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500, 1000, 2000 WORD CHALLENGE
♡500, 1000, 2000 words of smut.
♡500, 1000, 2000 words of angst.
♡500, 1000, 2000 words of fluff.
This is a fun little challenge I created for myself where I post (not at any specific time) drabbles that contain exactly, 500, 1000 or 2000 words of smut, fluff or angst.
I'll be writing for skz and bts as usual. Whichever member.
If you wanna request a prompt for this challenge, just send in an ask of the prompt,
Genre (whether it's smut, fluff or angst).
And the hashtag [#5-1-2wordchallenge]
~Format~
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Rules of the challenge
No part twos, threes or fours. One part only.
Exactly either, 500, 1000, 2000 words. No extension.
You can request but I choose the word limit.
More info to be added when thought of.
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MA'AM
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Neighbour au. age gap au (reader is older than jk). kissing, touching, oral (female receiving), fingering, jk calls reader ''ma'am''. reader is kinda lonely, bored and untouched. p in v, no protection (be wise and condomize guys).
this is all just fiction, don't take it too seriously.
plus im stil learing to write smut, so go easy on me.
helpful and positve feedback is appreciated.
Sorry for any typos.
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‘’oh yn,’’ you hear a familiar boy-ish voice speak.
And when you turn, your eyes are met with jungkook.
You know him cause he’s your neighbour, but you rarely speak seeing that you have nothing in common but he’s always kind and sweet whenever you bump into each other.
Like right now.
‘’jungkook’’ you say surprised to see him. ‘’how are you?’’ you give him back a smile.
You haven’t seen him in a while, he must be busy with college (you assume) or maybe he’s busy with some girlfriend. Guys his age are usually swarmed with girls. Especially seeing how attractive he is. The college girls must be having fun with him.
You admire his hair that seems to have gotten longer. You can’t help but notice how good he looks with it.
‘’i’m good, hope you’re doing well..’’ he pauses in his speech ‘’haven’t heard from you in a while. I almost thought you moved out’’
You chuckle at his assumption.
You shake your head lightly as you chuckle ‘’nope. Just busy with work’’
‘’i dont think i’d ever move out honestly’’ seeing as this apartment has a fair price for rent.
He chuckles.
‘’im glad thought i scared you away’’ he says worriedly.
‘’you’d never scare me away’’ you mumble out suddenly feeling nervous.
‘’with all those noise complaints you handed to me?’’ He says with a warm joking tone.
You can’t deny that a lot of noise comes from jungkook’s apartment, that you had to report him. You kinda feel childish for doing it, he’s a college boy anyways. All they know is noise.
‘’but i do get it. I make a lot of noise’’ he uses his pointer and middle finger to rub his lower lip, you get the chance to admire his tattooed finger and pierced lip.
You feel yourself swallow the lump in your throat and bite your lip. You don’t know why you always feel like this when talking to jungkook, maybe it’s his hovering figure, intimidating voice or piercing brown eyes. Even though his eyes give off a soft innocent look you can’t help but observe the sensuality in them.
‘’um yeah’’ you don’t know what else to say. Your eyes can barely look at jungkook while his eyes can’t stop looking at you. There’s no way a college boy can make you feel this nervous. You thought you had outgrown it.
Or maybe it’s the aloneness since your last boyfriend. It’s been quite depressive but you try and not let it eat you up.
But it’s hard when you and jungkook’s walls are as thin as paper. and can hear everything that goes on. Especially when he has a girl over.
You don’t mean to listen to what happens, but what else can you do when you’re laying in bed, bored and lonely. It seems sad you end up finding your hand in-between your thighs as you hear how jungkook pleasures.
With all the groans and name moaning you have come to the conclusion that jungkook must be a great fuck. But it’s not like you’ll ever know. Do you even want to?
You can never fuck someone younger than you right? You’ve always dated older men or at least someone the same age as you. You’ve never been with a younger guy before.
But jungkook seems like he could definitely go for an older woman.
Wait.
Does jungkook want you. He does seem to give off that vibe but maybe you’re in over your head. Jungkook wouldn’t want you there are so many better options for him. So many better girls for him. Not you.
‘’so do you like those?’’ he askes pointing to the basket you have filled with ramen noodles cups.
You chuckle embarrassed.
‘’ yeah i do but, i mainly buy them cause i don’t have time to cook’’
He nods.
‘’maybe i can come cook for you one day’’ you laugh but he’s actually serious.
‘’oh, i wouldn’t mind but i assume you’re busy with school’’ you swing the basket lightly and unconsciously.
‘’i can find time’’ he says a little rushed out.
‘’then i wouldn’t mind’’ you smile.
‘’you going home?’’ he asks.
You nod.
‘’i guess i can give you a ride home, if that’s alright with you’’
You wouldn’t mind at all.
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The ride back home was quiet. It still baffles you to how jungkook has a car.
When you were in college you could barely find money to buy food, let alone a car.
And even with a job you can barely find money to buy or rent a car.
‘’thanks for the ride, it was nice meeting you today jungkook’’
The way you smile and say his name makes a hot flash rush through him.
If only you knew how many times his thought of you calling out his name. Sometimes he wishes it was you in his bed, toes curling and back arching.
If he got the chance, he’d show you how you deserve everything.
You don’t deserve to get yourself off and barely get off.
Did he ever say that the walls are so thin that he can hear you too.
He’s heard your frustrated moans and grunts. And all the times you cursed cause of how hard it was to get your high, sometimes his heard you cry and it breaks his heart.
He wishes he could get a chance to please you. He’s never wanted to please someone so bad.
He’s never been so desperate to get on his knees and run you dry of all your juices. To feel you claw at his back as you take him so well.
But he’s also never thought of being with an older woman.
Jungkook knows you’re older than him and he doesn’t mind. Actually he makes him want you more.
He wants you like air and if he doesn’t get you now he feels like he would stop breathing.
So if he doesn’t take this opportunity now he might never have the chance to.
‘’do you wanna, come eat ramen with me?’’
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You don’t know how it happened. But he asked you to come over to his, you didn’t see a problem with it so you said yes.
But you don’t know how you went from laughing over some movie to grinding on his lap as your lips intertwine hungrily.
Fuck. You never thought you’d be doing this with your neighbour and fuck you never thought it would feel this good.
Your hands roam his firm chest, and your thoughts are proved right, he does like the gym. Though you could’ve known that without clawing at his chest.
These younger guys are always in the gym, like their life depends on it.
Your gasps and moans mix. You don’t know how innocent sounds of laughter turned into hot whimpers of need.
Maybe it was the stares that seemed to linger for longer than they should have.
Jungkook takes a moment to take in your face but then his lips are soon on yours again as eager as ever, and you accept them.
He kisses you with eagerness and desperation. Desperation to touch and feel you in every way.
You moan into his mouth as you feel the wetness grow between your legs. You hate how a college student, has you this hot and soaking wet.
You’re busy devouring each other’s lips but you don’t fail to recognize the tent forming and touching your centre.
Jungkook’s hands rummage over your back and over your hips and to your ass, he sqeezes your ass lightly which causes you to jumb lightly.
‘’you okay’’ he asks
‘’yeah just never had anyone squeeze my ass like that’’
That boy-ish smile of his is far gone, now a manly sexy grin paints his face. A grin like a wolf looking at a lamb as it’s next meal.
‘’you’ve never had someone touch you like that’’
You shake your head. You hate how jungkook makes you feel like a highschooler losing their virginity.
‘’who have you been fucking that doesn’t want to touch this ass’’ he squeezes your ass again, and you’re embarrassed when you release a moan at that action.
‘’i don’t know’’ your words come out more whiny than you’d like.
He moves to your neck and you move it to accustom him into the space. He places some wet and gentle kisses.
‘’i’m not like them though. I wanna touch every part of you. Wanna taste every part of you and feel you on me.’’ He kisses your neck again and the smacking sound of his lips meeting your skin causes you clench. ‘’i wanna treat you right, i wanna make you feel good’’
You don’t know how true his words are or if you can even take them seriously. Maybe it’s the lust talking. He’s a young man, he wouldn’t want to waste his days with you.
‘’don’t you have other, younger girls. You wanna make feel good.’’ You just had to ask.
The chuckles he releases causes a rush of blood to your groin.
‘’all i think about when i fuck them is you’’ he kisses you again.
You don’t want to believe him but your heart can’t help but flutter. You don’t want to get hurt again but something tells you jungkook is far from hurting you. But you can’t trust that feeling, what if that feeling is just how good it feels to be on him.
He has a great way with words and it would work on you every time, cause you haven’t grown out the naivety of your youth for some reason.
Jungkook knows when and how to say the right words which makes you scared. Which makes him dangerous. All these young boys are to slick with their words.
‘’yn, don’t think’’ he whispers against your lips. He must have noticed your distance all of a sudden.
‘’don’t think of anything but this’’ he pecks your lips.
‘’i’ll try’’ you coo.
‘’i’ll make you’’
his lips are back on yours desperately. And the sound of your lips smacking and you whimpers fills the room again.
His lips go back to licking and sucking that one spot on your neck. His mouth on your neck and hands on your hips helping you grind against his clothed crotch makes you gasp for air.
You’ve never had anyone take their time with you like this, they’re usually quick to just get it in. But not jungkook, he takes his time enjoying and tasting every part of you. Why wouldn’t he when he’s been thinking about this moment and taking cold showers to stop his natural desire for you.
Being with jungkook tells you how much you’ve been missing and how much you need to learn. It’s like going back to your college days.
‘’fuck jungkook’’ you moan when he nibbles at your neck. Your hands move from his chest to his neck then to his long hair.
You unintentionally pull at his hair and you love how he groans when you do so.
The need and ache between your legs grows strong as you grind harder on his lap. Jungkook watches how you move against him trying to find your high. He promises to give it to you but he needs to feel more of you before he does so.
You gasp when he plops you on your back onto his soft couch.
‘’jungkook...’’ you call out and he stops his action to attend to your need.
‘’yes’’ he sounds so submissive as he says so.
‘’i want you’’ your hips move up to feel some friction. He chuckles at the action.
‘’i want you too’’ he smiles as he pecks you on your forehead.
‘’no. Like i want you. Actually i fucking need you’’ you whine out. You’re probably gonna be so embarrassed later but right now you need him.
Your hand reaches for his belt but his hands stop you. You feel embarrassed and confused, you know he’s hard. You can see his fully grown bulge. But why does he want to take so much time.
‘’i wanna taste you first’’ he whispers by your ear.
Fuck. You’ve never had anyone want to eat you out. It’s been a while since anyone went down on you.
‘’jungkoo-‘’ you want to protest.
‘’please yn’’ he begs. ‘’i need it’’ his lips are against yours as he says in a whisper. His lips are on yours for a second before he leaves you wanting to taste his lips more.
You watch his body move down and you can feel your wetness drip down.
‘’fuck...’’ you hear him groan and grow a little self conscious.
‘’what?’’ you lift yourself up a bit.
‘’it’s just that you’re so fucking gorgeous’’ you can’t help but blush and feel a little weird. You’ve never had anyone ogle at you pussy like that.
‘’jungkook..’’ you call out in a whine. You can feel his breath breeze over you centre and it makes the need grow stronger.
‘’i’m sorry, im staring’’ he says and before you can tell him anything his lips are on you, hungrily.
You release a sharp moan as his lips make out with yours.
He licks a long strip of you pouring juices, your taste sinking into his tastebuds.
‘’so fucking good,’’ he groans. ‘’and so fucking wet’’ you feel his finger run through your folds.
‘’jungkook please. Fuck...’’ you don’t even know what you’re pleading for but you are.
Jungkook adheres to you unspoken cries, as he dives back into kissing you and massaging your clit.
Your hand finds it’s way to his hair and pulls. The groan he releases sends electricity through you.
You’ve never felt like this, nobody has ever put this much effort into touching you.
And jungkook has never put this much effort into eating pussy, but for you he will and he is.
He adds his fingers into you as he pumps into you.
‘’fuck you need to be fucked right’’ he says at your tightness. You can barely hear what he’s saying over at how hard he’s slurping.
With the way his digits work into you and his tongue sucks on your clit, you can feel that feeling you’ve been chasing.
‘’fuck jungkook, im going to-‘’ jungkook smiles at how you can barely finish your sentence but he knows.
The feeling grows closer and your heart races in excitement.
But then all of the sudden the feeling is gone and you’re about to curse out jungkook who’s now moving up.
‘’what the fuck, i was going to-‘’ you whine angrily.
‘’i want you to come over my cock’’
You don’t argue, he’s the one in control after all.
‘’ then please fuck me’’ all you can do is plead. It’s so embarrassing pleading for him to fuck you. You wonder if girls his age are this desperate too.
‘’yes ma’am’’ he says as he takes off his shirt, for some reason him calling you ma’am makes you more aroused.
‘’don’t call me ma’am’’ you say blushing but jungkook knows, you’re bullshitting.
‘’yes ma’am’’ he says with a cheeky grin knowing that it makes you clench around nothing.
You watch him unbuckle his belt and you’ve never seen anything this attractive.
As you watch him you anticipate how his going to feel and how you’ll wrap around him. That’s all jungkook can think about too as he strokes himself slightly, though he’s been hard since he saw you in the grocery store.
You feel his tip slide through your wet folds and you can’t help but suck in a breath. Jungkook can’t help but whimper at how wet and good you feel already.
You clench desperate to feel something inside you. You wonder if it will hurt, it’s been a while for you anyways. And he looks like he could stretch you out good. But you’re too needy to worry about that.
You gasp when you feel him move into you, slow and teasingly. His tip has you wondering if you’ll be able to take all of him.
‘’fuck you’re so good for me’’ he says as he moves in deeper. ‘’i wish i could feel you everyday’’
You can.
You want to say, but don’t wanna make promises. You don’t know if this will ever happen again.
‘’do you wanna be good for me like this everyday, yn’’ he says kissing along your jaw as he settles into you.
He doesn’t move waiting for your answer.
You hum but it’s not enough for him.
‘’yes, i want you everyday’’ you end up speaking more of your mind than you planned to.
Jungkook smiles as he slowly begins to move in and out.
‘’good. You can have me everyday’’
With the ways he rocks into you, slowly increasing speed, you understand the moans of those girls you heard him fucking.
His name falls from your mouth as he continues. Jungkook has never enjoyed being buried in heat like this. And he’s never wanted to stay in forever like he does right now.
‘’jungkook..’’ with the way your nails dig into his arm and you flutter around he knows you’re close.
But so is he. Your high is his target as he continues to stroke.
Jungkook twitches inside of you as you both reach your highs.
He lays on top of you as you breath heavily. He tries to keep his weight from crushing you.
‘’next time i wanna be on top’’ you say with the energy you’ve got left.
‘’deal. Even though i like being on top, i’ll let you ride me’’ you almost feel that feeling comeback.
You stroke his hair as you watch that boy-ish smile return on his face.
It’s like he’s changed and wasn’t the person balls deep into you seconds ago.
‘’i like this’’ you say comfortable.
‘’i like you’’ Jungkook coos into your neck.
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Jimin. Jimin. Jimin *shakes head*
Please me too🙋‍♀️ wanna be one of your girls tonight.😩
I'd be fuming if I was bora though 😤 but it's jimin😏
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Synopsis: The one where you and your bestfriends father are a little closer than it seems.
Warnings: age gap, oral (f receiving), manipulation, unprotected sex, mention of masturbation.
Pairing: dilf!jimin x fem!reader
A/n: I fairly enjoyed writing this.. maybe part 2 maybe not idk yet. (Also the reader is well over 18, dw.)
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"Wanna stay the night tonight?" bora blurts the question out as soon as your step out of the bathroom, a towel wrapped tightly around you as the cold air of your bedroom hits your freshly washed body.
You walk over to your closet, skimming over the wide variety of clothing. It always took you a while to choose, even when you weren't going anywhere- but, the fact she just mentioned a sleepover at her place made you put in some extra thought.
"Sure, why so spontaneous?" you question, pulling out the first white outfit you set your eyes on. It was a little flashy, but it was also perfect. You looked beautiful in it, and you knew it.
Bora stands up, starting to throw on a shirt and clean all of her stuff up and place it back into her bag. "My dads grilling tonight and he said i could bring a friend if i wanted." she says it as if it's nothing, but to you- it's everything.
You had to turn around just to hide your smile at the thought of seeing him. You and her father were.. close to say the least.
It started with crossing paths when you visited boras house... then he'd invite you over to hang out with him and bora on his own.. and then he was inviting you even when bora wasn't around.
Over the months it just.. developed into- friends with benefits?
Except you weren't really friends, because he was years older than you. Regardless, you loved him anyway- and he loved you like no other stupid ex boyfriend had before.
"Y/n." boras voice snatches you out of your jumbled thoughts, and your eyes flash toward her- her bags on her arm now, and she's waiting for you to reply.
Andddd finish getting dressed..
"Yeah yeah, i'll be there."
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You hop out of your car with a frustrated groan, stretching your back muscles as you walk up to boras front door. You arrived a little early though the traffic on the way to get there was hurrendous, but the fact you got to see mr. park tonight made all the trouble worth it.
You'd done your hair perfectly, put on a pretty outfit, slipped on some heels, all for him. Chances were high that bora would ask you why you were so dressed up, but you could make up an excuse for that.
When the door swings open, your met with a familiar face. The face that ends up above you on more occasions than one.
"Mr. park, hi." you say, putting on your little cute formal act as always.
You start to walk past him and into the house, not bothering to say much else- you never really do. Usually, he doesn't ever stop you.
But today, he does. He raises his hand to your chest, preventing you from walking inside as he gives you a unreadable expression.
"Y/n" he says in a low whisper, voice timid as ever. Your obviously confused, until see it.
Short woman, short nails, mid 30's, ginger hair.
Your smile drops when you take in her disheveled state, her hair was a bit messy, and her makeup was sorta smudged. What a fucking welcome.
She gives you a smile, but you don't return it- simply pushing past the two of them and rushing up to bora's room. When you open her door, she's no where to be found.
Your sort of greatful, because your incoming tears were clouding your vision.
When the tears begin rushing down your face, you plop down on your friends bed- sinking your face into your hands just to sob.
It really shouldn't hurt this much. After all, he was grown and you weren't.. dating. You were just a girl who happened to befriend his daughter. Clearly it's all he saw you as.
Your mind floods with the memories of past hangouts, when bora wasn't around and he would tell you that you were the only one he wanted.
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Jimins face is buried between your thick thighs, gripping them as he repeatedly licks over your wet slit. He takes your clit into his mouth, sucking on it for a good minute before releasing it.
His hand reaches up to grab your breasts every so often, teasing your nipple to finally draw out a orgasm from you. Your legs shake around his head, squeezing him in so he can't move until you finally relax your muscles.
He look straight into your eyes when he sits up, crawling over your body and grinding his clothed crotch right into your bare cunt.
"Wait.." you utter, grabbing his shoulder to stop him as you prop yourself up on your elbows to get a better look at him.
"What about bora..?" you ask. You couldn't deny that now that he was finished, you felt like such a shitty friend for doing something so intimate with her father.
She was your bestfriend for fucks sake, what were you thinking?
Jimin grabs your face, gripping your chin as he licks your lips. "Do you want me y/n?" you look to the side at the question, but he only turns your face back to meet his- raising his eyebrows.
You nod. You did want him.
"Then that's all that matters baby."
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Footsteps coming up the staircase pulls you out of the thought. You wipe your tears as fast as you can, thinking that it's bora.
Of course you were upset, but no way you'd ruin a sleepover between the two of you because you were sad over her own father.
When the door opens, your shoulders slump when you realize it's just jimin. He examines your face and body language, closing the door behind him when he steps inside.
"Y/n-" he starts, but you cut him off. "Where's bora?"
He sighs, rubbing the bridge of his nose at your angered tone. "She won't be back for a while, she had to pick up the rest of your friends."
Ugh. Today of all days. You hoped that she'd come home soon, this was way to awkward.
Jimin moves closer to you, having the courage to even take a seat next to you on the bed. He's hunched over a bit, arms on his thighs as he tries to get a better look at your face. He wished you'd stop avoiding his gaze.
"Why the fuck are you here? You have a new girl now so you don't need me." the words hit him like a truck, he didn't want you mad at him.
He was fucking her, but he didn't think you had a right to be angry. After all he was an adult and in his eyes, he should be able to do as he pleased. Still with that being said- he'd do whatever he could to keep you around. Or to keep you in his bed rather.
"Look baby- It wasn't what it seemed." he mutters, hand grabbing at your thigh and shaking it a little to try and coax you to look at him.
You do, meeting his dreadful eyes with your teary ones.
"She's..She's a friend. We didn't fuck, she was just having a hard time and she'd been crying.. so i comforted her."
Lies..Lies..Lies
You don't know that though. You were so gullible that as soon as the words left his mouth a weight lifted off your chest.
You believed him, of course you did.
Your hands immediately go up around his neck, letting your tears fall when he returns the hug. "I'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry." you apologize repeatedly, feeling stupid that you judged him so easily.
You were so naive.
He shakes his head, shushing you and whispering that he forgives you into your ear. In reality, he was the one who wronged you- and honestly he didn't much care.
You were a fuck to him, that's all. If lying was the best way to keep you around, he'd do it without a problem.
It wasn't long before he'd got you onto your back, removing every piece of clothing off of you and kissing your precious naked body.
The body that was untouched before you gave yourself to him. The thought made his dick rock hard without you even touching him.
Everything about you made him hard. The fact you were so gullible, the fact that you loved him, and the fact you were such a little slut everytime he was inside you.
He loved it, he just didn't love you.
He was inside of you now, giving you slow loving thrusts- much different than the way he'd usually fuck you.
His fluffy hair falls right into your face, but you don't mind. Blinded by the pleasure he was giving you.
Letting his hand lift your thigh, he opens you up so he can do more of whatever he wanted to your needy figure.
"Tightest pussy i ever fucked.. and all mine too." you mewl at his dirty words, genuinely believing everything he said like the naive slut you were.
His lips kiss and nip at your neck the closer he gets to his orgasm, thrusts still slow but much harder than before.
"Jimin- fuck!" your hand is grabbing at the nape of his neck, listening to his hot breaths and grunts right in your ear. He's so fucking close, you can tell.
"Cum on my tummy.." you beg, and he lifts his head to look at you as he keeps pushing into your wet hole. "Yeah?" he asks, and you nod.
Holy shit, his head begins flooding with crazy thoughts again. And he bites his lips to restrain from saying anything that he might regret.
The truth was, jimin wasn't what everyone thought.
He has multiple sexual partners, which is bad enough. But what made it worse that some of these partners weren't just anyone, it was all of boras friends.
As said before, you were just a simple fuck to him- just like the rest of boras friends who somehow had all ended up in his bedroom without boras knowledge.
He was a man whore, no doubt about it.
Something about it just, turned him on. He'd jerked himself off so many times at the thought of you.. and many more of boras friends who had come and went.
He focuses on you again when your both finally coming, loving the feeling of your nails clawing at his bare back as your pussy flutters around him. He stills when he's finished, kissing your cheeks to show you a little bit of affection.
It was cute yeah, but it doesn't last long because you hear boras door open again.
Jimin scrambles up, reaching for his clothes to try and cover himself. You on the other hand, are paralyzed in shock- you're staring back at bora, isuel, and liza.
Naked. In boras bed. With her father.
The room is ever so silent, and you scan the faces of all your friends.
Bora is shocked, and angry if anything.
But iseul and liza.. their expressions. It was anger, dissapointment, and sadness all in one.
"What.. the fuck."
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What you need | 01
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Synopsis: everybody needs, but how do you define need?
Do you even know what you need.
Genre: best friends au, angst, fluff, smut, slow burn.
Jungkook x reader.
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The last thing you’d want to being doing while going through a break-up, is walking into this building and putting more energy, which you don’t have, into pretending like you’re okay.
When you’re in fact not.
You have to deal with a raging hangover, because you thought it would be a great idea to drown your misery with some alcohol. All night long. loneliness has its gross skinny little fingers around you.
This break-up is fucking you up sideways. If not in all ways.
‘’what happened to you?’’ your head throbs harder at the sound of that heavy voice.
‘’what do you want?’’ you murmur out and your fingers get to work with rubbing your temples.
‘’i wanna know what happened to you?’’ you know his question is far from caring or interested in your well being.
Your tiny office feels more claustrophobic with the way he just seems to hover over.
‘’look hoseok, I’m a little out of it today’’ you don’t even stare at him ‘’so i can’t provide you with any witty comeback, sorry’’
For a split, single particle of light second; he feels bad for you. But then he remembers:
‘’whether you’re in or out of it, you’ve got work.’’ He slaps a file on your table ‘’get working’’
You know hoseok is one of your headaches and he always proves how he’s so great at it.
You stare at your desk as your head pounds with another problem.
You’ve stayed so long at this desk you can draw every inch of it from memory. And you’d be a master at adding the little cracks, dents and scratch details. Plus every memory of hoseok’s nagging witty remarks linger in this office area everymoment.
You really want a new office. And you day when you do get one, you’ll make sure hoseok never visits it and contaminates it with his presence.
Urgh
You groan as you pick up the file he’s just given you. This headache’s probably gonna kill you before you get a chance to.
-
‘’well, well well’’ jungkook rolls his eyes ‘’look who decided to come to work today’’
‘’good morning Isabel, you didn’t have to do all this but i appreciate the warm welcome’’ jungkook spits out sarcastically in a sing-song voice.
Isabel scoffs.
‘’is your mother feeling better now?’’
‘’what are you talking- oh’’ jungkook catches himself, but it’s too late.
‘’oh my gosh i knew it’’ she declares ‘’you’re such a liar’’ she lets out a soft chuckle.
‘’i knew you weren’t asking for a day off cause your mother was sick’’
‘’how could you have known that’’ jungkook says taking off his shirt and Isabel can’t help but ogle.
‘’i just know’’ she folds her arms over her chest, her long straight hair getting caught in her arms.
‘’why didn’t you tell me you needed a day off, you don’t have to lie’’ she stops herself from licking her lip in fear of ruining her red lips.
‘’you know i can do that for you’’
Jungkook grins as he pulls up his work suit pants. It would’ve been uncomfortable if jungkook wasn’t used to Isabel being around while he got dressed. He secretly believes she does it on purpose to be in the dressing room when he’s getting dressed.
‘’well i did cause a friend needed me, i doubt those grounds stand for a day off’’ he finally just says it knowing she won’t do anything about it.
She hums ‘’which friend?’’
‘’does it matter?’’ he throws a white tee over his head.
It doesn’t, but she just wanted to know if her thoughts are right.
‘’YN’’
She only hums, her perfectly tweezed eyebrows rising. He can’t decipher what the meaning of it but it doesn’t matter. She’s heard your name from him but never seen you, he talks so fondly of you she’s just so curious to meet you.
‘’okay then get to work making up for the day you missed. A client’s coming in with his car’’
Jungkook already knows cause said client called him a million times to find out where he was.
‘’so about asking for a day off...’’ jungkook puts on his best charming smile.
‘’it’s not gonna happen jeon’’ she turns to walk away. But not without biting her inner cheek, if she was staring at jungkook she would fold.
‘’what happened to the ‘you know i can do that for you’ ‘’ she blushes.
‘’it’s never gonna happen. Not today at least’’ she whispers the last part.
Jungkook laughs and licks his lips as he watches her walk away. Sometimes it was fun coming to work.
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‘’and that’s why this model’s perfect for you and your family’’ you walk around the car to the open door. ‘’you can place up to three car seats in the back’’ you stretch you arm to point and direct your client’s eyes to where you want them to be.
You stare at her blank face and you know she’s not convinced. But that’s your job; to convince and sale.
‘’if you’re worried about clean up, the interior material is one; even liquids. vacuum away from clean and the seats are wipeable’’
‘’actually the carpet, does not stain’’ you add.
‘’oh that’s really nice, cause my kids are messy when it comes to food.’’ She laughs and you laugh as well.
Most of the time you laugh only because you have to. You hear the same things every day and speak to the same type of people everyday. You know every type of person that walks through those glass doors.
‘’i think I’ve heard enough, I’m convinced’’
‘’i’ll take the car’’ those words are like music to your ears and medicine for your headache.
‘’Great, then let me just get the papers ready’’
This was one of the reasons you liked and preferred to work with women, they’re are easy to convince when it comes to buying a car and are great listeners to what you say. Unlike men who just want to argue and question your knowledge on cars. It always makes you laugh when you see them try and show you that they know more than you (not that they do, you’ll always one-up them)
And in all fairness women loved to work with you cause they know they can trust a woman. And men only want to work with you to put you down and ogle at you.
Even hoseok knew this and that’s why he always gives you female clients. You’re shocked he doesn’t give you only males just to piss you off. If you never knew him well you’d think he had a heart.
You’re walking back to your desk when you see hoseok approach you from the corner of you eye.
‘’You don’t need to worry i sold the car’’ you say not stopping in your tracks.
‘’im not worried i knew you would’’
You pause.
‘’is that a compliment Mr Jung’’
He doesn’t respond but that doesn’t stop you from swimming in his rarely spoken compliments.
‘’what do you want? it’s lunch time’’ you go back to your bickering tone.
He stares at his watch.
‘’are you having your lunch from outside of the office’’
‘’yeah, why?’’ you pick up your purse. He knows you always have lunch from outside of the office, so why is he asking.
‘’i have a very important client to give you’’
You really wanna go out and have lunch, cause even though it doesn’t seem like it you still have a headache. But if hoseok said he had an important client for you, then he did.
You honestly need important clients right now.
‘’can it wait for after lunch’’
Hoseok let’s out a bitter chuckle.
‘’this client doesn’t live in Seoul. So he doesn’t have the time to wait’’
He? Ugh.
Who is he for hoseok to be kissing up to him so bad.
‘’if you really want that promotion as bad as you say you do, you’re gonna take him nooow.” He drags out the last word.
He says it so eagerly that now you have to rethink your lunch routine.
Lunchtime is the main time you get in the week to actually see jungkook, since you’re both so busy. It’s like a little routine you both have; helps you spend more time together.
But now you have to reconsider it. jungkook would understand though, since you’ve got a promotion on the line.
‘’yn? Do you want this or not. If not i can-‘’ hoseok presses but a deep hallow voice steps in.
‘’hoseok let her go for lunch, i can wait’’
You both turn and your eyes are met with the most glorious figure of a man you’ve ever seen.
Tall, beefy and muscular. When you stare at hoseok, in question, you can swear he’s ogling too.
Wouldn’t blame him so are you. This man is fine.
‘’Namjoon, you don’t have t-‘’
‘’please, i can move my flight. Let her have lunch’’ your eyes meet as he ends his sentence. You skedaddle your gaze to another part of the room, avoiding his eyes. and your teeth immediately meet your inner upper lip.
You’re not the best at eye contact, it makes you nervous cause it feels like the person can see all the little things you’re keeping secret.
Namjoon smirks as he walks out, ‘’I’ll be waiting when you get back’’
Hoseok doesn’t say or look at you before he’s out too.
-
‘’fuck inishiwekfuoaovw’’
You furrow your brows at a jungkook stuffing his face.
‘’what the fuck are you saying’’ you chuckle out.
He swallows.
‘’ i said, i’ve been thinking this the whole day’’ you wouldn’t have guessed that’s what he was saying.
‘’ i assume you’re talking about your lunch’’ you take a bite of your own, your eyes on jungkook as he lifts his gaze.
If you finish this meal it would be the first full meal you’ve eaten since yunho.
‘’i mean i’ve been thinking about lunch with you too’’ he stares at you from under his eyelashes with wide eyes.
You can't help but smile.
You give him a once-over and can tell by his tan skin he’s been in the sun.
‘’did you carry your sunscreen?’’
He gasps ‘’shit, i forgot. Is my tan obvious” you give him a yes-no nod.
‘’but it looks good’’ you mumble out.
‘’you like it?’’ he lowers his eyes at you and gives you a cheeky smile.
‘’i mean i don’t hate it.’’ Your eyes run across his skin, jungkook can feel your eyes on his skin.
You release a cough, to reset the air. You like it, you won’t say to not give him a bigger head.
‘’i think i should get going’’ jungkook furrows his brows at you then over at your plate.
‘’you haven’t finished your food though ’’ he warns.
‘’i have someone waiting for me at the office, so-‘’ you dare to explain.
‘’-so they can wait until you finish your food. Plus you still have time to eat’’ he points to the clock in the restaurant. You’ve only been here for fifteen minutes.
‘’kook it’s an important client’’ you whine.
‘’and i understand that, but i know you haven’t been eating’’ jungkook sits back in his chair. You have no argument to give, you both know that he’s right. So, you stay silent.
‘’have you?’’ he questions even though he knows he’s right.
‘’jungkook that’s not the point’’ you roll your eyes.
‘’sit down and eat’’ he demands, ’’please’’ he pleads.
You can’t say no, especially with his pleading doe eyes. So you sit and try to finish your food.
You know that he’s doing this cause he cares about you and wants to make sure you’re doing well. But it makes it just much harder to wallow in your misery when he’s baby-ing you
‘’what’s so important about this client anyways’’ he goes back to stuffing his face, the taste of the food encapsulating his taste buds once more.
You hear jungkook speak over your internal turmoil about having to down this food.
‘’hoseok told me its a chance for me to up my chances on a promotion’’ you say informingly. When you actually put your mind to eating the scent of the food causes your stomach to growl. It's savoury taste makes you internally moan as you take it in. Food actually tastes good when you put your mind to it.
‘’Bunny that’s great” he cheers. “Why don’t you sound exciting though’’
You glare at him, ‘’cause you’re forcing me to eat.’’ You’re glad he made you made cause it taste like heaven.
‘’don’t be a baby.’’ He runs his teeth over he’s lower lip.
‘’im not being a baby’’ you mumble out as you pout and prove his point.
Jungkook doesn’t respond and instead watches you eat. His eyes soften at the sight of your cheeks stuffed with food. He knows there’s only so much he can do to help you get over yunho. But whatever he can do he will do, just to see that smile you have on your right now; many more times. He watches you look out the window, and the sun hits you beautifully. And he can’t help but gawk.
‘’what?’’ you smile at doe eyed jungkook, who can’t seem to move his gaze from you.
He shakes his head. ‘’nothing’’ he turns back to his food, the smile not leaving his face.
You roll your eyes. Jungkook’s smile would’ve widened if he saw that. He loves teasing you.
You both appreciate how your friendship has developed from you two avoiding each other and then finally finding comfort in each other’s presence. Jimin really had a tough time getting you two to talk, you’re behaving like two high schoolers he said in his own words. Yes you were but it was more like two high schoolers who’ve never even looked at each put on a class project. But now you’re eating lunch together because you can’t stop talking. You wouldn’t stop being friends with him for anyone.
‘’i forgot to tell you i found a date for you?’’
Jungkook groans at that. He’d hoped you’d forgotten, but you seem more determined than ever.
He gives you a displeased looked.
‘’don’t give me that’’
“if you want me to go on a date, then you’ll have to come watch me train” he declares proudly.
“in what? Boxing?” your brows draw together. Is he actually trying to get you to watching him box.
“Yeah” he hums out enthusiastically.
“Nope” you deadpan.
“Then I’m not going ”
You narrow your eyes at him and he gives you a mischievous smile.
“I’ll see.”
-
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What you need | prologue
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Synopsis: everybody needs, but how do you define need? Do you even know what you need.
Genre: best friends au, angst, fluff, smut, slow burn.
Jungkook x reader.
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‘’you can’t be serious’’ your brows knits as your voice shakes with disbelief.
‘’I’m serious as fuck yn’’ he spits out like venom from a snake’s glands ‘’Is it so hard to stop being friends with him?’’ he says it like it’s that easy to end a friendship, especially with no valid reason.
‘’yes. We’ve been friends for forever’’ You can feel your throat tremble with all this defending you have to do.
‘’yn 3 years isn’t forever’’
‘’but it's longer than we’ve been together’’ you spit back with your own venom. You wouldn’t put Jungkook over Yunho cause he’s your boyfriend, but that’s not going to make you forget Jungkook. The person who’s been there for you the most (not that you’re counting) ‘’I’m not going to stop being friends with him over nothing or just because you’re threatened by him’’
You know that’s what this is about. You don’t know when it started but Yunho has always seemed to be threatened by Jungkook. You’ve reassured him so much you got tired of it, so you just let him talk to himself when he complained.
‘‘so, this is nothing to you?’’ he stops walking around to stare at you with a glare you’ve never seen. This argument is not like the others you’ve had over Jungkook, it’s worse. The fire spat out and acid thrown (in form of words) causes the whole house to overheat around you, leaving you scorched and burnt.
‘’you really do love Jungkook more than me?’’ he seems fed up with it, and you are too. For how long can you continue to baby his insecurity?
‘’I’ve told you a million times that Jungkook and I are just friends and there’s nothing you need to worry about’’ you try and be the sensible one (as always). Since this argument was about you; you were going to be the one to try and end it if you were going to be able to put out the fire in Yunho.
‘’if I wanted to be with him, I would’ve done it by now, but no, I’m with you and I want to be with you’’ you say with everything, apart from the irritation and anger, in your heart. Maybe it wasn't the best way to say it but you said it, and it did nothing but make him angrier.
He’s silent as if analyses the validity of your words. He knows you’re probably correct, you would never choose Jungkook over him but something just bothers him. He wonders if this has anything to do with you and Jungkook or just an inner unacknowledged vengeance.
‘’what I said still stands, either you stop being friends with him or we’re done’’
Your skin paled as his skin stayed healthy and glowing like this was a piece of cake for him. As if he was unbothered and doing this to make you uncomfortable. You thought you made it to the crossroads but you're far from it. You're actually in the middle of the highway waiting to be hit.
‘’come on yunho, why are being like this’’ you’re getting tired of trying.
‘’you’re doing this to yourself yn’’ How are you doing this to yourself when he’s the one pointing a gun to your head to choose between a rock and a hard place.
‘’it's not fair, because you know I love you and i really care about you’’
‘’if you love me and care about me, you’re going to stop being friends with him’’
His stubbornness is so unbelievable.
‘’you’re not being fair’’ you bite your lower lip. you hope the pain from it can distract you from the pounding of your heart. Your fists clench and unclench as you try to think of what to do, things don’t seem to be easing down and you don’t like it at all.
‘’no yn I’m not, but I have to protect myself’’ his face and tone are as uncaring as ever. He’s being difficult and uncaring as you fight for this relationship. Are you the only one who cares?
‘’protect yourself from what?’’ your voice raises an octave; you start to get frustrated with the confusion from his indifferent behavior.
‘’from getting hurt’’
You’ve had it.
‘’I TOLD YOU, JUNGKOOK AND I ARE NEVER GOING TO BE TOGETHER!’’ you yell like you’ve never yelled before that he’s even taken aback. "I swear’’ your voice goes back to its light and softness, almost begging. But still no change on his part.
You feel like everything in the room is laughing at you.
All the little laughs and happy moments all the promises made, all the kisses gave; in your face laughing at you, mocking you for giving love another chance just for it to spit in your face another time.
If this doesn’t work out, you’re never going to do this again.
‘’That doesn’t guarantee me anything’’ he watches you and you scoff.
‘’so, tell me, me or Jungkook?’’
‘’you’re not being fair’’ you roll your eyes.
‘’that’s just how it is’’ is it really? Or is it how you want it to be? you want to say but hold back you don’t want to add gasoline to this ticking time bomb of a relationship.
‘’Please make the right choice, think about us’’
You chuckle bitterly internally, is this when he cares about what you had?
What you had.
You think of that. Yunho was your hope in love after your last relationship, he was-is your everything. So, if he cares about what you have then why is he doing this?
You think about it. Yunho is your boyfriend, and Jungkook is your best friend. You’ve known Jungkook longer but you love Yunho more (well in the boyfriend way) and you love Jungkook in the best friend way.
Which is more valuable and worth keeping.
‘’I can’t, I’m sorry’’ you breathe out ‘’jungkook is my friend’’
‘I guess you’ve made your choice’’
-
‘’Next time we go out remind me to carry sunscreen’’ jungkook says through the speaker ‘’im looking like a roast turkey’’
You snort.
Knowing Jungkook he’s probably in his bathroom staring at himself. You giggle when you hear him whisper a hot one though.
He isn’t wrong.
‘’speaking of going out, please never bring your boyfriend again.’’ He chuckles out but you stay silent.
At the mention of yunho you freeze, everything does. You know jungkook means no harm. All your friends tease you about Yunho.
Now you begin to wonder if it was a warning hidden behind humor because they knew how much you loved him and passed little jokes about him.
Maybe you should’ve known, how could you have thought of it when you were so “so in love’’ with him though.
‘’yn, you with me?’’ jungkook asks noticing how quiet you’ve gone. He starts to worry that he’s offended you, but you know he’s just joking right? Well, he’s not. He doesn’t like Yunho one single bit and never wants to see him ever again, cause if he does, he’s going to punch him. For many different reasons.
“Are you okay?” he coos out, body tensing in worry at your silence.
Silence.
Sniffle, sniffle.
Jungkook pauses when he hears you sniffle, you’re crying. His heart muscle contracts at the sound.
Why are you crying?
Is it something he’s done? Cause he wouldn’t forgive himself if he was ever the reason a tear left your eye. He wouldn’t forgive anyone who was the reason for your tears.
It was so hard keeping this to yourself and not telling anyone, especially jungkook.
‘’yn what’s wrong, is something going on?’’ you don’t answer and he gets more uneasy. It makes it worse for him that you’re in two different places.
‘’does it have to do with Yunho?’’ he knows he’s probably right, but he just wants you to say it; so, he can have a reason for whatever he’s going to do after.
Silence.
‘’Did he do something to you?’’ his voice gets more impatient.
‘’yn please talk to me’’ at this point he’s begging you to say something. He can’t see you, so the least you can do is say something; tell him he’s overreacting and you’re okay (even though he wouldn’t believe it until he saw you in person. And even then he still wouldn’t believe)
‘’if he did something to you, you need to tell me’’ jungkook paces around his bedroom slowly.
‘’he didn’t do anything’’ You finally speak but it's not what he wants to hear. But it does confirm what he’s thinking.
Jungkook knows it's hard for you to speak when you're crying, normally he’d let you cry it out until you’re calm and can tell him. But right now, he wants you to speak.
‘’it doesn’t sound that way’’ You can hear the anger rising in his tone, if you never knew him, you’d think he was mad at you.
But he’s just on the road to anger, that’s why you didn’t want to tell him. You’d planned on telling him later but your emotions were not on the same page with you.
‘’Did he touch you?’’ now he’s just giving you options to pick yes or no. It's a bit of an overstep in jungkook's part but he's worried and you're not giving him an answer. He wouldn't put it past yunho though.
‘’I swear to god yn if he did...’’ jungkook fumes out letting his thoughts go ahead of him cause you won’t seem to tell him.
You don't know where your voice has gone but its not there, you do want to speak but you can't seem to find the voice or energy.
Even though he’s angry, whatever it is it’s not your fault and he shouldn’t take it out on you. Anger won’t make you speak any quicker.
Jungkook isn't so protective, most of the time, but when yunho is mentioned he has this inkling to keep you closer to him. He doesn't know why but he just does, he tries to keep to himself but his heart aches too much.
‘’talk to me bunny’’ he coos hoping to get more insight.
That pet name does it for you.
‘’he broke up with me kook’’ you wobble out your words.
Jungkook’s hands tap against his table angrily. his jaw unintentionally clenches. He wants to be happy that you're not tied to that bastard anymore, but this is not about him. It's about you. And unlike jungkook, you actually like yunho and are, surprisingly, in love with him.
‘’yn, when did this happen?’’ you can’t tell what emotion he’s speaking with.
‘’two days ago,” you speak out slowly and so low that jungkook wouldn’t have heard you if he didn’t know you.
‘’And you’re only just telling?” you feel like he’s blaming you but you’re just in your feels and you know he isn’t.
‘’I’m still processing it” you defend.
‘’okay’’
‘’I’m coming over right now’’ you can hear him shuffle around, probably putting on some clothes.
“kook, that’s no- you don’t have-‘’
‘’Don’t tell me I don’t have to; I’m on my fucking way’’
-
‘’you didn’t have to drive here’’ you say when you open the door and see a hooded up jungkook.
‘’shut up and let me in’’ he jokes out and lets himself in.
-
‘’you know I’m mad that this when you’re telling’’ jungkook hums out into your hair as his hand comfortingly rubs your arm.
‘’I told you I’m still processing it’’ You coo into his chest, and the vibration from your voice soothes his previously aching beating muscle.
‘’I know, that’s why I’m letting it slide for now’’ Jungkook’s eyes move to look at you, your eyes closed as you lightly breath against his chest.
He's happy you've calmed down now. After walking in he asked you to tell him what happened, you did (not all but you did). You ignored any question of 'why did he break up with you'. You don't want to answer that or even tell him.
His eyes roam your living room which is still the same from the last time he came, maybe with the addition of a new painting. But the overall ambiance and warmth are still present and he knows Yunho’s presence hasn’t contaminated it.
‘’next time you tell me immediately’’ he says without thinking.
‘’Next time?’’ you move away and jungkook cringes and the disappearance of your warmth.
‘’that’s not what I mea-‘’
‘’yeah I know’’ you place your legs on his lap and he gladly accepts them. ‘’but there won't be a next time’’
You say still in thought.
‘’I think I’m done dating’’
It hurts jungkook hearing you say that. He’s seen how many times a douchebag has hurt you, and it weakens him to slowly watch you give up on love.
‘’I’m tired of getting my heart broken, cause that’s all that happens when I date’’ you start ‘’honestly I knew love didn’t exist but I still wanted to try. So, I guess I shouldn’t be mad if love shows me its ass, cause I’ve known all along. true love doesn’t exist, maybe love in all doesn’t exist.’’
One thing jungkook fully believed in his life was true love, he thinks he probably got it from watching his parents be so in love with each other. His mother always told him, that people always look around for what they think is true love when the actual thing is right in front of their face. You just have to pay attention.
‘’I guess this gives me enough time to focus on my career’’ you sing-song.
You try and seem okay and prove something to jungkook.
‘’bunny’’ he calls out softly as his hand brushes passed yours making little electrons lightly dance over your skin.
‘’you'll find someone who truly loves you’’ You understand where his words are coming from but they don’t help you feel not less than.
‘’maybe not in this lifetime, but thanks for trying kook’’ you let out a painful laugh. Jungkook’s eyes sink deep into yours as if trying to find what you’re not telling, what you’re so afraid of showing him.
He wants to know and wants to see everything; you don’t need to hide anything from him.
He hopes you know that.
You move away from his gaze and try to hide what’s left of your hurt. You don’t need him more worried.
‘’so have you taken up my offer for the dating app’’ You change the topic with a smile and a heavy heart.
‘’I’m still thinking about it’’ You watch he’s teeth play with the silver loop at the corner of his lip. You’re still not yet used to his pierced lip even though he’s had it for over a year. Jungkook taps your calf when he catches you looking a little too long at his lip.
‘’if you take any longer, I’m going to have to find a blind date for you myself’’ your eyes flush amusement.
Jungkook’s brows rise in playfulness before they drop and he smiles.
‘’I’m sure anyone you pick would be a good fit’’
‘’glad you know’’
‘’I think I’m going to clock in for the night’’ You yawn and stand. Jungkook watches your figure hover over him. ‘’feel free to stay longer and eat whatever’’
You know he would cause he’s done it before.
‘’I’m just going to head out, got work tomorrow’’ he stands with a groan. “as long as you’ll be fine” he stares at you waiting for an answer. You give him one with your eyes. He’s helped to a lot this night and you don’t want him going late to work.
‘’love you kook’’ you say abruptly and jungkook doesn’t have time to process it when that tingling feeling in his stomach starts. It feels like the time when he had to perform in front of the whole school, in the 10th grade.
He didn't like that feeling, but this one feels more enjoyable.
‘’thanks for coming tonight’’ your bright eyes beam at him.
‘’Anything for you bunny’’ he smiles before he’s out the door.
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Jungkook didn’t have work the next day, okay maybe he did but one day of not attending wouldn’t hurt him, right?
He did write to his boss after all.
I apologize for the late notice, but...... cause my mother is unwell.
It's just one lie. He hopes his mother doesn’t mind.
As Jungkook pulls over he’s suddenly grateful for all the times you’ve asked him to drop you off at Yunho’s house and how he persisted in walking you up to his apartment.
With his mind made up Jungkook raises his hand to knock on the door. He hopes he still lives here cause it would be embarrassing if he didn’t. If he had moved you would’ve told Jungkook, after all, you tell him everything.
‘’nuguseyo?’’ [who are you?]
Jungkook’s blood boils when the feminine voice speaks. He swears Yunho still lives here. Who’s she?
If what jungkook’s thinking is correct then Yunho is in for more than an ass whooping.
‘’Yunho. does he live here?’’ he speaks to her bluntly. She’s not why he came so he doesn’t care for her.
‘’eung’’ she says before she speaks again ‘’Yeobo’’
Jungkook is too familiar with that term of endearment, so he is correct.
This bastard was cheating on her. And even if he wasn’t and jungkook is reaching, how can he be with someone only a few days after breaking up with her?
‘’someone’s here for you’’ she says as his figure comes into focus.
‘’wh-‘’ his voice cuts off. ‘’jungkook? Look what the cat dragged in. Did yn send you here’’
It pisses Jungkook off how he says your name with no damn respect.
It would have honestly been better for him if you had sent him, he would’ve been at mercy.
But the fact that he’s here on his own accord means Jungkook can do whatever he wants. No mercy.
He just prays you don’t find out. You hate violence and he knows it. You would kill him if you knew he was about to do what he’s about to do. But the red pumping to his fists makes him think unclear, right now all he cares about is avenging you. But maybe he’s doing this to also quench the hatred he has for Yunho within himself.
‘’I’m sure she told you what happened, you won I guess’’ he says it like it was a game ‘’But did you win really.’’ He chuckles.
Jungkook can hear the mocking in his voice.
He didn’t need much motivation until his body reacted and soon crimson painted on his fist.
-
‘’that asshole’’ willoe spits out through her swallow. ‘’he really wanted you to pick?’’ you nod.
‘’I’m glad you made the right choice’’ She places her mug down. You don’t even want to bother and tell her that you almost (for a split second) wanted to pick him over Jungkook. And for the past 2 days, you’ve been wondering if you should’ve. But it’s the loneliness speaking.
Remembering how Jungkook came over yesterday to see you makes you glad that you made that decision. You feel shitty for even thinking of picking Yunho.
‘’Making someone pick is ruthless, selfish and immature’’
Willoe has been wallowing out curses ever since you told her about Yunho, you kinda regret it.
You wonder how Jimin can handle her tongue.
Unlike Jungkook, willoe took you not telling her better. You pin it on the fact that she’s also kept things from you too, for quite a long time too.
One of the things was that she and Jimin had started dating. now that you think about it you probably complained her and Jimin’s ears off (like she’s doing right now to you). Who goes 3 months without telling their bestie that she’s dating her love at first sight who’s also your friend? What impresses you more is how Jimin was able to keep it from you.
If you had even the smallest inkling that she and Jimin were dating you would’ve probably pulled it out of him. But there were no signs.
Or maybe you were too wrapped around Yunho’s nagging that you didn’t pay attention.
‘’Can you stop cursing that man’s lineage’’ Your coffee’s probably going cold with how you’re just holding it. The warmth on the ceramic provides some comfort in a way.
‘’oh I haven’t even begun cursing his lineage’’ she scoffs ‘’It's just that I have a date with Jimin tonight, otherwise, I would’ve gone to pull out the candles’’ You know she’s just playing. Even though Willoe on her days off looks like she’s the type, she’s far from pulling out candles to curse someone. But you wouldn’t put it past her.
You just laugh.
‘’Have you told jungkook?’’ she lowers her voice down to a serious tone.
Your head lifts to look at her confused. ‘’told him what?’’
She rolls her eyes at you as if you don’t know.
‘’that he made you pick between him or jungkook.’’
It clicks. You don’t know if it’s cause of what’s going on but your mind has been foggy of late.
‘’hell no’’ you spit out quite roughly.
‘’why not’’
‘’because it would piss him off, I don’t even know what he would do’’ You finally take a sip of your coffee and cringe at how lukewarm it's gotten. Willoe watches you noticing that you haven’t taken a sip of your coffee.
‘’you think he would beat up Yunho?’’ you ask her for an opinion.
‘’oh, I know he would, without a doubt. I’m surprised you haven’t gotten a call from a hospitalized yunho’’ willoe stares at the waiter to bring her another order. She comes here often so she hopes they remember.
‘’like be for real yn have you looked at him’’ if only she knew how many times you’ve looked at him. ’’He could take Yunho in one go and win’’
you know he can, you have hundreds of his gym pics in your gallery. Not because you stalk him but because jungkook feels the need to send you some every time he’s in the gym (which is like every day).
Why haven’t you deleted them? Because it’s cute that he can share this cute ritual with you of all people. And even though you don’t go to the gym with him at all. The pictures make it like you are accompanying him on his gym journey.
Though your storage isn’t so pleased.
‘’but I just don’t like violence, especially if it's jungkook. I don’t want him to get hurt’’
‘’girl be serious jungkook would never let someone whoop his ass, he’d rather die’’
She’s so right.
‘’and its kinda hot having someone wanting to fight another person for you’’ Willoe blushes at the thought ‘’Jimin once punched a guy who was flirting with me, and I’ve never fucked him harder’’ She looks lost in the thoughts ‘’It was one of the reasons I kept in touch with him. I love possessive men’’ you chuckle as you watch the blood go to her cheeks.
You know Willoe is into those kinds of things.
And that’s one of the things that makes you two different. You don’t like men who do that kind of thing, even though you get where it's coming from. It's unattractive to you.
And that’s one reason you’ll never attend Jungkook’s boxing training sessions. It would kill you to see someone hit Him, even If it’s not serious.
‘’anyway, how’s Jimin? Haven’t talked to him this week’’
‘’yeah, same. He’s been busy lately so he promised me a date to make up for it.’’
You watch her blush at the mention of Jimin, she always does.
You love how they work together. It makes you feel so happy to see her happy and be with someone like Jimin who treats her right.
But it just makes you think of your lacks, when or where were you going to find someone who would love you like Jimin loves Willoe.
‘’god, when will I meet someone like Jimin’’
‘’you will, you just need to open your eyes’’
‘’my eyes have been open and all I can see is bullshit’’
Willow laughs almost choking on her second coffee, you’ve barely touched your first. She’s a coffee addict anyway, so you can’t compete.
‘’Don't worry yn someone will come around’’
You roll your eyes ‘’well I’m done waiting for that one person’’ you feel yourself tense at the thought of being alone forever.
‘’I’ll send you some lavender and chamomile to calm you down’’
Maybe it's time to get into the herbs she’s been recommending.
-
You’ve now been tuning out Jimin’s lecture for a minute. You don’t even know how his consolidation turned into him giving a speech on how to find someone who cares about you, and how you should take a break from dating and ‘’find yourself’’. Whatever the fuck that means.
Most of the time you think you and Jimin are similar, and share the same ideas and beliefs. But maybe it's just the means of saying them that differ.
You’ve missed Jimin and the last thing you want to talk about is Yunho. You’d rather catch up and laugh around.
It's best to get it over with right now anyway. So you let your ears bleed as he speaks.
‘’and that’s why I didn’t like him in the first place....’’ he rumbles on. The red button seems so far away. Your fingers twitch to press it.
Jimin isn’t the most talkative person, you give that title to Willoe. But once he starts to talk he doesn’t seem to stop.
You need a fucking savior right now.
‘’yn are you hearing me’’ he asks from your lack of response.
‘’yeah jimin, well and clear.’’ Lies. You’ve been tuning him out, he could’ve changed the topic and you wouldn’t know.
‘’Good’’
You groan.
In a second after your plea, your savior finally shows.
‘’jimin can I call you later jungkook is calling’’
‘’jungkook? Tell him you’re busy. I’m talking to you’’
‘’I would but I think it's important and you know how whiny he gets’’
‘’alright then I’ll call you later, tell him to stop ignoring my calls too’’ you hum in acknowledgement and nod.
‘’okay bye’’ you click so fast he doesn’t get to respond.
‘’my fucking saviour’’ you say immediately after Jungkook’s call is accepted. He’s a little confused by your abruptness but takes it anyway.
You watch the confusion on his face with a smile.
‘’thank you?’’
‘’is that a question’’
‘’yeah, I just don’t know where it's coming from’’ you watch him fix his hoodie.
‘’you’re my fucking savior, what don’t you get?’’ for a second, he thinks you're talking about Yunho, but if it was about him the last thing, you’d be doing is thanking him. ‘’you just saved me from a jimin lecture’’
He makes a face of realization, he sees you don’t seem to know about Yunho.
Like on cue, Jimin’s text pops up.
Minnie Boy: I know you didn’t want to hear what I was saying, but please consider taking a break for yourself.
Minnie boy: And I promise to not bring it up again.
You giggle at his text, he knows you so well, that maybe you will consider taking his advice.
You: I hope you know I appreciate your advice and I will consider it. Thanks, Minnie.
‘’what was he saying?’’ jungkook’s velvety voice pulls you back to him.
‘’It was about Yunho’’
He lets out a hum, understanding that he gave you one hell of a lecture.
There’s a little comfortable silence as you and jungkook just watch each other.
‘’About that. How are you doing?’’
‘’I guess I’m okay, you guys have made a easier for me”
Jungkook’s happy to hear that.
‘’I appreciate it’’
‘’we’re you’re friends we’ll always be here for you’’
he sounds so sentimental it makes your heart throb.
‘’how about you? how are you doing?’’ you change your position.
Laying on your back with your phone above you. you watch jungkook turn his eyes away.
‘’I’m doing okay, just working and stuff’’
You nod.
‘’and how about the date thing have you thought about it’’
Jungkook will probably never hear the end of it. He runs a hand through his dark hair which seems to be growing longer and longer.
‘’about that, I don’t want to’’
Your glare would probably teleport you to him and smack him if it could.
‘’what do you mean you don’t want to?’’ you sit up and jungkook sighs disappointedly with the position change.
‘’I mean, you’re not doing well, and the last thing I want to be thinking of looking for a girlfriend’’
You roll your eyes.
‘’This is why I don’t like letting you know things, you get so worried and forget about yourself’’
You’re not wrong and he knows it, but he doesn’t find a problem with it.
‘’I’ll be okay, don’t worry about me’’ he watches you talk.
It’s so hard for him not to worry about you when you don’t seem to be telling him the truth about if you’re truly okay. You’re saying it but he doesn’t believe it.
You continue to express how you’re okay and he needs to find someone for himself instead of spending his days worrying about you.
He can’t help but think about whether he should tell you Yunho was cheating or not, he doesn’t want to hurt you. Cause that news would kill you.
But keeping it to himself feels like it will do more harm.
But it won’t hurt you if you never find out, all you have to do is never talk to Yunho again and he trusts you can do that.
‘’okay yn if you want to so badly find me a blind date’’ he says after you suggest it for a millionth time.
You’re shocked by his acceptance but also excited.
‘’and I will. Get your suit jacket ready 'cause jungkook you’re going on a date ’ you mimic the voice of dating show presenters.
‘’I'll be waiting’’ he chuckles out watching you smile.
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A/n: I don't know why the prologue is so long.😭
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Mortal/commer jk x goddess reader
Jk x fem reader.
Fantasy au
Wc: 4.1k
Oneshot
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You release a moan at how the water touches your body and how the bubbles of heat tickle your breasts. You hum your beautiful melodies, your melodious voice calling out to all the little night lights that luminate your night bath. Your body glows and causes the pool you're in and anything you touch to glow. You continue to rub your smooth and soft skin when you hear a rustle in the bushes behind you. No one and absolutely no one is allowed in your forest inclosed pool. Not even the servants. Anyone who dares to trespass your territory by your guarantee will be banished. There's only one person allowed, he's the main reason why you have this place enclosed. It's the only place where you to can meet freely. And so you already know that it's him
"You shouldn't be here" you say with a smile. Legally he shouldn't be here but personally you're glad he's here.
"I'm to be married tomorrow"
You can hear the cling of his belt and the his trousers hit the floor. By the sound alone you feel yourself clench. You don't have to be a genius to know how he's feeling. "And that's why im here..." his husky voice speaks.
"...to give you a goodbye" you hum at his words and see the ripples caused by the entrance of his body into the water. And in a second he's standing in front of you, muscles and tattoos on show for you. You've always loved his tattoos especially the effect you had on them.
"This is no goodbye, jeon" your hand touches his as your fingers trace the muscles of his chest. When your hand traces his tattoos, each little inked pattern begins to light up. You loved that and so did he, telling by the smile on his face as he watches his tattoos light up. "I love when you do that"
"I love to do it" your hands leave his now fully glowing tattoos and he takes the moment to take your hand in his. He places a kiss on your hand eyes still on yours.
"love your hands and the power they have" kiss. "the power they have on me" kiss. "on my mind" kiss, "and on my heart"
"And wont say where else..but you know"
He winks at you making you blush. His hands trace your hips feeling your curves. It took him sometime to get used to the power your body emits, but he's like a pro now, knowing how to hold and handle your body. Its like your power has become used to his touch and hold. You certainly have. You give into his touch immediately moving your neck to allow his lips to make a move. and they do. They're soft and gentle against your skin. If you could you'd pull him even closer into your body by his waist.
Your voice gives in to his contact. You whine at each touch. "its like you've got a spell on me, y/n" he says against your skin.
"you dare call my name, jeon" you say seriously but you're everything but serious.
He chuckles "should I shy away from calling my love's name?" he stops his kisses to look into your bright eyes.
"a goddess's name"
"my wife's name" you scoff at that. His fingers tickle your waist knowing your follow up statement. "kookie I can't be your wife" just by the way you his name electricity is sent to his crotch.
"you can be if you just get the tattoo" you know what he means he's been telling you ever since he knew his love for you that you should get the tattoo, but its not that easy. He already has your name tattooed on his. Right on his heart, magically, and on his left chest peck, physically. You knew all you had to do in order to be married to jungkook is if you got the tattoo, but its hard for you. You're timed to be married to someone else tomorrow and your family would never allow a god like you to be married to a mortal like him,
That's what your father said when you brought the idea to him. He even threatened to banish the mortal who had caused you thoughts like that. And after that you pushed away all thoughts of introducing jungkook. You knew it was never fated for a mortal and a god to be intertwined, but you swear you and jungkook's names are written in gold side by side and hearts tied by the red strings of fate. you believe its true and so does he.
"you know its not that easy" you say and sigh. Jungkook knows how hard this is for you, its also hard for him. The thought of being banished is scary but the thought of having you taken away from him is terrifying. he never wants that to happen and he's not gonna let it, whether because of the man you're to marry or because of your father.
"if you just get my name tattooed, you won't be able to marry him" he tries to convince you. "jungkook" you whine and each time you call his name it physically pulls at his heart where you engraved your name.
"baby" he whines back and his whimpery tone causes your core to throb. "if you dont want to I underst-" he says completely honest.
"no, I want to. I want to so badly" your face falls after your statement.
"im just scared..for you" he knew you were. But you didn't need to, and even though he can't compete with the gods, he'd rather be banished than live a life where he can't be with you. And he always wants to show you that. You give in to the touch of his palm on your cheek as you hum feeling his warmth. He stares warmly into your eyes as they stare back, if he wasn't already used to it, he'd go blind from the stars that shine in your eyes. Literally.
"remember when I first met you?" he asks and you nod.
"you were so stupid, how could you cross the garden? You could've been killed" you slap his chest playfully. Your slaps no longer feel like thunder claps now that he's used to them.
"I could've but I didn't, and I never will" he shows you his cheeky grin.
"don't be so cocky"
"speaking of-" he says his eyes dropping to his crotch, your eyes follow his vision and you chuckle.
"fine I'll do it"
"do what? My cock?" you slap his arm.
"no... The tattoo. I'll do it" he looks at you to see if you're serious and you are, you genuinely want to.
"What? afraid you might have to live life without my cock?" you want to slap his arm but he catches it at your wrist and grins at you. You cheekily smirk back.
"Maybe" you shrug "but mostly afraid of living without you"
"Aaa. You're so cute my goddess" he squints his eyes and grabs his chest feigning to be in pain. You're cute little laughter brings him back.
"why don't we change the mood. It's our last day together"
"its not, you need to stop joking about that"
"I'm sorry" he pecks your lips. "let me apologize" he says his lips now by your ears and his hands hooking behind your thighs.
He lifts you and soon enough your core meets his.
  "Fuck, you feel so good " he curses
"don't curse around me jeon" you can barely say by the way he's rolling into you.
...
You sit drenched in gold and jews on a throne that costs more than the lives of the people sitting below you tripled. You never liked sitting in elevated positions and degrading the commers with the way you're towering over them. But your father always said you should do so to remind them of your power and glory. you were never one to feel validation from power and glory, it never impacted you in that manner. Its hard staring into the eyes of the happy crowd knowing the event that is going to occur but what makes it worse is staring into the eyes of your lover while your 'husband' is sat next to you in his own throne. And unlike you he definitely likes the power and glory.
Jungkook is sat straight in line with your vision and he doesn't move his eyes away from you, not even once. You on the other hand keeped on shying away from his burning gaze and when you do he whipsers your name and says how beautiful you look and how your husband-to-be is ugly. he knows when he whipsers your name you can't ignore him and you hear all he says, it's like a prayer. It reminds you of the first time you taught him how to reach you directly.
"Just whisper it gently and passionatly" you say legs swing froma tree as he pays close attention to you. "I don't like it when people yell or say it aggressively." he notes down your likes and dislikes. Mentally and physically.
"you dont have to carry a physical note book to note down, jeon" you say to the man next to you.
"I want to remember everything, so that even if old age catches me and I cant remember anything I can always look back and remember" he turns his face from his book to face you with his warm and cute doe eyes. You love his eyes and unlike him you're not able to hold contact with them, its like their power overpowers yours. He's eyes have and unspeakable power that have captured you since the first day.
"You wont forget, kookie" a nickname he gave you gave to call him. "and I'll never let old age catch you" he chuckles at that as he feels your hand on his cheek. In an event where you to ended up together forever, because of his humanly fate, he'd grow old and die. While you live forever with your everlasting immaculate beauty. it was a sad fact for him but he accepted it. Atleast he gets to live his entire life with you. Even though you Suggested making him immortal, he declined. He never wanted to be with you so that he could be immortal, some moratls would call him foolish for saying no but they don't understand, they don't understand what he feels. He's not here to use you he just to be with you for however long he can.
"Let me make you immortal" you say so passionately hoping he says yes this time. "take it as my gift to you for bringing such joy into my life"
There you go speaking gibberish again, he thinks "i don't need a gift for making you happy, you're a gift for me already" he says and his eyes do sorcery on you, enchanting you not to argue with what he's said.
"I love you and I want to spend this little humanly life I have with you, not arguing about me becoming immortal" you can't argue with him. And all you can do is place a passionate kiss onto his lips which he happily accepts.
Somewhere in jungkook he knew the reason why he didn't want to become immortal, was the fear of living forever with her father's wrath for taking his daughter.
"And now we are gonna have the gift ceremony" the voice of the officient draws you out of your wonders. The gift ceremony is where offerings are given to the couple and even though you're gods and their gifts are meaningless, in value of course but you still appreciate the fact that people give them to you even though you know they do it to get blessings. It's an important part of the process and even though you don't like it you have to do it.
You watch people in the queue present their offerings. Some to you and some to the man next to you, you bless them as they do so. You scoff at how the man next to you feeds off the offerings of the people, that's one of the reasons you love jungkook. He's a selfless man, he doesn't feed off the power and glory. You remember the time he saved a litte bird and set it back in it's nest after you fixed its broken wing. Even though he never had any magical powers he did his best to help others.
"you don't need magical powers to be a good person" he once said to you. And you always smile at the memory.
Speaking of smiling, you watch jungkook smile in the queue as he aproaches quickly. You keep your eyes on him as you wonder what gift he could possibly give you.
Soon enough its his turn and you watch as he bows for you, something you never wanted him to do, but he always insisted. He lays down his gift.
"I hope you like my gift and can bless me adequately" he says as though he didn't just fuck you blind yesterday. His head is bowed to you and his knees on the the golden floor. When you catch his gift you gasp.
Oh jeon what have you done, do you not care for your life. You say in your mind. And like he can hear your thoughts he whipsers your name and speaks. "you are my life"
The ashes of a golden phoenix, given to a goddess on her wedding day by her husband. A symbol for the new golden life that will rise from the ashes. It's a gift only given by gods cause no human and afford the golden ashes of a golden phoenix. This gift is only given once and shows the enternal union between the giver and the receiver, if the receiver accepts.
"what type of gift is this?" the man seated next to you exclaims angrily. "how dare you give my wife a gift I'm meant to give her? How can you afford the ashes of a golden phoenix" at this point people start to stare and whisper at the scene.
"He must be a thief" he accuses. You watch jungkook's body which is still bowed to you. You cant believe he actually risked his life like this. Stupid mortal. Jungkook chuckles like he isn't being yelled at by a god and at risk of death.
"You dare laugh?" he dares to strike but you stop him.
"Leave him" everyone stares at you with surpise.
"Why should I leave someone who dares to discredit my honour and glory"
Fuck your honour and glory, you dont deserve it. Jungkook is the one who deserves to be seated in that seat, you want to say but you can't instead you keep it in your heart.
"I say leave him cause he's just a foolish and stupid mortal who doesn't know what he's doing" you say and jungkook's head lifts to finally meet your eyes. There is truth in your statement but its not as harsh as you say it, and jungkook knows he can see it in your eyes that avoid his. He knows what he's doing.
"And its not like im going to accept it anyways, he probably stole it from the poor phoenix. I don't accept stolen gifts" you finally meet his eyes and he can hear lies you're telling.
The man seems to have relaxed by your reassurance. "Fine I wont punish him because of my wife's mercy"
You and jungkook gag at that internally. "But wont you bless me?" jungkook asks you confidently.
"The nerves, you dare ask her to bless you after the scene you have just caused you." he spits at jungkook. "its her duty t-"
"Fine ill bless you" you say stopping jungkook from ruining his chance at life. "What would you like me to bless you for" jungkook smiles at the opportunity you've given him
"I ask that fate may always be on me and my lover's side" your heart pulls at his request. What is jungkook doing, he could've taken this chance to free himself from you and the danger you carry for them. He could've gone in to find maiden who he would spend the rest of his life with and have children with, even if it hurts you its better for him. But he's so stubborm. He's a very attractive man no maiden would say no to him. So why doesn't he just go that route.
I don't want to go into road where you won't be.
"it is done" you say, and it surely is done.
You don't know how to feel, a part of you wishes jungkook could have just gone away to a better life, but then another part of you knows a better life is when you're with him.
Jungkook knows the consequences, the risk, the challenge. he knows it all and he still wants to be with you as he said nothing is going to stop him not even you and your attenpt to push him away by not accepting the gift. He didn't do all this for nothing, he's not going to let his efforts go into water. And lucky for him fate is on his side even though you don't want to accept it, worrying about what will happen.
"What do you mean his name won't write" your father asks the officiant his voice thunderous at the revelation. Everyone is in a panic and in a shock, your mother, your father and your never-gonna-be husband. Even the people are whispering and gossiping theories. But you arent surprised. Jungkook is not surprised. You knew this would happen you expected it.and your heartbeat grew strong as the moment drew closer amd Jungkook's smile grew wider. People were gonna know who you were fated with.
"His name cannot be written for fate has written another's name" the white bearded officiant speaks. Fate is never wrong and there are no take backs with fate. What fate decides is what's gonna be and even if you try to run from it fate will bring you back to what's destined for you, even if it takes a million more tries.
"Who's name?" your father asks angry from this embarrassment.
"It's a mortal" you can hear a thousand plus gasps in the hall "his name is jun-" it's like he's taking his time saying it on purpose, when he gives you a look you immediately turn to the crowd scared eyes meetng jungkook. You know what's gonna happen when they find out the name of the mortal and so before he says his name. You immediately scream.
"JUNGKOOK GO!" Your voice thunders in the hall. And he does. He goes, to where? he doesn't know but he knows you'll know and you'll find him.
Just as the crowd opens up so jungkook can run out your father screams for thunder. But jungkook is protected not by you, but by yor mother's power and the part of you that's in him.
You turn to your mother who rushes to grab you from the chaos. She takes you to the open room, where all official meeting are held.
"is he -" she knows what your worry is.
"He's gonna be perfectly fine" she comforts you. And you begin to weep and you're glad you have your mother's arms to fall into. She understands and knows your pain, she to was once in love with a mortal, unlucky for her fate was not on her side but love was, it wasn't enough and he died.
"where is it?" your father walks in yelling "where is the tattoo that bound you to that mortal" you shiver under your mother's hold as your father grabs your arm to pull you from your mother. Which he does. "I will srcap it myself" he says to you coldly and you don't expect more from him. "if I have to I will cut the limb its on... NOW WHERE IS IT?" he says starting to tear the sillk covering your body. You cant do much apart from scream and try and stop him.
"you cant disobey fate!" Your mother exclaims and he drops your hand now approaching your mother who doesn't coward from him.
"i don't care about fate, I am a god and I'm  more powerful than fate" he exclaims. "my word is fate"
"And after I scrap that tattoo off her, she'll be married to Min-ho" you sob even more your cries causing a storm outside. And whereever jungkook is , he knows by the way the thunder roars and the lighting strikes he can tell what you feel. Anger, fear and sadness. He wishes badly to be with you but your mother warned him he should go away for a while. And she promised to help him when the time is right.
"Where is it ?" he asks and you try to collect your thoughts.
Before he can ask you again you speak "my heart..." you speak finally saying  where it is.
"You let a mortal engrave on your heart?" he's pissed and you can tell but you aren’t afraid of him. All you're thinking about is jungkook. Is he okay?, is he safe, is he even alive? "a mortal?" he asks again. He knows a mortal does not contain enough power (or any at all) to engrave on a god's heart.
"He's not a mortal" both you and your father turn to your mother who speaks. "He's not a mortal" she repeats.
"What do you mean?" he asks and you too pay attention to her as you wonder what she means. "you made that idiot immortal" his anger is now moving to your mother, but she doesn't fear him.
"No I didn't, she did" your mother nods to you and you widen your eyes prepared to defend yourself.
"I never made him immortal" you defend when your father's eyes burn holes in you.
"Actually you did" your mother says and you wonder if your mother is on your side. But she is on your side. "gods don't engrave their names on mortals hearts and then nothinghappens after" she continues.
"whoever told you to engrave your name on his heart might not have told you, but by doing that you made him immortal."
And then you remember who you went to for help.
Hoseok, the cast out god himself; your uncle.
"You're so rebellious huh? Wanna be like me" he asks you mockingly when you explained everything to him.
"If I do end up like you atleast I'll have somewhere to go" you say and he chuckles at that. He's always told you that if you ever became rebellious you'd have a home with him and that still stands.
So hoseok helped you, he got jungkook's name engraved in his. He's the god of marriage and prosperity after all.
He's the one who told you to engrave on jungkook's heart, in any other situation he'd be worried for jungkook that he might die but the fact that jungkook and you we're fated (he doesn't know how and he still wonders) he knew instead of killing jungkook it'd make him immortal.
Unlike in his sister's case she had begged hoseok for the same thing that you are begging for, but only she was not fated to the mortal. And even if he told her what would have happened she still begged and he did it. And expectedly  the mortal died.
Your mother still feels guilt and curses her hope and how hopeful she was that maybe he would've survived.
You wonder if jungkook knows he's immortal and if he did know why didn't he tell you. Now you understand why jungkook's presence and gaze caused much pressure, no mortal could've had such an effect on you. And why he became immune to you gaze and touch.
Your heart relaxes knowing that your father can't kill jungkook, but that doesn't stop him from being cast out like hoseok.
Wherever jungkook is he grunts and groans at the feeling that pulls at his heart. He lays down as his tattoos flicker on-off like a bulb.
"Hurts to be away from your love right?" Hoseok asks giving him something to drink.
Jungkook nods. He knows who hoseok is, so it's not weird being in his presence but he doesn't know how he got here. But hoseok remembers he's sister's instructions.
"Watch for him and when you see him take him with you" she says the day of the wedding knowing what would unfold.  After hoseok told her what was going in with you, she knew what was going to unfold and she needed a plan. "He needs your help. Train him to embrace and use his power"
Hoseok's home was simple, warm and comforting, but he misses your presence.
"Well you're going to have to deal with it a little longer cause you won't be able to see her anytime soon"
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What you need | prologue
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Synopsis: everybody needs, but how do you define need? Do you even know what you need.
Genre: best friends au, angst, fluff, smut, slow burn.
Jungkook x reader.
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‘’you can’t be serious’’ your brows knits as your voice shakes with disbelief.
‘’I’m serious as fuck yn’’ he spits out like venom from a snake’s glands ‘’Is it so hard to stop being friends with him?’’ he says it like it’s that easy to end a friendship, especially with no valid reason.
‘’yes. We’ve been friends for forever’’ You can feel your throat tremble with all this defending you have to do.
‘’yn 3 years isn’t forever’’
‘’but it's longer than we’ve been together’’ you spit back with your own venom. You wouldn’t put Jungkook over Yunho cause he’s your boyfriend, but that’s not going to make you forget Jungkook. The person who’s been there for you the most (not that you’re counting) ‘’I’m not going to stop being friends with him over nothing or just because you’re threatened by him’’
You know that’s what this is about. You don’t know when it started but Yunho has always seemed to be threatened by Jungkook. You’ve reassured him so much you got tired of it, so you just let him talk to himself when he complained.
‘‘so, this is nothing to you?’’ he stops walking around to stare at you with a glare you’ve never seen. This argument is not like the others you’ve had over Jungkook, it’s worse. The fire spat out and acid thrown (in form of words) causes the whole house to overheat around you, leaving you scorched and burnt.
‘’you really do love Jungkook more than me?’’ he seems fed up with it, and you are too. For how long can you continue to baby his insecurity?
‘’I’ve told you a million times that Jungkook and I are just friends and there’s nothing you need to worry about’’ you try and be the sensible one (as always). Since this argument was about you; you were going to be the one to try and end it if you were going to be able to put out the fire in Yunho.
‘’if I wanted to be with him, I would’ve done it by now, but no, I’m with you and I want to be with you’’ you say with everything, apart from the irritation and anger, in your heart. Maybe it wasn't the best way to say it but you said it, and it did nothing but make him angrier.
He’s silent as if analyses the validity of your words. He knows you’re probably correct, you would never choose Jungkook over him but something just bothers him. He wonders if this has anything to do with you and Jungkook or just an inner unacknowledged vengeance.
‘’what I said still stands, either you stop being friends with him or we’re done’’
Your skin paled as his skin stayed healthy and glowing like this was a piece of cake for him. As if he was unbothered and doing this to make you uncomfortable. You thought you made it to the crossroads but you're far from it. You're actually in the middle of the highway waiting to be hit.
‘’come on yunho, why are being like this’’ you’re getting tired of trying.
‘’you’re doing this to yourself yn’’ How are you doing this to yourself when he’s the one pointing a gun to your head to choose between a rock and a hard place.
‘’it's not fair, because you know I love you and i really care about you’’
‘’if you love me and care about me, you’re going to stop being friends with him’’
His stubbornness is so unbelievable.
‘’you’re not being fair’’ you bite your lower lip. you hope the pain from it can distract you from the pounding of your heart. Your fists clench and unclench as you try to think of what to do, things don’t seem to be easing down and you don’t like it at all.
‘’no yn I’m not, but I have to protect myself’’ his face and tone are as uncaring as ever. He’s being difficult and uncaring as you fight for this relationship. Are you the only one who cares?
‘’protect yourself from what?’’ your voice raises an octave; you start to get frustrated with the confusion from his indifferent behavior.
‘’from getting hurt’’
You’ve had it.
‘’I TOLD YOU, JUNGKOOK AND I ARE NEVER GOING TO BE TOGETHER!’’ you yell like you’ve never yelled before that he’s even taken aback. "I swear’’ your voice goes back to its light and softness, almost begging. But still no change on his part.
You feel like everything in the room is laughing at you.
All the little laughs and happy moments all the promises made, all the kisses gave; in your face laughing at you, mocking you for giving love another chance just for it to spit in your face another time.
If this doesn’t work out, you’re never going to do this again.
‘’That doesn’t guarantee me anything’’ he watches you and you scoff.
‘’so, tell me, me or Jungkook?’’
‘’you’re not being fair’’ you roll your eyes.
‘’that’s just how it is’’ is it really? Or is it how you want it to be? you want to say but hold back you don’t want to add gasoline to this ticking time bomb of a relationship.
‘’Please make the right choice, think about us’’
You chuckle bitterly internally, is this when he cares about what you had?
What you had.
You think of that. Yunho was your hope in love after your last relationship, he was-is your everything. So, if he cares about what you have then why is he doing this?
You think about it. Yunho is your boyfriend, and Jungkook is your best friend. You’ve known Jungkook longer but you love Yunho more (well in the boyfriend way) and you love Jungkook in the best friend way.
Which is more valuable and worth keeping.
‘’I can’t, I’m sorry’’ you breathe out ‘’jungkook is my friend’’
‘I guess you’ve made your choice’’
-
‘’Next time we go out remind me to carry sunscreen’’ jungkook says through the speaker ‘’im looking like a roast turkey’’
You snort.
Knowing Jungkook he’s probably in his bathroom staring at himself. You giggle when you hear him whisper a hot one though.
He isn’t wrong.
‘’speaking of going out, please never bring your boyfriend again.’’ He chuckles out but you stay silent.
At the mention of yunho you freeze, everything does. You know jungkook means no harm. All your friends tease you about Yunho.
Now you begin to wonder if it was a warning hidden behind humor because they knew how much you loved him and passed little jokes about him.
Maybe you should’ve known, how could you have thought of it when you were so “so in love’’ with him though.
‘’yn, you with me?’’ jungkook asks noticing how quiet you’ve gone. He starts to worry that he’s offended you, but you know he’s just joking right? Well, he’s not. He doesn’t like Yunho one single bit and never wants to see him ever again, cause if he does, he’s going to punch him. For many different reasons.
“Are you okay?” he coos out, body tensing in worry at your silence.
Silence.
Sniffle, sniffle.
Jungkook pauses when he hears you sniffle, you’re crying. His heart muscle contracts at the sound.
Why are you crying?
Is it something he’s done? Cause he wouldn’t forgive himself if he was ever the reason a tear left your eye. He wouldn’t forgive anyone who was the reason for your tears.
It was so hard keeping this to yourself and not telling anyone, especially jungkook.
‘’yn what’s wrong, is something going on?’’ you don’t answer and he gets more uneasy. It makes it worse for him that you’re in two different places.
‘’does it have to do with Yunho?’’ he knows he’s probably right, but he just wants you to say it; so, he can have a reason for whatever he’s going to do after.
Silence.
‘’Did he do something to you?’’ his voice gets more impatient.
‘’yn please talk to me’’ at this point he’s begging you to say something. He can’t see you, so the least you can do is say something; tell him he’s overreacting and you’re okay (even though he wouldn’t believe it until he saw you in person. And even then he still wouldn’t believe)
‘’if he did something to you, you need to tell me’’ jungkook paces around his bedroom slowly.
‘’he didn’t do anything’’ You finally speak but it's not what he wants to hear. But it does confirm what he’s thinking.
Jungkook knows it's hard for you to speak when you're crying, normally he’d let you cry it out until you’re calm and can tell him. But right now, he wants you to speak.
‘’it doesn’t sound that way’’ You can hear the anger rising in his tone, if you never knew him, you’d think he was mad at you.
But he’s just on the road to anger, that’s why you didn’t want to tell him. You’d planned on telling him later but your emotions were not on the same page with you.
‘’Did he touch you?’’ now he’s just giving you options to pick yes or no. It's a bit of an overstep in jungkook's part but he's worried and you're not giving him an answer. He wouldn't put it past yunho though.
‘’I swear to god yn if he did...’’ jungkook fumes out letting his thoughts go ahead of him cause you won’t seem to tell him.
You don't know where your voice has gone but its not there, you do want to speak but you can't seem to find the voice or energy.
Even though he’s angry, whatever it is it’s not your fault and he shouldn’t take it out on you. Anger won’t make you speak any quicker.
Jungkook isn't so protective, most of the time, but when yunho is mentioned he has this inkling to keep you closer to him. He doesn't know why but he just does, he tries to keep to himself but his heart aches too much.
‘’talk to me bunny’’ he coos hoping to get more insight.
That pet name does it for you.
‘’he broke up with me kook’’ you wobble out your words.
Jungkook’s hands tap against his table angrily. his jaw unintentionally clenches. He wants to be happy that you're not tied to that bastard anymore, but this is not about him. It's about you. And unlike jungkook, you actually like yunho and are, surprisingly, in love with him.
‘’yn, when did this happen?’’ you can’t tell what emotion he’s speaking with.
‘’two days ago,” you speak out slowly and so low that jungkook wouldn’t have heard you if he didn’t know you.
‘’And you’re only just telling?” you feel like he’s blaming you but you’re just in your feels and you know he isn’t.
‘’I’m still processing it” you defend.
‘’okay’’
‘’I’m coming over right now’’ you can hear him shuffle around, probably putting on some clothes.
“kook, that’s no- you don’t have-‘’
‘’Don’t tell me I don’t have to; I’m on my fucking way’’
-
‘’you didn’t have to drive here’’ you say when you open the door and see a hooded up jungkook.
‘’shut up and let me in’’ he jokes out and lets himself in.
-
‘’you know I’m mad that this when you’re telling’’ jungkook hums out into your hair as his hand comfortingly rubs your arm.
‘’I told you I’m still processing it’’ You coo into his chest, and the vibration from your voice soothes his previously aching beating muscle.
‘’I know, that’s why I’m letting it slide for now’’ Jungkook’s eyes move to look at you, your eyes closed as you lightly breath against his chest.
He's happy you've calmed down now. After walking in he asked you to tell him what happened, you did (not all but you did). You ignored any question of 'why did he break up with you'. You don't want to answer that or even tell him.
His eyes roam your living room which is still the same from the last time he came, maybe with the addition of a new painting. But the overall ambiance and warmth are still present and he knows Yunho’s presence hasn’t contaminated it.
‘’next time you tell me immediately’’ he says without thinking.
‘’Next time?’’ you move away and jungkook cringes and the disappearance of your warmth.
‘’that’s not what I mea-‘’
‘’yeah I know’’ you place your legs on his lap and he gladly accepts them. ‘’but there won't be a next time’’
You say still in thought.
‘’I think I’m done dating’’
It hurts jungkook hearing you say that. He’s seen how many times a douchebag has hurt you, and it weakens him to slowly watch you give up on love.
‘’I’m tired of getting my heart broken, cause that’s all that happens when I date’’ you start ‘’honestly I knew love didn’t exist but I still wanted to try. So, I guess I shouldn’t be mad if love shows me its ass, cause I’ve known all along. true love doesn’t exist, maybe love in all doesn’t exist.’’
One thing jungkook fully believed in his life was true love, he thinks he probably got it from watching his parents be so in love with each other. His mother always told him, that people always look around for what they think is true love when the actual thing is right in front of their face. You just have to pay attention.
‘’I guess this gives me enough time to focus on my career’’ you sing-song.
You try and seem okay and prove something to jungkook.
‘’bunny’’ he calls out softly as his hand brushes passed yours making little electrons lightly dance over your skin.
‘’you'll find someone who truly loves you’’ You understand where his words are coming from but they don’t help you feel not less than.
‘’maybe not in this lifetime, but thanks for trying kook’’ you let out a painful laugh. Jungkook’s eyes sink deep into yours as if trying to find what you’re not telling, what you’re so afraid of showing him.
He wants to know and wants to see everything; you don’t need to hide anything from him.
He hopes you know that.
You move away from his gaze and try to hide what’s left of your hurt. You don’t need him more worried.
‘’so have you taken up my offer for the dating app’’ You change the topic with a smile and a heavy heart.
‘’I’m still thinking about it’’ You watch he’s teeth play with the silver loop at the corner of his lip. You’re still not yet used to his pierced lip even though he’s had it for over a year. Jungkook taps your calf when he catches you looking a little too long at his lip.
‘’if you take any longer, I’m going to have to find a blind date for you myself’’ your eyes flush amusement.
Jungkook’s brows rise in playfulness before they drop and he smiles.
‘’I’m sure anyone you pick would be a good fit’’
‘’glad you know’’
‘’I think I’m going to clock in for the night’’ You yawn and stand. Jungkook watches your figure hover over him. ‘’feel free to stay longer and eat whatever’’
You know he would cause he’s done it before.
‘’I’m just going to head out, got work tomorrow’’ he stands with a groan. “as long as you’ll be fine” he stares at you waiting for an answer. You give him one with your eyes. He’s helped to a lot this night and you don’t want him going late to work.
‘’love you kook’’ you say abruptly and jungkook doesn’t have time to process it when that tingling feeling in his stomach starts. It feels like the time when he had to perform in front of the whole school, in the 10th grade.
He didn't like that feeling, but this one feels more enjoyable.
‘’thanks for coming tonight’’ your bright eyes beam at him.
‘’Anything for you bunny’’ he smiles before he’s out the door.
-
Jungkook didn’t have work the next day, okay maybe he did but one day of not attending wouldn’t hurt him, right?
He did write to his boss after all.
I apologize for the late notice, but...... cause my mother is unwell.
It's just one lie. He hopes his mother doesn’t mind.
As Jungkook pulls over he’s suddenly grateful for all the times you’ve asked him to drop you off at Yunho’s house and how he persisted in walking you up to his apartment.
With his mind made up Jungkook raises his hand to knock on the door. He hopes he still lives here cause it would be embarrassing if he didn’t. If he had moved you would’ve told Jungkook, after all, you tell him everything.
‘’nuguseyo?’’ [who are you?]
Jungkook’s blood boils when the feminine voice speaks. He swears Yunho still lives here. Who’s she?
If what jungkook’s thinking is correct then Yunho is in for more than an ass whooping.
‘’Yunho. does he live here?’’ he speaks to her bluntly. She’s not why he came so he doesn’t care for her.
‘’eung’’ she says before she speaks again ‘’Yeobo’’
Jungkook is too familiar with that term of endearment, so he is correct.
This bastard was cheating on her. And even if he wasn’t and jungkook is reaching, how can he be with someone only a few days after breaking up with her?
‘’someone’s here for you’’ she says as his figure comes into focus.
‘’wh-‘’ his voice cuts off. ‘’jungkook? Look what the cat dragged in. Did yn send you here’’
It pisses Jungkook off how he says your name with no damn respect.
It would have honestly been better for him if you had sent him, he would’ve been at mercy.
But the fact that he’s here on his own accord means Jungkook can do whatever he wants. No mercy.
He just prays you don’t find out. You hate violence and he knows it. You would kill him if you knew he was about to do what he’s about to do. But the red pumping to his fists makes him think unclear, right now all he cares about is avenging you. But maybe he’s doing this to also quench the hatred he has for Yunho within himself.
‘’I’m sure she told you what happened, you won I guess’’ he says it like it was a game ‘’But did you win really.’’ He chuckles.
Jungkook can hear the mocking in his voice.
He didn’t need much motivation until his body reacted and soon crimson painted on his fist.
-
‘’that asshole’’ willoe spits out through her swallow. ‘’he really wanted you to pick?’’ you nod.
‘’I’m glad you made the right choice’’ She places her mug down. You don’t even want to bother and tell her that you almost (for a split second) wanted to pick him over Jungkook. And for the past 2 days, you’ve been wondering if you should’ve. But it’s the loneliness speaking.
Remembering how Jungkook came over yesterday to see you makes you glad that you made that decision. You feel shitty for even thinking of picking Yunho.
‘’Making someone pick is ruthless, selfish and immature’’
Willoe has been wallowing out curses ever since you told her about Yunho, you kinda regret it.
You wonder how Jimin can handle her tongue.
Unlike Jungkook, willoe took you not telling her better. You pin it on the fact that she’s also kept things from you too, for quite a long time too.
One of the things was that she and Jimin had started dating. now that you think about it you probably complained her and Jimin’s ears off (like she’s doing right now to you). Who goes 3 months without telling their bestie that she’s dating her love at first sight who’s also your friend? What impresses you more is how Jimin was able to keep it from you.
If you had even the smallest inkling that she and Jimin were dating you would’ve probably pulled it out of him. But there were no signs.
Or maybe you were too wrapped around Yunho’s nagging that you didn’t pay attention.
‘’Can you stop cursing that man’s lineage’’ Your coffee’s probably going cold with how you’re just holding it. The warmth on the ceramic provides some comfort in a way.
‘’oh I haven’t even begun cursing his lineage’’ she scoffs ‘’It's just that I have a date with Jimin tonight, otherwise, I would’ve gone to pull out the candles’’ You know she’s just playing. Even though Willoe on her days off looks like she’s the type, she’s far from pulling out candles to curse someone. But you wouldn’t put it past her.
You just laugh.
‘’Have you told jungkook?’’ she lowers her voice down to a serious tone.
Your head lifts to look at her confused. ‘’told him what?’’
She rolls her eyes at you as if you don’t know.
‘’that he made you pick between him or jungkook.’’
It clicks. You don’t know if it’s cause of what’s going on but your mind has been foggy of late.
‘’hell no’’ you spit out quite roughly.
‘’why not’’
‘’because it would piss him off, I don’t even know what he would do’’ You finally take a sip of your coffee and cringe at how lukewarm it's gotten. Willoe watches you noticing that you haven’t taken a sip of your coffee.
‘’you think he would beat up Yunho?’’ you ask her for an opinion.
‘’oh, I know he would, without a doubt. I’m surprised you haven’t gotten a call from a hospitalized yunho’’ willoe stares at the waiter to bring her another order. She comes here often so she hopes they remember.
‘’like be for real yn have you looked at him’’ if only she knew how many times you’ve looked at him. ’’He could take Yunho in one go and win’’
you know he can, you have hundreds of his gym pics in your gallery. Not because you stalk him but because jungkook feels the need to send you some every time he’s in the gym (which is like every day).
Why haven’t you deleted them? Because it’s cute that he can share this cute ritual with you of all people. And even though you don’t go to the gym with him at all. The pictures make it like you are accompanying him on his gym journey.
Though your storage isn’t so pleased.
‘’but I just don’t like violence, especially if it's jungkook. I don’t want him to get hurt’’
‘’girl be serious jungkook would never let someone whoop his ass, he’d rather die’’
She’s so right.
‘’and its kinda hot having someone wanting to fight another person for you’’ Willoe blushes at the thought ‘’Jimin once punched a guy who was flirting with me, and I’ve never fucked him harder’’ She looks lost in the thoughts ‘’It was one of the reasons I kept in touch with him. I love possessive men’’ you chuckle as you watch the blood go to her cheeks.
You know Willoe is into those kinds of things.
And that’s one of the things that makes you two different. You don’t like men who do that kind of thing, even though you get where it's coming from. It's unattractive to you.
And that’s one reason you’ll never attend Jungkook’s boxing training sessions. It would kill you to see someone hit Him, even If it’s not serious.
‘’anyway, how’s Jimin? Haven’t talked to him this week’’
‘’yeah, same. He’s been busy lately so he promised me a date to make up for it.’’
You watch her blush at the mention of Jimin, she always does.
You love how they work together. It makes you feel so happy to see her happy and be with someone like Jimin who treats her right.
But it just makes you think of your lacks, when or where were you going to find someone who would love you like Jimin loves Willoe.
‘’god, when will I meet someone like Jimin’’
‘’you will, you just need to open your eyes’’
‘’my eyes have been open and all I can see is bullshit’’
Willow laughs almost choking on her second coffee, you’ve barely touched your first. She’s a coffee addict anyway, so you can’t compete.
‘’Don't worry yn someone will come around’’
You roll your eyes ‘’well I’m done waiting for that one person’’ you feel yourself tense at the thought of being alone forever.
‘’I’ll send you some lavender and chamomile to calm you down’’
Maybe it's time to get into the herbs she’s been recommending.
-
You’ve now been tuning out Jimin’s lecture for a minute. You don’t even know how his consolidation turned into him giving a speech on how to find someone who cares about you, and how you should take a break from dating and ‘’find yourself’’. Whatever the fuck that means.
Most of the time you think you and Jimin are similar, and share the same ideas and beliefs. But maybe it's just the means of saying them that differ.
You’ve missed Jimin and the last thing you want to talk about is Yunho. You’d rather catch up and laugh around.
It's best to get it over with right now anyway. So you let your ears bleed as he speaks.
‘’and that’s why I didn’t like him in the first place....’’ he rumbles on. The red button seems so far away. Your fingers twitch to press it.
Jimin isn’t the most talkative person, you give that title to Willoe. But once he starts to talk he doesn’t seem to stop.
You need a fucking savior right now.
‘’yn are you hearing me’’ he asks from your lack of response.
‘’yeah jimin, well and clear.’’ Lies. You’ve been tuning him out, he could’ve changed the topic and you wouldn’t know.
‘’Good’’
You groan.
In a second after your plea, your savior finally shows.
‘’jimin can I call you later jungkook is calling’’
‘’jungkook? Tell him you’re busy. I’m talking to you’’
‘’I would but I think it's important and you know how whiny he gets’’
‘’alright then I’ll call you later, tell him to stop ignoring my calls too’’ you hum in acknowledgement and nod.
‘’okay bye’’ you click so fast he doesn’t get to respond.
‘’my fucking saviour’’ you say immediately after Jungkook’s call is accepted. He’s a little confused by your abruptness but takes it anyway.
You watch the confusion on his face with a smile.
‘’thank you?’’
‘’is that a question’’
‘’yeah, I just don’t know where it's coming from’’ you watch him fix his hoodie.
‘’you’re my fucking savior, what don’t you get?’’ for a second, he thinks you're talking about Yunho, but if it was about him the last thing, you’d be doing is thanking him. ‘’you just saved me from a jimin lecture’’
He makes a face of realization, he sees you don’t seem to know about Yunho.
Like on cue, Jimin’s text pops up.
Minnie Boy: I know you didn’t want to hear what I was saying, but please consider taking a break for yourself.
Minnie boy: And I promise to not bring it up again.
You giggle at his text, he knows you so well, that maybe you will consider taking his advice.
You: I hope you know I appreciate your advice and I will consider it. Thanks, Minnie.
‘’what was he saying?’’ jungkook’s velvety voice pulls you back to him.
‘’It was about Yunho’’
He lets out a hum, understanding that he gave you one hell of a lecture.
There’s a little comfortable silence as you and jungkook just watch each other.
‘’About that. How are you doing?’’
‘’I guess I’m okay, you guys have made a easier for me”
Jungkook’s happy to hear that.
‘’I appreciate it’’
‘’we’re you’re friends we’ll always be here for you’’
he sounds so sentimental it makes your heart throb.
‘’how about you? how are you doing?’’ you change your position.
Laying on your back with your phone above you. you watch jungkook turn his eyes away.
‘’I’m doing okay, just working and stuff’’
You nod.
‘’and how about the date thing have you thought about it’’
Jungkook will probably never hear the end of it. He runs a hand through his dark hair which seems to be growing longer and longer.
‘’about that, I don’t want to’’
Your glare would probably teleport you to him and smack him if it could.
‘’what do you mean you don’t want to?’’ you sit up and jungkook sighs disappointedly with the position change.
‘’I mean, you’re not doing well, and the last thing I want to be thinking of looking for a girlfriend’’
You roll your eyes.
‘’This is why I don’t like letting you know things, you get so worried and forget about yourself’’
You’re not wrong and he knows it, but he doesn’t find a problem with it.
‘’I’ll be okay, don’t worry about me’’ he watches you talk.
It’s so hard for him not to worry about you when you don’t seem to be telling him the truth about if you’re truly okay. You’re saying it but he doesn’t believe it.
You continue to express how you’re okay and he needs to find someone for himself instead of spending his days worrying about you.
He can’t help but think about whether he should tell you Yunho was cheating or not, he doesn’t want to hurt you. Cause that news would kill you.
But keeping it to himself feels like it will do more harm.
But it won’t hurt you if you never find out, all you have to do is never talk to Yunho again and he trusts you can do that.
‘’okay yn if you want to so badly find me a blind date’’ he says after you suggest it for a millionth time.
You’re shocked by his acceptance but also excited.
‘’and I will. Get your suit jacket ready 'cause jungkook you’re going on a date ’ you mimic the voice of dating show presenters.
‘’I'll be waiting’’ he chuckles out watching you smile.
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A/n: I don't know why the prologue is so long.😭
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Synopsis: everybody needs, but how do you define need? Do you even know what you need.
Genre: best friends au, angst, fluff, smut, slow burn.
Jungkook x reader.
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‘’you can’t be serious’’ your brows knits as your voice shakes with disbelief.
‘’I’m serious as fuck yn’’ he spits out like venom from a snake’s glands ‘’Is it so hard to stop being friends with him?’’ he says it like it’s that easy to end a friendship, especially with no valid reason.
‘’yes. We’ve been friends for forever’’ You can feel your throat tremble with all this defending you have to do.
‘’yn 3 years isn’t forever’’
‘’but it's longer than we’ve been together’’ you spit back with your own venom. You wouldn’t put Jungkook over Yunho cause he’s your boyfriend, but that’s not going to make you forget Jungkook. The person who’s been there for you the most (not that you’re counting) ‘’I’m not going to stop being friends with him over nothing or just because you’re threatened by him’’
You know that’s what this is about. You don’t know when it started but Yunho has always seemed to be threatened by Jungkook. You’ve reassured him so much you got tired of it, so you just let him talk to himself when he complained.
‘‘so, this is nothing to you?’’ he stops walking around to stare at you with a glare you’ve never seen. This argument is not like the others you’ve had over Jungkook, it’s worse. The fire spat out and acid thrown (in form of words) causes the whole house to overheat around you, leaving you scorched and burnt.
‘’you really do love Jungkook more than me?’’ he seems fed up with it, and you are too. For how long can you continue to baby his insecurity?
‘’I’ve told you a million times that Jungkook and I are just friends and there’s nothing you need to worry about’’ you try and be the sensible one (as always). Since this argument was about you; you were going to be the one to try and end it if you were going to be able to put out the fire in Yunho.
‘’if I wanted to be with him, I would’ve done it by now, but no, I’m with you and I want to be with you’’ you say with everything, apart from the irritation and anger, in your heart. Maybe it wasn't the best way to say it but you said it, and it did nothing but make him angrier.
He’s silent as if analyses the validity of your words. He knows you’re probably correct, you would never choose Jungkook over him but something just bothers him. He wonders if this has anything to do with you and Jungkook or just an inner unacknowledged vengeance.
‘’what I said still stands, either you stop being friends with him or we’re done’’
Your skin paled as his skin stayed healthy and glowing like this was a piece of cake for him. As if he was unbothered and doing this to make you uncomfortable. You thought you made it to the crossroads but you're far from it. You're actually in the middle of the highway waiting to be hit.
‘’come on yunho, why are being like this’’ you’re getting tired of trying.
‘’you’re doing this to yourself yn’’ How are you doing this to yourself when he’s the one pointing a gun to your head to choose between a rock and a hard place.
‘’it's not fair, because you know I love you and i really care about you’’
‘’if you love me and care about me, you’re going to stop being friends with him’’
His stubbornness is so unbelievable.
‘’you’re not being fair’’ you bite your lower lip. you hope the pain from it can distract you from the pounding of your heart. Your fists clench and unclench as you try to think of what to do, things don’t seem to be easing down and you don’t like it at all.
‘’no yn I’m not, but I have to protect myself’’ his face and tone are as uncaring as ever. He’s being difficult and uncaring as you fight for this relationship. Are you the only one who cares?
‘’protect yourself from what?’’ your voice raises an octave; you start to get frustrated with the confusion from his indifferent behavior.
‘’from getting hurt’’
You’ve had it.
‘’I TOLD YOU, JUNGKOOK AND I ARE NEVER GOING TO BE TOGETHER!’’ you yell like you’ve never yelled before that he’s even taken aback. "I swear’’ your voice goes back to its light and softness, almost begging. But still no change on his part.
You feel like everything in the room is laughing at you.
All the little laughs and happy moments all the promises made, all the kisses gave; in your face laughing at you, mocking you for giving love another chance just for it to spit in your face another time.
If this doesn’t work out, you’re never going to do this again.
‘’That doesn’t guarantee me anything’’ he watches you and you scoff.
‘’so, tell me, me or Jungkook?’’
‘’you’re not being fair’’ you roll your eyes.
‘’that’s just how it is’’ is it really? Or is it how you want it to be? you want to say but hold back you don’t want to add gasoline to this ticking time bomb of a relationship.
‘’Please make the right choice, think about us’’
You chuckle bitterly internally, is this when he cares about what you had?
What you had.
You think of that. Yunho was your hope in love after your last relationship, he was-is your everything. So, if he cares about what you have then why is he doing this?
You think about it. Yunho is your boyfriend, and Jungkook is your best friend. You’ve known Jungkook longer but you love Yunho more (well in the boyfriend way) and you love Jungkook in the best friend way.
Which is more valuable and worth keeping.
‘’I can’t, I’m sorry’’ you breathe out ‘’jungkook is my friend’’
‘I guess you’ve made your choice’’
-
‘’Next time we go out remind me to carry sunscreen’’ jungkook says through the speaker ‘’im looking like a roast turkey’’
You snort.
Knowing Jungkook he’s probably in his bathroom staring at himself. You giggle when you hear him whisper a hot one though.
He isn’t wrong.
‘’speaking of going out, please never bring your boyfriend again.’’ He chuckles out but you stay silent.
At the mention of yunho you freeze, everything does. You know jungkook means no harm. All your friends tease you about Yunho.
Now you begin to wonder if it was a warning hidden behind humor because they knew how much you loved him and passed little jokes about him.
Maybe you should’ve known, how could you have thought of it when you were so “so in love’’ with him though.
‘’yn, you with me?’’ jungkook asks noticing how quiet you’ve gone. He starts to worry that he’s offended you, but you know he’s just joking right? Well, he’s not. He doesn’t like Yunho one single bit and never wants to see him ever again, cause if he does, he’s going to punch him. For many different reasons.
“Are you okay?” he coos out, body tensing in worry at your silence.
Silence.
Sniffle, sniffle.
Jungkook pauses when he hears you sniffle, you’re crying. His heart muscle contracts at the sound.
Why are you crying?
Is it something he’s done? Cause he wouldn’t forgive himself if he was ever the reason a tear left your eye. He wouldn’t forgive anyone who was the reason for your tears.
It was so hard keeping this to yourself and not telling anyone, especially jungkook.
‘’yn what’s wrong, is something going on?’’ you don’t answer and he gets more uneasy. It makes it worse for him that you’re in two different places.
‘’does it have to do with Yunho?’’ he knows he’s probably right, but he just wants you to say it; so, he can have a reason for whatever he’s going to do after.
Silence.
‘’Did he do something to you?’’ his voice gets more impatient.
‘’yn please talk to me’’ at this point he’s begging you to say something. He can’t see you, so the least you can do is say something; tell him he’s overreacting and you’re okay (even though he wouldn’t believe it until he saw you in person. And even then he still wouldn’t believe)
‘’if he did something to you, you need to tell me’’ jungkook paces around his bedroom slowly.
‘’he didn’t do anything’’ You finally speak but it's not what he wants to hear. But it does confirm what he’s thinking.
Jungkook knows it's hard for you to speak when you're crying, normally he’d let you cry it out until you’re calm and can tell him. But right now, he wants you to speak.
‘’it doesn’t sound that way’’ You can hear the anger rising in his tone, if you never knew him, you’d think he was mad at you.
But he’s just on the road to anger, that’s why you didn’t want to tell him. You’d planned on telling him later but your emotions were not on the same page with you.
‘’Did he touch you?’’ now he’s just giving you options to pick yes or no. It's a bit of an overstep in jungkook's part but he's worried and you're not giving him an answer. He wouldn't put it past yunho though.
‘’I swear to god yn if he did...’’ jungkook fumes out letting his thoughts go ahead of him cause you won’t seem to tell him.
You don't know where your voice has gone but its not there, you do want to speak but you can't seem to find the voice or energy.
Even though he’s angry, whatever it is it’s not your fault and he shouldn’t take it out on you. Anger won’t make you speak any quicker.
Jungkook isn't so protective, most of the time, but when yunho is mentioned he has this inkling to keep you closer to him. He doesn't know why but he just does, he tries to keep to himself but his heart aches too much.
‘’talk to me bunny’’ he coos hoping to get more insight.
That pet name does it for you.
‘’he broke up with me kook’’ you wobble out your words.
Jungkook’s hands tap against his table angrily. his jaw unintentionally clenches. He wants to be happy that you're not tied to that bastard anymore, but this is not about him. It's about you. And unlike jungkook, you actually like yunho and are, surprisingly, in love with him.
‘’yn, when did this happen?’’ you can’t tell what emotion he’s speaking with.
‘’two days ago,” you speak out slowly and so low that jungkook wouldn’t have heard you if he didn’t know you.
‘’And you’re only just telling?” you feel like he’s blaming you but you’re just in your feels and you know he isn’t.
‘’I’m still processing it” you defend.
‘’okay’’
‘’I’m coming over right now’’ you can hear him shuffle around, probably putting on some clothes.
“kook, that’s no- you don’t have-‘’
‘’Don’t tell me I don’t have to; I’m on my fucking way’’
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‘’you didn’t have to drive here’’ you say when you open the door and see a hooded up jungkook.
‘’shut up and let me in’’ he jokes out and lets himself in.
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‘’you know I’m mad that this when you’re telling’’ jungkook hums out into your hair as his hand comfortingly rubs your arm.
‘’I told you I’m still processing it’’ You coo into his chest, and the vibration from your voice soothes his previously aching beating muscle.
‘’I know, that’s why I’m letting it slide for now’’ Jungkook’s eyes move to look at you, your eyes closed as you lightly breath against his chest.
He's happy you've calmed down now. After walking in he asked you to tell him what happened, you did (not all but you did). You ignored any question of 'why did he break up with you'. You don't want to answer that or even tell him.
His eyes roam your living room which is still the same from the last time he came, maybe with the addition of a new painting. But the overall ambiance and warmth are still present and he knows Yunho’s presence hasn’t contaminated it.
‘’next time you tell me immediately’’ he says without thinking.
‘’Next time?’’ you move away and jungkook cringes and the disappearance of your warmth.
‘’that’s not what I mea-‘’
‘’yeah I know’’ you place your legs on his lap and he gladly accepts them. ‘’but there won't be a next time’’
You say still in thought.
‘’I think I’m done dating’’
It hurts jungkook hearing you say that. He’s seen how many times a douchebag has hurt you, and it weakens him to slowly watch you give up on love.
‘’I’m tired of getting my heart broken, cause that’s all that happens when I date’’ you start ‘’honestly I knew love didn’t exist but I still wanted to try. So, I guess I shouldn’t be mad if love shows me its ass, cause I’ve known all along. true love doesn’t exist, maybe love in all doesn’t exist.’’
One thing jungkook fully believed in his life was true love, he thinks he probably got it from watching his parents be so in love with each other. His mother always told him, that people always look around for what they think is true love when the actual thing is right in front of their face. You just have to pay attention.
‘’I guess this gives me enough time to focus on my career’’ you sing-song.
You try and seem okay and prove something to jungkook.
‘’bunny’’ he calls out softly as his hand brushes passed yours making little electrons lightly dance over your skin.
‘’you'll find someone who truly loves you’’ You understand where his words are coming from but they don’t help you feel not less than.
‘’maybe not in this lifetime, but thanks for trying kook’’ you let out a painful laugh. Jungkook’s eyes sink deep into yours as if trying to find what you’re not telling, what you’re so afraid of showing him.
He wants to know and wants to see everything; you don’t need to hide anything from him.
He hopes you know that.
You move away from his gaze and try to hide what’s left of your hurt. You don’t need him more worried.
‘’so have you taken up my offer for the dating app’’ You change the topic with a smile and a heavy heart.
‘’I’m still thinking about it’’ You watch he’s teeth play with the silver loop at the corner of his lip. You’re still not yet used to his pierced lip even though he’s had it for over a year. Jungkook taps your calf when he catches you looking a little too long at his lip.
‘’if you take any longer, I’m going to have to find a blind date for you myself’’ your eyes flush amusement.
Jungkook’s brows rise in playfulness before they drop and he smiles.
‘’I’m sure anyone you pick would be a good fit’’
‘’glad you know’’
‘’I think I’m going to clock in for the night’’ You yawn and stand. Jungkook watches your figure hover over him. ‘’feel free to stay longer and eat whatever’’
You know he would cause he’s done it before.
‘’I’m just going to head out, got work tomorrow’’ he stands with a groan. “as long as you’ll be fine” he stares at you waiting for an answer. You give him one with your eyes. He’s helped to a lot this night and you don’t want him going late to work.
‘’love you kook’’ you say abruptly and jungkook doesn’t have time to process it when that tingling feeling in his stomach starts. It feels like the time when he had to perform in front of the whole school, in the 10th grade.
He didn't like that feeling, but this one feels more enjoyable.
‘’thanks for coming tonight’’ your bright eyes beam at him.
‘’Anything for you bunny’’ he smiles before he’s out the door.
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Jungkook didn’t have work the next day, okay maybe he did but one day of not attending wouldn’t hurt him, right?
He did write to his boss after all.
I apologize for the late notice, but...... cause my mother is unwell.
It's just one lie. He hopes his mother doesn’t mind.
As Jungkook pulls over he’s suddenly grateful for all the times you’ve asked him to drop you off at Yunho’s house and how he persisted in walking you up to his apartment.
With his mind made up Jungkook raises his hand to knock on the door. He hopes he still lives here cause it would be embarrassing if he didn’t. If he had moved you would’ve told Jungkook, after all, you tell him everything.
‘’nuguseyo?’’ [who are you?]
Jungkook’s blood boils when the feminine voice speaks. He swears Yunho still lives here. Who’s she?
If what jungkook’s thinking is correct then Yunho is in for more than an ass whooping.
‘’Yunho. does he live here?’’ he speaks to her bluntly. She’s not why he came so he doesn’t care for her.
‘’eung’’ she says before she speaks again ‘’Yeobo’’
Jungkook is too familiar with that term of endearment, so he is correct.
This bastard was cheating on her. And even if he wasn’t and jungkook is reaching, how can he be with someone only a few days after breaking up with her?
‘’someone’s here for you’’ she says as his figure comes into focus.
‘’wh-‘’ his voice cuts off. ‘’jungkook? Look what the cat dragged in. Did yn send you here’’
It pisses Jungkook off how he says your name with no damn respect.
It would have honestly been better for him if you had sent him, he would’ve been at mercy.
But the fact that he’s here on his own accord means Jungkook can do whatever he wants. No mercy.
He just prays you don’t find out. You hate violence and he knows it. You would kill him if you knew he was about to do what he’s about to do. But the red pumping to his fists makes him think unclear, right now all he cares about is avenging you. But maybe he’s doing this to also quench the hatred he has for Yunho within himself.
‘’I’m sure she told you what happened, you won I guess’’ he says it like it was a game ‘’But did you win really.’’ He chuckles.
Jungkook can hear the mocking in his voice.
He didn’t need much motivation until his body reacted and soon crimson painted on his fist.
-
‘’that asshole’’ willoe spits out through her swallow. ‘’he really wanted you to pick?’’ you nod.
‘’I’m glad you made the right choice’’ She places her mug down. You don’t even want to bother and tell her that you almost (for a split second) wanted to pick him over Jungkook. And for the past 2 days, you’ve been wondering if you should’ve. But it’s the loneliness speaking.
Remembering how Jungkook came over yesterday to see you makes you glad that you made that decision. You feel shitty for even thinking of picking Yunho.
‘’Making someone pick is ruthless, selfish and immature’’
Willoe has been wallowing out curses ever since you told her about Yunho, you kinda regret it.
You wonder how Jimin can handle her tongue.
Unlike Jungkook, willoe took you not telling her better. You pin it on the fact that she’s also kept things from you too, for quite a long time too.
One of the things was that she and Jimin had started dating. now that you think about it you probably complained her and Jimin’s ears off (like she’s doing right now to you). Who goes 3 months without telling their bestie that she’s dating her love at first sight who’s also your friend? What impresses you more is how Jimin was able to keep it from you.
If you had even the smallest inkling that she and Jimin were dating you would’ve probably pulled it out of him. But there were no signs.
Or maybe you were too wrapped around Yunho’s nagging that you didn’t pay attention.
‘’Can you stop cursing that man’s lineage’’ Your coffee’s probably going cold with how you’re just holding it. The warmth on the ceramic provides some comfort in a way.
‘’oh I haven’t even begun cursing his lineage’’ she scoffs ‘’It's just that I have a date with Jimin tonight, otherwise, I would’ve gone to pull out the candles’’ You know she’s just playing. Even though Willoe on her days off looks like she’s the type, she’s far from pulling out candles to curse someone. But you wouldn’t put it past her.
You just laugh.
‘’Have you told jungkook?’’ she lowers her voice down to a serious tone.
Your head lifts to look at her confused. ‘’told him what?’’
She rolls her eyes at you as if you don’t know.
‘’that he made you pick between him or jungkook.’’
It clicks. You don’t know if it’s cause of what’s going on but your mind has been foggy of late.
‘’hell no’’ you spit out quite roughly.
‘’why not’’
‘’because it would piss him off, I don’t even know what he would do’’ You finally take a sip of your coffee and cringe at how lukewarm it's gotten. Willoe watches you noticing that you haven’t taken a sip of your coffee.
‘’you think he would beat up Yunho?’’ you ask her for an opinion.
‘’oh, I know he would, without a doubt. I’m surprised you haven’t gotten a call from a hospitalized yunho’’ willoe stares at the waiter to bring her another order. She comes here often so she hopes they remember.
‘’like be for real yn have you looked at him’’ if only she knew how many times you’ve looked at him. ’’He could take Yunho in one go and win’’
you know he can, you have hundreds of his gym pics in your gallery. Not because you stalk him but because jungkook feels the need to send you some every time he’s in the gym (which is like every day).
Why haven’t you deleted them? Because it’s cute that he can share this cute ritual with you of all people. And even though you don’t go to the gym with him at all. The pictures make it like you are accompanying him on his gym journey.
Though your storage isn’t so pleased.
‘’but I just don’t like violence, especially if it's jungkook. I don’t want him to get hurt’’
‘’girl be serious jungkook would never let someone whoop his ass, he’d rather die’’
She’s so right.
‘’and its kinda hot having someone wanting to fight another person for you’’ Willoe blushes at the thought ‘’Jimin once punched a guy who was flirting with me, and I’ve never fucked him harder’’ She looks lost in the thoughts ‘’It was one of the reasons I kept in touch with him. I love possessive men’’ you chuckle as you watch the blood go to her cheeks.
You know Willoe is into those kinds of things.
And that’s one of the things that makes you two different. You don’t like men who do that kind of thing, even though you get where it's coming from. It's unattractive to you.
And that’s one reason you’ll never attend Jungkook’s boxing training sessions. It would kill you to see someone hit Him, even If it’s not serious.
‘’anyway, how’s Jimin? Haven’t talked to him this week’’
‘’yeah, same. He’s been busy lately so he promised me a date to make up for it.’’
You watch her blush at the mention of Jimin, she always does.
You love how they work together. It makes you feel so happy to see her happy and be with someone like Jimin who treats her right.
But it just makes you think of your lacks, when or where were you going to find someone who would love you like Jimin loves Willoe.
‘’god, when will I meet someone like Jimin’’
‘’you will, you just need to open your eyes’’
‘’my eyes have been open and all I can see is bullshit’’
Willow laughs almost choking on her second coffee, you’ve barely touched your first. She’s a coffee addict anyway, so you can’t compete.
‘’Don't worry yn someone will come around’’
You roll your eyes ‘’well I’m done waiting for that one person’’ you feel yourself tense at the thought of being alone forever.
‘’I’ll send you some lavender and chamomile to calm you down’’
Maybe it's time to get into the herbs she’s been recommending.
-
You’ve now been tuning out Jimin’s lecture for a minute. You don’t even know how his consolidation turned into him giving a speech on how to find someone who cares about you, and how you should take a break from dating and ‘’find yourself’’. Whatever the fuck that means.
Most of the time you think you and Jimin are similar, and share the same ideas and beliefs. But maybe it's just the means of saying them that differ.
You’ve missed Jimin and the last thing you want to talk about is Yunho. You’d rather catch up and laugh around.
It's best to get it over with right now anyway. So you let your ears bleed as he speaks.
‘’and that’s why I didn’t like him in the first place....’’ he rumbles on. The red button seems so far away. Your fingers twitch to press it.
Jimin isn’t the most talkative person, you give that title to Willoe. But once he starts to talk he doesn’t seem to stop.
You need a fucking savior right now.
‘’yn are you hearing me’’ he asks from your lack of response.
‘’yeah jimin, well and clear.’’ Lies. You’ve been tuning him out, he could’ve changed the topic and you wouldn’t know.
‘’Good’’
You groan.
In a second after your plea, your savior finally shows.
‘’jimin can I call you later jungkook is calling’’
‘’jungkook? Tell him you’re busy. I’m talking to you’’
‘’I would but I think it's important and you know how whiny he gets’’
‘’alright then I’ll call you later, tell him to stop ignoring my calls too’’ you hum in acknowledgement and nod.
‘’okay bye’’ you click so fast he doesn’t get to respond.
‘’my fucking saviour’’ you say immediately after Jungkook’s call is accepted. He’s a little confused by your abruptness but takes it anyway.
You watch the confusion on his face with a smile.
‘’thank you?’’
‘’is that a question’’
‘’yeah, I just don’t know where it's coming from’’ you watch him fix his hoodie.
‘’you’re my fucking savior, what don’t you get?’’ for a second, he thinks you're talking about Yunho, but if it was about him the last thing, you’d be doing is thanking him. ‘’you just saved me from a jimin lecture’’
He makes a face of realization, he sees you don’t seem to know about Yunho.
Like on cue, Jimin’s text pops up.
Minnie Boy: I know you didn’t want to hear what I was saying, but please consider taking a break for yourself.
Minnie boy: And I promise to not bring it up again.
You giggle at his text, he knows you so well, that maybe you will consider taking his advice.
You: I hope you know I appreciate your advice and I will consider it. Thanks, Minnie.
‘’what was he saying?’’ jungkook’s velvety voice pulls you back to him.
‘’It was about Yunho’’
He lets out a hum, understanding that he gave you one hell of a lecture.
There’s a little comfortable silence as you and jungkook just watch each other.
‘’About that. How are you doing?’’
‘’I guess I’m okay, you guys have made a easier for me”
Jungkook’s happy to hear that.
‘’I appreciate it’’
‘’we’re you’re friends we’ll always be here for you’’
he sounds so sentimental it makes your heart throb.
‘’how about you? how are you doing?’’ you change your position.
Laying on your back with your phone above you. you watch jungkook turn his eyes away.
‘’I’m doing okay, just working and stuff’’
You nod.
‘’and how about the date thing have you thought about it’’
Jungkook will probably never hear the end of it. He runs a hand through his dark hair which seems to be growing longer and longer.
‘’about that, I don’t want to’’
Your glare would probably teleport you to him and smack him if it could.
‘’what do you mean you don’t want to?’’ you sit up and jungkook sighs disappointedly with the position change.
‘’I mean, you’re not doing well, and the last thing I want to be thinking of looking for a girlfriend’’
You roll your eyes.
‘’This is why I don’t like letting you know things, you get so worried and forget about yourself’’
You’re not wrong and he knows it, but he doesn’t find a problem with it.
‘’I’ll be okay, don’t worry about me’’ he watches you talk.
It’s so hard for him not to worry about you when you don’t seem to be telling him the truth about if you’re truly okay. You’re saying it but he doesn’t believe it.
You continue to express how you’re okay and he needs to find someone for himself instead of spending his days worrying about you.
He can’t help but think about whether he should tell you Yunho was cheating or not, he doesn’t want to hurt you. Cause that news would kill you.
But keeping it to himself feels like it will do more harm.
But it won’t hurt you if you never find out, all you have to do is never talk to Yunho again and he trusts you can do that.
‘’okay yn if you want to so badly find me a blind date’’ he says after you suggest it for a millionth time.
You’re shocked by his acceptance but also excited.
‘’and I will. Get your suit jacket ready 'cause jungkook you’re going on a date ’ you mimic the voice of dating show presenters.
‘’I'll be waiting’’ he chuckles out watching you smile.
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A/n: I don't know why the prologue is so long.😭
Feedback is appreciated.
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Synopsis: everybody needs, but how do you define need? Do you even know what you need.
Genre: best friends au, angst, fluff, smut, slow burn.
Jungkook x reader.
[Ongoing series]
Prologue
WATTPAD COVER.
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A/n: this series is a refresher for me, cause unlike the others I actually plan the chapters which maybe, a big MAYBE, could lead to constant uploads.
Might post the the first chapter tomorrow if I'm done proofreading.
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There are days that i have to listen to music every second i'm awake and conscious or ill kill myself
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Thanks for adding predestined 🥰 much love
JUNGKOOK FANFIC RECOMMENDATIONS(12).° ༘🎧⋆🖇₊˚ෆ
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🪩 Miracle Of The Season | Angel Jungkook x Fallen Angel F!Reader | OneShot | @cybrsan
🪩 There’s Only Me When There’s You | Jungkook x Reader | OneShot | @koostattoos
🪩 PRINCESS TREATMENT | JK X Reader | Series | @2hightocare
🪩 best friends..? | best friend!Jungkook x fem!reader | Series | @just4koo
🪩 Home for the Holidays | jungkook x f. reader | OneShot | @jjungkookislife
🪩 Closer To You | Rich, spoilt brat!Jeongguk X Doctor! Reader | OneShot | @back2bluesidex
🪩 First type of Soul Mate: The Soul Crossing Mate | Prince!Jungkook X Reader | @beautifulfuckup99
🪩 What he wants, he gets | Jeon Jungkook x Reader (idol au) | OneShot | @wildestdreamsblog
🪩 Debut | sunbaenim!JK X Reader | OneShot | @yankpop
🪩 Cruel Beast | idol yandere Jungkook x Idol Y/n | OneShot | @kangmoon27
🪩 PREDESTINED | Mortal/commer jk x goddess reader | OneShot | @keen-li
🪩 DEATH | Yandere! Dark! Android! Jeon Jungkook x Widower! Fem! Reader | @pynkgothicka
🪩 Daddy Daycare | Technician! Jungkook x Teacher's Assistant! Reader | Series | @bunnyhugs77
🪩 Yours Truly | popular jungkook x tsundere f reader | @solemnreads
🪩 Cherry Flavored | Biker!JK X Reader | OneShot | @jungkookstatts
🪩 Oath | JK X Reader | Mafia AU | Series | @bangtan-yeonghon
🪩 too young | single dad!jungkook X Reader | series | @jeonggukookies
🪩 How to Get Rid of Your Virginity | badboy!jungkook x theaternerd!reader | OneShot | @strvngeweather
🪩 Mr. Take Your Bitch | Idol!JK X Reader | OneShot | @bunnyhugs77
🪩 Focused on her | aged jungkook X Reader | OneShot | @000jeon
🪩 sorry (not sorry) | JK X Reader | OneShot | @angelguk
🪩 ALL AT ONCE | unhinged jungkook X shy oc | Series | @muniimyg
🪩 Valentine Vixen | Stripper! Reader x Rich! Jungkook | OneShot | @bunnyhugs77
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Wtf doe getting booped mean?😭
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Fake dating?
Warnings: cussing, smut. (I'm too tired to add detailed warningsbut the is the basic)
18+ MDNI
Wc. 4k
A/n: just a quickie, I don't think this is as good as I want it to be so yeah whatever.
....
"Be my girlfriend " jungkook spits out sharply. You snap your head so quick you might've snapped it.
"What the fuck jungkook " you knit your brows so tight they might touch.
" y/n relax" jungkook rolls his eyes at your reaction. "You're being dramatic"
You pull back "dramatic? You literally asked me to be your girlfriend just before going into your parents' house."
"Y/n are you going to be my girlfriend or not" there's no warmth in his words as it should be when you're asking someone to be your partner. 
You lean back against the car seat and think. You know jungkook and he's not asking you you be his girlfriend cause he loves you, he's doing it cause he did something.
"Did you lie to your parents that you have a girlfriend?" You can feel the laugh build up in your throat. And by his embarrassed face you know you're right.
He's face grows even more embarrassed when you laugh.
"Why the fuck would you do that" you say through a laugh and he's not feeling it.
"Y/n stop" the embarrassment embeds itself in his throat.
You shrug your shoulders giving in to his plea for mercy.
"My mom was bugging me about it so I'm just doing this so shut her up" he finally meets your eyes and you can see he's being genuine. You kinda feel bad for laughing now. No you don't.
"It's just for the weekend though. Then later in we can just lie that we broke up and by the next time I see her maybe I'd have a girlfriend " he looks at your face and he can't determine if you're pitying him or feeling sad.
"What's wrong?" He says. You didn't even realise that your face had fallen.
"No. Nothing " you smile. "The thing is will they believe. We've been friends for a long time I doubt they would believe"
"Don't worry about that. My mom has always suspected we liked each other anyways" he mumbles out like it's nothing.
"Ew" you turn to look out the window.
You don't see it but you can feel jungkook stare at you.
"What do you mean ew "
You open the car door. " I mean EW I could never like you" you blunt out. "Now let's go in boyfriend " it feels weird saying that to jungkook, but it doesn't mean anything so it doesn't matter.
You shut the door and jungkook watches you walk to the door to his parent's front door. He snaps out of watching you when you turn to call him over with a face feigning anger.
He smiles before locking the car.
He knows you've agreed to help him but he still doesn't know how you feel about it. Does it bother you?
You flinch when you feel jungkook's hand on your lower.
"Ready babe?"
"Ready" you smile hoping your artificial blush is hiding the real one.
....
"I knew you two would start dating eventually " jungkook's mother says across the dinner table.
Jungkook cringes feeling the awkward conversation coming up. You cringe at the sad fact that all of this is a ruse and she seems so happy about it.
"Keep this between the two of us y/n" she whispers to you but every could hear "I preferred you over all of his other girlfriends. I was just waiting for him to grow a pair and ask you out"
"You're such a beautiful girl y/n, can't wait till you're Mrs Jeon too" she giggles out.
"Mom" jungkook calls out. "Too fast"
"Whatever, just marry her" jungkook groans when she says that.
"Mrs jeon I appreciate the compliment and the wonderful food. But I think I'm going to head to bed now"
She stops you when you try and take the dishes.
"I'll deal with that. you and jungkook should just go settle down in his bedroom"
You feel bad for letting her do the dishes but she insisted. You nod and walk to the bedroom.
Jungkook turns to his mom "please take it easy with y/n"
She looks at him with a smirk as if she doesn't know what he's talking about.
"It's her first relationship" he adds.  He knows it must be weird for you pretending to be in a relationship when you've never been in one.
You've caught yourself in flings and situationships but they've never made the relationship official so you just gave up. You've always wanted to be in a relationship,  be a girlfriend and eventually a wife, but people in this age are never into that. So you've sat waiting to find someone who wants what you want and sometimes you're jealous of how jungkook wants to be in a relationship but he says he hasn't found or can't find the right girl.
So you're both just chilling waiting for your perfect matches.
"You're sleeping on the floor right?" You ask him when he walked into the room.
"Yeah" he says and you immediately through a duvet on the carpet next to the bed.
"Damn. You don't want to share a bed that bad?" He whines.
"We've never shared a bed here. And plus you always say you'd take the floor"
All the times you and jungkook have visited his parents he's always taken the floor and you the bed. It's normal but now it's different cause you're "Dating" so you wonder if it'd be weird to not share a bed. You don't want to ask him though, don't want to seem like you want to share a bed with him.
"Don't you think it'd be weird if we don't share a bed?" Jungkook asks and you're glad it's coming from his mouth.
"I don't know maybe?" You say wanting to be nonchalant.
"I think we should share the bed" he dips the bed multiple time to check if it's still springy, it would've been a normal act if he was doing that without looking at you like a lion about to strike.
His gaze makes you heat up and glance at all things in the room apart form jungkook. But eventually your eyes meet and he's grinning.  He's fucking with you.
"You can just take the bed if you want it so bad" your words come out a little sharp cause of how flustered you are.
You walk over to the little set up on the floor and lay there.
"Yes I want the bed but I want it with you" he rushes out before thinking, he stutters after catching what he's just said.
"I don't mean it like that, I mean I think we should share the bed or my I'm will think something's up"
You get what he's saying but after what he's from blubbering out you're afraid sharing a bed would cross a boundary.
"I think we'll be fine she won't see us. It's not like she'll just walk in" you turn your body to face away from jungkook as you get comfortable on the floor.
"You didn't have to sleep on the floor you know" he says laying on the bed staring  at the ceiling.
"I'm fine like this" you say and the room goes silent.
You almost fall asleep but then you hear the door open and outside light come in. You think it's jungkook until you hear his mother's voice.
"I thought you guys would need some more blanke-"
"Mom!" Jungkook calls out and you sit up.
"Why are you two sleeping separately, the bed is big enough" she asks. "Did what I say offend you y/n"
"No no Mrs jeon, I just-" You're cut off by her angry voice.
"Did jungkook do something? " she shoots daggers at him.
"No, he didn't"
"Cause if he did I'm going to deal with him"
"Mom I didn't do anything " he defends himself.
You chuckle a bit.
"I'm talking to y/n, not you jungkook " your laughter drops to seriousness when she turns to you.
"What did he do?"
"He didn't do anything Mrs jeon, I promise " jungkook can hear the smile in your voice and you can see him roll his eyes.
"If he didn't then why are you sleeping separately"
You and jungkook both stummer with your words not knowing what do tell her.
"Jungkook is too hot" you spit and regret how it sounds. Jungkook looks at you like 'is that the best you could come up with,  but thank you :) "
You roll your eyes.
"He radiates off alot of body heat, I've been telling him to go see a doctor" you lie. Jungkook's mouth hangs open at your ability to lie to his mother face.
She nods.
"I understand.  But you should've let himsleep on the floor instead"
"I know but I just felt bad about keeping him from his childhood bed" you pout.
Jungkook can't fathom how you're able to lie right now.
"Okay then I'll leave these here. Have a good night " she says and walks out. You assume it worked cause she doesn't fuss over it.
The room is silent until jungkook speaks.
"You're such a liar "
"Would  you have preferred me saying the truth?"
He chuckles.
"So we're sharing the bed from now on? "
"Yep" you say and move to the bed where jungkook makes room for you. You're only doing this so you don't let out the secret.
"No touching" you warn him with a finger up.
"Wasn't planning on it"
He sure wasn't planning on it but he never said he didn't think of it.
...
It's 5am and you're awake. Not by your own will but by the fact the you woke up to jungkook's arm around you and you felt so comfortable.  He's hold felt so warm and comfortable, it shouldn't have. You're crossing a boundary and what makes it worse is how comfortable it feels to cross that boundary.
Bymthe time you're done getting ready for the day it's 7 am, jungkook is still asleep and his mom's making breakfast so you go downstairs to help.
You're helping her and chatting when jungkook walks into the kitchen. You don't know where his shirt has disappeared to but its gone. You watch from the corner of your eye as he walks towards,  you think he's going to walk by you until he's by your ear.
"Play along " he whispers and you're taken aback when he kisses your cheek.
"Morning baby" he says and that name numbs your tongue and you can only muster to spit out a whisper
"Morning" your stomach is in shambles. He has his hand on your back.
"Morning mom" he says still rubbing your back and causing you butterflies.
"Goodmorning" she says to him grinning at him. "Did you sleep well?"
"Yeah but i woke up alllll alone " he glances over to you and you roll your eyes and look away.
"That's a shame" you say sarcastically.
"Yeah it is" he shots back
His mother takes the breakfast to the dining room, leaving you and jungkook.
You think he'd let go of you and move away but he only gets closer.
"Smells good" he mumbles out.
"Oh yeah I think it's the spices " you try and keep your calm and not show him how much he's affecting. You're human and at the end of the day its hard not to react when someone is this close to you, whether it's jungkook or not.
"I wasn't talking about the food " he says by your ear and the chills run across your skin. "I was talking about you." His voice lowered plus the closeness is a killer combo.
"What do you use? I've always wanted to tell you how much I like how you smell"
"Uhhh" you move away pretending to be looking for something. "It's just some cheap perfume"
"Well it smells good" he goes back to his normal tone. He knows he's got you by the tongue so he smiles.
You just awkwardly chuckle.
"Jungkook leave y/n alone for now, she's helping with with breakfast" his mother walks in.
Jungkook raises his hands in surrender. " I'm not doing anything"
"Your father is already in the dining room go join him and have breakfast " she kicks him out. But before he leaves he gives you one last look. A look you can't decipher the meaning,  it almost feels flirtatious. No, you're just in your head. He's just playing a role, jungkook wouldn't flirt with you for real.
While sat next to jungkook when eating breakfast you can barely hear what he's saying cause you're still thinking of what happend in the kitchen,  you still have the butterflies.  And jungkook's hand on your thighs doesn't help settle them.
You feel him squeeze your thighs and it brings you to reality.
"Are you okay?" He whispers for only you and you just hum.
"Yeah I'm fine" you don't seem fine.
"Am I doing too much. Can you not handle me?" He smirks.
You scoff " You're not doing too much and I can handle you"
Jungkoook raises a brow. "can you?"
You nod.
"We'll see about that" he says.
Is that a challenge? You know know jungkook loves those.
He takes his hand off your thighs and your smile drops(unintentionally) from the loss of his touch.  But atleast you can eat without choking with every swallow.
You and jungkook haven't spoken much today, cause you and his mother have been out doing errands. Right now you're at the market picking some vegetables for dinner tonight.
"What made you say yes to jungkook" you almost didn't hear her over how hard you were gawking at the fruits.
"What do you like about him" she repeats noticing your distant gaze.
"Uhh" you find it hard to find your words. As a friend you know why you like jungkook.  He's funny, he's a great listener, he's kind, he knows how to handle you ( you mean your personality)
But as a boyfriend you have no idea what you like about him. He's not even your real boyfriend.
Plus isn't what you like about him as a friend the same thing as a boyfriend.
"He's caring,  he knows how to listen, he understands my humour" you say to and lose yourself in the thought of jungkook and he's mother can see that. It honestly makes her smile to see someone so in love with her son and to see the person her son is in love with.
If only she knew you guys were only friends,  what would she say.
"I also like how we get along and how he makes me laugh and how he handles my personality.  I like that alot" you smile and immediately catch yourself.  You seriously can't be smiling at the thought of jungkook. You've realised you've never actually thought of why jungkook is your closest friend and why you run to him for almost everything that happens in your life.
Anytime someone  breaks your heart you go to jungkook for comfort. Anytime you're stressed, you call jungkook.
You think about maybe that's why he can't find a girlfriend cause you're always calling him. Jungkook is such a good  looking guy you don't think it's that hard for him to find a girl who he can get along with. Maybe you're a pussy blocker. Shit have you been keeping jungkook from finding a girlfriend?
Cause he just says he can't find a girlfriend but you've never seen him actually put in the effort except with one.
You remember one time trying to push him to download a dating app, he did but next time you checked he hadn't even logged in and later he deleted.  You didn't want to ask or bother him about him so you left it.
"I just wanna focus on you right now, you need me and I need to take care of you" is what he told you one night when you came crying cause of your first situationships that had torn you into shreds. You couldn't remember those words after that until now, cause that day you were in shambles and couldn't hear a thing.
"Jungkook told me the same about you " her words break you out of your thoughts. What did jungkook tell her about you. " He also told me how he loves how you complete him. He feels incomplete without you"
Did he really tell her that. If it's true this might get complicated.  Cause you can barely say what you feel. This was a huge mistake, you're fucking things up. If he told her that, does he feel the same or did he just say it to play the role. He was just playing the role, but that wouldn't make you feel any better.
"He really loves you, I can tell" she adds and you sigh.
This is going to be so fuckung awkward when you 'break up'
" I have everything i need, we should head home now." She says and and you just follow her.
In the way home you've just been thinking about whether jungkook could actually like you or this is just an act for him. If it is, he's really good at it. And it's really confusing you.
You settle the bags down onto the counter and as you do you feel arms wrap around you waist.
"How was it" his low voice speaks on your neck
"Huh?" You say barely able to focus on words with the way his hands are rubbing up and down your hips. This feels to natural,  too domestic.
"How was shopping with my mom" he kisses your shoulder and you can't bring yourself to stop him.
"It was fun, I enjoyed going out with her" his nose runs up and down your neck. Jungkook can see your chest rise and fall and it encourages him to continue.
"We talked about you " you tell him.
"Oh? What did you say about me?"
"Jungkook" you gasp when he turns you around to face him.
You look into his eyes and they stare back at you, with desire and  determination to show you you can't handle jungkook.
"I missed you" he spits out and you narrow your eyes. You don't know whether he's saying it as a friend or a fake boyfriend.
"Why you looking at me like that" he moves his face closer to yours. "Can't I miss my friend or girlfriend "
Now it's frustrating you. All the emotions and feelings.
It's whilst you're having your thoughts that jungkook takes you by surprise and kisses you. His lips linger on yours for a few seconds before you pull away. if you were afraid of crossing a boundary you should be petrified by now.
"I need  to get changed" you move away from him and jungkook can feel the shift in the air. He's confused he thought this would work and make you warm up to the idea of actually being with him
But he guesses he came on too strong and now he's pushed you away.
During dinner you were low and didn't speak much, your silence even rendered a concerned look on jungkook's dad's face, who you haven't spoken to much this weekend.
After dinner you went straight to lay in bed and just stared at your phone.  You can barely do anything apart from think about what's going in with you and Jungkook.
"Hey" you hear jungkook's sorrowful voice speak.
"Hey" you reply just as sorrowful and sit up with the blanket over your legs.
Jungkook stands by the door with his hands in his sweats, he contemplates whether he should talk about what's on his mind. But if he wants this weekend to end the way he wants it to then he should talk about it.
"Are you okay?" You ask him watching his far away gaze.
"Y/n what's wrong? " he asks instead of answering your question.
"What do you mean? " You shuffle in your seat.
"You haven't been okay since-" he stares out the hallway for anyone and close the door. "-ever since what happened in the kitchen"
Jungkook slowly walks to the edge of the bed.
"Is it because of this fake dating thing,  did I make you make you uncomfortable? "
You shake your head. "Not it's not that, I fully accepted this fake dating thing "
"Then what's wrong,  I can't take you ignoring me" he says the last part almost pleading.
It's time to get it off your chest then.
"I just can't tell if your doing this, the kisses, the touches , the pet names. For show. It's really confusing and I don't even know why I think otherwise." You sigh "we should've honestly talked about boundaries before we did this."
Jungkook agrees that boundaries should've been talked about,  but he doesn't want boundaries. That wasn't his plan.
"Jungkook can you tell me something?" Jungkook hums to let you know to ask him what's on your mind. "Am I the reason that you haven't gotten a girlfriend, cause I know you and lia would've probably been married now if-" you can't finish your statement but he knows what you're trying to say " Am I a hinder to any your relationships "
You're not a hinder cause he only wants you.
"Y/n don't call yourself that" he moves closer to you. "Lia and I didn't work out and it wasn't your fault." He has his hand rubbing on your knee to comfort you.
You sigh and feel the tears coming.
"No no y/n. Don't" his hand cups your cheek and you start to sob.
"I think I fucked this up. I think I like you more than a friend" You mumble and you're shocked you had the guts to tell him. "I'm sorry I've probably fucked up our friendsh--" your shut up with Jungkook's warm lips on yours.
"You haven't fucked up anything.  I'm the one who did., I  should've just told you that I liked you instead of using lies to swoon you over " his thump wipes away a single tear on you.
"I'm sorry for putting you in this situation, i- " this time it's you who shuts him up with a kiss.
Jungkook relaxes into the kiss.
"Wait" jungkook pulls away "are a okay with th-"
"Jungkook please just kiss me, no more talking" your lips meet again and this time jungkook takes full lead.
Your head lands softly on the pillow as he hovers over you, taking every move to move deeper into the kiss.
Carefully your hand moves to his neck and then into his long hair.
The kiss feels like a long awaited quest that has been completed but that has also began a new quest. It's like something that you've been waiting for and now that you have his lips against yours something in you feels completed. Satisfied.
You feel lost and at peace in this,  his breathy kiss, his body between your thighs, his large left hand under your shirt searching for treasure and right hand stroking the back of your neck. His thump lifts your head up for a better angle to deepen the kiss.
You both can barely breath but jungkook couldn't care less, he wants to feel you, each and every part of you, he wants to find a part of you in this kiss. Jungkook knows you well, you were friends before this after all. But there just some things you can only find out whilst kissing.
Jungkook grunts when he feels you tug at his shirt.
So you're the eager kind, he smiles. He ,over away to take of his shirt and you both take the time to catch your breaths. You admire jungkook's toned torso and his inked arm, you've seen him shirtless before but seeing him under this light feels different,  it feels hot.
"your turn" he says and watches your boobs spills out as you take off your pajama top.
"Fuck. You're so beautiful " your stomach clenches at his words.
He doesn't waste anytime and has his lips around your nipple. You moan at the wetness of his tongue.
While his other hand massage you , he uses the other to move into you panties.
Your breath hitches at the cold sensation of his fingers.
Your hips grind in rhythm with jungkook's fingers. You can barely keep your mind or body straight as the sensations travel through your body, your back arches as you gasp in air.
"You're so pretty baby" he whispers and watches you squirm. "So fucking pretty" he follows your lips until he captures them and has you gasp into his mouth. You take in eachother's breaths. You can feel yourself melting against jungkook's fingers.
He adds pressure and you whimper.
"Jungkook " you whine out and he already knows "fuck I'm  going to..." you trial your sentence off with a moan.
You're almost close when you suddenly lose the sensation.
"What the heck " You're about to cuss him out when he speaks.
" I want you around me first " he leaves a peck on your lips.
Soon the sensation is back as he bucks his hips back and forth.
You can feel yourself getting pushed over the edge with each stroke.
"Please jungkook " you whine and he knows what you're pleading for.
"I got you baby" he whispers by your ear.
Soon you can feel the strong intense pleasure wash over you, you call out jungkook's name at your end.
Soon he follows after you in his release.
Jungkook peppers kisses down your neck, not ready to move away from you.  You keep your hands rubbing his back.
"Can you be my girlfriend.  Like for real this time" he asks against your neck.
" I'd prefer if you asked me when we're not from just having sex" you chuckle and he hums out agreeing.
"Then I'll take you on a date, and swoon you over with my charm."
You laugh at his cockiness.
"What about your parents?" You ask.
Jungkook shoots his head up from you, which takes you by surprise.
"My parents? Do you think they heard us?"
Your jaw drops to the floor.
" We were pretty loud they must've heard us"
"Jungkook oh my gosh,  this is so embarrassing." You cover you face "how am I going going face them tomorrow "
Jungkook watches you blush embarrassed and chuckles.
"Atleast we dont have to lie anymore"
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keen-li ¡ 2 months
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Who do you think is the nastiest fandom.
For me stays take the cake. Y'all are freaks😭 and I hope straykids find your fics.
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I love me the holy trinity angst/smut/fluff.
Great read.❤
bottle up old love (jjk) (m)
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summary: Jungkook may have broken up with you a year ago, but that's not going to stop him from coming to your rescue when he sees you being cornered by a creep.
pairing: Jungkook x Reader
rating: 18+ (MINORS DNI)
genre: exes to lovers, the holy trinity of angst/smut/fluff
word count: 4.6k (this was supposed to be a drabble 💀)
prompt: JK + exes to lovers + "I'm sorry" + "I hate you" + "Don't fucking touch me" + "Leave" (for @btsborahaee <3)
warnings: language, a short harassment scene at the beginning (nothing too intense), explicit content including: unprotected sex (DO NOT), fingering, praise kink, biting, marking, spanking, cum eating (sort of?), big cawk soft dom jk, cowgirl (yeehaw), creampie, cockwarming, i think that's all but this also wasn't supposed to be too smutty so clearly idk what's going on lol
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“Don’t fucking touch me!”
You spit the words at the man in front of you, pushing him back as he tries to make another grab at your arm.
“Why do you gotta be like that?” Seungcheol whines. “I thought we were having fun.”
“You and I have very different ideas of fun.” You take a step backwards towards your building. Somewhere down the sidewalk, footsteps clatter against the pavement.
“C’mon.” He matches your movement, reaches for you again. “Invite me up. You enjoyed the last time, didn’t you? I told you that was just a warm-up.”
The building’s brick wall is closer than you thought, and you bang your shoulder against it as you try to sidestep him. “Last time you didn’t follow me to a bar I didn’t even invite you to. How did you know where I was anyway?”
“Let me come up, and I’ll tell you,” he rumbles with a flicker of his eyebrows. He has you fully backed up against the wall now, and you press against the muscle of his chest to no avail.
“Stop!” you shout before he’s ripped away from you so suddenly that you’re left blinking in confusion, huddled against the brick.
There’s a thud–the sound of a fist hitting flesh–and a yelp before Seungcheol is reeling back with his hands clutching his nose. Blood seeps out from beneath his fingers, black even under the glow of the streetlamps.
“What the fuck?” he shrieks, and it’s only then that you take a proper look at your savior, looking every bit like he’s stepped straight out of the shadows with his dark hair, ebony clothes, and deep brown eyes.
And a lead weight drops into your stomach as you recognize him.
Jungkook sets himself between you and Seungcheol, looming over the latter as he continues to cover his face, whining. “I’m giving you ten seconds to get out of here.”
“Who the fuck are you?!”
“Ten,” Jungkook growls, taking a step in Seungcheol’s direction. “Nine.”
Seungcheol straightens–clearly a last-ditch attempt to look intimidating. Spitting blood onto the concrete, he peers at you over Jungkook’s shoulder. “This isn’t over, bitch.”
Then he spins and takes off running down the street.
Your hands grip your elbows. It may be a balmy summer night, but you’re shivering where you stand, unsure whether you’re more affected by Seungcheol’s behavior or the ghost who’s unexpectedly in front of you.
“Are you okay?” he quietly asks, gaze fixed on your face. You stare at your shoes and give him a brisk nod as a response before turning away, punching in your building code, and walking through the front door.
He follows closely, slipping in behind you and trailing a few feet. You let him for a little while, guiding him through the modest lobby and up the first flight of stairs. But when you’re halfway up the second stairwell–almost to your floor–you pause on the landing, spinning his way.
“What do you think you’re doing?”
His eyes are gentle, sincere. “Making sure you get in safely.”
“There’s no need for that,” you assert. “I’m already in my building. There’s a keypad. I’m good.”
“The keypad does almost nothing. I followed you in no problem.”
“So I should be worried about you then?”
He flushes, the tips of his ears going pink. “Please just let me see you inside.”
You want to argue back, want to shout at him and make a scene, but you know it’s no use. Know that he’s stubborn as a bull and will get what he wants one way or another.
It’s how he broke up with you after all.
You say nothing, only hustle up the last set of steps and down the dimly-lit hallway until you’re in front of your door, Jungkook tailing you the whole time with his hands in his pockets. You practically fumble your key in your haste to get it into the lock, letting out a satisfied sigh as the latch finally clicks open.
“There. I’m in,” you say as you step over the threshold, waving a dismissive hand at your unwanted companion. “Leave.”
But he hesitates just outside the doorway, teeth chewing at the corner of his lip. “What are you going to do if he comes back?”
“That’s my problem, isn’t it? I stopped being your concern when you dropped me out of nowhere a year ago.”
Your eyes sting at the memory, tears threatening to spill over. You don’t want him here. Don’t want to see him or have him anywhere in your vicinity. Not when it still hurts like this.
Though, truth be told, you don’t expect to ever be fully over him.
“We’re done, Jungkook,” you murmur. “You made sure of that.”
And you close the door in his face.
The distress subsides quickly once he’s out of sight–like he was never there to begin with–and you don’t linger, dropping your bag on the sofa and heading straight for the bathroom. This is how you’ve made it a year without him; it was weeks of crying before you realized that wallowing was doing you no good, only fueling your misery instead of providing any kind of catharsis. So you’ve done your best to simply push past it and crush down the anguish that bubbles up every time you think of him. Put him in a tiny little box that you refuse to touch.
You shed your clothes and turn the shower to a temperature that you’ll probably regret later. But for now, you savor the way the water sears your skin as you wash away the day with all of its unpleasant surprises. Taking your time, you scrub every inch of your body and carefully shampoo your hair (trying not to fall back into the fantasy that’s plagued you on occasion where it’s his hands and not yours spreading the bubbles over your form).
The self-care continues as you step out of the shower and leisurely work through your skin care routine, even taking the time to blow dry your hair. By the time you exit the bathroom, the fog on the mirror has dissipated, and you’ve once again successfully tamped down the memory of Jungkook and his hands and eyes and everything you ever felt for him.
Or so you think.
After popping into your bedroom to pull on some pajamas, you pad back into the living room for a glass of water, and your eyes are immediately drawn to the front door. Regret attempts to push its way into your consciousness against your better judgment. The man broke your heart, yes. But you do feel a little guilty slamming the door in his face after he just fought off a creep for you.
And speaking of Seungcheol, what if he does come back? You’re pretty sure he saw you punch in the building code the night you brought him home with you, and given his behavior, you wouldn’t be surprised if he filed it away in his head.
Anxiety winning out, you creep to the door and peer through the peephole. The hallway looks empty, drab beige walls taking up most of your field of view, but you jump as you spot a hulking shadow to the right. Your heartbeat races then slows, a closer look revealing hunched, unmoving shoulders wrapped in a familiar black t-shirt.
Jungkook swings his head to look at you as you open the door and glare down at him. His legs are pulled up, arms resting on his knees, and it might be endearing if not for the fact that he absolutely, positively should not be here.
“What are you doing?” you ask him for the second time tonight.
“He might come back.”
“And you’re going to what? Fight him?”
He shrugs. “If I have to.”
“Yeah?” You raise an eyebrow, challenging. “You’re going to sit out here all night?”
He shifts where he sits, wiggling his hips like he’s firmly planting his butt into his chosen spot. “Yes.”
You roll your eyes at him but don’t doubt that he would. Again, if there is anything you know this man to be, it’s stubborn. “You’re going to scare the neighbors.”
“Who, Mrs. Kwon?” A tiny smile plays on his lips as he glances in the direction of your elderly neighbor’s apartment. “I think she’d be delighted to see me.”
If you’re being honest, she probably would be. She’s always adored Jungkook and praised him as the “kind, handsome young man” who helped her put away groceries and fixed her leaky faucet one time. In the months following your breakup, she’d asked about him once or twice, patting your arm reassuringly when you awkwardly told her she wouldn’t be seeing him anymore.
“Don’t worry, dear,” she said. “He’ll come around.”
Well she’s turned out to be right in that he’s certainly back here again, still watching you from his spot on the floor. And you don’t know whether it’s his big doe eyes or the fact that he really would guard your apartment all night if you let him or the genuine fear that one of the other neighbors will make a fuss at his presence, but you feel yourself softening.
Turning abruptly, you stride into the kitchen for your glass of water, walking out of sight of the door, which is still wide open.
“You coming?” you call, pulling two glasses down from the cupboard.
There’s a rustle as Jungkook stands and shuffles into your apartment, closing the door behind him with a soft thud. For someone who was so determined to defend you tonight, he seems uncertain now that he’s actually inside. His hands are once again stuffed in his pockets, and his eyes flicker around like he hasn’t been here a thousand times. Hasn’t cooked you breakfast in this kitchen in nothing but his boxers. Hasn’t watched The Notebook with you on this TV and held you as you both cried.
Hasn’t made love to you on the couch.
You slide a water his way, and he murmurs his thanks, sipping at it lightly. It’s strange–seeing him here again–and you can’t help but think about the last time he stood in this room. It’d been a maelstrom of accusations and hurt feelings that culminated in him storming out, the slam of the door echoing in your ears.
“You never cleaned that?” He gestures at the rug that covers most of the sitting area in your living room, eyes on the dark purple stain roughly the size of your hand.
You gulp down your water and try not to follow his line of sight. Try not to remember how you’d knocked over a glass of wine in your haste to get his clothes off during another movie night less than a month before your breakup.
“I kind of forgot about it,” you say. “Stopped noticing it after a while.” 
It’s a lie. There was never a time when you didn’t notice it, the memory of him haunting you every time you sit down on the couch and stare at the garish stain. And still, you haven’t been able to bring yourself to try and erase it.
Silence worms its way between you again. With only the soft light from the tabletop lamp glowing next to the couch, Jungkook’s face is cloaked in shadow. And so you barely see his lips move when he speaks. Barely hear it with how quietly his whisper slips into the room.
“I’m sorry.”
Your glass almost drops from your fingers, droplets splashing across your knuckles as you catch it at the last moment and steady it on the countertop. Turning to face him, you find his gaze already on you, melancholy tinting his expression.
“What?”
He tongues his lip ring, shoulders dropping a fraction. “For how things ended. I’m sorry.”
You can see the sincerity in his posture, can see the sadness in his form. And yet, his words only fill you with a hot anger that bubbles out of you before you can swallow it down.
“I don’t know why you would be,” you challenge, “being that you didn’t even respect me enough to give me a proper reason.”
Jungkook huffs at that; you think he’s resisting the urge to roll his eyes. “Did it really matter?”
“Yes.”
He gnaws at his lip again, no longer looking at you, and his lack of an answer only riles you up further.
“Was there someone else?” you demand, causing him to flinch. It was the same thing you asked him when he told you he thought you should break up, standing in almost this exact same spot.
“No,” he murmurs after a moment. “There wasn’t anyone else.” He pushes a hand through his dark, silky hair. “There hasn’t been anyone else since either.”
This surprises you. Jungkook is, in your eyes, the handsomest man you have ever come face-to-face with, but even from an objective standpoint, he is exceedingly attractive. There is no doubt in your mind that he would easily be able to land a woman if he so desired.
“So then why?”
He sets his jaw, his Adam’s apple bobbing as he swallows and fixes his stare out the window. And it’s this final refusal, this steadfast dedication to not explaining himself, that finally has tears tracking down your cheeks.
The sight of you crying has his attention snapping back your way, hands reaching out as if to hold you.
“Don’t touch me,” you gasp, recoiling until you’re out of reach. “I…I hate you.”
It almost seems as if your voice lands physically, and Jungkook staggers back like you’ve slapped him, remorse immediately wiggling its way between your ribs. You know you don’t mean the words even as they fall from your mouth, but it feels pointless to take them back now, the sentiment already thrown out there and hovering in the hollow space between you.
Jungkook muddles towards the couch–more of a defeated slump dragging his steps than anger–and you think he’s going to sit down before he whirls back towards you at the last second.
“The gala,” he mutters. “That’s when I decided.”
You know which one he’s talking about. Hosted by your medical school to celebrate the end of the academic year, it had been a night of food, dancing, and socializing. You had, of course, brought him as your date and introduced him to your friends and classmates, excited to finally allow him to put faces to names. As you comb through your memories of the night, you can’t pinpoint any warning signs, only remembering the way he’d smiled at you throughout. The way he’d pulled you close and danced you around the room.
“I don’t…I don’t understand.”
He rakes his fingers through his hair again, tossing strands of night over his forehead. A sad chuckle looses itself into the thick air of the room, and the final dregs of his resolve flicker away. “I realized that I didn’t deserve to stand next to you. That you could do much better than me.”
Whatever you thought his reason had been–whatever theories or thoughts had kept you up night after night for the past year–this is not even close to what you expected. And while you always thought finally receiving an answer would be freeing, would offer you some semblance of understanding, you’re surprised at the rage that boils in the pit of your stomach, bile rising in your throat.
“Are you fucking serious right now?” you growl, taking an angered step towards him. “You were feeling insecure, and you made the decision to break up with me without even thinking to, I don’t know, discuss it with me first?”
His hand goes to the back of his neck now, embarrassment showing its face as he peers at you from under his lashes. “I was stupid–”
“No, shit.”
“But can you blame me?” he presses. “There we were: you, about to be this incredible doctor with all of your doctor friends…” His voice falters, sorrow lacing his tone. “And I’m just a tattoo artist.”
The defeatist way he says it helps to dampen your ire some, even if a heap of frustration remains–the sad shape of his doe eyes softening your edges.
“Just a tattoo artist,” you repeat. “Jungkook, I have always been so, so proud of you. I was never anything but proud to have you as my partner. You must’ve known that.”
His teeth worry his lip, and though he nods, he doesn’t seem fully convinced.
So you continue on, closing the distance between you a fraction more. “You started your own business from nothing. And I saw how hard you worked: to get the building, to hire other artists, train your apprentices.” You shake your head–half in irritation, half in awe. “And look at you now! You’re thriving. The last I heard, if you want an appointment at Golden Tattoo, you need to book months in advance.”
His eyes are alight now, some hidden emotion glimmering under the surface, but he stays quiet as he soaks in your words.
“So how can you possibly act like you weren’t enough?” you push. “You are amazing, Jungkook. And I never gave a shit about any job comparisons people may have made.” One more step, and suddenly you’re almost chest-to-chest. As always, you’re unable to resist the pull of his gravity. Yanked right back into his orbit. “I only wanted you. I’ve only ever wanted y–”
He cuts you off with his mouth, strong hands snagging your hips to pull you against him, and your own fingers reflexively tangle in his black hoodie as your subconscious gives itself over to him. Like it’s been waiting for this.
“I’m not. Not thriving,” he mumbles against your lips. “Not without you. Been miserable without you.”
And in spite of your anger, in spite of the fact that you were ready to kick him out a mere hour ago, you find yourself kissing him back, relishing the slick glide of his tongue as he licks into your mouth.
You startle as the backs of your knees suddenly bump against the couch, and then Jungkook is spinning as he settles onto the plush seat, pulling you along to straddle him. He sucks at your neck until you can feel the blood blooming under your skin, painting you like the pretty ink on his arm.
Speaking of.
The fabric of his hoodie whispers as you pull it up and over his back and head, tossing it over his shoulder and into a corner. His arms now bare to you, you trace over his tattoos with your eyes and fingers until you find the one you’d picked out for him; the lovely orange of the flower petals seem to glow even in the dim light of the room.
“Beautiful,” you whisper.
“Just like you.”
You look at him then, the twinkle of tiny galaxies in his eyes betraying his hope. And before you can go any further, you need confirmation.
“You left.”
“I did.” Fingertips press lightly against your waist like he’s afraid you might be the one to disappear now. “I’m sorry.”
“Jungkook, if…” You lick your lips. Can almost taste his regret. “If we do this and you leave again–”
“If we do this, I'm not going anywhere,” he insists, tugging your hips down to grind against him and ghosting a kiss at your jaw. “Just wanna be here with you. Just want you.”
And it’s all you need to hear.
You shed the cotton shirt you had thrown on after your shower and move to yank his own off, tossing it in the same corner as his hoodie. The muscles of his pecs and abs shift under your hands, burning hot where your fingers trace the contours of his torso. 
“God, I missed this,” he groans as he buries his face between your breasts, nipping at the skin there before laving the spot with his tongue.
You’d agree–echo the sentiment that your body has been aching for this–if not for the fact that you’re too busy trying to get the two of you naked, thumbs hooking into the waistband of your shorts.
But a tattooed hand covers yours, eases it away to take its place. “No,” he rumbles. “Let me.”
Wide palms and long fingers span your hips and thighs, grasping as much skin as possible even as he drags your shorts and panties down your legs and helps to steady you as you kick them off. They join the tangle of his own clothes
“Fucking gorgeous,” he growls at the sight of you finally naked in front of him. And with such speed that it almost seems like it’s involuntary, an impulse outside of his control, he’s immediately stroking at the apex of your thighs.
“Baby, this wet for me already?” A breathy sigh passes from his mouth to yours, almost laughing at the ease with which he glides through your folds. “Hell, I could just–”
A finger slips in and you gasp, Jungkook smiling wickedly at you as he quickly adds a second and curls them against your walls. You force your eyes closed as they roll back in your head, and you keel forward, babbling incoherently against the line of his collarbone.
“Use your words, love; you can do it.” He says it as if his fingers aren’t currently buried in you down to the knuckle. As if he’s not making you see stars behind your eyelids right now.
You choke down a breath, desperate for the oxygen. “Insane,” you pant. “I said you’re fucking insane.”
“Only for you,” he says before sliding his digits out of you and dipping them into his mouth. He moans at the taste, and even with his lips closed tightly, you can see the way he’s working his tongue around each finger, unwilling to waste a single drop of your essence.
Like you said. Insane.
He gives you a moment to catch your breath until you’re the one who’s getting impatient, hastily undoing his belt and tearing it from his pants with a hiss. But as you shift off of him so he can slither out of his pants and boxers–his length springing free to slap against his smooth stomach–you’re hit with an untimely realization.
“Jungkook, I don’t have condoms.”
He freezes, the color draining from his face (though admittedly, that may be because all of his blood has clearly gone south). The two of you stare at each other for a long second before he suddenly leans over, rummaging back through his pants pockets. He pulls out his wallet, rifles through it, then tosses it across the room in frustration, head tilting back against the couch as he groans at the ceiling.
“Fuck, me neither.”
You chew at your lip, a loaded quiet settling over the room as Jungkook wipes a hand over his face.
“I’m still on birth control,” you whisper, and Jungkook whips his head around, eyes wide and questioning like he’s not sure he heard you right. But you don’t repeat yourself, only hold his stare until he’s tentatively reaching out to graze his fingertips along your thigh.
“I told you. There’s been no one else.” His expression is earnest, eager. You trust that he’s telling the truth, and yet you also know that if you refused him, if you said you weren’t comfortable, he wouldn’t push.
So you swing a leg back over his lap, drag your wet folds against his cock. He moans, gripping your thighs hard, but he leans in to bite at your lower lip with a growl before pulling back to search your face.
“You?”
It hurts that he even feels the need to ask. Because how could you even want someone else? Who could possibly measure up?
You brush a reassuring, barely-there kiss against his already swollen lips. “No one else for me either.”
This seems to please him, but you still see hesitation behind his eyes as he asks, “What about the guy downstairs?”
A drunken mistake was what that was. All sloppy lips and fumbling hands that had left you feeling more empty than anything, and which resulted in you sending Cheol away before he had even gotten a peek at your bedroom.
“We made out once,” you admit, hating that you’re even having to think about another man when Jungkook is here in front of you. “But nothing else happened.”
“Good,” he grunts, but his fingers dig into your backside like he’s trying to reclaim you. And just a fraction of a second later, he’s devilishly tonguing his lip ring as he winds his palm back to bring it down harshly against the meat of your ass, the smack echoing between the walls almost endlessly.
“Ride me, baby.”
You’re quick to line him up–desperate, at this point, to have him inside of you–and begin to ease yourself down slowly, trying to give your body the space and time to adjust to the burning stretch of his girth. He’s always filled you to your absolute limit, tested the furthest boundaries of how much your body can take with his size.
“Yesss,” he hisses, nipping at your neck once again. “You’re doing great, love. Always take me so fucking well.”
You gasp as he bottoms out, struggling to catch your breath with the relentless push of him. If you were a betting woman, you’d put money on your intestines being somewhere in the area of your throat right now.
He wraps his inked arm around your waist, continuing to whisper his praises against the shell of your ear as he starts to guide your body up and down. Intoxicated by the smooth slide of his length, you soon find your pace, and your shared moans fill the room–the whole city probably able to hear you right now.
You move that way until the pressure building becomes too much and your legs start to tremble, quivering against Jungkook’s own muscled thighs.
“It’s okay; I’ve got you.” He bands his arms around you and presses you to his chest, holding you in place so he can thrust upwards.
Hard.
You’re practically screaming now, burying your teeth into his shoulder so as to muffle your sounds and not scare the neighbors. It’s all you can do to hold on for dear life as he rapidly pistons his cock inside of you, the slap of your hips like a metronome.
It builds and builds until it breaks and you’re falling apart in his arms, the spasms of your inner walls pulling him over the edge with you as he empties his seed deep inside.
The silence that follows in unlike the others you previously shared this evening–tension traded for serenity as you sit on the couch holding each other, you still contentedly stuffed full of him. He traces the ridges of your spine in a soothing pattern that has your eyelids drooping, your cheek resting against the warm skin of his neck.
“I missed this,” you whisper once your brain has finally remembered how to construct human speech.
“I missed you.”
You pull back so you can rest your forehead against his and gently run a finger over the lines of his face. “Where do we go from here?”
He hums. Tucks a stray hair behind your ear. “Take it day by day?” he suggests. “We don’t need to rush into anything if you don’t want to.”
“Mm, that does seem like a problem for tomorrow.”
A dark eyebrow quirks, teasing. “And what about right now?”
“Now?” you ask. “Do you remember the way to the bedroom? Or…” You shift your hips, already feeling him twitching inside of you.
“Or.” He jolts forward to capture your mouth in a hot kiss, and you smile into it, whole again. “Or sounds good.”
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