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found family {imagine}

@catsandstrawberries requests: Hi I have a request. Can you do an ot7 x youngest female 8th member reader maybe late teens (like 17 18ish) maybe fathers day is coming up and reader never had a good relationship with her father or any male in her life (abuse, abondment, trauma, etc) and maybe just a bunch of fluffy and angsty scenarios of her relationship with the boys when they become more like older brothers/father figures to her. Maybe one where she choreographs a dance and shows Hobi and he openly stares how proud Cont. 🐣

He is of her and maybe it just really touches her. Or maybe one where she falls asleep on the couch and one of the boys brings her to her room. And maybe a final angsty one where she tells them how much she loves them and how hard it is to know her own family didnt care about her but the b o us are like, you're wrong, your family does care about you, were your family. Something like that. I really love your writing and hopefully you can write this, if not dont worry, much love! 🐣

a/n: ahh this was the fic i wrote 4.3k words for but then decided i didn’t like it so i started over lmao. i don’t really know why this fic was kinda difficult for me to write but it was still something i enjoyed writing a lot and i’m proud of myself for finishing it! and this is probably one of my favorites that i’ve written if i’m being completely honest. the found family troupe is what i LIVE for and this one literally melts my heart. and of course thank you so so much to the lovely catsandstrawberries for the request! i really enjoyed writing it so i hope you enjoy reading it!

pairing: platonic ot7 x f!reader (reader will refer to the older members as hyung though!)

genre: angsty in the beginning but it turns really fluffy so just hang in there!

warnings: brief mention of child abandonment, child neglect, bad father daughter relationship, loneliness, insomnia, forgetting to eat

words: 6k

[disclaimer: when writing idol aus, i will only be focusing on the struggles of the reader, not of the idols themselves because i don’t personally know what struggles they go through and how they handle them.]

{song(s) i recommend while reading: someone’s someone - monsta x}

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here’s the thing about family: it’s sometimes fickle and sometimes strong

you came from a prestigious family of bankers, except you wouldn’t really call it a family

it was more like relatives tolerating each other more than anything

your mom had left when you were young so you only had faint silhouettes and hollow laughter to remember her by. but that just left the two of you

you and your father

instead the memories you grew up with were of a dad who was cold and controlling and never really around long enough for you to truly feel like he loved you

it was always “y/n you have to look good for the family” “y/n you have to do this for the families reputation” “y/n you have to smile for the media so they think we are a happy family”

the word family was thrown around so much you didn’t think you really knew what it meant anymore

because it was always “y/n you need to do better” “y/n why are you so flawed?” y/n you’re more of a disappointment that a daughter”

never “y/n, i’m proud of you”

it was always what he wanted and never had he asked what you wanted

he never once helped you with your homework, never once had a family meal together

never once said he loved you

you had to instead learn to cook yourself, learn to swim, learn to ride your bike, all by yourself

all things a father should have done, he never did

instead it was all fake laughter and smiles in front of the media and cold stares and loneliness behind closed doors

you used to cry yourself to sleep because of how lonely and lost you felt but now you just opted to barely sleeping at all

and you often forgot to eat because it would just remind you what you could’ve had but didn’t

you also tended to be alone at school because everyone knew of you but no one really knew you

the only thing that really saved you was dancing

it was the only way you could really express yourself without needing words and you found that comforting

it was intimate and deep and it was your raw soul being transmitted through movements

and it was your only reprieve from the fake media, the fake smiles, the fake laughter

and the fake family

so most of your days were spent in a dance studio, choreographing your own pieces and dancing your heart out and it was really the only way you knew how to express yourself

it was when you were fifteen when you had discovered that music companies were hosting auditions and you wanted more than anything to be up on a stage and preform

you had never longed for something more than you did now

but you knew your father would never allow it and maybe that was the thought that pushed you to make the decision of joining

because you knew if you continued to live the way you did now, you would never be enough for him and you were sad and lonely and just tired of faking everything

so if you were always going to be a failure to him then at least you could have fun along the way, right?

so you auditioned to every single company you could and in the end it was only one who had accepted you and for the first time you were really happy

so, so happy that you danced all the way home and cried and for once didn’t pay mind to the eyes looking in

your dad was of course furious when he found out and it hurt that he was so against your dream

but the elation you felt at finally doing something for yourself, with no other reason but because you wanted too, it was something thrilling and if you had known that freedom would feel like this then you would’ve done it a long time ago

but it still stung when he cut you out of his life completely, like you weren’t even there in the first place. like you never existed

cut off all means of financial support. insurance, healthcare, even schooling

all because you didn’t want to be what he wanted you to be

and you cried for the first few nights because this was your conformation. conformation that he really didn’t love you and only saw you as a means to continue his legacy

but you continued on. confidently packing your bags and leaving that place that was never really a home to you

and when you moved into the dorms bighit had for trainee’s, you felt like this, this was your chance. and if you failed, then you would go crawling back to your father and beg for forgiveness like you knew he wanted

you only had one opportunity, and you used it for everything it was worth

you had gotten a part time job, something you wanted to experience because for every other kid it was normal. got to stay out late and dance and sing and just experience things that you had never gotten to do in the confines of your old home

in the confines of your father

and even if you didn’t get to continue your education (which you were greatly distressed about) you were happy because you were doing stuff you wanted

it was when you were eighteen, when you spent two years as a trainee before you got the news that...

you made it

you had made it! you were going to be put in a group! and even if they had already long ago debuted, you were going to show them that you were worth it

you were worth more than what you father had said about you, than what he had planned for you

but with that elation came hesitance

because you were joining a group that was composed of all males, seven of them, and you didn’t have a good experience with any males (well, male) in your life and you would be lying if you said you weren’t even a little bit scared

because you were never good enough for your father, what made them any different? what if you weren’t ever going to be good enough for anyone?

but they were different. they showed you that not every male was going to be like your father, that you were enough and more

when you had first met them, you were a timid little thing because you had previously been sheltered and didn’t really have any friends

you didn’t really know how to open up to anyone because no one ever cared to really try to connect

they were all smiles and politeness and you blushed under their attention because no one really showed an interest in learning about you, not like they had

but you didn’t tell them everything. actually, you didn’t really tell them anything because you were scared that if the found out the truth, they would think you were useless just like your father

so you told them your name, age (which they were surprised about because you were young compared to them), and half truths

about how you were not really close with your family, about how you weren’t really close with any friends

and you expected them to look down on you for your answers but instead they welcomed you with open arms and treated you like they would treat anyone else

and you loved it. loved that they saw you for you instead of just a rich mans daughter

so slowly, you started opening up to them

they treated you like a normal person (a thing which you craved because it was something you never experienced) and they never only pointed out the things you were doing wrong, like your father had

instead they pointed out your flaws and also pointed out what you had excelled at

“y/n, you should turn your body and bend a bit more for that move, but your energy was really good!” “maybe reach a little bit higher for that note? it went a little flat for a second, but your part in the bridge was perfect.”

and it was those comments that you held close and cherished because they pushed you to do better but it was different than than the way your father pushed you

because you refined the things that you could actually fix instead of just thinking everything about yourself was horrible

and maybe it was weird, but you really started to look up to them and that only caused you to work harder so that you would make them proud

but it wasn’t until a late night in the dance studio with jimin that really shifted your relationship with all of them

you couldn’t sleep again (like most nights) and you were dancing to a song that you had choreographed yourself

you slightly overstepped and pushed your body forward by accident and had ended up twisting your ankle

you almost started crying because what if the boys thought you were going to be a hindrance? what if they thought you were a failure for holding them back?

but then the the dance studio door opened and in came walking jimin and you felt yourself shrink in, trying to make your body as small as possible because you were so scared

and it was weird because you never felt this scared when you thought your dad would look down on you and you had only been in the group for two months and you shouldn’t be feeling this attached

and everything was overwhelming and jimin gasped when he spotted you on the floor crying with a bruised ankle

his heart hurt to see you this upset so he quickly walked over and tried to get you to slow your breathing and when his calm and soothing voice reached your ears, you couldn’t help but relax slightly because he didn’t seem to be angry, only worried

and then what he said next had you crying for a whole different reason

“is it ok with you if i look at your ankle?”

he had asked. he had asked if it was something you wanted and that surprisingly meant more to you then it probably should

and once again they proved that they were different than your father because your dad would just do, without any concern to what it might do to you. but they thought about you, about your well being

you found yourself nodding and once he saw you were crying still he creased his eyebrows with worry, “does it hurt that bad?”

you shook your head again and managed to get out, “you aren't mad at me?”

and the world seemed to stop for a second and you held your breathe as you waited for his answer, and when he opened his mouth you got scared that he was actually angry

“you thought i would be mad? of course i’m not, it wasn’t your fault. it’s ok, you’re ok.” and even with your hurt ankle you leaned forward and hugged him because you were so relieved that he didn’t think you were a failure, glad that he still thought you were worth it

and even though he was confused at your reaction, he hugged you back anyway because he wanted to be there for you in any way he could

and your adoration for them only increase since then. you were really starting to feel closer to them and really starting to rely on them

the week your ankle was healing, they made sure to check in every hour to see if everything was ok and it was a little overwhelming at times because you had never been this looked after before and it was new to you

and at least one of them would arrive home from practice early and give you everything you needed

one time when yoongi came back early, he had come into your room and asked if you needed anything and you said no because you didn’t wanna hinder him but then your stomach growled in betrayal and you blushed

he frowned and sat beside you on you’re bed, rubbing the back of his neck, “now, i know that i don’t look like the comforting type, but i’ll still help if you ask.”

and your eyes widened and you shook your head, shooting up in bed because it really wasn’t that you thought he was bad at comforting but it was because you really just forgot to eat again

and that’s what you told him and he frowned for a different reason, “you forget to eat?” and then you would look down in shame because you thought he was disappointed in you

he looked at your lowered head and sighed, lightly bumping shoulders with you, “hey, it’s ok. i’m not mad or anything. just worried.”

and you tentatively looked up at him, hiding behind your hair, “i... just don’t eat that much. reminds me of the things i can’t have.” and then you looked back down

and yoongi thought that his heart broke a little bit because you sounded so small and sad and he was confused as to why but what he did know is that it hurt him to hear and see you like that

he then bumped his shoulder with yours again so you would look up and then he flicked your forehead when you did

and you looked at him with a slightly offended expression while bringing your hand up to touch the spot he flicked and once he saw the look on your face, he smirked a little, “what are you thinking about now?” and you would get this confused look on your face, because why was he asking? “why you flicked me.”

and then he would smile triumphantly, “then it worked.”

and it wouldn’t be till later that you realized that he had gotten you too think about something else so you wouldn’t dwell on the bad memories you had, and you smiled brightly trying to fall asleep that night

but you noticed that they all would start to bring more snacks in their bags whenever they went anywhere and offer them to you and it was hard to say no because you were kinda hungry when you thought about it

and food started to taste a little better when you were around them

and as time passed, they only surprised you more and more with their personalities and you started to really like just being around them, you felt like a better person

and over time you had all grown closer too, up to the point where you would get into petty fights like real siblings (at least you liked to think of it that way, you never had any siblings)

for example, one time you were sitting on the couch scrolling through a phone the company recently got you and here comes jungkook running down the hallway

he then jumps and lands right on top of your sitting figure on the couch and you yell because it scared you and why was he sweaty?

“yah! get off me!” you then would push him on the face but it would get you nowhere because he was quite literally almost twice your size

“no, i don’t wanna.” then he would shrug and pull out his phone while he was crushing you with his body weight and then you would scream out “hyung!” in hopes anyone would hear you and all of them would come running into the room because you never yelled and they thought it was an emergency

but then it would sink in that, that was the first time you had called them hyung and they would get these goofy smiles on their faces (even jungkook, from where he was sitting on top of you) and you would look at them and then realize what you did

you gasped and started apologizing because what if they didn’t want you to call them that? (obliviously not getting the message that they did from their faces alone)

but they would just shoot down your apologies because they would be happy that you finally felt close and comfortable enough to call them that

and jin would walk up and ruffle your hair - well as best he could while jungkook was still sitting on you - and “come help your hyung in the kitchen.” and your smile would be worth more than anything to them and you would push jungkook off of you easily this time while yelling yes

you then stuck your tongue out at him and he made a funny face back that had you giggling

but something was always weighing on your mind, and it was the lack of your education. since your father had cut you off, you had no means on furthering your learning and it was something that really upset you because who couldn’t even complete highschool education? and you were afraid that the other members would be disappointed in you

so you asked manager sejin (which he had grown pretty fond of you over the months) for a computer because you wanted to complete your education online if anything and he was completely behind the idea and backed you up 100 percent

so you started your online learning but you had to admit, it was hard when you didn’t have a teacher to consult things with

and you would get so frustrated because why couldn’t you just get this right? it was simple math! and you were disappointed in yourself because this was a big blow to your ego

you were afraid that the others would would laugh at you but then you thought about how they proved time and time again that they were different than your father and so with that thought in mind you summoned your courage and went to knock on namjoon’s door

he was surprised to see you but smiled anyway and you sat down on his bed with your hair covering your face because you were still embarrassed and they didn’t know that you hadn’t finished highschool

and he saw that you were struggling with what to say so he waited patiently because the last thing he wanted to do was scare you off

and you were grateful for that, so after a few minutes you gathered your thoughts and decided to just plunge right into the conversation, “hyung,” and they still smiled when you called them that, “i’m doing online school and um, was wondering if you could help me? i mean you don’t have to or anything but i just-” and he put a hand over your head to stop your rambling and smiled that dimple smile of his, “of course i’ll help. what do you need me for?”

and he would be lying if he said he wasn’t a little surprised because it was highschool sophomore math because he thought that you had already graduated highschool but he still was glad to help you anyway

and you could tell he wanted to ask but was hesitant, so you made it easier for him, “i wasn’t able to finish highschool.” and he looked perplexed for a moment but when he took in your sad expression he didn’t say anything more so you quietly added on “i don’t have a relationship with my father so..” and you trailed off and he sighed silently because it was hard for him to wrap his head around why someone would make you so sad, especially if that someone was your father so instead he opted to take your mind off the issue

so he spoke up, “yah, the pythagorean theorem isn’t gonna learn itself.” and so the two of your stayed up and you understood the subject more when he explained it than in any real class you ever had

so, these teaching sessions are almost a daily routine and sometimes it would be the others helping and it became something that you really enjoyed

because no one was ever willing to help you like this

after months of living and knowing them, it was finally the crunch time to get ready for your first comeback with them and you were so nervous

you would stay up later than usual to practice and they would be lying if they said they weren’t a little worried about your lack of sleep but they used to do the same thing before comebacks so they let it slide somewhat

but what they didn’t know was that you were also going to be doing a solo dance performance and you were so scared that no one would like it so you finally crumbled and asked for hobi because you wanted his opinion on your routine

but his reaction to your dance sequence was one you didn’t expect

as you flipped and glided through your choreo, hoseok stared wide eyed at you in wonder because he knew you were an amazing dancer but when it was just you and him in the dance studio, the emotion that you portrayed... it was just an astounding site to see

and when you finished you saw his expression and blushed, hiding your face in your hair because no one had looked at you like that before

“what? was it bad?” and it was a couple more moments before hoseok really gathered his thoughts to put them into words and he just walked over to you and put his hands on your shoulders so you would look at him

“y/n-ah, that was amazing. just everything about it... aish you have me speechless.” and he gave you that hobi heart smile and you couldn’t keep your eyes from tearing up but what he said next really got the waterworks going

“i am so, so proud of you, y/n”

and you openly cried and hearing that sentence from someone you really looked up to was something you never knew you needed and you hugged him so tight and said ‘thank you’ over and over again because you really were

you were so, so thankful

and he carded his hands through your hair because namjoon had told him about you not having a good relationship with your dad and knew this was probably something that meant a lot to you. but he really was so, so proud of you because you had grown so much since being that little timid girl he had met months ago

so you went home and played videogames with everyone and just had a good time so you wouldn’t get to stressed and later when you had finally managed to fall asleep, hobi would gush about your dance to the other members (without knowing you were going to be preforming it soon) and everyone was excited and wanted to see it too

but with hobi’s encouragement came more determination for you to work harder because you were going to amaze everyone if you had anything to say about it

so you started to stay out late to the point where you would come back to the house when everyone else was sleeping and just be so tired that you would fall asleep on the couch, not even making it back to your room

and they would wake up and see you and look at you so fondly because they could see that you were working so hard and could see how badly you wanted everyone to succeed

and it would usually be jungkook who would pick you up and bring you back to your room so you could sleep just a little bit longer

they really were so proud of you

and then it came to your comeback date and you were still so nervous but they’re presences made it better

it was taehyung who came up to you then right before they were supposed to go onto the comeback stage and what he said would always stick with you, “no matter what happens out there, i, we, will always be there for you, no matter what. we will always be proud of you.” and you would tear up and the makeup unnie’s would get angry and push you back down in the makeup chair but they would have this gooey smile on their faces anyway

and your performance went perfectly

it seemed like the audience was just as memorized as hoseok had been when you preformed your solo and army, thrown off by your presence, still accepted you because they could see the bond you had with the boys and how pure it was

and even though some didn’t agree, it was ok because seven other people where proud of you and that’s all you really needed

and then because of the amazing performance the eight of you go out to eat and you all joke and laugh and the food tastes amazing

and you think, this is what a family dinner must feel like

and you almost cry again because this is all you really ever wanted, to be accepted, to be seen for your achievements instead of your flaws

and you've only spent five months together but in those five months, you had grown so close to these people that showed you that you were more than what your father had told you, that you were amazing and perfect in your own way and they would never look down on you for your flaws

you could definitely get used to this

so the next day taehyung took you out on a shopping spree because he wanted to spend time with you and you both basically wrecked havoc in a gucci store trying on everything you could

and he wold tease you when you came out of the dressing room with a size that was way to big for you and you would taunt him back and bicker back and forth

then you both went to the store and got ice cream for everyone and you all set up a fort in the living room and it was easily one of the best days of your life

and after that the eight of you experienced things and created memories together and they showed you what real friends were, what real companionship and love felt like

and before you knew it, fathers day was in two days and you didn’t know what you were going to do, but you still felt like you should do something because father’s day is a day to celebrate the important males in your life

you had never felt like doing something like this when you lived with your actual father, and that spoke volumes to how close you had come to these boys

so on the saturday before the actual day, you tried to wake up as early as you could and get all the ingredients you needed

when you saw that you were missing eggs for the cake that you wanted to make for them, you tried to be as quick as possible so your hyungs wouldn’t be wondering where you went if they woke up

it was the probably the fastest trip you had ever taken but it was all for naught when you walked back through the door

you almost dropped your newly bought eggs when you heard a scream come from the living room and suddenly there were arms wrapping around you in a tight hug

“j-jimin?” was all you could squeak out before a barrage of voices tumbled over each other in efforts to scold you for leaving and not telling at least one of them, if not all of them

“what were you thinking!? you scared me! you scared us!” jin said in your direction, where jimin was still wrapped around you

“yah! we thought you left! or-or got kidnapped!” hoseok’s raised voice was one you decide you didn’t like

once jimin let go, yoongi was quick to envelope you in a hug, “aish. i never wanna wake up to that kind of scare ever again.”

once he pulled away you spotted taehyung and jungkook pouting with their arms crossed sitting on the couch, namjoon fixing you with a serious stare. “promise me you won’t do that again.”

“promise us!” taehyung quickly added in and all you could do was nod because your head was still trying to process what just happened over the span of the last ten seconds

it wasn’t until your pinky was wrapped around jungkook’s in a pinky promise that the situation really set into your head and you lowered your head in shame and embarrassment, “i’m sorry.”

jin sighed and ruffled his hair, “we were just worried. sorry for yelling y/n-ah,” and it warmed you with how protective they were over you and you looked up at him teasingly, “sorry eomma” and jin frowned while you and the maknae line snickered

it was when you got up to finally put the eggs away that jimin pulled you back down to sit beside him, hugging you again, “we worry about you because you’re our yodongseng, y/n-ah” and it was that one sentence that had you all smiley and giggly because that was the first time any of them had called you that, the first time anyone called you that and you were so happy

because they saw you as their little sister and a bond like that was something you hadn’t felt before, and one you would never want to break

“thank you” you whispered as you got up and went to put the eggs away, the boys following after you

“so why did you go to the store?” taehyung said as he looked at all the ingredients littered around the kitchen counters

you gasped and remembered what you were doing and quickly turned around, “all of you, out! go away!” you yelled while physically pushing hoseok and yoongi out the kitchen door

“wha- why?” namjoon got out before almost being pushed over and into a table by jungkook

“surprise!” was all you yelled as you got all of them out of the kitchen but seokjin waited by the door. “hyung, what are you doing?” hoseok questioned. “just wait for it.” was all he said as he started counting down from five. and as he was just about to say one, you popped your head back through the door and shyly asked, “hey jin-hyung, can you help me with something?” and then he looked toward the others and smirked at their bewildered expressions. “i told you. she always asks for me when she needs help in the kitchen, and she always needs help.” you then hit him on the arm, “yah. i’m not that bad.”

then the both of you would enter the kitchen and you would try to explain that you needed to make a cake without really telling him you needed to bake one and it just led to a lot of confusion

in the end you gave up and told him you needed to make one but you didn’t tell him what for, still trying to preserve a least a little bit of surprise

the both of you joked and laughed about useless things while mixing the eggs and milk and flour, making a cake from scratch and the others listened to your banter and smiled among themselves

when the both of you settled down and put the cake in the oven, seokjin called your name, “y/n-ah,” and as soon as you turned around a wad of flour hit you in the face and jin’s windshield wiper laugh echoed out

but that was only the begging

“this is war!” and then all of them came running into the kitchen and the flour that was supposed to hit jin, hit yoongi instead and you could’ve sworn you heard namjoon face plant at one point and then fifteen minutes later everyone was covered in flower and the kitchen was a mess

and you all found yourself sitting on the floor, waiting for when you had to take out the cake. and just being surrounded by all their presences, suddenly got you emotional

“thank you” you said again, for the umpteenth time since you’ve known them. you took a deep breath, “i never got along with my father and-,” you sniffed and they waited for you to finish, jungkook nudging you with his shoulder and taehyung gently holding your hand, “and, all of this, the comfort and compassion you’ve shown me,” tears started to fall from your eyes and hoseok who was sitting across from you leaned over and wiped them off your face, “and i’m really grateful.”

but before they could say anything to that, the oven went off and you took another deep breath and gathered your emotions, once again pushing them out of the kitchen so you could decorate the cake you would show them tomorrow

and while they were sitting in the living room together, waiting for you to finish, they all looked at each other and they could easily say that they would do anything for you because you really were their little sister and they cared about you so much

and while you decorated your cake for them, you thought that a giving them their surprise a day early couldn’t hurt (and you knew one of the maknae line would definitely come and sneak a bite of the treat in the middle of the night)

so you walked out, flour caking your hair and clothes, holding the vanilla frosted cake that said ‘happy father’s day ‘ in purple, messy icing

and oh my god they were so touched they could have cried (and some of them did)

and you stood in front of them, gathering your thoughts and as soon as you saw that jimin was about to say something, you started talking. “so, uh, originally i was going to give you all this tomorrow but i figured that it wouldn’t hurt to give it today. and father’s day is not only to celebrate fathers but to celebrate the important males in your life.” and there you go tearing up again, “and when i was younger, my mom left before i could really remember her, and my dad, he-” tears fell and you wiped them, “aish, i’m crying.” then you giggled and their hearts were simultaneously breaking and filling up at the same time. “he was never a father to me, so i never knew what it felt like to have one, to have a family. and it hurt everyday to think that no one in my family wanted me.” god you were a wreck and your words were coming out blurred now. “but then i came here-”

and before you could get out anymore there were seven pairs of arms wrapping themselves around you and your burrowed your head into the chest of nearest person (which happened to be yoongi)

“that’s not true y/n” namjoon murmured and for a second you were confused because why would he say that about your situation? but then he continued, “we will always, always, want you in our lives. we are your family. and always will be.” and you were full on sobbing and so were they

and all you could get out was a sloppy, sobbed filled: “i love you” but they understood perfectly

“we love you too, y/n” and that was the single best moment in your life.

and then perhaps the next day you did anything they asked of you which led to the younger ones being scolded about how you weren’t their maid but then you would get up and get what they asked for anyway because this was their day

and the bickering, the love, and even the fights you would have sometimes, it would all be worth it in the end if it led you back to them

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end note: oh. my. god. i’m not crying, you are. the ending? when i was writing the flour scene? PLEASE I WAS SOBBING. this is one of the fics that i am most proud of and i really didn’t mean to make it this long, but here i am. i hope everyone has an amazing father’s day, and you get to celebrate it the way you want to! everyone reading this (and those who aren’t) deserve happiness, no matter who you are. and you are more then what people say about you. i love you guys to the moon and back, make sure you stay safe! (and as always, sorry for any spelling errors!)

~**~

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monsta x as ghost hunters

monsta x m.list | navi.

Shownu

first to be picked as a partner for walk-throughs. the team will get into a literal altercation attempting to be his partner.

everyone feels safest around him. even the spirits.

is actually very scared himself. like sticking his whole arm through a doorway while holding devices to get evidence just to avoid anything, scared.

no one’s going inside first? he’s already through the front door.

“what can i do to help you?” “stay with us.” “i’m sorry but i have a very comfortable bed at home waiting for me.”

cheeky smile and worried eyes at the same time when he hears his name over the spirit box.

is more worried about his teammates than himself. will pause the entire session if even the smallest occurrence takes place. throws people over his shoulder and carries them if they’re injured or sick. always has food and water on standby. will fight a ghost to protect someone.

gets hit on a lot. by everyone. even the energy likes him.

cleanses every place he goes in order to help the spirits escape and rest peacefully.

“go on now.” “we’re still here.” “well, i tried.”

Wonho

stopped functioning a while into the session and is now just in a haze of confusion and fear.

“can you speak to us?” “no.” “well, that’s it then guys. let’s wrap it up here.”

gets pushed inside everywhere first because everyone assumes that because he’s a big dude, he’s the most confident. will play the “no, you.” game by spinning in circles until someone else goes first.

biting his bottom lip out of sheer nervousness.

“hoseok.” “that’s not my name. i got it legally changed before coming here. nice try.”

cries at voices coming through the spirit box screaming or crying because he wants to help them.

has a hard time deciphering if a spirit is good or evil, so he has to be pulled out of the space a lot just for general protection.

holds hands with his teammates during walk-throughs.

politely requests that the spirits go easy on him when he has to do a solo.

“okay, i gotta go now. take care.” “don’t go.” he’s already vanished.

Minhyuk

can’t stand still to save his life. literally. he will bounce, skip, jog, run, do cartwheels, dougie, anything to keep him mobile so nothing touches him.

understandably calm during the spirit box sessions. he genuinely tries to communicate with the spirits, but that doesn’t make him any less terrified.

trusts his gut (feelings, emotions) over anything logical.

“do you see us?” “yes.” “cool, thanks.”

sits with his legs crossed in the middle of a room and pouts when no evidence appears.

scares his teammates by hiding around corners and jumping out at them.

counts every second until his solo is over with. runs to the exit and doesn’t go back in until the sun is up, then he retrieves the equipment he probably dropped while scared.

“i’m okay. i’m okay. i’m okay.” “hello?” “i am no longer okay.”

gets excited about haunted playgrounds for the specific reason that he gets to spend most of the session on a swing.

“are we good to go?” “do you have to?” “that’s a sign that we gotta go Now.”

Kihyun

second guesses everything. tries to find logistical reasons behind all evidence captured.

barely flinches when he gets touched or hears his name, but the second he thinks he sees a full apparition in his peripheral? he’s more translucent than the spirit.

uses a whole ass lantern like it’s the 1800’s instead of a flashlight to ‘ward off bad spirits’.

jaw goes slack when any evidence arises and he just stands there internally freaking out for at least a solid two minutes.

“get out.” “that’s no way to treat a guest.”

can sit in total darkness without flinching.

thinks spirits hitting on him means he’s extra sexy.

scolds instead of threatening bad spirits enough that nothing ever happens to him. no one likes to be scolded by him, even the dead.

the last to leave a room so everyone else feels safe not being the caboose.

“it’s time to go already?” “no.” “well, you heard them. let’s hang out some more.”

Hyungwon

yes this six foot man is hiding behind someone smaller than him. he knows he looks ridiculous, but he’s mortified and cursing everything right now. give him a hot minute.

sleeps with an eye mask on that reads ‘do not disturb’ even if he’s in a haunted place or camping in the middle of a forest for an investigation.

“help me.” “gonna need more context than that because you might be evil.”

well known for swearing at spirits without receiving any backlash at all. seriously, nothing happens. so he’s going to keep doing it until some real repercussions come forth.

pretends that he’s not scared when in actuality, he has his entire backpack loaded with things to keep him safe.

probably sweating under all of the layers of clothes he decided to wear as a ‘ghost precaution’.

chews gum obnoxiously just to mess with the audio readings.

attacks everything in sight, including other team members, when truly frightened.

those long legs just mean less strides to get the Hell away from the haunted place.

“I’m never coming back here.” always leads to “In This Season: The Return to ___”

Joohoney

can’t stay around a haunted place for longer than twenty minute intervals.

is pouting only because the ghost chose to touch someone else. (libras amiright)

actually has the worst luck in the history of ghost hunting, evidence wise. he gets his clothes tugged on at almost every location, hears his name in every spirit box session, and thinks he’s being followed everywhere. he’s basically a beacon for ghosts until a camera is pointed at him.

can and will cry.

“touch me again, i dare you.” “sure.” “wait, i was just joking!”

when asked to go anywhere alone, he will crouch down and sit on their foot with his entire body wrapped around their leg while he begs and pleads to not go at all. especially not alone.

imitates character voices like kermit so the spirits get confused. they know it’s him.

plays thriller by mj during sessions to jam out and not be so scared

screams without making any sounds when he’s afraid.

“the sun’s rising? Let’s Bounce!”

Changkyun

blood curdling scream at the slightest indication that there is something with them.

“mmmmmm.” “microwave?”

sleep on the haunted property? he’ll be in the back of the camper, thank you.

uses the infrared on himself to see how big his dick is in his pants.

listens to lofi when he’s on break to recuperate.

befriends the local dog faster than he captures evidence of the afterlife.

thinks ghostly moans just means someone is getting some.

“you need to find me.” “i don’t think google maps has that feature yet, bro.”

zig zags during solos like he’s running from an alligator.

time to go? he’s packed and heading out going “that wasn’t too bad, actually.”

#monsta x #monsta x headcanon #monsta x headcanons #monsta x imagines #monsta x scenarios #monsta x fluff #monsta x au #shownu #wonho #minhyuk #kihyun #hyungwon #jooheon #changkyun #monstax.headcanon

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this goes out to my true judy @my-mass-hysteria 💖 i thought waaay too much about this, and it’s a mess BUT i love it. please enjoy these dragrace crossover headcanons, if you will!

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Contestants!

Tangerine (Shouyou Hinata): Baby queen! Only got her start in drag five months ago, but looks precious in literally anything. Fangirled hard meeting all the other queens on day one. Will break a sewing machine if she touches it, and spends a lot of time whining for help in the workroom. Extremely loveable and considered to be Trade of the Season, but even that couldn’t save her from a week one elimination.

Pudding Head (Kenma Kozume): Instagram queen. Has never performed a day in her life, but her makeup and fashion are perfection. Serves fish, known to flaunt her long legs and neck like it’s nobody’s business. Always makes the judges’ jaw drop when she struts the runway with her elegance. Doesn’t talk much while she’s focused on designing for each runway, but is extremely dependable during group challenges. Judges kept asking her to serve personality, and that ultimately got her liminated early-season.

Dumplin (Keishin Ukai): Old pageant queen, even had her age censored during her intro. Draws on her eyebrows questionably thin, but can lip sync the house down since she’s been performing for (redacted) years. Prefers to call her sisters “children”, and always steps up to teach the workroom about LGBTQ+ history. Is legendary and well-known, but her drag style is a little too old school. Eliminated mid-season.

Foxy Mammaries (Atsumu Miya): Comedy queen, who often reads the room for filth. Knows how to get under her sisters’ skin in the workroom before high-stress challenges. Draws a strong brow and serves body for days, but will get called out for wearing a catsuit three weeks in a row. Became a meme due to her quirky accent and countless blow-ups during Untucked. Lip sync assassin, usually seen pointing to her mouth while she nails every syllable. Eliminated late-season.

Sen Pie (Ryuunoske Tanaka): Bald, comedy queen. Deep, raspy voice is a sharp contrast to her flawless makeup and cinched waist. Always crushes acting challenges, even if she forgets her lines. Her improv is iconic anyways, and her one-liners are often used for the episode promos. Is fiercely loyal, and will always help her sisters in the workroom. Even if her fashion sense is questionable at the best of times. Eliminated late-season.

Gess Monsta (Tendou Satori): Conceptual queen, through and through. Equal parts extremely talented and overwhelmingly eccentric. Makes most of the girls jealous because she acts so silly and oblivious in the workroom, but brings high fashion to the runway every week. Excels in everything avantgarde, but often falls short in comedy and acting challenges because no one “gets” her. Top Three material.

Mz. Refreshing (Koushi Sugawara): Fashion queen. Was a bit shy early in the season, but once she found her stride, she started consistently winning challenges. Is the complete mother of the bunch, often found helping Tangerine with sewing and drying Queen’s tears. Very well-loved, but won’t hold back the shade when the Library is open. Crushes design challenges, and secretly has a beautiful voice that shook everyone during a late-season talent show challenge. Top Three material.

The Grand Queen (Tooru Oikawa): Pageant queen. Her looks lean more towards high fashion than pageant gowns, and turns a stunning look every week. Is way too pretty in and out of drag, and another frontrunner for Trade of the Season. Extremely hardworking, and is arguably the best team captain. Because she puts her whole heart into every challenge, she’s known to cry on Untucked if she floats by as simply safe. Top Three material.

Judge Panel!

Fashion and style superstar Asahi Azumane. My favorite funny man, Yuu Nishinoya. Shake the dice and steal the rice, it’s Tsukishima Kei. And my number one squirrel friend, Saeko Tanaka.

Pit Crew!

Models: Iwaizumi, Ushijima, Mattsukawa, Lev, Kuroo, Akaashi & Kai

Dancers: Daichi, Terushima, Aran, Goshiki, Bokuto, Yamamoto & Yaku

#haikyuu headcanons #hq hcs #rupaul's drag race #idk why this happened but i love it #drag #rpdr #haikyuu!!#my writing #shanscript #hq x rpdr

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I NEVER FINISHED MY STORY OMG. ok so i left off at being too proud to tell my friend she was right and kpop fucked hard. the difference between u and me is that i’m too good of a liar. too good. i kept up the “i hate kpop it’s cringe” facade for ALMOST TWO WHOLE YEARS, I SHIT YOU NOT. why? bc my dumb ass, extra ass, dramatic ass self thought “ok if i’m gonna have to deal with the embarrassment of admitting i’m wrong, i better do it in such an extra ass way it’ll knock ur socks off so hard that YOULL be the one embarrassed not me.” the original plan was to learn the entire choreography to bts dope, bc it’s the song that she told me to listen to and inevitably the song that got me into them, but later switched to bts fire bc i saw too many of those “choreo matches w any song” videos, and then her birthday party came up. and here’s the real kicker. her birthday is April Motherfuckin Fools. so it would be So Perfect for me to reveal my kpopism as a birthday present And a april fools prank in one. so i was Set on the Reveal being on april 1st, but the day rolls around and god that choreo is so fucking hard and i am Not a dancer. never have been. so i abandon that and go ykno what… i’ll do it Next Year. BC MY BITCHASS WAS LIKE NO THE MOMENT IS TOO PERFECT TO DO IT ON A NORMAL ASS DAY ITS GONNA BE ON APRIL FOOLS ON HER GODDAMN BIRTHDAY OR NOT AT ALL. a year rolls by, i’ve told most of our friends except her and they’re all in on it, i’d made so many subtle kpop references to her without her realising they were fully intentional and had too many scares where she almost figured me out but i lied my way out of it, and i’d given up on showing off with choreography bc i couldn’t make that shit look good. i’m not a dancer. i am, however, a rapper, and a damn good one, so i inhaled the agust d mixtape and decided i’d just rap the eminem of kpop’s anthem at her face. in korean. and change the lyrics at the end (if u haven’t listened to agust d, the bridge repeats “i’m sorry” a lot) to “i’m sorry i kept this from u for so long” and “i’m sorry i actually ult got7 not bts” (this was like the april after skz debuted ok i was holding onto got7 for dear life knowing full well skz we’re going to convert me smh) and the best part? she never saw it coming. her official present was a cd with a bunch of kpop on it but she thought it was just a personalised mixtape for her so i told her to play the first song out loud and she knew the song Instantly. it has a long intro so she was like “i guess u did listen when i recommended u this song!! i knew you’d like it since u like rap so much!!” and then i started rapping and i shit u not. she started SCREAMING. like the initial reaction was her jaw dropping and then instinctively covering her mouth but when i kept going and she realised i wasn’t fucking around she just fucking screamed like a banshee. at the end during the sorry bit i threw off my jacket to reveal a got7 shirt on the inside and she fell off her chair and started rolling around on the floor. needless to say it was every bit as satisfying as i thought it’d be LMAOOOO afterwards her ass was like “I CANT BELIEVE U HID THIS FROM ME FOR OVER A YEAR” and when i tried to explain my ego couldn’t take the “i told u so” she was like “you know i wouldn’t have made fun of you for it right? i would just be glad you’re not hating on my boys anymore” so basically i’m a big dramatic fool and she was always too good for me.

don’t mind the weird spaces here my ipad is being all fucky wucky w me rn. damn sad to hear ur sideblog experience didn’t go so well, i’d have shown u the cool side of the fandom if i knew 😤😤 leading u thru the cursed halls of kpop stan tumblr like a sketchy tour guide that’s actually 3 small raccoons stacked on top of each other like a trench coat, like “over here we have the fanfic writers that honestly need to publish a book, over here we have the gif makers that are responsible for my entire camera roll, if we take a quick swerve past the death threat anons and the twt fanwar screenshots - mind ur feet bub the 14 year olds were tryna make a grab for ur ankles - ah here’s the holy grail of shitposts, you might be here for hours, to the right we have the weird aussie side of the fandom that projects our childhoods onto chanlix but also all the members as we decide what their life in australia would’ve been like, and down there is a secret trapdoor to the blogs w endless random headcanons that will make you laugh, cry or blush depending on if the author woke up and decided to choose violence today. enjoy your Stay!” but then again i’m not so active on tumblr anymore (ngl you’ve become the highlight of my tumblr experience these days, interaction wise,) so maybe all my Local Hotspots are inactive now. i know a bunch of them are, it’s sad. “i don’t fw stan twitter for the same reason i don’t hang out in meth dens” oop. guess i’m a meth addict. no but i get u i rly do, it’s a hellhole out there, but the fact that things get shared and spread a lot easier than on tumblr and how short most things have to be (therefor keeping up w my adhd attention span without having to resort to the mental torture that is tiktok, with the added bonus of not always needing headphones.) that i just. couldn’t leave if i tried. maybe i should try being active on tumblr again but it’s a dying site in comparison.

“their music doesn’t consistently hit for me as much as skz” i’m sorry we can’t be friends anymore. what. what. you don’t dramama ramama ramama hey? you don’t feel a little jealousyyyyyy, naega anin? you don’t shoot out, shoot out, shoot out, or aremdaeun love killa love killa? you can’t be your hero du du du du du du du du du dududu? u disappoint me. literally like everyone i know who likes skz music likes mx music like it’s a rite of Passage. they’re kindred spirits, monsta x music is like skz’s music’s cool but mildly heterosexual older brother. neither of them know what a bad song is it runs in the family. and both their music runs in my VEINS. whenever i describe my music taste they’re always the first two that come to mind, skz being my number 1 bc they are my best boys but mx bc of the Flavour. pls listen to the entire the code album then get back to me 😤🙌 ok but fr ur so right they are 7 of the finest men i ever seen (yes i say 7 bc i’m including wonho cause he deserved better and i’ll die on my ot7 bullshit.) like don’t get me started on them either LOL i LITERALLY downloaded that one insta video of changkyun working out his back n arm muscles w his tattoo showing bc i needed that shit saved for Science. they could do Anything w me like frfr. yes vixx is the bdsm contract group i’m telling ya they wildin. or at least they were. it’s been years since their last comeback idk what they’re doing anymore tbh. and yeah that makes sense, savouring the hyperfixation i feel it, but also i’m so attached to skz that i never let it die. like i hyperfixate on other things and other groups but i will Always go back to skz cause they’re my homeboys. hell, they’re my home. being a predebut stay i’ve spent more time w skz than most of my actual family members at this point. but that’s just me you do u boo xx just know that if ur anything like me ur never letting go once skz it’s been my longest lasting fixation cause they hit like Nothing Else Do. ik i’ve already said that but i cannot stress it enough. they’re really special. i’m gonna stop here before i get all sappy and emotional bc i really love those boys so fucking much and i don’t drop the L bomb often. SIDE NOTE I WOULD LIKE TO SEE UR LIST OF GROUPS RANKED BY THORSt. i need to judge ur Taste. and omg cat&dog is such a guilty pleasure song bc the lyrics make me cringe so much bc while pet play can be fun they be doing it in more of an “i’m an innocent soft dogboy uwu” kinda way that just Does Not Sit Right with me. it comes back to the objectifying of asians that asians themselves don’t help in industries like these and maybe i’m looking too far into it when rly it is just wholesome n cute or maybe they are into some pet play shit idk idc i will bop to the song regardless but i will not acknowledge the lyrics nope.

YOURE RIGHT THO SKZ’S OPENNESS IS IN FACT, A BIG DEAL, i’ll grab them for u if u want but i found these twt threads of skz supporting the lgbt community and i just felt a special kind of happiness man like sure the delusional part of me likes going “haha they’re gay” bc my brain likes to imagine them as my polycule of mlm boyfriends bc sometimes thats what gives me the serotonin to get me thru the day ok don’t judge but also bc it’s nice knowing that yes i’ll never know them personally, but at least i can support them knowing they’d respect my gender identity and my pronouns, they’d respect who i choose to love, and that’s already more than the general public can say so shit, it is special! it’s special that they don’t treat being cishet like the norm - they constantly remove gender from their songs and speech entirely, they don’t assume all stays are female anymore, we don’t talk abt the babygirls incident cause we got babystays in the end outta that ok, and it’s just. so refreshing and important to me bc i can’t get that anywhere else!! like my semi ults are the boyz and while i love them very much and there’s no way all 11 of them are straight i refuse, i do get just a little bit sad whenever they she/her their fandom by default and call them their girlfriends n shit even tho i do still identify as a girl, i’m also genderfluid/nonbinary/transmasc, and i have a very love/hate relationship w my womanhood and rarely use she/her pronouns, cause it’s like, do you not see me? see us? the ones who aren’t cishet women? i mean i know kevin does bc he congratulated a fan who came out as nb but it’s just not the same as the openness we get w skz. like how do i trust cishets i could be supporting them as a queer person when in reality they’d call me a slur. what would i know, behind the screen? so it’s so good that skz go the extra mile to make it a safe space for everyone. this is already long enough i will reply to the second half of that ask in another message… tomorrow cause it’s 1am and i’m tired gn -felix bi anon

I'mma have to start putting these under a readmore so that i don't absolutely make everything who is still following me for some reason go totally fucking insane 😂

NDJDHWJJAHFNAKBSJSBFBHHDBDNAJD YOU HAVE NO IDEA THE FACES I WAS MAKING READING THIS, I WAS FUCKING CACKLING AND GASPING EVERY OTHER SENTENCE SO HARD THAT I SCARED THE CATS NDJWHSHSB the fact that you went "oh you want me to get into kpop? Give me a hot minute, and I'll give you a whole ass private concert for free" biduehsjdbd biiiiiiiiiiitch you're a fucking ICON, I stg I could NEVER 😂 (and not just because I couldn't find a tune if you gave me a printed set of Google maps directions and that I embody the steriotype that white people can't dance, like my sister kept sensing me tiktoks of the whole "dance like a white girl" trend going lmfao look it's you and eventually I was like "sis please this trend has me feeling like being white is a disability and these mothafuckers are being ableist 😭 also I could NEVER be that on beat so yall ain't even doin it right 😭😭😭😭"). Tbh if I told one of my friends (lol what friends, i got jokes) to get into Skz and they showed up at my bday and performed the entirety of I Got It I would simply shower them in money and go "aight everyone else go home, you are no longer needed, you are being laid off, your position has been eliminated, we're downsizing, the company is moving up and you're moving out, you are not qualified for this role any longer, best of luck with future endeavors" 😊

I think part of the reason I can't deal w Twitter is the exact reason I refuse to leave tumblr, in that I've been on tumblr since 2006 and twt since 2008, and tumblr literally has not changed at all, not even a little, whereas going from the early days of twt where there were no corporate sponsorships or ads and you had to manually copy and paste someone's tweet and @ them to retweet it, to how it is now, like 90% ads and showing me shit from the timelines of people I don't even fuckin follow n whatnot, it's just not enjoyable. Idk how anyone finds anything on twt, it confuses and frustrates me because I am old and have not adapted well to technology changing 😂 But arguably, the skz fanbase doesn't want me on skztwt anyways so like it works for both of us lmfaooo. I am old and cringey, and also still think of twt as stream of consciousness whereas tumblr is your teenage bedroom where you can decorate the walls with anything that interests you. I do really love the nonsensical kpoptwt shitposts tho fhshsbdjjss like it is a very specific flavor of mental instability that I enjoy immensely 😂 OH and also I initially misread part of that and thought you were saying you actually irl do meth and I was like 😳 WHAT DO I SAY TO THAT. HOW DO I HANDLE THIS. Like how do I express like "I wasn't being judgy of people who use substances cause I've been there but I was just being insensitive 😳" And then went back and reread it and was like WHEW, IM JUST AN ILLITERATE FOOL 😂😂😂😂 ejeywhdhrhjwbfbdjshdhdhd I spent like an hour bwign like "IS THE REASON WE GET ALONG BECAUSE THEY'RE ON METH???? WHAT DO I DO WITH THIS INFORMATION??????" hrhehshe I am literally a fuckin idiot it's fine

It's not that I don't fw them, it's more like... Okay so like there is no situation in which I am going to skip a skz song if it comes on shuffle. You will not ever catch me NOT in the mood to listen to Sunshine, if God's Menu comes on we are THROWIN the meager amount of booty meat I got hither and thither, I could be in the happiest mood of my life but if Ex comes on I will stop to SOB. And I'm not like that with most music, so mx just falls into the category of "there is a time and place." Idk why but it just doesn't forcibly grab hold of my heart and ass the way skz always does. I really don't WANT my skz fixation to ever end, but I know that eventually it'll stop giving me dopamine bevause my brain is my worst fucking enemy 🙃 like my arcana fixation is to date the longest running hyperfixation I've ever had, going on almost three years, and I used to not be able to spend every single second of every day thinking about Asra, but now... I just feel nothing when I look at arcana stuff. As you can probz tell by the fact that I hardly post arcana anymore 😂 So I know that eventually all my happiness will end, it always does, I can never stay just as obsessed with something as I was for long. I CANT SHARE THE LIST BECAUSE I DONT *HAVE* TASTE YET 😭 I'm basically just compiling a list of any group someone tells me I should look into, ranked by how strong the kitty purred upon googling pics of them 😂 My mom read my ass to FILTH over txt lmfao she was like "they're not that adorable. Maybe your standard for adorableness has gone down with You Know Who still on hiatus 🤔" bfjwhdhd like MOMMAAAAA THE LIBRARY IS CLOSED 😂 she attacks me any time I even hint at stanning other groups, she is a skz purist and stans skz only, unofficial Momma Stay of All Stays keeping me in check lmfao.

I feel like skz really do follow thru on their promise that they're a safe space for stays, it's nice to see that they hold space for anyone and everyone in their fanbase and do it in a really simple and elegant way, I feel. Like they never make it seem like "okay here are the fans and here are the token weirdos that were only recognizing to make a buck off of them" the way a lot of artists make it feel like 😑 like they don't go out of their way to act like it's some revolutionary act to do the bare minimum of not shitting on certain parts of the fandom, if that makes sense. They feel very "yeah, of course we love all our stays, this is a welcoming space for literally anyone, that's how it should be, that should be normal," instead of like "Hi fans we love you 😊 and special shoutout to you ell gee bee tee folk, make sure to buy my rainbow merch after the show!!!" you know? Like, they're the friends who would never make you feel weird or different for some shit, the friends that take the attention off you if something they know ur sensitive about comes up, instead of weirdly snapping at whoever brought the unfomfy thing up which ruins the mood and makes you feel tiwce as bad, yk? They just give off this vibe that they, and the space they create with their music, is just a genuine and chill place to be and hang out and relax and bond. I feel like they'd be the friend group that is so goofy and sweet and silly and accepting and lovely and always makes you feel loved and excited to be alive 🥺 They are all good noodles 🥺🥺🥺

#felix-bi-anon #asksteppie

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amindofstone · 3 years

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The kings one and only comfort

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a/n: This did not came out the way I wanted it but I guess I should get over it and give it a try. I really am not satisfied with the outcome but this was in my drafts since a while now. Question: Am I the only one who has hundreds of ideas. Ideas that seem to be amazing and well- thought- out in your mind but written down they are just a huge mess and absolutely not good. Like literally trash! Anyways enjoy whatever came out. I really would like to get some feedback. Other than that, have a nice day/eve. :)

Info: For better reading keep in mind that the words in italic are Chung-hee´s train of thoughts.

Genre: Royal AU

Member: Yoo Kihyun & Lee Jooheon from Monsta X

Warnings: death & might be a bit sad… + (maybe grammar or spelling mistakes. (I apologize. English is not my mother tongue and I´m trying to improve.) Have mercy)

Words: 2452

!!! Please do not steal my idea or work. Credit me please if this is shared or published in any other platform. Picture used is not mine. Credits to the rightful owner. !!!

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“They didn't understand his tears of sorrow. They didn't understand his tears of regret. They didn't understand his tears of pain. They didn't understand his behavior or mindset.

They couldn't hear his silent screams of help. They couldn't be there when he needed one the most. They couldn't be there when he needed a hug the most. They couldn't be the reason he found meaning in live again. They neither could see the pain in his eyes nor know about his broken heart.

And here you are probably wondering why, am I right?

I have no intention to let you guess that on your own since it might not come to your mind. Therefore I´ll just tell you. The answer to that is quite simple. In fact it might even sound stupid to you but it´s nothing than the truth. It´s simple, simple as the word itself. The answer on why no one could see any of that was his smile. He hid everything behind a beautiful smile.

A smile that melt anyone's heart. A smile that made you instantly smile too. A smile that made you forget all of your worries and problems. A smile that made you feel like home. A smile that made anyone feel safe and at ease.

Oh Lord!

How much he wanted to be himself. How much he wanted to be loved. How much he wanted to be comforted.

Can you believe how much he wanted to be a simple person. A normal citizen. A normal human with normal problems. Can you believe how much he wanted to be a normal living being that is not watched by anyone?

Can you believe how much he wanted to be a person, a human who does not have to deal with the burden of keeping an entire nation save and strong.

Can you believe how much he wanted to walk down the streets of his hometown without people looking at him with expectations?

How much he wanted to hear people say his name. Just his name without any of the titles he was given. Without any of the titles politicians, the royalty and society gave him. I wish I could have made that possible. I wish.

Every night when people said their prayers and got ready for bed. He was on his way to our mother.

Every night, after the entire country and its citizen’s fell asleep, he was sitting in front of our mother like he always did and started to talk to her as if she never left.

He always talked to her about his day, about his problems, about his thoughts, about his decisions and about changes in his life but also that of our nation. And even if he did not mention any of these there is something he always talked about. There is something he always has to talk about because if he wouldn't, he would not be able to survive the next day. This something he always talks about is his emotions he simply can't seem to understand, he talks about the pain that seems to never let go of him and the loneliness that accompanied him wherever he went.

And while doing so I realized that he was always smiling through his entire talk with our mother.

But after he finished his daily evening talks with the person who was, is and forever will be the dearest to him, that beautiful smile of him, that beautiful smile of him that our mother always cherished so much gets replaced by trembling lips and eyes filled with warm tears. And his cheeks wetted by tears of loneliness and pain he always carried inside.

How I always wished to make him stop crying. Oh how much I wished I could take all that pain from him. I always wished I could but I never was able to make that wish come true.

I can not remember a time where that once joyful father of yours ended his daily talks with the woman he loved the most, end without him breaking down.

I can not remember a time when his daily visits did not end with him complaining to God on why he had to suffer like that?

I can not remember a time where he did not end up screaming from the top of his lungs the same question over and over again.

Although it was more of a monologue than a dialog, it never hold him back to sit in front of our mother's grave and talk to her as if she never died but rather was sitting in front of him while he was sitting down on the floor with his head on her lap. Just like you always do with your mother my beloved nephew.

He was left alone with his pain and broken soul and mind. He forgot how happiness felt until he got married and God gifted him you.

And this, my pressures nephew, is the reason why you got you the name Chung-hee. Because your mother and me would like you to be just like him.”, the King who was standing in front of the massively huge window stopped talking with a soft unwanted sigh leaving him. Chung- hee who did not see his uncle’s face from the moment he stepped in his office was confused than ever. What is going on? Not even a while ago I was… I was… .

The young prince, who was trying his best to keep himself steady on his feet did not need to see his uncles face to know that he was also trying to hold back his tears. He did not need to see his face to know that he was trying to calm himself down so he could talk with his strong and firm voice again. Chung- hee was confused and did not know why the king, his uncle, told him all of this all so sudden. The young prince was taken aback and kept his head low.

“Chung- hee I want you to be like him. Strong willed and righteous just like him. Your father Lee Jooheon was the first born and had to deal with a huge burden through his entire life. But he never complained. He did anything he was told to by your grandfather and never showed weakness. He did anything and everything for his people and never regretted going against the law when he could protect his people, his nation and its citizen. Your father was a great man. A great soldier and an even better prince. But sadly the burden that was thrown at him and the sudden loss of your grandmother and the illness of your grandfather, deeply damaged him and caused him much trouble. The burden life confronted him with as the crown prince was too much. He did not know how to deal with the pain and loneliness. He did not only hate life but also lost all hope in god. He thought god hated him for something he did. He thought that if he only did one more mistake in life even if it was oh so small he would be punished by god again with the death of more people he loved. Nights of tears, sorrow and pain accompanied him and never let go of him. His wife, your mother that suffered by the pained sight of him and the lost hope in life and fate he had made her lose hope too until you came. Chung- hee you gave your parents life, strength and happiness. Your father… My dear brother loved you more than himself. I´m sure that he would be proud of who you are now. He would be proud to see on how well you take care of your duties. The name he gave you was his wish for you to be exactly what it stood for. Righteous!

Whenever I see you with your mother my mind goes back to the past and shows me the same moments of your father and your grandmother. There is absolutely no difference between you and your father and not only am I the only one who thinks that but also your mother and any other person in this nation. They see your father in you and they are filled with pride. You make them feel safe and happy. What you do for our people reminds them of the past and gives them back the happiness, joy and hope they once felt.

You know, although your father was broken and hurt inside he never stopped being good and do what is right. He was the strength of our nation and this is what I want you to be now.”, and again just when his voice threatened to break, he stopped talking and took a deep breath. He turned around and saw the person he was talking to for the first time through his entire speech. His nephew that was his entire pride was looking down while standing in the middle of the king’s office.

“Chung- hee I am not the rightful owner of this crown.”, Lord Kihyun was now slowly approaching the young man in front of him. He stopped right in front of him and put a hand on his shoulder what made the young prince look up and have a look at the face of a man he never just saw as an uncle. Lord Kihyun was a father, a brother a loyal friend to him.

Chung- hee was looking wide eyed to what was coming next. Something he was not prepared and won´t be even if 100 years would pass.

“Lee Chung he. It is you that should have been wearing this crown. It should have been you sitting on the thrown that was given to me. Do you understand what I want to tell you? The only reason why it is placed on my head is because you were just a baby when your father died and left us. You will be turning 21 in three months. Our counselors are preparing a conference about this issue that is supposed to be held right after your birthday. I called you over today because I wanted to prepare you for this and let you know what the future will bring to you. I don´t want to throw you in the garment of the king and leave you to fate. I don´t want to put the crown on your head and let you carry all its burden on your own. I don´t want the throne to be the only place you can rest. In fact I want this entire palace, this whole nation to be your safe place. I want you to be happy and at ease. I want to let you know that will be passing the crown over to you but next to that I want you to know that I will be standing next you and be there for you whenever you need anyone.”, The king that never showed any sign of weakness was now letting the tears he was holding in since the beginning of the day break free. Chung- hee never knew that his uncle felt like this. He never told him about the hardships his father had to go through. He always heard him talk about the adventures and hilarious days of him and his father. He always thought that his father lived a carefree life filled by pure joy and love but that seems to be wrong.

Kihyun was about to talk again when a knock on the door made him stop and quickly wipe his tears away. He changed his expression to that of a happy and smiley one before he gave the person behind the door permission to enter. What the king did not knew was that after he saw how his uncle changed his being from sad and broken to that of a strong and happy man, made him lose control over himself and silently start to cry. Is this what a king should be? Never crying and never showing any sign of weakness? Chung- hee kept an eye on his uncle while he was carelessly talking to his counselor that informed him about something he couldn´t understand due to his loudly beating heart and his brain that still tried to process what just happened. He was lost in his thoughts while his eyes were glued to the king’s face. Not even a second ago he was crying and talking about his painful past. How was he able to happily talk to his first man as if nothing happened and laugh with him? How is he doing that? Chung- hee was now standing there with trembling hands. His legs weren’t able to keep him on his feet and gave up. He fell down on one of the chairs that stood in front of his uncle’s desk. He was lost in his thoughts when once again the king called his name.

“Chung- hee. No matter what you do, make sure to enjoy every day in this life and appreciate what you have now, because absolutely nothing lasts. Do only good and be good so only good is done for you too. Respect and love everyone and make sure to give the words empathy and kindness a huge importance. Because you never know what a person can hide behind a smile.”, the young man had no time to process what was going now. He wanted to ask him what exactly he meant by that and if those were his or his father’s words but he was long gone.

While the future king was sitting alone in the kings office, the king was on his way to the throne room. “My Lord did you talk to your nephew? Did you told him about your decision?”, asked Lord Kihyuns first man who was slowly following the king he swore his eternal loyalty. “I did but I wonder if it was right to tell him so much about Jooheon. It battered him a bit, don´t you think?”, with a glimpse of regret he entered the throne room and sat down on his throne that should have been that of his brothers. No matter how many years pass of him wearing this crown while sitting on the throne, his heart will always be clenching and leave a sting of pain behind. Even when his face would give away only happiness, joy and determination, his eyes won´t. His first man knew that and never forgot to reassure him that he was a magnificent king. “I´m sure that your brother, King Jooheon, is looking down on you with only pride. With you taking care of his beloved ones he is resting in peace. I am absolutely sure of that, your highness.”

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jinfluffychan · 4 years

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Halloween Costumes Ideas for Monsta X - Boku no Hero Edition - A powerful thread

Disclaimer: I based the election in looks and personalities of the characters and MX, if you watched the anime you will understand much better, and if you haven't seen it, don't worry, enjoy the thread! And Minhyuk and I recommend the anime 😌 Thank you! 💕

Please leave feedback! You will help me a lot and I will appreciate it very much! Thank you! ♡

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Shownu as Fatgum

Okay, listen up, they both love to eat, they both support and trust their sidekicks, and, the best leader as the best super hero ✨ just think about it ✨

Also, blonde Shownu 🌝

Wonho as Lemillion

They both would do anything to save you and make you smile. Even giving up the most important thing for them.

Sorry for making you cry 💔

Minhyuk as Aoyama

Okay, but, did you see Aoyama in season 4? He understands what other people thinks and tries to make them see that they aren't alone.

Also, shinny, elegant and funny... Literally Minhyuk in anime! 🌸 And they even look alike! 🌸

Kihyun as Hawks

His personalities are so similar, they're young and the best in the industry and, very important, both are young flexers in their ways 😂

Hawks = Sassy Kiki 😏

Hyungwon as Tamaki

HW is literally Tamaki in real life.

Both are introverts, but when they show their talents you can only go WOW.

Both have a friend that's everything to them (WH/Mirio)

Their looks and personalities are so alike that is just impressive!

And him in that suit 😍

Jooheon as Kirishima

Hard outside, but soft in the inside.

Funny and friendly, but if you mess with a loved one, he will destroy you.

Respected even by the bad ones.

And imagine Jooheon in his superhero suit like 😳

I.M as Overhaul

... Okay, I know he's a villain, but... DON'T YOU SEE THAT LOOK?! WE'RE GOING TO BE DEAD IF THIS HAPPEN! And I will be very grateful thank u 💗

That power, that security, that... Hotness 😳 my heart just stopped❤️

And we all know he want us dead 😳

Extra: A costume for Mbb/Wenee

Monbebe/Wenee as Eri

We smiled once again thanks to our heroes 💕

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monbangisland · 4 years

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COMING HOME by Lala

Wonho x reader

Bad days, you hated them. You just had the worst day of your life. At the beginning of the day, your coffee fell over your shirt so you had to wear a sweater all the day. Second, your boss asked you to do something for a meeting he had in the afternoon, you did as he asked and left all the other work you had to do. Thirty minutes before the meeting he told you that the meeting was cancelled and asked you to turn in all the other work for today before he left. You told him you hadn’t finished it and he started shouting at you, telling you you were useless. And for a perfect ending, you dropped your phone on your way to the metro station, and now the screen was completely broken.

On your way to your apartment, you were trying hard not to cry. You knew there was a reason to smile, your best friend. You and Hoseok shared an apartment, but when he had a comeback he stayed in the dorms with the boys. The reason why you were sharing an apartment was because your friend that lived with you, Suni, moved in with her boyfriend, and you couldn’t afford to pay the rent all by yourself, since you were saving money for a car.

When you finally arrived, you were exhausted, all you wanted to do was eat ramen and watch a movie with Hoseok, he promised to be at home tonight since it was thursday and it was Halloween. You were going to watch horror movies even if you got scared, actually it was your excuse to get him to cuddle with you while sleeping.

“Hoseok, I’m home” - you shouted while closing the door. You thought it was weird because when he’s home at least one light is turned on. But everything remained dark.

You turned on the lights, no sign of his shoes nor his coats nor his slippers. What the hell is going on? You looked around the living room, the pictures of his family were gone, you went to his room and it was empty. The bed had no covers, the bathroom door was open and it didn’t had his beauty supplies. His closet was empty too, and you felt like something was missing.

You went back to the living room, and looked for your phone, when you found it, you tried to call him. Failed, it went direct to voicemail. You decided to call the next person you trust the most from the boys

“Hello?” - he spoke from the others side of the line

“Hello? Kihyun? Is everything fine? Did I do something wrong?” - you asked and started to tear up

“Y/N, are you ok?” - he asked you

“He left” - is all you managed to say

“I know, the company and we tried hard to convince him to stay but he just didn’t listen” - Kihyun sounded sad and disappointed

“What are you talking about Ki?” - I was completely confused

“Wait, you didn’t heard the news? so what were you talking about?” - Kihyun was now confused

“Ki, he took all his stuff and left. I don’t know what I did wrong, but that doesn’t matter, he left ‘Monsta X’ as well? why?”

“Y/n, we’ll talk later, we’re going to a meeting right now. See you, ok?” - Kihyun hung up and left you more confused and sad.

You went through the media and read the news. Everything was full with comments about your best friend, about his past. They’d been targeting him with this for a while now and he never mentioned a single thing about it to you. And the worst part of it, is that you never noticed it, you were so immersed in your things that you didn’t take the time to read the news about your best friend. About his past, he never mentioned a single thing about it to you and you respected his decision, and now this happens. You felt sorry for him, you knew him, he has a huge heart and you didn’t care what he had done before, everyone makes mistakes. Right now, you were more worried about how the comments were going to affect him and the guys. Gosh, the guys must be devastated.

You took a sit on the couch, next to it was a wooden table that had a photo of you and Hoseok. It was a gift he gave you for your last birthday, under the photo, there was a letter. You noticed it and immediately opened it and when you found out from who it was you started crying.

Dear Y/N

Sorry for not being with you this Halloween, but at this time maybe you have heard the news. I don’t want to disappoint you, and I don’t want people following me outside our place, so that’s why I decided to leave. I don’t know how to tell you everything, there are some things that are true but there are others that are not. So please, don’t believe everything you see in the media. I will try my best to prove my innocence and I will come back to you, and I’ll make you feel proud of me. Please, wait for me. I will always be by your side, never forget that.

Forever yours,

Hoseok

Your sobs were so loud and you couldn’t control yourself. You wanted to help him, you wanted him to know that you were proud of him, and above all you realized how much you needed him in your life. You just stayed there crying on the couch, feeling lonely and broken. You didn’t realized it had passed a long time until you heard a knock on the door. You went running to open it and you found six pair of glassy eyes looking at you. The boys were at your door, all with the same blank expression. When they saw you with your reddish eyes, Jooheon immediately hugged you and started crying, followed by Minhyuk, Changkyun, Kihyun, Hyungwon and Hyunwoo. All of you were crying messes and couldn’t even speak properly. The hug made you feel comforted and loved, actually you knew that you had to support them too, they were suffering just as much as you.

After a while, the guys fell asleep in your living room. You wanted tea to calm your nerves, so you decided to move Changkyun’s head carefully, which was lying on your shoulder. You put his head against the sofa and went to the kitchen.

“Have you eaten? Are you hungry?” suddenly Kihyun appeared in the kitchen, a little bit sleepy.

“No, I’m not hungry. And you? Want something to eat?” you turned around and looked at him, his eyes were red and he looked sad. You closed the gap between you two and gave him a hug. It wasn’t just because he needed it, you also needed it too.

“A cup of tea would be great. And Y/N... thanks” he said while placing his chin on the top of your head

“Thanks? for what Ki?” you asked him confused. You didn’t move, you just stayed there in his arms.

“For the hug. I really needed it” he moved a little bit and looked at you, with a sad smile.

“You’re welcome Ki, I needed the hug too. And besides, I’m always here for you, never forget that” you caressed his cheek and smiled back at him.

“I know, and you can count on us too. You’re not alone Y/N, you know that right?” he was worried because he knew that now, you felt alone.

“I know, you guys are so sweet with me. I’ll manage to take care of myself, but I’m still sad you know, he was suffering and I never realized it. I’m the worst best friend in the whole world” you started to tear up again

“Hey, hey. He knew you were dealing with your own stuff. He asked us to keep this from you, because he knew that the moment you realized the huge mess he was into, you would leave everything you had to do to be with him” Kihyun caressed your hair.

“That’s why I’m his best friend, Ki. Because I want to support him, be there for him in this situation. Oh my God, he must be really devastated, and I’m just here, doing nothing” you complained.

“Calm down Y/N. You know what? You’re doing a lot, because even with all the bullshit being told about him, you’re still standing for him, you trust him. So, I know Hoseok, and that’s valuable for him” he reassured you

“Ki, can I ask you something?” you were curious about his future in the group so you decided to ask him.

“What is it?” he looked worried at you.

“Do you think he will come back? I’m not only asking if I’ll see him again, I’m asking if he’ll be part of the group if this intense gossip calms down one day” you looked at your slippers, you couldn’t look at him.

“The police is holding an investigation, so if he turns out to be innocent, that I know he will, I’m sure he’ll be at the door, knocking because he will be so anxious to see you. But… as for the group, I don’t know for sure. The company was harsh on him, and our manager told him that if he was going to leave, we’ll continue without him, and there was no chance to get him back” Kihyun broke the hug, and walked to the stove, the water for the tea was ready so he turned off the stove.

“Oh… I see…” the idea of him, not being part of Monsta X was killing you. He worked so hard, and now, everything he worked for is literally gone.

“But, no matter what, we’re brothers and we will support him in whatever he decides to do. We’re nothing without him and you know that” Kihyun said, you could see the pain in his facial expression.

You didn’t know what to do, you were worried for the guys, you were worried for Hoseok. And at the same time, you were worried about yourself, you knew that you needed him in your life, and without him you felt like something was missing.

“Come on, let’s go to the living room, I heard the guys talking so maybe they are awake. Let’s see if they are hungry” he handed you your cup of tea and led you to the living room…

Days started to pass, the guys were presenting their new album in music shows. They looked sad, as much as they tried to hide it. There was a huge hole that couldn’t be filled, not only in the group, but also in your heart. You saw how the guys started to overwork themselves, trying to keep their head busy. You went twice a week to the dorms or the studio, and prepared food for them. They gave you huge hugs and invited you to stay with them, at the beginning you didn’t want to stay. But as the days kept passing by, the memories in your apartment kept on killing you slowly, so you decided to stay with them the days you brought food. The nights with the boys consisted on staying at the studio, watching them how they argued about the new songs. They were under so much stress that one night they started to shout at each other. You could hear them shouting, you were worried about them saying things they shouldn’t say to each other so you decided to intervene.

“This is not going to work” Jooheon said disappointed

“What? What are you talking about? We NEED to make it work Jooheon” Hyunwoo said

“Oh come on man, let’s be honest with each other. We need him, a lot of our fans left because of his departure and it’s even harder to try to continue like everything is fine when we know it is not” Changkyun added

“Guys come on please don’t be like this” Kihyun said desperate

“We’re overworked Kihyun, and the album we prepared in english comes with his voice too, we can’t re-record the whole album again. You think that this is easy for us? To get hate because of his decision? “ Hyungwon was starting to raise his voice

“We’re not re-recording it. The album stays just like it is” Hyunwoo said

“I’m telling you Son, this is going to be a failure. We should take a break” Jooheon implied firmly

“A break? are you guys serious? what about the fans that stayed for you? they need you too. And for the album, this is your last album with him, you shouldn’t be thinking on re-recording it” you spoke loud enough for them to listen to you

“And now here she comes, what makes you think that you can give an opinion here?” Jooheon was pissed

“I-I just…” you couldn’t speak properly

“As far as I know your boyfriend decided to leave, and you’re not part of the group either, so why are you giving your opinion?” Jooheon looked at you with red eyes, you could see stress taking the best of him, this wasn’t the Jooheon you knew

“JOOHEON STOP! Y/N is just trying to help, you shouldn’t treat her like this” Minhyuk raised his voice for the first time in the night

“He’s right though” Changkyun added

“GUYS! She’s trying to support us, and you treat her like this?” Kihyun started to get mad

“You’re going to defend her too?” Jooheon asked

“Jooheon, calm down” Kihyun tried to calm him down but he failed

“Oh come on, you’re defending her because you like her Yoo” Jooheon snapped

“JOOHEON!” Hyunwoo shouted

“I-I’ll better get going. I’m sorry, I was trying to help but I see not all of you are glad about it” tears started to stream down your face as you turned around and started to walk.

“Y/N WAIT!” Hyungwon said, but it was too late, you already closed the door and started to walk back to where you lived…

After that day, you barely talked to the guys. They kept on calling you but you never answered your phone. A message from Jooheon and another one from Changkyun, asking you for your forgiveness, but you decided to not read them. Jooheon even sent you a little gift to your house, but you just left it on the table, never looking at what it was. The album came out, and hearing Hoseok’s voice in english made you nostalgic. You were so proud of how much he had improved his english, and suddenly you started to remember those days when he asked you for your help, so you tried to hold a conversation with him, but it was hard for him. You found it cute when he blushed every time he messed up or when you were asking him something in english and he didn’t understand a single thing, you loved his confused expression. As you kept on remembering those moments, all the other memories of him you were trying so hard to keep down had started to come back to you, like a huge wave. His laugh when you both saw TV shows or movies, the memories of the both of you playing games late at night when he had free time. The memories of his cuddles when you came back home after a long or bad day at work, even if he came late, he could tell that you needed cuddles and never complained about hearing you complain about your shitty boss or how competitive your colleagues were. You missed eating ramen next to the window, you both loved to contemplate the sky at night. Your tears were streaming down your face and you realized something: you were in love with him. Many of your friends told you that you were in love but you were scared to accept it. And you came to accept your feelings when he’s gone, how curious, right? You decided to keep on listening to the album for the entire night, his sweet voice helped you to sleep that day…

One night you heard a knock on your door.

“Y/N, I know you’re in there, please open the door” it was Kihyun. You opened the door and found a really tired Kihyun, they must be back from the States

“Hey, Ki” was all you could say.

“I thought you wouldn’t open the door” he admitted

“Why wouldn’t I?” you asked confused

“You haven't answered our calls. Jooheon and Changkyun sent you a bunch of messages but you didn’t answer them either” Kihyun looked worried.

“I just thought you needed space, I needed it too” you looked down.

“Y/N, don’t ever think you aren’t important to us, ok? That day, we were all mad and disappointed, it-it has been hard” Kihyun hugged you really tight, you were about to break down in tears.

“I know I know, shh. Calm down, I’m here ok. I just felt sad and like a burden to you guys, but I could never be mad at you. You’re all I have here” you stated

“have you heard about Jooheon?” Kihyun asked

“That he’s taking a break? Yeah, I wanted to see him but I’m scared he wouldn’t want to see me” you replied

“Girl, he needs to see you. Specially after what happened, he feels guilty” he said caressing your cheek

“Do you know where he is?” you asked him

“Come, I’ll take you there” he took your hand and led the way.

You went to his favorite restaurant and ordered food, his favorite. While you were waiting, you chatted with Kihyun about everything. How you were doing on your job, he told you about the adventures they had during their trip to the States and how much they had enjoyed it, even with all the difficulties they had.

“You know, we saw Hoseok” Kihyun suddenly said

“What? When? Where?” you asked confused

“He had to come to the company due to the investigation. We went for lunch together, he was actually fine. He has been eating well and doing exercise” Kihyun looked at me with curiosity

“O-oh that’s nice” you said sadly. You were wondering why he didn’t come to your house, why he didn’t talk to you at least.

“He asked why you weren’t there” he said and took your hand.

“W-What?” you asked

“Yup, he almost fought Changkyun after we told him about that night. Changkyun ended up running all around Jooheon’s flat and it was hilarious” Kihyun laughed as he remembered the day they saw Hoseok

“Mmm, he shouldn’t have done that” you said

“Why not? they didn’t fight actually, they were just messing around. They missed each other so much” he said but as he saw that you were uncomfortable talking about him, he dropped the topic. Fortunately, the food arrived and you finally forgot about it.

You both arrived at Jooheon’s place, Kihyun called him and he opened the door for us. When he opened, he was surprised when he saw you.

“Y-Y/N? You’re here” he engulfed you in a hug, you felt tears falling down on his cheeks

“Hey, hey it’s ok. I’m here” you tried to calm him down

“I’m so sorry, what I said that day was awful, the way I treated you, I-I” he didn’t stop hugging you

“Jooheon, it’s ok, I forgive you” you broke the hug and looked at him

“You really do?” he asked with hope in his eyes

“Yeah I do, and sorry for not replying to your messages, I was a little hurt and sad” you admitted

“You don’t have to apologize, I understand” he said

“Now let’s get in, you need to eat” you told him

“Y/N, I’ve missed you” Jooheon said

“I missed you too guys, a lot” tears streamed again down your face as you realized how much you missed them.

“Come on guys, the food is getting cold” Kihyun said while entering the apartment.

“Come Y/N, let’s go inside” he smiled. For some reason, I missed the wide smile Jooheon used to have, he looked really different and that hurted you too.

The whole dinner you kept chatting with him, listening to him. He had so much to talk about, that for some reason you felt guilty because you left him when he needed you the most. It was you being a terrible friend, all over again. Kihyun noticed that something was off with you, so he started to make silly faces and put on the TV funny videos of cats, and the three of you ended up laughing your asses off. As you realized, it was really late and you had to work tomorrow, so you decided to call off the night.

“Y/N, can you come with me to the doctor tomorrow? I don’t want to go alone and the guys are busy with the planning of the new album and the twotuckgom campaign” Jooheon asked shyly

“Of course, at what time is your appointment, Honey?” you asked him

“At 5 p.m., is it ok for you?” he asked you

“Yup, I’ve been doing extra hours so I can finish my shift earlier. So text me the location and I’ll be there ok?” you reassured him

“Thanks, Y/N! You’re amazing” he hugged you and you finally said your goodbyes.

As the days passed, you kept on accompanying Jooheon to his treatments. You visited the guys for the first time in a while and they just hugged you as if you had been gone for a long time. Immediately the dorm was full with joy and laugher, they made you feel special, as if you were a part of that little family. And you couldn't feel happier. Jooheon was starting to look like himself, the anxiety he felt was slowly fading away and he started to smile widely, just as he used to. Changkyun had become sweeter than he was before, and the guys teased him about how he changes when they are in the States, imitating the way he speaks english. Hyungwon looked so beautiful with gray hair and damn, he's looking more handsome as time goes by. As for Minhyuk, he's a MC right now, and he was bragging about his friendship with the other MCs, specially his friendship with the cute guy Jaehyun. As for Hyunwoo, he got sick really easy, he had the flu right now, but even with flu he ate like the huge bear he is. He looked so calm, that I always wanted to know how he manages to keep the serenity after all that happened.

A few weeks passed and Jooheon started to participate in the group activities again. You were beyond happy on the outside, but on the inside you wished you could see Hoseok, you wanted to ask him how he was doing, if he was ok, if he needed something. But you never tried to contact him, because you wanted him to come and tell you what happened, just as he promised in his letter.

One day, you were working and suddenly you got a text from Kihyun:

Y/N, we have a problem, we need help. Please come to the dorm

You were worried about them, you thought that maybe Hyunwoo was sick again or maybe Changkyun. You told your boss you were leaving earlier and you didn't gave him the chance to say yes, when you were already out of his office. You rushed to the dorm, failing because the bus wasn't helping. You felt like you took an eternity to get to the dorm. When you arrived you got nervous as you saw the door slightly open.

"Guys, I'm here, what's going on?" You shouted

"Hi Y/N, come on in" Hyunwoo appeared and looked a little tired

"Oh my God, Nunu, are you ok??" You were worried when you saw him wearing a sweater and the heater was on

"I just catched a cold again" he admitted while laughing

"Go to bed, I'll make soup for you" you ordered him and started walking to the kitchen

"Oh Y/N, don't go to the kitchen" he added and smiled

"What? Why?" You asked confused

"Someone is using it" he added

"Oh come on, Kihyun is not going to stop me" you said while rolling your eyes and entering the kitchen.

What you saw left you astonished. There he was, standing like the beautiful angel he is. Hoseok was in the kitchen, cooking ramen. He looked at you and smiled widely.

"Surprise" he said smiling

"W-what are you doing here?" You couldn't move, you were completely surprised. Plus, thousands of feelings came rushing.

"Well my dear Y/N, I’m innocent. The police finished the investigation and I'm free of all the charges" he was smiling and started to get closer.

"R-really?" You asked him

"Yeah, just as I promised you" he smiled proudly

"Oh my God, why didn’t you tell me anything? I could have been there for you! But you just left me, you know how bad of a friend I felt? Do you have any idea how much I've missed you. And now you just come as if nothing happened and…" you kept on talking so fast and tears started to appear in your eyes again

"I've missed you too, Y/N" he took your hands and hugged you, burying his face in the crook of your neck

"Don't leave me like that ever again" was all you could say.

"I won't, I promise" he lifted his head and looked at you

"I hate you, Lee Hoseok" you said wiping your tears away

"I love you too, Y/L/N Y/N" he took your face in his hands and gave you a peck on your lips. You just looked at him and started blushing like crazy.

"Finally, you told her you love her" Minhyuk said giggling.

"It took you too long, Hoseok-ah" Hyungwon teased.

You hid your face in his chest and you felt how his chest moved when he laughed. Gosh how I've missed his laugh.

"I know, but now I won't let her go" he caressed your head and gave you a kiss on your forehead.

"You better take care of her, if not I'll kill you" Kihyun told him.

"I will, she's the most important person in my life" you lifted your head and looked at him smiling, he gave you another peck.

"YAH! WHAT ABOUT US HYUNG??" Jooheon asked playfully.

"You're my family Jooheon, of course you are important you, dummy" he laughed hard at Jooheon's jealousy.

"Finally, our family is complete" Hyunwoo said and came closer to us, hugging us both.

"Yup, we're finally together again. And I couldn't feel happier" Hoseok said almost tearing up,

"Oh, come here you big bro" Changkyun said and joined the group hug. Kihyun, Minhyuk and Jooheon joined too.

"Thank you, guys" Hoseok said

"For what?" Minhyuk said

"For believing in me, for waiting for me" he looked down.

"Hey, we love you Hoseok. We'll always be here for you" you added

"I know, and I love you too guys" Hoseok gave us a warm smile.

"Guys, did you realized something? This is the first time I hear Y/N telling him that she loves him" Changkyun teased

"Yaaah! You're right" Minhyuk added

"Guys! Stop!" You covered your face with your hands, and all of them laughed at you

"Actually, she said we. She didn't said I" Hoseok looked at you teasingly

"You're right" Kihyun said and winked at you

"I won't say it right now" you were as red as a tomato

"Oh come on Y/N, he's asking for your love. Just say it" Jooheon added

"Pleasee" Hoseok was pouting, he knew that you had a soft spot for him when he pouted.

"PLEAAAASE" all the guys said

"Ok ok… I love you, Lee Hoseok, happy now?" He pulled you closer to him

"I couldn't be happier" he admitted…

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dreamiehrs · 3 years

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20 questions tag!

tagged by: @parfaiitjoon <33 ty for the tag!

what do you prefer to be called name-wise?

jenna and jen are both good w me!

when’s your birthday?

December 28th, 2002

where do you live?

the east coast of the U.S.

what are 3 things you’re doing now?

listening to music, talking to myself, and doing this tag game LMAO

what are 4 fandoms that piqued your interest recently?

hmmm.... the boyz, bnha, bungou stray dogs, & I think that’s all tbh?? I’ve been talking abt anime a lot w my friends recently (esp bnha lol) and bsd has been everywhere on my fyp recently. so yeah

how have you been coping w/ the pandemic?

honestly, at first it was pretty okay and/or easy bc I had a feeling we were gonna be put under quarantine anyways. school assignments were easy bc I was used to the classes already. summer went pretty well as well (honestly it was probs one of the best summers ever LMAO for me at least). then when late Aug/early Sep hit, everything kind of went downhill bc school had started back up, and I had (and still have) to teach myself the material for all my classes. school is on my mind like 24/7 too LMAO i can never escape it (aka i’m stressed)

a song you can’t stop listening to?

I have multiple:

the stealer - the boyz

haunt, the cartoon heart - bear ghost

guess who - monsta x

up no more - twice

nectar - wayv

recommend a movie?

parasite!

how old are you?

do you work/go to school/college/other?

yeah I’m a high school senior

do you prefer heat or cold?

def the cold since I literally feel like I’m melting into a puddle during the summertime here (it gets so hot here in the summertime pls help I hate it)

a fact others may not know about you?

uhmmm when I was younger my grandparents owned a small boat, and we would go boating often w/ family (and I hated it when my grandpa would put the boat on plane like- WHY DO WE HAVE TO GO SO FAST)

are you shy?

Y E S. however I have to force myself to not be shy in certain situations (like ordering a drink from Starbucks or smthing... or like if I need to ask a question in class lol). after I get used to ppl, though, I generally start to open up more and become more social w them. I can still be shy and/or quiet sometimes even after that, tho (in conclusion im just super quiet)

what are your preferred pronouns?

she/her :)

do you have any pet peeves?

I. have. so. many. pet. peeves. there’s like an entire list at this rate lol. but I’ll save time and just say two for now: being interrupted and when ppl don’t respect my personal space.

what’s your favorite form of -dere?

tsundere

rate your life out of 1 to 10, w/ 1 being the worst & 10 the best possible life:

eh I’ll say a 5/10

what’s your main blog?

this one :)

any side blogs?

yup! @dreamieficrecs & @eboysung (that skz writing blog is literally dead. i’m so inactive on it)

what’s something ppl should know before becoming friends w/ you?

you’re gonna have to deal w me either being hella antisocial or the most social person on earth. there’s no in-between. I can be pretty awkward at first, but be prepared to see multiple sides of me when I become comfortable with you lol

tagging: @philosopher-of-fandoms @theleemark @softsungchan @florence-cvrt (only if you want to ofc <3)

#tag game #abt: jen

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springday-aus · 4 years

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Disney Prince!AU with Wonho [Hoseok]

★ Wonho [Lee Hoseok] as Disney’s Hercules ★

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Group: Monsta X

Member: Lee Wonho / Hoseok

Genre: fluff, romance

part of the Disney Prince series

Type: Bulletpoint AU

Word Count: 1.9k

born a demigod

son of Zeus and a mortal mother

he absolutely adores his mother

he’s not ashamed to say he’s a mama’s boy

on the other hand, he doesn’t really like to talk about his father

especially since he has these powers

the power of physical strength….

he’s not sure if they’re a good thing or a bad thing

like, sure he likes that he can help the elders carry stuff

you know, like their animals when they’ve broken a leg

or moving their houses to more convenient places

the whole village loves him bc they literally saw him grow up as a kid

he turned out so well for someone without a father

don’t be fooled—he can literally physically crush you like a grape, but he’s literally the sweetest boy

anyways

he’s been living normally

despite the whole ability to rip off a 100 year old tree

and lift up a wall

or a house

or a 200 pound horse

his life has been fairly normal up until the incident

one day, when Hoseok was about 16 years old

a couple of kids were stuck underneath a rock

okay, an understatement

it was a huge ass boulder

anyways

these kids were stuck underneath and Hoseok lifted it to let the kids out

since that day, the elders called him Wonho

meaning a brave lion, the protector of the village

since that day, he’s been doing around helping others a bit more

he started putting himself out there to help people

it was small but these tasks got gradually bigger

it started from saving kids

to fighting against monsters

to saving the entire universe (but that’s another story)

next thing he knew the entire village was calling him a hero

there were statues made of his figure

his face was slapped on e v e r y t h i n g

the gods made a star alignment for his stature

he became one of the most famous faces

some just like to call him a Greek god that fell from the heavens

he still blushes every time someone calls him that

the ladies swoon the hardest when he’s on his Pegasus high in the sky

and the light shines oh so perfectly to emphasize his perfect, chiseled face

geez this man is very attractive and he doesn’t even know it

moving on

it’s important to remember that he did not get to this position alone

he was able to train with/under Hyunwoo

Wonho wanted to understand how he can be a better hero

to protect the ones he loves

and those in the community

he is such a good boy, I want to cry

anyways

he heard about how Hyunwoo trains heroes the best so he made his way over and

here he is

even after completing his training, he continues to work on himself

so if he can’t sleep or when people don’t need help

he would be in the gymnasium to work out

or he’d be doing practice training in an abandoned field that Hyunwoo had set up

as he got older, all he really does is help people and train to be better at what he’s doing

since he’s been helping out, the chaos has decreased significantly and he finds himself wandering elsewhere for adventure

this is how he meets you

I mean, you wouldn’t say you were in danger

but also, you were in the woods and you didn’t know this one all that well

and you may or may not have ended up messing with this lake monster that you def shouldn’t have been messing with

so there you are

in the middle of a lake

being held hostage by some

ugly troll ass, centaur thing

(tbh, you couldn’t really tell what he was, a river guardian???)

I literally mean held btw

you were literally in this creep’s hand bc he’s the size of a giant

so Wonho was walking around the forest with Pegasus, trying to find a new place and see if anyone needed his help

and very faintly he hears something from the distance

“if you don’t put me down, I swear to cut off your balls and rip off your—”

oo he didn’t wanna hear that

but he still rushes towards it

that’s when he spots you in this monster’s hand, struggling to get out

he slowly approaches you two

Wonho: “uh, excuse me? sir? could you, um, let them go?”

you speak up first, without taking two glances at him

You: “keep moving junior, I can handle this—have a nice day”

you flash him a sarcastic smile, hoping he’ll move along with his day

but he doesn’t

instead his shoulders kind of drop for a second, slightly disheartened, but only for a second

because he stands up straighter and pulls out his sword

Wonho: “you might be too close to his situation—I’m sorry to do this without your consent, but I have to do my job”

before anyone can say anything else, Wonho dives in and does what he does best

he fights off the bad guy

next thing you knew, you fell into the water and it’s all a blur

you fished yourself out, trying to dry off

Wonho managed to punch the living daylights out of the river guardian so he was just passed out and drowning in the river

but who cares about him

after Wonho ensures he’s not dead, but unconscious

(and Pegasus does his little cheer for him)

he moves over to you

Wonho: “..... hey”

You: “hi”

Wonho: “are you okay?”

You: “after getting all the water out of my ears, I’ve decided that I’ve been better”

Wonho: “sorry… about that—it was kind of stupid, I should have thought that out better”

You: “you think?”

you eye him up and down as you try to dry off your shoes

You: “they give you a name with those rippling pectorals?”

Wonho flushes, laughing rather awkwardly

Wonho: “they call me Wonho, but you can just call me Hoseok…”

you look at him again

he turns into a deeper shade of red under your eyes

You: “I prefer Wonder Boy”

he lets out another small laugh

Wonho: “what’s—what’s your name?”

you give him yours, as you wring out the bottom of your shirt into the water

he repeats it, with a small smile on his face

Wonho: “soooo, how’d you get mixed up with the—”

you finish for him

You: “the pinhead with hooves?”

he lets a little laugh out

it’s kind of cute

You: “well, you know how men are, they think no means yes and get lost means take me, I’m yours”

you let out an airy laugh as Wonho stands there confused

You: “don’t worry about it, Wonder Boy, you’ll figure it out eventually”

you stand up, ignoring the water that continues to drip down

You: “well, Seok, thanks for the help, but I gotta bounce”

Wonho: “ah…”

he can’t really hide his disappointment: “where—where are you going?”

You: “oh, you know, here and there”

you flash a smile at him: “I’ll see you around”

Wonho: “how?”

You: “life has its ways… bye bye Wonder Boy”

you walk off and disappear into the woods

Wonho finds himself still looking off, even as your figure disappears

Pegasus huffs at him, almost mockingly at how mesmerized he is at your presence

he turns to Pegasus and points a finger at him, as if he’s scolding him

Wonho: “not a word”

he continues to go on and eventually stumbles into a little town

…. your little town :)

obviously he didn’t realize

until he saw you again about a week later

you were hanging around a fruit stand that belonged to your friend’s

you looked just as beautiful as he remembers

and less angry

Wonho: “hey” :)

You: “Wonder Boy, back to me so soon, miss me that much?”

Wonho: “yeah, I did”

you didn’t expect him to be so straightforward

You: “so, you’re just hanging around town?”

Wonho: “it’s kind of like that”

You: “I heard some hero killed the monstrous lion, I should’ve realized it was you Wonder Boy”

Wonho: “ahhh…”

he flushes once again, rubbing the back of his neck

Wonho: “I—I’m no hero”

You: “sure you are, just remember, you are in a new town, take a break while you can”

You: “I will warn you though, it’s hard to find pretty sights in this dump”

Wonho: “I don’t think it’ll be that hard…. not without a guide at least…”

you look at him with a raised eyebrow

Wonho: “tHAt’S iF yoU wANT…. yoU don’T hAVE TO….”

you let out a laugh as he continues to flush into a darker red

he’s a cute boy, might as well shoot your shot

you wave to your friend as a silent goodbye and slowly start to walk off

without looking behind you, you shout out

You: “you coming, Wonder Boy?”

Wonho snaps out of his daydream that’s right in front of him

Wonho: “yes ma’am”

and thus the start of a beautiful relationship

Disney Prince!Wonho is as wonderful as it sounds

he already adores the life out of you

and he basically worships the ground you walk on

(as if you were the one with Greek god genes)

you, on the other hand, think he’s like a little puppy

a puppy that can kill you with his strength

but a puppy

he loves praise

he needs attention

he loves affection

he’s basically a soft, gigantic puppy

this view kind of changed when you saw him in action

I mean you did see him in action that one time

but his life wasn’t really in danger

and lowkey he looks hot fighting

but like….

when he killed the Stymphalian Birds…

when he captured the cattle of Geryon….

I guess you kind of drew the line when you saw Cerberus on your front lawn

(he’s absolutely more adorable than people said, but it is still a three headed giant dog)

you were just concerned for him and the danger he was putting himself in

and Wonho kind of ate that shit up

but he did console you

he became a lot more careful to consider your feelings

that did mean more official training with Hyunwoo

but anything to make you happy

anyways

most of the time, he stays to help the village

the elderly and kiddos there have grown to love him

I mean what’s not to love but

anyways

sometimes he does have to travel a bit farther for the king or something

but he always brings back some type of souvenir for you

he loves to spoil you

when he went to the Amazon, you got the most gorgeous flowers

another time, he brought some golden apples for you

he says it’s to make up the time away from you

and your heart absolutely melted

his presence makes up for it

he’s great okay

anyways

so you know how Pegasus is like his sidekick?

you two bonded

he’s not sure how but

Wonho loves that you and Pegasus get along

but y’all bonded a bit too much

like you two won’t say anything but it’ll be on your faces when you’re judging him

moving on

you haven’t stopped calling him Wonder Boy

some days he prefers it

others, he prefers it when you call him Seok

so, affection

this man needs it

whenever he’s in the same space as you

he’s like touch

it’s not like you’re gonna reject it

even if you roll your eyes, you always run into his arms

when he gets back from his trips

he doesn’t let you go for days

**cue you two waddling around because he’s backhugging you**

humor—while most of yours is dry

he still laughs and goes with it

he tells jokes unknowingly

like some of the stuff he says is ridiculous

and you just burst out laughing

you two are just very attuned with one another

very harmonious

very cute

Wonho: “when I’m with you, I don’t feel so alone”

You: “good thing you’re stuck with me then”

Wonho: “I wouldn’t have it any other way”

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taexual · 5 years

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Disciplined / Wonho x Reader

The newest addition to Hoseok’s team proves himself to be reckless when he breaks Hoseok’s rule and starts a conversation with you only to discover that you weren’t going to be his damsel in distress.

pairing: mafia au! – lee hoseok x reader

warnings: some mentions of death, strong language, some sexual themes

words: 5.1k

ANON REQUEST: Monsta x Mafia AU! Where Wonho is at a business meeting and leaves his men at home to take care of his girlfriend, but a new(er) recruit hits on her?

He always said it wouldn’t take long and that he’d be back within an hour. That was never true – you were lucky if you’d see Hoseok again the same night after he’d left for a meeting – but you still believed him every time he said goodbye to you by the door. In your defense, Hoseok’s charming smile and the affection in his eyes would have made anyone fall for his words in a heartbeat.

“I’d really rather wait for you alone,” you whispered against his chest as he hugged you goodbye, seemingly unphased by the three men he’d brought into the house before leaving.

“They’re here to look after you,” Hoseok said, clutching you very firmly. He always seemed to squeeze you tighter right before he let you go, so you knew he was going to leave in the next few seconds. “They’ll make sure nothing happens to you while I’m out.”

“Nothing ever happens to me,” you insisted, fighting a useless battle. Changing his mind was about as likely as you getting killed while these men were in your house. “And I’m sure they’d rather be somewhere else anyway.”

“I don’t really care about that, to be honest, sweetheart,” he said, pulling away from you – just like you’d expected – and bringing his hand through your hair. “They work for me and I need them to be here tonight. That’s all.”

“You could really just give me a gun and teach me how to defend myself instead,” you mumbled.

Hoseok smiled and shook his head. You knew his reasons for his constant need to have you protected and you knew every explanation that made sense of his paranoia. He’d watched his father’s peers turn on him and kill his wife – Hoseok was already smart enough to know that leaving a person completely defenseless was bound to bring bad luck but he didn’t do anything to remind his father that his job constantly put his wife in danger – and, although he wasn’t particularly close to the woman, her death had still left a deep scar in his mind.

A scar that, evidently, was not deep enough, because Hoseok made the exact same mistake his father had made, only three years later. He had left his best friend’s house for five minutes to check up on what appeared to be the sound of gunshots coming from the outside, and then, upon returning back into the house, discovered nothing but a bloody room and a dead body of someone whom he once considered to be his own family.

So, yes, you knew Hoseok wasn’t purposefully keeping you locked up – he was only trying to keep you safe in any way he knew how – but you still did not agree with his methods. And how could you? You did not share his experiences. You’ve never watched two people die because of something that could have been avoided so easily. You’ve never blamed yourself for not being there to protect them and, if all attempts to save them failed, not taking the bullet, too.

“The day I see you with a gun,” Hoseok said, his hand on your cheek, “is the day I’m laying on my deathbed, yeah? Let me and my men do the dirty work. You focus on yourself.”

Although life with Hoseok had completely flipped your world upside down, there were a few things that he insisted stayed the same – your hobbies, your job, and your education. You may have seen enough blood to last you a lifetime, but in spite of all of that, Hoseok still tried to keep your life as normal as possible. Not to mention, even though he belonged to the Mafia, Hoseok had a deep hatred for guns – the losses he’d experienced had contributed to that, of course – and refused to allow you to keep one, which, truth be told, made you feel a lot more normal. At least, you wouldn’t have to fire any weapons and your only crime would be falling in love with a notorious criminal.

Hoseok never understood your apprehension about his choice to have his men protect you. He knew you never got to know them simply because Hoseok had forbidden them to talk to you but he wasn’t trying to get you to bond with his Mafia members. He was looking after you – like he should have looked after all those people before – and this was the only way he could show you that he cared. However, as caring as he was, he also had a certain possessiveness in him that attracted you most of the time, but managed to piss you off just as much.

“You’re treating me like a baby,” you told him.

“Yes,” he replied, ignoring the complaining in your voice and pressing a gentle kiss to your forehead. “You’re my baby.”

You tried to groan – the look in his eyes making your heart flutter more than the pet name – and crossed your arms over your chest. “Just be home soon, okay? I’m done with my thesis, I literally have nothing else to do in this house now.”

“I’ll be back as soon as possible,” he promised. “Gotta keep my girl entertained, right?”

And with a quick wink your way, Hoseok was out of the door.

Sighing at his departure, you turned around with the intention of heading to your bedroom upstairs – you already knew better than to try to have a conversation with Henry and Jay who stood by the door; all of your previous attempts have been fruitless – but then you heard someone chuckle.

Stopping suddenly, you looked around. The sound was by no means unusual, but you were surprised to hear one of Hoseok’s men show an actual emotion while you were around.

“He really keeps you locked up in here, doesn’t he?” someone said and you turned your head towards the corner of the kitchen where one of Hoseok’s men had been standing.

You haven’t seen him before and, even though you weren’t exceptional at remembering everyone’s face, you could tell that he had to be one of the newer additions to Hoseok’s army.

“Not really,” you said, intrigued because not a single one of your guards had dared to talk to you before. “I could leave if I wanted to.”

“And we would, of course, have to go with you,” the guy replied, a smile not leaving his lips.

You squinted your eyes, unsure if you should approach him or just carry on with what you’d planned to do – which was nothing – because you knew the guy had strict orders not to talk to you and yet there he was, ignoring them. If you encouraged him, he could very much lose this job – and his life, too.

“Yes,” you ended up saying. Maybe you thought the risk was worth it; talking to someone was so much better than spending your night staring at the ceiling, after all. “But that doesn’t mean I can’t go wherever I want to go. I just happen to have a bunch of obnoxiously quiet men following me around. No offense.”

You’d addressed the two men by the door but they, of course, remained quiet. The only signs that they were alive and weren’t, in fact, some sort of advanced robots, were the warning looks they’d given the member of their team that had addressed you.

“And do you like that?” the guy pressed. He obviously had a lot of courage and you feared he was going to waste it all on this conversation that he wasn’t supposed to be having. “Do you seriously don’t mind this lack of freedom?”

Crossing your arms over your chest in a defensive manner, you leaned against the door, leading into the kitchen. You didn’t dare to enter the room and approach the guy just yet.

“I do mind it sometimes,” you replied honestly. “But I love Hoseok and that’s the price I have to pay if I want to be with him.”

“Is it worth it?”

You didn’t even hesitate. “Yes.”

“Hmm,” the guy smirked. “Sounds like he’s got you whipped.”

You didn’t like the way he made it sound. The way he spoke about your relationship was as if Hoseok owned you and did whatever he wanted with you. As if you never had any right to say anything. And while you knew your life choices were somewhat limited, Hoseok had never made you feel chained. He’s never stripped you off of your ability to make decisions for yourself unless he knew better.

And, actually, there were many things that Hoseok knew better, one of which being the ability to recognize when he was stepping over the line. He backtracked if he realized he was starting to control you in a way that suffocated you. He apologized if he said something demeaning. And he always made sure you were comfortable with the decisions he’s had to make on behalf of you.

Although you’ve tried to fight him every night, not wanting to have his men babysit you, you’ve also allowed Hoseok to convince you that this was the right decision. You knew how much your agreement meant to him. Had you said no and really pressed on the issue, Hoseok would find a different solution – he’d remove his men from your house, but then take you with him to the meeting instead, or do something else that still allowed him to keep an eye on you – but he would never physically lock you up inside of the house against your will. That just wasn’t him.

“I may be whipped for him,” you started to say, “but it’s certainly not because I listen to what he tells me. Contrary to what you might think, I’m actually capable of recognizing real danger. I know what could happen if I was left here alone.”

“Yeah, but what are the chances of something happening?” the guy continued. “I mean, no offense, you’re really beautiful, but stalking people takes time, you know what I mean? I’m sure there’s no one lurking outside of your windows at night, waiting to kill you. And if there is, then Hoseok would know, wouldn’t he? He has a gift of… ah, extraordinary intuition.”

“That’s a nice way to call him paranoid,” you said, watching the guy chuckle. “You really don’t know much about Hoseok’s life, do you? You’re new, right?”

“I am, yeah,” he replied. “I just joined late last year. I’m a quiet guy under normal circumstances – I guess that’s why Hoseok trusted me enough to bring me into his house – but I couldn’t help but say something to you. See, I’ve never really seen the partners of the guys from the Mafia before. I’ve never seen the way they interact with their loved-ones.”

“Well, get used to seeing that, then,” you said. “Since you’re a member now, too.”

“Right,” he nodded. “I don’t think I’m the kind of member that those other guys are.”

You glanced over your shoulder at Henry and Jay, positioned in the hallway, still standing there as stoic as ever. Their serious, unmoving facial expressions could have given the Terracotta warriors the shivers. Actually, you would have thought they had turned into stone as well but you could still notice glimpses of concern on their faces whenever you replied to something their member had said.

“Yes, I don’t think you are, either,” you said, turning back to face the guy in front of you. “We shouldn’t be having a conversation.”

“And yet we are,” he said, smiling as though the consequences of tonight did not matter to him in the slightest.

You frowned. “What’s your name?”

“They call me Yuto here.”

“Okay. Do you have a death wish, Yuto?”

He laughed. “No, not at the moment. Why? Are you saying the penalty for talking to the girlfriends of the men from the Mafia is death?”

“Actually, I don’t know,” you said. “No one was ever brave enough to address one before.”

You’d entered the kitchen – you couldn’t help it, something about this brave stranger interested you despite his obviously negative attitude towards your relationship – and approached the jug of water on the counter next to where Yuto was standing.

He smiled as he watched you pour yourself a glass but did not say anything, waiting for you to continue the conversation instead. You knew you shouldn’t have – you could just imagine how much danger you were putting him in just by being in the same room as him when he was given instructions to pretend as though you didn’t exist unless you were dying – but you still did.

“Do you think it’s possible,” you started to say in between sips, “that Hoseok put you here as a challenge?”

“A challenge?” Yuto asked. “No. Why do you say that?”

You put the empty glass back down on the counter and sat down on the bar stool by the kitchen island, opposite to where he was standing.

“Well, you’re a new recruit,” you said. “These men in the hallway? They’ve been with me since Hoseok and I started to date three years ago. There were a few other guys but I never found out what happened to them – both of them were Hoseok’s long-time friends, too. And now there you are, a brand new addition to his team. The reason why Hoseok brought you into his house can’t be because you’re quiet.”

“No?” Yuto was smiling even wider now. He hadn’t expected you to be so witty and smart but, needless to say, he did not regret starting a conversation with you at all. “So, you’re saying Hoseok is testing me by bringing me around you?”

You shrugged your shoulders. “Why not?”

“Well, what’s the test? Is he going to fake an attack on you to see what I’d do?”

“No, I think it’s simpler than that,” you said. “Maybe he just wanted to see if you’d follow his orders. Obviously, you don’t.”

His glittering eyes let you know that instead of being scared – like any sane human would have been – Yuto was actually excited. For a moment, you weren’t sure if it was Hoseok challenging him, or if it was the other way around.

“That’s right,” Yuto said. “I have a hard time sticking to the rules. Maybe that’s why I joined the Mafia.”

“There’s got to be some sort of order even among criminals,” you pointed out.

“Has there, really?” he questioned and then leaned back when you raised your eyebrows at his question, “you could say I’m a bit of an anarchist.”

“Huh,” you shuffled on the stool, throwing one of your legs over the other one in search of a more comfortable position – and not failing to notice the way his eyes followed your every move. “So, you’re here to show Hoseok he can’t control you, then?”

“I’m not showing Hoseok anything,” Yuto replied, his confidence captivating your attention. “All that I do is a favor to him. He doesn’t own me. I don’t work for him.”

This surprised you. “No?”

“No,” Yuto confirmed. “I work with him.”

You weren’t exactly sure how to respond to that because you had a feeling Hoseok wouldn’t approve of this attitude. There was a strict hierarchy in his team and Hoseok was on top. No one’s ever challenged his authority before – not openly, at least – and if they had, well, then there had to be a reason why you’ve never heard of them.

“Perhaps you should keep quiet about it,” you suggested, starting to feel uncomfortable. Although you could agree with Yuto’s point of view, you didn’t think now was the right time to challenge the system that had existed in the Mafia for decades. “Or better yet, find a different occupation. You’re young. You don’t have to be in the Mafia.”

If you had to choose one reason to explain how the Mafia managed to achieve so much – Hoseok had ties everywhere, it was impossible for anyone in an important government position to do anything without him finding out – then you’d say it was because of the authority of a leading figure. There would never be a successful underground criminal syndicate if someone didn’t lead it.

Chaos was easy to kill – the police would catch one member and he’d spill the truth about the rest in an instant – while order was not.

“You’re young, too,” Yuto countered. “You don’t have to spend the rest of your life hiding in Hoseok’s shadow because he’s afraid to show you to the world. You don’t have to live in a cage like you’re his own personal little bird.”

“That’s not at all what life with Hoseok is like,” you replied, feeling the way your muscles tensed up after his words. “I already told you, I could leave if I wanted to.”

“Could you, really?” he scrunched his nose in doubt. “How many ex-girlfriends of the Mafia members do you know? Frankly, I don’t think that category exists. Not in this world, at least.”

You squinted your eyes at him.

“So, let me see,” you said. “You’re saying I don’t have to live with Hoseok because he’s keeping me locked up. But you’re also saying I’ll die if I leave this so-called cage. Sounds to me like you’re painting my life in very pathetic colors.”

“Not at all.”

“Really? Then the only to outcomes of my life, according to you, aren’t to either submit to Hoseok completely, or to die?”

“No,” he said.

“What else is there?” you questioned.

“You could run away.”

“Run a—wow,” you laughed at the absurdity. “I thought you were brave but now I just think you’re not smart enough to realize what you’ve gotten yourself into here. Even if I didn’t love Hoseok with all of my heart, do you really consider me stupid enough to try to run away from him?”

“Maybe you couldn’t do it on your own,” Yuto said, shrugging his shoulders, “but if you had the right people helping you—”

“Whoa, alright, let’s stop this conversation right here,” you said, standing up from the stool. “I don’t want to hear you say that you’re the Knight in Shining Armor that’s come to get me out of a castle guarded by a dragon, yeah? Because, like I’ve already told you, at least, three times, I’m in love with Hoseok. I don’t want to leave and if I did want to, I certainly wouldn’t need an action movie worthy plan to escape.”

Yuto looked like he heard you – a smile was his response to your words – but he was not convinced. Although he could see where you were coming from – even if he’s never been in love – he was still certain that your relationship with Hoseok wasn’t something that you deserved. And even if it wasn’t Yuto’s original plan to play an almighty hero in the story of your life – he wasn’t lying when he said he’s never met a girlfriend of a Mafia member before – he still thought you needed help.

“Okay,” he said, not pushing his opinion because he knew your defenses were too high up now. “Sorry if I crossed the line.”

You nodded, turning away. “Okay. Let’s just—let’s pretend like we never talked, alright? That’ll save us both some energy. I’ll head to my—”

“You don’t want Hoseok to know you talked to me?” Yuto asked, cutting you off.

“No,” you replied. “I don’t want him to know you talked to me. I’m allowed to do whatever I want – it’s you who’s not allowed to reply to me. If anyone’s the little bird, trapped in a cage, in this situation, it’s you, Yuto.”

He was still smiling but you could see the way he’d clenched his jaw. Perhaps you’ve gotten to him now. You’d have said something else but you decided not to waste your time. Yuto had thought it was Hoseok who was treating you like his property but, really, Hoseok was the one who saw you as a human being, while Yuto only looked at you as a girl who needed saving.

“I’m going to go,” you said after he didn’t reply to you, but right as you headed out of the kitchen and towards the staircase, Yuto grabbed your hand.

“Wait,” he’d stopped you, pushing a piece of paper into your palm as he held onto your wrist. “Keep this in case you change your mind and realize that you can always start a new life.”

Almost angered at his bold move – and his audacity to still talk to you about the same thing even though you’ve told him you’d never even consider leaving Hoseok – you stopped and were about to toss the note he’d given you into the trash, but then the door of the house opened, distracting you.

“They fucking canceled on me,” Hoseok was saying as he threw the door open. He had his phone by his ear and did not notice your surprised eyes, watching him from the kitchen. “I got into my car, drove to their quarters, even fucking texted them three times to check, and they—”

He stopped once his eyes finally landed on you. Although, it wasn’t really you he was looking at – his gaze was too focused on Yuto’s hand still firmly on your wrist.

Barely a second passed after Hoseok clocked the close proximity of you and his newest recruit, and he’d already hung up his phone and took one quick step towards the kitchen until he was standing right in front of you.

“Was there an accident?” he demanded in a cold, serious voice. “Did something happen?”

“Hoseok—”

“Hold on for a moment, sweetheart,” he cut you off, his eyes on Yuto. “I’m trying to find out what reason could explain his hands on you. I’m only assuming he was trying to stop you from leaving which, of course, means that he’d been talking to you and then refused to allow you to end the conversation by leaving the room.”

“I wasn’t—” Yuto started to say but chose to let go of you before he continued, “I wasn’t refusing anything. I had some things I wanted to say to her.”

“Were those things a warning, perhaps?” Hoseok questioned. You had a feeling that the flames in his eyes weren’t caused by Yuto’s hand on yours but rather by your obviously uncomfortable and even angry expression that he’d seen as soon as he entered the house. “Were you trying to tell her not to leave the room because there was a bomb in the house? Were you warning her about a sniper that’s been aiming at her from outside?”

If Yuto was scared or worried, he didn’t show it. “No.”

“Well then why, for the sake of all hell, did you think it was a good idea to manhandle my girlfriend after you’ve been specifically told not to say a single word to her?”

“I don’t think you’re treating her fairly by locking her up here and not allowing her to talk to anyone,” was Yuto’s overly confident response.

It made Hoseok sneer. “Oh, she can talk to anyone she wants. She has more friends than I could count, but this isn’t about her. Your job here was to stay put and make sure nothing happened to her. That’s it.”

“Hoseok, it’s fine,” you said, feeling the need to interrupt – and potentially save Yuto’s life – despite not agreeing with the young boy’s point of view. “I was the one who started the conversation.”

Your boyfriend turned to look at you with the same warm smile he’d used on you before he left, a huge contrast to the way he’d looked at Yuto before.

“None of us deserve you and your heart, my love,” Hoseok said. “But I know you’re lying. I’ve had you protected since the day we met and not once did you dare to start a conversation with my men. Especially not after you found out they weren’t allowed to talk to you.”

You lowered your head, looking away. Hoseok didn’t blame you for trying to take the heat off of Yuto – perhaps, a part of him knew that you didn’t object against Yuto talking to you because it was nice to finally talk to someone that was staying in your house – but he thought your attempt was quite useless. He’s already decided what he was going to do. In fact, he’s had this decision ready even before he left the house.

“Let’s go,” Hoseok said, turning his head to give the other two men in the hallway a nod. “You’ll take him back, yeah? I’ll join in a few hours.”

“Of course,” one of the men said, entering the kitchen and, surprisingly, giving Yuto a chance to cooperate. “Come on, we’re heading out.”

“What are you going to do?” you dared to ask as you watched Hoseok’s newest recruit walk himself out without even a glance your way – thank God for that. “Will you kill him?”

Hoseok may have hated guns but he was no stranger to violence. He had chosen to keep the majority of what he did under wraps but he wasn’t deliberately hiding his work from you. He protected you from the worst of it, but you still caught glimpses over the years.

“Not yet,” was his response to your question as his men escorted Yuto out of your house – although, really, it looked like the three of them left together amicably and if it weren’t for the sudden yelp of pain you heard as soon as the door of your house closed, you would have thought this was going to blow over peacefully. “I’m a firm believer in second-chances. He did do his job, at the end of the day. He just didn’t listen to the orders that were given to him. We’ll teach him how to listen.”

You bit your lip, almost afraid to imagine his methods of teaching, and Hoseok – after noticing your awkward expression – wrapped an arm around your shoulders.

“Please tell me this won’t traumatize you and scare you off from my men,” he said. “We still have to attend that dinner next week.”

“Dinners are fine, I get to talk to the other girls during dinners,” you replied, sighing. “But it’s not me you’re scaring off from your men. It’s the other way around. They’re afraid to even look at me.”

“Good,” Hoseok said, smiling teasingly as he did not see what the problem was. “Do you really need other men looking at you? Am I not enough?”

His playful tone made you raise your eyebrows in surprise. You’d heard him swear when he returned home and you’ve seen the lightning in his eyes when he talked to Yuto, so, obviously, you weren’t expecting him to tease you about this in such a relaxed way.

“No, you’re enough,” you replied. “But you’re away a lot and—”

“Oh, so you need someone for when I’m away?”

“No. I only need you,” you said. “I always need only you.”

“Yeah?” Hoseok’s hand slid from your shoulders to your waist as he brought your body closer to his, a smirk still decorating his features. “Can you prove that to me, baby?”

“Hmm,” you replied to the teasing grin on his face with one on your own as his playful mood brushed off on you. “How do you want me to prove it? Would my words work?”

“They would,” he said, his eyes burning into yours with the utmost love and adoration. “But I’m sure you’ve already shown your love for me with your words when that useless son of a bitch bothered you, haven’t you?”

“I…” you pulled away from him a little. “Were you—?”

“—listening?” he guessed and then shook his head. “No. I’m not paranoid enough to listen to what’s going on here when I’m away. But I had a feeling Yuto would say something to you. He was far too quiet in every meeting that I’ve seen him in. The quiet ones are always the ones plotting something.”

“Why’d you bring him here, then?” you asked, suddenly confused, “if you knew he was going to—oh,” it hit you in the middle of a sentence. Your speculations about Hoseok’s true intentions were somewhat correct, after all. “You were trying to get him to disobey, weren’t you? You knew he was going to stand up to you and you were waiting for exactly that.”

“Maybe,” Hoseok replied, his eyes falling to your lips. “I also wanted him to meet my girlfriend and realize that she could kick his ass just as well as I could if he tried anything with her.”

“So, was it all for laughs?”

“Most of it,” he admitted. “I knew Henry and Jay were more than enough to protect you and I needed a way to teach Yuto a lesson. I couldn’t exactly teach him some discipline just because I was suspicious he was going to rebel, could I? I had to wait until he actually did something that went against my orders.”

“So… was there even a meeting tonight?” you asked, unsure if you were impressed or angry at him for playing you while he tricked Yuto. “Or did you just—”

“Oh, who cares now?” he cut you off, his impatience finally resurfacing as he got tired of you asking him questions you already knew all the answers to, when he could have been watching you undress for him. “I’m back now. I’m all yours for the next few hours before I have to go back and actually deal with this. We’ll talk about this then, yeah?”

“You mean we’re postponing the conversation?”

“Mmhmm,” he hummed, leaning in closer until his lips were hovering over your neck. “Unless you’d rather hear me explain how I schemed to get this poor disobedient young man beaten up, instead of letting me kiss you everywhere you want.”

“I would—you’re beating him up?!” you asked, almost dizzy from his close proximity and the feeling of his breath washing off on your neck. You still tried desperately to keep your mind working.

“No, I’m not going to touch him personally,” Hoseok replied, finally pressing his lips to the sensitive skin right below your ear. “I’ll just ask him some questions, talk to him a bit… nothing big.”

“Oh,” you exhaled, barely acknowledging what he’d said, too focused on the feeling of his lips moving down your neck. “You’re very distracting, do you know that?”

“I hope I am,” he pulled away from you – the coldness of the room immediately hitting the wet trail his kisses had left on your neck – and leaned his forehead against yours instead as he watched you try to catch your breath. “Because, if I’m not mistaken, I believe you were going to prove something to me, hmm?”

“I can’t seem to remember.”

He chuckled, the feeling of his chest vibrating against yours sending sparks of electricity all throughout your body.

“I believe you’ve told me you only needed me,” he said, his voice suddenly much lower. “So, let me refresh your memory, baby, so you’d forget all about the other men. And then you can prove to me how much you love me.”

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임창균, Im Changkyun

lostmyshame asked:

Your Changkyun scenarios are so freaking cute! This boy is wrecking my life currently. May I request another one about him where he and the reader have been friends for few years and both were attracted to each other but too scared to ruin their friendship? And then on one rainy day their emotions take over? The literal physical need for each other, the desire to possess and belong, the fear of losing the most precious, all no longer concealable. Thank you ٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶

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(A/N): Read with this album by Paper Planet

“Stop it,” she whispered into the dimly lit room, breaking a heavy silence that had taken over the usually very comfortable space of her living room. Her autumn-breeze breath fanned across hot cheeks, luckily hidden by the shadows cast by the rain drops dribbling down the windowpane.

The skin that was so frightfully close to her own belonged to her friend—Im Changkyun. He hovered over her, a blurred silhouette before her eyes. He had two choices, as far as she saw it.

Stay where he was and move no further, or back away before he did something he’d regret.

They were friends, and that’s where their string of fate ended.

At least, that’s what they would like it say. They would love it, of course, but simplicity is a luxury. One that their friendship was not blessed with. Their strings of fate were complicated and twisted, a baffling cipher of questions.

There were lines in a healthy friendship; ones that weren’t generally crossed. They thought they’d done a good enough job of that. Those lines were tempting and beguiling. They’d come to the very brink of them, but they’d never crossed them before.

There was the time their fingers brushed while walking, but instead of pulling away, they let it just keep happening. There were gazes that lingered for longer than they should have, hugs that lasted a second too long and moments where they would deny vehemently that they had any interest towards each other yet they would still be jealous if someone else got too close.

Despite how close they’d gotten before, they’d never stepped over that invisible barrier. But here he was... Two and a half steps closer to the personal bubble than was considered ‘friendly’.

He scanned her face, his eyes boring into her own. “What if I don’t want to stop?” he asked, voice equally as quiet. The whole scenario felt somewhat intimate. “What if I want to go farther? Reckless abandon, and all that crap.”

She couldn’t find it within herself to answer—not yet, at least. Her mouth was dry and the room was spinning and it was hard for her to remember how they had gotten into this position in the first place.

She remembered the day they first met like it was yesterday, yet she couldn’t remember the events of a few hours ago, leading up to this moment. Maybe because it was so sudden, the way he’d pinned her to the couch.

Though, the way they’d first met was pretty sudden, too—quite literally bumping into each other at the super market. She supposed it suited their relationship well. Random, unpredictable, always running forward at a dizzying pace.

It was never boring, she could say that much.

Though, the days where thing were ‘boring’ between them happened to be her favorite days. Him working in the studio late at night, her crashing on the couch for no other reason than to keep him company and give her opinion on newer tracks, empty energy-drink cans and bowls of ramen scattered around haphazardly.

Those were the best.

A day—somewhat like that scene—was the reason for the current situation.

Maybe it was the way that she had sounded just a little bit off in her texts, or maybe it was the lack of emotion when he called her to ask about her day, but for whatever reason, Changkyun was on his way to her flat, rain splattering furiously onto his clear umbrella.

He had a plastic bag filled to the brim with her favorite snacks, a couple movies she’d been dying to see and a new mug to replace the one he’d broken two weeks ago.

It was the least he could do.

He folded the umbrella, leaning it against the wall next to her door. With a rhythmic rap of his knuckles, one tailor-made just for the two of them, she came to the door, not even bothering to ask who it was.

She already knew.

She looked exhausted—bags under her eyes and clothes disheveled more than usual. She gave a small, tired smile. “Hey, Kyun,” she said. “How are you?”

His first instinct was the drop the bag and rush to her; give her the biggest, tightest hug. But that would be weird, wouldn’t it? There were boundaries to be respected, even in a close friendship.

“Better than you, it seems,” he said with a huff, blowing his too-long bangs away from his face. He scanned her face, concern knitting his eyebrows together. “Are you okay?” he asked.

She shrugged, still smiling. “Not really,” she said, knowing fully well that she wouldn’t be able to hide it from him. “But it’s fine,” she continued. “I’m alive, and that’s what counts.”

“Did something happen?” he asked. She stepped aside, gesturing for him to come into the medium-sized apartment. “You look like crap.”

She snorted. “Thanks, dude,” she said. She closed the door behind them. “Nah, nothing in particular,” she answered. “Today’s just a melancholy day. It happens sometimes.”

Changkyun nodded understandingly, dumping the contents of his plastic bag onto the couch—save for the mug, which he pulled out before hand. He didn’t need to have her nagging him about another one.

“I get it,” he said calmly. He held out the mug, shaped like a cute sloth that said ‘Soon-ish’ on it, as she was a master-procrastinator. He’d always teased her for that. Whether it be a work assignment or something for college, she always waited until the last second to get it done. “Hopefully all of this stuff’ll help.”

Her eyes lit up a little, a familiar light glittering in them. “You got a new one!” she gasped, snatching it from his hands. “And it’s even cuter than my old one!”

He shrugged and sniffed proudly. “What can I say? I have good taste.”

She rolled her eyes. “Screw you,” she said.

“Hey! I brought snacks and movies!” he defended himself, crossing his arms. “By the laws of friendship, you can’t say ‘screw you’ to me if I do something nice for you!”

She scoffed. “And what rule is that, your majesty?” she asked incredulously.

“The one I made up just now, stupid,” he chuckled, flicking her forehead lightly.

She smacked his hand away, laughing a little. “Quit it!” she said. She hugged the sloth mug protectively to her chest. “You’re not breaking another one.”

Changkyun rolled his eyes. “You know that was an accident!” he groaned. He wasn’t really irritated. In fact, he felt a warm fuzziness creeping into his chest seeing her chuckle at his saltiness. He felt that way towards her whenever he saw her in this light—the one where he was the one making her smile and laugh.

It felt good and right. Just...

Lovely.

That was a word that often sprung to his mind when he thought of her. But the word that would come straight after was always ‘friend’, so that would always snap him out of his thoughts and remind him to watch himself.

Remind himself not to lose control.

He shook his head a little, trying to clear his thoughts. “Do you wanna watch a movie and drink hot chocolate with me, or not?” he asked.

She tilted her head like she was taking it into serious consideration. “Did you bring—?” she started.

“Cinnamon to go on top?” Changkyun interrupted. “Yes. Yes, I did, you weirdo.”

She stomped her foot playfully. “It’s not weird, it’s tasty!” she defended herself. “You’d understand if you bothered to try it.”

He snatched the mug from her, taking it into the kitchen. Sure, the feeling of their fingers briefly touching made his heart jump, but he could ignore it. “Yeah, yeah, yeah,” he said. “Just go set up the movie; I’ll make the cocoa.”

That was how it should be.

Because they were friends.

She hoped that there wasn’t too much relief in her eyes when he showed up at her door. That’d be too obvious.

Honestly though, he was just what she needed on a sad-for-no-reason day, because he was her makes-me-happy-for-no-reason person.

Everything from his dumb tracksuit with the bracelet on top of the sleeves, the messy hair that was flopping into his eyes and the resting bitch-face.

Already, her heart felt a little, but she was just praying that he didn’t read into that too deeply.

It didn’t help that he brought snacks and gifts. How dare he be this way? Knowing her so well, and whatnot. It was infuriating how easy he made it to love him.

Her eyes kept wandering to his mess of hair, feeling the overwhelming need to run her fingers through it, but alas, she didn’t, 'cause that’d be weird.

When she greeted him with a quick hug, she couldn’t stop herself from caressing the hairs at the back of his neck, hoping that it wasn’t too noticeable.

She barely took in everything he was saying, and she was beyond grateful when he changed the subject, making it easier for her to calm down and get sucked into the film. If she payed attention hard enough, maybe Chagkyun’s presence wouldn’t affect her so badly.

Maybe she could feel the comfort, minus the stifling nervousness.

‘Stop staring at her,’ Changkyun kept telling himself.

They were watching a horror movie together—one she’d been begging to see since it came out—and her eyes were fixed intently on the screen. The jumps scares didn’t freak her out, she just nodded along like, “Oh, I see. So that’s how it fits into the plot”, all the while, shoveling popcorn into her mouth.

All-in-all, not the most attractive scene, but still. His heart said, ‘Well gosh, that’s endearing’, and it was kind of pissing him off.

She gasped for the first time since the movie started, but it wasn’t because she was scared. It was because an ‘illuminating’ plot-point had just been revealed that the main character’s sister was actually his wife that’d been dead for twenty years, and she’d just been turned into a vampire and aging backwards, and—...it was a really dumb movie.

But the point was, she was enjoying it on a bad day, so that was all that mattered. He’d come to terms in his mind that he probably had a crush on her, but his pride (and fear) stopped him from making a definitive move.

He remembered watching a movie some time ago, before he’d met her. One of the quotes from it was: “A man can’t be just friends with a beautiful woman”. He remembered scoffing at that line, just because he thought it was ridiculous.

At first, he wondered why it was limited to ‘a beautiful woman’, but after meeting her and gradually liking her more and more, it dawned on him.

‘A beautiful woman’ doesn’t apply to what society thinks at all. It applies to you and your own thoughts, because the person you love automatically looks beautiful.

He’d found that out the hard way when they’d gotten off a rollercoaster together and she looked slightly dazed, majorly blissed-out, and her hair was tousled and tangled.

He’d spent about 30 minutes finger-brushing the tangles out, and to anyone that asked, he’d tell them that it was the most irritating, meticulous thing he’s ever had to do, but what was on the inside?

That truth was a different story.

On the inside, that was the exact pin-pointed moment that he fell for her. Most people couldn’t tell you when they fell in love, but he definitely could. At least, when he realized it.

It was that third Sunday in June when they were standing under that tree in the amusement park to avoid the sun while he untangled her hair with his skilled fingers. Despite the effort to avoid the rays, some still managed to stream in through the leaves, and it highlighted her in the most beautiful way.

Her eyes looked more glittery than usual, her tangled hair had a shine to it and he could individually count each of her eyelashes.

When he realized he couldn’t breathe in that moment, he admitted to himself that he probably had a crush on her, despite how much he’d like to prove that dumb movie wrong.

“Kyun,” he heard, drawing him out of his thoughts. “Kyun!” She smacked his shoulder. “Did you see that ending?” she asked, eyes wide with surprise. “That was such a twist! I didn’t expect it at all!”

He chuckled and shook his head, rubbing his shoulder. She had a bit of trouble controlling the strength of her hits. “What’s with you and loving low-quality films?” he asked.

She shrugged. “I don’t know,” she said honestly. “Maybe my palate isn’t refined enough, or maybe I don’t need things to be perfect to enjoy them.” She smiled. “There can be a lot of plot flaws, and the acting may not be the best, but the point is, it was made for entertainment. And it entertains me,” she finished, plopping a piece of popcorn into her mouth.

He felt his heart pounding again, just because she was talking about something she liked. How annoying and stupid.

“Can you stop that?” he asked quietly.

She furrowed her brows. “Stop what?”

“Stop looking so kissable,” he said.

Her eyes widened, and he could’ve sworn he saw her cheeks light up, too. “What’re you talking about?” she stuttered out.

He moved a little closer, she moved a little farther. Finally, he grabbed her wrists, keeping her in place. “Do you like me?” he asked seriously, gathering all the courage that he was pretty sure he didn’t actually have.

He probably bluffed himself into bravery.

She choked. “What—?”

He wasn’t quite sure how they ended up with him on top of her, pinning her down to the couch and pressing kisses to the corner of her lips while the rain pattered against the window, but he couldn’t really complain.

If anything, the bundle of nervous energy in his stomach pushed him forward. He tried to read her expression. It looked like there were a million thought going on, running a mile a minute.

He leaned down farther, just to get a better look into her eyes.

“Stop it,” she whispered into the dimly lit room, breaking a heavy silence that had taken over the usually very comfortable space of her living room.

Ah.

So, that’s how they got there.

“I’ll ask you again,” Changkyun said, interrupting her thoughts. His eyes looked almost desperate, in a way. Desperate for an answer, or something of the sort. “What happens if I don’t wanna stop here?”

She swallowed the lump in her throat, taking a deep breath through her nose. “Then I would say you should be more considerate,” she said firmly. “Think about how I feel in this situation.”

“Turned on?” he offered.

She smacked his side, making him flinch. “Don’t treat this like a joke!” she chided. “Can you be serious for one second?”

“I am being serious!” he assured her, his grip tightening around her wrists. “Am I not sounding sincere enough for you? Do I have to be more forward—more clear? Well, guess what!” he said. He stared her dead in the eyes. “I know,” he spoke cryptically.

She glared at him. “What the hell are you talking about?”

“I know you like me like I like you,” he said simply. He wasn’t cocky about it. More matter-of-fact than anything else.

She rolled her eyes, scoffing a little. “Don’t be an idiot—” she started.

“Why haven’t you pulled away yet?” Changkyun cut in. She froze, no words leaving her half-open mouth. “I know better than anyone else; you hate being physically suffocated, so clearly... You don’t feel suffocated by me.”

She swallowed thickly. “What’re you getting at?” she asked, trying to steadily meet his burning and heavy gaze.

He tilted his head a little, almost like a shrug. “Maybe I help you breathe easier,” he said. “Maybe you trust me to be this close to you. Closer than anyone else ever has.”

She frowned, looking off to the side. “You’re my friend,” she said. “One of my best friends—if not the best. I should hope I feel comfortable around you.”

He huffed out a breath, the mint flavor on his tongue fanning out over her face. “Do you have something going on mentally, or do I just have to say it first for you to accept it?” he asked.

She furrowed her brows. “What’re you talking about—?”

“I love you,” he interrupted, his eyes swimming with emotion and desperate. “I love you so much.”

Her breath caught in her throat. Changkyun wasn’t one for cheesiness like this. In fact, he tended to avoid it at all costs.

It felt strange.

Different.

Not unwanted.

“You are...” It looked like he was struggling to find the right words, which was odd for such a talented lyricist. He sighed. “My best friend, for one,” he said. With a small internal struggle, he met her eyes. “But you’re also a hell of a lot more than that. You’re one of the most unique things I’ve ever felt in my life. You’re like a goddamn emotional rollercoaster.”

He chuckled. “I don’t know when I started feeling this way for you. It was just all of a sudden,” he explained in a quiet voice. “Maybe it was ‘cause we kept touching hands on the subway—just on accident. Maybe it was ‘cause you started giving me goosebumps when you laughed because of something I said. Maybe it was ‘cause I gave you that piggyback-ride when you sprained your ankle and you whispered ‘thanks’ in my ear.”

His brows furrowed quizzically. “Or maybe it was ‘cause you’re the only person I’ve ever known that’s gotten me to fully enjoy a Disney movie. At any rate, it’s an impressive feat.”

His grip on her wrists loosened up. “You piss me off more than anyone I know and I wanna strangle you 75% of the time, but at the same time, I know that I could never stay angry at you for too long.” Gently, he slipped a hand behind her back, pulling her up into a sitting position with him.

It confused her how soft he was suddenly being, moving a socially acceptable distance away from her and letting her have some breathing room. He kept his hands to himself, folding them politely in his lap and sitting with his back straight. It was like he was meeting her parents, which was a strange thought in the first place.

“I feel like you can heal me when I’m the most screwed up I've ever been, and I know for a fact that you’ve got my back through thick and thin. You are my intense wave of happiness everyday, and sometimes, I’m a real jerk to you, just because you make me nervous. Despite how much I freak out ‘cause of you, you also calm me down better than anyone else,” he said with a deep breath.

He played with his fingers before folding his hands neatly again. “I wanna be there for you, too,” he said, swallowing a visible lump in his throat. Despite how obviously wrecked he was inside, he never broke eye-contact. “But I’m really scared to do that without letting you know how I feel right now, ‘cause I feel like I’ll seriously mess up one day if I keep it to myself. Like I’ll push myself on you when you don’t want me.”

She pulled her knees to her chest slowly, eyebrows furrowed in hesitant concentration. “And why is that?” she asked, the first words out of her mouth in quite some time. Her voice sounded almost hoarse.

His tongue darted out to wet his chapped lips. “Because I think you’re beautiful,” he said, making her heart skip a beat or two. “And incredibly sexy,” he added with a shrug. “That’s not very... Best-friendsy, now is it?”

She let out a small laugh, even though her head was spinning. As expected of Changkyun. Only he could make her laugh in a situation like this.

So many thoughts ran through her mind. Half of it was wondering why he was suddenly so open and emotional, but the other half was questioning her own emotions. Her pride.

There was a certain level of not wanting to give in—not wanting to break the promise she’d made to herself when she’d first realized her feelings for him. She had assured herself vehemently, “There are other people out there. It isn’t just Changkyun. You shouldn’t be so captured by him”.

Yet even after all that convincing, he was still the only one she could see.

The whole world passed her by in a fit of shifting glory every single day, but it still paled in comparison to him. In a way, the idea of getting lost without a compass to guide her was less scary than getting a step closer to him.

They say: “The higher you are, the farther you have to fall”. The feeling of knowing that Changkyun felt the same about her put her on top of the world, and isn’t that about as high as one could go?

With that thought in mind, it was terrifying to imagine, “What if it doesn’t last?” They say that about first loves—that they never last. They’re enjoyable, nerve-wrecking, a learning experience, and they teach a heart how to feel.

Really feel, that is.

But what if one day, that feeling faded, and they were left with nothing but a wilting memory of each other? Would she be able to stand that?

She searched his eyes, raking over the dark orbs that she’d become so familiar with. She could read those eyes. She could tell when he was being sincere, and this was definitely one of those times.

So what if it hurt a little bit in the end?

They would be each other’s hurt. Maybe she could set aside her pride for his love—for his pain. Nothing is set in stone, happiness and sadness alike.

“No, I guess it’s not,” she said, clearing her throat. “I guess we’re not best friends anymore.”

Fear lit in his gaze, like a question of what he said wrong.

“We’ll just have to date, then,” she said, scooting forward a little, just enough so that their knees lightly touched. “‘Cause for whatever reason, I’m not willing to let your ass out of my sight.”

Let us pray for non-crappiness. 🙏

Thank you so much for requesting this, @lostmyshame! I had an absolute blast writing it, and I hope that you enjoyed reading it. I honestly haven’t been writing very much recently, ‘cause life has been busy, so I’m trying to get back into the groove of things. I hope this wasn’t too disappointing, considering it was kind of my ‘practice round’.

Stop by anytime—it was a pleasure having ya!

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D-8 SVT 5TH ANNIVERSARY: FAVORITE GOING SEVENTEEN EPISODE - MT SVT REALITY, GOSE 2019 EP 3-4 & 7, DEBATE NIGHT, SVT PLAYGROUND, DON'T LIE, BOO SEUNGKWAN'S PAST LIFE DESTINY, INSOMNIA ZERO (#2), AND MORE

Season 1 began in 2017 (another reason 2017 is ironically Seventeen's year) and SVT content was changed forever.

It began as more of a behind the scenes with everything from Don't Wanna Cry, Diamond Edge, Clap promo, and all the fansigns inbetween. This season just made me really sad I wasn't a carat sooner but it was a cool vlog for the boys and they were so excited to be filmed, precious bubs. I don't really have a favorite episode but here are some iconic/favorite moments

"Goiiiiing.. SEVENTEEN!" "goinggoing~~~"

Covering the camera with Hoshi's hand

"What if I die?!" "Then you die!"

SVT Energy Skincare™

Jun leaving people "frozen"

Angry MC Santa Wonwoo

Asking for the unicorn frap at Starbucks and having the order total turn out to be $17 thus triggering the members

Minghao flexing on everyone's life (again) on the trampoline

Hoshi being depressed about not getting bday wishes

Dino's "fanboys"

"Americano, aMEricano, ameRIcano, ameriCANo, americanO"

Make It Shine blooper

The dog from the concert poster photoshoot

Dabhao was thriving

My I behind the scenes 🥰

Any Junhao moment bc I'm whipped

Little 8 practicing his singing 🥺

Trauma (Seungkwan remix)

Spin-Off started introducing us more to GoSe in a variety format

We got variety-esque episodes like with the members cooking, writing letters to themselves, making flower crowns, drawing, and the arcade episode! But it was still mostly vlog-esque where we got to see behind the scenes of Thanks, Ideal Cut Concerts, Japan Arena Tour, 3rd Anniversary, their exhibit, Oh My/YMMD, and BSS promo. Again making me emo I wasn't a carat earlier missing all these iconic moments 🥺

My favorite episode is easily MT SVT REALITY and Hoshi yelling out the window still might be one of the most iconic moments ever, PERIOD. My other fave moments include

DK and Jeonghan fake laughing for like 5 mins straight

Minghao's mullet, period.

Driver Minghao for TTT

Jun abandoning DK to help Wonwoo with his apron instead

The birth of the legendary "T H E to the 8" rap (feat. the return of imma)

Producer Woozi

Episode 20 (yes I have that memorized) when Minghao hosts a cute little hotel date 🥺 he tells fans not to think of him romantically and then pulls this shit pretending to feed us and everything which is why I'm sad lol

Minghao's giggle when he did the bottle flip 🥺

Vernon full on losing it during an arcade game while Hao who's playing with him is dead silent

V8 vs. older bros

"you're over, Yoon Jeonghan"

Junnie winning at the fighting game uwu

The iconic Thinkin About You looks

That pose Jeonghan does that screams "your crush is coming, act natural"

Mingyu getting too excited and spitting on the cake so the members cover it but Mingyu thinks they're doing a team cheer

Hoshi screaming "2 captains!" repeatedly while Woozi regrets his life's decisions

Killing the8 in mafia just for returning from China

GoSe 2019 was the birth of the true variety show. They even made a theme song and everything 🤣😭 SVT are such natural entertainers ohmygod (and the editors really stepped up their game thank u staffs)

There was still some behind the scenes like the 4th Anniversary, Japan concerts, and Minghao instructing for Chinese Ver. of home, but they kind of started transitioning behind the scenes content to a different spot on the channel and honestly carats are so well fed with content #blessed. ALSO THIS WAS AROUND THE TIME I BECAME A FAN IM EMO

My absolute fave eps are the ones when they were brainstorming their own ideas for the show (3-4), the making of the intro/theme (7), debate night, and SVT playground but honestly the whole fucking season has so many iconic moments

Vernon not being able to read red marker bc of his red glasses

Jun's 1+1

Honestly it's so entertaining hearing them talk about their ideas even without them implementing them yet, they're seriously so creative

They do skits/roles so well like Jun pretending he's from the Chinese restaurant next door and Woozi being CEO of Going Entertainment dndkdk I cannot make this shit up

"Jeonghan act tired" Jeonghan: *fully falls to the floor and drags his body to the couch djdkdkdkkdld he's so fucking dramatic I'm still dying at this

Wonhao running around dead S.Coups

Minghao doing the going dance down the stairs (flexing again)

Pabo latte

Enthusiastic Minghao in Japan 🥺

The MBTI hidden camera

Diva Boo being pissed he didn't get Beyonce's MBTI but someone else did

Monsta X saving them at karaoke

Pigeon DK thriving during debate night

Geppetto Minghao looking fine af during debate night "I said so many nonsenses, I hope you liked it"

TTT fun - meerkat line rise, Jeonghan and Hoshi catching bugs but screaming the whole time, network love unit playing except Hao and he just gives them a cute "fighting!" Like they're his kids but he's just trying to relax lol, more mafia, Jun being hilarious during try not to laugh, S.Coups wanting to kill the staff (as usual), THE MEMBERS PLAYING WITH KITTENS

Froghao was thriving during svt playground

Bothering Woozi during secret santa

Hao's face when Jeonghan took the iPad

Dino literally got gifted a brick??

Junnie's light up grills

GoSe 2020 continues the variety so well and each member gets a month! So sad they shortened the theme but they gave us subs! Also the previews for next episode are great! They also stepped up the editing too. They are all working so hard for this and it really pays off

My favorite episodes so far are Don't Lie, Seungkwan's Past Life Destiny, and Insomnia Zero (especially part 2). I'm so damn hyped for Debate Night 2. Again so blessed for this content 😭🙌

It's harder to list moments when the entire episodes are iconic!!

DK failing at his own mystery food game

Minghao literally lucky number 8

The saga of Minghao being amazed at Mingyu's eating continues

Hoshi singlehandedly admitting he's mafia then getting Mingyu killed instead then openly killing the citizens at night without needing to hide and then winning the game ohmygod I cannot at how fucking wild and hilarious this episode was

Sleepy Jun during Seungkwan's Past Life Destiny

Junhao, evil twins, seoksoon, mingyuzi rise

Dino rejecting Mingyu with a moonwalk

The overall betrayal of couples omg

SA DALLA

Jun showing the Made in China tag djdkkd

Limbo was fucking wild

The members are all whipped for Woozi that shit made me soft as hell

Talking shit when other members are trying to sleep

Woozi loves dad jokes so much omg

They are so damn dramatic for the ASMR in Insomnia Zero pt 2 omg

TASTY

Jeonghan purposely not answering Hoshi's call to come back

Hoshi giggling that Woozi lost and Woozi fully having a crisis

Wonwoo identity crisis as one of the chill members

Brain Survival and Escape Room made my brain hurt but they're so smart

Minghao jump scare poor bb

Kicked out members becoming audience reactors

DK and Jeonghan fucking around with the props instead of helping

Their delivery food episode just made me hungry

S.Coups not flinching one bit at arm wrestling Hoshi

Trying to act cool when the move spots on the chess board

Seungkwan's wipe out

Getting debate night 2 really saved my life I can't wait for the rest of 2020

I typed way more than I should have but I just love Going Seventeen and all Seventeen content, being a carat really is a blessed life!

#seventeen #svt #challenge #im behind bc of finals #gose #going seventeen #WATCH IF TOO #IF IS SO FUNNY #i know i wrote way too much #if anything this is for my own record lol

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