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kittick-art · 1 year

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It's time for another Animatic Deep Dive!!

For those of you who haven't seen me do this before, I always like to do a massive post digging into my animatics after they get uploaded. This'll include a lot of behind-the-scenes stuff, HD stills, and a whooole lot of insight into shot choices and cinematic storytelling. All my rambling is under the 'keep reading' break!

Before I say anything, here's the link to the animatic, if you haven't watched it yet or want easier access to it while reading through this post:

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I always love showing my shot sheets, and I'm really thankful for them because they manage to somehow keep me sane throughout the entire project. So here are some snip-its of that:

I also want to include my value sheet, because getting the lighting right for this project was very important to me. A bit of a fun fact: the backgrounds for the very first shot (top left) and the entire sequence where Serizawa goes outside are just barely the same value.

Now, the part where I share HD stills & go into shot composition will be meshed together here because it's a little more organized that way. One thing you should know about me is that I'm a sucker for cinematic storytelling. It's why I love doing parallel shots and other little things that help propel the story even further than just "he picks up his umbrella here."

One big example of this is the first & final shots of the video. They both feature Serizawa and his umbrella (which could honestly be considered a character in its own right for this animatic). But the umbrellas in these shots are not the same, and you also get a sense that neither is Serizawa. Where he's all alone and clutching to what's basically his lifeline during the first shot, in the final shot he's surrounded by people who love him and is able to leave his umbrella behind.

And going into a more glaring parallel, and my favorite personally, I want to talk about the two over-the-shoulder shots. They are literally mirror shots of each other, with everything including the framing. But they couldn't be more different, in order to show how much Serizawa has grown. Even the lyrics parallel each other. ("And I wandered through the house like a little boy lost at the mall" // "And I stood there like a businessman waiting for a train")

And while I'm talking about lyrics, one sequence that honestly broke my heart while working on this was the first time we hear that repeated question of "what do I do?"

This whole bit was meant to read like Serizawa was asking that question aloud. And well, if this sequence is his question, then the second time we hear those same words are certainly the answer. As if to say, "This. This is what you did."

Now. I'm a sucker for camera movement. I had a ton of it in my Royai animatic, and it was a lot of fun to figure out. But I really wanted this animatic to read as snapshots from life, like photographs on a wall. And well, photos don't have camera movements. But there is one scene in the entire animatic that does have a camera move, and it's the one where Serizawa gets dressed and the camera pans to reveal his past self staring back at him from the mirror. I think saving the one camera move for this scene really helped, because I wanted it to be as jarring as possible.

And just as a little note, because I had to include them somewhere in here, I was so happy with the two shots of Serizawa and the character I've lovingly dubbed Scaryzawa. I just really wanted to convey the fear that Serizawa had that he was reverting back to how he used to be, and I'm so glad that a lot of people enjoyed these shots as much as I did.

And now, there's one glaring scene that I've avoided talking about til now because it's my absolute favorite, and this whole section is gonna get pretty ramble-y. I'm talking about the scene where Serizawa finally goes outside. Just like I mentioned earlier, the animatic was mainly still shots, and any animation was extremely limited. But going into this scene, I knew I needed to make it special. And the best way, in my opinion, was to make it full of motion.

I just really think there's something beautiful about someone like Serizawa stepping outside and really being introduced to nature again, even if it's unintentional. I put this line in the shot sheet, and I think I've said it to a few people already, but I really enjoyed the idea of Serizawa looking up through the skeleton of his umbrella and seeing the view it never allowed him when it was intact. And trying to capture that beauty and emotion is extremely hard, and something I don't really think is possible in my style. But I'm still so happy with how those two shots turned out.

And connecting myself to this a little bit because I'm selfish...I actually finished these shots and the animatic as a whole on my birthday. It's the day before Serizawa's, and while my own birthday is always a time of reflection for me, I really enjoyed being able to to reflect on someone else's growth for their birthday. Even if he's just a fictional character, Serizawa is very important to me and a lot of other people. I think I really connect myself to fictional characters because it helps me rationalize my own growth and journey. So, all of that to say that this animatic also felt like a birthday gift to me.

ANYWAYS. Wow. This was long. The Royai deep dive was long, but this is long. Thank you if you managed to read this far, seriously. And thank you to everyone who has shown their love for this thing I spent the past month on. I don't think I'll ever get used to having people seriously enjoy the work I do. Just really, truly, thank you. And happy birthday to Serizawa!

#this is an ESSAY #but I love doing this stuff #serious kudos to you if you read it all lol #animatic deep dive #serizawa #serizawa katsuya #mp100 #mob psycho 100 #mp100 fanart #animatic #storyboarding #storyboard #Youtube

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dreamonbaby · 4 days

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I heard I can fo it with a broken heart on the radio

And aside from the chorus being kinda awkward (I'm so depressed I act like it my birTHHHdaayyyyyYY)

I think this whole 'i sold you a lie you think I'm doing well but I'm not but I'm killing it so I'm a #girlboss try come for my job' is so embarassing

Because everything shes done over this last year I've thought 'theres a woman doing real bad'

Like I'm not trying to dispute the effort and energy that goes into touring like she does, but a lot of her decisions both professional and personally have made me think uh oh

Its giving 'could a depressed person do this?' But it's about dating the worst men on the planet and looking like shes going to cry on stage half the time

💌 come talk to me, a veteran swiftie in the anti- tag in the same way that martin luther still thought himself catholic

where i land with it lyrically is in conversation with four songs: "mirrorball" from folklore, "nothing new" from red TV, and two other ttpd tracks, "who's afraid of little old me" and "clara bow"

per the long pond sessions, she wrote "mirrorball" partially about COVID's effect on touring ("and they called off the circus, burned the disco down / when they sent home the horses and the rodeo clowns"). pair that with the much discussed WAOLOM asylum line and... it might be because she says "circus," it might be that while i have no personal experience of involuntary hospitalization i Do have basic empathy, but i think of the two great blond celebrity memoirs of the last few years: britney spears' the woman in me and jeannette mccurdy's i'm glad my mom died. which is all to say, she doesn't Have to do it with a broken heart! actually! "the asylum where they raised me" sounds like her pursuit of fame was coerced by say, a stage mom or an abusive contract or monetary need (it wasn't), if she was in an urgent health crisis like ICDIWABH suggests ("even when you wanna die"), she has all the power to postpone or cancel dates. she's not in a conservatorship, she's not being Made to tour; i can imagine feeling obligated to pay the hundreds of people it employs, but she is an actual billionaire, i think she can afford blue cross blue shield PPO plans for a militia. you can interpret "all the pieces of me shattered while the crowd was chanting 'more!'" as resenting the audience, but there's other performers in smaller venues with less freedom and power who need to be onstage to afford food. idk.

then there's the "try and come for my job:" extremely vague as to who is coming for it, and the popular reading is of other pop stars on tour. "clara bow" is my favorite track on ttpd by a long shot in part because it feels like a more mature version of "nothing new;" it's a little kinder to the ingenue and seems to respect her predecessors, recognize that She was the ingenue once, but it does not match up to her actual conduct in public. this is where i become very asian, but besides her being uhhh... pretty drunk at the grammys this year, i think her behavior is more a symptom of white american culture as egoistic and ahistorical—this is the kamala harris "you think you fell out of a coconut tree" meme, yes, but more broadly my complaint is filial piety. acting up in front of the likes of celine dion and tracy chapman and joni mitchell, especially on a night that celebrates all three of them, is absolutely unacceptable to me. they're your elders, they paved the path you're on (nothing new: "she'll know the way, and then she'll say she got the map from me"), but her teenage fans who've never heard any other music don't know or accept that she Isn't actually the progenitor of acclaimed women singer-songwriters

she wants to be seen as a "cool big sister" mentor to younger pop girls or boosting indie acts like boygenius, but afaik she herself hasn't shared the stage with an older female musician since alanis morrissette as a surprise guest on the 1989 tour. sure, she showed up to induct carole king to the rock 'n roll hall of fame, with a solo stage. but as much as people first cringed at luke combs' "fast car" cover, he acquitted himself with his grammy performance. there is true reverence there. if taylor brings stevie nicks (who wrote a poem?? for the ttpd physical editions) onstage at some point soon, i'll Maybe start to believe she doesn't see women over 40 as piles of dust she's either embarrassed to stand near Or, you know, who expose that she did not in fact fall out of a coconut tree, and have more stage presence sitting down than she does in sequins

#ask #this is an essay #because i am a swiftie!!!! okay!! i can criticize because i know her catalog better than both anti's and ass kissers #anti taylor swift #anti ttpd

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void-occupation · 11 months

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Halt's Brain Damage

I mentioned Halt's head trauma in an earlier post, and said that I would elaborate on it. Well, this is my elaboration. Keep in mind, I am not a health care professional, I am only certified to perform first aid. I am only speaking from what I have witnessed in someone who has had a similar condition from a motorcycle accident, and from what I find and cross-reference in my internet search on the matter.

Halt, as we know, has suffered MANY blows to the head - a lot of which could have been fatal if not for the intervening hand of Lady Luck and some very conveniently placed Plot Armor™. Now something that both the characters in the books, and probably a good portion of the readers either don't know about or haven't considered is the resulting brain damage - or more specifically, the damage done to Halt's gray matter.

For those of you who don't know (no shame), gray matter is tissue in the brain that is largely responsible for motor functions, emotions, and memory. Gray matter cells are known to be the longest lasting cells in the body, but they do tend to degenerate and die as people get old. There are other things that can speed up the process of gray matter cell death, most notably Alzheimer's disease, Parkinson's disease, multiple sclerosis, and traumatic brain injury.

I have a friend who was once in a bad motorcycle accident that resulted in a metal rod and screws being put into his wrist, and a sudden increase in gray matter cell death brought on by the head trauma. He was a teacher of mine and currently has a wife, daughters, and grand daughters, and he is just over fifty years old. I had the same class with him all year for 4 years (JROTC), and during that time, I was able to see how the condition affected him as time passed. He does make jokes about it, and is very open with it. I also asked him if it would be okay to post this beforehand, don't worry. The symptoms that Halt experience in my headcanon align with this because it is my closest experience with it.

Obviously, these characters don't know what gray matter is, but that doesn't mean it won't affect Halt, and some of these symptoms are things that Halt experiences in the books. I'll give examples of that too.

One of the symptoms of gray matter damage is difficulty controlling emotions. Now you may be saying, "But Void, Halt practically patented the ability to control emotions," and you're right. However, we all know that Halt has a pretty quick temper that can lead to some rash decisions - and this seems to get slightly worse as the books go on. One of the biggest emotions that people with damaged brain matter have issues dealing with is anger - closely followed by sadness and feelings of emptiness (AKA signs of depression).

Another symptom of gray matter damage is memory loss. The only example of this I can think of off the top of my head (that doesn't include when he was poisoned which is a whole other type of trauma) is when he had extreme trouble finding the correlation between the red hills and Redmont in book 7. Then again, it was a stressful situation and no one can be expected to notice everything. Not to mention that he was the only one to make the connection at all. This one and the next one are more for angst potential then as current existing evidence. Imagine really quick as Halt gets older that the memory loss starts slow - forgetting that he already told someone something, forgetting where he put something, etc. Small stuff. But later, it gets worse. He starts to forget meeting new people, important past events, how to cook certain things, or even just trailing off in the middle of a sentence - unable to remember his original purpose for speaking, almost as if a sort of fog has started blocking things out. A lot of times, he'll know that he knew it at some point, but sometimes, he doesn't remember that he knew that thing in the first place. Sometimes gentle reminders will work, and other times, entire stories, recipes, and tasks will have to be completely re-hashed with him.

The final symptom I'm going to cover in this already too-long post is how gray matter damage affects fine motor skills and language. I'm fairly certain that there is an example of this somewhere in the books, But I would have no clue where to look. We're going full angst potential on this one boys. Again, it starts small - some slight tremors in his hands here, a troublesome button there. Then, it gets worse as the years pass. Having difficulty tying knots, writing getting more and more difficult, cutting his hand while trying to prepare food, dropping his mug of coffee for no apparent reason, sometimes slurring his speech, forgetting certain words from other languages, not realizing that he had reverted back to Hibernian in the middle of a sentence because his brain temporarily stopped being able to comprehend Araluen speech.

Halt doesn't want to tell anyone that the changes in his behavior that he can't seem to control frighten him. He's never been genuinely afraid of his own mind before up until he could no longer control what happened. It was a type of fear he was unfamiliar with, but couldn't stop from growing every time he failed to tie a knot, or someone told him about an event he couldn't remember. Everyone else was afraid too, but they toned down their own fear whenever they saw that desperate look in Halt's eyes that he couldn't quite hide, the one that begged for any confirmation that he wasn't crazy.

What the hell. I just wrote an entire essay. You know those posts that say, "In this essay I will discuss..." but they never get to the essay? Yeah, that but completed. This was born from the fact that Hal't has had a bunch of head injuries and I immediately thought 'haha brain damage go brr' and proceeded to write that in essay form. If you've made it to the end of this monstrosity, more power to you.

I'm going to try to go into a coma now.

#ranger's apprentice #halt o'carrick #head injury #brain damage #this is an essay #that was not my intention #if you have anything I missed or just want to further the discussion feel free to comment #someone needs to take the internet away from me #I'm not proofreading this #if there are mistakes they just live here now

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loveless-fairy · 1 year

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Evan Buckley and why the writing choices for him in the season finale were crap

This is my take on Evan Buckley, and it's a long one.

I have to start to say that yes, I am a Buddie shipper, but also I think it’s fair to say that before that, I am an Evan Buckley truer. So my take comes from my love for the character, rather than my hopes for the ship.

With that out of the way, let’s get into it.

I have a lot to say about the season finale, but I’ll concentrate my thoughts on Evan Buckley and how this show managed to give us development and no growth at all, all at the same time.

It’s really important to remember that last night’s episode was meant to be a series finale. They made this episode with the thought of “this is the last time” on their heads.

This was a send-off, and as such, it was quite awful.

Maddie’s and Chim’s closure was fine, Athena and Bobby's was perfect because they finally get to have their honeymoon, and without telling anyone. Very on brand. Hen and Karen was a happy note, but it left me wondering, why now? I mean, it’s been a while since we saw this storyline and it kinda came out of the blue. A surprise if you will. A good one though. Karen and Hen deserve the world. The thing is that seemed rushed.

The lack of Ravi. I’m gonna just leave it at that.

Eddie. I have to be honest, this felt weird and also out of the blue. Just like people on Twitter were asking. Where did he get her number? That entire scene felt off. But that’s an analysis that I’m whiling to do another day. For now, let’s just say that it was a no for me. That’s how we were supposed to say goodbye to Edmundo Diaz? I’m sorry but no. He deserves better. We deserved better.

Now, let’s talk about Buck. It’s gonna be quite a ride, so bear with me. As I see it Evan Buckley is a very complex character and sometimes I get the feeling that even the writers and showrunner of the show don’t fully understand how deep they can dig, so it’s understandable that fans feel underwhelmed with the decisions regarding Buck. As viewers, we tend to analyze everything. As fans, we like to see different sides of our favorite characters and we pay attention to everything. We keep track and sometimes, and not just with Buck, I feel that we do a better job at knowing the characters than the writers do.

With that said. We had Buck dying at the beginning of the second part of the season. It was quite a shock for the 118 and in my opinion, it was very well done. The emotional aspect of it was painfully good, so I had my hopes up for true growth for Evan Buckley. And we were heading that way until we weren’t.

I feel that after everything he went through, having to say goodbye to Evan Buckley with him getting involved with someone he just met and without really addressing his trauma was lazy writing. Plain and simple.

One of the things that always bothered me about how the show decides to write Buck is that he never truly faced his traumas.

Let’s see. Since he joined the 118 he got a truck landing on his leg, a pulmonary embolism, found himself in the middle of a tsunami with Christopher and he even thought the little guy was dead for several hours. He had to watch his best friend get shot in front of him, and for the second time, he feared for Eddie’s life. Just like Maddie said, just another trauma to add to the pile.

He almost died in a factory fire and was struck by lighting. Not to mention he was in an overpass collapse with his entire team. I know I left a few things out, but you get the idea.

And all of this is just since he joined the 118.

Let’s talk about his life before coming to Los Angeles.

I am a firm believer that Evan Buckley doesn’t really know what love looks like and what to do with it.

True. Growing up he had Maddie, and she did as much as she could with the few emotional tools she had. She was a kid herself. We know she raised him, and she did a fantastic job, but at the end of the day, she was his sister. The sister who had to step up into the mom role, even when their own mother was living under the same roof.

Buck grew up feeling that his parents didn’t really want him. Now we know why but can you imagine how confusing and painful must have been growing up like that?

They were his parents. They were the ones who should have loved him no matter what. They were supposed to be his safety net, the one place where he could feel safe. But they weren’t.

How damaged a kid had to be for him to realize by himself that only when he gets hurt he can get his parent's attention? Let that sink in for a minute.

As Taylor Swift said: “You know there's many different ways that you can kill the one you love. The slowest way is never loving them enough”.

And that’s what they did. They never loved him enough.

So, no. Evan Buckley doesn’t really know what healthy and unconditional love looks like. He had Maddie but the ones who were supposed to do the job and show him and teach him about love didn’t.

Not having that growing up leaves you with scars that will haunt you for years and years. And trust me, I know what I’m talking about. On a good note, he’s surrounded by love at the 118. And we’ve seen him learn about love right in front of our eyes. But the trauma doesn’t go away. That’s not how it works.

We’ve seen him being left behind, and jokingly doubting if the members of his chosen family will come for him when needed - which they did. His self-worth was on the freaking ground, but slowly but surely has been getting better.

So, yes. After him realizing why his parents never loved him enough (Love me anyway), and finally letting Taylor go, I thought we were going to see a new side of Evan Buckley. And with the couch analogy coming to life, I really thought we were going to get a growth storyline, especially after they decided to kill him.

Don’t get me wrong. I have nothing against Natalia, and I understand why he felt like she ignited a spark in him. I really do. But I also thought he was going to realize it was a temporary thing, because overall having someone fetishizing your death is not really attractive.

As I said before, even after years of being surrounded by love, the trauma and the psychological scars of not being loved enough as a kid will haunt you to adulthood, especially if you don’t go to therapy to deal with it.

And they showed us just that at the beginning of the second half of the season.

As someone who wants love and loves so fully, when the same love is given back, Buck doesn’t know what to do with it.

I see it like this. When someone didn’t have physical affection growing up, as an adult is more likely to have an aversion to touch. But what happens when that person craves a hug, when that person knows it needs a hug but has no idea how to ask? And if it gets one, what happens then? It doesn’t know how to react and what to do.

After being struck by lightning we saw a parade of people worried about him and whiling to be there during his recovery and Buck was done. One would think he will take advantage of the situation and will let them shower him with affection, but it was quite the opposite. The concept of this kind of love made him uncomfortable.

And then he had people reminding him that he actually died –for 3 minutes and 17 seconds, mind you- when he clearly was trying to downplay what happened.

So yeah, Natalia really ignited something new in him, because since the lightning she was the first one who looked at him without worries and fear. Quite the contrary, she was fascinated by the fact that he died. She literally was the getaway car for these traumas, so he saw an opportunity and took it.

I wasn’t really that surprised when he said to Eddie that she really sees him, because from his point of view that may be true. But the thing is that she’s only seeing what he wanted to show, which is this version of him that’s running away from his trauma. Meanwhile, the people in his life who are a constant will see that too but also, eventually, will dig deeper and will force him to see and face what he is purposely avoiding.

At the end of the day, he was looking for validation that what happened wasn’t that bad and that it was not worth the fuss, and he found that with Natalia.

So, sure. Being with her was easy for about 2 seconds. Then she runs away, pretty much in the same way Taylor did. Because people are right, is not hard to see the parallels between how Taylor and Natalia happened. Both after major trauma.

In my head, I could see Natalia coming back so they can give it another shot, but Buck will have realized by then that he reached out in the first place for all the wrong reasons. He would have to face his mortality and grow from it. Maybe he would work on himself and put his energy into growing at the job since he was having doubts before, and rightfully so.

I’m serious when I say that I’m in charge of pushing the Evan Buckley lieutenant-era agenda.

And with the couch metaphor, what can I say? In my perfect fantasy world, Buck would have realized the couch was Eddie and then we would have had Buddie canon. But since that’s virtually impossible as long as Kristen Reidel is the showrunner of 911, I thought the season was gonna end up with Buck buying the damn couch by himself since he realized his own worth, and that he as “just Buck” is enough and him knowing himself and seeing himself for what he is, is the most important relationship he has. An open and hopeful ending. A full circle with the moment back at the beginning of the season when he realized what the couch represented in his life.

What a send-off.

And maybe, in another season that now we know is a sure thing, after the trauma and growth, he can reconnect with Natalia and really see if he wanted to be with her because of how she treated his death or because there was something real there after all.

But no, they decided to go with the safe route and have him ignore his trauma and have him dive into a romantic relationship, which according to 911 is the cure for everything.

I was mad at the beginning of the second half of season 6 because I felt they made him forgive his parents way too easily. I know they went to therapy together, but it felt like all the damage and the hurt were overlooked in favor of giving the Buckleys the redemption arc they didn’t deserve. It was the show invalidating Buck’s trauma and that didn’t sit well with me.

And also, when I saw the promo for the finale I thought they were going to do the full circle thing with Buck taking charge at the scene and proving that he can act as interim captain. The parallel between the first episode of the season and the last would have been beautiful. Him buying the couch by himself and acting in charge at the house meanwhile Bobby is getting better.

That would have been a great way to say goodbye to Evan Buckley. Showing us he is more than his relationships. He, by himself, is more than enough.

What did I say before? Lazy writing.

I still can't wrap my head around the fact that they have him delivering “his baby”, which is not really his, and having him act all professional even when we saw the moment he broke his own heart for a second there right before he passed the baby to Cameron, and they still managed to left us with the feeling that there was no growth for the character.

One step forward and 150 steps back.

Anyway, I really hope next season something change with the showrunner or in the writing room, because we’re going in circles with Buck and people are getting tired.

My takeaway from the season is that Evan Buckley died for 3 minutes and 17 seconds and didn’t learn a damn thing.

Give that man a breakdown and have him go to a therapist. He desperately needs therapy.

Finally, I hate to think they had the opportunity of a lifetime to give closure to a character as complex as Evan Buckley and they decided to reduce him to a romantic interest.

Thank god that wasn’t the last episode of 911.

There’s still room for redemption.

On another note, Eddie realizing that Pepa was wrong and that in order to be happy you don’t need a romantic relationship; that would have been a good ending too. I understand where she’s coming from, but in this day and age, being alone is not a sad and pathetic thing as she made it look.

#evan buckley #911fox #911onfox #911 fox #911 #eddie diaz #evan buck buckely #9-1-1 #911onABC #I hated the finale so I had to write something #they did my boy dirty #this is an essay #the couch theory #the couch metaphor

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solarsunhae · 11 months

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Sappy post about Mamamoo and long overdue (So LATE but whatever I need to get this off my chest) review of MyCon NY incoming!

Mamamoo finished their USA tour and when I think about it I still get kinda emotional!

First, my review of the concert in New York. It’s nearly a month late but it doesn’t matter because I remember it all vividly.

So I took - what I didn’t realize - the last train to the arena and it was delayed! There had been an accident that occurred earlier and the train was moving slow as hell. I was anxious as hell!! The one thing I didn’t want to happen was to be late for Mamamoo. Luckily the concert was delayed so I had time to breathe. Right after I scanned my ticket I heard music playing. I hoped it was the music they usually play before the concert starts. Then I heard Hwasa say, “Make some noise!” and I SCREAMED her name and my friend and I ran so damn quick to our seats. I remember a few other fans running as well, haha. Unfortunately, I missed the intro VCR but I got there just in time for 1,2,3 Eoi!

Seeing them onstage felt unreal. I already saw them at KCON 2016 but this time I was much closer to the stage. Gosh, they’re so beautiful in real life and they sound amazing live.

I straight up lost my mind during the Solo Medley. I was looking so forward to this part. I was a different person for Eclipse Hwasa. My soul left my body when Hwasa came on stage wearing the Eclipse outfit. I was on my knees for her!!! When they did the body rolls during Maria I screamed so loud.

Besides the performances, I just love how much Mamamoo loves Moomoos. They were having so much fun interacting with the fans during the talking segments. The audience was barking and Moonbyul immediately embraced it and barked every chance she got. It was so funny because they were so perplexed by it but by the end they just accepted it and did it themselves. The concert had good vibes all around. My only regret is that I wish I arrived earlier so I could do stuff before the concert. There was chalk writing outside the venue where all the fans left cute messages to Mamamoo. I would have loved to have done that. I also wished I was there earlier so I could pick up a fan banner. :(((

I’ve been watching videos of the other USA stops and it’s just so nice to see how they were gradually getting comfortable and more confident with each city. You can see the difference in the way they act from their New York concert to their LA concert. They’re cracking more jokes with the audience and going off script more. Never getting over the fact that in Chicago they saw a fan holding up pink panties and they asked for the panties and wore the panties on their arms without a second thought. I also loved that in every concert photo you can see an increase in Bald Yongs and meme pics in general. I’m so glad they did this tour because they saw how loved their are outside of Korea. The fan VCRs were so sweet as well (Especially LA’s!!!).

That concert made me so happy. After the concert I thought about how I’ve been a fan since 2016 and how they kept me going during my high school and college years. Then I got emotional. Like damn!! These bishes really made me happy!!

Honestly, I don’t have post concert depression. It’s more like post tour depression. To see them happy on stage and having a good time with fans is everything to me. I’d do anything to see them again. :’)

#personal #this is an essay #lmaooooo

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upside-down-sock-drawer · 9 months

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I need the media and fan writers to please stop heterosexualizing queer couples.

This probably makes no sense but let me explain. This is going to be long, strap in.

As a avid queer media consumer, I see way too many people constantly obsessing over heterosexual dynamics in queer relationships, specifically mlm ones. It becomes especially upsetting to me when dynamics suck as this make up a large portion of the character itself. A common example of this, is the "Top vs. Bottom" debate.

The Top v. Bottom debate has been around for a while, and it has people arguing over who does what in the fictional relationships during spicy times. Top v. Bottom, Sub v. Dom, all generally boil down to the same question: Who's the boy, and who's the girl of the relationship?

This is an inherently wrong thing to do. Most people in the queer community find asking a question like that to be extremely offensive. The question asks people who spent years trying to separate themselves from traditional gender roles and normalize that, to put themselves back into said roles.

Many times, I've seen these roles to be taken so seriously that they become a large piece of the character's writing. I can honestly say that if I were to read two different fan works, one with top and bottom dynamics in place, and another one with them swapped, it would be like reading about entirely different characters. Take Six of Crows, for example. The characters Jesper and Wylan are in a relationship, and for the most part, people agree that Wylan is the bottom and Jesper is the top. Because of this, people often write off Wylan as an extremely weak and emotional character, completely ignoring cannon content and deciding that he needs to be put into this role.

(Honorable mentions: Deku from BNHA, Varian, from Tangled the Series.)

Even worse, this is not only problematic for the queer community. Often times, when one character is decided to be the more submissive one, they take on traditionally feminine things, including, but not limited to: Not being able to take care of themselves, always needing the other more 'dominant' character to so things for them, and being extremely emotional. These are feminine gender stereotypes that aren't only offensive to queer people, but also women in general. This also applies to "uwu-ifying" characters, but that's a whole other thing.

This doesn't just happen within fan works, it's also in cannon works. For example, in the series Heartstopper, Charlie, for the most part, cannot deal with his bullies on his own. He has to rely on Nick to step in before he can really take matters into his own hands at all. There is also something to be said about the fact that Nick is the big tough guy that plays sports, and that Charlie is the smaller, weaker boy who has a hard time handling himself. (No shade to Heartstopper or Alice Oseman)

All this to say, please stop pushing heteronormative standards onto queer relationships. It's basing a character on what position the prefer in the bedroom. It's over sexualizing queer people, pushing gender norms and it's just generally gross please stop.

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Huggy Bears OTP is Starsky/Hutch; an essay

(Instead of doing my homework I’m writing you all a short Essay on my favorite topic: Starsky and Hutch. Please enjoy.)

In this essay I hope to prove to you all that Huggy Bear is Starsky and Hutch’s number one shipper. Now I’m making no claim to him being their first shipper. That still belongs to some queer watching Starsky and Hutch in 1975, no he started shipping them in season 3, specifically Episode 15; A Body Worth Guarding.

In this episode Starsky and Hutch must guard a Russian ballerina. Now, I’ll spare you the details, but Hutch ended up guarding the ballerina over night and Starsky was alone. He needed to find who was threatening her life. He went to Huggy Bear in the morning—pay attention to this part—and Huggy noticed something was off about his dear friend; he was rigid, blunt, and Huggy could see in his eyes the capability of great tragedy. Then it occurred to him; “a Starsky without a Hutch is like a pig without pork” it’s unnatural and as far as he knew impossible.

Huggy clearly doesn’t like this “new” Starsky. The laters discomfort in the morning (perhaps relating to the fact he knows his beloved partner is suffering with the Russian ballerina he, as far as Starsky knows, still hates) is disconcerting to Huggy and he even seems to start refusing to see one without the other in later episodes. Specifically the next episode; The Trap.

In this episode a trap is set to catch Detective Sargent Hutchinson by a man he’d put away—now out on probation—and Huggy was part of their set up. His restaurant was broken into and he was attacked so he called his two favorite detectives; Starsky and Hutch. What he said is the intriguing part though, when Starsky picked up the phone Huggy asks for him to come with his “better half”.

Now, better half is a phrase typically reserved for partners. Like, romantic ones. Spouses, the person you’re dating, rarely is it used for friends in an unironic way. That does ask another question; is it a joke? Is Huggy jokingly asking for Starsky’s better half? Well I don’t believe so. In the previous episode Huggy makes it clear to Starsky he prefers to see them together. He wants Starsky and Hutch not Starsky or Hutch. An impotent deviator.

I’ve heard arguments that Huggy and Starsky’s conversation in A Body Worth Guarding relate to antisemitism (the prejudice against Jewish people) it is never explicitly stated Starsky’s Jewish. I honestly don’t mind any headcannons—hell this is a whole essay for mine—and I can admit the argument for it is strong. It doesn’t make sense, if Starsky’s Jewish, that the “a Starsky without a Hutch is like a pig without pork” is an antisemitic comment from Huggy. I might be wrong but I’m pretty sure pork is one of the foods Jewish people can’t eat and the whole episode has a lot of Jewish themes. Or we’ll one really obvious Jewish and antisemitic plot point; the “free the Russian Jews” protest outside of the ballet and the whole plot of the episode being an attempt for the supremacists to frame the Jewish for a crime and get them shut down.

That being said; now that I’ve acknowledged the strong points from that argument I’m going to pull one little thread to make way for my less realistic theory; Starsky religion (or perhaps lack there of) is never explained in the show (as far as I’ve seen at least). He’s said he’s not Catholic but there lots and lots and LOTS of other religions. Sure that does also allow the possibility that he’s Jewish but it also doesn’t confirm it. And who really wants to think Huggys antisemitic anyway?

Huggy is a beloved character and it’s a lot more fun to watch his actions throughout seasons 3 and 4 as a Starsky/Hutch shipper than anything else. Hell even 1&2 can be read like this if you want, I don’t judge. Wether or not you believe me, those folks who say it’s a antisemitic conversation or don’t think it’s much more than Starsky having a bad day and Huggy being out off by it that’s up to you. But this concludes my essay on why Huggy Bear is the number ones Starsky and Hutch sniper. I hope this inspired you to watch Starsky and Hutch again with a different lense.

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