By the way, I no longer support endos or identify as neurogenic. You can still do the ask if you want. I don’t hate endos or anything, I just have them in my dni for comfort (you can still interact) I hope it doesn’t offend you, I just think most endos are confused and actually have trauma, like I was. I’m also semi-ok with spiritual systems, as long as they don’t claim to be disordered.

We don’t appreciate this sort of ask. It actually does offend us! For a few reasons:

1) We are not endogenic. We are a trauma-formed DID system.

2) It’s unkind and offensive to deny someone the right to define their own experience. Just because you were confused about your origins doesn’t mean that is a universal experience among endogenic systems.

On this blog, we have never been silent about our DID diagnosis nor our vehement support for systems of ALL sorts. Including and especially endogenic systems, spiritual systems, mixed origins systems, confused systems, questioning systems, etc etc. They are all valid, welcome, and such integral, crucial parts of the plural community!

You’re welcome to voice your opinions on the validity of other systems elsewhere, but that sort of thing is not welcome or wanted here.

Hanging out with friends who are also autistic/systems/have adhd is so fucking wonderful. Wdym you know I'm listening without me sitting perfectly still and corcing myself to make eye contact?? Wdym I can stim when I feel the need and not suppress it??? Wdym I can multitask and let someone else doodle while I listen and engage in a convo???? Crazy. Insane, even. /pos

Terms the Endo Community Stolen

This might be a series. We don’t know a lot of terms but if you know some you can request, dm, or comment the term to have it posted.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Sysmed: term was stolen from transmed which means “short for transmedicalist, refers to trans people who believe that dysphoria is required to identify as transgender.”

Traumascum: term was stolen from truscum which means “A queer individual that holds the belief that you require gender dysphoria to identify as transgender”.

System Hopping: an original term for polyfragmented systems/systems who experienced RAMCOA. The original meaning is hopping to side/sub systems in the same systems mind. (The endo meaning can and will most likely be used as a manipulation and gaslighting tactic as alters cannot leave one’s mind to go into someone else’s mind)

Tulpa: a closed Buddhism practice. The original is the following (please correct us if we are wrong those who are Buddhist, we are using Google for this information): a term that originates in Tibetan and Indian Buddhism. In ancient teachings it was used as a practice to show that the world around us exists as an illusion, and that the student could not trust what their senses perceived. The modern interpretation is that of a consciousness that exists parallel to your own inside your mind.

They can’t even make up their own terms they have to steal it from other people

Headache + strong connection to an art piece along with the thought of "that's me"

Sigh. pk;m new

reminder that it's fine if you're not as connected to your source as other fictives you might meet or already know.

it's okay if you don't have a lot of feelings for your source

it's okay if you hate your source

it's okay if you wish you were more connected to your source

it's okay to mourn your source self

It’s kinda telling when people say “you guys spread misinformation too!” But give literally 0 examples.

With endos, they spread a very clear piece of misinformation; you can be a system without trauma.

That’s not true. You can be a system without remembering your trauma, or even with trauma you don’t personally see as traumatizing(aka denial), but you cannot be a system without any trauma.

Being a system is a form of brain damage. That’s trauma. The cognitive functions that turned you into a full single person didn’t do their job for some reason.

Trauma doesn’t automatically mean some sort of abuse, it could literally mean physical trauma caused by some sort of injury- not from abuse. Like an accident. Or by seeing something that caused mental trauma, because you were a literal child who couldn’t comprehend what you were seeing.

It only takes one incident for your little baby brain to change chemically forever.

“You guys don’t care about misinformation in your own circles!” Says who? If I personally see misinformation being spread, I care. I care immensely.

“Well I saw on reddit” that’s your problem. You’re on fucking reddit. Just as bad as tiktok. Those places are misinformation mines, that’s why I don’t go there.

The “no you” card doesn’t work on me.

What's wrong with "Endo" systems? I don't pay attention to plural discourse or anything like that and wouldn't even know where to find it. But from my small understanding of it, the argument I heard against it is "plurality only comes from trauma" which I mean if someone doesn't have that trauma but is like that, what's the situation? Is the statement to disprove their internal experience as if one also knows how they feel? Lack of scientific research? Even though so many things are misunderstood in psychology and others and even DID and others are still very misunderstood. I just don't understand the argument because people cannot feel others feelings or experiences, so to know what they are enduring or how it effects them isn't really possible. I'm not making an argument here. I don't know this stuff. Like I said, I'm very out of the know for this stuff. Just small information I have seen from time to time.

I’ll keep this short.

You can only form systems through childhood trauma. It’s scientifically proven.

You can’t be a system through other means. It’s impossible and no science backs it up.

It’s stealing of others cultures because if you research it was never connected to plurality and it was actually a practice where they were trying to be closer to ones deity and themselves

Researching the history behind endo systems it was a term to spite real systems

Thinking about it logically how to form a system it’s just pretending to be this other person, fully believe that you’re this different person, forcing your brain to dissociate, and other steps I’m forgetting but that’s just not healthy and forcing delusions.

It’s a sign of another disorder or just not remembering their trauma so they should seek a therapist and psychiatrist.

Overall not a good thing. Almost as radqueer bad.

old blog got termed for literally no reason so hello again! we're the mercy collective (our previous account was @mercycollective) and we're a minor, traumagenic, autistic, borderline, osdd system! tee hee

I don't wanna do a proper intro post right now, just dni if you're a proshipper, basic dni, endogenic system or supporter, you fakeclaim traumagenic systems, yeah. any lgbtq+ exclusionists are not welcome here either.

hello everyone! i am proud to announce that we, queer-stuck, have a brand new DISCORD SERVER!

thank you to my partner for helping set up the server!

this server is SYSTEM/KIN/IRL friendly! as the owner, me, is all of the above!

we are, however, NOT endo friendly, proship friendly, etc, if you are found being any of these things you will be banned.

you can anonymously request and non anonymously request in this server! all requests in the server will be top priority compared to tumblr asks! just as thanks for joining and supporting us!

thank you to everyone who joins!

sincerely,

mod kk

Sometimes I sit and think about how does it feel to be endo. How to willfully make a system. How to make switches. The full process of being a system either it’s for fun or some sort of coping mechanism or whatever other reasons that endos claim.

Is actually insane. Because that’s just making an imaginary friend or/and OC then pretending to be that different person then actually believe you’re that different person and they exist to it being a delusion.

There’s no other way. None. If you think about it deeply and openly. It’s just a delusion that a person made for whatever reason.

dear internet:

you cannot "create" a system. yes, this is directly targeting systems of origins that aren't traumagenic, because those aren't a real thing. yeah, it's possible for people to be traumagenic and not realize it, but true endo/tulpa systems are not real.

i don't care if you're "coping" with something. i don't care if you're trying to keep yourself comfortable. it's not a thing. systems are caused by trauma, dissociation, and fragmentation of a personality and identity that should have formed as a whole. they are caused by repetitive childhood trauma.

believing that you have a severe mental disorder like DID can in itself be considered a disorder or a delusion, but it is not DID.

The sexuality crises as a system are INSANE man like I'm over here having the "am I actually just acespec???" Crisis and there's a lesbian and a gay man in front laughing at me😭😭

Literally missed the whole point of why a system is formed to begin with. It’s a DISORDER, not some stupid game for these people who most likely need more therapy than those with osddid.

Also the op claims to be tulpa which is ✨ culture appropriation ✨ so yknow

Reminder that it's okay to be blurry. It's okay to not know whose fronting and it's okay to not care.

Being blurry for long periods of time doesn't make you fake.

Not wanting to go through the effort of finding out who actually is fronting doesn't make you fake either.

You are allowed to just exist.

there is so much misinfo on DID it's shocking. imo it stems from the fact that social media boosts minorities (not in that sense) of the DID community. I mean minorities as in:

possessive switches are really really not half as common as the internet makes us think

the vast majority of systems has low to no commumication, and, as a system who can communicate, commumication is not like hearing voices for me.

black out amnesia is not the only type of amnesia and it is not the most common. grey out amnesia and emotional amnesia are both included as amnesia in the DID diagnostic criteria.

The problem is that singlets see this minority, convince themselves that these fewer people are struggling more, and ends up boosting their content more, leading content of more common and relatable DID experiences to be pushed down and be seen by nobody.

Alternatively, singlets see this minority and assume that they are faking, boosting their content through shock value. This again causes this content to be the most seen by other people with DID who have yet to discover they have it or are coming to terms with it, and since they can't relate to that experience they assume that they dont have DID because they cant see that DID is not like that for most people.

This is in no way, shape or form an attack towards people with DID who have possessive switches more often or mainly struggle with black out amnesia or whose communication is like hearing voices.

We all have different experiences and that is what we fail to remember.

I myself started question having DID for the first time when I was in middle school and was following a creator with DID. This creator only reported their possessive switches and other parts of their DID, like their tourettes symptom holder, that caused singlets to start fake claiming them (cringe culture was at an all time high).

Because I only ever saw their content (im italian and they are the only italian content creator who's a system that ive ever seen. i didnt speak english well in middle school), I believed I could have never possibly had DID. My switches don't look like theirs, our communicating doesn't look like theirs, I didn't experience black out amnesia. Most people's experience doesn't look like theirs and thats okay.

The only ones to blame are the singlets who fake claimed them and boosted their content so much. All they were trying to do was share info about DID.

(another thing that stuck out to fake claimers was that they had more than 200 parts, maybe 500+ i don't remember. i checked their account recently and they figured out they were poly fragmented this whole time, so maybe their experience is more relatable to poly fragmented systems idk)

tired of being called a ‘sysmed’ for being anti-endo (for the record i dont care what people think i just think being an endogenic system is impossible and i don’t think we should demedicalize cdds). like can we NOT compare being trans to having a disorder that impairs daily life lol