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poetryorchard · 8 months
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join nashira in this workshop centering radical self love! you are invited to join no matter what state of self-esteem you are. even if you don't think you want to write about yourself, you never know what other things you might write about!
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cow-dyke · 7 months
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A writing of being an intersex/mesosex femme
cw: internalized intersexism and talks of menstruation
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I never felt like I was made to be a part of womanhood. 
I can’t relate to the same things other girls do: 
I don’t have to carry around pads or tampons so when a female friend of mine asks me for one I feel a little ashamed to have to deny her. I can’t pinpoint when I got my first period because it happened over the course of many years and is more complicated than just remembering a day when I pulled down my pants and saw blood. I don’t just have to shave my legs or wax my eyebrows but rather pull off my whole skin to get that natural manliness off my body. I don’t look in the mirror and see a girl but rather someone who was put into the mold of one and broke in the process of becoming it’s intended shape.
I can wear all the dresses I want, cake on all that makeup, and swear up and down that I am enough but I know deep down, that is not the case. Because once I take off that dress, once I remove all that makeup, once I stop pretending, it all comes back to me. Whether it be the broad shoulders, the body hair everywhere, or just the life I am living. 
I try to relate to gender minoritized people but I really don’t think I fit there either. 
Am I cis? No, I was assigned a gender at birth but didn't fit into its expectations. 
Am I trans? No, my assigned gender is still something I hold onto even if it doesn’t want to hold onto me. 
I know there are an infinite amount of ways to be a woman and I know that me being the person I am doesn’t stop me from calling myself one but in the end, that gender never made me feel secure. It never made me feel like I had a home but more of a cell I was assumed to stay in for the rest of my life and learn to make of its dues.
I am still a feminine person though. Yes, I’ll still wear dresses, I’ll still wear makeup, heels, pink even if I am not a woman. 
I am a femme. Yet, unlike the woods of womanhood I walked through, being a femme is not about your ability to relate but about your power to make a home of what’s in your heart. 
It doesn’t have clear-cut rules; it has complexity. It doesn’t feel like a cell anymore.
I never felt safe in this house called womanhood. So I learned to build my own home made from my own livelihood. My own experiences, my own feelings, my own life. 
I am my own maker.
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seancamerons · 8 months
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Truth. I needed to see this! 😊 (shared from somewhere else)
Generally happy accidents or with deliberate intricate and meticulous planning been it's been difficult throughout my life as an artist/designer. The negative inner voice and doubt stunted me for too long. The negative schtik killed my dreams for a long while and can potentially destroy and hinder everything i build and create and question myself in the future. So currently, I am embracing my skills and trying to stop beating myself up. It is exhausting, honestly, being critical. My arsenal of 15ish years of work would be humongous if i did lay off myself and took off boxing gloves jk tbh. It is long overdue, opening myself, and my mind to just enjoy the present journey(and open up to a possible and potentially fun positive experience?) of simply creating. It sucks the fun right out thinking any other way.
I am trying to drop that act, perhaps ill pick up pencils (im not the best at hand rendering/drawing in my opinion tbh), work with new tools and mediums, utilize or improve on older tools, share, advance myself, build an arsenal, and simply create more and question less or much later if at all. I won't know unless I'll try again. I'm already sketching drawing practicing every day, and im not looking back.</the end
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dimmadoome · 5 months
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I'm not an artist with art that everyone loves nor am I a writer with stories everyone loves, but I love my own art and I love my own stories so haha fuck you I'm having a great time.
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shortkidenergy · 1 year
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no but I really think it’s time to start romanticizing aging. romanticize gray hair and wrinkles. romanticize thinning skin and sun spots and visible veins. romanticize old hands. have you seen old hands? how soft and calloused they are? how the skin drapes gently on knuckles and bones? romanticize laugh lines and crows feet and forehead creases—memories of emotions you’ve experienced so many times they’ve etched themselves into your face. romanticize scars and marks and discoloration and all the little ways your body catalogs the life you’ve lived. romanticize slowing down when you need to. romanticize asking for help and receiving it because you are human and alive and worth taking care of. romanticize knowing more than you did yesterday. romanticize picking up new hobbies, making new friends, learning new things, telling stories, laughing throughout your later years. romanticize growing. romanticize change. because fighting to stay young is fighting for stagnation and life isn’t a hill with a peak to hit and decline it’s a constant journey forward. and while people my age are flattening their faces and injecting fillers in preparation to fight against their bodies, I am preparing to love myself. and I am preparing to love.
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hellsmayflower · 6 months
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tryingtimi · 2 years
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🍇🥭🍎🥝🍐🍋
You’re awesome Timi 🥰
🍇 I want to get to know your work better
🥭 I want to buy your book the moment it hits shelves
🍎 Your world-building is incredible
🥝 I want to see your story made into a movie or TV series
🍐 I want to read everything you write
🍋 Your descriptions are transportive
VOID, LOVE!!!!
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You precious, precious soul, YOU are awesome! Thank you so much! LOVE YOU SO MUCH! ❤️❤️
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keen-li · 7 days
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MA'AM
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18+
MDNI
Neighbour au. age gap au (reader is older than jk). kissing, touching, oral (female receiving), fingering, jk calls reader ''ma'am''. reader is kinda lonely, bored and untouched. p in v, no protection (be wise and condomize guys).
this is all just fiction, don't take it too seriously.
plus im stil learing to write smut, so go easy on me.
helpful and positve feedback is appreciated.
Sorry for any typos.
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‘’oh yn,’’ you hear a familiar boy-ish voice speak.
And when you turn, your eyes are met with jungkook.
You know him cause he’s your neighbour, but you rarely speak seeing that you have nothing in common but he’s always kind and sweet whenever you bump into each other.
Like right now.
‘’jungkook’’ you say surprised to see him. ‘’how are you?’’ you give him back a smile.
You haven’t seen him in a while, he must be busy with college (you assume) or maybe he’s busy with some girlfriend. Guys his age are usually swarmed with girls. Especially seeing how attractive he is. The college girls must be having fun with him.
You admire his hair that seems to have gotten longer. You can’t help but notice how good he looks with it.
‘’i’m good, hope you’re doing well..’’ he pauses in his speech ‘’haven’t heard from you in a while. I almost thought you moved out’’
You chuckle at his assumption.
You shake your head lightly as you chuckle ‘’nope. Just busy with work’’
‘’i dont think i’d ever move out honestly’’ seeing as this apartment has a fair price for rent.
He chuckles.
‘’im glad thought i scared you away’’ he says worriedly.
‘’you’d never scare me away’’ you mumble out suddenly feeling nervous.
‘’with all those noise complaints you handed to me?’’ He says with a warm joking tone.
You can’t deny that a lot of noise comes from jungkook’s apartment, that you had to report him. You kinda feel childish for doing it, he’s a college boy anyways. All they know is noise.
‘’but i do get it. I make a lot of noise’’ he uses his pointer and middle finger to rub his lower lip, you get the chance to admire his tattooed finger and pierced lip.
You feel yourself swallow the lump in your throat and bite your lip. You don’t know why you always feel like this when talking to jungkook, maybe it’s his hovering figure, intimidating voice or piercing brown eyes. Even though his eyes give off a soft innocent look you can’t help but observe the sensuality in them.
‘’um yeah’’ you don’t know what else to say. Your eyes can barely look at jungkook while his eyes can’t stop looking at you. There’s no way a college boy can make you feel this nervous. You thought you had outgrown it.
Or maybe it’s the aloneness since your last boyfriend. It’s been quite depressive but you try and not let it eat you up.
But it’s hard when you and jungkook’s walls are as thin as paper. and can hear everything that goes on. Especially when he has a girl over.
You don’t mean to listen to what happens, but what else can you do when you’re laying in bed, bored and lonely. It seems sad you end up finding your hand in-between your thighs as you hear how jungkook pleasures.
With all the groans and name moaning you have come to the conclusion that jungkook must be a great fuck. But it’s not like you’ll ever know. Do you even want to?
You can never fuck someone younger than you right? You’ve always dated older men or at least someone the same age as you. You’ve never been with a younger guy before.
But jungkook seems like he could definitely go for an older woman.
Wait.
Does jungkook want you. He does seem to give off that vibe but maybe you’re in over your head. Jungkook wouldn’t want you there are so many better options for him. So many better girls for him. Not you.
‘’so do you like those?’’ he askes pointing to the basket you have filled with ramen noodles cups.
You chuckle embarrassed.
‘’ yeah i do but, i mainly buy them cause i don’t have time to cook’’
He nods.
‘’maybe i can come cook for you one day’’ you laugh but he’s actually serious.
‘’oh, i wouldn’t mind but i assume you’re busy with school’’ you swing the basket lightly and unconsciously.
‘’i can find time’’ he says a little rushed out.
‘’then i wouldn’t mind’’ you smile.
‘’you going home?’’ he asks.
You nod.
‘’i guess i can give you a ride home, if that’s alright with you’’
You wouldn’t mind at all.
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The ride back home was quiet. It still baffles you to how jungkook has a car.
When you were in college you could barely find money to buy food, let alone a car.
And even with a job you can barely find money to buy or rent a car.
‘’thanks for the ride, it was nice meeting you today jungkook’’
The way you smile and say his name makes a hot flash rush through him.
If only you knew how many times his thought of you calling out his name. Sometimes he wishes it was you in his bed, toes curling and back arching.
If he got the chance, he’d show you how you deserve everything.
You don’t deserve to get yourself off and barely get off.
Did he ever say that the walls are so thin that he can hear you too.
He’s heard your frustrated moans and grunts. And all the times you cursed cause of how hard it was to get your high, sometimes his heard you cry and it breaks his heart.
He wishes he could get a chance to please you. He’s never wanted to please someone so bad.
He’s never been so desperate to get on his knees and run you dry of all your juices. To feel you claw at his back as you take him so well.
But he’s also never thought of being with an older woman.
Jungkook knows you’re older than him and he doesn’t mind. Actually he makes him want you more.
He wants you like air and if he doesn’t get you now he feels like he would stop breathing.
So if he doesn’t take this opportunity now he might never have the chance to.
‘’do you wanna, come eat ramen with me?’’
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You don’t know how it happened. But he asked you to come over to his, you didn’t see a problem with it so you said yes.
But you don’t know how you went from laughing over some movie to grinding on his lap as your lips intertwine hungrily.
Fuck. You never thought you’d be doing this with your neighbour and fuck you never thought it would feel this good.
Your hands roam his firm chest, and your thoughts are proved right, he does like the gym. Though you could’ve known that without clawing at his chest.
These younger guys are always in the gym, like their life depends on it.
Your gasps and moans mix. You don’t know how innocent sounds of laughter turned into hot whimpers of need.
Maybe it was the stares that seemed to linger for longer than they should have.
Jungkook takes a moment to take in your face but then his lips are soon on yours again as eager as ever, and you accept them.
He kisses you with eagerness and desperation. Desperation to touch and feel you in every way.
You moan into his mouth as you feel the wetness grow between your legs. You hate how a college student, has you this hot and soaking wet.
You’re busy devouring each other’s lips but you don’t fail to recognize the tent forming and touching your centre.
Jungkook’s hands rummage over your back and over your hips and to your ass, he sqeezes your ass lightly which causes you to jumb lightly.
‘’you okay’’ he asks
‘’yeah just never had anyone squeeze my ass like that’’
That boy-ish smile of his is far gone, now a manly sexy grin paints his face. A grin like a wolf looking at a lamb as it’s next meal.
‘’you’ve never had someone touch you like that’’
You shake your head. You hate how jungkook makes you feel like a highschooler losing their virginity.
‘’who have you been fucking that doesn’t want to touch this ass’’ he squeezes your ass again, and you’re embarrassed when you release a moan at that action.
‘’i don’t know’’ your words come out more whiny than you’d like.
He moves to your neck and you move it to accustom him into the space. He places some wet and gentle kisses.
‘’i’m not like them though. I wanna touch every part of you. Wanna taste every part of you and feel you on me.’’ He kisses your neck again and the smacking sound of his lips meeting your skin causes you clench. ‘’i wanna treat you right, i wanna make you feel good’’
You don’t know how true his words are or if you can even take them seriously. Maybe it’s the lust talking. He’s a young man, he wouldn’t want to waste his days with you.
‘’don’t you have other, younger girls. You wanna make feel good.’’ You just had to ask.
The chuckles he releases causes a rush of blood to your groin.
‘’all i think about when i fuck them is you’’ he kisses you again.
You don’t want to believe him but your heart can’t help but flutter. You don’t want to get hurt again but something tells you jungkook is far from hurting you. But you can’t trust that feeling, what if that feeling is just how good it feels to be on him.
He has a great way with words and it would work on you every time, cause you haven’t grown out the naivety of your youth for some reason.
Jungkook knows when and how to say the right words which makes you scared. Which makes him dangerous. All these young boys are to slick with their words.
‘’yn, don’t think’’ he whispers against your lips. He must have noticed your distance all of a sudden.
‘’don’t think of anything but this’’ he pecks your lips.
‘’i’ll try’’ you coo.
‘’i’ll make you’’
his lips are back on yours desperately. And the sound of your lips smacking and you whimpers fills the room again.
His lips go back to licking and sucking that one spot on your neck. His mouth on your neck and hands on your hips helping you grind against his clothed crotch makes you gasp for air.
You’ve never had anyone take their time with you like this, they’re usually quick to just get it in. But not jungkook, he takes his time enjoying and tasting every part of you. Why wouldn’t he when he’s been thinking about this moment and taking cold showers to stop his natural desire for you.
Being with jungkook tells you how much you’ve been missing and how much you need to learn. It’s like going back to your college days.
‘’fuck jungkook’’ you moan when he nibbles at your neck. Your hands move from his chest to his neck then to his long hair.
You unintentionally pull at his hair and you love how he groans when you do so.
The need and ache between your legs grows strong as you grind harder on his lap. Jungkook watches how you move against him trying to find your high. He promises to give it to you but he needs to feel more of you before he does so.
You gasp when he plops you on your back onto his soft couch.
‘’jungkook...’’ you call out and he stops his action to attend to your need.
‘’yes’’ he sounds so submissive as he says so.
‘’i want you’’ your hips move up to feel some friction. He chuckles at the action.
‘’i want you too’’ he smiles as he pecks you on your forehead.
‘’no. Like i want you. Actually i fucking need you’’ you whine out. You’re probably gonna be so embarrassed later but right now you need him.
Your hand reaches for his belt but his hands stop you. You feel embarrassed and confused, you know he’s hard. You can see his fully grown bulge. But why does he want to take so much time.
‘’i wanna taste you first’’ he whispers by your ear.
Fuck. You’ve never had anyone want to eat you out. It’s been a while since anyone went down on you.
‘’jungkoo-‘’ you want to protest.
‘’please yn’’ he begs. ‘’i need it’’ his lips are against yours as he says in a whisper. His lips are on yours for a second before he leaves you wanting to taste his lips more.
You watch his body move down and you can feel your wetness drip down.
‘’fuck...’’ you hear him groan and grow a little self conscious.
‘’what?’’ you lift yourself up a bit.
‘’it’s just that you’re so fucking gorgeous’’ you can’t help but blush and feel a little weird. You’ve never had anyone ogle at you pussy like that.
‘’jungkook..’’ you call out in a whine. You can feel his breath breeze over you centre and it makes the need grow stronger.
‘’i’m sorry, im staring’’ he says and before you can tell him anything his lips are on you, hungrily.
You release a sharp moan as his lips make out with yours.
He licks a long strip of you pouring juices, your taste sinking into his tastebuds.
‘’so fucking good,’’ he groans. ‘’and so fucking wet’’ you feel his finger run through your folds.
‘’jungkook please. Fuck...’’ you don’t even know what you’re pleading for but you are.
Jungkook adheres to you unspoken cries, as he dives back into kissing you and massaging your clit.
Your hand finds it’s way to his hair and pulls. The groan he releases sends electricity through you.
You’ve never felt like this, nobody has ever put this much effort into touching you.
And jungkook has never put this much effort into eating pussy, but for you he will and he is.
He adds his fingers into you as he pumps into you.
‘’fuck you need to be fucked right’’ he says at your tightness. You can barely hear what he’s saying over at how hard he’s slurping.
With the way his digits work into you and his tongue sucks on your clit, you can feel that feeling you’ve been chasing.
‘’fuck jungkook, im going to-‘’ jungkook smiles at how you can barely finish your sentence but he knows.
The feeling grows closer and your heart races in excitement.
But then all of the sudden the feeling is gone and you’re about to curse out jungkook who’s now moving up.
‘’what the fuck, i was going to-‘’ you whine angrily.
‘’i want you to come over my cock’’
You don’t argue, he’s the one in control after all.
‘’ then please fuck me’’ all you can do is plead. It’s so embarrassing pleading for him to fuck you. You wonder if girls his age are this desperate too.
‘’yes ma’am’’ he says as he takes off his shirt, for some reason him calling you ma’am makes you more aroused.
‘’don’t call me ma’am’’ you say blushing but jungkook knows, you’re bullshitting.
‘’yes ma’am’’ he says with a cheeky grin knowing that it makes you clench around nothing.
You watch him unbuckle his belt and you’ve never seen anything this attractive.
As you watch him you anticipate how his going to feel and how you’ll wrap around him. That’s all jungkook can think about too as he strokes himself slightly, though he’s been hard since he saw you in the grocery store.
You feel his tip slide through your wet folds and you can’t help but suck in a breath. Jungkook can’t help but whimper at how wet and good you feel already.
You clench desperate to feel something inside you. You wonder if it will hurt, it’s been a while for you anyways. And he looks like he could stretch you out good. But you’re too needy to worry about that.
You gasp when you feel him move into you, slow and teasingly. His tip has you wondering if you’ll be able to take all of him.
‘’fuck you’re so good for me’’ he says as he moves in deeper. ‘’i wish i could feel you everyday’’
You can.
You want to say, but don’t wanna make promises. You don’t know if this will ever happen again.
‘’do you wanna be good for me like this everyday, yn’’ he says kissing along your jaw as he settles into you.
He doesn’t move waiting for your answer.
You hum but it’s not enough for him.
‘’yes, i want you everyday’’ you end up speaking more of your mind than you planned to.
Jungkook smiles as he slowly begins to move in and out.
‘’good. You can have me everyday’’
With the ways he rocks into you, slowly increasing speed, you understand the moans of those girls you heard him fucking.
His name falls from your mouth as he continues. Jungkook has never enjoyed being buried in heat like this. And he’s never wanted to stay in forever like he does right now.
‘’jungkook..’’ with the way your nails dig into his arm and you flutter around he knows you’re close.
But so is he. Your high is his target as he continues to stroke.
Jungkook twitches inside of you as you both reach your highs.
He lays on top of you as you breath heavily. He tries to keep his weight from crushing you.
‘’next time i wanna be on top’’ you say with the energy you’ve got left.
‘’deal. Even though i like being on top, i’ll let you ride me’’ you almost feel that feeling comeback.
You stroke his hair as you watch that boy-ish smile return on his face.
It’s like he’s changed and wasn’t the person balls deep into you seconds ago.
‘’i like this’’ you say comfortable.
‘’i like you’’ Jungkook coos into your neck.
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russeliarat · 2 years
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Thank you, everyone
This is a little different to what I usually post and I might just be all up in my feelings today but I need to know I’m not the only one who wishes that the writings and art they put out makes someone smile or cheer up one day. 
I got into Legend of Zelda at a very young age due to family, and I’ve played the games through really hard times. Zelda’s been there to help me through whatever I went through that day or week, and I’ve always hoped I could do the same for others. I’ve never really been an out-there kind of person and I find it better to express myself through my stories and art. 
So in a sense this blog, as well as Oath of the Forsaken and all of the fanart and character redesigns that come with it, have been passion pieces dedicated to the franchise and characters and stories I love. All of the literature, fanfictions, headcannons etc I see make me so happy and I wish that by bringing my work into the world, not only can I make a name for myself, but also bring those same feelings into the hearts of those who view it, no matter if it’s one person, a hundred, or every person currently alive.
Thank you to everyone who has been following this blog, or even just liked one piece of art or random ramble about lore I made and has never interacted with my page again. Even if you aren’t reading this right now, thank you. You make my day.
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bcbdrums · 12 days
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Hi, I know we have quite different oppinions on some SE related things, but thats why I wanted to ask:
I actually really liked the manga Baba Yaga arc. Is your oppinion on it positve too or do you actually think its not as good or atleast weaker than the folowing arcs?
I'm curious on people's oppinions and finding out where the difference of perspectives originate
(Also think the Baba Yaga arc had a very strong SoMa moment with the whole puppet chapter resolution and Maka giving Soul and outstretched hand is an iconic panel to me)
I don't think the manga had a single "weak" arc. The more I pick things apart, the more I'm seeing what masterful storycrafting took place in Soul Eater, which is surely part of why it has such a strong fanbase to this day.
The Baba Yaga arc was fantastic!!! I have not read the manga since January, but I'll try to bullet point some of the key things that make it great.
And I'll preface this all by saying... The manga is divided into two halves, essentially (we know that), and at the end of each half...our main characters reach milestones in their stories and their character development. So it's like...they've all been hopping across stepping stones to reach the other side of the pond, and here they all arrive. And get ready to brave the waves of the next half of the story.
Also, I'm writing this in a way that assumes the reader has read and is intimately familiar with the manga. So I'm not going into detail about things. But anyway...
MAJOR spoilers for Soul Eater manga, if that matters to anyone.
The secondary trio. We get to see ALL of the kids in this arc, and time is spent with each of them; it's not JUST the main meister trio and their weapons, but it's also the secondary trio, and we finally get to know them more deeply as characters! And good heavens is that development ever GOOD! I won't detail it so folks can read it for themselves, but my GOSH was that ever phenomenal!
Minor characters. Eruka, Free, even Giriko, and Mosquito get their moments. And they're not just there to be on the page, they serve an actual purpose. And I felt that Mosquito here became more a genuine threat, less an annoying pest (lol, mosquito). We also get the unexpected introduction of a new enemy in Noah, which was a fabulous twist.
The first major seeds of doubt are sown here with the DWMA's decision making; perhaps they are not the great and wise leaders we've been led to believe? Because going along with Medusa's plan was clearly, clearly unwise. We have this sense the whole time that the effort is doomed simply by nature of...we know the decision was unwise. And with the little hints prior, and with what ultimately comes later regarding the DWMA and their place in the world...it was a fantastic stepping stone along that piece of the plot.
Medusa. The tension of her presence, of her supposedly being their ally. The clear and obvious lie she tells to Maka to gain her cooperation. Her true motives slowly but surely unfolding, and what ultimately happens with her in the end of the arc. It was a brilliant, brilliant play, completely inline with the manipulative character we know and love/hate, and an added level of threat throughout the arc since the point is to stop Arachne. And then to have the true plan revealed in the end... Sheer brilliance.
Black Star and Tsubaki vs Mifune. Another perfect stepping stone in the plot of Black Star's character development, from who he was at the beginning to who he ends up being in the very final chapter of the manga. Tense, powerful, bittersweet... Black Star is arriving here at who he needs to be to truly complete his goal. We see the growth in his words, his actions, and it becomes so important going forward.
Maka and Soul, and the battle against Arachne. Here we get back to the purpose... How was Soul Eater the series introduced? You defeat 99 evil souls and then the soul of a witch. So, we have arrived at last. A battle against a witch. And the themes of trust that were set up in that very first chapter get to shine here with Maka and Soul's growth as a meister/weapon pair. And oh ho HO that payoff... With yet another twist following... Fantastic storytelling!
Kid's sacrifice. Unexpected, heart-pounding, and yet again... A culmination of his growth. Throughout the arc... In his wise decision-making, his battle tactics, and then ultimately his sacrifice... He is stepping out of the...youthful and surface-level obsessiveness that is ultimately part of what is going to make him a great Shinigami someday, and stepping into the beginnings of maturing into that role. No more worrying about the height of picture frames. Only protecting the world, and protecting the ones he loves. It is a powerful, powerful moment in his development.
As I said in the beginning... This is an arrival, for each character. An arrival, and then they get to take a breath before the ultimate battle. Everything about this arc was phenomenal. Each and every character given their due; the pacing; the story itself with all of its frights, twists, and payoffs, and the way it makes the reader think. Truly, truly outstanding!
I know this was a very vague summary and assumes intimate knowledge of the manga, but my gosh... Truly a fabulous arc and I want to go read it again right now.
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porkcracker · 1 year
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Can I request a platonic Tfa Optimus and reader where Setinal is talking bad about optimus and the reader and Setinal figh whic the team prime and the elite gaurd are watching and then the reader says something like how optimus is a great leader and an says something like how they see him as a father figure.
Hello there, and welcome back. This request took my braincells a bit to work, but I think the end result isn't half-bad. Dad Prime is always a nice thing to write tho, so alas. I hope you enjoy reading and that it isn't too far from what you had in mind. I'm very sorry it took me so long to awnser, but I hope you enjoy reading.
Sentinel Prime vs. GN!Reader feat. Dad Prime
The dislike between the two of you was clear from the start
He dislikes you for being organic and always being around Team Prime
You dislike him for being xenophobic and his behaviour towards Optimus
Optimus is someone you care greatly for
He's caring, supportive and always has your back and you want to do the same for him
So one day, when Sentinel is talking down to Optimus, while he just sits and endures, you snap
Climbing up some boxes standing around to be closer in height, you start yelling at Sentinel
Sentinel is shocked and surprised, then he gets embarrassed and angry
Leaving Optimus to the side, he stalks over and starts yelling at you
Maybe facing a mechanical lifeform several times bigger than you, should be intimidating, but right this moment you don't care and you sure as hell don't feel scared of that pompous ass. No, rather you're very angry and you're letting him know so loudly. Maybe it wasn't your place, but you just couldn't continue standing by as he talked down one of the people most important to you. "-so, shut up!", you end your rant breathing heavily as silence settles over the room, where just moments before a meeting had been held.
It was almost hilarious to see the way Sentinel's faceplate contorted into a grimace, faceplate darkening in anger. With three angry steps he's right in front of you and you think that is the closest he ever willingly got to you. "Listen here you organic, this is none of your business. So why don't you shut up about things you don't know about? Or even better go back where you came from instead of being another useless presence here.", he yells down at you, his voice almost hissing at the end, the question who else he considered useless didn't need to be asked.
And to his chargin you do the exact opposite of shutting up and leaving. "Look whose talking! If anyone here is useless it's you. You act like you're oh so good, but everyone here knows that's all just talk no action. And really, who needs you? Because unlike you Optimus is not only way more competent and brave, he's actually a good leader. So stop talking down to him, you bully. Oh and you know what else? Unlike you Optimus has people that care about him like family.".
The meeting doesn't last long after that
Sentinel is so angry it looks like he's going to blow a fuse
Ultra Magnus is rather taken aback, but Jazz is definitivly on your side
Team Prime has a general positve reaction
Ratchet thinks that Sentinel absolutely deserved it, he'd love to chew him out himself
Bulkhead is a little worried for you and any kind of punishment that you might receive
Bumblebee and Sari are fans, they loved seeing you tearing into him
Prowl is rather quiet on the matter, but does't say anything against it either
Now Optimus, he is very touched and a bit embarrassed
He is also scrambling to do damage control for the relationship between the Elite Guard and Team Prime
But he does really appriciate it and is touched by your care for him
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745voiceofthepeople · 2 months
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Good morning!
So I have a question. You asked me a few days ago if Serana would make an appearance in my HOTD x Skyrim crossover. I do plan on writing Rhaenyra and her companions going through the Dawnguard quest at some point in my life but I want to know your opinion. How do you think Rhaenyra will react to meeting Serana?
Do you think they’d get along? What do you think Rhaenyra would think about vampires trying to destroy the sun and take over the world?
And speaking of DLC how over it do you think she’ll be when she realizes she’s going to have to save the world a third time against Miraak? Honestly I think she’ll be most upset about Miraak coming in at the end of her dragon battles and taking her rightfully earned souls.
Hi @itspronouncedjulia !
Sorry for the long delay, I wanted to get all my thought down properly and thanks for the ask!
Regarding Seranna, I can see hers and Rhaenyra’s relationship go in several direction. Rhaenyra’s view on vampires in general would be at least in part derivative on her overall view of Daedra. Which could be from a positve or very negative standpoint. When it comes to vampires specifically, a lot this depends on how you decide Rhaenyra views immortality and the darker more daedric magics. But I can also see Rhaenyra being pissed off as well. Especially since her blood is “required” via Valerica’s trap to wake Serana.
Prior to Rhaenyra discovering the truth of how Serana became a vampire, I can see the two of them having a case of clashing ego’s. The immortal creature of night (herself the pinnacle of her species) and dragon in human form. Rhaenyra’s own views on vampires (in general) would be conflicted. On the one hand, she would be intrigued about the concept of immortality. Never dying and never aging. Though it also depends on what you decide Rhaenyra’s mindset is. She was “transported” to Tamriel after the dance of dragons. Meaning her lover(s) and most of her children are deceased. She may desire to join them sooner rather than later. Unless of course, she finds something or someone to live for in her strange new world 😉
+ I could also see Rhaenyra at least tolerating Vampiric blood magic. Since pretty much all forms of magic in GRRM world is a rehashing of blood magic. Which would Lilly include whatever the ancient Valyrians did to go from sheep herders in Essos to empire ruling dragon riders. Even the others (themselves born of the children’s/old Gods blood magic) another “undead race”. Her main disdain, would come from the need for blood as sustenance, and harm from the sun.
Valyrians of course have a special connection to dragons and Fire, with Rhaenyra in your story being a dragon in human form ;). But this does not completely translate to sun worship or anything of that ilk. However, they must still have a certain regard or respect for the celestial body of fire. I this so anyway… Rhaenyra in the show is seen carrying on certain Valyrian customs. Perhaps a respect for the sun is one of them.
Of course, the sun itself in “Mundos” isn’t a physical body like in Westeros. Instead being a whole Magnus made escaping to Atherius after he realized his powers were being drained on Nirn. Depending how you want to go with this, Rhaenyra (being someone with a regard for Valyrian customs) might consider the entire idea that the sun is not truly the sun to be blasphemous. Though Harkon’s attempts to obscure the sun’s light (and thus destroy the world) may be more blasphemous still. Or she could see the Sun being in and of itself still metaphysically the Sun and thus not offensive to her Valyrian sensibilities. In which case, she would bodily despise Harkon and his Volkihar Vampires.
Lastly, I think Rhaenyra would also feel protective over Serena. Depending on how close you want to right their relationship. Once Rhaenyra learns that Serena is a daughter of Coldharbor and more importantly about the bile ritual that her parents forced on Serana. I can see Rhaenyra
This has the potential to remind Rhaenyra of her own frustrations with her father. Which could be something she and Serana bond over. Not that Viserys I own misconduct in anywhere near Harkon’s level…
Perhaps Rhaeneys even confronts Valerica in the Soul Carn about Serana and her undergoing Molag Bal’s rape ritual. It would provide Rhaenyra with even more motivation to slay Harkon.
I can also see Rhaenyra being potentially conflicted about the fate of the Snow Elves. On the one hand, Rhaenyra descends from the Valyrians. A forgotten people with few remnants left in their native continent of Essos, and feet still in Westeros. So she might feel a certain kinship with them.
Regarding Rhaenyra and Miraak, I can very much see her being annoyed that the world is in danger a third time. Though more so in a “another day at the job” fashion than genuine anger. Where she gets genuinely angry over the Dragonborn DLC can be several fold. Though we must also keep in mind that Rhaenyra has saved Nirn at least twice at this point. Perhaps even thrice, if she does the mage quest line. She’d likely be annoyed about having to save Nirn again and again and again…
It also depends on how far the Elder Scrolls rabbit hole you wish to go. Is Rhaenyra the dreamer? Does she achieve Chim? Does she Zero sum in the end? Though I wouldn’t deal with those topics unless you want to write about existentialism. Which is its own can of worms.
(Counting in Latin below to honor the Imperial Legion 😉)
Primus : you are absolutely right about her annoyance that Miraak is stealing the dragon souls that that she has already “rightfully stolen” (to use a Princess Bride quote ;). Rhaenyra would be upset that her hard work is squandered but also Rhaenyra may be upset over Miraaks expressed laziness. Waiting for her to do all the work and then stealing what belongs to her. Which is sort of call back to her Time in Westeros and tangentially her younger half siblings for her. It doesn’t help that Miraak lives in Apocrypha. Where that air is constantly filled with noxious fumes. Fumes that are a pale yellow-green in color. Or his sword “Firstblade” which also is green in color. Which may remind Rhaenyra of other greens she has battled in the past. In which case, poor Miraak… we hardly knew ye.
Secundus: depending on how you write her view of Alduin. Rhaenyra may be pissed that Miraak hand waved his own “destiny” to slay Alduin when he was a mortal dragon priest. Which then foisted the task onto her a few thousand years later.
Tertius: Miraak is the first dragon born and Rhaenyra is “the last”. The seal of the dragon burns if you will. As such, Rhaenyra may consider to herself duty bound with Miraak. A sort of “only a dragon born can slay a dragon born” thing.
Quartus: It also depends on how you write Rhaenyra’s viewpoint of the Daedric princes. Does she like them? View them as a necessary evil? Does she dislike them in the fashion of the Vigilants of Stendarr? Or is Rhaenyra’s viewpoint more nuanced, where she has positive feelings for some and negative for others?
Quintus: If she’s negative on the Daedra overall, Rhaenyra may be more than willing to fight Miraak. As powerful as he may be, Miraak is a servant of Hermaeus Mora at the end of the day. Though Rhaenyra may be influenced by all the books and information that Mora has in Apocrypha. I could see Rhaenyra looking for spells that could either take her back to Westeros or spells that would allow to “resurrect ” her slain children. Not necromantic spells that would place them under her power, but true resurrection spells. I could also see her being annoyed at Miraak interrupting her “research”.
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greenpanda-djg · 2 years
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Lets talk about Shen Jiu
Okay it's just a fictional character- I'm just assuming some things from the scant amount of info I've read and came to this realisation. If you want to decide that Shen Jiu just plain sucks, that's fine. Just because I think he's an intesting character doesn't mean I condone the things he did in PIDW [the fact that I have to write this is sad. but hey covering my bases]
So again any Anti-Shen Jius good for you for knowing to hate a scumbag character, I just think morally grey and evil characters are neat ^^; This is just a character analysis- it's not a positve OR negative review it's just a whole "I understand why he acted this way."
So the way I see it there is TWO Shen Jius.
The CANON Shen Jiu and the DRAFT Shen Jiu. The canon OG from Proud immortal demon way, the lazy fanservice product from Airplane himself. From the [Extras] Of Airplanes pov, he stated he 'scrapped' Shen Jius and Luo Binghes father just for money. So the Canon pidw is of course a scumbag etc.
So what about the second Shen Jiu? The DRAFTED one.
From the parts I got the Draft story of PIDW was supposed to be about two opposing characters Both Shen Qingqiu AND Luo Binghe BOTH cut from the same cloth, Shen Qingqiu was supposed to be Luo Binghes warped funhouse mirror of who Luo Binghe could BECOME. Shen Jiu faced abuse, so did Luo Binghe and near the end once his past was revealed was supposed to be Luo Binghe seeing himself BECOMING Shen Qingqiu that abuse creates more abuse. [This was what airplane was going for but thanks to fandom decided to just AXE this concept for fanservice and lame low level Iq villains]
But in the Extras of Scum Villain from Airplanes POV. Then we have Airplane seeing Shen QIngqiu becoming flustered making Liu Qingge snap at him and saying he tried to kill him on purpose, Shang tries to tell Liu thats NOT what happened Shen Qingqiu was trying to help-
But Shen Qingqiu told him wasn't he supposed to be dead? [Since shang was pretending to feint so airplane shut up and flopped back down] Shen Qingqiu doesn't defend himself and accepts what others say, and everytime Liu snaps at him- even when he said that Shen Qingqiu was behind because he started his cultivation late, Shen said nothing.
Shen Qingqiu was so bothered by this, wasn't even reading his book...that was upside down. Airplane saw that the villain had his book upside down. That it bothered him that much.
Him the great Shen Qingqiu! The peak lord holior than thou who made no mistakes was flustered to have his book upside down..^^;
And Shang Qunghua told him "Hey when someone has a Qi deviation, don't panic okay?"
...Shen Jiu killed Lui Mingyan by ACCIDENT!?
This is airplane the author! He knows everything about Shen Qingqiu and how he opporates and instead of avoiding this villain and even making it easier to blacken his reputation he tries to help him?
And another was Meng Mo, he absoletly HATED Shen Qingqiu esp since Luo Binghe has such favour over him. But Meng Mo saved Shen Qingqiu and seemed so different as if he changed his opinion and even spoke of Shen QIngqius past [Shen Yaun had No idea of Shen Jius past and was like- tell me] Meng mo was like
??? Maybe you shouldn't? Some things are best left forgotten? Meng mo geniunly cared and didn't want to show Shen Qingqius shitty past. His past being that he was abused by the huitangs, that the elder brother abused him, told him he couldn't be a cultivator and would never escape would be married to his sister and forced to stay in the clan his whole life to play pretend loving husband then getting beat up ruthlessly by all of the male clan members.
"This isn't a certain fact BUT given that Shen Jiu only murdered the male members and left the women/children alive cause to speculation that maybe he was abused sexually as well." [This is just speculation or left to interpeatation so feel free to ignore this as irrelevant or strike it from the record if you don't agree. I just think it adds to his character.]
As I've said before, we are looking at Scum Villain as a warped tale of events- PIDW and from how Shen Qingiiu POV and how he advances the story believed that 'Shen QIngiu' murdered Liu Qingge on purpose. BUT From Shang Quanghua POV he says that it was an accident because Shen QIngqiu panicked.
Makes you wonder how much is different but even Airplane admitted to Shen Yaun that Scum Villain was going in the same direction of his FIRST DRAFT.
I think the whole concept was making the audience of Proud Immortal demon way- [Not us the audiance of airplane] -TO be unable to determine which was was the villain. A blackened anti-hero protag and and evil Scum Villain who also had a tragic past backstory and tried to do good but everything was taken out of context. What I'm trying to say is, looking at the two characters objectively and with nuetrality the point was to make it unclear of who the villain or who the hero was as both of them are SO similair you couldn't tell.
I absolutely love Shen Yaun- I think he's the coolest for someone like any type of hardcore fan who wasn't even raised in a xiania world was so adaptable and went through so much BULLShit, believe me if I was in his shoes I could never I would've died or NOPED so hard like fuck Luo Binghe I'm just gonna live in a cave until this is ALL over. It's also really sucky that Shen Yaun pays for Shen Jius crimes.
But I can't help but be objective and think, if hypothetically Shen Yaun transmigrated earlier could he still be the soft Shizun who was polite to everyone?
If he actually faced all of Shen Jius trauma firsthand of being left behind having to claw his way out of hell his first time, had to put in so much work and effort into becoming a peak lord only to still be looked down on as a servant making all of his effort pointless- would he still be trusting and vunerable? Shen Yaun tends to throw his life away and get along with everyone, while Shen jiu's motives comes across as selfish and close off but thats just self -preservation the mentality that no one will save you- you have to save yourself.
Shen Jiu is like an abused dog and yet people act confused of why he's still scared of out reaching hands and bites. They care more for how he reacts then WHY he reacts.
His past was SO bad that when his ex-wife saw his past thanks to Meng Mo she ran away screaming.
Does that excuse child abuse? Absoltutly fucking not BUT if someone is treat a certain way, they probably have no idea of what IS and Isn't abuse.
There are people in IRL [One of my managers at work thinks it's okay to take harrasment because she herself was harrased so she has no symptathy when people in higher power takes out their frustrations on their staff so when I said "This SO is being mean. whats her problem?" Was told to deal with it because of out of work reasons, so she's BIASED] For example the Lan Clan beats the shit out of their disiples and guests for breaking curfew?
There's also Liu Qinggeclan that fights against all the Disiples of Shen Qingqiu but there was talk that even Liu Qingge beats up his own disiples rather than teaches them.
I'm just saying, Shen Jiu only harmed people who harmed him then fell into the cycle of abuse and harmed his disiples. Which is more than you could say for PIDW Luo Binghe-ge. A psyopathic murderer, who kills indiscimentaly, like his grievences was only Shen Qingqiu- maybe the palace master because of what his mother went through, he may not have abused kids- but he made EVERYONE suffer in PIDW, merging the demon/human realm wouldn't defiently killed non-cultivators, Yue Qingyuan also murdered, why what did he do? Okay he was trying to save Shen Jiu of course but impaled by arrows? Like in the most goreyst way??? All of the sects were probably demolished so Luo Binghe just made the whole world burn because because of one master. Shen Qingqiu only destroyed one clan. Luo Binghe destroyed the world. Makes you think which is the worst one?
And before people start, even Shen Qingiuq [Scum-villain] Even admitted to the infighting and all of the abuse that his wives are taking because of the little palace princess and her wip. Luo Binghe is ignoring this, and even compliant for the infighting meaning he [just like Shen qingqiu] is also slipping into the cycle of abuse not knowing whats normal and what is problemmatic.
I just think Shen Jiu is neat as a character study- when people do something wrong you always want to know why? What caused it what was the reason? And does the reason justify the means?
Is this whole post pro-Shen Jiu? Heck NO I just love knowing what makes characters tic- the thing about Mo Xiang Tong Xius works is that all of her characters even background ones have agency- as a writer I want to understand what a characters goals, reasoning are to understand how they would act, react in a certain scenario.
Most people believe they are the hero of their own story, so seeing Shen Jiu as a protag and how he survived his story and even reason why he does such things is a great way to understand villains and create my own multi-dimensional characters.
Just saying Shen Jiu is a villain in PIDW don't forget that? I wasn't forgetting or even thinking that it's justified. If I ever think of Shen Jiu as completely innocent that that is just way too OOC even for him. I just don't see this character as just black and white.
Black and white, good or evil, Villain Hero is just childish and boring, real people are contradictory, we're hypocritical, we don't make sense and I can be of two minds I can hate and like something at the same time.
The reason why Shen Jiu is cool is because he has elements of being a misunderstood villain- but we will NEVER know because the dude was ripped from his body and replaced with a hardcore fan who did it better. That he and Yue quinyaun will NEVER get closure.
I would like to see an [extra] chapter of Scum Villain of having Shen Jiu watch the whole events of Scum villain, his own sense of hell of seeing people think Shen Jiu lost his memory and no one even thought of telling him because they liked his amnesiac version better? Of seeing what his actions had done, that if you abuse someone to the point of breaking don't be surprised that they kill you, seeing what Shen Yaun went through, and realising that he was the problem but he can't do shit about it?
If it wasn't for Shen Yaun- Luo Binghe wouldn've became exactly like Shen Qingqiu.
Compared to other villains by MXTX Shen Qingqiu doesn't seem that bad comparing...
If you hate Shen Jiu thats fine, my whole post here isn't trying to twist the narrative and say he's just a misunderstood boi who needs protecting.
Bad things can happen to bad people and bringing up the truama that someone went through doesn't absolve them because it is their choices that shape them after, but only listening to truama for a 'good' person and picking and choosing to excuse one persons behaviour for truama then immedietly start victim blaming because they don't 'act' like a good person is even worse. You can still be empathetic towards a character but that doesn't mean you forgive the character/person and allow what they've done.
If anything with this take you can say that Yue Qingyuan is WORSE because he knew what Shen Jiu was going through and was complacent in his abuse and letting Shen jiu get away with [murder] If Shen Jiu wasn't in his right mind then Yue Ginqyuan was the real villain for letting Shen Jiu hurt others and take his problems out on everyone over some twisted sense of guilt.
The dude who claimed to be a 'good guy' who had no history of truama akin to Shen Jiu ALLOWED disiples to get abused by someone in his care. He's an enabler.
Oh also the fact that Luo Binghe had to suck out and even disabled cultivators because of Xin Mo, his demon sword a fate WORSE than death makes me think how nit-picky some fans are to easily dismiss Shen Jiu but then be fine with other characters thats also morally grey and insidious.
The whole Point is that ALL of them have issues, and problematic because their human, their weak, a real person has ugly sides and most make mistakes that was paved with right intentions but does more harm.
A/n : Either way this is still fiction work and a character that doesn't exist, and remember this IS an analysis, and I never use this mentality against IRl people because people are not cartoons and no matter their reason outside of fiction I will judge them on current actions not on their past, if they share their past I'll admit they have a reason but still doesn't give them a free pass into being a dick.
[Also I am dyslexic so all the names for Scum Villain is a nightmare but I'm still figuring them out- If I spelt anything wrong thats my bad ^^;]
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girl-bateman · 4 months
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The positve progression of my mental health is amazing sometimes. Instead of self harming and getting violent when something bad happens I just cry rly hard for a while and then I go "wait, I can totally write a banger short story abt this".
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littlespacestarbun · 1 year
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Hello!! I was scrollin through a tf tag and saw ur post bout, indigenous coded aliens and how the fandom treats them.
I understand what coded means and I think I know what ur talking about? but if ur up to it could u elaborate on the “feral tfp op” bit cause I haven’t been in the fandom too long so can’t find what ur talking bout and I genuinely don’t understand but I would like to. if u don’t wanna answer this, it’s chill obviously.
:3 have a good day m8!
Hello! i do not mind elaborating at all!, as an native fan its a topic i don't get to speak on much so thank you!, (sorry in advance this is going to be a bit long),
to start with coding bipoc as aliens, robots, and other non-human creatures is a complex issue of itself, and it can harm bipoc people as well as to uplift us depending on the writers intentions, background details and of era of times of equal right movements,
the topics of coding bipoc as not human vary from person to person on our own lived experiences as bipoc, and i personally have many issues with coding bipoc as not human which are solely negative, the few positve were expections due to bipoc making them or simply them having some sort of positive effect on me instead of bad,
back onto the feral optimus issue, here's my point of view as a native fan,
optimus has personally been this one sort of "oh he's like us" coded indigenous character who's in a good light for me,
unlike every other coded indigenous alien in media i saw as a kid,
optimus prime is one of the few indigenous coded characters in tf as a whole, the others aren't very good due to many factors (thunderclash, wheelie, the combiner team victorion) or vague enough white fans ignore them even being coded at all or other things (omega, beachcomber, ironhide)
for me optimus was the first indigenous coded not human native person i saw painted as a hero,
he was seen as good for having his indigenous culture, beliefs and morals, it wasn't something which was used as making him evil and bad in the story, like a lot of indigenus 'rep' i had to see as a kid
that feeling is something hard to explain but i hold onto with tight hands because of how good it did me as a kid,
its why i have such deep emotional pain with how he's treated by white fans in all stories but tfp was some of the worst of it i had to see by far,
tfp optimus is full on indigenous its in your face with each moment,
to his back story, internal struggles and complex views of him from other characters (with himself and jazz being the only ones with unbias views due to being bipoc themselves),
his very writing feels like the story of a native person who made it out of force assilation and regain his cluture only to be forced into fighting for his rights again against someone who was orignally an ally, trying to assilate him into another opressive ideal,
with this in mind it makes how the jokes of tfp optimus being feral started worst,
alpha trion saying he was diffcult, he didn't fall into order right for his time not around Iacon culture, this is painted as a bad view to have by optimus,
yet the fans took this to mean because optimus lived a tribal life before that he was wild, he ran on all fours, sleep like an animal and needed to be saved from such a wild life to name some of the worst (others include nsfw and its gross),
there's a ton of aus and fanart, fics treating being indigenous to mean, he needs to be fixed, or ones painting being indigenous struggles as not real or small world issues,
these views are deeply intergrated anti-indigenous beliefs, if you look up the wild/savage native man trope and you'll see many racist movies, novels and comics painting native men as beasts who steal white women from white men, or even kill them and r-pd them because indigenous people are as savage animals,
which fall in line with how feral optimus is made with white fans, they treat his indigenous coding as fetish and use him not being human to disconnect the racism in their fanon, aus, fanart and fics,
but that disconnect only exists for them, fans of color see it clear as it is, feral optimus as a fan idea exists because of people being racist to bipoc, the concept is racist rooted in racism and race fetish spaces,
feral optimus prime stuff as fan content has been dying since we've called out on it more but its shows up from time to time and the fandom still suffers from treating bipoc coded characters badly, as a whole which i'd to touch on at some point because people don't see the issue much, and the people we kind of keep to ourselves to keep a sense mind while playing robots ha….ha,
I hope this at least gives some light onto the issue and answers your questions! not many bring it up so being able to explain it was an experience!
thank you for taking the time to ask and i hope you have a lovely day! hopefully this wasn't too wordy and made sense,
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