Are you actually relaxing or are you just shutting down and dissociating?

how do i tell someone that it's not that i don't like them or don't wanna talk to them it's just that im at war with my mind and im keeping my heart from divorcing me and im disconnected from reality and silently digging a grave for myself and trying to keep sane at the same time

While learning past, present and future tenses did you ever thought all the phases will actually be that tensed??

My March summary and Life lessons

Hello Everyone.

For me, March started with a shock with Grandpa having a heart attack and being admitted to ICU for the first time. It took a toll on my mental health especially and I almost went into depression. Days continued and his wealth fluctuated like waves. I started being paranoid about his health and couldn't sleep at night and kept checking on him. I also had mini episodes of anxiety attacks. Then someone decided to "expose me" which fortunately didn't go according to her plans. I still continued looking out for everyone and ignored my mental and physical health for him. But recently a new family drama broke out and I was considered the villain because I refused to agree with my aunt and grandpa and confronted them when they were speaking ill of us despite us doing everything for them (they called me and my family thieves and it was basically about my aunt spending money for her father's treatment).

I am dumbfounded and shocked at the same time looking at their behaviors towards me.

But despite everything I still believe in doing good and I will continue to believe in good. The major lesson learned here is to Never ignore your own mental health and the physical health for anyone. NEVER!!!! I did and I learned my lesson very hard away. Now I will just focus on myself and my family(mum, paa, and my sibling) because they stood for me every time and kept me intact. Even though Life is not every time all goodies, I will keep believing that whatever happens- happens for a reason and that I am protected. They won't be successful in making me a bitter person. I won't let them. Whatever they did, Karma will get back to them and I am very sure of it. That's why I am keeping my side of the street clean. I will continue being the same person I was but with more life lessons learned along the way. Although still I can't get that incident out of my head I am trying to sit with with and acknowledge it. It shall pass too. Whenever I think about them I start to feel nauseous and this is my sign to not pay attention to them anymore. They are not worth my time and energy anymore, no one who hurts me and my family is.

Make yourself a priority always and don't try to control what cannot be controlled. I did and failed miserably (lol).

*I wrote this all as an example to you guys to be cautious of where you are spending your energy. I consider you all my online family. Don't let anyone make you feel that you are a bad person based on their perceptions of you.

Talk to someone and let everything out. , I am blessed to have such people here and from my friend circle who helped me with their positive words. I decided to be vulnerable and reach out for help and trust me it is one of the best decisions that I have ever made. I hope this is the beginning of something new and exciting. I am leaving everything that happened with me in the past, just taking the lessons from it. I will still consider them family but they lost my respect because my personal boundaries were crossed and I take my personal boundaries very seriously. I won't let anyone cross it again.

Shout out to @misericordieux especially for listening to me and giving me strength to go through all of this.

Thank you and Love, Infinity 🧿🫶🏼

me when I violate the inconsequential rule I made in my head 2 weeks ago that has absolutely no meaning and little consequence in real life

If you don't want me just say,

If you don't want to touch me just say,

If I'm not what you want just say,

If you've found someone better just say,

Please just tell me you don't want me anymore stop letting me think I could get that back...

-how’s life going?

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me when the Seasonal Affective Disorder: Anxiety Edition comes Express Shipped in the early Spring right on a beautiful day (socially and functionally crippled, leaving me thinking it's all my fault)

You don't have to worry about me, I've got that part covered

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