I talked about how I hate the age change in regards to Jyn before, but even disregarding that, I don’t understand how they thought this was consistent with his character in Rogue One? so he’s 31 in the movie, 26 in Andor. the same man who was apparently in the fight since he was six? the same man who blows up on Jyn about not having the luxury of a choice? didn’t even join the rebellion until he was like 27? it just doesn’t compute and is such a disservice to Cassian. literally what is the reason for making him older, it’s completely pointless and only cheapens his character in Rogue One.

I was pretty open to a lot of changes because I think it’s a well-written and enjoyable show, but I hate that it’s at the expense of Cassian’s characterization and I’m frankly reaching my limit for suspension of disbelief

fuck what Andor says, he was born in 26 BBY

OMG STAR YOU WANT TO GET INTO GIDLE???

firstly, all the recs you’ve been given so far are so perfect. especially Oh My God like that was the first song of theirs I heard and it’s sooo good

secondly, I have to rec Allergy and Paradise. they’re from the same album as Queencard (I Feel) and Allergy is like a prequel to Queencard? like Allergy is about having insecurities and Queencard is about being confident (very rough analysis of these songs but their mvs go together). and I just love Paradise, it shows off all the girlies vocals so well. (also soft flex, I have all the I Feel albums and they’re so cool. especially Queen version which is a full deck of playing cards instead of a normal photobook, it’s amazing)

I would also rec all of the Heat album but especially Eyes Roll, I think it’s soo underrated ;w; and Tomboy is a fave, please give it a try!

there are so many crumbs of skz and gidle interactions but I cherish them all so dearly. it’s actually not fair because they’re supposed to be friends, but men and women can’t breathe in the same direction without dating rumours 😔 lol but there’s a clip of minnie crying after they won an award and chan literally goes ‘aww’ while i.n is like 😮, then jisung hyping soyeon up during one of her My Bag performances, and yuqi and changbin repping bunny idols and binnie gets flustered after he thinks she wants him to hold a carrot plushie for her, and finally i.n gifting miyeon flowers while doing the slickback challenge on her last day of mc-ing (THEY’RE SO CUUUTE)

also, I have to talk about their song Nxde, so mini essay ahead: on top of being a track that calls out the objectification and oversexualization of women, especially in the music industry, it’s also serves 2 very important purposes. the song, as well as many others by the group, is a love letter to ex-member soojin. the music video has tons of easter eggs for her, including her idol Marilyn Monroe and a character that bares her likeness in parts of the mv. gidle has not been allowed to really associate themselves with soojin since her departure, not because of the bullying allegations against her (they were ultimately disproved) but as punishment against her for the nature in which she terminated her contract with Cube. still, soyeon (our production queen) always finds a way to get around this and show appreciation to their friend.

soyeon also faced a lot of difficulty during the production of Nxde because of the title. the company didn’t want to release the song with that title because they deemed it inappropriate, and they said it wouldn’t get played. their reasoning was that with a title that controversial, it would be barred from charts and shows wouldn’t want to promote it. soyeon was not going to budge though. she had many inspirations for the title, but one was from a tag online. she noticed that things tagged nude on many social media platforms were full of pornographic content of underage girls.

she knew that if she released the song it would do very well and start trending because of fans, and she wanted to flood these tags with content related to the song. so when creeps looked up nude or nxde, the sites would be full of a song with women telling them to stop being perverted instead of what was occupying the tags before. (she’s talked about this in lives, and touches on it a bit in their interview with Jonathan from Diggle around the 21 minute mark).

I think soyeon is tremendously underrated, not just with her music but also her intentions. like, honestly, how can someone be so clever? she always finds a compromise with the company and gets her way in the end 💖 sorry for the longass message, I love her so much ;w;

-⛈️/Bae

Oh my GOD no thank you so much for this long ass message bby this is incredibly helpful!!!!

First off I had no clue queencard kinda goes hand in hand with another music vid so I’m definitely going to check it out! I loved the queencard mv I think it’s so cute and empowering 🥹 SECOND I have seen my minuscule share of skz x gidle interactions but I don’t think I ever completely knew who they were (which in hindsight is a little ignorant, lol) I remember the recent even with Jeongin gifting the flowers ahhh that was so adorable !!

I also had no clue about the Soojin stuff- I’ll go so far as to say I’m not sure I even knew they had an ex-member (can you guys tell I haven’t brushed up on my gg knowledge 😅) but that’s so incredible that they find ways to include her regardless! That makes me so emotional and I wasn’t even around for the allegations or anything. Also the fucking phenomenal thought process of Soyeon titling their song that just to fend off creeps from the hashtag??? ICONNNNNN 👑 we love deterring weird fucking men I love that SO much

I’m so excited to get into them and listen to all your song recs and even more so with the knowledge of what everything means! I’m especially excited to see the little Soojin easter eggs in their music vids 👀

THANK YOU for all this lovely info my angel, I hope you’re having the best day/night!! Sending you all my love always 🫶💓⭐️🌙👼

okay so i just don’t know anymore. need therapy and been just thinking. rn im 21 and just graduated from college. tough four years. but im struggling to adjust to not being in school and feel like im not thinking big enough. little ambition but idk i have plans in the fall and I’ll be busy w a new opportunity. i just wanna keep winning like yumeko. or idk if i should take this time to focus on other things like improving my health, having fun and relaxing. in my ideal world id wanna work 2 jobs ideally one being Sephora and the other bartending but i would equally benefit from working from another makeup store or a nice clothing store like Nordstrom or urban outfitters two of which i applied to. i also hit up my old job target which reminded me of my old ting 😭. but idk i feel so far from control and things are not working out in my favor but i could be wrong and maybe these rejections will prove to offer future benefits such as me working at a better store or getting more money or a better opportunity. i love makeup. it’s self expression, a complement to an outfit, beauty. i made an ig page solely dedicated to makeup. i plan out looks and take pictures and videos. this week imma do a rainbow under eye and then cheetah/leopard print and pink zebra maybe green and then but for makeup my goal is to get more traction on my page, set trends, capitalize off it through brand deals and sponsors, get free makeup and learn how to do makeup professionally, do peoples makeup and serve looks. okay so that involves me doing my makeup more, posting consistently, researching techniques, trying diff products and applying to jobs with makeup. i can also start blogging about makeup too. I’m also thinking about getting my bartenders license during this gap of time. Im horny asl and i can’t wait to get some rump. i love missionary and freaky shit. love getting my pussy ate and trying new shit. im getting back to my thickness. trying to be a curvy bitch in a body car ( g wagon). but yeah i wanna be a bad bitch 😍 serve looks and always be on point. be iced out and fly and an it girl. but yeah ik this nigga w good dick and he’s an aquarius and a lil disrespectful so idk if i should i think one last time and then that’s it. he’s said he’s sorry and all but idk if im being fooled out the pussy. but does it matter if we fuck and most likely how would that make me feel? why am i so intent on leveling up everything in my life but not in my sex or romantic life. dealing w the same bs, im not having it ! it’s also me too, i be acting crazy and not standing up. not respecting myself and shit so am i getting what im putting out ? let’s think more about our dream nigga or gf and think of ways i want to prepare to receive them. anyway. health i need to get better at that too. i want to eat a better diet, walk everyday and maybe smoke less but it’s always tricky i feel like smoking does wanders for my mental health. writing too and maybe it’s about rewards and courage. limiting smoking to 3-4 times a week instead of everyday. but let’s see drinking more water and im invited to interview at club Pilates which would also be a good opportunity for me. maybe Pilates will help me find peace and myself. or is that me expecting too much out of a job ? ive been getting so irritated lately. little things are pissing me off. but let’s see trading rn is going well but I’m still practicing and need to develop a better strategy and research more. need 4-5 streams of income to pay off my credit cards and live my soft life. but i like learning new things and being in certain spaces that promote growth:

idolboyfriend!mark

♡ 2.6k, fluff  =^._.^= ∫

you first met Mark on a Nature Republic photo shoot where your friend was a hair stylist 

she called you frantically because the SM staff caught multiple employees from each department posting on their personal social media stories the location and whereabouts of the members and dismissed them from the site

they were shooting at an island in the middle of nowhere which you were conveniently writing a thesis on different landscapes of South Korea 

you had no experience of styling other people and only did it for yourself but you knew you couldn’t leave your friend deserted so you came to help in any way that you could

half of the staff were fired on the spot so they immediately pushed you towards the members to prepare them for their next shoot after threatening legal action if you decided to act as stupidly as the other stylists did 

you saw your friend quickly adjusting the collar of theHawaiian shirt that was roughly put on Jaehyun and she gave you an apologetic look and mouthed a ‘thank you’

you were assigned at styling Mark’s hair, which you were scared of because you had never styled a man’s hair before never mind a celebrity but you squared your shoulders and hoped for the best

he was already used to the chaos but he was slightly concerned at how well you would perform considering that your eyebrows were furrowed and had sweat rolling down your temples as you scrunched the ends of his hair with mousse to create beachy waves

every stylist that he met was always either professional and stoic or overly friendly to try and get with the members romantically but he tried to suppress his laughter when he saw your distressed face under your medical mask

in such a stressful and hectic situation, he would never talk to the staff to help them focus but he couldn’t help but strike up a conversation with you

you looked younger than him too so he felt more comfortable

“first time?” he asked with a smile on his face as he looked up at you

your hands stopped in the middle of combing the fluffy mousse through his hair and your face dropped slightly, “you could tell?”

Mark covered his laugh with his hand as he didn’t want to discourage you but couldn’t help but chuckle at the cute expression on your face 

“yeah,” he answered but then realized that it came out meaner than he had intended

“but you’re doing a great job! Keep going!” He tried to encourage you by motioning with his hands to continue

you patted his hair into place for finishing touches but you pouted under your mask when you realized, “how would you know? You can’t even see it” 

there were no mirrors in sight except for the hand mirrors that stylists held on their belt

he choked on his saliva out of embarrassment and rubbed his hand awkwardly on the back of his neck

“well let’s see then!” He exclaimed and you begrudgingly gave him the hand mirror to see 

you were bracing yourself in case he thought you made his hair into a bird’s nest and demanded you to be fired on the spot but he let a “wahh” escape his mouth as he admired the hairstyle 

“this actually looks great!” He said a little too excitedly 

“we were both expecting it to look bad then, huh?” You joked but really you were relieved that he thought it didn’t look atrocious 

Mark shook his head to deny but you held his shoulders in place to not disrupt his hair 

his face went pink and you realized that you just touched a client, a very influential client 

you lifted your hands off of him quickly and stepped back so that he could stand up from his chair and go in front of the cameras to prepare for the shoot

“thank you” he said and you both exchanged bows before awkwardly getting back to work 

you stayed on the set with your friend for the rest of the day until the sun went down and the sky turned a bright pink from the previous ocean blue 

luckily, that was the last hair and clothes change that NCT needed and everyone started to pack up after the photographer and managers shouted “thank you for your work” and everyone bowed and clapped to each other 

while each member started to load into their vans to get back to the city for their next schedule, Mark ran up to you and asked if you were apart of the SM staff or were for hire from another beauty boutique

“oh, I just came last minute,” you said 

“I’m not actually licensed for this I came to help”

he let out a disappointed “oh” and decided not to take your number down since it was unprofessional and knew that after the fiasco today that there could be anyone around to expose him if he did 

“good night, see you around,” he said in hopes that he would see you again

you doubted that he would see you around but you repeated what he said and waved at him as he ran into the van 

the other members were confused as to why he ran off to greet you and were ready to tease him since they noticed that you were his type physically 

but he knew that they were about to so he lied and said that he forgot to take a bracelet from you and pretended to fall asleep so that they couldn’t question him further

you thought about that was a once in a lifetime experience until 2 weeks later the campaign was a hit and everyone was fawning over Mark specifically since he looked like boyfriend material in a white button up shirt and blue jeans with messy beach hair 

your friend called to tell you that she recommended you as a freelance hair stylist after they asked her who did Mark’s hair 

as a broke college student living in another country you took the offer but felt guilty getting an amazing job with no credentials so you got licensed at a beauty school within 2 months 

the next time you saw Mark was on the Punch music video set 

he had everything on except makeup and hair 

you were taken aback at how different he looked with the leather pieces, chain jewelry, and overall bad boy vibes

he was sitting in front of the dressing room vanities and his face lit up when he saw you stand behind him with your cart of hair products and tools 

usually he’d stay still in his chair but this time he turned around to face you, “hey! I thought you said you weren’t even licensed?”

“I decided to after getting offered a job” you smiled 

he turned around and looked at you through the mirror’s reflection, “or did you come back because of me?” 

you coughed through your mask and felt the heat creep from your neck all the way to your cheeks and temples

Mark smiled to himself when he saw your bright red face and was even more excited for the music video shoot knowing that the stylist he thought was cute would be doing his hair on a regular basis and could see him act cool on stage

to not let you out of his sights again, Mark pulled his phone off of the vanity table in front of him and went straight to his Instagram search page, “can I have your Insta by the way?” 

you were combing the translucent gel through his hair when you tilted your head out of curiosity of why he would want your socials 

“I send what kind of hairstyles and concepts I’d like to try to stylists on here,” he said 

in actuality Mark wasn’t one of the idols that really cared of how his stylists dressed him like Johnny or Jaehyun but he wanted an excuse so that his interest in you was too obvious

“oh sure,” you spelled out your Instagram handle and you saw him follow you right away

for the rest of the shoot for the two days that it took place, Mark would admire you every time you came up to him between scenes to wipe the sweat off his forehead and to spray his hair with setting mist 

although you were a fan of the group, you didn’t want to make them uncomfortable so you invested all of your focus on making them look their best

Mark appreciated that; you weren’t completely cold and professional but you also didn’t cross any boundaries by asking him about his personal life or interviewing him like some new stylists did 

when you got home you decided to look at Mark’s profile and saw that he was only following his family, friends from Vancouver, idols friends, and a few celebrities that he looked up to 

you were the only staff member that he was following other than his managers

but you didn’t think for a second Mark liked you

even though during promotions he would text you on his time off about your day and ask you about yourself 

“because I don’t want to be to formal” was his excuse to his unofficial game of 21 questions 

even though after promotions when he was on his break, he’d ask you to go shopping with him “to get some inspiration from uh hair stuff” 

at one point he was bold enough to ask you to go to a cafe because he said he felt like you two were friends at one point

behind the scenes, Johnny caught on quickly at how Mark was on his phone more often when he’d usually just use it to play mobile games or listen to music 

“I don’t think you left the bracelet with the pretty stylist,” Johnny would tease Mark one day when he saw him re-reading your texts and smiling to himself 

“you left your heart,” he’d say and slap himself on the knee from laughing too hard at his own joke

“can you get out of my room?” Mark would retort in embarrassment but it was worse for him from there

Johnny told both floors that Mark had a big fat crush on the young stylist and was flirting with them 24/7 

Mark wasn’t really the type to get in his feelings 

sure he’d find different celebrities or employees that he’d work with attractive but he knew it was for business or that they’d just be really good friends in the industry 

but you felt like home 

like he could imagine that if he was back in Vancouver that you two would meet at a library or something and he’d ask you for a coffee after you asked him to watch your bag to go to the washroom 

that was what he’d imagine before he went to sleep at night anyways 

half of the time he’d stay up thinking about asking you out officially and keeping your relationship as a secret and the other half of the time he’d kick his blankets scolding himself for even thinking that because it would put both of your careers on the line and he didn’t want you to feel the burden of dating in secret

you also had feelings for Mark but thought that he was just friendly and flirty 

even if he did have feelings for you, you thought that it would be best to just stay as friends because you didn’t want to get in the way of his career

one day Mark couldn’t take it anymore and went to the convenient store by himself instead of riding bikes with Haechan and Renjun like he originally planned to 

they noticed that he didn’t get embarrassed or annoyed at the teasing anymore and just kept to himself so they followed him to the store and found him outside on a bench with a beer in his hand

both of them sat beside him and Haechan grabbed the beer and took a swig, “just tell her” 

Mark placed his elbows on his knees and ran his fingers through his hair in frustration, “I don’t want to ruin it for us… Or for her”

Renjun placed a hand on his shoulder reassuringly, “if you both have strong feelings for each other then it’ll always work out in the end” 

Mark shook his head although he appreciated the support, “what if the stress gets us to break up? What if I make it awkward for her at work?” 

Haechan stopped him and told him sternly, “I see the way you two look at each other and I know that she’d accept if you asked. If the press or pressure causes you to break up then at least you tried.” 

Renjun added on more gently, “do you just want to continue suffering forever? What if she’s waiting for you too?” 

Mark didn’t want to think about it any longer and as a lightweight, the 2 cans of beer in his system were already giving him courage

if he had another night to think about it, he’d probably never confess to you so he decided in his tipsy state to confess right then 

with urgency, he told you to meet you at Hangang River right away 

“thank you guys,” he said while standing up too quickly 

he stumbled a little bit before starting to walk towards the meeting place, “I can do it!”

“you can do it!” Renjun laughed while holding up too fists to show his support

Haechan on the other hand held up his phone and started to record Mark walking clumsily towards the river, “don’t mess up loser!” 

you were finishing up on your readings when you got Mark’s text 

it sounded like he was going to confess but you shook the thought out of your head at the thought of a global star asking you out 

“probably wants to de-stress with a friend,” you thought before putting on a hoodie and jeans before walking to Hangang

when you arrived you could smell a mixture of beer and mint in his breath

His face was flushed pink which was a result of the alcohol and the 2.2km he had just walked

“why did you call me out all of a sudden?” You asked 

“will you go out with me?” He said a little bit too loudly

you quickly looked around to make sure that no one was within a kilometre near you too and asked in a hushed voice, “what?”

“I like you!” He nearly shouted, not aware of his volume due to the nervousness of the chance of rejection

“I tried not to like you ever since I met you but I can’t get you out of my head,” he avoided your gaze and couldn’t believe how cheesy he sounded

Mark continued regardless, “I know that we have to date in secret if you do like me but I promise to protect you and I won’t regret my decision if anything happens. So uh-”

“yes,” you grinned. “I’ll go out with you”

he was surprised at how you accepted with ease, “oh wow I wasn’t expecting this. Thank you for listening to me talk on haha, I don’t even know what to say I-”

to stop his blabbering you held onto his arms to steady yourself for when you went on your tippy toes to peck him on the lips

“that’s not fair” he pouted

“what’s not fair?”

“that’s it?” He murmured under his breath 

“then get some more” you teased

his hands cupped the sides of your face and bent his neck down to reach your height

your hand wrapped around his waist to pull him into a hug while his warm lips pressed onto yours

石田お寿司 12/9/21 stream translation Part 8

This is not the full translation of the stream. I only translated the parts I could understand & interpret or parts I found interesting/important. I’m still a beginner in Japanese, so the translations may not be accurate. If you want to repost, please repost at your own risk.

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(t/n: ** means translation may not be accurate.)

*He started drawing choujin X.

I: I’m gonna do my work. It’s gonna be a work streaming onwards. Whoever is sleepy can sleep.

*Showing the screen.

I: This is the 2nd chapter. I’m doing this for the magazine. Even though I’ve done this chapter before, I’m still drawing it. This is what I’ve been doing.  Pitiful, isn’t it? I’m doing this because I want to though. Then, I’m gonna casually draw this for a bit.

C: Looks tough.

I: Not at all. Which page should I do? So exciting!

I: The bgm is called Cry by Queen Bee.

I: I wasn’t told to do this by Young Jump or anything. I voluntarily wanted to do it. I asked them to let me do it.

C: Tell us your favourite panel.

I: Hmm…I wonder. I don’t know.

I: I’ve been doing the manuscript by myself, along with the background as a challenge. When I was able draw the background pretty well, I thought, surprisingly, working this way was better. So, I got carried away and had fun drawing them. I drew too much to the point the pages piled up. It didn’t need these many pages. You can’t have these many pages for the comic, so it’s difficult. The 70 something pages for chapter 2 is gonna be compressed to fit the magazine. I feel embarrassed. I was like “what is this super big spread?!”

I: My goal is to update 3 chapters this month while creating chapter 2 ver 2, and there are coloured parts in between the pages for the magazine. I’m not supposed to do that either… It’s troublesome.

*Someone commented there’s a weird URL. (t/n: the highlight of the stream.)

I: There’s a weird URL? Should I delete it? Which one? Oh, it’s an R-18 URL. “Hot Girls and Boys”. This is definitely an adult URL! Maybe I should check out. Hahaha! I’ll pin this message! What should I do with it? Then…I’m blocking it.

C: Sensei, check it out for us.

I: I’ll take a look at it for a bit later. The virus might corrupt my manuscripts.

C: That’ll be a problem.

I: Do you mean me pinning the message? Oh, you mean my manuscript getting corrupted. That’s okay. It’ll be a corrupted version of chapter 2. The virus version. I have to quickly make ver.3 if that happens. Choujin X adult ver. Adult sites often put X in their URL. That kind of info came out when I searched about the letter ‘X’. Therefore, I wanna do that kind of collaboration, please. I’ll be waiting for it. To shueisha, To Ninohara Matsuo, please make it happen. I’m looking forward to your cooperation.

*Someone commented for him to try get his files corrupted by adult site’s virus for the 30,000 commemoration.

I: That’s a good idea! Try getting corrupted by pc virus. Let’s do it, by all means. Don’t hesitate to tell me any sites filled with virus.

*People commented they can see the comment being pinned.

I: It’s because it’s being pinned. Really? I can’t even unpin it! Why? Amazing. The comment is strong. How about If I randomly pin another comment? Is there any interesting comment? MM, comment something interesting.

*The comments had already been unpinned.

I: I don’t know whether MM is still here or not. They must use the word ‘On the contrary’ in the comment. Something like, “On the contrary, adult sites are…” That person only comment contradictory stuffs.

C: MM’s syntax.

I: That’s a nice one. “On the contrary,…” even though it isn’t. Has MM gone? I’m curious. Maybe he’s thinking of what “on the contrary” stuff to comment. “On the contrary, open the URL.” Haha. “On the contrary, try getting corrupted by the virus.” On the contrary, how about I spread the virus to you guys? You’ll see adult stuffs if you open it.

*Someone commented Ishida would be on Yahoo News if that happened.

I: That’s good. Let’s do it. I’ll add trying to spread the virus into the 30,000 subscribers’ commemoration proposal.

C: I can’t handle the virus.

I: That’s right. The pc will be heavy if there’s virus.

*Someone asked why he wanted to be a mangaka.

I: I’ve told this before, but because I didn’t wanna get a job. I thought it’d be easy being a mangaka. Then, I thought of retiring when I was in my 30s after I’ve earned enough money. Haha. I thought of having an easy life. These were my thoughts when I was 19. But reality is…how do I put it? There’s still more to life.

C: Is it as what you’ve planned?

I: Is it? I did become a mangaka. I’m amazed by that fact. I wondered whether I was gonna be one when I was aiming for it. I thought of being a mangaka and I really did become one.

C: What anime did you obsessed with lately?

I: I don’t have one. I’ve been watching movies only. I watch them if the anime is the laid-back, calming type.

*Ishida mentioned that Goubaru started doing something so passionately, but he couldn’t understand why Goubaru’s doing it. Goubaru tried to explain to Ishida but he was unable to understand what he’s doing anymore in the end. Ishida ended up giving advice to Goubaru.

(t/n: I couldn’t translate the part above properly, so I just summarized it.)

* The adult websites comment came back in the chat.

I: It’s here again. This thing is super famous. I’ve blocked them though. Should I block it? How should I do it? Report it or using moderator? What is moderator? Something like a management or some sort? Would it disappear if I report it?  

C: Moderator is someone who’d ban it for you.

I: I see. A guard. That’s good. But if the moderator is a nasty person, like S******, they’ll ban stuffs randomly. They’ll be playing around with it.

*Talking about the weird comment again.

I: Erotic websites also appear in my stream. Isn’t it amazing? The only thing I’ve got before was a URL for a ramen blog. I should’ve taken a look at the site secretly after that. It was a ramen blog, but the name of the blog was something related to excretion.

*Ishida imitating the ramen blog’s comment.

I: “I’ve written reviews about ramen that I ate.” The content is okay, but the blog name is…, but he might’ve been a good person. But he’s probably not if he put out his url there. Like what are you trying to promote? I’m still regretting not taking a look at it.

*Ishida finding page to draw.

I: I’ll draw this. It looks fun. Is it okay for me to show these drawings? Well, you’re gonna read this in Tonari Young Jump in the end. I’ve drawn it, so it’s okay.

C: Until what time are you gonna stream?

I: I haven’t decided it.

C: You’ve been streaming for almost 4 hours.

I: That’s nice. This can be a record.

*Someone asked if he’s day and night became reverse when working at home.

I: Yes, definitely. That’s basically what’s happening now. I’m currently a nocturnal maybe. I wake up at wrong hours.

*Searching for bgm

C: Please play something that wouldn’t get you banned.

I: I won’t be banned, but I’ll get a copyright notice, just like Juuzou’s video. I got a notice saying I wasn’t allowed to monetise the video. I wasn’t going to. I can’t play songs I usually play because of the copyright.

C: Try getting your account banned for the commemoration project.

C: Copyright is bothersome.

I: You can’t help it. Everyone is protected that way.

*Ishida forgetting Chandra/Chandler’s outfit.

I: Did he wear a tie? He does, doesn’t he? Ah, he does.

C: It looks like Animal Rap at a glance.

I: Quite a while ago, I forgot if it was the drawing stream or not, I was drawing while animal rap videos were playing, right? During the night of the day chapter 2 was released probably, I did a streaming with animal rap videos playing on the screen. I said I wanted to see the final battle. I thought of uploading animal rap video after the stream. Now, I can start uploading them. I’ll upload animal rap video while drawing Choujin X. Need to see the conclusion of it. Are you guys anticipating it? Haha. I’m the one who anticipates it the most.

C: I wan you to bring back the Vtuber.

I: That thing? It’s a nuisance. Hahaha.

C: Is the name of the smoke guy supposed to be Chandra or it is translation error?

I: Is there translation error? I don’t know though.

I: I’ve drawn until B Block’s match for Animal Rap. The 2nd match is over, so another 4 matches to go? Or 3 matches? Huh? Let me scribble (the matches’ chart) , since I’m dumb. It’s like this, right? Until which match did I draw? I’ve drawn the B Block’s matches but I haven’t uploaded them yet. So, I have another 3 matches. So fast! The first match was super long.

*Someone wanted Animal Rap to continue forever.

I: That’s tough. Endless stuffs are tough. It’s good because it ends.

Part 9

Woodrow Whyte — May 19, 2021

"I don’t know if I want a lot of musicians I love to know I exist because then the possibility of them thinking I suck comes into play"

To quote a famous drag queen, the cheek, the nerve, the gall, the audacity and the gumption of Waterparks to name their fourth album Greatest Hits. It's a bold statement but if anyone can pull it off, it's the Houston trio and their charismatic frontman Awsten Knight.

Like many releases this year, most of the record was written, recorded and produced during the pandemic, and the enforced downtime leant itself to introspective songwriting sessions.

"When you’re alone for so long, it takes a toll on you and forces you to examine yourself more", Awsten said in promotional materials for the album, before adding “When you hear this album, I hope you walk away feeling like there’s no other band doing anything like it. In my opinion, these are our Greatest Hits. As long as you go into it without expectations of prior things, I think it’s going to be your favourite fucking Waterparks album.”

Fans won't have long to find out if the Greatest Hits lives up to its name, as it drops this Friday. To tide you over until then, we asked Awsten to take a trip down memory lane with our My Life In 20 questions.

20) What did you learn about yourself in 2020?

I learned that I can stop using social media if I want to. I knew we weren’t gonna be doing anything so I took a good 6 months off and when it was time to come back in September, I really didn’t want to. I broke that addiction to checking Twitter all the time. It was cool though because we also grew a lot in that period, so I didn’t have to feel guilty for taking that time.

19) What was your favourite album from 2019?

FANDOM. I make all the songs I wish someone else would because they’d be my favourite band if they did. I’ll also say Igor, Amo, Weezer (Black Album), When We All Fall Asleep..., Anonymous, 7, prob some others but the wiki list is very long and I still have 18 questions to go.

18) What was the most important thing to happen in your life when you were 18?

Graduating high school, I guess? Getting a car was good too! I got my permit late because I was scared to drive and didn’t really care about going places, what a dope guy!

17) Who was your crush at 17?

I’m kinda blanking. Maybe Miley Cyrus?? Do people normally remember this stuff?

16) What can you remember about your 16th birthday?

I truly don’t remember it. I was probably wearing a studded belt if that helps though.

15) What did you hate at 15 which you love now?

I hated the straight edge youth crew dudes that would hang out at local venues and crowd kill when there were only like 40 people, like bitch you’re 28 and I’m 15, stop punching kids you my children my bride looking bitch good lordddd corniest dudes ever, looking like Christian Joe Dirt punching kids for scene clout.

14) What TV show were you obsessed with at 14?

I think 14 I was into Dexter. Amazing show but oh my god that ending. I didn’t have opinions back then about quality, but even at that time I was like 

13) 13 is unlucky for some. Do you have anything that you’re superstitious about?

I’m very superstitious. Before shows I need everyone to stay away from me and let me play solitaire. I don’t walk under ladders, you can’t split the pole when you’re walking with people, I sage myself when I come home from anywhere, whole lotta stuff, baby.

12) If you could live the life of any other person for 12 hours, who would you be and why?

Honestly I’m fine being me, but if it was just for like 12 hours uhhhhh Charlie Day so I can do that thing with my voice when he says “OOAH HELLLLAOOOH”

11) Who was your best friend when you were 11?

Everyone I was friends with before music was just a friend via proximity, like we were on the same sports teams or had the same classes. That’s how it is when you’re younger. You don’t choose that shit when you’re younger, you’re just like, 'You’re near me, what’s up do u like Captain Underpants?' That’s kinda the deal until you’re old enough to be picky. I remember being friends with these twin dudes on swim team Benito and Ernesto, shout out those dudes wherever they are!!!

10) Where do you hope you'll be in ten years time?

Somewhere the internet can’t find me. I hope I’m into some stupid shit like boats, no wifi on the water.

9) What was your biggest fear when you were 9?

Ghosts, I think. And yeah, I used to hear voices! Not dope!

8) When you were 8, what did you want to be when you grew up?  

I used to want to be an author/illustrator for kids books and an archaeologist! I’ll still do the kids books but, man, archaeologists have to be in the sun so much and I need to keep my skin cute so people buy my album. Greatest Hits May 21.

7) Which of the seven deadly sins are you most guilty of?

I just googled them for a refresher and it’s all anime. I’d either say envy or anger. By the way, who made this? It’s stupid as fuck that “anger” is a sin, like huh??????? Bitch I’ll kill you.

6) You can invite six people to your dream dinner party (dead or alive), who would you invite?

No dead people at my dinner party, gross smell. Here’s the thing, I don’t know if I want a lot of musicians I love to know I exist because then the possibility of them thinking I suck comes into play, and if someone like Donald Glover actively had the thought “god, Awsten sucks”, I’d be devastated. So I don't know if I want anyone in that realm to know who I am, I’m cool with loving them from afar.

I’m gonna say a group of people who have nothing to do with me. Like, 6 people who are working on the next Conjuring movie and I just wanna listen in on them and be like, “holy shit??????” I love y’all so much. Quick shout out Lin Shaye.

5) Name five things you can't live without.

Besides the obvious ones: dogs, personal space, sunglasses that cover most of my head, coffee, and tennis/biking. I need to tire myself out as much as possible or I get moody.

4) Describe yourself in four words.

Capricorn. Flexible. Weirdly tall.

3) Your top three songs of all time.

The Beach Boys - 'Wouldn’t It Be Nice', Rihanna - 'Bitch Better Have My Money', and Macklemore - 'Thrift Shop'.

2) Name two things on your bucket list.

A platinum Waterparks album, get a horror music video produced by Blum House.

1) What or who is your one true love?

Having one true love would be scary! Too much emphasis on one thing, too much to lose; can’t put that much on one person either! That’s a crazy level of pressure and expectation! Also Gwen Stefani.

Kinkmas 2020: Day 21

Prompt: Yandere/Spanking w/ Inoichi

Genre: Smut/18+ || Tags: Yandere, Mutual Pining, Implied Stalking, Mild Dubcon, Spanking, Penetrative Sex, Aftercare || Characters: Inoichi Yamanka, Female Reader || read it on ao3 here

this fic contains yandere and mild dubcon themes, if that makes you uncomfortable please do not read!

With a content sigh, you unlocked the front door to your apartment, a slight fuzziness blurring your vision and limbs thanks to the alcohol coursing through your veins. Your keys were discarded into the cutesy trinket tray, your shoes kicked off into the ever-growing pile nearby. The date was an okay one, nothing extremely exciting but, hey, he was cute and it was a fun time. It may have sounded obnoxious when said out loud, but no men your age interested you. Not like you didn't give a plethora of them chances, and you still made friends with most of them. You just never seemed to form that romantic attachment you craved so desperately. What that said about your mental health wasn't totally lost on you, but not like you could (or wanted) to do a whole lot about it.

The sweater covering your shoulders was thrown onto a chair, your constricting belt quickly following as you made your way to your bedroom. At first, you didn't notice it, didn't notice anything at all. You simply continued walking on past the kitchen and living room, into your bedroom where you stripped your shirt and pants off. Trudging back out to the bathroom in your underwear and bra, your brows furrowed. You didn't remember turning one of the lights on… Chalking it up to the kitchen stove light you always left on, you continued your mission of brushing your teeth and face. When you came back out of the bathroom, you headed to the kitchen for a glass of water, freezing when you saw a figure sitting in one of your chairs, contently reading a book.

"S-Sir?!" the big kitchen light was on, illuminating the stoic face of one of Konoha's strongest shinobi.

The older blond man placed his book down, seeming annoyed it took you this long to notice him before he started with a huff, "I pay all my employees well, even ones as low down on the ladder as you. One would think that allows for better locks. And it's about time you arrived home, considering you have work tomorrow, no?"

Confusion was about the only emotion you could feel as your boss all but scolded you, besides the dull horny you always felt when it came to the man in front of you, though you suppressed that part for now, "Better wha- What the hell are you doing in my house?!"

Inoichi stood slowly, towering over you and making you regret the harsh tone you used, "Because it seems you forgot whom you belong to, dearest rosebud."

Besides the fact that his reply gave you more questions than answers, you silently gasped at the pet name he used. It was the same pet name your secret admirer had been using for you. You never saw the constant flower bouquets, food deliveries, or expensive gifts as harmful. They were, if anything, an ego boost to you thus far. All delivered to you with the sweetest notes, describing how ethereal you were, and always addressing you as rosebud, albeit also sounding a bit possessive. Additionally, in the six months, you had been receiving gifts, you hadn't been on any dates, instead choosing to focus on your new career supporting the Torture and Interrogation Department. A career that found you moving up the ladder fast, though you were still just doing menial tasks. Briefly, you wondered how much Inoichi had to do with those promotions, but he took a step towards you, cupping your face in his hand, and tore you from your thoughts.

"I think it's about time you come home. To your true home, don't you?"

Your heart thumped loudly in your throat and you nodded against your better judgment, "I do."

The smile you were met with sent a warm tingle through your body, and you returned a smile of your own. Inoichi nodded and picked his book up from the table, his other hand patting the top of your head. The silent praise had your chest swelling with pride for some reason unknown to you. It should have alarmed you how easily you accepted his offer, though you rationalized that you didn't have much choice, fearing that if you rejected him the trained ninja would take you anyways. Better to go willingly than be taken by force, right? Well, that and you were still a bit tipsy.

Before long, you were tucked snugly into the side of the blond man, his arm wrapped protectively around you. The route to his home was longer than it should have been, you suspected he was purposely avoiding the main streets. Being a high ranking shinobi taking a girl home during the early hours of the morning would raise questions. Especially a girl that worked under him. His warm touch was protecting you from the cold and the smell of his expensive cologne was intoxicating. It had you snuggling into his side more, an act which made him smile, he knew his rosebud wouldn't deny him. This definitely proved you deserved a present larger than anything he gifted you previously.

The Yamanaka clan complex was expansive and the main house was nothing to sneeze at either, easily dwarfing your apartment several times over. He led you inside, showing you around and you took notice of how similar his place was to yours. Not in the layout or big furniture pieces, but he had the same type of napkins, your favorite drinks, even your shampoo in his bathroom which you assumed was his daughter's. It didn't dawn on you until he took you on a tour of his room just how deep you were in. In his room, you found clothing that was unmistakably yours, items that had gone missing months ago and some just last week. They ranged from shirts and leggings to underwear and even a pillowcase. You tried not to take note of how some pieces were stained with white spots. Uneasiness began to grow in your gut as you wondered what exactly you had gotten yourself into when your phone buzzed with a notification. You pulled it out, only to have Inoichi take it from you and punch in your passcode.

His face soured, "You really think that lowlife deserves a second date? Before you give me even <em>one</em>? Disgusting."

Your date from earlier must have texted back after you replied you wanted to see him again. He was about to slide your phone onto the dresser when it began to ring. If the scowl on his face told you anything, it was, unfortunately, your date calling. The guy did say he preferred talking over text and at the time, you didn't mind, but now, it was really rather annoying.

"Answer it. Reject him. Reject him like you know you want to," the direction was clear and stern, leaving no room for discussion as he thrust the phone in your direction.

Nervously, you took the device from him and answered the call. Rejecting someone, in general, was an anxiety-inducing task, but to have an overbearing admirer glare you down while doing so was all the more nerve-wracking. Your voice wavered slightly as you talked and although Inoichi still frowned, his hands played through your hair, skimming the ends of your locks. The guy on the other end was rightfully confused while you explained you never wanted to see him again because just an hour ago you texted you were looking forward to it. Part of you hoped he would pick up on the odd behavior and come after you, but the realistic part of your brain told you the boy was too daft and a measly coward. The opposite of the man in front of you.

Once the call was complete the smile returned to the blonde's face, "Good flower! I knew you wanted to be with me. But-," his face fell again, a look of complete seriousness that made you swallow hard, "I can't forgive your little indiscretion. Not yet. It seems you need a punishment to truly remind you of whom you belong to, rosebud."

Your face grew cold at the implications, yet still, you allowed Inoichi to lead you towards the bed. He sat on the edge and patted his expansive thighs, hardened with all the training he did. You should be refusing, should be running far, far away from this situation. But, it was too tempting. How many times does the man you fantasize about return your affections so vigorously? Additionally, a spanking from him sounded like time well spent and you did deserve it for trying to date someone else when you were meant for him. You laid yourself across his legs, the pants you haphazardly put on before leaving being tugged down to your knees. His hands caressed your backside, massaging your ass cheeks before giving a playful swat to them.

"Count them. If you lose count we start over. We'll stop when I think you've learned your lesson. Got it?"

You nodded before squeaking out a, "Yes, daddy."

The name seemed to both please and shock the man, as his hand stalled in mid-air before he grinned. Then, he brought his hand down to your cheek, prompting you to call out the number. A second smack was quick to follow onto the other cheek along with a third, his hands only stalling to hear you mutter out the number. Thankfully, he was merciful in his technique, alternating cheeks and making sure to smack the untouched parts of your backside. A couple even landed harshly on your folds, the wetness gathering there only intensifying the pleasure-pain you felt. After spank thirty, it was hard to find an area that wasn't welting up, and so he went over the areas he already smacked. It made it all the more sensitive as your legs jerked slightly and hands clutched at the comforter beneath you. Your ass was raw and bleeding slightly in a few places, yet still, his hands struck you, enjoying each conflicted whine that left your mouth.

At fifty, you prayed he would be finished, but he kept on spanking, making sure to land more smacks over your pussy. He'd make comments that were a mix of degrading praise about how wet you were for him and how well he was going to fuck you. The promise of being railed by the ever-growing hard-on beneath you was the only thing keeping you from begging him to stop. You were determined to be a good girl for your daddy, despite the burning pain you felt on your rear. Somewhere in the midst of the sixties, you actually came on his hand after he smacked your pussy again, earning rumbling praise from the man above you. Finally, at seventy-five, he stopped, most likely because his hands were sore at this point too. Your reprieve was capitalized by him affectionately rubbing and massaging your abused cheeks as if it pained him to hurt you. Without restraint, you whined into his chest as he held you, hips grinding down against his.

He laughed softly and kissed along your jaw, "Have you learned your lesson? Are you ready to accept me as your one and only?"

"Yes, I've learned my lesson, daddy. You're the only one I want in my life. Now and always, please never leave me," you held onto his shirt as you locked gazes with him, your best puppy dog eyes on display.

They worked their intended magic, as you could see his expression soften almost immediately, "Good little blossom. I'll never leave your side and you'll never leave mine. Especially not after we become one, petal."

The notion was intoxicating, being loved by someone so much they'd do anything for you. But right now, the love you needed was physical and with the goal dangling right above your head, you were desperate to reach it. Your hands slid under his shirt and peeled it off, your own being removed soon after. Within a flash, you both were naked and kissing each other feverishly. Inoichi laid back on the bed's pillows, admiring the sight of you perched atop him. You didn't mind being on top, taking the advantage to push his cock into you quickly. As you sank down on him, his hands stroked up and down your thighs, giving a testing thrust up into you. You sat on his cock as much as your body would allow and without hesitation, began to bounce yourself on him. He sighed in pleasure as you wrapped around him so perfectly, telling you he expected nothing less from his perfect rosebud. The praise drove you wild, finally getting the recognition you deserved, albeit in the form of compliments on your sex technique.

When your thigh muscles began to clam up from overuse he laid your body down on top of him. His thick arms wrapped around your torso and he wasted little time in thrusting up into you. Hands caressed your shoulders and he locked gazes with you, unable to tear his eyes away from your face. In the midst of your passionate throes, Inoichi couldn't help but get lost in your otherworldly beauty, only the noises you made and the movement of his hips kept him grounded. It felt like your pussy was made for him, wrapping around him so perfect and driving him insane, he had trouble restraining himself from fucking into you harder. His lips met yours fiercely, kissing and holding onto you like you might disappear at any time. You put a hand on his cheek as you kissed him back and snaked a hand down between your bodies to rub at your clit. Though, your hand was soon removed, being replaced by one of Inoichi's, who explained he was determined to be the one who pleased you. As if you'd have any qualms about that.

His surprisingly smooth fingertips rubbed at your clit and with the constant feeling of his cock pounding against your cervix, you quickly came a second time. Yet still, his fingers kept moving, only stopping for a brief moment to let you ride out your high. The look on his face let you know he was close to orgasm himself, the blush covering his cheeks made your own heat up. Seeing the older blond man so lost in ecstasy, lost in your body, was absolutely pussy clenching. He groaned and held onto you tighter, his face burying into your neck as he moaned your name. The number of times you imagined him calling out your name in pleasure had absolutely nothing on the real thing. You whined into his chest and dug your nails into his shoulder, relishing in the way his cock pounded into your hole, hitting the same spot over and over. Every little thing was mind-blowing when added together and when you heard Inoichi announce he was cumming inside of you, you easily spiraled into another orgasm of your own. You clenched around his twitching cock, milking him for all he was giving you.

After you coaxed a second orgasm from Inoichi you let him pull out, both panting hard and nearly passed out. Yet somehow, he managed to get you into the bathtub and cleaned you up, personally washing you as he whispered constant praises in your ear. You nearly fell asleep like that, if it wouldn't have been for the cold surrounding you once the water was drained. Inoichi sat you down in front of the vanity after he dried your body and affectionately brushed your hair while blow-drying it. Again, the attention and repetitive actions almost put you to sleep, your daddy coaxing you awake with kisses to your jaw. He instructed you to pick out something to wear in the closet while he waited for you in the bed. You assumed he meant to pick something of his to wear for the night, but once you entered the expansive walk-in closet, it all became a bit too clear. The wall opposite of what you assumed was Inoichi's was filled with clothes that fit your exact aesthetic. A few flips through and it confirmed, they were all in your size, some items were exact copies of things you had in your closet, others literal things that you had gone missing. The sight should have disgusted you, creeped you out, something. But looking at the wall of clothes and shoes all you could think of was how thoughtful it was of him to so thoroughly prepare for you moving in.

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MCC 18 SEP 21

Yellow Yacks and Cyan Coyotes with a little Aqua Axolotls. Part 1/1

The only reason I didn’t forget MCC was because I got the notification for Eret.

I have Wilbur on my TV. I’m going to watch Eret on my phone. And I’ll have Tommy on my iPad probably.

Wilbur throwing a tantrum and saying he won’t play.

I feel like a true Gen Z member with my multiple screens of minecraft.

I’m only just getting the Wilbur notification.

I love watching everyone run around before MCC and scale things.

Griefing the thumbnail. 😂

Wilbur just causes problems on purpose when it comes to group photos doesn’t he.

He just loves finding ways to cause problems.

Wilbur got a coconut!?!

I didn’t mean to type the question mark originally. But I am a bit confused.

Wilbur just stocking up on coconuts

True friendship is a quote book. I have several.

Baby banana boo.

Wait. I heard the word tumblr

Scott what did you do with tumblr?

I’m scared. Only Eret permitted on tumblr.

I remember watching hole in the wall as a tv show as a kid.

Wilbur’s glasses that don’t do anything.

There are September discounts for subbing?

Neato.

The conversations in my work discord are something else.

Not surprised that Wilbur is going for top swearer of MCC

But my residents are going to walk by my door and judge me.

Alright I apparently wasn’t signed in to twitch on my iPad and it took me entirely too long to learn to remember it.

Tommy looks like he’s really concentrating. Oh wait never mind.

Wow the yaks are in first currently. I might be cheering for a winning team for once.

Alright I have my iPad split screen between Tommy and the MCC website.

Everyone break the elevator!

In the game, not in the building I work. I don’t want that paperwork.

Stick together and place many block.

I’ve been in Wilburs position. “I’ll be captain” “yeah let’s let Wilbur be captain”

Not a single POV I have up is synced. But that’s life.

Oh not starting out strong.

Just keep going. Ignore the falling people just like ranboo last time.

We are at the absolute bottom for this game.

Where’s a bag of popcorn or something?

“Stay down there. That’s how I won that one time” -Ranboo

Down they go.

They didn’t have anywhere to run.

Second round!

Oh that wasn’t their best idea. It was fun seeing Erets POV of that.

Go Teams.

Turning down the volume on yellow yacks to listen to aqua axolotls.

Aqua please. You have so much potential.

Nope.

Switching audio again.

Yellow back at the bottom.

Ranboo ranboo ranboo ranboo

Down he goes. 😂 the timing of that was funny.

Please. Don’t die

Wilbur. Scott. Please.

Scott uncovering the creeper.

Their plan is literally just sit and be.

To be fair that’s my plan for everything I do.

Oh cobwebs are smart.

I’m eating very salty Chick-fil-A chips and need water.

We are still doing ok. Wow.

Cobwebs man. The real MVP.

They are still in 10th

COBWEBS!!! And Wilbur standing on the edge of a block.

THEY WON THAT?!?!!!!

It moved them from last to eight. But still. Wow.

Holy cow. How did that happen.

I always forget what the acronym game is.

Oh yeah. Wilbur snuck and found this. I remember.

Go team!

Oh the website updates faster than the game. But we’re starting off decent.

I’m going to have to take back that statement aren’t I?

Go go go go

Fly fly fly fly

Build build build build

Go Wilbur!

Rafter strat.

Wilbur found the rafters and everyone else loved it.

Blocking his own jump. 😂

I really should do the inside joke chair emoji thing for laughing. But I don’t care.

Tiktok is nice. Depends on the side you are on, but it’s nice.

We are doing halfway decent. I’m proud of us.

Wilbur is struggling and I think he might cry.

Not bad. I don’t think.

Power sweater.

This game in MCC has rainbow road vibes

I’ll have to make that it’s own post since I feel that’ll be popular ish.

Holy cow we hit first on the website!! How?

Ranboo sweet one.

They said no peaking to Wilbur.

Wilbur making them block stuff off and the like is so funny.

Run yaks run!

I missed the moment Wilbur just mentioned. Oh well I’m sure I’ll see the clip.

First last first.

Hey 4th overall. Look at em.

Wilbur switching to full screen to show us his M&Ms.

Let me balance my water bottle on the bedpost above my head. No way this could possibly go wrong in multiple ways.

Double coins. Gorgeous.

Chickens are being sniped.

What’s going to work? TEAM WORK!

I don’t think I have ever watched a game of grid runners in my life?

Alright game should start any second because it started on the website.

Alright stream is delayed about 13 seconds.

Go teams go!

Wilbur just sniping targets.

We’re doing ok.

All this dirt.

Go go go

We’re completing things first.

Cake!

Wilbur got in!

Now they eat

Oh but they are falling.

Oh wow the painting is complicated. My friends and I would fail to communicate so fast.

Is this lever thing just find the button but complicated?

Go you got the levers!

Items grab!

My friends and I would seriously struggle unless I was allowed the lead. But I would lead us off a cliff.

Everyone get ready to go in as soon as the cake is done.

Exit! You guys are so close! Please!

Woohoo!

Go Ranboo! Go Scott!

Come on guys. Come on. Good communication.

I think I like watching Wilbur with MCC because he had a similar strategy to what I would do.

Wilbur why did you try to act cool!!!

They keep saying they are miles ahead but not according to that scoreboard.

You placed 3rd. Good job y’all.

I’m excited for bonuses.

They have another minute until the others run out of time.

Good soup.

Oh wow. Ranboo and Wilbur really are always totgehe.

We are doing well. I see the board changing on the website so much.

Where will they land.

Looks like 2nd or 3rd

Fourth overall. Not bad.

Lap time is logical.

Audience vote?

Look at me redownloading twitter.

Can you not see how others have voted on twitter?

Oh there it is. It only showed mine for a sec there.

Battle box looks close. I voted ace race.

Oh it all looks close right now.

Long break my beloved.

I don’t have time to start my laundry but still. My beloved.

Game 5/8 so MCC won’t be too much longer.

I look up and Wilbur is shaking his ass at George. I’m not surprised.

Phil and Sneeg judging Wilbur.

Wilbur twerking on Phil and Sneeg joining.

Poor Phil.

Wilbur just having visited so many random places with so many random words just gathered.

Oh wow parkour tag is low. But so is sands.

Oh wow it was a tie. Between Sands and Parkour

“Wilbur is Sand Daddy” -Scott and then all the agreement noises.

Sands of Time is my favorite practical game

Maybe because Wilbur is really good at it. And Ranboo had been trained by him.

This is just good.

I swear Sand daddy is going to kill me during this.

I am just going to pass away.

My stream delay though.

Wilbur who says he stays very quiet as he makes circus music noises.

Minecraft Rhinos. Because I can’t spell their real name.

I don’t quite understand sand of time. But I like watching. It’s like college football.

I am missing the only college football game I care about for MCC.

Go Team.

No blue yet.

All the mobs.

“You better not die” sung to the tune of Santa clause is coming yo town. -Wilbur

Keep it up guys.

Oh no. They lost the key.

Oh good they found the key.

You can tell Wilbur had a musicians brain. He just hears something vaguely lyrical and starts singing a song.

Gotta promote your band whenever you can I guess.

I listened to the last Ep for like an hour and a half yesterday while I went about my day.

I wonder how we’re doing?

Only a few seconds.

I could warm a heating pad in the amount fo time they have left.

Ranboo doing these puzzles so amazingly.

Quit caring about what others think. Just do your thing.

I swear the sand daddy thing.

I love the cage of shame for not tracking your sand.

I zoned out. Red cyan orange?

We’re almost 15 minutes into sands.

I want to play Minecraft on my iPad right now.

Wait the website updated. We were 6th?

Yikes. I thought they did better.

3rd overall though!

Wait what was that about most influential improv thingy? Good for them.

Build mart!

Oh Ace Race. Wilbur calling Ace Race his girlfriend now.

I want to see the enemies to lovers fan fictions of Ace race and Wilbur.

Oh wait I can do that. I can verbally tell one like I have others in the past.

I’m excited to watch this.

Wilbur flirt with the race.

I’m not mentally prepared for this.

Everyone just joined because they don’t want to miss Wilbur x Ace Race.

Oh no. He’s not doing so well.

Oh Wilbur is giving us more.

Complicated history…

Whispering to Ace Race and Solidarity.

You’ve got it Wilbur.

Keep on talking. Keep your brain busy while you play.

Mommmm Wilbur is flirting with Ace Race again!

He’s whispering though so I can’t quite hear it and will have to find a clip channel that added subtitles.

Oh teams are changing on the website.

“What are you doing in my women Philza?” -Wilbur

“I will end your bloodline which is canonically also me.” -Wilbur

I can not track all the quotes from this. That’s beyond my abilities.

Wilbur did halfway decent, but it still uncomfortable.

Ace Race is a person now. Also the fact that Wilbur compliments Ace Race so much.

Sally v. Ace Race.

I want to find that fanart now.

Scott honey. Confirmed cannon is everyone fancies the fish.

4th. Not bad.

We’re still talking Ace Race x Wilbur

Build mart! My dearest buildmart!

I miss them sliding around in the sleds.

Grab da flowers!

We’re in 1st at the minute.

Come on yaks!

No coyotes!

Hurry hurry hurry.

Work discord going it’s thing again.

Oh we’re dropping fast.

Move the redstone! Thank you

Alright back on top. Keep it up.

Nevermind.

I love the way the build spaces for the different teams work.

Who is the person on the build?

Oh first again? Nevermind.

Oh we popped up to second. We’re so behind. Come on.

Duck!

Good soup energy. Now all I can think is the bi wide energy song.

Time is running out.

Yeah we aren’t catching up to first. Just hold second.

Where is granite?

Game over.

Third overall now. Not bad. Last game time they can possibly pull it into dodge bolt.

I need to go get a picture with the President of the university for a game with my work.

Good Soup.

I’m sitting here making popcat noises while waiting.

Game time! Go team! Survive!

Wait where did the steamer go? I wasn’t paying attention.

He’s back.

He’s swearing for his points on the swearing list.

Is pee a soup? No. I don’t think it’s think enough under normal circumstances.

Karl is apparently swearing according to Twitter. Good for him. He deserves to swear some as a treat.

Everyone running and leaving shubble.

Oh good they are all together.

Just keep running.

4th so far.

Cars. Beep beep.

Ranboo breath child.

Calling Wilbur like some kind of golden retriever.

Bow boy

Scott is leader now. Because otherwise they are arguing.

We are playing the don’t die strategy.

Come on team.

Did I put my cut in this post? I did.

Ranboo having stolen the airdrop. And he has a thing!

Oh the boarder is right behind them.

They are fighting Dream?

Nice Will.

We’re in fourth.

Boarder is right there.

Sapnap? Nope.

Pink attack and they book it.

Oh no. There goes Wilbur.

Is it just Scott?

Scott vs the world.

Just Organe and pink. They came third.

GO ORANGE!

Please. Please let us do it.

Overall third. Pink overtook yellow.

Sadness.

Ranboo has achieved: Found Hated Game

Ranboo has been hit by Survival games so many times now.

If they had just lasted a tiny bit longer they would have come second.

Cheering Orange I suppose.

I have no skill at picking winner POVs.

I have 3 teams I was at least kinda watching. And none of them are in dodgebolt.

Gosh can hear Ranboo tweaking.

Wow. Yellow yaks just as a team twerking.

What is Wilbur chewing on? Wilbur don’t chew on things that probably aren’t meant to be chewed on.

I can hear the band outside of my window. I think my campuses football game is starting.

The drum line practiced outside my window all the beginning of the semester so it’s fun seeing them march to the stadium.

Oh and there are the cheerleaders.

Oh right I was watching MCC! Who’s winning?

Come on Orange. So close.

Wait I looked out my window. Why is the band walking back to where they were?

Along the sidewalk?

I thought it was game time for a minute.

Oh dodgebolt could go either way.

Distracted by Jesus.

Grian! You got this!

Nice Grian.

Oh Grian has a chance!

Oh!

Oh!

It’s so close!

Ooo ooo!

I’m so invested.

I SEE THE CONFETTI IN THE SITE! But I don’t want to miss the shot.

Come on Grian.

I know you do it. But you’ve got this

YESSSSS

Woo hoo!!

That was a good MCC. Now to do the chores and homework I originally planned to do today.

That was a nice stream.

Scott is separating Ranboo and Wilbur?

Please. Scott.

Don’t separate the beings.

You know. Twitter needs to politely bully Scott into keeping Ranboo and Will together.

Oop and that’s Wilbur done. That was fun.

See y’all next time!

Nakaba Suzuki's interview from “Pair Sin: King & Diane Guidebook” talking about King, Diane and Howzer. (November 2018).

1. How did King and Diane come to be a couple?

Nakaba: Unlike Meliodas and Ban, I came up with King and Diane without planning to make them a couple from the beginning. The same Diane, for example, was at first unrequitedly in love with Meliodas. Then King appeared, and I decided that let him be unrequitedly in love with Diane, because it is interesting to look at the development of the relationship between the couple "fairy and giant". Well, that's what we came up with in the end. As you can see, these two are slightly different from the couples of previous guidebooks.

2. King is the king of the fairies, but compared to Meliodas and Ban, he acts cowardly and looks rather childish.

Nakaba: In a good way, he "didn't come out of childhood." Something like the lead of the seventh-eighth class: he seems to be responsible, and strives for leadership, but still a child inside.

3.He often suffers from doubts, I must say.

Nakaba: Of all the Seven Deadly Sins, he has perhaps the finest mental organization. Take, for example, the same Meliodas: his attitude towards his beloved and the strength of his feelings for her far exceed all reasonable limits. Well, maybe the point is that the rest of the "Sins" are just too arrogant, ha-ha!

4.Why is King showed as a fat man on the wanted list?

Nakaba: Apparently he was very nervous at first when he was in the Seven Deadly Sins. (King turns into a fat man when he's nervous)

5.These transitions from the appearance of an old man to a sweet boy are also not devoid of their charm.

Nakaba: Actually, my original idea was to make the "Sins" posters completely different from their real faces. During a discussion with the editor, there was a proposal to make his second look younger, but still settled on a fat man, because the contrast was stronger.

6.What about Diane? When I first saw her, I wondered if she was too big?

Nakaba: I decided to make her so big that she looked absolutely fantastic and unreal.

7.Her size is very noticeable when there are other characters nearby. What difficulties do you have to face while drawing her?

Nakaba: Usually, the camera angles are when Diane is looking at someone from above or when someone is looking at her from below, but there is no particular difficulty. Although it happens that another character is in the frame as a whole, and only a face from Diane, ha ha! But the same angles quickly become boring, so I introduced the shrinking pills into history. Well, a serious calm giantess would look intimidating, so I purposely gave her girly features and details in the costumes.

8.She hides her mouth with her hair very cute when she is embarrassed.

Nakaba: I remember that at school girls did the same when they were embarrassed. Perhaps, somehow unconsciously, I drew Diane with such habit.

9.Initially, Diane was unrequitedly in love with Meliodas, but were you going to make her a rival for Elizabeth?

Nakaba: The rivalry would have been if Meliodas reacted (or didn't) the same to both Elizabeth and Diane. Therefore, from the very beginning, I was not going to force Diane to get in between them - this is not a love comedy. But the unrequited love Diane turned out to be so touching and really liked the readers.

10.But Meliodas is still dear to Diane, right?

Nakaba: Yes, because he was the first person to treat her like a girl, and unfeminine girls like Diane are especially happy about that. Plus, he saved her.

11.Now tell us how Howzer came to be.

Nakaba: His best friend Gilthunder is exemplary handsome, so I wanted to do his complete opposite and gave Howzer a pompadour hairstyle and a bully personality.

12. Howzer is quite closely related to Diane, but he does not seem to show such obvious romantic sympathies ...

Nakaba: Right. Some people misinterpret his attitude. Howzer finds Diane very sweet, but even in his thoughts he has no intention of meeting her. Sometimes, looking at the merciful King and Diane, he will think something in the spirit of “Oh, lovebirds, eh!”. But his case is not at all the same as, for example, Jericho's towards Ban.

13. Recently, Howzer's pompadour has become more pronounced, it seems to me.

Nakaba: At first I drew him a pompadour-like hairstyle, but then there was a moment when Howzer appeared after a long break, and it was clearly in my memory that he had a full-fledged pompadour, and that's how it happened. But now it has become easier to draw it.

14. Howzer is surprisingly judicious in emergencies.

Nakaba: This is also in contrast to Gilthunder, who is usually reserved, but is noticeably aroused in battle. As you can see, this trait was appreciated by Howzer, since he was promoted right up to the Great Holy Knight.

15.Which of the three is easiest for you to draw, and who is more difficult?

Nakaba: Not that difficult, but I'm especially careful when painting King because he chooses who to talk to. Even in the group of The Seven Deadly Sins, he hardly interacts with anyone other than Diane. He's quite secretive and introverted, so I make sure these traits persist.

16.And in terms of drawing?

Nakaba: King is the most difficult. It all falls on the shoulders of my wife, ha ha!

17.What do you think is the beauty of King and Diane as a couple?

Nakaba: I think it’s their inexperience in this regard. There is no feeling of "family" among fairies and giants, which makes their relationship special; and many people like it, as far as I can tell.

18.And the proof is the number of scenes with an embarrassed and blushing King!

Nakaba: Well, yes, Meliodas harasses like some kind of pervert old man, and Ban cannot be embarrassed at all. But King has a pure and innocent heart, like the hero of a love comedy. His kiss’ scenes in general would be more suitable for any schoolboy, ha ha!

19. Diane sometimes puts King in her cleavage, without even thinking, and this makes him embarrassed even more often ...

Nakaba: Diane just doesn't think about men's opinions. I drew her keeping in mind the image of a sort of athletic elementary school girl. And for King I chose an eighth-grader boy, because it is in high school that they begin to have an active interest in the opposite sex. I think this difference creates the desired effect.

20.And Diane, meanwhile, had to endure twice the loss of memory.

Nakaba: After the battle in the capital, Diane began to slowly regain her memories of the past. At this rate, she would remember her feelings for King, and they would become a happy couple. But with their school-level love story, they would have stood out unfavorably against the background of Meliodas and Ban, and I didn't want that. Fortunately, I was just thinking of using Gowther in the plot, so I made him erase Diane's memory.

21.Gowther's act surprised many then!

Nakaba: Gowther's moves on Diane are the most effective. If he tried to use them on Meliodas, not only would he break off, but he would also get change in addition, haha! Well, then, when original Gowther returned her memory, it was Diane who best suited the role of the character who said the right words to him. In spite of everything, I think after the events of Volume 27, Diane, King and Gowther have developed a strong bond.

22.So, then everything will be smooth for them?

Nakaba: Somehow it’s not very satisfying to mock them even more, so I don’t think you should worry.

23.Which chapters with King and Diane do you like the most?

Nakaba: Probably the scene from Volume 27 when their feelings became mutual. I was finally able to breathe easy and stop worrying about this couple, which I have been drawing for so long.

24.The scenes where King rescues Diane are also pretty good.

Nakaba: In such scenes, he is always late, and someone already becomes a victim ... I myself, while drawing him, I think "Yes, hurry up, nice!"

25.Fukuyama Jun-san and Yuki Aoi-san (voice of King and Diane) noted in their interviews that they liked how Diane made one of her golems look like King during the Grand Tournament.

Nakaba: I think it was a manifestation of her love for King, which still remained in her despite her lost memory. Diane is honest, therefore she expresses her sympathy directly and openly. And King, on the contrary, monitors the reaction of the interlocutor and behaves accordingly. There is a little humanly ugly side on him, hehe. But that's what I like about him. Meliodas and Ban don't have that, so it's pretty interesting to draw.

26.If King and Diane get married, what kind of family life will they have?

Nakaba: I think they will always be that way and will be the same innocent and homely warm. Nobody will try to take a leading position. King is the king of the fairies, so he won't become henpecked either and at the right time he will be able to take matters into his own hands. But both will respect and take into account each other's opinions. Well, King will sometimes show off in front of Diane.

27.I can't wait to find out what kind of children they will have!

Nakaba: Well, you'll have to wait a little longer here ...

28.Any future wishes for King, Diane and Howzer?

Nakaba: My advice to King is not to be late anymore and protect Diane properly. To Diane, she can safely rely on King in everything. Well, good luck to Howzer as Great Holy Knight, ha ha! He is popular among readers, but in the story itself he does not have much success with girls. Hopefully he can find his lover. Personally, I think Guila would be good for him ... but I don't even know. Let him take his time in this search.

29.And finally, a few words to the readers!

Nakaba: The ending is approaching, the relationship is finally stabilizing. Well, you don't have to worry about King and Diane, they will be fine!

Sources: thesevendeadlysins-boarhat .com & Nanatsu no Taizai | Семь Смертных Грехов

(interview) vogue korea april issue 2020 - perfect taemin

1. superm was another chance for taemin’s ever-evolving performance to be showcased. i thought a lot about how to create synergy with these exceptional performers. to put it simply, i wanted us to come off as energetic. but these days i’ve had a change of heart. our identity is definitely important. rather than just working hard, for superm to show off their colours well we need to show our personalities; we should be seen as one team. to be able to formulate a solid and clear colour is our homework. that’s why it’s regrettable. we couldn’t come up with a novel choreography to carry our new identity. we tried a lot in the practice room. superm seems to have found its musical identity but hasn’t gotten a hold of its performance character yet. the stages are too vague. 2. now that you are finally promoting with your best friend kai in one group, you two must’ve shared your concerns. since this friend is someone who has a lot of passion and ambition, he talks about various things. for instance, this style is pretty good, this choreography is quite trendy. thanks to him i’ve learned a lot. he is also very knowledgeable about the latest ‘hottest’ genres. we talk about these things often and even watch videos together. kai gives off ‘popular’ vibes. compared to him, my interests are quite unusual. nowadays kai is interested in music while i am into science. 3. is it science fiction? these days we’ve been watching videos on the theory of relativity and quantum mechanics together. 4. what aspect of it interested you? originally i was very curious, after seeing a recommended video on youtube i learned about quantum mechanics for the first time. i couldn’t understand the explanation, even those who were explaining it said it was a difficult concept. that was very fascinating to me. kind of like magic.  5. are you reading books on the subject too? the subjects of the books i read are different (laughs). there’s a book that was published long ago called ‘regarding the pain of others.’ it is a pessimistic book that gathers contradictory opinions of people for instance ‘people find joy in the pain of others, it is instinctual.’ as a celebrity, there are times when you are criticized but there are also times when you receive comfort from people. rather than blaming others, while reading this book, i began to think ‘people are like that, at most i shouldn’t behave like them.’ my interests are all over the place. 6. what makes you and kai click? we converse well. our opinions almost never clash and we respect each other. moreover, we fully understand our own roles in superm. 7. what position do you hold in superm? since i can’t ask if it’s the main dancer. in pictures and interviews, i’m the center. baekhyun hyung is the leader (laughs). 8. when the conversation wasn’t flowing well during the talkshow interview, i saw you neatly concluding it.  that does happen. nct and wayv are still in the learning phase. that’s why i first listen to all of their thoughts during interviews then flesh it out with details later. 9. compared to when you set out abroad as shinee then promoting overseas as superm now, the status of k-pop has changed. looking at how superm was able to start off with an arena tour in the us and europe made me feel that k-pop is a ‘hot’ topic. in the past, we’d use venues of this scale for smtown concerts. even if you promote mainly in asia, seeing the audience section will make you realise the perception of k-pop has changed. 10. though k-pop’s scope has expanded and diversified, its definition has become simple. what are your concerns? my first concern is language. after i was able to communicate via language during my japanese activities, there were so many advantages. though each country overseas has its own language, i felt that i needed to learn english first. there are many international fans who want to experience the chemistry between our members, they’d feel much closer to us if we communicated using (a common) language. k-pop isn’t one dimensional. it’s not only about the music, there is music video, style, etc. included. people would make dance covers in the past, now they even emulate the styling. all of this is korean pop culture. 11. superm were on the ellen degeneres show and jimmy kimmel live. before we went on the ellen show we really rehearsed the interview a lot. america’s atmosphere is different so you receive questions that are never asked in korea. they don’t disclose the questions in advance either. we were also worried because the emcee could ad-lib. we came up with the most probable questions and practiced, we also received lessons from american comedians. compared to that, we went on jimmy kimmel live without any prep. 12. what went according to plan and what didn’t? the questions were not as intense as expected, ellen was well aware about k-pop culture so it went smoothly. 13. is there a dance genre you’re into these days? contemporary, lyrical hiphop, in the future as superm i think i’ll be able to show more, not the kind of dancing that you do after learning a given choreography but the kind that is full of emotions. it’s about giving meaning to your gestures. it isn’t out yet but my concert vcr features lyrical hiphop. in it i think i’m dancing alone with a giant full moon as my backdrop but get confused when there are two of us, either it’s another person or a shadow. a choreographer with a body type similar to mine had to dress in all black to come across as my shadow. i wore an oriental outfit with smokey makeup. 14. how do you usually come up with your ideas? i get inspired by the choreographers and creative directors. i imagine it as we converse then the idea develops. 15. was there a time you were inspired by fashion? of course. art begins with the five senses. what you see with your eyes, the things you can feel, clothes, food, perfume, music that you listen to are all sources of inspiration. i create private accounts to follow fashion brands. 16. having debuted at the age of 16, you are still young but your work experience has been long. i was in certain situations because of this. it doesn’t happen as often now but even in my early 20s, i completely belonged to the senior category at broadcasting stations. they are my juniors but many of them are also hyungs, i’m their senior but i’m also the youngest. now there are even staff members who are younger than me. they’re too formal with me (laughs). 17. are there juniors that ask you for advice or help? the superm members! especially ten, he is very curious. when we come out of a company meeting, he’ll get surprised and say “wow, hyung everything you said was right.” i even hear things like ‘veteran’ and ‘seer.’ apparently my predictions come true. but i try not to advise them as much. taking the initiative to say something feels overwhelming. 18. born in 1993 between millennials and gen z, do you share any characteristics with those in your age bracket? we’ve picked out a few of their traits. the first one is ‘they don’t eat fast food.’ me too! i took care of my health well ever since i started out with shinee. i was brainwashed from home to avoid foods that harmed the body. not even ramyeon, snacks were also banned. and just like that in my 20s i started carrying out the regime on my own. it’s become a habit to look after my health ever since i moved out. i always eat things that are good for my body, if the hyungs are taking vitamins, i’d ask for one too. 19. i suddenly recall a variety show where you were the only one who skipped the sauce and ate the meat on its own! one should not eat irritable foods. my mother’s words. 20. how about ‘they watch videos on youtube rather than tv. even the ads don’t particularly bother them.’ that’s right. i watch youtube more often than tv, while watching the ads i'd even marvel at their production quality. i’ve signed up for the premium package now so i don’t see the ads anymore. 21. ‘marrying or wanting to buy their own house.’ i currently live alone and i have no interest in decking out my house. at first, i didn’t think like that but a month later my interest dissipated. i’m lazy. it’s not like my house is for others to see, i’m fine with the incomplete feeling for now. 22. and finally ‘they avoid investing in financial companies.’ i don’t do that. my parents manage that, if there’s a good tip i’ll just let them know.  23. hiphop musicians tend to express their success through music. as an idol musician how have you been using the wealth you accumulated all these years? i invest in food instead of saving up (laughs). honestly, i don’t spend much. i don’t have anything i want. though i do spend on others a lot. 24. what kind of household did you grow up in? what gifts did you inherit from your family as a musician? i inherited my body type. all of my cousins have model-like physiques, they’re taller and slimmer than me. my mother sings well. my father plays instruments as a hobby. oh, and my paternal aunt used to be a ballerina. so perhaps i inherited such genes? 25. you’ve been doing the same thing for more than 10 years. what is the purpose behind creating music and showcasing it? in the past, i would think i should do well, i need to be number one, these days i’ve become ambitious for other aspects. i take pride in the fact that my work supplies others with positive energy. i feel a sense of accomplishment when fans like my music, i want to make them as happy as i am. everyone’s profession is different but i hope this synergy gained from mutual dependence leaves a good impression. 26. are you still composing songs? i used to but now i only participate in lyric writing. it differs with each song, at times the lyrics are emotional or talk about abstract love. it seems like my next solo album will include a song i wrote the lyrics to. sometimes songs composed by overseas composers might prove too difficult for the general public to understand. so i participate a lot in the arrangement or mixing phase. i point out the parts that should be added to the composition and those that are unneeded. teacher lee soo man does give advice but it often feels like i do the producing of my own solo album. 27. taemin’s originality is the clearest when he promotes as a solo artist. which song has best represented your identity? i worked hard on all of them but there was a turning point. at first there was ‘danger’ then ‘press your number’ was a conceptual performance, the transition to ‘move’ turned out well. i wanted to break out from the typical choreography routine and create my own identity, the resulting performances were ‘move’ and ‘want.’ my next solo album is again different. i’ve been making a lot of changes these days. 28. you seem to have high standards when it comes to composing music. was there ever an occasion where you absolutely refused to compromise and gave others a hard time? everyone is used to it (laughs). it’s something i learned from the head manager hyung who’s been with me since debut. the belief that ‘there is nothing that can’t be done. there is no such thing as impossible.’ another team manager hyung would tell me ‘you remind me of our head’ (laughs). honestly, the staff around me work beyond their given roles and with affection. normally work timings are from 9 to 7, they stay back till 10-11 pm for me. they don’t hold it against me, and when things do well, they too feel a sense of fulfillment together with me. 29. the new unreleased song must be quite different from the original then.  there are already 12 versions of the song. when i thought we were somewhat done, we recently started arranging it again (laughs). 30. you hold your body to specific standards for the best performance outcome. i don’t ‘bulk up.’ previously, i used to work out when i ate a lot but my body would feel weighed down, it wasn’t what i wanted. if i gain a lot of muscles or become thick, it hampers my dancing form. that’s why i don’t put on weight. i train my stamina and strength and avoid bulking up my shoulders and arms. 31. by the way, do you do neck exercises as well? i was touched looking at your long neck in the vogue photoshoot. i had been noticing this too, now i know the reason! i think it’s because i dance. a lot of resistance goes into the neck when you dance. our head is the heaviest and it’s the neck that supports it. it goes away when i rest for a few days. we’re shooting amidst the superm tour maybe that’s why it looks thicker now.  32. an editor who has been watching you closely for a long time said that you’ve become extroverted. could it be that experience and relationships have made you comfortable and secure? i’ve lowered my guard. i couldn’t reveal my current self to others before. as a child i used to be so introverted that i’d hide behind my mother when strangers would get into the elevator. i changed with time.  33. is your ever-present smile a product of your personality or just business decorum? i’m always smiling. i even laugh at things other people don’t find funny (laughs). 34. shinee members are currently serving in the army. when they’re on break what kind of advice or nagging do they subject you to? i wish they would do that. we have a group chat on kakaotalk and i always revive it by asking “what’s up” “happy new year.” but as soon as the conversation picks up they only talk about the army. when i inform them about an issue at the company they say “really?” then it’s military talk again. when i feel left out and tell them to stop, they reply with “you’ll understand when you get here.” 35. in your career as a musician, when do you feel the best? when it’s time to reveal all that i’ve been preparing for so long! it feels different from finishing it. the first stage after debuting, shinee’s first concert, performing at tokyo dome, receiving the award... these are the moments that come to mind. 36. watching taemin grow for the past decade has been a huge source of strength. what are your dreams now? there are many. first of all, once shinee comes back again, i want the entire group to give off a feeling of revival. usually after getting discharged, it’s hard to keep up with the next generation, i want to avoid that. i’ve imagined it all when the shinee members return. second, i want to perform a lot on various stages as a solo artist. superm topped the billboard 200 album chart, it’d be nice to enter the top 10 on the hot 100 digital chart as well.  37. you are really talented at setting goals. i’ve gotten greedier. it’s just not for myself but i want to do it for the fans and members, even the staff. they become my driving force. i really am lucky. everybody works hard but i even get the recognition for it. come to think of it, i was given many opportunities and i worked hard to make the most of them, i’m really happy my efforts paid off in the end. i’m surrounded by good people. shinee, superm, many people fill in the gaps for me that i can’t solve on my own. 38. superm’s concert title is ‘we are the future.’ when you hear the word ‘future’ what are you reminded of? first, it’s h.o.t. (laughs). future-oriented things come to mind like artificial intelligence, drones, 3d hologram concerts. then again, in the future, though people might be able to watch concerts through holograms, i think humans will not give up on the tasks they themselves can do. my work will still be the same in the future. 39. the reason you don’t write anything on instagram. i don’t have anything to say yet (laughs). i don’t know if i should make my instagram cool or approachable. when fretting between writing a caption or using an emoticon, i just end up leaving it blank. actually i signed up after my manager hyung suggested that instagram would be good. so i’ve made one but i still don’t know what to upload. i get teased by the people around me for putting up selfies. i even took lots of pictures especially for instagram but... 40. did you not post the pictures? the point of instagram is real-time communication. is that so! i didn’t know (laughs).

translated by romanceboys — take out with full credit (source)

dadzawa fic recs pt. 1

i was asked for dadzawa fic recs, so this will be a masterlist of the dadzawa fic i’ve read and enjoyed. these fics are mostly gen, and i will try to have them focus on dadzawa specifically (rather than other focuses like dadmight); this is part one but will not update regularly, but rather when i feel i have more fics to recommend. 

because of the length of this list, personal thoughts/notes are omitted. 

links: my general ‘fic rec’ tag; my ‘bnha fic rec’ tag; my bnha ‘weekly fic roundup’s where i recommend fics every week(ish). please check these out if you’re looking for more recommendations; some of the fics on this list will appear in those tags/lists.

check out my ao3; i’ve listed just a few of my favorite dadzawa fics i’ve written on this list as well, to shamelessly self-promote. there are plenty more, though.

passing through fire by achievingelysium 

gen; 2.9k; 1/1 complete

Aizawa finds himself in a street with little memory of how he got there. Then he discovers Midoriya, beaten and bruised, who claims Aizawa protected him—but as Aizawa regains pieces of his memory he realizes Midoriya may be lying, and he's the one who's done his own student harm.

Coming Up for Air by achievingelysium

gen; 2.7k; 1/1 complete

Katsuki has nightmares. He doesn't think he deserves the comfort, but Aizawa-sensei sits with him anyway.

like light through a window by achievingelysium

gen; 1.1k; 1/1 complete

The first time Shouta sees what Hagakure looks like, it’s because she’s covered in blood.

breathing room by achievingelysium

gen; 8k; 1/1 complete

A tight encounter with a news reporter leaves Izuku struggling to catch his breath.

geyser by Spineless

gen; 10.8k; 3/3 complete

Izuku faints during class when weeks of sleeping and eating poorly catch up with him. Aizawa, All Might, and his friends, remind him that, no matter what he's going through, he doesn't have to do it alone.

underneath it all by Pomfry

gen; 7.9k; 1/1 complete

Naomasa eyes him. "You're taking this a bit too calmly."

"Oh, I'm absolutely pissed." Shouta takes a swig of coffee. "But I'm making myself stay calm so I don't scare my students when they inevitably burst through that door."

"Why would they do that?"

Shouta gives him an absolutely exhausted look. "You don't know my students, do you? They get wild."

put a bullet (where I should've put a helmet) by canlah

gen; 10.3k; 3/3 complete

Midoriya Izuku has a very high pain threshold. It's useful, until it's not.

It isn't until Izuku reaches his breaking point that he realises he doesn't have to carry this pain by himself.

The Die Has Been Cast by ChiwiTheKiwi

gen; 5.4k; 1/1 complete

“There’s something about that kid you aren’t telling me, isn’t there?”

When no answer meets him, Shouta tries again.

“You know something about Midoriya’s quirk that you haven’t shared with me. Is that right?”

(Or: A canon "What If" surrounding the latest manga events and focusing on Aizawa finally making a connection.)

Lost and Found by Andai

gen; 15.2k; 3/3 complete

“That kid that I watched almost win against Endeavor’s son in the Sports Festival - the one you failed to adequately protect in the USJ attack, if I’m not mistaken -” Aizawa tensed at Hisashi’s words as the man continued, “- that kid is mine, not yours.”

“Wrong,” Shouta responded simply, continuing before the aghast man in front of him could spew out any more bullshit. “Look at ‘your’ kid right now,” Aizawa said, pointedly looking back towards where Izuku was trembling, surrounded by half the class and counting, all their faces displaying worry for Izuku, contempt for Hisashi, or some mixture of the two. “Look at that kid right now,” Aizawa spat at Hisashi, “And tell me he’s still yours.”

. . .

(In which Midoriya Hisashi returns to claim what he believes is rightfully his, and everyone else tells him he can fuck right off.)

Aizawa's Messy Journey to Parenthood by Hayato (TheLennyBunny), SugaSugar

gen; 10k; 2/? ongoing

Aizawa's heart has always been hopelessly big for those who needed help. Growing up taught him how to obscure that fact to protect himself after a few hard lessons but he never gives up. A parent's love is to be trampled on time and again but always ready to help. He didn't begrudge not having a marked parent of his own- well, outside Nedzu in his own odd way- maybe it even made him determined enough to deserve the twenty one child marks on his back.

If only he didn't have to get his hopes up every year he teaches a new class at UA. Maybe... Maybe this year he'd at least find one of them. Right?

series: whumptober 2019 (aka: i beat up on izuku midoriya for 31 days straight) by rexcorvidae

gen; 70k total; 21 works ongoing

many of the fics in rex’s whumptober are Dadzawa! there’s too many to be listed one-by-one.

series: rescue by beeclaws

gen; 20k total; 6 works complete

Izuku's encounter with Shigaraki at the mall ends a little differently. Weeks later, Aizawa takes him home.

darken your door by beeclaws

gen; 7.6k; 3/3 complete

Aizawa tries to go get popcorn and instead gets an uncomfortable encounter with a student's estranged father.

sometimes quiet is violent by wellthengetouttathesoupaisle

gen; 1k; 1/1 complete

“How are you?” Kirishima asks, in a cursory, casual manner.

From there, Todoroki speculates. Fine, he might reply, and Kirishima will sense that something is off, that something is wrong, and he will say, are you sure, Todoroki?

And then Todoroki will have two options. The first will be to lie, and say, yes, of course. Why would you think otherwise? And the other will be, no, I’m not. Thank you for noticing. Thank you so, so much.

in the gold of day by curious_cat

gen; 1.9k; 1/1 complete

Class 3A faces the final test before they become full-fledged pro heroes. Aizawa has some emotions about this.

contagion by beeclaws

gen; 9.5k; 3/3 complete

Uraraka walks to the convenience store and back, on a perfectly ordinary day. The next day, four students from class 1A disappear.

"Eyes on Me" by shanachoi

gen; 3.1k; 3/3 complete

“Hey, hey, eyes on me.”

“It’s going to be okay.”

“We’re going to get out of here.”

“I’ll save you.”

swim or drown by beeclaws

gen; 7.4k; 3/3 complete

Everyone in Aizawa's life seems to be lining up to tell him he can't keep going the way he is. If only that were his only problem.

Mockingbird by angst_goblin

gen; 10.8k; 2/2 complete

Izuku gets de-aged to 3 years old and Shota Aizawa is really not being paid enough to deal with any of this.

fire-forged boys by angst_goblin

gen; 5.4k; 1/1 complete

Izuku and Bakugou are kidnapped by villains and made to participate in a cruel Game to test them. The catch? Bakugou is given quirk suppressants and it's up to Izuku to make sure they both make it out alive- if either of them do. Far away, Aizawa and All Might watch with mounting horror as their students go through what children weren't built to withstand.

Wonders Never Ceased by ViolentlyRed

gen; 2.6k; 1/1 complete

Two calamitous days.

He gets the call from Tsukauchi sometime around nine in the morning.

Or, everything is awful, Bakugou is not okay, Aizawa's heart aches and they somehow get through it.

Storm of the Republic

Chapter 27

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Summary:  When Tup murdered General Tiplar during a battle, Anakin Skywalker and Captain Rex dispatched Ahsoka, Fives, and Yara to solve the mystery that was plaguing the Clone Army. Meanwhile, Senator Padme Amidala contacted Commander Fox, Commander Tori, Riyo Chuchi, and Dipper to help her continue investigating the death of Palpatine, suspecting that Dooku was behind the evil plot. But when Dooku send an ISB agent to stop them, the team had to race against time to search for the truth, which could alter the course of the galaxy.

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“So, what do you think will happen today?” Odd Eye asked her second-in-command. “Will we have any luck storming the city of Mendes today?”

“Let’s see,” Tarot said, as he closed his eyes and shuffled the cards and pulled one out, revealing The Magician card in front of her eyes. “Well, the answer to your question is maybe. Maybe our mission will succeed, maybe it won’t.”

She raised one of her eyebrows. “Maybe? Really? You mean, we may or may not successfully storm the city of Mendes? Are you serious? This sentiment will not make this mission successful, you know. It’s a yes or a no, that’s all.”

“Commander, when you receive The Magician card in your reading, it means you have to tap into your full potential in order to make the plan work. The Magician uses his desire to manifest his own creation, which takes a lot of effort. If you don’t anything to make the plan work, then it will never happen.”

“So, you’re telling us that our victory depends on our good timing and decision?” Mina clarified, her hands on her hips. “Of course that’s the case, Odd Eye. In that case, we must discuss our plans with the generals to make it work. Otherwise, we will lose a lot of troops along the way, and that is something we cannot afford.”

Listening to their conversation, Cody sighed and shook his head as he glanced at the tarot deck. “Are you guys seriously relying on a pack of cards to predict our outcome? You know it doesn’t work like that, right?”

Tarot denied. “Contrary to the belief, Commander, tarot deck only guides us. If we don’t like the answer the cards give, you can always change your path. It’s all up to you.”

“Okay, and are they accurate, vod’ika?”

“They have proven to be useful in the past,” Odd Eye defended her best troop. “It doesn’t give us a straight answer, but we get open-ended questions instead, which makes us interpret the reading in different ways. Tarot has its own language, Codes. There’s no one way of understanding it.”

Tarot snorted as Cody bobbed his head, pressing his lips together. “Well, if you feel it works, then I guess I can’t stop you there. But remember to come back to reality once in a while. After all, you can’t always rely on them for questions and answers all the time.”

Fair point, the purple-eyed clone crossed her arms as she watched him approach Obi-Wan.

Cody has always been the logical one back when they were merely cadets on Kamino. She finds him rigid and strict, which earned him the rank of a Marshal Commander in the first place. Odd Eye may not be close to him, but she wouldn’t mind working with him from time-to-time.

If only Tori and Rex were assigned to this mission. They were the only one who could get Cody out of his shell.

He was lucky that his Jedi General was still by his side. Cody almost lost him during the Rako trouble, and he hoped it didn’t have to end this way again. He can’t imagine his general dying in front of him. Otherwise, he would have to deal with an admiral whom he’s not familiar with, like what happened on Umbara, where he ended up losing Waxer.

General Gomez and General Almarez-Guttierez were experienced enough to lead the clone army, but Cody doesn’t know about the rest of the admirals who weren’t promoted to a higher position. His arms shuddered as he thought about an inexperienced officer in battle. They might get killed within two seconds before they know it.

If only Rex and Tori were here right now. It’s not the same without them.

“Did you find anything, sir?” the Marshal Commander asked, as Obi-Wan was watching the enemies’ movements through his binoculars. There were a few Imperial Troop Transport driving down the dirt road carrying luminescent crystals that came from the mines. He knew the planet was known for its resources, but he didn’t know the significance of the crystals, besides decoration purpose.

Obi-Wan couldn’t sense the crystals inside, hence, it was not like the kyber crystals that came from the icy planet of Illum. They were beautiful, but what’s so special about them that the Empire wanted, anyway? What was the significance of those crystals to them?

“Sir, are you there?” Cody waved his hands in front of his face, catching his attention.

“I’m here, Cody” the Jedi snapped himself to the present moment, passing his scope to his trusted commander. “The Empire is transporting the crystals towards our target location, which is the city of Mendes. I could guess that’s where their headquarters are.”

“General Kenobi has a point,” Erina acknowledged, joining their conversation. “Since Hocura is known for crystal mining, it’s no surprise that the Empire is heading there.”

“Which gives us more reason to take back Hocura from Imperial hands,” Raul pointed out, facing Obi-Wan and Cody. “If we could get our hands on these transports, we could easily take on Mendes. What do you say, Master Jedi?”

Obi-Wan stroked his beard as he hummed to himself, staring at the forest floor. The plan could work, according to him, but it’s risky. Regardless, Obi-Wan felt this was a golden opportunity to achieve their goals for the Republic’s victory. This could be the only way to defeat the Empire.

“We’ll discuss your plans with our troops,” he approved, gesturing for them to move away from the bushes. “Come on, we can’t waste anymore time. The people of Hocura needs us.”

Raul beamed to himself and could only give a thumbs up without uttering a word to him. He wasn’t close to Obi-Wan, and hearing his praise brightened his day. Erina noticed the smile on his face and placed her hand on his shoulder, sharing his sentiment. “I have faith in you, dear. I will pray to Allah for your victory out there.”

“I could say the same for you, Eri,” Raul winked at his partner. “You’re a real good fighter out in the field. Just need to watch your step, though.”

Erina chuckled, rolling her eyes. “I should be the one saying that to you. Remember what happened at the last mission?”

“Oh, come on, it was only a shoulder shot. It wasn’t even that painful. Besides, I could still move my arms around.”

“And who had to tend to your shoulder wounds?” she gave him the side-eye, making him rub the back of his neck.

“I know, I know, but hey, I also had to deal with your leg injury for a month. You know how hard it was to carry you around the base.”

Erina squinted her eyes towards him before letting out an exhale. “Well, I enjoyed being carried by you. I wish you could do that on our wedding night.”

“Oh, I will make our wedding night special, if you know what I mean,” he smirked, making her cheeks flushed.

“You have my consent to tie me up and go rough on me on a queen's bed. I like it that way.”

Obi-Wan cleared his throat, signalling them to stay focus on their mission. “You can have your intimate talk with each other after this mission is over.”

Raul and Erina chuckled as they held each other’s hand, making his lips curled upwards. Seeing another couple spending time with each other warmed his heart as his mind wondered if he could have left the Order just to be with the love of his life. Obi-Wan would love to sit underneath the cherry blossom tree with his lover, holding her hands forever.

*If only Satine is still here,* he thought, his lips turned into a frown. *She would have been safer on base, instead on Mandalore.*

“Alright guys, I have a plan,” Raul announced to the clones, as they gathered around in circles, with Commander Odd Eye and Commander Mina beside him. “Those transportswe saw earlier are heading to the Imperial Headquarters, which are at our target location, and we’re going to infiltrate it.”

Odd Eye’s orbs widened, her jaws hanging. “If all due respect, General, that sounds like a risky plan. The transport is moving, and the chances of getting shot by a droid is high.”

“I’m aware of that, commander, which is why we need someone to stall those Imps, and I think I know who is perfect for that role.”

Cody, Tarot, and Mina turned to Odd Eye, who was cradling with her baby bump. “You’ve got to be kidding me. I am not doing that, ever. There is no way I’m going to be a bait.”

“You’ll be fine, vod,” Cody assured her, patting her back. “Besides, those droids are stupid anyway. Mina and I could back you up.”

“What if my son and I get killed?” she raised her doubt. “Those droids don’t have any mercy at all. They were designed to kill anyone in sight.”

“I’ll shield you, commander,” Obi-Wan calmed her, holding his lightsaber. “I won’t let anything happen to you and your unborn child, not on my watch.”

His words made her less anxious, though doubt has clouded her mind. “I appreciate that, Master Jedi, as long as the rest of our troops captured the transport as fast as possible. The longer I stall, the more likely the plan will fail. Are you okay with that?”

The Jedi placed his hand on his chest and gave her a slight bow. “You have my word, Commander.”

Erina turned to Cody and Mina, giving them an instruction. “Stand by our troops to take those transports by force. Get the timing right. We don’t want any mistakes in our plan.”

“Yes, general,” Mina saluted, as she headed towards her battalion along with Cody to give them orders.

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YOU can hear God’s voice. Here are 5 keys.

If you’ve been around church or Christian culture at all, you’ve heard some form of the expression, “the voice of God.” Most likely, you’ve wondered what that really means. Is it an audible voice? Does God really speak to “regular” people? Can I hear God’s voice? Is it all just a bunch of religious hype?

There is a story in the Old Testament about the prophet Elijah. Elijah was used by God to push back against the godlessness permeating the nation of Israel. Elijah stood up against the false god, Baal, and two of his most important followers, the king and queen of Israel (Arab & Jezebel). 

The still, small voice of God

In this story (1 Kings 18-19), Elijah has just defeated the prophets and priests of Baal in an epic showdown. God shows up, and puts these holy men to shame (think water, fire and wicked, smart quips). The people of Israel rise up and kill these false holy men. The queen, Jezebel, is beyond angry and vows to kill Elijah.

Elijah runs for his life.

Hiding on the side of a mountain, Elijah has this encounter:

““Go out and stand before me on the mountain,” the Lord told him. And as Elijah stood there, the Lord passed by, and a mighty windstorm hit the mountain. It was such a terrible blast that the rocks were torn loose, but the Lord was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake, but the Lord was not in the earthquake. And after the earthquake there was a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire. And after the fire there was the sound of a gentle whisper. When Elijah heard it, he wrapped his face in his cloak and went out and stood at the entrance of the cave. And a voice said, “What are you doing here, Elijah?”” 1 Kings‬ ‭19:11-13‬ ‭(NLT‬)

One of the outcomes of Jesus’ coming to earth was His gift of the Holy Spirit to us. Jesus and the Holy Spirit tore down the wall between the average person (me and you) and God. It allows for us to have the same type of encounter Elijah did with God. Specifically, it allows us to experience the “gentle whisper” or what the King James Version of the Bible describes as the “still small voice” of God.

How to hear God’s voice:

So, yes, God speaks, but it’s not usually in a loud, ostentatious rumble. God speaks quietly to our hearts. It’s quiet…a whisper.

Yes, God wants to speak to you, so how do you hear? How do you hear the voice of God?

There are lots of ways God speaks to people, but here is what I’ve done to hear God speak to me, and how I’ve found God most commonly speaks in my life

1. Slow Down (and be quiet)

We put too much of our spiritual life to chance. We live life so intentionally in our relationships, our eating habits, our physical routines, and our finances, yet when it comes to our spiritual lives we just let life happen. 

I’m guilty of this. I’ve found the problem isn’t, “Will God speak to me?”, but “Will I listen for the voice of God?”

There really is only one way to listen, and it doesn’t mix well with our 21st century lives. How do you hear God’s voice? You need to slow down and be quiet. It may be one of the hardest things to do in today’s culture, but you have the choice to take intentional breaks to listen for God.

Patterns and habits work really well. For me it happens early in the morning at my kitchen table. For you it may be during the lunch hour walking through a nearby park. It could be in the evening in your favorite lounge chair. The key is finding the time and place where your heart and mind can be quiet and still. It’s the place you won’t be interrupted by people or technology. 

Where is your quiet place? Where can you slow down and listen?

2. God’s voice: pay attention to “loud thoughts”

Why do we need to slow down and find a quiet place? If we go back to that story of Elijah, most often, God will speak to you through a gentle whisper to your spirit. If you’re not in a physical or emotional space to hear it, you won’t hear it.

Now, what does it mean…a gentle whisper? What is a still small voice? I’ve heard it described as “loud thoughts”. It’s a thought, an impression, or even a feeling that jumps out at you.

These are thoughts that you can’t quite let go. You try to move on to the next idea, but you keep falling back to the loud thought. I suggest if you come across one of these loud thoughts, write it down. Use a journal or a notes app in your phone to capture this idea.

Just because you have one of these loud thoughts, it doesn’t mean it is the voice of God. We’ll take a look at how we can measure these thoughts below. Between those safety nets and experience, you’ll quickly begin to decipher God’s voice in your life.

What “loud thoughts” have you had recently? Where did you record it?

3. God’s voice: the “outside voice”

When I was a kid, I was scolded for being too loud inside. I’m sure you were too. You may have been told to use your “inside voice” not your “outside voice”. Many times God speaks to us through an outside voice.

I don’t mean it’s a loud, audible voice (though God can speak this way). The outside voice is God using people, circumstances, music, books, media or any outside source to speak to you.

In some ways it is similar to those loud thoughts from God, it just comes from outside of ourselves. I may hear the outside voice of God as I read – the Bible, spiritual non-fiction, non-fiction and even a fiction book (Have you ever noticed how often an author promotes a particular world view?). Sometimes I hear Him driving in the car, listening to the radio. I even will hear the voice of God watching a movie or television show.

It won’t always be a “Christian” source either! God isn’t picky when it comes to speaking to us. God is Lord over all creation. He will use creation (His creation and human creation) to speak to you. He will use anyone and anything to speak to us…even a donkey (Numbers 22:21-29)!

Again, the question isn’t will God speak in this way, it’s will you hear His voice when he speaks. In this case, it doesn’t mean we are in our quiet place, but our heart is in a posture to hear. 

The posture is humility. 

Too often we approach conversations and circumstances with a belief we already know answers, outcomes, and truth. It may be true, but it may not be. If we don’t listen and hear with a posture of humility we’ll never know what God may be trying to tell us.

When have you heard God using His outside voice? What is your current heart posture? 

4. Measure it (pt 1): Compare to scripture

So you had one of those loud thoughts, or you had a conversation that has changed the way your think about something. How do we really know if it is God speaking? Is it just my own weird idea? Was that person just really convincing? Was it the burrito I ate last night? 

The first place to turn is scripture. You can be assured about this when it comes to the Bible: 

“All Scripture is inspired by God and is useful to teach us what is true and to make us realize what is wrong in our lives. It corrects us when we are wrong and teaches us to do what is right. God uses it to prepare and equip his people to do every good work.” ‭2 Timothy‬ ‭3:16-17‬ ‭NLT

If we hear something that contradicts the Bible, then it is not God.

If you think you hear God saying, “Ask that person on a date,” while you’re married, you know it’s not God. Why?

“You must not commit adultery.” –Exodus 20:14

“Give honor to marriage, and remain faithful to one another in marriage. God will surely judge people who are immoral and those who commit adultery.”   –Hebrews 13:4 ‭(NLT‬)

That may seem like a obvious and simple example, but this is why so many people are skeptical when someone says they heard the “voice of God”. That phrase has been used to abuse people, institutions and the truth. We protect ourselves and others by comparing what we hear to what God has already said through the Bible.

If you are new to the Bible, this may be overwhelming. How do you know what the Bible says about what you heard? The internet is your friend. But don’t search for people’s opinions. The internet is full of “Christian” opinions that have nothing to do with the Bible. 

When you search the internet, search for scripture. In the above example, search for scripture on “marriage” or “adultery”. You’ll have plenty of options to look and read through on almost any subject you are weighing. Also, don’t settle for finding just one verse or story. Try to find multiple references in both the Old Testament (before Jesus) and New Testament (after Jesus).

What does the Bible say about what you’ve heard from God?

5. Measure it (pt 2): Take to mentor

Sometimes scripture isn’t clear. It may seem obvious when you read one passage, but you read another that seems to say the opposite. In some cases, scripture doesn’t specifically cover what you’ve heard at all.

Maybe you felt like God called you to quit your job to go back to school, so you can get a better job. There isn’t a great scripture to answer the question, “Is this from God?” You do have the ability to take it to another source. Take to someone you admire and trust in the way they live their lives. It could be a pastor or minister you know. You may have a friend or parent who fits this role. 

Again, the important position to have is humility. They may respond with the exact opposite of what you want to hear. They may challenge you in areas of your life you don’t want to deal with. 

“Fear of the Lord is the foundation of true knowledge, but fools despise wisdom and discipline.” –Proverbs‬ ‭1:7‬ ‭NLT‬‬

Submitting what you think you heard from God to another person (or group of people) is wisdom. The fear of the Lord is respecting God enough to make sure you are truly hearing from Him.

Who can you turn to when you hear God’s voice? Do you fear God?

Now you know.

When it comes to our spiritual lives, we tend to complicate things. We make knowing God harder than it needs to be. We complicate scripture. The same applies to hearing God’s voice. We make it bigger and more challenging than it needs to be.

God wants to speak to you. In fact, He probably has spoken to you more than you realize. You just haven’t been still and listened for the loud thoughts. It may be you’ve dismissed those outside voices as something besides God. Trust that God has been trying to speak to you, so take those loud thoughts and outside ideas to Scripture and a few friends.

Now you know, and as I learned from GI Joe in the 4th Grade, “Knowing is half the battle.”

What has God spoken to you recently?

If I Never Met You: Chapter 22

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WC: 3.1k

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Despite obviously having to take planes to get to South Korea, I still felt really nervous as we boarded. Nervous, but also very excited. While I knew it was for work and it would be unlikely to have much time for leisure, I’d never been to Japan so I couldn’t wait to see it.

I slowly made my way through the narrow aisle of the plane until I found my seat, pleased to find Hobi already sitting at the window next to my spot. I slid in next to him, and he beamed a smile at me.

“Oh, I get to sit next to you, noona?” he asked while I made myself as comfortable as I could.

“Looks like it,” I replied with a small smile. We weren’t sure of our seat arrangements prior to this since that wasn’t handled by me and Sejin.

Not too long after, Namjoon stopped in the aisle, double checking the numbers above the seats and the one on his ticket before deciding he found the right place and sliding into the aisle seat next to me.

He got himself situated and comfortable before looking over and flashing his dimpled smile in our direction. “You excited?”

Both of us nodded, but Hobi’s was definitely a lot more enthusiastic than mine. I honestly was, but right now I was a little more preoccupied with getting past the take off.

I decided to put on my earbuds and listen to some music to help distract my thoughts until then. I didn’t know what it was about the initial process of the plane leaving the ground and lifting into the air that made me uncomfortable, but I couldn’t do much about it. Last time I had to fly I was alone and had no idea what to expect since it was my first time, so that made it infinitely worse. Maybe this time, it’d be a bit better since I am surrounded by people I’m comfortable with.

I zoned out and didn’t pay attention to any conversations going on around me until the announcement regarding flight safety came on. I turned off my phone and focused on my hands clasped together tightly in my lap, getting more and more nervous the closer we got to the inevitable. I had a feeling my recent increase in anxiety was definitely not helping me out on this.

When it seemed like the safety lecture was almost done, I felt Hoseok tap on my shoulder. I managed to look at him before he whispered, “Are you okay?”

I nodded quickly, but he wasn’t convinced. I probably wouldn’t have been either–I was sure my whole posture was just screaming discomfort. Hobi placed a hand on top of mine, and the steadiness of his touch made me realize that I had actually been shaking. He gently coerced my hands apart to take one in his own, lacing his fingers in between mine.

Joon must have noticed at this point as well, mimicking his friend’s actions only a moment later. “It’s okay, noona. It’ll all be fine.”

“You don’t like flying?” Hoseok asked.

“When we’re in the air, I’m okay,” I said. “I just can’t stand the take off. I don’t know why, but it freaks me out.”

“We’re here with you,” Namjoon said. “No need to be worried.” The plane was now making its way to the runway where it would eventually leave the ground.

“Just focus on us, noona,” Hobi said. “We’ll keep talking to you through it, okay?” He looked toward Namjoon who nodded in response.

“Yeah, just close your eyes and focus on our voices,” Namjoon added. “Don’t pay attention to what’s going on around you. We’ll let you know when we’re in the clouds.”

I nodded slowly, laying my head back onto the seat and closing my eyes as Joon suggested. I gently squeezed both of their hands in mine as a silent thank you for their support.

They stayed true to their word, whispering comforting words as the engines roared louder and the plane picked up speed before leaving the ground. My heart was still racing, but with the two of them supporting me it was so much more bearable than when I did this alone. And once the plane was in the clouds and the feeling of its speed and incline leveled out, Hoseok told me it was safe to open my eyes.

I slowly pried my eyes open and loosened my hold on their hands. Hobi let go, but Joon still kept his gentle grip on the hand he was holding. I turned to him and saw him studying my face very carefully.

“Are you okay now?” he asked.

I smiled softly and squeezed his hand before releasing it. “Yeah, I’m good now. Thank you for helping me, Joonie and Hobi.”

“Of course, noona,” Hobi said, placing a hand on my shoulder.

“It should be a couple of hours before we land,” Joonie said. “Are you going to be okay until then?”

“Yeah, I’m okay with everything else. It’s only the takeoff that I don’t like,” I managed to get out before yawning and turned my phone back on. “But I am feeling really tired. I think I’ll take a nap while I can.”

I heard Joon chuckle while I closed my eyes and rested my head back against the seat.

“Alright. See you in a few hours then, noona,” Hoseok said.

It didn’t take me long at all to fall asleep, feeling the comfort from my friends around me and listening to the calming playlist I had set up on my phone.

I slept surprisingly soundly for being in an unfamiliar place. When my eyes did open, I realized I had ended up resting my head on Joon’s shoulder. He must have also fallen asleep, since his head was laying on top of mine and I heard him quietly snoring. I smiled to myself as I looked at the time on my phone. If we were still on schedule, we should be landing very soon.

I noticed notifications from our group chat, so I opened that up to see what the boys could have possibly decided to text each other about, rather than actually talk in person. I was presented with a picture. Of course, Jimin had apparently turned around and seen me and Joonie asleep and decided to take a picture.

Jimin: Look at them! So cute! 🥰

Taetae: Awww. 💗💗💗 I hope I sit next to noona coming back so she can sleep on my shoulder too!

Hobi: She’s now snuggled with two members while sleeping. Who will be next?

Jin: I bet on Yoongi.

Jimin: That’d be so sweet! 😊

Yoongi: No.

Kookie: I feel like Taehyung hyung is going to make it his mission for him to be next.

Taetae: Yes! It better be me next!

Me: I’ll make it my own mission to make sure it doesn’t happen ever again with any of you.

Taetae: Awwwww but noona that’s not fair! 😔

Yoongi: Taehyung, go hug your pillow.

Jin: Good morning (Y/n). 😊

Jin was also sitting in front of us, and he turned around to wave. I gently waved back, being careful not to move too much as to not disturb Joon’s sleep. “Did you sleep well on your little pillow there?” he asked.

“Actually yes, I did,” I responded quietly. “You should get yourself one of these.”

“You’re still the comfiest pillow,” Jin said with a wink.

“Hyung, can you not flirt with noona in public?” Jungkook whined next to him, making him laugh.

It seemed as though it became too noisy for Joon to stay asleep, when he abruptly lifted his head off of mine and slowly opened his eyes.

I sat up straight and said, “Good morning, Joonie. We’re probably landing soon.”

He nodded while yawning and took a look at his phone. Just a moment later, I got a new notification from the group chat.

Joonie: Seriously Jimin?

Our first two days in Japan were pretty busy, going around for various promotions to try to help spread their popularity in the country. It seemed to be going pretty well, but generally it wasn’t much different from what we would do back home. It was a bit weird for me not being able to understand much of the language, though. I only learned very basic words and phrases, and felt relatively lost when people were speaking around me. It was a feeling I was certainly not used to.

“If we’re going to be coming here often, I’m going to need to really study the language,” I said to no one in particular during the car ride back to the hotel.

“I’m sure you’ll learn it in no time, seeing how quickly you learned Korean,” Jimin encouraged.

“I don’t know, Japanese seems harder to me,” I said.

“I don’t think it would be,” Joon said. “The sentence structure for Japanese is pretty similar to Korean, and it’s mostly just a matter of memorizing general grammar rules and vocabulary, which you’ve already done once before.”

“You can say that for pretty much any language,” I retorted.

“You’re obviously good with languages,” Taehyung added. “I’m sure you could do it within a couple years, just like before.” He flashed me that adorable boxy smile of his.

“Until then just rely on me, noona,” Joon said. “I’m not really fluent, but I have a good handle on it.”

We arrived at the hotel, and I only spent enough time in my room to change my clothes before leaving again. We didn’t have anything else to do for the day, but it wasn’t very late yet so I wanted to take the opportunity to spend some time exploring a bit.

While waiting for the elevator, someone came up behind me and placed their hand on top of my head. I quickly spun around, startled, only to find Namjoon smiling down at me.

“Don’t scare me like that!” I said, letting out a bit of a laugh.

He chuckled at my reaction. “Where are you headed, noona?”

“I wanted to do some exploring,” I said. “I’ve never been to Japan, so I wanted to take a look around while I had the time.”

“I was just about to do the same,” Joon said. “Why don’t we go together?”

“Sounds good. That’s way better than wandering around alone.”

Namjoon nodded in agreement as the elevator doors opened and we made our way outside.

“Any idea where you wanted to go?” Joon asked me.

“Not really, I was just going to randomly wander around,” I shrugged.

“Mind me taking the lead then?” he asked.

“I’ve been told how you have no sense of direction, you sure that’s a good idea?” I teased.

“Hey, I’m not that bad.” We started walking in the direction Joon seemed to want to go. “I planned a route I wanted to take beforehand, so I’m prepared.”

“Alright. I guess it’ll be up to me to find our way back if we get lost.” I playfully smirked at him.

He narrowed his eyes at me. “I could just go back to my room if you really want me to.”

“No!” I grabbed onto his arm to keep him from walking away.

He heartily laughed. “I’m just kidding, noona. I wouldn’t leave you alone.”

I took in a deep breath before laughing along with him to hide the anxiousness I felt. I was genuinely scared for a moment that I joked too much and made him annoyed with me. Of course it was just a joke. You’re overreacting, stop that, I reprimanded myself.

We walked together for a little while, mostly just taking in the buildings and scenery around us. I found it so interesting how each city had its own character, despite being comprised of basically the same things. Any large city like this I had been to – New York, Seoul, and now Tokyo – had buildings everywhere. Skyscrapers and smaller ones, the occasional bit of purposely placed nature, traffic constantly clogging the streets, and masses of people weaving their way to their individual destinations.

But despite all those similarities, each city was uniquely different. It was definitely in large part due to the variances in culture–different styles of architecture both historical and modern–but that just made it all the more fascinating. I never thought I could get used to being surrounded by such condensed city, but I’d really come to appreciate the beauty in it over time.

After walking around for a little while, something caught Namjoon’s eye and he paused, staring at a particular building.

“What’s up, Joonie?” I asked.

“Do you want to go to a Japanese bakery?” he asked, turning to me and smiling. He knew how much I loved pastries and baked goods.

My eyes instantly lit up. “Yes!”

He grabbed my hand and pulled me towards the bakery he spotted. “Let’s go then.”

As soon as we entered the building, my eyes darted around the display of different pastries. I heard the worker greeting us in Japanese and Joonie responding back, but was too preoccupied with looking over all the delicious-looking sweets to pay any attention.

Namjoon appeared next to me and chuckled at my excitement. “See anything you like, noona?”

“They all look so good!” I responded, lingering on a particularly cute pastry that was in the shape of a popular cartoon character. “Some of these look so cute I want to buy them, but don’t know if I could bring myself to eat them at the same time.”

“Yeah, they are pretty cute,” Namjoon said, now surveying the treats himself. We both took a moment to contemplate our choices before he said, “I think I know what I want to try. Have you decided yet?”

I realized there was a pastry that had my favorite fruit flavor and decided I had to go with that. “Yeah, I think I want this one.”

“Alright then,” Namjoon started walking towards the register and I noticed he was planning on paying.

“Wait,” I said, grabbing his arm to still him. “I got it, Joon.”

“You don’t always need to buy things for us, noona,” he said, smiling gently. “We can treat you sometimes, too.”

“But I want to buy some for everyone,” I said.

“Oh yeah, that’s a good idea.” He finished approaching the register and pulled out his wallet. “I’m still paying though.”

He didn’t let me protest again, speaking in Japanese to the cashier and pointing to various treats in the case to tell her our order.

We walked out of there with a few bags’ worth of deserts, plenty to make the others happy. Namjoon led us back to the hotel, surprisingly easily without any wrong turns.

“I’ll have to tell them how you didn’t get us lost,” I said while we were in the elevator. “I’m sure they’ll be surprised, if the stories they’ve told me are any indicator about their faith in your navigation skills.”

Joon just shook his head and chuckled, and we exited the elevator when it reached our floor. “Where should we all meet to eat this?”

“Why don’t we go to your room?” I asked. “Who are you sharing with again?”

“Yoongi hyung,” he answered. “We can go set this stuff down and then gather the others.”

“Sounds good,” I said before Namjoon took out his keycard to open his door. The lights were out in the room, so I assumed Yoongi already went to sleep. “Or maybe not?” I whispered. “I don’t want to disturb him if he’s already asleep.”

“I’m not sleeping,” Yoongi said from the bed, although he sounded very groggy.

Joon turned on the lights as I set the bags I carried on the closest surface. I saw Yoongi laying on his side on the further bed, facing away from us.

“You don’t need to get up if you don’t want to Yoongi,” I said. He grumbled a response, before curling in towards himself. “Are you okay?” I asked.

“I’m fine,” he managed to say, but his words were obviously strained.

I shared a concerned look with Joon, both of us seeming to agree that something was wrong.

“Hyung, you definitely don’t sound fine,” Joonie said, moving to sit on the bed next to Yoongi. Once he did and got a good look at the older boy, he looked back to me, his eyes widened.

“What’s wrong?” I asked, quickly making my way over.

“He looks really sick,” Joon responded.

I walked to the other side of the bed to see, and what I saw made me immediately concerned. Yoongi was sweating and gripping onto his stomach with his hand. It seemed like his stomach was hurting, seeing that along with his eyes tightly squeezed shut. I placed the back of my hand to his forehead to gauge his temperature, and he definitely had a fever.

“Yoongi, when did this start?” I asked.

“A bit earlier,” he croaked out. “But it wasn’t bad earlier, it just hurt a little bit.”

“On a scale of one to ten, how bad is it?” Joon asked.

He let out a slow breath, seeming to think. “Maybe a seven?”

“Okay, we’re going to the hospital,” I said.

“No, noona,” Yoongi said. “I will be fine, I just need to rest.”

“Yoongi, you have a fever and a terrible stomach ache,” I insisted. “Something is wrong. And I’m not letting you suffer like this.” I placed a hand on his shoulder, which got him to open his eyes. “Do you think you can get up and walk down to the van with me?”

He slowly nodded and started to straighten himself up.

“Joon, can you come with me?” I asked. “I need someone to help with directions to the hospital and I don’t want to take Sejin and leave everyone else without a manager if they need someone.”

He nodded in agreement as I placed one of Yoongi’s arms over my shoulders and got him to stand up. But with me being shorter, I probably wasn’t that much help in supporting him.

“I got him,” Joon said, taking his other side.

We made our way to the garage where the van was parked as quickly as Yoongi could walk, while I called Sejin to tell him what was going on and that I’d keep him updated.

Joon helped his hyung into the car, buckling him in before sliding into the passenger seat.

I looked back at Yoongi before starting the car. “You’ll be okay, Yoongi. Just hang in there.”

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Over 270,000 people sign petition for France vs Switzerland to be replayed

Switzerland’s goalkeeper Yann Sommer (R) saves a penalty by France’s forward Kylian Mbappe during the UEFA EURO 2020 round of 16 football match between France and Switzerland at the National Arena in Bucharest – GETTY IMAGES

Over 270,000 fans have signed a petition calling on Uefa to replay the Euro 2020 last-16 match between France and Switzerland because “the rules (of the game) were not respected” when Swiss goalkeeper Yann Sommer saved Kylian Mbappé’s decisive penalty.

Mbappé’s miss resulted in the world champions crashing out of the tournament in Bucharest after leading their eventual conquerors 3-1 at one point in the match.

But a petition was launched by a disgruntled French fan, Pierre, in the aftermath of the penalty shootout, demanding that Uefa replay the tie because Sommer’s feet were over the line as Mbappe struck the ball. Goalkeepers need to keep at least one foot on the goal-line when facing a penalty, otherwise the spot-kick can be retaken.

Neither the referee nor Var intervened on Sommer’s save but more than 270,000 people signed the petition – which has now been closed – despite several different angles showing that Sommer’s foot was on the line when Mbappé kicked the ball.

The hosts of the petition, leslignesbougent.org, wrote that “Uefa had been officially approached to gauge its position on the matter”, and that Pierre had informed the host site that he wished for the petition to be closed after the angles showing the legality of Sommer’s position came to light. “Our servers exploded,” the site added.

The original petition read: “During the penalty shootout of the France v Switzerland match, goalkeeper Sommer was not on his line ahead of Mbappé’s shot. We ask that Switzerland’s qualification is cancelled so that the match can be replayed.

“Sport must be played within the rules and that evening the rules were not respected.”

02:53 PM

Czech Republic v Denmark

Denmark coach Kasper Hjulmand says the team is looking to Christian Eriksen as an inspiration ahead of the match against the Czech Republic in the Euro 2020 quarter-finals.

Story continues

Eriksen suffered a cardiac arrest during Denmark’s opening game of the tournament. Team-mates were left shaken after seeing him receive emergency medical treatment on the field.

Hjulmand says “we’ll play with that heart of Christian Eriksen once again.”

The winner will face either England or Ukraine in the semi-finals.

AP

02:49 PM

Masterful Jordan Pickford has joined an elite band valued more by his country than his club

Unlike at Everton, when Pickford wears an England shirt he looks like he is sure he belongs out there, the undisputed No 1.

Jamie Carragher’s latest column for Telegraph Sport.

Jordan Pickford celebrating England’s last-16 win – GETTY IMAGES

02:38 PM

The Battle of Rome

Paul Ince’s bloody headband, chaos in the stands – and Southgate’s dark side.

England’s last trip to the Italian capital, in 1997, was another game they could not contemplate losing. David Seaman looks back on that momentous night.

Paul Gascoigne (L) and a topless Paul Ince (R) – GETTY IMAGES

02:20 PM

England get to work…

… with the quarter-final against Ukraine just over 24 hours away.

Kalvin Phillips of England trains during the England Training Session at St George’s Park on July 02 – GETTY IMAGES

Mason Mount of England trains during the England Training Session at St George’s Park on July 02 – GETTY IMAGES

Tyrone Mings shifting some tin – GETTY IMAGES

01:56 PM

Boris Johnson says he has no plans to reduce Euro 2020 stadium crowds

Prime Minister Boris Johnson said on Friday he did not plan to order a reduction in crowds attending the remaining Euro 2020 matches due to take place at Wembley.

Crowd capacity at Wembley will be increased to more than 60,000 fans for the semi-finals and final of Euro 2020 under a pilot scheme announced last week.

“Of course we’ll follow the scientific guidance and the advice if we receive any such suggestion,” Johnson said in response to a question at a news conference, alongside German Chancellor Angela Merkel who said she was worried about Uefa’s decision to let more people into stadiums.

“But at the moment… the position is very clear in the UK, which is that we have certain events which we can put on in a very careful and controlled manner with testing of everybody who goes there.”

01:34 PM

England fans in Rome

The first pictures are beginning to filter back home…

Fans gather in Rome ahead of Ukraine v England – Rome, Italy – July 2, 2021 – REUTERS

12:20 PM

Germany’s Kroos announces retirement from international football

Germany midfielder Toni Kroos has announced his retirement from international football after his team’s exit from the European Championship, the 31-year-old said on Instagram.

The 2014 World Cup winner earned 106 caps for his country, contributing 17 goals and 19 assists.

Kroos said it was clear to him “for a long time” that he would not be available for the World Cup in Qatar next year.

He said his priority now would be to focus on his club career with Real Madrid and spending time with his family.

Reuters

12:16 PM

The eight defining games of Raheem Sterling’s England career

From scapegoat to star man, Sterling has been the object of anger and criticism but is now England’s most experienced player and one of Euro 2020’s pre-eminent players.

Here, Sam Wallace runs down the eight matches that have defined his international career to date.

England’s forward Raheem Sterling celebrates the first goal during the UEFA EURO 2020 round of 16 football match between England and Germany at Wembley – GETTY IMAGES

12:00 PM

Emma Hayes signs new Chelsea deal

A revealed by Telegraph Sport in May, Emma Hayes, who has starred as a pundit at Euro 2020, has signed a new deal to remain as manager of Chelsea, the Women’s Super League champions have announced.

The 44-year-old has been with the club since 2012 and guided them to four WSL titles, two FA Cups and two League Cups. Hayes’ side were also Champions League runners-up last season.

She said on Chelsea’s official website: “Everyone knows what this club means to me.

“The work we’ve done together over the last nine years has been hugely rewarding, full of growth of the women’s game, accompanied with winning, which is one of the club’s key values. I really look forward to keep building on the successes we’ve already achieved and I’m delighted to have extended further.

Emma Hayes the manager of Chelsea Women lifts the Barclays FA Women’s Super League trophy after the Barclays FA Women’s Super League match between Chelsea Women and Reading Women at Kingsmeadow on May 09, 2021 in Kingston upon Thame – GETTY IMAGES

“It’s been a year and a half without fans, so I can’t wait to welcome them back to our home and share with them the wonderful team we’ve built together.”

Having retained the WSL trophy and the League Cup in 2020-21, Chelsea fell short of adding the Champions League as they were beaten 4-0 by Barcelona in the final in Gothenburg.

That was a first appearance in the final for the Blues – who reached the semi-finals in 2018 and 2019 – and the first by an English club since Arsenal, who had Hayes as assistant manager at the time, won the competition in 2007.

11:24 AM

Some more Premier League news…

Chelsea midfielder Billy Gilmour has joined Norwich on a season-long loan deal.

The 20-year-old impressed for Scotland in a goalless draw against England at Euro 2020 on June 18, before then having to self-isolate after returning a positive Covid-19 test.

Following his performance at Wembley it was reported that several Premier League clubs were interested in signing Gilmour on a temporary basis.

Newly-promoted Norwich have won the race for his signature and Canaries boss Daniel Farke feels Gilmour is a “perfect fit” for his Canaries team.

“We are really happy to have brought Billy in,” said Farke, who saw midfielder Emiliano Buendia leave for Aston Villa for £33million last month.

“We must say a big thank you to Chelsea and all those involved for making this deal happen. I think it helped that in the past we have shown that young players with potential are in good hands here at Norwich City.

Billy Gilmour – GETTY IMAGES

“He will help us to achieve our targets. We still have to keep in mind that he is an unbelievably young guy and that he hasn’t played regularly on this level. We have to give him some time and space to improve and find his rhythm.”

Gilmour made 11 appearances for Chelsea last season, starting three Premier League matches.

The former Rangers youth player was an unused substitute in both the FA Cup and Champions League finals as Thomas Tuchel’s side lost the domestic showpiece to Leicester but beat Manchester City to become champions of Europe.

PA

11:10 AM

The England team Gareth Southgate should pick to defeat Ukraine

Telegraph football writers pick their XIs – and you can too, by clicking here.

We have asked our writers to pick who they would like to see face the Ukrainians, especially bearing in mind that four of the England squad are on yellow cards.

10:50 AM

How England can beat Ukraine and take another step to glory

What do we know about England’s opponents? What are their strengths and what are the areas to exploit? Who are the players to watch out for?

Telegraph Sport spoke to Ukranian football expert Andrew Todos and former Norther Ireland manager Michael O’Neill, who masterminded a win over Ukraine at Euro 2016.

You can read our big match dossier by clicking here.

Graphic depicting England and Ukraine’s star players

10:30 AM

England at full strength for Ukraine

Gareth Southgate’s 26-man squad all trained on the eve of England’s Euro 2020 quarter-final against Ukraine.

The reward for Tuesday’s 2-0 last-16 win against Germany at Wembley is Saturday’s clash against Andriy Shevchenko’s side in Rome.

The Three Lions fly to Italy on Friday afternoon and the full squad trained at their St George’s Park base that morning.

Mason Mount and Ben Chilwell were among those in action, having left isolation on the day of the Germany match after coming into contact with Chelsea team-mate Billy Gilmour, who tested positive for Covid-19 after playing for Scotland against England.

Harry Maguire, Declan Rice, Kalvin Phillips and Phil Foden are a booking away from a suspension heading into the quarter-final.

Manchester United defender Maguire, who was named man of the match on Tuesday, is set to join manager Southgate at Friday evening’s press conference in Rome.

10:23 AM

Captain Kane reporting for England training

JULY 02: Harry Kane of England trains during the England Training Session at St George’s Park on July 02, 2021 in Burton upon Trent, – GETTY IMAGES

10:08 AM

In Premier League news…

From our reporter, Mike McGrath.

09:44 AM

Achilles

No, not the Trojan war hero, but the cat that lives in St Petersburg’s Hermitage museum. He chose Spain while attempting to predict the result of tonight’s quarter-final.

Probably no need to play tonight now – the cat’s called it…

Achilles the cat, that lives in St. Petersburg’s Hermitage museum, chooses Spain while attempting to predict the result of the UEFA Euro 2020 quarter final match between Switzerland and Spain during an event in Saint Petersburg, – REUTERS

Achilles the cat, that lives in St. Petersburg’s Hermitage museum, chooses Spain while attempting to predict the result of the UEFA Euro 2020 quarter final match between Switzerland and Spain during an event in Saint Petersburg, – REUTERS

Achilles the cat, that lives in St. Petersburg’s Hermitage museum, chooses Spain while attempting to predict the result of the UEFA Euro 2020 quarter final match between Switzerland and Spain during an event in Saint Petersburg, – REUTERS

09:23 AM

De Bruyne and Hazard

Belgium boss Roberto Martinez will give Kevin De Bruyne and Eden Hazard until the last minute to prove their fitness ahead of tonight’s Euro 2020 quarter-final clash with Italy.

Manchester City star De Bruyne suffered an ankle injury during Sunday’s 1-0 win over Portugal, during which Real Madrid’s Hazard also limped off with a muscle problem, and neither was able to train with the rest of the squad on Thursday morning.

However, speaking at his pre-match press conference ahead of the game in Munich, Martinez said: “We all know that we are fighting against time, but we’re going to take until the last minute to make the decision.

“Every day that goes by, every time they can sleep and get three meals and get some treatment, we see an improvement, and then we’ll see [today] if they can be involved or not. Unfortunately at the moment, we cannot make a decision.

“Obviously it will be difficult for [today] – a soft tissue injury in Eden’s case, maybe is difficult for a game like tomorrow, and for Kevin, having a ligament problem maybe is a bit different.

“But it’s more a medical decision. At the moment, it’s not a football decision; [today]it will become a medical decision in the afternoon and then we’ll make a football decision after that.”

De Bruyne left the pitch looking dejected in Belgium’s win over Portugal – GETTY IMAGES

Martinez could do with having all his most potent weapons available for a clash with an Italian side which is unbeaten in 31 matches, while both teams are bidding to become the first to win 15 consecutive European Championship matches since the start of qualification.

PA

09:06 AM

In case you missed it…

Neil Diamond told The Telegraph yesterday how “thrilled” he was that England fans were singing his famous ‘Sweet Caroline’ song at Wembley.

“Well, I hope you can do it again – here’s to England”, he told The Telegraph.

The 1969 song has featured in every England victory celebration at Euro 2020 and was a high point of celebrations after the team beat Germany 2 – 0 in the round of 16.

After the match, striker Harry Kane and coach Gareth Southgate both told the media how much they enjoyed hearing fans belt out the song in unison.

08:52 AM

Tournament odds

The bookies have England now as Euro 2020 favourites – even at 2/1 in some outlets.

Then come Spain (3/1) followed by Italy (4/1), with Ukraine the outside shot with bookmakers at 33/1.

08:41 AM

Magic Monday

A look-back at the day that proved internationals reach parts that the club game cannot.

As if Spain 5 Croatia 3 wasn’t enough, Switzerland and France also served up a classic on Monday night. What made it so memorable?

Read Thom Gibbs’ excellent breakdown here.

08:30 AM

RIP Charlie

08:16 AM

Predictions for this evening

Let us know in the comments below!

I’m going Spain and Italy to progress… just.

08:14 AM

Alvaro Morata

As Sam Dean writes, Alvaro Morata has scored 21 goals in 44 appearances for his country. He has won 14 major trophies in club football. He has played for four of the biggest clubs in the world and he has been transferred between them for a combined total of more than £170 million. If he finds the net against Switzerland on Friday, he will become the highest scorer in Spain’s European Championship history. Everything about his CV, and his list of accomplishments by the age of 28, suggests that Morata must be one of the continent’s elite forwards. And yet, for many people, the former Chelsea striker still seems to be regarded more as a punchline than as a top-level predator.

Read about how Morata has emerged from the darkness in a bright, dangerous Spain side.

Spain’s Alvaro Morata celebrates after scoring his side’s fourth goal during the Euro 2020 soccer championship round of 16 match between Croatia and Spain at the Parken Stadium in Copenhagen – POOL GETTY

07:59 AM

Can Switzerland do it again?

A reminder of how the Swiss got there in the first place.

They knocked out the world champions, France, on penalties, after fighting back from 3-1 down.

Refresh yourself on events in Bucharest by clicking here.

Kylian Mbappe missed the crucial penalty for France – GETTY IMAGES

07:35 AM

The Swiss are back!

Remember this bloke?

Swiss fan reacts to their victory over France

Topless and fully clothed, desperate and ecstatic: a Swiss football supporter has become a viral sensation after cameras zoomed in on his rollercoaster emotions watching his team beat France in the Euro 2020 tournament.

Found by Swiss media after images of him yelling and grimacing during Monday’s match went round the world, Luca Loutenbach has already amended his Twitter account to describe himself as the “Nati’s official meme since 28.06.2021.”

The Nati is the nickname for Switzerland’s national football team.

Loutenbach, 28, told Switzerland’s Blick TV that he was “just a normal fan”.

But those filming the game thought otherwise, zooming in on him several times during the play as he perfectly encapsulated Swiss fans’ ecstasy, dejection and frenzied joy – starting off wearing the Swiss red shirt and ending up topless and screaming.

The images quickly went viral, with London Mayor Sadiq Khan tweeting one with the comment “man of the match”.

“A star is born,” Swiss public television RTS said.

“Thanks for all your messages, what is happening to me is unreal,” he wrote Wednesday on Twitter.

“I’m actually quite discreet, even if that wasn’t on show during the game. So this is fun for one or two days, but I hope it will ease off a bit after a while,” he told Swiss TV.

Such is his fame that Switzerland’s airline Swiss has gifted him a free ticket to Russia to see his team play Spain in the quarter finals on Friday in Saint Petersburg.

The country’s tourism agency has also contacted him via Twitter to offer a relaxing weekend away in Switzerland.

07:18 AM

Good morning!

Hello and welcome to Telegraph Sport’s live coverage of the build-up to quarter-finals day, with the first two last-eight games kicking off tonight. Switzerland face Spain in St Petersburg at 5pm before Belgium take on Italy in Munich at 8pm.

England midfielder Jack Grealish said captain Harry Kane is the best player he has ever played with and tipped the Tottenham Hotspur forward to break the Premier League scoring record.

Kane drew a blank in each of England’s three group games at Euro 2020 but scored the second goal in Tuesday’s 2-0 win over Germany which put them into a quarter-final clash with Ukraine in Rome on Saturday.

Grealish said Kane, or “H”, was a deadly finisher but also praised his work outside the box.

“No one here would ever doubt ‘H’,” Grealish told British media on Thursday. “He’s the best player I’ve ever played with.

“He’ll break the Premier League record and the England one but he’s not just a goalscorer. He’s unbelievable when he drops deep and finds passes and puts it through people’s legs.”

Alan Shearer is the Premier League’s all-time leading scorer with 260. Kane is seventh on the list with 166.

Grealish came off the bench to play a role in both goals in the win over Germany but the 25-year-old said he was uncertain if he would start against Ukraine, given the attacking options at coach Gareth Southgate’s disposal.

“It’s difficult. I’m always playing every minute at Villa. I have to be realistic about myself and the talent that we have, especially in my position,” he said.

“You’ve got six players that play either side of Harry that, in reality, could play for most clubs in the world — myself, Jadon (Sancho), Marcus (Rashford), Raheem (Sterling), Phil (Foden) and Bukayo (Saka),” he said.

“That’s scary how good us six are. That’s not being big-headed. That’s just the truth.”

Reuters

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⚤︎ doctor!Yoongi & female reader

✔︎ uh… pretty much angst (but pt. 2 will have loads of fluff)

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pt. 1 | pt. 2

hi hi !! this is part one of a two part soulmate series for yoongi. i really wanted this whole thing to be one part, but life decide to become busy… so here’s part one!

In high school, you met your soulmate. 

Well, you didn’t meet him per say. All soulmates dream of their special someone. Not consistently however. When about to meet for the first time, the couple would both experience vivid dreams- or rather, soon-to-be memories. But you were lacking clarity. 

You see, in these soulmate dreams, according to your best friend, Nayeon, you are supposed to see your soulmate’s face. You never have. And at 25, you were facing the reality that you never would. Nayeon met her soulmate when she was 21 at a college party. “I saw him so clearly in my dreams. And then, when I really saw him, it was so much clearer. Like deja vu- better a thousand times better.” You recalled her saying. Your dreams were so clear that some days when you’d wake, you’d realize how real they felt. You’d see his back, his shoulders, everything but his face. 

Being a fashion designer, you were busy but on your own schedule. Since you were fairly new at the full time job thing, you signed with a brand called Ailahns (aiee-lawns) as a designer. However, you were a “behind-the-scenes” designer which meant you wouldn’t fully receive credit. It worked for you as someone who needed the pay and didn’t fathom the spotlight. You’d frequent the places you’d see in your illusions during the free time you had hoping to meet up with your love. 

At 25, you were past the average age of meeting your other half. When you first began experiencing these vivid dreams in high school, you were thrilled. But now, having those ether-real views of someone who seemed like a fantasy almost daily was starting to take a toll on your health. 

“Does it ever stop hurting?” You sobbed into your best friend’s shoulder. 

“No y/n. You just start getting used to it,” replied Nayeon. She brought her hand to your head and began dabbing off the sweat with a wet cloth. “Look, y/n… I think you should- Y/N!!“ 

Your eyes flickered open then harshly shut. You slowly opened your eyes once more only this time, you were aware of the bright lights and the beeps of the monitor to your side. 

"Y/n, you’re awake.” Nayeon took your hand as she spoke. 

“What happ- am I ok?” You couldn’t remember for the life of you what happened. 

“You had another dream again. It must’ve been bad since you fainted on me.” Nayeon’s hand gripped yours a little tighter. “The doctor said you just had a panic attack and you’re likely not getting enough good sleep. I think he’s right too since you’ve been having more aggressive dreams and all." 

"I don't… I don’t remember,” you muttered. “What?” “Nayeon, I don’t remember the dreams. I don’t remember him. I didn’t even figure out who he was or what his face looked like! I’ll probably be alone for life now!” Your voice was shaking along with your body; you were panicking. Is this what you planned for me, fate? To be alone and in pain? 

“Y/n, calm down!” Nayeon called for a nurse as your EKG machine showed your heartbeat dramatically rising. 

“What happened?” Nurse Kang asked as she barged into the room. 

“I’m not sure.” Tears brimmed your eyes as Nayeon continued speaking. “She just woke up and was completely fine. Then, all of a sudden she just-" The door swung open, and your breath finally returned. Your heartbeat immediately dropped to normal. 

"Doctor Min, are you alright?” Nurse Kang asked as she saw the distressed doctor tumble into your room. 

“Wh-at happ-ened?” The doctor panted as he stepped closer to you. His gaze quickly shifted from you to the nurse. 

“It’s you.” Your eyes widened as your heartbeat steadily rose again out of joy and disbelief. 

“I’m a doctor if that’s what you mean,” he responded rather coldly. “No. I-I mean, you’re him.” All of your dreams came back to you the moment he walked into your room. This must be the deja vu Nayeon talks about, you thought.

“I’m sorry, Miss. I think you’ve mistaken me for someone else.” He turned away from you and quickly spoke to the nurse. “I’ll get Doctor Park since I’m causing her stress." 

"Actually, sir, you managed to calm her heartbeat by simply walking in. Perhaps you should switch to her doctor." 

"For my sake,” his stern gaze pierced your heart as he looked towards you as you trembled. This isn’t right, you thought. Love can’t be this cruel. “I can’t treat someone like her. I can’t care for someone who thinks I’m someone else. It’s not good for her health either." 

He turned to leave but paused when he heard your voice. "Min Yoongi, that’s your name. It’s beautiful,” you muttered a little too loud. 

“Y/n, how did you… he’s-” Nayeon wasn’t given the chance to finish when Yoongi slammed the door on your words. “-my soulmate." 

Your doctor was kind and professional, and you thought he did his job well. However, he wasn’t the person you wanted to see. Every time Doctor Park opened your door, your heart would speed up only to fall at the realization that he wasn’t Doctor Min. He requested you to stay for two more nights in case the dreams returned. 

They never did. As a precaution, he required that you see a psychologist to help you. “Here’s his card. Our doctors pass his name to their patients; he’s a favorite among patients and the doctors.” He gave you the card as you laid in bed. “I’m hoping you don’t come back.” He smirked as he walked away. 

“What does he mean by that?” You asked Nurse Kang. 

“Doctor Park says that often. He means it’d be sad to see you back in a hospital again.” She sighed as you nodded your head. “Here are your night pills; I’ll see you tomorrow to help you check out.” 

After taking the pills, you instantly fell asleep. But, rather than seeing Yoongi in your restless slumber, your dream that night was blurred- one you couldn’t see much of at all. It was nothing like the dreams that formally attacked you in the night. This one was calm and moved slowly. Someone, a male, reached towards your shoulder and gently grazed it as he tucked you in. It was nothing like the tormenting nightmares you’d been experiencing since you were a teenager. As you woke up to the shallow beeps of the EKG to your right, you sighed in content. I’ve never felt so rested before. 

That morning when Nayeon came to help you check out, you felt calm and relieved that your night terrors were finally gone. You felt perfect. That is until Dr. Min walked by you, not bothering to spare a look. You peered past Nayeon and traced his figure as it melted away. Your heart felt a soft but sharp ppang.

“Y/n. Y/n!” Your friend called.

“Hmm?” 

“Are you alright? Do you feel ill again?” 

“Ah, no. Sorry. I was lost in thought. Are we ready to go?” 

“You just need to sign the release papers.” She ushered you the papers followed by a pen to sign. 

“Thank you, girls. And y/n, I hope you recover well,” the receptionist smiled brightly as if she were trying to help your now ruined mood. Nayeon and you thanked her and headed to her car. “Are you alright?” 

“I’ve not even been out of the hospital for five minutes and you’re already worried,” you laughed. 

“No, y/n. I saw you look at him as he passed by. Are you alright?” Her question was firmer now. Your gaze shifted from the window to your hands that scrunched the fabric of your shirt. 

“Yes, Nayeon. I’m nervous about my future now. I mean, I’ve never felt so free, yet so attached at the same time. It feels like part of me is missing. A part I never even had.” 

“Maybe this is fate’s way of telling you to focus on other things. Like your career,” she suggested. You hummed in response as her car left the only place you’d ever see your soulmate. Or so you thought. 

The dreams began in his sophomore year of high school. 

At first, he neglected them. Sure, it was nice to know there’s someone destined for him, but unlike his friends’ dreams, he couldn’t entirely see you. Your face was a mystery to him. After a while, he became obsessed with finding out who you were. He went to Jin, a friend of his, who was studying psychology in college. 

“I need to figure out who she is,” Yoongi pleaded. 

“I don’t know if you’re meant to, Yoongi,” responded Jin. “The fact you’ve not seen her at all yet is likely something fate has decided for you.” 

“But, I don’t want to be alone.” A tear dropped from Yoongi’s gentle lashes. The thought of having the same dream forever would only be a harsh reminder that he was indeed alone. 

“Yoongi, you’re gonna be a doctor, man! There’s so much more to life than love. You wouldn’t even remember the word ‘lonely’ since your days will be crowded with people in your reality. And as a doctor, shouldn’t you know that no pill takes away a broken heart?” 

Jin was right. There are limited opportunities for him to take his mind off you. Throughout college, Yoongi worked hard. As a medical intern, he asked questions frequently and worked diligently under his elders. Jin really was right, he felt; however, Yoongi took Jin’s advice too far. Rather than adding more work to his schedule, he filled his schedule into only work throughout college. 

“Yoongi-hyung, you shouldn’t overwork yourself,” Taehyung remarked.

“I’m a doctor, Tae. I’ll know better than anyone when I’ve reached my limit,” he growled. Yoongi was not the social butterfly he was in high school. His world was his work- until he graduated. After graduation, Yoongi was offered a doctor promotion in the hospital he interned with. Of course, he gladly accepted. Being able to control his hours and truly be in charge of patients, Yoongi felt powerful. It boosted his pride- a little too much. 

Jin, now a licensed psychologist, invited, or rather forced, Yoongi to his office. Yoongi, without hesitation, stretched out along Jin’s emerald green, leather couch while Jin sat on his modern POANG chair. 

“So, how are you?” Jin started. 

“I’m fine. A bit busy, but fine.” 

“And how are your dreams?” 

“The same. I always see her but never her. Some mornings, I’ll wake up in a cold sweat yet feel overly hot and tired despite at least 6 hours of sleep,” replied Yoongi. 

“Are you eating and drinking well?” 

“Yes.” 

“Good. When was the last time you woke up in the night due to your dreams?” 

“It happens at least once a week.” 

“And remind me- what does she look like?” 

“I’m not sure.” 

“I don’t mean her face, Yoongi. I know you can’t see that.” Jin chuckled. “How about her hair maybe. Her figure? Her hands?” 

“I don’t know, Jin. And honestly, I don’t care.” 

“How come?” Jin’s expression changed. His eyebrows curled together, and he stopped vigorously scribbling notes on his pad that tended to be scribbles of butterflies or ladybugs. 

“I stopped minding her. I might sound unlikely or impossible to you, Jin. But, I see her in a way that I don’t. I recognize her since she’s the only thing I’ll dream of again.” 

“So, you’ve lost hope of ever seeing her thus why you don’t register her presence in your illusions, right?” 

“I gave up hope last time I was in this office and now you want me to get it back?” 

“Yes.” 

“What kind of psychologist are you?” Yoongi was tense. He sat up from the couch and stared into Jin’s eyes. 

“One who cares about his friend.” 

Yoongi scoffed. “Since when?” 

“Forever. You might not know it anymore seeing how your schedule’s fairly packed, but we take the time to ask you if you are, despite already knowing the answer.” Jin or someone from their friend group would always text Yoongi plans they made to get together. Yoongi denied all invites. “You’re so busy, Yoongi, that you’ve lost yourself. When I said to make yourself busy, I didn’t mean make yourself unavailable.” Jin insisted. “And I never once told you to forget her. I wanted you to see her as a goal you’d have to truly live to achieve.” 

“Bullshit.” Yoongi began pacing from wall to wall running his hands through his hair. 

“I’m trying to have a serious conversation with you!” 

“And I’m seriously trying to avoid it!” Yoongi threw his hands in the air. 

“Just sit down!” 

“Why? So you can lead me into messing up my life?” 

“Are you insane, Yoongi?” 

“Try me.” 

“It is my job to guide people into a better, safer, place. I under no circumstance asked you to lose yourself. Yet alone her.” 

“As a doctor,” Yoongi scoffed as he mocked Jin’s words from their last visit. “Shouldn’t you know you can’t lose something you’ve never had?” Yoongi sneered at him. 

“You’ve lost the one thing you did have Yoongi: hope for her.” Jin stood from his chair and looked at his watch. “Our session is over.” 

“Finally,” breathed Yoongi. 

“Oh, Yoongi, as your friend, would you like to come over and watch Bongo Cat memes with me and the guys?” Yoongi slammed the door. “You didn’t answer!” Jin shouted back. “Guess that means he’s a maybe.” 

_The more I trust others the more they mislead me. _Yoongi was pissed. He mistook Jin’s advice and led himself to forget you- the most important person to him. I can’t even see her anymore. He returned to the hospital rather than his home that night. He didn’t want to be alone. He was afraid he’d fall asleep and face the reality that he’d let you go. 

“Doctor Min, you’re back.” Nurse Kang was surprised to see him back on his night off. 

“I figured someone could take my help or company,” Yoongi shrugged as he picked up the patient files. He pretended to look through them, but he was still lost in thought. I don’t even know her name. How can I- 

“Doctor Min. It’s a shock to see you here tonight, but I’m glad you are,” Doctor Park announced. “Grandpa Choi has been refusing to take a shower tonight. He says he won’t take one unless you, and strictly you, help him. Apparently, you’re the gentlest.” 

Yoongi hummed and nodded at his senior and started towards the man’s room. 

“Doctor Park? Your wife is on the phone. She’s telling me it’s rather urgent,” Nurse Han insisted. The doctor sighed and walked towards his office, “I’ll take it in my office.” 

Yoongi was already towards the end of the hall when someone shouted for a nurse. He watched Nurse Kang race towards a room and knew she would take care of it. He opened the door to the staff stairwell and climbed up. Ppang. “What the-” He leaned against the wall as he clutched his chest with his free hand. Suddenly, you were in his mind. He wasn’t dreaming so why could he see you? 

Although you were blurred in his thoughts, he saw everything around your silhouette. You were standing on a platform- a runway of sorts he figured- surrounded by LED lights and camera flashes. His heart was beating hard and fast. He turned down the stairs and yanked the door open. He ran down the hall to the room Nurse Kang had stepped in just moments ago. He burst the door open. 

“Doctor Min, are you alright?” Nurse Kang asked him the second he lunged into the room. 

“Wh-at happ-ened?” He panted as he stepped closer to you. His heartbeat stilled and echoed the beats on your EKG machine. 

It’s you. 

And you were beautiful. He’d never seen your face and here he was believing he didn’t want to. But how could he live without seeing your precious face? His eyes met your gentle eyes and a soft smile curled on your lips. Shit. He felt his face getting hot. He quickly turned to Nurse Kang and took the file from her hands. He embedded himself into your chart. ‘Name: Y/f/n. Age: 25. Concerns: trouble sleeping, vivid dreams, fatigue, fainting spells.’ 

“It’s you.” Your voice was soft, and it made him weak. This isn’t real, Yoongi. She’s not here. This isn’t her. He composed himself and briefly met your lovely eyes. He coughed; “I’m a doctor if that’s what you mean.” 

“No. I-I mean, you’re him.” Your delicate words made his breath hitch. Would you stop talking?! He was angry. He changed. Not purposely of course. But he didn’t want someone, let alone you, to come into his life and ruin his perfect career. He didn’t know how to trust others enough for love. He closed your file roughly and shoved it towards Nurse Kang. 

“I’m sorry, Miss. I think you’ve mistaken me for someone else.” His eyes tore away from you and faced the nurse. “I’ll get Doctor Park since I’m causing her stress.” He made it appear like he was worried about you, a patient, and rushed here to see if Nurse Kang could handle whatever reason the girl seated beside you yelled for help. 

“Actually, sir, you managed to calm her heartbeat by simply walking in. Perhaps you should change to her doctor.” And be around you more?! No way, his mind screamed at him. 

“For my sake,” he turned to look at you once more with a cold grin, “I can’t treat someone like her. I can’t care for someone who thinks I’m someone else. It’s not good for her health either.” 

He started towards the door and placed his hand on the handle only to stop when he heard your voice again. 

“Min Yoongi, that’s your name. It’s beautiful.” He shivered as his name slipped from your perfect lips. He looked down at his coat; he wasn’t wearing his badge. Shit; now I find you, and now I don’t want you. 

The girl to your left spoke: “Y/n, how did you…” Don’t you dare say it! His face was red in anger. His hand that rested on the door handle was now sweaty. His pulse was beginning to rise. He didn’t feel safe now. Your friend slowly turned towards him, eyes wide. “He’s-” 

The sound of the door slamming muffled all chances of her being heard. He was so harsh that for a second he wondered if he broke it. But that didn’t matter to him now. What mattered was getting away- from you. He leaned back on the door for a moment to catch his breath. He stood there a moment too long as he heard your trembling voice breathe: “My soulmate.” 

That’s it. He darted towards the floor’s lobby. “Nurse Han, sign me out. I’m going to catch up on some sleep,” he ordered. He was already down the public stairwell so that Nurse Han couldn’t stop him. 

The next morning when he woke, he realized the dreams were gone. He no longer had to see you. What a relief! He flopped back on his feathered mattress and sighed. He reached for his phone and called the office. He asked for a day of absence to rest. 

He called Jin next: “Jin! Let’s get together. You, me, everyone else. I’m finally free!” That night, he met with all 6 of his friends. He was carefree, and he’d never felt so alive. 

“So~ care to share how you got over her?” Namjoon asked as he sipped his glass of soju. 

“I denied her as my soulmate. A flat-out rejection.” 

“You what?!” Jin choked on his cola. “You met her?” Jimin prodded. “Wait, you rejected her?” Jungkook questioned. 

"Yea. But, I regret it. I panicked over the idea- no, the reality of it actually being her. I was lost in the idea of what we haven’t been to even see the picture of what we could be. I was angry and wanted nothing to do with someone who has brought me nothing but pain." 

“You want to get her back?” Jimin asked. 

“Yes. Yes, I really do. I’ve not even given this love a chance.” 

“Don’t worry, Yoongi-hyung,” a grinning Taehyung began, “We’ll help you get her back!” 

When he returned to his shift at the hospital the next day, he subconsciously avoided your room. It wasn’t until the end of his shift that he found whatever courage to finally face you. As he creaked your door open, his tired eyes beamed upon your sleeping figure. His steps were cautious and slow as he walked towards you. “Please forgive me, y/n. I need to learn how to trust others before trusting you and our love,” he whispered. His fingers brushed against your shoulder as he pulled the bed cover over you. 

The following day he unfortunately saw you. He walked past, not even glancing towards you. He knew you’d turn to look at him. He went to his office, closed the door, and slid to the floor. He sobbed. His heart hurt. “I don’t have the courage to fix my selfish mistakes. I’m not even sure how to,” he cried. 

He reached for his mobile and dialed Jin. “J..in.. I messed up.” 

“I know, Yoongi,” the phone spoke. 

“I want to.. No.. I need to change now, Jin.” 

“You will, Yoongi. You will.” 

He felt like a coward hiding from you as he watched you leave out his office window.