#that's a valid artistic goal too
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Thinking about image model generated art and gifmaking is giving me some weird vibrations about how there really is some weird association of the virtuesvirtues of a medium with the virtues of the people working in it. Gifmaking being associated with KPop fans doesn't make the concept of frame interpolation racist, and someone marketing themselves as a cheaper alternative to some other artist doesn't make the concept of generative art inherently class antagonistic.
It's somehow reminiscent of CJ the X's distinction between "stupid art" and "evil art", how a medium that has a low skill floor can produce things that are very stupid and easy to perceive as low-effort but how that's not the same as them having something wrong with them. If you look at my animation tag, most of it is motion graphics done with AfterEffects, and while it's probably wrong to call it a low skill floor program the way an AI art generator is... there is still a world where instead of programmatically telling shapes to whizz by on a screen, a different Van would have drawn those same animations frame by frame, producing exactly the same animation.
And I don't think the fact that I did them programmatically somehow invalidates the artistic intent that went into them, y'know? I could open AE right now and produce a 250x250 looping gif of clouds and while I know how to do that quick, to make it look good and to make me like it, I would have to spend time considering how the various elements, colours, timings and whatever the particle system/noise generator I use spits out fit together. I would have to fiddle with seeds and levels and timings to make it look good. I would have to spend a long time just staring and thinking about what I'm making before I could make it good.
I don't know enough about generative art tools to know how much fiddling goes into them once they're taught and ready to go, but I do know enough about deep learning to know it's a haphazard, frustrating process that you as the artist have only limited control over, which is why it doesn't appeal to me. But I have made gifs in the past, and I know how that process requires an eye for consistency and composition, framing and colour that a lot of other visual artists don't have because they're not working with time as one of the creative dimensions.
And like... who am I, from my high horse as someone in possession of these skills, to tell someone who is still developing these skills or who has a different aesthetic concept of what is good than me, what they're making is low-effort. That's not my judgement to make. I didn't make it. Only the artist themselves can say if somehing was low-effort or not. I don't see why I should have so little faith in other artists to assume they have no interest in putting in any effort.
#van stuff#and if someone only wants to use their artistic drive to make things#with as little energy as they can#that's a valid artistic goal too#why do writers sometimes do drabbles?#why do incredible visual artists post loving renderings of memes?#why do people meme on their own work?#Everyone has art in them#sometimes we have art that exceeds our creative stamina#and sometimes we have art that uses only a fraction of our power#and I think comparing the two is#like#... like you sound kind of fascist. You sound like people to this day being mad about the Fountain#Nobody is expected to like any art#God knows most AI stuff does literally nothing for me other than provoke a deep discomfort#something trying that hard to mimic reality just sets off my unreality sensors#but whether we like something#and whether effort went into it#and whether something is comparatively better than some other thing#are three different conversations
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"But if we dont get reblogs and likes than why bother creating at all" Did you never doodle in your notebook in class. Did you never have a notebook of cringe doodles you never wanted people to see but got filled anyway. Was this never something you did because it was a tool of personal comfort.
#t.extpost#like i get wanting the attention god i get that drive too#but its this complete absence of like#personal stake? the doing it just to do it? that baffles me#Like i drew long before i was even allowed to have a computer and long before I had an art account and long before i#could stand having other people see most of it#Like it was something done for personal comfort and enjoyment long before the idea of being praised was ever a possibility#like hell i avoided any sort of art major or 'career' out of fear that it would suck the joy out of something i did for myself#and i still get artblock or down and what have you but ultimately people paying attention has never been the goal#so this absolute 'if it wasnt for others it wouldnt exist' mindset feels so foreign#like sure part of it but all?#also this is non rebloggable because it is personal musing and i truely do not wish to fight w/ others over the idea of what#is the right way to be validated as an artist
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Celebratory Praise ll Mark Lee
Pairing: Mark Lee x Reader
Summary: Pacing back and forth the room, Mark found himself in an endless battle with his nerves. It's his first time performing as a solo artist in an award. In your effort to be present on this very important day, you acknowledge a new-found glory that turned out pleasurable to both of you.
Genre: Fluff, Smut
Word Count: 3.1k
Warnings: Established relationship, Unprotected sex (wrap it up, ppl), Praise kink, Fingering, Lots of dirty talking, Size kink, Oral sex (mkl receiving)
A/N: This is my first ever smut here on this account. Please be nice to me as I am only a beginner. Tell me what you think about it. Enjoy!
It’s been a tough long day. Today is a very important day for your boyfriend. Mark was invited to an event and he was taking you as his plus one. The day started with cuddles and breakfast served in your hotel room near the venue of the event. And by 1 PM, you started getting ready with Mark for an award show. Not just any award show, though, it was his first award show that he was going to alone.
It was his first-ever award show as a solo artist. He was nominated for Best Male Artist for his solo, Golden Hour.
Since you started going publicly out with an idol, Mark was always making sure that you were taken care of well every time you were out in the public. It made you feel safe and secured around him in the public eye. It's also a bonus that the fans were so supportive of your relationship. Hence, you weren't worried about anything.
Mark, on the other hand, was nervous, to say the least. He rarely got like this, pacing back and forth, around your hotel room, rambling, stuttering, and tripping over his words. He was a mess.
“Babe,” he catches your attention as he fiddled with the rings on his fingers, "What if I choke out there?"
He had changed his accessories, from his rings to his chain necklace, for the fifth time tonight. You honestly felt bad for laughing at his hysterics. He was just so cute, far from his cool, calm, and collected self.
"Mark Lee, would you please calm your butt? You have been pacing around the room for about 30 minutes straight now," I chuckled. "Calm down, love."
I got up from my seat and handed him a bottle of water, "Here, drink this. It will help relax your nerves."
He took the bottle and downed the liquid, muttering a little 'thank you'. You smiled in return and held his cold hands.
"Stop worrying please, hmm? You're not going to choke out there. Don't think too much about it," you assured. "This isn't the first time you've performed in front of a big crowd. You're going to be great, babe."
“But I’ve never done it alone, I-I’ve always had 127 and Dream on the stage with me,” Mark was having trouble forming his statement, “W-what if people don’t like the stage because it's just me? What if I disappoint you and the fans?”
I frowned, "Mark, don't say that. You will never disappoint me, okay?"
"I'm sorry I'm being such a loser right now," Mark sighed, covering his face with his hands and finally sitting down on the couch.
Seeing your boyfriend worried and having a panic attack hurt you. He was always hardworking and goal-oriented. His efforts were always doubled for the fans and everything that he does. He always made sure to do his best. The Mark you are with right now just proves how much of a human and softie idols are.
I moved and sat on his lap, wrapping my arms around his neck. His hands automatically made their way to your waist and tightly held onto it. Your hands were now playing with the ends of his hair, trying to calm him down.
“Babe, it's okay to feel nervous. Your feelings are very much valid. So don't say sorry, okay?" I said, trying to catch eye contact with him. "And you're not a loser, hmm? You're such an amazing and dedicated artist. They’re gonna love you, Mark. Your fans are very supportive and they'll love you no matter what. Just be yourself and have fun during your stage. That will be enough for your fans and also, me!"
He looked at you with doubtful eyes and pouted, "I love you."
"I love you, my big baby." I kissed his pout away. "Your song turned out so well, babe. To me, you will always be a person worthy of all good things. Win or lose, it won't change the fact that you're THE Mark Lee. Keep that in mind, okay?"
Mark nodded even though it was obvious that he was still wary.
~ • ~ •~ • ~ •~ • ~ •~ • ~
You had arrived at the venue. As you expected, Mark got into the moment as soon as we got here. He was engaging in his interviews, cracking jokes with reporters and other artists, and being his charming self. You were aware, nevertheless, that he was keeping an extremely tight hold on your hand while you both walked along the carpet.
Mark walked with you to your seats but was later on called and whisked away for his performance.
“You got this, babe,” you encouraged him, giving him a quick peck on his lips. "Remember what we talked about. Have fun on your stage. 'll be cheering for you the loudest."
Mark mustered up the most confident smile he could and left a lingering kiss on your forehead, before making his way backstage.
You knew Mark had it in him to completely kill the performance. He was so talented, but you were still a little nervous for an unknown reason.
He's going to be so good.
The beginning of the show went by in a blur. You couldn't recall who performed what song or even who was presenting the awards. You couldn’t think of anything but Mark.
Finally, the host announced him, causing the whole stadium to get filled with squeals and applause. You contributed to the cheers knowing so well that it would help boost your boyfriend's confidence.
Mark performed Vibration, one of your favorites, followed by his song, Golden Hour. The whole room loved him. The crowd was dancing and singing along to him. Your boyfriend was so into it, running and dancing around the stage.
The Mark you knew was back. He looked calm, cool, and collected as the stage lights made the thin layer of sweat on his skin glisten.
And sexy, really hot and sexy.
Fuck, now, I'm getting horny just by looking at him perform.
I let out an exasperated sigh when I felt my core reacting to Mark's Vibration. It was a good thing that we were in public. It made me calm myself down.
Wait until you get home, Y/N.
He's gonna be all yours.
You urged yourself.
When he finally finished, the crowd was screaming louder than before. You couldn’t wipe the proud smile off your face. You were so proud of him and the performance he showed. It was like he wasn't even stuttering of nervousness before.
“You were so amazing, babe." You gushed when he went back to you and kissed him.
“Thanks, babe. I heard you cheering for me,” he replied, unable to hide his smile.
"I told you the audience will love you,"
You were happy he was happy, but it didn’t take long for the nerves to creep back in when the post-performance high wore off. Of course, his category was towards the end of the show, so Mark spent the whole time fidgeting in his seat. And he was once again on the edge of his seat when the winners were about to be announced.
You held his hand, giving it a little squeeze, "This is it, babe. No matter what happens, you shine the brightest to me."
Your heart dropped together with Mark's. Mark’s name wasn’t announced. He didn’t win.
You looked over at him. He was clapping, and smiling politely, but you could see the strain in his eyes. You didn’t say anything, at least not now, not in front of all these people. You could tell that he wasn't ready for anything you have to say. So you wait.
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The car ride home was more reserved and quieter this time. The air felt heavy and I felt the need to be careful with the next words I say.
“Mark,” you said softly as you followed him through the door of the place you shared, “Talk to me.”
He sighed, sitting down on the couch, and staring at the floor, “I’m okay, babe."
Liar!
Mark forces a smile which made your heart hurt for him. You have never seen a smile so fake in your entire life.
“Mark,” you said, “We both know that that's not true. C'mon, babe. I'm here.”
I extended my arms to pull him into a warm hug which he gladly accepts. He lets out another sigh and wrapped his arms around your waist, pulling you closer.
“I'm okay, babe. I'm just," his voice was strained. "I'm just a little disappointed and worried about what other people would think. I mean, I won awards as a member of NCT and I can’t seem to now. What if doing a solo was a bad idea? What if accepting projects as Mark Lee's a big mistake?”
Your heart was breaking for him, and you knew you had to do something to fix this. Even though he didn't win that award, you were convinced that to give him a different one. He had to know how amazing he is.
“I don’t think you realize who you are,” you began, cupping his chin, and making him look you in the eyes. “You’re Mark fucking Lee. You’re talented, smart, sexy, and hot as hell. That award is nothing to the award I'm about to give you.”
Mark shrugged, but you could tell he was listening, "Babe, what are you talking about?"
"You are the best thing that's ever happened to me. I feel so privileged that I get to be the one to hold you like this," you let your hand roam his chest, touching and feeling every inch of him. "I'm so honored that I get to kiss you like this."
You hungrily kissed him. He immediately kissed back and we found ourselves in a tongue battle as he played his tongue in my mouth. You let out a small whimper when he bit your lower lip for more access, his grip on your waist getting tighter.
He's always loved it when you compliment him.
“I need you to feel something, baby,” you said, lowering your voice down an octave.
Mark watched you intently as you slipped your underwear off under your dress. You grabbed his hand, guiding his hands to your center, letting him feel you. Mark let out a low moan when his fingertips felt your hot core.
“Feel that Mark?” you asked, desperation laced your voice.
Mark nodded, biting his lip. He slowly glides his hand in a circular motion, spreading the wetness that was already forming in between your legs, "God baby, you're dripping."
“That’s all for you,” you purred, “Just from watching you up on that stage performing, with sweat coating your soft skin. God, you were so good. I wanted to just grab and take you right then and there.”
“Was I that good, baby?” Mark asked. You knew he was fishing for compliments. He's always so keen on hearing how good he makes you feel. And you were more than happy to give exactly what he wants.
“Better than good. You were amazing. Thousands of people screaming for you, Mark. Just you,” you egged him on.
You were now straddling his lap and you could feel his length harden beneath you, "Hmmm."
"Fuck," you cursed as you felt two of his fingers stretch your walls.
His fingers moved agonizingly slow inside you, making your breath heavier and your mind cloudy.
“Are you gonna scream for me, Y/N?” He curled his fingers inside you, hitting your sweet spot.
"Oh, Mark! Yes, keep going, please."
“I’m gonna scream so loud for you, Mark,” you continued. "Look at me, babe. Getting all riled up with just your fingers."
You let out a moan, as pleasure began to pool in your lower stomach. "No one can make me feel as good as this. Only you."
You didn’t have to do much pretending. His long fingers were reaching all the right places, making your core wetter with every stroke.
“You want more of me, baby girl?” Mark asked.
“I need you Mark, I need you to fuck me so bad. I need to get fucked by that big cock of yours,” You whined rolling your hips against his fingers, pushing them in deeper.
"Fuck,"
You couldn't wait any longer so you pulled at his shirt, not caring if you ripped any buttons in the process. He immediately returned the favor by ripping your dress off of you, unclasping your bra, and leaving you in all your glory in front of him.
"You're so pretty, baby."
Successfully unbuckling his pants, you felt your mouth water when you see the obvious bulge that was straining against his boxers. Just looking at it makes your core tingle and you feel yourself getting wetter.
“God, Mark, you’re so big,” you breathed, as you pulled off his last bit of clothing.
You took his dick in your hand, lightly stroking it to tease him.
He let out a mumble whimper, squeezing his eyes shut as you played with him, "Fuck, Y/N. That feels so good."
“Do you realize how many people wish they had you like this? Wish they could see your sexy body all laid out for them. And see your cock so red and hard for them? But it’s all for me, and I want it all, every last aching inch,” your words were dripping with lust.
You licked a stripe up his pulsing cock, making him twitch in your hands and groan.
"Looks like someone's missing my mouth."
“Such filthy words from a pretty little mouth,” Mark groaned. He parted your lips with the tip of his cock, gaining access to your mouth.
You kneeled in front of him, between his thighs, and started taking him in your mouth. His cock was so big that you still couldn't fit everything inside your mouth even though you'd done this a couple of times already.
"Fuck, babe," Mark let out a groan and started to thrust his hips, "You're doing so well for me."
Mark's eyes never left yours as his face contorted with pleasure. You felt motivated to let him cum. But you wanted it in another whole. You took his shaft out of your mouth, letting out a popping sound, and licked a long stripe along his pulsating cock, swirling your tongue on his tip.
"Shit," he cursed looking at you with lust-filled eyes.
“Fuck me, Mark,” you demanded, "Fuck me dumb like you can."
The words barely left your mouth when Mark flipped you down on the couch.
“I’m gonna fuck you so good, Y/N,” Mark promised.
His tip was pressed against your aching core, making you squirm. Before you could say another word, he pressed his length into you. You let out a loud gasp, as you tried to adjust to his member. Mark let out a deep groan as he pushed into you, "Fuck, baby. You're so tight."
“I love when you fill me up, baby,” you said, “You’re so big and thick, you feel so good in me.”
“Tell me, Y/N, tell me how good I make you feel,” Mark demanded through gritted teeth as he thrust into you.
“Feels so-oh, uhm, good,” you told him, “You're so deep, baby. I love it so so much.”
"Ugh, Mark!"
“I love the way your pussy tightens around my cock when you speak like that Y/N,” Mark groaned. "Such a slut for me. Only me."
He thrust into you harder and deeper. You threw your head back and let out a loud groan when he pushed against your sweet spot.
“Right there, baby. You're making me feel so fucking good, babe."
You watch as Mark's eyes darken even more and his face contorts with pleasure.
"No one will ever fuck you as I do, Y/N."
“Oh, fuck.” His thumb pressed to your clit.
He rubbed against your bundle of nerves, adding up to the pleasure, rendering you speechless and unable to think straight. All your thoughts went. Nothing but how fucking good he was making you feel. You were a moaning mess and all you could hear was groan after groan and Mark's skin slapping against yours.
“Scream for y/n, scream my name," Mark ordered.
He pulled out his cock, leaving only his tip inside you, and pushed himself inside with extra force.
"Shit, Mark!" You screamed. "Do it again, please. Please, please one more. Just like that."
"I said scream, baby." He pulls back and thrust harder, "C'mon, what's my name?"
"MARK!"
"MARK, please,"
"FUCK, MARK. Feels so fucking good," you screamed shamelessly, not caring if the neighbors could hear you.
"Please, don't stop," you begged, your eyes rolling to the back of your head as you felt yourself come closer to the edge. "I'm s-so c-cl- close."
“Don’t hold back babe,” he told you, his voice low and heavy.
Your visions went hazy as pleasure enveloped your body.
“Mark!” you cried out, feeling the wave pulse through you.
He continued to roll his hips against you, milking out your high. The combination of your tightening around him and screaming his name was enough to send you over the edge.
“Fuck, y/n,” he let out a deep, throaty groan, throwing his head back as he released his seed inside of you. He fell on top of your chest as you both rod out your highs, filling the room with soft whimpers.
“Thank you,” Mark said as he fixed himself on top of you and cuddled closer.
“For what?” you asked, still catching your breath.
“For making me receive the best award I could ever,” he said, giving you a soft kiss, “And for making me feel better.”
"Thank you too, babe. That was amazing,” you replied.
You weren’t even trying to hype him up, it was truly an amazing orgasm. A mind and soul-wrecking one.
Mark let out a soft laugh and snuggled closer to you, "Did you mean every word you said?"
“Every,”
"Single,"
"Word," you highlighted each word with a kiss.
Mark smiled, "I'm so lucky. I love you, Y/N.”
“And I love you,"
#nct mark#nct smut#nct aus#mark lee smut#nct 127#nct dream#nct#nct as boyfriends#nct imagines#mark lester#smut#kpop#kpop smut#nct scenarios#kpop scenarios
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Net x James: An important reminder that BL partnerships consist of two individuals and they are not just a single entity.
So the Netjames news has been a notable bombshell in the fandom of late, and I've been quietly observing this as it unfolded earlier this week, particularly the varying reactions and discourse around it.
In his statement, James explained that his current career goals are moving in a different direction, which has resulted in him pulling out of 'Love Upon a Time', and by extension his acting partnership with Net. He wants to explore his other avenues as an artist, whereas Net is presumably focused on acting for now.
With BL partnerships, we often see the two co-stars tied at the hip. Its part of the gig and it comes with the territory. They don't just work together on their project, but they do a huge amount of activity (both public and private) outside of that. They travel, perform, they do fan meets, press events, and spend a huge amount of time together as a twosome. So we get accustomed to seeing them as a united entity, which means news like this tends to hit harder because it feels akin to a divorce. This is one of the pitfalls of the Thai BL industry. When you create a narrative around two people who exclusively come as a package, it makes it incredibly difficult for both the actors themselves and fans to accept or make peace with any possible deviation from that. I think it's natural for any actor or artist to desire collaboration with different people: to develop their craft, to further their experience, to broaden their versatility. If sticking to only one working partner 'for life' doesn't work for them, I completely empathise with that.
In their recent Instagram lives, Net and James were clearly sad and their feelings still very raw. This led to a lot of speculation regarding any ill-feeling or fall out between the two. But such accusations can be harmful. Even in an amicable or mutual break-up where ending a relationship is in both parties' best interests - the two people involved are still grieving. Being brutally honest and transparent with someone close to you, that things can no longer continue as they are, isn't easy. If fans feel upset, just imagine how difficult this is on them both. When you've been nurtured as a partnership from the get go, your co-star whose always been at your side provides a sense of safety and familiarity. And the prospect of now moving forward without them is a scary new unknown. On top of that, they probably feel an immense amount of pressure and guilt in digesting the potential fallout and response from their fans. There will be trepidation in how well their careers will fare in the immediate aftermath.
Despite this, there are also positives to be taken from this decision. Arguably, Net and James were still in the early stages of their partnership. Bed Friend really put them on the map as a couple. So for James to come forward with this realisation now, before they got too established as a pairing was a responsible thing to do. I'm sure the last thing anyone wants is for their favourite artists to feel stuck or obliged to continue working together, which would undoubtedly lead to feelings of resentment eventually.
So respectfully, these instances are not to be taken personally or to be deemed as a betrayal of your support. After all, what we know of these artists is only a very small piece of their identities as people. It's okay to be devastated, but be respectful of their wishes. You can choose to continue supporting them as individuals, or choose to no longer support them at all - either way, you are perfectly valid and entitled to your choice, just extend the same courtesy back and be mindful of casting unfair judgement on their choice.
For me, it is admittedly a shame because I did see great potential in them both as a pair, and they had fantastic chemistry which could have been nurtured with more time and experience. Regardless, I truly believe they both have immense love for one another, and I wish them both the very best. They've just come to terms with the fact they no longer share the same vision for what they want in their careers. And that's okay.
(I will always be grateful that they gave us THIS iconic moment).
#netjames#james supamongkon#james su#net siraphop#net x james#james x net#thai BL news#love upon a time#bed friend#catch me baby#BL meta
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Composite Moon
In composite, the Moon represents the emotional bond between two people. The sign placement of the composite Moon can provide insight into the emotional needs and tendencies of the relationship as a whole.
Composite Moon in Aries: The emotional connection between the two is likely to be passionate, energetic, and impulsive. They may have a lot of enthusiasm and drive, but can also be prone to mood swings and a tendency to act impulsively without thinking things through. The relationship is dynamic, passionate, and challenging, with both partners feeling empowered to take action and pursue their individual goals. They may need to work on balancing their desire for independence with sensitivity to each other's feelings, but if they can do so, they can create a relationship that is exciting and fulfilling for both of them.
Composite Moon in Taurus: The emotional connection between the two tends to be grounded, stable, and sensual. They find comfort and security in the simple pleasures of life, such as good food, cozy environments, and physical touch. There’s a need for stability and security in the relationship, as both partners are drawn to a long-lasting and reliable partnership. They’re very protective of each other's feelings and prioritize each other's comfort over their own. There’s also a potential for possessiveness or a tendency to hold onto things, people, or emotions longer than necessary. It's important for both partners to be mindful of their own and each other's needs for independence and personal growth.
Composite Moon in Gemini: The emotional nature of this relationship tends to be intellectualized and focused on communication. Both people have a strong desire to talk things out and exchange ideas, and there's a deep emotional connection based on mental rapport. This placement is great for relationships that require a lot of communication, as both partners are likely to be skilled communicators and able to express themselves well. There may also be a tendency towards emotional detachment, as both prioritize logic over feelings. The relationship is very dynamic and lively, with a sense of playfulness and humor. There may be a lot of laughter and banter, and both partners enjoy exploring different interests and ideas together. On the downside, this placement also indicates a lack of emotional depth or a tendency towards superficiality. It's important for both partners to make an effort to connect on a deeper level and not get too caught up in intellectualizing their emotions.
Composite Moon in Cancer: The relationship is characterized by emotional sensitivity, a shared love of home and family, and a need for emotional closeness. This placement also suggests that the couple have a tendency to retreat into their own private world, where they can feel safe and secure. The relationship may be strongly influenced by the past and family dynamics, with both partners feeling a deep connection to their roots and heritage. They are highly supportive of each other, providing emotional nourishment and creating a sense of emotional safety and stability. The downside of this placement can be a tendency towards emotional clinginess, moodiness, and hypersensitivity. Both partners struggle with unresolved emotional issues from the past, and need to work through them in order to create a healthy, balanced relationship.
Composite Moon in Leo: The emotional tone of the relationship is warm, generous, and expressive. This placement suggests a strong emotional connection and a desire for recognition, appreciation, and validation from one another. The relationship is filled with creative energy, playfulness, and drama. Both partners have a desire to express themselves artistically or creatively, and they enjoy performing, entertaining, or engaging in playful activities together. At times, the composite Moon in Leo may also bring about some challenges. There’s a tendency towards drama, attention-seeking behavior, or a need for constant validation. If this is the case, both partners will need to work on balancing their emotional needs with the needs of the relationship.
Composite Moon in Virgo: The relationship between the two people is likely to be practical, organized, and focused on improving the everyday details of their lives together. This placement emphasizes the need for a functional and efficient partnership, where both individuals contribute to creating a structured and productive environment. There’s a shared interest in health, wellness, and self-improvement, as well as an ability to communicate in a clear and concise manner. Both partners enjoy working together to create a sense of order in their lives, and are also drawn to professions that involve service to others, such as healthcare or education. This placement also indicates a tendency towards perfectionism and a critical eye towards oneself and others. There's a need to balance practicality with spontaneity and to cultivate a sense of playfulness and relaxation in the relationship.
Composite Moon in Libra: Emotional harmony, balance, and cooperation are key factors in your relationship. You are likely to strive for fairness and equality in your emotional connection, valuing mutual respect and compromise. There’s a strong desire for social interaction and partnership, as well as a need for aesthetic beauty and refinement in your shared surroundings. There could also be a tendency towards indecisiveness or a fear of conflict, as you prioritize avoiding disharmony over expressing your individual needs and desires.
Composite Moon in Scorpio: The emotional connection between the two individuals is intense, passionate, and deeply transformative. They share a desire for emotional honesty and depth, and are not afraid to confront their shadow selves together. This placement suggests that they will experience a wide range of emotions in each other's company and may form an unbreakable bond through shared experiences of vulnerability and trust. They also have a strong intuition and psychic connection with each other. They also struggle with issues of jealousy, possessiveness, and power struggles in their relationship.
Composite Moon in Sagittarius: The emotional connection between the two is likely to be expansive, adventurous, and freedom-loving. The relationship may involve travel, exploring new cultures, and seeking higher knowledge together. The individuals have a shared sense of humor and enjoy playful banter, and they value independence and personal growth. Ttherec can also be a tendency towards restlessness, impatience, and a lack of emotional depth or intimacy. Both parties need to work on balancing their need for freedom with the need for emotional closeness in order to make the relationship work.
Composite Moon in Capricorn: Emotional security and stability are highly valued in your relationship. You're very practical and responsible in how you handle your emotions, preferring to keep them under control and not display them too openly. You both have a strong sense of duty and commitment towards each other, and you are likely to take your relationship seriously. There's a tendency to prioritize your work and career over emotional needs, but as long as you can find a balance, this placement can provide a solid foundation for a long-lasting relationship.
Composite Moon in Aquarius: There’s a need for emotional independence and freedom in the relationship. The couple value their individuality and unique qualities, and have a strong desire for intellectual stimulation and innovation in their emotional connection. They're drawn to unconventional ways of expressing their emotions and have a progressive attitude towards relationships. They can also struggle with emotional detachment and a fear of getting too close or vulnerable with each other.
Composite Moon in Pisces: The emotional bond between the two is characterized by sensitivity, intuition, and a deep sense of compassion. They share a psychic or telepathic connection, feeling each other's emotions and moods even when physically apart. This placement creates a strong emotional and spiritual bond between partners, with a mutual desire to transcend mundane reality and experience something deeper and more meaningful. There’s a tendency to be compassionate and empathetic towards each other, and they’re drawn to artistic and creative pursuits together. They can also struggle with boundaries and practical matters in their relationship
#composite#chart#moon#in#aries#taurus#gemini#cancer#leo#virgo#libra#scorpio#sagittarius#capricorn#aquarius#pisces#astrology#partner charts
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Let's talk about Taemin and Key of SHINee wearing the Scottish fashion house Charles Jeffrey Loverboy, an openly queer unisex brand. There’s a lot of talk about whether idols know who they are wearing and, when relevant, do they understand the meaning of what they are wearing. We know there are clear examples of artists not understanding what they’re wearing. Indeed, 23-year-old, non-English-speaking Taemin admitted in 2021 that he had no idea the fly of his pants read “Open Here” during View era. Yet, a lot has changed this 2015/16. Taemin’s English is quite proficient. And what about Key, who has studied English since he was a child? I think we can consider understanding the words and understanding the context or broader meaning behind words or, as the case may be, symbols, which can be universal.
Taemin in the Advice album photobook, 2021.
The Charles Jeffrey Loverboy brand is no ordinary brand. It’s a spunky, fun and edgy unisex brand with genuine British flavour. From London Fashion Week's write up:
"Looking back to look forward, the collections re-render historical references as intrinsically modern while paying respect to an ancestral line-up of costumiers, performance artists and queer icons. Jeffrey’s nightlife-influenced thirst for experimentation, and belief in the validity of mistakes, result in a colourful tension between control and chaos.
"LOVERBOY’s roots are fixed in London’s queer nightlife scene, having been born in 2014 as both a fashion label and a cult club night. The LOVERBOY parties, first staged while Jeffrey was studying for his Masters in fashion design at Central St Martins in London, were attended by the city’s up-and-coming artists, performers, musicians, drag queens and poets, many of whom became Jeffrey’s future muses and creative collaborators."
Live performance of Advice, 2021.
The tartan in these looks is known as the loverboy tartan. In the current collection, they have an “odorable” loverboy tartan raincoat with giant floppy bunny ears. I’m too lazy to link it, but do look it up and peruse the punk-meets-whimsy items on the website.
Taemin’s stylist for Advice was Kim Wook. You can read an interview with Kim Wook in translation here. Wook talks about he and Taemin wanting to do something impactful before Taemin entered the military, and they settled on working with silhouettes that are usually seen on female dancers. I could do a whole post on Taemin’s styling for Advice (maybe I will!), but to connect things back to the brand at hand, the flamboyantly unisex Loverboy brand seems to be at home with the goal of Advice’s styling. Advice was Taemin’s way of saying “I will go my own way and trust myself over others,” and I don’t think the androgynous or even gender-fluid looks he presented are a coincidence; Wook’s interview shows that it isn’t. These looks feel like a push forward for Taemin, and he’s been clear in saying Advice was a breakaway from his past. Act I and Act II were leading to this moment.
Taemin has been wearing Charles Jeffery Loverboy upon in return in 2023. I think the most significant choice is the non-binary shirt he wore a fan meeting during Hard era. The t-shirt is a jab at conservatives’ obsession with the love lives and indeed, bathroom usage, of LGBT+, saying, “They’re happy and satisfied. Are you?” There is a also a good-sized, unmistakable non-binary symbol on the shirt. I hadn’t seen this symbol before but it was still easy for me to comprehend. As an artist who is increasingly wearing gender-fluid outfits, it is likely a conscious choice to wear a shirt that supports non-binary rights.
Now, we can’t forget fashion-forward, English king Key in all of this. Key has always had a love and fascination with fashion; we saw in One Fine Day his interaction with a local London fashion brands. He’s a man who knows his fashion houses, so it seems unlikely he wouldn’t know about the Loverboy brand or its ethos as a unisex brand.
Key primarily wore Charles Jeffrey Loverboy accessories for his Gasoline promotions in 2022. The adorable hat with ears is statement wrapped in cuteness, that speaks to the camp motif present in both Key’s body of work and the Loverboy label’s. It’s cute, but not too cute. It’s loud but soft, and the Loverboy stamp is there for all to see. I think that Key embodies what LSF wrote about the Lovery label as “a colourful tension between control and chaos.” Key is never afraid to experiment, and he can go from creating iconic androgynous silhouettes reminiscent of ancient gods and Beyoncé to the retro-camp shown below that almost looks like it could be at home in a Ghostbusters film. Almost.
There are contexts where, like the above, it is more than reasonable to assume that the artists understand what they are wearing and that the choices made are conscious and in some cases made with the goal of the comeback in mind. And there are situations where it’s possible or even confirmed by the artist that they didn’t know what they were wearing or what it meant. I think it can become an obsession for some to want the styling to be conveying a secret code. With the case of Charles Jeffrey Loverboy, there’s no code and it’s not secret. It’s simply known and recognised by those who know, which is enough.
#hope this made sense#charles jeffrey loverboy#shinee#taemin#shinee key#lee taemin#Kim kibum#taemin styling#key shinee styling#kpop styling#queer styling#queer styling in kpop
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Hello what do you think of Ai generated artwork and videos?
I have a whole entire blog post I wrote last year btw: The Rise of the Bots; The Ascension of the Human. (Reading it again a year later I am glad I am still validated in my thoughts)
My entire being and output as an artist is rooted in process, thought, craft and connection. I am open about my process and I share/create resources constantly. I have literally experienced the thing people mean when they say 'art transforms you' just by being so close to it every step of its making. All my comics have this centrality of personhood attached to them - if it's not obvious that the artist's hand (me) is in it, there is the characteristic focus on our emotional/cultural/artistic thread across history.
Just as NFTs and what they represent were antithetical to how I interact with the world as artist and audience, so is the use of so-called AI art. NFTs and AI Art share a common hype cycle / speculative mania that comes out from an annoying vulture mindset that only knows how to eat itself to fill its belly, so I don't expect it to last too long. However I don't appreciate the damage both things have done to the utility of the internet, the degradation of art as a commercial pathway and the destruction of the image as a historical/educational/legal tool. (Which is why I am becoming more underground and turning towards alternatives like the Web Revival, small presses, curated resources and in-person communities)
The technological concept around LLM (pattern recognition and matching it to a goal), especially for medicine and statistics, is not itself problematic, especially when it follows ethical and data handling regulations that have been defined. However, when people talk generative art, what we are talking about, and fighting against, is the exploitation of resources and labour, and the further disconnection of worker = labour, human = society artificially imposed by the Corporate MBA / techno class in the pursuit of infinite stockmarket growth which then introduces a type of brainrot that can only think of things as producing value in relation to how fast one can seize for themselves Westernised Ideals of Fame and Fortune.
Also like, this whole AI thing is part of the degradation of entertainment (the loss of small-to-medium outlets, constant mergers, nobody owning their digital streaming products they bought, the laundering of journalism/curation into press releases), the internet (the algorithimification of everything, constant spam, search engines getting worse, the worsening of socmedia as a tool) and the intellectual rigour of all information.
It's all part of this rot that's spreading outwards.
TL;DR bro I make all my art by hand and I am a nerd about informational integrity
#everytime anons ask a question of this style I am always wondering it's genuine or...#only cos if you know my work and what I am involved in you'd clearly see that I embody my position
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ACESPEC ORIGINAL CHARACTERS EVENT FOR ACE WEEK 2023!
ACE WEEK is from 22nd to 28th October this year!! That's around the corner btw.
Back in the old Twitter days, I used to summon acespec creators to join me in a thread of their own acespec OCs with the goal of meeting more ace creators, their OCs, their projects and making friends! I thought it would be a great idea to bring the event to Tumblr this time... WITH NEW RULES!
So, during the ACE WEEK 2023, I want you to show the world your ACESPEC ORIGINAL CHARACTERS!
I want to see artwork of them, especially if it's made by you, and please add some cool info about them, it can be any silly detail, but I encourage you to talk about their asexuality and experiences, and it would be super interesting to know if your own asexuality affected the creation of the character. Tell us about their story, if they have any, and if they belong to a project you are working on. This will take place during the whole week, so no rush. I'll be reblogging pretty much everything with my side martaslavendergarden
RULES:
ABSOLUTE RESPECT. The asexual spectrum is full of different experiences, all valid. If I catch you trying to invalidate any creator or character, be sure I'll go John Wick. Also, I'm fucking tired of the invasion ace meme because I'm very punk and absolutely dislike any imperialist shit, so please, let's keep this event free of white supremacist shit. Thank you.
USE THE TAGS. Use the tags #acespecoc and #aceweek2023 so your post can be found!
LIKE AND REBLOG! This event's main goal is to find other acespec creators and not just make friends but also to create a cool community, so I encourage you to spread out your likes, cast reblogs and write some beautiful comments in the tags when reblogging.
Some questions you may have:
The identity of my OC is complex or tagless. SOUNDS COOL TO ME. Is their experience somewhere in the asexual spectrum? You can join the party and I encourage you to talk about it! I'm sure they'll be a super interesting character.
Marta, I have 500 acespec OCs. SAME. You can join all of the characters in one single post or make several of them and post them during the week, organise it yourself, no problemo.
Marta! I'm not an artist! But I have these cute picrews of my ace ocs. Can I participate in the event? ABSOLUTELY! Also, you can share the picrew you used just in case someone loves it and wants to make their OCs too.
Marta, I have this comic/book/whatever featuring my acespec OC. Can I unapologetically use this event to promote it? GO FOR IT.
Oh, Marta, I'm not acespec but I have this ace OC... Can I join the party anyway? THE MORE THE MERRIER! And I'm sure you'll learn a lot from other artists and their acespec OCs.
Marta, I have this ace headcannon of this particular character. Can I join the event? Not today, this event is only for YOUR ORIGINAL CHARACTERS created by yourself.
MARTA, I have this acespec OC I made in a videogame through character creation or whatever. Absolutely valid to me. Please provide a screenshot of your cutie and all their background story if you can.
I made this AI/NFTSHIT stuff. FUCK OFF.
Feel free to DM me if you have any doubts. Also, spread the word, I want to see many acespec OCs on Ace Week on this site!
#ace week#ace characters#acespec OC#Ace Week 2023#oc#original art#artists on tumblr#original character#asexual#queer#ace#queer artists#LGBTQIA+#Acespec
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what do you do for a living? (/job?) I am currently in a crisis and need some guidance. I look up to you a lot, I love your blog, we have the same passions for poetry and writing and music, even daredevil! My crisis is that I dont know what to do. In university I take classes but I dont know what I want to be. My art and writing feel pointless sometimes. All the jobs i want to do I know im not skilled enough to achieve or itd be very hard to get by. If you dont mind giving out advice... please help! ❤
hi anon <3 i think that figuring out what we're supposed to do for a living often gets tied to the idea that we're supposed to find that one niche in the world where we fit, where we're meant to be and where we're meant to contribute; where we're meant to shine, and find deep meaning in our own lives. and maybe that does happen for some people. but in reality i think we're all capable of doing many different things, and finding purpose in many different things. and in working toward many different skillsets we acquire different skillsets that apply to many other types of work.
and i don't think anything is ever set in stone. i got my undergrad & grad degrees in music, and then i found that i didn't have it in me to be a part of that world anymore. and i felt that i had no meaning in my life without it. i was No One without music, i had no identity outside of my voice—despite the deep sense of purpose and fate, even, that i felt for my life up until that moment in music, in singing, in acting. up until that moment i knew in my bones my purpose in life. and then the ground was swept out from under me. it didn't matter that i had known with certainty what my life was supposed to be because it wasn't that any longer. and i realized that i could never again tie my identity to my art, to my music, to my writing, to my job. my voice has a purpose not because it must be enough to sustain me financially or because enough people have validated my talent but because it brings me joy. i came back to music because singing brought me joy again; i thought i would never feel that again.
something i have learned through this is 1) music, like most other art forms, is not a meritocracy; there is no such thing as "you are an excellent [artist/singer/writer] and therefore you will have the career owed to you" because so much more than merit and hard work go into careers like this. it takes not only talent and work ethic but circumstance and luck and wealth. lessons cost money, coachings costs money, auditions cost money, applications cost money, travel costs money, wardrobe costs money. 2) the process is not the career. i love to practice, i love to learn music, i love to get into character, and to engage with my colleagues in rehearsal rooms and onstage. i don't love the abuse thrown at singers from directors and teachers and coaches, i don't love auditions, i don’t love the unpredictability of gig work and contract work, i don't love the expendable lens through which singers are viewed by the industry. i've come back to music but my goals have shifted.
all that to say, i don't think we have to know what we want to be. we don't have to want to be anything. our lives have deep meaning whether we have "successful" careers or careers that just pay the bills while we continue to pursue our creative loves. i wouldn't place too much importance on needing to find what you are supposed to be because you will become who you are supposed to be regardless. it is never a waste to pursue something we love, and we will acquire and internalize new skills in any field that we can apply to other fields. and maybe your interests will dramatically shift, or maybe not. i think it's very natural to have vocational shifts throughout our lives, and it's not indicative of failure. art that is made personally or professionally doesn't have more or less value based on its financial profit. the money i make from singing isn't enough to sustain me—i have to do other self-employment gigs to make up the difference. most artists do. but i don't regret the time and the heart i have invested in music, and i am sustained through the work i put into it, and sustained by the relationships and friendships that i have developed through it.
i send you my whole heart. i know how it feels to look at the future and not know what you're supposed to do with your one, precious life. sometimes we have to live in the uncertainty and know that it won't be like that forever. on the flip side, the moments of certainty won't last forever either. and in-between there is all the living we do. i promise you're not alone in this <3
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The DCA Palooza is finally here! We're so excited to have you here.
After years of hard work...
The DCA Palooza is finally here.
And here's the intro post.
Why was the Palooza created?
Recently, I made a note commenting on the atrocious reblog-to-like ratios for the Daycare Attendant Fandom. As @chandlelures calculated using their own art, 18 percent of their notes were reblogs, and the rest were likes. Now some are fine with this. For them, likes are any other type of validation except that logic falls flat when you consider how this site works. Reblogs put art on your follower’s dash, keeps the art circulating, and you can leave nice compliments in the tags which artists will probably screenshot and read when they’re feeling sad. It’s about a feedback loop of good vibes and participating in community. The ratio particularly affects smaller artists who may average 10 notes at best, and when over half of those notes are likes–well, it hurts their chance of growing their audience and having more people see their hard work.
That’s why I’m excited to introduce the DCA Palooza!
It’s not just about fixing numbers, or asking people to reblog more. It’s creating an event space where we can share our ideas and art, while also promoting image accessibility (writing IDs, tagging for eyestrain and flashing, etcetera) for disabled fans too! It’s addressing the wider cultural shift that many older fans have complained about, where we’ve started treating ourselves as content creator and consumers, instead of fans all obsessed with the same blorbos. To do our part in fighting against this and building community…
Here are our main goals:
Encourage fans to reblog and support smaller artists.
While we love the concept of “gallery spaces” from @roachworks Gallery Jamboree! You don’t need to create a sideblog to become a curator. If you want to join Monthly Wrap Ups (where you promote new artists and AUs you found) all you need to do is tag @dca-fanart-gallery to join the event! We’ll see your tag, reblog from you, and then go hunt down those artists you mentioned and reblog from them too :D!
Host weekly magmas and community events
Magmas are a place where multiple artists can draw on the same canvas. It’s a great way to find new artists and their art styles, and have fun with their community. They’re currently hosted by @venomous-qwille every Saturday, and we post the art pieces in our Discord
Raise awareness about accessibility
In the Discord Server, we ask that you write short IDs for every image you post and hopefully learn to write IDs for your own art. The main gallery will promote accessible artists and link to resources for writing image descriptions, as well as write IDs for much of the art we reblog. It doesn’t take too long to learn, and as the original artist, you’ll know what to emphasize in an ID than we’ll ever can!
How can you support us?
Check out and follow @dca-fanart-galleryl! It’s run by a blind Y/N who’s trying to understand where the heck these blorbos came from. Donate your abandoned sketches to become coloring pages for the @dca-coloring-book! Look at the ID guides tag and make your art accessible for your fellow blind/visually impaired fans. And most excitedly...
Join our discord server and have loads of fun!
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Thursday Thoughts: On fandom and a sense of belonging
I love @ao3commentoftheday, in general. But I particularly love how succinctly and beautifully they summarize how, as we participate in fandom, we are ultimately (even if it's unconsciously) seeking out community.
Yesterday, I reblogged their transcription, where they reflect on why fic writers specifically — and creators and artists, generally — seek and savor engagement metrics (e.g. kudos, comments) when they share something online. As they summarized: it's because kudos and comments are the only tangible points within an online space that can be presumed as points of connection. As signals of community.
To quote them:
"For me. That's the piece that's missing. That's the piece that people crave, the thing they're looking for. It's not about the comments, it's not about the numbers, it's about connections and relationships. And that's the part that's missing."
Additionally, in response, @ishtarelisheba reblogged and added a big YES-AND — underscoring that, in addition to finding community, it is both reasonable and valid for writers/artists/creators who are sharing their work online to expect a positive feedback loop. Because who wouldn't want the confirmation that one's efforts and vision are not only seen but also appreciated by someone else in the world (especially because the artist made a point to put it out in the world in the first place?).
As they so beautifully summarized:
"Very few people actually want to work hard on a piece of art, a piece of writing, a sculpture, a dollhouse, a carving, a sweater for their dog, and just Gollum it and never show another person. For most creators, showing your creations to others is vital for that creative part of your soul to thrive. Of course you should love what you do and enjoy what you make! But don’t ignore the part of you that wants to hold it up two inches from someone else’s face and get love and enjoyment from them, too, just because some false platitude instilled a sense of shame for that pretty much universal need."
Both of those needs — connection and validation — can and do exist whenever anyone enters a space, either online or offline. And, in addition to saying we seek out community when we enter fandom, I would even take it a step further (hold on, Corporate Nina is entering the chat) and say that we are seeking out a sense of belonging.
I'll link some articles explaining this in a bit more depth below, but — as summarized within this organizational study in the Harvard Business Review — we experience a sense of belonging within a group when we experience the following (in parentheses, I've added some of the online "engagement" equivalents that we probably look for to find indicators of belonging):
We are seen for our unique contributions (hits, views).
We are connected to other group members (servers, blog communities, social media platforms).
We are supported in our work and in our artistic and creative development (comments, kudos, reshares, other individuals in the fandom talking up your work).
We are proud of the group's values and purpose (sustained enthusiasm/desire to participate and create in fandom).
I know that these tenets were crafted based on workplaces and formal organizations — but I don't think it's a far reach to apply them to fandom. Because, at its core, fandom is still an organized, social body comprised of individuals coming together based on a common goal and/or shared interest. It's like a school. Or a workplace. Or a social group, in that regard.
And, regardless of why and how someone finds themselves within fandom (or any organized space), it is not only valid for someone to want to receive indicators that they're welcome and that they belong — but it's also a biological and psychological human need to feel connected and validated within a social space (you can read about this phenomenon in the 2020 MIT study that cites that we receive neurological signals akin to physical hunger when we crave social connection).
On a more personal note:
Over the past few weeks, I've been wrestling with this sensation myself. Mostly because I initially intended to join this particular fandom in order to simply write — and I was surprised when I realized that no, I wanted more than that. That, as cited in the quotes above, I did truly want to make friends, connect with others, and find community. To connect with others to a degree that, in full transparency, I don't typically do, both online and offline.
I did think that I found a little pocket of community. And I enjoyed it a lot, felt like I thrived and like I might have found those people that "got" me...
And, sadly, that sense of belonging I thought that I experienced ended up a bit of a facade.
Now, I'm in a space where I'm trying to figure out where, how, and (sometimes) if I even belong in this space. There are a lot of things that I like to add, that I get a lot of joy out of — but I also receive a lot of indicators on a daily basis that maybe, just maybe, I'm not as welcome here as I originally thought...
Basically, it's interesting to be a participant in fandom in this day and age, when it is both so easily accessible to enter the space and so challenging to navigate and assess authentic connection.
I don't necessarily know what the answer is. I know I'm bringing some of my equitable organizational design principles into my thought processes here (and I know that some people think I'm overthinking this but whatever) — but I do think that there are both individual responsibilities that need to be upheld and systemic changes that need to be made in order to sustain a sense of belonging for all participants.
But, in the meantime, I'll just continue to assess meaning in this space for myself, continue to lift up others, and continue to suss out where and with whom I can find those bits of connection and validation. Because I would really, really, really like to think that I still belong here.
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Final note: as promised, here are some articles about sense of belonging, in case you're interested.
"Acute social isolation evokes midbrain craving responses similar to hunger" (Nature Neuroscience, 2020)
"Create a Sense of Belonging" (Psychology Today, 2014)
"Missing Your People: Why Belonging Is So Important And How To Create It" (Forbes, 2021)
"Sense of Belonging: A Vital Mental Health Concept" (School of Nursing and Department of Psychology, University of Michigan, 1992)
"What Does It Take to Build a Culture of Belonging?" (Harvard Business Review, 2021)
#on fandom#sense of belonging#online community#fic writing#writer problems#thursday thoughts#nina-bean writing#sorry i'm always on my soapbox
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— OCS AS CHARACTER TROPES
tagged by the lovely @corvosattano to do this uquiz! Thank you 💕
tag list (ask to be added or removed!): @adelaidedrubman @florbelles @marivenah @simonxriley @shegetsburned @voidika @kyber-infinitygems @inafieldofdaisies @socially-awkward-skeleton @aceghosts @carlosoliveiraa @risingsh0t @unholymilf @thedeadthree @cassietrn @jackiesarch @gwynbleidd @shellibisshe @loriane-elmuerto @katsigian @captastra @simplegenius042 @theelderhazelnut @g0dspeeed
THE DISQUALIFIED
the disqualified [noun, origin unknown] refers to a character who's became too numb to the concept of the world, to the point of deeming oneself not able to express any sort of emotion, whether positive or a negative one. this state is usually the one to follow after feeling too much, as if to balance out the overwhelming sensation of human emotion. living up to their title, they often consider themselves 'disqualified' from being a human, forsaken and unloved, abandoned by the world they've never had interest in. they don't know where they belong or where should they go - every second of breathing air is a waste of oxygen someone worthier could use. the disqualified symbolize the constant state of feeling nothing but tiredness, state where all is merciless but the end. this is the one and only test outcome where i as the writer shall personally interfere - please, my most beloved disqualified, keep longing to feel again. there's so much you've never felt and so much you'll desire to feel again. in the words of Osamu Dazai (who's the creator of the title 'the disqualified' I so happily stole) - "Everything passes." a statement as short as it is true - everything passes, even the numbness. after it, you'll experience so much more beauty of the world - beauty that might pass just as the numbness did, but in it's temporary and unique nature lies the reason why it's to be cherished. so, please, try to hold on a bit. sometimes, holding on is the best we can do and most of the times, it's just enough. - a (former) fellow disqualified
THE ICARUS
[noun, greek origin] refers to a character, first curious and childish, who got so bored of the world's rotten nature they lost all hope in living. as the last resort to find the spark in the world of dying stars, the icarus may have attempted numerous times to touch the blazing surface of the sun, hoping to see any kind of redemption in the reflection of their face in the sun's flames. as a result, their wings were melted down and their bones broken by the harsh landing, yet that still didn't stop them from trying all over again. the people of icarus' nature often believe their place is with the stars and their desire to burn amongst them causes them to forget the beauty of the land they've abandoned, merely flying over it - the world has stored so much beauty for them they often struggle to see through the rays of sun and yet, it is still there. the most beautiful of flowers grow upon the lands their feet haven't even touched and maybe, just maybe, if they spared a bit of their time to give the (them forsaken) world another chance, they'd see that sky might not be the home they truly desire, but one they ve seeked just because they have seen only the worst of the world. - a fellow icarus
THE FALSE MUSE
the false muse [noun, latin origin] refers to a character that attempts to be perfect in order to receive certain amount of praise, or to inspire others to go in their footsteps. they tend to seek the spotlight, the podium, the gaze of the people looking up to them, with praise and validation being what keeps them pursuing the way of living they did before. the false muses surely have their goals, but the biggest one is to simply be better than yesterday and worse than tomorrow, to be in a constant state of self improvement they'll never deem enough. this is what leads them to the ocassional state of burnout, state one may describe as trying so hard to please the artist you become the opposite of a muse - hence why they're called false ones. the false muses might be tempted to think that they’ve never achieved perfection, but the truth is, there's no such thing as perfection, nor is there a way to achieve it. all muses could long for is merely the perfect version of themselves and they’ve achieved that already, over a thousand times.
THE SAINT
the saint [noun, latin origin] refers to a character that has taken upon themselves the role of saint via listening to prayers, concerns and troubles of others. characters falling under this cathegory are obviously merely metaphorical saints, which is a quality many people struggle to realize. the saints are said to be helpful and caring under any circumstance, believing that making themselves useful increases their self worth in the eyes of people they care about. they often forget that they are indeed humans in roles of saints, that they still have human limitations and problems that can potentially pile up until they fall from the metaphorical heavens they occupy...yet mostly, this doesn't stop them from taking burdens from people and putting it on their own back in hopes of being more responsible in taking care of them. there's strange naivety in the good they do, slight hope that they can take everything and anything they try to fix and help out with. this naivety is often replaced with denial and regret as soon as one realizes that sometimes, it's impossible to pose as a saint. but that's just the tragic cycle of them - trying to help out, getting dragged from heavens by the burden they voluntarily stole, falling, laying on the ground wide-eyed and tired before climbing back into the clouds again. as of now, there's no cure to being one of the saints - it is up to them to realize that they are not responsible for anyone's happiness apart from their own and that it's not selfish to put them before others. it's natural and - as much as they want to stray away from it - human. - a fellow saint
#oc insp: Imogen Kol#oof does hers really hit#oc insp: Vaune Iyer#I feel like she’s gotten an Icarus result before. self explanatory#oc insp: noa#not me casually dropping the new kid into the mix :)#earth kingdom/water tribe baby who may or may not have a thing with Kuvira 🤫#she’s an earth/metal bender#oc insp: Nadya Bishop#poor girl this quiz read her for filth
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𝓓𝓪𝔂 15 - A Bit Late For Work || Bradley “Rooster” Bradshaw x fem!reader
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Summary: In most cases, it's you who makes Bradley late to work, except when his mission is to make you feel relaxed following a stressful day.
Warnings: smut (oral - f receiving)
Word count: 1510
Author: Rouge
A/N: the prompt for today is: Oral Sex
You threw your car keys on the kitchen table and sighed loudly as you opened the refrigerator.
Bradley raised an eyebrow at you as he lowered the newspaper, tipping his glasses in the process.
You had no idea why he wore them. And yet, that small glint off the end when he was staring down at you from between his legs, ah. You shook off the thought, retrieved a water bottle, and sat at the table next to your boyfriend. The idea was nice, but you knew Rooster had work soon, and while you were normally very willing to make him late, you couldn't work up your usual libido.
Bradley could tell something was bothering his lover, and he tilted his head as you sat next to him. He set the paper down, removing his glasses as well, and placing them in his shirt pocket. "Would you like to talk about it?"
You shook your head. "Not particularly," you shrugged, taking a swig from the bottle.
"You usually feel better when you do," he pointed out.
It was a valid point he made. Nevertheless, you decided it wasn't worth mentioning how much you wanted to change career paths again. All the time you bragged about not being completely satisfied with what you were doing but felt that it was too late to change anything. Even so, you didn't want to go to university any more, and felt like dropping your engineering studies. Your new goal was to become an artist. You were proficient at it too, about as good as you were at university, but pursuing it seemed like a dead dream.
Bradshaw watched you turn your head over. He waited for you to collect your thoughts, and eventually, once you had, he watched you sigh and shrug once more.
"Same thoughts as always, I'm tired of everything."
"You're doing a rather great job with your studies," Bradley pointed out.
You shot him a glare.
"Sorry, sorry. I know."
You groaned, cocking your eyebrow.
“It’s about a lifestyle, my bad,” he corrected himself, sending you a soft grin.
"Close enough," you mumbled.
But he wasn't wrong this time either. You sighed again, took another swig of water, and then put your forehead down on the table. "Maybe I'm just tired of it, I don't know. I don't feel sick of it though, I love learning and making friends. Maybe I just need a break?"
In response to your words, Bradley slowly rose and walked over to stand behind you. When he reached down, he gently pulled you by your shoulders until you were sitting up straight. He worked at the knots that had inevitably formed there by rubbing his fingers gingerly into the flesh of yours. "You think too much," he remarked with a low chuckle, being a little rougher about the massage. But you could handle it. In fact, Rooster knew just how much his little baby girl could truly handle.
The thought went straight to his groin, and he suddenly had an idea.
As you leaned into his touch, you teased, "Maybe you think too little."
While you didn't expect the massage to last much longer, you were grateful that Rooster remembered little gestures of kindness so often, especially after the self-doubt you had been dealing with.
When you suddenly felt his lips on your neck, you let out a quiet moan. You grinned a bit at the warmth of his mouth, but you weren't about to complain. If he had something a little more involved than the massage in mind, you weren't going to stop him obviously.
As his fingers slipped from over your shirt to under it, he stretched the collar just a bit so he was gripping mostly flesh. Like warming oil, his touch bit pleasantly into your shoulders and throughout your body. When you felt Rooster's hand reach down to your breast, you sighed and tensed slightly. He paused there for a moment, and when you leaned into his touch, he reached further down, cupping your entire breast in his hand. Your breath caught in Bradley's ears, and he grinned wider. The beast that resided within his heart loved being able to please you like this.
Putting one hand on your breast, he slipped his fingers under the lacy fabric of your bra and squeezed your nipple sharply. In response to your breath catching again, he stopped massaging your shoulder with his left hand. In addition, he squeezed your soft nipple and traced his hand down your shoulder blade. Your nipple was squeezed again, causing you to moan, and then he rubbed your shoulder blade with his fingers. The two sensations made a louder moan fall from your lips, and you gripped the chair you were sitting in tightly to keep steady. As his voice filled with hellish lust, Rooster commanded, "Touch yourself." His eyes had changed to all-black; the influence you had on him was indescribable.
The fact that you listened nearly without hesitation made Bradley harder than he thought possible. But he was content to please you this time. After all, you needed the stress relief. He watched through his darkened eyes as your right hand reached between your legs, rubbing lightly before undoing your pants, and pushing them down. Then you reached into your lacy white panties and began moving your hand to the same rhythm Bradley was squeezing your nipple and rubbing your shoulders.
You let out a louder moan as all three sensations collided in the pit of your stomach. Rooster began to move faster, and so did you, until you began to feel your orgasm build. You tensed then, letting out several sharp moans as you came, back arched.
After a few moments, you relaxed, sinking into the chair. You were about to say something, but Rooster was suddenly in front of you, hands on either side of the chair. You felt a shiver of anticipation roll down your spine when you looked into his darkened eyes, and then he was kissing you deeply. You wrapped your arms around him, but the kiss was cut short as Bradley moved to grab your thighs and pull you to him. You giggled a bit, then moaned when you felt his lips clasp onto your nipple.
After a few seconds of teasing, Rooster trailed his lips languidly down your body, and then all the way down between your legs. He grinned as he touched your wet panties and pressed his fingers against your pussy, causing you to moan lightly again. "Take these off,” he demanded within a dark voice of his.
You did as you were told, quickly slipping off the lacy panties.
Shortly after, he wrapped your legs around his shoulders. In one swift movement, Bradley's tongue was pressed against you, causing you to cry out in pleasure as you gripped the chair. He grinned against your wetness and moved the tip of his tongue in little circles across your clit. You were already shivering, and soon as he kissed and licked and began sucking on your clit, he reached under his chin, and easily slipped two fingers into your needy pussy. Having his fingers strangle you properly, your pussy immediately engulfed his digits in its juice, causing you to moan in a low tone. To make your head spin, Rooster pressed his whole tongue to your clit and slowly moved it up and down, eventually reaching your entrance as he briefly spat on the fingers he pulled halfway out of your pussy, just to make them wetter than before. Soon, his digits returned to your pussy, and he curled them deep inside of you, massaging your very sensitive spot.
"Fuck!" You cried, pushing into him as he slowly began to pump his fingers. You moaned again, reaching one hand up to grip onto his hair as you felt another orgasm about to overtake your body. "Fuck, fuck, fuck!" You cut yourself off and rolled your head back as a loud moan fell from your chest. Your legs tightened around his head as your orgasm hit, your legs shaking, your chest heaving.
Bradley held on for the ride, grinning wickedly as you came right into his mouth. He moaned too, rock hard and lustful, but satisfied in your pleasure. He leaned up after allowing you a few moments to breathe.
You sighed contentedly into the kiss, and then Rooster was pulling away, grin wide, eyes back to the normal color you were so fond of. He looked so wicked with the expression his face held though.
You smiled all the same before looking at the clock on the wall. "You're going to be late, Rooster."
"Fuck," Bradshaw hissed, then laughed, running around to collect his things before heading out. Then he turned, as if recalling something, and was surprised to see you standing in the doorway waiting for him. After you tapped your lips briefly with your index finger, he smiled and kissed you again. "Right."
As your boyfriend ran out, you yelled, "Don't forget your meeting with Mitchell today!"
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𝓜𝓪𝓻𝓬𝓱 𝓜𝓲𝓷𝓲 𝓜𝓮𝓼𝓼𝓪𝓰𝓮𝓼 🪴
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Gif 1
You will be realizing how exhausted your body is from the stress you've been putting on it for the past 10 weeks or couple of months and actually give yourself a break otherwise your body will do it for you.
Take care of your back and joint health. Try investing in some calcium and vitamin D supplements and do full body stretches accordingly.
There will be realizations in regards to overextending yourself towards activities that bring you less happiness and more anxiety and towards people that won't even give you the bare minimum of what you give them. When the realizations hit try not to guilt trip yourself and wallow but take accountability and treat yourself with kindness.
Some of you will likely leave a boring job.
Your mindset in regards to money also needs to change and it will.
Have faith in your intuition when it comes to the offers in romance or any other creative opportunities you receive this month. As well as what and where you invest your money into.
Gif 2
Realizing your self destructive habits and finally learning to say no.
Also preferring self validation over the validation of others. Preferring your privacy and opting to gatekeep. You may want to post on socials less in regards to your life too.
Some of you are likely giving yourself health goals or personal business or artistic goals and you'd prefer to keep everything to yourself. The scrutinization from others isn't helping and likely comparing yourself to others isn't helping either. So you'll choose to move on from that mindset and cater to yourself.
I feel you'll be needing more rest this month at the same time learning to criticize yourself less. It could be that some of you might struggle with body dysmorphia or some health related concerns that aren't making you feel at your best, please know that if you go easy on yourself, take it slow and simply affirm and focus on your desired manifestions results will show in no time.
Another reminder for you, time is not running out. Allow yourself to dream and know that if you can imagine it you can have it too if you stick to the vision.
Gif 3
Booked and busy!
In your own world, doing your own thing.
It's like you know what you want and you know you'll have it so in the mean time you're just going with the ebb and flow of it all.
I see recognition and achievement for you. You'll be sharing less yet turning heads.
Try to avoid arguments mainly because some won't be able to handle your sharp tounge or you won't be liking theirs. Focus on talking to people that don't test your patience honestly. And learn to communicate with tenderness.
Financially things are looking spectacular, like I said booked and busy. Might get overwhelming in between but all that work will pay off in the long run. You'll be receiving gifts from admirers or loved ones as well.
Likely you'll keep a journal or write a lot this month, so continue writing the script of your life.
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What kind of people HYBE is involving boys with ? Since 2022 beg I.e around the beginning of chapter 2, Scooter started introducing these problematic people with boys.. either for a friendship or for collabs. And more than favor it's whole downgrade music wise and can be harmful for them in long run. You won't know what shady things these people are into and eventually involve members too. To this day, there is a certain status and ethics BTS has exhibited which western industry lacks. Now that they are working solo it's easy to influence them especially with lack of proper language. They better keep their eyes and ears fully open when they are interacting with these kind of artists and crew because one second of messing up can cost their whole career and life.
You have a very valid point and I understand your concerns
However, Ahjumma me nuh kwenchana discussing BTS aligning themselves with problematic people
I'm too truth conscious to compartmentalize such issues.
if I have to drag Hybe ill have to drag Kook too cos he definitely has a choice and autonomy in there he's not a slave under a slave contract and in case you haven't noticed I'm kinda a Jungkook stan soo... bias it is🥲
Like I'm not even gonna lie biased me is💀
I'm a huge advocate for not infantilizing these grown men by assuming their company is forcing them into everything.
They are grown adults who decide who to work with. Jungkook decided he wanted to work with CK and he did I hate to think he's the same person being walked like a dog to Scooter's crib.
Kook is ambitious have his own goals and I reckon he's gonna shake hands with the devil a few times in his career. Scooter is the one you publicly see, you have no idea what goes on behind the scenes too.
Do I agree with that choice, no.
Am I going to drag him for it????
Looking away respectfully
We can just pray they don't sell their souls in their journey or compromise their values or be abused and manipulated and traumatized its a crazy world they are in
All I can tell you for now is.... there there
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there is no denial in the fact that reading is a frorm of excapism, but till what point of escapism it can reach?
many would say that we should separate the art from the artist but it actually possibe?
i personally think not, if an author is alive this separation cannot be done. authorts, no matter how high the fantasy is, still put a lot of their ideologies and moralities in their works, that can be seen both as a good but as a bad thing too. and this is a fact that cannot be changed.
in my previous post i talked about sjm, that i do actually do not support, (i borrowed her books, out of curiosity, it should have remained that, a curiosity) but i wanted to put out what i thought, becuse there are things that need to be said.
no author is untouchable.
and well, if you felt offended by that, then i guess this is more of a you problem, i truly do not care. (so i will erase your comment. this is my space, i write what i want)
not only for her writing, but for her ideologies, that are so datated and wrong, and a more recent thing (not so recent, but for recent events, is better to put it out again) she's a z*ionist so if there is not a major reason for you to stop supporting her i guess you should think more about yourself. (if you wnat to know more about other authors to not support becuse of this belief of them, this creator as a whole thread)
not caring who the author is, where they come from and their ideology is wrong, people say that they read for escapism, and is it really then if for this escapism others get harmed from it?
those authorts, who are alive, breath and live like us, use the money of those who support them to contribute in the perpetuation in harming those, who differently from us, a lot of times do not even posses a way of escapism.
and in their writing there could be the continue use of harmful sterotypes and ideologies, that are actually really easy to fix, but again it falls in the question: do they really want to improve of they add diversity not becuse they mean it, and because well, those are fantasy book, so there the diversity should be the fondation, but only to chek them out and say that they did; nor becuase they mean it and it's needed but only to make count.
i am so tired of those authors who does the bare minimun and get so much praises; beause then, they are those who create standards, and becuse their works are mediocre, the works that are not, are not understood, dimmed down and ignored.
beacuse now, everyone only care about smut, tropes, finding the next "book boyfriend"
making every fmc bland and "not like other girls", with no goals, no depth, no reasoning whatoever, only becuase she need to be a lent used to make the readers fall for the mmc, or so called "book boyfriends"
and those book boyriends, are really something. every single one of them is the same, whether is it for appearance or perosnality, becuse they do not actually posses any, so there is not raelly much to work with
tropes do not make books, they are only part of them, you cannot bulid a book around them, coming naturally as you write.
we lost the charcaters a, the plot and the world (in case of it being a fantasy) beacuse of this.
an easy exemple coud be that now the enemies to lovers are no more enemies to lovers, becuse not possessing personalities the whole enemy part is not a thing, but so is the romance; and there is no natual mutation from enemies to lovers.
beacuse they are solely sexually attracted to one another, they do not exchange any dialogue that would make the other try to understand the others point of view. this is again because not possessing a personality is impossible to archive.
because talking, require a personality, likes, dislkes, flaws , goals and interests.
smut, is not essential to validate a relationship, and if you think so, then read erotica, this genera exist for this purpose.
so asking under every single post, of every single book if there is smut in it, it's out of place; especially if those books are YA.
romance and smut should not be required to make a book worth reading; they should not be seen as the standard to pick up a book.
because of it i feel that many people lost the chance to find books that they woud absolutely love.
and this whole obession with smut, as made many women miserable, how can you as a grown adult thirst like that? they're fictional yes, but going under post of men, at times minors too, and acting like horny teenagers, is really disgusting.
many women hate how man thirst over them and are extremly persistant in sexualluy assulting them, but this thing they do is not much different from what those men do to them.
so how can you hate on soemone and than turn around and do the exact same thing?
this not only for that, even in books, men are extreamly sexualised to the point of being revolting. if it was a female charater described like that by a guy everyone would lose it, but since it's not, well i guess it's fine, isn't it?
then, the rapresentation of this relationships, borderline abusive. this is not soemething to aim for, not something to want and wish to have.
and using the excuse of it being a dark romance is ridiculous, they are dark romances for the themes not becuse the fmc is constantly in the hand of abuse and abusers. the mmc shouldn't be the one to casue those harms, he should be the one to help them go through those things, the one they relay on.
i wish writers would actually love the work they do, putting actual effort in it, and not only doing it for the money; of course, money are part of it, but not all.
writing is an art, and as one it requires time and passion.
and i wish readers could do better, becuse those are not only books.
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