regrets // sirius black

pairing: post-azkaban!sirius black x female!reader

content: frustration, arguing, wounds, death, grief, pregnancy

summary: you’re pregnant with sirius’ child and the two of you are cooking dinner when buckbeak is mysteriously injured. against sirius’ wishes you attempt to help tend to the creature’s wound. whilst arguing with you to let him deal with it, buckbeak accidentally bucks up and you receive a gash in your arm. you run off in tears after sirius yells at you. that’s when sirius is called to the ministry to save harry, and though he tries to apologize when he leaves, you’re too stubborn to reply.

note: i originally posted this on a different account, but i'm switching it over to make this my main account.

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"You shouldn't be in here." You heard the voice of your husband scold you slightly.

Just minutes ago, you had both been trying making dinner for two, which wasn't going too well. It was a new thing for both of you. Sirius had always had food made for him, whether it was by a house-elf or a fellow magic-maker. Your father was a Muggle and had been brought up by a single mother, so he taught you the essential cooking skills, but over the summer Molly had been so intent on keeping you off your feet when the announcement of your pregnancy came about that you had become a bit rusty.

But then you both had heard Buckbeard let out a sharp cry of pain. Sirius rushed up the stairs with you waddling closely behind him to find an angry hippogriff with a deep gash. Sirius tried pushing you out of the room to keep you from getting injured, but you had refused due to the pure fact that you had become too fond of the creature to leave. Now, you were attempting the clean out the wound while Sirius tried to hold him still.

"I can do this myself." He grumbled.

"Just let me help. I've almost got it." You replied with, dabbing at the cut.

A shriek and a yell later and you were leaning against a wall holding your upper arm. Blood coated your fingers and was dripping onto the ground along with your teardrops. Sirius rushed to you, shaking his head as he gently grabbed your arm.

"You should have listened to me." He sighed out. "Now get out and fix that. I can't remember any healing spells." He continued and moved back to Buckbeak, who was waiting

"I'm fine." You said, moving toward Buckbeak, only wincing a bit when you moved your arm.

You grabbed a roll of bandages and started to try to dress Buckbeak's wound. You had dropped it at least three times before Sirius pushed you away from the beast.

"Go." He said firmly, pointing to the door.

"I'm fine." You said through gritted teeth as you were attempting to move past him.

Sirius had finally snapped. He loved you too much to let you do this. He shook his head angrily and took a few steps back when he saw no movement from you.

"Just get out, goddammit!" He yelled, turning away from you.

You stumbled back, the hand of your uninjured arm immediately going to your swollen stomach. You let out a shaky breath as you turned and waddled out of the room, slowly padding down the stairs. You grabbed a kitchen towel from the counter and wrapped it around your arm. You couldn't heal it magically at the moment because you had injured your wand arm. You wiped away the single tear that had rolled down your face and wobbled over to a chair. You sat there for at least an hour, simultaneously hating yourself and cursing Sirius out in your head. You occasionally checked on your injury, lifting the blood-stained towel up to see an ugly gash. You only faintly heard Kreacher's voice from another room but thought nothing of it. The house-elf always talked to himself, and you didn't feel the desire to hear more slurs about your blood status.

The front door of the house banged open to reveal an out of breath Remus. You frowned at him.

"Where's Sirius?" He breathed out frantically.

You pointed to the stairs meekly just as Sirius came rushing down.

"What's going on?" He asked Remus, the glanced at you to see if you were okay.

You didn't even look at him. Instead, you stared at the tablecloth in front of you. You were too scared to look at Sirius, but not of him. You were scared of what you would do if you did look at him.

"He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named lured Harry to the Ministry," Remus said quickly, grabbing out his wand from inside his jacket.

You looked up at this. Harry was like your nephew. You had immediately gotten along with the boy when you two first met, back when Sirius was in Azkaban. The Potter had only been eleven, and at that time, Dumbledore had introduced you as merely one of James' friends rather than Sirius' lover. You had been close to James before he was killed by the Dark Lord. He had treated you as his sister, and you had treated him as your brother because your own was too busy 'ruling the school' with Lucius Malfoy. You were treated as one of the boys, though you had never learned of the Marauder's Map until it was in Harry's possession. He had let you hang with the four Gryffindors most of the time, and they had all joked with you.

Then you had taken a special liking for one of the boys when fourth year rolled around. Sirius had always seemed to make sure you were happy, and sometimes even made you promise to cheer for him at Quidditch games. Your hands had grazed the other's frequently, and that was about the only time you ever saw Sirius blush. He had finally decided to ask you out on a date around Christmas time. It was just a simple butterbeer together at Three Broomsticks, but it was enough. You two had had butterbeer together before, but only in the presence of Remus, Peter, and James. This time it would be alone.

After the drinks, Sirius walked you back to the Gryffindor common room and just before you had headed off to the girls' dormitory, he had swiftly grabbed your face and placed a kiss upon your lips. You kissed back, of course, and that had led to you two cuddling and being as romantic as can be on the sofa. The only problem you two had not thought of was James. He had walked in on the two after a great day in Hogsmeade. He didn't seem to like his best friend being an item with his 'sister'. This led to an early bedtime for you both. By morning, Sirius had convinced James that he would keep you safe, and you had promised that you would still cheer for him at his Quidditch games. You were made one of Lily's bridesmaids and Sirius was made James' best man. At your own wedding, you had asked Lily to be your maid of honor, and Sirius had practically begged James to help him with his vows and be his best man.

So to say that you had felt a special bond with Harry was an understatement. You waited for Remus to continue with something, anything that would make you feel better. But he didn't. Instead, Sirius sprang into action. He told Remus to beat him there so he could make sure Harry was safe enough, swiped his wand from off the counter, and slipped on his shoes. He rushed over to you and placed a kiss on your lips just as he had done the first time.

"I love you, (Y/N/N)." He told you.

When you didn't answer him, he sighed.

"I'll be back." He declared before Apparating out of the home.

You instantly regretted not answering him. You moved from the chair you were sitting on to the bedroom you two shared, which was just Sirius' old bedroom with some of your things inside. You let your hand graze over the pictures of the two of you, of James and him, of the Marauders all together, and of just you. You gently laid yourself onto the bed and closed your eyes, cherishing the silence. You could smell Sirius on the blankets and pillows. It helped you fall asleep, but it didn't keep you asleep.

Only a half an hour later, you woke up with tears streaming down your face. You had the worst nightmare ever, one where Sirius died hating you. You couldn't stand it. You placed your feet onto the ground and walked out to the living area. You sat on the sofa and waited. You felt like you had been waiting forever before you finally heard the familiar sound of the door opening. You rushed as fast as you could to the door, greeting who you thought was Sirius with a hug.

"(Y/N)." You heard Remus' voice.

You threw yourself off of him and looked at him with concern. You noticed that Sirius was nowhere to be seen.

"Remus, where is he? Where's Sirius? I need to say something to him." You told the werewolf.

Remus looked as if he had swallowed a giant pill. He looked pained and weak. You frowned softly at the man, looking up into his eyes as you waited for his answer. He looked down at you and wrapped you in a hug. You immediately pulled away, sensing something was wrong.

"What happened? Is he hurt? Did he get caught by the Ministry?" You asked him, a million and one scenarios going through your head.

Remus shook his head. He gulped down a breath and stumbled into the house further. He practically fell down onto a chair, staring into space and running a hand through his hair briefly.

"(Y/N), he-he's dead. Bellatrix Lestrange killed him and -" Remus said softly, his voice breaking.

He looked up at you, tears streaming down his face. You couldn't comprehend his words at first. When it finally clicked, your face fell, along with your body. Remus had barely made it to your falling form before you hit the ground. He held you on the floor as you sobbed, clutching onto his shirt and gulping for air. All you could feel was pain and heartbreak.

You blamed Bellatrix, you blamed Voldemort, you even blamed yourself. Why hadn't you kissed him back? Why hadn't you told him that you loved him? Why did you get upset over something that was truly your fault?

You must have been sitting there for an hour before a knock on the door came about. Remus slowly helped you stand and supported you as he led you over to a chair. He then walked to the door, wand at the ready. He swung the door open with his wand pointed at the person behind it.

Molly Weasley had a forlorn look on her face. She shoved past Remus and practically ran over to you before wrapping you in her arms. She always treated you like her own child, ever since you met, which was sometimes a bit annoying because of the smothering, but most times it was endearing. Molly pulled away after a few moments. She looked you over and caught a glimpse of your arm. She gasped at the bloody mess, drew her wand from inside her bag, placed the tip of her wand near the injury, and muttered something. Instantly your arm healed, leaving you with no trace of an encounter with Buckbeak. You sniffled softly, tears still rolling down your cheeks.

"Now, you will come with me back to the Burrow. Go pack whatever you will need to bring, and I will find means of traveling. Apparating will hurt the baby, and I don't seem to have any Floo powder." Molly said, looking through her gigantic bag.

You did as she said, and packed everything you could. Your clothes, your toiletries, your favorite objects, and of course, every picture you could find that wasn't magically stuck to the wall. You carried the bag back to where Molly was. She immediately grabbed your bag from you and shoved it into Remus' arms. She then gently wrapped your traveling cloak around you and grabbed your hand. She led you outside the house, locking the door behind her with a flick of her wrist. You were carefully placed inside a taxi, with Molly next to you, Remus next to Molly. Molly gave the driver the address, stroking your hair gently as you leaned into her.

"Beautiful night, isn't it?" The driver asked, attempting small talk.

Remus didn't say anything back. You held back a sob and snuggled into Molly even more, your tears streaming down your face faster now. Molly just nodded sadly and continued to stroke your hair. The driver didn't say anything else after that.

When you finally reached the Burrow, it was daylight. You hadn't gotten any sleep since your little nap, but you couldn't sleep alone. You had barely been left alone since Sirius had escaped from Azkaban. You slept with him, you ate with him, you cleaned with him, you cooked with him, you had even taken showers with the man. Before your pregnancy, it had been a sexy time with him. But when you had started growing a baby bump, he didn't want you to somehow pull a muscle by washing your hair. It sometimes was a bit bothersome, but it was also sweet. He was so excited to be a father. He never let you get too cold or too warm. He kept you stuffed with all your favorite foods.

But now he was gone. You were alone in this world until your child was born, a child you would have to raise alone. Your child wouldn't have a father. No one to check under the bed for monsters. No one to tease you with. You choked back a sob, knowing that Molly and Remus were trying to sleep. You softly rubbed your stomach and looked out into the garden.

After hours of Molly smothering you with every form of love she had, you were finally left alone again. The moonlight streamed in through the window of the room you were staying in. The stars shone brightly on the country hills. You quietly made your way down to the garden, then sat on a bench out there. You snuggled into your sweater and looked up at the night sky. You saw a particular star shining the brightest. Sirius. You wiped away the tear that had fallen and smile sadly at the diamond-like thing.

"I love you too." You whispered to it, remembering Sirius' last words to you.

why did i feel the need to write a sad sirius imagine as my first one? i have no idea, but there are more coming don't you worry.

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Bucky Barnes

Come Back To Me

Summary: You’re in love with your best friend, Bucky, who’s going to war. You might’ve run out of time to tell him.

Word Count: 2k

Warning: Fluffy/ Soft Bucky (yes It is that serious), Jealousy

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I’ve never felt this disappointed in my life

A few days ago I met up with an old friend, after more than a year of not speaking. At some point she told me that she’s into Harry Potter again, and I got really excited to finally have someone to talk to. So I asked her who was her favorite, not wanting to directly ask which era she liked most. Well, she took this as a chance to rant to me about how weird and stupid she finds Marauders’ Era, literally breaking my heart.

i just want to be in a remus lupin sirius black sandwich fuck off

The Red Thorns adventures (Harry Potter Marauders era fanfiction ) (on Wattpad) https://www.wattpad.com/story/299037654-the-red-thorns-adventures-harry-potter-marauders?utm_source=web&utm_medium=tumblr&utm_content=share_myworks&wp_uname=Marauders_Aesthetic&wp_originator=nj7a24lHqPPQBY77R6MFrw8wvRQ45PSEolp6K%2BcAqUCseZ%2BGfqWQWvGtjHuBgYwitw5unoEuJUbSGy0KPF2abMi4iQDIA%2FO9kqXlquXJNyboR46iHDTJ9KrEihmQ107V Hogwarts, 1975 Bloom and her gang of friends are not your average kind of witches. They are in a gang called the Red Thorns. What is their goal ? To beat the Marauders and out prank them in every possible way. This year they are starting their 5th year and this is the year that will change for better or for worse. Read this story to discover the story behind the 4 girls who beat the Marauders at their own game. Disclaimer : I do not support JKR This story is based on the HP universe and all of my characters are OCs.

@hpaestheticsstuff @padfootspuppy @padsmoonyprongs

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Harry Potter Song Stories (A masterlist of Harry Potter Stories created from a shuffled song from my playlist) 

*A/N!!! I’m moving some fanfics to Wattpad, see the performing there, but they’ll still be on here to enjoy, but if you’’re interested my Wattpad is Here*

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The Girl Who Believed 

Maledicite Terrae

Wonderland

Shifter

Time To Run

*Modern Times*

Secret Keeper

Marauders Era

*The Fifth Marauder*

The Heart And The Head 

Camping With The Marauders 

Harry Potter

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The Triwizard 

Horcrux 

Bloody Hell

Sirius Black

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PadFoot 

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Better Now

Curiosity Killed The Kat

Truth Or Dare

Comfort

Switches Realites

*If Only You Knew*

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Full Moons

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The Order

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Lover Boy 

Study Buddy (Request)

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The Battle Of Hogwarts 

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George Weasley

Strapped Down

Drunk In love

Friends With Benefits

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Ocean Eyes

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Giving Love

Not A Babysitter

Cedric Diggory

Drummer Boy

Feeling Under

Little Talks

Oliver Woods

Neville Longbottom

Seconds

Dean Thomas

Boats And Ships

Regulus Black

Little Brother Regulus 

Comfort And Death

Raven 

Tumbling Downhill

Charlie Weasley

Dungeons and Dragons

Flustered

Newt Scamander

Fantastic Beasts 

Tom Riddle

Riddle Me That

Blaise Zabini

Gambling 

A One Night Stand

Sirius Black P.S. Headcanon:

 Ight so let me just start by saying, 

Your Body Does Not define You.

You Are Fucking Beautiful, Do Not Let Anyone Tell You Different!

Now, this be a request from my friend, @herclodlawyerbear  I hope ya like itttt.

________________________________________________________________Dating Sirius Black, Plus Sized Reader addition:

Mini dates at Hogsmeade every other weekend, You can’t change my mind

This man will spoil you shitless, also can’t change my mind

He’d be overprotective of you too so if someone looks at you the wrong way he’ll probably end up snogging you in a dark corner somewhere the second later to make the bad thoughts disappear and show you how much he loves you no matter what

SPEAKING OF OVERPROTECTIVENESS- Someone looks at you and makes a crude comment about you or a rude and impolite one, that person best be running because he won’t give them a warning before spells and fists are flying

If you’re Sirius’s baby then your a friend of his friends, (unless you’re like one of his side-hoes no offense)

You know Sirius loves you too bc it took a while for him to get past that emotional barrier and he isn’t aboutta go an do something stupid to screw that progress up

This man loves hugging you from behind, I mean, I don’t know why but he just loves being able to hold you in any way, shape or form

Speaking of that, if you two decided to nap his favorite position would be where you’re laying in-between his thighs and- he just l o v e s holding you

Ight which also means at any meal basically he likes sitting next to you and keeping an arm around you or on you

Which is a good thing because he makes you go to every meal with him to make sure you don’t skip

WHICH MEANS- You’re sick? He’s Bringing You Food No Questions Asked. Period? c h o c o l a t e c u d d l e f e s t  and m a s s a g e s. 

Hey, remember when I mentioned he likes holding you? 

Yeahhhh- 

So, let’s just say Sirius loves your arms. He likes the flabby part, the tiny part, your hands, your fingers- basically he just loves your arms

So if you wear one of his shirts or jackets (etc.) he ends up holding you

But if you didn’t already know, when he holds you he usually keeps his arms where he can feel your heartbeat/pulse or your arms/midsection

Which is why he hugs you a lot and keeps his arms around you often

this bitch don’t care if we in class-

Also, I forgot to mention that when he wins quidditch matches he doesn’t hug anyone or anything until he has you in his stronghold

a/e he finds you, runs up to you, will literally pick you up and do an in-the-air spin, kiss you and everywhere on your face about twenty times, then he precedes to hug his best mates

h e  l o v e s  y o u  t h a t  m u c h

Well shit this is longer than I thought it would be-

ANYWAY- I hope you liked this Cally.

And if anyone wants to request another P.S. headcanon or one-shot feel free!

Have a good day, drink some water, eat some food, take screen breaks and remember You Are loved! ^-^

Interest in you [Sirius Black x Reader]

Title: Interest in you Pairing: Sirius Black x Reader and James Potter x Lily Evans Word count: 3.2k Published: 1 July, 2020 Author: Heloise Daphne Brightmore Summary: You have been interested in Sirius for years, but you didn’t want to date him. It has been bugging him to no end, leaving you annoyed. Harry Potter Characters Masterlist | Masterlists

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You have always been interested in Sirius Black. You knew he was somewhat of a player and he was not one to settle down with anyone for longer than a week or so, but it didn't stop you from "occasionally" admiring him.

You were jealous of his long, black locks as they were always playfully entangled around his fingers, if not one of his admirers ran their hands through them. His cheeky winks and mischievous glances made you weak in your knees, making you excited like a little child who gets their first letter to Hogwarts. His white teeth that always presented themselves in full as their owner had the most devilish smirk when swooping the ladies, making you envy the touches they could share. The voice, the deep baritone voice that left his lungs each and every time he let out a deep laughter, warming up your inside.

You didn't just have a crush on Sirius Black, you were way beyond that. Every single day, you left your eyes wonder towards his form and watched every move, every word, every gesture he made. You sighed more often than ever, which honestly bothered you, but you just couldn't take your eyes off him.

Sirius was sitting in front of you on potions, with his current girlfriend on his side. He secretly placed his hand on her thigh, slowly wondering up towards her most sensitive spot, making her squeak as he reached farther up the skirt. You could just about see his mischievous glance directed towards his girlfriend, who looked back with a lustful expression.

You wanted to watch them, fill your thoughts with all that was Sirius Black, but a parchment piece rolled into a tiny ball, interrupted you. You opened up the letter and recognised your best friend, Lily's handwriting. You looked at her from the seat beside you, but she acted as if she was concentrating on something very interesting Professor Slughorn explained. You opened the letter and started reading its content.

"Stop!

I really don't understand how Sirius can't see the hole your eyes are burning into the back of his head. Get yourself together and just ask him out. You have been longing for him like  a little puppy for years, it's painful to watch.

I'm begging you to do something about it already."

You frowned at your friend's unnecessary concern, but still you quietly chuckled at the thought of you and Sirius being together. You took your ink and quill and started a reply.

"Nah."

You crinkled the paper and slid it to her. She opened it curiously and loudly snorted followed by a smirk on her face. You returned the playful expression, before you realised the whole class went silent.

"Is something funny over there?" Professor Slughorn's alarming glaze was wondering between you and Lily. "Would you like to discuss with the class what seem to entertain you?" He questioned and you just shook your head.

"We are sorry, Professor." Lily replied, looking down at her table nervously, but you were still hiding a smirk across your face with your hands. Soon enough Professor Slughorn turned away and you gently nudged Lily to get her attention. She just shook her head being scared of getting detention, which caused you to snort again. Luckily just in time you hid it with the palm of your hand.

You felt as if someone was looking at you. Your eyes immediately drew you to Sirius' stormy grey irises, which were looking at you as if he was studying you. You raised an eyebrow at his intense gaze causing him to smirk. You just rolled your eyes and turned back to annoying Lily.

*

"Why not?" Lily attacked you as soon as you left the potions classroom.

"Why not what?" You asked not understanding her reference.

"Why don't you ask him out or just do anything, literally anything about him?" Lily asked almost as if she was begging you in despair.

"Look Lily, he is incredibly handsome and of course I am attracted to him, but just because you fancy someone, it doesn't mean you want anything from them. He is just part of my fantasies, I guess." You chuckled to yourself.

"That doesn't make sense." She waved you off. "If you like someone, you want to be with them." She explained, not expecting the whole-hearted laughter exploding from your lungs.

"Says the one who can't even accept that she has feelings for a certain Lazy, Arrogant, Toe-rag!" You wiped a tear away from your face.

"That's completely different." She shook her head.

"Yes, because in your case, the subject of your fantasy actually likes you back." You chuckled playfully.

"I do not like James Potter." She said, but you started pushing her on purpose.

"So you don't think James is handsome?" You asked with a raised brow.

"I mean, I guess he is not bad, but that doesn't mean I fancy him." She huffed in annoyance.

"But you did say that he's kind of changed over the years, right?" You questioned her again and looked behind her with a mischievous smile. She missed that though.

"He did change, he isn't getting into trouble that much, but that has nothing to do with it." She growled, getting annoyed by your interview.

"So he is not bad looking, and even you agree that he has changed. Come on, at least admit that you fancy him just a tiny tiny bit." You looked at her innocently.

"I guess, maybe a small part of me took an interest in him." She blushed and you happily clapped your hands together.

"So what about that date now?" You saw James putting an arm around Lily's shoulder with a cheeky grin sitting across his now very happy face. Lily on the other hand was dumbfounded. She didn't know what to even do with her own existence and her crimson red cheeks betrayed her usually expressionless face.

"My job is done here." You said and walked away from the couple.

"You are dead." Lily shouted after you, but you just turned back and winked at her before turning around the corner.

*

You were sitting in the common room, writing an essay on transfiguration for Professor McGonagall. You shifted yourself on the ground, in front of the fire place as you adjusted to a more comfortable position behind the table.

The door opened and you could hear Lily's cheerful giggling followed by James' laughter. As they saw you they sat down on the couch in front of you. Soon Sirius and Remus arrived as well, each taking an armchair for themselves. You looked up at Sirius for just a second but quickly turned away, deciding to focus on your essay.

"That was mean." Lily sighed happily.

"Excuse you?" You looked up at her laying your chin into your palm, focusing your complete attention to her.

"What you did earlier." She said.

"You don't seem to mind though." You looked at James' arm around her shoulder.

"That's not the point." She huffed, trying to sulk. But you weren't having it.

"It is though. James has liked you for years and you have liked him for a while too. You were just too stubborn to admit it. Let's just say, I gave you a little nudge into the right direction." You smirked causing James to snort playfully.

"You could have done it differently." She crossed her arms in front of her chest.

"I could have. But it was more fun like this." You stack your tongue out at her and went back to your essay.

"Says the one who has a crush on a certain person, but she does nothing about it." She pouted. You didn't move your head, you stayed still, but your eyes gazed up at her.

"That's a completely different story. I don't want to date my crush. He is just good to look at." You shrugged.

"What?" James asked with a frown across his face. You put your quill down, giving up on any further work you could have done.

"It's what I said." You rubbed your temple in annoyance.

"What does that even mean?" He asked curiously.

"It means, he is very handsome, he is quite smart, so he is good to look at. But I wouldn't want to date someone like him." You explained.

"That doesn't make sense." He continued. "If you like someone, you want to be with them." He shook his head not believing you.

"Thank you. I've been saying that." Lily commented. You just gave her a bored look, before turning back to James.

"Not necessarily." You replied. "I do fancy him, but his fame preceded him. His behaviour towards women is something I do not agree with. So I rather look, than to do anything about it." You explained with an expressionless face.

"Who is that guy?" He asked.

"Yes, who is that guy?" Lily asked as she tried to push you, but you just smirked.

"Sirius." You replied simply looking at the mentioned boy, whose eyes grew wide at your straightforward answer. You looked back at James to continue. "As I said, his fame preceded him." You shrugged.

"What?" James asked in disbelief. "How can you not want to date Sirius?"

"Because I am not into the whole weekly partner change scenario." You said still expressionless.

"Everyone wants to date Sirius." James scoffed.

"No, James they don't." You shook your head. "Most of the girls don't necessarily want to date Sirius, they want to own him" You raised a brow at your theory.

"What does that even mean?" He asked with a frown.

"When you date someone, it's not just because of how they look, but you actually want to get to know them. However those girls only date him for his looks and his witty comments." You looked at Sirius. "I honestly don't think you have ever had a meaningful conversation with any of them, have you? Of course not." You answered your own question and turned back to James. "Because it's all about physical attraction. Which is not bad. But that's not how dating is working. I would rather call it friends with benefits of some sort." You shrugged.

"You are unbelievable." He shook his head.

"You really never wanted to date me?" Sirius cut in this time.

"I didn't say that. I did want to date you, back in the day when I started to fancy you. But not anymore." You shook your head.

"Not even a little?" He asked frowning. You thought for a second before laughing out loud.

"Nope. I can't even imagine it." You grinned at the weird thought.

"I don't get you." He said leaning back into his armchair.

"You don't have to." You smiled and turned back to your essay.

*

You were walking to your transfiguration class alone. Lily was with James this time and you left for your class rather late anyway. Soon you heard quickening footsteps behind you, but you didn't turn around.

"You really don't want to date me? Not even a little?" You turned as Sirius reached you and started walking along you, through the corridors to your next class.

"For the 100th times, no. Why does it even bother you so much that you keep nagging me about it every single day?" You asked. For the last couple of days he has been onto you like a little puppy, asking the same questions every single day.

"Well, I don't even know myself." He scratched the back of his neck awkwardly.

"Then let me explain it to you." You stopped and focused your attention to him. You were tired of his questions at this point and you just wanted him to stop. "There's a person between your hundreds of admirers, who doesn't want to date you even though she fancies you. While this boosts your ego, it also destroys it because she doesn't want anything from you. This makes you more interested in her. It's kind of like trying to hunt down the prey. It's more fun when they run, compared to if they wait patiently to be hunted down. You are just going after what you can't get or is harder to get. To summarise it, your interest is simply for the sole purpose of your ego-boost." You shrugged and started towards your class once again.

"That's a bit harsh. But you might be right." He frowned, getting lost in his deep thoughts.

"I know. Now if you don't mind, I have a class to attend to. So do you." You said walking farther.

"But, wait." He stopped you, gently grabbing your arm.

"What now?" You rolled your eyes in annoyance.

"What if I am actually interested in you?" He tried once again.

"You don't even know me. The only interest you have is out of curiosity. You just want to know if you could make me go on a date with you." You replied.

"Don't people start dating to get to know each other? I don't have to know you just yet." He said and for a second you stopped in your tracks. "I'm interested in going on a date with you, because you are interesting as a person, not as a prey of whatever psycho bla bla you said before." You snorted at his reply, but you couldn't hide your smile.

"I guess you are right. But that still doesn't make me want to go on a date with you." You shrugged and walked to your class. But Sirius stopped you just before you could have touched the door handle.

"I haven't dated anyone since you told me that you fancied me." He said with a cheeky smile.

"Good for you." You nodded and walked into the class, barely hearing a last sigh escaping Sirius' lungs.

*

You were sitting in the courtyard with Lily, asking each other questions to test your knowledge of charms. You were quite deep in your thoughts, but Lily didn't seem to concentrate.

"What is bothering you?" You asked giving up on your task at hand.

"You." She replied pouting. "I talked to James. Sirius genuinely wants to go out with you. Why are you acting so cold towards him?" She asked.

"I am not at all cold towards him. I talk to him quite a lot." You explained frowning.

"Yes, but those are just casual conversations. As soon as he asks you about going out, you just reject him." She huffed.

"I learned from the best." You chuckled.

"That's not funny. My situation was different. I didn't like James for a long time. You on the other hand has fancied Sirius for as long as I can remember." She gave you a know-it-all look.

"Yes and I did say to all of you that I wasn't interested in dating him." You said giving her a stern look.

"Why not? He hasn't dated anyone for a while and he has been after you like a loyal little puppy." She tried to convince you.

"Lily, he will find someone to date in no time. I don't plan to be a fill-in." You shrugged and stood up, pulling your bag over your shoulder.

"He doesn't need a fill-in. He wants to go on a date with you. Not anyone else. Is it so hard to say yes to even one date?" She asked as she stopped you from getting inside.

"No, it is not hard. It's unnecessary. It wouldn't develop into anything anyway." You pulled your arm out of her hold.

"And how would you know that?" She asked. "I thought James was an arrogant and lazy little boy and look at me now, I couldn't be happier. You just have to learn to give a chance. Thanks to you I did, so now it's your turn to listen to me." She growled almost like an angry mother. "Can you just give him one chance?" She glared at you with a look that you couldn't say no to.

"Fine, I think we can arrange one tiny date. But if he screws up..." You started, pointing your finger towards Lily's face.

"He won't, believe me." She chuckled pulling you towards the common room.

You walked through the corridors, climbed the stairs, all while Lily was already planning the double dates with James, Sirius and yourself. You just kept rolling your eyes at her, but you found it quite interesting to say the least.

As you walked into the common room, you saw the marauders gathered around. Lily pulled you towards them, taking a seat next to James on the couch, while you decided to go for your comfortable carpet in front of the fire place, behind the table.

Remus and Peter occupied another sofa while Sirius was laying across on an armchair, to your left. You stared at his messy, black hair and cheeky smile sitting on his face as he joked with Remus. You smiled at his cheerful expression. You didn't mind having one little date after all. You took out your parchment from your bag and ripped a rectangle piece from it's corner. You took out your quill and ink as well and started writing.

"Do you still want to go on a date with me?

☑ Yes!

Please tick your answer!"

You made sure to tick the little box on the parchment, that said yes, so Sirius didn't have a choice. You found it maybe a tiny bit comical.  

You took out your wand and lifted the parchment from the table and levitated it over to Sirius. He looked at you with curious eyes and as he tried to take the parchment, you made it move away. He tried again, this time he was faster, but not enough. You dodged his grip. He looked at you with a deep frown sitting across his brows. You moved the paper closer to him, this time letting him get hold of it.

He opened the letter and at first you could see his confusion, causing you to giggle at his reaction. Soon, however he joined you with a heartfelt laughter and put the paper into his trouser's pocket.

"I guess, I don't have any other option, do I?" He smirked and you just shook your head.

"Would you like to have another option?" You asked playfully, but this time it was his turn to shake his head.

"Not at all, I am perfectly content." He smirked and you giggled at him as he joined you behind the table, starting a conversation with you.

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sirius x reader

another young justice inspo

You and Sirius!

*You and Lily were watching the marauders fooling around in the room of requirements, you were both talking when you realised that Lily had her focus elsewhere. You noticed it was James*

Y/N: You know if you weren’t interested in me anymore you could have just said so.

Lily: *snaps out of trans* Oh shut up. 

Y/N: So you and James have been awfully close.

Lily: That's nothing…

Y/N:C’mon Lils you two would be perfect with each other.

Lily: It's complicated.

Y/N: Sure it is, it's like Fire and water you and him.

Lily: But you know who would make the cutest couple? 

Y/N: Who?

Lily: You and Siriussss. 

*You both look at the him in animagus form trying to catch his tail and when he did you turn to each other again*

Y/N: Sure…

Lily: C’mon you're so full of passion and he's so full of … uhm.*looks back at him trying to look for good traits, while sirius himself was hexing peter repeatedly in his human form*

Y/N: It?

*you both laugh as you gaze back to sirius who noticed your eyes and gave you a wink making your cheek grow a light blush*

regrets // sirius black

"You shouldn't be in here." You heard the voice of your husband scold you slightly.

Just minutes ago, you had both been trying making dinner for two, which wasn't going too well. It was a new thing for both of you. Sirius had always had food made for him, whether it was by a house-elf or a fellow magic-maker. Your father was a Muggle and had been brought up by a single mother, so he taught you the essential cooking skills, but over the summer Molly had been so intent on keeping you off your feet when the announcement of your pregnancy came about that you had become a bit rusty.

But then you both had heard Buckbeard let out a sharp cry of pain. Sirius rushed up the stairs with you waddling closely behind him to find an angry hippogriff with a deep gash. Sirius tried pushing you out of the room to keep you from getting injured, but you had refused due to the pure fact that you had become too fond of the creature to leave. Now, you were attempting the clean out the wound while Sirius tried to hold him still.

"I can do this myself." He grumbled.

"Just let me help. I've almost got it." You replied with, dabbing at the cut.

A shriek and a yell later and you were leaning against a wall holding your upper arm. Blood coated your fingers and was dripping onto the ground along with your teardrops. Sirius rushed to you, shaking his head as he gently grabbed your arm.

"You should have listened to me." He sighed out. "Now get out and fix that. I can't remember any healing spells." He continued and moved back to Buckbeak, who was waiting

"I'm fine." You said, moving toward Buckbeak, only wincing a bit when you moved your arm.

You grabbed a roll of bandages and started to try to dress Buckbeak's wound. You had dropped it at least three times before Sirius pushed you away from the beast.

"Go." He said firmly, pointing to the door.

"I'm fine." You said through gritted teeth as you were attempting to move past him.

Sirius had finally snapped. He loved you too much to let you do this. He shook his head angrily and took a few steps back when he saw no movement from you.

"Just get out, goddammit!" He yelled, turning away from you.

You stumbled back, the hand of your uninjured arm immediately going to your swollen stomach. You let out a shaky breath as you turned and waddled out of the room, slowly padding down the stairs. You grabbed a kitchen towel from the counter and wrapped it around your arm. You couldn't heal it magically at the moment because you had injured your wand arm. You wiped away the single tear that had rolled down your face and wobbled over to a chair. You sat there for at least an hour, simultaneously hating yourself and cursing Sirius out in your head. You occasionally checked on your injury, lifting the blood-stained towel up to see an ugly gash. You only faintly heard Kreacher's voice from another room but thought nothing of it. The house-elf always talked to himself, and you didn't feel the desire to hear more slurs about your blood status.

The front door of the house banged open to reveal an out of breath Remus. You frowned at him.

"Where's Sirius?" He breathed out frantically.

You pointed to the stairs meekly just as Sirius came rushing down.

"What's going on?" He asked Remus, the glanced at you to see if you were okay.

You didn't even look at him. Instead, you stared at the tablecloth in front of you. You were too scared to look at Sirius, but not of him. You were scared of what you would do if you did look at him.

"He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named lured Harry to the Ministry," Remus said quickly, grabbing out his wand from inside his jacket.

You looked up at this. Harry was like your nephew. You had immediately gotten along with the boy when you two first met, back when Sirius was in Azkaban. The Potter had only been eleven, and at that time, Dumbledore had introduced you as merely one of James' friends rather than Sirius' lover. You had been close to James before he was killed by the Dark Lord. He had treated you as his sister, and you had treated him as your brother because your own was too busy 'ruling the school' with Lucius Malfoy. You were treated as one of the boys, though you had never learned of the Marauder's Map until it was in Harry's possession. He had let you hang with the four Gryffindors most of the time, and they had all joked with you.

Then you had taken a special liking for one of the boys when fourth year rolled around. Sirius had always seemed to make sure you were happy, and sometimes even made you promise to cheer for him at Quidditch games. Your hands had grazed the other's frequently, and that was about the only time you ever saw Sirius blush. He had finally decided to ask you out on a date around Christmas time. It was just a simple butterbeer together at Three Broomsticks, but it was enough. You two had had butterbeer together before, but only in the presence of Remus, Peter, and James. This time it would be alone.

After the drinks, Sirius walked you back to the Gryffindor common room and just before you had headed off to the girls' dormitory, he had swiftly grabbed your face and placed a kiss upon your lips. You kissed back, of course, and that had led to you two cuddling and being as romantic as can be on the sofa. The only problem you two had not thought of was James. He had walked in on the two after a great day in Hogsmeade. He didn't seem to like his best friend being an item with his 'sister'. This led to an early bedtime for you both. By morning, Sirius had convinced James that he would keep you safe, and you had promised that you would still cheer for him at his Quidditch games. You were made one of Lily's bridesmaids and Sirius was made James' best man. At your own wedding, you had asked Lily to be your maid of honor, and Sirius had practically begged James to help him with his vows and be his best man.

So to say that you had felt a special bond with Harry was an understatement. You waited for Remus to continue with something, anything that would make you feel better. But he didn't. Instead, Sirius sprang into action. He told Remus to beat him there so he could make sure Harry was safe enough, swiped his wand from off the counter, and slipped on his shoes. He rushed over to you and placed a kiss on your lips just as he had done the first time.

"I love you, (Y/N/N)." He told you.

When you didn't answer him, he sighed.

"I'll be back." He declared before Apparating out of the home.

You instantly regretted not answering him. You moved from the chair you were sitting on to the bedroom you two shared, which was just Sirius' old bedroom with some of your things inside. You let your hand graze over the pictures of the two of you, of James and him, of the Marauders all together, and of just you. You gently laid yourself onto the bed and closed your eyes, cherishing the silence. You could smell Sirius on the blankets and pillows. It helped you fall asleep, but it didn't keep you asleep.

Only a half an hour later, you woke up with tears streaming down your face. You had the worst nightmare ever, one where Sirius died hating you. You couldn't stand it. You placed your feet onto the ground and walked out to the living area. You sat on the sofa and waited. You felt like you had been waiting forever before you finally heard the familiar sound of the door opening. You rushed as fast as you could to the door, greeting who you thought was Sirius with a hug.

"(Y/N)." You heard Remus' voice.

You threw yourself off of him and looked at him with concern. You noticed that Sirius was nowhere to be seen.

"Remus, where is he? Where's Sirius? I need to say something to him." You told the werewolf.

Remus looked as if he had swallowed a giant pill. He looked pained and weak. You frowned softly at the man, looking up into his eyes as you waited for his answer. He looked down at you and wrapped you in a hug. You immediately pulled away, sensing something was wrong.

"What happened? Is he hurt? Did he get caught by the Ministry?" You asked him, a million and one scenarios going through your head.

Remus shook his head. He gulped down a breath and stumbled into the house further. He practically fell down onto a chair, staring into space and running a hand through his hair briefly.

"(Y/N), he-he's dead. Bellatrix Lestrange killed him and -" Remus said softly, his voice breaking.

He looked up at you, tears streaming down his face. You couldn't comprehend his words at first. When it finally clicked, your face fell, along with your body. Remus had barely made it to your falling form before you hit the ground. He held you on the floor as you sobbed, clutching onto his shirt and gulping for air. All you could feel was pain and heartbreak.

You blamed Bellatrix, you blamed Voldemort, you even blamed yourself. Why hadn't you kissed him back? Why hadn't you told him that you loved him? Why did you get upset over something that was truly your fault?

You must have been sitting there for an hour before a knock on the door came about. Remus slowly helped you stand and supported you as he led you over to a chair. He then walked to the door, wand at the ready. He swung the door open with his wand pointed at the person behind it.

Molly Weasley had a forlorn look on her face. She shoved past Remus and practically ran over to you before wrapping you in her arms. She always treated you like her own child, ever since you met, which was sometimes a bit annoying because of the smothering, but most times it was endearing. Molly pulled away after a few moments. She looked you over and caught a glimpse of your arm. She gasped at the bloody mess, drew her wand from inside her bag, placed the tip of her wand near the injury, and muttered something. Instantly your arm healed, leaving you with no trace of an encounter with Buckbeak. You sniffled softly, tears still rolling down your cheeks.

"Now, you will come with me back to the Burrow. Go pack whatever you will need to bring, and I will find means of traveling. Apparating will hurt the baby, and I don't seem to have any Floo powder." Molly said, looking through her gigantic bag.

You did as she said, and packed everything you could. Your clothes, your toiletries, your favorite objects, and of course, every picture you could find that wasn't magically stuck to the wall. You carried the bag back to where Molly was. She immediately grabbed your bag from you and shoved it into Remus' arms. She then gently wrapped your traveling cloak around you and grabbed your hand. She led you outside the house, locking the door behind her with a flick of her wrist. You were carefully placed inside a taxi, with Molly next to you, Remus next to Molly. Molly gave the driver the address, stroking your hair gently as you leaned into her.

"Beautiful night, isn't it?" The driver asked, attempting small talk.

Remus didn't say anything back. You held back a sob and snuggled into Molly even more, your tears streaming down your face faster now. Molly just nodded sadly and continued to stroke your hair. The driver didn't say anything else after that.

When you finally reached the Burrow, it was daylight. You hadn't gotten any sleep since your little nap, but you couldn't sleep alone. You had barely been left alone since Sirius had escaped from Azkaban. You slept with him, you ate with him, you cleaned with him, you cooked with him, you had even taken showers with the man. Before your pregnancy, it had been a sexy time with him. But when you had started growing a baby bump, he didn't want you to somehow pull a muscle by washing your hair. It sometimes was a bit bothersome, but it was also sweet. He was so excited to be a father. He never let you get too cold or too warm. He kept you stuffed with all your favorite foods.

But now he was gone. You were alone in this world until your child was born, a child you would have to raise alone. Your child wouldn't have a father. No one to check under the bed for monsters. No one to tease you with. You choked back a sob, knowing that Molly and Remus were trying to sleep. You softly rubbed your stomach and looked out into the garden.

After hours of Molly smothering you with every form of love she had, you were finally left alone again. The moonlight streamed in through the window of the room you were staying in. The stars shone brightly on the country hills. You quietly made your way down to the garden, then sat on a bench out there. You snuggled into your sweater and looked up at the night sky. You saw a particular star shining the brightest. Sirius. You wiped away the tear that had fallen and smile sadly at the diamond-like thing.

"I love you too." You whispered to it, remembering Sirius' last words to you.

why did i feel the need to write a sad sirius imagine as my first one? i have no idea, but there are more coming don't you worry.

if you have a request, please feel free to tell me! i would be happy to write anything [to an extent] that you would want to read!

right now, i am working on the following imagine at the moment, so if it seems like something you would be interested in, stick around for it, or wait for others to be written also!

life and death // klaus hargreaves : platonic, sad; in which klaus' childhood best friend, who 'breathed life into everything she touched', had died a month after graduating high school and he is too afraid to see her so he is constantly drunk or high. when he finally sobers up to save the world, they meet again.

To Light: Chapter VI

Okay so a little note there's gonna be a little inaccuracy just for this story the black sisters (more like narcissa and bellatrix) will all be at Hogwarts even though they would've long graduated and yeah.

MASTERLIST - pt.I, pt.II, pt.III, pt.IV,pt.V

Today September 1st is your holy day. Throughout the entire summer you haven't woken up as happy as today. Your fifth year at Hogwarts was just a few hours and a train ride away. It was 9 a.m when you woke up and made your bed, doing your quick morning routine, getting dressed in your slytherin uniform already to look classy and not trashy making sure you look as decent as you could this early so you wouldn't get any complaints from your mother. The train doesn't arrive at the platform until 11 so you had some time before leaving. You had already packed the night before so you grabbed your trunk and You looked back into your room to make sure you didn't forget anything before going downstairs to meet you parents for breakfast. "Good morning" you greeted your parents smiling, sitting down next to your mother. "Good morning" They replied. "I trust you remember what you must do." your mom said, giving you a look. Your smile vanished, you had forgotten about that. You were writing a letter to Beth about possibly going to a muggle concert with Flora and Andrew -the muggle band Queen was on tour and coming to London in october- Beth being a muggle and all would know all the details of getting us the tickets. You were about to send her owl back with your response when your mum snatched the letter,reading it. She obviously wasn't going to know about these plans, she'd have a fit knowing you would even acknowledge a muggle- she'd have an even bigger one if she knew i'm planning on hanging out with one. Just as you predicted she screeched "How could you!" taking her wand out and burning the parchment. "H-how dare you speak with that impure filth!" "She is not filth, she is my friend-" she raised her hand and brought it down with such force it knocked you out of your chair. "I forbid it! Never again will you speak to her or any of your friends again" she readjusted herself "That includes Flora" Your eyes widened "But she's a pu-" she interrupted "If she speaks to trash, she is trash, our family will have nothing to do with that." "You will have no further communication with any of them, not on the train, or Hogwarts anywhere at anytime or place" She looks you in the eye, her eyes burning with rage. It was filled with a pure hatred you could never understand. "And I  will know if you come in contact with them. Do I make myself clear?" You felt your face turning hot and feeling defeated, you nodded. There is no way she would know, she didn't know til now all you had to do was hide it better. You looked down at your food "Yes, mother." ~~~

When you arrived at platform 9 3/4 you saw Beth, Flora and Andrew standing together talking, laughing, catching up. They'd probably be wondering why you stopped answering their owls. You wished you could go up to them and tell them how much you've missed them. As if your mother heard your thoughts- she grabbed a hold of your arm, whispering "Evan will be keeping a close eye on you at Hogwarts for me, he's waiting for you at the door right there." She pointed and lightly pushed you in the direction of Evan. Your friends saw you and waved but you turned your head quickly to where Evan was standing. You were afraid to look back at the group you were once apart of in case your mom would notice. Evan greeted you with a cheek kiss and held your hand guiding you to where him and the rest of the prejudice slytherins usually sit on their train ride to Hogwarts. "It's good to see you again darling." He said "And you, Evan" you replied in a dry tone. You both sat down in a compartment that was occupied by Mulciber, Avery, Antonin and Lucius. Already wishing you were back with your friends in your regular seat. "Well if it isn't Mr. and Mrs. Rosier!" Mulciber announced. You looked at Evan "Control your friends, Rosier." you threatened "Boys, We're still not married there's no need to call us that yet" Your fiancée continued You snatched you hand from his, got up and went to go sit with the girl version of the boys. "Where are you going?" Evan asked "you know i'm supposed to be watching you" "Relax, my love i'm just going to sit with the ladies" You said sarcastically with your teeth gritted. Two compartments over you spotted the black sisters Narcissa and Bellatrix. Cursing in your mind you decided to sit next with them, you didn't think your life would have to come to this but considering the situation there was no way you'd be able to sneak past the future group of death eaters and sit with your friends. You knocked on the door waiting for them to give you permission to go in. "May I sit here?" "(L/N), we've been waiting for the day you knock on our doorstep." Bellatrix teased, you internally rolled your eyes. "And why is that?" You asked "Being of a higher bloodline I expected us to be the best of friends you know, but imagine my surprise when I find out you've only delayed out friendship to associate yourself with the lesser beings." Bella leaned forward to your face as if challenging you to say something. You avoided her gaze focusing your vision on Narcissa expecting her to say anything. Though there wasn't much hope there, all of them were the same. You kept quiet as Bellatrix continued her speech about the filfth of muggle and muggle born kids, while calling out certain people that went to hogwarts, just awaiting the arrival at hogwarts. ~~~ The minute you got to Hogwarts you decided you would just skip dinner and be depressed in your dorm. Fate, Life, Karma whatever chose to mess around with you by having the three people you were forbidden to see appear in front of you. They had you cornered so you couldn't move past and ignore them. "Hey (y/n) where have you been this summer?" Andrew asked, one eyebrow raised. "I-I've been busy" you avoided their eyes. You heard a scoff and looked up, Flora was shaking her head. "Bullshit" she took a step closer and looked you up and down "you're one of them now" "What do you mean?" Beth looked confused. "(Y/N) what does she mean by that?" "She means I won't be talking to you guys anymore." You decided "I don't even know why I did in the first place." you faked a face of disgust while looking between Andrew and Beth. "Mudbloods and a pure-blood disgrace what was I thinking" You rose your head setting your eyes on Flora holding back your tears and hoping she could somehow read your mind and know you weren't serious, but her brown eyes were filled with anger. "Let's go guys" she said shoving past you. Your eyes were brimming with tears once they were out of sight you ran to the astronomy tower. You went up multiple stairs til you got to the stairs of the tower and stopped lightly gasping when you saw a guy sitting down leaning on the wall. Relaxing when you realized it was Sirius. "We've got to stop meeting like this (l/n)" he smiled. You smiled in return sitting across from him just like last year, your tears still pouring down. His eyes were red and puffy as well, you knew it was because he was crying too but didn't wanna ask. Both of you sat in silence for a while, looking at the stars it was a peaceful not awkward silence that you would definitely feel with anybody else. "Why aren't you at dinner?" Sirius spoke up. "Why aren't you" you joked lightheartedly, nudging your foot at his. He chuckled lightly, then stopping and looking at you, there was slight pause when he first attempted to speak "My mother, during the summer was...Difficult so to say" He stood up moving toward the railing, he had not yet changed into his robes and was wearing a leather jacket and a 'weird sisters' band shirt with black jeans and combat boots. You thought he looked good, you also thought any another girl in your position would swoon, your thoughts were soon interrupted by sirius speaking "I wanted some alone time to think." "About?" "Things" he turned around leaning on the railing, crossing his arms. "Wow you're sharing so much information" you teased. "I don't see you giving any details!" He threw his hands in the air. "There isn't any details to give, mine was just as interesting as yours." You shrugged "Well if there's any truth to that I apologize." He put a hand on your shoulder. 'If I liked him I'd be hella friend zoned right now' you thought. "Not your fault. We should get to our dorms" you said once the "moment" was over. "I think I'll stay a little longer" he said sitting down once again. "You sure?" you asked "Yeah, you should go." He responded, he ruffled your hair before you turned and left him alone with his thoughts on this quiet night. ~~~ The next morning you woke up ready to go to breakfast and hear all about the girls and Andrews summer, that is until you recalled what had happened the moment you stepped off the train to hogwarts. You then felt like you had 50 pound weight on your heart. There was no taking back what you said, it was done your mother was slowly getting what she wanted. Though you can't bear to lose all your friends - those friends being Lily Evans and (not that you'd admit it) the marauders. Eventually you knew that you would have to give them up, your slytherin "friends" would make you decide between them. But until then you decided you would still remain friends with the remaining people, however keeping a safe distance so that when the time comes it wouldn't be as hard to let go.During the following weeks you have been focusing on your studies (which made you figure out that without any distractions like friends you can actually excel in you classes), reading on your spare time and completely avoiding the astronomy tower and taking the longer route to and from classes that were in that part of the castle. 

You haven't spoken to any of the marauders or Lily except for simple 'hellos' or 'goodbyes' which left them giving you strange looks when you walked away from them before they could start up a conversation. You were never one to talk so much anyways but now it was just obvious you were avoiding them, and of course they were curious.

 It started with Lily every class you had together she would sit next to you before anyone else could, sparking up a one sided conversation. You felt bad but you knew you were being watched and for her sake you kept quiet making it seem as if she was bothering you. 

They're next attempt was with Peter, oh poor sweet peter he couldn't even get a word in before your housemates felt the need to defend you from the 'rat' ;).

 Next it was Remus whom you really couldn't complain that much about he just walked you to classes and sat next to you in the ones where you newfound friends weren't in (though he could defend himself well enough it didn't mean he wanted to get into trouble). Just sitting there, smiling at you as a greeting knowing you didn't want to talk but being there just in case. The thought of those moments made you smile. The remus plan ended and went on to James.

Ugh James, he was the least pleasant one. Always pestering you never caring who saw, whining and begging to know why you wouldn't speak to them sine you guessed that was the only goddamn thing he could think to do. You could of sworn you were going to pop off on him, instead you sighed and re thought your life and why you were ignoring them in the first place. Luckily you didn't have to deal with it that long after since he quit the next day.

Then it was the note: Astronomy Tower. Immediately you knew where it was from, it was a little past midnight when you got the letter so you knew he meant to meet now. Your thoughts were battling inside your mind whether to stay or to go. One side was telling you to stay, if you were to get caught leaving by any of your fiancees death eater friends you'd be good as dead. Now if you went you would be able to see sirius again and explain everything to him. It seems you don't care about your life or your mother watching or anything really because you chose the latter.

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Not a Morning Person [James Potter x reader]

A/N: This is inspired from real life and how I can't ever wake up early enough to get to the morning classes. Hope you enjoy it!!

I was sleeping soundly in my dorm room. I had to admit that it was surprisingly quiet seeing as everyone should be getting ready for class, but I didn't question it any further, thankful to be able to get more sleep.

Meanwhile, James was eating breakfast in the Great Hall, surrounded by his friends, who were either talking about Quidditch or today's classes.

"But where's Y/n?" He wondered, watching the doors. He knew how tired she was and in how much trouble she got for not waking up early enough to get to the morning classes last term.

This is how they met, actually. She got detention nearly everyday for missing class, while he got detention for doing proper problem causing things.

"She's probably sleeping." Sirius answered while he was chewing on his sandwich. James nodded, deciding to wait a bit more, before going to check up on her.

I heard the door open, assuming it was Lily getting ready for breakfast. I didn't even try to open my eyes, knowing I wouldn't be able to, anyways.

I felt the bed shift slowly, making my body move towards the edge. I grunted, this sound being my wordless way of asking what was wrong. I didn't get an answer as I felt the person hovering over me, holding their weight on their arm next to my head. That was when his cologne hit me, making me smile. It was James. His minty breath hit my face, making me scrunch up my nose. He laughed lightly, as his hand brushed a few stray hair away from my face.

"Breakfast just ended, love. It's time for potions." His words made me open my eyes immediately, followed by me pushing him away as I sat up quickly. I got out of bed in a rush, grabbing my uniform and putting in on. I ran into the bathroom, brushing my teeth at the same time as my hair. I heard James laugh from the doorway, making me shoot him a dirty look.

"I'm sorry I'm not a morning person." I grumbled as I passed him on the way out of the bathroom.

"This is why you've been blessed with my existence, angel." I could hear the smirk he wore without even seeing his face. I turned to face him, smiling up at him. He rested his hand on my jaw, pulling my face to meet his. He kissed my nose, then my cheek, followed by slowly kissing my lips. I bit his lower lip as his other hand went around my waist, pulling himself closer to me.

"We don't have time for this, James. We need to get to class." I pulled away, watching his reaction with a grin. He rolled his eyes, pushing his lower lip out a bit, pouting. I laughed, grabbing his hand and pulling him after me out of my dorm.

Hi! So I'm doing a yandere Sirius black x reader because he's underrated.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------You were walking in the dim-lit atmosphere. It was night, and you were not allowed but who gave a fuck? I mean, your best friend ps the marauders were ALWAYS doing it. You had known of Remus' furry little problem but never how they could contact him when he was a werewolf. They were your ex-friends now. They had ruined tour friendship with the 'Mudblood' accident, it was more Sirius. He broken your heart. Truth be told you had a crush on him. You guessed it didn't affect you anymore.

Then suddenly, in your vision a dog was seen. It was black and fluffy, you obviously had to pet it.

It's eyes showed delight as you ruffled up his hair.

Then slowly, it ran towards the shrieking shack, thank goodness it wasn't the full moon. The dog seemed like it wanted you to follow it, so you did.

When you entered, the door shut. And instead of the dog it was Sirius. The one and only, Sirius Orion Black.

First you were stunned. Then it all clicked. Animals were not in danger with werewolfs. They had became animagi.

'Sirius?' you whispered. Then another thing clicked, you had always seen that dog follow you. Heck, you were even petting it all the time!

'Yes, love?'

'Open the door Sirius,' you said, 'Its nearly class time,'

'No can do, love,'

Hii!

I wanna write more no one's probs gonna see this but I'm just writing this because I live for yandere Hp characters!

Star-struck Diaries (on Wattpad) http://my.w.tt/UiNb/03UUrhiUKG A blend of fanfictions of Ben Barnes's many characters. Requests are open!

Secret Encounters (3)

Warning- I don't think anything

Word Count - 1688

“Can I come in” Sirius said knocking on the door in the room I was in. “Please, i’ll close my eyes and not even look at the wedding dress, I wanna see you,” He pleaded making me smile. 

“Sirius Black leave now, you can not see the bride on the wedding day, you’ll see her soon,” Molly said opening the door, Sirius tried poking his head in but Remus pulled him back.

“He’s never changed, been like that since Hogwarts,” I said smiling and looking at myself in the mirror, my vale was hanging to almost my ass and my dress was strapless and like a ball gown, everything I imagined.

“You look beautiful y/n,” Hermione said walking into the room and smiling, she was dressed in a pink long dress, she was one of my bridesmaids I had chosen.

“Thank you, is it bad i’m so nervous,” I said to her, even know I was older then her we related to a lot of things.

“Not at all,” Molly said coming over and hugging me. “We’re just glad that your getting married, all Sirius talked about when he first met us was you, saying he was gonna marry you one day and today's the day,” She said sitting me down. “Now let me finish doing your hair.

“Hey,” Tonk said entering the room, she was my maid of honor, dressed matching the bridesmaids but her dress was short and her hair was pink, matching her dress. “Holy you look wonderful,” She said standing in the mirror.

“Thank you, whats Sirius doing?” I asked not even imagining what he could be doing right now.

“Pacing and laughing with Remus and Harry, hes super excited and glitter, he tried getting in here when I got in but Harry pulled him away,” Tonks said making me smile.

“All done darling, Tonks dear, can you move Sirius and then meet us in the kitchen so we can get this show on the road,” Molly asked and Tonks went out. “Get every in the tent please,” She yelled at Tonk before she shut the door.

“Are you ready y/n?” Hermione asked leaning over the chair. “i’m happy for you and Sirius, you guys are perfect for eachother,” She said making me smile.

“Thank you Hermione, i’m glad you agreed to be a bridesmaid, you two Molly because I didn't have much options and glad I have all you in my life,” I told them.

“Oh dear your gonna make me cry,” Molly said hugging me from behind. “Come on now, we gotta get this wedding on with everyone's waiting,” She said taking my hand and walking out.

“Everything is ready to go,” Tonks said walking in and smiling at me. “this is your day y/n,” She said smiling and walking me to the kitchen, from the window everyone was sitting down but Remus, Harry, Ron and Sirius who were standing with each other.

“Can you walk be down the isle?” I asked Molly turning around. “My mom send the invitation back with a x on the no box, I have no one here to walk be down,” I said nervously staring out the window. 

“It would be a honor dear, your parent of the family, forever and always,” She said kissing my hand. 

“Music is ready when you guys wanna start,” Ginny said walking in. “Y/n you look wonderful, Sirius looks like you wants to jump out of his skin right now,” She said smiling.

“Start the music, i’m ready,” I said taking a deep breath in, I took my last look at Sirius and walked to the door, Hermione then Tonks walked out together. “Ready,” I said looking at Molly who was standing beside me.

“I should be asking you if your ready,” She said smiling, everyone stood up once Hermione and Tonk got to the stand, looking back at me. “Ready then ever,” She whispered taking my hand.

Everyone was looking at Molly and I, my heart was beating so fast, Sirius’ brother was sitting in the back row, he shot me a smile as I walked passed him.

“You look wow,” Sirius said taking my hand and helping me up on the steps. “I told you your ass would look nice,” I whispered in my ear making me laugh.

“Today we’re here to celebrate the marriage of Sirius Black and Y/n y/l/n,” The priest said standing behind us. “You may now say your vows,” He said backing up.

“You go first,” Sirius said looking at his hand then back at Remus who gives me a thumbs up.

“Well,” I said nervous, taking a deep breath. “From the first prank you pulled on me, to the lastest dying my hair pink I knew you were the one, I wish James and Lily were here to see this day, the day they talked about since we moved in with them, but their sons here and that's what makes the wedding complete without them, we’ve got them both here in him and they would be proud of us, like i’m proud of you,” I said to Sirius as he grabbed my hand.

“Okay first of, dying her hair pink was hilarious,” He said making the crowd laugh. “But when I met you on the train to hogwarts I knew you were a keeper, you had the most sarcastic ways of saying I love you and the cutest ways of showing it, James and Lily would be proud, they’re watching over us right now, smiling,” He said kissing my hands.

“May the ring barrer present the rings,” The priest said stepping back up, Remus passed the my ring to Sirius and Sirius ring to me. “Do you Sirius Black take y/n y/l/n to be your offly wedded wife?” The priest asked.

“Forever and always,” He said placing the ring on my finger. “Forever and always,” He repeated letting go of my hand.

“Do you y/n y/l/n take Sirius Black to be your offly wedded Husband?” He asked me, I looked at SIrius and smiled.

“Forever and always,” I said grabbing his hand and slipping his ring on. “Its official,” I smiled not letting go of his hand.

“You may now kiss the bride,” The priest said and not a second later Sirius picking me up, spun me around almost hitting Remus then looking at me.

“My Lady,” He said placing his lips on mine as everyone cheered. “Hello Mrs Black,” He said putting me down and smiling. 

“Hello offly wedded husband,” I said interlocking hands and facing the crowd. “Well its time to party!” I screamed as Sirius picked me up bridal style and carried me back into the house, Molly, Arthur and her kids were setting up the tent for the reception.

“We’re married,” Sirius said spinning me around again in the house. “You look so beautiful today, the most beautiful girl in the world,” Sirius said kissing my lips.

“I love you so much,” I said throwing my hands around him and just hugging him “Are you ready have our first dance?” I asked making him chuckle.

“You know it, I got your favorite drinks all ready too,” Sirius said kissing the top of my head. “Look, it's almost set up,” he said pointing outside.

“You set everything up right, you set up the music, you gave Molly the list I gave you of music?” I asked Sirius worried, I just wanted everything to be perfect.

“Yeah my love, everything is set up and will be perfect, I promise,” Sirius said taking my hand. “Now come on, I wanna just dance with you,” He said opening the front door and dragging me outside.

“Hey big brother,” Regulus said standing in front of us. “I wanted to say congratulations,” He said smiling. “Mom and Dad wanted to be here, but I couldn't miss my big brothers wedding for the world,” Regulus said again, I looked at Sirius, a small smile just creeped on his face.

“I’m glad you're here little brother,” Sirius said taking his brother into a hug. “I’m really glad you're here, its all I needed,” He said.

“Are the bride and groom ready for their first dance?” Remus shouted with a microphone with a drink already in his hand. “Because I know I am,” He said making me burst out laughing.

“We should go before Remus decided to take or first dance away,” I said to Sirius who nodded his head. “Nice seeing you Regulus,” I said interlocking hands with Sirius and walking towards the dance floor that was nicely set up.

“Remus thank you,” Sirius said putting his hand up to stop him from saying anything else. “Our first dance as a married couple,” He said as the music started on cue and Sirius put out his hand. “Care to dance,” He said smiling.

“I would love too,” I said coming closer to him and putting my arms around his. “Y/n black huh, I like the sound of that,” I whispered placing my hand on his shoulder and swaying with him to the music.

“I like the sound of that too, i’m glad everything worked out, i’ve never been happier in my life,” He said leaning on my head.

“What if I told you something that would make you even more happier?” I whispered making him move his head and look at me. “Your gonna be a dad,” I said smiling then stopped once he didn't say anything.

“I’M GONNA BE A DAD!” He screamed picking me up and spinning me around. “Oh this is the happiest day of my life,” He said planting a kiss on my lips. “Everyone come dance!” He yelled as everyone made there way onto the dance floor.

“Oh Sirius, your going to be a amazing dad,” I said putting my hand on his chest and wrapping his hands around me. “I hope i’m gonna be a amazing mom,” I muttered as we danced the rest of the night away, laughing and having to bring Remus home with us.

You’re My Muggleborn

James Potter x Reader

Request: @edona-likes-peanut-butter

Warnings: Kissing,

“ Oie Y/n! Wait up for me now!”

The girl turned around mid sprint and winked at the raven haired boy running behind her.

“ You’ll have to catch up to me Potter!”

She turned and began to speed up again, her eyes glued to the hillside where the other three boys sat with the basket of food.

Mmm

She could smell it.

Euphemia’s apples and Fleamont’s homemade lemonade in the glass bottles he’s put it in.

James stopped and panted for a few seconds, glancing back up to where she had stopped to tie her trainers. The sun shown beautifully on her face that day and James stood in a trance staring at her.

An idea suddenly popped his mind and James grinned wickedly.

Y/n looked up and worry spread her soft features at the look on James’ face when he suddenly began sprinting up to her as if someone had just given him an energy potion.

Y/n hurriedly began to tie her laces once she understood. Unfortunately James caught up to her now sprinting form again and he wrapped his arms around her waist from behind, pulling her body atop his as he pulled the both of them down.

You never push a lady

Words he vividly remembered his mother telling him years ago as a child.

Which was why he pulled her down atop him before he wrapped his legs around her waist and pinned her to the ground, one of his hands wrapped around both of her wrists as he pulled them above her head and pinned them to the ground.

James smirked from his position abover her and he leaned down and dropped his head onto her stomach, panting from the heavy sprint.

Y/n opened her eyes and looked up into James’ as he stared back up at her.

She inclined her head towards where the boy’s legs were and kept her face neutral.

“ Do you mind pulling my skirt down a bit James? I think you pulled it up when you pinned me down.”

James’s face flushed and he let go of Y/n’s wrist’s and stood, diverting his eyes from her legs. James pushed his glasses up on his nose and extended a hand to the girl.

Once he pulled her up James turnt and grasped their bags, throwing both of them onto his shoulder before he started off for where Sirius, Remus and Peter sat.

Y/n jogged after him and grasped his hand in hers, pulling up next him before she plopped down beside Sirius on the blanket they had set out.

Peter leant forward from across the blanket and handed Y/n two pillows and blankets for her and James.

James on the other hand started passing out sandwiches and Sirius worked with Remus on making the blanket into a nest for the five of them on the ground.

Peter grabbed his blanket and lunch and found a spot to sit, eating peacefully while the rest of them did the same.

Y/n finished her two sandwiches, one apple and downed half her lemonade before James had noticed that the sun had started to go down or that she had been nudging into his side for warmth.

He quickly turned to see Sirius, Remus and Peter dozing off in their respective areas (‘their own’ meaning Sirius curled up atop of Remus and Peter sleeping by the corner), Y/n lying on her back under a blanket as she watched the beautiful sunset.

James stretched and went to take off his jacket before moving backwards where Y/n lay.

The boy pulled his pillow next hers and threw his blanket halfway over her’s, scooting over so he could lay next her under the fleece of the blankets with the girl.

Y/n caught the memo and sat up, letting James move over, before she leaned back and adjusted so her head came up on his chest and her leg draped over his.

James wrapped an arm around the girls waist and dropped a kiss to her forehead before she curled up closer in his grasp and sighed, content with the world. 

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James stood and pulled Y/n to her feet, snickering at the sight of Sirius and Remus.

The female moved her head around, making sure no one had been looking, before she started unbuttoning her blouse to reveal the cherry red tank top underneath. Y/n quickly threw the blouse at James and snatched his jersey away, pulling it over her shoulders and slipping her arms into the holes.

The girl looked up to see James waiting for her by the tree and she sprinted over to him, grasping the hand he had held out and they took off.

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“ Here we are m’lady.”

James held out an arm and Y/n intwined her’s with his, curtsying before exploding in muffled laughter. (Muffled, her face being buried in his chest)

“ Thank you, oh great sir.”

She held out a hand and did a mock wave.

James wrapped his arm around her waist and dropped to the ground, the female dropping into his lap with the drop while James placed his hand over her mouth to keep the shreeking down-low.

Y/n soon got over the initial shock and twisted around in his lap, looking over to where the sun started rising over the treeline.

James wrapped his arms around her waist, leaving his chin to rest on her shoulder while watching the sun.

“ It’s beautiful James.”

The slightly older boy smiled at the girl and, unbeknownst to himself, said ‘just like you’.

“ I doubt it.”

Y/n leant back in his grasp and pulled his arms up to hers so she could intwine their fingers.

“ You’re beautiful Y/n, why can’t you see that?”

“ Because I’m a muggleborn James, nobody like a muggleborn when it comes to dating.”

He’d had enough of it.

She sounded too calm saying that and he had enough of it.

James placed his hand on her stomach and gently turned her around before he placed a finger under her chin, making her meet his soft and caring gaze.

“ You’re my muggleborn. Because Y/n L/n is one of my best friends, Y/n L/n has a beautiful mind and Y/n L/n is the love of my life and I’ll trash anyone who calls you anything other than what you are.”

James’ lips attached to hers in a gentle kiss and her hands made their way to his jaw before they parted only a mere few moments later. A small, whispered ‘I love you too Prongs’ left her lips soon after breaking the kiss and James gazed into her eyes while she stared over at the rising sun.

The rising sun who’s beams shined of iridescent orange, red and yellow hues and that James thought made Y/n’s face look simply gorgeous.

The sun’s rays splashed upon her soft features, the different hues mixing with her hair and creating such a magnificent color, the look to her eyes while she stared defiantly ar the sun and the dash of pink spread across her cheeks from their earlier kiss.

Magnificent.

“ Be my girlfriend Y/n L/n?”

“ Yes, but you have to answer one question first.”

“ Shoot.”

“ Did you just confess your love for me because I denied the fact that I’m beautiful?”

He could practically hear the smirk in her voice.

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I had a hard time figuring out how to end it-

I know it’s not exactly how you wanted it but a girls gotta do what a girls gotta do-

I hope you have a good day!

Drop a note, drink some water, eat some food, take screen breaks and remember You Are Loved!

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