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MISUNDERSTANDING 1
Ok I have procrastinated enough for these two days so let's start with the fic. This is a Tokyo revengers fic with my favorite guy being the main guy. Yep Mikey!!!! But there would be some of the others as well so no fear.
"Welcome to the sano home old friend!" Grandpa sano greeted his friend at the front of the property. "When did you come back to Japan my friend?"
"Just yesterday I would like to introduce my new grand child. This is name, Melody and I adopted them back in home country." Your grand father said proudly patting down the stray c/hairs on your head.
"You just need to adopt the world don't you?" Grandpa sano said in reply.
"Ofcourse I spoke of it too often for you to ever forget. Speaking of which do you remember that promise we made to each other of having our grand children married to each other well that's why I brought this one."
"Ah yes it is about time to arrange that marriage isn't it. Come come I will introduce you all in the dojo." The old man said moving as though he was still in his thirties not even hunched over. He still had the spring in his step from his youth. Leading you both to dojo he ended the class that was currently happening. Dismissing the children only two young boys around the same age and a young girl remained along with a young man clearly in his early 20's.
"Why'd you end class early old man?" The young teenage brunette boy spoke up like he was pissed.
"Because I needed to introduce Manjiro to someone very important."
"Me to someone" he scanned the newcomers in the dojo and his cold grey eyes landed on you. He tilted his head and just continues staring at you. It made you uneasy not being able to read his expression or why he didn't say anything. "You're the one my old man wants Me to get married to aren't you. Then let's do it. My name is manjiro sano you can call me Mikey or any nickname you want to call me. I'm your husband now." He bluntly said putting his hand out to you. Making everyone around him shocked. Some even dropped dramatically on the floor.
"I'm l/name f/name 14." Taking his hand in yours you both shook hands. And that is how you became manjiro sano' s fiance.
Approximately two years have passed since then. You had gotten closer to Mikey and his friends during that time he had already formed toman and was living the dream of a biker gang who would stand together for each other. You had gotten closer to shinichiro his older brother and Emma the baby sister. Mikey said he didn't mind you were one year older than him and he would still continue being yours if you would continue being his. You both had your engagement party and you even met hanagaki takemitchy one of mikey's bestest friends. Everything was amazing not saying it was perfect but like every relationship shinichiro had to like the father to council you both.
Now you had two best guy friends that Mikey knows about. You had met in school and since then have been really close to them. Mikey had no problems with it he even encouraged you to hang out more together with them. He was happy once you were at his side when he needed you.
At this point a new year had passed. Baji San almost died Halloween night and Draken even got stabbed during a festival night. Even pah almost got arrested for some stupid reason. Mikey and hanagaki stopped it all almost like they knew what, where and why everything was going to happen. Even for Christmas night the vice commander of second division had a bloody night with a sibling quarrel. But quick on the draw Mikey and the others succeeded. It was a random day where Mikey and hanagaki wanted a pic with the commanders of toman and you standing at mikey's side. Hanagaki ran towards the group almost falling when the flash sprung and the pic was taken, everyone laughing and enjoying themselves as you all readied to leave the warehouse. Mikey's hand not leaving your waist as he was gently guiding you to the exit.
"Oh mitsuya kun can I talk to you alone?" Mikey froze you never want to talk to his team members alone.
"Uh yeah sure princess what is it that you need?" The others just as shocked by this looking between you and Mikey and mitsuyua.
"Jiro this will only take a few minutes do you mind if I meet you home?"
"Uh! NO it's no problem love" he said slowly dropping his hand from your waist. "See you home" he said pecking a kiss to your cheek. He was still lost in thought while he was walking out with the others. He noticed your friends waiting for you outside the warehouse. They had their back packs strapped on and it looked like they had your backpack as well.
"Oh sano San is name Chan still inside?" Bf#1 said.
"Yeah they are talking to someone at the moment. I'll take their back pack if that's what you are here for."
"No!" Bf#2 says hugging the backpack closer.
"They are probably going to tell him. Um we will go meet them and give them the backpack thanks anyways" they both said running towards the previous group came from.
"That's weird. Why didn't they want to give you name Chan's back pack." Draken asked quietly.
"Want me to go beat the info out them" baji san said cracking his knuckles
"BAJI SAN!" chifuyu and hanagaki warned.
"Let's go I'm hungry" Mikey said walking away hands behind his head as carefree as can be. Everyone followed him to a cafe and they ate. Mitsuya showed up some time after as everyone questioned him he just said don't worry about it that it wasn't important at all.
Sometime later everyone decided to go their separate ways. Mikey came home and took his shoes off at the door way.
"I'm home" he announced
"Welcome home!" It was Emma not his name Chan.
"What's for dinner?" He questioned
"Shin -nii got some fish so fish it is" she announced.
"Can't wait where is name Chan."
"Your room on the phone with their grandpa" he walked as quietly as he could to his room arriving to his door hearing your muffled voice. It sounded like you were crying.
"Papa please I'm begging you I need you and our family for this. I can't do this alone anymore" he slid the door slightly causing you to jump and rub the tears from your eyes quickly. "Look I gotta go papa talk to you later" the door slid completely open.
"I'm home" he said almost robotical out of habit.
"Welcome home" you say opening your arms expecting him to drop down on you with his full weight but he didn't. He just walked to the bathroom and closed the door. Dropping your arms you didn't understand what was happening.
To be continued.
That is if you would like it to
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karasuno and nekoma scenario + headcanons for ftm reader
pronouns: he/him
warnings: dead naming, slight harassment and tranphobic comments like using the wrong pronouns.
a/n: this was a request from @mi-ts i hope you enjoy this and this is what you're looking for :) i added in some headcanons of my own as well. pls tell me if i said anything offensive in there by accident, i was also super tired when i wrote this so pls excuse me for any mistakes :'D
karasuno:
i feel like the entire team is pretty supportive and definitely not transphobic
the only person that i could possibly think of that doesn't understand transitioning would be tanaka but even then he'll still support you in whatever decision you make
let's start off with the first years
hinata and kageyama definitely uses correct pronouns though i feel like kageyama might forget sometimes but he'll just use they instead
tsuki doesn't care much and i don't think he cares a lot about anything other than maybe yamaguchi
yamaguchi would be really sweet about it, correct pronouns 100%, no mistakes or mess ups. he'll probably pay more attention to you and help you with whatever you need
kinoshita and narita are both super supportive people so they wouldn't care that much but they would definitely use right pronouns and all that
ennoshita is kind of the leader of the group right? i feel like he would advocate your pronouns only if ur comfortable with it though
alright third years
suga.
supportive supportive supportive super supportive
makes sure your absolutely 120% comfortable with your surroundings and if there are people bothering you he's not scared to get asahi and daichi to square up with them
daichi is pretty lowk about it. respectful of course. always tries to help you with suga but doesn't end up helping a lot but that's ok
lastly asahi would be…
pretty nervous about making sure he doesn't use the wrong pronouns or make you uncomfortable
like overly cautious but you find it funny and adorable
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"yo y/n! what took you so long? practice started 10min ago." tanaka shouted from across the gym.
"sorry…i got caught up with something." you replied with a sad tone in your voice.
the team immediately noticed something wrong. you were usually a pretty cheerful person and sulking like that didn't seem right to them.
"woah woah, you good man?" noya said while tapping you shoulder.
"yah i'm fine guys, thanks." you lied.
"even a dumbass like hinata and king over there would know you're not fine, what's wrong." said tsuki.
"hey we heard that! but seriously y/n-kun, is everything ok?" hinata said while walking over with kageyama.
"it's nothing much really… some second years called me uhh… "baby girl" today and asked me if i had anything to do after school. they wouldn't let me go either even after i told them i had somewhere else to be…. and the fact that i'm not a girl anymore."
"they fucking what now?" suga said with an incredibly hostile smile on his face.
"do you know their names?" daichi asked.
"yah its f/n l/n and f/n and l/n…"
"those two sons of bitches??" tanaka and noya screamed in unison.
"yah do you guys know them or something?"
"they're in the class beside ours, we don't know much about them except that they're annoying as fuck. they've been making girls uncomfortable all year long." noya replied.
"oh… they must've thought i was a girl since i didn't wear a… y'know."
"that's still no reason to do that to you y/n. first of all you weren't comfortable with them flirting with you, second of all you also told them that you're a guy and they still called you that." asahi said
"yah that's true." daichi said with the rest of the team nodding their heads in agreement.
"don't worry y/n, we all know it's not your fault the binders don't work. no matter what you wear or how you look, the team will always see you as who you want to be!" suga said with a bright smile on his face this time.
a smile appeared on your face with warm thoughts entering your mind. knowing you have friends that care about you this much is truly a blessing you don't want to lose.
"on a side note, suga and i know those 2 as well. in fact we know their homeroom teacher too, i'll go report to their teacher tomorrow. he loved suga and i, we were his best students."
a small giggle came out of you and so did some happy tears.
"thanks guys! it really means a lot." you said to all of your friends.
the rest of the practice was filled with joy and laughter. a few days later you received a handwritten apology from the two assholes you were talking about.
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nekoma:
same as karasuno i'm almost 100% sure none of them are transphobic and they would all be supportive. same case of tanaka with yamamoto though if anything
after you came out kuroo just gave you his signature smirk and a big thumbs up and continued to do his chemistry.
kai.
omg don't even get me started
he is SO supportive and just the nicest person possible
he's not aggressively supportive like suga but he's literally just always there for you. before you even realize you need something he already has it.
water, food, whatever it is.
yaku (personal nekoma fav), super chill about it
"oh cool, just let me go tell lev so he doesn't mess up your pronouns."
"lev for the last fucking time it's y/n and he/him it's not that hard to remember."
bonks lev everytime he messes up but he eventually got it
fukunaga just goes:
":3 👍"
so precious, never messes up your pronouns and names
kenma definitely doesn't mess up, remembers it well and i think he would just be like:
"cool, make sure you let the team know. especially lev…"
yamamoto would maybe mess up but he's trying his best
inuoka and shibayama:
i love these 2 so much btw^
inuoka would be excited cuz this is the first time someone ever came out as trans to them.
shibayama is just beside inuoka also being excited and nodding his head agreeing with everything he says
in conclusion these 2 are baby
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"hey guys what's up!"
"ah y/ns here." kai said with s bright smile on his face, greeting you to practice.
"yo! what's up we're just getting started can you help me set up the net?" yaku said while waving over to you.
"yah i'm on my way give me a sec."
"kenma go help yaku-san get off your game." kuroo said while poking at kenma.
"give me a sec. I'm almost finished."
inuoka and shibayama were on the side listening to yamamoto talk about something. you and shōhei rushed over to help yaku with the net.
"there, all done. thanks guys. kuroo let's start practice." yaku yelled
"yah everyone get ready-"
just as kuroo said that, two boys entered the gym. they didn't look like they were up to anything good so kuroo stepped up and asked them what they're here for.
"how can i help you two?"
"we're just here to find d/n, oh there she is. hey~ you haven't answered our question yet, you free this weekend sweetheart?" one of the boys said as he attempted to move closer to you.
kuroo lost his shit immediately and pushed them away from you.
"first of all his name is y/n, second of all it's he. lastly if you don't have anything else to say, please leave, our practice is about to start."
"chill captain~ we just wanted to talk to this beautiful lady over here."
"for the last fucking time you bastards it's-" yaku cut off kuroo before he could finish.
"leave it to me. you, tall one on the left, f/n l/n from c/n right?" yaku asked.
“y-yah why?”
“your chemistry mark, 53% and you didn’t pass the test you took on thursday.”
“w-what ??! i don’t even know my mark yet how do you-”
“and you, the stick on the right, f/n l/n. you’re even worse, 49% as your total and your test? i’d embarrassed for you.”
“what the fuck?? w-who are you?!”
“yaku morisuke, 3rd year. the assistant for your chemistry teacher. now if you don’t want your marks leaked to the entire school i suggest you leave y/n here alone and get out.”
“tch yeah whatever !” the 2 boys said as they scurried away.
“yaku-san!! that was so cool!!” everyone said.
“don’t worry about it! it’s what y/n deserves” he said with a huge thumbs up.
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NSFW Alphabet || Oscar Diaz
Gif credit to @merakiaes 🦋
A/N: Decided to try something different. Saw a few of these alphabet list and thought why not? Let me know what you think! Feel free to send requests!
A: Aftermath
Depends on how worn out you guys are after sex but Oscar always makes sure to clean you up before pulling you close and either passing out or lighting a cigarette and talking quietly.
B: Body Part
An ass man definitely. He loves gripping you ass when he’s kissing you and always stops whatever he’s doing to watch as you walk pass him and can’t help but slap it just to watch your ass jiggle.
C: Cum
Oscar prefers to cum inside you, he likes watching as his cum drips out of you and down your thighs but mostly he just can’t bring himself to pull out especially when he feels you tightening around him.
D: Dirty Secret
He’s never admitted it but Oscar secretly loves when you decide to take control. For the most part he likes being in control in the bedroom but there is just something that turns him on when you climb on top of him and take over. It drives him crazy when you slowly grind against him and push his hands away, letting him know your’e controlling the pace tonight.
E: Experience
Oscar is pretty experienced, he’s had more than his fair share of the hynas; something you don’t like to think about, but on the plus side he really knows what he’s doing when it comes to sex.
F: Favorite Position
Oscar loves to hit it from the back, he likes seeing you on all fours and being able to grip your hips as he pounds into you, watching you ass jiggle with every thrust.
G: Goofy
You guys tend to be more serious in bed, but there are a few times where the two of you can’t help but giggle and smile at each other, especially during those early times when you were still learning each others bodies.
H: Hair
Oscar takes care to groom himself. He doesn’t shave completely but makes sure that he is always trimmed down.
I: Intimacy
Eye contact is a big thing for him, something about your eyes staring into his really does it for him. He’s always saying “ Mira mi Mami” or “look me in the eyes baby” forcing your gaze back to his. He also loves skin to skin contact, he loves it when your chests are pressed against each other so he can feel your heart racing against his.
J: Jerk Off
Oscar doesn’t have much of a need to jerk off much anymore now that the two of you are together but there are still sometimes when you aren’t around and he finds himself wishing you were there. So he pulls out the pictures you had sent him and rubs one out imagining your hands on him.
K: Kink
Daddy kink for sure. He loves hearing you call him Papi whenever you need him for something and behind closed doors when you get fed up with his teasing, look him in the eyes and say “fuck me Daddy” it drives him insane.
L: Location
Two words: Car Sex. Oscar just can’t help but want to fuck you any time he glances over at you sitting in the passenger seat. So on more than one occasion he has pulled over to a secluded area and either let you climb onto his lap or laid you back and fucked you into the seat, leaving a mess of fluids under you.
M: Motivation
You don’t have to do much to motivate Oscar, just looking at you turns him on and has him read to take you wherever.
N: No
Threesomes, Oscar is selfish and likes to make sure all of your attention is on him. He likes to know he’s the one that is making you fall apart under his touch and hates the idea of anyone else touching you.
O: Oral
Oscar wasn’t one to go down on a girl until he met you. He discovered he loved the power he had over your body and the sounds you make when his face is between your legs.
P: Pace
This depends on the occasion. Sometimes Oscar is just pounding into you. Fast and hard, slapping your ass so har you know it’ll leave a mark in the morning. Other times he takes his time with you sliding in and out at an excruciatingly slow pace.
Q: Quickie
Oscar prefers to take is time with you, tease you and watch you squirm under him, but that doesn’t mean he doesn’t enjoy a quick fuck every now and then if only to tide him over until he can spend more time alone with you.
R: Risk
Oscar doesn’t mind taking risks, to an extent (he does have 2 strikes after all and wouldn’t want to risk anything to serious), but that doesn’t mean he won’t hesitate bending you over the kitchen table or fucking you on the couch even though anyone could walk in at anytime and also there’s the whole car sex thing.
S: Stamina
Oscar has pretty good stamina, keeping things going into the early morning sometimes. He would need his rest, of course, as would you.
T: Toy
No, Oscar doesn’t see the point of toys when he can make you cum on his own.
U: Unfair
Oscar loves to tease you. He’ll leave a trail of kisses from your neck down to the band of your panties. Running his hands up your inner thighs, he teases his way around you heat, kissing anywhere except where you need his mouth the most until you’re a squirming mess, begging him to touch you and trying to guide his face to your core.
V: Volume
There’s no need to be too loud but he loves the way his name falls from your lips as he’s fucking you and encourages your moans “don’t hold back on me now Mamita” whenever he notices you biting your lip to keep from making a sound.
W: Wild Card
With everything in his life so serious, you are the exception, his wild card. You keep him on his toes and drag him off on some adventure every now and then to remind him there is more to life than the gang, more than Freeridge. From the crazy good sex to the small domestic gestures you make his life better and he knows he’s found a match in you.
X: X Ray
Oscar is packing, he’s long and thick and knows how to work with it.
Y: Yearning
Oscar constantly finds his mind drifting to thoughts of you, remembering the feel of your body under his, your hands in his , your lips against his and instantly feels a need for you to be around him.
Z: Zzz
Depends on how worn out the two of you are afterwards. Sometimes both of you pass out almost immediately and other times Oscar lays with his arm around you pulling you close as he listens to your soft breathing and watches you sleep until he falls asleep and other times still the two of you lay awake smoking and talking, tangled in each-other’s arms.
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30 Questions Tag Game
Tagged by @moon-write whom I love
name/nickname: B, Bren, Bdawg, Mi Reina (or at least that’s what my phone calls me lol)
star sign: virgo
height: 5′6 (also @moon-write I snorted at your “on a good day” comment here lol)
birthday: september
favorite band: bts (I mean, I would hope so if I’m running this blog lol), Sleeping at Last (been in love with them for so long, pls go listen to them they’re so underrated), Little Mix, TXT, AJR, Lady A, Stray Kids, Shinee, Blackpink, Itzy, MAMAMOO STAN QUEENS YA’LL, Monsta X, Lany, and lots more
time: 8:01 pm
favorite solo artist: HAHA ok, IU, Taylor Swift, CAMILO I LOVE THAT MAN, NF, Quinn XCII, Jon McLaughlin, RM, Agust D, Baekyun, Ben Platt, Ed Sheeran, Leslie Odom Jr., MAX, Neil Diamond, Nat King Cole, j-hope, Evaluna, Beyoncé, Jeremy Zucker, Chelsea Cutler, Kelsea Ballerini, and so many others that I can’t even think straight
song stuck in your head: mad at me by Quinn XCII
last movie you watched: Dan in Real Life
free space!: I’M SO EXCITED FOR THIS NEXT CHAPTER OF HTSS I CAN’T CONTAIN IT AND I LOVE YOU GUYS AND LITERALLY CANNOT STRESS ENOUGH HOW MUCH I LOVE HEARING FROM YOU SO THANK YOU FOR REACHING OUT EVEN IF IT’S JUST TO SCREAM
last show: the bachelorette (I’M DEVASTATED OVER ANDREW S. DON’T TALK TO ME)
when i created this blog: October 2020! I still mentally visit that first month in my head all the time, I loved getting on here and not knowing literally anything lol. can’t believe how much has happened since then!!
what i post: bts fanfics for daysssss and lot’s of things shoving my love for you down your throat and begging for attention lol
last thing i googled: "flowering cactus plants”
other blogs: @seokjinsbookclub is my fic rec blog!
do i get asks?: ohh I do and I love them haha. you guys are so sweet and hilarious and never fail to make me smile! also I appreciate when you’re vulnerable with me!
why i chose my url?: simple. have you ever heard Kim Seokjin try to pronounce “alpaca parka”?? adorable and hilarious. also added the “seok” at the end as homage to both Seokjin and Hoseok, who is my bias wrecker! (and Namjoon just pouts in the corner and ignores me when I tell him that I literally wrote my first fanfic about him lolll)
following: 70+ I think. I need to follow more but I always forget
followers: ok idk how this keeps happening but ya’ll have starting following me so fast and it’s wild, and I’m about to hit 1000 and I didn’t think that’d happen so quickly, so the thought of hitting 1k before my year mark is baffling and humbling and I just wanna say thank you guys. I love you.
average hours of sleep: usually 6-8 but last week was about 4 woooo
lucky number: 22!!
what am i wearing?: workout joggers and a pale pink top! so comfy haha
dream job: writing!! I’m so happy that I get to do it as much as I do, it’s the best thing ever and I wouldn’t change it for the world.
favorite food: ok there’s this Pacific Islander restaurant where I live and they have a sweet pork rice bowl with steamed veggies and a jalapeño ranch dressing and IT’S STRAIGHT FROM THE HEAVENS I KID YOU NOT AND NOW I HAVE CRAVINGS. also tuna casserole. I love tuna so much. oh and peaches. I love peaches. and avocado toast.
tea or coffee: neither!
nationality: American
favorite song: *nervous chuckling* this is horrible to have to pick just one. how about top 3?? I’d say “Inner Child” by our lovely Tae, “Eight″ by Sleeping at Last (very near and dear to me since that’s my enneagram number, and for some reason this song is so special to me because it immediately takes me to a peaceful spot, but “The Lake” by Galantis and Wrabel. also outro: tear, Let Go, Awake, Follow You by Jon Mclaughlin, and dis-ease and so many more
last book i read: “The Silent Patient” by Alex Michaelides (strongly recommend!!) and currently finishing up “We Were the Lucky Ones” by Georgia Hunter
top three fictional universes i would like to live in: HP BBY, Throne of Glass!! and Goblin (the k-drama) as long as I get to either date the reaper or the goblin lol
this was fun! tagging @dreamcatcherjiah @ahundredtimesover @delacyrose224 @sierra-fics and @minsyubradio and whoever else wants to do this!
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Hanta Sero Fluff Alphabet
A = Attractive (What do they find attractive about the other?)
Everything. He loves your determination, curves, looks, and personality all in all. This boi is a SIMP
B = Baby (Do they want a family? Why/Why not?)
He wants one for sure, because he loves kids...but he believes now definitely isn’t the right time. You did just have your 16th birthday...but he won’t mind trying!
C = Cuddle (How do they cuddle?)
he loves to spoon, not mattering which one he is. He doesn’t admit it in ront of his friends tho, they’ll gladly make fun of him.
D = Dates (What are dates with them like?)
A skateboarding date would be his favorite for sure. I just feel like this man would love holding hands while you both skate to the dorms.
E = Everything (You are my ____ (e.g. my life, my world…))
You and his friends are his everything. No cap. Oh and the kitten you guys snuck in the dorms.
F = Feelings (When did they know they were in love?)
When he first saw you, looking confused where 1-A was.
G = Gentle (Are they gentle? If so, how?)
Yes. He will be the softest boi when you’re around. ie hugging, cuddling, movie dates,, etc.
H = Hands (How do they like to hold hands?)
He knows you’d rather intertwine your fingers, but sometimes he does the pinky chain, (like when u guys r skating,) lets go to scare you, then holds on for dear life.
I = Impression (What was their first impression?)
When he met you, he fell because his shoelaces came undone. You laughed a little, then got worried when y=he didn’t get up so you helped him. You thought it was cute, but he was red.
J = Jealousy (Do they get jealous?)
Yeah, but not very easily. He’ll only get jealous when someone like Mineta is flirting with you and you SEEM to be enjoying it. In reality, you just don’t know how to get him to back off.
K = Kiss (How do they kiss? Who initiated the first kiss?)
He initiated the first kiss, and you two always kiss like it’s the beginning of a makeout session. Otherwise, you always kiss each other on the face/nose.
L = Love (Who says ‘I love you’ first?)
You said it first, but you said it a millisecond before him.
M = Memory (What’s their favorite memory together?)
When you went on your first date was the best.
N = Nickel (Do they spoil? Do they buy the person they love everything?)
He will definitely spoil you, but only if you want him to.
O = Orange (What color reminds them of their other half?)
You know the white on his hero costume? That’s there because you like the color white.
P = Pet names (What pet names do they use?)
Senorita, Mi alma, Mi amor, spanish stuff
Q = Quaint (What is their favorite non-modern thing?)
If he had to choose, he’d choose baking dates or crafts.
R = Rainy Day (What do they like to do on a rainy day?)
Cuddle, dance to spanish music, bake, anything you wanna do.
S = Sad (How do they cheer themselves/others up?)
He cheers himself up by facetiming you, but that’s when you’re intern patrolling. He cheers you up by making your favorite food, visiting his parents, (yours don’t like him, his love you,) and whispering sweet nothings to you.
T = Talking (What do they like to talk about?)
The future. Like having kids, walking when you’re married with him, that kind of stuff.
U = Unencumbered (What helps them relax?)
When you’re asleep and lean his head on his chest to listen to his heartbeat. Or when you braid his hair.
V = Vaunt (What do they like to show off? What are they proud of?)
He shows you off to all of 1-B, mainly Monoma bc you two were a thing in middle school.
W = Wedding (When, how, where do they propose?)
He would make it in a park, the one you two had your first date in. You always sat on a certain bench and when you’re on your phone, he’ll get on one knee.
X = Xylophone (What’s their song?)
Senorita or Despacito.
Y = Yes (Do they ever think of getting married/proposing?)
All the time.
Z = Zebra (If they wanted a pet, what would they get?)
A cat, as mentioned before.You landed on a Persian and decided to name him Sachi.
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Lying: Richard Camacho
A/N: Hey people. Yes it’s me..I’m back with a good work..I just hope it is. Well this is my entry for @papichriscnco ‘s writing challenge! CONGRATULATIONS Mami!! You deserve it all! So this is my first time experimenting with a Richard work so hope y’all enjoy it! :)
Warnings: Heartbreak, brief mentions of sex or suggestive content.
Words: 16,000 +
Y/N : Your Name
Y/L/N: Your Last Name
Y/BFF/N: Your Best friend’s name.
And I have inserted names for personal convenience. So if my names have offended you in any manner, this is purely unintentional and I’m apologizing well in advance
~ ~ ~: Lyrics wise ending scenario
///: A contrast between before and after sorta thing
- - -: Timeskip
BOLD WORDS: Important words
Bold underlined words: (I can’t underline..) Lyrics of the song used.
Song used: Lying - PrettyMuch ft. Lil Tjay
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Richard and Y/N were one of the best examples to still believe that love was still out there for everyone and it was beautiful to be in love...but that was something that happened once upon a time...A few cheating scandals, daily dosage of unhealthy fights, his unhealthy "overprotective" nature, their decision to remain friends rather than lovers, his inability to maintain a serious relationship...all were the contributing factors to the end of their 10 month relationship..
But they were mature adults and saw the break up as something mutual. So despite the chaos they had in their relationship, they still agreed to remain friends and managed to maintain it.
So random calls in the middle of the night, early mornings or just odd times of the day...weren't anything new to the pair.
They'd just talk like normal acquaintances..like there wasn't anything sour between them..
So it wasn't surprising when Y/N got a call at 3:00 in the morning. She rubbed her eyes softly as she picked up her phone and stared at the bright screen as his name flashed on it.
"Hello?" He says as she grumbles and grunts in response "Oh god..Sorry to call you.." He says clearly embarrassed
"Sort of unexpected at this hour.." Y/N replies
"Well..I thought you'd be sleeping so I was gonna leave a message. But I just wanted to hear if you were doing well...I kind of forgot you weren't in Miami anymore..." Richard comments
"You need to understand that not everyone lives in Miami Richard Camacho.." Y/N grumbles as she lets out a soft yawn
"Okay okay I'm sorry...go back to sleep princesa.. I'll call you up later.." He says
"No..no...its's fine..talk...I'm awake.." Y/N mumbles as she clumsily sits up, her hair strands falling on her face as she messily tucks it behind her ear.
"Ya sure? You sound extremely tired...I can call you some other time.." He says as he looks around
"Nah..It's fine..tell me..how are you doing? All good I hope..." Y/N asks casually as she softly rubs her eyes
"I'm doing well..just counting my blessings and happy about whatever I have achieved in life..well what about you mi amol?" He asks
Despite whatever had happened between the two of you..he still couldn't stop his flirty self throughout the entire "friendship" . The saying old habits die hard would be suitable enough for the situation.
"Yeah I'm doing well too...That's good to know Richard." Y/N replies as she lets out an intentional cough so as to cover up how flustered he still made her.
The duo began talking about things in general..from daily routines to just random topics..the both of them comfortable with each other..as if they were still dating..or didn't end things in a sour note.
"Amazing..so well how's work? Stressful?" Richard asks her
"Well..some days. But somehow..yeah I do get enough sleep..so I'm fine..what about you? Do you drink plenty of water? Are you eating healthy?" Y/N asks, her tone filled with concern
"I'm fine..Are you stressing out before any fashion shows or castings?" He asked as if taunting her
"No! Of course..maybe...okay fine I do...But not..okay you're right! I still do get nervous!" She replies flustered at how much he still remembered about her.
"See I know you so well.." He states
"Yeah..too well..actually.." She replies almost whispers as she lets out a quiet sigh but Richard hears it "I- - I didn't-- I mean- -I'm sorry"
Awkward silence fills in the air..as both of them let out uncomfortable breathes..
"It's - -Don't apologize- -" Richard replies as he pauses for while
"I'll call you later..Take care Hermosa. I..Lo- -" Richard begins as he pauses halfway "I mean..sleep tight..Sweet dreams...Bye.." He says
"Take care Richu- -" She begins as she lets out an intentional cough "Don't work yourself out..Bye.." She says as she hangs up.
This was how most of their conversations ended..one of them would feel old beautiful memories return..but things between them had ended..so feelings had no place in their conversations..
~ ~ ~
Y/N kept on politely turning down all the proposals she had received..she didn't feel right after the breakup..She didn't want to take part in the game of LOVE anymore...well not anytime soon though..She didn't know what was she feeling but to say that feeling played with her head would be an understatement. She found her thoughts drifting over to him. Was he eating well? Was he healthy enough? Was he drinking too much? Was he getting enough sleep? She couldn't help but feel a bit dis hearted when she thought of him with another girl..Well she knew they had broken up but she'd feel..weird and..a bit disappointed..
"Okay babes...that is like the 23rd guy you have rejected these 2 weeks!? Are you okay?!?" Y/BFF/N asks as she sits in one of the seats of the greenroom
"I am absolutely fine..I don't like going around dating and getting laid..You do know that right? And besides I just broke up..So I don't want to rush things..you get what I mean?"
"Yes yes..Of course I do..But are you sure the only reason you aren't getting back into a relationship is because...maybe somewhere deep down inside..you still like Richard?" Y/BFF/N asks as she looks at you
The room fills with uncomfortable silences and awkward tensions as Y/N lets out a sigh
"It is true then...Come on Y/N pick a side! You can't sit here grumbling over your feelings and rejecting people..Either get over him or get under him!" Y/BFF/N states, her tone stern
"Y/BFF/N!!!" Y/N scolds
"I'm just being practical...you're absolutely miserable..Why are you pretending like you're fine? I'm pretty sure he feels the same to..why are you both keeping on this facade..?" Y/BFF/N asked
"That's...just.. highly absurd Y/BFF/N..I don't feel anything for him.. Even if I did..it was all in the past..I don't like him romantically anymore.." Y/N comments as she runs a hand through her hair
"But think about it..you were never the one to get into a relationship with anyone within a nights' time and that too WITHOUT getting laid..You know he's not after you for your looks or your body..he just likes you for the fun, bubbly, cheerful, nervous you!" Y/BFF/N
"That's why were dating Y/BFF/N..I respect his existence and the memories he had given me..but I couldn't deal with his..unattractive overprotective nature..and the rumors, hate, scandals, names and just everything was a bit..too..overwhelming..in a negative manner"
"But..he wasn't worried or wasn't like he didn't trust you..it was just..he just didn't trust people around you..."
"I'm not a five year old kid who's going to talk to a stranger and let him kidnap me.."
"But Y/N- -" Y/BFF/N
"But just think about it..I just have so much time to go out..have sometime for myself..He did me a huge favor honestly..I have so much more time to focus on my work..So in reality..I'm so much better now.." Y/N replies a bit loudly and sternly as if trying to convince herself to believe her own words
"Y/N...I've talked what I had to..Now it's up to you.." Y/BFF/N gets up and walks towards Y/N "I just want you to be happy with your decisions and have no regrets about whatever your doing in life..It's all up to you to take the right decision..okay?" She asks as she quickly squeezes her shoulder in reassurance
"I understand Y/BFF/N..But I am happy...I don't want him to be a part of my life..I have barely focused on myself during the relationship so this is..just more relaxing..." Y/N replies
"Well if you say so..ever wanna talk about something..hit me up! Take care babes.." Y/BFF/N says as she pecks her cheek
"Take care.." Y/N says as Y/BFF/N as walks out
- - -
Y/N went home straight away after the casting..feeling completely wrecked and exhausted. She was grateful she didn't have a morning shift scheduled for tomorrow. She walked into her apartment as she was greeted by her helper who looked after her place,Maria.
"Good Evening Y/L/N" Maria greeted
"Please cut the formality..Y/N will do..Good Evening.." Y/N replies
"You seem exhausted Y/N..I've prepared Y/F/M for you..And also turned on the geyser for your daily bath.."
"I can't thank you enough for all you do..I'm so grateful for all you do Maria.."
"Oh of course..it's my duty after all.."
"It's already pretty late..I suggest you should go home and get some rest.." Y/N comments as she takes out her purse
"Yes I do suppose..will you be fine alone? or do you want me- -"
"I'm perfectly fine..Just need to get some rest..Here take this.." Y/N says as she hands out Maria's wages
"Oh thank you Miss.Y/N..."
"And give these to Allison and Troy..They'd love these!" Y/N says as she hands her a medium sized packet of chocolates and other candies assortments referring to Maria's children
"Oh I can't possibly- -"
"Consider it as a gift..."
"Thank you Miss Y/N...but you've paid me more than what is requi- -"
"Hey come on..keep it..It's for all the extra favors you have done for me without asking for any extra money..Please I insist.." Y/N says as
"If you say so..Goodnight Miss Y/N.." Maria says as she walks towards the door
"Goodnight Maria..give me regards to Allison and Troy.."
"I will..Take care.." Maria says as she walks out off the door
"You too.." Y/N says as she closes the door
Y/N walks into her bedroom as she peels off her clothes and heads inside the bathroom for a hot long relaxing shower in an attempt to drown her worries and stress..
She gets out of the shower in her bathrobe as she gets changed into a comfortable pair of pajamas. After she dries her hair she walks towards her kitchen as she grabs a glass of red wine and her dinner plate in her another hand..heading towards the living room as she turns on the television flipping lazily through the channels..The NoteBook was currently playing in Star Movies HD as she keeps the remote down and begins eating her dinner, savoring her dinner. The movie played on..her stomach tightening with a very uncomfortable feeling as she quickly changes the movie..
It brought back memories..Date nights whenever one of them were tired..or was still hungover a heavy schedule they crashed into one of their places..Just some Netflix, some pasta or some home made sh*ts that would end up burnt, take away food and just cuddling. If she was extremely exhausted and just wanted to rest..he'd give her various massages untying the stressful knots that stayed in her body..while she closed her eyes and merely enjoyed it. Whenever he was stressed, he was more of a ranter...He'd rant and rant on and she'd listen to it carefully while she ran her fingers through his hair calming him down..
She really craved for a body massage right now..not any random person's...just Richard hands all over her patiently untying all the knots all around her body..But he wasn't hers anymore.
Stupid movie. Stupid body ache. Stupid feelings.
She hated everyone..and everything...but still a part of her wished if she could go back in the past and fix..things the way it were...but life never gives you second chances..
~ ~ ~
Needless to say...Y/N's and Richard had a passionate life in the bedroom. It wasn't lust that clouded their eyelids, but just love at its highest peak.
Richard wasn't the softest person on bed, but there were days where things would be slow and smooth..when he'd just worship her body, taking his time observing and appreciated every little curve and marks she thought were imperfect. He'd make her feel..that she was the most perfect girl he had ever laid eyes on.
It was just surprising that despite her flaws and imperfections that covered her skin..he still made her feel so special and...deserving..
Their adventures in the bedroom were spicy, crazy and yet..calm and relaxing..all the while nothing but mere love filling the air.
Her eyes gleamed with nothing but genuine love and affection for the Dominican as nothing but soft groans for him fell off her lips..his eyes mirroring the same emotion as he let out satisfied grunts.
///
After the breakup, nothing really changed...Y/N goes back continuing her daily life...and with her overall charms and looks she doesn't need to even try hard to get laid down...
So she isn't surprised when another male model she had worked alongside had asked her out on a few dates..she agreed readily...just wanting to get over her oblivious messed feelings.
After he had finally confessed his feelings and asked her to be his girlfriend...she agrees. So after a light dinner and a few drinks, things get a bit out of hand...
He's all over her neck, placing kisses all across every part of her skin that wasn't clothed..she giggles like a schoolgirl..visibly enjoying the attention she received. She fumbled with the door handle to her hotel room so the two of them could enter quickly.
He placed his lips onto hers as his hands wrapped around her waist..The kiss was intense...He was so good at this..but no matter how good his lips felt on hers she couldn't help but all her mind lingered back was thoughts about Richard...
Richard's lips felt so good against hers..She was so used to his touch that anyone else apart from him felt so wrong...
Things had gotten ahead a bit too quickly...but the quicker it happened...the faster these messed thoughts would just evaporate from her mind.. or at least that's what she thought.
So now when she was under the guy who was presumably her present boyfriend..she should have been happy and pleased..someone giving her the attention and affection she deserved and desired...
His lips fumbled around her neck as he pinned her onto the bed, his teeth grazes her skin trying to find that spot that'd make her go weak on her knees. but then it comes up again - her brain drawing a rapid and hazy contrast between him and Richard as he makes his mark on her skin...
Richard knew her all her sensitive spots..the spots she'd go weak on her knees...
His hickeys and love bites just felt right against her skin and was filled with nothing but affection..
Sure there were days he was absolutely rough..but that was just a reminder that she was his...and no one else could ever make her feel that way.
Her present boyfriend's love bites was nothing more than just mere lust.
What was she even doing? Thinking about Richard when she was with her boyfriend?
Y/N places her arms on his chest and forces him off her...He gets the message and stops kissing her.
"I think we should take sometime you know? I just - -I'm sorry..." Y/N says as she looks away
"Hey...It's okay...I understand...Yeah we're moving a bit too quickly...Okay we'll take it slow.." He reassures her as he kisses her cheek
"Yeah...I'm sorry again.." Y/N says
"It's totally okay..." He says as he gets up from her bed and straighten the creases in his dress..
"I'll see you tomorrow?" He asks as she nods "We have a photo shoot tomorrow...hope you remember.." He says as he heads towards the door.
"Yes I do...I'll be there on time..." She says as she stands up heading towards the door
"Goodnight take care..." He says as he looks at her
"Good night..." She says as she softly closes the door.
- - -
She laid down on her bed, her eyes fixated at the ceiling. What had just happened?
She knew she had done the right thing for she barely was paying attention or enjoyed what he was doing to her because all that occupied her head was thoughts about how Richard would make her feel...
It wouldn't be fair on him if she thought about Richard whilst he was under someone new..No matter how desperate she was to get rid off her messy feelings...she didn't want to "use" someone as a source to get over her f*cked up feelings...
Oh god..Aiden must have felt so bad..But then again it wasn't fair on him..He would be absolutely disappointed if he came to know the reason behind all this..
She never even thought she'd miss him.. Well she's used to dating wrong people..some ended fine while others didn't..But none took 4 months to recover..Why was she still hurting from that one specific mistake of hers in the past? Was it because she never felt this intimate with anyone else? The fact that she's felt the most comfortable around Richard..among all her exes...she never even realized she honestly missed him and needed his presence in her life..
But why was she feeling this way? They had ended things in a very sour note...And the breakup was mutual..So why did she have to bother about it now? Crying over spilt milk wasn't the solution to anything but yet here she was on her bed, careless tears rolling down her cheeks as she tried to wipe them off
She furiously wiped her tears as she quickly changed into some comfortable pajamas as she laid on her bed, grabbing the spare pillow on her bed.
She didn't feel anything for him..or did she? What was she doing? Pretending to be happy when she felt nothing but pain and guilt? When all she did was lie whenever she talked to Richard assuming he's happier without her and doesn't misses her at all?
She was dying to tell the truth that maybe...deep down inside she wasn't...over him.
Even after all this time..A part of her always cared and still thought about him.
But the thought of him...on top of some OTHER girl...someone else that wasn't her..him treating another the girl right..looking at her like she was the only one he cared about.. making her feel special and deserved..the way he used to make her feel once upon a time? It felt horrible and heavy...almost..mean and selfish at some point?
That sour thought hits her right in her chest..
But still...her thoughts and feelings had no place now..it didn't matter anymore. But if at the end of the day..he was genuinely happy and pleased with his life..He deserved the best and that what she wished for..even if it wasn't her that made him happy..she could live with it...Hat least until she sees him again..
~ ~ ~
Y/N had a private account for all those people she had a closer connection with...Of course it had included her cousin Joel Pimentel and his band mates eventually considering how close they were to her...
Richard didn't bother to un follow her after their breakup...they weren't the type of people who'd delete their exes pictures, un follow each other, cause drama..they both didn't pretend like the other hadn't been a part of their lives...because they had already given each other a lot to remember than to forget...
So Richard stayed updated with her life despite their breakup..He was casually scrolling through his Instagram feed when he finds that she had posted a new picture from her vacations...of her and a man...a man that wasn't him...
She wore a bikini that made all her curves look right and steadied her hat as her man hugs her from behind, his hands safely secured around her waist...the way he used to...
He instantly scrolled through it, focusing his attention towards something else...
Just as he had scrolled down..a number and a name so familiar had chosen to call him...Y/N.
He stared at the screen internally debating on whether he should answer the call or not...all his messy doubts almost disappearing all at once as he answered the call.
"Hello...Richard.. I'm sorry I couldn't answer your call earlier...I was a bit caught up with something.." She says as soon as he answers the call
"Oh...it's okay..How is everything nena?" He asks through the phone though his y
"Yeah everything's fine...What about you? How was recording?? How was that? Did you wear yourself out?" She asks
"Nah..nothing like that...I'm fine..well..you sound cheerful...I'm not complaining though.." Richard comments as he internally sighs
"Oh nothing of that sorta..Just the usual.." Y/N replies, her tone confused
"Just saw your recent post...well it's Aiden right? (Change the name into whatever you want to if you don't like the name )
"Yeah...I had been meaning to talk to you about him..but things were happening quite quick..so.." Y/N trails off
" I genuinely think you look so happy..Congratulations.. I'm hoping he treats you right eh?" Richard says as he tries to keep his tone steady
"Yeah...thanks...." Y/N trails off
Y/N awkwardly shifts the conversation slowly trying to ease the tension in the air...She succeeds in her aim and soon the conversation is shifted elsewhere..
"Yeah and that's what- -" Richard begins
"Shawty...Have you seen my blue t-shirt..I can't seem to find it in here?" A voice from Y/N's line asks
Richard's heart drops immediately as soon as he hears the nickname...
He was the ONLY one who called her that...He wouldn't let ANYONE apart from himself call her that..
And yet here he was..forced to hear the same..But what could he say? She wasn't his girlfriend anymore..he had no rights to comment on her life anymore.
His heart fell as he thought about how much privilege her boyfriend had gotten...calling her the NICKNAME only he used to....the one special nickname he had dedicated to her alone.
"Have you checked inside my closet? You love dumping your clothes inside my closet!!" Y/N yells as she laughs
"Oh...I'm sorry about that Richard.. So what were you-- saying? Richard? Hello? Can you hear me? Your voice sorta keeps breaking off.." Y/N says
Richard felt his voice shaking dangerously... He bit his inner lip as he took in deep breathes.
"I've gotta go..." Richard breathes out, his tone dull
"But Richard..you were say- -" Y/N begins, Richard harshly interrupting her
"The signal here isn't good here...it's breaking..and besides Erick called for me...I gotta go...I'll talk later..." Richard replies coldly as he hangs up the call...
~ ~ ~
That was the last time Richard ever tried to contact her.
He didn't care about her..so why would he even bother and waste his time on someone who barely mattered to him..or at least that's what he thought.
He was fine..living his best life. Enjoying with his friends, going out, partying and the sociable party life he always enjoyed in the past. He had almost lost this part of his life in the entire chaos of being in a relationship.
He seemed so happier without her in her life..he could go back to living life the he was comfortable with. He had no one to impress, no one to commit to or hang onto. Commitment was hard and just..a mere waste of time.
He liked his life the way his life was..without any relationships or responsibilities as such just doing what he enjoyed the most.
So right now he was in a crowded club, the loud party music blaring through both his ears as everyone in the room danced and had the best time of their lives, having no regrets.
He quickly drowned a shot as he rested his chin on his right palm as he stared at his now empty glass...He should be happy right? He finally had gotten back the life he deserved.
But still he felt his heart almost empty holding no emotions and just merely pumping blood..but at the same time he felt a tight sickening feeling capturing his chest. Why was he feeling like this every time his mind thought about her?
He tried to shut his eyes, and relax his manipulated mind for a while. But then he found how Y/N would listen to him whenever he was having a bad day..how she'd run her fingers through his curls a successful attempt to calm him down..how she'd make him feel- -
"Hey..Got a minute Richard?" speaks a voice breaking Richard from his train of thoughts
He looks up to see Zabdiel seated next to him as Richard simply nods, his gaze still fixated on his glass.
"So...hi." Zabdiel trails off trying to begin a conversation
"Hello?" Richard replies a bit confused
"So..umm..do you mind if I'm being honest with you?" Zabdiel asks
"Are you stating you were never honest while you're with me?"
"No- -not like that..It won't be exactly in your favor.."
"I'm fine..tell me.."
"What is honestly wrong with you?" Zabdiel asks as he looks at Richard
"Nothing? Why are you asking me this all of a sudden?"
"Richard please...you and I know that's nothing but an absolute lie..You just look tired and miserable especially after the break up.." Zabdiel states
"You seriously think I'm miserably without her?" Richard scoffs as he questions Zabdiel
"I never implied anything regarding your relationship with her..I just want to ask you..Are you happy? Because you barely look like you've picked a side Richard..Chris also told me you were hardly sleeping..Are you seriously okay?"
"Of course I am..I've been going out..having my best life..I'm just a bit stressed and just..a bit out of place..I'll be fine within a few days..you've got nothing to worry about okay?"
"If you genuinely think you're happy..then I'm all fine. I don't want you to pretend like you aren't satisfied and happy with your decisions.."
"She did me a favor honestly...I'm so much better now.." Richard states as he looks at Zabdiel.
Zabdiel nods as he gets up and walks away giving Richard the space he wanted.
~ ~ ~
Their egos were too big for repairing something small that'd almost be fine with a genuine heartfelt apology...So they ended up losing a friendship too in the entire process..
Between these events..Aiden had to leave off to Paris, as he had been casted for a fashion show out there..And within two weeks of reaching and settling down at Paris..he had dumped her through a simple two minute phone call...
Y/N had let out a few raw, hateful tears but..at the end of the day..she was partially glad. Throughout the entire relationship..she was just nervous and uncomfortable...it wasn't because he was a bad guy or anything..but she hadn't given her best to sustain the relationship. So it was eventually supposed to happen.
Within a week or two she had eventually recovered. But yet again..her thoughts were filled with little memories of Richard...just him alone..
When would she realize that at the end of the day she was just lying to herself?
She wanted him back..she did miss him..she wanted to make amends and at least stay friends. He meant a lot to her..
~ ~ ~
Rumors, Scandals, Hate, Jealousy, Lust, Envy, Pride...and mostly their undesirable stubborn nature had finally caught them up into this mixed state. The stage where all they want is each other but...when all these ugly negative emotions interplay and they let their egos win and dominate them...in all the reality..the both of them lost something they've always wanted to hold onto forever...
They both won all arguments..both their ego at the extreme level..but it was at the cost of their relationship..
Richard wanted her...somehow in his life...How had he let his ego and everything else to enter his life and ruin something he thought would last..long...
Of course he wasn't using his head..he wasn't thinking straight..He should have been wiser...just shouldn't have let his stubbornness and egoism come in between of something that gave him bittersweet memories...mostly sweet but there were bitter times too.
He never believed in "forever and always". Nothing could last forever.. Cash, drinks, people. Everything would run out or everyone would be out of love and time for you...slowly but eventually...
So he stuck to his own ways of coping.. Falling in love with materialistic things..cash, drinks, expensive clothes and cars and everything...
///
It was as if a coincidence had occurred that she learnt that CNCO were performing in Garland, Texas..She was in Texas for a week for a casting she had in Texas so it would be a perfect time to surprise Joel and the others. She managed to buy a ticket to their show in a jiffy and she was all set to go.
She stayed in one of the last rows as she kept herself completely covered as she watched the performance on stage. A few eagle eyed fans had spotted her beyond the disguise and had taken a few quick pictures and just short quick conversations.
5 minutes before the show had ended, she walked towards the backstage room...not trying to cause any drama or draw any attention upon her. She had managed to speak to Ali about her arrival and she managed to pull a few strings and get her a backstage pass. She knocked on the door, Ali greeting her quickly as she went over and hid behind one of the closets. The boys walked in absolutely exhausted as they quickly sat down on the couch to catch their breathes.
"Hey Joel..could you get me a notepad I left inside that cupboard there..I've got something else to do right now..." A voice she recognized as Ali's
"Yeah sure Ali...Give me a minute.." Joel says as he walks towards the closet
3....2....1
"SURPRISE!!!" Y/N yells as Joel opens the closet
Joel's eyes widened as he let out a scared yell, falling backward in the process due to the intensity of her voice and her surprise.
The rest of the boys rushed over to Joel, trying to help him up as Y/N stepped outside and crouched down
"WHAT THE F*CK Y/N?!? " Joel screams as Y/N shuts her ears and shut her eyes
"Okay okay I'm sorry.." Y/N replies as she stands up
"Wow Hermosa!! Y/NN!!!" Chris says as he hugs her, her gratefully returning the gesture
"Hi Chris! I missed you!!" Y/N replies as she misses the hint of surprise and sadness that gleamed Richard's eyes
"Me too!!! It's so nice to see you again Y/N!" Chris says as he lets go off the hug
"Really you decided to show up when you straight away ignored my calls and texts for almost a month?" Joel comments rolling his eyes, standing up as Richard left the scene unnoticed
"I have my reasons Pimentel..This was supposed to be a S-U-R-P-R-I-S-E..." Y/N says as she hugs Zabdiel and Erick quickly
"You were planning this for over a month?" Joel asks
"No..I had..err..some personal stuffs..came in between..and err..yeah.."
"I'll pretend like I believe you" Joel says as he rolls his eyes
"Okay Drama Queen...I'll leave then..It clearly seems like you don't appreciate my presence.."
"No no no...nothing like that..I didn't expect you here.."
"Can we like hug already? I've been standing here with open arms (SorRY NoT sOrRY) for a pretty long time..."
Joel moves forward and hugs her as she hugs him back. After they broke off and she had quick conversations with everyone, and after all that she looks at Joel, a serious look on her face.
"Joel...I need to talk to..Richard.." Y/N breathes out
Joel passes her a look of worry, as the boys look at her and Joel. They look at each other, the awkwardness growing uncomfortable second by second.
"Just please guys..I'm not asking for a relationship with him..just a friendship.." Y/N pleads
The guys nod understandingly as Joel takes her arm and guides her into a room where Richard sat. Before she walks in, Joel holds her wrist as she turns to face him.
"Just..fix him..he's been miserable.." Joel pleads
"I'll see what I can do.." Y/N replies
Y/N knocks a the door as she hears a quick "Come in". Y/N walks in as Richard glances at her as he quickly looks away
"What do you want? Make it quick" Richard comments as he gets a drink for himself
"I wanted to talk to you.."
"Talk..I'll listen.."
"Richard please...stop acting like this.."
"Stop acting? What do you mean by acting like this? You said YOU wanted to talk..I just have nothing to talk to you with..we broke up remember?"
"You said you'd be fine with us being friends..."
"But I realized I wasn't.."
"Just because one random day you called me up and god knows what happened and suddenly your signal breaks huh? Or at least couldn't you have the courtesy to call me up after it got better?"
"I had my reasons..besides it's not practical enough for exes to still be talking"
"All I'm asking is for the friendship we've had together Richard..nothing more..Is it really too much to ask?"
"Yes..yes it is..I don't want you to be a part of my life..us together was just a huge..a huge.. misunderstanding..It wasn't meant to happen.."
Lies...Lies...Lies...He knew he was lying but he couldn't associate with her anymore..because then he'd be disappointed that he wasn't with her.
"I can't believe you'd swoop so low to call our entire RELATIONSHIP a huge mistake! You're still the same Richard...as pathetic as ever.."
It broke him..almost tore him apart..when all he wanted to do was hug onto her and cry..admit he was wrong..admits he wants her back admit he wants them together..admit the reason he never called was because he was just jealous and couldn't stand the thought of anyone calling her shawty apart from him.
"Is that all Y/N? If you're done you could head outside.." Richard replies repressing his inner thoughts and feelings
"Richard...what has happened to you? Why are you acting this way?"
"My heart has had enough..I'm tired of holding it together..my shirt is tired of getting stained with unwanted tears..I wasn't using my brain..I should have know better.." Richard
"Richard...I.." She begins
"This is just me..I'm just stuck in my ways..." Richard pauses as he briefly looks at her "You really posed' a threat to me Y/N...I was dangerously close to fall absolutely in love with you..almost thought you were the one..But you let in petty things like rumors and unnecessary names to come in between us.."
"You were the first and last person I've ever had honest feelings for..Look where it ended us.. especially me up in? Feelings were in the past..so I dashed them up and started to fall in love with cash instead.." Richard spits, venom in his words
"So..you don't want me involved with you anymore? In any possible manner? I was just asking for the friendship we shared.." She asks, as she bites her lips harshly, her heart heavy at his words.
"Isn't that what I said? Or do I have to elaborate on it all over again?" Richard asks, rolling his eyes as his facade spoke clearly what he had wanted as he looked at his drink not bothering to pay any attention to her
"Richard..." She begins again, not wanting to believe him
"I know the truth hurts real bad..that I don't want you in my life anymore..but sometimes it's better than a thousand lies..It's just too late to cry about it..You should have thought about it before.." Richard interrupts her as he sips on his drink
At any other occasion, she would have gotten mad at him for Lying to him but just this once she wished he lied to her instead of..letting her know such a bitter truth.
"If that's what you want..I'll be more than happy to comply..It was nice hearing the truth from your mouth than anyone else's.." Y/N comments as she shoots him a quick grateful smile almost so real that it gets Richard for a split second
"Yes..Glad to see we're here in agreement on something at least Y/L/N..." Richard states as Y/N storms out of the room
The boys look at her as she grabs her bag from the couch as she quickly takes in quick breathes.
"Where are you headed off? I thought you were coming over to the Hotel too.." Joel asks
"I'm a bit busy.. I'm supposed to be back at New York by tomorrow..So I've gotta get going!" Y/N replies as she faces the boys
"How did the conversion go?" Joel asks in a quiet tone
"It wasn't how I expected it to..but I've understood things from his point of view..I only told you guys..I just wanted to talk to him.." Y/N says before she quickly hugs Joel
"So you aren't staying?" Erick asks
"Nope Pretty eyes..I'm sorry..Now give me a hug before I leave" Y/N says as she opens her arms as Erick hugs her
Chris and Zabdiel walk over and hug her after saying their goodbyes. She quickly heads out after she says a quick goodbye to Ali.
She walked outside the backstage room as she walks outside, pulling her hoodie closer and fixing her shades. But she's not quick enough as the paparazzis spot her and within seconds she's blinded by the flashlights and hot fierce questions thrown onto her every split second.
"YOU WERE INSIDE THE BACKSTAGE ROOM WITH THE CNCO BOYS! SO DID YOU RECONCILE WITH RICHARD TOO?!?"
"TELL US..CAN WE CONFIRM YOUR RELATIONSHIP NOW THAT THINGS ARE SORTED?!?"
"DID YOU AND RICHARD TALK THINGS OUT? DID YOU REALIZE YOUR MISTAKE AND AGREED TO MAKE AMENDS?!?"
"IS HE READY TO GIVE UP ON HIS FLIRTY NATURE AND READY TO SETTLE DOWN WITH YOU THIS TIME?!?"
"DO YOU WANT HIM IN YOUR LIFE AFTER ALL THIS OR DO YOU HONESTLY JUST- -" Another pap begins, zoning Y/N off her thoughts as her bodyguards shielded her
She was sick and tired of this..she was frustrated, annoyed, disappointed and almost wanted to cry in fury..
"STOP! STOP! STOP! JUST- -PLEASE! STOP IT!!" She snaps as she effectively shutting the paparazzis that surrounded her.
"I'm tired and sick of these questions...I don't...I just- - I don't understand! The ENTIRE time we were in a relationship..all you were focused was on to break and tear us apart with horrible and the just..b*tchiest rumors..You got what you wanted..WE BROKE UP! And now you want us back together? I don't understand YOUR IRRATIONAL LOGIC! WHAT ARE YOU PROBLEM? Well seemingly any petty little thing..When we were in a relationship you bring up tiny issues, mistakes of the past and create this aura of doubt and confusion within our relationship and when we are not together anymore..you desperately look for hints to analyze if there's any tiny hope we'd get together! WHAT IN THE WORLD DO YOU WANT? YOU TELL ME!?" Y/N snaps out as the flashlights and cameras that had blinded her a few minutes ago suddenly stopped flashing
"Just please- -you have already damaged our relationship...just don't make it worse than it already is..please..I beg you all..I'm just tired..tired of all this drama. We are humans too..I know you're all doing your jobs but just think of it from a perspectives a simple human..Sometimes it would be..just better if you just..stayed out of our personal lives..at least regarding our relationships..." Y/N mutters as she walks towards her car, her bodyguards shielding her in the process
///
A celebration was very well necessary for an awesome success of their performance.
So right now he was in a crowded club, the loud party music blaring through both his ears as everyone in the room danced and had the best time of their lives, having no regrets
He quickly drowned a shot another one right after he finished his drink.
He should be happy...he's got everything he wished for. This partying socializing life is all he dreamt about and he's finally gotten it.
But yet again, here he was having second thoughts about this. Something about this doesn't feel right..he really did enjoy this but..when he realized it costed his relationship with Y/N..it didn't quite feel right..Y/N was amazing..and made others around her feel the same..like they deserved to be happy...
He sat down thinking where his relationship with Y/N would have gone..if he had just fought for the both of them. Relationships were all about making dedicated sacrifices so that in the long run both the partners get what they deserve..a stable relationship with equal amounts of tears and smiles...both of them learning from their mistakes and moving on.
"Richard hi...got a minute?" Joel asks as he sits next to him snapping Richard out of his dream like state of thoughts
"Yeah sure...what's up..?" Richard asks as he passes him a quick smile
"Can I be brutally honest with you and ask you something?"
"Sure..I guess?"
"Are you honestly okay?"
"Yes I am...Why would you ask?"
"Are you sure? You don't seem like you are being honest with your feelings.."
"Why should I lie to you about how I'm feeling when I feel nothing out of the ordinary?"
"You haven't been yourself..after the break up.." Joel says as Richard quickly remembers his conversation he had with Zabdiel a few weeks back.
"Oh so you're trying to patch things up with me and Y/N so that she wouldn't feel all sad and you wouldn't have any sort of bad blood with me.."
"This is exactly what I'm not here for...I'm here as a brother..genuinely concerned about you...So just tell me are you fine?"
"Don't I look fine?"
"Well..honestly no. You look fine on the outside..but the real inner you..the one optimistic, cheerful and genuine you..doesn't seem to appear..you just look like you're existing rather than uhm..living? And that's something you'd never do..As if you're putting on a facade pretending everything is..fine..when you seem..so miserable..in an unexplained manner.."
"I'm better.. I'm fine.I like this life..I can't deal with commitments..it didn't last..I seriously thought I was ready..but I guess I wasn't.. I'm sorry it didn't work out.."
"Hey no worries okay? She's moved on..so I just want you to know I want you to do the same and not..sulk over your feelings."
"Who said anything about me sulking over anything? I HAVE moved on!" Richard replies his tone
"Richard...you're seriously trying to convince me? You can barely check out a girl or kiss her after the break up. Something is seriously wrong with you...maybe you were ready for commitment Richard..think over- -"
"Oh it is on Joel! Watch me!" Richard snaps as he gets off his chair and walks away from Joel
"Richard- -wait! That's not what I - -" Joel begins as he sees Richard walks away.
- - -
Richard quickly scans around the crowd as he sees a brunette female leaning against the wall, some drink in her hand as she sipped on it. She holds his gaze for a while, as he throws her a flirtatious wink as she smirks in response. Richard proudly walked over towards her.
"Hey sexy...Looking fine as hell..the outfit looks amazing..but I bet it'll look better between the crumpled pile on my bedroom floor.."
"Oh...you wanna bet on that hot stuff? But for that first..show me what you've got..." The girl replies as her fingers trail the hem of Richard's shirt as she battles her eyelashes and looks at him.
He took her onto the dance floor and within a few minutes, his arms began to trail all over her body as she lets out soft groans just with his mere touch. She began to grind against him trying to get some momentary relief as he lets out a grunt
And within half an hour of dancing, a few touches, lingering gazes and grinding sessions followed with quick make outs, the girl tugs onto Richard's shirt grabbing his attention
"Let's take this somewhere..private?" The girl purrs innocently as her lips trail down the shell of Richard's ear as she seductively battles her eyelashes.
Richard smirks in response as he holds her hand and heads out of the club after quickly sending a gaze towards the boys who did nothing but groaned in response.
- - -
(My inexperienced smut writing please bear with this.)
Things escalated just within a few minutes and before Richard knew it his hands were roaming freely around her bare body, his lips attached onto her neck as he sucked on her skin.
He pinned her onto the bed as his fingers roamed around her thighs teasing her as his lips and tongue
"Richard..don't- t--tease..P-please.." She whines, gripping onto the sheets
"Hmm..we'll see about that Britney.." Richard replies
He teases and uses her fingers to prep her enough to get her soaked and wet. He doesn't wait for anything as he quickly grabs a condom from the night stand and wraps it around his hard d*ck as he thrusts onto her
"Ah~F*ck! Right there Sir..Yes~ Ah!" Britney moans as Richard lets out small grunts
His pace increases with every thrust.. His eyes became clouded with nothing but lust.
"Ah~ Cheeto! Right there!" Britney whimpers as she lets out a loud moan
Richard grunts quickly..He begins to pick up his pace when his ears register her words.
"What did you call me?" Richard ask, his eyes glinting with surprise instead of lust.
"I'm sorry sir...I didn't- -" She begins as Richard quickens the pace of his thrusts
Soon the both of their orgasms wash over quickly and Richard quickly walks into the bathroom and discards the condom as he quickly steps into the shower and takes a quick shower.
He walks out with his trousers on. The girl quickly wraps herself with a towel as she walks in.
"You can sleep over..I'm not tired." Richard says as he looks at her
"I'll leave early in the morning..thanks for the night.." Britney says as she steps into the bathroom.
Richard nods as he quickly puts a plain white tank top making his way upto the balcony.
He sat down on a chair that laid in his balcony. He gazed at the night sky that was were littered with millions of stars..
He felt disgusted..dirty and guilty. He knew he had only slept with this girl as an attempt to prove Joel wrong and try and get over his feelings for Y/N!
Despite being out of a relationship with her..he still felt like he was cheating on her...He knew they had parted ways but he couldn't help but the feeling of guilty and remorse was over his heart.
What was happening to him? When was he hesitant to hookup with another girl?
And when she called him Cheeto..that was like the final straw..It all made sense.
He still felt something huge and deep for her..and these weren't going to leave him anytime soon.
His heart hurted harder with every little thing he thought about her. The feeling of her under someone new felt wrong and..unfair even though she had all the rights to do whatever she wanted to do..
He was lying when he talked to her that was when he still did..Just lying about being good and fine when deep down inside he was dying and wanted to tell her the truth...he wasn't over her.
~ ~ ~
But that wouldn't stop him from attending her fashion shows along with Joel..Joel needed some company and he joined in...as simple as that..
She had been in the modelling industry for a few years but her overall elegance and charisma had captured the attention of the public and world renowned modelling companies..
She had been casted a lot for other shows under Vogue itself...but being a part of the Milan Fashion Week was her biggest achievement till date.
They couldn't find seats next to each other though. So Richard sat in the middle row, pulling his hoodie closer to his body, fixing his shades and his beanie so that he wouldn't be spotted... because he didn't want to ignite any rumors...
The show began as he watched it peacefully..despite the loud claps and cheers that the crowd inflicted. His ears were used to this..
When it was Y/N's turn..he was more blown away than he could ever admit. His mouth almost fell agape at how attractive she looked..As if the outfit and the runway was just made for her..
He knew how physically attractive she had looked...he could never forget their first encounter..
|FLASHBACK SCENE|
It was a random big party at someone's mansion in Miami. The boys had been invited by a group of their friends..who in turn were invited by..another group of friends.. and the cycle went on..
Richard walked into the party with his regular basic look on. The party went on full swing mode as he casually chatted and interacted with everyone..as he made his way towards the corner where the mini bar filled with all varieties of drinks were served, he saw a girl leaning onto the wooden counter..her eyes scanning the section mysteriously as if figuring out something.
"Need some help there pretty girl?" Richard asks as he sits on the stool next to hers as he looked at her confidently.
She turned her gaze towards him as she squints her eyes at him..Richard raised his eyebrow in confusion as he inspected her face..She quickly pulls her hoodie cap closer to her head..covering her face to a good amount
"So this drill is the absolute same here in Miami?" The girl asks as she turns her body and chair facing towards him, now her entire attention on Richard
"What drill do you mean? I was just tryna' help a pretty girl like you sit here alone and watch her struggle as she tries to find for a drink.."
"Smooth talker..but then again..I've heard the smoothest..But why are you all the same?" She asks hopelessly
"Whacha' mean Princesa?" He asks confused
"I mean the same method of approaching..Offer to buy a drink whilst I'm picking one out, smooth talks and flirty pick up lines, some dancing, a lot more drinks, soft touches and gazes and before you know it..the girl gets laid..Same process, different places..different boys..you guys all over the place are just so... now how do I put it in?..intentional and predictable.." She answers smirking
"Well..okay..ya sorta caught me..but I wasn't planning on getting you laid..Something tells me that I want to try a bit harder to get to know you better.." He states as he looks at her
"I'll pretend like I believe you Cheeto..." She says as she grins
"Cheetos? As in the chips Cheetos?"
"Very well spotted...Your hair absolutely looks like a flaming hot cheeto..." She says as she smiles at him
"I'm going to assume that's a compliment?"
"Oh definitely! I gave you a foodie nickname..so you're already special to me.."
"See we're already making so much progress..Already cute dovey nicknames..And trust me Princesa...My hair isn't the only part that's hot in my body.." Richard replies as he smirks at her
His smirk was just..Sexy...She had just met the guy! How could she- -she quickly shook away her unwanted thoughts...
"Oh god...Look at yourself..aren't you following the same pattern?" She asks ignoring the light tint of pink that flooded her cheeks
"Okay you sorta got me there but...I'm sorry! Force of habit! Natural instinct" Richard replies raising his arms up in surrender
"So what brings you here Princesa?" He asks as he gets her some fruit punch
"You know I'm old enough to drink Cheeto..." She replies as she rolls her eyes playfully
"Let's start with something...lighter... you never know how high parties like these can get.." He says as he hands her the drink
"So.." Richard pauses as he quickly sips on his punch "What brings you here? Like this party? The usual regular..circle of friends relations or..?" He trails off waiting for her to complete him off
"Oh..well one of my friends invited me over..Cause he was invited by his some circle of friends well technically we are somehow...related..he's like my third generation..ya know..family decent and stuffs..and i found out a few months ago that..he was in a band..so yeah we talked over the phone, texted a few..i mean we have seen each other when we were like really little..but then again..I had..or rather have a terrible memory..and why am I telling you all this?" She asks herself
"I don't know..ask yourself that..maybe it's because after all you do want to get to know me.." He replies as he takes a sip of his second punch whilst he removed his hoodie cap
"Ha ha..Very funny..Wait...WAIT...you look so awfully FAMILIAR...Have we met before?"
"Not that I remember of..I would have remembered a beautiful face for sure.."
"You can't even see my face.."
"True..but I had gotten a glimpse of your eyes and your face..Not to offend you are anything but you aren't like like hot stuff sorta girl you get me?"
"Wow...Aren't you the sweetest? Of course..I'm not offended" She asks rolling her eyes slightly offended
"Don't get me wrong..You are absolutely beautiful..pretty figure and really cute features.. labeling you as hot..doesn't seem fair and right..for some reason..at this occasion..And I don't want you to think I'm shallow enough to hit you up because you're just physically attractive" He says softly smiling at her
"So you do agree that you were trying to hit you up.."
"Okay...not intentional..Oh god...Let's drop this.." Richard mumbles
"Oh..okay I guess?" She says as she takes a long sip of her punch
"Let's just..okay..you said your relative was in a band or something right? What music genre band is he from? I know a couple of new bands..and considering you said he was a boy..a boy band..what's the name of the band?" Richard asks shifting the topic
Before she could answer, someone begins talking thereby interrupting her.
"Richard...There you are! Oh come on do you ever give up? Why do you need to hit up every SINGLE girl who's trying to get a DAMN drink?"" A voice speaks as Richard looks at the person
"I'm sorry..I was just talking to...err..Oh I didn't even ask you your name.." Richard says as he shakes his head disapprovingly
"Hello beautiful..now why are you wasting time with some crazy red haired weirdo than spend the night with a young handsome man like myself?" Chris asks as she turns towards the boys that stood in front of her
"For the record Chris...you're the oldest in the band.."Richard comments
"But you gotta admit I'm the best looking dude in the band.."
"Guys make it quick..I told y'all..I needed to meet a relative of mine..I don't want to keep her waiting.." Joel remarks as he enter into the discussion
"Pimentel? Is that you?" She asks as she removes her hoodie cap
"Y/N?!?" Joel asks as he looks at her surprised
Y/N smiles widely as she stands up from her chair quickly and rushes up to him as she pulls Joel into a hug, him mirroring her actions
"I'm confused...how do they know each other?" Erick asks
"Because she's the re- -" Zabdiel asks
"Maybe they've liked each other when they were younger and they've met here..Ah crap! Joel stole my girl...Not fair! I didn't even get a chance to - -"
"Again Chris..Richard found her first..So you can't technically- -" Erick begins
"Bullsh*t! Oh come on..I'm so handsome..why would she like Richard and not me?" Chris asks Erick as he raises his eyebrow
"I'm going to pretend I didn't hear that..and besides I have no time to react to that..But seriously how is Joel related to HER?" Richard asks emphasizing on the her clearly not liking the fact that his best friend was conversing up cozily with a girl he liked.
"Guys..she's the rela- -" Zabdiel begins again
"Maybe they are like..besties but secretly dating?" Erick states interrupting Zabdiel
"Or maybe a one night stand..not something predictable from Joel's side..or - -or maybe an acquaintance from his hometown..I don't know..You know when you see someone from the same place you are..you sorta bond over with them right?" Chris pipes in
"It's because she's his relat- -" Zabdiel begins irritated
"Well whatever...he's just getting a bit too..close to her.." Richard comments as a small frown appears on his face.
"Why do you bother Richard? I thought you never cared enough to know the girl better.." Chris comments
"But...still how are they related? Are they- -" Erick begins finally ticking off Zabdiel
"OH FOR HEAVENSAKE THEY ARE RELATED!" Zabdiel shouts at Richard, Erick and Chris drawing the girl's and Joel's attention too
"Lo Siento.." Zabdiel murmurs as he takes a seat and quickly orders a drink for himself.
"Oh...sorry guys...We got a bit carried away with our conversation...Guys meet Y/N..she's the cousin I was talking about.."
Richard's eyes widened as his mouth slightly fell open..Erick nods continuously, Chris awkwardly nods as Zabdiel just rolled his eyes but flashed her a quick smile.
"And Y/N...These are my best friends..That's Erick, Zabdiel, Christopher and Richard.." Joel says introducing his friends
"Nice to meet you all..I've heard a lot about you all..You guys look better in real life than how you look in the pictures..and you guys sound amazing too.." Y/N comments as she smiles politely at them
"Thank you...means a lot for us...Appreciate the support.." Erick beams as he plants a quick kiss on her cheek, his actions earning a cold eye roll from Richard
Y/N slowly begins conversing with the boys almost instantly connecting with them..Richard on the other hand walked over and tried to get himself wasted for that's all he came here majorly for.
"Oh there you are! I was looking for you." Y/N comments as she passes a smile at him
"Yes...another shot please" Richard murmurs as he gets a drink from the bartender
"Okay Cheetos...why in the world are you ignoring me?"
Richard grunts as he chunks down a few glasses of some drink as he didn't even bother to look at her
"Okay Camacho...I thought we were getting along pretty fine...what's gotten you into a foul mood?"
"I just thought you were busy..bonding over with your 'cousin' and discussing about the stories behind all of Christopher's tattoos..."
"Okay now you're just being mean..so I can't establish healthy relationships with my cousin's band mates? And besides...Chris isn't even like my type.."
Richard's gaze fell on her as a grin decorates his lips
"Then who is your type Mami?"
"That certainly managed to catch your attention huh Camacho?" Y/N asks teasingly
"Well...I was just inquiring...that's..all" Richard replies as he looks at his glass
"Okay..I don't really have a type fixation...I don't know...Maybe like red flaming hair, beautiful lips, good figure and...eyes that scream trouble but in a good way?" Y/N states
Richard lets out a shy grin as he tried to ignore his slightly flustered face and extends his hand out, still looking away
"Dance with me? Please?" Richard asks hopefully, his tone a bit shy
Y/N softly bites her bottom lip as she takes his hand..Soon they're on the dance floor dancing to the wildest music all in the while enjoying each others' company.
"Hey..Y/N can I ask you something?" Richard asks as he wraps his arms around her waist, his head resting on the crook of her neck..of course with all her consent..
She enjoyed the feeling of his strong, semi-muscular arms securely wrapped around her waist..even though she had met him today..but with all Joel's description and all she's heard and seen about him..she felt good and..somehow comfortable...a bit too comfortable..but the both of them didn't mind..but not like she was going to admit how her heart fluttered at the feeling.
"Yeah su - sure- -I gue - ss?" She stutters as she mentally slaps herself
"Apart from being beautiful and stunning..what else do you do for a living?" He asks
"Well..I model...So I do use up my physical appearance for a living.."
"I never meant your outer beauty..I meant beautiful and genuine on the inside..I'm not exaggerating." Richard asks
"You'd never give up huh?"
"I'd like to try.." Richard states as he twirls her around
"Honestly why are you so persistent? I told you I don't want to get laid down..Hit someone else up!" Y/N says as she slightly frowns at the thought
"I don't wanna get you laid...not so soon at least..I wanna get to know you..take you out..treat you right..spend time with you..doing weird and crazy sh*ts...I don't know what in the world am I feeling but it's probably because I've never honestly liked someone..you make me feel some typa way ya know? And the worst of all..is that I'm ready to feel like this..As long as you feel the same.." Richard finishes off as he lays his head on her shoulder
"I feel something else for you..a new foreign feeling for you Y/N..I know we have just met but I want to know you better...just talk and...i don't know...I'm just confused..I want to try us together..as in romantically...that's if you feel something for me.."
"Don't you think it's a bit too soon for us..to happen?" Y/N asks
"I'm not demanding a full fledged relationship from the dawn of tomorrow morning..All I want to know is if you feel something..romantically for me and if you want to...work on it?"
"Let's give this a shot Cheeto! Don't make me regret this.." Y/N comments as she turns around, wrapping her arms around his neck
"It's a promise...I won't let you go.." Richard replies his gaze shifting from her eyes to her lips, his eyes looking into hers as if asking for consent
Y/N leans into his touch as he bends down a bit and softly places his lips onto hers as their lips moved together in sync. As if their lips were made for each other only..
His life was going to be just right now that she was beside him.
/ / /
Richard shakes his head, snapping back into reality as he hears his phone vibrate. He looks to find "Joel" calling him. He answers the phone
"Hey...Yes I know..I'll be out in 5..Gate D?...sure okay...Bye.." Richard speaks onto the phone as he hangs up
He gets up as he looks around trying to avoid people and cameras. ..But to his dismay and disappointment a few eagle eyed fans spotted him as he quickly pulled his hoodie cap closer to his head..trying to cover as much of his face as possible...
"A minute please Richard...Just a few pictures.." A mini group of fangirls yelled
Richard rolled his eyes internally as he nodded softly as he quickly posed for a quick picture with the girls and signed a few autographs.
"Are you kidding me? You seriously want to get HIS autograph? The same jerk who broke up with THE Y/N Y/L/N! Oh hell nah! I'm not in this!" A girl comments rolling her eyes "Nope he's a jerk! You can't convince me..an absolute idiot!" She goes on
Richard initially decides to ignore it..but a few other girls decide to join in and trash talking about how HE had messed..
"It was something mutual kiddos..so I'd kindly ask you to NOT to indulge in things which aren't your business.." Richard comments as he quickly signs another autograph
"Hey can you even blame us? We care a lot about out idol...We want her to be happy and safe. And you clearly weren't capable of it.." A girl snaps back maintaining her cool
Richard stayed silent not wanting to snap at this girl who had the audacity to trash talk about him and Y/N's relationship..But the girl had kept no limits in her speech and kept trash talking about him! Of course he had to defend himself!
"It wasn't my fault...It wasn't anybody's fault..It was bound to happen.." Richard comments
"Oh please enlighten me Camacho...I'm more than willing to hear..How does a perfect relationship like the one you shared with Y/N suddenly breaks off one late night?" The girl asks
"That's what you saw...That's what the public saw..you never knew what happened behind closed doors. Please keep your cameras down..I don't want any of this taken..I'm tired of all the rumors.."
"You're just scared that we'll record you and give the bad publicity you deserve..and what do you mean behind closed doors!? Are you accusing her of cheating?!?"
"I'm not making any acquisitions here girlie...I'm just saying you know nothing..So don't start this very unnecessary drama.."
"Oh please elaborate on it please Richard..I'm dying to hear what you actually mean by 'behind closed doors' " The girl asks as she sternly looks at him
"I don't need to elaborate my personal life to you..Please just leave.." Richard asks his tone steady
"I am not leaving until I get an answer!"
"I don't have anything to do with the breakup...Don't pester me!"
"It's a relationship...involves two people Richard Camacho!" The girl counters
"It's her fault too...blame her for it...I'm tired and sick of dealing with all this bullsh*t.."
"You had the perfect girl! Perfect relationship..oh leave all of that..just tell us why the hell did you turn up here? For one of her fashion shows?"
"So I can't attend one of the coolest Fashion Show I've ever known all because my ex girlfriend is a part of it?!"
"You could have attended any other fashion shows yet here you are..Are you sure you aren't here to try and convince her to take you back?"
"Oh SHUT UP! JUST SHUT UP!?! It mustn't be any of your business on what I should do or not do..It's my life please let me just live it the way I want to! We had absolutely no problems in our relationships until people like you suddenly took up the right to comment on our lives and our relationship too..People like you are the reason why no one in our lives last long enough! Don't you realize that in all the mess of trying to protect your idol, you're destroying theirs and their partners' lives in the process...We did what we have to do and we are fine with it! Now I don't care if you like it or not..but just..stop messing mine or her lives than it already is.." Richard snaps, hot tears brimming his eyes as he never let them fall
The girl seemed taken aback as she slightly flinches.
"I'm sorry..I didn't mean- -" She begins
"The damage has already been done...in the harshest manner possible...Just please don't create any more unnecessary drama..."
The girl nods as she looks down, feeling absolutely guilty as Richard excuses himself and walks away towards Gate D ignoring the soft tears that had dared to roll down his cheeks as he quickly wipes them.
~ ~ ~
SHE never wanted him in the first place...all SHE seemed to care was about her career and not him. He got over her pretty easily...drinks, cash, one night stands and just materialistic things that gained him instant pleasure..Simple solutions to complicated problems.
Feelings sucked...they had no place in his life..They were for children who wanted to try and pretend to be adventurous..all they did was mess and f*ck with his head and heart..Lust lasted shorter than love...Scratch marks and purple hickeys just lasted for a few days..or a few weeks at the maximum..but a broken heart would take years to heal..Lust was something simple, quick, less painful and a safer option.
He was done with feelings...feelings belonged to the past..it had no place in his life any longer..all it managed to do was wreck him..nothing apart from that...now all he cared was about his cash and all the materialistic things that gained him temporary..but
instant pleasure...that's all he cared about at this point of time...nothing more and definitely nothing less.
They knew they were headed to the final straw of their relationship...there was just minimal love that kept them together...At least the love that was "visible". Richard wasn't used to deep serious commitment..He couldn't stay stable with ONE girl for the rest of his life!
All because perhaps...deep down inside he was scared...He didn't want to be hurt...he knew it hurted bad.. considering a lot of people he know had ended up bruised...in a very.. unattractive manner and never honestly recovered from it..
Both of them were different..yet so similar. They weren't similar poles nor opposite...they were just compatible enough with good amount of differences.
So for example...the both of them had the same unhealthy coping mechanism for getting over the other..
Shots one after another...Drinks of different varieties one after the other..Different clubs and bars but same unspoken feelings...
But when the lights went out...and they were in their rooms all alone..that's when it hits them. They missed each other..But again with their wholesome egos, heavy hearts and unspoken feelings..they couldn't help but hide what they really felt..scared to get hurt again or if the other one was just...pretending to be in love the whole time..
"Come on..Y/N!! Check him out! Hot stuff at my right..corner..Do you copy agent??" Y/BFF states
"I told you Y/BFF ..I don't want to get laid..I'll get drunk instead..." Y/N comments as she pulls her hoodie closer to herself
"Sure you'd rather like and get all sick rather than become a bit sore..Sure Y/N! I totallyyyyyy get it..." Y/BFF slurs as she rolls her eyes "Y/N babe..are you sure you're over that Dominican?" Y/BFF asks
"Of course I am..that doesn't necessarily mean I need to get laid over to get over my feelings for him! I've told you this so many times!!" Y/N replies
"So you admit you have feelings for him.." Y/BFF comments as she smirks at Y/N
"I simply cannot believe you..of course..I - do no - " Y/N begins
"Yeah yeah baby...blah blah..keep sulking over your feelings for a little boy who doesn't deserve any of it.." Y/BFF comments as she walks off
Y/N lays her head on the wooden desk, as her hands trailed the half empty glass her eyes fixated on the drink hazily as her face stayed covered all thanks to her hoodie cap.
"He did deserve it..He deserved all of it..Because at the end of the day..he made me feel the same way..loved and like I...deserved it all.." She whispers to herself, ignoring the soft salty tears that rolled down her cheeks
~ ~ ~
With his fists inside his hoodie pockets, his head hanging low to avoid being spotted..Richard walks in with a low profile into the club..This club was less crowded and less noisy..He just wanted a few drinks..just a few drinks to make him drunk enough to erase any thoughts relating to her..He wanted to get enough sleep and rest...and his thoughts about her weren't going to put him into rest.
He sat on a stool..a bit far away from the blaring music..a bartender walked upto him and he tells him the drink he wants...The bartender nods as he gets Richard the drink he asked for.
A shot...another one..he drank a couple more before he forced himself to stop..
His phone vibrated with some notifications as he took out his phone from his pocket. His eyes scrunched instantly at how bright his phone screen as he quickly reduced the brightness off his phone.
He went to his messages..as he typed her name..her contact came up.
He stared at the keypad for a moment.
What was his stupid irrational self going to do? Stop it Richard..What are you doing?
It wasn't your fault..why are YOU apologizing...
The damage was already done...nothing could undo it..
But it was worth a try at least...
He began typing the message...And without even reading it another time he pressed the enter button.
MESSAGE STATUS: Message Sent.......Message Delivered
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Y/N tossed on her bed for the 50th time that minute..She had to get up early for a casting..so instead of her regular getting drunk partying routine, She chose to stay home and.. well sleep..
She had gotten a good amount of sleep for a few hours...but at a very odd hour of the day, she suddenly wakes up, her body jerking forward as she heavily breathes...
She broke into a cold sweat, her eyebrows furrowed, as her body shivered..
She quickly recovered within a minute or so..as she laid back into her bed again..but sleep and drowsiness had already left her soul...
Every time she tried to sleep.. something or the other she'd remember about him..especially how he used to serenade her the days where she couldn't feel asleep..his sweet angelic voice always soothed her..and within seconds, she'd be asleep, his strong arms wrapped around her waist securely, her head on his chest and his chin on top of her head...As if a perfect piece of a messed up puzzle set.
Her eyes filled with unnecessary tears as she quickly wiped them off..she did miss him, more than she could admit..but what was the use? He didn't feel the same..
Suddenly her phone vibrates..she clumsily sits up as she grabs her phone. It was probably Y/BFF calling her in her drunk state.
But she sees..his name..on her screen..She was surprised and She quickly reads his message..
Richard: "Do you ever wonder and sometimes perhaps..wish you could maybe go back into time and..change the past?"
That's what the message read...
Y/N bit her bottom lip...she began typing something as she pauses halfway..was she going to respond?
No...he said he didn't want to become friends or even mere acquaintances..so why did he text her all of a sudden?
Nope..she wasn't definitely going to respond to it. She switched off her phone..no..not this time. She couldn't..she wouldn't..
///
Richard sighs as he sees her status as offline...seconds ago she was typing something...Yeah she didn't feel anything or wasn't ready to fix anything...He didn't blame her though after all the sour turns...their entire relationship had taken. He keeps his phone upside down on the wooden table as he gulps down an entire glass of whatever drink it contained.
///
Y/N laid down hugging her pillow as she forcefully shut her eyes. He had the audacity to text her after not even speaking to her after so long! How dare he- -but then again..what if he was alone and drunk? What if he was some place dangerous..? She knew he was old enough to take care of himself but she couldn't help but wonder..
She quickly took her phone..and opened his text...After a minute of internally debating she eventually texted him back..
*TEXT CONVERSATION*
Y/N: Richard..It's 2:00 in the morning. What are you even doing?
Richard: Sometimes..I wished..really wished I could..I wish I could go back and take back all the words I've said to you..and definitely never let you walk out the door. If I could go back..I'd beg you to stay or followed you until you agreed..and almost would do anything that'll make sure you stayed...
Y/N: Richard....
Y/N: Are you drunk?
Richard: Maybe..Maybe not..a few shots of Vodka at the bare maximum...but I'm speaking clearly ain't I?
Y/N: Well..still the Cheeto wouldn't text me like that..or just text me in general considering the fact he didn't want to even be associated with me in any manner possible 🙄
Richard: I love how you still remain the only one who calls me Cheeto..it sounds so adorable..just..so right
Y/N: I'm pretty sure everyone calls you Cheeto..especially your girlfriend..so nothing special..
Richard: No..I don't let anyone call me Cheeto..You were and still are the only one who calls me that..Besides I don't have a girlfriend.
Y/N: Well..whatever...What's the deal Camacho?
Richard: GODDAMMIT! I have loved you..I always have..and I still do.. and I don't think that's going to change..but it scares the sh*t outta me honestly..and I'd never have the guts to do this without alcohol in my system cause I'm a f*cking coward.
Y/N: Where are you? Are the boys with you?
Richard: Aaliyah asked me about you..she said she missed baking those choco chip cookies for you..Mum and Dad also asked about you..They sounded disappointed. They thought you and I were heading to the long haul.
Richard: Well so did I..but geuss you cant change things if u wanted two..
Y/N: RICHARD YASHEL CAMACHO! ANSWER ME! Where the hell are you?!
Richard: In some bar..getting wasted and tired of getting rid of the way all my feelings about you return within seconds.
Y/N: Very sentimental Richard. I'm calling Joel to pick you up from that damn place okay?
Richard: Thanks...I guess..well..I never thought you still cared enough to make sure I got home safely.
Y/N: Oh give it a rest Yashel! I'd still care about you probably until the day I die and maybe even after that okay? Just because we aren't together anymore doesn't mean that I'll ever stop caring about you or ever did Richard...just remember that..
Richard: I still love you..
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Y/N: Richard..I just texted Joel..he apparently knows the place.. he'll be there to pick you up okay? Just don't leave the bar till he arrives okay?
Richard: So you don't love me?
Y/N: Richu...please don't this harder than it already is..Just don't do this.
Richard: So do you?
Y/N: It's complicated and your drunk. Let's talk about this whilst your sober..I don't want to talk about somethin' like this with alcohol in your system...
Richard: Okay goodnight.
Y/N: Take care.
~ ~ ~
Y/N woke up fussily already tired. Her thoughts kept her awake the entire night and now she had to wake up and get ready. She heard her phone ringing as she QUICKLY attends the call
"Yes Claire..I'm up..give me a few- - what? Oh thank god. I was too exhausted today...wait.. Seriously! Thank you so much Claire! I can't thank you enough! Yes I'll get some sleep thank you again!" Y/N rants as she hangs up the call.
Claire, her personal assistant had called her to tell that her casting for the day had been cancelled and the new casting was in five days..which meant she had five whole days to herself.
She quickly jumps back into bed as her eyes almost shut instantly drowning herself into some well deserved sleep.
- - -
Y/N wakes up as she looks at the clock in her bedroom...3:00 in the afternoon. She made her way to the bathroom and freshened up. She walked towards her kitchen and prepares an entire mug of coffee fr herself.
Y/N sat down as she slowly sipped on the cup of coffee she had prepared for herself. The entire week way haywire hectic..a lot of photo shoots, interviews, castings the list went on and on..Y/N decides to take some time all for herself and by herself. She was given five days..five days away from work..The first three days went by a breeze, as she took enough rest and ate healthy. She walked to her closed balcony as she laid on one of the seats as she stretched her legs and placed them in a relaxing posture.
She laid on the chair as she did nothing except rest her eyes and breathe evenly as she sipped on her coffee. In the middle of her "relaxing" day, she was rudely stunned by a sudden spam of messages from her phone as the she quickly sipped on her coffee mug in surprise, as her lips burnt at the hot sensation. She let out a shrill scream as she stuck her tongue out, blowing some air quickly trying to cool her almost tongue.
*TEXT CONVERSATION*
Richard: Morning. Hey..Sorry about last night.
Y/N: Hey it's no big deal..you were drunk. It's fine.
Richard: I'm sober now.
Y/N: Okay..well..good for you I guess?
Richard: I still feel the same about you the same way I felt about you last night..the same way I felt for you the day we met..
Y/N: Richard..I don't really know how to you want me to respond to that statement. You do know that we broke up for a reason.
Richard: No we broke up because I was too prideful to stop you from leaving.
Richard: Can we just talk about this?
Y/N: I'm not so sure about this Richard. I've just...I'm just starting to recover and patch up those old wounds..I don't want them wounded again.
Richard: Please Y/N! Just this once to clear all these misunderstandings.
*Richard had sent you a location*
Richard: Just meet me there..5:30 p.m. We'll talk for an hour..and if you truly don't want to give it a try..I'll leave you alone forever..I promise.
Y/N: Just one chance Richard. After this I don't want you to bring up this. I'll meet you there at 5:30 sharp. Don't be late
Richard: Wouldn't miss it for the world.
Richard: Thank you Y/N!
Richard: I...
Richard: See you there. ❤️
Y/N: 🙂
- - -
Y/N couldn't believe what the hell she had agreed to..but here she was stressing over what to wear. She then realizes that she wasn't going to impress or charm him or anything. So she wore a basic t-shirt and some denim jeans, a leather jacket and some sneakers to finish it up.
She drove to the spot as she quickly parked her car in an empty parking lot. She walks towards the exact location and sees Richard sitting on a picnic mat with a basket of goodies in it. He stands up as he sees her and Y/N walks closer.
"Hey.." Richard says as he passes her a soft smile
"Hello.." She replies as he gestures her to sit down
"So how you doing?" Y/N asks an attempt to remove the awkward silence
"I've been doing well...Thanks for making the call last night..I didn't even know how I ended there.."
"You're welcome..I barely did anything..I just informed Joel."
"Well..you did look after me when I was at my worsts..so I owe you one..A simple thank you won't do the trick.."
"Oh Camacho..don't bother..You know I don't expect anything in return right? That's what..I.. err..friends do right?"
They went on talking about normal stuffs and things until Richard abruptly interrupts her.
"Why do people do this?" Richard asks
"Do what exactly?" Y/N questions
"Well..you know..don't take up the blame for the mistakes they have done while they were in a relationship?"
"They've got well defined reasons..maybe their just scared that this might danger their..uhm.. relationship.."
"But I see at a sign..a sign..of maturity and acceptance...If you make it through these misunderstandings and for once..accepting your mistakes..things will turn out alright."
"But what if they don't..that's what the other person fears the most..they can't allow an ounce of hatred or..disappointment in the relationship..they share with someone..they can't afford to lose that special person.."
"But you have already done the mistake..it isn't as severe as cheating or anything..simple mini misunderstandings..turning into full fledged fights. Sure they might be disappointed but in the long run..it's healthy..A relationship has it's ups and downs..but these misunderstandings and the interplay of egos..winning all battles but at the cost of a relationship one thought would last for long.."
"Richard- -"
"I'm genuinely sorry..I genuinely am..I just- -I'm not blaming you- -I'm taking the entire blame for the all the misunderstandings..I just want us back..I miss you..us..."
"Richard..please...all I'm asking is for a friendship.."
"I'll accept your friendship..or even better..I'll just even stop bothering you for once and forever if you honestly feel that you're better off without me..just..just look me in the eye and just tell me to leave and I'll leave..tell me you don't feel absolutely anything romantic for me..then I'll leave you and stay away from you and I promise I won't be a part of your life anymore.."
Y/N faces Richard as she looks him in the eye, her heart pumping quick as her body tensed, her tone shaky
"Richard..I..I..." Y/N begins as she pauses, her eyes tearing up
"Tell me..and I swear I'll leave.."
"But I don't want you to leave.." Y/N whispers softly as she feels her eyes gleaming with tears that threatened to fall.
"Please...all I'm asking is one chance. I screwed up..I messed up..I just want you back into my life..I can't live without you..I've never felt something honest and genuine for anyone else apart from you...I can't even look at another women in any other manner. Even after the break up..Sleeping with someone else felt as if I was cheating on you...I felt unfaithful even though I was out of the relationship. I love to such an extent that it hurts when I think that you're not next to me during my best and worsts.."
"Richard..you don't mean this..you aren't ready for commitment..Don't resurface those repressed unconditional feelings that I still have for you...Please don't make this any harder than it already is.."
"But..but...don't you understand? I was a f*cking coward..I just felt commitment was too big for someone like me..but as long as it means that I can be with you..I'm ready to walk through hell and heaven..worsts and the best...If you don't feel the same I'll let you walk away.."
"Richard..stop manipulating me emotionally..I can't do this anymore. You're just going to hurt yourself and me..Please don't do this..ask yourself if this is what you want..I'm tired of crying over you Richard.."
"Please...one more chance is all I ask for. We'll start off again..our relationship had started off a bit too quick before..we can fix it this time.. together. It'll take time to heal but in the long run...I want you next to me."
"Richard! STOP! You don't mean it! You're the only boy in my entire life I've honestly been so attached to..and look at where we ended up..I don't want our mistakes to repeat and go through the entire heartbreak again. I'm just tired...I can't..."
"We learnt from our mistakes..staying away from you and letting you walk out of my door was the worst decision I had done..I'm ready to fix it. I want to give us a try this time..but this time I'll completely be honest with you. Y/N Honestly the partial reason why we broke up was because..I...I was insecure..insecure about letting someone precious and amazing like you with someone like me...I don't deserve someone like you..and that day when you came over..I just wanted to sort of push you away so you'd finally get what you deserve.. but I know you're with Aiden and I- -" Richard begins
"Hold up! You seriously thought YOU weren't good enough for ME? No guy has ever had second thoughts about dating me..You really do care..don't you?"
"More than I can admit..but it's okay. I understand and just realized that you're with Aiden and I fully resp- -" Richard begins
"We broke up long ago..he dumped me through a mere phone call.." Y/N confesses with a sigh
"Wait..what?" Richard asks confused
"We broke up 2-3 WEEKS before I came and visited you! Because throughout my entire relationship with him all I could think was about you! How you would treat me better than him. And ×the WORST thing that even after all of this endless crying and heavy feelings I STILL LOVE YOU! ×" Y/N yells as her eyes are flooded with tears
Richard blinks in surprise and shock.
"You still love me after all of..this?" Richard asks in pure shock and disbelief
"Of course I did..and always do. But I can't afford to hurt myself one more time if this means nothing to you Richard. You could hurt me, tear and wreck me..but that manipulated heart of mine will still love you with all the little million pieces! I bet you don't even realize it!" Y/N replies as she wipes off her tears
"I love you too.." Richard shouts as he looks at her
"You..what?" Y/N asks
"I said...I...I...I..Love you...and I mean it...you complete me..I can't imagine a future without you by my side..I'll do anything...even beg you to stay..F*ck! I'll just do ABSOLUTELY anything to make sure you stayed..I mean every single word I've said till now..I just love you so damn much that it hurts so much..a feeling of emptiness and yet at the same time..my heart's heavy. I've never had the feelings of dry throats, rapid heart beats or the feeling of nervousness in front of girls in general..that's the sort of effect I have on them..but to feel all of this and the weirdest of all to be okay with it..no one else apart from you can make me the way I feel right now...the way I had always felt whenever I thought about you..." Richard confesses
"Richard..." Y/N whispers
"Please...just one chance..I'll promise you I'll never pretend about anything.. I'll honestly tell you what I feel..Just one chance" Richard pleads
"Please don't hurt me again..I don't want to- -" Y/N begins
"I promise you.." Richard says as he places a finger on her lips
"We're both huge liars...you do know that? We were miserable without each other and yet we pretended to be fine." Y/N replies
"Yes I know.. we're too stubborn for the world..but I'll never lie to you about my feelings or anything as such..because at the end of the day..I can never get over you.." Richard comments
"Me too Richard..." Y/N says as she looks at him
"I love you Y/N..." Richard says
"I love you more Richard.." Y/N replies
"I love you the most Y/N.." Y/N replies
"You wish you did.." Richard taunts
"Oh really? FIGHT ME!!" Y/N challenges as she playfully glares at him
"Same old Y/N..." Richard says as she pressed her lips against his
Richard instantly melts into the kiss as his hands wrap around her waist, they break away a shy smile on both their faces
"Feels right?" Y/N asks
"Not quite.." Richard replies
"Are you implying you want to kis- " Y/N begins as Richard quickly presses his lips against hers and deepens the kiss as she lets out a satisfied groan.
"Now that felt right.." Richard comments as he breaks away and stares at her lovingly
Y/N blushes as she looks away, a smile evident on her face.
She was meant to be with him..Now she didn't have to lie about her feelings because she had what she exactly deserved...him..
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Saeyoung’s After Life Chapter 5
(LAST CHAPTER)
Go to Chapter: 1 here/ 2 here / 3 here / 4 here
So, yesterday someone contacted me via Instagram and thought that the last two chapter got deleted since there was no link....I’m sorry I hope this won’t confuse anyone, let me explain: I write my writings in my Masterlist to show you what will come next and to make my life easier because just adding a link is quicker, HAHAH I’M SO LAZY XD and since we talk about being lazy....I was to lazy to correct this chapter, that’s why it took me so long, lmao XD but now I’m posting it...have fun my lovely Fonys :3
Ps. If some of you memorized my Masterlist and got confused, yes, I planned to write a 6th chapter but realized that the last two chapters were really short so I put them together, heheh XD
Saeyoung’s POV
,,Please take care of them, guys...“ I mumbled and looked at Zen, Yoosung and Jaehee.
,,Don’t worry....“ Jaehee mumbled. She was clearly worried. Well, I was too.
It was uncertain if I would be back alive after all.
,,It’s kind of unfair that the trust fund kid is allowed to come along just because he‘s rich.“ Zen complained.
I looked at him ,,I would rather send you than risking my life there, trust me.“ I snapped.
Perhaps I was a bit too hard on him since he was helping me out...
Hopefully I will have time to apologize to him after everything is finished....
My thoughts often wandered to my little family while we were driving in Jumin‘s van.
,,Let’s talk about the plan....“ Saeran mumbled as he typed something into the laptop.
,,We will first kidnap the man in black, his name is Lee Sang Chul.
He‘s the prime minister’s right hand and the one who followed us in the past. He was also the one who hurt Mc and the twins....
After we have him, we will interrogate him, that would be team A’s task.
Team B will hid cameras in the surroundings so that we have enough evidence.“ Saeran explained with a layout of the place.
Everyone nodded and agreed to it. And so we followed the plan.
It was pretty easy to kidnap Mr. Lee
Jumin simply began to talk to him and explained, who he was. The plan was to tell him that he was interested to work together with the Prime Minister. In the next moment however, Mr. Lee was dragged into the inside of the Van.
,,Who are you?“ he snapped.
,,You still don’t know?“ I asked and began to throttle him.
,,Saeyoung, we need him alive.“ Jumin said as he observed us.
,,Unfortunately.“ I snapped and tried to stay calm while the man, who almost killed my family, glared at me.
A bodyguard began to film the scene as Jumin calmly tried to get information out of him.
But the right hand of the Prime Minister stayed silent like a dead man.
,,The Prime Minister will eventually go to prison, you won’t face danger if you tell us now.“ Jumin said.
,,I....am loyal.“ he mumbled and looked away.
The man was depressed, I could see that it was pretty hard for him too.
,,Why did you do that to my family?! Is that the way to show him that you’re loyal? Dirtying your hands with blood?! A pregnant woman? Twins?! Who the hell was loyal to us? We never did anything to this man! I don’t know and I don’t wish to know what my mother tried with that ass BUT WE ARE TRYING TO LIFE!“ I yelled.
The man was still looking away, he actually looked pretty pitiful but I tried to ignore these feelings.
Before Jumin could say anything someone hit the van‘s door pretty hard.
,,SAEYOUNG, JUMIN! WE NEED TO FLEE!“ Saeran screamed from behind, making me panic.
,,Why?!“ I yelled as I opened the door.
,,They found out! What will happen if they realize that Mc is alone without us?!“ Saeran snapped and tried to catch breath.
,,Aish!“ I yelled and looked at the man.
And him?
But we couldn’t think about it.
Everything went quickly, five minutes of hell.
The prime Minister’s guards held guns up, ready to fire at us.
,,NOW!“ Jumin yelled and all his bodyguards appeared from the hidden places, holding the Prime Minister’s guards.
,,AT LEAST KILL THE DEMON!“ our ,,Father“ yelled and glared at me before he took his own gun.
I saw the bullet and regretted everything I did in my life. What if we would have stayed with our mother instead of going to Rika? Would I still have met Mc?
Would I still be a father?
What will have happen to my baby if I die now? To my two tomato princesses?
Who will snatch them away from me? Will Mc be able to forgive me for dying? Will she live without me?
I wasn’t sure.
All these thoughts hit me in five seconds.
Five seconds before my body fell backwards.
Blood was on my chest, my back was aching and my butt was scratched by now.
,,SAEYOUNG!“ I heard Saeran yell. I turned to Saeran and saw how another bodyguard got a hold of the strong man we feared so far - the Prime Minister.
I looked at my chest, blood, I was soaked in blood.
Fortunately it wasn’t my blood....
,,Why?“ I asked Mr Lee as he puked blood on me.
I stayed like that.
I was able to hear his words better like that.
,,Because...I was sorry...I wanted to free myself from these regrets and wrong doings. I wanted the two of you to live happily...I really wanted to....“ he mumbled before he collapsed on me.
Fear hit you in the middle of the night when someone tried to open the door, however mistaking the password four times.
You immediately jumped up, realizing that your reaction was too quickly.
You felt dizzy and were almost falling backwards but Zen was right behind you, supporting you like a strong rock.
,,Princess, take it easy!“ he told you as he looked at you.
,,Hid my children! Hid them! They are coming for us!“ you began to sob as the door opened.
It was over, wasn’t it?
,,I MEAN, WHO THE HELL CHOOSES ARABIC AND FORGETS HOW TO SAY IT?!“ Saeran yelled as he supported his older twin brother.
,,The word has a similar word, I just did wrong because I‘m not in my right mind.“ he laughed and looked at you.
The sight of Zen supporting you made him jealous but he was happy to see you.
,,Are you well, Mc?“ he asked you as tears streamed down your face.
,,Why are you soaked with blood?!“ you cried.
,,Not his blood.“ Saeran snapped.
,,Why are you supporting him then?“ you still asked.
,,Because this idiot began to jump around and got hurt at his ankle.“ Saeran once again responded before he let go of Saeyoung.
Saeyoung approached you and hugged you.
You weren’t the only one who was crying now.
,,J-Jumin?“ you sobbed.
,,With the police...he will take care. Children?“
,,A-asleep....“ you sobbed harder.
Your legs almost gave up but Saeyoung supported you for good.
This night the whole group decided to sleep at Saeyoung’s place, just to wake up two hours later.
None understood the fuss except for you and your husband of course.
,,SHE‘S GIVING BIRTH GET THE CAR!“ Saeyoung yelled as he supported you.
,,Saeyoung! Saeyoung it’s different! Something is wrong Saeyoung!“ you kept crying, clutching your belly.
,,Mc try to breath, breath!“ Saeyoung comforted you and held your hand.
He tried to make you feel better but in his head he had completely different thoughts.
Was this what the doctor meant? Were unhappy things bound to happen?
In an instand Saeyoung and the other boys helped you to get into the car.
Jaehee went along with the two of you while Saeran had the task to drive a second car since the twins had to come along. Yoosung couldn’t drive and since Zen was in an accident once, Saeyoung trusted only his brother.
The girls didn’t know what was happening. All they knew was that their mom was sick once again.
,,SHE‘S LOOSING TOO MUCH BLOOD!“ the nurse screamed as you lied down, completely pale in the white hospital room.
,,SHE HAS NO STRENGTH LEFT!“ someone else yelled as the red haired father was pushed out of the room.
Saeyoung‘s heart was breaking apart when he turned around to take a last look into the room. He noticed that you were searching for him.
His wife longed for him.
This was the most horrible labor for everyone.
The medical support was at their limit, as well as the midwife and you.
But after a lot of complications and fears you finally gave birth.
And even through you still weren’t awake after one day and your new born boy was in the intubation, Saeyoung was happy because everyone was alive after all.
,,How will you name him?“ Saeran asked when he visited his brother.
,,Sang Chul. Choi Sang Chul.“ Saeyoung nodded.
,,Yung Mi, Mun Hee, Sang Chul! Please stay here!“ you yelled as your 10 years old girls ran through the park together with their younger brother.
You were really afraid that your son could fall and hurt himself.
,,Run behind them!“ you snapped at your husband.
,,Huh?“ he asked you as he chewed his chips.
,,You just don’t know how it works.“ Saeyoung laughed and begann to yell ,,OI! I HAVE HONEY BUDDAH CHIPS!“
You had to hide your smile as you saw how the children ran back to their dad to get the chips.
,,Now, stay here, yeah?“ you slightly scolded them as you took your son up and in your ams and held Yung Mi’s hand.
,,Mun Hee, take Unni‘s hand and Daddy‘s!“ she ordered and so like a family you walked through the park.
THE END
This story is dedicated to @khaizusan. She actually requested a story where the Prime Minister found out about the twins, since she draw a picture with Saeyoung and the twins (Chapter 1) and so I began to write about it. I didn’t imagine that this would take 5 Chapters but I‘m happy that you guys kept waiting for me. Thank you.
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homeboy! | pizza boy!(han) jisung
i know i was supposed to post the merpeople! au first but !!!! i just wanted to post this ok (plus im sorry this is like,,, being posted after 2 or 3 months sjsjsksj)
• ur uni had opened this new pizza place there and u just wanted to go there really bad ok
• not only because the place was really cool!!!! or that it sold amazingly good pizzas!!!!!
• ur childhood best friend jisung was working there too (▰˘◡˘▰)
• he left ur town yEARS AGO to go to seoul
• so u missed him a shit ton ok
• so u walked into the pizza place as u were returning from the library somewhere at the evening when the place almOST closes
• the bell did a little "ting!" as u walked in and were greeted by 3 amazingly good looking guys
• "hello, ma'am! welcome pizzeria palace! what would you like to have?"
• "can i have one.... barbequed chicken fiesta? medium size."
• the guy nodded and yelled a "coming right up!" to u before taking down the list of things required and went to the kitchen
• there wasn't really any place to sit since they were probably packing up when u arrived
• aka there were no chairs and u were just standing there looking like a lost child
• "hello there!! sorry we had to keep our chairs in since we were about to close but.... u can sit here!"
• u turn around to find a guy behind u with his apron on and pointing at a chair behind him
• u were honestly too tired and exhausted to say no or basically anything so u sat down
• and there was just silence covering u both when he broke the silence
• "have i.... seen u somewhere...?"
• u turn to look at his face and inch towards him, causing his cheeks to go red, but he stayed where he was
• "u kinda remind me of this one childhood friend of mine who came to seoul a few years ago and now works here"
• u rest ur back on the chair once again when u were done speaking
• "is his name......... han jisung......."
• ⊙_⊙
• ur pretty sure u only feel oNE thing now
• P U R E C O N F U S I O N
• "yea........."
• he laughs out a cute little laugh
• but u won't back down by his cute ass laugh that kinda made ur heart go d o k i d o k i !!! (≖︿≖✿)
• "wait are u his stalker or smthg"
• he scans ur face for a second and laughs again and then stops and takes a breath to talk to u again
• "why would i stalk myself?"
• this is literally ur face after he said that
• (o_O)
• so u inch closer (again) to see if it's really jisung yk
• (⊙□⊙) holy mcdoublefucking nuts in the worLD
• "HOMEBOY HAN (°0°)!!!!"
• jisung can only laugh as he ruffles ur hair and responds
• "of course it's me, dumbass"
• yes u came back to that pizza place eVERY SINGLE DAY TO MEET JISUNG (✿◠‿◠)
• hey atleast u got extra cheese and meat for free,,,,,,,,,
• "jisung can i get one of my regulars extra che-"
• "i've literally memorised ur entire menu babe"
• calling each other names like "babe" is very common u know
• yall did it before too
• but,,,,,, why does it do something to ur heart whenever he says it
• like !!!!
• uR HEART IS IN A 911 CRISIS AND U MI G H T DIE BUT THAT'S OK IT'S FOR JISUNG !! :D !!
• little did u know he's been dying like that for a long time now
• also can i just say how shameless his headass is
• like every time u would walk in the place he would INSTANTLY know it was u and would yell
• "Y/N !!!!! MY BABE !!!!!!! LOOK AT HER !!!!!!! BLESS YO EYES AND LIVES CUSTUMS!!!!!"
• this probably started when u overheard a customer who looks like ur age, asking out jisung
• (u didn't see that but he looked in ur direction before replying to her)
• he turned her down
• but that didn't stop from the others to come at him too
• whenever yall are hanging out late at night
• an ongoing 2am supermarket raid (⌐■_■) for example
• someone hAS TO INTERFERE !!!!!
• "and omg the pizza in that place literally stin-"
• "jisung??????????? omg hi!!!!!!!"
• i mean they aren't really like those Annoying Girls Who Are In Love With You
• but u always feel very insecure yk,,,,
• like jisung could replace u with them anyday
• but one day jisung finally notices ur dull expression and he asks u about it
• "y/n. something's wrong, isn't it?" - jisung, as he pulls u towards him (lightly) with a serious expression
• this is just one of those million things u love about jisung
• the fact that he doesn't just ask someone right away. he waits to confirm himself and then he confronts them. and if they aren't okay with speaking about it, he'll just give them space
• but u did want to tell him
• so u told him about ur case of insecurity
• and jisung just hugged u really close and pat ur head as ur sigh comes out muffled since ur face was legit squished in his chest
• "y/n. i will never give up someone like you. okay? stop feeling so insecure."
• and he pulls away and i swear the way he looks at u
• the endearing look he gives u
• "you're perfect, y/n."
• sometimes u really think that he likes u because of all of those boyfriend material compliments he gives u and cuddling whenever he feels cold
• "y/n!!!! :(( !!!"
• "fine u big baby c'mere i'll give u ur cuddles"
• " :DDDDD "
• oh did i mention that he tried to that lady and the tramp kiss with u
• but it was actually pretty stupid
• no no there's no noodle
• OBVIOUSLY THERE'S NO NOODLE THAT'S WHY IT WAS STUPID ANYWAYS
• HE TRIED TO DO IT WITH A FRICKIN P I Z Z A
• yall were literally this | | close to kissing but somebody rang the doorbell and yeah it was felix coming to get jisung and take him home
• oh and yea felix would ALWAYS take ur orders when u came to the place ok
• he was even the first one who took ur order
• and it wasn't like jisung didn't wanna take ur order
• he was just too busy looking at u and hearing u talk and smiling like an idiot u know
• what a cute idiot :"))))
• so this cute idiot confessed to u one day
• and u could actually swear on ur left pink toe that u were actually crying because of that
• it was like any other day when he came to ur house with an entire box of pizza yk
• but when he passed it to u
• u were kinda suspicious because he would always fight to open the box first and get the best slice first
• but he gave u the box before so,,,,,,,
• whatever man ur hungry
• so u open the box and hOLY MC CRAPPING SHIT
• "what do u say..?"
• there were words formed with cheese
• “is this..... a confession...”
• jisung laughs out a shaky breath followed by him slightly nodding his head
• “yeah,,it is,,,”
• is it possible to say that u want to cry and hug him and pepper him with kisses all at the same time as u scream because that is exactly u feel rn
• and so many thoughts are running in ur mind
• about how he moved to seoul and u always thought he was joking about it to u until he really did
• and how much u missed the warm hugs he gave u
• and how much u loved his silly humor and
• when u found him
• happiness like old times surrounded u once again
• and maybe it’s all the emotions that were piled up for too long, because of which u are now a fucking crying mess
• well good job y/n
• “HHHHHHHHHH JISUNG I LIKE U TOO PLS UR WORDS WERE CHEESY ENOUGH WHAT ARE THESE EXTRA CALORIES HHHHHHHH”
• jisung first takes his time to take in ur words
• but when he DOES
• this baby just bursts into laughter and hugs u so tightly
• “even with those calories, u will always be perfect to me baby (●´ω｀●)”
• and u just cry louder because WHAT DID U, Y/N L/N, EVER DO TO DESERVE SUCH AN AMAZING ASS PERSON IN UR LIFE HHHHHHH
• WHO CONFESSED TO U WITH A PIZZA THAT SAYS “I LIKE U ALOT!!!”IN CHEESE AND A SMALL HEART MADE OF SOME EXTRA MEAT
• “y/n now ur just making the pizza saltier w ur tears pls,,,,,”
• shut up no one gave u the right to add these many calories plus be this fucking adorable ok that’s double attack.”
#stray kids#stray kids han#stray kids scenario#han jisung#stray kids jisung#han#jisung#imagine#stray kids imagine#kpop imagine#bang chan#chan#kim woojin#woojin#lee minho#lee know#seo changbin#changbin#hwang hyunjin#hyunjin#lee felix#felix#kim seungmin#seungmin#yang jeongin#jeongin
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this is a long and somewhat emotional follow forever , as i feel it’s genuinely the most MEANINGFUL one i have done so far ?? like genuinely i did tear up a little writing this shit so . . . i just want to thank you all not gonna lie , simply because you guys are the best , and i mean it with all of my heart , some of you quite literally STOPPED ME from giving up writing as a whole without even realising , because yeah , early january i did think of quitting , i was so close to , it would’ve taken a little push and i would’ve quite literally deleted this and all of my previous accounts , but i can tell you right now - i am SO GLAD that i did not. it’s all because of you !!
please CTRL + F AND SEARCH FOR YOUR USERNAME , IT’S FASTER THAN SCROLLING LMFAO
to be fair this follow forever is just an excuse to be able to thank you guys publicly. some of you already know how much i appreciate you , with the random I LOVE YOU ALL’s in group chats or just me genuinely being an annoying cunt and bugging you 24/7 , some others i’m may be more shy about or i just simply admire you from afar , - and regardless of whether we talk or not , if you’re on here it just means you’ve somehow helped me , to not quit , stopped me from doing so as a whole , and have helped me to keep doing this thing i’ve been doing for almost five years now. i have to say it would’ve probably been one of my biggest mistakes to just QUIT , so i am here to T H A N K Y O U , for inspiring me , for helping me grow as a writer , for helping me with my english ( which you all do ) , for dealing with my ass , for everything in general.
i feel as if this is the longest follow forever i have done in my life but really it doesn’t matter. this is here to show how much i appreciate you guys , to just thank you for absolutely everything. i’ll stop here and move on to the little paragraphs some are more personal others are more general ones but , whatever the case is you guys warm my fucking heart seriously.
* // ⊰ @pcrscphonie . ⊱ to the titsiana to my cumriana . . .
emily , E M I L Y - what the fuck would i do without your ass ?? like i’m serious ?? i swear talking to you gives me life - genuinely , you make me crack the fuck up on a fucking daily basis. i don’t think i’ve laughed so much in a long time really , so i owe you BIG TIME. not gonna lie i’m fucking glad i managed to drag your ass and get you to join discord , because what would we now do without the sexting gc , our daddy akshay and the bonetown / house party calls ?? ;)) i don’t know but whatever the case is i am WET writing this ( bc i’m tearing up , pls stop being so dirty minded i swear ) . thank you for talking to me after that shit episode i had on a night out , or dealing with my annoying ass on a daily basis , what can i say ?? i actually fucking love you LMAO , as i said you’re the titsiana to my cumriana on a side note i genuinely think that your writing BLOWS my fucking mind , like - lowkey you’re definitely a ) one of my favourite people to write AND talk with and b ) one of the nicest and most talented ones on this hell of a fucking site. so yeah , thank you , thank you and THANK YOU BEBÉ.
* // ⊰ @wavesborn . ⊱ la bestia a mi bebesita . . .
yadira , Y A D I R A , hostia PUTA done coño empiezo ?? meeting you has been one of the highlights of my year so far , and i am lowkey SERIOUS. our calls ?? me staying up until 3 - 5 a.m sometimes just to be talking to you , is literally one of the BEST THINGS EVER , even if i am not even alive the next day. and yes i might be a full on nerd but you know you love it ;)) GRACIAS por todo chica , te lo juro de verdad, i mean it when i say that you’ve quite literally saved my ass , you’re one of the people that have resurrected my muse for roleplaying in general. you’re an angel , literal eres un ANGEL tia , y no cambiaria nuestra amistad por NADA EN EL MUNDO. you’re one of my favourite people on this site , whether it is to talk or write to. eres la mejor colega , y me cago en todo lo que se mueve por que va en serio , ERES UN ANGEL CHICA. thank you for being one of my best mates , i really fucking love you. like stefan adores you too , we both adore you for reals afiashdgaiosi QUE HARIA YO SIN TI TIA. you’ve been one of the MAIN reasons for me to not have given up on writing in early january. you’ve pushed me , inspired me , have made me think creatively in different ways , and have made my muse reach new limits , which is DOPE AS FUCK. GRACIAS POR TODO , LITERAL QUE TE AMO.
* // ⊰ @giaawritess . ⊱ un angel pero de verdad colega . . .
gia , G I A , look you’re genuinely i just don’t even know where to begin with , one of the BEST people i have ever met in my life. you’re an angel ( YOU LITERALLY ARE THO YOUR VOICE ?? OMFG LIKE ACTUALLY KILL ME , YOU SAW IT YESTERDAY , ME AND STEFAN FULL ON FANGIRLING ABOUT YOUR VOICE MATE AHSFOASHDGOIAS ) one of the kindest people i have ever met. you genuinely blow my mind in so many ways , like i look up to you so fucking much ?? it’s crazy really. when i tell you that i wish i were in the USA i literally mean it because you’ve just done so much for me the past three months , *// i’m crying now i- // you’ve been there for me , you’ve made me laugh like an idiot , fangirl the fuck out of myself with your singing , but you’ve also genuinely been one of the best things that have happened to me this year. literal , i look up to you so much ?? you’re like a bigger sister to me , 100%. thank you for being here , for existing , for just being y o u. like for reals gia. i just want you to know that if you ever need ANYTHING i will be there , because i want to give back - you’re an angel i swear , like a r e a l angel. MUCHISIMAS GRACIAS POR TODO , GRACIAS POR SER TU. TE QUIERO TANTO.
* // ⊰ @fircytragcdy . ⊱ plz don’t put me in the box of shame for this i sWEAR i ain’t a mess ( okay i might be but fhasiodghoashdg ) . . .
lucy , L U C Y , idk how you deal with my annoying ass but , i genuinely am thankful as fuck for being able to write with you ?? but there’s something else i have to thank you for as well which is TEMPTING ME to return to indie , like - actually come back , and it took you nothing to convince me ?? from you first hand experiencing my drunk texting in the morning to writing - like you probably think i am a mess let’s be real , which i am but y’know , . . . i’m just here to say that i appreciate you A LOT. your writing blows my fucking mind too , like guao is this talent ?? if you write a book please link me , bc i’ll defo buy AND read it mate. whatever the case is , you know you’ve got me here no matter what , if you need anything - imma be there !! you ARE one of the most talented people on this site , your writing is GENUINE quality , and i’m just blessed to be able to write and talk to you fam. i just wanna than u for everything like legit , my messy ass is thankful AF. thank you for writing with me but also for inspiring me , because literally you’ve also helped me regain my muse , and just been one of the ones that stopped me from giving up on writing. thank you mate , for reals. GRAZIE MILLE , 4 REALS , GRAZIE MILLE.
MORE SPECIAL MENTIONS BUT I’M IN A HURRY AND I DON’T HAVE THE TIME RN TO WRITE A HUGE AS PARA FOR EVERYONE FIHASDGHGSAIOPDG I WOULD THO , I SWEAR I WOULD.
* // ⊰ @rosychvrms ; @nightinqale ; @prcsopa ; @trcnscendant ; @svnflowcr-s ; @darlingstm ; @hvneymoons ; @dvstedgold ; @emptygcds ; @vuotriste ; @alittlewickcd ; @antisopa ; @pcrscphonie ; @wavesborn ; @giaawritess , @fircytragcdy *ik if i forgot peeps on this section but anyways i can’t remember the urls rn i’m just a crying emotional mess rn tbfh . ⊱ this is a special thank you to y’all . . .
we might’ve chatted , we might’ve written , done both or neither of these , it doesn’t matter. we all were a part of the same thing , the same universe for several months. it’s why you are on here , because someway or another , seeing you on my dash , or getting to write with you whenever i was logged onto @bloodcvrsed , you managed to inspire me and bring back the muse i was on the verge of losing ( and giving up ) . it’s why i gotta thank you all *and i’m definitely missing people but i can’t remember the urls , so if you see this it’s also aimed at you* because you just stopped me from quitting the one thing that i’ve been doing so many years , and really it would’ve been one of the biggest mistakes of my life. i just want to say thank you , THANK YOU FOR STOPPING ME , FOR INSPIRING ME AND FOR BEING THE ONE OF THE MOST TALENTED PEOPLE I HAVE ENCOUNTERED ON THIS SHIT HOLE THAT IS TUMBLR !! THANK YOU GUYS SM ; ILY.
AND THIS IS A SMALL SECTION BUT AN EXTREMELY MEANINGFUL ONE .
* // ⊰ @thefineartofbitchcraft , @serialqueen , @chrysalvsm , @artofbeingperfect , @wildtm . ⊱ to you who have stuck by my side for so many years . . .
i have MISSED YOU ALL , so fucking much. i’ve missed writing with you , talking to you , just being here online. i almost made the mistake of quitting this thing , indie - which yes it’s a hell of a site and yes it’s quite literally full of drama *which is what almost drove me away* but to be fair , i am glad that i was able to see what i almost gave up on. it would’ve bee one of the BIGGEST mistakes i’d ever had made , quitting this - i’ve known you all for AT LEAST a year , with some of you guys i’ve been writing with since 2016 - that’s almost three years , considering i began writing mason in september of the same year - some of you i began writing with on this account , and whatever the case is - YOU ALL have inspired me , you all have made me fall in love with writing , back then , now - all over again really. being back and writing with you guys again made me realise just HOW MUCH i missed this , i missed you all , it made me realise why the past Y E A R i had been unhappy on here but also why my muse had been falling apart , because i wasn’t doing what i wanted , because i made a decision to please someone in fear of losing a friendship. i was unsure on how to turn back as soon as i realised , that i had made a mistake - and i am sorry for that , because - i know some of you missed mason as much as i missed writing him with you - i owe you this apology , and you need to hear it , that i missed this , that i missed it all. - so i am sorry. i’m here to say THANK YOU for having stuck with me for YEARS. i’m actually glad to have you all here i ain’t gonna fuckig lie.THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME LIFE , FOR JUST BEING SO SWEET AND GREAT AND ABSOLUTELY FUCKING TALENTED Y’ALL. i genuinely LOVE you all so fucking much it’s C R A Z Y.
you guys , i am so glad to be back - i am SO FUCKING GLAD TO BE BACK. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU AND THANK YOU.
#*// 𝕲𝖚𝖈𝖈𝖎 𝖙𝖊𝖓𝖓𝖎𝖘 𝖘𝖍𝖔𝖊𝖘 𝖗𝖚𝖓𝖓𝖎𝖓’ 𝖋𝖗𝖔𝖒 𝖞𝖔𝖚𝖗 𝖎𝖘𝖘𝖚𝖊𝖘 | ooc ; cryingkim#( ʏ'ᴋɴᴏᴡ ; ʏᴏᴜ'ʀᴇ ᴀs ʙᴏʀɪɴɢ ᴀs ᴄʀʏɪɴɢ ᴋɪᴍ | .ooc )#*// 𝕲𝖚𝖈𝖈𝖎 𝖙𝖊𝖓𝖓𝖎𝖘 𝖘𝖍𝖔𝖊𝖘 𝖗𝖚𝖓𝖓𝖎𝖓’ 𝖋𝖗𝖔𝖒 𝖞𝖔𝖚𝖗 𝖎𝖘𝖘𝖚𝖊𝖘 | follow forever ; cryingkim#( ᴘʟs ɢɪᴠᴇ ᴛʜɪs sᴍᴏʟ ʙᴇᴀɴ sᴏᴍᴇ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ; ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴅᴇsᴇʀᴠᴇ ɪᴛ | .promo )#// honestly yo guys deserve the fucking world.#// like for reals. YOU DO.
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Unspoken (Ishimaru x OC Kazuki Saito)
Of course they both knew that something was there, but they both thought that they were just very good friends. Neither had even considered the possibility of something more than that. After all, they both had little experience with friends and no experience with love. … “You know, I could simply stand, Ishimaru-san.” Kazuki said from outside of one of the school’s storage facilities. “Nonsense! You walk with a cane. I won’t allow you to stand for an entire period! Plus, you’re the one that offered to serve as hall monitor with me.” Kiyotaka came out holding a spare chair over his head. “Here, I insist that you take this!” “U-understood…” Kazuki reluctantly took the chair and set it down, before carefully sitting. “Thank you very much, Ishimaru-san. I a-appreciate it.” “Of course! Anything for my friend!” Kiyotaka saluted happily. Kazuki smiled lightly “You just l-love that word don’t you?” “Which word?” “Friend. You say it…rather often.” “D-does it bother you!? I’m sorry, I-“ “N-no, I am not bothered by it at all! In fact, it is…quite nice, to hear someone call me that…” Kiyotaka breathed a sigh of relief. “O-oh…I’m glad, because…” Kiyotaka looked down awkwardly. “I…really like saying it. I’m not…sure why.” Kazuki paused for a moment, almost in shock, before looking at his friend and saying “I feel…e-exactly the same…” “Not surprising, but definitely relieving!” “Good…good.” … The next day during his free period, Kiyotaka was in the library, a common occurrence for him, this time studying Latin phrases. While he was engrossed in the book, Mondo entered the library, his sharp walk contrasting the quiet environment without a word. “Sup man?” Kiyotaka didn’t seem to hear him at all and chose to simply flip to the next page. “Bro?” Still no response. “TAKA! FUCKING LISTEN!” Kiyotaka finally looked up. “Oh, hey bro! Please do not yell in the library. This is meant to be a place of quiet study and tranquility! Nothing should disturb that!” Kiyotaka immediately realized his mistake and covered his mouth. “Well, I wouldn’t have ta yell if ya’d just listen the first fuckin’ time.” Mondo sighed deeply “Anyway, watcha up to? I don’t remember you takin’ Latin.” Kiyotaka’s response was immediate and had some sort of snap to it. “Oh, I’m not! However, Kazuki is taking Latin and I promised to help him. I tried to tell him that he would do well on his own, but he insisted. Something about my ‘superior organizational abilities.’” “Ah, that dandy? I should’ve fuckin’ known. You’re getting close with him, huh?” “Please don’t refer to him as a ‘dandy.’ That’s simply offensive. Also, of course we’re getting close! We are friends after all. Why wouldn’t we be close?” “No, man, I mean you’re gettin’…close.” As Mondo said this he winked as deviously as possible. Kiyotaka responded flatly, completely oblivious to the wink. “That’s…the same thing you just said. I’d ask that you refrain from repeating yourself.” Mondo emphatically facepalmed, whispering “This thick motherfucker.” “What was that? Be clear with your words!” “No, Taka, I mean CLOSE. As in intimate. Ya know, boyfriends? Is that clear enough for ya?!” “Gah…!” Kiyotaka seemed to completely freeze. “Taka?” As if he was a literal broken record, Kiyotaka uttered “Wha…wha…wha…” for an entire minute. Thus, Mondo decide to handle Kiyotaka’s sputtering the same way that he’d handle a real broken record; by punching. As of on cue, Kiyotaka uttered a resounding “WHATWHATWHATWHATWHAT!?!?!?” “Umm…bro? You feelin’ okay?” “NO! I DON’T THINK I AM! I..I FEEL WEIRD! AAAHHHHH!” Kiyotaka put his hands against his head, as if not wanting to hear something. At point, others in the library were beginning to shoot the pair dirty looks. Mondo sighed “Jeezuz.” Shortly, he dragged Kiyotaka out of the library and got him a safe distance away before punching him again, this time in his face. His nose bled a bit, but not severely. Taka clutched his nose on instinct. “B-bro, why would you-?” “Shaddup and listen! Now, ya said you feel ‘weird.’ Good weird or bad weird?” “Both! N-neither! Umm…I DON’T KNOW!” “Keep goin’…” Kiyotaka looked at the ground as he spoke, thoroughly embarrassed “I…I really like Kazuki. I mean…he’s one of my best friends…and this weird feeling…it’s kind of like what I feel when I’m with him…” “What!? Why didn’t ya say somethin’ earlier?” “I…I thought it was normal…” “You thought…a feeling like that…was normal…?” “Y-Yes! Like…like something you feel with all of your friends…” “Didja ever feel that way with me…? Anyone else?” Kiyotaka’s eyes widened and he looked up “Umm…no…” “THEY WHY WOULD YOU THINK IT WAS FUCKING NORMAL!?” “Gah!” Kiyotaka quickly looked down again “U-Umm, my most sincere apologies. I should have been wiser…maybe I should have studied a book on love!” Kiyotaka formally bowed, now furiously crying. Mondo sighed, this time solemnly, and put his hand behind his head “Dammit, I’m sorry…c’mon stop cryin’.” Kiyotaka sniffed “Y-Yeah…Yeah. Sorry…” “So, you were sayin’? I’m thinking there’s a ‘but’ coming up?” “Yes…I told you how I feel…b-but…these feelings…they’re not appropriate for a school environment…” Mondo thought for a moment, and finally came up with the genius response “Why?” “Wh-why…?” “Yeah, why!?” “Umm…b-because…!” “That ain’t a reason.” “I…” Kiyotaka stood for a few minuets, obviously in shocked contemplation. Suddenly, he smiled. It was somehow different than his normal smile, but Mondo couldn’t pin down how. “You know what…I think you’re right bro!” It was now Mondo’s turn to be surprised “W-wait, no shit?” “Now, if you’ll excuse me, I have research to do!” Kiyotaka cheerily saluted and quickly walked away. Even if it was an urgent situation, he couldn’t run in the halls. Mondo watched as Kiyotaka walked out of his sight. “What the fuck just happened?” … Kazuki ambled through the halls, reading through his Latin dictionary. While it may have been dangerous for most people to walk and read, Kazuki had never had a problem with it and he didn’t plan to start on this day. He technically should’ve been in the library during his free period, but Kiyotaka has insisted on doing private research before they studied together, so Kazuki found it pertinent to leave him be. “Venditionis. That would be…s-selling.” Kazuki said this aloud, presumably to no one. However, someone did approach shortly after he uttered these words. “Hey Kaz!” Hirono greeted her friend with a small wave. Kazuki looked at her over the top of his book. “Salve Ishikawa-san! Quid tu agis?” “I’m just putting up posters for our school fundraiser.” Hirono held up some blue tape and then sighed sarcastically “Send the girl with two prosthetic legs to put up the posters. Great idea on the student council’s part.” Kazuki replied with equal sarcasm “Sent you…that’s odd. I seem to r-recall you asking to be put on the job because you needed more service hours for your degree. Perhaps I’m simply mi-misremembering. ” Kazuki snickered, though not loudly enough for Hirono to hear. “In any case, do you need a-assistance madame?” “Some Ultimate Gentleman you are! That should have been the first thing you asked.” Kazuki adjusted his glasses nonchalantly “You directed sarcasm towards me first. I simply re-retaliated. So…sh-shall I take that as a no, then?” “Yeah, no, I don’t need any help. After all, the student council gave ME this job. I’ll do it, no problem at all!” “Th-that is what I like to hear. I m-must congratulate you on you efforts, Ishikawa-san.” “Aww, thanks Kaz. Hey, speaking of the student council, how are you and Taka doing?” Kazuki donned a confused expression “Th-that was…a sudden change of topic…” “C’mon, just answer the question! How are you two doing?” Hirono asked this question with a slight touch of urgency. “Umm…I am…n-not exactly sure how to answer…” “Why’s that?” “Well, f-for one thing…Ishimaru-san and I are two different people. To answer your qu-question, I would need to give you…t-two answers…” “Umm, Kaz, that’s not exactly what I meant.” Kazuki then grew a bit more confused “…Then…wh-what did you mean…? Hirono showed her disappointment plainly “Do you really not have any clue what I’m trying to imply here?” “N-no, Ishikawa-san…I do not even have the f-foggiest notion…” “Geez, okay…umm…ah, yes! Kazuki, have you ever wanted a boooyfrieeend…?” Hirono made sure to stretch the last word in a semi-suggestive manner. However, Kazuki took no notice if this but instead said “D-do you insist on attempting to c-confuse me today, madame?” “What?” “I have m-multiple male friends. I…assumed that you were a-aware of that…” “Ugggggh…” Hirono clenched the bridge of her nose in frustration. “E-excuse me, am I…causing you undue stress? M-my apologies, I r-really should-“ “No Kaz! Boyfriend! One word! You get me!?” “No…” “Huh…!?” “What is a…’b-boyfriend?’” Kazuki uttered the final word with air quotes. “…” “Madame…?” “ARE YOU SERIOUS!?” “Umm…I-I…” “HOW CAN SOMEONE SO SMART BE THIS SOCIALLY DUMB!?” “P-perhaps you could calmly explain to me what a…’b-boyfriend’ is…? It’s possible that I am aware of it, just…under a d-different name.” Hirono sighed solemnly “Okay. A boyfriend is a guy that you want to have a closer relationship with. Like love.” Kazuki’s look of confusion didn’t fade. “…” “Kazuki?” “I…d-do not get it…” Hirono looked both shocked and crestfallen “Wh-What’s there not to get?” “Many things…the cl-closest thing that I can relate to this ‘boyfriend’ is a husband, but…there are m-many differences there…” “H-husband!? Nonono, a person is a boyfriend BEFORE marriage and then they become your husband!” “B-before…marriage? Th-there is a…step before marriage?” “What are you talking about!? Of course there is!” “Not that…I have e-ever know of…” “…WHAT!?” “Everyone that I have ever kn-known, including my parents, has had a spouse p-picked for them…by their parents or legal guardians. They often meet for the f-first time on their wedding day. Also, they do not marry for ‘love,’ they m-marry…for money and/or status.” Hirono covered her mouth in shock. She was sad, but couldn’t explain why. “D-damn…sometimes I…forget how rich you are…” Kazuki noticed her recoiling “I-l am really n-not trying to f-flaunt my money or to be a-arrogant I am just…I am just so genuinely confused right now…I have no idea what we are speaking about…” “B-but that’s…s-so…fucked up!”Hirono began to cry. “H-Hirono…!” Without even asking, Kazuki hugged Hirono “Dang it…wh-what kind of Gentleman am I…? T-to make one of my best friends cry…disgraceful…I…I apologize…” Kazuki let Hirono go. “D-don’t apologize Kaz. I just feel…I’m fine now! Thank you!” Hirono smiled genuinely, despite her tears. “Y-you are welcome…” … Hirono found Kiyotaka in the library the next day, which was no surprise to her. He was readying a book called “Relationship Milestones: How Long Should You Wait?” Hirono began to think it might be good that she was about to interrupt him. Taking a more tactful route than Mondo, Hirono tapped on Kiyotaka’s book. As soon as she did, he quickly marked his page, closed and put down the book and snapped to attention. “Ah, Hirono! Nice to see you my fellow student council member. How may I help you?” “Taka, all this research is…to ask out Kazuki, right?” Kiyotaka’s expression instantly changed to panic “Wha…wha…h-how d-did-“ “I heard about it from Mondo. Listen, I think that you might want to…give up…” “Give up? Why!?” “Well…you know how rich Kazuki is, right?” “Of course. He comes from one of the richest families in Japan, the Saito family. Both of the elder Saito’s are now deceased, so Kazuki had inherited both of their fortunes. How does this relate to the topic of me giving up?” Hirono thought “Does this guy seriously research…everything?” However, she said, “I’m getting to it! Well, I heard about what you’re trying to do from Mondo two days ago, so yesterday I saw Kaz and tired to…y-you know…” “No, I don’t.” Hirono twirled her hair awkwardly “I tried to…help things along…” “H-help things…along…?” “That’s not important right now!” Hirono seemed borderline furious about that part. “So, we talked for a while, and…since he’s so rich…he…” Hirono looked obviously sad. “H-Hirono, do you-“ “No I don’t need help.” Hirono retorted “He’s only ever seen arranged marriages, Taka! He wasn’t even aware of what a boyfriend was until I told him yesterday! He’s never even…heard of a marriage for love.” “…” “Taka…the concept of love is foreign to him. It took him such a long time to understand love between friends and he’s never really experienced true familial love…I doubt that he’d understand romantic love.” Kiyotaka had his eyes closed, thinking deeply “Hmm…” “What is it?” Kiyotaka suddenly opened his eyes “I truly thank you for the information, Ma’am, but I must respectfully refuse to give up! If anything, this is only a reason to try harder!” Hirono was dumbfounded “T-Taka…” “No battle was ever won by giving up! Battles are won trough uncompromising hard work and discipline! This situation is no different…I’m sure that I can do it! I’m a hundred percent sure, in fact! I want to be the person to make him feel that way…I want to…help him understand…” Hirono sat for a moment, processing the information that she had just been given as if she was a buffering computer. When she recovered, she smiled lightly and said “Well then…you’re a lucky man, Kiyotaka Ishimaru.” Kiyotaka smiled in the same manner “Let’s hope that I am.” … The next day Kiyotaka was in the student council meeting room, pacing. He had about a thousand thoughts at once, but couldn’t pin any of them down. So, he simply continued pacing and looked at his watch. It was just about coming up to the meeting time though Kazuki always said that being on time made him five minuets late. Then, Taka heard a knock at the door. It was, of course, his invited guest. “I-I am…so very s-sorry to be late, Ishimaru-san!” Kazuki bowed, gritting his teeth in embarrassment. “That’s not a trouble at all, Kazuki! Please, sit down.” Kazuki did as he told “So, what did you…want to talk to me a-about?” “Umm…I-I…Ahem, uhh…” “Ishimaru-san, wh-whatever it is, I’m sure that it’s not as big as you’re m-making it out to be.” “Ah!” Kiyotaka’s eyes widened, but he seemed more motivated than surprised “Okay…okay, this may sound rude, but…Hirono informed me about the conversation you had with her. About…the arranged marriages and such…” “Arranged marriage…? I’ve never heard it called that, but I s-suppose that…would be accurate…A-apologies, go on.” “So…would it correct to say that…love is an alien emotion to you…?” The words felt heavy as Kiyotaka said them. Kazuki was suddenly stuck silent, but he nodded his head slowly. Kiyotaka sat in a chair directly facing Kazuki and breathed in heavily “I understand…love…romance…it’s all so…foreign to me…but…I look at you and I know that…I want to figure it out for you…with you…b-by…e-experience…” Kazuki stayed silent for a second, though ever moment seemed like an eternity to Kiyotaka. “I-Ishimaru-san, a-are you…!?” “Yes Kazuki, I am…I am asking you formally now…would you please do me the honor…of being my boyfriend?” “I…I…I…” Kazuki paused for what must have seemed like a millennia “Y-Yes…” “D-did…did you just…say yes!?” “I…th-think I did…!” Kiyotaka smiled the widest he had in ages “Th-thank you so much Kazuki! This…this is the happiest I’ve been in such a long time! I almost can’t believe that you said yes!” Kazuki smiled as well “I…r-relate. So…what kinds of things do umm…‘boyfriends’ do…?” Kiyotaka cleared his throat “Uhhh, well, according to m-my research, I’ve found some things that would…work at this stage. So, first of all, boyfriends usually sit close to each other…” Kiyotaka immediately moved his chair to be closer to Kazuki “…and, they do things like…like holding hands…!” “Holding…h-hands…?” “Yes, it’s just like-“ Kiyotaka carefully took Kazuki’s hand in his own “-this.” “Ah, I s-see. What is the p-purpose of this?” “It is to reassure your partner! To make them feel safe knowing that you’re there.” Kiyotaka looked own at their linked hands with a smile “At least…that’s what this means to me…” Kiyotaka rubbed the back of Kazuki’s hand with his thumb “D-do you…do you like this, with our hands joined?” “Y-Yeah, I think I do…my h-heart is beating irregularly fast.” “Ah, that’s normal. No need to worry, you don’t have condition! That’s what I though at first too, but apparently that’s just a common reaction when your partner is near!” Kazuki looked genuinely surprised “Interesting…” Kazuki looked in to Kiyotaka’s eyes “A-anything else?” “Well, we could also…say nice things to each other…” “Nice things…? L-like what…? Could I have an e-example?” “Yes, of course! So, for example…normally I’d say that behavior like this was against school policy, but…Kazuki…” Kiyotaka squeezed Kazuki’s hand slightly and looked into his eyes “Y-you’re…you’re worth breaking a rule for.” Kazuki blushed severely “Ah…! Th-that was…” “W-was…was that good?” Kiyotaka said hopefully. “Y-Yes…great…” “Good! I was practicing that for a while! I meant every word of it too!” “L-let me try…um…I…I’d break my Gentleman’s Pact for you…” Kiyotaka now blushed equally “K-Kazuki…!” “Did I…?” “Yes! That…felt amazing to hear!” “W-were there any other things…?” “One more. We can give each other nicknames or what are know as pet names.” “P-pet names?” “They’re little names that we call each other and only each other. Things like honey or darling. Myself, I think I’ll just stick with your name.” “Y-Yes, likewise.” “Understood! Instead of calling you Kaz like everyone else, I’ll call you Kazu…is that fine?” “Y-yes…I like it!” “Very well! What would you like to call me?” “Umm, everyone calls you Taka, so…maybe I could call you…Ishi?” “Sounds great to me!” The two of them sat together holding hands for what felt like an eternity and a single moment all at once, until the school bell rang. This was the first time that neither of them were sure if they actually wanted to go to class. Reluctantly, Kiyotaka stood and Kazuki shortly followed him. “Well, let’s go to to class Kazu!” Kiyotaka smiled at his new boyfriend “Y-Yeah…here we go Ishi.” The pair then walked out of the student council room…still holding hands.
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Who is Lay?
♡ Zhang Yixing
♡ where to start i love him so much
♡ Every exo-l is soft for this boy
♡ The most hardworking person on earth
♡ VOCAL
♡ King of China
♡ He is the china line
♡ I wanna cry while hugging him my ot12 feels
♡ “Healing unicorn”
♡ Suho’s precious kid
♡ I’m pretty sure sm hates him
♡ Dance line
♡ Visual
♡ Actor
♡ Basically perfect
♡ CONFUSED AF
♡ Has a separate fan base called Xingmis
♡ Yi(Xing) + Nai(mi)
♡ Yixing's name + My name
♡ Chanyeol is the biggest xingmi
♡ As you can tell from the name
♡ He is S O F T
♡ His softness is nothing like ksoo’s softness
♡ We call him unicorn because he is literally unreal
♡ He is the softest member
♡ He is just pure fluff
♡ Is cute
♡ Really cute
♡ Even if he just stands there doing nothing but existing
♡ he is cute
♡ When he is breathing
♡ When he is smiling
♡ When he’s confused
♡ Is the type of person who would fix the plushie’s bangs when a plushie’s eyes are closed and say
♡ “now you can see”
♡ he is literally an angel
♡ He would do anything for his fans
♡ Literally anything
♡ Reads all the fan letters at the airport
♡ Males sure he performs well otherwise thinks that people’s money go to waste
♡ makes sure everyone has a pic with him before leaving the conference he was on
♡ gives handwritten invitations in chinese and english which he wrote for his bd
♡ translated his album “Lose Control” to japanese,english and chinese
♡ chinese---->cantonese+mandarin
♡ Gives members special bags called “hope bags”so that they won’t meet any troubles
♡ His pureness can’t be explained with words
♡ While we’re talking about how soft he is
♡ I wonder if the blindfold he uses while he’s dancing to artificial love is also soft
♡ HE IS A STRIPPER
♡ I ain’t joking i’m serious
♡ I feel like he has a dark past coz those moves are pure sin
♡ He often likes to kill exo-ls with kai
♡ As a soft unicorn,he can also turn into a wild stripper on the stage
♡ I see hip thrusts
♡ Once he was performing Lose Control,his belt opened
♡ EXO-L’S DEATH ANNIVERSARY
♡ I mean he is so rude
♡ Has solo’s like Lose control,what u need? and monodrama
♡ Lose control is basically hip thrusts
♡ Along with lay’s heavy gaze and soft voice
♡ It’s just rude
♡ GIVE US A BREAK
♡ We ain’t complaining
♡ His looks are everything
♡ He is the visual king
♡ I have found so many rude gifs u guys have no idea
♡ His smile is everything
♡ When he smiles
♡ The world just stops for a minute
♡ It becomes a better world
♡ the sun shines a bit brighter
♡ the birds sing a bit happier
♡ This boy is srsly killing me SOMEONE SEND HELP PLS
♡ As he also works and promotes in china he has lots of photo shoots
♡ He is beautiful
♡ King of serving looks
♡ I’m just gonna put this here coz this is art
♡ He is literally so handsome
♡ I mean he’s breathtaking
♡ Every pic that he has no matter with or without make up
♡ is so precious cause he looks so freaking good in all of them
♡ I S E T H E R E A L
♡ I really dunno how to express this handsomeness
♡ BLESS HIS PARENTS
♡ Also an actor
♡ Played a cutie pie in his movie kung fu yoga w jackie chan
♡ Has a movie where he and his gay husband have a baby from the future lesbians called oh my god
♡ same
♡ i dunno what to say anymore
♡ Also Operation love where he is a character full of regrets
♡ but returns to the past and tries his best
♡ PROMOTE YIXING
♡ As i mentioned before,he has his own solo career
♡ His last album lose control killed all of exo-ls
♡ Has a studio in china
♡ His voice is so soothing
♡ His singing makes me want to punch myself
♡ Sings in many languages
♡ While we mention about languages
♡ His korean is just
♡ bootiful
♡ His korean teacher told him to get a gf
♡ HOW DARE YOU AJUSSI
♡ Often makes pronunciation mistakes
♡ “Members wet their pants”
♡ “Jurazil park”
♡ Said penis instead of pepper
♡ chanyeol was shook
♡ cameraman was shook
♡ exo-l were shook
♡ But its ok since we love him the way he is
♡ and baek often helps and explains him
♡ There’s a precious friendship called
♡ Baekxing
♡ Baek often explains him anything in korean
♡ They’re super cute
♡ Precious af
♡ Yixing just loves him so much
♡ Yixing just loves every member so much
♡ Baek is yixing’s nr.1 fan
♡ He also has a super confused side
♡ Always confused
♡ Bbh is his life saver
♡ Fangirl bbh mode on
♡ You can actually ship lay with any member since he’s a fluff ball
♡ ---->sulay
♡ He is suho’s most precious kid since he’s innocent and easygoing
♡ ----->xiulay
♡ --->Layhan
♡ #BRINGTHISBACK2K17
♡ #FUCKSM
♡ Even tough they’re former members he still keeps in touch with his brothers from china
♡ And supports them and their movies,music..etc
♡ also meets them in china
♡ I WANNA UGLY SOB RN I HATE YOU SM WHY THE FUCK KRISHANTAO LEFT MY OT12 FEELINGS
♡ also teaches sehun chinese
♡ Since he’s really kind and considerate towards people he’s loved by everyone
♡ His dance is everything you want in your life
♡ He is really passionate about dancing
♡ he is a choreographer
♡ What u need?’s choreo
♡ Lose contol’s choreo
♡ also helped they never know’s choreo
♡ Is close with 1m dance studio’s Kasper
♡ U can actually spot kasper in every sm dance practice video
♡ His moves are so smooth yet delicate
♡ he is an angel dancing
♡ I HAD TO
♡ He also ended saesang fans
♡ “as saesang fans have every information about us including our phone numbers,i’m expecting them to know teacher lee so man’s number too”
♡ YAS
♡ He is really hardworking
♡ produced an album in china
♡ Shot 2 movies,one w jackie chan
♡ shot a drama
♡ Promoted exo
♡ promoted his work
♡ performed his solo work
♡ sometimes danced sometimes sang
♡ Joined his brothers for the comeback
♡ BUT NOW SM WONT LET HIM COME BACK FUCK U SM
♡ Did all those things in half a year
♡ As we can tell
♡ overworks himself
♡ fainted twice
♡ The photos taken today at the airport was showing how tired he was
♡ he works nonstop
♡ he gotta rest
♡ he was working all the time when the rest of the members had time to rest
♡ I fucking hate sm
♡ He is the most precious kid i’ve ever seen
♡ #PROTECTLAYSQUAD2K17
♡ I swear if they comeback without lay i’ll fly to korea and let the sm building on fire after stabbing lee soo man 384737 times
♡ He is the cutest pls protect him
#lay#zhang yixing#exo#exo k#exo m#exo l#exo angst#exo scenario#exo smut#exo scenarios#suho#luhan#chanyeol#byun baekhyun#baekhyun#xiumin#chen#sehun#d.o#kai#kim jongin#kim jongdae#kim junmyeon
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My thoughts on Hamilton West End
Thoughts on Hamilton West End 21/12/17 (night after opening!)
(This is long as shit and very messy it's full of first impressions and random things I've remembered (mainly the funny bits ngl) all mixed up together I apologise but I needed to get it out somehow cos I'm not good at expressing emotions lol, also the words funny, excited and hyper are prolly overused i apologise)
Bearing in mind I have not seen the bway show and the creative team is largely the same so I'm sure I'll talk a Talk about thinks that are similar in both
Vic pal theatre is stunning it's just been renovated our seats were sick even though we were about half way up the upper circle we had a brilliant view of the stage and the stage still felt really close
On a vaguely related note I wore my 'AND PEGGY' baseball cap and 3 of the stewards said they liked it it was cute
Act 1
FIRST THINGS FIRST THE CHOREOGRAPHY WAS STUNNING. A mash up of hip hop, modern and ballet. How you even think if that I don't know. There was always SO MUCH going on and the energy was constant - wether they were synchronised doing the same thing or all doing something different from the Schuyler sisters on the high walkway or the ensemble doing lifts in pairs even or whatever it just made me wanna dance (lol bc I can't) I can't talk about it enough but I'll stop now because I'm not eloquent enough.
Burr - voice is really unique and it was kinda weird at first (may be due to being used to Leslie) but you got used to it and I think reall suited the character? His mannerisms and physicality were SO BURR. Also was really funny! All his little one liners were done really funny-ly and well thought out.
Before they had King George to do a little announcement about phones and I love it also meant I was ready for the dum dum dumdum bc I was super nervous (in a good way?)
A.ham (song) - ahh it's such a good intro. when burr first came on there was an orange yellow light behind him and it made a super long shadow onto the stage and it was p o w e r f u l.
When they all came to the front of the stage in a line I was so excited because I've been waiting for that moment for 2 years
I LOVED Jamel Westman as Ham he was sick. He's just come out of RADA how do you deal with taking on a part like that with such little experience whoa . I must say that I think I liked him a lot more in act 2 than act 1 he seemed a bit stiff in act 1 but that may have been be I'm used to Lin who I think played him more nerdy and hyper? Kinda. I love both but Westman was insane. Also had a really nice singing voice.
Angelica slated my entire being Rachel John is perfect for that part
George Washington had a husky singing voice and it suited him so well
KING GEORGE III is possibly my favourite character ever he's so funny and extra.
I don't think Michael Jibson had the best singing I've heard in that role (but like who can even sing that it's high to kudos to him for hitting those notes) his 'kill your friends and family' was hilarious he sang the up until 'and family' which he said really seriously and then he left a massive pause where he just stared at the audience. I giggled. On the last da da dadadaaa's he did a little shoulder wiggle which was funny too! There was a couple of points over the three songs where he held long notes for even longer than necessary which was good too
Now my friends went and saw it in previews a couple of weeks ago and said they didn't really like Rachel Ann Go as Eliza so I did go in expecting to not like her as much ( I trust my friends opinions) which obviously wasn't great and I tried to go in with an open mind but I kinda understand why you might not like her however overall I thought she was good and I liked her a lot more in act 2 than act 1. At first I felt she was almost too excitable and hyper which more of a Peggy thing (speaking of, Peggy was really grumpy and cute which was funny) although Eliza did become a lot more restrained throughout the show which I think was a good choice as it helped show age and I think was more Eliza anyway. I thought her Best of Wives and Best of Women was perfect though. He American ACCENT though was not great I hate to say it but it was very British a lot of the time and in the 'ohhh I do I do I do I dooo' bit in helpless she sounded cockney? I'm sorry how
AWE IN HELPLESS ANGELICA COULDN'T GET ELIZA'S VEIL ON IN TIME SHE TRIED LIKE TWICE AND IT JUST SLID RIGHT IFF I FELT SO BAD It wasn't super noticeable though and things are bound to go wrong
In story of tonight reprise when Lauren's goes I've seen wonders great and small they all looked at Laf bc he was really short it was funny
Most of Wait for it was really still which was nice as it gave a rest from the crazy continual movement and action from the last few scenes. Also Burr has a peng voice
Ten duel commandments was super intense ahh
YORKTOWN WAS SO EXCITING IVE SEEEN ALL GHE PROMOS FOR THAT SONG AND TO ACTUALLY SEE IT LIVE SO EXHILARATING Westman was a stern leader and it worked really well
You could just tell that the audience thought it was the end of act one but NOPE SIT DOWN WE STILL GOT MORE
Also cheer on "immigrants: we get the job done" was British and polite but still there and I was READY FOR IT
on 'I'm so blue' in What Comes Next? Kings George did a little frustrated stamp and the red light he was standing snapped to blue it was good
Dear theodosia was super cute Burr and Ham were in matching costumes but Burr's waistcoat was purple and Ham's was green
Laurens' death was SAD but Cleve September is PERFECT for that role
Felt the transition from Laurens' death to not stop was bit quick, like I needed to feel sad for longer, it just sort of went straight into not stop
NON-STOP DAMN after the treasury or state bit Ham's 'lEtS gO' was so exciteable loved it.
On angelicas as it about her husband they got to the don't forget to writteee part and Angelica got taken away on the revolve Eliza was put into her place it was SO CLEVER near the end the staircase came into the middle and Washington was on the top and it was I N T E N S E
Clapped a freaking lot at the end of act one
Act 2
Dad called jeferson 'purple rain prince guy'
Seriously though the purple velvet was A Look
SUCH AN CRAZY Jefferson! Did loads of dancing and jumping and twirls is was so funny how he would just suddenly go into it
Ham snaked Washington when going in for a handshake he fully cut him off
I'm Take A Break they changed "John Adams doesn't have a real job anyway" to "the Vice President is not a real job anyway" which I think was changed so it's clearer to the audience who they're talking about
The cabinet battles were fab like I said before Westman was a calmer Hamilton but was more realistic 'We will reconvene after a brief reset' was said really sweetly to the audience like nothing was going wrong it was funny
Before Say No To This my friend just whispered Owh Dear really quietly and honestly? Mood
Christine Allado did a super sultry voice which was strong but deffo works for Maria.
The room where it happens was sick!!!
At one point the whole stage was in red lighting except for a bright white box that Burr was in it was so cool. Also VOCALS in this were amazing The Riffs!!!!
Cleve September as Phillip was cute you could really see the age difference between 9 and 19
The vocals in One Last Time we great "George Washington's going homeeeee" had me shook
In I Know Him King George seemed really crazy and manically smiled on 'that poor man their going to eat him alive'
And the crazy laughs at the end was brilliantly MANIC
He didn't leave at the end of his song just sat lower stage right and danced to the beginning of The Adams Administration which was funny but what was even better was that half way through his little introduction Burr noticed the king watching a gave him a odd look and the king just did a hand wave to tell him to continue and kept shimmying
WESTMAN'S VOICE IN HURRICANE WAS BEAUTIFUL
REYNOLDS PAMPHLET WAS FUNNY RVEN THOUGH I FELT BAD JEFFERSON LOOKED SO HAPPY AMD THE SET LOOKED REALLY COOL WITH ALL THE PAPERD FLYINV AROUND HAM BUT I COULDN'T EVEN FOCUS ON ANGELICAS BiT BECAUSE I WAS BUSY LAUGHING AT KING GEORGE DANCING WITH THE CHORUS AND ADDING HIS ONE SHEET IF PAPER TO THE MESS
oh but I loved was when Angelica arrived and the ensemble too way her bags in one motion it was slick and I enjoyed it
Burn was nice but I think Rachelle Ann Go made it a bit too vibrato-y which became kind of annoying (also I kinda felt though the entire thing she was forcing a really classical voice which was nice but didn't really work) her voice is amazing though apart from that and I really felt the reserved sorta anger in the performance
Blow Is All Away was SAD I COULD HEAR EVERYONE ONE CRYING AROUND ME, good dying (lol) on September's part
I wasn't a fan of Eliza's scream/cry when Phillip died I'm not sure what it was I didn't like but her counting WITH him was PErFECT
It's Quiet Uptown is the saddest thing ever lemme tell you. I don't cry. I cannot remember the last time I cried, particularly not at normal sad things. I saw Les Mis two weeks ago and didn't even get tear-y, so you can imagine how freaking sad this song has to be to get me to almost cry. I had pretty watery eyes and one hell of a snotty nose. It was bad. The lines like 'the unimaginable' were the worst. If you thing the cast recording is sad just wait until you see it live
After Jefferson came in with "can we get back to politics" he said it like he was tired of all the sad personal stuff which was funny and the Madison came on saying please and his voice broke like he had been crying at It's Quiet Uptown as well which was funny and it provided some well needed comic relief
When ham said he was voting for Jefferson Jeff did his twirls and dances again which was great and burr looked SO MAD
Your Obedient Servant was passive aggressive af it was great. And the ensemble was doing like lighthearted ballet and around them which actually worked really well Line change from "weehawkin, dawn" to "New Jersey, dawn" I'm assuming cos they've mentioned New Jersey more so it was clearer? Idk
Like I already said Best if Wives And Best of Women was 10/10 perfect
Ok so the world was wide enough Giles Terra (Burr) didn't do The Line™ in a really emotional way he did IT angry bc let's be honest you don't wanna compete yourself to Leslie on that so I enjoyed the change. HAMS SPEACH WHEN HE GEST SHOT IS SO GOOD I COULD NOT DEAL WITH IT
Also the choreo when Burr says "they row job back across the Hudson" they did this cool rowing move next to Ham and with the revolve it looked like they were on a boat!
I thought Eliza was quite good in WLWDWTYS "the orphanage" is such a nice bit
The gasp at the end was not made clear however. I understand it as Eliza seeing the audience and realising that her work has come true and that the legacy continues right? I only know that bc I read it beforehand, I think it could have been made clearer by the house lights come if up slightly so the audience knows Eliza seeing us. Also the way the gasp/hand move was done it made it seam Eliza was about to go into some really stereotypical opera singing? I just think she could have referenced the audience more but it's a really cute idea that I like.
All the cast bowed at the same time it was so cute and important bc everyone put in so much effort and they all deserved to be together
Straight up standing ovation oc
The play out music at the end was a really jazzy mashup of the songs and if my brain had been fully functioning after the show I would remember what songs but it was sick and they did the classic bum bumbumbum bum bum bum! At the end and the red and white bulls eye lighting they had for the duels flashed it was sick
SPEAKING OF LIGHTING IT WAS INCREDIBLE
THERE WAS LIKE A LIGHTING CUE EVERY 3 SECONDS I DINT KNOW HOW THAY MANAGED IT BUT IT WAS ALL SO WELL THOUGHT OUT AND CLEVER LIKE THERE WAS LITTLE LIGHTS AROUND THE EDGES LIKE STREET GRATES THAT IF LIKE BURR WAS IN ONE SIDE IF THE STAGE AND HAM ON OTHER THE GRATES WOULD BE ORANGE ON ONE SIDE AND BLUE ON THE OTHER. EVERY. SINGLE. DETAIL. Yes I'm gonna rant bc techies don't get enough respect
I've definitely missed so many things I wanted to put here but I was quite overwhelmed which I think is understandable when I've been waiting for over two years for it but it was so so worth it.
Ok I'm done I might add more if I remember goodnight folks
#Hamilton#Hamilton West End#personal#thoughts#refff#musicals#Alexander Hamilton#Aaron Burr#Lin Manuel Miranda
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heyooo i’m manu and i’m 18 and imma be real honest with you guys all my characters are trash and they are all true honest messes but i premisse to do better in the future so i think that should count for something. this post got long af bc i have 0 self control, and after i started talking about them i just wanted to lay out all the important info about them, buuuuuut if you are reading this we should highkey plot (i got some possible connections here but like if you come to me we can talk about something different or something more specific to your character ja feel?). fair warning tho there is some triggering content on my chars backstories so i put triggers related to the character before their facts.
JOÃO VICENTE DE CASTRO, CIS MALE, HE/HIM — have you met william rafael carvalho da fonseca yet ? the thirty one year old is known for being both enthusiastic and creative, but also very confrontational and reckless. born in são paulo, brazil, liam now lives in southwark, as a reporter.
tw: emotional abuse, substance abuse
R A N D O M F A C T S + H I S T O R Y ; ;
hates figures of authority
liam does shit just because he thinks it’s funny to aggravate people
he will fight anyone and anything at anytime
besides that tho he is really fun guy and most of the time he’ll just try to be nice and have fun with people and make jokes.
he is the kind of person that takes jokes way too far
would 100% fill your house with balloons for a prank
can play the guitar really well but only really plays wonderwall cause he knows people hate it
his family is really rich. he works and he does his own thing totally unrelated to the family business but he highkey lives knowing that if he ever needs anything he can just call up his parents and it will get done.
he lives in an apartment that his mother bought him as a birthday gift.
his father is from brazil and his mother is from london.
he has two younger siblings a sister and a brother
he was born in brazil. when he was younger his parents were married and he stayed around there for most of his younger life
his father wasn’t the best person to be around tho he was really demanding and he was constantly belittling and putting him down bc liam failed to live up to his expectations.
liam’s mother never really did anything when his father was around but she would sometimes come to his aid after the damaged had already been done and give him stuff as if that could solve the whole issue.
his parents got divorced when he was fifteen. his mother moved back to the uk but stayed in brazil with his siblings.
after that he would go back and forth between brazil and the uk to spend time with his parents but he finished high school still in brazil.
his father wanted him to take over the family business and be someone liam most definitely wasn’t. liam still tried and he went to college for a few months but one day he got home drunk and his father started screaming @ him about how terrible of son he was so he was pretty much done. the next morning he packed up his stuff and moved in with a friend until his mother bought him a ticket to fly to the uk
after that he moved to london and he’s been in london ever since.
he pretty much went to college to become a journalist just to spite his father
he drinks way too much but he also smokes weed and he does cocaine sometimes
he legitimately cannot stand being bored or staying still for a while so he’ll figure something to entertain himself at all times even if it is extremely dangerous or downright stupid
he doesn’t have that great of a self-steem. lots of the stuff his father said still resonates with him and even tho liam avoids thinking about it most of the time he still feels bad for not becoming who his father wanted him to be, and not taking over the family business
P L A Y L I S T ;;
g-eazy - sober ft. charlie puth
g-eazy & halsey - him & I
the weeknd - dark times ft. ed sheeran
blackbear - idfc
blackbear - do re mi
post malone - rockstar ft. 21 savage
eden - drugs
P O S S I B L E C O N N E C T I O N S ;;
His siblings bc i’m out here for the family drama honestly. maybe one of his siblings took over the family business and that could aspire some drama bc it could been sort of like a betrayal? or maybe something happened in brazil and they moved to london to stay with him for a while bc reasons and liam thinks he has to be the responsible bigger brother but he is him so that is a problem.
one ex bc why not? and maybe it all ended really terribly bc they were always worried about the kind of stuff he was going to pull next in order to entertain himself. maybe he did something really stupid that put his life in danger and that was how it all ended
maybe someone who goes along with all of his stuff and they both have fun and do stupid shit together but maybe idk they just keep raising the stakes and it’s the type of thing that (if no one stops them or none of them stop to be the voice of reason) they’ll end up in las vegas getting married bc they had a bet that the other wouldn’t get married with a stranger
FRANÇOIS ARNAUD, CIS MALE, HE/HIM — have you met octavianus bruno gentille yet? the thirty five year old is known for being both loyal and optimistic, but also very unfocused and self indulgent. born in venice, bruno now lives in westminster, as a art history college professor.
R A N D O M F A C T S + H I S T O R Y ; ;
his name is octavianus but he legit thinks that is the dumbest name in the face of existence so he’ll usually go by bruno, his middle name. the only people who know his actual name are his family or people who have seen his id. if you want to annoy him just call him ‘octavianus bruno’ and watch him go from 0 to 100 real quick
legit the best out of all my children which doesn’t say much but still
he loves the idea of love, and the idea of falling head over hills and not really thinking straight only thinking about the other person. and he thinks romantic love is the most important thing someone can have in their life.
he gets himself to fall in love with people and then jumps head first into things, and he turns thing that could be really easy and make it complicated.
he is super loyal to his friends.
he would take a bullet for any of his friends
but he is legit very self involved and self focused he thinks of himself as this great person who is out to help others but he won’t take advice from anyone and he is solely focused on his romantic life + his feelings
besides that tho he is honestly trying which is more than you can say for any of my muses
he is really optimistic and revolutionary and thinks people are supposed to protest and fight for what they think is right and then they’ll turn the world into a better place.
he thinks that if you talk it out you can solve any problem
will not fight anyone tho no matter the circumstances
he is really a huge pacifist who thinks peaceful protest is the best way to get people’s attention
he wants everyone in the world to be happy and have equal opportunities and for everything to be great
he loves art more than anything else
he is the kind of person that starts five projects at the same time and ends up not finishing any of them.
the kind of dude you’ll ask ‘what’s your opinion on cookies?’ and he’ll legit talk for an hour if you don’t stop him.
bruno was born in october 15, 1982 in Venice, Italy.
his father was originally italian, his mother from london.
he spent his early childhood with both his parents in italy, but when he turned five, his parents got divorced and he moved back to the uk. with his mother.
his father stayed back in italy.
he used to come by and visit every so often. once a year his mother sent him spent winter break or summer vacation with his father in italy.
his father used to tell him stories about how he loved his mother and about how ‘he would give her the world if he had been given a chance’ and that created an idea in bruno’s mind about how there are soulmates and perfect relationships out there and now he is constantly chasing it
but since no relationship is ever perfect his relationships will usually end bc of that
he is really extra about everything honestly especially love
P L A Y L I S T ; ;
dive - ed sheeran
all i ask - adele
coaster - khalid
P O S S I B L E C O N N E C T I O N S ;;
Maybe an ex that he wronged, someone that love him or they loved each other but it all ended bc bruno has no idea what a real relationship is and he can’t be an adult about his relationships.
Imma be real shitty for a second here but maybe some teacher student type of thing because if this asshole would romanticize something it would be some type of star crossed love relationship
maybe some nice and pure platonic relationship maybe like someone he is teaching art to or just someone who admires art and he is trying to be a good person and he is out there giving them advice and helping them out without asking for anything in return and maybe this person can call him out of his bullshit and they can have some sort of sibling relationship
JEFFREY DEAN MORGAN, CIS MALE, HE/HIM — have you met michael john baxter yet ? the forty five year old is known for being both caring and charismatic, but also very unfaithful and selfish. born in london, mike now lives in southwark, as a coffee shop owner.
tw: cheating
R A N D O M F A C T S + H I S T O R Y ; ;
michael sucks honestly 10/10 would not recommend but i love trash so here we are
he is irredeemable, don’t @ me
swear way too much
he wears leather jackets because he thinks he is cool
he is an idiot honestly
he thinks he is funny and he laughs at his own jokes
mostly only really cares about himself and it’s not that he is trying to be an asshole or anything but he’ll legit do shit and after he already shit the bad he’ll be like ‘oh riight that was bad’
he is an asshole but lowkey does not want to be one
he was married for many years and he and his wife had a daughter and things were all fine and dandy but this asshole has no self control and he cheated on his wife a few times,,, she found out and they tried to make things work for a while but he did again and then she throw him out
he lowkey hates himself for destroying his marriage but he isn’t really doing anything to be a better person so here we are
his family used to be very poor and he worked his ass off for everything he’s ever had and he is really really proud of that
he put himself through college by working two jobs and legit the only thing he can commit to are his professional aspirations.
after college he started working for other people even tho that wasn’t really why he went to business school and he saved every single dime until he was able to open up his own business
he started his career opening up night clubs and he had three pretty successful ones when his marriage fell apart
he is really charismatic tho and he’s always trying to make people laugh and trying to entertain people. he legit finds joy and making others happy and excited and that was why he excelled at his business bc he just was constantly making sure the place he was running was a place he would love to go, and a place he knew people legit have fun in.
after his marriage fell apart tho he sold all off them and tried to retire for a while and try to work on being a better person
he couldn’t stand not having a job and not working tho so he opened up a small coffee shop bc it was supposed to be something small he knew he could handle without working as much as he used to
he can be either really chill and sit down and talk about life and give you legit good advice that he totally wouldn’t follow if he was in the same situation or really wild and be the type of person that goes ‘do you wanna break something?’ depending on who’s with him.
he’ll literally go along with any idea you have.
P L A Y L I S T ; ;
ain’t no rest for the wicked - cage the elephant
animals - cage the elephant
hate to say i told you so - the hives
P O S S I B L E C O N N E C T I O N S ;;
his daughter cause legit i would love to play out this dynamics and see where we could take it? like it could be interesting bc he loves her, but the cheating could have affected the girl and the girl’s life in some way? or maybe it affected how she sees him and it could be some broken relationship or idk angst honestly whatever you have in mind
his ex-wife and idk my fella it could be like some one sided sort of thing where he stills loves her but he is still him aka an asshole? maybe she loves him too but she knows being with him is Not Great? imagine them trying to get back together but how can you trust someone after that type of thing and he is Legit Trying but it doesn’t seem to matter anymore? Imagine arguments and loving someone who is terrible, and throwing blame back and forth ( i put an ex connection in literally every character so far fjaslfj i’m sorry )
JAKE GYLLENHAAL, CIS MALE, HE/HIM — have you met thomas edmund faraday yet? the thirty six year old is known for being both honest and warmhearted, but also very demanding and proud. born in london, thomas now lives in kensington and chelsea, as a theoretical physicist and college professor.
tw: child neglect, drunk driving, death,
R A N D O M F A C T S + H I S T O R Y ; ;
he was born in a super rich family extremely loaded for generations type of thing
doesn’t know the real value of stuff honestly you could tell him that a cartoon of milk costs 50 bucks and he would believe you.
a heart of gold but also the type of asshole that will argue with you for hours (even if you are done with the argument) just to convince you you are wrong and he is right
honestly stale cinnamon roll been in this world too long too cynical
he went to a boarding private school when he was young, his parents honestly could not give less of shit about him. they were both really young and rich and wanted to enjoy life, so they would often ship thomas off to whatever they could find eg,: boarding school, summer camp, whatever kind of different program they would find
it wasn’t that they didn’t love him, but he would often get in the way of their plans. and they really just weren’t the best parents in town
thomas grew up always dreaming about having a real loving family like the ones in sitcoms and movies and that was his dream for most of his life
he was also highkey biggest nerd in the face of earth who loved star wars and star trek especially star trek because he fell in love with star trek the next generation and science fiction.
that was when he discovered his love for science.
he went to college and that when he met his wife and thomas was well on his way to make his dream come true
he and his wife got married, had a son, moved to his family’s house in kensington and chelsea and things were great and beautiful
things continued to advance in his career, thomas managed to work with what he wanted.
expect one day his wife and his son were both going back home after she’d picked him up from middle school and a drunk driver hit their car.
both his wife and his son died in a car accident and he highkey hasn’t been able to actually connect with anyone ever since.
he threw himself in his job after that and focused solely on his career
knows his family is gone but would never consider moving on bc that for him would be the same as forgetting them
highkey just wants love and a family and someone to care for that cares about him but is too terrified to put himself out there to loose the people he loves again.
P L A Y L I S T ; ;
white lie - the lumineers
little lion man - mumfords & sons
P O S S I B L E C O N N E C T I O N S ;;
something pure and fine where they slowly build trust and everything is fine?? no angst just love. this is lazy i know but love~ that’s all i want for him
JON BERNTHAL, CIS MALE, HE/HIM — have you met matthew nathaniel decker yet? the forty one year old is known for being both determined and caring, but also very sttuborn and blunt. born in austin, texas, matteo now lives in tower hamlets, as a criminal.
tw: war, death mention, violence
R A N D O M F A C T S + H I S T O R Y ; ;
the king of grumpiness honestly
annoyed 24/7
i know this meme is dead but honestly ‘looks like could kill you and could actually kill you’
once you are his friend he’ll protect you and love you and respect you
but also grunts about not functioning properly before a cup of black coffee
doesn’t know how to talk to people and be a nice enough human being and he’ll just say the shit that goes through his mind without realizing that he might sound rude.
he was born in a highkey patriotic family in austin texas
the army part of his backstory is pretty similar to frank castle’s in the comics ‘born’ which is also kinda like the punisher’s series but better bc i am petty and i don’t like the show
the first thing he did after turning eighteen was enlist himself in the army.
at first it was about doing his duty as an american and about fighting for the freedom of everybody around him
and then he just kept going back again and again bc he had become a soldier and he didn’t know what else he could do besides that
after that it was more about doing the only thing he thought he could do
cut to many years later and he became a coronel in the army
in one of the missions tho lots of shit happened most of friends died, he hadn’t believe in the war he had been fighting for a while but this time he had seen enough
i legit love writing about his time in the army so if you feel like reading extra shit for no reason here some links to old drabbles i wrote (x), (x). it’s the same info you got here but a little more in depth to specific moments
after that matteo went back home to the us but he couldn’t quite land a job for a long time. he knew how to follow orders but he was terrible at dealing with people and his formal education had pretty much stopped at the age of eighteen.
he tried for a while to get a formal job but none of them ever lasted long until one day one guy he knew from the army got him a gig as a guy’s bodyguard, unbeknownst to him he was protecting some very important guy from a gang
it took him a while to realize it, but after that, he continued to do it, bc he needed the money,
after a while matteo didn’t even mind that the money was dirty anymore
the guy started asking him to get some stuff done. sometimes beating up some people, sometimes scaring people. he used to say it was fine bc he was never really doing anything to anyone that didn’t deserve
until one the guy asked him to kill someone, that was pretty much the line for matteo. that day he acted as if he was going to get it done, and he stole some lots of the guy’s money ( at least the portion he had access to in his office ) and matt ran off to the uk to run away from all of that.
he’s been living around london now and he deals drugs every so often
and he isn’t really feeling That Great about who he is right now and he legit regrets most of life choices but he feels like there is nothing he can do at this point
P L A Y L I S T ; ;
beat the devil’s tattoo - black rebel motorcycle club
arsonist’s lullabye - hozier
god’s gonna cut you down - johnny cash
P O S S I B L E C O N N E C T I O N S ;;
mAYbe high school a sweetheart or high school friend? someone who knew him before he became who he is today (someone who knew him for being nice and fun and a pretty chill kid who just wanted to protect his country) and like this person could remind him of who he was and who he wants to be and he could also remind them of the past and it could be cute but also maybe angst idk
#smoke:intros#toOK ME LONG ENOUGH#i realized while prof reading this i say highkey and lowkey way too much and i am sorry#but yeah plot with me tho
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Coincidences (Steve Rogers x Short!Reader)
Hello, readers, this is my first one-shot so please go easy on me. I’m actually contemplating if to make this a multi-part but we’ll see how this goes>.< And Enjoy!
Pairing: Steve x Short!Reader
Summary: Pre-CACW. You start off the day with people teasing you about the one thing you can’t control, your height. Then just when you thought your day couldn’t get worse it gets...better? You start seeing the same cute guy everywhere you go and you start to wonder if it is just a coincidence or fate.
Word Count:1,768
Warnings: A handful of swears.
(Y/N) – Your name
(L/N) – Last name
(s/c) – Skin colour
(B/F/N) – Best friend name
(F/R) – Favourite restaurant
(f/f) - Favourite food
>> Part 2
“Hey, watch where you’re going!”
“Sorry I didn’t see you there…and still, don’t,” the stranger smirks at his own retort before going on his merry way. Probably to a business meeting with CEO’s and shite based on the way his snazzy Kenneth Cole suit made him reek sophistication, it’s always those types that feel to need to be pompous jerks to everyone else. I mean, I know that my 5’2 frame isn’t helping to lessen the insults but still, you shouldn’t be so mean to someone you don’t even know. But then again, when you’re out here on these crowded streets of New York during lunch hour, who’s being nice? I’m lost in my thoughts when,
“Oomph!” my face meets stone and I violently get pushed, my bum becoming best friends with the floor. Oh wait, that’s not stone, it’s someone’s chest which is covered by a navy blue V-neck…someone’s rock-hard and muscular chest. I inwardly drool as I look up towards his face which now makes me want to melt. His baby blue eyes grant him just enough softness to complement his killer jawline and blonde hair, and not to mention the worry that he held in them which makes me smile. And let us not forget those perfectly sculpted lips which urge me to just crash-
“Sorry ma’am, I didn’t see you there.” Alright, fantasy over.
“Don’t worry, most people don’t,” I shrug away his hand that he oh so generously set out for me with my own (s/c) colored hand and raise myself up from the ground, dusting whatever specs of gravel landed on my Levi blue jeans and a cream-colored blouse.
“Pardon me, ma’am, I meant no disrespect. I was on my,” he seems to pause as if remembering something, “iPhone and wasn’t looking at where I was going.”
“If you say so…,” I sigh, “well I guess no harm was done so enjoy the rest of your day.” I begin to walk towards my intended destination only to hear a faint “wait” from behind me causing my body to instinctually turn in his general direction, only to see him jogging towards me.
“I didn’t get your name, I’m Steve Rogers at you service ma’am.” He puts out his right hand and I hesitantly, but eventually shake it with my own, seeing how my (s/c) hand fit in his pale one.
“It’s not like you need it…but mine’s (Y/N) (L/N), and there is no need to be so formal either.” My phone suddenly rings shifting my attention to the screen which vibrates with impatient texts from my friend. “And I have to run. Nice to meet you I suppose?” and I trot off before he could say anything in reply.
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“What took you so long? Don’t tell me that you were…” she starts off, smiling a grin worthy of the Cheshire Cat.
“Whatever you are thinking, and I don’t even want to know what that is, didn’t happen” I dismissively whisper to (B/F/N), who has been my best friend for as long as I can remember. We had agreed to meet at the nearest Panini shop for our lunch break and are currently sitting in one of the booths eating our sandwiches. And even though I arrived late they had ordered my favorite sandwich, which warmed my heart and made the annoyance of before fade a little bit. “I was caught up by this guy, well two guys actually…” I reply, thinking about the two contrasting men which hindered my arrival here.
“Oh I get it, you like that threesome foreplay…tsk tsk tsk, next time-”
“No!” I cut them off, and although I want to be annoyed I find myself chuckling at their words, “They bumped into me, separate times of course. One was a complete jerk, but the other was just a gentleman…like 20th century gentleman.”
“Sounds dreamy,” my friend replies amused at my description.
“That’s not even the half of it, he was muscular, but not like a body builder, and he had these baby blues that I could stare into for a long time. Not to mention his wavy-”
“Blonde hair?”
“Um, yes, how did you know?”
“That’s because Mr. Hottie with a body has just entered the building.” And then they proceed to wave their hand high in the air, which I quickly push back down, causing the impact to make a fairly loud sound. I turn to see if he notices and he catches my glance, giving me a toothy grin before scoping out the scene. (B/F/N) face brims with excitement and their eyes move as if they are following someone who was about to walk past us. They nearly have to hold back a squeal as the said person halts in front of our table, and it is none other than Steve Rogers.
“Hi um…Steve! What brings you to our table?” I ask him politely.
“Sorry to bother you, ma’am, (Y/N) right? I was supposed to meet my friends here but they haven’t arrived yet. Would you mind if I intruded for a moment?”
“Intrude away!” (B/F/N) barges in, not even letting me get a word in. Steve looks slightly uncertain until I also give him a nod and he claims the seat directly next to mine.
And as fate would have it, his friends didn’t show up until an hour later, meaning that he got to spend all that time talking and eating with us. Not so surprisingly, this guy is pretty amazing despite my first impression which I will admit was clouded at the time.
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Why do people think it’s okay to place necessities on the highest shelves without placing a footstool there? Like all that fighting for gender, race, and ethnic equality, where is my height equality? I try on my tiptoes one last time to see if I could reach the required seasoning to complete my dish, but just like my previous attempts, I fail again. Or, at least I believed I did until the container is placed in my hand when my feet land back on the ground.
“This is what you were trying to reach right ma’am?” The one and only Steve Rogers comes to my rescue.
“Yea, thanks, Steve, oh and you can call me (Y/N).” I look him up and down, noticing how his attire has changed to a white tank and jeans which I am not complaining about at all.
“Alright (Y/N), but it wasn’t a problem, I’m glad to help,”
“This is, like the hundredth time I’ve seen you today? Are you sure you’re not stalking me?”
“I can assure you ma’a-” I raise my eyebrows at him, “I mean (Y/N), that it was purely coincidental.”
“Mhm, so you say. Anyway, as thanks for saving the flavors of my dish, can I offer you din-”
“Oh Cap, are you done picking up the sodas? I swear I know you’re new to all this but-hi.” A red head female from another isle walks up to Steve, talking before she realizes that I am also present. Her hair frames her face while flowing past her shoulders, enhancing her already natural beauty. Not to mention that she had a body to match as her spandex tights and tank top portrayed all of her features that could make men and women alike drool.
“This is the girl who I was waiting with earlier, (Y/N), and (Y/N), this my partner, Nat.”
“Nice to meet you,” I shake my hands with hers, and as I glance up to her face I catch the quick and quiet eye conversation Nat and Steve were having before I finally let go. “Well I should be going, (f/f) isn’t going to make itself.” And as I walk away I begin to feel slightly crushed. Of course, it was just a momentary attraction, but…well, I guess I should have known that all the good ones are always taken.
“Wait!” I sense a bit of deja vu but this time keep my eyes focused on the freezer section in front of me. “I didn’t get to say it back there but-”
“The answer is no, I know. I’m sorry, I won’t intrude on you and your girlfriend again trust me.”
“Are you talking about Nat? She’s my partner…as in co-worker partner, we go on mi-meetings, meetings together,”
“Oh…well I still overstepped my boundaries and-”
“Forgive me for cutting you off again ma’am but what I wanted to say was yes, I would love,” he glances at my basket, “(f/f) for dinner tonight if you won’t mind having me.” And in that instant, my sour mood turned completely around, although still laced with shame.
“Oh, great, but are you sure that your friend won’t mind?”
“I’ll talk to her right now, why don’t I meet you at the dairy section in five minutes so that I could pay for the groceries and we could head to your place?”
“You don’t have to pay.” I attempt to protest but he gives me this look that makes me go quiet.
“I insist ma’am, I am also partaking of this dish so technically they are my groceries too,”
“…Thank you, Steve,” At the end of it all I just grin and kiss his cheek, which was tremendously difficult but still manageable, before going to complete my previous task. I glance back out of pure curiosity to see him giving me a warm smile before jogging off to where I last saw him and his friend. His smile encapsulated in my mind as it leaves a permanent smile on my face for the rest of the 5 minutes I spend picking up the last needed ingredients.
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3rd Person
“Guys, the target is with me, await my signal,” Steve whispers into his ear com, starting to regret picking this position in the current mission.
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hi friends
i was tagged by briana @kyungsooshoopearring to do this tag game/question thingy!! thank you for tagging me 🤧💗
Answer the questions in a new post and tag 10 blogs you would like to know better
A: AGE - 18 😣
B: BIRTHPLACE - texas!!
C: CURRENT TIME - 11:35 pm
D: DRINK YOU HAD LAST - uhhh sprite 🤢
E: EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO - my bff! but its hard to ACTUALLY talk to her bc she lives on the other side of the world and when one of us wakes up, the other is already asleep so 🤷🏽♀️
F: FAVOURITE SONG - my fav song changes everyday hdbdjnw but i cant stop listening to mi gente ft beyoncé so! maybe that
G: GROSSEST MEMORY - i watched this movie when i was 7 or 8 and this guy was pulling this other guy’s teeth out n it traumatized me so
H: HOGWARTS HOUSE - ........ next :(
I: IN LOVE? - w chanyeol efijdhusojidjkfo
J: JEALOUS OF PEOPLE - no????
K: KILLED SOMEONE - 🙄 why is this even a question
L: LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT OR SHOULD I WALK BY AGAIN - idk about all that but love is real
M: MIDDLE NAME - monique 😣
N: NUMBER OF SIBLINGS - 1! i have a brother
O: ONE WISH - i wish most of my mutuals would stop hating themselves n see how beautiful and amazing they are :(
P: PERSON YOU CALLED LAST - my moms bf to tell him to stop by la panaderia before he came home lmao
Q: QUESTION YOU ARE ALWAYS ASKED - “erika can u shut up”
R: REASON TO SMILE - um exo exists :)
S: SONG YOU SANG LAST - uh lmaomsifhis dime que se siente by luis coronel
T: TIME YOU WOKE UP - i dont even remember but probs 1 pm
U: UNDERWEAR COLOUR - i was feeling a little crazy today and threw on some black undies
V: VACATION DESTINATION - for the sake of this post ill say italy rn
W: WORST HABIT - hmm i touch my face a lot even tho i know i shouldnt :( does that count?
X: X-RAYS - idk what this means but if its asking the last time i got an x-ray or something.. it was like 7 yrs ago
Y: FAVOURITE FOOD - sandwiches, chicken alfredo, my mom’s enchiladas verdes & asado de puerco, cheesecake, spaghetti, lasagna, literally everything i love food
Z: ZODIAC SIGN - virgo ♍️😁
im tagginggggg @kjonginswife @silkstan @witchydae @overyeol @pcysoundcloud @sooshis @pcyprivilege @honeybaekk @sofpcy and @chansoobaeks !
#sorry if you've already been tagged or if you've already done this!! 😣#you dont have to do it if you dont want to but i love these sidjsdjs#anyway thank u briana for tagging me 😣💞💗
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