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teaboot · 5 months

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What are "transmasc" and "genderqueer"?

I just woke up so bear with me, but like

Western society has invented this idea of "man" and "woman", right? And we SAY it's actually real, and based on tangible things like sex characteristics- primary, like dicks n' hoo-has- and secondary, like tiddies an facial hair an cellulite.

Well, it turns out that those things ain't divided "correctly" into the man and woman categories all the time.

People with dicks sometimes get tiddies, people without dicks sometimes grow beards and chest hair, beauty standards like "woman thin and hairless and short with small nose and tiny feet" and "man tall and muscular with a beard and broad shoulders" aren't appearing in nature the way we say they should.

(These gendered standards also change over time, but that's a different post.)

What's more, some people have multiple primary characteristics, and it's not even super rare! (Again, worth a different post, and not one I'm really in a position to make.)

So, we say that we didn't just "invent" two exclusive boxes to sort a wide variety and spectrum of characteristics into by pure brute force, but evidence says otherwise. So do we change the rules of our society to fit that evidence?

No, we pick something else to support our beliefs.

Learning about genes and DNA and chromosomes came much later in the game, so most people's grasp of it is this: Men have XY chromosomes, women have XX chromosomes, and no matter what your body is shaped like, that determines which box you go in. Whatever you look like should be padded or amputated or shaved away until you fit in your box.

Except.... we now know that people who outwardly appear to be the perfect ideal poster children of "man" and "woman" are living full, natural, healthy and unbothered lives totally unaware that they have the "wrong" chromosomes. No visibly "mixed" characteristics at all. So there goes that idea out the window.

Unless we say that no, our invention which is fact still holds up- there's just a few mutants and freaks and dysfunctional anomalies that just sort of happen sometimes, like factory flaws that wouldn't exist if things were running as they should.

So what do we do with factory flaws? We "fix" them. Or pressure them to fix themselves. Or, if they can "pass" one way or another, shove them into that box and tell them to shut up about it. Don't fit into either? Then pick one, and make yourself fit.

But... then, if we can pick... if hairy women with flat chests and small hips can shave themselves down and throw on some padding and powder her face to be accepted.... why can't anyone else?

Or, if that same "woman" went, fuck it, cut his hair short and embraced all the "man" characteristics, went by different pronouns and stepped into the "man" box... wouldn't that be okay, too?

And, he'll, what if they changed nothing about themselves and decided to opt out? We've proven that these "universal facts" don't *actually* exist and exceptions are everywhere, so fuck it, right? "Man" and "woman" don't really mean anything tangible anyways, so why not do what makes you happy?

And since, again, evidence shows that "man" and "women" aren't perfect binary boxes with perfect binary traits- why bother living up to those traits at all? Why can't someone assigned to the "woman" box live in the "man" box with long hair and heels on? If I makes him happy, what's the harm?

We don't like this, though, because when you build two boxes that contain the whole world, and people start escaping, or slipping out to live in the one they like more, or switching, or building their own, people begin to wonder why they're living in boxes at all. If we even need boxes.

And the people who maintain the boxes tell us, it's because the boxes are safe, and the boxes are natural, and the boxes have been here exactly as they are since the beginning of time anyways, and NO, they aren't just terrified of life outside the shelter of the box, you're the weird one.

Meanwhile, if we really looked into it, I imagine we'd find more people who don't fit their box criteria, or don't even like their box, at least as often as we find people who do.

Transgender means "someone who isn't in their assigned box".

Genderqueer means, "someone who isn't in their assigned box", but in a the same broad way that "transgender" is- Maybe a him, maybe a her, maybe both, maybe a they, perhaps a xey, and sometimes some of us move around.

I say I'm genderqueer, 'cause that fits me, but "Transmasc" to me personally means, "I know I'm not a woman, and I'm closer to the "man" box, but I'm happier wandering outside the "man" box than I am stepping fully inside. (Dysphoria is part of that, but again, in my opinion it's not vital to the experience.)

And I'm not one for destroying those two boxes entirely- they bring joy to a lot of people.

Just, you know. Maybe making more, different boxes. And maybe little camps out between them. And not treating people who roam the wilderness instead like rabid animals. Is the thing.

Long answer

#Long post #Text post #Gender #Transgender #Transmasc #Genderqueer #Correct me if I'm wrong I'm not fully awake and also wrong sometimes and also a lil dumb on top o that

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idkwhatimd0ingatall · 3 months

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Will Story Event Translation (forgot the name)

// - is an alternate translation T/N: ignore my changing translation style, trying different things out to see what works. Also these translations aren’t accurate so the official translation will most likely be different T/N: Gave up on trying to fix the images

"I want you to kiss me."

The moment I entered the room and pleaded with Will, he gave me exactly what I desired.

After sitting on the bed together, Will traced my palate with his gentle tongue, and my body trembled with joy.

However,

William: ...

Suddenly, Will stopped kissing, and my body, left hanging, throbbed with a sense of longing.

Kate: Will?

William: For someone who pleaded for a kiss with such intensity, you seem distracted, Kate.

Kate: N-no, it's just...

William: Can't focus on kissing me, got some other 'business' on your mind?

Kate: No, it's not that! There's no other business... but...

I hesitated to tell him about the unfortunate incident.

(...Oh, but sooner or later, Will will find out.)

(Given Will's nature, he might already know... maybe he's deliberately asking to hear it from my mouth.)

Above all, because I want to face Will with a free and unburdened heart, I decided to confess today's events.

Kate: Actually...

William: ...'Kissed by a stranger'?

Kate: Yes, on my way back from today's mission, I was confronted... unable to escape it, just once.

The man I encountered on the roadside seemed drunk, persistently bothering me.

No matter how clearly I rejected him, he forcibly took my hand and brought his lips close.

Kate: Harrison and Liam, who came later, managed to drive him away, so there were no further consequences.

Kate: But... I can't forgive myself for allowing anyone other than Will to touch me.

I washed my hands repeatedly when I got home, to the point where my skin felt irritated.

Yet, the disgust from being touched couldn't be completely washed away, tormenting me.

Kate: ...I want to dedicate my life to Will as his servant.

Kate: My body and heart exist for Will alone, and I don't want to surrender them to anyone else. But... I allowed a kiss, and I regret it.

Feeling frustrated with myself, my fingertips trembled as I tightly clenched my fist on my knee.

William: Did you plead for a kiss to forget?

Kate: Yes... I'm sorry. I made you deal with my own issues.

William: No need to apologize. The one at fault is the man who forced himself on you, isn't it?

Will took my hand firmly and laid a kiss on the palm.

(...I heard somewhere that a kiss on the palm is a plea.)

Not something taken by force, but a kiss filled with respect, like showing that I have value worth pleading for. It warmed my heart.

(Even without using the cursed ability, Will's words have a mysterious power.)

(The inability to resist, the discomfort from being touched, all slowly melted away...)

The man who forcibly approached me is the only one at fault, and I finally forgave myself.

Kate: ...Thank you, Will.

William: Just stating the obvious. Now, there's nothing to cloud your mind, right?

Kate: ...Can I ask for a little selfishness?

Kate: I want you to kiss me. Many times, enough to make today's events fade away.

In truth, my heart is already healed with the words Will gave me.

I won't even notice if that man passes by me in the city; Will must understand my inner thoughts.

(So this is just... an invitation, a line used just to kiss my lover.)

William: If you wish, as much as you want.

With a seductive smile, Will embraced me from behind.

Kate: Will...?

In this position, isn’t it difficult for our lips to meet?

I tried to turn around, calling his name in confusion, but

William: Stay like this.

I was restrained, and a kiss was dropped behind my ear.

Will's tongue crawled along the curve, making a wet sound.

Kate: ...Ah, n-no.

William: Kate... don't suppress your voice.

William: After hearing it so many times, there's nothing embarrassing about it now, is there?

Kate: But... to feel so much from just the ear... isn't it strange?

Just being embraced from behind and kissed on the ear, warmth accumulated inside my body.

William: It's not strange. Kate, it's cute how you react so honestly to your feelings.

Will lightly nibbled on my ear, and his tongue slid into my ear canal.

William: Mmm... haah...

Kate: Mm... ah... haah...

Trying to endure the sweet throbbing, I hugged the cushion tightly against my knees.

William: ...Should have changed the position.

Kate: Eh...?

William: If our bodies were facing the other way, you would have clung to me, right?

Kate: Hehe... it's like you're jealous of the cushion.

William: I can get jealous. I can't catch you as softly as a cushion.

// I get jealous too. Softly catching you like a feather is something my body can't do.

As Will joked, I couldn't help but laugh.

(Normally, if someone is jealous, it would be of a person, not a cushion, right?)

(I can't imagine Will being jealous, but that's okay.)

Will's jealousy will probably remain forever unexplored, and that's fine.

As long as we understand that we love each other more than anyone else, there's no need for jealousy.

Releasing the cushion that became the target of jealousy, I faced Will directly.

William: Do you know this saying?

William: A kiss on the hand is a kiss of respect. On the forehead, a kiss of friendship. On the cheek, a kiss of satisfaction.

William: On the lips, a kiss of love. On closed eyes, a kiss of admiration/yearning. On the palm, a kiss of pleading.

William: On the arm and neck, a kiss of desire... any other kiss is considered 'madness,' according to the whims of the poet.

Kate: I heard this in a play once. It was titled 'Kiss,' wasn't it?

Will nodded and pulled me close again.

William: When I remembered this poem, I thought of choosing one and giving it to you, Kate... but I decided against it.

William: Narrowing down my feelings for you to just one is more challenging than any mission.

Kate: ...In that case, give me all of them.

William: Of course. That's the plan.

William: Whether you're ready to accept all those emotions... there's no need to ask.

As if engraving all the emotions into me, Will continued to kiss me following the poem.

Liam: Mission complete! ...Although, we probably didn't need to come. Will pretty much took care of everything.

Harrison: The illegal organization has been completely wiped out. Whether the headcount matches or not, let's count the bodies.

Liam: Okay! 1, 2, 3, 4... 4?

Liam: ...Huh? Hey, Harry, doesn't this guy look familiar from somewhere?

Harrison: Even if you say he looks familiar... His face is all messed up, isn't it impossible to identify him?

Liam: Hmm... this build, the shape of the head, that plain-patterned shirt... I feel like I've seen him somewhere, though...

Liam: ...Ah, got it! This is the guy who was pestering Kate not too long ago!

Liam: You know, grabbed her hand forcibly, made a loud smooching sound, kissed her forcefully!

Harrison: Oh yeah, I remember now. That guy...

Liam: Will, you didn't say anything when you saw the target's information. But did you know about him?

Harrison: Knowing Will, he probably planned this method of killing, right?

The man had used a knife to cut off his own lips, leaving a gruesome sight.

Liam: Kate, you're loved.

Harrison: To speak of love in this situation... not the best sight, I think...

FIN~

#ikemen villains #ikevil #ikevil jp #ikemen villains william #ikevil william #ikevil translations #ikevil will

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stromuprisahat · 3 months

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Remind me again, why is ~he~ here?!

Siege and Storm- Chapter 9

It's not a team effort, Malyen. Army won't judge you as a couple.

Macho lowly otkazat'sya doesn't get to strike (again).

Please do!

This would work as much more powerful statement, if Mal were genuinely concerned for Alina's well-being and her OWN choice, instead of being pissed he's the one, who called dibs on her.

*whispers* That's exactly what's he gonna do...

For allowing you to keep breathing?!

Yeah, me too...

There's nothing more pathetic than an insecure man shouting.

Perhaps maybe insecure man deciding for "their" woman.

A minute of silence for an alternative universe, where Nikolai isn't so unreasonably accommodating, and has actual guards stationed at door, so they rush in after hearing shouting. They see a deserter attacking their Tsarevich, so they step in...

Is acting like a mindless animal supposed to make him look attractive?!

HoW DaRe You fLiRt WiTh My aCcEsSoRy?!

Because seriously- what's his problem here?!

Really?!

That's what's bothering you, Alina?!

I know Alina has some serious issues regarding self-worth, but I'd be more concerned about him acting as if she were his property, and anyone even suggesting she might have different role in the world deserves to be beaten by fists (because control is overrated and true men make a pub brawl out of anything)...

You're supposed to sit by hearth and warm my soup!

Sorry Malaria, but Alina IS THE Sun Summoner, want it or not. You can't just keep ignoring it and hoping she'll just slip into your shadow AGAIN. ... wait... *war flashbacks from Cofton* At least not as long as there are people capable of finding her and dragging her back into the story.

How can you be so SELFISH, Alina?! What about his soup?!

Just when the heroine moves to assume at least ~some~ responsibility (although for different reasons than you'd expect), she's promptly shamed for not thinking about Maaal for one (1) second... I love how he uses position of honour as an insult, because he's the one with full ownership of a public figure.

I know I'm apparently too demanding, but shouldn't he be overjoyed he didn't get shot on the spot yet? And no one seems too concerned about his desertion...

But hey- gf not discussing her decision to stop hiding from expectations placed upon her is obviously the more pressing matter.

Y'no. if his objection was that she completely forgot to negotiate change of his status in First Army with Nikolai (DESER*gunshot*), I'd cheer and fully support him, but his position in her love life and bedroom is apparently more pressing matter.

Also a huge fan of body language here.

What could crossed arms mean in body language? Rude, angry and insecure?! Sounds about right...

Ordinary deserter ORDERS a Prince and Major of the very same Army he fled...?

Yeah, Alina!

Mal wants his sickly housewife back!

Y'no, I wanted to note how quickly Malyen changed his mind about coming back, but then I re-read the end of previous book to be sure, and it's always been Alina. He wanted to get out, get rid of her amplifier and live his happy life in obscurity consequences be damned:

Shadow and Bone- After

His girl refuses to get rid of all of the stuff that makes her different, so he just has to settle for her fancy clothes...

Wow!

Supportive boyfriend here!

But hey- admitting she IS strong would mean giving up his dreams of watching her trudging after him.

He doesn't even have any idea what the Darkling can or cannot do! It's not some sort of professional opinion!

This one's kinda funny in a way- Alina had very similar thought about him and volcra a chapter earlier...

Siege and Storm- Chapter 8

... ashamed ... given up EVERYTHING to be WITH ME ... Don't tell me, Malyen's so blind he never notices what his (rather pointed) remarks do to Alina?!

I thought we both wanted to help Ravka.

No, Alina. He never did. We've been both wrong. He cares only about himself and his ownership of a small, inconsequential you.

This could offer an interesting view into a mind of a soldier so alienated from his country that offers him zero promises for the future, he cares for nothing... if he weren't such an inconsiderate dick to Alina...

Love this aspect of their relationship! SO empowering!

Like... He'd need to be extremely dull, if I wanted to interpret this as anything but clear fucking MANIPULATION. This is psychological blackmailing 101!

And he's supposed to be the supportive boyfriend SOMEHOW...

#Grishaverse #Siege and Storm #S&S Chapter 9 #grishanalyticritical #Malyen Oretsev #Alina Starkov #Zlatá Malina #Nikolai Lantsov #S&B After #S&S Chapter 8 #V #Grisha trilogy #books #quotes #Leigh Bardugo #anti Mal #anti Malina #anti Leigh Bardugo

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arashrita · 3 months

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hiii

Can I request the dorm leaders with a reader who rejects them? They have not declared themselves but the reader notices their attitudes and I confront them by telling them that she is not interested in teenage romance and that she just wants to return to their world (or if the reader cannot return to her world, live a quiet life outside of the island in some nice foreign country)

Thank you and I'm glad you write again.

A/N: I can't handle sad endings. So, here it is, a bitter-sweet fic that probably won't end in hopelessness. Anyways, I hope you are doing well. Enjoy! 💜💜💜💜

Apart but still together! (Housewardens x F! Reader.)

Riddle: At first, you thought you were just imagining stuff. Riddle Rosehearts has feelings for you? Can't be true, right? You never believed in rumors. But, even you could see the changes in him. Those longing looks, dreamy smiles and the soft blush cannot be just your imagination. He always invites you to the unbirthday parties of Heartslabyul, offers to tutor you all the time, asks you out to take a stroll with him around the rose maze... No, all of them can't be just friendly gestures. Not to mention Riddle isn't too good at hiding his feelings. But, the thing was you just... weren't in the position to be in a relationship with someone. All you wanted was to return home.

"I'm sorry Riddle. But, let's stop there. I'm sorry."

Leona: He hides his feelings well behind his snarky remarks. Yet, the way he is protective of you, the way his eyes softens when he gazes at you and when his tail sways around you in happiness... well, yeah that was a deadass giveaway. He was too soft with you, that isn't very Leona-like. He would even buy you stuff at times. You didn't have the heart to tell him off when he actually looked happy for once. But...

"Leona... we can't do this. Don't do this to yourself. I'm sorry..."

Azul: He is fidgeting around you? Trying to talk to you again and again? Giving you free food he cooked himself? Well, damn even a dense person would find out by then. This guy tries so hard to act cool around you but, always ends up blushing and stuttering. He had to work real hard to get out of his aloof self and be his real self around you. You were his friend. But, oh boy he definitely wanted to be more than friends with you. Why is this happening? After all this...

"Azul, stop. You know you are expecting the unexpected. Please... I'm really sorry..."

Kalim: He is trying to stick around you 24/7. Always inviting you to parties, asking Jamil to make special recipes just for you, spoiling you with extravagant gifts. That IS Kalim, but not to that extent. Then again, he doesn't bother to hide those lovesick looks. He is very open about it. He is always fo caring, so gentle, so loving. How can you not fall for a guy like that? But, unfortunately...

"Kalim, sweetie, please... You know this is not possible, right? You know one day I will just... return to where I belong, right? I'm really sorry Kalim. But, let's stop this..."

Vil: The way he acts around you is so different. Yes, he still calls you a potato and scolds you here and there but he has gone awfully soft around you. He is always looking out for you. Let it be a healthy diet or skin care products. He invites you in his room for spa days, let's you see his vulnerable side at times. Why? The answer was crystal clear. You really didn't want to break his heart but...

"Vil, this is going too far. I'm really sorry, but we gotta stop. It will never happen. I'm sorry..."

Idia: This guy already has more than enough issues. So, when he is making the effort to spend time with you and even go outside for it, you knew what was coming. You are his player two no matter what game it is and when Idia himself invites you to his room and shares some of his stories with you... you just...knew. But, you already made a decision the moment you ended up in this foreign world, far far away from your own. That's way...

"Idia, I think we should stop this now. This won't get us anywhere. I'm really sorry..."

Malleus: You were his first friend. You weren't afraid of him, never shit-talked about him, always made an effort to make him feel loved... How can he not fall for you? He already sees you as his future queen. You are everything to him. Before he even knew he was already drowning in love. It was so obvious. But, you two just weren't possible...

"Malleus, I hate to say this, but we have to stop here. I will just... fade away one day... then? Don't hurt yourself over me. I'm sorry..."

(BONUS HOPEFULL ENDING)

Years passed. Unfortunately, you never returned to your world. Then again, you made some really great friends, passed school eventually and grew up. Now, you even have a job. But one thing— no, one person was missing from your life. Looks like you were only lying to yourself when you rejected...HIM.

Riddle: It was a rainy day. Thanks to that you were struck midway. How could you forget your umbrella? That's when you saw him... Oh!

"(Y/N)?"

"Riddle...?"

You two walked closer to each other. You could see surprise in his eyes, but beneath that... oh? As you gazed in his eyes, you just knew everything was going to change in your life. That look of love can't be mistaken.

Leona: Running into Leona came off as a huge shock. But then again, the first time you saw him, you stepped on his tail.

"Still clumsy as ever huh, herbivore?"

Rather than letting you go, he pulled you closer and... you could easily see that fond look behind his smug grin.

"Yes... Leona."

Azul: "(Y-Y/N)?"

Finding him near your work place is even weirder. Didn't he go back to the coral see? Oh, how wrong you were. Turns out, he came back again, for you...

"You won't say no this time, will you?"

You smiled softly.

"You already know the answer, Azul."

Kalim: Going to the Scalding Sands again wasn't really a part of the plan. But, ever since you went to that special event with Kalim, you can't help but go back there. Maybe... a part of you just wanted to find him...

(Y/N)?!

"Huh?!"

Before you had a chance to blink, someone straight up flung himself at you.

"Kalim...?"

"You are here for me, right?!!!!"

He giggled.

"Yes..."

Vil: Honestly, you didn't think you would ever see him again. But, who knew life had another plans for you? You found him near a flower shop, lost in thought.

"Vil?"

"Ah, (Y/N)— wait, (Y/N)?!

He came closer and placed his hand over your head. It's like, he couldn't believe you were there.

There was also something else. Once again... you recognized the same look in his eyes you saw years ago in school.

"Vil?"

"Yes...?"

"Go out with me."

Idia: There was not a single chance to meet Idia. But, oh well, when life has plans, things happen somehow. Both of you were equally shocked to see each other. When the shock faded, he was ready to run away.

"Idia, wait!!"

"W-what is it?!"

"Marry me!!"

"H-h-HUH?!?!"

Oh well, the way he totally turned pink. You knew the answer."

Malleus: Visiting Briar Valley definitely wasn't in your bucket list. But for the sake of the meeting your company will have with him, you had to go there with your boss and colleagues. You had be lying if you said you weren't excited to see him. Not to mention he really is a king now. The entire time during the meeting he never once looked at you. That was just... sad. But, you kinda deserved that, just a little. That's what were you thinking while packing up.

(Y/N).

You almost jumped.

"Mal— I mean, your highness."

"You are really going to be like that?"

"What... do you mean?"

"You are aware."

"Well..."

"Stay."

"...I will..."

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n--n · 18 days

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So can you elaborate on the lyrics of Poison being uninspired? I think a big problem with them is that there’s supposed to be a dramatic switch up in tone at the end, but it’s not actually big because the song has no dark subtext, the darkness is pure text. You can’t have a character say “My stories gonna end with me dead from your poison” then expect us to be shocked when the song gets sad in the end.

Addict was something people could have actually comfortably danced to in the club, which makes it hit when the concept is flipped to the dark side of itself, and it fits thematically, because it’s him coming down from his high, and he’s taking in what’s become of his life. Angel wasn’t happy before the ending of Poison so why is the song suddenly sad now like anything has changed?

But to me the lyrics seem unique enough. Like I can’t say any of them are cliches or platitudes. Though it kind of annoys me that the second verse like a regular pop song, but a real pop song has eight lines in verse one, this one has six and the Yeah yeah yeahs don’t count, so the second verse has an odd number of lines and just feels incomplete. That could be an example of it being uninspired.

Thank you for this ask it gives me an excuse to surgically open this song and really understand why it bothers me so much. Also it's 12 and I haven't rewatched it in a while so I might come back tomorrow and rewrite this so take it w a grain of salt sorry abt that.

In a nutshell- it's uninspired to me bc its such a nothingburger of a song. Like what do we get from it that we don't already know about Angel- either from the show itself, side content like the Addict video, or even from posts about him? Nothing. And lyrics aside, although the beat is good it's just a generic pop tune like Addict was a generic Kesha tune ya'know? Nothing about the melody particularly stood out to me as unique on its own or helping the storytelling. Even the fact that it's so upbeat in spite of the lyrics and visuals works against it when it gets towards the end and fails at trying to surprise you that it's sad.

"...so the second verse has an odd number of lines and just feels incomplete"

^^See thank you for articulating this bc I don't actually know much about how to articulate my thoughts on music, but this does help me make sense of why the actual tune just didn't grab me/felt off.

Also, going w/ the comparison to All You Wanna Do again- it's uninspired in that it also tries to do the thing where it makes a character use sexual innuendo to cope/describe the sa but falls so flat. Like,

"So far beyond difficult to resist another gulp

Yeah, I know it's poison You're feedin' me poison I'm chokin' from the taste and I can't help but swallow Up your poison I made my choice and Every night I'm wasted like there's no tomorrow"

Angel Dust does his dance as he sings this-and the images of him in his fetish gear/parts of the assault appear on screen, and he even poses in the positions it's implied he's being assaulted in. Like, was ALL of that necessary when the lyrics are already telling us directly what's happening to him??? Katherine made sex jokes abt her sa too, but we get to see her as her own character outside of the assaults and we learn so much about her pov, how it affected her entire life, etc. I feel like I wouldn't find it even that egregious if we had gotten to have scenes where the audience gets to see Angel be himself outside of the performative mask he wears+his suffering, but he was only used for cheap sex jokes when interacting w the others at the hotel. And now in his song, he redundantly sings abt his situation which we have already been shown:

"I got so good at bein' untrue I got so good at tellin' you what you wanna hear I disassociate, disappear Yeah, yeah, yeah"

We saw his conflict w Husk over how fake he is, saw him placate Val over the phone, and I can't recall if we saw him disassociate but regardless. The point is we know all this, it didn't need to be a song let alone a whole music video. If we left the scene after Val abused Angel in the backroom and made Charlie leave it would have been waaayyyyy more weighty and foreboding than this song/MV.

ALSO:

"You can’t have a character say “My stories gonna end with me dead from your poison” then expect us to be shocked when the song gets sad in the end." + "...and it fits thematically, because it’s him coming down from his high, and he’s taking in what’s become of his life."

^^^^THIS!! They really tried leaning into the tragedy of his situation but really just ended up making him a tool for whump instead. Addict was put together wayyy better musically, thematically and visually- it actually felt impactful when we're left with Angel Dust crying on the bed w his pet comforting him, whereas Poison leaving him on the ground left me feeling nothing but annoyance.

#Sorry if this is incoherent I'm tired but I love analyzing things asjdhfgasdkjh #While I'm at it I miss pilot Angel he was meaner and it would have made his arc more solid if they let his character breathe a bit #I love messy characters Angel has potential but it's constantly knee capped by HH being 8 eps + Angel being woobified and whump'd into bein #sympathetic instead of letting him be messy #HH critical #almost forgot to tag i don't need anyone coming for me for having Cartoon Opinions #hazbin hotel criticism

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brf-rumortrackinganon · 3 months

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It’s funny that Omid is pushing that Harry is willing to speak to Charles and William. According to Harry in Spare, during that conversation after Philip’s funeral, William told him that he loved him and just wanted him to be happy and even used their secret Diana code, but it was Harry who turned down William by saying he doesn’t believe him anymore even though William swore on Diana’s life. It was only after that, it seems, that William began to truly cut Harry off. During the Queen’s death, he didn’t bother replying to Harry anymore. So my interpretation is, Harry refusing to believe William during their conversation during Philip’s funeral really hurt William. Imo, the only thing that could bring the brothers together is Diana, and that didn’t work, that’s why I do believe their relationship is now irraparable and not even Charles’s cancer diagnosis and eventual death in the future could fix it.

But my question is, what changed with Harry? He refused to believe William when he said he loved him and wanted him to be happy, so why is he now positioning himself as the one willing to make amends? Did he just have to publish Spare first? Is it kind of like “let me just get this off my chest and out into the world first before I make amends”? Lol.

But also, William said during Philip’s funeral that he was feeling really bad about how things turned out. Do you think Harry is justified for not believing William swearing on Diana’s life because William is guilty of having done something bad to Harry? Do you think William icing Harry off ever since that conversation might suggest that William does think he has legs to stand on and is not entirely guilty?

I think Harry is an unreliable narrator and probably dramatized the confrontation with Charles and William. I can't see a 40 year old man, certainly not one as composed as William, screaming "I swear on Mummy's life" -- not ever, and certainly not in public or outdoors where someone could risk hearing them.

(And also the idea that the only way Charles can discipline his almost 40-year-old sons is to threaten them with their mother? Look, I know it's different in the UK and the royals are different from everyone else, but that's just bizarre.)

Imo, the only thing that could bring the brothers together is Diana, and that didn’t work, --> This is actually really astute, anon. I think this is exactly what has happened between them. Someone invoked Diana and it crossed a line for the other one. If I had to guess, it was Harry invoking Diana in the Oprah interview that crossed a line for William and those tensions boiled over at the Frogmore Peace Summit.

So getting to your questions -- Harry is much like Meghan in that he projects what he feels/does onto other people. That he doesn't believe William swearing on Diana's life means anything is because he himself doesn't believe that swearing on Diana's life mean anything. (And if invoking Diana is the only way to stop this, then why didn't it happen sooner? Why didn't Harry invoke Diana with the "misinformation" in 2018/2019?)

Most likely there was destructive behavior on both sides and both brothers are justified in how they perceived, received, and responded to it. Does that make one more justified than the other? I don't think so - but what Harry implies is that William is "wrongest" because he's the oldest, so it's on William to fix everything. Which is shitty. But also perfectly normal because in some families, you never grow out of the "role" you were assigned as a child. How normal that the BRF is like this too.

And yes. William icing Harry out since Philip's funeral does mean that he feels he's right in whatever happened. But they've both dug in and they're both entrenched on their own "I'm right, he's wrong" side that nothing will probably fix this. William not budging on any of this, especially in light of the cancer diagnosis, does make me think William knows more about whatever this is than Harry thinks he does and that is playing a bit role in what's happening. Or not happening.

what changed with Harry? He refused to believe William when he said he loved him and wanted him to be happy, so why is he now positioning himself as the one willing to make amends? Did he just have to publish Spare first? Is it kind of like “let me just get this off my chest and out into the world first before I make amends”? -> Sort of. Judging by the interviews Harry did to promote Spare before the book came out, he was expecting everyone to become much more sympathetic to him and that Spare would restore his reputation and make him popular again. But instead, Spare made him a complete laughingstock, no one took him seriously, and it performed poorly (it didn't sell out, he probably didn't make his advance, and the Spanish PRB branch undercut his marketing by leaking early). In other words, Spare only made Harry's life more miserable. He's going back to the royal family demanding amends because those stories get him the positive attention he wants, makes William look like a bully (which he tried to do in Spare but no one bought it), and he thinks he can legitimately lovebomb the BRF into taking him back because after all, if that's how Meghan got him to fall in love with her, then surely if he does it to his family, it'll make them like him again.

#ask #spare #sussexes #brf #waleses

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In Saeran’s AE he got more fans because he got kind of famous due to what happened (like that phone call with Yoosung’s friend)

And to be honest I’m sure that there will be fans that actually like him in a romantically way since he’s really attractive and most of the people online may only care about his appearance and not his story

How will Saeran react if his MC got a bit jealous and upset reading something those fans who like him in a romantically way wrote online? (Maybe something like such as those fans calling Saeran as their “husband/boyfriend”)

GE Saeran loves you without a doubt. You are the only one for him and he will continue to love you more tomorrow than he does today. That's his promise to you, after all. Every year, his promise to love you will always be born anew.

Rationally, you don't have anything to be worried about. He doesn't have eyes for anyone else. Even if there are people in this world who like the way he looks, they don't know anything about him. There is no way he would leave you for someone else. They have created an image of him in their heads and they run along with whatever fantasy that is.

He can understand where people are coming from when it comes to that, but those fantasies will never be anything more than just that.

Listen, he won't put any value into what people are saying about him or his brother online. He understands that his fate will forever be entwined in history, but what other people think of him doesn't matter. The only thing that matters is that you think highly of him and that's all he could ever want. Your opinion is really the only one that matters to him. He is learning how to think better of himself everyday, but it's nice to know that your opinion will always be supportive.

Yoosung mentions what people are saying about him sometimes, and he doesn’t know how to react. He just sees himself as some guy who survived something traumatic, and it doesn't make sense why people would want to talk about him as if he were no different than the kind of celebrity Zen is.

But, if it is genuinely bothering you to see people talk about him in that manner, the first thing he would tell you to do is block anything that could pop up about him online. If you need him or his brother to take care of that for you, he can, because he doesn't want you to be going about your day and see something that ruins it for you.

He understands he won't be able to block out everything about him, but if he can do anything to make sure you don't feel uncomfortable, he will do so. He can't stop what other people say about him but he can make sure you are in a position that doesn't leave you susceptible to that kind of commentary.

Sometimes, you have to make sure you go out of your way to ensure you don't see things that make you uncomfortable. You truly have to cultivate an experience that makes you happy. You can't let things that make you uncomfortable exist in your space if you have a bit of control over what you see.

You can't stop everything, but you have the power to make sure you don't scroll through thread after thread of people saying what they wish your lover would do to them. He can understand that you have a natural curiosity about what other people are saying, he's guilty of it now and again as well, but that doesn't mean you need to scroll endlessly into your own doom.

He would gently set your phone down, cup your cheeks in his hands, and murmur, "My love. I will always love you the most out of anyone in this world, and nothing will ever change that. People are going to say whatever they want about me. I can't stop that, but if it makes you feel better, I will make sure to give you that much more love when we're in public so nobody will misunderstand our relationship. I don't want anyone to think that you're not the love of my life because you are, and you always will be."

#mod kait #ask #mystic messenger #anon #mysme #saeran choi #mysticmessenger #mm #choi saeran #ge saeran #saeray #saeran #saeran mm #saeran mysme #saeran mystic messenger #mysme saeran #mm saeran

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Hello 🥰How would Indra,Madara,Sasuke,Itachi,Obito,Pein and Kakashi with a darling who sees the future and has been using it to avoid capture?Thank you 😍

You know what, I just realized that I have already watched over 25 Anime. That’s a small achievement❣️

Tw: Yandere themes, unhealthy mindset, unhealthy relationship, possessive behavior, obsession, stalking, manipulation, threats, paranoia, manipulation, delusions, sabotage

I know what’s going to happen

Indra Otsutsuki

💜Indra is equally intrigued as much as he finds himself losing his patience with his darling. There aren't many people he'd acknowledge for their skill and abilities since he's been a genius from a very small age. A highly skilled and strong one as well. Your forseeing isn't a physical ability but a valuable one nonetheless. A small prophet who knows what will happen in the future sounds wonderful to him, he often searches for you to pester you about what you see in his future and when he is going to inherit the position and power of his father. You are one of the few people he actually bothers to spend time with, he even starts teaching you how to fight since he won't take your ability as an excuse to not know how to defend yourself.

💜He is aware of his problems as soon as he realizes how possessive he has actually started to become over you and how he scares other villagers away who show only the glimpse of interest. Your sudden change in behavior suddenly makes sense, you must have seen this coming from miles away. He's on a short temper afterwards, searches for you everywhere with the knowledge that you already know where he will search for you. The fact that he is being played with by his darling does not sit well with Indra who has an ego. Darker thoughts get to him as he thinks about threatening friends and family, to use his influence. You can't protect everyone. The only factors holding him back are his father and his brother.

💜As someone who wants control, this situation is not exactly ideal for Indra because your skills give you an advantage and to top it, you are smart enough to draw out the full potential. He's awfully short-tempered, starts seeking out the people you're close with in hopes of luring you out of your den. When he snaps completely after being rejected by his father, you're already long gone with the knowledge that Asura will win. Indra is humiliated, betrayed and hurt that you just left, never told him his fate. As of now you're out there and Indra, with no voice of reason left, goes after you. From his old life you're the only thing he has left and he is filled with dark determination to catch you. He's ready to kill because even with your gift, you can't possibly save everyone from his wrath.

Madara Uchiha

🌑His whole clan is rather power-hungry so when you somehow stumble in their life, the whole clan has an interest in keeping you. The elder especially are keen to have you since your gift is a great way to help them winning the wars against the Senju. Madara's interest usually lies where he finds physical strength and power, skills to use whilst fighting in a battle field but he accepts your abilities as useful. He wonders if he could have saved Izuna if you would have been here earlier. He might be a bit disappointed if he sees that you lack fighting experience in which case he goes out to drag you to train with him. Sometimes you just hide, dreading another painful lesson even if you know that he'll be mad with you slacking training.

🌑The more he sees how much your gift can actually do, the more he starts growing interested in it. He starts being more around you, wants to know more about the future of his clan and himself. There is some sort of boundary he doesn't cross though since he shields you from the greedy hands of the elder who are ready to force informations out of you. When he starts becoming obsessed and realizes how you've adapted your own behavior to the situation you knew about, he is initially amused. He likes a little chase, the thrill to play cat and mouse. There is a certain limit to how much patience he has though, he starts turning more aggressive and mad after not having seen you for a while.

🌑As soon as the Leaf village has been made, everyone in the Uchiha clan bridles against the idea of letting the Senju know about you. The general possessive attributes in the entire clan become obvious since everyone is eager to let you spend as little time as possible with them, even with the peace between those two. Madara isn't really different, he pushes you away as soon as Tobirama is anywhere near, barely manages to let Hashirama talk to you. He'd be willing to abuse his power as the head of the clan a bit if you start to not let him get closer too long. He's up for the idea of the elder to engage the two of you since they want to tie you down to their clan for eternity. It'll be certainly interesting if you with your foreshadowing will be triumphant or Madara with his position and strength.

Pain

🌧️When you enter his village, he detects the new visitor instantly through the rain yet due to the lack of information about you, he doesn't know who you are yet. His darling is for now no threat in his eyes so he doesn't mind you, not until he hears rumors about you spreading under the people in Amegakure. Predictions you spoke as a warning which all turned out to be true. It's more than enough to direct his attention to you as he starts analyzing you. Konan starts trying to dig up more information about you whilst Nagato starts stalking you with his many bodies. He tries at least, somehow can't seem to find you even with his skills though. It's like you know what he's up to and avoid him skillfully.

🌧️Eventually Konan is able to report back to him with the information she was able to collect. Apparently there are rumors of a prophet wandering around, visiting places here and there and warning people about catastrophes. The suspicion that this prophet has entered their village is strong and suddenly it makes sense to Pain why you've been able to know how and when to avoid him. You've seen it and have been hidding most likely from people who wanted you for a long time now. Yet the mutual interest from Konan and him to ask you whether or not you'd be willing to join the Akatsuki is there and he wonders whether or not you'd be willing to discuss the possibilities with him.

🌧️One day he detects you just waiting somewhere and he seeks you out with the expectation that you're waiting for him. You two have a civilized talk where you impress him with a wisedom far more mature than for your age. He can't convince you and wonders if that has to do with the future you have seen yet doesn't force you to tell him. It becomes a small tradition that whenever he has something weighting down his heart, you wait somewhere for him and you two just talk, Konan tags along when she has time as well. When his paranoia wins control and he wants to take you permanently, you aren't there anymore and it breaks his heart, even if he expected this. He goes to great lenghts to find you though all whilst praying in his heart that you'll see his longing and come back to his village.

Kakashi Hatake

📖He is not like the council in that regard when your abilities are found out. It is not his intention to use you for the advantage of the village, he doesn't pester you and tries to force you either. Instead Kakashi is somewhat worried if you'll be able to handle everything the old geezers throw at you in an attempt to keep you in the village. Tsunade isn't happy either, tries to hold the council back since you are to decide whether or not you want to help the village. Kakashi occasionally checks on you when he finds you sitting somewhere, only for a short time surprised when you say that you already knew that he would come and slightly amused when you tell him that he has work to do and that he should hurry up.

📖He never tries to tickle infos out of you unless the situation is really dire and he needs to know something for the sake of the village. In return you never question him out either, whether you actually know about him and his past remains for now a mystery to Kakashi. The more time you two spend to bond, the more often it happens that you sometimes end up giving him hints which he should head in the near future. Kakashi takes those hints rather seriously. Even a skilled ninja as him realizes that you are a very sneaky person though as soon as you successfully avoid him stalking you. Sometimes he can’t even find you.

📖The ninja belongs to the aware sort of Yandere and is shrewd, he knows what happened here. You suddenly disappeared because you knew about his obsession which silently tortures the male. You see a plight coming from miles away yet Kakashi is a bit paranoid, worries that eventually a day will come when your knowledge won't be enough to safe you. He turns more hostile when he is confronted with someone pestering you. Ends up scaring them away so you can live peacefully and is more active when it comes to helping Tsunade with the exhausting bunch of old people. When you two do meet, he tries to play it cool even if he is not fine on the inside. You're a little bit difficult for him yet he is far away from giving up.

Obito Uchiha

🔥He still isn't over Rin even years later, he doesn't believe that he'll ever be able to love again. Rin was kind, gentle, caring. He doubts that he'll ever be able to find someone with those attributes and love them. He's only living for revenge and his twisted dream at this point. So the chances are that the first meeting between him and his darling happens because he happens to have heard the one or another interesting rumor about this prophet. Someone who can predict the future would be quite useful for him, he wants s/o to work for him and help him achieve his goal. He's very willing to use manipulation to convince you, looking on what he did to gain the support of Nagato and Konan.

🔥Absolutely ready to even threaten and force you to join him and let him in on your visions, if it wouldn't have been for you having seen what would happen if you would stay too long. The funny game starts from there, for you at least. You know everything that is going to happen even if Obito makes a decision spontanously since the future is already set in stone. Strangely enough the Uchiha is able to find you and even watch and talk with you when he really doesn't plan anything since you don't see him as danger in such moments. He gets to know you like this a bit more, sees how you interact with others and something inside of his heart changes during such times.

🔥You're kind, care about others and warn people when they're in possible danger yet you also have worries of your own. It must be hard seeing what misery will happen. It must be difficult constantly running away since you don't want people to hunt you down and use you for your gift. You're such an angel, you shouldn't be out there in such a twisted world! Once his obsession starts blooming, it's over because he is one to kidnap you fast. Terrified when he realizes that you've disappeared as well. He lets the Akatsuki look out for you and personally goes after you which doesn't end well since he burns everything in his way down. He's delusional, doesn't acknowledge his morbid obsession. He only wants to keep you safe, in his opinion.

Itachi Uchiha

🍡After Orochimaru betrayed the organization, the Akatsuki were on the lookout for potential new members and even if those were only silly, little rumors, you were one of those candidates. Your physical abilities were unknown but the gift to predict the future would be a great help for their plans. Whilst finding the Jinchuriki was still top priority, it was also welcomed for members like Itachi to look out for people who'd make a good new addition for the Akatsuki. The Uchiha doesn't really follow that smaller plan, people who join the Akatsuki are targeted by every nation and if someone has something to lose, they shouldn't join under all means necessary. Recruiting new members is never really on his mind.

🍡He discovers you by pure accident somewhere in the forest all by yourself and is startled when you not only notice him despite his hidden state but also invite him over despite knowing who he is. He's warily at first but eventually joins for a rather silent stay. You don't force him to start a conversation and he likes that. He seems to bump into you more often and slowly warms up with passing time. You're mature and wise, when he talks with you he gets the feeling you understand him and carry great knowledge around with you. His instincts tell him that you're hiding something but out of respect he never aks, eventually does his own research though until he finds himself finding the answer in the rumors.

🍡Hesitant to address his discovery to you but only mildly surprised when you already seem to know. You open up to him, tell him how difficult your life can be. He isn't offended by your secret since he relates, promises to not tell anyone about you and starts talking more about himself as well. He isn't really surprised when one day you just vanish after he has realized his obsession with you. He's rather reasonable, understands why you would want to avoid him now and tries to rationalize that you can handle yourself. He has a indecipherable poker face so his growing agony the longer you aren't seen anywhere only stays within him. He starts longing, wonders where you are and whenever a rumor about you starts popping up, he is investigating. One last time, he tells himself that he only wants to see you one last time but he doubts that that is the truth.

Sasuke Uchiha

💙You're a cheeky and fearless little thing, maybe because you happen to be with Orochimaru yourself who is thrilled to have someone with such a marvelous gift as yourself with him. The snake isn't the only one obsessing over you though, Sasuke is rather intrigued with your gift as well. He lives for revenge, wants to know from you whether or not he'll achieve his dream or if you know where his brother is right now. He threatens you a couple of time yet you are completely unfaced, maybe because you know Kabuto or Orochimaru himself always stop Sasuke from going too far. You're a favorite of the snake man so he looks out a lot for you.

💙Sasuke and his s/o end up spending time together since both of them are the same age and Orochimaru takes both of them everywhere with him. Sasuke, constantly willing to train in order to get stronger, ends up forcing you to train with him which often ends with him picking on everything about your fighting style that isn't good enough. You've learned to use your ability to foresee attacks but Sasuke is aggressive and fast so he lands hits on you. Somehow he ends up training you since he only has three choices to pick from and you're just the most around him. God forbids when he gets attached because he gets incredibly rude to anyone near you, wants the freaky snake away from you and plans to drag you around with him after he's killed Orochimaru and forms his own team.

💙He's rather intense after he realizes that you're nowhere to be found in the hideout and is infuriated when finding out that you escaped because you knew what you'd have to endure elsewise. Sasuke is looking constantly for you, forces his teammates to do the same whilst he travels around. He loses it at one point and just lashes out and even after the war has ended and he manages to appear somewhat more collected, his wrath is far from finished. The Uchiha travels the world for you after the worst is over, he still leaves a trail of blood behind him if it means he'll be able to find you. You must know how passionate and insanely an Uchiha loves, you must see that Sasuke is chasing after you and the more time passes by, the more his hands will be stained with blood. He'll find a way to tie you down.

#yandere naruto #yandere naruto shippuden #yandere indra #yandere indra otsutsuki #yandere madara #yandere madara uchiha #yandere pain #yandere nagato #yandere nagato uzumaki #yandere kakashi #yandere kakashi hatake #yandere obito #yandere obito uchiha #yandere itachi #yandere itachi uchiha #yandere sasuke #yandere sasuke uchiha

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magicschmidt · 4 months

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LIVE DEMO

mike schmidt x fem!reader gif creds: klausbens a mix of pure fluff + antagonizing pining ՞• ཅ •՞ bleh!

this came to me right when i had to go to sleep. i did not go to sleep.

have this that's so raven girl next door vision of becoming abby's diligent babysitter who refuses to take the title of her favorite - even if the schmidt household is breaking your own charts - BUT ALSO mike's daytime college passenger princess who gets dropped off after abby has - positive this is the least he can do while he hasn't paid you + that he's up to ALL good getting to know who abby never shuts up about, right?

your free ride is actually mike's test run on you - your live demo.

PLEASE READ UNDER THE CUT & SCREAM WITH ME please 😥 im begging you 😓

whatever the boymath, you don't turn him or your guys' world record coffee runs down. it's convenient! caffeine is inevitable for you both: him to steer the wheel as high-alert as can be, & you who lies through her teeth about the couch being cozy - mike wants to make up for the neck pain by painfully obviously sliding the barista an extra to double-shot your cup, but you swat at his arm and claim the gas he's using on you is more than enough - ways ahead that pizzeria of his.

oh, in addition to their television as background asmr teensily tinily running up the electricity bill.

you've never been, but whenever you do zoom past freddy fazbear's, you make it a point to ask what was up that shift, and by that i mean squeeze absolutely everything you can out of him.

you don't take 'uh... it was interesting' for an answer, it leaves too much to the imagination - sometimes its begging mike to do his best impression of a very hallucinatory?? very sinister?? balloon boy laugh which you echo, and he pretends to find chilling - or bombarding him with unserious ass questions like 'did that ominous cupcake gnaw at the iron bars of the vent again yesterday/today?'

you throw all time expressions out there, having lost track of it when you're with him anyway.

mike racks - ransack's his brain for when you've gotten so curious. why he can't let the yawning do the talking instead. or music you both hate. why he's so bothered by your persistence, but not in a bad way. he used to guess it was fair game you wanted to get to know him too. he likes that you always, always seem to be having fun with both him and abby, despite the inconsistency of your payroll.

now, the change from interviewer to interviewee is just common sense - just a touch more rare to you. he appreciates you.

& don't even try lying to yourself; you wake up in the morning for mike's reactions. you tuck abby in bed like your life depends on it, improv story-telling your heart out with her sticky-note flipbook per her request; it's a team effort.

with her turn up first, abby usually sits at the backseat with her headphones on and music off to take note of the dopey looks you guys exchange. she thinks 'it's too early for this', and not in the 'non-morning person night owl' way, but to nag at herself to 'stop already shipping y/n with mike they don't know e/o that well yet!!!!!!' way.

it is almost as if getting the worst night's rest ever on the thinnest cushions even earlier compels the sun to rise and shine faster;

you fucking grind!

once your university not finally and moreso unfavorably comes into view, you touch up in your side's visor mirror. mike takes this as his cue to sneak what he counts as glances through the car's, and shockingly, you never catch on that he can't get enough of doing so - his attention divided with students scattered and stupidly j-walking outside.

your live demo has gotten a bit out of hand.

is mike kidding himself?

you are too presentable.

there isn't a need to babysit with mike there, snoring appropriate in position of cheery radio hosts. you don't need to remind abby if she brought her crayons after coloring with you all night the night before, or loan her your airpods when her headphones die.

this is overtime. you're just about hanging out on a time crunch.

you're beside him, barely awake but busying yourself with a tangled id lace. mike grounds himself, reminded your whereabouts was compensation enough.

that relief is temporary when you briefly flash him a sheepish smile, breaking it with a yawn and a nose scrunch for unintentional added measure.

you're overqualified, and a month's actual pay can't cover this! if this goes on, can he just sit idly by and allow you to take the bus home? the red alarms go off in his head.

mike is so screwed.

he scoffs when you flip the mirror up - what's light-hearted mockery to you fixing your hair up is him letting out a breath he didn't know he was holding.

he stares and yet, he never remembers to trace your features.

everytime mike looks at you, it is the first time; whether it's from the corners of his eyes with most of them on the road, or even the other way around on days he would morph everything else into a blind spot. he'd willingly run over a professor for seconds; in hopes its the one teaching you at ass o'clock & you'd maybe get a free hour to tail him to the station for probation and twirl a telephone cord in your fingers with a glass panel between you two just so you're face-to-face.

if luck strikes him, vanessa would be on perimeter, and you'd sit as you are right now but in her police car all together. mike, of course, sticks to the former, focusing so that none of you have to get in trouble. those are just thoughts that keep him up at ... well, noon, when he gets home.

so give him a break!

when he hazards infront of the main entrance after multiple repeats that you could walk there from the gate - he genuinely wishes you a day much much better than his shift, which you always giggle at.

you know today's already been granted when your back is off the seat, but your butt isn't!

this accidentally prompts mike to unbuckle your belt for you. his arm is not reached over across you in some cheesy romcom meetcute for one, because his car is actually practical and has the buckles and latch plates in the middle.

but your head whips to thank him a little too quick - you end up bumping foreheads.

you unapologetically giggle again, to which he groans an 'ow', and a sly 'what? want me to step out and grab the door for you too?' all while that damn seat belt on your shoulder is replaced with the strap of your tote bag - courtesy of mike slinging it back on for you.

your eyes twinkle with mischief; at how this kinda proximity isn't forced, but natural.

the tint on mike's car does not save for how flushed you are.

his tongue dances with a follow-up question to take you right there as well as out on a date, but for now a smile plays on his lips.

"jeez, i got it this time!"

you yell, and you're rushing off with your heart fluttering out of your chest.

mike just rolls his eyes when you manage to leave your door behind wide open - the cherry on top of the lack of sleep-induced ditziness, but just as he's about to do your single duty as passenger princess?

you come back to gingerly give him a kiss on his cheek.

"a tip as my chauffeur! be grateful i didn't fire you for getting out before me! i'll let it slide just this one-hundredth time!"

of course by tip you mean* payback* for what you are only now realizing are growing feelings for your new knight in airbagged armor - and you're off for real.

mike could care less what you mean though, now that he knows you voicelessly wished him the same thing. aren't you just the showcase of grace?

no way in hell mike has it in him to chat you up to the neighbors now. it's time padlocks get a price hike! and maybe you a promotion to girlfriend ... if you'll accept him?

... it's safe to say he has to avail more of your services 😵‍💫

bonus: mike's a puddle of a man in his seat, and the honks from the line that has formed behind him are music to his ears - if a puddle had any?? what an odd way to loudly encourage him to get a 'honk if you love love' bumper sticker 🤭

a/n:

YES we r on Christmas Break but as a college girly, abby isn't the only one who needs bedtime stories to knock tf out ... my go-to scenario @ specifically 6 AM was to imagine PINING, yea ewww

yearning

or worse yet: admit we r head over heels for our fictional cute neighbor whose favors never run out. they aren't even ones he asks us for, we just go the extra mile which cld srsly fit better on our resumes - to which he somehow returns tenfold - & no one feels like they acc owe each other, we just all-around GAIN A 2ND CONSCIOUSNESS IN THIS 1 CAR RIDE that we ARE IN FACT crushing on e/o VVV unprofessionally! just went in the direction we simultaneously literally + friendship-wise got so close all of a sudden!

AGAIN i wrote sleep-deprived for the ULTRA HD 4K STINGY YOUTUBE PREMIUM EXPERIENCE so clearly the act of 0 proof-reading has been perfected! feel free to point typos out - out typos ?!?!?!? whatevs so we can laugh @ them TOGETHERRRR & i wish you the polar opposite rest u had in this ficlet! great GREAT night everyoneeeee! 💤

#SPOT LINES I STOLE FROM THE MOVIE HEHE!#mike schmidt #mike schmidt x reader #josh hutcherson #josh hutcherson x reader #mike schmidt x you #mike schmidt imagine #mike schmidt fluff #josh hutcherson fanfic #five nights at freddy's #fnaf

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a-student-out-of-time · 4 months

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//Hey everyone, Mod Bubbles here.

//I come to you today with some more real talk, the product of which is kinda heavy but also really important, especially for this time of year. It's about mental health, bad relationships, and toxicity, so if you'd rather skip it, I understand.

//But I wanna talk about this because it concerns a piece of media Timeline Anon brought to my attention, which has been going around lately (at the time of this writing) with a really damaging message. I wanna make it clear why it's wrong and you shouldn't pay it any heed.

//This one goes out to everyone with rejection sensitivity and fears about how others perceive them. You guys are actually cool.

//The media in question is a controversial comic called "Communication is Key", which...I mean, I frankly don't want to get into anything about who wrote it or why, I just want to focus on what the comic itself is about.

//It's one of those simplistic comics that's supposed to teach a life lesson. In this case, Green and Red are having a discussion about Red's behavior and how they've been avoiding Green because they're concerned about their friendship, worrying that they're coming off as clingy or annoying, so they haven't brought it up. Green points out that they've had this conversation before and that just because they've had interactions like that in the past doesn't mean Green would act like that.

//...And then Green leaves, saying they can't be friends with Red anymore. Green says, after having this conversations over and over, they can't be bothered to deal with this "toxic" behavior and the lesson is supposed to be that some people are too much to deal with and it's not your responsibility to change them.

//Twitter proceeded to rip into the comic's horrible presentation and message. And for once, I completely agree with that. I'm gonna count the ways in which this comic is awful.

Green and Red don't even feel like friends here. It doesn't showcase any kindness or empathy, no believable humanity and nothing about why they even became friends in the first place. It just showcases Green's resentment with Red's problems and then expects us to side with them because it causes Green issues.

Red's "toxicity" instead feels like serious rejection sensitivity, social anxiety, intrusive thoughts, depression or some other serious mental health problem. That isn't a toxic behavior, it's a problem that requires understanding and empathy.

If someone is avoiding you because they're worried you find them annoying/clingy/toxic, the proper response to ask why they feel that way and not assume it's an intrinsic part of their nature. Nobody WANTS to have these problems, nobody asked for them to happen and nobody wants to have their friends leave them. Sometimes it's just a case of showing them empathy.

If you are this person and someone responds to your concerns about being annoying/clingy/toxic by saying "Yeah, you're right," and then leaving, you are better off without them in your life. They are the toxic jerk, not you.

While the idea of "you are not responsible for someone else's happiness" is correct, Green here has taken it to mean that you bear no responsibility for helping people you consider friends with anything. That is the epitome of toxic behavior, being a fair weather friend who's only around when things are easy and peaceing out when things get tough. Friendship is a two-way street and the people involved both should work to maintain it; having only one maintain it and the other benefits while giving nothing in return isn't friendship. That's more like parasitism.

Green's position is that Red should be the one to communicate, but at no point does Green suggest any alternative solutions like therapy, offer suggestions about Red changing their behavior on their own terms, or even offer sympathy for falling back into bad habits. No, Green simply cuts them off because it's too much for them to deal with, which is not only incredibly selfish, it's one of the most damaging things you could do to someone with rejection sensitivity.

People with these problems who avoid you or try to cut off their relationships out of nowhere are not being toxic, seeking approval or trying to manipulate you. They're often experiencing real fear and real concerns about how you view them, and so may be avoiding you because it's the only way they feel they can maintain a sense of control over their lives. It's unheathy, but that's why it's better to approach the situation with sympathy and compassion, rather than immediately assuming they have bad intentions.

Toxic people are far easier to read than you may think. They make everything about themselves, put your desires and your concerns down, exploit your friendship for their personal gain, constantly try to guilt-trip you and make you feel like you're the one at fault, never take any responsibility for what they do and how it hurts you, and then cut you off when you're no longer useful or easy to exploit. In other words, exactly like Green.

Mental health problems do not make you toxic or a bad person. People with those problems are more often than not the victims of toxic and abusive behavior, not the perpetrators. Mental illness gets used FAR too casually to refer to behaviors people don't like or find strange, rather than what they actually are: problems that some people have that do not define their entire character. They're people in just as much need of compassion and sympathy as everyone else.

I really don't know what else to say about this comic's terrible message other than that you should care about other human beings as more than just resources. They're people just like you, with their own lives, dreams, hopes, wishes, desires, fears, concerns, weaknesses and flaws. If you wouldn't want someone to treat you horribly, you really shouldn't do the same to someone else. That's something you should've learned in kindergarten.

//This comic's message is supposed to be that it's better for Green to cut toxic people out of their life, and instead the message people took away from it was that Red needs better friends. They are correct in that assessment.

//I have friends who used to act exactly like Red does, and contrary to what the author thinks, they can change and they can unlearn their unhealthy behaviors. It takes kindness, compassion, persistence and understanding, not to mention reinforcing all the good times you have with them and emphasizing those over pointing out how their problems make your life harder.

//I promise you, whatever problems someone else's mental health issues might cause you, the problems it causes them are far worse. Abandoning someone who's afraid of abandonment is not only cruel and hurtful, it will make their problems even harder to deal with by reinforcing everything they were afraid of.

//I sincerely hope the creator of that comic grows up and learns the importance of compassion over selfishness.

//And to everyone who struggles with these issues, I promise you, people like this don't deserve to be a part of your life and nothing they say about you is right. You are worth so much more than that and you do deserve to have good things in your lives.

//The people worth having around are the ones who acknowledge your flaws while emphasizing your strengths. They're the people who want to help you grow out of your issues and be a better version of yourself. And if you have the misfortune of encountering people who cut you off like Green, you can at least try and take the lesson of what to look out for in toxic people to heart.

//People are kinder and more understanding than they're given credit for, and you can and should be that kind of person for yourself too. Show yourself compassion when you need it and understand where you might've gone wrong, rather than constantly punishing yourself for every mistake. It's better for everyone, especially yourself.

//Things have been hard for me this year, but I've had a lot of great friends who've helped get me through it and I wish the same for everyone reading this.

//Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays, everyone ^^

#mod talks #a student out of time #real talk #real life stuff

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witheredoffherwitch · 1 month

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If you had the chance to change something about the dance of the dragons (TV show or book), what would it be? For example, how a character dies, which team a house is on,or an entire character personally. How would you change it to make the story better, in your opinion?♥️🖤💙💚

Hi nonnie 🤗

I've seen this question answered by a few of my moots, but I tried my best to avoid reading their answers 🙈 Overall, I prefer the show adaptation over what we got from F&B. I know this may not be a popular opinion on this platform, but I believe the characters are much more developed in HoTD. However, that doesn't mean the show is perfect. In fact, there are some BIG inconsistencies and ridiculous dialogues that take away from the seriousness of the story. While reading F&B, I couldn't give two shits about any of the Targaryens (whether they were on Team Black or Team Green). The only ones who slightly intrigued me were the side characters like Alys, Nettles, Addam Velaryon, or even Mysaria. Surprisingly, I actually thought the aftermath of the Dance was a positive thing since it meant the end of dragons and an opportunity for equal footing in Westeros. If I had to choose a favourite Targaryen from the Dance era in the books, I would have probably picked Rhaenys. Now it's quite funny because after watching season 1, I can't stand her character anymore 😭

BUT the show has me fully invested in characters like Alicent, Aemond, Aegon and Rhaenyra. Although I still don't have a strong team bias, I am still heavily invested in TG characters more than any of the TB ones. Out of the TB characters, only Rhaenyra keeps me intrigued while I have a strong desire to learn more about Jace and the twins.

Now if I had to make one change in the show, it would be Corlys' character. In the books, Corlys Velaryon read like a larger-than-life figure who is just as competent and dangerous as he is prideful. But in the show, he comes across as such a loser. My man is basically a glorified cuckold at this point in the story. His blind loyalty to Rhaenyra becomes nonsensical when considering how much his family suffers at her expense. If it's his granddaughters forcing his allegiance, then at least let him play a stronger role or have some kind of bargaining power instead of blindly following Rhaenyra like a pathetic loser. Knowing how his story unfolds in the books, it's unlikely that he will be remembered as a strategic mastermind or even a winner considering how many L’s he takes throughout his journey.

I'm not too bothered by the rest of the story, as my loyalty lies not with any specific team or group, but with the characters who all meet a painful end. I find satisfaction in the pyrrhic victory (if you can even call it that) of Dance's conclusion. I have made a post before, in case you are interested in checking it out. The continuation of Aegon III's storyline after Aegon II’s death adds an interesting dynamic as the victors must now recognise their own queen's usurper as the rightful claimant to the throne. The dance ultimately destroyed House Targaryen and set them on a path of decline. It was a lose-lose situation for all of the inbred blondes who had long boasted about their supposed superiority as descendants of Valyria - but it also spelt victory for the other lords who could now breathe easier without the looming threat of formidable dragons.

#anon asks #team green #hotd fandom

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gffa · 1 year

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If it means anything, I disagree with not all, but a decent amount of your opinions, but your reference posts are pretty much unparalleled in the fandom and you're overall an incredibly thoughtful and positive person to see on the dash. I've never gotten why SW seems to be so overrun with people who seethe so hard over real human people who happen to be having fun with the space wizards in a different way than them, I'd take someone who disagrees with me on everything but actually devotes their effort to posting about the things they DO love and why over someone with the exact same takes whose whole investment in SW fandom is complaining about how much other people suck any day.

Aww, this is really sweet, thank you! I joke about a lot of this stuff (because I find it takes a lot of the tension out of the air for me and I hope it can help do the same for others), but genuine I do want to be someone who can co-exist with people even if we agree to disagree and I'm not going to be super bothered by it. There are always going to be people we can't change the minds of, that we're always just going to disagree with them about stuff, and the more we learn to accept that and just simply be secure in our own positions, the less we need other people to agree with us. There are exceptions, like I don't think we should just chill out with transphobic and racist behaviors and be like, well, that's just your opinion. But the inconsequential stuff, like, it's Star Wars! It's a made-up space story! Real people are vastly more important than opinions about fictional characters! I'm really honored that you're not bothered that I probably disagree with you on a bunch of stuff and this message is so kind that I admire your thoughtfulness and kindness in fandom as well. I'm always for people who would rather devote time to the things they love and tell me why they love that, than trying to convince me that the things I like are actually bad. Like, you want to convince me that Anakin Skywalker deserves more sympathy? I am all ears, my friends, if you can tell me why you love him specifically! Nothing convinces me more than wanting to join someone who is having fun, like that's what I'm here in fandom for, too! re: whole investment in Star Wars being complaining -- Honestly, I think a lot is just that this is how fandoms are these days, but that Star Wars gets it worse because it's been going for like 40+ years now. The prequels backlash set the tone and even if the prequels themselves aren't argued over as much anymore, we're all just constantly rubbed raw by seeing angry yelling, so we have almost no patience left. Anger drives engagement, it feeds itself and that's why Twitter has so much engagement despite being so hellaciously bad for your mindset--anger drives engagement. The more angry SW fans are, the more they post about it, the more other fans get angry, the more angry engagement there is. We have to make the active choice to step away from it--angry posts feel good in the moment, but ultimately they don't lead to a healthy fandom long-term. There are things that are worth getting angry about re: behaviors towards real people, but about the silly, ridiculous stuff? I'd much rather be trying to make people laugh than to be miserable. <3 That's not a judgement on those who might see it differently than me, I've just had too much anger in my life, it became a poison and stole years of my life, so I do not want to go back there. It's much more fun to embrace the joy in stupid Star Wars ridiculously charming bullshit. <3

#lumi.txt #wow i really crawled up my own ass in this one #eh that's what a blog on the internet is for though!

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sysmedsaresexist · 7 months

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Why should I bother healing? I mean what awaits past the pain and sorrow? Feeling lightly better? I can just chase dopamine till I'll die and still have a good enough life

I feel like I know who this is, we have an unfinished conversation, don't we?? I still have your last reply and the start of my post in my drafts, waiting for me to find words that would help. If it's not you, I hope that user sees this, as well.

Friendo, don't let your current dumb feelings and silly brain get in your way of your future

Extreme positivity ahead

Fuck around on this post and find out

-the kids these days, probably

On a very serious note, I think we've all been there, where it just feels so goddamn pointless and you're so tired. Trauma survives long after the events that caused it, digging its claws into every aspect of your life-- even the parts that seemed unrelated and safe.

I can't give you the best advice because I don't know your full situation-- age, living arrangements, financial situations, education, all of that changes the conversation, but I'm going to try to give you a general bit of hope

Age and time helps

Even mental illness tends to improve with age.

As you get older, the brain naturally settles into a (generally) calmer, happier state. I promise you, with all the sincerity and genuineness in the world, even if you did nothing, in five years you'll still feel better than you do right now.

Yes, even dissociative disorders. (PDF)

Don't be so hard on yourself.

This won't apply to everyone, obviously there is a problem with mental health in aging populations, but... don't think that's the norm, or something to be expected, and you've already taken the biggest step by noting your mental health struggles early on. One of the biggest reasons that there is a problem in seniors is because there was very little early detection, and talking about mental health was seen as taboo. You're halfway there.

And as you experience more happiness and things just feel calmer, making positive changes becomes easier, especially as more opportunities open to you every year. So.

Looking back, I think my biggest mistake was looking at myself as I was, and looking at where I wanted to be-- or, more often, what I thought everyone else was. Happy, composed, financially successful, intelligent, popular.

And good god, I felt lazy. I wasn't chronically fatigued, I was lazy, I convinced myself.

Eventually, I started looking at smaller parts of my life and tried to make tiny, easy improvements, rather than anything big.

And with each tiny improvement, and with each year, I started to feel like it was worth it. And like I deserved to have a life I was happy with, whether that met anyone else's expectations or not.

Look, I don't know what kind of crack my grandmother was on, but I couldn't keep a house like that. She had six kids and a job back in the 60s, and even at nearing 85 she would still get on her hands and knees and wash the floor. That place was always immaculate.

And that's just unrealistic. And unnecessary.

My mother was the polar opposite, and I grew up in a hoarding situation.

When I finally got out on my own, it took a while to figure it out, but I settled somewhere in the middle. The idea of keeping the house as clean as my grandmother made me want to actually off myself. I am not exaggerating. The idea was daunting and terrified me. I would rather lay down and give up than find the energy.

But the closer I got to my mother's situation, the more I hated myself, because look at how gross I was.

Here's the truth:

Fuck. Everyone.

Seriously. I swear to god, one day, a lightbulb is just going to go off, and you'll realize that you never should have cared in the first place what other people thought or expected.

My home is crowded but cozy. I no longer look around feeling overwhelmed and disgusted with myself. I do what I can and I celebrate every little step.

It's my home and I'm happy with it, and that is the only thing that matters.

Life is like my house. Live it only for yourself, and do what you can. Celebrate all of the things you do, regardless how small.

Even if you did nothing, it's still going to get better.

Imagine how much EXTRA better you can make it if you just take it in tiny, tiny steps.

Like exponential growth of better.

Feeling just slightly better today makes tomorrow feel better, and the day after that, and the day after that.

Plus, think of all the (insert animal you love) that'll you'll see.

#suicide mention #tw #positivity #ptsd #depression #anxiety #did #OSDD

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haveyouseenthisskeleton · 11 months

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if asks are still open!

how would the more rough/intimidating skeles react if they had a s/o or person of interest who's traumatized by their family (verbal&physical&sexual), has big problems to communicate if something's wrong/bothering them, needs lots of positive affirmations&feedback, has bug trust issues, also looks a bit intimidating (black clothes, piercings, resting bitch face) if not spoken to but super sweet if someone's nice? sorry getting very me-insert lol

Underfell Sans - He's not the best match as he's pretty much the same. It would be pretty awkward for a long time as none of them wants to talk at first, and you keep avoiding the issues building between the two of you. It would end badly.

Underfell Papyrus - Your triggering his mother instincts and he's very protective of you, especially when you have to meet your family for any reason, almost growling at them if they dare give you a dirty look. He's not too smart to guess when something is wrong, but he's learning fast to read you, so it should be fine. He doesn't care you look intimidating, I mean, look at him. You two should intimidate Undyne one day to embarrass her.

Horrortale Sans - Oh well. As long as you're huggable, he really doesn't mind. He wishes you tell him if something is wrong more often though. His brain is quite low and he doesn't want to hurt you accidentally by ignoring when you're not okay.

Horrortale Papyrus - He's a bit intimidating at first but Willow is really good at make people at ease and since he can see you're kind, it's alright. The big advantage is also that he is really good at reading people and can just tell right away if you're ok or not! No hiding from him!

Swapfell Sans - Well, he can understands how difficult family can be. I mean, look at Rus, do you really think he did a good job raising him? The brother almost threatened to never see each other once on the Surface before they tried to salvage what was left. He won't judge you. For all the intimidating part, he really doesn't care. People desserves to be scared looking at you. Well, maybe that's not how he wanted to say it but you get the idea.

Swapfell Papyrus - He's the one if you need to be cheer up as he's quite good at that. He understands quite well your family problems and will gladly help you stay away from them if you ask him too. He's also pretty empathic and good at reading people, and he often finds the good words to comfort people. He loves your grumpy face and would never change it for all the gold of the world.

Fellswap Gold Sans - He's not the best for you as he's terrible at reading any emotion and considers family is everything and doesn't understand wanted to never have contact with them. He can also not be the nicest to cheer you up as he will be a little mean to push you up. It wouldn't end very well.

Fellswap Gold Papyrus - He can definitely understands your family problems as Wine won't let him live his own life and sometimes, he wishes he has your courage to tell him it's making him unhappy. But eh, at least, he's good at knowing when you're sad, he's not pushy and his hugs are the best. You can't have everything!

Mafiafell Sans - He's a little more soft than Red and can be a nice match. He's not really good at the comfort thing though and will gently but firmly send you hug one of his dogs instead of him. He doesn't mind your look, his brother is like a walking mafia boss cliche so...

Mafiafell Papyrus - He could surprisingly be a good match, well, that is if you pass the very intimidating and not at all expressive facade. Torpedo is actually caring a lot, and really sweet and protective to the people he is closed from. He still has some difficulties with reading people, but it clicks eventually in his head. He will remind you you can talk to him if he needs to scare someone, he will gladly do it for you!

#underfell #horrortale #swapfell #fellswap gold #mafiafell #sans #papyrus #undertale ask blog #undertale asks #undertale imagines #undertale headcanons

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vividwritinglove · 2 years

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hey can you do one for pierre gasly where reader is pregnant and how he would react to reader telling him and how he would react when giving birth

hey babe

I love this request so much and I got a little out of control.. so it’s basically a one shot now 😂

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"If I do tell you..." you protest, crossing your arms in front of your chest.

"Mon cœur, don't put pressure on yourself. The doctor herself said that it can take up to a year for your hormones to adjust without the pill. We have all the time in the world and our wedding is coming up soon, too."

He was so right - he was so damn right. You just got off the pill 2 months ago and on top of that you're under complete wedding stress, so it’s not unusual that your period can be delayed by a few days.

"I've seen it myself with my brothers. It also took a few months or even years until it worked out. We shouldn’t think too much about it."

Pierre pulls you into a loving embrace and kisses you on the forehead, "We'll enjoy our wedding and the honeymoon. In which we also have enough time to..." his hands wander over your butt and squeeze your butt cheeks firmly. You smile into a loving kiss.

A few days later, you can't shake the suspicion that you are already pregnant. Even though it seemed impossible. Something was wrong with you - your body felt different. Your period had still not arrived. Pierre had left for the next Grand Prix this morning. You didn't bother him with your worries, but decided to wait a few more days. Nevertheless, you had already bought a few pregnancy tests.

During the night you had severe pains in your breast, so that you could not sleep on the sides. However, the abdominal pains, which usually indicated that you were having your period, were still absent. You decide to take a test right after getting up in the morning.

Nervously bobbing one leg, you sit on the edge of the bathtub and wait for the 3 minutes that it takes for the test to show a result. You had set an alarm on your phone.

Meanwhile, you thought about how your life, or rather both of your lives, would change if you had a little family of your own. You always say you're ready, but are you really?

The ringing of your cell phone snaps you out of your thoughts. With a deep sigh, you get up and walk to the vanity.

And there it smiles at you: a definite plus! You read the description again. No doubt, you are pregnant.

Shocked, you put a hand over your mouth. A roller coaster of emotions ran through you: happiness, fear, joy, concern and also a guilty conscience. Wasn't it unfair to Pierre that you took the test without him? You would have liked to call him, but telling him these kind of news over the phone was definitely not a good idea.

You spontaneously decide to travel to the Grand Prix for the weekend and write a message to Pierre's media consultant Fabiana. She helped you organize the access passes for Saturday and Sunday. You ask her to do it secretly, as a surprise for Pierre. Only too gladly she agrees and less than 24 hours later, you were standing in the hustle and bustle of the paddock, 1 hour before qualifying. The way to Pierre's Drivers Room was only too well known to you and a few minutes later you were standing in front of this door. Sure enough, you knock. A few seconds later Pyry opens the door for you and greets you happily.

"Ma belle, what are you doing here?" exclaimed Pierre joyfully and embraced you directly. He was beyond happy that you were here.

"Surprise!" you murmur into a soft kiss that Pierre was only to willing to return.

"I'm already going to the garage. See you in a bit." said Pyry, leaving you two alone. Not wanting to make a big deal out of the announcement, you take out the positive pregnancy test from your purse and place it on the small table in front of Pierre. Confused, he looks back and forth between the test and you. At first, he didn't seem to recognize what it actually was. He picked up the test and then looked at you in disbelief.

"Is this a joke? Are you pranking me?" he sounded almost panicked. You had expected a different reaction. After all, he wanted a child too.

He immediately noticed that his reaction hit you hard and hugged you tightly. He wanted nothing more than to start a family with you. He lifted your face with a finger under your chin and smiled encouragingly at you. His grin widened as he looked again at the test in his hand, "I'm going to be a dad...."

"You're welcome!" you rolled your eyes.

"And I get to call you Milf."

You both have to laugh. Pierre kisses you passionately, you couldn't have given him a greater gift.

"Then we'll call him Anthoine..." murmurs Pierre to himself, after you've embraced intimately once more.

"So sure it's a boy?"

"Or Toni right away. That works for a boy and a girl." says Pierre, clearly proud of his compromise.

"We'll talk about that again."

A few weeks later the wedding was coming up and by now you were in your 12th week. Fortunately, your belly was growing very slowly and your wedding dress fit without alteration. Visually, one could not tell that you were already pregnant, apart from glowing. Only a few people were informed about your little secret, besides your parents, Charles and your best friend knew, who were both also your best men and maid of honor. At the wedding reception you then dropped the bombshell and this became one of the many highlights of your wedding day.

You were already 4 days past your due date. It was actually 2 days before the first Grand Prix of the new season. Pierre had also checked in with you whenever he could to hear how you were doing. He didn't want to miss the birth of your child for anything in the world. You assure him that everything is fine and that his and your mother have not left you alone for a minute.

Now you go to the doctor every day to check the values of your child. However, it turned out that from one day to the next you had very little amniotic fluid. You had a high rupture of the membranes and in order not to endanger the baby's health, you were admitted to the hospital for induction. Pierre was already on the plane at the time and didn't notice any of this. His flight from Bahrain to Milan was a good 6 hours. You just hoped he would make it on time.

Once you arrived at the hospital, you had to go through more check ups before you could go to your room and start an induction with pills. You were told that an induction could take 2-3 days, so you had plenty of time to adjust to the dosage. Your body, however, decided otherwise, already after the first test dose, you had contractions every 5 minutes, which were bearable but definitely had to be breathed through. After another 2 hours, the intervals became shorter and shorter and the contractions were no longer to be endured.

The midwife checked your cervix, which was now at 3cm.

"We can go to the delivery room. There you can take a bath if you want."

Pain consumed, you nodded and squeezed your mother-in-law's hand as another contraction approached.

"Can you call Pierre again?" you hiss between your teeth, moaning deeply into the contraction. She nods eagerly and immediately pulls out her cell phone.

Pierre is just turning off the airplane mode on his cell phone when the messages and missed calls just hit him. He suddenly felt dizzy and seemed to almost faint. Pyry looks at him with concern. At that moment, his cell phone rings again, his mother is calling.

"Pierre, you need to come to the hospital right now. We're already on our way to the delivery room."

In the background he hears you groaning in pain and he felt sick. He felt bad not to be by your side, „We're on our way, maman!"

Within 15 minutes, Pyry and Pierre made it to the clinic. Pyry was waiting with your fathers outside the delivery room in the waiting area. Pierre greeted his father and yours only fleetingly. He was way too excited and just wanted to be with you. Once in the delivery room, he replaced both of your mothers. You had been given an epidural by now and were able to relax a little. You barely had any pain now and felt a little drunk.

"Hello, mon amour." greets Pierre with a longing kiss, "You look fabulous!".

"Liar." you say exhaustedly, smiling at him. He then introduced himself to the midwife. The painkillers make you relax more and more, as well as your muscles. Pierre tells you about his race weekend in Bahrain and the distraction helped the progress of the birth immensely, because within an hour you were already at 9cm.

The midwife prepared both of you, especially Pierre, for the upcoming birth and then it went very quickly. The effect of the epidural wore off and the contractions began. Pierre sat with you at the head of the bed the whole time, held your hand even when you almost crushed it and stroked your hair again and again with the other one. Together you do the breathing exercises and Pierre praises you at every contraction how great you are doing it and that you are almost done. And then there was the final push.

"Congratulations to a beautiful baby girl."

The midwife puts your daughter on your chest and puts a towel over her. She was so small and still all scrunched. Tears of joy lie down your cheeks. There was no better feeling than finally seeing her now and being able to hold her.

"I need the proud dad for once."

Pierre was in a trance, he couldn't take his eyes off his little miracle.

"Papa Pierre, your type is required." You brought him out of his daydream.

The midwife held a pair of scissors out to him to cut the umbilical cord. He felt a little queasy about it, but he didn't want to miss out on this either. He quickly cut it and then turned his attention back to his 2 favorite women in the world. Quickly he made a few photos. He couldn't believe it, finally he was a father and that to the most beautiful girl he had ever seen.

The midwife pulls you out of your family dream, "It's time for the first check up. Dad, please come with me!"

A bit unsettled, Pierre walked after the midwife that hold your daughter. He watches the check up very closely. She was weighed, measured and examined for visual characteristics. Pierre was allowed to help with the washing. After that, she showed him how to put on the diaper and how to dress her. Your baby girl did not cry very loud and in Pierre's arms she calmed down immediately.

This sight was the most beautiful thing you have ever seen: Pierre's enamored look at his and your daughter burned into your mind forever.

With a blissful smile, he comes back to you. You make a little room for him so that the two of you can sit next to each other in bed. Exhausted, you rest your head against his shoulder.

"She's so beautiful."

"She looks just like you." you smile, thinking back to Pierre's baby photos that his mother had shown you over and over since announcing the pregnancy.

"The firstborn daughter is always a reflection of her father. Both in character and appearance." smirks the midwife, who is now taking more photos of you.

"Great.." Pierre murmurs and you laugh heartily and full of love, "That’s gonna be fun."

"What's her name supposed to be?" asks the midwife, she was filling out all the paperwork for the birth certificate.

"Antonia." Pierre smiles and your little girl clutches his index finger with her tiny hand, "Our little Toni.".

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