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#put a lot of effort into makeup and clothes so getting compliments on my clothes/appearance is like crack cocaine
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to knowis to be loved and to be known is to b eloved. I want transgender friends who will know me and love me in a way that cis people usually do not
#getting floored by transgendered feelings tonight. I went full femme last night in a way that I haven’t in a long time and it really made#it clear that what I enjoy about looking feminine is the ATTENTION. PEOPLE PAY SO MUCH GODDAMN ATTENTION TO PRETTY WOMEN#I will fully admit that I love getting positive attention for my looks irl. Like I’m not really pretty unless I#put a lot of effort into makeup and clothes so getting compliments on my clothes/appearance is like crack cocaine#which is not healthy. I don’t WANT to care about what I look like#but tbh one of the reasons I enjoyed cosplaying so much is that I got all that attentiob without the requisite feminity. Hahaha hhhhhhh#Last night as I was putting myself together for the charity dinner I felt like I was dressing up a doll. FULL out-of-body barbie vibes#I’m so disconnected from feminine feelings right now. But at the same time I had so much fun being pretty and getting compliments#idk. I don’t even know how to feel. I’m so goddamned tired of all this#if I could beam a perfect understanding of gender fluidity into the brains of everyone I meet I would have come out YEARS ago#I just don’t want to be alienated any more than I already am from the people around me#living in the us south means suffering alone in transness I guess.#I don’t want to be the first genderfluid/nonbinary person EVERYONE has ever met. I don’r want to have to justify my existence#but this cannot go on. but I’m afraid of T. I don’t want to go bald 😭#and I still want to wear dresses from time to time#maybe the solution is becoming a lolita lifestyler. dress myself up as a doll every day for the fucking compliments#leave no room for dissatisfaction with feminity. FUCK#I NEED A GENDER THERAPIST WORSE THAN ANYTHING#BUT IT’S THE SOUTH AND THE NEAREST ONE TO ME IS OVER AN HOUR AWAY#AND she’s out of network. FUCK#anyway I watched an episode of the new f*llout show and it was pretty good 😊#AND I’m playing st*rdew valley again on the new update and the update IS SO FUN#<-lil media update to lighten up this post.#this post was typed up not from a place of despair but from a place filled with the same emotions that a dog chasingits owntail experiences#I’m doing well enough mentally that I can deal with my transgender feelings again yknow. maslows heirarchy of needs with m#with transgender feelings at the top#weekend whining
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manias-wordcount · 8 months
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Hopefully your requests r open, if so can you make a mha proheros (specifically midnight, aizawa, and all might - if you write for them) x reader whos goth and wears trad goth makeup alot? Thanks!
S/o who is Goth HCs (Midnight, Easerhead, All Might)
𝗔/𝗡: 𝗵𝗼𝗽𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗲𝗻𝗷𝗼𝘆!
𝙒𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙩𝙤 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙 𝙢𝙤𝙧𝙚? ⇒ 𝙈𝙖𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙡𝙞𝙨𝙩
𝙟𝙤𝙞𝙣 𝙢𝙮 𝙙𝙞𝙨𝙘𝙤𝙧𝙙 𝙨𝙚𝙧𝙫𝙚𝙧?
𝙗𝙪𝙮 𝙢𝙚 𝙖 𝙘𝙤𝙛𝙛𝙚𝙚?
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Nemuri Kayama (Midnight)
You know she’ll be coming home with shit for you to try, right?
She’s literally your biggest hype girl when it comes to your style
So you know your girlfriend is gonna get you hooked up with her connections
And as a big-name pro-hero?
Expect a lot of shopping sprees from foreign, world-renowned brands (with custom-made ideas whenever you want)
She’ll literally take makeup and clothes brand deals that she knows you like or if they have products you want to try
She probably knew just a little bit about gothic style before meeting you
But after meeting you she knows all the lingo and the terms and probably has her own favorite subcategory 
(My money is on romantics tbh)
But all-in-all, she probably likes this about you so much because you’re bold and you're owning up to what you like and you just don't give a shit about looking like anyone else <3
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Shota Aizawa (Eraserhead)
It’s a little funny looking between the two of you
When the two of you go out, he’s never recognized
But he looks like a complete slob who never shaves or combs his hair so he gets a lot of looks anyways
But you? 
Your makeup is done and it’s perfect and your outfit is complicated but amazing which earns you a lot of looks too
But for different reasons of course (cough cough people don't see traditional goth makeup that often in some societies and they think you're really hot cough cough)
And all in all? If it weren’t for the fact that the two of you were both wearing black, nobody would be able to tell that you’re together
Despite the fact that he’s almost never put together, he thinks the amount of effort that you put into your appearance because you like the style really admirable
He always makes sure to compliment a new makeup look on you
And it’s always genuine because he has no idea how you’re able to do all that with just a few brushes and shit WHAHAHA
Toshinori Yagi (All Might)
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You and your skin and (barely) bones boyfriend are eye-catching, that’s for sure
Seriously, you’re the very picture of emo/goth girlfriend and golden retriever boyfriend sometimes
Now he definitely didn’t know shit about goth subculture before meeting you
Except for the fact that it’s just a lot of black
But he’s very supportive at least!
You’re definitely very different from anyone else he’d proabbly go after
But people don't choose who they fall for WHAHAH
So be patient with him as he tries to understand your style and all the makeup
But just know that he’ll never stop being amazed when he looks at you
Because you seriously got a giant ass golden retriever when you started dating him- man will get excited about everything regarding you <3 WHAHAHHA
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batmanisagatewaydrug · 6 months
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Hey again Sex Witch!
Thank you so much for your help! I’m the gay guy from the other day whose ask re: sexual attraction you’d answered. You really got to the heart of the matter, and I truly appreciate that.
This might sound silly but… Are you sure it’s really not weird, gross or… otherwise wrong of me to just randomly initiate a conversation with someone in a bar like that? I’m sorry - even if the worst that could happen in theory is just a few awkward seconds, a part of me still thinks that an unsolicited “hey I like your necklace” Is too… forward. lol even if there’s a guy in a jockstrap gyrating two yards away.
Again, sorry for the weird asks. And thank you for all your help!!!
hello again, anon! I'm very glad to hear that I could tap into something resonant for you. doing this kind of work without being able to have a proper one-on-one convo means I sometimes I sometimes have to guess at exactly what the best advice for someone will be, but luckily I've been doing this long enough that I've gotten to be a pretty good guesser :)
I'm 100% certain that it's not weird, and certainly not gross, to approach someone that way, as long as what you're saying is appropriate for the context. for instance, I'd broadly advise against walking up to someone who's, say, sitting in a coffee shop minding their own business and opening with "you have a gorgeous mouth, I want to see my dick in it." there are absolutely people out there that it would work on, sure, but you shouldn't assume that, because the potential to guess wrong and become an instant sex pest are wayyyy too high.
but even that's not wrong in every setting! that guy gyrating in a jockstrap probably wouldn't mind someone being a bit sexually forward; indeed, there's a very good chance that he's doing what he's doing specifically to encourage that.
but there's also a HUGE world of other, much less risque ways to open up a conversation. let's talk about your example with a necklace, and complimenting details about someone's appearance in general:
"hey, I really like [aspect of person's appearance.]" many people (wisely) recommend sticking to things that people pick and have control over - for instance, makeup, piercings, jewelry, tattoos, hairstyles, and clothing, rather than focusing on specific facial features or body parts. there are also a lot of ways to take that one further if you want to go for a more substantial conversation, including the following:
"I like that tattoo/piercing, did you get that done around here?" or "I like that [article of clothing], where did you get it?" gives them the option to provide as much or as little information as they like, potentially tell personal stories you can respond to, etc.
alternatively, if there's an identifiable common interest in their outfit: "hey, is that [thing] a reference to [whatever]? I love [whatever]!" great, now you can talk about d&d/comics/a movie/a band/an anime/literally whatever for as long as you want as a way to get to know each other
or, alternatively: "hey, that looks really cool. is it from something?" again, gives them plenty of options about how much they want to respond, which you can play off accordingly, and honestly? letting people explain a thing to you can be VERY fun, not to mention people LOOOOOVE having an excuse to talk about shit they like.
also, hey, if someone is just wearing an outfit that's really fun overall? something that they clearly took effort putting together to look nice? man, they WANT you to compliment that. they want you to compliment that so bad.
"but Makenzie how do you know?" because I dress like a loud-ass fruit 7 days a week. and I'm not doing specifically because I want people to compliment me, duh, I'm doing it because it's fun, but it's nice when people say something kind about my outfit! it's nice to be noticed! the other day I wore a pair of bright pink overalls and a student passing by me stopped to say that seeing them made her happy because pink is her favorite color! that's a great interaction, nothing unpleasant about it! I've also recently dyed my hair a shade of yellow that can be best described as "highlighter," and a LOT of people have been stopping me wherever I go to let me know how much they like it. that's nice! feels good! I also wear a lot of huge earrings, especially when I'm working at events where I get to meet prospective students for the university where I work, because it gives nervous teenagers something easy to start a conversation with! they say "I like your lego mermaid Batman earrings" and I say "thank you, I wear them so gay people will talk to me!" and then they get to say "whoa, I'M gay!" and then we're off to the races.
obviously it's presumptuous to assume people are dressing to be alluring to you specifically, but there are also very few people in the world who will be upset at being told that their hair looks nice and their outfit is cool and you think their tattoos are awesome.
people are also generally pretty stoked to hear something like "you're a really good dancer!" or "that food/drink looks good, what did you order?" or "sorry, but did I hear you talking about x? I love x! what did you think of xyz?"
statistically most people love to think that they have good taste and hate being the one to make a first move, so if you do both of those things you're already off to a GREAT start.
also, another fun reminder: even if complimenting that necklace doesn't lead to a romantic or sexual connection every time, it does serve as good practice for talking to people and makes you someone who gives compliments easily - and hopefully someone who's good at receiving them back, because many people love to repay a compliment immediately in kind! and it's never bad to be known as somebody who's generous with saying nice things :)
just give it a try; I promise you'll like it once you see how warmly people can respond to even casual praise!
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ssincielo · 8 months
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🍑  :    how meticulously does my muse look after their physical appearance?  do they spend a lot of time on their hair,  makeup,  grooming,  and clothing?  is there a particular reason why they do or don’t? 
i feel like the amount of time lourdes spent / spends on her appearance always depends on what the occasion is. for example, when she was still in her middle & high school years and actually went out with people on a semi-regular basis, lourdes was in the mirror, honey. she was absolutely the girl who did her hair & make up at six in the damn morning...just to go to public school. very much influenced by watching beatrice in their bedroom mirror, trying on new outfits & spraying overpriced perfume on her body. but once sixteen came & went, lourdes really didn't care. her brother was dead & she was an active gang member who cooked / sold drugs. aside from the occasional kickback, who gave a shit what she looked like!
now, i feel like lourdes puts slightly more effort into her appearance, if only because she likes to look nice. work is work and she never does too much for that, but you will be smelling her perfume & turning your head when she walks by, complimenting her hair and her Soft Girl beat. if you see her out on the street, the baby hairs are swooped & the gold bottoms are in her mouth. she looks tf good, smells tf good, all that. it takes her a good hour & a half to two hours getting ready any time she's feeling herself & chooses to do so.
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FRUITY HEADCANONS. — accepting.
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stayathomesurveys · 9 months
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174.
How frequently are you inclined to read, and how much? I've really been wanting to read lately but I don't, lol.
When was the last time you questioned the direction your life was taking? Every single day.
What small things have the ability to get under your skin? I don't know.
When was the last time you were caused to be upset with someone? Now.
What is something small that has the ability to cure a bad mood? Nothing really. It depends.
What beverage is best capable of quenching your thirst? Water?
What was the last big change through which you went? Do you deal well with change, typically? Have you always? I moved back home to SC. That was a big change. I think I deal with change pretty well, and I think that I always have. There are certain changes or times in my life when I may not deal with it as well, but I don't think it's ever been a big problem for me. I've always liked moving, changing my hair, etc.
How do you feel after spending a great quantity of time online? I don't feel a particular way?
What do you consider to be the biggest drawback to being you? I'm not sure.
What do you consider the best part of being who you are? Nothing.
What kinds of things do you have on display in your room? Makeup, perfume, candles, skin care.
What do you think your room and its contents say about you, if anything? That I like all of the above, lol.
When was the last time you felt insecure about something/some situation? Everyday.
Do you ever stop to contemplate infinity? Meh. I guess, sometimes.
Are you comfortable amongst nature, or does the wilderness discomfit you? I'm pretty comfortable.
When was the last time someone or something caught you off guard? Earlier.
How much time do you put into maintaining your appearance and hygiene? I don't really go anywhere or do anything these days, so bare minimum time and effort.
Are there any foods you eat daily? Or wish you could? I wish that I could eat chocolates daily!
When was the last time someone new entered your life? What was your first impression of that individual? I dunno.
Do you put much thought into your handwriting? Not really.
What are some of the top priorities in your life right now? Getting a fucking job.
In general, how do you feel about romantic relationships? They are scary.
Which emotional sensation inconveniences or bothers you the most? Anxiety.
Are you capable of consoling others in their grief? Sometimes.
Do you ever find it awkward to compliment another being? Sometimes, but it's mostly because I'm really shy and I always worry about how people will respond.
When was the last time you had a new experience? What was it? I went to Animal Kingdom for the first time in my life last month?
Do you dress more for yourself, or to the expectations of others? Myself. What kinds of things tend to stress you out? So many things...
What is one way you cope when you feel like crap? I try to sleep.
Name an insult you regularly receive, if there is one? The only person insulting me is myself.
Name a site that takes up a lot of your time? Twitter.
What is something you used to believe about life that you no longer do? Idk.
What is a lesson you have recently learned? Idk.
Do you have a tendency to look on the morbid side of life? Sometimes.
When was the last time you went shopping? What did you buy? June. Clothes.
When you shop for clothing, how long does it take you? Long.
What is something fun you have done within the past week? I went to the beach with my sister and niece :)
What is something you hope you never have to do again? Idk.
How does the rain affect your mood, if it does? I love it! It doesn't really affect my mood, though.
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quindolyn · 3 years
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Bestie do you have any headcannons where james thinks your really pretty and you aren’t dating but like how he would come up to you and what he would say and how we would try to impress you
Does that make sense
Falling for Him Headcanons || James Potter
Word count: 1052
A/N: I wrote these really quickly for you babe, I hope it suffices. I'm a sucker for enemies to lovers so that's what y'all get
Warnings: nothing really that I know of, James being kind of a cocky ass but that's hot is it not?
Masterlist
Every student at Hogwarts knew who James Potter was, first years through seventh years, no matter who you were you knew James Potter’s name
But the only person he wanted to know his name was you
He all but made it his mission for you to know who he was like you were clueless before
But how could you be when all he did was strut around like he owned the fucking place
When he first starts directing his attention toward you he starts sliding into the seat next you during classes or at meals
Regardless of your house, come breakfast, lunch, or dinner, there James was, sitting beside you with Sirius and Remus wedging themselves into spots at the table
“Morning love, toast with your eggs?’
Will insist on serving you your food
Makes a little smiley face on your pancakes with whipped cream (sick anon once called it squirty cream, is that what it's called across the pond or is she mental as I suspect?)
The first couple of times he tries to sling his arm around your shoulders it ends with him in some sort of physical pain
Kicking his shins from underneath his table
Smacking him upside the head
Twisting his arm till he gets it off of you
Sirius and Remus being the terrific friends they are take immense pleasure in all of it
Nothing like watching your best mate be bruised by the girl he’s crushing on
Materializing next to you in the hallways
Sliding your bag off of your shoulder and onto his
And as his presence becomes increasingly frequent little packages, presents even, start popping up
Sweets bearing the Honeydukes name on their packaging magically appearing in your bag
Little notes complimenting your hair or your makeup that day tucked into the pages of your notebooks
Small pieces of jewelry, necklaces, earrings, the occasional bracelet, waiting for you on your desk during class
It was never a secret who was sending these gifts, James Potter was many things but stealthy wasn’t often one of them, not without that cloak of his and no matter how much he begged Remus to let him use it in his efforts to woe you Rem always insisted that he would not let him abuse the power the cloak granted him that way
Additionally it never seemed like he was putting any real effort into stealth, he wanted you to know that the gifts were from him
No matter where you were you could always count on James smiling at you, offering to help you put on the bracelet that had been dropped off by a postage owl during breakfast, asking if you were more of a milk chocolate or dark chocolate kind of person
The gifts softened you to the boy more than you would like to admit
You didn’t like the idea that you were the kind of person who could be bought with material objects
But it wasn’t the gifts that warmed you to him so much as it was the thought that had so clearly been put into them
Eventually you stop resisting his presence and upon his insistence you finally join he and his friends at their spot at the Gryffindor table
I think that the only reason he doesn’t stand up on the tables and proclaim his adoration for you is because he knows you well enough to know that that wouldn’t work with you. It’d just turn you off from him.
I don’t know if it's canon that he does that with Lily but in my mind he’s a lot more observant than anyone gives him credit for, even if his observance isn't conscious
Slowly you start to succumb to the boy
Your resistance towards his advances lessens more and more every day and you find yourself staring at him just as much as you catch him staring at you
You start taking him up on his offers to join he, Remus, and Sirius in Hogsmeade for the afternoon
Seeking him out in the library, though you tell yourself it's because you want Remus' help on the charms homework
When honestly you just can't help but smile every time you find James' smiling face already gazing upon yours
There really isn't a definitive moment where you finally crumble and admit that you like James as much as he likes you
Your friendship grows more and more intimate, sharing secrets that the other boys don't know, sneaking off together during your free period or after dinner to explore the castle
You grow more physically intimate too and with every touch James has to stop himself from squealing because even though he gets better at disguising how giddy it makes him he really is just an over excited puppy and that does not change when it comes down to you
The first night you spend in his bed is after a Gryffindor party and you were too drunk for him to let you out of the house
So he carts you up to his room, help you take off your bra and unzips your dress for you so you can change into the clothes he left out for you
Once you're clothed you launch yourself onto him, basically acting as a blanket as you snuggle in as close as possible and try to bury yourself inside of him
The two of you fall asleep like that, with you on top of him and his palm resting on the small of your back
When you wake up and realize that you're not in your own dorm and that the person you're on top of is James you start to pull off of him, being careful so as to not wake him up
But the second you move, the hand on your back in anchoring you to him and pulling you back flush against his chest
He's not really awake so James doesn't say anything intelligible but does release a few disgruntled grumbles and whines but you can make out a very distinctive "stay"
And you're shocked to find just how little you mind obeying that command
There may not have been an exact moment you succumbed to James' charms but it was at that moment you realized you really didn't mind falling prey to them
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elysianslove · 3 years
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Hey, hey, hey I just saw your post of hc boys having a beautiful s/o with dimples and I loved it, so can I please request one with Suna, Ushijima, Kuroo Please, you can ignore this if you want Bye!!
i didn’t expect people to love those headcanons so much but i’m glad!!! i hope you like these <3
i’ve written these same headcanons for other haikyuu boys too: you can find them in my masterlist! 
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suna rinatarō
part 2 of it’s illegal to look at you two cause you’re both just that pretty
suna is painfully aware of how beautiful you are, and suna is incredibly smug about it, to the point that it’s almost annoying
you’re always being posted on his stories and on his instagram. he likes to show you off, absolutely, but he also loves to rub it in people’s faces lmfao. he’ll take any and all types of pictures, ones of you alone with the sunset highlighting your face, you across the table from him on a date, some ramen halfway through your mouth, a selfie of the two of you where his hand’s resting around your throat 
you can’t convince me suna doesn’t know how to do makeup. at the very least, eyeliner. he will put it on you, just to have fun, cup your chin in his hand when he’s done and say some shit like, “ain’t my baby pretty?” that’ll have your stomach reeling cause wtf you can’t just!!! say something like that!!! with an expression like that!!! 
nine times out of ten he’s the one flustering you, especially when you dress up and go all out for him. 
but it’s actually when you’re most casual that his breath’s like completely stolen from him. he doesn’t know why but seeing your natural hair a little messy, barefaced aside cherry chapstick on your lips and your cheeks naturally red, your clothes completely casual, either some sweatpants or jeans and a sweatshirt, or if you’re a girl, some tennis skirt or sundress you found in your closet. it’s not that it looks like you put in no effort. it’s more that you don’t need to put in any effort and yet, here you are, looking absolutely breathtaking 
listen, like i said, suna knows you’re beautiful. he’s aware that you’re pretty, you really don’t have to tell him. he can look at your face all day. but it just really, really ticks him off when people say it to him like he doesn’t know. his love language isn’t very explicit or loud, so to an outsider, he seems unaffectionate, but that really isn’t the case. 
he hates when people assume he’s taking you for granted, because really, there’s nothing he appreciates more, nothing he’s more thankful for, nothing he loves more, than you. 
i like to think suna thinks he knows everything about you, he’s so laid back and confident in himself and then he sees you smile so brightly once and he’s like what the hell hold up??? you have dimples???? and then he repeatedly makes you smile till your cheeks hurt, and he’ll be giggling stupidly while poking at them omg
probably tells you to pierce them at some point honestly 
but he adores them so much and whenever he sees you smile really brightly he kinda sighs dreamily and his shoulders sag a little and he smiles ever the slightest he is head over heels with you on god 
ushijima wakatoshi 
ushijima considers you being beautiful not an opinion, but a straight up fact. like he will argue with anyone to the death that disagrees. he’ll just be like 😐are u blind tf 
i don’t think he’s possessive about it, honestly. if anything, he’s sort of really proud at how everyone is so infatuated with you. not for himself and for scoring you, but genuinely he’s happy for you, for getting all this appreciation 
that being said, he is insanely protective over you. yeah he likes that people always have to do a double take when looking at you cause woah! but don’t look for too long. he knows it tends to make you uncomfortable, and it makes him uncomfortable too. 
he has you as his lockscreen and he always smiles so lovingly when he reaches for his phone. don’t ask him to check the time on his phone he will get sidetracked and end up staring at his s/o’s photo for far too long. 
he also really loves complimenting you, and one of his nicknames for you is literally “beautiful.” 
omg he’ll be waiting for you, sitting on your bed, as you change into an outfit for your date with him and when you come out he looks up and just smiles and gives you a thumbs up, and says, “perfect, as always, my love.” oh my god. 
and whenever you two are alone ushijima turns 100% softer, like he genuinely just melts with you, especially when you’re cuddling him in bed and he’s just trapping you in his arms. that’s when he admires you most, with his face so close to yours. he loves to just trace your features, kissing your lips, whispering against them how he’s so lucky and you’re so pretty
it’s at a moment like that one that he notices your dimples for the first time. he’s just admiring you up-close and he accidentally tickles you so you laugh and squirm and his eyes go wide, and he looks in awe, and in the softest voice ever as he traces at the indentations, “that’s so cute.” like his voice is so low and so soft and he sounds so in love because he is so in love 
his new wallpaper is now you, but smiling brightly enough that your dimples show 
kuroo tetsurō
i stand by the statement that kuroo is an absolute dork around his crush. will probably embarrass himself multiple times in front of you. and the fact that you’re as beautiful as you are? it makes it ten times worse. like your eyes. why are they so pretty. what are words. why isn’t his brain working
okay but as your boyfriend, he’s so annoying. greets you every morning in the loudest voice ever, “how is my most beautiful, most gorgeous, most favorite person ever doing on this fine morning!” 
pick up lines. always. never ending. he sends them to you on text, instead of a cute good morning text like normal boyfriends would do. so you wake up and instead of seeing “good morning beautiful 💖” you see “are you a parking ticket? cause you’ve got fine written all over you” like kuroo baby that is so overused 
he still does it though 
also posts you just as much as suna but they’re all really chaotic pictures. things like him taking a photo in the dark with the flash on, his entire hand just covering your face, or he’ll take a picture of you as you’re choking on some food and probably make a sex joke out of it on his snapchat too. or just a picture of you sleeping really peacefully on his chest but in the frame you can also see a marker uncapped, and everybody’s comments are always like “kuroo no!” but he’s always like “too late rip”
he might not seem like it, but he is possessive. like he seems really laidback, and it’s not that he doesn’t trust you, or that he doesn’t think you can handle yourself either, because neither are true. it’s more that he doesn’t trust other people, especially because he knows how beautiful you are and how even if he’s with you people come up and shamelessly ask for you number. it’s why he’s as possessive as he is. he’s definitely gotten you a necklace with his initials on it at some point too
kuroo is always making you laugh, so him discovering you have dimples comes pretty early on. when he made you laugh hard enough that your dimples appeared, he just chuckled to himself, grabbed your face and squished it and in a higher pitched voice went “so cute!” 
now every time they appear he does that. he has to grab your face, and a lot of the times, he kisses your cheek too. not a light peck, nah, a big, wet smooch like mwah baby couldn’t resist hehe
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kinsurou · 4 years
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Forgive me Lord, for I am sinning
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Pairings: Dabi (Touya) x Reader
Word count: 5.4K
Warnings: Smut (18+), Incubus!Dabi, Swearing, Dirty talking, Alcohol, Oral sex, Unprotected sex, Hair pulling, Slight mentions of breeding, Dabi being a little shit, Slight comedy.
Part 2 of the Incubus!AU. This one's a bit different from the first part. Special thanks to @dragonhrte for beta reading this monstrosity for me, and my friends @hawks-senseis @shoutogepi @honeytama @gr0vndz3ro @wakaoujisenhime @sailor-manga for listening to my non-stop ramblings as I worked on this piece! ❤
If somebody had said that after visiting your stranded family, you would end up coming back home bonded to a demon after getting laid inside the same church that brought nightmares upon you for years. You would have laughed at them before asking them to hand over some of whatever it was they may have drank.
But now, as an all too familiar weight drapes over your body, emitting such heat, that it covers your body with a thin layer of sweat despite the intensity of the air conditioner. Followed by a pair of warm lips slowly kissing the back of your neck, as they descend all the way to your lower back. Lastly, the pair of hands squeezing their way in between the mattress and your front to play with the soft mounds in your chest. 
It all makes you think twice about everything you once believed to be nothing but myths and bedtime stories a parent would tell their child so they would behave.
An eyebrow twitched in annoyance as those hands pinched your nipples teasingly, tracing a small pair of piercings adorning the erect nubs. But you made no effort to move from your position in bed, trying to get as much sleep as possible before the start of the day.
“...What do you think you’re doing?” But your tired, sleepy voice was simply ignored, and the owner of those hands leaned down to purr softly over your ear as they started biting the lobe softly.
“Well...I firmly believe there’s no better way to start the day than with some nice morning sex.” Sharp fangs nibbled gently over your neck, right over the spot where a burgundy mark branded the sensitive skin. ”C’mon little one, I’ll be quick.” 
Taking a deep, tired breath, a hand reached out for a small spritzer on the bedside table. Without even bothering to open your eyes, you quickly proceeded to spray the creature looming above your previously sleeping self, who by the way, started hissing painfully by the moisture damping his face.
“What the fuck is that?!” This time, you actually rose half-way from bed to glare at the demon rubbing his smoking face as if his life depended on it. Teal eyes were dangerously lowered into a glare, but honestly? After spending nearly two months stuck with Dabi, he didn’t scare you one bit anymore.
The demon that took you under the eyes of God and the little shit in front of your bed are two completely different individuals by this point. Now, every single day was spent being followed around the apartment by a horny demon trying to either seduce you or feel you up in order to satiate his hunger. Of course, it always backfired on him.
“Holy water.” The spritzer was pointed at him yet again, and he flinched back slightly, glaring at the plastic bottle with nothing but disgust “When I said I was mad at you, It was serious! Why are you still here anyway? Didn’t you get your own place next door?” 
“Not really, just used my hypnosis on the old lady to get in.” He shrugged “If it makes you feel any better, I gave her back the keys some time ago. Told her I found them laying around.” He followed with a sly grin, that somehow riled you up even further “By the way, she thinks I’m your boyfriend.”
He got spritzed again, Much to his chagrin.
………
“So, ‘Touya’...” At the mention of his “name”, Touya looked up from his spot on the couch, frowning slightly after what happened that morning. Those little tantrums of the devil’s spawn usually lasted a few hours before he was back to his casual, lazy, and annoying self. “How did you become trapped in the church in the first place?” 
“Why? Want to send me back? Sorry doll, but there’s no way I’m going back.” He got up from his seat and slowly approached while you were busy having some food. Coming up from behind, his face came from one side to give an alluring kiss to your jaw. “Especially now, that I have such a nice, little vessel all for myself.”
Even though you kept ignoring his approaches, those small shivers that went through your body with his every touch, were more than enough to nourish him for a while. But it’d be a lie if he said he wasn’t expecting a full meal like the one from that night. 
“And what’s with this ‘vessel’ shit? Why me? There were plenty of girls back home, so why did you pick someone like….me of all people?” You jerked away from him, much to the demon’s disappointment, and picked up the empty dish, getting up from the chair to let it sink into the soapy water from the sink before turning to look at him with a frown.
“It’s just like I said before.” He twirled a lock of your hair between his fingers. “There’s something different about you. Besides, all of them are just like those instant meals you like, full of artificial shit. Like that cousin of yours, what’s their name again…? Meh, doesn’t matter, you know who I’m talking about, don’t you?”
You rolled your eyes and huffed knowingly, fully aware of who he was talking about. The family’s golden child. The one who’s never disappointed the family and is their little star. But behind closed doors? They were probably worse than you.
“But you’re different, want to know why?” He got so close, that you could feel the heat of his body through his clothes. His face was so close as well, and it was strange looking at him without all those stitches and scars. Now that you think about it, it’s been a while since he stopped using this “Glamour”. 
“Because you’re not someone who’s afraid of speaking your mind, so what if you’re not their golden child? You’ve always stayed true to yourself.” A hand made its way inside your shirt, claws roaming seductively all over your back. You couldn’t help closing your eyes and gasp quietly as ‘Touya’s hand kept grazing your body with that burning, lust-filled touch.
But as soon as his lips grazed your own, the loud shrill of your phone caught the both of you off guard and nearly caused you to bump ‘Touya’ in the face.
Flushed face turned away from the demon, you turned all your attention to the device. The caller’s ID made you smile in excitement once you saw the name of your best friend, there was only one reason she would call you this early during the weekend.
“Hey, What’s up!” Her cheerful voice made you walk away from the sink, leaving a frowning demon behind. Touya only glared at the device as he saw you talking happily with the girl on the other side of the line. He caught the word “party”, and couldn’t help but smirk smugly once he realized just what that meant. He was really going to enjoy this.
“Alright, I’ll go get ready, see you there!” Ending the call with a squeal, you ran into your room to look for a proper outfit and do your makeup. He just followed behind silently and leaned against the open door, watching you get undressed with a hungry glint in his eye and a devilish smirk.
“Ugh...Which one should I wear?” You mumbled to yourself, looking at the two tops in the bed with a pensive look. Black or Blue top?
“The blue one looks better.” The demon’s voice surprised you for a bit before a loud shriek was heard as he got the other top thrown at his laughing face, but you had to admit he had good taste. The top he suggested had been sitting at the bottom of the closet for a long time anyway, so it was the perfect time to use it!
Grabbing a pair of black jeans, you quickly got dressed and began putting on makeup, just enough to make your eyes stand out with the lights from the club, and a beautiful shade of red that complimented your skin just perfectly. Lastly, a pair of boots that fit the outfit just perfectly. From his place, Touya gripped the fabric thrown at his face strong enough to slightly tear through it with his black claws. Pupils dilated at the sight of those boots adorning those beautiful legs of yours.
Checking the hour, you still had some time before meeting up with your friends. Snatching a small handbag nearby, you made sure everything was in place. Money? check. Keys? check….A condom, just in case? Check.
“I’ll be back later. If I find any of the neighbors at the door, I’m exorcising you myself!” You looked at Dabi with an annoyed squint, remembering the last time he got in trouble for scaring one of the nosy neighbors from the other building, claiming they had it coming for trying to peek through your window.
He said nothing as he saw you rushing out, a wicked grin appeared on his face as he thought of the surprise you might get tonight. It was going to be so much fun.
Two hours later, you were having the time of your life with the others. Taking shots, dancing to the loud music, and sharing looks with one of the hottest strangers you’ve ever met in your life while sitting at one of the barstools. Too intoxicated by the high from the party to notice the burning sensation around the skin of your neck.
“Sooooo, why haven’t you texted these past weeks?” Your friend sat down at your left, resting for a bit from dancing her heart out with this other girl that kept making eyes at her, much to her flustering. “She’s totally checking you out! Atta girl” She couldn’t stop giggling like a teenager at your remarks. 
“I’ve been busy, lots of stuff that needs to be taken care of.” Like how to get rid of the demonic hobo that keeps stealing the instant ramen. But your friend only gave you a look while downing another shot of some liquid courage. 
“The last time you said that we had to take all of the stuff you dropped at your ex’s home after you broke up with them. You’re seeing someone, aren’t you?” She gave you a knowing grin. This girl knows you better than your own family, but what were you supposed to tell her?
Yeah! I went to visit my family and ended up fucking a demon at the church, who just happened to move in with me and won’t stop trying to get laid! 
At this rate, you’d probably end up locked up if someone could hear your thoughts.
Downing another shot, she stood up from her seat and made her way back to the dancefloor and into the arms of her admirer. Thinking about the situation back home left you thinking about Dabi, and that day back at the church. He may try to get into your pants nearly every single day, and yet, he usually stopped his approaches after a while.
Despite all the stress he caused, sometimes he'd go out of his way to help out, even though most of the time he kept messing with your stuff...Maybe...he wasn’t so bad after all…
“Gah! What am I thinking?” Shaking the thoughts out of your head, the drink in front of you was quickly downed.
“Something troubling that pretty face?”  Another voice came from your right side before you had the chance to order another drink. Looking back quickly made your face get warm. The same guy that kept looking at you was standing right there. Just having him this close made something stir inside, as well as a burning sensation at your neck that was brushed off in favor of admiring this beautiful stranger.
“You can say that again, haha….” He sat down beside you, before ordering two beers and handing one over to you.
“Well, hearing a pretty one out is my specialty. Cheers for our troubled lives, am I right?” He raised the bottle before taking a big gulp of the cold, bitter liquid and you followed after him, the night passed by with some small talk and laughter as your face began getting warmer because of the alcohol.
And by the time the clock struck past 1 am, you were already close to this stranger at the far corner of the club.
….Or at least you tried to.
Another two hours passed by, and the sound of the door being slammed loudly caught Touya’s attention as he read one of your favorite books at the same spot from that afternoon.
“You….!” A furious growl came out of your throat. He didn’t bother looking up, already feeling the heated glare at the back of his head before hearing your marching to the bedroom, and he just grinned in realization once he caught a whiff of your scent. 
Dropping the book carelessly behind him, Touya walked nonchalantly inside the bedroom, spotting you taking off all the make-up, half-ruined by your sweat.
“Something wrong, little one?” You turned to glare at him furiously, before throwing the cotton pat at him, which was quickly dodged. But he couldn’t dodge when you pulled him by the collar and began shaking him in anger.
“What did you do to me?!” He felt the frustration coming out of your body, and he also saw it on those fiery eyes of yours “I was this close, THIS CLOSE to getting laid with one of the nicest guys I’ve ever met in my life!” Your faces nearly touched each other “But right as we were about to do it, not only does this fucking mark starts burning like crazy! I couldn’t feel anything as he touched me!” 
You smacked his chest rapidly, trying to let out all that pent-up anger inside, if only this bastard could actually react to your punches, it would actually be satisfying to hit him, but he wouldn’t even flinch.
Before a hand could land on his face, he quickly caught it mid-air, pulling you closer by the waist with something dark in his eyes. Bright, glowing eyes looked down at you. 
“That’s just a side-effect of being a vessel. You can actually be pleased however you want, but there’s a catch.” The way he grinned gave away his answer even before he continued to speak. “As long as we’re bonded to each other, only a master can actually please their vessel.”
You pulled away from him, holding the wrist he held closer to your chest. Like he could tear off the limb in an instant if you weren’t careful enough.
“Besides, think about it. Why would you want to be pleased by a mere mortal, when you know just what exactly your master can offer? Or have you forgotten that night? When you could only scream how much you adored my cock?” 
As much as you wanted to pour the contents of the spritzer on him...he had a point. Why in the world did you want someone else when someone that made you feel such wonderful things, was living under the same roof as yours?
It’s a trap.
Looking down at the floor, you bit harshly at your lip and headed towards the bathroom. After everything that happened tonight, you really needed to freshen up.
Getting undressed and stepping under the running water in the bathtub was easy. Allowing the cold stream to run down your body, trying desperately to ease the aching heat between your legs was the hard part. With each passing second, the increasing heat became insufferable, but no matter how chilled the water felt, the aching wouldn’t go down one bit.
Lust began clouding your thoughts the more time you spent under the cold bath, it was starting to become downright painful and as much as you tried pleasing yourself, it just wasn’t enough.
Walking out of the shower with a soft towel carefully wrapped around your body, you tried to distract yourself blow-drying the damp locks of hair. Trying to ignore the clenching between your thighs. Despite having just taken a shower, there was already slick running down your legs. 
Whimpering, you walked out of the bathroom. Colliding with Touya’s hard chest as he stood in the way between the bathroom and the hallway. His whole body trembled as he let out a low, dangerous growl as soon as he caught a whiff of your scent. It would be a lie if you said that sound didn’t scare you…and at the same time, excited you.
Slowly tilting your head up to look at him, you were met with the same dark eyes from that time at the church. And before you realized what was happening, he had already pushed you against the wall, caging you in the spot with his arms. 
“T-Touya…?” 
But he just ignored you and crashed his lips upon yours with a bruising force. Sending an overwhelming shock from head to toe that nearly made your body give up and fall down on the floor. It was fierce, strong, passionate. You couldn’t even begin to fully describe it, but it was perfect.
“I could smell you from the other side of town.” He broke the kiss, allowing you to catch your breath before he kissed you again as eagerly as before. This time you were ready, and gladly began kissing him back with the same strength. Moaning into the kiss and holding onto him for dear life as his middle finger began prodding its way inside you. He swallowed your every noise happily, enjoying the way your body began trembling as his hand gave you a slight taste of sweet relief, that was so desperately needed.
Then he broke the kiss one more time, teal eyes engulfed in black as he admired your warm face and half-lidded eyes. “That sweet scent of your body, crying out to be pleased, begging to be satisfied until you become nothing but a limp mess underneath your master.”
He looked at your eyes closing with nothing but bliss, begging for more of his unholy touch. Nothing mattered to you anymore, all you wanted was for Touya to defile your whole being like he did the very first time.
“Ahhh….Please…” Lust glazed eyes fluttered open to look at him, and he almost wanted to take you right there, right now “Take my body however you want, Master…”
In an instant. He pulled his hand away from your core, yanking the towel away in the process. With little to no effort, Touya lifted your body with both hands and wrapped your legs around his waist, before taking your begging self to the bedroom. And this time, nothing would stop him from having you, and if he had to obliterate someone to ashes, in order to get what he wanted, he would.
He set you down in front of the bed and sat down on the edge, spreading his calves wide open, just enough for you to fit in at the same time that he leaned back on his lean arms. Face leaning against his knuckles as he looked at your trembling self.
“What are you waiting for, little one? Your master is waiting.”
Nothing but pure, concentrated arousal fueled your every thought. One knee bent down on the floor, the other one followed soon after. Finally, you sat in front of the demon, resting both hands over your knees, and waited for his next commands while staring at a growing bulge, easily noticeable under the layers of black denim. 
“Time to worship your master’s cock, little one.” 
Shaky hands made contact with the zipper of his jeans, slowly tugging it down. A small purr was heard from above you, and the room slowly began to get warmer as the demon’s pants slowly became looser around his waist.
“Look what you do to me. I’ve never wanted to fuck you more than I do now.” He growled in contempt once his jeans were undone and his underwear was pulled down. That all too unique cock sprung out before your half-closed eyes, already dripping with precum. Having it this close to your eyes was way different from last time. 
You could see every detail of the ridges at his sides, and this time, there was something else you definitely did not see, or feel the last time. He smirked widely, showing off those longs fangs of his when he saw you look up at him with curious eyes.
“This is new...When did you get a Jacob’s ladder?” Your hand grasped around the erect member, taking as much of it as it could. Thumb tracing a small vertical line at the underside of it, right in between the row of piercings decorating his shaft, all the way from the base until it stopped right below the tip. The slightest touch was almost enough to send the demon into a frenzy.
“Shortly after leaving the church. But what can I say? I wanted to surprise you.” He didn’t move one bit as he stared at you with those bright eyes. His hands cupped the side of your face, nails scratching gently at your cheek, and you couldn’t help leaning towards his warm touch. “This cock isn’t gonna suck itself. Come on little one, get those pretty lips of yours to work.”
Too lost in the haze to even bother giving the demon a snarky remark, you happily obeyed his orders. 
Slowly, your hand started touching his length with cautious, but firm strokes. The more you kept touching him, the heavier his breathing became. 
“Your hand feels so good.” As much as you wanted to keep on teasing him, the trembling between your legs just kept getting stronger. Desire kept growing inside you like vines, snaring themselves painfully against your very soul.
Leaning forward, your lips gave the tip of his cock a tender, delicate kiss, and not only the feeling of those soft lips against him, but the dazed look in your eyes made Touya grip the blanket with force, growing nails digging into the material underneath, much to your chagrin. But right now, that didn’t really bother you. The only thing that mattered, was worshipping the throbbing cock in the palm of your hand.
Might as well give the demon what he wanted…
“Mmmm...Is my master enjoying this?” You kept moving your hand while peppering his tip with more kisses. Starting at the head before leaving a trail all the way down to the base. Not once did you break eye contact with him, and he couldn’t really complain about the view. 
“Stop with the teasing already,” His hand pulled harder on your hair, leaning down until both of your faces were so close to each other, that you could practically feel his jagged breathing fanning against your warm face, and those hypnotizing blue orbs nearly digging a hole in your soul. “Now’s when the real worship begins. You know what to do, little one.”
You couldn’t hold back a gasp as he pulled harder on your soft locks, and he took advantage of that little noise, to push that pretty mouth down on his cock, hissing in delight at the warmth of your mouth.
“Shit…! your mouth feels so fucking good, it’s just as nice as your pussy!” Both of your hands came forward to rest on top of his thighs while moaning around the pulsing length. Small vibrations made him tilt his head back with closed eyes and a satisfied groan.
He tasted so good, that the pent-up frustration accumulated over the past week because of him, dissipated in an instant, and all you cared about was showing him...just how much you loved, your master’s cock.
Not waiting for a command, you began bobbing your head immediately, taking as much of him as possible, while continuing to stroke whatever bit couldn’t fit inside your mouth. Saliva and pre-cum mixed together into a lewd mixture, slowly dripping down your chin with each bob of your head. 
The grip in your hair became firmer the more your tongue kept tracing circles on his tip. Touya could hear your little, satisfied hums the more you attempted to take him deeper with each thrust of your head against his hips. Thighs shaking desperately once the taste of his precum reached every corner of your tongue.
“As much as I love the way you take my cock with that filthy mouth,” With a single maneuver, he pulled your face away from him despite the little whines you gave, wishing to taste him just a bit more. “I can’t wait to leave bruises all over that pretty skin.”
Unwilling to wait any longer, Touya pulled you off the ground, and with a grin, he threw you face down on the bed. The mattress dipped down on your side by the weight of the demon climbing over your withering body. 
“Get on your knees, right now.” The authority in his words was almost enough for you to melt on the spot. Obediently, you positioned yourself just as the demon said, and felt him grab on your hips with a force that would certainly leave a path of dark bruises. 
When he began rubbing himself against your soaked folds, the friction from those firm ridges sent an exquisite sensation through your whole body, it made him laugh darkly once he heard those small, silent gasps as you waited eagerly to be filled. 
A sharp pain shot through your backside when his hands smacked the skin of your ass, and although it was painful, it felt so good at the same time.
“What’s the matter, little one?” Another smack was given, making you yelp from excitement “You like this don’t you? What a filthy slut!” 
When a third smack was given, tears ran down your face desperately. All you wanted was for this demon to ravish you at once. Not a pinch of pride or shame remained inside. You wanted him, and badly.
“Ahh...Please, master…” A hand snaked its way underneath, spreading those slick folds wide open as an offering to the demon. “Please, fuck me already. I can’t take it anymore!” 
“Good!” One of his hands pushed lightly on the head of his cock, guiding it towards your warm, little hole and with a swift thrust, Touya buried himself all the way in. “Cause I’m gonna fuck you senseless, make you feel so damn good, that the thought of being with someone else will never cross your mind ever again, little one.”
Oh god, it was even better than last time. You could feel every single ridge, and those piercings brushing snuggly against your walls as he began with a fast pace immediately. His every thrust turned you into a mess underneath him. 
Why did you even want someone else in the first place when you had this? If you had to settle for one dick to satisfy you for life, then maybe this wasn’t so bad after all.
“Fuck, fuck, fuck!” Your face buried against the bed with a lost smile and eyes rolling into the back of your head. In addition, your hands kept gripping the sheets with a death grip as Touya began hitting a spot over and over again that knocked your breath away. Watching you squirming underneath him was truly a sight to behold, nothing could come close to how beautiful you looked in the demon’s eyes.
“I can’t get enough of this delicious pussy, it feels amazing having you taking my cock like this…!” He held your body closer to his, hands kneading your chest in synch with his every push. 
Your moans became louder with every single hump of his pelvis ramming against your ass, it brought you closer and closer over the edge. Until that all too familiar knot in your stomach. 
“Master!...I’m coming! I’m coming!” Your whole body began trembling from the upcoming high, inner walls clasping around the throbbing girth humping your insides so wickedly good. 
But then, Touya stopped moving so abruptly that it almost made you cry out in frustration. Was this his revenge for the spritzer?
But that’s wasn’t it. Instead, he flipped you over and pulled those beautiful legs to rest against his shoulders. Nibbling softly on the soft flesh of your inner thighs made goosebumps appear all over your body, and with a grin, he once again slammed his cock inside that warm, sloppy hole he adored. Picking up his brutal pace from before caused the headboard to slam loudly against the wall with each jab of his hips against yours.
“I want to see that look on your face again. That look in your eyes as I fill this delicious pussy with my cum!” You couldn’t stop gasping for air the more he kept shoving his length into the depths of your warmth, savoring the feeling with eyes closed tightly in nothing but pure enjoyment.
"Take it you little lamb! Take all of your master's seed until you become big and swollen with my offspring!"
He gave another rough thrust, hitting that same spot from before with an intensity that made you cling onto him for dear life, wrapping your arms around his neck. The heat from his body was searing hot, a little more and it could burn you alive at any moment. When you opened your eyes again, the sight you witnessed was hypnotizing.
His body was engulfed in blue flames, and despite being so close to him, that fire around him didn’t burn your skin in the slightest, but instead, it began burning away at his skin, and you realized it was actually destroying his disguise. When he lifted his head from your neck, you saw the same scarred face from that night at the church.
But his unnatural appearance didn’t bother you anymore, too lost in the high as Touya...No...As Dabi let out a deep snarl and with a powerful thrust, that tight knot in your stomach burst. Making you scream as an orgasm overtook your senses.
The look in your face sent Dabi into a frenzy, the sound of his length sloshing into your sloppy core resonated through the bedroom, and with a couple more thrusts, he slammed himself deep inside, clinging onto you as he filled your womb with his scalding seed. 
You both stayed in place, breathing heavily while clinging to each other. Slowly, he pulled out and crawled back, the motion caused your legs to plop on the mattress and he watched in satisfaction as his seed kept leaking out of your drained body, before getting up from the bed and walking out of the room.
For a good ten minutes, you didn’t bother moving, wincing slightly at the sticky sensation all over your whole body, and when every single spasm kept making your body leak with Dabi’s cum, you felt even stickier. The bedsheet laid there completely torn to shreds, soaked and slightly charred. 
“Come here.” Dabi walked back inside the room without his human disguise. Carefully he picked you up bridal style and took you back to the bathroom, where the bathtub was nicely filled. He helped you get in and lean back against the edge as the steaming hot water helped your worn-out body to relax. “There we go.”
“Why are you doing all this? I thought demons didn’t care about us mortals.” From the corner of your eyes, you spotted him picking a small towel from the shelves before he approached the tub again, he soaked it slightly in the tub, before using it to wipe your face.
“Well, I need to take good care of my vessel.” This time, he used the towel on your hair, the warmth felt nice on your sensitive scalp after having your hair pulled for a good time. “And honestly? I like this. You have guts standing up to a demon. Can’t say I don’t like the thrill though. So, as long as we’re bonded, just sit back and enjoy your daily life while I make sure to give you whatever you need.”
You hated to admit it, but it was a tempting offer. Either way, you’re definitely going to hell anyway....Maybe this deal wasn't so bad after all.
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bbyheedeungie · 3 years
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Valentine Study Date | Student!Heeseung AU
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Pairings: Heeseung x Reader
Genre: Fluff
Warnings: none
Synopsis: Heeseung's valentine date with you doesn't go as he planned. But of course, he's not gonna let anything spoil his first valentine's day with you. No, not on his watch.
Author's note: a bit late for the occasion but I hope y'all enjoy this uwu
You really messed up. You messed up real bad. You failed your test in biology and you were scheduled for a retake on Monday. You really need to focus on studying, but you had a part time job every Saturday and Valentine's day was coming up on Sunday.
Ah, Valentine's day. The day that you and your boyfriend Heeseung had been looking forward to since it was going to be your first Valentine's together. He promised you a super cheesy romantic date that you were never ever going to forget. Being Heeseung's first girlfriend ever, he was really set on spoiling you and setting very high standards that no other guy can ever surpass anymore.
You knew how important that day is gonna be for Heeseung and how much effort he's putting into your date. That is why guilt is eating you up as you walk up to him as he was putting his books into his locker. You don't think you can bear to see his disappointed face.
"Heeseungie," You aporoached him. He stopped to look at you, his face immediately lighting up.
"Oh, Y/N! How was your day?" He asks as the corner of his lips move upwards to reveal his adorable smile that makes you want to squish his cheeks all the time. But today, you were too nervous to do so.
"It was fine," You say, staring at your shoes.
"Um hey, about sunday." You started. Heeseung just looked at you, anticipating what you had to say.
"IhaveatestonmondayandIhavetogoandstudyonsunday." You said quickly, just letting it all out. Heeseung blinked for a few times, trying to catch up on what you had just said.
"Ohh." He said simply. His reaction was unreadable, like he was thinking about something.
"Heeseung— baby, I'm so sorry. I know how much you were looking forward to Valentine's." You apologized, feeling so ashamed of yourself. He shooked his head, reaching his hand out to mess up your hair as he smiles at you warmly.
"Don't be sorry, silly. I know how important it is to pass that test. I will be cheering you on, okay?" He said, gesturing 'fighting!' with his fist.
"B-but our date—"
"Hey, we still have next year. And next next year, and many more years to come. So don't worry about it anymore." he reassured, and you feel like you want to cry and hug him for being so understanding.
"I love you so much! I'll make it up to you, I swear." You promise him. Heeseung simply chuckles, his bright smile appearing once again.
"I love you too, Y/N. So, shall I walk you home?"
Heeseung's gotta admit, he was sad that he wouldn't be able to take you out for the perfect date on Valentine's day. But then again, he immediately realized that the perfect date doesn't have to be fancy or outdoors. That is why as he cancelled the reservations he made for this fancy restaurant and refunding the movie tickets he got, he concocted a new plan.
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Sunday night, it was 6pm and you were seated in front of your desk, taking down notes and highlighting your textbook when you got a text from Heeseung.
"Have you eaten dinner yet?" the text read.
Heeseung often scolded you when you didn't eat at the right time, whining about how you weren't taking care of yourself enough. But you couldn't lie to him though, and so you texted him back.
"No, not yet ㅋㅋ😅"
A few seconds passed and you immediately received another message from him. You can already imagine the displeased look on Heeseung's face, shaking his head and ready to scold you. That is why you were completely taken aback by his reply.
"Good. I'll be right over in 10 minutes."
You quickly stood up, tripping over your own feet on the process of rushing to your bathroom to freshen yourself up before your boyfriend arrives. You change into nicer clothes and remove your hair from it's messy bun, attempting to fix it into something that's not a bird's nest. You didn't even get a chance to apply a bit of makeup when your mom calls you from downstairs.
"Y/N! Come down here, Heeseung is here for you." She shouts. And so you jog down the stairs to greet him, a grin instantly etching onto his face as he sees you. Your heart flutters as you see the picnic basket he was holding, together with a box of chocolate truffles and a bouquet of flowers in his arm.
"Heeseungie, what is all this?" You ask in shock.
"Uhh, dinner?" He said, still smiling. He walks closer to you, offering the flowers and chocolate to you.
"Happy Valentine's day, Y/N." He says.
And so, the two of you went upstairs to your room, where he set up a romantic dinner date beside your bed, covering your bedroom rug with a picnic blanket. He even went as far as bringing led lights to scatter around the area to set the mood.
"You are so extra." You said as you hug him from behind, kneeling as he was sitting down and bringing out the food from the basket.
"Which is exactly what you deserve." He says as he removes your arms around him reluctantly and ushers you to sit with him.
"One plate of extra love and effort for you miss?" He said formally like a waiter, making you giggle.
"Did you cook those?" You asked, pertaining to all the dishes he brought. Heeseung scratches the back of his neck shyly.
"Well, I kinda asked Jay to help me." He says, making you raise your eyebrows.
"And by 'help' you mean..?" You trail off. He sighs in defeat, raising his arms in the air.
"Okay fine, he cooked and I tasted if it was alright." He admitted, making you burst into laughter.
"My compliments to the chef, then."
As you ate, you suddenly remembered about your Valentine gift to Heeseung. You've had it since last week.
"Heeseungie, I almost forgot to give you my present. Wait here." You say, rushing to your closet. His eyes simply follow you, his cheeks full of food inside.
You come back with a red box in your hands, placing it in front of Heeseung.
"Happy Valentine's day, Heeseung."
"And I thought I was good at surprises, you sneaky little girl. Thank you for this." He says as he unwrapped the ribbon and removed the top lid, revealing random stuff that you knew he likes. Ramen, lots of snacks and beverages, chocolates.
After dinner, the two of you lied down on your bed with your stomachs too full for you to even sit up straight. But Heeseung managed to roll over and stand up anyway. From the picnic basket, he pulls out his biology textbook and his notebook.
"Okay missy, time to get serious." He says, slapping your knee playfully, making you groan.
"Noooo." You whined.
"Let's just cuddle and watch movieeees." You say, making a puppy dog face at him that gets him everytime. But he shook his head, avoiding your pleading eyes because it's his greatest weakness.
"Sorry, no can do. This is part of our date, I'm tutoring you."
"It is?" you say, striggling to sit up. He helps you to do so, laughing lightly at how adorable you were.
"Yep. Now, shall we start our Valentine study date?"
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pyox1 · 4 years
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A Team Effort - Liu Yangyang
When you learn from your teacher that the biggest project of the year will be a team effort, you can’t help but grow frustrated. Yet again, you’ll have to give double the efforts for an assignment that’ll be signed by two names that haven’t done anything close to equal work. You can’t help but be pleasantly surprised when you find out your partner is actually a fairly decent person.
Genre : Stranger to lover au, fluff
Pairing : Liu Yangyang x reader
Word Count : 3,2k
This goes out for the anon that requested a stranger to lover au with a shy yangyang confessing. Hope you like it <33
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It had all started when you had been assigned to a project with a name you weren't familiar with. Your teacher had decided on making the biggest project of the year a team effort, which you found to be ridiculous. Your grades were something you were proud of; not like the usual student that attended your school. Even if you were in enriched classes, the vast majority of the class couldn't care less about their academic performance. All from rich families with contacts in almost every field, they didn't have to worry about studying, knowing their dream job was already waiting for them.
When your name had been called after the one of Liu Yangyang, you were everything but happy. You wanted nothing more than to be able to work by yourself, without having to constantly drag someone behind you, only to get a passing grade.
Not knowing much about the boy, you had been reluctant to meet up with him. You could already imagine how your first meeting would look like. Awkward silences followed by ideas the both of you wouldn’t agree on, and even more awkward silences. You had already come to the conclusion that you would have to do the work on your own.
Surprisingly, it had gone well. He had arrived ten minutes earlier than planned, with arms full of notebooks. You clearly remembered how he approached you with a warm smile since you were expecting the complete opposite.
"(Yn), right?" He asked, to which you nodded. "Hi, I'm Yangyang. I'll say it right now, I'm so happy to be paired with you. Now I won’t have to worry about Lucas leeching off my back for good grades." Relieved flooded through you. You let yourself relax into your chair as he sat down next to you.
"Okay, so, I did a bit of research this weekend since I had free time. I hope that’s okay with you." He said flipping through pages, already immersed in the work. To say you were in awe was an understatement. You couldn’t believe he was real. "Uh, hello?" He waved his hand in front of your face.
"Yes! Sorry- yes. It’s perfect." You said, trying to hold back a blabbering mess from spilling. "I just… I didn’t think I'd be paired with someone so enthusiastic."
"Is… that a bad thing?"
"No!" A loud shush resonated through the library. You swallowed nervously, repeating lower. "No, it's a great thing." Yangyang stared with a playful glint in his eyes.
"Good. I was joking by the way." With that, he continued explaining his ideas as if nothing happened. Your mind couldn’t process the situation. First off, you had been teamed up with a decent person. Well, decent was underplaying it. He seemed hard-working, interested, and even… kind? You concluded the next few weeks weren’t going to be so bad after all, and you were right.
In fact, the first few meetings in the library had gone so well that Yangyang had invited you to work over at his place instead. He had tried convincing you by saying that you’d be able to share your ideas more freely without the constant death stares of the librarian.
"Plus, I have an amazing variety of snacks and drinks at my place."
"Mmmh, I'm not sure if I'm convinced." You said with a teasing frown.
"Well, I also have a hot older brother that you can swoon over while you're pretending to listen to me." You through a pencil his way, trying to distract him from the blush that was slowly glazing your cheeks.
"You’re an idiot."
"I'll take that as a yes. We can walk there tomorrow together after school." and that’s exactly what you did. Walking down the streets of the neighborhood felt comfortable with him. The conversation flowed naturally, with jokes and teasing being the main elements. It was as if you had known him for a long time.
After walking through his front door, you immediately complimented the nice home. He had laughed a bit, promising to tell his mom. He assured you that it would bring her over the moon. You smiled thinking about Yangyang talking to his mom about you.
If you had thought that studying at his house would be a good idea, it had turned out to be a horrible one. Without the constant supervision of the librarian, you and Yangyang were left on your own. Almost no work was done that night. Instead, you discussed your favorite shows, meals, hobbies, and much more. You quickly realized you had a lot in common and that you liked being in his company. You hoped he felt the same way.
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The rest of the week was spent forming a pattern. With you walking side by side with the grinning boy, arms occasionally touching each other. It was such a banal touch, but it still got your heart pumping faster. You were getting more at ease in his presence.
You had spent every afternoon over at his place. Sometimes you even forgot the main reason you were over, too occupied talking about anything and everything. It was so out of character of you to avoid finishing your school work, but here you were, captivated by the words of a boy you barely knew.
You usually left before his mom got home, trying your best to avoid any uncomfortable introductions. Each and every time, he’d walk you out with a twinkling smile and a promise to see you again tomorrow.
You always felt on cloud nine while walking home, reminiscing over every little detail that had stained your mind. For example, when his finger brushed against yours while reaching for the same pen at the same time. Or when he’d compliment your makeup and your clothes, although already seeing you that day.
Those small moments brought out the cliche school girl in you. You wanted nothing more but to stay in a constant state of daydream, with these little bits of souvenir being its main plot.
God, you were such a hopeless romantic. One more step and you were about to write his last name with yours in a journal.
It was only on Friday night that you told yourselves you needed to concentrate at least a minimum on the project due in a week. The both of you putting your mind at work for once, you had completely forgot about the time ticking by. It must had been around 6 o’clock when a little girl appeared in the dining room.
"Yangyang?" The girl called out. She could only be his sister, you assumed.
"Yeah?" She shyly walked up to him.
"Mom was wondering if your girlfriend was staying over for dinner." Shoot, you had overstayed your welcome. But wait... Were you hearing things right? Had she just called you his girlfriend?
"I don’t know, why don't you ask her." You felt as if you were on the edge of bursting. He stared at you intently, a smirk plastered on his lips. The girl inched towards your side of the table.
"Will you?" Her eyes held a hopeful glint.
"I- I, yeah. I mean- yes, sure." The little girl's smiled grew as she excitedly exited the room. You didn't dare to say a word until the sound of her skips resonated further in the house. "What was that about?"
"She wanted to know if you were staying over for dinner." He answered, unbothered, his attention glued to the screen of the laptop in front of him.
"Huh? Yeah, I got that part." You tried formulating your next words without sounding like an idiot. "She called me your…"
"You'll have to speak up if you want me to understand anything you're saying." He was playing dumb, you thought. Unless he was actually dumb but that couldn't be right. You crossed paths with a lot of stupid people in your life, and Yangyang wasn't a part of them.
Shaking your head, you let out a small laugh. It had probably just slipped out of his sister's mouth by accident. She probably called all of his female friends that and it just went over his head.
"Nothing. Don’t worry about it." You still weren’t sure if he was messing with you. He probably hadn’t heard it. Looking back at him, you swore you could’ve seen a look of disappointment flash on his face. You instantly tried lightening up the mood.
"Didn’t you tell me you had a hot brother?" You took the snicker he let out as a success.
"I only have a little sister… How else was I supposed to convince you to come over?" Definitely not the answer you were anticipating.
"Oh… I see." Silence followed. You had no idea how you were supposed to answer. You continued writing down on your paper until his voice interrupted you.
"The rosy cheeks is a good look on you." That's when you officially knew that Liu Yangyang would be the death of you.
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After the dinner you had spent with his family, you felt that you couldn’t get closer to the boy. It was crazy to you that you barely knew of his existence a week ago.
His sister had shown herself to be way less timid at the table, blabbering her day away to you. You had listened carefully, adding jokes, where you thought, was necessary, earning high pitched giggles from the girl. You hadn't noticed how Yangyang was carefully watching the interaction.
His mom also noticed the way her daughter had opened up so easily to you. She also had caught the way her son's smile formed as he talked with you. She hadn't seen his smile get that big in a while. Peacefulness invaded her mind. She automatically knew that you were going to positively influence him.
When the dinner was finally over, you took the time to thank his mom for her kindness and the meal. You helped clean the table while the overjoyed girl insisted on showing you her doll collection.
"Don't bother her dear," Her mother tutted. "Y/n will have to go home now.” The girl crossed her arms, displeased with her mom.
"Yangyang, why don't you walk her up to the door?" Her mom sent you a wink, assuring you that you didn't have to clean up. She made it clear that you were welcomed whenever.
Arriving at the front door, the boy cleared his throat. "Sorry for my sister and my mom, they're a bit intense."
"Don't worry, they're super nice. I might come back next week just to see them again."
"Not me?" He let it out as a joke. He would have never admitted to it out loud, but he also wanted to see how you'd react.
"I think we've seen enough of each other for a while now, don't you think?" You teased back. He shrugged, his hands hidden in the pockets of his pants. Any trace of sarcasm had left him.
"It's nice spending time with you." He admitted. Your breath got caught in your throat. The expression on your face said it all. He took it as a win. "See you next week then."
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The weekend succeeding that Friday night felt like the longest you had ever lived. Confined between the four walls of your bedroom, the minutes felt like hours. It was the first time you could remember being bored alone. Usually, you’d love having time to yourself, but now it seemed so pointless.
Still, an idea popped into your mind. You could take some advance on the work. That way, you'd get more time with the boy without this stupid project butting in.
“I’m such a genius.” You had mumbled to yourself, tipping furiously away on your computer. Even then, the subject had become dull and boring. You huffed and puffed through a few paragraphs before coming to a realization.
You wanted nothing more then to be in Yangyang’s presence again.
That’s why when you got to school Monday morning, the first thing you did was to scan the hallways, in search of his brown locks. When you had finally landed on his tall figure, putting his books in his locker, you felt an instant boost of happiness. Clutching the straps of your backpack, you walked up to him.
"Good morning!" You chirped. In response, he laughed gingerly. He was wearing a black hoodie and black jeans. It might not have been the finest fashion, but he shined in whatever clothes he was wearing.
"Someone seems to be in a good mood." You couldn’t even let his teasing get to you, too happy to finally see his charming face again.
"Your place tonight? I found more information, I think we might almost be done with this project!" The intentions behind your words were to be encouraging, but Yangyang had taken them like a blow to his guts. He didn’t want this project to end this fast. You, on the other side, we're working on the side to finish it quicker. Maybe he had read this wrong.
"Yeah, sure. I’ll meet you at the end of the day when the bell rings." With no other words, he walked further in the sea of students. You stood in the middle of the hallway, a pit forming in your stomach.
Something was wrong. You hadn't known him for long, but it had been enough time to know that the lack of emotion in his voice was not normal. You disparately wanted to run after him to know what was wrong, but ultimately decided against it.
You shouldn't have to push any information out of him. If he had something on his mind, you believed he'd come to you to discuss it.
In the meantime, you had continued your day as normal. It had gone by longer than usual, the itching thought of an upset Yangyang never quite leaving your mind alone.
As promised, when the last bell ranged, he was waiting beside your locker. The walk was different that afternoon. You had tried the usual small talk, but his answers were cut short. Even when you had thrown a few jokes, his reaction had stayed the same; serious and thinking, almost.
Arriving at his house, you were already making your way to the dining room until he grabbed your hand, stopping you from walking any further.
"Is it okay if we study in my room this time?" He asked. It was the first real sentence he had spoken to you in the last hour. His voice had a hint of a plea in it.
"Aren’t we going to finish the work in the dining room like we usually do?" The boy let out an exasperated sigh. There you were again with your fixation on finishing the project.
"Is that all you care about? Finishing the project and then going back to what it was like before?" He said, his grip on your hand tightening, almost as if he was scared you were going to disappear into thin air.
"Yangyang… I have no idea what you're talking about." He signed again.
"Can we please just go in my room, I’d prefer having this conversation in private, out of prying ears." He gestured to the side with his chin. You looked over to catch sight of his little sister's curious eyes peeking from the living room.
You agreed, following the boy in silence, your hand still in his. Entering his room, he closed the door behind him. His eyes wouldn’t leave the floor.
"Look, I know that you only care about the assignment at this point and all you want is to end it as quickly as possible, so here's what I suggest. I can finish it myself and you won’t have to come back-" You rapidly cut him off.
"Stop rambling, I won’t let you finish this thing alone." He had been bottling up his thoughts for the whole day and now they were coming out like word vomit. He bit his lip, annoyed with himself.
"Look, what I guess I’m trying to say, is that you don’t have to spend time with me anymore. It’s okay, I won’t take it personally." You held his arms as if to shake him out of his weird thoughts. His eyes finally met yours.
"I don’t know who or what made you think I didn’t want to spend time with you but it’s the complete opposite. I want to finish this project to spend some time with you, you idiot." Right away, you felt himself relax in your hold.
"So that’s why you continued working without me this weekend?" His tone was suddenly much gentler.
"Of course it is. This weekend felt like an eternity to me. The least I could do was to take some advance to spend some time with you doing literally anything else." The boy felt all his worries wash away. You knew exactly what to say for him to feel better.
"I’m glad I’m not the only one who thought those two days were abnormally long." You broke into a giggle. His expression quickly returned to a serious one.
"Y/n… I have to tell you something." You nodded, encouraging him to continue. " I- um, this is kind of hard to say."
He started playing with his fingers, trying the find a good way to deliver his feelings. You would’ve never thought you would get to see the boy grow so nervous. It was the first time you saw him stumbling over his words. Normally, you’d be the one in that position. You found the situation quite amusing.
"Stop smiling," He whined. "I’m trying to be serious!" You pressed your lips together, repressing a laugh.
"Sorry, sorry, go on." He walked around his room for a while before taking in a big inspiration. He stood in front of you, standing as still as a statue.
"I like you, Y/n." He said. His confession was remarkably anticlimactic that you couldn’t help but be confused.
"I like you too…?"
"No, you’re missing the point." He bit the inside of his cheek. " I like you, like you. I like the way you laugh or the way you’re so serious about your studies. I like your smile, your eyes, your nose, the way you giggle, or the way you roll your eyes when I say a stupid joke. I want to spend all of my free time with you. But most importantly- I want you to be my girlfriend." Your hands reached for his face, cupping his cheeks gently. He closed his eyes at the contact, his hands coming to layover yours.
"You’re in luck then, because I’d really like for you to be my boyfriend." You didn’t leave him the time to answer, instead choosing to press your lips carefully against his. He hummed, his hands diverting to your neck. His thumbs threw circles on your skin as he deepened the kiss.
His tongue swiped on your lip, to which you gladly let access into your mouth. Shivers ran through your body, the closeness being almost intoxicating. When he backed away for air, your lips mindlessly followed his, to which he chuckled, resting his forehead against yours. His lips landed one more time on yours, in a quick and chaste way.
"Don’t worry, when we finish this project, we can do all the catching up we have to do in that subject."
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Aaand it's done! This is my longest work yet and I'm super proud of it.
Thanks to everyone who took the time to read it. Feedback is always appreciated:)
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twstarchives · 4 years
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Vil Schoenheit・Voice Lines
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Additional Voice Lines: Scary Dress event card
School Uniform - R
Unlock Card “Every single one of you looks miserable. Where should I start disciplining you all?”
Groovy “Classes are still valuable lessons. Let’s try to enjoy them.”
Home Setting “Stop looking so sluggish. You should move with more of a bounce in your step.”
Home Transitions “I am the only one who can express myself. Even these designated uniforms are just tools I use for that.”
“If you’re going to dress yourself in Night Raven College’s uniform, I expect you to behave appropriately.”
“Isn’t that uniform too big on you? It’s unflattering to your figure if it’s not the right size.”
Home Transition (Login Greeting) “Would you like to run to the store with me? I’d like some fresh fruit, and I could also use someone to carry my bags.”
Home Taps “Oh, no, don’t tell me that’s cat hair on your uniform—oh, wait. It’s Grim’s, is it?”
“You have a question for me? Heheh, I don’t give out my secrets for free.”
“It’s natural to need to work hard so that you make up for what you lack. I have no sympathy for you.”
“You want to know my diet? What are you going to do with it if I told you? You won’t become beautiful just by eating like I do.”
“Enough, stop pulling on me. I don’t remember saying you could mend my clothes for me.”
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PE Uniform - R
Unlock Card “I spare no effort if it’s for the sake of beauty.”
Groovy “Are you ready? My regimen is very intense.”
Home Setting “Now, let’s begin our training.”
Home Transitions “You should do everything you can to preserve your beauty. Are you going to come running with me?”
“Hah, I’m worried about getting sunburnt during our outdoors classes... I’ll have to ask Rook to put on my sunscreen for me.”
“Every once in a while, I come across idiots who believe they can win against me if they use their fists. Of course, the tables always turn against them.”
Home Transition (Login Greeting) “How long are you going to stay here? I’ve already finished my daily workout.”
Home Taps “It’s good to do some stretches right after you’ve taken a bath.”
“Physical strength is an important factor in becoming a great mage. Make sure you work your hardest.”
“Sweating helps you feel refreshed. It isn’t good for your beauty to bottle up stress.”
“It’s important for there to be an agreement between your clothes and your body. You need to be careful not to build muscles for no reason.”
“You should direct any questions you have to Epel instead of me. Flying seems to be that boy’s strong suit.”
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Lab Coat - SR
Unlock Card “You want me to teach you about magic potions? Will you even be able to keep up?”
Groovy “I could make any potion you could ever dream of. Hehe, should I tell you my tricks?”
Home Setting “I even pull this lab coat off beautifully.”
Home Transitions “I’m very confident in potions. It's helpful to know so much about herbs when making smoothies as well. It’s up to you to take care of your own body.”
“You want me to help you with your work? I’m impressed with how strong your will to study is. But research on your own first before asking me.”
“Rook is in the science club. In exchange for helping me with the film studies club activities, I lend him a hand from time to time too.”
Home Transition (Login Greeting) “True beauty is determined by strong intellect. You can always doctor your looks, but your true colors will still shine through right away.”
Home Transition (Groovy) “Don’t I smell nice~? This is a perfume I concocted myself. It fits my image, doesn’t it?”
Home Taps “If you want to perfect your skill in pharmaceutics, then you need to have focus more than anything. It’s important to have a strong resolve to bring things to completion.”
“You can’t use magic, right? Then you should at least put all your effort into your studies.”
“I do my own cooking. I prefer to choose the nutrients my body needs.”
“You have wrinkles in your lab coat. Ironing is a must if you want to look polished.”
“Oh, you certainly seem to have a lot of free time. I’m not going to pity you if Crewel scolds you at your next exam.”
Home Tap (Groovy) “The ingredients I pick for my morning smoothies are always based on how I’m feeling health-wise that day. Hm? You want to know my recipes? That would take all day.”
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Ceremony Robes - SR
Unlock Card “Being a student of Night Raven College is something you should be very proud of.”
Groovy “Don’t I look just as flawless in these ceremony robes as well?”
Home Setting “Chic clothing fits me well, doesn’t it?”
Home Transitions “Why are you so stiff...? Oh, are you nervous? You haven’t seen anything yet if you’re still getting nervous at school assemblies.”
“You shouldn’t strive to be like me. Try pushing yourself as hard as you can while keeping your experience level in mind.”
“Beauty lies in the eye of the beholder. I wouldn’t mind you staring at me so mesmerized for a little longer.”
Home Transition (Login Greeting) “A mysterious makeup look with a monotone finish goes best with this unique outerwear. If the makeup doesn’t match the outfit, then your clothes are going to outshine you.”
Home Transition (Groovy) “The colors of our ceremony robes blend in nicely with the night. I don’t hate this deep and mysterious style.”
Home Taps “Just when I thought things were getting noisy... it’s you again. You’re always so full of energy. ...Hold on, that wasn’t a compliment.”
“Your figure is important with these ceremony robes. Tying this wide belt around your waist lets one show off an androgynous beauty.”
“You may not have magic, but you can still take care of your appearance, can’t you? It’s not an excuse to look sloppy.”
“At the entrance ceremony, I thought for certain you were going to get thrown out right away... But you seem to be adjusting to this academy.”
“I know you want me to entertain you, but I’m busy right now so can you wait until later?”
Home Tap (Groovy) “I like the ceremony robes. They have an eternal beauty that never goes out of style. You should be proud you get to wear them as well.”
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Dorm Uniform - SSR
Unlock Card “Strength is what makes one beautiful. Allow me to present my power to you.”
“I presume you’re prepared to put your life on the line for the sake of beauty, yes?”
Groovy “Is it this uniform that’s captivated you? Or perhaps, is it me? Hehe.”
Home Setting “So? Do I look just like a queen?”
Home Transitions “What will you be off doing today? Would you mind helping with our shoot for the film studies club? I’m sure even you are capable of using the equipment.”
“The dorm leader’s work can be a lot to manage, but there is no person more suited for leading Pomefiore than me.”
“My skin has been on point lately. ...What? You want a closer look? It isn’t my fault if my beauty blinds you.”
Home Transition (Login Greeting) “The Ramshackle Dorm is just awful. It smells musty and there is dust everywhere. You do know the difference between “vintage” and “run-down,” right?”
Home Transition (Groovy) “Have you met our vice dorm leader yet? I have full trust in his insight. ...There are times his conduct may be odd, but I’m letting it pass as of now.”
Home Taps “The Pomefiore dorm leader’s crown was designed based on motifs the Queen was said to fancy. Take a look—it’s perfect for me, don’t you think?”
“I swear, I always catch Epel staring at me in complete silence... Hehe. He must have so much going through his head.”
“The freshmen this year are nothing but potatoes. None of them know how to improve themselves and it gets so frustrating to deal with.”
“You think I look good in this uniform? That’s only natural. The dorm leader is meant to flaunt it even more beautifully than the other students.”
“Yes, there is no doubt that my beauty would make anyone unconsciously want to reach out and touch it...”
Home Tap (Groovy) “You think I’m stoic? ...It’s true I hear that a lot. I’m simply focusing all my efforts towards my goals. Wouldn’t this be the obvious outcome?”
Duo Magic Vil: “Leona! I don’t need anyone dragging me down.” Leona: “Ha! Who do you think you’re talking to, Vil?”
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Birthday Celebration Outfit - SSR
Unlock Card “Now, how are you going to celebrate for me?”
“It seems my birthday will be especially wild this year. Well, it is nice to go over the top every once in a while. Just behave yourself.”
Groovy “It’s completely unexpected that you would bring me so much joy. ...That is a compliment.”
Home Setting “This outfit stands out. Well, I’m used to having attention on me.”
Home Transitions “Leona gave me a pen, and it was out of ink. Was it too much of a chore to throw it out so he handed it off to me? ...It figures.”
“My father sends me postcards on my birthday. He travels all over the world, so every year I look forward to which country the pattern on it will be from.”
“Epel, Rook, and the rest of the film studies club put together an opera for me. It was clumsy, but not too bad.”
Home Transition (Login Greeting) “I’m beautiful as always today? Of course I am. But don’t think that I’m only trying hard because it’s my birthday. My beauty is flawless no matter what day it is.”
Home Transition (Groovy) “Sometimes, the energy you and Grim bring can be useful. Please keep it up and breathe some more life into the party.”
Home Taps “My birthday reminds me of the auroras. When Jack lived in my area, he told me the best spot to see them as a birthday gift.”
“I posted a thank-you picture on Magicam for all my fans who sent me birthday wishes. I need to show appreciation for their support.”
“There exists no magic that can stop you from aging. However, it’s up to you how you grow. I’m just constantly pursuing beauty that matches my age.”
“Lilia gave me shoelaces. They’re flat and seem hard to come untied. I think I’ll start using them right away for my jog tomorrow.”
“I heard your wishes to me the first time. If you want my attention that badly, why don’t you let me do your makeup? I’m curious how much it could transform you.”
Home Tap (Groovy) “Oh? Are you going to give me anything? Then list 100 things you find beautiful about me. Simple enough, right?”
Duo Magic Vil: “None of your schemes on my birthday, Azul.” Azul: “Of course. I wish you the best, Vil.”
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Tutorial “Enough of that daydreaming. Let’s hurry up.”
Lv Up “Not bad. Let’s keep this up.”
“I’ve moved up a level higher, hm?”
“Don’t you think I’m someone worth dedicating yourself to?”
Max Lv Up “The fact that I can shine even brighter than I have before is because of your dedication, isn’t it? Heheh. Watch closely. I’ll show you I can be even more beautiful.”
Episode Lv Up “Hah. You’ve turned out nicely yourself. At this point, I’d even let you stand at my side.”
Magic Lv Up “Beautiful flowers are poisonous. But isn’t that just another one of their charms?”
Limit Break “My progress is far from over. I need to shine even brighter, even more beautifully than I do now.”
Groovy “Oh, I’m so sorry. Am I too dazzling for you now?”
Select Lesson “You’re only wasting time worrying. Please hurry up and pick.”
“You won’t rise to the top of this world if you lack intelligence. Study your hardest.”
“Neither our lectures in class nor the skills we learn firsthand must be taken lightly. Let’s put in all our effort.”
Lesson Start “Can you really afford to not pay attention?”
Lesson End “Well, that’s about it.”
Battle Start “Show me all you’ve got.”
Battle Win “This was the obvious result. You and I aren’t on the same level.”
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Profile Quote “Mirror, mirror on the wall. Who is the fairest of them all? Of course it is me, isn’t it?”
January 2020 Trailer “If you want to be beautiful, then you’ve got to do your very best at this academy.”
Countdown Poster “At this moment, who is the fairest of them all? ...Of course, it is me.”
Login Bonus “Neither beauty nor power can be achieved in a single day. It’s crucial that you persevere through everything that comes your way, but that’s the most difficult to do. I wonder how you will fare?”
Player Birthday Wish “It’s your birthday? Oh, dear, I completely forgot. Only joking. Don’t underestimate my memory. Of course I got everything ready. You should feel honored that I’m celebrating for you.”
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Magic History
Good ★
“Trends come in and out.”
“You look half-asleep.”
“Competition brings one to the top.”
“What a beautiful dress.”
“This is more self-improvement.”
“The qualities of a king... hm...”
“Please sit up straight.”
“My makeup is still intact this afternoon.”
“Even great figures worked their hardest.”
Great ★★
“Naturally.”
“I enjoy reading.”
“Too easy.”
“Even my handwriting is beautiful.”
Perfect ★★★
“Didn’t lift a finger.”
“Perfect.”
“These are reasonable results.”
“There’s no way I wouldn’t get a perfect score.”
Special Lesson Perfect ★★★
“Oh, do you need something?”
“Please stay focused.”
“Not a problem.”
Flying
Good ★
“This is a nice workout.”
“If my hair’s a mess, my mind’s a mess.”
“Get me a hat, please.”
“Often reapply your sunscreen.”
“Just like a graceful raven.”
“Sound advice.”
“This is my after-meal workout.”
“Sunburns are my worst nightmare.”
“I’ve checked the new arrivals.”
Great ★★
“Staying hydrated.”
“So, what’s next?”
“Flexibility exercises are part of my daily routine.”
Perfect ★★★
“Elegant and graceful.”
“Beautiful? I know.”
“Just keep trying until you can do it.”
Special Lesson Perfect ★★★
“You’d like to see an example, wouldn’t you?”
“I feel someone’s eyes on me...!”
“Did I mesmerize you?”
Alchemy
Good ★
“Be quiet and concentrate.”
“Understand the materials we’re using.”
“Measure carefully.”
“Did you read the textbook?”
“A practical recipe.”
“Crewel has excellent taste.”
“This is making me smell like chemicals.”
“Eternal beauty...”
“Carefully...”
“This stench is making me lose my appetite.”
“Don’t lose focus.”
“There is no way I made any mistakes.”
“Done in the wink of an eye.”
“Looking sharp in these white clothes is a must.”
“That’s wrong.”
Great ★★
“It’s easy if you just follow the recipe.”
“I’m worth more than jewels.”
“Well done.”
“One cannot live without desire...”
“Unrusted gold... Just like me.”
Perfect ★★★
“What a snore-fest.”
“Brewing is one of my specialties.”
“There’s not a chance in a million I’d ever fail.”
“Gold used for more than just a crown...”
“The fact that I can do this much shouldn’t be a surprise to you.”
Special Lesson Perfect ★★★
“I can’t make any mistakes.”
“Stop talking to me right now.”
“You’re not done until you’ve reviewed everything.”
“Don’t rush anything.”
“This is what it means to work little by little everyday.”
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uncloseted · 3 years
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How do I deal with being unattractive? Not like "I'm ugly (but I'm actually pretty)" but knowing you just don't catch people's eyes and your looks don't stand out. I know I'm like this because both of my friends are conventionally attractive and wherever we go they get looks, hit on, and on dating apps they constantly get matches and significant numbers of people wanting to sleep with them, whereas I get ignored or ghosted by people online and offline. I don't even really want to sleep with anyone, I just feel bad because I know I'm not beautiful and I'll never be the beautiful person but I want to move past it and forget my looks even exist tbh. Do you have any advice?
There's a lot to unpack when talking about beauty. I think typically the response to someone feeling unattractive is either denial of the person's feelings ("but you are pretty!"), a fallback on useless platitudes ("Everyone is beautiful!"), or a dismissal of beauty as something that holds value ("why do you care if you're pretty? That's so vain, there are more important things in life" or "beauty standards are just social constructs").
To a degree, I understand why people would say things like that. Many people who don't feel beautiful are still attractive to others. The beauty standards we hold are frequently xenophobic, racist, colorist, homophobic, transphobic, ageist, and ableist. There are all sorts of things that are more important than being beautiful, like the quality of a person's character or the contributions they've made to the world around them.
But I don't think those responses make the experience of being unattractive or unremarkable but wanting to be beautiful any easier. We can cognitively understand that the standards of beauty we're held to are problematic while still wanting to be beautiful. So what's the solution? I think there are probably a few different options that need to work together.
First, there are external ways to become attractive. There's the obvious, like finding makeup looks that make you feel pretty (or attract other people to you), or finding clothing styles that really suit your body, or, at the more extreme end, getting cosmetic procedures done to change how you look. I recognize that this is a bit of a problematic suggestion given that we're all supposed to learn to love ourselves the way we are and never put any effort into "improving" our appearance, and I feel a kind of kneejerk reaction of guilt for moving away from that. But fashion and cosmetics are such giant industries for a reason; they make people feel more beautiful. And in a world that insists on beauty, I don't think there's anything wrong with using the tools available to us to feel more beautiful.
As an extension of the physical, or perhaps, as an alternative, you could focus on style instead of beauty. This idea of style as an alternative to beauty is one that I was introduced to through a Contrapoints video where Natalie discusses her own relationship to beauty. In it, she talks about how a person can be stylish at any age, regardless of if your physical appearance is conventionally attractive. It's a way to cultivate a personal visual aesthetic for yourself, one that lets people know who you are without having to conform to beauty standards. Style is a way to stand out and to be seen, beauty or not.
Which, in a roundabout kind of way, brings me to my second point- the internal. Oftentimes, I think we approach physical attractiveness as if it's a purely physical trait, but that's not really the case. Think about the women who are consistently voted as "the most attractive woman alive". They're not usually the blonde, baby faced lingerie models that we (culturally) think of as the pinnacles of beauty. They're typically actresses. And sure, they're physically beautiful, at least, after the cosmetic surgeons, makeup artists, stylists, hairdressers, and photo editors have done their jobs (you would be surprised how many celebrities aren't naturally beautiful).
But more than being physically attractive, they're charismatic. It may sound cliched or a bit mumsy, but I really do think that we're attracted to confidence and charisma more than we are to how a person physically looks. And that's why style works; it's a physical expression of confidence in yourself, a visual expression of charisma.
So, okay, then, how do we build charisma? MacArthur “genius” psychologist Angela Duckworth says that charisma basically boils down to communicating, “I like you and I like me/the world likes me”. If you want to communicate that you like someone else, eye contact, saying their name in conversation, and being interested in them and what they’re saying are all easy ways to do it. Communicating, “I like me” or “the world likes me” is more complicated, and it’s really where confidence comes into play.  Smiling, not being self-deprecating, and holding yourself in a way that communicates confidence (open and with good posture) are all part of that. But to truly like yourself, you need to start building your self-confidence.
Building self-confidence is a process, but I would start with a simple exercise. Every morning, look at yourself in the mirror and say some things you like about yourself.  Focus on those things that you like and try to only focus on those things.  Each day, try to add a new thing to the list.  When you’re out and about, remember those things that you like about yourself, focus on them, and try to draw attention to them.  When other people compliment you, add those to your list as well.  I think eventually by recognizing all of the things that you like about yourself, you’ll be able to feel like there are things about you that you can be confident in, and you won’t focus so much on the things that you feel are negative. These don't have to be just physical attributes; include things about your personality and your relationship to world as well.
Another thing you can try is looking for celebrities who you find beautiful who have similar traits to the ones you dislike in yourself. It can be hard to appreciate our own traits or see them as beautiful, but sometimes seeing them on someone else can help us to realize that actually, they can be really pretty.
Finally (and sorry this has been so long, there really was a lot to talk about here), it's okay to totally move past how you look and to adopt a policy of body neutrality. You don't owe anyone physical beauty. You can live a fulfilled life without being attractive. Your body is capable of doing all sorts of things that allow you to engage with the world, and that is more than enough. Practicing body neutrality may include things like being grateful that your legs allow you to walk from point A to B, or that your arms allow you to hug your loved ones, or that your lungs allow you to breathe. It may look like wearing clothes that are comfortable for you instead of focusing on how they look. It may look like caring for your body because regardless of how you feel about it, it's the only one you have. It may be focusing on your passions and goals and appreciating how your body allows you to achieve them. It's okay to not want to engage with beauty as a concept.
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blossom-hwa · 3 years
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Shimmering Scales and Glittering Wings - HYUNJIN
I chose to put this one up now because Halloween is tomorrow and costumes are an essential part of Halloween >:) It also takes place in the same universe as Changbin’s drabble, though there’s only a mention of it here! Enjoy~
Unbeleafable prompt: costumes
Pairing: Hyunjin x fem!reader
Genre: fluff, mystic!au
Triggers: some cursing
Word Count: 1k
You and Hyunjin dress up as each other for Halloween. It makes for a very interesting event.
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“Let me get this straight.” You rub your forehead. “You want me to go to the Halloween party dressed up as… you?”
Hyunjin nods, eyes large and puppy-like across the table. “It’ll be fun!”
Normally, you might be inclined to agree. Even though your boyfriend doesn’t always have the best ideas, they usually end in stomachaches from laughing too hard. But right now, you can’t see the appeal of wearing Hyunjin’s clothes – most of which are too big for you – and entering a party full of people who will see, point, and laugh at the hoodie dragging down to your thighs. And you don’t think Hyunjin would have a fun time wearing your t-shirts or dresses that are really just too small.
“Why do you think it’d be fun to wear each other’s clothes?” you finally ask.
His eyebrows furrow. “What?”
“You wanted to dress up as each other, right?” You gesture at your shirt. “My clothes are too small for you. Your clothes are too big for me. Why is that fun? Except at home.”
“Noooooooo,” Hyunjin whines, bonking his head on the table. “No, no, no. I meant you dress up as a mermaid! And I dress up as a fae!”
“… Oh.”
That makes so much more sense.
Your boyfriend pouts (and it’s stupidly adorable – you want to kiss him but it’s not the time), playing with your fingers. “Y/N, I thought you were supposed to be the smart one of us two!”
“And I am. But given our respective levels of intelligence, being smarter than either one of us isn’t difficult.” Before Hyunjin can start pouting again at that backhanded insult, you return to the subject at hand. “Hyunjin, I don’t know if you know this, but I’ve never dressed up for Halloween.”
“Yeah, I do know.” He scowls. “I saw you show up to Changbin’s girlfriend’s party every year for three years wearing your regular clothes and insisting you dressed up as ‘yourself.’ Which is why I’m changing that this year by making you a costume!”
And what are you going to do to his pouting face? Say no? You say no to a lot of things Hyunjin suggests already, just because he’s so excited that he doesn’t always think about the possible dangers to whatever his idea is (he can’t function without water on his gills for more than a few hours, a fact that he alarmingly forgets all the time). This, by contrast, is relatively foolproof and safe. So you sigh and nod. “Sure, Jinnie.”
He cheers loudly enough that several of the café customers turn and stare.
. . . . .
So here you are, standing in front of the mirror in the outfit Hyunjin designed for you, attempting to pull the pieces of cloth into their proper places.
This costume feels weird. You can’t easily move your legs with the material hugging them close together, and even though you have your wings out (it’s Halloween, okay, people will just think you’re a fairy mermaid, which is cooler than a regular mermaid anyway), their movement still feels a bit constricted with the tight top around your chest.
It’s about as realistic as your fashion major mermaid boyfriend could make, though. The fabric sparkles like his own tail (it’s even the same color – pearly white). Little patches of glitter on your neck mimic the scales that shimmer on Hyunjin’s skin, and light makeup draws your eyes out a bit more.
The amount of effort Hyunjin put into this outfit is clear from the first look. It makes you wonder how much time he put into his – what does a “typical” dark fae look like, anyway?
“Hyunjin?” you call, poking your head out of your room. “Uh, are you ready?”
There’s a crash, a thump, then a muffled, “Give me a minute!” from the bathroom.
You snort, heading out to the living room. You wonder how he finally figured out the wings. Their shimmer is very hard to replicate, as he complained to you multiple times over the past few weeks.
Quick footsteps sound down the hall and then Hyunjin himself appears. “Ta-da!”
Your jaw fucking drops.
In a flowing shirt and black pants, dark makeup obscuring his features into an elusive mask, your boyfriend looks nothing like his usual self. He looks like a dark fae born out of the pits of the earth, wings fluttering behind him dangerously, alluringly, sparkling in the dim hall light.
Oh god, the fucking wings. You don’t know how he did it. They look almost exactly like yours, just a bit plasticky and artificial.
“Do I look good?” Hyunjin finally asks. His eyes, warm and deep, look a bit uncertain at your stunned silence. 
No amount of makeup could make those eyes truly deadly, you think, swallowing. But that’s fine by you. You’d like to keep your cheerful boyfriend the way he is now. You can handle the darkness.
“Yeah,” you finally breathe. “Yeah, you look… beautiful.”
Hyunjin breaks into a grin, a wide grin of pure happiness that brings a smile to your face as well. “So do you,” he says, pulling you up from the couch. His fingers, warm against your skin, send a shiver up your spine. Your own wings flutter happily. “I didn’t know I was this good of a designer, hmm?”
“Hey, stop fishing for compliments.” You laugh anyway, brushing a fallen strand of hair out of his face. “Ready to go?”
“Almost. I have rules for you first.” Hyunjin looks at you sternly. “No tricking people into giving you secrets, names, mother’s names, father’s names, siblings’ names, addresses, phone numbers, or anything that could possibly give you power over them, even if it’s strictly for entertainment purposes.”
You groan theatrically. “I can’t get drunk, Hyunjin, how the hell do you expect me to have any fun otherwise?”
“You can take videos of Eric when he gets wasted,” Hyunjin offers. “Or have a sleep-talking conversation with Felix when he inevitably passes out. I hear that’s very entertaining.” He smirks. “Also, I’m always there for you to have fun with.”
“Well, I suppose that’s true.” You pat his cheek. “But I’m only going to abide by your rules if you promise not to forget the fact that your gills will dry out after three hours, tops, and if I’m not there to dump water on your neck, you better do it yourself.”
“Deal!” Hyunjin sings, linking your elbow with his. “We’re going to be the best-looking couple at the party.”
You laugh, leaning up to peck his lips. “That, we will.”
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Flower | 04
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; Hoseok x Reader
; Genre: Fluff, light angst, insinuated smut
; Word Count: 3.3k
; Synopsis: You finally decide to take a dip into the world of online dating and find the Flower dating app. One of the top matches for you proves to be a guy who looks to be your complete opposite; tattooed, pierced, a metalhead and oh…incredibly handsome. What happens when you throw caution to the wind and reach out to him?
; A/N: This week...you get two chapters! The usual Sunday chapter will also occur, but I didn’t want to leave you waiting for the second half of their date too long! So...consider this my Black Friday deal I guess? Let me know what you think, I love reading you love your this <3
; Flower Masterpost
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Inhaling deeply, you let your cheeks puff out as you slowly let out the breath that you’re trying to use to calm yourself down. Tonight is officially the night, the date. Or whatever he wanted to call it. And here you were, in the outfit in your best friends had picked, waiting for one Jung Hoseok to appear.
You’d been terrified all day that he wouldn’t actually turn up. That he’d ghost you, and you’d have to fight the tears as you called Soyeon and Chungha to tell them that the emergency supplies were in fact necessary. Even though Hoseok had messaged you again this afternoon, reminding you of your date.
As if you were somehow going to forget a scheduled date with him!
But you were here, at the appointed time outside of the large modern art statue in the centre of the city. It was a common spot for people to meet up as it allowed for quick and easy access to most places within walking distance so you weren’t surprised that he’d picked here. Plus, it was in public and you appreciate all the people who were around.
Pulling your phone out of your bag, you turn the screen on and check the time once more, frowning slightly when you see that he’s two minutes late. It might not seem a lot, but you always got a little antsy and worried when people were late. You usually turned up fifteen minutes early and then just waited around. 
Better to be early rather than late.
“Y/N?” The deep voice comes from your left, causing you to squeak in surprise as you jump, whirling around almost comically to face one Jung Hoseok. Who looks even more handsome than his photos make out, which is just plain wrong. That should not be allowed. You were probably a colossal disappointment in comparison.
He was dressed equally casual to you, black skinny jeans with rips clinging to his legs and ending in leather military style boots while a plain white shirt adorned his chest beneath a black leather jacket and thick silver chains around his neck. You couldn’t help but take a small step back, looking over his visage with wide eyes as your mind accepted the fact that people like him really did exist in real life.
His hair was styled for once, swept off his forehead in a look that had obviously been done on purpose and yet looked completely effortless while the nearby lights from a shop front shone off the silver ring in his lower lip. 
“We match.” You say dumbly, pointing at his clothes before cringing at how dumb you sound. It throws him for a moment, dark brows rising on his statuesque face before his eyes run over your body before looking down at his own. And then he smiles, and you swear your knees go a little weak.
Because if Jung Hoseok is handsome normally, then he’s out of this world when he smiles. It positively lights up his face and his eyes almost gleam with happiness as he lets out a raspy laugh.
“So we do. You look very beautiful. Your makeup is amazing!” Hoseok exclaimed, eyes widening as he leans a little closer to take in the carefully placed makeup that you’d spent half an hour putting on. It’s nothing hugely special, a little bit of a smokey eye with black eyeliner and a shimmer of rose glitter on the lids of yours with a touch of silver glitter liquid eyeliner. You’d wanted to match your outfit and put in a little bit of an effort, but not make it look like you were ready to walk a red carpet.
Still, your stomach swirled with a combination of happiness at his compliment and nerves at the overall meeting. The teenage part that still lived in you wanted to scream and jump at the fact he’d called you beautiful. Hands clutching at nothing once you put your phone away, you glance at him from beneath your mascara covered eyelashes and smile shyly.
“Thanks. You look good too.” The words are almost mumbled out and you grimace at yourself, nose wrinkling as you wrack your brain for what you’re supposed to say to him now. You never had any idea how these kinds of conversations were meant to go and you made a slightly odd noise before gesturing lamely. 
“So...what do you, I mean...what are we doing for our date-I mean...hang out? Or whatever this is.” Idly, you eye the fountain ahead of you and wonder how quickly he might leave if you just jumped into it and refused to come out. Because the awkwardness was building and you felt jumpy with the nerves and anxiety, desperate to give him a good impression but so unaware of how to do that.
He doesn’t laugh at you thought, just gives you a gentle smile before gesturing down one of the streets. You start to move automatically, the ghost of pressure from his hand on your back sending tingles around your body and you look up at him through wide eyes, noting how beautiful his side profile is.
Your side profile probably didn’t look that pretty.
“Well...I guessed that you might be a little nervous about tonight given how quickly you tried to back out of talking to me...so I thought we could do something that means we have to work together and talk, without actually having to talk about anything serious. So...I booked us an escape room and then we could have dinner after?” He sounds so carefree about it and you pause for a moment before gasping in delight.
“Oh my god! I’ve always wanted to do an escape room! Is it themed? I saw there was a Harry Potter one somewhere and that would be so cool! I don’t really know how they work and I’ve always been a little afraid to do them in case I’m too stupid to figure them out.” You don’t realise your babbling till you catch sight of his grin once more, body heating in embarrassment as you duck your head and apologise.
Immediately though he’s soothing your fears, giving you little cooing noises and an overly dramatic expression that has you snorting out a laugh. “Hey, don’t do that! It’s cute, I’m glad you’re excited. That’s what I wanted. I wanted to try and find a way to make you a bit more comfortable. I know how nerve wracking first dates are and I’ve been pretty nervous too.”
You look at him then, a look of pure disbelief written all over your face so plainly that he lets out a bark of laughter, his hand coming up to cover his mouth as he points at you with the other. “Oh god, your face. I have! I’m not lying. I know I can look pretty intimidating but I’m just a guy and first dates are just as scary for me.”
“Mmm, I’m sure they are. Especially when you look like...this.” A brief movement of your hand gestures to his whole body and he looks down with a breathy laugh again, shaking his head before looking at you, tongue running along his lower lip. 
“I get the feeling you’re pretty blunt and sarcastic. Am I right?” Immediately you look away, shoulders hunching as your hands grip your bag tightly. 
“Sorry. I don’t mean to. I don’t mean to sound like that, it just comes out.” He’s shaking his head though, smiling to himself as he looks forwards and directs you down another street before pointing at the sign for the escape room.
“It’s okay. I like people who speak their mind. As long as I know that you’re joking if you say something mean…” You go to protest at that but it dies at the sign of mischief in his eyes, recognising that he’s coaxing you out of the shell he obviously knows you must have built so strongly around yourself. And your heart warmed in response, glad that he’s not immediately pushing you away and in fact encouraging you.
“We’ll see if you still think that after we’ve got out of the room...if we can get out.” Hoseok hums, tapping his finger against his lip ring before grinning brightly, opening the door to the business and giving a completely over the top and ridiculous ‘enter’ gesture that has him bowing comically. Even as silly as it looked, he still looked amazing yet you felt a little more at ease with how open and friendly he was being.
“After you my lady. I have full faith we will get out. How hard can these things be?”
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“What the actual fuck was that. Seriously! We didn’t even get out of the first damn room, I didn’t even know they had more than one room!” Hoseok rants, his cheeks slightly red as his brow creases while he gesticulated wildly through his rant. You watch him, amused for a few moments before continuing to walk along with him.
Despite his bravado at the start, you had both actually done abysmal in the escape room. You’d quickly discovered that Hoseok had absolutely no idea what he was doing in there and you’d tried your hardest, only to discover that you’d been fixating on a strange looking picture which actually had absolutely nothing to do with anything.
The staff had been incredibly amused when they finally let you out after an hour, telling you both cheerfully that no one had ever not managed to get out of the first room before. At least you’d made an impression on them, and you’d probably be an amusing story for Hoseok’s friends too.
He certainly was going to be for Chungha and Soyeon.
It had been fun though, oddly fun to say you were making no progress. Hoseok was funny, the kind of guy who made you laugh without even realising he was trying as he’d talked to himself in confusion, brows knitted together before exclaiming in a loud and suddenly thick dialect. You’d ended up spending a lot of time giggling at him and surprisingly, you’d managed to find out more than you’d expected during that hour.
He’d talked about how his friends would love to come and do this but that he wasn’t sure if they’d do worse or better. Apparently, the thought that two called Yoongi and Seokjin would probably do well. They were both sales account managers at Seokjin’s father’s company while someone called Taehyung worked as a customer service rep at the same company.
He was apparently the blue haired guy in Hoseok’s profile picture on Facebook, while the pink guy was Jimin. He worked as a bartender at the usual place Hoseok and his friends drank at; a dive bar basically that was frequented by bands trying to start their career. Jungkook was in college, doing a postgrad degree in sports psychology and his final friend, Namjoon, was a lawyer. 
The diversity of his friends bemused you, but he’d said that was because most of them he’d met in college. Jungkook was apparently one of Taehyung’s friends who’d slowly become integrated with Hoseok’s friend group once he’d gone to college whilst Namjoon was a childhood friend. You’d found it fascinating that he considered six people his close friends when you couldn’t imagine having more than two or three.
It was then that he’d queried your friends, asking if you had anyone who might like to come to an escape room. Chungha would have been happy to get involved but you knew that Soyeon didn’t like the idea of being locked in somewhere. She had claustrophobia and while it wasn’t bad enough to make her panic in an escape room, she wouldn’t be happy at not being able to escape.
Other than that, it had mostly been passing comments that had led to small discussions between the two of you as you both tried to figure out what you were doing. Which evidently hadn’t worked, given you hadn’t gotten out but it had relaxed you all the same. You’d almost felt comfortable around him by the end, the fact it was a date pushed out of your mind until you’d both finally walked out of the door.
And now you were faced with the dinner. On the one hand, you were eager because you were hungry but on the other hand, it meant that you had to finally talk one on one, without the interruption of something else. Hoseok doesn’t seem to notice your sudden quietness, his hands gesticulating as he continues to talk about your previous activity and you follow along.
You don’t know where he’s taking you, but you hope it’s somewhere nice and not too fancy. Somewhere that you’ll actually enjoy the food. He pauses suddenly, mouth open and letting you get a glimpse of the silver ball in the middle of his tongue and you feel warm at the sight, wiggling slightly as your best friends comments race through your head out of nowhere.
“Oh god, imagine getting oral from him. That tongue and piercing...oof...yes please.” Soyeon sighed, fanning her face and looking up to the ceiling as Chungha lets out a low whistle. The photo they’re looking at is one where Hoseok is sticking his tongue out fully, a festival scene behind him and his tongue piercing clearly on display.
Her comment makes your cheeks heat while you squirm slightly, embarrassed at what she said but even more embarrassed at the fact you too had thought of that already. There was no way in hell that you would admit to perhaps touching yourself to the thought of that tongue doing things to you.
“I bet he knows how to use it too. That man has the confidence of someone who’s brought many to orgasm. Girl, you are going to be so lucky if everything works out!” Chungha giggles, pushing at your shoulder while you whine softly to her. You could only hope that you wouldn’t end up hyper fixating on that piercing, because it had become one of your little group of friends favourite things about him.
Needless to say, that hadn’t worked and you let out the quietest breath as he ran that tongue over his teeth slowly, eyes focused away from you and completely unaware of just how ridiculous hot he was right now. It was just plain wrong, yet you can’t pull your eyes away from the straight lines of his jaw, nor the way the tendons in his neck strain just right as he looks down the street.
“Are you okay?” You croak out, coughing slightly to clear your throat and you hope he hasn’t noticed how husky your voice sounds. Thankfully though, he jerks in response to your voice and looks at you slightly dazed for a moment, dark eyes focusing again before he smiles lopsided.
“Yeah, sorry. I just...I don’t remember how to get to the restaurant I was thinking of. Do you like Indian food? There’s this really great place...that I know is here somewhere. I think we need to backtrack and then I can find it,” He pauses before giving a self-deprecating laugh. “Sorry, you’ve discovered flaw number one already. I am useless with directions. Don’t ever ask me to find somewhere. We’d end up in France. Don’t ask how, we just would.”
The laugh that leaves you is unexpected and loud, but you can’t help it and you see him grin in response out of the corner of your eye. He’s looking at you expectantly though, one brow raised as he reaches up and runs his fingers through his hair. Eyeing him for a moment, you nod your head and grasp desperately for the right words.
“That’s fine, I’m great with directions, luckily. I think I know where you mean, it should be back down the street and then to the right.” Pointing, his eyes follow your hand and he lets out a little ‘ah’ noise before smiling brightly.
“Great. Let’s go. I want to eat some good ass food. Mmmm, it’s been so long.” He moans out and you almost choke on your own spit at the sound, body feeling very warm at the overly sexual sound. The man just oozes sex appeal and it’s almost appalling how attractive you find it, but it also leaves you very flustered and unsure what to do.
So you just begin walking in the direction you’d pointed, staring down at the ground while your hands grasp at your bag and your shoulders rise up almost to your ears. A huff of laughter is behind you before the sound of shoes hitting the ground takes over, echoing over the quiet street and then he’s next to you again.
“Hey don’t leave me! How will I ever find it?” Hoseok pouts almost comically and you watch him for a few seconds before raising your brow.
“You’re a big boy. I’m sure you know how to use Google.” There’s a moment of silence and you wince, just about ready to tell him that you’re sorry and you didn’t mean to insult him. Because he was probably insulted, or offended. Or something at you. Either way, you could’ve been nicer.
But instead, he just lets out a loud laugh and shakes his head in amusement before looking you over with an expression that’s almost fond. “Point taken. Let’s go get some food. I want some naan bread.” 
“Did you know that naan just means bread in Old Persian so technically you’re just asking for bread bread?” The words come out automatically, your natural instinct to just give a random fact and you don’t even realise it. It was something you’ve always liked to do, looking up information and absorbing it like a sponge. Your friends liked to joke that you were always prepared for a general knowledge quiz.
“Yeah? Why do we call it a naan bread then?” Hoseok asks cheerfully, interest laced in his voice and you shrug in response.
“For the same reason we say chai tea or Sahara desert. There’s also Lake Tahoe, because Tahoe apparently comes from a Native American word meaning, you guessed it...lake. Another favourite of mine is Table Mesa, which just means table table.” You carry on, remembering more examples as you continue and you laugh in amusement at yourself.
Hoseok chuckles as he walks alongside you, giving you a look that you don’t notice as you babble on about places that are also similarly named, letting you telling him more and more places while he just listens. Finally, you realise that you’ve been talking for too long and give him a chagrined look before apologising.
He just shakes his head and grins. “No...it’s okay. Oh...I know of one! The Los Angeles Angels! That just means The The Angels Angels. You’d think that we’d take into consideration the original language meaning sometimes wouldn’t you? Though I guess every language does it.”
The casual acceptance he gives you of the random tangent you’d just gone on warms something inside you and the fact he’s even actively got involved makes you smile ever so softly. Nodding at him, you note that you’ve finally arrived at the restaurant and duck your head down.
“Okay...let’s go...oh my god. I should tell Jungkook about that naan thing. He can just say ‘let’s get this naan!’” You frown in confusion but he just laughs in response, shaking his head and gently pushing you through the door. “I’ll explain inside. Come on, I want to eat!”
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sinnercerely · 4 years
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𝕋ɪʟʟ ᴅᴇᴀᴛʜ ᴅᴏᴇs ᴜs ᴀᴘᴀʀᴛ|
To be her’s and only her’s! //  𝒯𝑜𝑔𝒶 + 𝑅𝑒𝒶𝒹𝑒𝓇!
♡ Toga only. However, a poly relationship with uraraka is coming! ♡
🥀 reader-type:
o Black (familiar with African-American culture) 
♡ She/Her/They/Them
o Asexual
♡ Feline Quirk 🥀
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Headcannon: Himiko and the reader’s relationship dynamic and love between the two troublemakers! ————————————🔪————————————
(fluff!) |Here kitty, kitty, kitty!
🌸 Possessive
🔪 Touch-Starved
🌸 ChAoTiC/IMPULSIVE
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🌸 A week hasn’t even passed, yet she is absolutely DEDICATED to you. She makes sure to kiss all your tears away and clean all your wounds. Emotionally and physically.
🍡 When she cleans your cuts and bruises from fights with heroes, that slimy bastard is all over you (her tongue)! She won’t lick you on the intimate parts of your body, she respects you too much to break your boundaries!
🌸 When it comes to comforting you, she loves to make jokes out of dark situations. Nothing is off-limits for her unless you say so. If you want her to be more serious, she will, even if that lasts for at least 3 minutes. She will always be serious about you, so she will show you that. As long as you give her cuddles for her effort! She wouldn’t want for her kitten to be forced to be put back in their place...though, you do look cute with bite marks, cuts, and bruises...
🍡 Won’t let her help you? Fine. Hope you are prepared for feral Toga. She gets nasty with you by, talking over you, attacking you with her love bites in public, ignoring you when you want her attention, killing everyone in the damn place for talking or looking at you, and cutting you with her knife. The cuts usually are on your thighs, stomach, and arms. She would mark your face, but, that area is for her slaps. Though, don’t worry she would kiss all the tears away and makeup if you wear that. Just...let her love you lol.
🌸 If you have a side job, she will stand in the corner of the store and watch you. Her posture tenses up when someone gets near you. God forbid someone tries to hit on you...at least 5 bodies are dumped in the dumpster at the back of the building. She won’t even collect their blood. Only the tastiest and worthy blood enters her. So...I hope you can handle her trying to suck onto you like a CapriSun lol. Even when you are working. Might need to knock her in the head to stop her.
🍡 Now, is you won’t allow her to be in the building you are in, that’s fine. She will follow you either way. Behind a counter? She is outside the door and staring at you with a hoodie that says ‘Thot Destroyer’. Getting some fresh air? Cool, she’ll stand on top of a building and stare down at you. Taking a shower?.........where are your clothes?
🌸 She has a tracklist of being a pervert, so, yeah, she will take your clothes to admire your body as you search for a new set of clothes...which is all under her butt. But, you don’t need to know that :].
🍡 Insecure about your body? Oh hell no! Not on her watch! “WHAT?!- DID SOMEONE SAY SOMETHING ABOUT YOUR BODY KITTEN?!?- OH HELL NO-” If you have slang in your vocabulary, she will take that crap and slander a bitch until all their insecurities are popping out. She will drag that bitch by their roots (anyone can get it) and disfigure their asses. Just to throw their asses outside with no dignity and missing limbs (if that’s what you want honey) or slowly and painfully end them. 
🌸 No one is making you insecure? So, your thoughts are making you insecure? "Well, when are those thoughts gonna show up for these rounds?". She is kidding of course. She would make sure to praise you every day and 24/7. Feel ‘too fat’? She will encourage you to wear tight underwear and kiss all your fat! Suffocate her with your thighs, please! PLEASE. Discolorment on your body? She will spoil you in products that will help ease that insecurity while making sure it does not hurt your gorgeous melanin!
🍡 Now for the educational bit! Japan isn’t free from colorist ideas and racism. So, you need to be honest about your experiences with being black in Japan. She will educate herself on black culture and history, if anyone tries to deny the damage colonists have created, bastards are gonna be laying cold on the floor. She isn’t ignorant to how shitty black people are treated, especially if you are dark-skinned, just know she isn’t gonna be a ‘savior’ for black people. She will be an ally, she will respect your culture, and hit people with true history!
🌸 Now, back on insecurities, creams that 'lighten your skin' is very common in Asia. So, she would not shame you if you did that or is considering doing that, she will however compliment you. Not for brightening your skin, but for being black. She will praise your culture and make sure to buy things that are very prominent in your community. She will encourage you to start embracing that melanin! You do not have to pay for your thickness, big lips, beautiful big eyes, and THAT SHINE. My dude, that glow on dark skin...welp, she is jealous!
🍡 She will definitely do your hair for you! No matter how long it may take, she will make sure your hair is healthy and moisturized! She will order products from amazon for your hair type if you are going natural, like puffballs, afros, braids, and etc. However if you have your hair relaxed or permed, she will buy the best products for your hair, things that strengthen your hair definitely. Wear wigs? Cool! She will try some on with you! Praise you, no matter what others think, you are beautiful/gorgeous/breathtaking with and without the wig.
🌸 Though, she will need to be reminded to not harshly brush your hair, since your ears are big and blends into your hair (and well it hurts as well!). She will be mindful but will mess with your ears, you will need to bite her hands to get her to stop!
🍡 When she is allowed to bathe you, she will fill the bathtub with bubbles and terrorize you! She will scare you by popping out of the water without your acknowledgment, pull your fluffy tail, and tickle you into submission so she can mess with your big ears. So, lock your bathroom door! But, even then, she will wait in a bathroom counter just to bathe with you, soooo, you do not have a choice.
🌸 Anyway, she goes by the rule, “Talk shit, get hit.” Soooo, yeah, lol. She does not play when it comes to you, no matter how different you are to her, she will love you regardless! You two are always ready to fight for each other, so you two are quite the dynamic! Plus, fashionable! Even when blood stains your clothes, beauty cannot be hidden, love.
🍡 Now for some chaos! You two steal from everywhere! Malls, houses, banks, and grocery stores of course! Toga tends to overfill her bra with snacks for you and her (even if you don’t want to eat something, she will ‘gently’ force food down your throat). She likes to get you thicker, even if you are skinny, she will want some type of change in your body, even if it just shows in your face. Also, she will make sure to get supplies for periods as well, if you have those.
🌸 If you two are unfortunate enough to have devils disguised as the uterus, you two will cry, stuff your faces, force a lot of water into your system, and holding heat pads against each other! Even if you don’t have that, she needs you! The girl throws up, cries, and can faint when on her period. So, cuddle her, make her food (something is southern please! She likes southern food from America! Grits, biscuits with gravy, and sausage please!) even cover her in kisses, she will pay you back when the pain stops :)
🍡 When you two are working in the LOV, you two create a lot of fun. Stealing Tomura’s game systems to throw them in the nearby garage bin, cock blocking Dabi, hooking Mr. Compress up with multiple people (even if they are married 👀), and being degenerates in public while cosplaying with Spinner. When Tomura tries to end you two, Toga whips his ass lol. You’ll jump in of course (don’t worry, Tomura won’t actually kill you two, you two are too valuable to the team. Also, he loves his team! He will kill for you two! He loves y’all too much 🥺). Dabi will laugh his ass off while recording the scene, Spinner’s jaw is on the floor, but he is chuckling silently, Mr. Compress breaks it up, but he does watch for a while and poorly hides laughter. So, Tomura now sits in the corner of the bar and complains under his breath, if Toga looks at him, he turns away and tenses up. Toga is a baddie honestly!
🌸 For softer days, you and her whip Tomura’s ass while playing games (he will use cheats to prevent this! Do not say anything though, he is a brat and will dust your controller right there and then). Next, go to the arcade with Spinner, you two always compliment him to ease his insecurities. When someone says something about his appearances, you and Toga plan a homicide. Now, being lazy with Dabi is rare, but fun. You all chat about random stuff, even if he taunts you two, he does still listen and care (he is trying!) about you two. Finally, Mr. Compress is the person who takes you two out for dinner. Toga eats like a pig, but you and Mr. Compress wipe her off and scold her. She has a tendency to swipe both of you two's food, so be careful, and she does bite if you try to take it back!
🍡 You two made a nighttime routine, which will include cuddles, kisses, and a lot of talking. She can not shut up until you fall asleep, she usually talks about the future and how much she loves you. She is considering repurposing her life because she wants you to be able to reach your dreams without her criminal record weighing you down. Even though you have a criminal record as well, she is willing to do anything just for you to go get a high school diploma and go to college. No matter what it takes. She wants you to be happy, successful, and healthy. Hopefully, you two can change together. She would not look bad in a doctor’s coat, and you would not look bad with a diamond ring on your finger...
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dochudsonshoe · 4 years
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𝙵𝚒𝚗𝚍 𝚈𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏 𝕒 𝕤𝕒𝕝𝕝𝕪 𝕔𝕒𝕣𝕣𝕖𝕣𝕒 𝕗𝕒𝕟𝕗𝕚𝕔𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟
Dear hopeless god, she should have brought something with her, do you think? Her hands were busied bracken upon the wheel of the car. She bent her head down, letting the music wash over her, drown out every last sound ’til she was a cavity of emptiness. And she drove. And the road peeled away.
Let me say that she did not bring another pair of clothes. She did not bring anything from her house except what she came in, blue t-shirt, tight jeans and dead phone. Why? Because she was sick of never feeling a thing.
The path turned as she began rolling down fields of grass, through pretty hanging lights and beyond. How steady the beast below her was! Then, it all stopped. The car reeved.
“No. No. No.” She mumbled, watching it complain fruitfully. She didn’t know how long she’d driven. It wasn’t nice that her car would break down now. But that was exactly what it was doing. Sal got out. The rain slapped her face and broke her clothes. Any efforts to start the car were useless. In the end, she pushed it off the road. Wrapping her hands around herself for comfort, she began to walk. Wind and rain cut at her lips, causing them to turn a retched shade of white. She could have given up. But.. Yes! There was a light glistening not far off. She turned her body. It seemed that it had been further than it looked for it took her hours to get there. By the time she arrived, she no longer felt anything. Correction. Her hands were limp at her side and her whole body was cold as snow. Her soul, however, felt a little bit of the liveness people said she should feel. Crawling closer and closer, her eyes lit upon a sign near the road. It’s words read ‘Route 66’ in a tainted and faint way. There were lights hanging over the buildings. Next to them all was a bundle of flowers. It was dark and no one was out. She barely saw anything but the light she had seen echoed from a building across the road. Her feet felling the unevenness of the path, she entered the building and swung open the door.
Everyone’s eyes stared at her. There were less people in the inn than she would have thought. The ones that were there lined the benches. All slightly eccentric. A hippie in the corner with flowers in his hair, a tall and dark stranger, a man in the shadows dressed in a red jumper. They had stopped their actives, drinks half pressed to her lips.
What they saw was a girl, who’s clothes had been ripped at. Her hands were covered in bruises, her lip embossed in a cut, her jeans ripped and her knees no better. Water dripped from her shoulders. She had flowers and leaves in her hair, mud splashed willy—nilly on half of her face.
“Woah man.” The hippie whispered from the table. “Flo. You gotta come.”
The woman, Flo, appeared two seconds later; long black hair tied into a bun and a smear of wine on her hands.
“O, babe.” She said, “Come on.”
Sal stood staring at both of them. Good god, I can’’t make them help me. Then she remembered how cruel the walk had been and how, she had more than once thought of death. Sally went with Flo.
The room they entered was a kind of warm Sally wanted to get used to. Flo lead her inside, pointed at the bathroom and told her to wash. That bathroom was beautiful. The water; lovely. Sally tilted her head to taste it. It was a short lived wonder. Soon, her body was aching. She turned the tap off and wrapped herself in a blue towel, her hands attempting to pull some of her hair out of her face. Flo had asked no questions since she had got here, she braced for them now. The feeling of dread escalated when she remembered that she had only brought one pair of clothes. Those wet things lay in the bathtub, wretched and uninvited. That's when Flo came in.
“You look like a Goddess. I hope you like it here.” She said, hanging around the towel rack. She seemed confident in herself as if she had found all Sal had yet to. Her posture was one that said, ‘I know my place.’ It seemed her place was around this town. The compliments she gave were not creepy. They felt natural, as if she was merely stating all she thought. The open and friendly nature inspired a sense of trust. Catching Sally looking at the bundle of the clothes in the bath, Flo said, ‘I am not letting you wear those. You may be a stranger but I’ve never turned away company. Wait here. I might have something for you.”
Sally seriously doubted that Flo had something for her. The clothes she was wearing seemed a little eccentric for Sally’s taste. Yet, what Flo came back was a blue ‘I love route 66’ shirt.
“Sorry, love.” She said as she passed it to Sally, “Lizzy’s old merch is probarbly not what you wanted.”
Sally laughed as she held it. Then, clapped her hands around her mouth.
“Oh god. I’m sorry. It’s perfect.”
Flo should have searched for answers from the line in her eyebrows to the curve in her lips. Strangely, she seemed to accept this. Just as she accepted anyone who opened those doors. That’s what she reminded Sal of; a woman who loved her town and was loved by it back. Who would do anything for it, even stay when there was nothing left.
“Well,” Flo shrugged, ruffling her hair with the back of her hands, “Best to do something about your cuts. I’ll be back in a second.”
Strangely curious, Sally wandered out of Flo’s bathroom. Or at least she meant to, what came was a more like a limp. Making her way to the counter, something strange caught her eye. Flo was packing; she put clothes in first, perfectly folded as if they were prepared for moving around, then she placed in her makeup kit, last to go in was the toothbrush.
Do you think he’d mind? She asked herself, moving her hand over the fabric. If he does, the voice in her head said with a smile, you’ll set him right.
She swung her bag over her shoulder and looked back to Sally.
“Come on, darling. I know someone who’ll fix you up.”
They walked down the road. Buildings lined the path. Each one alive in their own way. Sal could sense it.
“Lean on me.” Flo’s command left Sal little choice. Upon telling Flo she was grateful for she needed it (much to her surprise), Sal saw a smile. Ask no questions, seemed to be the policy of this town, be ready for anything.
It barely took two minutes before they were at a door. The words on the hanging steal over the wide white doors read ‘Doctor Hudson; Wheel-well clinic.’ The next one, ‘Home of the Town Sheriff; specialising in catching bad guys’ or something like that. Flo swung the door open.
“They’re probarbly sleeping.” Flo left her to go into the room. The Sheriff was splayed on one side of the bed.. His gun was on it’s bed side table. Two things Flo couldn’t help but notice; one, the man was wearing his normal clothes; white shirt and black pants as if he never had had anything else to wear, two; his hand was curled over Doc’s pillow. His fingers had fallen out of Doc’s hand while he was sleeping. The race car’s face was covered by many stolen blanket. Flo didn't have to say anything to wake Sheriff. That man was a light sleeper. He sometimes struggled to sleep at night; every little distraction threatening to wake him. It took him no time at all for his hands to reach for his gun.
“Blue blazers. What is it Flo? If someone is wrecking my town again I’ll have their head on a platter.”
“Calm down, love.” Flo said, looking over at the door. “A girl walked into my bar. She looks wrecked. I was wondering if you could wake Doc.”
He smiled. “You ask to much of me Flo,” Flo knew that was sarcasm. Sheriff would probably tear worlds apart if he thought someone needed him. “If he slaughters me make sure you rename him ‘The incredibly unfabolous (when sleepy) Hudson Hornet.”
“I was hoping you’d say that.” Flo said. She left Sheriff to wake up Doc. And she wouldn’t say that she didn’t pity him for his job. She could hear some grumblings as to what time it was and then, a loud, thud! Someone had fallen out of bed. They really needed to get better than that. After minutes, Doc came stumbling in. A ‘Respect Woman T-shirt’ pulled over his dreadlocks. He stifled a huge yawn.
“Can you go get my first aid kit?” He said.
Sheriff nodded. “On it, rookie.”
Soon, Sal was sitting in the corner. Doc poured ointment onto a cloth and dabbed her cuts. It stung and she hissed.
“They shouldn’t sting for long unless I’m a horrible doctor which,” Doc shrugged, his long hair falling over his shoulders, “I might be. Anyway I’m sorry about all this.”
Sally smiled. “It’s my fault for getting all these cuts in the first place.” Her hands had been burnt by the leather of her car.
“Where did you get them?” There was something about his face that made her want to tell the truth. Three things stood out; the mess of eyeliner that told of a reckless side, the bruises that said he was forgetful and the shirt he wore said he cared a shit lot.
“I drove all night.” She shrugged.
Doc whistled. “I can relate to that.” She thought he might be like her; someone who would pack up and leave his past behind if all went to hell. It was just a feeling. There was nothing to solify it, not even in his appearance. They continued to work on her cuts, moving from her hands to her shoulder.
“Are you married to Sheriff?” She asked for want of anything better to say. Truly, she didn’t care if he was or wasn’t. The silence between them felt like something made to be broken.
His lips curved to a smile. The words seemed to be already pressed on his lips. “Men can get married to whoever they like. But it’s not a thing all men should feel like they have to do. The married men aren’t better than those without a shiny ring. Society needs to stop pressing people to find a perfect person. Life isn't about that. Life is about finding something that fills your soul.” And being prepared to lose it. He added silently in his head. God, he still felt about that sometimes. The rush of the wind past his ears, going faster than he ever could, feeling immortal and so godly that he could do whatever he liked. It had fulfilled his soul and made him happy. And then it had crashed because of some bloody businessmen. Perhaps, it was good. Route 66 made him happy too.
“I like that. But,” She laughed again and this time she didn’t feel like she should cover it, “It doesn’t really answer my question. Are you in love with Sheriff?”
He looked up, trying to be truthful. “Yes. I absolutely am.”
Sally didn’t answer. She understood this man more every second she spent with him, some people were funny like that. Suddenly, the ointment clapped onto the bottle.
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They sent her to bed. She curled on the couch. Before she did, she made sure her phone was working again. Then, she sit it aside. She wasn’t prepared to talk to someone from her past life yet. The couch felt warm and much better than any bed she had ever slept in before. She could finally close her eyes without feeling anything surge up in her soul. Doc and Sheriff had let Flo stay over too, thank god. She closed her eyes opposite to Sal.
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In the morning, Sal woke up to the sound of robins. God, she loved them. Somehow they lifted the empty cavity of her soul and let her breathe again. Excitably, she got up and opened the window a fraction to see the bird land on the tree. It looked at her, cranking it’s neck. The bird’s pelt was beautiful; all rainbows and spots.
“Good morning, love.” She mused and felt sun fall on her face. The bird seemed to be leading her somewhere. She laced her boots over her numb feet and got up. Usually, she would just follow it, without telling anyone where she was and come back late at night. But these people deserved more than that. She scribbled a note to each of them in turn, thanking them for everything and saying, that if they thought it was nothing, they were certainly wrong.
Then, she began to run. It wasn’t dawn yet and the world was quiet. How she could live inside a silent world! She had no need for people when the land felt like this beneath her feet. It was then that she asked herself; could I be happy here? Without waiting for an answer, she rushed past. She laughed as she ran, into the puddles, past blooming trees, past a ridge of brown until she forgot who she was. All she saw was beauty and colour, nothing else mattered. Coming to the top, she noticed a dusty building, it was virtually breaking apart. Lightly, she ran her fingers over it and it seemed to whisper to her. It recorded a long history, everything intertwining at once. She loved old things; their layers, the secrets they just can’t help but childishly admit. Her mind could paint them as they might of been. Beautiful and sublime from every inch. She saw it and god, it made her heart race. There was so much to see. Turning her back, she looked across a ridge. Her heart stopped. This! This! This! She thought. I’m in love with this! And she seemed to be, the palace below her was a kingdom that not many eyes could see. Instead of whispering to her, it seemed to sing and she felt every beat like a melody. After a while, she closed her eyes.
“Let me stay.” She breathed.
True, she’d only been here for a moment but each moment the land had sang to her, glistened and glowed. The people in it sang the same tune. They seemed to be in love, as if a little piece of them had been stuck. Her parents would scold her for saying this for they knew like everyone else who had ever known her did, that she fell in love to easy. Trust was a thing Sally knew she needed to be weary about. But these people seemed okay. She never thought they’d betray her or hit her. Somehow, even now, there was a feeling of safety.
Arriving back, she slipped of her shoes. She wanted a cup of tea but she felt that might be invading their hostility. Still, she pledged to ask when they came back. Flo was obviously not sleeping. For a horrid second, Sal thought that she had left. Then, Flo walked out of the bathroom. She was running her hair through with a towel and pushing it up. Her face seemed laid back without the makeup.
“Good morning.” Sal said. Flo was a little taken aback by the tone of her voice.
“Hello. You look so much better.”
“I’m so sorry for leaving. I went for a run.”
“See anything nice?”
It was a while til Sally stopped talking. She’d always been too passionate about places and their beauty. Old places. Places were people were loved. New places where things desired to grow. Her tongue refused to stop, words brushed against her lips, she turned them, moulded them and let them drip like sugar on lemon.
“Yes. It’s beautiful isn’t it? So are the people who come here.” Sal couldn’t argue against that.
“Is there anything I need to know about them?”
Flo laughed. It looked easy for her. “Doc looks like a smart punk but really he’s just a clumsy foul. Sheriff will love anyone who gives him donuts, despite his tough look. Filmore’s the town hippy. Red only speaks sign language, a couple of us have learnt it for him. He takes excellent care of the garden. Guido and Luigi are Italian. Luigi’s bilingual. Guido… They only talk in Italian so we’ve all had a hand in learning a couple of phrases.”
“I’d love to learn.” Sally said, without thinking. She had not considered the fact that that sounded as if she meant to stay. Flo didn’t pull her up on it. After all, Sally did want to learn all of it. She wanted to learn to become fluent in both Italian and sign language so she could give to this town what it had given to her all in the space of a few days. A reason to live. She wanted to know Guido’s and Red’s stories.
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Months later, they’d given her a shop and a job. She was settling down here. Every day seemed to her a miracle. The people were beautiful and she fell in love with the town a fraction more every day. She dreamed of seeing those lights as they would have been back there. The people so wholeheartedly alive. This was her place. She’d put cactus’s and flower pot’s on the window sills around the Cozy Cone. She’d gotten her own kettle so she could make tea, that sometimes, she admitted, scourged her lip. Now she sat with a cup of peppermint tea on her lip and a kitten in her lap. It pressed it’s head against her leg and she smiled, scratching behind it’s ears. Doc had just come for advice. He knew, like all the rest did, that she was always open for advice. No. Not just advice. Any conversation they needed to have.
Feeling odd, she stretched her hands around her phone. She picked it up. The contacts gleamed at her. She could count down the line ‘A school friend. Her mother. Her father.’ She might as well do it. Sighing, she called her parents. She hadn’t expected them to pick up. There was a kind of shock when she realised the dark voice sliding through the phone was her father’s.
Dad: “Who is this?”
Sal; ‘It’s me. Sally. I’ve been living at Route 66. I’m happy here.”
Dad: “What do you mean, Route 66. We didn’t give you all that money for you to go and waste it. Jesus Christ, Sally, we wanted you to make a life for yourself. We gave you everything so you could have a good life. All those opportunities. The work we wanted you to do. Where did all that go?” Sally sighed. ‘Dad’ had always hated when she would run off and try to make a life for herself. They didn’t understand that there was a whole lot more to life than just being successful. Everything was pointless if you couldn’t live in the moment. Be there. Help others. Give kindness. And maybe the world would give a little back to you.
“Yeah. Okay.” She said into the phone.
Dad: “Is that all you’re going to give me?” As a matter of fact it was. She said a final, “Goodbye,” and than let the phone leave her hand. That was a stupid thing to do. Yet, it was good. She would feel free to live the life she did. She was not just a young rich girl from California.
Sheriff opened the door. His face peered through the crack.
“Can I come in?” He asked.
“You know you can. Say, hi, Monsieur.” The cat un-surprisingly did nothing. Sheriff sat down next to her on the bed. She was crosslegged with her tea in her lap. Naturally, he took it as a warning sign not to get to close. He’d never trusted the way Sally drunk tea.
“I’m proud of you Sal. The whole town is.” He paused, “It’s funny how someone with so much light could come from somewhere so dark.”
Sal looked up into his face. Probably, this was the most emotional that he'd ever get other than that night may moons ago when she’d comforted him from his horrors.
“This town fixed me.” She admitted, “As I know it saves everyone who dares to open it’s door. Thank you for it all.”
Sheriff straightened up. “That’s actually not what I’m here for,” He muttered, his fingers crawling to the gun, “I chucked some hot rodder criminal type into jail last night. We need you to look into it.”
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