KNOW WHAT’S WRONG, IT’S YOU, YOUR STUPID PRESENCE IN MY LIFE. YOU KEEP ON WALKING AROUND LIKE YOU FUCKING OWN THE PLACE.”

“Calm down darling, just take some netheri-” you interrupted him by slapping the ore out of his hands. “I don’t need jack shit from you XD, you know what, take back the necklace, I don’t want it.” You pulled the shiny, green emerald necklace off your neck, and pulled XD’s palm out.

You placed the necklace filled with memories, and put it on his hand. You closed up his palm, and walked away, leaving XD to his own accord.

“We could’ve had evertything X.”

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enviroexpression · 2 years

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WLW tv recs

Ok, so these are my personal favorites that probably have a similar, more ‘mature’, vibe like Leyren.

(Link in titles)

Maggie & Sydney (Saving Hope)

These two are VERY similar to Leyren, imo. Maggie is one of the main characters and served a similar position in the ensemble as Lauren being the ‘reckless’ one that needed to get her personal life together, and Sydney came in season 3 as the unique recurring love interest that took her by surprise.

(looks like the videos in the playlist can get a bit out of order, so look out for that)

Root & Shaw (Person of Interest)

Person of Interest actually became one of my all time favorite shows. I started watching because I had heard about this potential pairing, but I became obsessed with the whole thing. Root is introduced at the end of season 1, is recurring in season 2, and then is a regular from 3 on, and Shaw is introduced mid-season 2 and becomes a regular from 3 on. If you find yourself liking the vibe, I highly recommend the show. The first season is meh, then half of season 2 is incredible, and then from 3 on its truly high quality and some of my top favorite tv ever. Their story might not make a ton of sense without the greater context of the show, but I’m sure you’d still enjoy it.

Pepa & Silvia (Los Hombres de Paco)

This was a random show in Spain like... nearly 15 years ago, but I was watching their story at the time thanks to people subbing and I just adored everything about them. (tragic but beautiful ending)

(go to the channel to see all the parts. I think they sometimes don’t sub parts without the girls in it, but it should all have english subs)

Jamie & Dani (The Haunting of Bly Manor)

A good show on Netflix if you’re okay with gothic romance type stories. Not really scary, but ghosts are involved. This couple was a surprise and one of the most lovely things I’ve ever witnessed. I would recommend just watching the show since it’s so short and I can’t really find their romantic scenes edited out (they’re the lead characters). They had/have a massive fandom on tumblr, so there’s lots of great content when you’re done. Also, The Haunting of Hill House (technically the first season, but they’re separate stories) is brilliant and has a lesbian main character too.

Yorkie & Kelly (Black Mirror 3x04 - San Junipero)

Black Mirror is an anthology show on Netflix, so each episode is like its own separate movie (just go there to watch the full thing). This episode is a masterpiece and a wlw classic.

Juliana & Valentina (Amar a Muerte)

I think they’re one of the first lesbian couples on a Mexican telenovela. Or at least one that was able to show affection (they actually cut most of their intimate scenes, but they shared them separately online later). Very sweet. Some similarities to Leyren--almost as if it’s Lauren and Leyla meeting as teenagers. The first half of their story is a beautiful love story on their own, but then they get swept up in the bizarre larger plot of the show and it gets kinda weird, but the first half is beautiful and totally worth watching.

(the last video on that drive is the full story)

Alex & Maggie (Supergirl)

I don’t really care for coming out stories, but they did a nice job with this one and the actresses had great chemistry. Sadly the recurring one, Maggie, left because the actress got better work, but I still think they were great while they lasted.

(link is first part, go to channel and scroll through to find each part. sadly not a playlist)

Cosima & Delphine (Orphan Black)

A good show on its own, so I’d recommend it. This relationship kinda gets wonky in the middle, but they get a happy ending.

Cristina & Isabel (Tierra de Lobos)

Girl falls in love with her father’s prostitute. Tale as old as time, right? Not a very happy story, and the second half is... brutal, but there was something about them I’ve always loved.

Jenny and Emma (Hand Aufs Herz)

Probably my top comfort ship. It’s a cheesy, dated German soap that was trying to be like a cheap version of Glee, but these two... they make it worth it. Top 3 personal favorites, but I understand they might not hold up for a lot of people.

(Playlist might not go all the way through, so you might have to use the ‘all vidoes’ section of the user)

Petra and JR (Jane the Virgin)

They’re just cute. And hot. There was also another lesbian couple on the show (Luisa and Rose), but while they were also very hot, they weren’t really one you ended up rooting for.

Quinn and Isabela (Harlem)

A show on Amazon you might like. These two haven’t really taken off yet, but it was picked up for a season 2 so I’m hoping that’s what Quinn’s story will mainly be about now. They cute.

Florencia & Jazmin (Las Estrellas)

An Argentinian telenovela about 5 sisters with different mothers but the same father inheriting a hotel when he dies that they have to run successfully for a few years together in order to actually get anything from his will. Florencia is one of the sisters who has tourettes and falls for the redheaded hotel cook, Jazmin. It’s campy and dramatic, as any good telenovela is, but unlike the others they got the same treatment for intimate scenes and screentime in general, so they were a really big deal.

And then movies I would recommend:

Kyss Mig (’With Every Heartbeat’ in english)

A really beautiful well made romantic drama (from Sweden I think). Before ‘Portrait of a Lady on Fire’ I thought this was the best quality film we’d had so far.

Imagine Me & You

Probably the best (and only) true classic rom-com. It’s iconic.

Portrait of a Lady on Fire

Just... brilliant. This is one you need to really sit and be present for.

The Half of It (Netflix movie)

Cute teen romance movie. We’re all hoping there will be a second one but who knows with Netflix.

The World to Come

It’s a harsh movie, but it makes their romance more beautiful. I hate the ending with a fiery passion... so I just pretend it didn’t happen.

Gia

Angelina Jolie and Elizabeth Mitchell. Enough said.

Desert Hearts

A classic, and one of the only older movies we have with a happy ending.

D.E.B.S

Super campy but a lesbian cult classic.

Carol

I would categorize it more under a movie about gay people but for straight people, like most things, but still stunning cinema and beautifully well made. Nothing to really dislike about it.

Saving Face

Cute, and refreshingly not about white people.

Summerland

HUGE Lauren and Leyla vibes. Just with eccentric writers, not doctors.

There’s lots more I can recommend, but these are my favorites.

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lieutenantselnia · 3 years

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I got a new tablet with an included pen yesterday, so I had to make an obligatory Doof pic xD (in order to see how drawing on it feels). I think I quite like it, but it might take me some time to get used to the different tools. I'll probably also try out some other drawing apps to see what works best for me (I used Ibis Paint X for this one and I think I really like it, I'll still have to adjust the brushes and stuff like that tho)

The drawing is certainly not my best, I feel like he looks kinda wonky and I also rushed it a bit at the end, but for a test it's alright I guess. I decided to upload it as a video because the app has this cool auto record function and in that way you can see a bit of my drawing process, I hope the quality is not too bad😅

#phineas and ferb #across the 2nd dimension #doofenshmirtz #dr doofenshmirtz #2nd dimension doofenshmirtz #fanart #digital art #drawing process #drawing test #selniasart

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xcziel · 3 years

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get to know me

tagged by @vishcount (thank you!!) and i'll follow her format bc making two posts seems a little much - i'm not that interesting!!

(hilariously, this post shows up as blocked for me bc of the tag 'joker' which? tumblr?????)

Part I

name: i'm an internet old, so i never use my real name online, mainly because it's spelled in a very unique way (thanks mom & dad) - i mean like, if you googled it you could find my home address in a few seconds kind of unique - but also, though i do enjoy the spelling, i actually don't like it very much when it's said out loud? (is it weird that my name written down is 'me', but my name aloud has never felt like 'me'?) always wanted a nickname but never acquired one :/

at any rate, i've had the username xcziel forever and i go by that 😊 (pronounced ex-SEE-zee-el, similar to etc. or ex-SET-er-ah! thanks @xia-xueyi for pointing out that it can be confusing to guess!)

rest behind a cut because it got long!

pronouns: she/her

star sign: i don't ... really *do* astrology? but technically saggitarius

height: 5'4" (162.5cm for the intl folks)

time: 5:43pm but these thing take me forever to type out so ... ???

birthday: playing the 'internet old' card again .. but it floats around american Thanksgiving depending on the year

nationality: american

fave bands/groups/solo artists: lumping these together because i just .. don't really do music much anymore. if you had asked me this back in my 20s i'm sure i would have had all kinds of opinions and things to share, but these days i actually mostly prefer to listen music from when i was a kid. part of it is also that as an old, i prefer to buy my music, even digitally, and i don't really use spotify - which does so much to enable diverse music exploration i admit! but i mostly have earplugs in all the time and music does not work for me as background noise, so...

so i guess my answer would be 70s disco and classic rock and 80s new wave artists? i've never liked any artist's entire discography and prefer greatest hits-type compilations, but i guess duran duran and def leppard and depeche mode would be considered formative? i love new order but specifically late 80s new order, NOT joy division. the only concert t-shirt i've ever worn was the cult? i loved sonic temple but i can't listen to most of it anymore though i still adore love removal machine. i think maybe if you get old enough, for some of us there's TOO MUCH good music and we can't pare it down anymore

song stuck in your head: jamiroquai's canned heat

last movie you watched: re: the above, i re-watched center stage, the 2000 one with zoe saldana and the mandy moore soundtrack, bc it's a happy comfort movie and i just got a digital version

last show you binged: i can't really "binge" very often bc after a couple of hours i need a break, so i guess i'd say the tgcf donghua on netflix since it was short enough to get through all in one go

when you created your blog: in 2012 i stopped lurking so i could post about the avengers movie

the last thing you googled: 5'4" in cm? lol before that it was chinese wrapped street food

other blogs: everything is here! i discovered i compartmentalize about as well as i tag reliably (😓) but i do have several automated ao3feed-tag style sideblogs. and i did, very briefly, have a *winces* hockey sideblog too

why i chose my url: ooh i know i've done this before, sorry if it's repetitive, basically it was the username i picked back when my family first got aol: short, unique combo of letters - 14-year-old me really thought about it! and then it wouldn't let me use anything other than my name. thirty-some-odd years later, trying to come up with a livejournal username that wasn't already taken and getting fed up, i plugged it in and went: good enough!

how many people are you following: like 760-something last i checked? although many, many, many of them are deactivated

how many followers do you have: idk i don't like looking at that stuff, but way fewer than i am following

average hours of sleep: it varies too much day by day, my sleep schedule is too wonky, i have no idea what the average would be

lucky numbers: 7? cliché i know, and again not really buying into it, but somewhere in my hindbrain i like it that my first, middle, and last names all have seven letters

instruments: none. i like singing

what i'm currently wearing: giant black t-shirt and baggy black drawstring shorts, standard sitting around the house gear

dream job: don't have one. if i did it would give me something to be working towards *sigh* this is how you end up in retail for decades, kids! but also, to quote a random post i saw in true tumblr fashion "i simply do not dream of labor"

dream trip: covered this one before but: back to the uk and some railway daytrips, or a really fancy northern cruise, atlantic/pacific either one

fave food: uhhh, don't really have a favorite but i'm almost always in the mood for pizza

top three fictional universe you'd like to live in: none really, if i had to still be me..maybe some kind of actually utopian future? but the pandemic has confirmed for me that i do NOT like living in interesting times, so most fictional story universes are RIGHT out. my favorites to read about like discworld or diana wynne jones' worlds would be way to chaotic for my comfort. possibly diane duane's young wizards universe would be safe enough to be okay?

Part II

last song: watching center stage made me think of my dance playlist so sunrise by simply red

last movielast stream: i don't watch streams or youtube often, so it was the same as you, vish! liu chang's birthday stream was SO enjoyable i screenrecorded the entire thing just so i could play it back (and maybe gif sometime if i ever get the drive to actually do it)

currently reading: well i just finished the translated quan qiu gao kao or global university entrance exam novel, which was sparked purely from catching a single rec post here on tumblr and basically just *falling* into this 166 chapter epic that is *amazing* and not coming up for air until i got to the end, which is typical novel-reading behavior for me (yes i was the kid who read through lunch period and got hassled by people who kept pestering me with "what're you reading" questions and yes i realize probably a lot of you on tumblr were too) plus, the new murderbot novel is out tomorrow!!!!! so that'll be where i end up next!

currently watching: the entire dmbj verse (that i can get my hands on) but ... sporadically and stopping at random different parts because the thing is ... this type of show is not really the kind i enjoy so much? so since it's more for "research" and learning character arcs (and let's be honest: shots of liu sang), etc. it's easy to get distracted by other stuff. i'm also watching the sleuth of the ming dynasty, mr queen, bromance, the expanse, re-watching farscape and stargate sg-1, just finished the falcon and the winter soldier, and then anytime something new and short gets introduced it jumps the queue. there are just. so. many. things. to. watch! (now i have to look into anti-fraud league too!? you all are cruel ...)

what is antipoetry to you: i ... don't really think much about poetry? i know what i prefer is usually the more basic rhymed kind like lewis carroll, emily dickinson, poe, coleridge, etc. so i suppose i don't have much use for classifying non-rhyming verse? i can appreciate stuff like rupi kaur which i guess would qualify? or that william carlos williams plums poem? but it doesn't really stick with me the way lyric-like verse does

currently craving: i never know what exactly this is meant to be in reference to ... hmmm, i would love a new high-concept, high production-quality movie like say, pacific rim, to be released, just for that massive, excited energy that comes with something new that hasn't already got tons of disappointing or conflicting history behind it - that would be so fun!!

other than that, right now, i mostly kinda want some fried fish? but that will have to wait until i go to get my second vaccine shot on wednesday since it's on the way there. i'd also like my internal body parts to settle down and fly right but it's been more than a month and they don't seem inclined :(((( maybe once i'm fully vaxxed i'll think about consulting somebody about it

tagging @foxofninetales @xia-xueyi @momosandlemonsoda @memorydragon @thewindsofsong @elvencantation @mylastbraincql @hesayshesgotboyfriend @aurawolfgirl2000 @smaragdine-galaxy and anyone who wants to! but never feel obligated and if you don't get around to it for like half a year that's totally fine, i am still interested!!!

#xcedit #is my only like 'me' tag #tag game #long post #i wanna do one of these with more unusual questions but not like those themed ones ...#tell me if the cut doesn't work i'm still not used to having them on mobile!

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theglguidetowebcomics · 3 years

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Full review: Girly

What’s Pink, insane, NSFW, hilarious, and somehow heartwarming at points? This comic is a ride and a half, and I’m genuinely surprised more people haven’t heard of this one… I’ve been wanting to talk about this one for a WHILE.

So let’s talk about the elephant in this room… Because I think it just ate someone’s couch.

Slightly NSFW review with spoilers below.

Girly, by Jackie Lesnick was a webcomic that ran between 2003 and 2010, (and really has some of those early webcomic hallmarks). Its monochromatic pink, vertical, with a poppy early cartoon feel. It’s also listed as a romantic comedy, which is… correct, but cuts a whole lot of what makes this comic good, short.

This review was always going to be one of the 4 I really struggled with. And not just because I lost it the first time without a back up in a code glitch, got distracted by a pandemic, then procrastinated my way to finally making a second version in my new backup folder… No, well also yes but no. This was a comic I read when I was younger (and should NOT have read when I was younger), and have always had a soft spot for. I’ll admit as much as this comic has its flaws or weird moments or just weirdness in general, its one of the few comics I’ve found myself rereading in its entirety more than once. And no matter how much I know it's coming, find myself sobbing, uncontrollably, at the final panel. There’s surprisingly a lot of heart in this comic, and a whole lot of honesty in just the direction the author took this weird little thing. But, first let me take of those rose tinted glasses as much as I can… (actually that might not work too well with a pink comic seriously whats with all these early 2000s lesbian comics being PINK?). And give this old comic a look and a bit of a dust. but , first...

Sex.

Getting to the point - page 3 of “Girly”

Girly is a NSFW comic. It’s not shy about it either. It hits the audience (and the main character) over the head with it literally in the first pages. It has sex positive characters, a sex positive world, some characters with… sex powers almost, and Dildos, a whole lot of dildos. Some even with smiley faces on them. It’s a pretty unavoidable part of the comic that makes up a large core of it’s humour and is baked into its wacky world. So if that’s not your thing, and it’s not really skippable in this case, you won’t like this comic.

But, if you’re alright with that part of it this might just be a hidden gem. Moving on.

Art

Artwork is always interesting in webcomics. They’re usually one man shows, have a weird niche / strong influences, and or usually go on massive journeys as the art improves. Girly is no different here.

Girly starts out rough. Some poses are wonky and its a bit scratchy. Technically speaking it has a few issues, which is fine. Its a free webcomic, from the 2000s that didn't copy and paste faces. (Won’t name names, you know who you are). You can’t be too harsh on a free comic, though.

However, what the art style does, even early on is set the style and feel of the comic. Anime inspired faces, bold outlines, and blocky silhouettes that were really popular with 90’s and 2000s cartoons. It has a newspaper, manga comedy strip vertical style, too. It fits the style of story well as a poppy wacky story. It's the perfect art style it could take.

Its rough in the beginning, but moves on from its scratchy days, to loose pen brush, to finally a polished free hand poppy style. It gets more technically advanced as it goes along, but it keeps its core style throughout. It’s fun, a little unhinged, and just pares perfectly.

The one issue I have with the art is it comes off as a bit cramped. It certainly matches the energy of the story, but it also feels like it doesn't let the characters have any breathing room in the frame. It comes off as squashed, and can make some character poses hard to read. That’s the only complaint I can find though. The issue even fixes itself later in the story, but just very very close to the end. It looks great there, but the majority of the comic is a little cramped. Still that’s just a small complaint.

Nitpicking here but some panels need a lil more room

This a humour comic foremost. It's the biggest part of what makes Girly specifically Girly.

Humour

The humour is mostly wacky nonsense, playing off its insane characters, physics defying world, everything being dialed up to 11. It also works a lot like satire, poking at what influences it, and playing with cinematic expectations. The first page has Otra shooting someone into space on a rocket because they annoyed them, the first “adventure” the character’s go on is stealing everyone’s pants because they couldn’t find anything else to do. Then there’s the kidnapping adventures, knight trials, and slice of life shenanigans that happen. All of it as wacky as the last. I haven’t really found any other lesbian comics like it. Its not everyone’s tastes, but it is certainly unique.

If you’re into a willy wonka tunnel of over the top characters and plots, you’ll like Girly.

Characters

Girl is a LONG comic, it ran for 7 years. The art evolved, the story writing, jokes, and themes along with it. It was originally meant to run for only 50 strips... and it ended up with 764.

so, there’s a lot to unpack.

Firstly, the premise of the story is somewhat simple. It focuses on Otra. The kinda straight man to the entire universe. She starts out almost depressed, out of place, and bored of the wacky inhabitants of her world. Until one of those wacky residents smacks her over the head with a giant dildo and won’t leave her alone for the next 7 years of run time.

What follows is the sullen Otra being pulled around by the always cheery and zany nonsensical Winter as the sidekick for bizarre adventures. Otra’s depressive grounded view keeps the bizarreness funny, while Winter cuts through her negative attitude and causes a lot of the over the top plot. Leaving Otra to warm up to the world, and Winter to get less reckless as they balance eachother out. It’s a fun dynamic, and works as an emotional core of the story. No matter how weird the plot and rules of the world are, their relationship keeps the story somewhat focused and rewarding to see develop.

An example of bold wacky character designs from even early on

The comic isn’t just about them, though. As an ensemble comic there's plenty of side characters that go through arcs and beats as well. From el chubacabre, the man that woman find so irresistible that they sleep with him as soon as they see him; detective Clapjaw the street wise detective who is very bad at his job; Officer Hipbone and police guy from the cute P D; captain fist the ever popular bad at his job superhero who gets all the credit; the news reporter obsessed with captain fist; the woman with babies; Steak; the elephants that just… appear and eat buildings; among many many others. A lot of whom also have nicely written character arcs and depth in later chapters. Many of the character however are simple and remain simple, which isn’t a bad thing. For such a large cast, having a diverse range of strange characters with strong identities and looks even if a bit simple stops it from getting bogged down. It strikes a good balance. Plus there’s plenty enough of characters with more depth later on.

All the character’s are insane, and over the top in a way that really sets up the world they live in and how it works... as dysfunctional as it is. There’s something very Cartoon Network about all the characters, but with some wider influences. something about dumb characters, with very specific goals and quirks that work on their own physics to feed into the high energy insanity of the world. Its entertaining to read, and leads to a weirdly charming feel of the comic.

Story and plot

For the bit people actually want to know about. What is it about?

Just a little bit of influences...

For the style itself the comic comes off as a mix between early 2000s slice of life-y anime, 2000s cartoon Network, and a dose of 2000s webcomic sarcastic action/adventure flare. It definitely has one of the most pronounced styles that I’ve seen, and even if it's very much a webcomic of it’s time it also goes a bit beyond that into something that feels personal to the author and honest. Its a batshit comic. But, it wears its influences on it’s sleeve and really plays with tropes and ideas the author found engaging at the time. It somehow comes off as refreshing in just how willing it is to go weird or niche for no other reason but because it wants to. It's what I appreciate most about the comic. It’s honest.

The overarching story of the comic is without a doubt about Otra and winter growing together as people. But with a comic that’s run for 7 years a little bit more happens in the journey, at least you hope it would. Girly runs on chapters, 15 in total (with 15 having sub chapters due to being the story’s climax), and each one of those chapters follows a different plot or adventure with Otra’s and Winter’s developing relationship gluing them together.

The plots themselves are wild and vary a bit in quality. But for a long comic that’s understandable and expected. They go from solving elephant problems, super villains, body swapping, fantasy parodies, and all sorts of strange things. Sometimes a few plots drag and a few character arcs feel a bit bland. It still manages to be entertaining all the way through though. The plots themselves work to get the character’s to play off each other and explore the strange world it takes place in. Exploring evil teddy bears, or an entire town devoted to cheap gags. No matter what, all the plots work in fleshing out the world and pushing character’s out of their comfort zone or forcing them to change. There are some that are less fun than others, but none of them manage to be boring or useless. Which for a long comic such as this, is quite an achievement.

Conclusion

Girly is a hidden gem, Its an insane sex positive comic. A loose style and even looser physics. It’s bold and unabashedly itself. But, at its core it's about the love story of Winter, the wacky insane woman needing to slow down and open up, and Otra, a sullen woman who’s deemed herself only worthy of being on the outskirts of society. It’s two people growing together in a world that’s up to its ears in care bears, sentient dildos, earth shattering cloning, and jabs at 2000’s paste it comics. And somehow it all sticks together.

The characters resonated, at least with me, which may be the nostalgia talking. But by the end of the comic I can’t help but think back on how long it took them to get there. The bits that made me laugh (a lot of them), the stupid parts, and the character’s arcs, as over the top they could be at times. It may not everyone’s cup of tea. But it has a lot of heart at its core. (If you get past all the dildos).

For all it’s flaws and weird bits. I still find myself going back to Girly.

Maybe now, some more people will too.

#girly #webcomics #review #comic #lgbt webcomics #queer #lesbian

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infinitelytheheartexpands · 3 years

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pretty sure I've asked you this before, but since you've seen more operas/opera productions since, what's an opera you've seen more than one production of, and what are your thoughts on those productions? What do you like about some over others? How do you feel about the various casts? Do certain production concepts work better than others, and why?

Okay, so I’m gonna go ahead and do what I did when I hijacked your trouser role quiz post (sorry about that) to talk about a bunch of different Faust productions except I’m gonna talk about them MORE. so INCOMING:

Vienna 1985: first full production I ever watched, so it has that sentimental value. the biggest no for me is that the director decided to make Marguerite a nun??? (she gets kicked out after Act III) the production is set somewhere in the French countryside during the Napoleonic Wars and it actually works pretty well overall! not a fan of the extraneous ballet dancers, though. but there’s some really great stageplay and special effects (the golden calf is a sight to behold, and the church scene is incredibly creepy and I like it even though once again, LOSE THE EXTRANEOUS DANCERS PLEASE). the cast is really fantastic. Raimondi is still one of my favorite Méphistophélès(es?). even in the nun costume, Benackova is an amazing Marguerite. all in all: good show. lose the dancers. also the apotheosis is creeeeeeeeeeepy.

Paris 1975: the video quality was...kinda bad, not helped by the fact that the production is somewhat dingy. I like the vibe it was trying to go for but it just didn’t really work. the ROH did it way better. cast is excellent: Gedda is Gedda, Freni is Freni, Soyer is Soyer (and pulls off a baby blue suit at one point which is itself no mean feat). I like it! not my favorite though.

Geneva 1995: not great video quality either but pretty pretty PRETTY. the garden is particularly wonderful. also tries to go for the same vibe as Paris/later ROH and falls short of the latter. Samuel Ramey IS Méphistophélès. rest of the cast is wonderful too. not sure if there are any other Ramey Faust productions, but even if there are, must watch just for him.

And now for the ongoing ROH production saga:

Three broadcasts, all of the same wonderful McVicar Belle Époque Paris production. (This was the setting that both Paris and Geneva tried to get right but simply didn’t measure up). It’s a lot of fun, start to finish. Great visuals, great choreography (we get the ballet! and well done at that), great costumes (the Walpurgisnacht costume for Méphistophélès is iconic). No wonder it’s a company hit. Also this is just me personally but I fall hook, line, and sinker for any over-the-top Belle Époque aesthetic.

ROH 2004: Alagna, Gheorghiu, Terfel, Keenlyside, Koch. What more could you ask for? They’re all great (even if, sorry, that blonde wig is ugly as sin. just let Gheorghiu use her normal hair or at least a wig like it and stop trying to associate blondeness with pure heroines. end mini-rant). this is the first of 3 Alagna Fausts I’ve seen and he’s great in all of them. Gheorghiu is her amazing self, so is Terfel, Keenlyside is pure luxury casting in a pretty small role, and in Koch you see the beginning of a very nice career. the OG. it’s great.

ROH 2011: Gheorghiu is back! I liked her more in the 2004 outing tbh but she still does very well. Grigolo is Grigolo—I actually do like his voice but a) not as good as Alagna IMO and b) he’s a total creep/milker (ironically, it was a different run of this exact production that caused everyone to realize that and in turn was a pretty big scandal last year but I digress). Pape is glorious—this is one of 3 Fausts I’ve seen him do and he’s also great in all of them. Dima is even more of a luxury casting and Losièr is her utterly adorable self as Siébel.

ROH 2019: probably my least favorite overall cast of the three but still very, very good. they have tough competition. Fabiano and Schrott are my favorites in the cast (and not to be shallow but Schrott by far does the best job of pulling off the iconic Walpurgisnacht outfit IMO). Lungu is also very good (although we seriously need to lose the wig because it flatters no one). Dégoût and Fontanals-Simmons make good work of their roles.

I’m still mad that no one filmed the 2014 Calleja/Yoncheva (no wig!)/Terfel/Keenlyside/Pokupić revival.

Orange 2008: Once again a Belle Époque look, once again well-done overall. I have conflicting feelings about using such a huge space and huge forces: it feels right for some scenes but feels completely wrong for others. the effects and sets the space allows for, however, are very impressive. Siébel is sung by a tenor which is unforgivable (also the amount of abuse the poor child goes through...give him a hug). Alagna and Pape are both back and glorious. Inva Mula isn’t my favorite Marguerite but she does perfectly well. Jean-François Lapointe is a very good Valentin. not sure how I feel about this one overall.

Met 2011: the concept is kinda wonky to me (is it a flashback? is it him actually becoming young again? who knows?) and the visuals can often be off-putting, but it sufficiently works as a concept overall and makes for great theater. Pape once again proves how devilishly awesome he can be, Kaufmann is wonderful as always and I stg he MUST have actually sold his soul to the devil for That One Diminuendo (you know the one), and Poplavskaya is nothing short of wrenching. Losièr is yet again a completely precious Siébel and Russell Braun may not exactly be luxury casting but he still holds his own in a great cast.

Paris 2011: what??? the??? everloving??? hell??? is??? going??? on??? here??? seriously, this production (especially the first act and the final scene) is nothing short of bonkers. where are we??? when are we??? it’s impossible to tell. which is a crying shame because the aesthetic itself is good (a very impressive unit set) and the cast is excellent. Alagna and Mula team up again with great results, Paul Gay is a surprisingly good Méphistophélès (I had only seen him in one other production before and wasn’t a huge fan), Tassis Christoyannis is great (although I pity the nonsense stage business he has to do), Angelique Noldus is cute as cute can be, and even the smaller roles are well-cast (Marie-Ange Todorovitch and Alexandre Duhamel!). the production is just...what even, though.

I hope that answers it!

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marshmallowgoop · 3 years

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Maybe it’s foolish, but I am so desperately hoping that Crunchyroll adding remastered versions of the first 123 episodes of Detective Conan/Case Closed means that they’ll eventually host the entire show on the site. Or Discotek Media will sell English-subtitled Blu-ray or DVD sets, maybe like the German ones or FUNimation’s old seasonal releases, with 20-30-ish episodes per box.

Or something. Like literally any way I could get my hands on the hundreds of episodes that have never been officially subtitled in English and/or released for home video.

Because goodness gracious. I am struggling right now.

Don’t get me wrong. I don’t regret importing over 150 Detective Conan DVDs from Japan. It’s kinda amazing to physically own more than 750 episodes of the same anime and have that on my shelf.

And I am constantly beyond impressed by the English softsub files that Conan fans have put together over the years. As someone who captions videos as part of her career, I am continually astounded by what fansubbers have accomplished. The beautifully timed and formatted karaoke for openings and endings, the fantastic English-text edits right in the caption file... it’s absolutely stunning. I wish I could subtitle like that!

[Image descriptions: Screenshots from Detective Conan episodes with English softsub files attached. The first screenshot, from the opening to Episode 168, has the song’s lyrics written in romaji for viewers to sing along to. The current part of the song is in a bigger, glowing white font, while parts of the song that have already passed are in light blue, and parts to come are in red. An English translation for the lyrics are at the bottom. In the second screenshot, from Episode 134, a chat room conversation originally written in Japanese is translated to and animated in English. End image descriptions.]

However, the gap between English-subtitled episodes on Crunchyroll right now—from Episodes 124 to 753—is huge. There are only so many English softsub files in existence, and many were created via OCR, Optical Character Recognition, using the officially(!) English-subtitled footage from United Television Broadcasting (UTB), which aired the series years ago in Southern California.

And I am very grateful to have any English subtitles at all for my Japanese DVDs! But OCR is far from a perfect process, and I dread when my only English subtitle option for an episode is an OCR’d UTB file. While episodes such as those contained in “The Desperate Revival” have been quality checked and edited, going from something like this...

[Image description: A screenshot from Episode 189 of Detective Conan, with an OCR’d English subtitle file attached. Heiji sits on Conan’s hospital bed, holding a bouquet of flowers, and Conan speaks to him. His dialogue is written as, “I’m askin ou a ain...” End image description.]

To this...

[Image description: The same screenshot from Episode 189 as above, though a different English subtitle file is attached. This one reads, “I’m asking you again...” End image description.]

The majority of these files have not been vetted. I’ve watched dozens of cases using .srts riddled with errors.

And I do want to stress: the translations are still largely understandable. I am glad to have them. Sometimes, they can even elevate otherwise dull fillers because I have a horrible sense of humor and find some of the mess-ups hilarious. No joke, I have genuinely fallen to the floor and cried with laughter at a few of the more outlandish goofs in the subtitles.

Okay, maybe that was more tiredness than anything. But still. For unimportant episodes, I generally don’t really mind if the English translation is a bit wonky, even if comprehension is occasionally severely impacted, like below:

[Image descriptions: Screenshots from Episode 283 of Detective Conan, with an English OCR’d subtitle file attached. In the first screenshot, Inspector Yokomizo says, “Ayaka! Please tell us the truth.” In the second screenshot, Ayaka’s response is written as, “LO LL Le aru, vin, ov dainiuiiiila 5 tiauguniet.” End image description.]

I totally understand, Ayaka.

But that said, it is painful to use such unreliable translations in crucial, plot-related episodes, and it’s especially painful when I do have stronger captions available... but they’re for remastered versions of the cases, which often cut or add scenes, and are thus usually totally incompatible with my DVD footage without enormous amounts of editing.

And I did edit remastered captions to better fit my DVD once before, with Episodes 217-218, “Megure’s Sealed Secret.” But even though the remaster was near identical in terms of content to the original, it did cut out the tiniest little things, like characters repeating what another character had said, and as a result, the timing was just slightly off all over the place. The editing I had to do was so intense that I basically spoiled the entire story for myself just messing with the captions in Subtitle Edit. I decided then that such drastic editing wasn’t something I wanted to do anymore, at least not before watching an episode.

Now, the next case up for me is “Contact with the Black Organization,” Episodes 309-311, and it’s the same scenario: the remastered subtitles don’t work at all with my old DVD footage, and so I’m left with the OCR’d UTB .srt. And it kills me because, as shown above, sometimes you can’t tell at all what’s supposed to be said!

So, like, tl;dr, I love having the show on DVD, and I’m so thankful for and impressed by the folks who put English softsub files out there, even the OCR’d UTB ones! But it’s undeniable that accessing this series in English hasn’t been the easiest, and even with what I already own, I would buy any official English releases for the missing episodes in a heartbeat. Translations already exist into the early 400s! I’m absolutely dying for them to be put on DVD or Blu-ray or Crunchyroll or wherever! And I so hope that Crunchyroll adding more Case Closed, and Discotek Media announcing more Blu-rays, means that they will.

Please I am struggling.

[Image description: A screenshot from Episode 288 of Detective Conan, with an OCR’d English subtitle file attached. Ran and Shinichi, holding umbrellas, look up. Shinichi speaks, and his dialogue is written as, “See, it’s caught on the railing O 10Sses airs a wie ng.” End image description.]

#shut up goop #i should really stop getting surprised that i write entire essays when i don't intend to because everything i say ends up an essay :P #anyway i hope i didn't say too much and step on any toes but agasfsafawfa the struggle is real #utb's subs are also exclusively for the tv version of course which means they don't match up with my dvd #and usually in those cases i just edit a bit after the intro and it's fine #but lately it's also been off like. in the middle of an episode after the door. or after the ending credits before the epilogue.#and it's not *super* off or anything but enough to be noticeable #and so i'm like trying not to spoil the episodes for myself skipping around in subtitle edit with my hand over the screen lol #i'm so ridiculous but i wanna use my dvds darn it ugh the struggle is real #i won't hope for an english dub because that's a *lot* but just subtitles would be good! a lot already exist!#i'm really really really hoping the crunchyroll update means something sob #but if not those remastered episodes are really nice....#anyway #detective conan #detco dvd saga #maybe #ramblings

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pastelpaperplanes · 4 years

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What would be your top 5 transformers characters? Doesn't matter what continuity.

Ooo okay that's a tricky question, there’s so many to choose from :’DD

Honestly my list will probably change as a continue watching the shows and read the comics but here it is so far:

5) TFA Lockdown

Must I even explain this,HAVE YOU SEEN THAT MAN. He’s got one of the most unique designs I’ve seen for mecha in the TFA universe AND he’s got a really interesting open-ended backstory which only makes me love him more. In art/writing, you can do SO MUCH with him because of that, PLUS his voice is 13/10 so

4) TFP Wheeljack

I’ve always loved Wheeljack bc he’s got a wonky design w those finials. From the few clips I’ve seen of G1 I IMMEDIATLEY became attatched to him bc (dont get me wrong I LOVE this dude) he looked so so stupid. And then I found out he was in TFP and actually kinda rocked the whole old and grizzled crackheaded uncle look and WOWIE. What really drew me into his TFP version is the fact that he is the perfect combination of smartass, dumbass, and badassery. I just loved how chill he was in almost any situation, just throw a few grenades, do some sick samurai moves, take out a few cons with your thighs, NO BIG DEAL he just went for it and honestly what a king.

3) TFA Blitzwing

He’s a big strong schnitzel who is basically three boyfriends in one,what's not to love?????? He was the first character I became attached to when I first started watching TFA, I think it was his design (I adore any character who kinda looks like a pilot, I don’t know why I just DO) and the fact that I haven't seen any other continuities utilize triple changers in the way TFA did. Plus, I thought he was funny and cute,,,,and then I found the fanart. KNOW I WILL ONLY EVER SEE HIM AS SASSY AND REALLY FUKING SEXY ANDGHHHHHHHHHIKVBKVKL

2) TFA Optimus Prime

I’ve said this at least a billion times already but I swear, TFA did a FANTASTIC job on flipping the whole deity-like stance on what it meant to be a ‘prime’.

Rather than making Optimus the baritone and unbreakable leader as we normally see him in other continuities, TFA made him a learning and growing imperfect leader who allowed the audience to see his journey into becoming one of the strongest characters on the show. Optimus had WONDERFUL range in the show when it came to him fixing his mistakes, owning up to his decisions, taking the lead in spur of the moment circumstances, and showing little moments of weakness.

I guess what I kind of mean by that is I'm so unbelievably grateful that TFA gave us someone to look up to that we could relate to in a way of someone going through life figuring things out as they go, standing up for what they believe in and doing what they know in their gut is right, AND showing that things still can workout even if you have to diverge from your original path. I love TFA Op because he gave people a chance to see an amazingly written coming-of-age stance of what it means to be a strong and respected leader. PLUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HIS LIPS. SIR HAD NO RIGHT LOOKING THAT GOOD BUT OHHMYGOD

1 ) IDW Overlord

Overlord as a person (or both I guess in this case) is literally one of the worst hearted characters in all of Transformers, but it's the way that he’s characterized and designed that makes him my favorite. Very very rarely have I seen in writing/films a character that shows absolutely ZERO redeeming qualities or moments that can’t allow the audience see them as someone who falls on both sides of the scale for reasoning behind their HORRIBLE actions.

To me, that is a huge deal because I'm possibly one the most emotional person I know, and I am always trying to find some sort of logic and understanding behind the actions of others that can help me figure out how/why someone could act so cruel.

When I do come across a character who I have not a single ounce of empathy for, I’m completely blown away and can only become THAT MUCH MORE fascinated by the character. In Transformers, that character is Overlord. He’s undeniably transparent in his self interest that I’m completely in love with the way he was written. I guess the simple reason why I love his character so much is because he’s so black and white, that I can’t fight to find any form of positive qualities I can see in his character, which again, IS REALLY HARD FOR ME TO DO.

Now on his design,,,,,holy.fuck. I’m telling you,it’s the lipsIM WEAK. that and he's a big and blue bully who has a nice color scheme and he's big and huge and did I mention he's GIGANTIC??

#sorry if there's typos #did I go overboard on this? maybe.#asks #about me #transformers #optimus prime #overlord #lockdown #wheeljack #blitzwing

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