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kittiesfordays · 3 months

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i've watched 9 episodes of last twilight

and it's just so meaningful. it's so beautiful and important.

but having seen spoilers for episode 12, my heart hurts, knowing what it could have been, what it could have given us.. and what we got instead.

#last twilight #rant in tags #i'm speechless #i know people had many issues #such as #the breakup #but i would even take a break up #or a non end game for day and mhok #and i get that having a disability is also wanting to not have it #and realistically because day wasn't born visually impaired but got it later in life #he would especially want to do anything to cure it #just because you accept something doesn't mean you wouldn't change it if given the chance #and that's the mindset that i'm going towards the last episode with #i also find it kind of hypocritical of us that we all hoped that the first surgery would work out #or at least we said it would be cruel to give him hope and have it not work #which it didn't #but when it worked the second time around we were all upset #i have so many complicated feelings #because i truly understand that accepting your current situation and making the best of it doesn't mean not taking a chance to fix it #but it also would have been so meaningful to have him stay blind and live proudly #but i also get him seeking cure and it working out #it's complicated

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freakvampire · 1 year

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i love star trek. it's so brilliant and Yet it was made by people just like us with flaws and so it is flawed

#herbtxt #star trek #voyager #deep space nine #the next generation #i have so many complicated feelings #.there's just like.

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sunfoxfic · 6 months

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We were so close to smoking not being cool anymore. We were so close. Then they flavored it mango and now it's taboo to criticize it anymore. People don't ask if they're allowed to vape indoors, they aren't considerate of people who may have health problems that are triggered by the chemicals or if it just bothers them, people don't care that they're supporting an industry built on corruption and greed, they can't see it draining their pockets and much less their health. We were so close to smoking not being cool anymore.

#i hate hate HATE nicotine after watching my parents smoke when i grew up #its gross and bad for your money and bad for your health #and i get it. theres SO MANY socioeconomic factors that make it a complicated issue.#you CANT blame smokers.#but it feels like people are just accepting the institution for what it is bc now it tastes good #bitch just chew gum jfc #it doesn't matter if its an industry issue. we have seen in the past that making it “uncool” hurts the industry #make nicotine uncool again PLEASE #grumbles

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uncanny-tranny · 1 year

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A lot of cis people may not want to hear this, but here goes:

You are going to have more in common with trans people who have a similar gender identity to you than you think. Trans people are reliable narrators of their own experiences, and whether you like it or not, we will have similar or even identical experiences to yours. Cis people don't have a monopoly over their gender or the experiences people have as a result of their gender.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #ally advice #like in my experience i have had way more in common with cis men than cis women #and of course it is always more complicated than what a tumblr post can provide. but by and large i have noticed this trend #cis people like to pretend that trans people are a seperate species to them when that can't be further from the truth #cis people don't like to think that their bodies/experiences/lives could be in any way shape or form similar to a trans person's #but they're wrong in that case. there are so many of us with baried experiences. because we are PEOPLE #i feel like i am screaming my personhood into the void sometimes so i hope maybe this reaches somebody #as horrifying as it is (/s) i am as much a person as i am a man #and as horrifying as it is (/s) other trans people are as much their genders as they are PEOPLE #enjoy me posting my stream of consciousness then going back to play skyrim and fo:nv until i pass out or whatever i feel like lol<3

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raiderlucy · 4 months

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JOE KEERY as GATOR TILLMAN Fargo • 5.06 The Tender Trap

+ bonus;

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tox-tea · 3 months

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Oh to Worship You (click for higher res)

#oh my god i finished it i finally finished it this is the most complicated thing ive ever done but its finally finished #tgcf #has just taken over my brain and unlocked art ideas and skills i did not know i had im so proud of this im so excited to show you guys #thanks for all of the support of the wip of this i posted!#i have many feelings about hualians dynamic and the dedication but also the awe at that dedication its not just about hua cheng worshipping #its also about xie lian being worshipped that love of a god to their believer add their love for eachother personally and it just breaks me #hualian invented love #hualian #hua cheng #xie lian #heaven official's blessing #tian guan ci fu #mxtx #mxtx tgcf #fanart #my art #tgcf fanart

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sollucets · 2 days

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THE EIGHTH SENSE

aired march 29th - april 26th, 2023

#the eighth sense #jaewon x jihyun #rowan gifs #userdramas #tuseralexa #tayvengeance #uservid #lextag #tobelle #samblr #i have complicated feelings about this series but there's no doubt it really kickstarted my giffing skills as well as made me many friends #so. in the end it remains precious to me #love u eighth sense happy anniversary #i tried to pick out hope & joy for you #ghost post (scheduled)#(for the day of the finale's anniversary!)

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dirtytransmasc · 1 month

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the Sully kids' reaction to Jake saying Spider "knew everything" breaks my heart.

they knew him better than anyone else, better than their parents. they knew his love for Eywa, for Pandora, for The People, for the clan, for their family. they knew he would never tell the RDA anything... not willingly at least.

they knew they were leaving because Spider would be tortured for information, he'd be forced to reveal their home, their plans, their numbers, their weaknesses. their brother would be tortured and they were being forced to leave him behind.

they knew they were being forced to find a new home, without their brother, because their dad knew he would be tortured.

#I like to think. for the sake of my sanity. Jake knew Spider would be loyal to them. that he would only blab once broken by torture.#anything else would kill me. the level of anger would be lethal.#but regardless. I think the kids would also need to believe the same thing. they *need* to think their dad has faith in their brother.#but back to the reactions themselves. the heartbreak and confusion on Kiri and Tuk's face. the way Lo'ak looks dissociated.#we can barely even see his face. but even Neteyam looks surprised and painted. even if its kept under a calm guise #(I will never let anyone convince me 'tey didn't love Spi. James. give us more about them please. more than these little crumbs)#they were just little kids and he was their big brother #he was Lo'ak and Kiri's best friend #Tuk was his baby #I feel it in my bones that Spi and 'tey were brothers with a complicated history. I know 'tey was scared to lose him.#I don't have proof but I know James is cooking up something with them #they would never believe Spider would just give them up. but that opens up their minds to so many things to think about #they had to be so scared for him and angry he was being left behind #(especially since in the comics Kiri. Lo'ak. and Tuk risk their lives to save him when he was kidnapped by Nash)#avatar 2 #avatar the way of water #spider socorro #miles spider socorro #miles socorro #kiri sully #lo'ak sully #tuk sully #tuktirey sully #neteyam sully #lo'ak #kiri #tuk #tuk tuk #tuktirey #neteyam

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haunted-xander · 1 year

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I already know, so why won't you just say it?

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shibuiking · 2 months

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#40k #orikan the diviner #trazyn the infinite #orizyn #adeptus mechanicus #my self insert magos id been wanting to do for a while ahah #so i can keep an eye on mu-15 in universe B)#also fun to translate my usual very fleshy undead sona to smth mechanical #orikan and trazyn r funny for sooooo many reasons but the one i can stop thinking abt is how it Feels like a usual tsundere thing bt #trazyn is both suave and The Rizzler or whatever whilst also being like 'damn who dropped a mountain on orikan' (he did)#damnnn who let that genestealer loose...#why are you both so fucking complicated #then again it might just be his amazing commitment to the bit #sry i keep posting a ton of tags w the 40k stuff i just have shit to say. im loving it so much #the idea of trazyn enjoying ribbing orikan soooo much that Yes hes a little in love but also doesnt want to change how they act @ each other #coz its so fun and stupid and hes actually having fun (an emotion thought totally lost)#holding my head in my hands

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sleepgarden · 3 months

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Tapestry/Needlepoint commissions are now open! I’m opening 2 slots. I am selecting by interest first (as i am easing into commission work again) thank you for understanding. This is my first time using a google form so i really hope it works. If you have any trouble please let me know!

Here is the google form! ♡

#I feel like I’ve forgotten something.#Pricing these was so so difficult honestly. There are so many variables.#I hope this isn’t too complicated !#Okay if i remember something later I’ll come back and add it. But i have been setting this up for the last 5 days it was. Super tiring lol.

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faggy--butch · 5 days

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I feel like bigender transfemasc really gets me. I'm a woman and a man, I'm a trans man and a trans woman. All the love to the cis-non binary multigender folks out there too. But when I say I'm a woman also, it's never in the cis way, and it never was.

#Multigender #Transfemasc #Mostly I like that instead of transmascfem because it sounds better in my head #Bigender #This is why I have so many complicated feelings about gender #Gonna talk more about exorsexism

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cali · 7 months

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darkraiiiiii

#art #i was brewing up a complicated picture in my head too many factors intermingling and i put a requirement on myself that i would need to #feel a certain mood to create said picture cuz only then would it feel good and true but it was an impossible to achieve mood #and it made me miserable for a week i went to bed as soon as possible everyday to skip to the next one but today i woke up at 2am #and thought well maybe i should just draw something simple that i like it doesnt have to be high concept #so its just darkrai!!!! cuz its such a cooly! and its made out of shapes ive enjoyed drawing recently #smoking fire plumelike stuff u kno...#and i got to try out the spraypaint thing again cuz there was stuff i realized i coulda done better after the red 3 head hybrid pic #so i wanted to do it again. do u like these- with the spraypaint rendering? i will make more of them no matter what u say #but im about to go to bed now. i started the pic at 11am and finished at 8pm so 9hrs spent?! well the stenciling takes a long while in pain #i did the spraying in ms paint again and then composited it in paint net like usually.#also im typing much because the combination of coffee (which i try to make special and rare for me so it hits more cutely)#+ the euphoria that drawing gives me makes me talkative. but now.- ! im tired !! goodnight #pokemon #darkrai

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irate-iguana · 10 months

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I present to you, BtVS textpost memes, part 1:

AtS textpost memes

#i had too many buffy memes to fit in one post so expect a part 2 soon #not trying to join the xander debate. i have complicated and mixed feelings about him but this post fit the scene‚ okay?#buffy the vampire slayer #btvs #buffyverse #angel #rupert giles #anyanka #anya jenkins #faith lehane #xander harris #spike #buffy summers #original post #meme dump #btvs spoilers #long post #well. longish

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everysongineverykey · 9 months

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i love how unfatherly crowley and aziraphale both are when it comes down to it. sure aziraphale is more than willing to give the young people in his life help and advice and be their friend but he and crowley spent six years (eleven in the book) practically raising a kid (you just know his parents weren't around that often) and by the end they didn't even like him. crowley even suggested they just fucking kill him. he turned three kids into lizards for annoying him right after he destroyed their house. like it was that or kill them obviously but he did NOT hesitate with the newts. that's so funny to me. they're just inherently disinclined to parenthood. we need more characters like them actually

#good omens #i think if aziraphale HAD to take care of a baby no choice he would give them some cocoa #and play mozart for them and just kind of let them do their thing in the bookshop. away from the books of course.#like he would make sure they were safe and sheltered and he would be kind to them #but it would really show that he was just imitating fathers he had seen in books #crowley was not meant to raise children. he's a wine aunt plain and simple. he'd love to be called 'auntie crowley'#but he has no friends with kids so he has to be content with his brief stint as nanny.#the demon put a basket with a baby in it in the backseat of his car untethered and let it slide around #from side to side while he drove dangerously. canonically that is something he did #it's also my headcanon that he has some complicated feelings about parenthood and family roles #yknow. when you're technically one of 'god's children' but she cast you and so many of your siblings down to hell for asking questions #when the closest thing you have to a mother made you murder innocent children for a bet.#it can make you hesitant about that sort of thing!

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fauvester · 1 year

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old man snoring noises

#ds9 #garashir #BABY. WITH TAIL #ex spies will be like ‘I don’t want to adopt an orphan’ ‘if you bring an orphan home I will not care for it’#‘I am too busy and also have too many complicated feelings about fatherhood and legacy’#and two weeks later he’s making a whole little wardrobe for him #my dad got so neurotic about castrating (?fixing?) our boy dog. and thats garak w bappy's tail #like We Need To Do This. and julian like Why. WHAT harm is his cutesy widdwe tail going to do.#if you had kept your tail i would have made a move on you that first time we met in the replimat #but noooo cardassia is anti-fun and docks everyone's tails at birth like fucking cowards

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