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500, 1000, 2000 WORD CHALLENGE
âĄ500, 1000, 2000 words of smut.
âĄ500, 1000, 2000 words of angst.
âĄ500, 1000, 2000 words of fluff.
This is a fun little challenge I created for myself where I post (not at any specific time) drabbles that contain exactly, 500, 1000 or 2000 words of smut, fluff or angst.
I'll be writing for skz and bts as usual. Whichever member.
If you wanna request a prompt for this challenge, just send in an ask of the prompt,
Genre (whether it's smut, fluff or angst).
And the hashtag [#5-1-2wordchallenge]
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Rules of the challenge
No part twos, threes or fours. One part only.
Exactly either, 500, 1000, 2000 words. No extension.
You can request but I choose the word limit.
More info to be added when thought of.
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MA'AM
18+
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Neighbour au. age gap au (reader is older than jk). kissing, touching, oral (female receiving), fingering, jk calls reader ''ma'am''. reader is kinda lonely, bored and untouched. p in v, no protection (be wise and condomize guys).
this is all just fiction, don't take it too seriously.
plus im stil learing to write smut, so go easy on me.
helpful and positve feedback is appreciated.
Sorry for any typos.
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ââoh yn,ââ you hear a familiar boy-ish voice speak.
And when you turn, your eyes are met with jungkook.
You know him cause heâs your neighbour, but you rarely speak seeing that you have nothing in common but heâs always kind and sweet whenever you bump into each other.
Like right now.
ââjungkookââ you say surprised to see him. ââhow are you?ââ you give him back a smile.
You havenât seen him in a while, he must be busy with college (you assume) or maybe heâs busy with some girlfriend. Guys his age are usually swarmed with girls. Especially seeing how attractive he is. The college girls must be having fun with him.
You admire his hair that seems to have gotten longer. You canât help but notice how good he looks with it.
ââiâm good, hope youâre doing well..ââ he pauses in his speech ââhavenât heard from you in a while. I almost thought you moved outââ
You chuckle at his assumption.
You shake your head lightly as you chuckle âânope. Just busy with workââ
ââi dont think iâd ever move out honestlyââ seeing as this apartment has a fair price for rent.
He chuckles.
ââim glad thought i scared you awayââ he says worriedly.
ââyouâd never scare me awayââ you mumble out suddenly feeling nervous.
ââwith all those noise complaints you handed to me?ââ He says with a warm joking tone.
You canât deny that a lot of noise comes from jungkookâs apartment, that you had to report him. You kinda feel childish for doing it, heâs a college boy anyways. All they know is noise.
ââbut i do get it. I make a lot of noiseââ he uses his pointer and middle finger to rub his lower lip, you get the chance to admire his tattooed finger and pierced lip.
You feel yourself swallow the lump in your throat and bite your lip. You donât know why you always feel like this when talking to jungkook, maybe itâs his hovering figure, intimidating voice or piercing brown eyes. Even though his eyes give off a soft innocent look you canât help but observe the sensuality in them.
ââum yeahââ you donât know what else to say. Your eyes can barely look at jungkook while his eyes canât stop looking at you. Thereâs no way a college boy can make you feel this nervous. You thought you had outgrown it.
Or maybe itâs the aloneness since your last boyfriend. Itâs been quite depressive but you try and not let it eat you up.
But itâs hard when you and jungkookâs walls are as thin as paper. and can hear everything that goes on. Especially when he has a girl over.
You donât mean to listen to what happens, but what else can you do when youâre laying in bed, bored and lonely. It seems sad you end up finding your hand in-between your thighs as you hear how jungkook pleasures.
With all the groans and name moaning you have come to the conclusion that jungkook must be a great fuck. But itâs not like youâll ever know. Do you even want to?
You can never fuck someone younger than you right? Youâve always dated older men or at least someone the same age as you. Youâve never been with a younger guy before.
But jungkook seems like he could definitely go for an older woman.
Wait.
Does jungkook want you. He does seem to give off that vibe but maybe youâre in over your head. Jungkook wouldnât want you there are so many better options for him. So many better girls for him. Not you.
ââso do you like those?ââ he askes pointing to the basket you have filled with ramen noodles cups.
You chuckle embarrassed.
ââ yeah i do but, i mainly buy them cause i donât have time to cookââ
He nods.
ââmaybe i can come cook for you one dayââ you laugh but heâs actually serious.
ââoh, i wouldnât mind but i assume youâre busy with schoolââ you swing the basket lightly and unconsciously.
ââi can find timeââ he says a little rushed out.
ââthen i wouldnât mindââ you smile.
ââyou going home?ââ he asks.
You nod.
ââi guess i can give you a ride home, if thatâs alright with youââ
You wouldnât mind at all.
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The ride back home was quiet. It still baffles you to how jungkook has a car.
When you were in college you could barely find money to buy food, let alone a car.
And even with a job you can barely find money to buy or rent a car.
ââthanks for the ride, it was nice meeting you today jungkookââ
The way you smile and say his name makes a hot flash rush through him.
If only you knew how many times his thought of you calling out his name. Sometimes he wishes it was you in his bed, toes curling and back arching.
If he got the chance, heâd show you how you deserve everything.
You donât deserve to get yourself off and barely get off.
Did he ever say that the walls are so thin that he can hear you too.
Heâs heard your frustrated moans and grunts. And all the times you cursed cause of how hard it was to get your high, sometimes his heard you cry and it breaks his heart.
He wishes he could get a chance to please you. Heâs never wanted to please someone so bad.
Heâs never been so desperate to get on his knees and run you dry of all your juices. To feel you claw at his back as you take him so well.
But heâs also never thought of being with an older woman.
Jungkook knows youâre older than him and he doesnât mind. Actually he makes him want you more.
He wants you like air and if he doesnât get you now he feels like he would stop breathing.
So if he doesnât take this opportunity now he might never have the chance to.
ââdo you wanna, come eat ramen with me?ââ
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You donât know how it happened. But he asked you to come over to his, you didnât see a problem with it so you said yes.
But you donât know how you went from laughing over some movie to grinding on his lap as your lips intertwine hungrily.
Fuck. You never thought youâd be doing this with your neighbour and fuck you never thought it would feel this good.
Your hands roam his firm chest, and your thoughts are proved right, he does like the gym. Though you couldâve known that without clawing at his chest.
These younger guys are always in the gym, like their life depends on it.
Your gasps and moans mix. You donât know how innocent sounds of laughter turned into hot whimpers of need.
Maybe it was the stares that seemed to linger for longer than they should have.
Jungkook takes a moment to take in your face but then his lips are soon on yours again as eager as ever, and you accept them.
He kisses you with eagerness and desperation. Desperation to touch and feel you in every way.
You moan into his mouth as you feel the wetness grow between your legs. You hate how a college student, has you this hot and soaking wet.
Youâre busy devouring each otherâs lips but you donât fail to recognize the tent forming and touching your centre.
Jungkookâs hands rummage over your back and over your hips and to your ass, he sqeezes your ass lightly which causes you to jumb lightly.
ââyou okayââ he asks
ââyeah just never had anyone squeeze my ass like thatââ
That boy-ish smile of his is far gone, now a manly sexy grin paints his face. A grin like a wolf looking at a lamb as itâs next meal.
ââyouâve never had someone touch you like thatââ
You shake your head. You hate how jungkook makes you feel like a highschooler losing their virginity.
ââwho have you been fucking that doesnât want to touch this assââ he squeezes your ass again, and youâre embarrassed when you release a moan at that action.
ââi donât knowââ your words come out more whiny than youâd like.
He moves to your neck and you move it to accustom him into the space. He places some wet and gentle kisses.
ââiâm not like them though. I wanna touch every part of you. Wanna taste every part of you and feel you on me.ââ He kisses your neck again and the smacking sound of his lips meeting your skin causes you clench. ââi wanna treat you right, i wanna make you feel goodââ
You donât know how true his words are or if you can even take them seriously. Maybe itâs the lust talking. Heâs a young man, he wouldnât want to waste his days with you.
ââdonât you have other, younger girls. You wanna make feel good.ââ You just had to ask.
The chuckles he releases causes a rush of blood to your groin.
ââall i think about when i fuck them is youââ he kisses you again.
You donât want to believe him but your heart canât help but flutter. You donât want to get hurt again but something tells you jungkook is far from hurting you. But you canât trust that feeling, what if that feeling is just how good it feels to be on him.
He has a great way with words and it would work on you every time, cause you havenât grown out the naivety of your youth for some reason.
Jungkook knows when and how to say the right words which makes you scared. Which makes him dangerous. All these young boys are to slick with their words.
ââyn, donât thinkââ he whispers against your lips. He must have noticed your distance all of a sudden.
ââdonât think of anything but thisââ he pecks your lips.
ââiâll tryââ you coo.
ââiâll make youââ
his lips are back on yours desperately. And the sound of your lips smacking and you whimpers fills the room again.
His lips go back to licking and sucking that one spot on your neck. His mouth on your neck and hands on your hips helping you grind against his clothed crotch makes you gasp for air.
Youâve never had anyone take their time with you like this, theyâre usually quick to just get it in. But not jungkook, he takes his time enjoying and tasting every part of you. Why wouldnât he when heâs been thinking about this moment and taking cold showers to stop his natural desire for you.
Being with jungkook tells you how much youâve been missing and how much you need to learn. Itâs like going back to your college days.
ââfuck jungkookââ you moan when he nibbles at your neck. Your hands move from his chest to his neck then to his long hair.
You unintentionally pull at his hair and you love how he groans when you do so.
The need and ache between your legs grows strong as you grind harder on his lap. Jungkook watches how you move against him trying to find your high. He promises to give it to you but he needs to feel more of you before he does so.
You gasp when he plops you on your back onto his soft couch.
ââjungkook...ââ you call out and he stops his action to attend to your need.
ââyesââ he sounds so submissive as he says so.
ââi want youââ your hips move up to feel some friction. He chuckles at the action.
ââi want you tooââ he smiles as he pecks you on your forehead.
ââno. Like i want you. Actually i fucking need youââ you whine out. Youâre probably gonna be so embarrassed later but right now you need him.
Your hand reaches for his belt but his hands stop you. You feel embarrassed and confused, you know heâs hard. You can see his fully grown bulge. But why does he want to take so much time.
ââi wanna taste you firstââ he whispers by your ear.
Fuck. Youâve never had anyone want to eat you out. Itâs been a while since anyone went down on you.
ââjungkoo-ââ you want to protest.
ââplease ynââ he begs. ââi need itââ his lips are against yours as he says in a whisper. His lips are on yours for a second before he leaves you wanting to taste his lips more.
You watch his body move down and you can feel your wetness drip down.
ââfuck...ââ you hear him groan and grow a little self conscious.
ââwhat?ââ you lift yourself up a bit.
ââitâs just that youâre so fucking gorgeousââ you canât help but blush and feel a little weird. Youâve never had anyone ogle at you pussy like that.
ââjungkook..ââ you call out in a whine. You can feel his breath breeze over you centre and it makes the need grow stronger.
ââiâm sorry, im staringââ he says and before you can tell him anything his lips are on you, hungrily.
You release a sharp moan as his lips make out with yours.
He licks a long strip of you pouring juices, your taste sinking into his tastebuds.
ââso fucking good,ââ he groans. ââand so fucking wetââ you feel his finger run through your folds.
ââjungkook please. Fuck...ââ you donât even know what youâre pleading for but you are.
Jungkook adheres to you unspoken cries, as he dives back into kissing you and massaging your clit.
Your hand finds itâs way to his hair and pulls. The groan he releases sends electricity through you.
Youâve never felt like this, nobody has ever put this much effort into touching you.
And jungkook has never put this much effort into eating pussy, but for you he will and he is.
He adds his fingers into you as he pumps into you.
ââfuck you need to be fucked rightââ he says at your tightness. You can barely hear what heâs saying over at how hard heâs slurping.
With the way his digits work into you and his tongue sucks on your clit, you can feel that feeling youâve been chasing.
ââfuck jungkook, im going to-ââ jungkook smiles at how you can barely finish your sentence but he knows.
The feeling grows closer and your heart races in excitement.
But then all of the sudden the feeling is gone and youâre about to curse out jungkook whoâs now moving up.
ââwhat the fuck, i was going to-ââ you whine angrily.
ââi want you to come over my cockââ
You donât argue, heâs the one in control after all.
ââ then please fuck meââ all you can do is plead. Itâs so embarrassing pleading for him to fuck you. You wonder if girls his age are this desperate too.
ââyes maâamââ he says as he takes off his shirt, for some reason him calling you maâam makes you more aroused.
ââdonât call me maâamââ you say blushing but jungkook knows, youâre bullshitting.
ââyes maâamââ he says with a cheeky grin knowing that it makes you clench around nothing.
You watch him unbuckle his belt and youâve never seen anything this attractive.
As you watch him you anticipate how his going to feel and how youâll wrap around him. Thatâs all jungkook can think about too as he strokes himself slightly, though heâs been hard since he saw you in the grocery store.
You feel his tip slide through your wet folds and you canât help but suck in a breath. Jungkook canât help but whimper at how wet and good you feel already.
You clench desperate to feel something inside you. You wonder if it will hurt, itâs been a while for you anyways. And he looks like he could stretch you out good. But youâre too needy to worry about that.
You gasp when you feel him move into you, slow and teasingly. His tip has you wondering if youâll be able to take all of him.
ââfuck youâre so good for meââ he says as he moves in deeper. ââi wish i could feel you everydayââ
You can.
You want to say, but donât wanna make promises. You donât know if this will ever happen again.
ââdo you wanna be good for me like this everyday, ynââ he says kissing along your jaw as he settles into you.
He doesnât move waiting for your answer.
You hum but itâs not enough for him.
ââyes, i want you everydayââ you end up speaking more of your mind than you planned to.
Jungkook smiles as he slowly begins to move in and out.
ââgood. You can have me everydayââ
With the ways he rocks into you, slowly increasing speed, you understand the moans of those girls you heard him fucking.
His name falls from your mouth as he continues. Jungkook has never enjoyed being buried in heat like this. And heâs never wanted to stay in forever like he does right now.
ââjungkook..ââ with the way your nails dig into his arm and you flutter around he knows youâre close.
But so is he. Your high is his target as he continues to stroke.
Jungkook twitches inside of you as you both reach your highs.
He lays on top of you as you breath heavily. He tries to keep his weight from crushing you.
âânext time i wanna be on topââ you say with the energy youâve got left.
ââdeal. Even though i like being on top, iâll let you ride meââ you almost feel that feeling comeback.
You stroke his hair as you watch that boy-ish smile return on his face.
Itâs like heâs changed and wasnât the person balls deep into you seconds ago.
ââi like thisââ you say comfortable.
ââi like youââ Jungkook coos into your neck.
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Jimin. Jimin. Jimin *shakes head*
Please me toođââď¸ wanna be one of your girls tonight.đŠ
I'd be fuming if I was bora though đ¤ but it's jiminđ
âŠâË.ââžââşââ§â§ď˝Ľďž: *â§ď˝Ľďž:*My girlâŠâË.ââžââşââ§â§ď˝Ľďž: *â§ď˝Ľďž:*
Synopsis: The one where you and your bestfriends father are a little closer than it seems.
Warnings: age gap, oral (f receiving), manipulation, unprotected sex, mention of masturbation.
Pairing: dilf!jimin x fem!reader
A/n: I fairly enjoyed writing this.. maybe part 2 maybe not idk yet. (Also the reader is well over 18, dw.)
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"Wanna stay the night tonight?" bora blurts the question out as soon as your step out of the bathroom, a towel wrapped tightly around you as the cold air of your bedroom hits your freshly washed body.
You walk over to your closet, skimming over the wide variety of clothing. It always took you a while to choose, even when you weren't going anywhere- but, the fact she just mentioned a sleepover at her place made you put in some extra thought.
"Sure, why so spontaneous?" you question, pulling out the first white outfit you set your eyes on. It was a little flashy, but it was also perfect. You looked beautiful in it, and you knew it.
Bora stands up, starting to throw on a shirt and clean all of her stuff up and place it back into her bag. "My dads grilling tonight and he said i could bring a friend if i wanted." she says it as if it's nothing, but to you- it's everything.
You had to turn around just to hide your smile at the thought of seeing him. You and her father were.. close to say the least.
It started with crossing paths when you visited boras house... then he'd invite you over to hang out with him and bora on his own.. and then he was inviting you even when bora wasn't around.
Over the months it just.. developed into- friends with benefits?
Except you weren't really friends, because he was years older than you. Regardless, you loved him anyway- and he loved you like no other stupid ex boyfriend had before.
"Y/n." boras voice snatches you out of your jumbled thoughts, and your eyes flash toward her- her bags on her arm now, and she's waiting for you to reply.
Andddd finish getting dressed..
"Yeah yeah, i'll be there."
ŕŽă°ŕ¸şď˝Ľ:*:シâżŕ¸ş ŕŽă°ď˝Ľ:*:シシ:*:シâżŕ¸ş ŕŽă°ď˝Ľ:*:シシ:*:シâżŕ¸ş ŕŽă°ď˝Ľ:*:シŕŽ
You hop out of your car with a frustrated groan, stretching your back muscles as you walk up to boras front door. You arrived a little early though the traffic on the way to get there was hurrendous, but the fact you got to see mr. park tonight made all the trouble worth it.
You'd done your hair perfectly, put on a pretty outfit, slipped on some heels, all for him. Chances were high that bora would ask you why you were so dressed up, but you could make up an excuse for that.
When the door swings open, your met with a familiar face. The face that ends up above you on more occasions than one.
"Mr. park, hi." you say, putting on your little cute formal act as always.
You start to walk past him and into the house, not bothering to say much else- you never really do. Usually, he doesn't ever stop you.
But today, he does. He raises his hand to your chest, preventing you from walking inside as he gives you a unreadable expression.
"Y/n" he says in a low whisper, voice timid as ever. Your obviously confused, until see it.
Short woman, short nails, mid 30's, ginger hair.
Your smile drops when you take in her disheveled state, her hair was a bit messy, and her makeup was sorta smudged. What a fucking welcome.
She gives you a smile, but you don't return it- simply pushing past the two of them and rushing up to bora's room. When you open her door, she's no where to be found.
Your sort of greatful, because your incoming tears were clouding your vision.
When the tears begin rushing down your face, you plop down on your friends bed- sinking your face into your hands just to sob.
It really shouldn't hurt this much. After all, he was grown and you weren't.. dating. You were just a girl who happened to befriend his daughter. Clearly it's all he saw you as.
Your mind floods with the memories of past hangouts, when bora wasn't around and he would tell you that you were the only one he wanted.
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Jimins face is buried between your thick thighs, gripping them as he repeatedly licks over your wet slit. He takes your clit into his mouth, sucking on it for a good minute before releasing it.
His hand reaches up to grab your breasts every so often, teasing your nipple to finally draw out a orgasm from you. Your legs shake around his head, squeezing him in so he can't move until you finally relax your muscles.
He look straight into your eyes when he sits up, crawling over your body and grinding his clothed crotch right into your bare cunt.
"Wait.." you utter, grabbing his shoulder to stop him as you prop yourself up on your elbows to get a better look at him.
"What about bora..?" you ask. You couldn't deny that now that he was finished, you felt like such a shitty friend for doing something so intimate with her father.
She was your bestfriend for fucks sake, what were you thinking?
Jimin grabs your face, gripping your chin as he licks your lips. "Do you want me y/n?" you look to the side at the question, but he only turns your face back to meet his- raising his eyebrows.
You nod. You did want him.
"Then that's all that matters baby."
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Footsteps coming up the staircase pulls you out of the thought. You wipe your tears as fast as you can, thinking that it's bora.
Of course you were upset, but no way you'd ruin a sleepover between the two of you because you were sad over her own father.
When the door opens, your shoulders slump when you realize it's just jimin. He examines your face and body language, closing the door behind him when he steps inside.
"Y/n-" he starts, but you cut him off. "Where's bora?"
He sighs, rubbing the bridge of his nose at your angered tone. "She won't be back for a while, she had to pick up the rest of your friends."
Ugh. Today of all days. You hoped that she'd come home soon, this was way to awkward.
Jimin moves closer to you, having the courage to even take a seat next to you on the bed. He's hunched over a bit, arms on his thighs as he tries to get a better look at your face. He wished you'd stop avoiding his gaze.
"Why the fuck are you here? You have a new girl now so you don't need me." the words hit him like a truck, he didn't want you mad at him.
He was fucking her, but he didn't think you had a right to be angry. After all he was an adult and in his eyes, he should be able to do as he pleased. Still with that being said- he'd do whatever he could to keep you around. Or to keep you in his bed rather.
"Look baby- It wasn't what it seemed." he mutters, hand grabbing at your thigh and shaking it a little to try and coax you to look at him.
You do, meeting his dreadful eyes with your teary ones.
"She's..She's a friend. We didn't fuck, she was just having a hard time and she'd been crying.. so i comforted her."
Lies..Lies..Lies
You don't know that though. You were so gullible that as soon as the words left his mouth a weight lifted off your chest.
You believed him, of course you did.
Your hands immediately go up around his neck, letting your tears fall when he returns the hug. "I'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry." you apologize repeatedly, feeling stupid that you judged him so easily.
You were so naive.
He shakes his head, shushing you and whispering that he forgives you into your ear. In reality, he was the one who wronged you- and honestly he didn't much care.
You were a fuck to him, that's all. If lying was the best way to keep you around, he'd do it without a problem.
It wasn't long before he'd got you onto your back, removing every piece of clothing off of you and kissing your precious naked body.
The body that was untouched before you gave yourself to him. The thought made his dick rock hard without you even touching him.
Everything about you made him hard. The fact you were so gullible, the fact that you loved him, and the fact you were such a little slut everytime he was inside you.
He loved it, he just didn't love you.
He was inside of you now, giving you slow loving thrusts- much different than the way he'd usually fuck you.
His fluffy hair falls right into your face, but you don't mind. Blinded by the pleasure he was giving you.
Letting his hand lift your thigh, he opens you up so he can do more of whatever he wanted to your needy figure.
"Tightest pussy i ever fucked.. and all mine too." you mewl at his dirty words, genuinely believing everything he said like the naive slut you were.
His lips kiss and nip at your neck the closer he gets to his orgasm, thrusts still slow but much harder than before.
"Jimin- fuck!" your hand is grabbing at the nape of his neck, listening to his hot breaths and grunts right in your ear. He's so fucking close, you can tell.
"Cum on my tummy.." you beg, and he lifts his head to look at you as he keeps pushing into your wet hole. "Yeah?" he asks, and you nod.
Holy shit, his head begins flooding with crazy thoughts again. And he bites his lips to restrain from saying anything that he might regret.
The truth was, jimin wasn't what everyone thought.
He has multiple sexual partners, which is bad enough. But what made it worse that some of these partners weren't just anyone, it was all of boras friends.
As said before, you were just a simple fuck to him- just like the rest of boras friends who somehow had all ended up in his bedroom without boras knowledge.
He was a man whore, no doubt about it.
Something about it just, turned him on. He'd jerked himself off so many times at the thought of you.. and many more of boras friends who had come and went.
He focuses on you again when your both finally coming, loving the feeling of your nails clawing at his bare back as your pussy flutters around him. He stills when he's finished, kissing your cheeks to show you a little bit of affection.
It was cute yeah, but it doesn't last long because you hear boras door open again.
Jimin scrambles up, reaching for his clothes to try and cover himself. You on the other hand, are paralyzed in shock- you're staring back at bora, isuel, and liza.
Naked. In boras bed. With her father.
The room is ever so silent, and you scan the faces of all your friends.
Bora is shocked, and angry if anything.
But iseul and liza.. their expressions. It was anger, dissapointment, and sadness all in one.
"What.. the fuck."
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What you need | 01
Synopsis: everybody needs, but how do you define need?
Do you even know what you need.
Genre: best friends au, angst, fluff, smut, slow burn.
Jungkook x reader.
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The last thing youâd want to being doing while going through a break-up, is walking into this building and putting more energy, which you donât have, into pretending like youâre okay.
When youâre in fact not.
You have to deal with a raging hangover, because you thought it would be a great idea to drown your misery with some alcohol. All night long. loneliness has its gross skinny little fingers around you.
This break-up is fucking you up sideways. If not in all ways.
ââwhat happened to you?ââ your head throbs harder at the sound of that heavy voice.
ââwhat do you want?ââ you murmur out and your fingers get to work with rubbing your temples.
ââi wanna know what happened to you?ââ you know his question is far from caring or interested in your well being.
Your tiny office feels more claustrophobic with the way he just seems to hover over.
ââlook hoseok, Iâm a little out of it todayââ you donât even stare at him ââso i canât provide you with any witty comeback, sorryââ
For a split, single particle of light second; he feels bad for you. But then he remembers:
ââwhether youâre in or out of it, youâve got work.ââ He slaps a file on your table ââget workingââ
You know hoseok is one of your headaches and he always proves how heâs so great at it.
You stare at your desk as your head pounds with another problem.
Youâve stayed so long at this desk you can draw every inch of it from memory. And youâd be a master at adding the little cracks, dents and scratch details. Plus every memory of hoseokâs nagging witty remarks linger in this office area everymoment.
You really want a new office. And you day when you do get one, youâll make sure hoseok never visits it and contaminates it with his presence.
Urgh
You groan as you pick up the file heâs just given you. This headacheâs probably gonna kill you before you get a chance to.
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ââwell, well wellââ jungkook rolls his eyes ââlook who decided to come to work todayââ
ââgood morning Isabel, you didnât have to do all this but i appreciate the warm welcomeââ jungkook spits out sarcastically in a sing-song voice.
Isabel scoffs.
ââis your mother feeling better now?ââ
ââwhat are you talking- ohââ jungkook catches himself, but itâs too late.
ââoh my gosh i knew itââ she declares ââyouâre such a liarââ she lets out a soft chuckle.
ââi knew you werenât asking for a day off cause your mother was sickââ
ââhow could you have known thatââ jungkook says taking off his shirt and Isabel canât help but ogle.
ââi just knowââ she folds her arms over her chest, her long straight hair getting caught in her arms.
ââwhy didnât you tell me you needed a day off, you donât have to lieââ she stops herself from licking her lip in fear of ruining her red lips.
ââyou know i can do that for youââ
Jungkook grins as he pulls up his work suit pants. It wouldâve been uncomfortable if jungkook wasnât used to Isabel being around while he got dressed. He secretly believes she does it on purpose to be in the dressing room when heâs getting dressed.
ââwell i did cause a friend needed me, i doubt those grounds stand for a day offââ he finally just says it knowing she wonât do anything about it.
She hums ââwhich friend?ââ
ââdoes it matter?ââ he throws a white tee over his head.
It doesnât, but she just wanted to know if her thoughts are right.
ââYNââ
She only hums, her perfectly tweezed eyebrows rising. He canât decipher what the meaning of it but it doesnât matter. Sheâs heard your name from him but never seen you, he talks so fondly of you sheâs just so curious to meet you.
ââokay then get to work making up for the day you missed. A clientâs coming in with his carââ
Jungkook already knows cause said client called him a million times to find out where he was.
ââso about asking for a day off...ââ jungkook puts on his best charming smile.
ââitâs not gonna happen jeonââ she turns to walk away. But not without biting her inner cheek, if she was staring at jungkook she would fold.
ââwhat happened to the âyou know i can do that for youâ ââ she blushes.
ââitâs never gonna happen. Not today at leastââ she whispers the last part.
Jungkook laughs and licks his lips as he watches her walk away. Sometimes it was fun coming to work.
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ââand thatâs why this modelâs perfect for you and your familyââ you walk around the car to the open door. ââyou can place up to three car seats in the backââ you stretch you arm to point and direct your clientâs eyes to where you want them to be.
You stare at her blank face and you know sheâs not convinced. But thatâs your job; to convince and sale.
ââif youâre worried about clean up, the interior material is one; even liquids. vacuum away from clean and the seats are wipeableââ
ââactually the carpet, does not stainââ you add.
ââoh thatâs really nice, cause my kids are messy when it comes to food.ââ She laughs and you laugh as well.
Most of the time you laugh only because you have to. You hear the same things every day and speak to the same type of people everyday. You know every type of person that walks through those glass doors.
ââi think Iâve heard enough, Iâm convincedââ
ââiâll take the carââ those words are like music to your ears and medicine for your headache.
ââGreat, then let me just get the papers readyââ
This was one of the reasons you liked and preferred to work with women, theyâre are easy to convince when it comes to buying a car and are great listeners to what you say. Unlike men who just want to argue and question your knowledge on cars. It always makes you laugh when you see them try and show you that they know more than you (not that they do, youâll always one-up them)
And in all fairness women loved to work with you cause they know they can trust a woman. And men only want to work with you to put you down and ogle at you.
Even hoseok knew this and thatâs why he always gives you female clients. Youâre shocked he doesnât give you only males just to piss you off. If you never knew him well youâd think he had a heart.
Youâre walking back to your desk when you see hoseok approach you from the corner of you eye.
ââYou donât need to worry i sold the carââ you say not stopping in your tracks.
ââim not worried i knew you wouldââ
You pause.
ââis that a compliment Mr Jungââ
He doesnât respond but that doesnât stop you from swimming in his rarely spoken compliments.
ââwhat do you want? itâs lunch timeââ you go back to your bickering tone.
He stares at his watch.
ââare you having your lunch from outside of the officeââ
ââyeah, why?ââ you pick up your purse. He knows you always have lunch from outside of the office, so why is he asking.
ââi have a very important client to give youââ
You really wanna go out and have lunch, cause even though it doesnât seem like it you still have a headache. But if hoseok said he had an important client for you, then he did.
You honestly need important clients right now.
ââcan it wait for after lunchââ
Hoseok letâs out a bitter chuckle.
ââthis client doesnât live in Seoul. So he doesnât have the time to waitââ
He? Ugh.
Who is he for hoseok to be kissing up to him so bad.
ââif you really want that promotion as bad as you say you do, youâre gonna take him nooow.â
He drags out the last word.
He says it so eagerly that now you have to rethink your lunch routine.
Lunchtime is the main time you get in the week to actually see jungkook, since youâre both so busy. Itâs like a little routine you both have; helps you spend more time together.
But now you have to reconsider it. jungkook would understand though, since youâve got a promotion on the line.
ââyn? Do you want this or not. If not i can-ââ hoseok presses but a deep hallow voice steps in.
ââhoseok let her go for lunch, i can waitââ
You both turn and your eyes are met with the most glorious figure of a man youâve ever seen.
Tall, beefy and muscular. When you stare at hoseok, in question, you can swear heâs ogling too.
Wouldnât blame him so are you. This man is fine.
ââNamjoon, you donât have t-ââ
ââplease, i can move my flight. Let her have lunchââ your eyes meet as he ends his sentence. You skedaddle your gaze to another part of the room, avoiding his eyes. and your teeth immediately meet your inner upper lip.
Youâre not the best at eye contact, it makes you nervous cause it feels like the person can see all the little things youâre keeping secret.
Namjoon smirks as he walks out, ââIâll be waiting when you get backââ
Hoseok doesnât say or look at you before heâs out too.
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ââfuck inishiwekfuoaovwââ
You furrow your brows at a jungkook stuffing his face.
ââwhat the fuck are you sayingââ you chuckle out.
He swallows.
ââ i said, iâve been thinking this the whole dayââ you wouldnât have guessed thatâs what he was saying.
ââ i assume youâre talking about your lunchââ you take a bite of your own, your eyes on jungkook as he lifts his gaze.
If you finish this meal it would be the first full meal youâve eaten since yunho.
ââi mean iâve been thinking about lunch with you tooââ he stares at you from under his eyelashes with wide eyes.
You can't help but smile.
You give him a once-over and can tell by his tan skin heâs been in the sun.
ââdid you carry your sunscreen?ââ
He gasps ââshit, i forgot. Is my tan obviousâ you give him a yes-no nod.
ââbut it looks goodââ you mumble out.
ââyou like it?ââ he lowers his eyes at you and gives you a cheeky smile.
ââi mean i donât hate it.ââ Your eyes run across his skin, jungkook can feel your eyes on his skin.
You release a cough, to reset the air. You like it, you wonât say to not give him a bigger head.
ââi think i should get goingââ jungkook furrows his brows at you then over at your plate.
ââyou havenât finished your food though ââ he warns.
ââi have someone waiting for me at the office, so-ââ you dare to explain.
ââ-so they can wait until you finish your food. Plus you still have time to eatââ he points to the clock in the restaurant. Youâve only been here for fifteen minutes.
ââkook itâs an important clientââ you whine.
ââand i understand that, but i know you havenât been eatingââ jungkook sits back in his chair. You have no argument to give, you both know that heâs right. So, you stay silent.
ââhave you?ââ he questions even though he knows heâs right.
ââjungkook thatâs not the pointââ you roll your eyes.
ââsit down and eatââ he demands, ââpleaseââ
he pleads.
You canât say no, especially with his pleading doe eyes. So you sit and try to finish your food.
You know that heâs doing this cause he cares about you and wants to make sure youâre doing well. But it makes it just much harder to wallow in your misery when heâs baby-ing you
ââwhatâs so important about this client anywaysââ he goes back to stuffing his face, the taste of the food encapsulating his taste buds once more.
You hear jungkook speak over your internal turmoil about having to down this food.
ââhoseok told me its a chance for me to up my chances on a promotionââ you say informingly. When you actually put your mind to eating the scent of the food causes your stomach to growl. It's savoury taste makes you internally moan as you take it in. Food actually tastes good when you put your mind to it.
ââBunny thatâs greatâ he cheers. âWhy donât you sound exciting thoughââ
You glare at him, ââcause youâre forcing me to eat.ââ Youâre glad he made you made cause it taste like heaven.
ââdonât be a baby.ââ He runs his teeth over heâs lower lip.
ââim not being a babyââ you mumble out as you pout and prove his point.
Jungkook doesnât respond and instead watches you eat. His eyes soften at the sight of your cheeks stuffed with food. He knows thereâs only so much he can do to help you get over yunho. But whatever he can do he will do, just to see that smile you have on your right now; many more times. He watches you look out the window, and the sun hits you beautifully. And he canât help but gawk.
ââwhat?ââ you smile at doe eyed jungkook, who canât seem to move his gaze from you.
He shakes his head. âânothingââ he turns back to his food, the smile not leaving his face.
You roll your eyes. Jungkookâs smile wouldâve widened if he saw that. He loves teasing you.
You both appreciate how your friendship has developed from you two avoiding each other and then finally finding comfort in each otherâs presence. Jimin really had a tough time getting you two to talk, youâre behaving like two high schoolers he said in his own words. Yes you were but it was more like two high schoolers whoâve never even looked at each put on a class project. But now youâre eating lunch together because you canât stop talking. You wouldnât stop being friends with him for anyone.
ââi forgot to tell you i found a date for you?ââ
Jungkook groans at that. Heâd hoped youâd forgotten, but you seem more determined than ever.
He gives you a displeased looked.
ââdonât give me thatââ
âif you want me to go on a date, then youâll have to come watch me trainâ he declares proudly.
âin what? Boxing?â your brows draw together. Is he actually trying to get you to watching him box.
âYeahâ he hums out enthusiastically.
âNopeâ you deadpan.
âThen Iâm not going â
You narrow your eyes at him and he gives you a mischievous smile.
âIâll see.â
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What you need | prologue
Synopsis: everybody needs, but how do you define need? Do you even know what you need.
Genre: best friends au, angst, fluff, smut, slow burn.
Jungkook x reader.
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ââyou canât be seriousââ your brows knits as your voice shakes with disbelief.
ââIâm serious as fuck ynââ he spits out like venom from a snakeâs glands ââIs it so hard to stop being friends with him?ââ he says it like itâs that easy to end a friendship, especially with no valid reason.
ââyes. Weâve been friends for foreverââ You can feel your throat tremble with all this defending you have to do.
ââyn 3 years isnât foreverââ
ââbut it's longer than weâve been togetherââ you spit back with your own venom. You wouldnât put Jungkook over Yunho cause heâs your boyfriend, but thatâs not going to make you forget Jungkook. The person whoâs been there for you the most (not that youâre counting) ââIâm not going to stop being friends with him over nothing or just because youâre threatened by himââ
You know thatâs what this is about. You donât know when it started but Yunho has always seemed to be threatened by Jungkook. Youâve reassured him so much you got tired of it, so you just let him talk to himself when he complained.
ââso, this is nothing to you?ââ he stops walking around to stare at you with a glare youâve never seen. This argument is not like the others youâve had over Jungkook, itâs worse. The fire spat out and acid thrown (in form of words) causes the whole house to overheat around you, leaving you scorched and burnt.
ââyou really do love Jungkook more than me?ââ he seems fed up with it, and you are too. For how long can you continue to baby his insecurity?
ââIâve told you a million times that Jungkook and I are just friends and thereâs nothing you need to worry aboutââ you try and be the sensible one (as always). Since this argument was about you; you were going to be the one to try and end it if you were going to be able to put out the fire in Yunho.
ââif I wanted to be with him, I wouldâve done it by now, but no, Iâm with you and I want to be with youââ you say with everything, apart from the irritation and anger, in your heart. Maybe it wasn't the best way to say it but you said it, and it did nothing but make him angrier.
Heâs silent as if analyses the validity of your words. He knows youâre probably correct, you would never choose Jungkook over him but something just bothers him. He wonders if this has anything to do with you and Jungkook or just an inner unacknowledged vengeance.
ââwhat I said still stands, either you stop being friends with him or weâre doneââ
Your skin paled as his skin stayed healthy and glowing like this was a piece of cake for him. As if he was unbothered and doing this to make you uncomfortable. You thought you made it to the crossroads but you're far from it. You're actually in the middle of the highway waiting to be hit.
ââcome on yunho, why are being like thisââ youâre getting tired of trying.
ââyouâre doing this to yourself ynââ How are you doing this to yourself when heâs the one pointing a gun to your head to choose between a rock and a hard place.
ââit's not fair, because you know I love you and i really care about youââ
ââif you love me and care about me, youâre going to stop being friends with himââ
His stubbornness is so unbelievable.
ââyouâre not being fairââ you bite your lower lip. you hope the pain from it can distract you from the pounding of your heart. Your fists clench and unclench as you try to think of what to do, things donât seem to be easing down and you donât like it at all.
ââno yn Iâm not, but I have to protect myselfââ his face and tone are as uncaring as ever. Heâs being difficult and uncaring as you fight for this relationship. Are you the only one who cares?
ââprotect yourself from what?ââ your voice raises an octave; you start to get frustrated with the confusion from his indifferent behavior.
ââfrom getting hurtââ
Youâve had it.
ââI TOLD YOU, JUNGKOOK AND I ARE NEVER GOING TO BE TOGETHER!ââ you yell like youâve never yelled before that heâs even taken aback. "I swearââ your voice goes back to its light and softness, almost begging. But still no change on his part.
You feel like everything in the room is laughing at you.
All the little laughs and happy moments all the promises made, all the kisses gave; in your face laughing at you, mocking you for giving love another chance just for it to spit in your face another time.
If this doesnât work out, youâre never going to do this again.
ââThat doesnât guarantee me anythingââ he watches you and you scoff.
ââso, tell me, me or Jungkook?ââ
ââyouâre not being fairââ
you roll your eyes.
ââthatâs just how it isââ is it really? Or is it how you want it to be? you want to say but hold back you donât want to add gasoline to this ticking time bomb of a relationship.
ââPlease make the right choice, think about usââ
You chuckle bitterly internally, is this when he cares about what you had?
What you had.
You think of that. Yunho was your hope in love after your last relationship, he was-is your everything. So, if he cares about what you have then why is he doing this?
You think about it. Yunho is your boyfriend, and Jungkook is your best friend. Youâve known Jungkook longer but you love Yunho more (well in the boyfriend way) and you love Jungkook in the best friend way.
Which is more valuable and worth keeping.
ââI canât, Iâm sorryââ you breathe out ââjungkook is my friendââ
âI guess youâve made your choiceââ
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ââNext time we go out remind me to carry sunscreenââ jungkook says through the speaker ââim looking like a roast turkeyââ
You snort.
Knowing Jungkook heâs probably in his bathroom staring at himself. You giggle when you hear him whisper a hot one though.
He isnât wrong.
ââspeaking of going out, please never bring your boyfriend again.ââ He chuckles out but you stay silent.
At the mention of yunho you freeze, everything does. You know jungkook means no harm. All your friends tease you about Yunho.
Now you begin to wonder if it was a warning hidden behind humor because they knew how much you loved him and passed little jokes about him.
Maybe you shouldâve known, how could you have thought of it when you were so âso in loveââ with him
though.
ââyn, you with me?ââ jungkook asks noticing how quiet youâve gone. He starts to worry that heâs offended you, but you know heâs just joking right? Well, heâs not. He doesnât like Yunho one single bit and never wants to see him ever again, cause if he does, heâs going to punch him. For many different reasons.
âAre you okay?â he coos out, body tensing in worry at your silence.
Silence.
Sniffle, sniffle.
Jungkook pauses when he hears you sniffle, youâre crying. His heart muscle contracts at the sound.
Why are you crying?
Is it something heâs done? Cause he wouldnât forgive himself if he was ever the reason a tear left your eye. He wouldnât forgive anyone who was the reason for your tears.
It was so hard keeping this to yourself and not telling anyone, especially jungkook.
ââyn whatâs wrong, is something going on?ââ you donât answer and he gets more uneasy. It makes it worse for him that youâre in two different places.
ââdoes it have to do with Yunho?ââ he knows heâs probably right, but he just wants you to say it; so, he can have a reason for whatever heâs going to do after.
Silence.
ââDid he do something to you?ââ his voice gets more impatient.
ââyn please talk to meââ at this point heâs begging you to say something. He canât see you, so the least you can do is say something; tell him heâs overreacting and youâre okay (even though he wouldnât believe it until he saw you in person. And even then he still wouldnât believe)
ââif he did something to you, you need to tell meââ jungkook paces around his bedroom slowly.
ââhe didnât do anythingââ You finally speak but it's not what he wants to hear. But it does confirm what heâs thinking.
Jungkook knows it's hard for you to speak when you're crying, normally heâd let you cry it out until youâre calm and can tell him. But right now, he wants you to speak.
ââit doesnât sound that wayââ You can hear the anger rising in his tone, if you never knew him, youâd think he was mad at you.
But heâs just on the road to anger, thatâs why you didnât want to tell him. Youâd planned on telling him later but your emotions were not on the same page with you.
ââDid he touch you?ââ now heâs just giving you options to pick yes or no. It's a bit of an overstep in jungkook's part but he's worried and you're not giving him an answer. He wouldn't put it past yunho though.
ââI swear to god yn if he did...ââ jungkook fumes out letting his thoughts go ahead of him cause you wonât seem to tell him.
You don't know where your voice has gone but its not there, you do want to speak but you can't seem to find the voice or energy.
Even though heâs angry, whatever it is itâs not your fault and he shouldnât take it out on you. Anger wonât make you speak any quicker.
Jungkook isn't so protective, most of the time, but when yunho is mentioned he has this inkling to keep you closer to him. He doesn't know why but he just does, he tries to keep to himself but his heart aches too much.
ââtalk to me bunnyââ he coos hoping to get more insight.
That pet name does it for you.
ââhe broke up with me kookââ you wobble out your words.
Jungkookâs hands tap against his table angrily.
his jaw unintentionally clenches. He wants to be happy that you're not tied to that bastard anymore, but this is not about him. It's about you. And unlike jungkook, you actually like yunho and are, surprisingly, in love with him.
ââyn, when did this happen?ââ you canât tell what emotion heâs speaking with.
ââtwo days ago,â you speak out slowly and so low that jungkook wouldnât have heard you if he didnât know you.
ââAnd youâre only just telling?â you feel like heâs blaming you but youâre just in your feels and you know he isnât.
ââIâm still processing itâ you defend.
ââokayââ
ââIâm coming over right nowââ you can hear him shuffle around, probably putting on some clothes.
âkook, thatâs no- you donât have-ââ
ââDonât tell me I donât have to; Iâm on my fucking wayââ
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ââyou didnât have to drive hereââ you say when you open the door and see a hooded up jungkook.
ââshut up and let me inââ he jokes out and lets himself in.
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ââyou know Iâm mad that this when youâre tellingââ jungkook hums out into your hair as his hand comfortingly rubs your arm.
ââI told you Iâm still processing itââ You coo into his chest, and the vibration from your voice soothes his previously aching beating muscle.
ââI know, thatâs why Iâm letting it slide for nowââ Jungkookâs eyes move to look at you, your eyes closed as you lightly breath against his chest.
He's happy you've calmed down now. After walking in he asked you to tell him what happened, you did (not all but you did). You ignored any question of 'why did he break up with you'. You don't want to answer that or even tell him.
His eyes roam your living room which is still the same from the last time he came, maybe with the addition of a new painting. But the overall ambiance and warmth are still present and he knows Yunhoâs presence hasnât contaminated it.
âânext time you tell me immediatelyââ he says without thinking.
ââNext time?ââ you move away and jungkook cringes and the disappearance of your warmth.
ââthatâs not what I mea-ââ
ââyeah I knowââ you place your legs on his lap and he gladly accepts them. ââbut there won't be a next timeââ
You say still in thought.
ââI think Iâm done datingââ
It hurts jungkook hearing you say that. Heâs seen how many times a douchebag has hurt you, and it weakens him to slowly watch you give up on love.
ââIâm tired of getting my heart broken, cause thatâs all that happens when I dateââ you start ââhonestly I knew love didnât exist but I still wanted to try. So, I guess I shouldnât be mad if love shows me its ass, cause Iâve known all along. true love doesnât exist, maybe love in all doesnât exist.ââ
One thing jungkook fully believed in his life was true love, he thinks he probably got it from watching his parents be so in love with each other. His mother always told him, that people always look around for what they think is true love when the actual thing is right in front of their face. You just have to pay attention.
ââI guess this gives me enough time to focus on my careerââ you sing-song.
You try and seem okay and prove something to jungkook.
ââbunnyââ he calls out softly as his hand brushes passed yours making little electrons lightly dance over your skin.
ââyou'll find someone who truly loves youââ You understand where his words are coming from but they donât help you feel not less than.
ââmaybe not in this lifetime, but thanks for trying kookââ you let out a painful laugh. Jungkookâs eyes sink deep into yours as if trying to find what youâre not telling, what youâre so afraid of showing him.
He wants to know and wants to see everything; you donât need to hide anything from him.
He hopes you know that.
You move away from his gaze and try to hide whatâs left of your hurt. You donât need him more worried.
ââso have you taken up my offer for the dating appââ You change the topic with a smile and a heavy heart.
ââIâm still thinking about itââ You watch heâs teeth play with the silver loop at the corner of his lip. Youâre still not yet used to his pierced lip even though heâs had it for over a year. Jungkook taps your calf when he catches you looking a little too long at his lip.
ââif you take any longer, Iâm going to have to find a blind date for you myselfââ
your eyes flush amusement.
Jungkookâs brows rise in playfulness before they drop and he smiles.
ââIâm sure anyone you pick would be a good fitââ
ââglad you knowââ
ââI think Iâm going to clock in for the nightââ You yawn and stand. Jungkook watches your figure hover over him. ââfeel free to stay longer and eat whateverââ
You know he would cause heâs done it before.
ââIâm just going to head out, got work tomorrowââ he stands with a groan. âas long as youâll be fineâ he stares at you waiting for an answer. You give him one with your eyes. Heâs helped to a lot this night and you donât want him going late to work.
ââlove you kookââ you say abruptly and jungkook doesnât have time to process it when that tingling feeling in his stomach starts. It feels like the time when he had to perform in front of the whole school, in the 10th grade.
He didn't like that feeling, but this one feels more enjoyable.
ââthanks for coming tonightââ your bright eyes beam at him.
ââAnything for you bunnyââ he smiles before heâs out the door.
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Jungkook didnât have work the next day, okay maybe he did but one day of not attending wouldnât hurt him, right?
He did write to his boss after all.
I apologize for the late notice, but...... cause my mother is unwell.
It's just one lie. He hopes his mother doesnât mind.
As Jungkook pulls over heâs suddenly grateful for all the times youâve asked him to drop you off at Yunhoâs house and how he persisted in walking you up to his apartment.
With his mind made up Jungkook raises his hand to knock on the door. He hopes he still lives here cause it would be embarrassing if he didnât. If he had moved you wouldâve told Jungkook, after all, you tell him everything.
âânuguseyo?ââ [who are you?]
Jungkookâs blood boils when the feminine voice speaks. He swears Yunho still lives here. Whoâs she?
If what jungkookâs thinking is correct then Yunho is in for more than an ass whooping.
ââYunho. does he live here?ââ he speaks to her bluntly. Sheâs not why he came so he doesnât care for her.
ââeungââ she says before she speaks again ââYeoboââ
Jungkook is too familiar with that term of endearment, so he is correct.
This bastard was cheating on her. And even if he wasnât and jungkook is reaching, how can he be with someone only a few days after breaking up with her?
ââsomeoneâs here for youââ she says as his figure comes into focus.
ââwh-ââ his voice cuts off. ââjungkook? Look what the cat dragged in. Did yn send you hereââ
It pisses Jungkook off how he says your name with no damn respect.
It would have honestly been better for him if you had sent him, he wouldâve been at mercy.
But the fact that heâs here on his own accord means Jungkook can do whatever he wants. No mercy.
He just prays you donât find out. You hate violence and he knows it. You would kill him if you knew he was about to do what heâs about to do. But the red pumping to his fists makes him think unclear, right now all he cares about is avenging you. But maybe heâs doing this to also quench the hatred he has for Yunho within himself.
ââIâm sure she told you what happened, you won I guessââ he says it like it was a game ââBut did you win really.ââ He chuckles.
Jungkook can hear the mocking in his voice.
He didnât need much motivation until his body reacted and soon crimson painted on his fist.
-
ââthat assholeââ willoe spits out through her swallow. ââhe really wanted you to pick?ââ you nod.
ââIâm glad you made the right choiceââ She places her mug down. You donât even want to bother and tell her that you almost (for a split second) wanted to pick him over Jungkook. And for the past 2 days, youâve been wondering if you shouldâve. But itâs the loneliness speaking.
Remembering how Jungkook came over yesterday to see you makes you glad that you made that decision. You feel shitty for even thinking of picking Yunho.
ââMaking someone pick is ruthless, selfish and immatureââ
Willoe has been wallowing out curses ever since you told her about Yunho, you kinda regret it.
You wonder how Jimin can handle her tongue.
Unlike Jungkook, willoe took you not telling her better. You pin it on the fact that sheâs also kept things from you too, for quite a long time too.
One of the things was that she and Jimin had started dating. now that you think about it you probably complained her and Jiminâs ears off (like sheâs doing right now to you). Who goes 3 months without telling their bestie that sheâs dating her love at first sight whoâs also your friend? What impresses you more is how Jimin was able to keep it from you.
If you had even the smallest inkling that she and Jimin were dating you wouldâve probably pulled it out of him. But there were no signs.
Or maybe you were too wrapped around Yunhoâs nagging that you didnât pay attention.
ââCan you stop cursing that manâs lineageââ Your coffeeâs probably going cold with how youâre just holding it. The warmth on the ceramic provides some comfort in a way.
ââoh I havenât even begun cursing his lineageââ she scoffs ââIt's just that I have a date with Jimin tonight, otherwise, I wouldâve gone to pull out the candlesââ You know sheâs just playing. Even though Willoe on her days off looks like sheâs the type, sheâs far from pulling out candles to curse someone. But you wouldnât put it past her.
You just laugh.
ââHave you told jungkook?ââ she lowers her voice down to a serious tone.
Your head lifts to look at her confused. ââtold him what?ââ
She rolls her eyes at you as if you donât know.
ââthat he made you pick between him or jungkook.ââ
It clicks. You donât know if itâs cause of whatâs going on but your mind has been foggy of late.
ââhell noââ you spit out quite roughly.
ââwhy notââ
ââbecause it would piss him off, I donât even know what he would doââ You finally take a sip of your coffee and cringe at how lukewarm it's gotten. Willoe watches you noticing that you havenât taken a sip of your coffee.
ââyou think he would beat up Yunho?ââ you ask her for an opinion.
ââoh, I know he would, without a doubt. Iâm surprised you havenât gotten a call from a hospitalized yunhoââ willoe stares at the waiter to bring her another order. She comes here often so she hopes they remember.
ââlike be for real yn have you looked at himââ if only she knew how many times youâve looked at him. ââHe could take Yunho in one go and winââ
you know he can, you have hundreds of his gym pics in your gallery. Not because you stalk him but because jungkook feels the need to send you some every time heâs in the gym (which is like every day).
Why havenât you deleted them? Because itâs cute that he can share this cute ritual with you of all people. And even though you donât go to the gym with him at all. The pictures make it like you are accompanying him on his gym journey.
Though your storage isnât so pleased.
ââbut I just donât like violence, especially if it's jungkook. I donât want him to get hurtââ
ââgirl be serious jungkook would never let someone whoop his ass, heâd rather dieââ
Sheâs so right.
ââand its kinda hot having someone wanting to fight another person for youââ Willoe blushes at the thought ââJimin once punched a guy who was flirting with me, and Iâve never fucked him harderââ She looks lost in the thoughts ââIt was one of the reasons I kept in touch with him. I love possessive menââ you chuckle as you watch the blood go to her cheeks.
You know Willoe is into those kinds of things.
And thatâs one of the things that makes you two different. You donât like men who do that kind of thing, even though you get where it's coming from. It's unattractive to you.
And thatâs one reason youâll never attend Jungkookâs boxing training sessions. It would kill you to see someone hit Him, even If itâs not serious.
ââanyway, howâs Jimin? Havenât talked to him this weekââ
ââyeah, same. Heâs been busy lately so he promised me a date to make up for it.ââ
You watch her blush at the mention of Jimin, she always does.
You love how they work together. It makes you feel so happy to see her happy and be with someone like Jimin who treats her right.
But it just makes you think of your lacks, when or where were you going to find someone who would love you like Jimin loves Willoe.
ââgod, when will I meet someone like Jiminââ
ââyou will, you just need to open your eyesââ
ââmy eyes have been open and all I can see is bullshitââ
Willow laughs almost choking on her second coffee, youâve barely touched your first. Sheâs a coffee addict anyway, so you canât compete.
ââDon't worry yn someone will come aroundââ
You roll your eyes ââwell Iâm done waiting for that one personââ you feel yourself tense at the thought of being alone forever.
ââIâll send you some lavender and chamomile to calm you downââ
Maybe it's time to get into the herbs sheâs been recommending.
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Youâve now been tuning out Jiminâs lecture for a minute. You donât even know how his consolidation turned into him giving a speech on how to find someone who cares about you, and how you should take a break from dating and ââfind yourselfââ. Whatever the fuck that means.
Most of the time you think you and Jimin are similar, and share the same ideas and beliefs. But maybe it's just the means of saying them that differ.
Youâve missed Jimin and the last thing you want to talk about is Yunho. Youâd rather catch up and laugh around.
It's best to get it over with right now anyway. So you let your ears bleed as he speaks.
ââand thatâs why I didnât like him in the first place....ââ he rumbles on. The red button seems so far away. Your fingers twitch to press it.
Jimin isnât the most talkative person, you give that title to Willoe. But once he starts to talk he doesnât seem to stop.
You need a fucking savior right now.
ââyn are you hearing meââ he asks from your lack of response.
ââyeah jimin, well and clear.ââ Lies. Youâve been tuning him out, he couldâve changed the topic and you wouldnât know.
ââGoodââ
You groan.
In a second after your plea, your savior finally shows.
ââjimin can I call you later jungkook is callingââ
ââjungkook? Tell him youâre busy. Iâm talking to youââ
ââI would but I think it's important and you know how whiny he getsââ
ââalright then Iâll call you later, tell him to stop ignoring my calls tooââ you hum in acknowledgement and nod.
ââokay byeââ you click so fast he doesnât get to respond.
ââmy fucking saviourââ you say immediately after Jungkookâs call is accepted. Heâs a little confused by your abruptness but takes it anyway.
You watch the confusion on his face with a smile.
ââthank you?ââ
ââis that a questionââ
ââyeah, I just donât know where it's coming fromââ you watch him fix his hoodie.
ââyouâre my fucking savior, what donât you get?ââ for a second, he thinks you're talking about Yunho, but if it was about him the last thing, youâd be doing is thanking him. ââyou just saved me from a jimin lectureââ
He makes a face of realization, he sees you donât seem to know about Yunho.
Like on cue, Jiminâs text pops up.
Minnie Boy: I know you didnât want to hear what I was saying, but please consider taking a break for yourself.
Minnie boy: And I promise to not bring it up again.
You giggle at his text, he knows you so well, that maybe you will consider taking his advice.
You: I hope you know I appreciate your advice and I will consider it. Thanks, Minnie.
ââwhat was he saying?ââ jungkookâs velvety voice pulls you back to him.
ââIt was about Yunhoââ
He lets out a hum, understanding that he gave you one hell of a lecture.
Thereâs a little comfortable silence as you and jungkook just watch each other.
ââAbout that. How are you doing?ââ
ââI guess Iâm okay, you guys have made a easier for meâ
Jungkookâs happy to hear that.
ââI appreciate itââ
ââweâre youâre friends weâll always be here for youââ
he sounds so sentimental it makes your heart throb.
ââhow about you? how are you doing?ââ you change your position.
Laying on your back with your phone above you. you watch jungkook turn his eyes away.
ââIâm doing okay, just working and stuffââ
You nod.
ââand how about the date thing have you thought about itââ
Jungkook will probably never hear the end of it. He runs a hand through his dark hair which seems to be growing longer and longer.
ââabout that, I donât want toââ
Your glare would probably teleport you to him and smack him if it could.
ââwhat do you mean you donât want to?ââ you sit up and jungkook sighs disappointedly with the position change.
ââI mean, youâre not doing well, and the last thing I want to be thinking of looking for a girlfriendââ
You roll your eyes.
ââThis is why I donât like letting you know things, you get so worried and forget about yourselfââ
Youâre not wrong and he knows it, but he doesnât find a problem with it.
ââIâll be okay, donât worry about meââ he watches you talk.
Itâs so hard for him not to worry about you when you donât seem to be telling him the truth about if youâre truly okay. Youâre saying it but he doesnât believe it.
You continue to express how youâre okay and he needs to find someone for himself instead of spending his days worrying about you.
He canât help but think about whether he should tell you Yunho was cheating or not, he doesnât want to hurt you. Cause that news would kill you.
But keeping it to himself feels like it will do more harm.
But it wonât hurt you if you never find out, all you have to do is never talk to Yunho again and he trusts you can do that.
ââokay yn if you want to so badly find me a blind dateââ he says after you suggest it for a millionth time.
Youâre shocked by his acceptance but also excited.
ââand I will. Get your suit jacket ready 'cause jungkook youâre going on a date â you mimic the voice of dating show presenters.
ââI'll be waitingââ he chuckles out watching you smile.
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A/n: I don't know why the prologue is so long.đ
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Mortal/commer jk x goddess reader
Jk x fem reader.
Fantasy au
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Oneshot
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You release a moan at how the water touches your body and how the bubbles of heat tickle your breasts. You hum your beautiful melodies, your melodious voice calling out to all the little night lights that luminate your night bath. Your body glows and causes the pool you're in and anything you touch to glow. You continue to rub your smooth and soft skin when you hear a rustle in the bushes behind you. No one and absolutely no one is allowed in your forest inclosed pool. Not even the servants. Anyone who dares to trespass your territory by your guarantee will be banished. There's only one person allowed, he's the main reason why you have this place enclosed. It's the only place where you to can meet freely. And so you already know that it's him
"You shouldn't be here" you say with a smile. Legally he shouldn't be here but personally you're glad he's here.
"I'm to be married tomorrow"
You can hear the cling of his belt and the his trousers hit the floor. By the sound alone you feel yourself clench. You don't have to be a genius to know how he's feeling. "And that's why im here..." his husky voice speaks.
"...to give you a goodbye" you hum at his words and see the ripples caused by the entrance of his body into the water. And in a second he's standing in front of you, muscles and tattoos on show for you. You've always loved his tattoos especially the effect you had on them.
"This is no goodbye, jeon" your hand touches his as your fingers trace the muscles of his chest. When your hand traces his tattoos, each little inked pattern begins to light up. You loved that and so did he, telling by the smile on his face as he watches his tattoos light up. "I love when you do that"
"I love to do it" your hands leave his now fully glowing tattoos and he takes the moment to take your hand in his. He places a kiss on your hand eyes still on yours.
"love your hands and the power they have" kiss. "the power they have on me" kiss. "on my mind" kiss, "and on my heart"
"And wont say where else..but you know"
He winks at you making you blush. His hands trace your hips feeling your curves. It took him sometime to get used to the power your body emits, but he's like a pro now, knowing how to hold and handle your body. Its like your power has become used to his touch and hold. You certainly have. You give into his touch immediately moving your neck to allow his lips to make a move. and they do. They're soft and gentle against your skin. If you could you'd pull him even closer into your body by his waist.
Your voice gives in to his contact. You whine at each touch. "its like you've got a spell on me, y/n" he says against your skin.
"you dare call my name, jeon" you say seriously but you're everything but serious.
He chuckles "should I shy away from calling my love's name?" he stops his kisses to look into your bright eyes.
"a goddess's name"
"my wife's name" you scoff at that. His fingers tickle your waist knowing your follow up statement. "kookie I can't be your wife" just by the way you his name electricity is sent to his crotch.
"you can be if you just get the tattoo" you know what he means he's been telling you ever since he knew his love for you that you should get the tattoo, but its not that easy. He already has your name tattooed on his. Right on his heart, magically, and on his left chest peck, physically. You knew all you had to do in order to be married to jungkook is if you got the tattoo, but its hard for you. You're timed to be married to someone else tomorrow and your family would never allow a god like you to be married to a mortal like him,
That's what your father said when you brought the idea to him. He even threatened to banish the mortal who had caused you thoughts like that. And after that you pushed away all thoughts of introducing jungkook. You knew it was never fated for a mortal and a god to be intertwined, but you swear you and jungkook's names are written in gold side by side and hearts tied by the red strings of fate. you believe its true and so does he.
"you know its not that easy" you say and sigh. Jungkook knows how hard this is for you, its also hard for him. The thought of being banished is scary but the thought of having you taken away from him is terrifying. he never wants that to happen and he's not gonna let it, whether because of the man you're to marry or because of your father.
"if you just get my name tattooed, you won't be able to marry him" he tries to convince you. "jungkook" you whine and each time you call his name it physically pulls at his heart where you engraved your name.
"baby" he whines back and his whimpery tone causes your core to throb. "if you dont want to I underst-" he says completely honest.
"no, I want to. I want to so badly" your face falls after your statement.
"im just scared..for you" he knew you were. But you didn't need to, and even though he can't compete with the gods, he'd rather be banished than live a life where he can't be with you. And he always wants to show you that. You give in to the touch of his palm on your cheek as you hum feeling his warmth. He stares warmly into your eyes as they stare back, if he wasn't already used to it, he'd go blind from the stars that shine in your eyes. Literally.
"remember when I first met you?" he asks and you nod.
"you were so stupid, how could you cross the garden? You could've been killed" you slap his chest playfully. Your slaps no longer feel like thunder claps now that he's used to them.
"I could've but I didn't, and I never will" he shows you his cheeky grin.
"don't be so cocky"
"speaking of-" he says his eyes dropping to his crotch, your eyes follow his vision and you chuckle.
"fine I'll do it"
"do what? My cock?" you slap his arm.
"no... The tattoo. I'll do it" he looks at you to see if you're serious and you are, you genuinely want to.
"What? afraid you might have to live life without my cock?" you want to slap his arm but he catches it at your wrist and grins at you. You cheekily smirk back.
"Maybe" you shrug "but mostly afraid of living without you"
"Aaa. You're so cute my goddess" he squints his eyes and grabs his chest feigning to be in pain. You're cute little laughter brings him back.
"why don't we change the mood. It's our last day together"
"its not, you need to stop joking about that"
"I'm sorry" he pecks your lips. "let me apologize" he says his lips now by your ears and his hands hooking behind your thighs.
He lifts you and soon enough your core meets his.
 "Fuck, you feel so good " he curses
"don't curse around me jeon" you can barely say by the way he's rolling into you.
...
You sit drenched in gold and jews on a throne that costs more than the lives of the people sitting below you tripled. You never liked sitting in elevated positions and degrading the commers with the way you're towering over them. But your father always said you should do so to remind them of your power and glory. you were never one to feel validation from power and glory, it never impacted you in that manner. Its hard staring into the eyes of the happy crowd knowing the event that is going to occur but what makes it worse is staring into the eyes of your lover while your 'husband' is sat next to you in his own throne. And unlike you he definitely likes the power and glory.
Jungkook is sat straight in line with your vision and he doesn't move his eyes away from you, not even once. You on the other hand keeped on shying away from his burning gaze and when you do he whipsers your name and says how beautiful you look and how your husband-to-be is ugly. he knows when he whipsers your name you can't ignore him and you hear all he says, it's like a prayer. It reminds you of the first time you taught him how to reach you directly.
"Just whisper it gently and passionatly" you say legs swing froma tree as he pays close attention to you. "I don't like it when people yell or say it aggressively." he notes down your likes and dislikes. Mentally and physically.
"you dont have to carry a physical note book to note down, jeon" you say to the man next to you.
"I want to remember everything, so that even if old age catches me and I cant remember anything I can always look back and remember" he turns his face from his book to face you with his warm and cute doe eyes. You love his eyes and unlike him you're not able to hold contact with them, its like their power overpowers yours. He's eyes have and unspeakable power that have captured you since the first day.
"You wont forget, kookie" a nickname he gave you gave to call him. "and I'll never let old age catch you" he chuckles at that as he feels your hand on his cheek. In an event where you to ended up together forever, because of his humanly fate, he'd grow old and die. While you live forever with your everlasting immaculate beauty. it was a sad fact for him but he accepted it. Atleast he gets to live his entire life with you. Even though you Suggested making him immortal, he declined. He never wanted to be with you so that he could be immortal, some moratls would call him foolish for saying no but they don't understand, they don't understand what he feels. He's not here to use you he just to be with you for however long he can.
"Let me make you immortal" you say so passionately hoping he says yes this time. "take it as my gift to you for bringing such joy into my life"
There you go speaking gibberish again, he thinks "i don't need a gift for making you happy, you're a gift for me already" he says and his eyes do sorcery on you, enchanting you not to argue with what he's said.
"I love you and I want to spend this little humanly life I have with you, not arguing about me becoming immortal" you can't argue with him. And all you can do is place a passionate kiss onto his lips which he happily accepts.
Somewhere in jungkook he knew the reason why he didn't want to become immortal, was the fear of living forever with her father's wrath for taking his daughter.
"And now we are gonna have the gift ceremony" the voice of the officient draws you out of your wonders. The gift ceremony is where offerings are given to the couple and even though you're gods and their gifts are meaningless, in value of course but you still appreciate the fact that people give them to you even though you know they do it to get blessings. It's an important part of the process and even though you don't like it you have to do it.
You watch people in the queue present their offerings. Some to you and some to the man next to you, you bless them as they do so. You scoff at how the man next to you feeds off the offerings of the people, that's one of the reasons you love jungkook. He's a selfless man, he doesn't feed off the power and glory. You remember the time he saved a litte bird and set it back in it's nest after you fixed its broken wing. Even though he never had any magical powers he did his best to help others.
"you don't need magical powers to be a good person" he once said to you. And you always smile at the memory.
Speaking of smiling, you watch jungkook smile in the queue as he aproaches quickly. You keep your eyes on him as you wonder what gift he could possibly give you.
Soon enough its his turn and you watch as he bows for you, something you never wanted him to do, but he always insisted. He lays down his gift.
"I hope you like my gift and can bless me adequately" he says as though he didn't just fuck you blind yesterday. His head is bowed to you and his knees on the the golden floor. When you catch his gift you gasp.
Oh jeon what have you done, do you not care for your life. You say in your mind. And like he can hear your thoughts he whipsers your name and speaks. "you are my life"
The ashes of a golden phoenix, given to a goddess on her wedding day by her husband. A symbol for the new golden life that will rise from the ashes. It's a gift only given by gods cause no human and afford the golden ashes of a golden phoenix. This gift is only given once and shows the enternal union between the giver and the receiver, if the receiver accepts.
"what type of gift is this?" the man seated next to you exclaims angrily. "how dare you give my wife a gift I'm meant to give her? How can you afford the ashes of a golden phoenix" at this point people start to stare and whisper at the scene.
"He must be a thief" he accuses. You watch jungkook's body which is still bowed to you. You cant believe he actually risked his life like this. Stupid mortal. Jungkook chuckles like he isn't being yelled at by a god and at risk of death.
"You dare laugh?" he dares to strike but you stop him.
"Leave him" everyone stares at you with surpise.
"Why should I leave someone who dares to discredit my honour and glory"
Fuck your honour and glory, you dont deserve it. Jungkook is the one who deserves to be seated in that seat, you want to say but you can't instead you keep it in your heart.
"I say leave him cause he's just a foolish and stupid mortal who doesn't know what he's doing" you say and jungkook's head lifts to finally meet your eyes. There is truth in your statement but its not as harsh as you say it, and jungkook knows he can see it in your eyes that avoid his. He knows what he's doing.
"And its not like im going to accept it anyways, he probably stole it from the poor phoenix. I don't accept stolen gifts" you finally meet his eyes and he can hear lies you're telling.
The man seems to have relaxed by your reassurance. "Fine I wont punish him because of my wife's mercy"
You and jungkook gag at that internally. "But wont you bless me?" jungkook asks you confidently.
"The nerves, you dare ask her to bless you after the scene you have just caused you." he spits at jungkook. "its her duty t-"
"Fine ill bless you" you say stopping jungkook from ruining his chance at life. "What would you like me to bless you for" jungkook smiles at the opportunity you've given him
"I ask that fate may always be on me and my lover's side" your heart pulls at his request. What is jungkook doing, he could've taken this chance to free himself from you and the danger you carry for them. He could've gone in to find maiden who he would spend the rest of his life with and have children with, even if it hurts you its better for him. But he's so stubborm. He's a very attractive man no maiden would say no to him. So why doesn't he just go that route.
I don't want to go into road where you won't be.
"it is done" you say, and it surely is done.
You don't know how to feel, a part of you wishes jungkook could have just gone away to a better life, but then another part of you knows a better life is when you're with him.
Jungkook knows the consequences, the risk, the challenge. he knows it all and he still wants to be with you as he said nothing is going to stop him not even you and your attenpt to push him away by not accepting the gift. He didn't do all this for nothing, he's not going to let his efforts go into water. And lucky for him fate is on his side even though you don't want to accept it, worrying about what will happen.
"What do you mean his name won't write" your father asks the officiant his voice thunderous at the revelation. Everyone is in a panic and in a shock, your mother, your father and your never-gonna-be husband. Even the people are whispering and gossiping theories. But you arent surprised. Jungkook is not surprised. You knew this would happen you expected it.and your heartbeat grew strong as the moment drew closer amd Jungkook's smile grew wider. People were gonna know who you were fated with.
"His name cannot be written for fate has written another's name" the white bearded officiant speaks. Fate is never wrong and there are no take backs with fate. What fate decides is what's gonna be and even if you try to run from it fate will bring you back to what's destined for you, even if it takes a million more tries.
"Who's name?" your father asks angry from this embarrassment.
"It's a mortal" you can hear a thousand plus gasps in the hall "his name is jun-" it's like he's taking his time saying it on purpose, when he gives you a look you immediately turn to the crowd scared eyes meetng jungkook. You know what's gonna happen when they find out the name of the mortal and so before he says his name. You immediately scream.
"JUNGKOOK GO!" Your voice thunders in the hall. And he does. He goes, to where? he doesn't know but he knows you'll know and you'll find him.
Just as the crowd opens up so jungkook can run out your father screams for thunder. But jungkook is protected not by you, but by yor mother's power and the part of you that's in him.
You turn to your mother who rushes to grab you from the chaos. She takes you to the open room, where all official meeting are held.
"is he -" she knows what your worry is.
"He's gonna be perfectly fine" she comforts you. And you begin to weep and you're glad you have your mother's arms to fall into. She understands and knows your pain, she to was once in love with a mortal, unlucky for her fate was not on her side but love was, it wasn't enough and he died.
"where is it?" your father walks in yelling "where is the tattoo that bound you to that mortal" you shiver under your mother's hold as your father grabs your arm to pull you from your mother. Which he does. "I will srcap it myself" he says to you coldly and you don't expect more from him. "if I have to I will cut the limb its on... NOW WHERE IS IT?" he says starting to tear the sillk covering your body. You cant do much apart from scream and try and stop him.
"you cant disobey fate!" Your mother exclaims and he drops your hand now approaching your mother who doesn't coward from him.
"i don't care about fate, I am a god and I'm more powerful than fate" he exclaims. "my word is fate"
"And after I scrap that tattoo off her, she'll be married to Min-ho" you sob even more your cries causing a storm outside. And whereever jungkook is , he knows by the way the thunder roars and the lighting strikes he can tell what you feel. Anger, fear and sadness. He wishes badly to be with you but your mother warned him he should go away for a while. And she promised to help him when the time is right.
"Where is it ?" he asks and you try to collect your thoughts.
Before he can ask you again you speak "my heart..." you speak finally saying where it is.
"You let a mortal engrave on your heart?" he's pissed and you can tell but you arenât afraid of him. All you're thinking about is jungkook. Is he okay?, is he safe, is he even alive? "a mortal?" he asks again. He knows a mortal does not contain enough power (or any at all) to engrave on a god's heart.
"He's not a mortal" both you and your father turn to your mother who speaks. "He's not a mortal" she repeats.
"What do you mean?" he asks and you too pay attention to her as you wonder what she means. "you made that idiot immortal" his anger is now moving to your mother, but she doesn't fear him.
"No I didn't, she did" your mother nods to you and you widen your eyes prepared to defend yourself.
"I never made him immortal" you defend when your father's eyes burn holes in you.
"Actually you did" your mother says and you wonder if your mother is on your side. But she is on your side. "gods don't engrave their names on mortals hearts and then nothinghappens after" she continues.
"whoever told you to engrave your name on his heart might not have told you, but by doing that you made him immortal."
And then you remember who you went to for help.
Hoseok, the cast out god himself; your uncle.
"You're so rebellious huh? Wanna be like me" he asks you mockingly when you explained everything to him.
"If I do end up like you atleast I'll have somewhere to go" you say and he chuckles at that. He's always told you that if you ever became rebellious you'd have a home with him and that still stands.
So hoseok helped you, he got jungkook's name engraved in his. He's the god of marriage and prosperity after all.
He's the one who told you to engrave on jungkook's heart, in any other situation he'd be worried for jungkook that he might die but the fact that jungkook and you we're fated (he doesn't know how and he still wonders) he knew instead of killing jungkook it'd make him immortal.
Unlike in his sister's case she had begged hoseok for the same thing that you are begging for, but only she was not fated to the mortal. And even if he told her what would have happened she still begged and he did it. And expectedly the mortal died.
Your mother still feels guilt and curses her hope and how hopeful she was that maybe he would've survived.
You wonder if jungkook knows he's immortal and if he did know why didn't he tell you. Now you understand why jungkook's presence and gaze caused much pressure, no mortal could've had such an effect on you. And why he became immune to you gaze and touch.
Your heart relaxes knowing that your father can't kill jungkook, but that doesn't stop him from being cast out like hoseok.
Wherever jungkook is he grunts and groans at the feeling that pulls at his heart. He lays down as his tattoos flicker on-off like a bulb.
"Hurts to be away from your love right?" Hoseok asks giving him something to drink.
Jungkook nods. He knows who hoseok is, so it's not weird being in his presence but he doesn't know how he got here. But hoseok remembers he's sister's instructions.
"Watch for him and when you see him take him with you" she says the day of the wedding knowing what would unfold. After hoseok told her what was going in with you, she knew what was going to unfold and she needed a plan. "He needs your help. Train him to embrace and use his power"
Hoseok's home was simple, warm and comforting, but he misses your presence.
"Well you're going to have to deal with it a little longer cause you won't be able to see her anytime soon"
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What you need | prologue
Synopsis: everybody needs, but how do you define need? Do you even know what you need.
Genre: best friends au, angst, fluff, smut, slow burn.
Jungkook x reader.
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ââyou canât be seriousââ your brows knits as your voice shakes with disbelief.
ââIâm serious as fuck ynââ he spits out like venom from a snakeâs glands ââIs it so hard to stop being friends with him?ââ he says it like itâs that easy to end a friendship, especially with no valid reason.
ââyes. Weâve been friends for foreverââ You can feel your throat tremble with all this defending you have to do.
ââyn 3 years isnât foreverââ
ââbut it's longer than weâve been togetherââ you spit back with your own venom. You wouldnât put Jungkook over Yunho cause heâs your boyfriend, but thatâs not going to make you forget Jungkook. The person whoâs been there for you the most (not that youâre counting) ââIâm not going to stop being friends with him over nothing or just because youâre threatened by himââ
You know thatâs what this is about. You donât know when it started but Yunho has always seemed to be threatened by Jungkook. Youâve reassured him so much you got tired of it, so you just let him talk to himself when he complained.
ââso, this is nothing to you?ââ he stops walking around to stare at you with a glare youâve never seen. This argument is not like the others youâve had over Jungkook, itâs worse. The fire spat out and acid thrown (in form of words) causes the whole house to overheat around you, leaving you scorched and burnt.
ââyou really do love Jungkook more than me?ââ he seems fed up with it, and you are too. For how long can you continue to baby his insecurity?
ââIâve told you a million times that Jungkook and I are just friends and thereâs nothing you need to worry aboutââ you try and be the sensible one (as always). Since this argument was about you; you were going to be the one to try and end it if you were going to be able to put out the fire in Yunho.
ââif I wanted to be with him, I wouldâve done it by now, but no, Iâm with you and I want to be with youââ you say with everything, apart from the irritation and anger, in your heart. Maybe it wasn't the best way to say it but you said it, and it did nothing but make him angrier.
Heâs silent as if analyses the validity of your words. He knows youâre probably correct, you would never choose Jungkook over him but something just bothers him. He wonders if this has anything to do with you and Jungkook or just an inner unacknowledged vengeance.
ââwhat I said still stands, either you stop being friends with him or weâre doneââ
Your skin paled as his skin stayed healthy and glowing like this was a piece of cake for him. As if he was unbothered and doing this to make you uncomfortable. You thought you made it to the crossroads but you're far from it. You're actually in the middle of the highway waiting to be hit.
ââcome on yunho, why are being like thisââ youâre getting tired of trying.
ââyouâre doing this to yourself ynââ How are you doing this to yourself when heâs the one pointing a gun to your head to choose between a rock and a hard place.
ââit's not fair, because you know I love you and i really care about youââ
ââif you love me and care about me, youâre going to stop being friends with himââ
His stubbornness is so unbelievable.
ââyouâre not being fairââ you bite your lower lip. you hope the pain from it can distract you from the pounding of your heart. Your fists clench and unclench as you try to think of what to do, things donât seem to be easing down and you donât like it at all.
ââno yn Iâm not, but I have to protect myselfââ his face and tone are as uncaring as ever. Heâs being difficult and uncaring as you fight for this relationship. Are you the only one who cares?
ââprotect yourself from what?ââ your voice raises an octave; you start to get frustrated with the confusion from his indifferent behavior.
ââfrom getting hurtââ
Youâve had it.
ââI TOLD YOU, JUNGKOOK AND I ARE NEVER GOING TO BE TOGETHER!ââ you yell like youâve never yelled before that heâs even taken aback. "I swearââ your voice goes back to its light and softness, almost begging. But still no change on his part.
You feel like everything in the room is laughing at you.
All the little laughs and happy moments all the promises made, all the kisses gave; in your face laughing at you, mocking you for giving love another chance just for it to spit in your face another time.
If this doesnât work out, youâre never going to do this again.
ââThat doesnât guarantee me anythingââ he watches you and you scoff.
ââso, tell me, me or Jungkook?ââ
ââyouâre not being fairââ
you roll your eyes.
ââthatâs just how it isââ is it really? Or is it how you want it to be? you want to say but hold back you donât want to add gasoline to this ticking time bomb of a relationship.
ââPlease make the right choice, think about usââ
You chuckle bitterly internally, is this when he cares about what you had?
What you had.
You think of that. Yunho was your hope in love after your last relationship, he was-is your everything. So, if he cares about what you have then why is he doing this?
You think about it. Yunho is your boyfriend, and Jungkook is your best friend. Youâve known Jungkook longer but you love Yunho more (well in the boyfriend way) and you love Jungkook in the best friend way.
Which is more valuable and worth keeping.
ââI canât, Iâm sorryââ you breathe out ââjungkook is my friendââ
âI guess youâve made your choiceââ
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ââNext time we go out remind me to carry sunscreenââ jungkook says through the speaker ââim looking like a roast turkeyââ
You snort.
Knowing Jungkook heâs probably in his bathroom staring at himself. You giggle when you hear him whisper a hot one though.
He isnât wrong.
ââspeaking of going out, please never bring your boyfriend again.ââ He chuckles out but you stay silent.
At the mention of yunho you freeze, everything does. You know jungkook means no harm. All your friends tease you about Yunho.
Now you begin to wonder if it was a warning hidden behind humor because they knew how much you loved him and passed little jokes about him.
Maybe you shouldâve known, how could you have thought of it when you were so âso in loveââ with him
though.
ââyn, you with me?ââ jungkook asks noticing how quiet youâve gone. He starts to worry that heâs offended you, but you know heâs just joking right? Well, heâs not. He doesnât like Yunho one single bit and never wants to see him ever again, cause if he does, heâs going to punch him. For many different reasons.
âAre you okay?â he coos out, body tensing in worry at your silence.
Silence.
Sniffle, sniffle.
Jungkook pauses when he hears you sniffle, youâre crying. His heart muscle contracts at the sound.
Why are you crying?
Is it something heâs done? Cause he wouldnât forgive himself if he was ever the reason a tear left your eye. He wouldnât forgive anyone who was the reason for your tears.
It was so hard keeping this to yourself and not telling anyone, especially jungkook.
ââyn whatâs wrong, is something going on?ââ you donât answer and he gets more uneasy. It makes it worse for him that youâre in two different places.
ââdoes it have to do with Yunho?ââ he knows heâs probably right, but he just wants you to say it; so, he can have a reason for whatever heâs going to do after.
Silence.
ââDid he do something to you?ââ his voice gets more impatient.
ââyn please talk to meââ at this point heâs begging you to say something. He canât see you, so the least you can do is say something; tell him heâs overreacting and youâre okay (even though he wouldnât believe it until he saw you in person. And even then he still wouldnât believe)
ââif he did something to you, you need to tell meââ jungkook paces around his bedroom slowly.
ââhe didnât do anythingââ You finally speak but it's not what he wants to hear. But it does confirm what heâs thinking.
Jungkook knows it's hard for you to speak when you're crying, normally heâd let you cry it out until youâre calm and can tell him. But right now, he wants you to speak.
ââit doesnât sound that wayââ You can hear the anger rising in his tone, if you never knew him, youâd think he was mad at you.
But heâs just on the road to anger, thatâs why you didnât want to tell him. Youâd planned on telling him later but your emotions were not on the same page with you.
ââDid he touch you?ââ now heâs just giving you options to pick yes or no. It's a bit of an overstep in jungkook's part but he's worried and you're not giving him an answer. He wouldn't put it past yunho though.
ââI swear to god yn if he did...ââ jungkook fumes out letting his thoughts go ahead of him cause you wonât seem to tell him.
You don't know where your voice has gone but its not there, you do want to speak but you can't seem to find the voice or energy.
Even though heâs angry, whatever it is itâs not your fault and he shouldnât take it out on you. Anger wonât make you speak any quicker.
Jungkook isn't so protective, most of the time, but when yunho is mentioned he has this inkling to keep you closer to him. He doesn't know why but he just does, he tries to keep to himself but his heart aches too much.
ââtalk to me bunnyââ he coos hoping to get more insight.
That pet name does it for you.
ââhe broke up with me kookââ you wobble out your words.
Jungkookâs hands tap against his table angrily.
his jaw unintentionally clenches. He wants to be happy that you're not tied to that bastard anymore, but this is not about him. It's about you. And unlike jungkook, you actually like yunho and are, surprisingly, in love with him.
ââyn, when did this happen?ââ you canât tell what emotion heâs speaking with.
ââtwo days ago,â you speak out slowly and so low that jungkook wouldnât have heard you if he didnât know you.
ââAnd youâre only just telling?â you feel like heâs blaming you but youâre just in your feels and you know he isnât.
ââIâm still processing itâ you defend.
ââokayââ
ââIâm coming over right nowââ you can hear him shuffle around, probably putting on some clothes.
âkook, thatâs no- you donât have-ââ
ââDonât tell me I donât have to; Iâm on my fucking wayââ
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ââyou didnât have to drive hereââ you say when you open the door and see a hooded up jungkook.
ââshut up and let me inââ he jokes out and lets himself in.
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ââyou know Iâm mad that this when youâre tellingââ jungkook hums out into your hair as his hand comfortingly rubs your arm.
ââI told you Iâm still processing itââ You coo into his chest, and the vibration from your voice soothes his previously aching beating muscle.
ââI know, thatâs why Iâm letting it slide for nowââ Jungkookâs eyes move to look at you, your eyes closed as you lightly breath against his chest.
He's happy you've calmed down now. After walking in he asked you to tell him what happened, you did (not all but you did). You ignored any question of 'why did he break up with you'. You don't want to answer that or even tell him.
His eyes roam your living room which is still the same from the last time he came, maybe with the addition of a new painting. But the overall ambiance and warmth are still present and he knows Yunhoâs presence hasnât contaminated it.
âânext time you tell me immediatelyââ he says without thinking.
ââNext time?ââ you move away and jungkook cringes and the disappearance of your warmth.
ââthatâs not what I mea-ââ
ââyeah I knowââ you place your legs on his lap and he gladly accepts them. ââbut there won't be a next timeââ
You say still in thought.
ââI think Iâm done datingââ
It hurts jungkook hearing you say that. Heâs seen how many times a douchebag has hurt you, and it weakens him to slowly watch you give up on love.
ââIâm tired of getting my heart broken, cause thatâs all that happens when I dateââ you start ââhonestly I knew love didnât exist but I still wanted to try. So, I guess I shouldnât be mad if love shows me its ass, cause Iâve known all along. true love doesnât exist, maybe love in all doesnât exist.ââ
One thing jungkook fully believed in his life was true love, he thinks he probably got it from watching his parents be so in love with each other. His mother always told him, that people always look around for what they think is true love when the actual thing is right in front of their face. You just have to pay attention.
ââI guess this gives me enough time to focus on my careerââ you sing-song.
You try and seem okay and prove something to jungkook.
ââbunnyââ he calls out softly as his hand brushes passed yours making little electrons lightly dance over your skin.
ââyou'll find someone who truly loves youââ You understand where his words are coming from but they donât help you feel not less than.
ââmaybe not in this lifetime, but thanks for trying kookââ you let out a painful laugh. Jungkookâs eyes sink deep into yours as if trying to find what youâre not telling, what youâre so afraid of showing him.
He wants to know and wants to see everything; you donât need to hide anything from him.
He hopes you know that.
You move away from his gaze and try to hide whatâs left of your hurt. You donât need him more worried.
ââso have you taken up my offer for the dating appââ You change the topic with a smile and a heavy heart.
ââIâm still thinking about itââ You watch heâs teeth play with the silver loop at the corner of his lip. Youâre still not yet used to his pierced lip even though heâs had it for over a year. Jungkook taps your calf when he catches you looking a little too long at his lip.
ââif you take any longer, Iâm going to have to find a blind date for you myselfââ
your eyes flush amusement.
Jungkookâs brows rise in playfulness before they drop and he smiles.
ââIâm sure anyone you pick would be a good fitââ
ââglad you knowââ
ââI think Iâm going to clock in for the nightââ You yawn and stand. Jungkook watches your figure hover over him. ââfeel free to stay longer and eat whateverââ
You know he would cause heâs done it before.
ââIâm just going to head out, got work tomorrowââ he stands with a groan. âas long as youâll be fineâ he stares at you waiting for an answer. You give him one with your eyes. Heâs helped to a lot this night and you donât want him going late to work.
ââlove you kookââ you say abruptly and jungkook doesnât have time to process it when that tingling feeling in his stomach starts. It feels like the time when he had to perform in front of the whole school, in the 10th grade.
He didn't like that feeling, but this one feels more enjoyable.
ââthanks for coming tonightââ your bright eyes beam at him.
ââAnything for you bunnyââ he smiles before heâs out the door.
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Jungkook didnât have work the next day, okay maybe he did but one day of not attending wouldnât hurt him, right?
He did write to his boss after all.
I apologize for the late notice, but...... cause my mother is unwell.
It's just one lie. He hopes his mother doesnât mind.
As Jungkook pulls over heâs suddenly grateful for all the times youâve asked him to drop you off at Yunhoâs house and how he persisted in walking you up to his apartment.
With his mind made up Jungkook raises his hand to knock on the door. He hopes he still lives here cause it would be embarrassing if he didnât. If he had moved you wouldâve told Jungkook, after all, you tell him everything.
âânuguseyo?ââ [who are you?]
Jungkookâs blood boils when the feminine voice speaks. He swears Yunho still lives here. Whoâs she?
If what jungkookâs thinking is correct then Yunho is in for more than an ass whooping.
ââYunho. does he live here?ââ he speaks to her bluntly. Sheâs not why he came so he doesnât care for her.
ââeungââ she says before she speaks again ââYeoboââ
Jungkook is too familiar with that term of endearment, so he is correct.
This bastard was cheating on her. And even if he wasnât and jungkook is reaching, how can he be with someone only a few days after breaking up with her?
ââsomeoneâs here for youââ she says as his figure comes into focus.
ââwh-ââ his voice cuts off. ââjungkook? Look what the cat dragged in. Did yn send you hereââ
It pisses Jungkook off how he says your name with no damn respect.
It would have honestly been better for him if you had sent him, he wouldâve been at mercy.
But the fact that heâs here on his own accord means Jungkook can do whatever he wants. No mercy.
He just prays you donât find out. You hate violence and he knows it. You would kill him if you knew he was about to do what heâs about to do. But the red pumping to his fists makes him think unclear, right now all he cares about is avenging you. But maybe heâs doing this to also quench the hatred he has for Yunho within himself.
ââIâm sure she told you what happened, you won I guessââ he says it like it was a game ââBut did you win really.ââ He chuckles.
Jungkook can hear the mocking in his voice.
He didnât need much motivation until his body reacted and soon crimson painted on his fist.
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ââthat assholeââ willoe spits out through her swallow. ââhe really wanted you to pick?ââ you nod.
ââIâm glad you made the right choiceââ She places her mug down. You donât even want to bother and tell her that you almost (for a split second) wanted to pick him over Jungkook. And for the past 2 days, youâve been wondering if you shouldâve. But itâs the loneliness speaking.
Remembering how Jungkook came over yesterday to see you makes you glad that you made that decision. You feel shitty for even thinking of picking Yunho.
ââMaking someone pick is ruthless, selfish and immatureââ
Willoe has been wallowing out curses ever since you told her about Yunho, you kinda regret it.
You wonder how Jimin can handle her tongue.
Unlike Jungkook, willoe took you not telling her better. You pin it on the fact that sheâs also kept things from you too, for quite a long time too.
One of the things was that she and Jimin had started dating. now that you think about it you probably complained her and Jiminâs ears off (like sheâs doing right now to you). Who goes 3 months without telling their bestie that sheâs dating her love at first sight whoâs also your friend? What impresses you more is how Jimin was able to keep it from you.
If you had even the smallest inkling that she and Jimin were dating you wouldâve probably pulled it out of him. But there were no signs.
Or maybe you were too wrapped around Yunhoâs nagging that you didnât pay attention.
ââCan you stop cursing that manâs lineageââ Your coffeeâs probably going cold with how youâre just holding it. The warmth on the ceramic provides some comfort in a way.
ââoh I havenât even begun cursing his lineageââ she scoffs ââIt's just that I have a date with Jimin tonight, otherwise, I wouldâve gone to pull out the candlesââ You know sheâs just playing. Even though Willoe on her days off looks like sheâs the type, sheâs far from pulling out candles to curse someone. But you wouldnât put it past her.
You just laugh.
ââHave you told jungkook?ââ she lowers her voice down to a serious tone.
Your head lifts to look at her confused. ââtold him what?ââ
She rolls her eyes at you as if you donât know.
ââthat he made you pick between him or jungkook.ââ
It clicks. You donât know if itâs cause of whatâs going on but your mind has been foggy of late.
ââhell noââ you spit out quite roughly.
ââwhy notââ
ââbecause it would piss him off, I donât even know what he would doââ You finally take a sip of your coffee and cringe at how lukewarm it's gotten. Willoe watches you noticing that you havenât taken a sip of your coffee.
ââyou think he would beat up Yunho?ââ you ask her for an opinion.
ââoh, I know he would, without a doubt. Iâm surprised you havenât gotten a call from a hospitalized yunhoââ willoe stares at the waiter to bring her another order. She comes here often so she hopes they remember.
ââlike be for real yn have you looked at himââ if only she knew how many times youâve looked at him. ââHe could take Yunho in one go and winââ
you know he can, you have hundreds of his gym pics in your gallery. Not because you stalk him but because jungkook feels the need to send you some every time heâs in the gym (which is like every day).
Why havenât you deleted them? Because itâs cute that he can share this cute ritual with you of all people. And even though you donât go to the gym with him at all. The pictures make it like you are accompanying him on his gym journey.
Though your storage isnât so pleased.
ââbut I just donât like violence, especially if it's jungkook. I donât want him to get hurtââ
ââgirl be serious jungkook would never let someone whoop his ass, heâd rather dieââ
Sheâs so right.
ââand its kinda hot having someone wanting to fight another person for youââ Willoe blushes at the thought ââJimin once punched a guy who was flirting with me, and Iâve never fucked him harderââ She looks lost in the thoughts ââIt was one of the reasons I kept in touch with him. I love possessive menââ you chuckle as you watch the blood go to her cheeks.
You know Willoe is into those kinds of things.
And thatâs one of the things that makes you two different. You donât like men who do that kind of thing, even though you get where it's coming from. It's unattractive to you.
And thatâs one reason youâll never attend Jungkookâs boxing training sessions. It would kill you to see someone hit Him, even If itâs not serious.
ââanyway, howâs Jimin? Havenât talked to him this weekââ
ââyeah, same. Heâs been busy lately so he promised me a date to make up for it.ââ
You watch her blush at the mention of Jimin, she always does.
You love how they work together. It makes you feel so happy to see her happy and be with someone like Jimin who treats her right.
But it just makes you think of your lacks, when or where were you going to find someone who would love you like Jimin loves Willoe.
ââgod, when will I meet someone like Jiminââ
ââyou will, you just need to open your eyesââ
ââmy eyes have been open and all I can see is bullshitââ
Willow laughs almost choking on her second coffee, youâve barely touched your first. Sheâs a coffee addict anyway, so you canât compete.
ââDon't worry yn someone will come aroundââ
You roll your eyes ââwell Iâm done waiting for that one personââ you feel yourself tense at the thought of being alone forever.
ââIâll send you some lavender and chamomile to calm you downââ
Maybe it's time to get into the herbs sheâs been recommending.
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Youâve now been tuning out Jiminâs lecture for a minute. You donât even know how his consolidation turned into him giving a speech on how to find someone who cares about you, and how you should take a break from dating and ââfind yourselfââ. Whatever the fuck that means.
Most of the time you think you and Jimin are similar, and share the same ideas and beliefs. But maybe it's just the means of saying them that differ.
Youâve missed Jimin and the last thing you want to talk about is Yunho. Youâd rather catch up and laugh around.
It's best to get it over with right now anyway. So you let your ears bleed as he speaks.
ââand thatâs why I didnât like him in the first place....ââ he rumbles on. The red button seems so far away. Your fingers twitch to press it.
Jimin isnât the most talkative person, you give that title to Willoe. But once he starts to talk he doesnât seem to stop.
You need a fucking savior right now.
ââyn are you hearing meââ he asks from your lack of response.
ââyeah jimin, well and clear.ââ Lies. Youâve been tuning him out, he couldâve changed the topic and you wouldnât know.
ââGoodââ
You groan.
In a second after your plea, your savior finally shows.
ââjimin can I call you later jungkook is callingââ
ââjungkook? Tell him youâre busy. Iâm talking to youââ
ââI would but I think it's important and you know how whiny he getsââ
ââalright then Iâll call you later, tell him to stop ignoring my calls tooââ you hum in acknowledgement and nod.
ââokay byeââ you click so fast he doesnât get to respond.
ââmy fucking saviourââ you say immediately after Jungkookâs call is accepted. Heâs a little confused by your abruptness but takes it anyway.
You watch the confusion on his face with a smile.
ââthank you?ââ
ââis that a questionââ
ââyeah, I just donât know where it's coming fromââ you watch him fix his hoodie.
ââyouâre my fucking savior, what donât you get?ââ for a second, he thinks you're talking about Yunho, but if it was about him the last thing, youâd be doing is thanking him. ââyou just saved me from a jimin lectureââ
He makes a face of realization, he sees you donât seem to know about Yunho.
Like on cue, Jiminâs text pops up.
Minnie Boy: I know you didnât want to hear what I was saying, but please consider taking a break for yourself.
Minnie boy: And I promise to not bring it up again.
You giggle at his text, he knows you so well, that maybe you will consider taking his advice.
You: I hope you know I appreciate your advice and I will consider it. Thanks, Minnie.
ââwhat was he saying?ââ jungkookâs velvety voice pulls you back to him.
ââIt was about Yunhoââ
He lets out a hum, understanding that he gave you one hell of a lecture.
Thereâs a little comfortable silence as you and jungkook just watch each other.
ââAbout that. How are you doing?ââ
ââI guess Iâm okay, you guys have made a easier for meâ
Jungkookâs happy to hear that.
ââI appreciate itââ
ââweâre youâre friends weâll always be here for youââ
he sounds so sentimental it makes your heart throb.
ââhow about you? how are you doing?ââ you change your position.
Laying on your back with your phone above you. you watch jungkook turn his eyes away.
ââIâm doing okay, just working and stuffââ
You nod.
ââand how about the date thing have you thought about itââ
Jungkook will probably never hear the end of it. He runs a hand through his dark hair which seems to be growing longer and longer.
ââabout that, I donât want toââ
Your glare would probably teleport you to him and smack him if it could.
ââwhat do you mean you donât want to?ââ you sit up and jungkook sighs disappointedly with the position change.
ââI mean, youâre not doing well, and the last thing I want to be thinking of looking for a girlfriendââ
You roll your eyes.
ââThis is why I donât like letting you know things, you get so worried and forget about yourselfââ
Youâre not wrong and he knows it, but he doesnât find a problem with it.
ââIâll be okay, donât worry about meââ he watches you talk.
Itâs so hard for him not to worry about you when you donât seem to be telling him the truth about if youâre truly okay. Youâre saying it but he doesnât believe it.
You continue to express how youâre okay and he needs to find someone for himself instead of spending his days worrying about you.
He canât help but think about whether he should tell you Yunho was cheating or not, he doesnât want to hurt you. Cause that news would kill you.
But keeping it to himself feels like it will do more harm.
But it wonât hurt you if you never find out, all you have to do is never talk to Yunho again and he trusts you can do that.
ââokay yn if you want to so badly find me a blind dateââ he says after you suggest it for a millionth time.
Youâre shocked by his acceptance but also excited.
ââand I will. Get your suit jacket ready 'cause jungkook youâre going on a date â you mimic the voice of dating show presenters.
ââI'll be waitingââ he chuckles out watching you smile.
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A/n: I don't know why the prologue is so long.đ
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What you need | prologue
Synopsis: everybody needs, but how do you define need? Do you even know what you need.
Genre: best friends au, angst, fluff, smut, slow burn.
Jungkook x reader.
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ââyou canât be seriousââ your brows knits as your voice shakes with disbelief.
ââIâm serious as fuck ynââ he spits out like venom from a snakeâs glands ââIs it so hard to stop being friends with him?ââ he says it like itâs that easy to end a friendship, especially with no valid reason.
ââyes. Weâve been friends for foreverââ You can feel your throat tremble with all this defending you have to do.
ââyn 3 years isnât foreverââ
ââbut it's longer than weâve been togetherââ you spit back with your own venom. You wouldnât put Jungkook over Yunho cause heâs your boyfriend, but thatâs not going to make you forget Jungkook. The person whoâs been there for you the most (not that youâre counting) ââIâm not going to stop being friends with him over nothing or just because youâre threatened by himââ
You know thatâs what this is about. You donât know when it started but Yunho has always seemed to be threatened by Jungkook. Youâve reassured him so much you got tired of it, so you just let him talk to himself when he complained.
ââso, this is nothing to you?ââ he stops walking around to stare at you with a glare youâve never seen. This argument is not like the others youâve had over Jungkook, itâs worse. The fire spat out and acid thrown (in form of words) causes the whole house to overheat around you, leaving you scorched and burnt.
ââyou really do love Jungkook more than me?ââ he seems fed up with it, and you are too. For how long can you continue to baby his insecurity?
ââIâve told you a million times that Jungkook and I are just friends and thereâs nothing you need to worry aboutââ you try and be the sensible one (as always). Since this argument was about you; you were going to be the one to try and end it if you were going to be able to put out the fire in Yunho.
ââif I wanted to be with him, I wouldâve done it by now, but no, Iâm with you and I want to be with youââ you say with everything, apart from the irritation and anger, in your heart. Maybe it wasn't the best way to say it but you said it, and it did nothing but make him angrier.
Heâs silent as if analyses the validity of your words. He knows youâre probably correct, you would never choose Jungkook over him but something just bothers him. He wonders if this has anything to do with you and Jungkook or just an inner unacknowledged vengeance.
ââwhat I said still stands, either you stop being friends with him or weâre doneââ
Your skin paled as his skin stayed healthy and glowing like this was a piece of cake for him. As if he was unbothered and doing this to make you uncomfortable. You thought you made it to the crossroads but you're far from it. You're actually in the middle of the highway waiting to be hit.
ââcome on yunho, why are being like thisââ youâre getting tired of trying.
ââyouâre doing this to yourself ynââ How are you doing this to yourself when heâs the one pointing a gun to your head to choose between a rock and a hard place.
ââit's not fair, because you know I love you and i really care about youââ
ââif you love me and care about me, youâre going to stop being friends with himââ
His stubbornness is so unbelievable.
ââyouâre not being fairââ you bite your lower lip. you hope the pain from it can distract you from the pounding of your heart. Your fists clench and unclench as you try to think of what to do, things donât seem to be easing down and you donât like it at all.
ââno yn Iâm not, but I have to protect myselfââ his face and tone are as uncaring as ever. Heâs being difficult and uncaring as you fight for this relationship. Are you the only one who cares?
ââprotect yourself from what?ââ your voice raises an octave; you start to get frustrated with the confusion from his indifferent behavior.
ââfrom getting hurtââ
Youâve had it.
ââI TOLD YOU, JUNGKOOK AND I ARE NEVER GOING TO BE TOGETHER!ââ you yell like youâve never yelled before that heâs even taken aback. "I swearââ your voice goes back to its light and softness, almost begging. But still no change on his part.
You feel like everything in the room is laughing at you.
All the little laughs and happy moments all the promises made, all the kisses gave; in your face laughing at you, mocking you for giving love another chance just for it to spit in your face another time.
If this doesnât work out, youâre never going to do this again.
ââThat doesnât guarantee me anythingââ he watches you and you scoff.
ââso, tell me, me or Jungkook?ââ
ââyouâre not being fairââ
you roll your eyes.
ââthatâs just how it isââ is it really? Or is it how you want it to be? you want to say but hold back you donât want to add gasoline to this ticking time bomb of a relationship.
ââPlease make the right choice, think about usââ
You chuckle bitterly internally, is this when he cares about what you had?
What you had.
You think of that. Yunho was your hope in love after your last relationship, he was-is your everything. So, if he cares about what you have then why is he doing this?
You think about it. Yunho is your boyfriend, and Jungkook is your best friend. Youâve known Jungkook longer but you love Yunho more (well in the boyfriend way) and you love Jungkook in the best friend way.
Which is more valuable and worth keeping.
ââI canât, Iâm sorryââ you breathe out ââjungkook is my friendââ
âI guess youâve made your choiceââ
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ââNext time we go out remind me to carry sunscreenââ jungkook says through the speaker ââim looking like a roast turkeyââ
You snort.
Knowing Jungkook heâs probably in his bathroom staring at himself. You giggle when you hear him whisper a hot one though.
He isnât wrong.
ââspeaking of going out, please never bring your boyfriend again.ââ He chuckles out but you stay silent.
At the mention of yunho you freeze, everything does. You know jungkook means no harm. All your friends tease you about Yunho.
Now you begin to wonder if it was a warning hidden behind humor because they knew how much you loved him and passed little jokes about him.
Maybe you shouldâve known, how could you have thought of it when you were so âso in loveââ with him
though.
ââyn, you with me?ââ jungkook asks noticing how quiet youâve gone. He starts to worry that heâs offended you, but you know heâs just joking right? Well, heâs not. He doesnât like Yunho one single bit and never wants to see him ever again, cause if he does, heâs going to punch him. For many different reasons.
âAre you okay?â he coos out, body tensing in worry at your silence.
Silence.
Sniffle, sniffle.
Jungkook pauses when he hears you sniffle, youâre crying. His heart muscle contracts at the sound.
Why are you crying?
Is it something heâs done? Cause he wouldnât forgive himself if he was ever the reason a tear left your eye. He wouldnât forgive anyone who was the reason for your tears.
It was so hard keeping this to yourself and not telling anyone, especially jungkook.
ââyn whatâs wrong, is something going on?ââ you donât answer and he gets more uneasy. It makes it worse for him that youâre in two different places.
ââdoes it have to do with Yunho?ââ he knows heâs probably right, but he just wants you to say it; so, he can have a reason for whatever heâs going to do after.
Silence.
ââDid he do something to you?ââ his voice gets more impatient.
ââyn please talk to meââ at this point heâs begging you to say something. He canât see you, so the least you can do is say something; tell him heâs overreacting and youâre okay (even though he wouldnât believe it until he saw you in person. And even then he still wouldnât believe)
ââif he did something to you, you need to tell meââ jungkook paces around his bedroom slowly.
ââhe didnât do anythingââ You finally speak but it's not what he wants to hear. But it does confirm what heâs thinking.
Jungkook knows it's hard for you to speak when you're crying, normally heâd let you cry it out until youâre calm and can tell him. But right now, he wants you to speak.
ââit doesnât sound that wayââ You can hear the anger rising in his tone, if you never knew him, youâd think he was mad at you.
But heâs just on the road to anger, thatâs why you didnât want to tell him. Youâd planned on telling him later but your emotions were not on the same page with you.
ââDid he touch you?ââ now heâs just giving you options to pick yes or no. It's a bit of an overstep in jungkook's part but he's worried and you're not giving him an answer. He wouldn't put it past yunho though.
ââI swear to god yn if he did...ââ jungkook fumes out letting his thoughts go ahead of him cause you wonât seem to tell him.
You don't know where your voice has gone but its not there, you do want to speak but you can't seem to find the voice or energy.
Even though heâs angry, whatever it is itâs not your fault and he shouldnât take it out on you. Anger wonât make you speak any quicker.
Jungkook isn't so protective, most of the time, but when yunho is mentioned he has this inkling to keep you closer to him. He doesn't know why but he just does, he tries to keep to himself but his heart aches too much.
ââtalk to me bunnyââ he coos hoping to get more insight.
That pet name does it for you.
ââhe broke up with me kookââ you wobble out your words.
Jungkookâs hands tap against his table angrily.
his jaw unintentionally clenches. He wants to be happy that you're not tied to that bastard anymore, but this is not about him. It's about you. And unlike jungkook, you actually like yunho and are, surprisingly, in love with him.
ââyn, when did this happen?ââ you canât tell what emotion heâs speaking with.
ââtwo days ago,â you speak out slowly and so low that jungkook wouldnât have heard you if he didnât know you.
ââAnd youâre only just telling?â you feel like heâs blaming you but youâre just in your feels and you know he isnât.
ââIâm still processing itâ you defend.
ââokayââ
ââIâm coming over right nowââ you can hear him shuffle around, probably putting on some clothes.
âkook, thatâs no- you donât have-ââ
ââDonât tell me I donât have to; Iâm on my fucking wayââ
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ââyou didnât have to drive hereââ you say when you open the door and see a hooded up jungkook.
ââshut up and let me inââ he jokes out and lets himself in.
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ââyou know Iâm mad that this when youâre tellingââ jungkook hums out into your hair as his hand comfortingly rubs your arm.
ââI told you Iâm still processing itââ You coo into his chest, and the vibration from your voice soothes his previously aching beating muscle.
ââI know, thatâs why Iâm letting it slide for nowââ Jungkookâs eyes move to look at you, your eyes closed as you lightly breath against his chest.
He's happy you've calmed down now. After walking in he asked you to tell him what happened, you did (not all but you did). You ignored any question of 'why did he break up with you'. You don't want to answer that or even tell him.
His eyes roam your living room which is still the same from the last time he came, maybe with the addition of a new painting. But the overall ambiance and warmth are still present and he knows Yunhoâs presence hasnât contaminated it.
âânext time you tell me immediatelyââ he says without thinking.
ââNext time?ââ you move away and jungkook cringes and the disappearance of your warmth.
ââthatâs not what I mea-ââ
ââyeah I knowââ you place your legs on his lap and he gladly accepts them. ââbut there won't be a next timeââ
You say still in thought.
ââI think Iâm done datingââ
It hurts jungkook hearing you say that. Heâs seen how many times a douchebag has hurt you, and it weakens him to slowly watch you give up on love.
ââIâm tired of getting my heart broken, cause thatâs all that happens when I dateââ you start ââhonestly I knew love didnât exist but I still wanted to try. So, I guess I shouldnât be mad if love shows me its ass, cause Iâve known all along. true love doesnât exist, maybe love in all doesnât exist.ââ
One thing jungkook fully believed in his life was true love, he thinks he probably got it from watching his parents be so in love with each other. His mother always told him, that people always look around for what they think is true love when the actual thing is right in front of their face. You just have to pay attention.
ââI guess this gives me enough time to focus on my careerââ you sing-song.
You try and seem okay and prove something to jungkook.
ââbunnyââ he calls out softly as his hand brushes passed yours making little electrons lightly dance over your skin.
ââyou'll find someone who truly loves youââ You understand where his words are coming from but they donât help you feel not less than.
ââmaybe not in this lifetime, but thanks for trying kookââ you let out a painful laugh. Jungkookâs eyes sink deep into yours as if trying to find what youâre not telling, what youâre so afraid of showing him.
He wants to know and wants to see everything; you donât need to hide anything from him.
He hopes you know that.
You move away from his gaze and try to hide whatâs left of your hurt. You donât need him more worried.
ââso have you taken up my offer for the dating appââ You change the topic with a smile and a heavy heart.
ââIâm still thinking about itââ You watch heâs teeth play with the silver loop at the corner of his lip. Youâre still not yet used to his pierced lip even though heâs had it for over a year. Jungkook taps your calf when he catches you looking a little too long at his lip.
ââif you take any longer, Iâm going to have to find a blind date for you myselfââ
your eyes flush amusement.
Jungkookâs brows rise in playfulness before they drop and he smiles.
ââIâm sure anyone you pick would be a good fitââ
ââglad you knowââ
ââI think Iâm going to clock in for the nightââ You yawn and stand. Jungkook watches your figure hover over him. ââfeel free to stay longer and eat whateverââ
You know he would cause heâs done it before.
ââIâm just going to head out, got work tomorrowââ he stands with a groan. âas long as youâll be fineâ he stares at you waiting for an answer. You give him one with your eyes. Heâs helped to a lot this night and you donât want him going late to work.
ââlove you kookââ you say abruptly and jungkook doesnât have time to process it when that tingling feeling in his stomach starts. It feels like the time when he had to perform in front of the whole school, in the 10th grade.
He didn't like that feeling, but this one feels more enjoyable.
ââthanks for coming tonightââ your bright eyes beam at him.
ââAnything for you bunnyââ he smiles before heâs out the door.
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Jungkook didnât have work the next day, okay maybe he did but one day of not attending wouldnât hurt him, right?
He did write to his boss after all.
I apologize for the late notice, but...... cause my mother is unwell.
It's just one lie. He hopes his mother doesnât mind.
As Jungkook pulls over heâs suddenly grateful for all the times youâve asked him to drop you off at Yunhoâs house and how he persisted in walking you up to his apartment.
With his mind made up Jungkook raises his hand to knock on the door. He hopes he still lives here cause it would be embarrassing if he didnât. If he had moved you wouldâve told Jungkook, after all, you tell him everything.
âânuguseyo?ââ [who are you?]
Jungkookâs blood boils when the feminine voice speaks. He swears Yunho still lives here. Whoâs she?
If what jungkookâs thinking is correct then Yunho is in for more than an ass whooping.
ââYunho. does he live here?ââ he speaks to her bluntly. Sheâs not why he came so he doesnât care for her.
ââeungââ she says before she speaks again ââYeoboââ
Jungkook is too familiar with that term of endearment, so he is correct.
This bastard was cheating on her. And even if he wasnât and jungkook is reaching, how can he be with someone only a few days after breaking up with her?
ââsomeoneâs here for youââ she says as his figure comes into focus.
ââwh-ââ his voice cuts off. ââjungkook? Look what the cat dragged in. Did yn send you hereââ
It pisses Jungkook off how he says your name with no damn respect.
It would have honestly been better for him if you had sent him, he wouldâve been at mercy.
But the fact that heâs here on his own accord means Jungkook can do whatever he wants. No mercy.
He just prays you donât find out. You hate violence and he knows it. You would kill him if you knew he was about to do what heâs about to do. But the red pumping to his fists makes him think unclear, right now all he cares about is avenging you. But maybe heâs doing this to also quench the hatred he has for Yunho within himself.
ââIâm sure she told you what happened, you won I guessââ he says it like it was a game ââBut did you win really.ââ He chuckles.
Jungkook can hear the mocking in his voice.
He didnât need much motivation until his body reacted and soon crimson painted on his fist.
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ââthat assholeââ willoe spits out through her swallow. ââhe really wanted you to pick?ââ you nod.
ââIâm glad you made the right choiceââ She places her mug down. You donât even want to bother and tell her that you almost (for a split second) wanted to pick him over Jungkook. And for the past 2 days, youâve been wondering if you shouldâve. But itâs the loneliness speaking.
Remembering how Jungkook came over yesterday to see you makes you glad that you made that decision. You feel shitty for even thinking of picking Yunho.
ââMaking someone pick is ruthless, selfish and immatureââ
Willoe has been wallowing out curses ever since you told her about Yunho, you kinda regret it.
You wonder how Jimin can handle her tongue.
Unlike Jungkook, willoe took you not telling her better. You pin it on the fact that sheâs also kept things from you too, for quite a long time too.
One of the things was that she and Jimin had started dating. now that you think about it you probably complained her and Jiminâs ears off (like sheâs doing right now to you). Who goes 3 months without telling their bestie that sheâs dating her love at first sight whoâs also your friend? What impresses you more is how Jimin was able to keep it from you.
If you had even the smallest inkling that she and Jimin were dating you wouldâve probably pulled it out of him. But there were no signs.
Or maybe you were too wrapped around Yunhoâs nagging that you didnât pay attention.
ââCan you stop cursing that manâs lineageââ Your coffeeâs probably going cold with how youâre just holding it. The warmth on the ceramic provides some comfort in a way.
ââoh I havenât even begun cursing his lineageââ she scoffs ââIt's just that I have a date with Jimin tonight, otherwise, I wouldâve gone to pull out the candlesââ You know sheâs just playing. Even though Willoe on her days off looks like sheâs the type, sheâs far from pulling out candles to curse someone. But you wouldnât put it past her.
You just laugh.
ââHave you told jungkook?ââ she lowers her voice down to a serious tone.
Your head lifts to look at her confused. ââtold him what?ââ
She rolls her eyes at you as if you donât know.
ââthat he made you pick between him or jungkook.ââ
It clicks. You donât know if itâs cause of whatâs going on but your mind has been foggy of late.
ââhell noââ you spit out quite roughly.
ââwhy notââ
ââbecause it would piss him off, I donât even know what he would doââ You finally take a sip of your coffee and cringe at how lukewarm it's gotten. Willoe watches you noticing that you havenât taken a sip of your coffee.
ââyou think he would beat up Yunho?ââ you ask her for an opinion.
ââoh, I know he would, without a doubt. Iâm surprised you havenât gotten a call from a hospitalized yunhoââ willoe stares at the waiter to bring her another order. She comes here often so she hopes they remember.
ââlike be for real yn have you looked at himââ if only she knew how many times youâve looked at him. ââHe could take Yunho in one go and winââ
you know he can, you have hundreds of his gym pics in your gallery. Not because you stalk him but because jungkook feels the need to send you some every time heâs in the gym (which is like every day).
Why havenât you deleted them? Because itâs cute that he can share this cute ritual with you of all people. And even though you donât go to the gym with him at all. The pictures make it like you are accompanying him on his gym journey.
Though your storage isnât so pleased.
ââbut I just donât like violence, especially if it's jungkook. I donât want him to get hurtââ
ââgirl be serious jungkook would never let someone whoop his ass, heâd rather dieââ
Sheâs so right.
ââand its kinda hot having someone wanting to fight another person for youââ Willoe blushes at the thought ââJimin once punched a guy who was flirting with me, and Iâve never fucked him harderââ She looks lost in the thoughts ââIt was one of the reasons I kept in touch with him. I love possessive menââ you chuckle as you watch the blood go to her cheeks.
You know Willoe is into those kinds of things.
And thatâs one of the things that makes you two different. You donât like men who do that kind of thing, even though you get where it's coming from. It's unattractive to you.
And thatâs one reason youâll never attend Jungkookâs boxing training sessions. It would kill you to see someone hit Him, even If itâs not serious.
ââanyway, howâs Jimin? Havenât talked to him this weekââ
ââyeah, same. Heâs been busy lately so he promised me a date to make up for it.ââ
You watch her blush at the mention of Jimin, she always does.
You love how they work together. It makes you feel so happy to see her happy and be with someone like Jimin who treats her right.
But it just makes you think of your lacks, when or where were you going to find someone who would love you like Jimin loves Willoe.
ââgod, when will I meet someone like Jiminââ
ââyou will, you just need to open your eyesââ
ââmy eyes have been open and all I can see is bullshitââ
Willow laughs almost choking on her second coffee, youâve barely touched your first. Sheâs a coffee addict anyway, so you canât compete.
ââDon't worry yn someone will come aroundââ
You roll your eyes ââwell Iâm done waiting for that one personââ you feel yourself tense at the thought of being alone forever.
ââIâll send you some lavender and chamomile to calm you downââ
Maybe it's time to get into the herbs sheâs been recommending.
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Youâve now been tuning out Jiminâs lecture for a minute. You donât even know how his consolidation turned into him giving a speech on how to find someone who cares about you, and how you should take a break from dating and ââfind yourselfââ. Whatever the fuck that means.
Most of the time you think you and Jimin are similar, and share the same ideas and beliefs. But maybe it's just the means of saying them that differ.
Youâve missed Jimin and the last thing you want to talk about is Yunho. Youâd rather catch up and laugh around.
It's best to get it over with right now anyway. So you let your ears bleed as he speaks.
ââand thatâs why I didnât like him in the first place....ââ he rumbles on. The red button seems so far away. Your fingers twitch to press it.
Jimin isnât the most talkative person, you give that title to Willoe. But once he starts to talk he doesnât seem to stop.
You need a fucking savior right now.
ââyn are you hearing meââ he asks from your lack of response.
ââyeah jimin, well and clear.ââ Lies. Youâve been tuning him out, he couldâve changed the topic and you wouldnât know.
ââGoodââ
You groan.
In a second after your plea, your savior finally shows.
ââjimin can I call you later jungkook is callingââ
ââjungkook? Tell him youâre busy. Iâm talking to youââ
ââI would but I think it's important and you know how whiny he getsââ
ââalright then Iâll call you later, tell him to stop ignoring my calls tooââ you hum in acknowledgement and nod.
ââokay byeââ you click so fast he doesnât get to respond.
ââmy fucking saviourââ you say immediately after Jungkookâs call is accepted. Heâs a little confused by your abruptness but takes it anyway.
You watch the confusion on his face with a smile.
ââthank you?ââ
ââis that a questionââ
ââyeah, I just donât know where it's coming fromââ you watch him fix his hoodie.
ââyouâre my fucking savior, what donât you get?ââ for a second, he thinks you're talking about Yunho, but if it was about him the last thing, youâd be doing is thanking him. ââyou just saved me from a jimin lectureââ
He makes a face of realization, he sees you donât seem to know about Yunho.
Like on cue, Jiminâs text pops up.
Minnie Boy: I know you didnât want to hear what I was saying, but please consider taking a break for yourself.
Minnie boy: And I promise to not bring it up again.
You giggle at his text, he knows you so well, that maybe you will consider taking his advice.
You: I hope you know I appreciate your advice and I will consider it. Thanks, Minnie.
ââwhat was he saying?ââ jungkookâs velvety voice pulls you back to him.
ââIt was about Yunhoââ
He lets out a hum, understanding that he gave you one hell of a lecture.
Thereâs a little comfortable silence as you and jungkook just watch each other.
ââAbout that. How are you doing?ââ
ââI guess Iâm okay, you guys have made a easier for meâ
Jungkookâs happy to hear that.
ââI appreciate itââ
ââweâre youâre friends weâll always be here for youââ
he sounds so sentimental it makes your heart throb.
ââhow about you? how are you doing?ââ you change your position.
Laying on your back with your phone above you. you watch jungkook turn his eyes away.
ââIâm doing okay, just working and stuffââ
You nod.
ââand how about the date thing have you thought about itââ
Jungkook will probably never hear the end of it. He runs a hand through his dark hair which seems to be growing longer and longer.
ââabout that, I donât want toââ
Your glare would probably teleport you to him and smack him if it could.
ââwhat do you mean you donât want to?ââ you sit up and jungkook sighs disappointedly with the position change.
ââI mean, youâre not doing well, and the last thing I want to be thinking of looking for a girlfriendââ
You roll your eyes.
ââThis is why I donât like letting you know things, you get so worried and forget about yourselfââ
Youâre not wrong and he knows it, but he doesnât find a problem with it.
ââIâll be okay, donât worry about meââ he watches you talk.
Itâs so hard for him not to worry about you when you donât seem to be telling him the truth about if youâre truly okay. Youâre saying it but he doesnât believe it.
You continue to express how youâre okay and he needs to find someone for himself instead of spending his days worrying about you.
He canât help but think about whether he should tell you Yunho was cheating or not, he doesnât want to hurt you. Cause that news would kill you.
But keeping it to himself feels like it will do more harm.
But it wonât hurt you if you never find out, all you have to do is never talk to Yunho again and he trusts you can do that.
ââokay yn if you want to so badly find me a blind dateââ he says after you suggest it for a millionth time.
Youâre shocked by his acceptance but also excited.
ââand I will. Get your suit jacket ready 'cause jungkook youâre going on a date â you mimic the voice of dating show presenters.
ââI'll be waitingââ he chuckles out watching you smile.
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A/n: I don't know why the prologue is so long.đ
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What you need | teaser
Synopsis: everybody needs, but how do you define need? Do you even know what you need.
Genre: best friends au, angst, fluff, smut, slow burn.
Jungkook x reader.
[Ongoing series]
Prologue
WATTPAD COVER.
A/n: this series is a refresher for me, cause unlike the others I actually plan the chapters which maybe, a big MAYBE, could lead to constant uploads.
Might post the the first chapter tomorrow if I'm done proofreading.
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There are days that i have to listen to music every second i'm awake and conscious or ill kill myself
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JUNGKOOK FANFIC RECOMMENDATIONS(12).° ŕźđ§âđâËŕˇ
𪊠Miracle Of The Season | Angel Jungkook x Fallen Angel F!Reader | OneShot | @cybrsan
𪊠Thereâs Only Me When Thereâs You | Jungkook x Reader | OneShot | @koostattoos
𪊠PRINCESS TREATMENT | JK X Reader | Series | @2hightocare
𪊠best friends..? | best friend!Jungkook x fem!reader | Series | @just4koo
𪊠Home for the Holidays | jungkook x f. reader | OneShot | @jjungkookislife
𪊠Closer To You | Rich, spoilt brat!Jeongguk X Doctor! Reader | OneShot | @back2bluesidex
𪊠First type of Soul Mate: The Soul Crossing Mate | Prince!Jungkook X Reader | @beautifulfuckup99
𪊠What he wants, he gets | Jeon Jungkook x Reader (idol au) | OneShot | @wildestdreamsblog
𪊠Debut | sunbaenim!JK X Reader | OneShot | @yankpop
𪊠Cruel Beast | idol yandere Jungkook x Idol Y/n | OneShot | @kangmoon27
𪊠PREDESTINED | Mortal/commer jk x goddess reader | OneShot | @keen-li
𪊠 | Yandere! Dark! Android! Jeon Jungkook x Widower! Fem! Reader | @pynkgothicka
𪊠Daddy Daycare | Technician! Jungkook x Teacher's Assistant! Reader | Series | @bunnyhugs77
𪊠Yours Truly | popular jungkook x tsundere f reader | @solemnreads
𪊠Cherry Flavored | Biker!JK X Reader | OneShot | @jungkookstatts
𪊠Oath | JK X Reader | Mafia AU | Series | @bangtan-yeonghon
𪊠too young | single dad!jungkook X Reader | series | @jeonggukookies
𪊠How to Get Rid of Your Virginity | badboy!jungkook x theaternerd!reader | OneShot | @strvngeweather
𪊠Mr. Take Your Bitch | Idol!JK X Reader | OneShot | @bunnyhugs77
𪊠Focused on her | aged jungkook X Reader | OneShot | @000jeon
𪊠sorry (not sorry) | JK X Reader | OneShot | @angelguk
𪊠ALL AT ONCE | unhinged jungkook X shy oc | Series | @muniimyg
𪊠Valentine Vixen | Stripper! Reader x Rich! Jungkook | OneShot | @bunnyhugs77
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Two liars are about to kiss
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Fake dating?
Warnings: cussing, smut. (I'm too tired to add detailed warningsbut the is the basic)
18+ MDNI
Wc. 4k
A/n: just a quickie, I don't think this is as good as I want it to be so yeah whatever.
....
"Be my girlfriend " jungkook spits out sharply. You snap your head so quick you might've snapped it.
"What the fuck jungkook " you knit your brows so tight they might touch.
" y/n relax" jungkook rolls his eyes at your reaction. "You're being dramatic"
You pull back "dramatic? You literally asked me to be your girlfriend just before going into your parents' house."
"Y/n are you going to be my girlfriend or not" there's no warmth in his words as it should be when you're asking someone to be your partner.Â
You lean back against the car seat and think. You know jungkook and he's not asking you you be his girlfriend cause he loves you, he's doing it cause he did something.
"Did you lie to your parents that you have a girlfriend?" You can feel the laugh build up in your throat. And by his embarrassed face you know you're right.
He's face grows even more embarrassed when you laugh.
"Why the fuck would you do that" you say through a laugh and he's not feeling it.
"Y/n stop" the embarrassment embeds itself in his throat.
You shrug your shoulders giving in to his plea for mercy.
"My mom was bugging me about it so I'm just doing this so shut her up" he finally meets your eyes and you can see he's being genuine. You kinda feel bad for laughing now. No you don't.
"It's just for the weekend though. Then later in we can just lie that we broke up and by the next time I see her maybe I'd have a girlfriend " he looks at your face and he can't determine if you're pitying him or feeling sad.
"What's wrong?" He says. You didn't even realise that your face had fallen.
"No. Nothing " you smile. "The thing is will they believe. We've been friends for a long time I doubt they would believe"
"Don't worry about that. My mom has always suspected we liked each other anyways" he mumbles out like it's nothing.
"Ew" you turn to look out the window.
You don't see it but you can feel jungkook stare at you.
"What do you mean ew "
You open the car door. " I mean EW I could never like you" you blunt out. "Now let's go in boyfriend " it feels weird saying that to jungkook, but it doesn't mean anything so it doesn't matter.
You shut the door and jungkook watches you walk to the door to his parent's front door. He snaps out of watching you when you turn to call him over with a face feigning anger.
He smiles before locking the car.
He knows you've agreed to help him but he still doesn't know how you feel about it. Does it bother you?
You flinch when you feel jungkook's hand on your lower.
"Ready babe?"
"Ready" you smile hoping your artificial blush is hiding the real one.
....
"I knew you two would start dating eventually " jungkook's mother says across the dinner table.
Jungkook cringes feeling the awkward conversation coming up. You cringe at the sad fact that all of this is a ruse and she seems so happy about it.
"Keep this between the two of us y/n" she whispers to you but every could hear "I preferred you over all of his other girlfriends. I was just waiting for him to grow a pair and ask you out"
"You're such a beautiful girl y/n, can't wait till you're Mrs Jeon too" she giggles out.
"Mom" jungkook calls out. "Too fast"
"Whatever, just marry her" jungkook groans when she says that.
"Mrs jeon I appreciate the compliment and the wonderful food. But I think I'm going to head to bed now"
She stops you when you try and take the dishes.
"I'll deal with that. you and jungkook should just go settle down in his bedroom"
You feel bad for letting her do the dishes but she insisted. You nod and walk to the bedroom.
Jungkook turns to his mom "please take it easy with y/n"
She looks at him with a smirk as if she doesn't know what he's talking about.
"It's her first relationship" he adds. He knows it must be weird for you pretending to be in a relationship when you've never been in one.
You've caught yourself in flings and situationships but they've never made the relationship official so you just gave up. You've always wanted to be in a relationship, be a girlfriend and eventually a wife, but people in this age are never into that. So you've sat waiting to find someone who wants what you want and sometimes you're jealous of how jungkook wants to be in a relationship but he says he hasn't found or can't find the right girl.
So you're both just chilling waiting for your perfect matches.
"You're sleeping on the floor right?" You ask him when he walked into the room.
"Yeah" he says and you immediately through a duvet on the carpet next to the bed.
"Damn. You don't want to share a bed that bad?" He whines.
"We've never shared a bed here. And plus you always say you'd take the floor"
All the times you and jungkook have visited his parents he's always taken the floor and you the bed. It's normal but now it's different cause you're "Dating" so you wonder if it'd be weird to not share a bed. You don't want to ask him though, don't want to seem like you want to share a bed with him.
"Don't you think it'd be weird if we don't share a bed?" Jungkook asks and you're glad it's coming from his mouth.
"I don't know maybe?" You say wanting to be nonchalant.
"I think we should share the bed" he dips the bed multiple time to check if it's still springy, it would've been a normal act if he was doing that without looking at you like a lion about to strike.
His gaze makes you heat up and glance at all things in the room apart form jungkook. But eventually your eyes meet and he's grinning. He's fucking with you.
"You can just take the bed if you want it so bad" your words come out a little sharp cause of how flustered you are.
You walk over to the little set up on the floor and lay there.
"Yes I want the bed but I want it with you" he rushes out before thinking, he stutters after catching what he's just said.
"I don't mean it like that, I mean I think we should share the bed or my I'm will think something's up"
You get what he's saying but after what he's from blubbering out you're afraid sharing a bed would cross a boundary.
"I think we'll be fine she won't see us. It's not like she'll just walk in" you turn your body to face away from jungkook as you get comfortable on the floor.
"You didn't have to sleep on the floor you know" he says laying on the bed staring at the ceiling.
"I'm fine like this" you say and the room goes silent.
You almost fall asleep but then you hear the door open and outside light come in. You think it's jungkook until you hear his mother's voice.
"I thought you guys would need some more blanke-"
"Mom!" Jungkook calls out and you sit up.
"Why are you two sleeping separately, the bed is big enough" she asks. "Did what I say offend you y/n"
"No no Mrs jeon, I just-" You're cut off by her angry voice.
"Did jungkook do something? " she shoots daggers at him.
"No, he didn't"
"Cause if he did I'm going to deal with him"
"Mom I didn't do anything " he defends himself.
You chuckle a bit.
"I'm talking to y/n, not you jungkook " your laughter drops to seriousness when she turns to you.
"What did he do?"
"He didn't do anything Mrs jeon, I promise " jungkook can hear the smile in your voice and you can see him roll his eyes.
"If he didn't then why are you sleeping separately"
You and jungkook both stummer with your words not knowing what do tell her.
"Jungkook is too hot" you spit and regret how it sounds. Jungkook looks at you like 'is that the best you could come up with, but thank you :) "
You roll your eyes.
"He radiates off alot of body heat, I've been telling him to go see a doctor" you lie. Jungkook's mouth hangs open at your ability to lie to his mother face.
She nods.
"I understand. But you should've let himsleep on the floor instead"
"I know but I just felt bad about keeping him from his childhood bed" you pout.
Jungkook can't fathom how you're able to lie right now.
"Okay then I'll leave these here. Have a good night " she says and walks out. You assume it worked cause she doesn't fuss over it.
The room is silent until jungkook speaks.
"You're such a liar "
"Would you have preferred me saying the truth?"
He chuckles.
"So we're sharing the bed from now on? "
"Yep" you say and move to the bed where jungkook makes room for you. You're only doing this so you don't let out the secret.
"No touching" you warn him with a finger up.
"Wasn't planning on it"
He sure wasn't planning on it but he never said he didn't think of it.
...
It's 5am and you're awake. Not by your own will but by the fact the you woke up to jungkook's arm around you and you felt so comfortable. He's hold felt so warm and comfortable, it shouldn't have. You're crossing a boundary and what makes it worse is how comfortable it feels to cross that boundary.
Bymthe time you're done getting ready for the day it's 7 am, jungkook is still asleep and his mom's making breakfast so you go downstairs to help.
You're helping her and chatting when jungkook walks into the kitchen. You don't know where his shirt has disappeared to but its gone. You watch from the corner of your eye as he walks towards, you think he's going to walk by you until he's by your ear.
"Play along " he whispers and you're taken aback when he kisses your cheek.
"Morning baby" he says and that name numbs your tongue and you can only muster to spit out a whisper
"Morning" your stomach is in shambles. He has his hand on your back.
"Morning mom" he says still rubbing your back and causing you butterflies.
"Goodmorning" she says to him grinning at him. "Did you sleep well?"
"Yeah but i woke up alllll alone " he glances over to you and you roll your eyes and look away.
"That's a shame" you say sarcastically.
"Yeah it is" he shots back
His mother takes the breakfast to the dining room, leaving you and jungkook.
You think he'd let go of you and move away but he only gets closer.
"Smells good" he mumbles out.
"Oh yeah I think it's the spices " you try and keep your calm and not show him how much he's affecting. You're human and at the end of the day its hard not to react when someone is this close to you, whether it's jungkook or not.
"I wasn't talking about the food " he says by your ear and the chills run across your skin. "I was talking about you." His voice lowered plus the closeness is a killer combo.
"What do you use? I've always wanted to tell you how much I like how you smell"
"Uhhh" you move away pretending to be looking for something. "It's just some cheap perfume"
"Well it smells good" he goes back to his normal tone. He knows he's got you by the tongue so he smiles.
You just awkwardly chuckle.
"Jungkook leave y/n alone for now, she's helping with with breakfast" his mother walks in.
Jungkook raises his hands in surrender. " I'm not doing anything"
"Your father is already in the dining room go join him and have breakfast " she kicks him out. But before he leaves he gives you one last look. A look you can't decipher the meaning, it almost feels flirtatious. No, you're just in your head. He's just playing a role, jungkook wouldn't flirt with you for real.
While sat next to jungkook when eating breakfast you can barely hear what he's saying cause you're still thinking of what happend in the kitchen, you still have the butterflies. And jungkook's hand on your thighs doesn't help settle them.
You feel him squeeze your thighs and it brings you to reality.
"Are you okay?" He whispers for only you and you just hum.
"Yeah I'm fine" you don't seem fine.
"Am I doing too much. Can you not handle me?" He smirks.
You scoff " You're not doing too much and I can handle you"
Jungkoook raises a brow. "can you?"
You nod.
"We'll see about that" he says.
Is that a challenge? You know know jungkook loves those.
He takes his hand off your thighs and your smile drops(unintentionally) from the loss of his touch. But atleast you can eat without choking with every swallow.
You and jungkook haven't spoken much today, cause you and his mother have been out doing errands. Right now you're at the market picking some vegetables for dinner tonight.
"What made you say yes to jungkook" you almost didn't hear her over how hard you were gawking at the fruits.
"What do you like about him" she repeats noticing your distant gaze.
"Uhh" you find it hard to find your words. As a friend you know why you like jungkook. He's funny, he's a great listener, he's kind, he knows how to handle you ( you mean your personality)
But as a boyfriend you have no idea what you like about him. He's not even your real boyfriend.
Plus isn't what you like about him as a friend the same thing as a boyfriend.
"He's caring, he knows how to listen, he understands my humour" you say to and lose yourself in the thought of jungkook and he's mother can see that. It honestly makes her smile to see someone so in love with her son and to see the person her son is in love with.
If only she knew you guys were only friends, what would she say.
"I also like how we get along and how he makes me laugh and how he handles my personality. I like that alot" you smile and immediately catch yourself. You seriously can't be smiling at the thought of jungkook. You've realised you've never actually thought of why jungkook is your closest friend and why you run to him for almost everything that happens in your life.
Anytime someone breaks your heart you go to jungkook for comfort. Anytime you're stressed, you call jungkook.
You think about maybe that's why he can't find a girlfriend cause you're always calling him. Jungkook is such a good looking guy you don't think it's that hard for him to find a girl who he can get along with. Maybe you're a pussy blocker. Shit have you been keeping jungkook from finding a girlfriend?
Cause he just says he can't find a girlfriend but you've never seen him actually put in the effort except with one.
You remember one time trying to push him to download a dating app, he did but next time you checked he hadn't even logged in and later he deleted. You didn't want to ask or bother him about him so you left it.
"I just wanna focus on you right now, you need me and I need to take care of you" is what he told you one night when you came crying cause of your first situationships that had torn you into shreds. You couldn't remember those words after that until now, cause that day you were in shambles and couldn't hear a thing.
"Jungkook told me the same about you " her words break you out of your thoughts. What did jungkook tell her about you. " He also told me how he loves how you complete him. He feels incomplete without you"
Did he really tell her that. If it's true this might get complicated. Cause you can barely say what you feel. This was a huge mistake, you're fucking things up. If he told her that, does he feel the same or did he just say it to play the role. He was just playing the role, but that wouldn't make you feel any better.
"He really loves you, I can tell" she adds and you sigh.
This is going to be so fuckung awkward when you 'break up'
" I have everything i need, we should head home now." She says and and you just follow her.
In the way home you've just been thinking about whether jungkook could actually like you or this is just an act for him. If it is, he's really good at it. And it's really confusing you.
You settle the bags down onto the counter and as you do you feel arms wrap around you waist.
"How was it" his low voice speaks on your neck
"Huh?" You say barely able to focus on words with the way his hands are rubbing up and down your hips. This feels to natural, too domestic.
"How was shopping with my mom" he kisses your shoulder and you can't bring yourself to stop him.
"It was fun, I enjoyed going out with her" his nose runs up and down your neck. Jungkook can see your chest rise and fall and it encourages him to continue.
"We talked about you " you tell him.
"Oh? What did you say about me?"
"Jungkook" you gasp when he turns you around to face him.
You look into his eyes and they stare back at you, with desire and determination to show you you can't handle jungkook.
"I missed you" he spits out and you narrow your eyes. You don't know whether he's saying it as a friend or a fake boyfriend.
"Why you looking at me like that" he moves his face closer to yours. "Can't I miss my friend or girlfriend "
Now it's frustrating you. All the emotions and feelings.
It's whilst you're having your thoughts that jungkook takes you by surprise and kisses you. His lips linger on yours for a few seconds before you pull away. if you were afraid of crossing a boundary you should be petrified by now.
"I need to get changed" you move away from him and jungkook can feel the shift in the air. He's confused he thought this would work and make you warm up to the idea of actually being with him
But he guesses he came on too strong and now he's pushed you away.
During dinner you were low and didn't speak much, your silence even rendered a concerned look on jungkook's dad's face, who you haven't spoken to much this weekend.
After dinner you went straight to lay in bed and just stared at your phone. You can barely do anything apart from think about what's going in with you and Jungkook.
"Hey" you hear jungkook's sorrowful voice speak.
"Hey" you reply just as sorrowful and sit up with the blanket over your legs.
Jungkook stands by the door with his hands in his sweats, he contemplates whether he should talk about what's on his mind. But if he wants this weekend to end the way he wants it to then he should talk about it.
"Are you okay?" You ask him watching his far away gaze.
"Y/n what's wrong? " he asks instead of answering your question.
"What do you mean? " You shuffle in your seat.
"You haven't been okay since-" he stares out the hallway for anyone and close the door. "-ever since what happened in the kitchen"
Jungkook slowly walks to the edge of the bed.
"Is it because of this fake dating thing, did I make you make you uncomfortable? "
You shake your head. "Not it's not that, I fully accepted this fake dating thing "
"Then what's wrong, I can't take you ignoring me" he says the last part almost pleading.
It's time to get it off your chest then.
"I just can't tell if your doing this, the kisses, the touches , the pet names. For show. It's really confusing and I don't even know why I think otherwise." You sigh "we should've honestly talked about boundaries before we did this."
Jungkook agrees that boundaries should've been talked about, but he doesn't want boundaries. That wasn't his plan.
"Jungkook can you tell me something?" Jungkook hums to let you know to ask him what's on your mind. "Am I the reason that you haven't gotten a girlfriend, cause I know you and lia would've probably been married now if-" you can't finish your statement but he knows what you're trying to say " Am I a hinder to any your relationships "
You're not a hinder cause he only wants you.
"Y/n don't call yourself that" he moves closer to you. "Lia and I didn't work out and it wasn't your fault." He has his hand rubbing on your knee to comfort you.
You sigh and feel the tears coming.
"No no y/n. Don't" his hand cups your cheek and you start to sob.
"I think I fucked this up. I think I like you more than a friend" You mumble and you're shocked you had the guts to tell him. "I'm sorry I've probably fucked up our friendsh--" your shut up with Jungkook's warm lips on yours.
"You haven't fucked up anything. I'm the one who did., I should've just told you that I liked you instead of using lies to swoon you over " his thump wipes away a single tear on you.
"I'm sorry for putting you in this situation, i- " this time it's you who shuts him up with a kiss.
Jungkook relaxes into the kiss.
"Wait" jungkook pulls away "are a okay with th-"
"Jungkook please just kiss me, no more talking" your lips meet again and this time jungkook takes full lead.
Your head lands softly on the pillow as he hovers over you, taking every move to move deeper into the kiss.
Carefully your hand moves to his neck and then into his long hair.
The kiss feels like a long awaited quest that has been completed but that has also began a new quest. It's like something that you've been waiting for and now that you have his lips against yours something in you feels completed. Satisfied.
You feel lost and at peace in this, his breathy kiss, his body between your thighs, his large left hand under your shirt searching for treasure and right hand stroking the back of your neck. His thump lifts your head up for a better angle to deepen the kiss.
You both can barely breath but jungkook couldn't care less, he wants to feel you, each and every part of you, he wants to find a part of you in this kiss. Jungkook knows you well, you were friends before this after all. But there just some things you can only find out whilst kissing.
Jungkook grunts when he feels you tug at his shirt.
So you're the eager kind, he smiles. He ,over away to take of his shirt and you both take the time to catch your breaths. You admire jungkook's toned torso and his inked arm, you've seen him shirtless before but seeing him under this light feels different, it feels hot.
"your turn" he says and watches your boobs spills out as you take off your pajama top.
"Fuck. You're so beautiful " your stomach clenches at his words.
He doesn't waste anytime and has his lips around your nipple. You moan at the wetness of his tongue.
While his other hand massage you , he uses the other to move into you panties.
Your breath hitches at the cold sensation of his fingers.
Your hips grind in rhythm with jungkook's fingers. You can barely keep your mind or body straight as the sensations travel through your body, your back arches as you gasp in air.
"You're so pretty baby" he whispers and watches you squirm. "So fucking pretty" he follows your lips until he captures them and has you gasp into his mouth. You take in eachother's breaths. You can feel yourself melting against jungkook's fingers.
He adds pressure and you whimper.
"Jungkook " you whine out and he already knows "fuck I'm going to..." you trial your sentence off with a moan.
You're almost close when you suddenly lose the sensation.
"What the heck " You're about to cuss him out when he speaks.
" I want you around me first " he leaves a peck on your lips.
Soon the sensation is back as he bucks his hips back and forth.
You can feel yourself getting pushed over the edge with each stroke.
"Please jungkook " you whine and he knows what you're pleading for.
"I got you baby" he whispers by your ear.
Soon you can feel the strong intense pleasure wash over you, you call out jungkook's name at your end.
Soon he follows after you in his release.
Jungkook peppers kisses down your neck, not ready to move away from you. You keep your hands rubbing his back.
"Can you be my girlfriend. Like for real this time" he asks against your neck.
" I'd prefer if you asked me when we're not from just having sex" you chuckle and he hums out agreeing.
"Then I'll take you on a date, and swoon you over with my charm."
You laugh at his cockiness.
"What about your parents?" You ask.
Jungkook shoots his head up from you, which takes you by surprise.
"My parents? Do you think they heard us?"
Your jaw drops to the floor.
" We were pretty loud they must've heard us"
"Jungkook oh my gosh, this is so embarrassing." You cover you face "how am I going going face them tomorrow "
Jungkook watches you blush embarrassed and chuckles.
"Atleast we dont have to lie anymore"
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Who do you think is the nastiest fandom.
For me stays take the cake. Y'all are freaksđ and I hope straykids find your fics.
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I love me the holy trinity angst/smut/fluff.
Great read.â¤
bottle up old love (jjk) (m)
summary: Jungkook may have broken up with you a year ago, but that's not going to stop him from coming to your rescue when he sees you being cornered by a creep.
pairing: Jungkook x Reader
rating: 18+ (MINORS DNI)
genre: exes to lovers, the holy trinity of angst/smut/fluff
word count: 4.6k (this was supposed to be a drabble đ)
prompt: JK + exes to lovers + "I'm sorry" + "I hate you" + "Don't fucking touch me" + "Leave" (for @btsborahaee <3)
warnings: language, a short harassment scene at the beginning (nothing too intense), explicit content including: unprotected sex (DO NOT), fingering, praise kink, biting, marking, spanking, cum eating (sort of?), big cawk soft dom jk, cowgirl (yeehaw), creampie, cockwarming, i think that's all but this also wasn't supposed to be too smutty so clearly idk what's going on lol
MASTERLIST
âDonât fucking touch me!â
You spit the words at the man in front of you, pushing him back as he tries to make another grab at your arm.
âWhy do you gotta be like that?â Seungcheol whines. âI thought we were having fun.â
âYou and I have very different ideas of fun.â You take a step backwards towards your building. Somewhere down the sidewalk, footsteps clatter against the pavement.
âCâmon.â He matches your movement, reaches for you again. âInvite me up. You enjoyed the last time, didnât you? I told you that was just a warm-up.â
The buildingâs brick wall is closer than you thought, and you bang your shoulder against it as you try to sidestep him. âLast time you didnât follow me to a bar I didnât even invite you to. How did you know where I was anyway?â
âLet me come up, and Iâll tell you,â he rumbles with a flicker of his eyebrows. He has you fully backed up against the wall now, and you press against the muscle of his chest to no avail.
âStop!â you shout before heâs ripped away from you so suddenly that youâre left blinking in confusion, huddled against the brick.
Thereâs a thudâthe sound of a fist hitting fleshâand a yelp before Seungcheol is reeling back with his hands clutching his nose. Blood seeps out from beneath his fingers, black even under the glow of the streetlamps.
âWhat the fuck?â he shrieks, and itâs only then that you take a proper look at your savior, looking every bit like heâs stepped straight out of the shadows with his dark hair, ebony clothes, and deep brown eyes.
And a lead weight drops into your stomach as you recognize him.
Jungkook sets himself between you and Seungcheol, looming over the latter as he continues to cover his face, whining. âIâm giving you ten seconds to get out of here.â
âWho the fuck are you?!â
âTen,â Jungkook growls, taking a step in Seungcheolâs direction. âNine.â
Seungcheol straightensâclearly a last-ditch attempt to look intimidating. Spitting blood onto the concrete, he peers at you over Jungkookâs shoulder. âThis isnât over, bitch.â
Then he spins and takes off running down the street.
Your hands grip your elbows. It may be a balmy summer night, but youâre shivering where you stand, unsure whether youâre more affected by Seungcheolâs behavior or the ghost whoâs unexpectedly in front of you.
âAre you okay?â he quietly asks, gaze fixed on your face. You stare at your shoes and give him a brisk nod as a response before turning away, punching in your building code, and walking through the front door.
He follows closely, slipping in behind you and trailing a few feet. You let him for a little while, guiding him through the modest lobby and up the first flight of stairs. But when youâre halfway up the second stairwellâalmost to your floorâyou pause on the landing, spinning his way.
âWhat do you think youâre doing?â
His eyes are gentle, sincere. âMaking sure you get in safely.â
âThereâs no need for that,â you assert. âIâm already in my building. Thereâs a keypad. Iâm good.â
âThe keypad does almost nothing. I followed you in no problem.â
âSo I should be worried about you then?â
He flushes, the tips of his ears going pink. âPlease just let me see you inside.â
You want to argue back, want to shout at him and make a scene, but you know itâs no use. Know that heâs stubborn as a bull and will get what he wants one way or another.
Itâs how he broke up with you after all.
You say nothing, only hustle up the last set of steps and down the dimly-lit hallway until youâre in front of your door, Jungkook tailing you the whole time with his hands in his pockets. You practically fumble your key in your haste to get it into the lock, letting out a satisfied sigh as the latch finally clicks open.
âThere. Iâm in,â you say as you step over the threshold, waving a dismissive hand at your unwanted companion. âLeave.â
But he hesitates just outside the doorway, teeth chewing at the corner of his lip. âWhat are you going to do if he comes back?â
âThatâs my problem, isnât it? I stopped being your concern when you dropped me out of nowhere a year ago.â
Your eyes sting at the memory, tears threatening to spill over. You donât want him here. Donât want to see him or have him anywhere in your vicinity. Not when it still hurts like this.
Though, truth be told, you donât expect to ever be fully over him.
âWeâre done, Jungkook,â you murmur. âYou made sure of that.â
And you close the door in his face.
The distress subsides quickly once heâs out of sightâlike he was never there to begin withâand you donât linger, dropping your bag on the sofa and heading straight for the bathroom. This is how youâve made it a year without him; it was weeks of crying before you realized that wallowing was doing you no good, only fueling your misery instead of providing any kind of catharsis. So youâve done your best to simply push past it and crush down the anguish that bubbles up every time you think of him. Put him in a tiny little box that you refuse to touch.
You shed your clothes and turn the shower to a temperature that youâll probably regret later. But for now, you savor the way the water sears your skin as you wash away the day with all of its unpleasant surprises. Taking your time, you scrub every inch of your body and carefully shampoo your hair (trying not to fall back into the fantasy thatâs plagued you on occasion where itâs his hands and not yours spreading the bubbles over your form).
The self-care continues as you step out of the shower and leisurely work through your skin care routine, even taking the time to blow dry your hair. By the time you exit the bathroom, the fog on the mirror has dissipated, and youâve once again successfully tamped down the memory of Jungkook and his hands and eyes and everything you ever felt for him.
Or so you think.
After popping into your bedroom to pull on some pajamas, you pad back into the living room for a glass of water, and your eyes are immediately drawn to the front door. Regret attempts to push its way into your consciousness against your better judgment. The man broke your heart, yes. But you do feel a little guilty slamming the door in his face after he just fought off a creep for you.
And speaking of Seungcheol, what if he does come back? Youâre pretty sure he saw you punch in the building code the night you brought him home with you, and given his behavior, you wouldnât be surprised if he filed it away in his head.
Anxiety winning out, you creep to the door and peer through the peephole. The hallway looks empty, drab beige walls taking up most of your field of view, but you jump as you spot a hulking shadow to the right. Your heartbeat races then slows, a closer look revealing hunched, unmoving shoulders wrapped in a familiar black t-shirt.
Jungkook swings his head to look at you as you open the door and glare down at him. His legs are pulled up, arms resting on his knees, and it might be endearing if not for the fact that he absolutely, positively should not be here.
âWhat are you doing?â you ask him for the second time tonight.
âHe might come back.â
âAnd youâre going to what? Fight him?â
He shrugs. âIf I have to.â
âYeah?â You raise an eyebrow, challenging. âYouâre going to sit out here all night?â
He shifts where he sits, wiggling his hips like heâs firmly planting his butt into his chosen spot. âYes.â
You roll your eyes at him but donât doubt that he would. Again, if there is anything you know this man to be, itâs stubborn. âYouâre going to scare the neighbors.â
âWho, Mrs. Kwon?â A tiny smile plays on his lips as he glances in the direction of your elderly neighborâs apartment. âI think sheâd be delighted to see me.â
If youâre being honest, she probably would be. Sheâs always adored Jungkook and praised him as the âkind, handsome young manâ who helped her put away groceries and fixed her leaky faucet one time. In the months following your breakup, sheâd asked about him once or twice, patting your arm reassuringly when you awkwardly told her she wouldnât be seeing him anymore.
âDonât worry, dear,â she said. âHeâll come around.â
Well sheâs turned out to be right in that heâs certainly back here again, still watching you from his spot on the floor. And you donât know whether itâs his big doe eyes or the fact that he really would guard your apartment all night if you let him or the genuine fear that one of the other neighbors will make a fuss at his presence, but you feel yourself softening.
Turning abruptly, you stride into the kitchen for your glass of water, walking out of sight of the door, which is still wide open.
âYou coming?â you call, pulling two glasses down from the cupboard.
Thereâs a rustle as Jungkook stands and shuffles into your apartment, closing the door behind him with a soft thud. For someone who was so determined to defend you tonight, he seems uncertain now that heâs actually inside. His hands are once again stuffed in his pockets, and his eyes flicker around like he hasnât been here a thousand times. Hasnât cooked you breakfast in this kitchen in nothing but his boxers. Hasnât watched The Notebook with you on this TV and held you as you both cried.
Hasnât made love to you on the couch.
You slide a water his way, and he murmurs his thanks, sipping at it lightly. Itâs strangeâseeing him here againâand you canât help but think about the last time he stood in this room. Itâd been a maelstrom of accusations and hurt feelings that culminated in him storming out, the slam of the door echoing in your ears.
âYou never cleaned that?â He gestures at the rug that covers most of the sitting area in your living room, eyes on the dark purple stain roughly the size of your hand.
You gulp down your water and try not to follow his line of sight. Try not to remember how youâd knocked over a glass of wine in your haste to get his clothes off during another movie night less than a month before your breakup.
âI kind of forgot about it,â you say. âStopped noticing it after a while.âÂ
Itâs a lie. There was never a time when you didnât notice it, the memory of him haunting you every time you sit down on the couch and stare at the garish stain. And still, you havenât been able to bring yourself to try and erase it.
Silence worms its way between you again. With only the soft light from the tabletop lamp glowing next to the couch, Jungkookâs face is cloaked in shadow. And so you barely see his lips move when he speaks. Barely hear it with how quietly his whisper slips into the room.
âIâm sorry.â
Your glass almost drops from your fingers, droplets splashing across your knuckles as you catch it at the last moment and steady it on the countertop. Turning to face him, you find his gaze already on you, melancholy tinting his expression.
âWhat?â
He tongues his lip ring, shoulders dropping a fraction. âFor how things ended. Iâm sorry.â
You can see the sincerity in his posture, can see the sadness in his form. And yet, his words only fill you with a hot anger that bubbles out of you before you can swallow it down.
âI donât know why you would be,â you challenge, âbeing that you didnât even respect me enough to give me a proper reason.â
Jungkook huffs at that; you think heâs resisting the urge to roll his eyes. âDid it really matter?â
âYes.â
He gnaws at his lip again, no longer looking at you, and his lack of an answer only riles you up further.
âWas there someone else?â you demand, causing him to flinch. It was the same thing you asked him when he told you he thought you should break up, standing in almost this exact same spot.
âNo,â he murmurs after a moment. âThere wasnât anyone else.â He pushes a hand through his dark, silky hair. âThere hasnât been anyone else since either.â
This surprises you. Jungkook is, in your eyes, the handsomest man you have ever come face-to-face with, but even from an objective standpoint, he is exceedingly attractive. There is no doubt in your mind that he would easily be able to land a woman if he so desired.
âSo then why?â
He sets his jaw, his Adamâs apple bobbing as he swallows and fixes his stare out the window. And itâs this final refusal, this steadfast dedication to not explaining himself, that finally has tears tracking down your cheeks.
The sight of you crying has his attention snapping back your way, hands reaching out as if to hold you.
âDonât touch me,â you gasp, recoiling until youâre out of reach. âIâŚI hate you.â
It almost seems as if your voice lands physically, and Jungkook staggers back like youâve slapped him, remorse immediately wiggling its way between your ribs. You know you donât mean the words even as they fall from your mouth, but it feels pointless to take them back now, the sentiment already thrown out there and hovering in the hollow space between you.
Jungkook muddles towards the couchâmore of a defeated slump dragging his steps than angerâand you think heâs going to sit down before he whirls back towards you at the last second.
âThe gala,â he mutters. âThatâs when I decided.â
You know which one heâs talking about. Hosted by your medical school to celebrate the end of the academic year, it had been a night of food, dancing, and socializing. You had, of course, brought him as your date and introduced him to your friends and classmates, excited to finally allow him to put faces to names. As you comb through your memories of the night, you canât pinpoint any warning signs, only remembering the way heâd smiled at you throughout. The way heâd pulled you close and danced you around the room.
âI donâtâŚI donât understand.â
He rakes his fingers through his hair again, tossing strands of night over his forehead. A sad chuckle looses itself into the thick air of the room, and the final dregs of his resolve flicker away. âI realized that I didnât deserve to stand next to you. That you could do much better than me.â
Whatever you thought his reason had beenâwhatever theories or thoughts had kept you up night after night for the past yearâthis is not even close to what you expected. And while you always thought finally receiving an answer would be freeing, would offer you some semblance of understanding, youâre surprised at the rage that boils in the pit of your stomach, bile rising in your throat.
âAre you fucking serious right now?â you growl, taking an angered step towards him. âYou were feeling insecure, and you made the decision to break up with me without even thinking to, I donât know, discuss it with me first?â
His hand goes to the back of his neck now, embarrassment showing its face as he peers at you from under his lashes. âI was stupidââ
âNo, shit.â
âBut can you blame me?â he presses. âThere we were: you, about to be this incredible doctor with all of your doctor friendsâŚâ His voice falters, sorrow lacing his tone. âAnd Iâm just a tattoo artist.â
The defeatist way he says it helps to dampen your ire some, even if a heap of frustration remainsâthe sad shape of his doe eyes softening your edges.
âJust a tattoo artist,â you repeat. âJungkook, I have always been so, so proud of you. I was never anything but proud to have you as my partner. You mustâve known that.â
His teeth worry his lip, and though he nods, he doesnât seem fully convinced.
So you continue on, closing the distance between you a fraction more. âYou started your own business from nothing. And I saw how hard you worked: to get the building, to hire other artists, train your apprentices.â You shake your headâhalf in irritation, half in awe. âAnd look at you now! Youâre thriving. The last I heard, if you want an appointment at Golden Tattoo, you need to book months in advance.â
His eyes are alight now, some hidden emotion glimmering under the surface, but he stays quiet as he soaks in your words.
âSo how can you possibly act like you werenât enough?â you push. âYou are amazing, Jungkook. And I never gave a shit about any job comparisons people may have made.â One more step, and suddenly youâre almost chest-to-chest. As always, youâre unable to resist the pull of his gravity. Yanked right back into his orbit. âI only wanted you. Iâve only ever wanted yââ
He cuts you off with his mouth, strong hands snagging your hips to pull you against him, and your own fingers reflexively tangle in his black hoodie as your subconscious gives itself over to him. Like itâs been waiting for this.
âIâm not. Not thriving,â he mumbles against your lips. âNot without you. Been miserable without you.â
And in spite of your anger, in spite of the fact that you were ready to kick him out a mere hour ago, you find yourself kissing him back, relishing the slick glide of his tongue as he licks into your mouth.
You startle as the backs of your knees suddenly bump against the couch, and then Jungkook is spinning as he settles onto the plush seat, pulling you along to straddle him. He sucks at your neck until you can feel the blood blooming under your skin, painting you like the pretty ink on his arm.
Speaking of.
The fabric of his hoodie whispers as you pull it up and over his back and head, tossing it over his shoulder and into a corner. His arms now bare to you, you trace over his tattoos with your eyes and fingers until you find the one youâd picked out for him; the lovely orange of the flower petals seem to glow even in the dim light of the room.
âBeautiful,â you whisper.
âJust like you.â
You look at him then, the twinkle of tiny galaxies in his eyes betraying his hope. And before you can go any further, you need confirmation.
âYou left.â
âI did.â Fingertips press lightly against your waist like heâs afraid you might be the one to disappear now. âIâm sorry.â
âJungkook, ifâŚâ You lick your lips. Can almost taste his regret. âIf we do this and you leave againââ
âIf we do this, I'm not going anywhere,â he insists, tugging your hips down to grind against him and ghosting a kiss at your jaw. âJust wanna be here with you. Just want you.â
And itâs all you need to hear.
You shed the cotton shirt you had thrown on after your shower and move to yank his own off, tossing it in the same corner as his hoodie. The muscles of his pecs and abs shift under your hands, burning hot where your fingers trace the contours of his torso.Â
âGod, I missed this,â he groans as he buries his face between your breasts, nipping at the skin there before laving the spot with his tongue.
Youâd agreeâecho the sentiment that your body has been aching for thisâif not for the fact that youâre too busy trying to get the two of you naked, thumbs hooking into the waistband of your shorts.
But a tattooed hand covers yours, eases it away to take its place. âNo,â he rumbles. âLet me.â
Wide palms and long fingers span your hips and thighs, grasping as much skin as possible even as he drags your shorts and panties down your legs and helps to steady you as you kick them off. They join the tangle of his own clothes
âFucking gorgeous,â he growls at the sight of you finally naked in front of him. And with such speed that it almost seems like itâs involuntary, an impulse outside of his control, heâs immediately stroking at the apex of your thighs.
âBaby, this wet for me already?â A breathy sigh passes from his mouth to yours, almost laughing at the ease with which he glides through your folds. âHell, I could justââ
A finger slips in and you gasp, Jungkook smiling wickedly at you as he quickly adds a second and curls them against your walls. You force your eyes closed as they roll back in your head, and you keel forward, babbling incoherently against the line of his collarbone.
âUse your words, love; you can do it.â He says it as if his fingers arenât currently buried in you down to the knuckle. As if heâs not making you see stars behind your eyelids right now.
You choke down a breath, desperate for the oxygen. âInsane,â you pant. âI said youâre fucking insane.â
âOnly for you,â he says before sliding his digits out of you and dipping them into his mouth. He moans at the taste, and even with his lips closed tightly, you can see the way heâs working his tongue around each finger, unwilling to waste a single drop of your essence.
Like you said. Insane.
He gives you a moment to catch your breath until youâre the one whoâs getting impatient, hastily undoing his belt and tearing it from his pants with a hiss. But as you shift off of him so he can slither out of his pants and boxersâhis length springing free to slap against his smooth stomachâyouâre hit with an untimely realization.
âJungkook, I donât have condoms.â
He freezes, the color draining from his face (though admittedly, that may be because all of his blood has clearly gone south). The two of you stare at each other for a long second before he suddenly leans over, rummaging back through his pants pockets. He pulls out his wallet, rifles through it, then tosses it across the room in frustration, head tilting back against the couch as he groans at the ceiling.
âFuck, me neither.â
You chew at your lip, a loaded quiet settling over the room as Jungkook wipes a hand over his face.
âIâm still on birth control,â you whisper, and Jungkook whips his head around, eyes wide and questioning like heâs not sure he heard you right. But you donât repeat yourself, only hold his stare until heâs tentatively reaching out to graze his fingertips along your thigh.
âI told you. Thereâs been no one else.â His expression is earnest, eager. You trust that heâs telling the truth, and yet you also know that if you refused him, if you said you werenât comfortable, he wouldnât push.
So you swing a leg back over his lap, drag your wet folds against his cock. He moans, gripping your thighs hard, but he leans in to bite at your lower lip with a growl before pulling back to search your face.
âYou?â
It hurts that he even feels the need to ask. Because how could you even want someone else? Who could possibly measure up?
You brush a reassuring, barely-there kiss against his already swollen lips. âNo one else for me either.â
This seems to please him, but you still see hesitation behind his eyes as he asks, âWhat about the guy downstairs?â
A drunken mistake was what that was. All sloppy lips and fumbling hands that had left you feeling more empty than anything, and which resulted in you sending Cheol away before he had even gotten a peek at your bedroom.
âWe made out once,â you admit, hating that youâre even having to think about another man when Jungkook is here in front of you. âBut nothing else happened.â
âGood,â he grunts, but his fingers dig into your backside like heâs trying to reclaim you. And just a fraction of a second later, heâs devilishly tonguing his lip ring as he winds his palm back to bring it down harshly against the meat of your ass, the smack echoing between the walls almost endlessly.
âRide me, baby.â
Youâre quick to line him upâdesperate, at this point, to have him inside of youâand begin to ease yourself down slowly, trying to give your body the space and time to adjust to the burning stretch of his girth. Heâs always filled you to your absolute limit, tested the furthest boundaries of how much your body can take with his size.
âYesss,â he hisses, nipping at your neck once again. âYouâre doing great, love. Always take me so fucking well.â
You gasp as he bottoms out, struggling to catch your breath with the relentless push of him. If you were a betting woman, youâd put money on your intestines being somewhere in the area of your throat right now.
He wraps his inked arm around your waist, continuing to whisper his praises against the shell of your ear as he starts to guide your body up and down. Intoxicated by the smooth slide of his length, you soon find your pace, and your shared moans fill the roomâthe whole city probably able to hear you right now.
You move that way until the pressure building becomes too much and your legs start to tremble, quivering against Jungkookâs own muscled thighs.
âItâs okay; Iâve got you.â He bands his arms around you and presses you to his chest, holding you in place so he can thrust upwards.
Hard.
Youâre practically screaming now, burying your teeth into his shoulder so as to muffle your sounds and not scare the neighbors. Itâs all you can do to hold on for dear life as he rapidly pistons his cock inside of you, the slap of your hips like a metronome.
It builds and builds until it breaks and youâre falling apart in his arms, the spasms of your inner walls pulling him over the edge with you as he empties his seed deep inside.
The silence that follows in unlike the others you previously shared this eveningâtension traded for serenity as you sit on the couch holding each other, you still contentedly stuffed full of him. He traces the ridges of your spine in a soothing pattern that has your eyelids drooping, your cheek resting against the warm skin of his neck.
âI missed this,â you whisper once your brain has finally remembered how to construct human speech.
âI missed you.â
You pull back so you can rest your forehead against his and gently run a finger over the lines of his face. âWhere do we go from here?â
He hums. Tucks a stray hair behind your ear. âTake it day by day?â he suggests. âWe donât need to rush into anything if you donât want to.â
âMm, that does seem like a problem for tomorrow.â
A dark eyebrow quirks, teasing. âAnd what about right now?â
âNow?â you ask. âDo you remember the way to the bedroom? OrâŚâ You shift your hips, already feeling him twitching inside of you.
âOr.â He jolts forward to capture your mouth in a hot kiss, and you smile into it, whole again. âOr sounds good.â
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