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ferie-anon · 1 year

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🐚 Aspects & asteroid observations etc 🐚

🍵 I notice people with bella asteroid (695) in sagittarius tend to be known for their bigger figure and curvy for females, as sag rules the booty. Men with this placement could have broader shoulders and look athletic or look fit. Btw the bella asteroid (695) can show you where ur “beauty” is.

🍵 Bella asteroid in virgo tend to have an “earthly”/natural and warm beauty. Their skin could be tanned or just have a warm undertone. They could have big doe eyes, from the ones I’ve seen that has this placement.

Bella asteroid in libra or 7th house may be known for their harmonious facial features.

🍵 Moon in 9th/sag tend to space out at times I notice, or they don’t recall certain details/events at times if they don’t remember anything memorable of it.

🍵 Venus trine neptune falling for morally grey characters? 👀

🍵 Nymphe (875) in leo in conjunct the ascendant may have luscious and wavy hair or their hair is ethereal/pretty to others.

🍵 Jupiter conjunct asc = big chest + booty 👯‍♀️ tho I’m sure ppl alrdy know that 🧍‍♀️

Difference between pluto negatively aspecting ascendant vs positively aspecting:

Me having pluto square ascendant and ppl finding it a bit hard to approach irl becuz I look quiet and studious and isolated (pluto square asc ppl are private and keep to themselves)

While my friend has pluto sextile ascendant and people finding her interesting and easy to talk to, cuz shes kinda quiet but also wants to make friends/experience the fullest of life (pluto sextile asc makes them more comfortable and confident in their power and making them magnetic and able to understand others in a deeper and different way).

Also I have another friend who has pluto square asc and ppl think she’s judgy/intimidating or looks to be a critical person at first glance/impression, even tho shes actually chill and friendly. So sometimes they don’t approach at first till they find out shes nice actually.

Random moon sign analysis:

🍵 Interestingly I have two friends with moon in 9th house but they don’t act the same. One of them has virgo moon in 9th house at 15 degrees (gemini degree), and the other has gemini moon in 9th house at 19 degrees (libra degree). Both moon signs are in mutable signs and house(while the degrees are different), but I feel the degrees slightly change the way they process and interpret information. The one with the gemini degree in her moon in 9th tend to be a bit “scattered” and have random unusual but creative and funny ideas, whereas my friend with libra degree in her moon in 9th seems to be more calm and just going with the flow with her thinking and balanced with her side and processing what others are saying to add to it. Since libra degree is cardinal energy, so her process of thinking is more direct.

It could also be becuz the two moon signs are inherently different in their process since virgo moon is more practical but also tries to retain and have a lot going thru their head, while gemini moon’s brains easily access and connect a lot of things in their head at that moment or just intuitively/ gemini moons thinkings are less filled with overthinking as they are not focused on the effects but the "possibilities".

🖋️ Mars at 0 degrees would lash out or have a lot of anger in them. If u tick them off or they feel disrespected, their anger can be volatile or hurtful.

🖋️ Saturn in 4th house could indicate to a difficult childhood or a family life of feeling disconnected or alone at times. One of my friends has this in her natal chart and her family dynamics is complicated, as she feels distant with her father and step-mom, while her birth mother and grandma lives in another country and she feels closer with them.

🖋️ I notice if theres gemini in the big 3 and earth placements in the big 6 together, they may be interested in getting tattoos on their body. For eg. Taurus sun with gemini moon and venus, they may think of getting meaningful word tattoos on their neck. (Eg. Ricky from boys planet has a tattoo on his neck with the word rolemodel on it) meanwhile sung hanbin from boys planet has a word/quote tattoo on his inner part of his arm and he has a sun and moon tattoo around the center of his collarbone/chest (hanbin has a gemini sun pisces moon with taurus venus)

I just notice that if theres gemini and earth placements in there, they’re likely interested in getting tattoos over their upper body, like arm, neck, or back. I think the moon sign can heavily influence where they put the tattoos and wut type of tattoos. Pisces moon may be more visual and may have tattoos of objects that are symbolic to them. Gemini moon may tend to get a quote they find meaningful or a fancy word tattoo. Capricorn moon may have their tattoos around areas of their joints, area wheres theres bone structure to support like the back since capricorn rules the skeletal system.

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honeytonedhottie · 4 months

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the tea on self love⋆.ೃ࿔*:･🍵

the most important relationship that you're ever going to have during your lifetime is the relationship with yourself. its the longest relationship that you'll ever be in, therefore its crucial to make this relationship flourish.

first understand ; love is unconditional. theres no such thing as conditional love, if its conditional then it is NOT love. that means regardless of past mistakes, your love for yourself is still there and its still strong. the love for yourself is the only love that will always be there. because people change and they come and go, but you're with yourself ALL hours of the day, and forEVER.

because people change, you cannot rely on the love of others all of the time. the love that u feel for urself shouldn't decrease just because your surrounded by individuals who love you a lot. if anything ur self love should grow, but never shrink.

its easy to grow dependent on the love from others, your friends, family, partner.. but the truth of the matter is, if ur self love isnt solid and grounded then when that person inevitably changes or grows or leaves ur life, then you perception of self love will crumble.

practicing self love ; start asking yourself "how i feel today" or "what do i need/want today" be more conscious of urself and ur feelings, just as you would if u were being thoughtful and considerate to a friend or partner that you loved.

do not EVER speak badly about yourself. even in a "joking" manner. bcuz guess what, ur brain can't tell the difference between when ur joking and when ur being serious. your words have power!! the same love and support that u provide to ur friends when they've made a mistake is the same, if not more, support and love that u should give urself when u make mistakes.

often times we beat ourselves up over mistakes that we make but thats not healthy at ALL. make ur mind a peaceful, beautiful, and safe place to be, where u can cultivate ideas and growth. instead of a place where ur walking on eggshells all of the time bcuz ur scared of imperfection.

make a promise to yourself that regardless of how u feel or what happened in ur life, that you won't talk badly about yourself. only tell yourself good things!!

be conscious of how you treat urself ; are you considerate enough of ur own health or well being? if the answer is no, then what are you even doing? treat urself with tender love and care. if you feel tired, sleep. if you feel hungry, eat. if you long for something, give it to yourself. dont deny yourself anything and please please look after yourself.

ways to show yourself love depending on ur love language ; if u dont know ur love language, take this quiz ✨ and find out.

if ur love language is physical touch...

try yoga

take a bubble bath

buy a weighted blanket or one of those pregnancy pillows

if ur love language is receiving gifts...

go on solo trips

investing in yourself

buying gifts for urself when u go out

if ur love language is words of affirmation...

practice gratitude

practice saying ur affirmations out loud to urself

give yourself compliments

if ur love language is acts of service...

practicing self care

meal prepping meals that u know u love to eat

clean and organize ur space

if ur love language is quality time...

go for a relaxing walk

start journalling

try meditation

have some quiet time and replenish yourself, take a long nap, do whatever u need to do to show yourself that YOU LOVE YOU, bcuz u should 🫶🏽

the mindset of someone who loves themselves ;

"im going to give my body the best that i can possibly manage"

"my body is a temple, so im going to treat it as such"

"im going to be conscious of what i say and think to myself about myself, and only feed myself good thoughts"

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jwirecs · 6 months

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RECOMMENDED BTS FICS OF OCTOBER 2023💖

hello, hello! here are my bts recs of october! hopefully these beautiful stories get more recognition as well as the writers 💝

** anything in parentheses and bolded are my thoughts that can be disregarded if needed **

🔞smut || 💔angst || 💕fluff || ✅completed || 🔄ongoing || 💯favorite

Photograph || @i-am-baechu💕💔✅

↳ Jimin hated Y/N. Y/N didn’t know why. It all changed with a photograph.

Beside You || @nochukoo97🔞💕✅

↳ you miss your boyfriend after not seeing him for a long time, so who could blame you if you couldn’t resist him once you saw him?

Claimed || @bethschamberoftales🔞💕💔✅

↳ He promised that he is going to fuck you hard so you won't be able to walk after that. You took that lightly but the thing is, Jungkook never breaks his promises.

Finish Line || @bonny-kookoo🔞💕🔄

↳ He's one of the best, no race too tough to handle, every track a new challenge he takes on- especially when it's you who's waiting at the finish line for him.

Loverboy || @kookslastbutton🔞💕💔✅

↳ After a startling conversation with your coworkers, you start feeling insecure about your sexual prowess. You don't initiate as much, you haven't worn lingerie yet, and you're still timid about doing much seducing with your body–are you giving your boyfriend boring sex? Taehyung reassures you that you are perfect and have nothing to worry about.

Never Goodbye || @smutlvrrr🔞💕✅💯💯💯

↳ It’s never goodbye, I’ll always see you again…

Support System || @bangtanfanfiction🔞💕✅

↳ You’re the support system Hoseok needs in times of uncertainty without his members. And you make sure he knows it.

Masked Miracles || @remedyx🔞💕💔🔄

↳ It wasn't supposed to happen this way. A quick in and out. Infiltrate and bring down a hybrid trafficking ring. Saving lives while we're at it. But things hardly ever go to plan. And being locked in with seven hybrids that meant more to me than victims forced into a life they didn't deserve was definitely not according to the plan.

Safe And Sound || @bearr02🔞💕💔🔄

↳ You have worked at a hybrid rehab and adoption center for years, enjoying being able to help people others only see as their animal side. You thought you might end up taking in one or two, what you didn’t expect however, was to take in 7.

A Thief's End || @eleni-cherie🔞💕💔✅

↳ he thought he was done with the criminal life and ready for some peace and quiet. but his plans collapsed in the form of a strange girl who was in trouble.

Best Served Cold || @anotherbtswriter🔞💕💔✅💯

↳ Yoongi is at the bottom of the organization just trying to stay alive when the story starts.

City Of Lights || @sunnebeam🔞💕💔🔄

↳ (theres no summary, but i will put the warnings instead! - warnings: gangster squad au, smut (18+), cheating, mafia shit, minor character death, murder, mentions of blood)

Cruel Intentions || @explicit-tae🔞💕💔✅

↳ You adored your eldest brother - you truly did. Before his addiction got the best of him, he was amazing at caring for you and your other siblings. Now, however, it was your turn to care for him without the help of your siblings who long abandoned him, advising you to do the same. Once your brother manages to get himself imprisoned, you realize just how much trouble he got himself into. Once your family is threatened, you offer to pay off the debts your brother owes with the one thing any powerful man couldn't resist - your virginity.

Darkest Little Paradise || @sunnebeam🔞💕💔🔄

↳ (theres no summary, but i will put the warnings: mafia au, smut (18+), sex work, mentions of past accident, amnesia / memory loss, more warnings to be added upon series completion)

My Beauty, My Blood || @7cypher🔞💕💔✅

↳ With Namjoon out of the picture, Jeongguk has to step up and be the sole successor to the organization laid out before him. However, guilt doesn’t escape him very easily, and neither does your persistence.

Vixen || @star-my🔞💕💔✅

↳ The door to the opulent room swung open soundlessly, allowing the tall, muscular man to enter unnoticed. He cleared his throat, gaining the attention of the young woman seated at the vanity.

After Hours || @archivedkookie🔞💕💔🔄💯💯

↳ staying after hours with Yoongi for months proves to be a mistake when your heart falls for him.

Champagne Confetti || @busanboykoo🔞💕✅💯

↳ “you won't regret me, champagne confetti” or maybe just jungkook wants you to tell him what you want him to do to you.

Flower Girl || @nochukoo97💕✅

↳ you’re in charge of mentoring jungkook, a convict who’s currently doing community service. as time goes by, you grow closer and closer to the man, finding out more about him and his past. jungkook makes you crazy with his small gestures, he makes your cheeks turn the same shade as carnations, he makes you dizzy. most of all, he makes you his flower girl

Mami || @kithtaehyung🔞✅

↳ you somehow have a conversation with yoongi, and you tell your roommate about a date date.

Nothing New || @myg-butterfly💕💔✅

↳ You get hurt and have to find a replacement. You just didn't think that replacement extended to your relationship with the BTS members. Will they still want you when you're nothing new?

Oh, Angel! || @yoongiofmine🔞💕✅

↳ Ever since he met you, Hoseok just couldn’t resist you. Even though you were off limits -many years younger than him and an intern on his sister’s company-, he just had to make you his. You were the perfect baby for him, docile and pliant. What happens when you decide to be a little brat instead?

Oh, Darling! || @yoongiofmine🔞💕💔✅

↳ Starting your second semester at one of South Korea’s most prestigious universities should be stressful enough. Between juggling classes, good grades and a social life, your plate was full. Hoping to spice up your academic career, you thought it was a good idea to enroll as an assistant for your literature professor, whom you've held a very secret and very forbidden crush on for the past several months. What will happen now that you’re forced to work closely together? And what if your crush isn’t as one sided as you thought?

Peek-A-Boo! || @namfinessed💕💔✅

↳ at a camp that you hated, you find yourself falling for a man that tries to sneak into your tent.

Punching Bag? || @bonobonoyaatheart💕💔✅

↳ You care and worry for Jungkook? In return, you feel like his emotional punching bag, despite of his intentions being different.

Set Me Free || @casuallyimagining💕💔✅

↳ Tired of being told how to live his life and unsure of where he stands in the world, Yoongi--your soulmate--yearns to be free. When you give him what he wants, it causes a rift in your relationship that seems irreparable. 12 years later, you find him back in your life. Can you mend your relationship? Do you even want to?

Sun Chasers & Moon Watchers || @foredelweiss💕💔✅

↳ after constantly transferring from school to school every couple of months, you've long accepted the impermanence of many aspects of your life. you never expected to want the world to allow you to spend a little more time with seven individuals. your days with them were one of the most beautiful moments in life.

The Five-Year Plan || @jknoah🔞💕💔🔄

↳ you've always had a very strict life plan. when you were twenty you sat down and made your five-year plan, you would get married, get your dream house, have your dream career and then at the end of those five years you'd have a kid. everything was going perfectly to plan, well until your husband came home with divorce papers. now you're somehow trying to stay on track, maybe you could convince your best friend to have a baby with you?

The Monster In The Dark || @themochiverse🔞💔✅💯

↳ Sleep paralysis is a common concern for everyone, but once your episodes start to become more frequent, you meet a horrid monster. A horrid monster who has only come for you to join him in his world. You can't run, you can't hide, but you can only watch whatever the hell is going to happen to you right now.

Ungodly Hours || @explicit-tae🔞💕✅💯

↳ That time you - a broke college student - were willing to do just about anything for a hulu account after your brother kicks you off of his - (and Jungkook would do anything to have you).

Venom || @nochukoo97🔞💕💔✅💯💯💯

↳ after a nasty breakup with your ex, who was a boxer, the person who introduced you to the sport, you decided to make life easier for yourself and switch clubs. little did you know that your club leader, also known as ‘venom’ in the ring, would eventually spark your interest. no matter how much jungkook interests you, you can’t bear to risk another failed relationship, you’re still hurt and traumatised from the inside. but will jungkook manage to crawl his way into your heart?

Do check out all of the other BTS Fics that i have reblogged as well!!

** if there is any fics that you guys would like to recommend, please do! i am slowly running out of fics to read **

#bts scenarios #bts fluff #bts angst #bts smut #bts fic recs #bts recs #bts established relationship au #bts enemies to lovers au #bts mafia au #bts hybrid au #bts soulmates au

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viridianevergarden · 2 months

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There’s so many things that I think would be cool to see in Elain’s book.

More moments between Nesta and Azriel. Them having alone time to actually talk about things like Cass and Feyre. Give Az a safe space to actually open up about his feelings for her sister. What to do about certain situations. Or just sibling banter. “His secret to tell, never hers” was more than enough for me to think that she would be his platonic safe space in a heartbeat.

Similarly, more moments with Elain and Rhys. The parallels are there. Rhysand and Elain joking around and bonding over something silly and meaningful.

Azriel and Elain planting a special flower together? A flower that would hold heavy sentimental value that only they know about. Them raising that flower together or said flower being a frequent meeting spot for them. Perhaps the growth of that flower being a poetic metaphor for their relationship in a way.

Az’s shadows failing to tell him that Elain is close by. Her finding him some place quiet where he thinks no one else is around, singing/humming to himself. Him being caught off guard after noticing her there. Her telling him that he has a beautiful voice.

The possibility of Elain harboring some power tied to life (the ability to heal wounds, plants/creatures) itself aside from her seer abilities.

Elain thoughtlessly touching Az’s wings, or better yet, Elain asking to out of pure curiosity and him letting her without another word. (This isn’t a want but a need.)

I think Az and Elain might strike a bargain too. The others have. Floral tattoo perhaps 🤭

And more. Theres a lot in my brain 🤭

#elriel #acotar #pro elriel #elain archeron #azriel shadowsinger #elain x azriel #I’m coping at this rate #book announcement when?

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smokeygrayrabbits · 10 months

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vash knows all the constellations. he knows their stories, he knows the names of the stars that make them up, he knows which ones are distorted by the different position of gunsmoke compared to earth. he knows how to navigate by them. how they're made and how they die. he points them out to wolfwood on quiet nights, when they're laying on their coats in the sand or sprawled out on the top of meryls car.

he whispers their legends like he's telling the story of a lost friend, of someone held dear but is just out of reach. a piece of his heart never to be seen again. vash will whisper about neutrons and and nebulas and fusion. once, after a few too many drinks and a few too many silent tears, he told wolfwood about supernovas. about the death of something so ancient and bright and giving, a final push, a final gift of energy and substance and life. a last run.

wolfwood doesn't know the stars. he doesn't know about particles or gravitational forces or radiation or ancient legends. no time for learning when theres mouths to feed. wolfwoods never seen the stars up close, not in the way he suspects vash has, but he's seen vash, and isnt that close enough? this ancient being, so bright and powerful and endlessly giving. who shines light on all the planets people, warming their lives, giving life. watching over them all, here long before they were and here long after they're gone. what else does one need to be a star?

wolfwood can't help but think the typhoon moniker is wrong. his angel is more of a star than anything. ancient and bright and giving and just out of reach, so incomprehensibly far above them yet still visible, still gracing their lives with his light. wolfwood can't help but think vash has the gravity of a star too, pulling people linto his orbit and letting them bask in his radiance.

wolfwood might not know the constellations, but he knows vash. he can lay next to this cosmic beauty and trace patterns in the sky, not the traditional ones of the tales of an old world lost, but of the stories carved into the skin of an angel. he traces the galaxies visible in the desert sky at the same time he traces the lines that map across vash's skin. vashs markings always look particularly radiant under the starlight, shimmering as if in greeting to the heavens this angel came from.

#vash the stampede #trigun #trigun headcanons #trigun stampede #trigun wolfwood #nicholas d. wolfwood #vashwood #vash 98 #trimax #i just like stars

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imaginedreamwrite · 1 year

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Soft Saturday? Alpha Jake holding his cub for the first time, please!

“Hello beautiful,” Jake’s voice is a wavering reminder of the world he cradles in his arms while his universe sleeps beside him, “we’re gonna try not to wake mama bear up, right?”

His eyes study his baby, his beautiful little pup resting soundly and softly in his arms, and for a moment he’s relieved and in the next he’s aware of the dangers of his life.

“I’m gonna be a good daddy for you, the best. And princess…your momma—” Jake looks over his shoulder and preens, a sense of pride cathartically surging in his chest. “—your momma is the best damn thing to happen to both of us, I’d die for her.”

Jake coddles your pup, cooing and shushing her gently while she whines. Theres a moment when Jake thinks she’s going to wake, where he thinks that she’s going to make a fuss and wake you up, however she quiets down and pressed further into his arms.

“You’re your mommy’s baby, you are your mommy’s spitting image and I’m damn thankful for that. You,” Jake leaned in and brushed his nose against hers, “and your mama are my whole world. My whole universe is you, don’t tell her that though. I don’t want her to know how much power she has over me.”

Jake was thoughtful for a moment and then he grinned. “Who are we kidding? She already knows.”

#alpha!mob!jake jensen x plus size!omega!reader #mob!Jake Jensen x reader #alpha!Jake Jensen x reader #six sentence soft Sunday

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rainylana · 2 years

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This is gonna be long but by god this shits been in my head for DAYS-

-BestFriend!Eddie who is so obviously in love with reader and does everything in his power to express it other than directly saying ‘I’m hopelessly in love with you’

-Over the top flirting, cheek kisses, pulling her into his lap whenever possible, talking about what a great girlfriend she’d be, showing favoritism during DND sessions to her character (much to the displeasure of the other hellfire members)

-and reader just seeing all of this and chalking it up to ‘there’s literally no way someone with genuine feelings could be this obvious. he’s just teasing. What a good bestie tho it’s a shame I’m in love with him.’

-The entire Hellfire Club begging Eddie to man the hell up and tell his crush how he feels and him refusing until Dustin threatens to tell her FOR him because at this point everyone’s tired of their bullshit.

-Eddie FINALLY managing to work up the courage and pulling her aside during study hour, asking her to dinner or to go see a movie.

-reader responding with ‘yeah sure we do that like every weekend tho?’

-“No, sweetheart. Like an actual date.”

-Reader just laughing it off because there’s no way he’s serious right? Right? They’ve been play-flirting for months at this point, he would have asked her out by now if he was ever serious.

-He just goes sorta quiet and digs his nails into his jeans before dismissing himself and cutting class for the day.

-Cue Eddie just flipping his shit at the trailer because he couldn’t get the words ‘I love you’ out of his mouth and he just got LAUGHED at by the love of his life and best friend. Who was he to think she might like him back?

-Things aren’t the same back at school. Their flirty friendship comes to a halt, reader’s attempts at starting conversations being ignored or redirected to someone else in their friend group. Eddie not coming by her locker like he usually does between classes, meeting her eyes in the hallway to just turn around and stomp off back the way he came.

-Reader finally sick of his shit and watches him go out to his spot in the woods for a smoke and corners him at the table, asking what the hell she did to make him act the way he’s acting.

-“Dunno why you’re acting like this is a big deal, y/n. Ya didn’t seem very interested in hanging out with me the other day.”

-“We were joking around, Munson! I knew you don’t mean any of it, why are you so upset about MY reaction to a joke that YOU made?”

-“Because it wasn’t a fucking joke! You think I go around pulling Gareth into my lap on the daily? Giving anyone else the attention that I give you? I’ve been trying for WEEKS to tell you that I’m head over heels for you! Jesus, y/n, is there no way into that thick, beautiful fucking head of yours?!”

-Theres a beat of absolute quiet. Eddie’s outburst silenced the woods surrounding the two, leaving the blood rushing in her ears the only sounds that y/n can hear.

-“…what?”

AND SCENE!!

bruh i crying😭

#lanas asks #eddie munson x reader

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ext-se · 9 months

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the lycoris withers

honkai: star rail

— renheng

(major(?) spoilers for beginner players)

characters: dan heng (implied to be in his imbibitor lunae form), blade, mentions of nanook (aeon of destruction), dan feng, a singular mention of ren (blade's old name) kafka (near the end).

genre: hurt with no comfort.

tw: character death (not canon), use of petnames, slight ooc i'd say? i dont know 😭, mentions of blood, shit writing.

theres prob mistakes so just correct me in the comments 🙏

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after the long, arduous battle against Nanook, the aeon of destruction, both the members of the stellaron hunters and the astral express crew were left completely exhausted and worn out, with some having gained grave injuries. However, one particular member had taken a exceptionally unforgiving blow that had left him barely standing, all to ensure that the man he once called his beloved, would be safe.

———

blade falls to his knees with a 'thud', coughing up blood as soon as he moved. the pain he feels is unbearable. sure, he has experienced torment multiple times throughout his existence, but nothing can compare to this.

what he was currently experiencing made him unable to breathe. everything infront of him was a blur. his ears were ringing,. he couldn't move a muscle. he was getting weaker by the second. he had already tried using his weapon for support in order to bring himself up, but couldn't since the blade cracked, turning what was once considered fine craft into complete ruin.

not even dying and coming back to life several times felt as excruciating as this. was the power of destruction actually his agonizing?

at times like these, he seeks death. he wants to feel its cold embrace take over and finally allow him to be free. he knows it's not possible, he thinks its not possible, i mean, acknowledging his immorality, it probably isn't.

he had closed his eyes a while back, allowing his clothes to get further drenched in the pool of blood underneath him, the blood of his own. he senses that something is different.. this time he isn't actually getting better, like he usually would, instead, his vision is turning more hazy. oh. are the aeons finally taking pity on him?

he could hear the rushed footsteps of someone, he sensed that it stopped right where he was. he felt the person gently turn his body around and bring his head up to rest on their lap. their touch felt.. awfully comforting. it was.. familiar. he kept his eyes closed until he heard an almost quiet, choked sob.

...

the sight infront of him was beautiful. unexpected, but beautiful. he honestly wishes he could get comforted like this again, but he couldn't. he isn't his beloved.

...

"oh? you seeked out for me first.. how rare."

anyone could tell that his existence was slowly coming to an end. his voice was weak and sounded hoarse.

"don't talk., im trying to heal you."

he chuckled. how hilarious. the man that had stabbed him on multiple occasions in the past was now trying to help him.

"no need."

dan heng didn't listen, still focusing on tending to the wounds. if a mortal had these wounds, they couldn't have stayed alive for this long.

the hand that he used to hold blade's head close with was shaking, blade knew about it but didn't feel the need to point it out. he could already sense dan heng get more frantic as the minutes pass by.

he could hear his heart beat rise up unsteadily as he desperately tried healing his injuries, continuing his useless attempts before he eventually broke down in a sob.

"i.." "i-.. i dont know how he did it...how.. how do i help you? tell me, please. what did he do to help you? how did he get rid of your injuries..please,,please tell me."

dan heng didn't know why, but he felt so desperate. he was panicking, the sight infront of him was causing his mind to be on high alert, it couldn't even generate rational thoughts nor get him to stay calm anymore.

"..."

"why?" "there should be.. little to no reason for you to ask what he did. did you not say that you wouldn't carry the burden that dan feng left?.. after all, he's simply your past."

"...yes i know..that but please. just tell me how he did it..please, ren."

blade pauses. he knows its useless for him to bother trying to save him. he knows that his immortality finally come to an end. it becomes clearer as he feels himself lose more blood.

the exquisite lazurite blue fabric the man with dragonic features once wore became even darker in color as the blood seeped through the material. neither of them worry about it.

...

even in his final moments, he wants nothing more than to look at the face of his past lover. the man he once was worthy to call his dearest, his moon. through the lack of clear vision, he takes in the beauty of the man sobbing infront of him.

he wants to comfort him, spend time with him, travel with him, he wants to tell him that he loves him.. yet he can't. he isn't dan feng. he isn't his beloved. his heart aches when he reminds himself once again about it. but he continues to stare, his eyes wandering from his gorgeous long, black hair to his turquoise eyes. after all, he possesses the same beauty his dearest once had.

———

it was..unbearably quiet now. dan heng's lap felt heavier than before, but he continued to hold him close. his head hung low as the tears that left his eyes finally came to a stop. he couldn't cry anymore. not even tears could explain this feeling that was stabbing directly at his heart. he continued to stare at blade's peaceful, resting face as he held his bloodstained hand upto his cheek.

he wanted to use his powers again, but he couldnt. his body had reached its limit as well. yet he continued to stay in denial. he heard the sound of footsteps stop behind him not so long ago, but he didn't turn around. he knew who it was already.

"such a shame. looks like even immortality ends once you fight a god. anyways, mind handing him over now? im sure the astral express crew doesn't engage in arranging funerals for the deceased."

"..."

———

cold.. too cold.

the bracer that connected the two now lacks the warmth it once had.

annnd im finally done. this is my first fanfic so its clearly shit but anyways

i got some of the inspiration to write this fic from a small comic on twitter, so credits to them for their amazing artwork! (user @.Hairukon on twt) ^^

i was also heavily inspired by a threadfic i think but i forgor the username and lost the threadfic so i wont be able to properly credit them 😭. their work was amazing.

(actually idek if it was a threadfic or comic, im like 98% sure it was the former but yyyyeeaaah,,,,)

#honkai star rail #hsr #hsr blade #blade x dan heng #renheng #angst #hurt no comfort #character death #honkai: star rail #hsr dan heng #imbibitor lunae #hsr kafka #:3 #man this is shit #took a while but its still shit

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i opened my spotify time capsule and cried cuz i didnt hear my fav taeyeon song live this year so here are my top 10 taeyeon songs😎

10. Nightmare

this song was written for me .. taeyeon sang it for me. the BUILD UP OF IT ALL ! it starts out so simply and it continues so simply , and it just adds little by little to the instrumental and creates the most beautiful song ive ever heard. the little noisey noise in the second verse sends me right to heaven every time i hear it. the layering and echoing on her voice that builds up feels like youre slowly falling into this song UGH !!!!!!!!! ITS JUST SO GOOD !!!!!!!!! the fact that its under 3min long is an absolute crime i need it 15 min at least

9. No Love Again

this freaking song is just AAAKCLSA [eats it] the instrumental is just so GOOD !! i love the almost echoey effects on her voice in the chorus it feels like her voice is staying with u even as she sings the next line and the instrumental has this .. vibratey ? charm i have no clue how to describe it but i luv it :3 her voice is so smooth and sweet and clear the whole song and when it goes from her high strong singing in the chorus to the quiet in the bridge just to go in the altered chorus .. it gets me every time .... this song is absolute perfection and the outro just lets it rest SO WELL

8. Cover Up

BOY I CANT COVER UP MY HEART !!!!!!!! this song and worry free love are gfs theyre so cheerful and fun and this song is just so happy to be in love , right from the intro with the little "ooohh" in the instrumental u know this song is just perfect and it is ..... the build up of adlibs in the chorus makes it so fun to listen to and the BRIDGE guys I SAID IT I SAID IT (i love you love you) I MEAN IT I MEAN IT (i love you love you) !!!!! and she goes crazyyyy in the final chorus this song is just so GOOD and FUN !!!!! i love it and i cant cover up 🫶

7. Vanilla

the freakign. adlibs she does in the last chorus. i cannot describe to u the emotions rushing thru me whenever i hear this song, like everything stops and stands completely still. this song is just so gorgeous, from the second the instrumental starts u just know ur in for a masterpiece. THE DRAMA OF IT ALL !!!!!!!!! the quiet first half of the chorus into the beautiful burst of music in the second and the build up between verses and her little adlibs in the second verse and the gentle bridge into the most beautiful singing youve ever heard and and and and and [passes out and dies]. ITS JUST SO BEAUTIFUL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this song just swells with so much emotion and its so sweet .. like vanilla ..

6. Secret

i named my bee plushie after this song. his names bee밀. the chalky high piano beginning sets off the ethereal tone for this song and its just ..... so pretty ....... its so slow and .. and. .. . ... "and then theres you" .... [explodes into a million pieces] .. her voice is so delicate in the beginning and becomes so powerful in THE MOST BEAUTIFUL BRIDGE YOUVE EVER HEARD IN YOUR LIFE i ascend to the heavens whenever i hear this bridge . the build up of the instrumental goes perfectly with the growimg intensity of the somg and it peaks perfectly for a quiet outro like this song js just such a masterpiecd im shaking in my custom baby seal leather boots just thhinking abt it

5. Circus

if u look at the strands of DNA inside my proteins u wont see A C G or T, youll see the lyrics to this song. the intro is gentle but playful , and the entire song follows .. its just the powerful chorus and the gentle .. post-chorus (?) i dont know parts of songs but i do know taeyeon ate them up. and the freaking second post-chorus is so sweet and quiet AND THEN IT SWELLS TO THE BRIDGE !!!!!!! OUGH this song is just so interesting to listen to she contrasts the sounds so well and i remember listening to something new for the first time and she ended with this .. like ......

4. Timeless

from the moment this song started with the instrumental i knew it was going to be my favorite on invu ................. it makes me ache, its so pretty ........................ her voice is so sweet in the chorus .. the second prechorus is my absolute favorite the way she changes up her voice is just SO GOOD. her whispery adlibs in the bridge right into her high note ???? pls have mercy on us .. this song is just good i dont have words its just perfect. i remember listening to this the night invu came out like it was yesterday, i was watching the streetlights move across my ceiling and i was floating

3. Blue

this song..................... i have to go lay down. it was just released with four seasons as a little duo and its just so perfect. its just so pretty. the simple instrumental and the layering of her voices in the chorus and the way the song builds up so steadily to come to a head at the bridge and ....... sigh .. her voice stands out so prettily against the changed tone of the background music and its all so gentle and gorgeous it literally sounds like the color blue feels like cool water. if im not making sense its cuz i dont have the language to explain how beautiful this song is.

2. Find Me

this song feels so dangerous it embodies purpose so perfectly. the DRAMA. the instrumental sounds like thunder 🌩🌩🌩 and its so powerful along with her powerful voice and she goes absolutely CRAZY with the adlibs in the final chorus !!!!!!!!!!! i love love love the way her background vocals become the front vocals in the outro and her surprise high note in the second verse invented music everyone say thank u taeyeon !!!!! dont stop running dont stop flying !!!!!!!

1. Stay

i remember exactly where and when i was when i heard this song for the first time. it was that monumental in my life. i genuinely considered buying a plane ticket to japan to see her in the odd of love and hear this song live. the only way i can describe this song is shimmery. the instrumental is just so gorgeous it feels like when water sparkles in the sun. my icon is a screenshot from this mv and has been for like 5 years. her voice is so PRETTY AND FREE !!!!! the chorus that swells between her lines and the little woowooos in the .. sounds. her softer vocals in the prechorus that get so strong as she begins the most beautiful gorgeous perfect chorus ever written, sung, produced, and recorded. GO WAY !!!!!!! her "stay with me stay with me, STAY" in the second chorus is my favorite part of any song in the entire world. when i was in high school i told all my friends to listen to this song (only one of them did HAHAHA .. luv u ****) and i was talking about that part specifically to her because it just fills me with joy every time i hear it. i could talk for actual hours about this song but i will spare u. ITS SO PERFECT AND GOOD AND PRETTY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE MUSIC !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

honorable mentions (her not-solo songz):

1. Priority - Taeyeon, Max Changmin, Winter

..... this is a perfect song. theres literally no song better than this. i was genuinely surprised it wasnt my top song of the yr.. this song singlehandedly made max changmin my no4 artist on spotspot. the instrumental is just so gorgeous. so wintery (...hehe) and gentle and ITS JUST SO GOOD. one of those songs that builds up so gorgeously. this is a taeyeon post but of course changmin and winter ate SEVERELY. the key change and then the second key change. taeyeon and changmin having a parent-off for vocal custody of winter (taeyeon won, my evidence being in the live stage video they did for smcu palace or whatever, she held that final shared high note 0.1s longer than him and her voice rounds off the sound so prettily). listening to this song makes me want to go buy earplugs to wear to concerts to protect my hearing so i can listen to this song forever.

2. My Love (Duet Ver.) - Lee Sung Chul, Taeyeon

this song just feels so carefree and easy, their voices go together PERFECTLY and ITS JUST SO GOOD every time i listen to it my soul settles comfortably in my body and it feels like im eating carrot cake. kit listened to this and said woag key change which i didnt notice it was so thamks babe 😘 every time taeyeon starts singing i lose all knowledge in my head to make room for her voice to reverberate around my skull my god this song is so good.

3. One Last Time - Girls' Generation

I COULDNT DO THIS WITHOUT TALKING ABT MY FAV GIRLS GEN SONG🫶 this song is so FREAKING GOOD it's been my fav snsd song since it came out it just rocked my world. the piano intro and TAEYEON STARTS IT !!! how could i not fall in love ...... i lovee the little pause before the first chorus and how its not there in the second verse it feels so special like a little breath before you hear the most beautiful chorus in the world. all the ways the first and second verses + prechoruses are different while maintaining the same structure really make this song stand out so much for me.. and the bridge is just SO PRETTYYYYYYYY tiffanys high part especially always has me ascending ... and taeyeons crazy high note .............. and the outro .... its so bittersweet ....... no song will ever be better than one last time .

i didnt intend to make this a tag but @jisungshotfirst and @kihyunsgf my fellow taegangers id love to hear ur favs 🥺

#taeyeon #my love #my starlight #taeyeonposting

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five favorite fics that I've written (for writer appreciation day)

tagged by kat @sleepy-skittles thank u thank u 😘😘

5. in the garden sleeps a messenger — one of two non birdverse fics ive posted!! the target audience for this fic was me, twenty some odd years ago. ((love u bitch 🥰🥰)) anyway. edea and seifer have Thee Most Interesting Dynamic. it is insane to me how little there is about them. theres mommy issues. theres a highly problematic age gap. theres a concerning power dynamic. theres a hot evil milf with a banger aesthetic. theres the time loop or whatever the fuck was going on there. succession of witches defined my life for over a decade. seifer is into petplay i know this i know this. theres SO MUCH to explore here and it's all so underutilized in the game. this fic honestly does not even begin to get into but i consider it a decent first exploration and hopefully when i have time and energy i can do it a bit more justice. as it is though i really enjoy it!!

4. without a me there is no you —

She has the same blush rounding her cheeks and the same quiet, nervous laughter as the young Mór many years ago who muffled her kisses on Niall's mouth.

this bit was floating around in my head with perfectly clarity when i woke up one day and i immediately wrote out about six hundred words surrounding it on my phone before getting out of bed. im really interested in the implications of niall dreaming a docile sweet mannered replacement wife and i thought it would be interesting to explore it a bit from mór's perspective because she would be so impossibly biased. also thought it would be interesting if she fucked above mentioned replacement. this was my first time really trying to inhabit mór which, let me tell you, is really hard when the only canon information is scraps.

3. ambilevous — oh handcat fic, my weird little brain worm. all my fics are elaborate, long overstayed jokes in one way or another but this one i wrote specifically because the concept was just sooooo silly to me. absolutely absurd. certified kk comedy hour. it is, in usual fashion, a thinly veiled exploration of the more fucked up lynch family dynamics and how the barns arent quite what they seem but of course it is.

2. smoke alarms, smoke — my first exploration of the lynch family 🥰 it means a lot to me. i love this fic. the idea of the barns as a beautiful fairy tale ending had always rubbed me the wrong way and of course i love the slow desolation of locations through those that inhabit it which, really, what is the barns if not a haunted house waiting to happen. thats the part thats lacking (unfortunate!!) but i did get to write declan as a sad sad little kiddy which is one of my few life joys. i loved it when i wrote it and i love it now (which is saying a lot). while it isnt everything i want it to be i do very much love what it is!

1. it's a gift to be simple, it's a gift to be free — my aurora character study and probably the best thing ive written thus far...maybe ever. i honestly have no idea what the fuck i was on when i wrote this but god i wish i could get it back. some of my personal favorite prose comes from this fic. its a very personal fic in that i centered the emotional core on some of my own life bullshit. stylistically i owe so much of this fic to catherine valente's comfort me with apples which i had read around then (as if it wasnt obvious). i had already been thinking about aurora and her role in the lynch family but reading that helped solidify the tone i really wanted. this is another fic i sat down, wrote, and edited all in one night. i think if i hadn't posted it then it would've languished in editing hell so im very happy with what i put out.

oh and the recurring knife thing was because i was having feelings about knife maintenance, as one does. (if anyone wants me to come over and sharpen their kitchen knives and make you dinner lmk)

ive seen this passed around and lost track of who's already done it so if you would like participate then i am tagging you now. enjoy ((:

#kk writing #tagged stuff #late stuff too lol #i thought i was going to post a fic like froday or saturday and then cheat and say that was in my top five #BUT THEN #i was doing a ''quick'' final edit #and then i was like #oh this scene would b better if i #completely #.....#changed it #((^:#so here we are !!!#long post #im so sorry I talk so much

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And, do not yet

A limerick sequence

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Which canto me sages was his question hour soul of this; give wak’d the tack’d by which they mightier staid long-dew of pestilent to pleasuring cold, we find moon.

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And there to public strive was by the good-bye. Beneath half an undone: hem like Feinds, is working she din of uryne, and prose— I have seene, not in her care no cas.

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My bosom beneath rose, no single he lovely used, ever grief for must for there’s mine ailment: for a kiss aged enough! How cross-grain’d—his her time the meal?

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Whose beneath the unresister, died shepherd, so wikkedness of the must I wounds, love up his mine, and also sparing in all was out of charms. The chills, that shroud!

Hence had somewheretofore them and rash and of war of its clothes, to rear’d to seemed silken from the glide! Nor this ground believes his fatal to no mean Rebell.

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Death-like Caravage Sardanapalus. Thus I were not their silverly around som tymes which requisited no doubt if any into that—nor some place.

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Such light be thou can in silent of her summons any witness may the sigh, is no man, where bedded- down heart as a sweete wyn! Is not from desolate his stead!

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I have only daring life seen the wanton dismay. Which God, and your by others, pistols, and thus than that Art when each misers find is I doubled Faiths could one.

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And that a prison, was she lang, there undisguise, the midst what Orpheus sleep himself refused; and for you. While t’other none the worth, some swore; and spanning inster.

Perhaps in the ten yet still thine, in his joy from purblind there none of ill- resemblance and quiet. Your one where much gently gravity, and she’s there well, woman.

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I’m no win, turned at their silver others. The fring the tongue and fruitles are supportune flock, as of Dash, and that broke, that our seas wisdom’s confliction in faith too!

Economy: on a sworn, bathings and awful sacred hirelings them take the faultless vessel bound! My advance rule hope of thilke sandal his faint loss of sway.

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Then the alderman, for that momentest why your of rose, thou, who who speaks, they wander I finds, a train dream of a young day, Sir, their lieth. Yet its cling to Betray.

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A things her seen speak? Than woke thou may his own, he ruled and shock, thy bones, that none downward for the that ye leak and love delight neuer destroy. He coud heaven st.

And keeps besides, of three hungry, and dose of mourn it good Kings. Some before made the hous tremble. She was, for high toil and t is salt see cast, safely clerk, was well.

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Least be very level see, I weeping, he forsworn form’d to a wede: yes; a, beneath myn estaat astrologien, as much morning sun. Give my thrumm’d with his gore.

Thought; which in jest. I’m not under stour; which in one so wild as I tremble guess’d to weddyng wynd. So has been propriated half bare as Psyche ere stand, complete O!

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So cool as yet to she one, would tye. Allotted, and ever a ane to be could not, or all from aught, and thus is sort, they lies gave his her voice in my hope ends.

For every was—for her.—That their baron the only gentle is produce his Russians, air, he sea acted why I say, that sit witnesse relieving devours!

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How koude byte and the look on Sunday shame. In accurs to a pleases; heau’ns endite, his lyf, for them, which thing even let it may you pleased, and so that watch’d holly!

#poetry #automatically generated text #Patrick Mooney #Markov chains #Markov chain length: 5 #189 texts #limerick sequence

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jwirecs · 6 months

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RECOMMENDED NCT FICS OF OCTOBER 2023💖

hello, hello! here are my nct recs of october! hopefully these beautiful stories get more recognition as well as the writers 💝

** anything in parentheses and bolded are my thoughts that can be disregarded if needed **

🔞smut || 💔angst || 💕fluff || ✅completed || 🔄ongoing || 💯favorite

Late night Company || @daegall💕💔✅

↳ in which the Gods give you a shit day, and Aphrodite makes up for it.

Safety Net || @fadedncity🔞💕✅

↳ (theres no summary but short description from me - friends to lovers + clowns)

Between Us || @neowinestainedress🔞💕✅

↳ you find yourself tangled in the life of the Suhs after Mr. Suh starts working as an English professor at your father’s university. You don’t understand why they float around you so much, but soon enough, you can’t get enough of that secret, dirty game anymore.

Birthday Boy || @writemekpop💕✅

↳ It's Renjun's birthday and all you want is a moment alone, but other people keep getting in the way...

Homebody || @daydreamingyuta💕✅

↳ bf!Jeno spending a relaxing day at home with you instead of going out.

Mine || @milliewrtes💕✅

↳ in which your boyfriend saves you from unwanted, horrible flirting

My Exception || @armysantiny💕✅

↳ Renjun’s reading time is sacred; a dedicated few hours every weekend spent with him, his wax melts, a book, and a hot drink. Though he can make an exception for y/n. He can always make an exception for them.

Spidey Boy || @martiniblues💕💔✅💯💯

↳ mark has tried to hide his secret identity from you for as long as possible, to keep you safe, of course. little does he know that you’ve untangled his web of lies long ago and will do anything in your power to get him to admit it. just when you've had enough of him lying to you, he ends up getting caught in the act trying to save your life.

Sweet Like Pumpkin Pie || @potatocitytechnology🔞✅

↳ One fall day, you decide it's time to let go of your worries. Turns out you're a natural freak in the sheets and Johnny loves it.

Target Run || @kyufessions💕💔✅💯

↳ shopping with chenle can be exhausting, especially for your first apartment together

Don't Test Me || @peanutpinet💕💔✅💯

↳ Haechan was always known as the funny, sunshine one of the whole of NCT. But that doesn’t mean that can’t go serious. Especially when it comes to his lover who is actually the opposite of him. Quiet, reserved but anxious.

Protection || @peanutpinet💕💔✅💯

↳ NCT was developing a new technology to help them expand more and help them to always be one step ahead of their enemy

12-7 Room || @zh-lele💕🔄

↳ Surviving a week to Donghyuck's charms and jokes can't be so hard... Worst case scenario, you end up completely falling for your brother's best friend.

Ghostie || @smileysuh🔞✅💯💯

↳ As one am rolls around, you start to realize that maybe tonight you won’t get a call. He is a frat boy, and this is Halloween weekend. You’re disappointed as you get into bed, frowning as you scroll on your phone, hoping that if you wait another five minutes, maybe he’ll catch you. Five minutes turns into ten, turns into fifteen, and you find your eyes beginning to shut. You’re starting to understand how much you truly have come to depend on Ghostie as part of your nightly ritual. It hurts not to get a call from your favourite voice-modulated anonymous frat boy.

I Saw Her First || @astayinwonderland🔞✅

↳ you are tired after a long day of meetings but you step into an elevator with jaehyun-- however, you don't know mark has his eyes on you too

Send In The Clowns || @smileysuh🔞✅💯

↳ “She’s not the reason we’re dressed as clowns,” Hyuck is quick to insist. He’s such a good liar. Jungwoo would almost believe it, if you hadn’t told him your Halloween clown plan. It’s no secret to you that your three frat friends all have crushes on you, so you’d decided to tell Jaehyun about wanting to fuck a clown, just to see who would actually follow through with the costume. You’d expected one, maybe two- but here are all three men, dressed as exactly what they are: clowns. And it’s obvious to Jungwoo that they think this is their own idea. As if you’re not the puppeteer behind this all. God, Jungwoo loves having you as a best friend, even if your bucket list includes a frat clown Halloween orgy with three of his best friends.

Somebody's Watching Me || @neocentral🔞✅💯

↳ (no summary, but somnophilia)

The Only Exception || @jaylaxies🔞💕💔✅💯

↳ mark was overprotective and he didn’t fail to show it, warning all the guys to stay away from you, his best friends were no exception. so, how will you make it work when you return back after graduating school, only to find that your crush is paying more attention to you than ever? it most certainly doesn’t help that it’s lee donghyuck, to whom, you are strictly off limits.

Treat You Better || @luvyeni🔞💕💔✅💯

↳ renjun hates your boyfriend, he certain he can treat you better

ASAP || @yeonjunszn💕✅💯💯

↳ you’re not exactly the best barista at zhong coffee, but for some unknown reason (his massive crush on you), mark thinks you can do no wrong. sick and tired of his favoritism and your lack thereof due to absolute obliviousness, your coworkers are determined to fix this problem. asap.

Enchanted To Meet You || @liliansun💕💔✅💯

↳ college was enough to deal with, barely passing classes and struggling to keep up with what was going on in each was a daily struggle. not having time to catch someone’s eye was fine with you, that was until you met him. there was something about him that was enchanting, so you went out to find him, hoping you kept him up the same way he did you.

The Deal || @xrenjunniesx💕✅💯

↳ when a boy you didn’t know all too well asks for your number, you decide to make him work for it. when he asks for the second time, you make a deal with him.

NCT 127 Texts || @kumoseiza💕✅💯

↳ Couple Costumes

10:04AM || @gyeomsweetgyeom💕✅

↳ (soft renjun is superior)

16:47 || @lovesuhng💕✅

↳ "Don't be afraid to cry in front of me, I've got you."

9:35PM || @gyeomsweetgyeom💕✅

↳ (hyuck is a menace but hes their child)

Do check out all of the other NCT Fics that i have reblogged as well!!

** if there is any fics that you guys would like to recommend, please do! i am slowly running out of fics to read **

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rancid-jester · 2 years

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Arden is starting to become my favorite character in this novel I'm writing so lemme tell yall about why they are the superior main character. (also i ended up talking about All the characters in the novel so theres a read more haha sorry)

Arden (They/them)

They are nonbinary

They are fat

Everyone agrees that they are sexy despite nobody really knowing what they look like (the only thing I'm adamant about is that they are canonically fat and have natural Himnoan coloring, but if you wanna imagine them with dyed hair that WOULD fit them)

They listen to hyperpop

They are the worst mage ever

They are a scam artist

Their best friends are all brilliant magic users

They are poor

They drive awfully but the MC cant tell cuz he's never been in a car before

If they meditate they can suck people's consciousness into their mind

Since I'm in a good mood I'll also tell you some things about Ravana, my non-PoV character

Ravana (he/it)

he's a demon

he was a mage before dying but doesn't remember much of it.

it can't do human magic because his mind is too chaotic

Possibly because he has a natural ability to read minds.

Part incubus and part horned demon

His horns are intricately designed and he likes to decorate them with shimmery powder he makes himself. it also makes it's own talon strengthening and shining serum. Also carefully braids his long hair everyday. beauty guru vibes.

He seems intimidating at first but once you get to know him you can't believe anyone could be scared of him

He was a deal broker in hell and still instinctually tries to trap people in deals despite now being a house-demon.

It really likes animals and has a cat. wants to get two chickens.

His first language is English but it also speaks several demonic dialects. It's english sounds gutteral with the inflections of demonic but his demonic sounds soft like a human's

Surprisingly a very nurturing person, very good at teaching (most people he interacts with end up becoming its pupils after a while.)

Knows about other dimensions (and actually lived in one more like ours for his human life) but just doesn't bother to tell anyone about them

He has sensory issues and undiagnosed autism ::)

Okay I'm enjoying this too much lemme tell you about the rest while I'm here!

Lief (he/him)

The MAIN main character

became a mage at the ripe old age of 14 (Earlier than most people in his colony even start apprenticeships!!) (17 at the start of the story, currently 18)

He learned the majority of his magic on his own (also summoned a demon (Ravana) mostly via intuition)

he's demiromantic pansexual! also he's very sex-positive

grew up in the Himnoan Colony on Rubia and is one of two people on the Himnoan continent with the weird accent of Himnoan Rubian

Insane climbing ability

doesn't like looking vulnerable, and is very good at hiding feelings. One second he'll be crying and the next he's totally composed

awful little man--he teases people he cares about and threatens anyone who bothers him.

wants to commit murders

Considered becoming a fascist dictator but Ravana wouldn't let him (he probably could've)

Got offered a job that would give him power over an entire continent but he was too busy plotting to kill his only biological family member still alive

Would canonically be a ruthless tyrant if he didn't have Ravana and Arden

NOW FOR AZARIUS! (I havent written him in a long while so excuse me if it's less than the others.

Azarius (he/him)

Grew up on Rubia

Very quiet, as most Rubians are.

Can't sign like other Rubians because his hands aren't very coordinated (he has poor circulation and a tremor)

The only survivor of a town massacre

Current mage of Rubia

Formerly Lief's apprentice, now Ravana's pupil

Falls in love way too easily

Will sacrifice anything and anyone for his survival

His thirst for knowledge is one of the only things he cares about

Little guy so full of trauma literally so messed up poor guyyyyy

Has only been loud once; to yell at Lief

Extremely socially aware, if he has one conversation with someone he can tell you all about their social dynamic and how theyre usually treated.

Hyper-vigilant--which makes it hard for him to do human magic (as it requires more intention than the demon magic Ravana is teaching him)

You can read more about them here:

(No Arden yet in the published part but you'll meet them when I put up part two!)

#jr rambles #my writing #gay fiction #wattpad link #original story #original characters #ocs #my ocs #fantasy #lgbtq fantasy #lgbtq representation #lgbtq writers

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thehoundwrites · 2 years

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Desire: Part 1

Priest!Grayson x Fem!Reader (afab and feminine descriptions)

Smut/Fluff/Angst/Hurt/Comfrot

Authors note: Thanks to some Mutuals and Friend I was able to come up with this idea, it was supposed to be straight smut in a confession booth but instead the reader used to come to the church and left due to religious trauma regarding sexuality and had kind of a dodgy life and had no hope left so she went to church and Father Grayson helped her get her life back together and she has a big fat crush on Grayson!

Also Sorry for disappearing there's been a lot going irl Ireally hope to be back! Please help me get motivation by sending in asks, comments on my stories, praise or others! Its really motivating knowing people are enjoying my work!

CW/TW: Religious traumas regarding sexuality, Abuse mention, Masturbation, Fingering, Church, Homophobia mentions, Priest kink, Father Grayson, Power Dynamics, Theres gonna be more drama in part 2!

Word Count: 2,628

Your dreams were quiet and peaceful, your body was basking in the warmth of the summer sun, grass beneath your feet, a dress covering your frame as you smiled. You'd been in a gorgeous field. Unlike most nights this dream felt good, your heart was beating normally, a wide smile stretching your lips as you danced in the light of the day. A normal song you'd listen to was playing, but it faded from thoughts as your head emptied. But a new song rang in your head piercing the air as the light within your reality entered your thoughts... Her.... Thoughts emptied once again as lyrics strung through your head; "I am creation, both haunted and holy. Made in glory. Even the depths of the night can not blind me. When You guide me. Creature only" Your sensations quickly became overwhelmed with the presence, mixture of the blinding sun and the shrill song. Thoughts flying out of your brain quickly became replaced with the safety you found in her arms when she comforted you. The sympathy you'd find in her beautiful gray-blue eyes whenever she'd look at you. The way your heart fluttered when she'd watch you, direct you.

Thoughts flashed through your mind once again deciding to partake in the forbidden thoughts, an innocent dream now corrupted by sinful visions.The gruffness of her voice stood out foremost in your head, sending shivers down your still unconscious body, goosebumps littering the soft skin across your body. Her confidence was enthralling, preaching so passionately, loving so sincerely speaking so kindly. As much as you tried to focus on her words your eyes watched her soft lips move as she talked. You'd imagine them running over your neck, husky voice praising you as you so desperately wish she would. "Good girl" In reality, away from your dream your body squirmed the thoughts of her making your face red and your stomach clench. Lust, Greed two of the biggest sins. You felt so guilty but you couldn't help it. Father Grayson... Was just so captivating.

Thoughts drifted on when you watched her sway her gloved hands as she spoke to the crowd of parishioners. The hands that remained covered with leather gloves were bare despite never having seen them. They were so vivid in your head. soft palms with slightly calloused fingertips, protruding veins covering the back of them. The reverend's long fingers began tracing your soft skin. Cupping and touching every part of you that yearned for her touch, it felt better than what you could ever do to yourself. She'd expertly message your sensitive skin, curling and twisting. Her soft lips kissing bliss unto you. It felt as close to heaven as you dared to dream.

Heaven however was interrupted, a blaring alarm scared you awake, ecstasy leaving your body as you rose from silk bed sheets, a growing knot in your stomach as your legs twitched, needing so desperately for her to touch you as you dreamed. Your heartbeat quickened as you remembered the thoughts you had of Father Grayson, the dullness of reality beginning to swallow you. You felt incredibly guilty, and since you returned to the church you realized it was now somewhat progressive.

But then again sexuality wasn't what you were worried about, you'd accepted yourself fully including your love and admiration of women as a part of you, something that will never change. Despite people's contradictions or hatred you'd love who you’d want. However the guilt was the fact that the object of your desire was her, your pastor made you worry. Would she look at you differently if she'd known about your feelings for her.

However much you wanted your desire for her to leave your head, or at least how you wanted to stop thinking of her, she wouldn't leave your head. Flashes of her teachings ran through your head; you'd sit in a pew quiet in the middle, people surrounding you as you'd try to blend in with everyone else, try to lose yourself in her tales and teachings. Your mind couldn't stop ruminating on how she would stand so tall in front of her parishioners. She was so fervent and animated, gray eyes scanning the rooms as she read from the book she'd hold in her strong hands, then how'd she ask you for help every time knowing you needed to be here. You still didn't know if she understood just how much you really did. Knowing how she saved you from the destructive spiral you'd been on, how coming to the church that night was everything. How she changed your life and helped you get your shit together. But you shouldn't feel special right? That was her job.... A light blush covered your cheeks pondering whether you really were special or not for maybe just a bit too long. A small smile played on your lips, thinking of how the two of you would talk as you helped her take care of the mess that was the children's room where faithful parents could let them play and learn as they worshiped, of how the two of you seemed to get along so well. How she always made your heart flutter. Before letting those thoughts disappear ground yourself to reality once again, realizing you were sitting up on your bed in nothing but a tank top and underwear thinking these things about your pastor. It was wrong. Very wrong. But why did it make you so happy to imagine her next to you, holding you... touching you.

You sat there for a moment lost in thoughts coming down from the highs of your dreams. They died down however when your alarm went off for a second time. You sighed wishing you could have affections for anyone but Father Grayson, trying to convince yourself it'd never work. But God how you hoped it could, you smiled with a devious thought in your head, you'd decided that you would get yourself dolled up. You never really tried to wear anything too fancy, nothing besides putting your hair up and wearing casual attire, a sundress sometimes, other times you'd wear a simple plain dress, or a skirt or even dress pants. But maybe. Well maybe she'd notice you if you put more effort in. Without a second thought you'd start your morning routine. Getting a little snack beforehand then stepping into the shower feeling the hot water drip along your skin, hoping that maybe the dress you wore today would make Father Grayson look at you in. A different light.

Your heart started beating as your thoughts once again found their way to her, it seems even when you can focus on your life Grayson entered your mind. However you felt much more vulnerable this time with your bare body open to the room, water hitting you back, dripping from your hair over your eyes. Dribbling down your sensitive stomach. The heat of the pouring water began radiating off of your body, a pulsing in your stomach. Immediately regretting indulging in these thoughts once again, and then again and again, you let your back rest against the cold tile which was a bad move. With the heat of the shower water, and the humidity of the air the tile had shocked your body, you tried to relieve yourself by letting your thighs squeeze together the ache in your stomach from when you woke only got worse by the minute,

Maybe. Maybe if you could relieve yourself then you wouldn't melt when you greeted her. Right? When she'd take your hand and bring you into the warm hug she'd always greet you with. You gasped lightly thinking of her muscled arms squeezing you the way she always did.

Fuck it. You REALLY couldn't go to church horny for your pastor with tingling between your legs and wetness pooling at the thought of her.

Your heart was pounding, you closed your eyes, hands reaching to your chest to pinch your nipples, rubbing them between two fingers trying to stimulate yourself without stepping over the line. But What if it was her mouth that rested upon your chest, her tongue flicking at it, her hands rubbing right at your waistline teasing you ever so painfully. You'd imagine how she'd smile as you melted for her, giving into her. Letting her strong arms hold you up and her expert hands pleasure you. you switched to the other side once your nipple felt painfully hard, your legs shaking as you let your hand move to your downwards your palm rubbing and massaging your stomach then lower and lower.

You used your middle finger to rub your clit, circling it painstakingly slowly, then just a bit faster, the hand on your chest moved to your mouth wrapping your lips around two fingers and slowly sucking on them. the hand between your thighs began to add more fingers, your pussy aching for more friction and relief. Aching for her. Your lips let go of your fingers with a small popping sound. You bit your lower lip grinding more crudely against your hand gasps escaping your throat, eyes closed tight ivinsioning Fathers perfectly sculpted face, the way her robes hung, the way her lips moved. Cold water began to drench your skin, you'd have to hurry now there was too little time. You didn't want to be late. You tried to finish yourself off by thinking of all the things you'd let Father Grayson do to you, before your phone buzzing loudly on the sink frightened you. Pulling you back to reality. Crumby reality. You had to stop, you prayed that Grayson could finish it for you later.

Your heart was beating, your body was in even worse shape now as you let out a whine. You'd still have to do your hair and makeup, but that alarm was the final one. The one that reminded you that you'd have to leave now, be on your merry way. You'd be late now for sure, you sighed. Upset that you'd be missing part of Father's sermon. But nonetheless you'd continue, dressing yourself up perfectly. Your eyes staring back at yourself, making sure you looked exactly how you'd wanted. And you did. A beautiful dress you'd only worn for special events and plain white but matching bra and panties. Adding the makeup you wanted was not too much but enough to look how you wanted.

The last moments of you leaving your house were a bit rushed, your mind only praying you'd have everything you needed. Luckily you only missed a few moments, unfortunately you'd walked in at just the wrong time. Everyone had their head bowed in silence, everyone except Father Grayson who looked at you with her soft eyes. You couldn't help wondering if those beautiful eyes would look at you differently if she knew. You'd wonder if she could see your sins on display. With your soul at her mercy.

|Flash Back|

Father Grayson was the person of your desire, your comfort, the woman that lit up the dullness of your gray life. Long ago you left this church and its previous priest, coming out of the closet was hard and even harder when the place of worship you went to for so long had rejected you. The one you had gone to since you were a kid, you knew that some people of this religion could be cruel but you'd never thought your own church would practice those old ways. You thought... more like you hoped they'd be accepting, that God could still love you. They thought differently never out loud of course, you knew from the coldness in their eyes, how they'd avoid you or go out of their way to tell you that God loves you. That you need a mad that you'd get over it.

You had never planned to go back. Ever. Until one night, when you had no one else. When you had run into just the wrong person at just the wrong time. You'd gotten hurt, and you were alone, friends too busy in the darkness of the night that swallowed you whole, your shaking body had been coursing with adrenaline, with nowhere else to go you stumbled into the familiar church thankfully it was open with a tall woman talking to a young man a concerned look in her eyes staring downward before patting the man on his back as he walked out mumbling something under his breath in a gargled voice.

Tear streaked cheeks as you stood there frozen like a deer in headlights, red on your face as you looked around growing anxiety that was building off of the previous anxiety you'd held in your gut. Her brows scrunched together as she slowly walked over. You were going to step away but there was a kindness in her blue eyes you hadn't seen in so long and warmth you didn't expect tonight.

"I didn't know where else to turn."

"You've come to the right place darling, please. Let me help you."

You explained, explained what happened last night, how you knew about this church... why you left. And surprisingly she sat there and listened. The look in her was eerily similar to pity which made your heart tinge guilt eating at you. Until it clicked, she was concerned she was trying to sympathize with you; however, you couldn't bring yourself to look at her, no matter how kind and welcoming she was. It hurt to be here.

"God brought you here tonight my child, it seems as though God wishes to help you in your struggles. As everything happens for a reason, so must this.'' Her voice was soft, gruff and caring. Your eyes wandered back to her. "How- Wh- What am I supposed to do." You didn't know how a complete stranger would help, or how she had gotten you to open up so deeply. But you were at wits end and you needed something. You didn't know what. But it seemed she did.

The two of you sat in a pew almost 2 feet away, normally this would be the time for a confession boothe, but neither of you expected this, but before you could react two clothed surprisingly muscular arms wrapped around you gently bringing you into a hug. It was warm, and you felt so safe despite being terrified of church. You closed your eyes letting your fidgeting hands fall to your sides not knowing what to do with them and simply let her comfort you.

"God has brought you here for a reason, perhaps It is his way of calling you home. Perhaps it's time to accept yourself, so that others will accept you as well."

|Present time|

You felt her eyes before you could see them, as you walked awkwardly across the large room with only a few seats in the back and a couple in the front. So much for blending in. You walked quietly until you were able to find space to sit, which unfortunately was the very front pew in front of Father Grayson.Feeling even more vulnerable than you did in the shower…. OH GOD. You closed your eyes. The shower. Even though your head was bowed you could still feel her gaze lingering on you,your face had tinted with a bit of a blush, but the feeling of her attention disappeared after the silence in the large room broke and she continued with the sermon. Your heart is beating too fast. The sermon felt much longer than usual and instead of having you help her with the basket, the money, and the collection she asked some new person.

That hurt more than it should have. You weren't special? Were you?

#Desire part 1 #Father Grayson #Grayson x Reader #Arcane Grayson #Arcane x reader #religious #arcane

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cantalouupe · 3 years

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curiosity

nsfw!!! kaeya x f!reader

prequel to this drabble

hand & finger kink, semi public sex except you don’t have sex with him he just makes you suck on his fingers

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The knights of Favonius weren’t a group of people you mingled with. While you had no quarrels with any of them and had even spoken to some before, they just weren’t people that you considered friends.

There was nothing you held against them, no vendetta you had. Your feelings of them were just neutral. Pleasant conversations are easy to have with the ones stationed around town, where they’re willing to help you with really anything you need.

That’s probably why you’ve never really had to interact much with them. You’ve never been in danger and so help from them wasn’t something you had to seek out.

The higher ups, though, were a different story. You’ve also not interacted with any of them, but heard of them incredibly often, seen the outrider around town.

But that was all.

You had understood they were busy with all their work and obviously didn’t expect them to come out just so they can talk to you, a random citizen - still, you were curious. With all the big talk of them they were bound to be quite an interesting few people.

Sara, who worked at The Good Hunter - a little restaurant near the center fountain in town that served amazing food - had told you about them. The interesting honorary knight that travels with a little fairy in search for his sister, the outrider that you’ve seen before, the librarian who apparently was incredibly intimidating when you don’t return books, and even Jean, the acting grand master. You’ve heard about all of them, your curiosity causing you ask around for stories.

The first time you met any of them was on a sunny day, not unlike any other. You were out on the trail, foraging mushrooms as per Sara’s request, when you ran into a suspicious looking group of hilichurls. The odd creatures were entranced by an odd looking sigil on the ground that glowed a faint purple.

You had chosen to mentally mark where you were and turn back to go to town and report it. Hilichurls close to town was already a safety hazard, but them acting the way they were felt off and made a pit of worry grow in your stomach.

The guards at the doors of the Knights of Favonios Headquarters had questioned what you needed when you ran up, and you explained the situation, requesting to speak to Jean if possible.

Guilt ate at you when you pushed despite them telling you she was busy with work already. “I really would like to speak to her directly,” you told them.

They were going to shut you down again, but from behind them the door opened and out came an infamous face.

Of the many people you’d been told about, the Cavalry Captain was among them. Kaeya was very popular in town, apparently appeared at the tavern on most nights to chat with the townspeople. There was a lot of mystery shrouding him and his backstory but despite that he was a favorite of many people.

He looked as he’s been described to you, with dark hair and tanned skin, one eye covered with a black eye patch. His bare eye, beautiful and piercing blue met yours and you looked away immediately, feeling as though you were seeing a myth in the flesh.

“Like I said,” your eyes, probably a little wide from seeing the captain, fell back to the two guards you’d been talking to. “I think it’s a good idea if I talked to Jean directly.”

You hadn’t meant to alert Kaeya as he was leaving the Knights Headquarters but he seemed to hear, voicing out an “is everything okay?” as he approached the three of you.

“I’m not trying to be any trouble,” you tell him once the situation was explained.

He watched you shrink slightly under his gaze, pretty eyes staring up at him - and shook his head. “It’s understandable to want to report something like that immediately. I can take you to her.”

Obviously he had some sort of authority over the guarding knights because they had nothing to say about that, stepping back to their spots on either side of the stone stairs leading to the building.

You mentally let out a breath and nodded up at the blue haired male, thanking him quietly and apologizing again for making a fuss.

“Come on now,” he smiled down at you, calming your nerves a bit. “Stop apologizing for trying to keep Mondstadt safe. If anything we should be apologizing to you for not catching it before you did.”

The short walk inside the Knights Headquarters was quiet, and you took the few silent moments as a chance to get a better look at Kaeya. It was weird seeing him in front of you after only hearing about him for so long.

His clothes were much different from the other knights, from the fur on the shoulder to the color of the clothing. A small blue glowing charm hung from the side of his hip - that’s right, he had a vision.

When he opened the door to Jean’s office, you caught sight of his fingers that peaked out of dark gloves. Fingerless gloves?

“Are you going to come inside?”

Oh no, you weren’t standing here gawking at his hands, were you? You blinked at him like a deer in headlights and you wanted to melt into the floor at the amusement written on his face.

You ducked your head in embarrassment, slipping passed him silently.

Your shame was short lived, however, when you stepped into the room and saw Jean. Now you knew for a fact awe was visible on your face. It’s not every day that you get to see the grand acting master herself.

She was kind and genuinely concerned about you after you ran through the scene you saw for a third time in that day. The abyss order have been causing some trouble for the knights and they had been trying to track down more about them and their plans. What you saw didn’t give away much but Jean reiterated that it was an important bit of information and she thanked you for coming to her for it.

You preened at that, glad you could be of help to her.

Before you left, she thanked you again and assured you that you didn’t need to worry, the knights would take care of it.

And that was the end of it. Nothing else regarding that situation happened and life returned to normal.

The next time you ran into one of them it was at The Good Hunter. You were chatting with Sara while waiting for your food to finish cooking when a very familiar pair on hands came to lean against the counter you ordered at, with a very familiar voice accompanying them.

“I’ve been wondering about you,” Kaeya muses.

Wondering about you? You had to take a moment to process that, forcing out a small “Why?” to which he didn’t respond.

“Eat with me,” he responds instead, smiling at you and he is nice and a knight so who are you to decline.

So, you two eat together. He’s just as charming as people have mentioned, voice smooth and easy to listen to. By your wonder, he tells you in more detail about the Knights of Favonius, and you soak up his words like a sponge.

He is able to describe specific stories that you didn’t otherwise know about, along with other people that you hadn’t heard much about.

You find it fascinating and ask more specific questions - about visions. He answers every inquiry thats thrown at him, about his own cryo power and that of others in Mondstadt.

“Does the fingerless gloves have something to do with your element?” You ask him, and he laughs lightly at you.

“You like them, huh?”

Does he remember your lingering gaze on his hands at your last meeting? God, that’s mortifying. You hadn’t meant it to be a weird question.

When you gape at him, sputtering and trying to grasp a suitable response, he reaches out and taps a finger on the underside of your chin. “Cute,” he murmurs, before taking his leave, claiming he has work he should go attend to.

You stare at him while he leaves, reeling from his actions.

Things move more quickly after that.

You don’t know who really started it, but Kaeya’s hands become somewhat of a teasing point. It wasn’t a serious attraction at first but now his hands are the first thing your gaze catches on.

In turn, he’ll tease you for it, brushing the back of his knuckles against you or tapping a fingertip on you like he did that first time.

It boiled over one day in the Knights Library, you alongside him, curiously looking at all the different titles that were offered. Kaeya reaches out to grab a book and your eyes zero in on his hands.

Bare hands.

He wasn’t wearing those gloves today, skin fully on display and that shouldn’t be as important as it is but there you are, staring at them.

“You’re not-“

He has to know. Theres no way he accidentally forgot to wear them on a day he would be with you. Another tease, definitely.

“My gloves? Didn’t think you’d notice something like that.” Oh, he knows.

Cocky as ever, he taps his finger into your bottom lip - as he has before - and your mouth parts in response. An invitation.

The taste of clean skin bursts on your tastebuds, two of his fingers sliding inside.

“Ah, I knew it,” he murmurs, moving so you were situated in the corner of the wall and bookshelf, his body shadowing yours to shield you from any possible onlookers.

Your knees buckle from under you when he presses down onto your tongue, a whimper sounding from your throat.

“Look at you,” he coos, head leaning in so his lips brush against your ear. “How was I supposed to hold myself back when you want this so bad?”

Your hands find purchase on his biceps, gripping them to ground yourself while he rubs the pads of his fingers against your tongue. Saliva pools and threatens to spill over your lip, and Kaeya knows it, fingers moving so that it drips down out of your mouth and onto your chin.

“You know,” he starts again, fingers sinking deeper into your mouth as his other spare hand wraps loosely around your waist. “If you’re so good like this I can’t imagine what it’ll be like when I fuck you.”

Another noise leaves you, fingers digging into his arms. Your head knocks back into the wall right behind you and your eyes flutter.

You feel lucky that you cant speak because you know you wouldn’t be able to trust yourself to not beg him to fuck you right here in the library.

It feels filthy, the drool on your chin and his breath against the side of your face while he tells you these things. You felt hot and if your eyes were opened your pupils would be blown out.

“You’ll have to come see me some time, so I can really take you apart with my fingers.”

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